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Can you headcanon for S boys teaching you how to dance for a vampire ball?

And can it be fluff and slight NSFW if it applies

🎻 Extended Vampire Ball Alphabet + Additional Hcs [Shu's Vers.]—

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Hi there, Anon!

Thank you so much for requesting! Sorry for the wait. I hope you don’t mind but I decided to go all out for this post since I had a lot to say. I included what you wanted but added a bunch of other stuff that contributed to the subject and turned it into a vampire ball alphabet. As much as I wanted to include all of the brothers in one post, Tumblr's limitations on posts are restricting me from doing so. So with this, the other S brother’s versions will be out soon, and I’ll link them to this one when they’re finished. Hope you enjoy Shu’s version. Feel free to request again anytime. :)

Additional note: I extended my alphabet and added additional hcs because I hate limiting myself to just the standard alphabet alone haha. Cuz like who tf does that lmao? xDD

Made with: @liannelara-dracula

***Before we get into the alphabet and hcs, let’s get into some context about this scenario***

Since there's much more to vampire balls, I figured I'd cover a whole bunch of stuff that happens in them as well.

So, to start off, even though the Sakamakis have lives to maintain in the human realm, every so often they’re summoned back to the demon world by their father with some sort of excuse.

And one of those excuses (of many!) Karl arranges for them to attend a vampire ball every so often since he has to provide some alternate form of entertainment to his vampire nobles, so why not have his sons attend since they’re the talk amongst women in the demon realm?

It’s one of the many perfect excuses to make them come and do what Karl wants, and there may be more to this depending on what he wants from his sons.

His sons are what everyones’ eyes are on, so he expects them to be flawless in every way, including how they act and such since they’re royalty.

So, who they choose to bring to balls is no exception since they not only have to appear perfect, but their dates must be as well.

The same goes for their dancing, especially since they’ll all be participating in their own dance pieces with their dates, so it has to be perfect. Since the boys are all required to have a performance of their own, they’ve just stuck to waltzes due to tradition since they’re classy and sophisticated.

(We’ll get to the types of dances danced at vampire balls in just a sec!)

Traditionally, all members of a royal household would perform their own dance pieces before the nobles got the dancefloor for themselves and started dancing all different types of dances. And you can bet Karl definitely holds this custom strong at the royal court.

It’s something he insists on due to tradition, and bear in mind that his sons may even be forced to dance with other vampire nobles if the situation calls for it regardless of who they take to the ball as their date.

After all, if one of his sons refused to dance with a nobleman’s daughter, it would be an offense and you can bet Karl would punish any one of his sons if he found out about this.

And as their dates, you have to be prepared to dance with other nobles if they seek for your hand, and no refusal is accepted without an adequate excuse.

Bear in mind that the boys most certainly act differently in the demon realm since they need to appear “perfect”—so no “off” behavior, it is strictly forbidden and enforced by Karl himself since he has an image to uphold as the king of vampires. So basically, the bad traits they display in the human world, they’re not allowed here, or at least, some are a bit faint or muted.

The luxurious vampire stereotype originates from the Byronic Hero. So since vampires are depicted to ravish in luxury and live lavish lives, balls in demon realm are highly luxurious.

They are usually a mix of baroque or victorian in style since Karl really liked the elegance from these time periods.

Since balls encompass a mix of baroque and victorian style, the dances danced at court are usually quadrille dances, the Courante, the Bourée, the Gallopade, the Sarabande, the Laender, the Minuet, the Rigaudon, Bohemian Polka, the Gigue, the Hornpipe, the Gavotte, L’Allemande, and the Viennese Waltz.

Here are some videos for reference examples:

Quadrille: (1), (2), (3). Gallopade: (1). Laendler and Bohemian Polka: (1). Viennese Waltz: (1). Minuet: (1). Sarabande: (1). Gigue: (1). Bourée: (1). Hornpipe: (1). Rigaudon: (1). Gavotte: (1). Courante: (1). L'Allemande: (1).

These dances are the ones nobles usually dance since they all group together and dance after each royal family member has finished their personal performance with their date.

But Karl honestly doesn’t mind if sons don’t use the waltz as their personal dance piece because he likes being up with the times in the human world along with modern human customs.

But as mentioned before, because the waltz has been used by the boys as a tradition for so long, and it’s a classy, sophisticated dance, he’d much prefer it since you can’t go wrong because some modern dances will be viewed as vulgar even though contemporary society doesn’t view them that way.

Traditionally, men pick out their partner's dresses since women are just puppets for status display.

Since the entire ball will consist of vampires who are constantly battling to find something to quench their thirst, human servants are definitely supplied to the palace that night to not only serve the noble guests but also be their appetizers if desired. These servants are pretty lifeless and are not allowed to speak whatsoever, so they’re just thrown around anywhere by these vampire nobles and Karl could care less if they’re killed. He literally has other servants to clean up that type of mess.

And like any other ball, food will be served. At Karl’s balls, he prefers to have human world food since it’s a luxury for vampires as Reiji has mentioned. And all the nobles look forward to it because it’s not all the time that they get to have a taste of human-world food that is delicate compared to their grotesque and “off” cuisine.

Since the boys are royalty, they’ll be introduced to nobles, and you as their date will be as well.

Nobles are required to curtsy/bow to them when greeting or meeting them for the first time, so you can best bet you’ll be getting the same treatment as their date.

It’s canon that the demon realm has an official demon language, but since this is high society, most are educated, and because Karl likes adding humanistic elements to his events, he mainly requires everyone to speak English since it's the most popular language in the human world, but the demon language is still allowed

Side note: English is only taught to vampire nobles in the demon realm since Karl requires them to know it. It’s considered super high education since English belongs to a world most vampires can never go to.

Karl usually hosts his balls at his private castle where he rules the entire vampire kingdom, the main royal court basically.

Or, he sometimes holds them at the castle he has set for his sons to use when they marry off.

(It’s canon that Karl has one main castle for himself where he rules, and one for his sons to refuge to if needed. It’s also used as another home for them as seen in one of the game routes.)

Hopefully this all makes sense thus far haha!

So with this, let’s move on to the boy’s extended alphabets + additional hcs. :)

This is going to be a long ride since there’s a lot of stuff to cover, so feel free to grab a coffee/tea or whatever. :)

General Hcs:

He honestly hates the idea of balls in general.

And in the demon realm it’s much worse since he has to set a perfect impression due to being the heir.

@liannelara-dracula and I have headcanoned that Karl doesn’t tolerate Shu’s laziness when it comes to demon realm-related things. Karl lets Shu get away with it in the human world, but not in the demon world.

There, Shu is the heir—the next king—and the last thing Karl wants is for the heir to be viewed with an unamiable trait unfit for a future king.

So yeah, his laziness—Karl won’t tolerate it here, and Shu will receive punishments if he disappoints in anyway so.

It’s mostly because he had an image to maintain as the heir, which means having to put in effort that he doesn’t want.

In the past, balls for him were always annoying since he was presented with suitresses or had to engage in small talk with noblemen, it being just a bunch of forced effort.

As the heir, his mother nudged him a lot to choose a suitress as well, so a lot more pressure and annoyance was added.

Shu just doesn’t care about things like this—it’s as simple as that, but there’s no way he’s getting out of this.

And you can bet there was a lot of scolding/nudging from Reiji and Karlheinz to get his ass in gear for the next vampire ball in order to maintain the family image, but yet, he was still unwilling.

He was honestly so reluctant that it even took Laito to give him a nudge.

At first, Shu refused, but when Laito said that dancing would be the perfect excuse to touch/hold his lover close and show others that they're taken, he had second thoughts about it all.

Plus, with Shu receiving a final threat from Karl to be launched into space also put him over the top to get moving for this event.

Vampire Ball Alphabet:

A || Advice

🎻 What kind of advice does he give his s/o before the ball?

Bear in mind that vampire balls are total snake pits. There’s a lot of wandering eyes and curious ears.

Women’s lips are the main source of gossip in the royal court and they’ll try to set you up with other suitors even if you’re taken, so Shu warns you to not pay any attention to them.

“But how exactly am I supposed to shake them off without being rude?” You’d ask.

“It’s simple.” He’d answer with the usual hazy look in his eyes. “Just tell them what we do in bed and they’ll buzz off.”

“Shu!” You’d smack his arm playfully, causing him to chuckle at your reaction. “I meant more appropriate advice.”

He’d sigh. “Just ignore them, they have nothing better to do anyways.”

Also, remember that everybody there is trying to get info out of you regarding Shu since he’s the heir.

And this can be pretty intimate in query, even going down to asking if you two are planning to get married any time soon, which lets them know if they or their daughters have a chance because even if you’re Shu’s partner, it doesn’t stop others from pursuing him regardless.

Basically, in the demon realm, only married people are off-limits. Until then, they’re still considered “single.”

Shu also warns you about the male nobles as well, such as how some will try to pursue you either for fun or just an advantage since you’re close to the heir himself.

B || Behavior

🎻 How does he act at the ball? What does he do while there?

Bear in mind that at vampire balls, he’s acting.

And putting on one hell of an act considering he’s ditching his usual lazy persona and putting on the “heir” facade.

Plus, Karl’s watching his ass like a hawk to ensure he doesn’t get lazy during the event or ditch/leave early.

In general when Shu’s speaking to nobles at the ball, he’s polite but rather cold with his words. It’s all minor small talk that he’s simply not interested in, but gives it his all because he can’t be rude or avoid conversation unless he wants to be sent to the North Pole again, or better yet, outer space (it’s canon that he’s worried about being sent there next for a punishment).

As for you, he likes to keep you close to him since he doesn’t want others roping you into trouble since this isn’t a world you’re familiar with.

C || Class ranking

🎻 Which social classes are allowed at vampire balls? In the world of royalty, only specific classes of nobles are allowed to speak to the noble family. So with this, which ranking of classes is he comfortable speaking with, or does he not care about this sort of thing at all?

In general (apart from the royal family), only dukes/duchesses, marquis/marquises, counts/countesses, earls/viscounts/viscountesses, and barons/baronesses are allowed to participate in royal balls since it takes place at court.

In addition, an invitation is required in order to enter and participate at the ball.

When it comes to nobles speaking to him, Shu could care less about which class they’re in.

I mean, it’s canon that he brought Edgar to a ball when they were kids so he could participate, so class ranking is the last thing on his mind since Edgar was a village boy. Shu could honestly care less about that shit.

If someone approaches him even if they’re not supposed to according to their class, he’ll speak to them regardless, but will try to brush them off quickly since he doesn’t want to attract attention.

Sadly, it just looks bad in the demon realm for him to speaking with someone of lower rank.

Ugh! Those classist, arrogant, vampire nobles!

D || Dance lessons

🎻 How does he teach/prep his s/o for dancing at the ball?

Now, when it comes to dancing, it’s just something that Shu knows how to do due to being the heir, not something he really enjoys like a certain fedora-wearing vampire.

But because you’re going with Shu, he actually doesn’t mind it, but he considers prepping to be a bit of a drag.

He was pretty apathetic about teaching you at first.

Not because you sucked or anything, it was just because he was being his usual lazy self.

You both had just returned home from school and were now standing in the manor’s ballroom.

With the usual hazy look on his face, he’d sigh, “Let’s just get this over with.”

As stated before, each member of a royal household has to have a dance of their own with the person they bring to the ball (the waltz I mentioned earlier); and these are performed before the nobles have the dancefloor to themselves and dance among themselves along with members of the royal family.

Since he has to perform a dance of his own with you, he’ll definitely focus more on that special waltz than the other dances since this is the one that really has to set an impression.

But he’ll also be teaching you other dances as well since you might have to dance with other nobles if you’re asked to.

Shu would begin by teaching you the basics of the waltz first, such as how to hold his hand and where to place the other, even going down to how close you two need to be in order to dance properly.

When you first started, you thought you were close enough to him, but that was until he put a hand on your lower back and pulled you closer to him, almost to the point where you felt that you were grinding into him.

A subtle hint of blush rose to your cheeks due to the proximity, and of course, because he noticed and loves to tease you, he has to say something.

“Heh, admit it, you like being on me.”

“Shut up!”

And bear in mind that this is only the beginning of his antics.

Shu’s not strict like Reiji when it comes to teaching you, but bear in mind that he’s expecting you to dance right and make it look presentable at least (to which you are of course!).

When it would come to movement, Shu would begin to teach you where to step, but in all honesty, he insists you follow his lead since he gets lazy to explain.

Just let him do all the work for once, seriously.

If you’re wearing leggings, tight pants, or short shorts, he’s definitely going to smack/clutch your ass while practicing with you.

Like, you’ll be so focused on following his lead along with the music, that you’re letting your guard down, which is where he’ll decide to throw you off.

“Shu, quit it! You made me mess up.”

“What? You’re the one that got distracted.” He’d smirk, playing oh-so innocent.

If he’s dipping you, he’ll purposely drop you just to annoy you.

“Shu!” You’d complain, pain echoing in your body due to the sudden impact of hitting the ground.

“Heh, my bad.” He’d chuckle, a smirk soon following. “Guess I forgot to catch you.”

“Ugh!”

Even though he won’t admit it, but he does like to twirl you. He just loves the idea of spinning you and roping you back into his arms. He also thinks you look pretty while doing so.

Because he’s preparing you for something he has to make a perfect impression on, you can imagine the practice goes on for quite a while.

At some point, if you get tired and your breath begins to hitch due to it, he’s definitely going to be an ass and tease you about it, his stamina far above your own.

“Heh, are you tired already? You usually last longer when we-,”

“Shut up!” You’d say, playfully hitting his arm, leading him to laugh.

Luckily though, Shu’s lead isn’t very tough to follow and you end up picking up his style and pace, thus dancing pretty well with him.

Shu does rectify a few things in order to hone your skills, but isn’t too picky—as long as it’s right and looks presentable to a noble audience, that’s all he’s expecting from you.

Not like Reiji where he expects perfection.

As for the other dances, they were fairly complicated when it came to movement and speed, and you kept stepping on his feet or in the wrong direction.

Surprisingly, he doesn’t get mad or even irked no matter how many times you’d mess up, he actually found it funny.

Sometimes, he’d even trick you and make you go in the wrong direction when it was supposed to be the opposite, which led you to scold him every time he’d do it since he found it amusing how much you trusted him.

“Shu, stop it. At this rate, I’ll never get it.”

“Heh, who told you to trust me?” He’d slightly smirk.

Will sometimes poke your sides to make you jolt and mess up.

But nonetheless, with enough practice and teasing, you ended up learning the other dances pretty well and felt pretty prepared for the ball.

Fingers crossed.🤞

E || Etiquette

🎻 How does he teach his s/o ball etiquette (language and actions)? How does he teach his s/o ball-relevant table manners?

In general, when it comes to teaching you he barely explains.

He usually explains about once or twice because he's too lazy to reiterate and practice/demo with you.

He is so vague about everything, it’s enough to drive anyone crazy. It’s the lazy-ass in him.

When covering table etiquette, he gets exponentially lazy with explaining what each utensil is for.

For example, he’ll tell you that a utensil is for something specific, and then when speaking about it again, he’ll tell you it’s for something else.

"Shu, a minute ago you said that spoon was for soup!"

"Oh, really?” He’d say, his voice tainted with its usual haze. “Guess I was thinking about the second spoon then."

He'll even make up rules just to throw you off.

Or to make matters worse, he’ll just start making up stuff that’s enough to have your eyes roll.

“They say the people that start with the third spoon have really dirty minds.”

Countering his remark, you’d say, “Then I can guess which one you start with.”

He’d only end up laughing at your remark, finding it amusing as his teasing is relentless to cease.

If you're really struggling tho, he’ll step in and help a bit more.

But he honestly just loves teasing you and seeing you mess up since he finds you getting angry to be amusing and hot.

While you’re busy looking at the set plate in front of you and trying to figure out which utensil to pick up next without his help, he’ll purposely throw you off such as poking your side or licking your ear.

“Shu, quit it! I have to figure this out.” You’d scold.

“It’s the first fork on the right.” He’d say, revealing the answer to which utensil you were supposed to pick up next.

“Ugh! You weren’t supposed to tell me. I’m the one who has to figure it out.”

When teaching you the proper ball etiquette (language/movement), it’s honestly an adventure.

You actually end up forcing him to practice because you need help since you don’t want to say the wrong thing, and like usual, is he much help? Nah.

He will laugh if you mess up, and if you ask him for clarification he’ll lie to you just to embarrass you during practice.

Of course, you'll realize that he's messing with you sooner than later, which leads you to playfully hit him, to which he laughs and gets a kick out of.

And after enough teasing, he'll then tell you what you actually have to do, such as how to take his arm when walking and such.

If you do or say something that is a little too scandalous for a ball during practice, he'll point it out.

For example, at some point you wanted to take off your silk gloves (you’ll be wearing them at the ball obviously, so why not practice with them on) during practice because it was getting a little warm after wearing them for a while.

And with this, Shu would be quick to say something since women removing their gloves was considered sexual at one point. And in the demon world, they still think that way.

“Well, aren’t you a lewd woman.” He’d tease.

“What?” You’d question, having no idea what he’s talking about.

“Your gloves.”

Feeling confused, you’d say, “All I did was take them off?”

With his gaze elsewhere, he’d add, “It’s suggestive.”

“How so?”

Quickly pinning you to a nearby surface, he’d smirk, “Heh, I could show you.”

“Shu!”

And because this is a royal ball, it’s certain that hand kissing will happen.

So when practicing this, he may lick and take a drink from your hand or fingers since it's canon that Shu likes drawing blood from these areas.

Additional E-word || Eye-contact

🎻 How often is he keeping eye contact with you? Is he constantly keep an eye on you during the ball or does he let you go off and do your own thing?

Shu prefers that you stick by his side during the ball to avoid the trouble of people pestering you and possibly roping you into trouble.

However, he’s not going to be strict with you and insist you stay glued to him the entire time, so he lets you venture whenever and wherever you please.

But make no mistake that his sapphire eyes are constantly wavering over to your figure to make sure you’re doing okay and that no trouble is arising.

You sometimes meet and lock gazes with him for a split second since he’s averting his eyes to you every few minutes or so.

He even does this when conversing with other nobles!

It’s honestly crazy how no one questions him about it, he’s just that good at hiding it and acting totally normal.

But you know Shu only does this because he knows this is all new to you, and the last thing he wants is for others to take advantage.

You wish he wouldn’t worry so much, but you can’t change a vampire’s protective nature. And because he’s acting composed while being observant of your safety, you let it slide even though he’s on edge.

F || Fashion

🎻 What kind of attire does he pick out for his s/o?

As mentioned before, men pick their partner’s dresses according to demon world tradition.

Shu honestly wanted you to pick it out since he could care less about some silly custom of the ancients, but Karl wasn’t having this since like I mentioned before, he has no tolerance for his laziness for demon world-related things.

So, considering this is a vampire ball, which showcases luxury of all sorts, the dresses are expected to be extravagant and princess-like whether someone likes it or not—so it means layers upon layers before finally putting the actual dress on.

And all that layering was quite annoying, but pain is beauty as they say.

And with this, Shu teases you about the layering, but more so in a lewd way.

“Y’know, you can’t say this is exactly fair.” He’d say, eyeing you in the gown. “All those layers will be tiresome to take off you after the ball is over.”

“Shut up!”

Since he has to pick it out, he kinda ranges between blue or yellow or even gold in color since he thinks they’ll look beautiful on you.

Dress examples that he may pick out for his s/o:

Dress 1 (shoes I found that could match)

Dress 2

Dress 3

Dress 4

Dress 5

Dress 6

Dress 7

Dress 8

(Note: You can pick out any dress/garments/accessories you want, these are just examples.)

Additional F-word || Flabbergasted

🎻 Something his s/o does at the ball that leaves him flabbergasted.

If you happened to refuse one guy who wanted to dance with you (all with a good excuse of course) and you explicitly said no because you thought he was creepy.

That would make Shu’s day and he has to say something about it.

“That wasn’t royal-like.” He’d tease chuckling under his breath, soon approaching you.

“Well, you're the only one that really has to behave.” You’d mention.

“Is that so? Are you saying princesses can be naughty?” He’d tease.

“Shut up!”

G || Gallantry

🎻 Is there anything he likes to do with his s/o at balls? Scandalous even?

Shu honestly just likes being by your side and not much else.

He’s quite lazy, and balls are not a thing that piques his interest.

Although, if Shu sees an opportunity, he’ll definitely do something scandalous with you, such as kissing you when no one’s looking—he finds this really amusing, especially if he can kiss your shoulders or neck and catch you off guard since you’re not expecting it.

And if you just so happen to sound lewd to him while doing so, he honestly can’t contain himself.

“Heh, sounds like you want everyone to hear you.” He’d smirk.

“Shut up.” You’d half whisper, playfully hitting him in hopes of no one noticing, leaving him to slightly laugh at your retort.

Additional G-word || Gift

🎻 Does he give gifts to his s/o before/at the ball/or after?

Considering this is a royal ball, and because he’s the heir, he’s definitely expected to give his date something before they go to the ball.

In the past with his dates, he’d usually just give them whatever, as long as it was luxurious in value, it just pennies to the family’s fortune.

But since you’re his girl, you’re special, so he’s take time into giving you something meaningful.

The one time he isn’t lazy.

Since you mean a lot to him, he’s going to give you two gifts, but both as a surprise of course—one before the ball and one during the ball so others can watch him spoiling you. It’s a way for him to show his devotion towards you and that he’s not planning on seeing anyone else.

Before the ball, he’d probably gift you something along the lines of jewels. Apart from it being a thought in regards to you, but it’s also something for you to wear to the ball and add the perfect accessories to your attire.

During the ball however, he wants to give you something that will definitely call everyone’s attention.

He probably got it all wrapped up in a super cute and intricate box with silk ribbon and a bow to finish it off.

When it comes to this gift, he’s probably going to give you something like a small cat or dog with a satin bow around its neck.

Now, I know this may not seem like a super royal gift, but vampires in the demon world find animals from the human world to be fascinating since the animals in their world are demonic and unapproachable.

So a cute, docile thing like a cat or a dog is enough to send them over the edge in awe and possible jealousy since they can’t have one due to the demon realm being inhabitable for human world animals.

H || Honor

🎻 Undoubtedly, since you’re this prince’s date, people are going to have a million questions about you. So when asked about you, how does he speak about you to other nobles? What does he consider you as/what does he think of you?

Shu already knows that he’s going to be bombarded with a lot of questions regarding you, so it’s no surprise to him when it happens.

He actually handles this subject pretty well and is rather prepared.

Since you’re his date and not married to him in this scenario, he just tells nobles that you’re someone he’s interested in whenever he’s prompted with this question.

The reason why he doesn’t say you’re his girlfriend or whatever is simply because it isn’t sophisticated in this world because nobles are old-fashioned and still stuck in the Baroque and Victorian periods.

And who back then called a woman their girlfriend back then? No one. It was either they were pursuing them to become their wives or they already were.

Shu has to drop the modernism here since the ball’s guests are far from understanding modern customs to which he can his brothers have somewhat adapted to.

I mean, it’s not like the Diaboys have accepted every modern idea from the human world.

So Shu has to be very careful with his language here regarding you since he doesn’t want to come off as vulgar or too modern in an out-of-date world, especially since he’s the heir and the one most girls want to pursue because of his title.

I || Image

🎻 What kind of image does he uphold at the ball?

Shu upholds the image of being the heir, and really does try his best since he doesn’t want to be punished for not acting as expected.

As was said before, he’s acting.

So no laziness or plopping down on a couch to listen to his MP3 player, or attempting to leave early—none of that!

He comes off as this dutiful heir that still has a lot to learn compared to his father, but is very well prepared for what’s to come when he succeeds the throne.

So basically, he’s viewed as perfect for his position as heir and prince at the moment—prepared, knowledgeable, but not more than his father yet.

And because Shu’s so good at faking this active-heir facade, people fall for this faulty image of him, and he’s viewed as the ultimate future king.

Karl gets lots of comments regarding Shu’s “preparedness” for the throne, to which Karl fakely appreciates.

Deep down, Karl knows his son’s just a lazy-ass that is nowhere near succeeding him and isn’t the “perfect” heir he displays himself to be.

J || Jealousy

🎻 How does he feel if you have to dance with someone else?

Shu knows this is unavoidable, but there isn’t much he can do since there’s no law prohibiting it in the demon realm.

It’s viewed as respectful, and in your case specifically, it’s an honor for anyone who gets to dance with the heir’s date/partner.

Some believe that by doing this, it may secure them a place closer to the king and/or future king by dancing with their partner. So you can best bet you’re going to get asked by many at the ball.

Shu may seem controlled and demonstrate a cold exterior to everyone there, but deep down he’s a little annoyed by you having to dance with someone else.

And Shu’s definitely going to be observant of who dances with you, how many times they do, and how they’re touching you while doing so.

Omg his pettiness.

And he’ll be doing this while being all stone cold towards it and acting like it doesn’t bother him when it does.

And if he sees that you’re getting too focused or wrapped up in it, he’ll try to distract you while you’re dancing by sending you seductive stares or mouthing dirty words in your direction to throw you off guard so you’ll mess up and the dance will stop.

Or better yet, if his jealousy really gets the best of him, he might even step in and make a surprise entrance by joining the dance himself, leaving you quite shocked since you’re not expecting it, and leaving one guy out of the group singled out since Shu took his spot in dancing with you lol xDD.

K || Karlheinz’s approval

🎻 What would Karl think of you as his son’s date? Does he approve?

Shu doesn’t really like the idea of presenting you to his father, but he knows that as the heir, there’s no way he’s going to get out o this.

Plus, he’s Karl’s favorite son, so the bar is set quite high on who Shu chooses to date/bring to the ball.

Karl’s honestly pretty interested in who his sons bring to the ball since he likes to mingle and get to know them.

Karl most certainly took a liking to you since he knows Shu won’t bring just anyone with him to the ball.

He’s not Laito.

For Shu to bring you, and not some random noblewoman as he had done in the past countless times, Karl acknowledges that you’re quite special to him.

And if you really set an impression on his father and he takes a liking to you, he may even ask for a dance with you.

Shu definitely doesn’t like this since he knows his father’s prone to literally “pounce” on just any girl. But Shu can’t exactly say no to his father dancing with you since it might lead to him getting punished.

So Shu decides to let this go since it’s pretty harmless, but make no mistake that he’s watching Karl like a hawk to make sure he doesn’t try anything foolish or plan anything later on.

Hell, Karl even flirted with Yui once, but that’s another story.

So you can best bet Karl might do the same thing to you if his interest and liking to you took him far enough, but Shu would be quick to intervene and prevent him from doing so.

Karl may even show romantic interest in you not because he means it, but it may be to piss Shu off and to see how much he really cares about you since Karl’s not close with his son, thus, not really allowing him to know much about his heir’s love life (to which he takes high interest in!).

This mischievous mf!

L || Libido

🎻 Is he into pre/post-ball sex?

Mmm, if there’s one thing Shu looks forward to about this entire thing (probably the only thing if he’s in the mood), it’s post-ball sex.

Especially because the ball is over and he can be himself again lol.

He really loves the idea, especially since he’s just been eyeing you all night in that dress and restraining his desire for you, being eager to put it into play.

He’s not really into pre-ball sex because there’s just too much going on with preparations and such before the ball, so he won’t bother with it.

But post-ball sex, he’s very much into it.

For instance, you’ll be alone in your room beginning to settle down, your delicate hands taking off your jewels, reaching up into your hair to let it down from its torture of being kept up and tied down with bobby pins for hours.

It’d be mere minutes of silence until he’d show up to your room, his figure coming up behind yours to help you undo your corset, both of you sharing a few words about the ball until you’d find him at your neck, placing a few soft kisses as he’d trail them down to your shoulders, his hands seductively pulling down the sleeves of your dress in the process. It wouldn’t be long until he’d pick you up and carry you over to the nearby bed, eagerly hovering above your form to feed his yearn of having you under him and all to himself.

And you can best bet Mr. Heir prefers that you sleep naked with him after sex.

Doesn’t give a shit if servants or his brothers walk in on you two in the actual act or in the morning and see you two in a nude state under the sheets.

Shu honestly hopes that they do so he can rub it in and show them that you’re his.

In the game routes, we see how any individual Sakamaki brother gets worried about another brother stealing Yui away from them. An example of this is Reiji worrying that Shu will steal Yui away from him.

And this paranoia also extends to their own servants because in one of Shu’s game routes, one of the butlers was acting a little too friendly (and a little creepy) with Yui. It was heavily indicated that Shu was jealous upon seeing this, so with this, you can imagine that he likes flexing the fact that you're his—especially in such a vulnerable state such as sex or after sex.

But, bear in mind that even though Shu loves the risk of getting caught in the act or its post-state by his brothers or servants, one thing he could never live down is if Karl or his mom walked in on him in either situation.

With Karl he’d be less embarrassed if he walked in on him, but because Karl’s pretty suggestive, he’d be the one getting a kick out of it.

As for his mom though, Shu would be most embarrassed if she walked in on him in either state…. And she in fact has!

Beatrix didn’t catch him in the literal act, but rather after sex when he was lying down with a chick he once brought to the ball the night before.

She was so honestly disappointed since she didn’t really like the girl.

And as pissed off as she was, she approached the both of them, told Shu that she wanted to speak to him about “family matters” and then walked out.

He literally didn’t care that she walked in though. He played neutral and was slightly annoyed and just went on like it never happened.

Damn, I’ve derailed us too much in this category lmao.

But I guess these extra details were needed. Yes?

M || Mistakes

🎻 How does he cover up his s/o’s mistakes if they accidentally mess up?

Shu knows you’re bound to make mistakes during the ball since all of this is so new to you.

It’s not like you’ve been raised with it like he has, so he’s expecting that you’ll mess up.

And just like magic, he’s there to back you up.

For example, if you get confused about what to say with a noble when a conversation goes in a direction you didn’t expect, he’ll either interrupt or come up with an excuse to pull you away.

Or if he can’t do that, he’ll send you some kind of signal as a form of guidance on what to say next or change the subject.

Overall, he has your back the entire time and knows you’ll be fine, but still, he’ll step in in some way if he deems it necessary or senses that you’re having trouble.

Additional M-word || Manners

🎻 What’s he like at the dining table with you?

Shu actually doesn’t mind the dinner table part of the evening.

It’s mostly because he gets to sit down. xDD

And here you’d think he’d be tranquil to sit next to because he’s sitting down and relaxing, but he’s a teasing fuck.

He’s going to do everything in his power to tease you, especially since you’re stuck at the table in front of many others for as long as the dinner session lasts.

But bear in mind that he has to be careful and do it in ways where no one suspects that the heir is being scandalous or when no one is looking.

He’ll run his foot up and down your leg while you’re sitting there in tranquility, all to have you look at him as he gives you a small smirk in return for acknowledging his antics that are unknown to the others around you.

he gets a kick out of teasing you with his touch and does it to get a glimpse of your legs, or at least feel them.

And to make matters worse, he’ll also do this if you’re speaking with someone and getting really deep in conversation with them just to throw you off or get you to jolt and mess up in your conversation.

He’ll get an even bigger kick out of it if the person asks if you’re alright because of you acting slightly off, but you’d be quick to deny it and say that you’re fine when you know it’s just the asshole next to you.

Shu’s a secretive fuck when he wants to be playful in these settings, so this is one of many ways that he demonstrates this.

Might poke your side every few minutes or so to make you jolt, which you glare at him for because he’s trying to make you lose your composure in front of others. This is all to get you to yelp, and if you do even in the slightest, he can’t repress from sending a devious smirk in your direction.

Might whisper some smack or laugh about certain nobles with you amidst the rumbling of the dining room.

Will whisper seductive or lewd things into your ears if he wants to be bold, it’s mostly just to get you to blush.

Might even run his fingers down your spine in a quick fashion to give you a rush and/or throw you off.

And his teasing fuckery won’t stop there. He’ll even mess with your hair while you’re looking in a different direction just to get your attention, and when you’d turn back, he’d be quick to make it look like he wasn’t doing anything.

This ass- like I-

As far as partaking goes, if you get stuck regarding which piece of cutlery to pick up first (I mean, it’s possible that anyone can forget if they didn’t grow up in this environment), he’ll just nudge your arm with his elbow and whisper the answer or to just copy him since he literally can’t teach you at that moment.

N || Names

🎻 How is he addressed/announced? How is his s/o announced upon arrival?

As is seen in balls, guests’ names are announced upon their arrival.

It’s canon that the Sakamaki brothers are referred to as “Masters” of the household, but because they’re also royalty, they’ll be addressed differently in a hierarchical setting, especially when arriving at a ball and being announced.

And to be honest, this part is most amusing to Shu about balls since he finds announcing people’s names to be kinda funny but also cringy since it’s an old tradition.

“Heh, should I tell them to announce you by your nickname?”

“Shu, quit it!” You’d say, playfully smacking his arm, leaving him to chuckle.

Based on his royal status, he’d just be addressed as “His royal highness, Prince Shu.”

For you, Shu decided to have you addressed as “Her royal highness, Princess Y/N” despite you not having the actual title of princess.

By having you addressed this way, it gives you a higher position in court and a much grander presence and entrance. He mostly wanted it this way because you’re special to him and doesn’t want people to think you have no title.

Just be prepared to answer questions about your “royal family” and connections since nobles are curious, especially since you’re the heir’s date. But no need to worry, Shu prepared you for this part.

But at the end of the day, this title bs doesn’t it doesn’t really matter because you’re still his princess anyways, title or no title. :)

O || Objection

🎻 Since you’re not married to him, suitresses are bound to be presented to him at the ball regardless since people believe he’s still “available,” despite you being in the picture. So, how does he handle this situation with you around?

Shu acts pretty distant and kind of colder than he usually does in this situation.

And let’s just say that some girls are a little irritated by this factor, especially if they’ve danced with him in the past and were looking for some sort of chance of pursuing him.

It honestly gets so bad that girls brush up on him just to make you pissed off.

And their scheming is just so obvious since they keep making faces and demonstrating gestures that literally prove that they’re trying to steal him from you, which leaves you pretty irritated, but Shu warned you about this before hand so it’s something you expected.

However, it’s still pretty annoying….

And these girls literally do anything to get his attention since they’re interested in pursuing the heir, such as coaxing him to dance with them, to which he has to do because punishment awaits if he offends a noble.

The girls will even try to pull him aside for themselves or just engage in conversation a little longer than needed. And you can bet those conversations lead or have the potential to be semi-sensitive in nature.

Shu would take note of your irritated aura, finding it amusing that you were jealous since it proves to him that he’s your weakness.

But as stated before, he warned you about this and is aware that you know, and that you have to tolerate it based on royal etiquette.

But as a form of reassurance, he sends you a few looks here and there and watches you go about the ball on your own as he’s busy doing whatever with the noblewomen.

The stares he gives you are kinda like his form of morse code if you will. He’s forced to act respectively to other nobles even if they have intentions he doesn’t like, so it’s not like he can say much here.

P || Performance

🎻 How’s he like when he dances with you at the ball?

Ah, the moment you’ve both been preparing for, it being a bit nerve-racking in all honesty.

Shu knows it’s impossible for you to remember everything he taught you, so he just tells you to go with what you remember and to follow his lead.

Due to him having so much experience with this, he makes the dance look perfect if you forgot, it’s honestly surprising.

Don’t ask me how he does it lol.

He may minorly converse with you during the dance tho, and possibly whisper lewd things in your ears to get you to blush.

Although, Shu may throw a move in the dance you two didn’t practice, it’s mostly because he lives for catching you off guard. As discussed, some modern dances in the demon world may be viewed as vulgar, but because Shu’s the heir, he can get away with adding a bit of spice in there to show that he’s cultured regarding the human world, to which Karl doesn’t mind, as long as the move isn’t too scandalous.

So with this, Shu may do something like lifting you or dipping you, to which you give him the most surprised face since it wasn’t practiced while he just gives you a small smirk in return.

And you can best bet that with seeing this, every other woman in there wants the same treatment from him since he’s a favorite among the pursual of noble women. xDD

In the times when balls were used, if two danced more than two dances together, people automatically assumed the pair was engaged—so you can best bet that this is how people think at court in the demon world since they’re old fashioned.

So with this, Shu likes to dance more than two dances with you to make everyone think you’re engaged to him so it eases the pestering of nobles—in other words, it gets people to screw off you and him a little in regards to romantic pursuals.

But like hell Shu would tell you what dancing more than twice with each other means.

He just prefers to be secretly scandalous with you being oblivious to it, but may tell you about this later on if he wants to tease you.

Q || Quarrel

🎻 If you two had a fight before the ball or a minor spat during the ball, how will he deal with the heavy aftermath when surrounded by nobles and expected to uphold the family image?

Shu’s not really the type to fight, but it’s very possible that you could quarrel with the narcoleptic vampire before or during the ball.

It’d be a pretty unexpected thing since Shu’s pretty carefree and kind of difficult to fight with since he’s easygoing.

But whatever the case, if you two did have a fight/spat before or during the ball about whatever, you best bet he’s going to do everything in his power to get your attention that night.

Even though he’s already dropping his laziness for this event, he’ll go out of his way even more to talk to you.

And if you’re giving him the silent treatment, it only intrigues him to pursue you more because he hates the fact that you’re ignoring him.

And that’s the thing, Shu hates it when you do that, especially because he knows that the fight could’ve gone better than it did.

Bear in mind that he’ll do lots of different things to get your attention tho, and he’s petty af about it all.

He’ll range from doing all sorts of things because he wants to fix it, such as staring at you from far away, leaving you to avert your gaze elsewhere.

If he says something to you and you don’t give a response, he’ll make you jealous by him dancing with another girl and putting his hand on the back of her shoulder, which is pretty suggestive since the vampires at this ball are centuries old and have a different mindset regarding the concept of touch.

Tries to get you alone so he can talk to you, or if you’re standing on the sidelines not talking to anyone, he’ll get sly and try to approach to talk to you, to which you ignore or end up walking away from him.

Shu may even get mischievous with his approach if he sees that you keep avoiding him in every possible way, such as if he’s coming your way, you instantly revert to going a different way to keep clear of him, or look for some kind of excuse to get away from him.

For any Anna Karenina fans out there (ME! xDD), he’ll act like the way Vronsky did with Anna in that one scene where he’s going around the room trying to ask her to dance while she’s trying to avoid him in every possible way.

(For those who have absolutely no idea what I’m talking about, here’s a clip of what I’m referring to in case you’re curious. ;)) If it doesn’t work, start it @1:09)

R || Rendezvous

🎻 Is he the type to ditch/leave balls early with his s/o?

He wants to, but he knows he’s going to be severely punished for it since Karl’s expecting a lot from him.

I mean, how does it look if the heir leaves early without an adequate excuse? It just doesn’t look right.

It’s almost like a host leaving their party and leaving the guests to carry it on. Long story short, it just doesn’t put someone in a good light really, him especially as the heir.

Karl cares a little less if his other sons leave early, it just depends on who it is, but it can’t be too early either.

But when it comes to Shu, Karl expects him to stay the entire time and not present excuses since deep down, Karl knows that Shu’s just trying to get out of it and avoid his heir-responsibilities.

In the past, Shu ditched once and he learned the hard way. Like, he paid dearly for it and Karl hadn’t even sent him to the North Pole yet.

Believe me, if Shu could, he would leave early—or better yet, not show up at all since he finds all of this to be a drag, but because he doesn’t want to be punished, he does what he’s told to the bitter end of the event.

S || Speech

🎻 Does he have to give a speech at the ball? If yes, what is he likely to include in it?

As the heir, he’s definitely required to give a speech every so often.

Shu’s not super talkative in general, so he likes to keep things short and sweet in his speeches.

The subjects of these speeches are pretty general in nature, ranging from what his current plans are as the heir, how he’s planning to pursue his Royal oaths, or new ideas Karl wants to implement into the kingdom, all ending with the same ending of thanking everyone for attending and that everyone’s enjoying themselves.

So, business speeches in other words. Nothing personal since he’s not allowed to express an opinion as the heir.

T || Touch

🎻 What types of manners does he exhibit with his s/o in front of others?

Since he’s the heir, he has to be very careful with how he behaves around you, and how he interacts with you since others are constantly laying their eyes on him.

He’s mostly pretty reserved and mostly just links his arm with yours since intertwined hands are not viewed as sophisticated at balls.

He’ll sometimes hold your hand in that rather delicate fashion if he has to walk or lead you somewhere, kinda like this.

At the very most, he’ll either kiss your hand or your forehead, never anything more than that in front of others since it’s considered vulgar at balls.

And bear in mind that a kiss to the forehead will only be given once during the entire evening, otherwise, it starts to look scandalous. It says a lot just doing it once.

If you’re standing next to him or slightly in front, he sometimes lightly touches your upper arms or shoulders, just to reassure you that he’s there and that you’re his girl and no one else's.

U || Unity

🎻 What does he wear to show his unity with you? Like a matching ring or outfit, for example?

In order for Shu to indicate and show that you’re taken, you both decide to wear matching couple rings to the event.

Or if Shu really wants to be bold, he’ll take things a step further in showing that you’re his.

Since it’s canon that he likes to bite and drink blood from fingers, he may bite one of your fingers and leave the mark of his fangs on it for others to see.

Or he even may bite the back of your hand, this way if a noble has to kiss your hand before dancing with you, they’ll know that you’re marked as Shu’s and will think twice about having other ideas regarding you.

Oh, this devious little shit.

V || Valiant

🎻 Every prince is known to be noble for something. What is he noble for?

Believe me, for Shu to be born as the next heir, there’s a real reason for this.

@liannelara-dracula and I think that in the demon realm, heirs are chosen by some type of fate or magical force beyond any immortal’s power.

And this force specifically chooses specific individuals to be rulers for their kingdoms, be they either Vampires, Viboras, Wolves, Adlers, or First Bloods.

And if this “force” sees that anyone else takes the place of the heir it originally chose, this “force” considers it an imbalance and because of this change against “fate,” it may cause chaos/ruin to the certain kingdom, thus, leading it to fall.

In one of the game routes, Reiji himself specifically said that being king of the vampires is harder than anyone can imagine and imposes a large amount of responsibility. Reiji also stated that Shu possesses qualities that are fit for him to be on the throne, whereas he does not.

So with this, it really seems to show that specific people are chosen to be heirs for a reason.

We seriously think it’s the force lmao. xDD

So, because Shu’s actually meant to be king (apart from his lazy facade) and possesses qualities fit for the throne, he’s actually noble for quite a few things even though his laziness prevents him from being someone greater.

He’s probably most noble for being decisive. When he’s hit with making a decision, he chooses a side and stays with it until the bitter end. Once his mind is made up about something, there’s no changing him.

He’s also the type to remain calm even if everything around him is falling apart, making him really centered since he keeps his composure and acts upon the situation instead of expressing emotion towards it. So, he’s definitely noble for this trait as well.

After all, as he grew up, he was constantly reminded by his mother to not let his emotions get the best of him and that a king must never express his opinion nor how he really feels since he must be seen as this rock the entire kingdom sits upon, that it can not falter even the slightest no matter what the kingdom goes through.

W || Words of admiration

🎻 At the end of the ball, it's proper for guests to leave cards for the host about how the balls were and such. So, how does he feel about reading cards addressed to him specifically since he's royalty?

Because Shu’s on the edge of seat to get out of there, you two view the cards the next morning.

Not that he’s very interested, but because you are, he bothers to listen and look through them with you.

Some of the letters are written in their demon world language, so he’s gonna have to translate those for you lol.

After any ball Karl has hosted, Shu would honestly get so many cards it's ridiculous. It’s just endless piles of letters that he’d never read and would tell the servants to burn because he could care less.

Or in worst-case scenarios, Karl would force him to read them in hopes of choosing a future wife if a girl’s letter piqued his interest. This is because Karl’s a big-time advocate of finding a woman’s words to be enticing, and he figures that Shu may be like him in that sense.

Oh the weird kinks of the vampire king

But anyways, Shu makes an exception to read them with you for your sake since you deem it as right to read them in the first place. It’s just plain courtesy.

Oh geez, I sound like Rei rn lmao xDD.

“Aw, look at this one.” You said, beginning to read it aloud, “To a lovely couple and future king and queen. I wish you all the best. Thank you for gracing us with a beautiful evening.”

“Heh, sounds like every other letter.” Shu would smugly comment, his back against his chair as he appeared to be fed up.

“Shu!”

“What? Everyone says exactly the same thing in these letters . . . .” Drawling further with the usual haze in his voice, he’d add, “Whatever…”

Sighing deeply, you’d nudge, “Could you at least try reading one? It’ll take me hours to get through all of these myself.”

“It’s too much of a bother. I don’t have the energy.”

You rolled your eyes. “Fine.”

Leaning over in your chair, you extended an arm to grab a few more letters from the pile, only to feel a large hand clutch your ass.

Whipping your head in his direction, you scolded, “Shu!”

“What?” He’d say, acting oh-so-innocent.

“You don’t have the energy to read the letters, but yet you have the energy to do that.”

“You’re right there, plus, I didn’t say I didn’t have the energy to do nothing.”

“Whatever.” You’d sass, leaving him to chuckle as you sat down again, his lips quickly finding themselves on your neck as he adorned it with a small kiss.

“Heh, you’re feisty today. If you want me to read them with you, I will on one condition.”

“And that is?”

“Strip.” He’d suggest.

“Shu!”

Honestly, can anyone ever get him to do anything without a scandalous price?

X || Xanadu

🎻 Is this event heaven or hell for him?

To be honest, its more of a hell for him.

Especially because he’s constantly being bombarded by suitresses and nobles who are dying to speak with the heir or have a potential chance with him.

It’s all just bothersome to him since deep down he knows most are out for his title.

But because you’re there with him, the ball is much better, more bearable even.

It actually isn’t too bad tbh.

But Shu honestly can’t wait until he gets home so he can take his suit off and your dress and jump into bed after a long night.

And you can best bet you’ll be spending a lot of time cuddling with him since he claims you’re his favorite body pillow and his remedy to truly relax.

Y || Yearning

🎻 What’s something he yearns for during this event?

To leave lmao. xDD

But apart from this, he really just wants to spend time alone with you.

If he can step away for a little, Shu likes to take you to another part of the castle ground, more specifically the garden/courtyard so he can go for a walk with you just to talk and tease.

I said this in another post, but I’ll say it again, if Shu really wants to get scandalous and has a bit of time to spare, he likes ditching the ball and going into a secluded, closed-off room with him for a bit of intimacy with you before going back out to face all the guests again.

And if by any chance you forget to fix your hair and come out looking like a mess that’s been under the touch of Mr. Heir, Shu’s all for it and will send you seductive stares from afar even if he’s busy conversing with other noblemen.

Z || Zealous

🎻 Is there anything he’s passionate about regarding the ball?

Nothing really.

Shu’s just attending this ball as a total chore set upon him by his father. And it’s been this way for as long as he can remember.

He may enjoy a classical piece or two played by the band at the ball, but other than that, there’s literally nothing he’s passionate about since this is a forced gathering with a bunch of people who are out for his title, and he knows this all too well by now.

Although, with you around, the night becomes much more bearable and feels like it goes by faster because as they say, time goes by when you’re having fun.

So even though he’s not free to do whatever he wants with you because he’s in the company of nobles and playing the “perfect” heir, he’s still happy you’re around because it distracts him from the cons of balls.

Aww :’).

Additional Hcs (uncategorized stuff):

🎻 Y’know how many girls Shu’s brought to balls in the past? Too many to count.

🎻 It was always been the same thing for him, and these “dates” were always ranged from girls his mother forced him to bring, suitresses his father presented him, or some high class snob from Ryoutei or his father’s dinner parties in the human world from time to time.

🎻 And each time it was a different experience depending on the girl he brought.

🎻 Some would constantly smother, nag and/or annoy him, to which he found cumbersome. But of course, he had to act polite since Karl would punish him if he was rude, but Shu wasn’t afraid to be colder than he usual towards a girl he brought and demonstrate some indifference that was passable.

🎻 If his mother was beside him by chance and noticed this rudely “cold” behavior towards a girl or just if Shu was acting this way because he was annoyed to be at an event his father hosted, she’d minorly take hold of his arm, give him a minor pinch that was unnoticeable to others and whisper in his ear to get his act together and to stop acting “unamiable.” Shu would give his mother a slight look of annoyance and would resume his perfect heir act all over again. If it isn’t Karl that will give him a punishment for acting in such a way, it’ll be her.

🎻 But some girls Shu brought were actually nice, but he simply couldn’t bring himself to like them as a potential partner. This is mostly because Shu just hates the idea of match making and deems it as an “unnatural” way to meet a romantic partner. It’s just a turn-off to him.

🎻 Overall, his ball-dates have just been a bunch of girls he simply had little to no interest in, or if he did have some interest, it didn’t last long or was just a fling.

🎻 Random, but since this is a space where no specific category reigns, Shu would like to see you get tipsy and kinda let loose on the dancefloor.

🎻 This would seriously make his night since it would be breaking all formality, to which he’s all for since he’s tired of the rigidity his royal lineage imposes on him.

🎻 In fact, he tries to get you drunk/tipsy during the ball bc he finds it funny.

🎻 And if you happen to fall into either state (tipsy or drunk), he literally lives for the chance of you saying something you shouldn't say out loud.

🎻 Asshole.

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First off I was literally obsessed with your demo. It was actually the very first thing I ever read on dashington and I was basically inlove with all of the ROs.

That being said. As for the changes I've read through all the comments, asks and replies. And it's... different. Not necessarily bad just new I guess? Because it changes alot of the wonder I had experienced playing the demo. So it just feels weird I suppose?

No saying I won't read it, come on I love your writing. I practically word vomited my praises on tumblr as soon as I finished reading it the first time. And I get you said the old demo would still stay on but there's like.. no point if it's not gonna continue..? If that makes sense it's just then kind of incomplete?

I also for the most illogical reasons feel the same way as others when it comes to ROs being in relationships outside of MC. Like if they were already in a pre-existing relationship sure I get it! There are many stories like that if you don't choose to romance a character in the beginning they get back with an ex they broke up with or they are with someone else where you choose a route in like the very beginning. But again hear me out I'm completely stupid for this!!! But whenever I play a game where an RO then gets like with one of MCs friends on a different route it just fucks with my head for that LI. Like I then just see them with that other person. And have a fuck you attitude to that character aswell EVEN on a different route lmao it makes no sense! It's not logical! And it's dumb! But that's why I play fictional stories okay! So I don't hve to deal with shit like that. Don't judge me 😅🤣

Kay long tangent aside.. I guess what I'm saying is the new changes kinda scare me. But I'm keeping an open mind. I'd honestly read whatever you post because of how talented you are and yeah.. some of the ROs are probably gonna get a fuck you out of me for being in a different relationship and I'll probably not do that route because of how stupid my head is. So jesus I hope it isn't my fav LI 😭 but I'll still support you and I do wish you the best in the writing. I do love the story and I do like the addition of I guess more characters. Just the RO thing fucks with my head alil. I'm sorry if that's weird to some people.

I'm not making any sense just gonna go now... 🙈

Dear heck, I think this is the longest ask I've ever received. I didn't even know asks could be this long...

The changes will take a while for everyone to get used to, I think. But at least we'll all be in the same boat?

I do get the unsettling nature of seeing LIs romancing other characters while you're on alternate routes. The first one that springs to mind for me is Josephine in Dragon Age Inquisition. Seeing her fawn over Blackwall was weird. But, it made me realise how attached I was to her romance and hers alone, so it worked out in the long run.

Myrk Mire still isn't back on my working schedule yet, I'll let you all know when it is, and I'll try to keep you updated with WIP screenshots or planning doodles. Perhaps then I'll also give a bit more information on the dynamics of the LIs and the variables driving who makes eyes and who.

#myrkmire #asks

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inevitably-johnlocked · 7 months

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Hi Steph! i messaged you a while back because someone recommended my fic, and it was very touching. well after hiatus, I finished the entirety of season 1 of Reichenbach Falls! one third is done, which comes up to 550K words! I am so excited to have actually pulled it off, oh my god it was like birth, and i was hesitatnt to post because, well, it was a long time since my last update. but of course I'm not done with it LOL, it's gonna haunt me more as I publish s2 which is the next 110 chapters out of 303(https://archiveofourown.org/works/26233390/chapters/128797882#workskin). Season 1 can now be read as a standalone, since it is all finished and came full circle. I just had to share because I am so proud of myself for once??

oh and i wanted to share my friend Bee's illustration of Jim Moriarty, who is the bad guy, of course, a mixture of himself and Bill Cipher. He's gorgeously MURDEROUS!

he is the GOAT. as is my lovely friend who drew him over a year ago when we brainstormed season 2. He's just the perfect little meow meow.

I guess that's it C: I am just excited, and proud, and ready to write the sequel hehe *hides away from exam season*

I started this fic when I was 20, now I'm 23 and it's like having a toddler, IT WONT LET ME SLEEP AT NIGHT!

That's it I guess haha, sorry for the chaos (it's thematic with Jim, tho), but I'm a little ball of emotions and I actually managed to log into this tumblr lmao

I hope you have a lovely day, as everyone else too :) you guys are the best here! thank you for being so kind :)

MWAH

Reichenbach Falls by VeeTheRee(M, 551,435+ w., 105/303 Ch. || WiP || Gravity Falls / Multifandom AU || Alternate First Meeting, Gay Sherlock, Mutual Pining, Unilock, Summer Romance/Love, Fluff, Insecure Sherlock, Villain Mary, First Kiss, Slow Burn, Doctor Who, Supernatural, Canadian John, French Canadian Lestrade, Insecure Sherlock, Mystery, Domestic Fluff, Developing Relationship Summer Love, Light Angst, BAMF! John, Case Fic) – Two Canadians, two Brits studying in Canada, and an upkeeper walk into a Mystery Shack…. and live there. Summer holidays are here, and the step-siblings, Irene Adler and Sherlock Holmes, find themselves in a boring town called Reichenbach Falls, Oregon, USA. It isn’t as boring as it seems, however, once Sherlock stumbles upon a mystery journal, and the author is unknown. The journal contains ciphers, a strange colour wheel, and information about magical creatures that are said to be looming in the Northwestern forests. With mysteries to solve in hand, he and Irene set out to get to the roots of the town, and the abrupt disappearance of the author of the journal. But they’re not alone - John Watson, quite the handsome nephew of the Mystery Shack owner Greg Lestrade, is on their side to help out, plus mess with Sherlock’s feelings, in a good way. Shenanigans, romance, fun, danger, and deductions ensue. Oh, and there’s also occasional SuperWhoLock and two dorky Winchester brothers to spark up the action later on. Part 1 of the Reichenbach Falls series

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HEY LOVELY!!! <3 <3 <3

SO happy to hear about the progress of the fic! I know you have a small fandom here who are eager to read the next season, and we're happy to hear that it's on its way!!!

And NEVER apologize for being chaotic!! I and everyone here loves it!!

Everyone go give this fic some love, and, if you haven't checked it out yet, give it a read! <3

#steph replies #johnlock fic recs #signal boost #gravity falls au #fic reichenbach falls

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prettyflyshyguy · 2 months

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Alright for the freaks who are oldschool Supernatural tumblr people, or just normal supernatural people, and for the rest who are just like me and don't know shit: I'm dumping all my garbo takes under the cut.

Mostly gonna be me either being really enamored or really upset.

No in-between. These things are either great or the worst. My tastes are specific and I'm picky with vampire fiction and rarely do I find media that ticks the boxes yet, I still watch almost anything I can find obsessively.

Who knows maybe this'll become a new casual TV series if I like the dynamics. Anyway, long post warning under the cut.

They got Bela Lugosi's Dead playing in a room full of nu-metal heads LMFAO

truly the alt communities have always been done so dirty in media

least they did their research on song choices

jesus christ

flashbacks to my steampunk phase circa 2011

I LOVE that this woman looks so normie and looks so delighted when she meets this equally normie looking dude in an alternative bar (i want to go there the people seem chill and the vibes are impeccable)

anyway who is this guy he seems familiar

love that they made the most normal dude in the bar the real monster good on them :)

christ they just took one look at twilight and went yeah lets TV parody this shit just for a laugh didnt they

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SHE'S 17

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO(DID SHE HAVE A FAKE ID I WASNT PAYING ATTENTION)

OK ok ok you get big bonus points just for this bit. Just for this bit.

Thank you supernatural go off

"I'm just scared I'm dreaming and I'll wake up in math class" girl me too

im sorry this woman looks so much older than 17

POINTS DEDUCTED

BAD TEETH

great eyes, horrendous teeth. very dissapointed. I'm only here for the fucked up canines because we already HAVE them and whats better than perverting the existing human form into something subtly wrong

This show has such an aggressive title screen compared to buffy and the x files LMAO

ok i can get behind the chevvy, the chevvy is nice

HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

POINTS ADDED - holy shit points added for this cheesy poster alone really capturing the schtick of the late 2000s

ok i get it, i get it guys, they're fun, they're funny, they've got a great sibling energy, the periodic 'screaming' happening in the background of this scene is sending me

this has been too fun so far i feel like somethings gonna ruin it

LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Ok this is so self aware yet the degree they're committing is just.

its marvelous. this is peak. I'm into it.

there are so many ads please i want to see dean have a bad day

Holy shit is that Skinner from the x files i love that guy

the fashion. iconic. if anything I'll be coming back to this for inspiration for myself.

the way Dean just slammed that guy on the car yelling "OPEN YOUR MOUTH"

yeah instant favourite.

you've rounded a corner, a dude has just beat the shit out of your brother and now he's about to force feed him blood and your response is: stand there staring like the shocked pikachu

oh so you wait till after he's done to scream "no!" in a half hearted tone

is there something I'm missing here, i know Sam gets a bit cooked at some point (does he get possessed??? idk) so I'm gonna assume thats whats going on

this is the best 'turning' scene I've ever had the pleasure of witnessing in all my years of trawling through vampire media

holy shit the team that wrote this episode fucking get it

the audio design, the acting, is so on point

Supernatural Crew you cooked so hard and I'm deeply thanking you for it

this was fucking made for me what the fuck what the fruck what the fuck what the fuc

Nooooo dont have an emotional breakdown in the bathroom looking at your fangs, but you're so sexy aha

The constant heartbeats anytime Deans in a room with someone got me grinning like :]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]

ok points deducted, again, for bad teeth but my god

the "I gotta go-" scene GOOD SHIT GOOD SHIT

someone get this kicked puppy a sippy cup

a red fanta chug jug

where is his sippy cup

look i know its probably not fun, at all, to drink red mystery meat juice on set but its gotta be cheaper than CGI teeth. Please.

Please let more relunctant vampires reluctantly chug jug (with you)

Oh Never Mind they wrote it in that he can't drink or he's stuck >:(

im still having a good time, just a bit less of a good time

YEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAA

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

using a large serrated knife to cut appart a horde of vampires seems like a great idea and getting covered in blood you're not supposed to drink is inevitable

but watch out

Sam: thats a pretty mentally stable thing to do

I REALLY WANT TO

CHUG JUG WITH YOU

ok this scene of him makes up for the lack of authentic blood chug jug I'll take what I can get

Ok final thoughts: that was a solid 7 and a half out of 10

thank you Supernatural you hit almost all the high notes when most stuff falls flat for me. Still, you came soooooooooo close. And got so far. And Yet in the end it doesnt even matter.

Still, this one's going straight to the pool room, and I can comfortably say I'm throwing it on the shelf of 'comfort media' that I can go back to on a bad day.

This had some fucking BANGER scenes that surpassed my expectations and deeply pleasantly surprised me. Good shit! As someone who is hard to please, this was a riot. Still; a shame they arbritrarily rules-d him taking a chunk out of someone. Would have been sick. Could have had the great slow build up of the initial turning scene - him and the love interest, holding back - then him cracking it after holding out and snapping.

It is not too much to ask, I swear. It's a good trope.

Do I dare take the risk of trawling through fanfiction to find another horribly specific weirdo like me, because Supernatural seems huge and a scary place to fanfic trawl.

#shy talks #not art #supernatural #tagging for archivals sake #but im not about to go crazy here #i hope #fuck it fanfic trawl time pray for me

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A lil' thingy

My second post in here.... After literal years xD (technically this would be my third post in here, but since that post is still on draft and never published, then lets just take this one as my second post lol) First things first- [★] I am a writter! '''(Fanfic writter) [★] [★] Will probably do some colorings and show u guys here '''(I don't really know how to do colorings but uh-- Perfection takes practice, right?) [★] [★] Chibi Drawings '''(Once again, I don't know how to draw, but I know how to draw some chibi(? more like square xD) drawings; I can probably show you guys some of my drawings that I made on paper lol) [★] [★] Theories! (I love making theories, even if it's about the most random and irrelevant thing lmao + I especially love making FNaF theories!) [★] [★] Analytics! (I'm really not very good at analyzing things, but I would really love to make a whole analytic post about a character or an story or something like that! Feel free to correct me or to add your own personal thoughts, though!) [★] [★] Respect! (Please be respectful. If you disagree with me on something, then feel free to say your own thoughts about it and maybe even tell me why. However, if you just decide to insult me because of my own personal thought, my own personal view, then do not expect me to even read your message. + Same thing with criticism! If you want to criticize me for something, be it my drawings, my opinion, my analysis, my coloring, etc; So go for it. I will always be open to criticism unless I say I am not. However, If you're going to be rude about it, then don't be surprised if I just ignore your "criticism". Being respectful and open-minded is the key.) [★]

[★] Ships! (I am a multishipper, and I really love to think + write about scenarios with my favorite ships, duos, platonic relationships, etc; Please be respectful if I end up writting for a ship that you may not like. + I do not accept requests asking me to write for romantic pairings. Please do not send me requests about romantic pairings. + You can send me requests about platonic pairings, though! I really love the platonic in relationships!) Alright, now that it's all settled.. Second things now! [❤] Fandoms I am in! (That I may or may not write fic for; Still deciding lol) Jibaku Shounen Hanako Kun (Both Manga and Anime) Mahou Shoujo Site (Anime Only) The Promised NeverLand (Anime Only) Boku no Hero Academia (Anime + The First 4 Seasons Only) Team Fortress 2 (Game + I'm Still Catching Up With The Official Comics) Undertale (Game) OMORI (Game) + (I've Only Played The Sunny Route.. lol) Star vs The Forces Of Evil (Series) Five Nights At Freddy's (Games + Some books) [❤] [❤] Type Of Fics That I Will Write For! Fluff Angsty Wholesome Platonic Romantic Love Triangles Poly Relationships Canon Divergence Alternative Universe SFW [❤] [X] Types Of Fics That I WON'T Write For! NSFW Immortal/Illegal Ships XReader '''(I'm really sorry but- I really dislike the idea of shipping myself with fictional characters- I can try one day, but not right now.) Villainizing A Canonly Good Character '''(Like- You know how people used to villainize Uraraka all the time when she's actually really sweet and kind in canon? So yeah, I really hate when people do that. Just a personal opinion of mine about this kind of thing lol) [X] Aaaand- I think that's basically it? lol Will probably add more or maybe remove others as time went by and I may change my opinion and etc lol For now, It is what it is [lil' edit; hELP I THOUGHT I HAD LOST THIS POST FOREVER BECAUSE IM STILL NEW TO TUMBLR AND SINCE I COULDN'T FIND MY DRAFT THAT IS WHERE I HAD SAVED THIS POST I THOUGHT I HAD LOST THIS POST FOREVER LMAO I SPENT WAY TOO MUCH TIME WRITTING THIS OHGOD] Have a Good Day <3 Have a Good Morning <3 Have a Good Afternoon <3 Have a Good Night! <3

(also! i have other accounts, too!)

#secondpost #my first time on tumblr pls be nice #hello #have a good day #im trying #what am i doing #idk what else to tag #uhhhh #i love tsunene #𐡘 𐡘♡

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Hi! thanks for listening to my Vavok ramblings! This ship is so interesting, like it shouldnt work but it does somehow and its great! i hope im not annoying you with it too much lmao. Also sorry this is so long, I have a lot of thoughts about this 😅

tbh i haven’t really read the zombot arc yet, im just going off of what ive learned from tumblr lol. But Zombot Vavok intrigues me because theres so much you can do with it

First of all, Zavok knows that vector’s not gonna wanna take over the world. which conflicts with the rest of the deadly six. Does Zavok try to convince vector to join them? Does he secretly switch sides for vector? try and find a middle ground?

this all depends on whether or not he reaches Vector in time. If he reaches out to vector before he becomes a zombot, then hes gonna have to deal with the fact that Vector lost one of his sons to the virus. And if he’s too late? Well, he would probably find out via a grieving espio, and thats gonna make him feel worse

And then theres the deadly six. How would they react to all of this? would they think Zazok’s gone weak? would they turn on him? cast him out to fend for himself since he insists on sticking by Vector’s side?

Or, alternatively, do they side with Zavok? I mean, Vector had to have had a positive impact on Zavok, right? Maybe the group noticed that Zavok is happier, not getting mad at them when they make mistakes, just…doing better. Surely, if this “Vector” guy is making him act like this, then he can’t be that bad. He sounds pretty nice for a non-zeti if they’re being honest.

There’s also what can happen after the metal virus. Is Zavok treated like a hero for helping get rid of the virus, or is everyone still salty from that time he tried to destroy the world that one time? Does he decide to leave after all the craziness is over, or decide to stay behind with Vector? How do both of their teams react to all of this??

When bad guys rolls around, i think Zavok would decide to join Starline, with FULL intent to betray him and make him suffer. Not only for revenge, but to make sure his family doesn’t have to go through something this traumatic again.

There’s just so much you can do with this and I love it-

(Man this post got away from me. again, sorry its so long, i kinda have vavok brainrot 🫠)

Of course! I love hearing out other people's thoughts and ideas!

See, it's really funny, @stillafanofsonic made Vavok as a joke to irritate me (I don't like the Zetis, LOL), but... It's actually a really intriguing ship? The more you take it seriously the more interesting bits and pieces you can find to play around with narratively. So part of me's kinda mad at it for being so interesting (when it was just supposed to be a stupid crack ship LOL), but another part of me likes seeing what other people do with it. 😂

Honestly, do what you want. I haven't read a lot of Archie, but I like plucking concepts and characters from Archie and making them my own. 😂 I do recommend the Zombot Arc if you get around to it, but no pressure if you don't want to or can't. 🥰

You've got a lot of fun ideas here! Especially the idea that Zavok would team up with Starline again during Bad Guys specifically to stab him in the back! Let's say, snagging one of the many possibilities you mentioned up above, Zavok was regarded as a hero for helping stop the virus. Do the other heroes know Zavok's just doing this for revenge? Or do they think he's betrayed them, and he's risking his newly gained respect in favor of revenge? 👀

Ramble away, I don't mind! We all know how I get about BugBear around here, so I like hearing about other ships too!

Even stinky Vavok. /jk

#vector the crocodile #zavok the zeti #vavok

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fangirlinglikeabus · 2 years

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been having wifi problems lately and limited access to tumblr so here’s me vomiting all my notes on the shadow of weng-chiang into one post. for posterity.

...they could have parked right next to another car if they wanted to swap vehicles, or they could have run off into the darkness. Why didn’t they?’ ‘And where did they go?’ The Doctor strolled around in a small circle, peering alternately at the ground and the sky. ‘Hyperspace?’ He stopped and shot her a look. ‘That wasn’t very funny.’

don't listen to him, romana. i thought it was funny

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The Doctor and Romana sat in a small coffee shop, with K9 out of the way under the table.

question: how did they sneak k-9 in in the first place

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The Doctor shook his head. ‘I can’t hear a thing. Probably a mimes’ convention.’

not to be mean but this does feel too try hard in trying to get the fourth dr's voice

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A woman in a plain red skirt and top followed him.

i'm sorry, but i refuse to believe romana's worn anything plain in her life

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so many good things in the arrest scene...'we're just sort of passing through shanghai, in a very temporal sense'...romana's amusement at giving her full name...'it was as if she were going along purely as a favour' when romana is led off

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was that a chinese eating dogs joke from the doctor? I Don’t Like That

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She shook her head; there was plenty of time for life later. After her debt was repaid.

bet you anything this lady's gonna die at some point

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'Why don’t we try making short hops in the TARDIS – spatial only. Then perhaps we can triangulate a source for this.’ The Doctor thought about that, then shook his head. ‘No, I have a better idea; we’ll make a few short spatial hops in the TARDIS and try to triangulate the source of this.’ Romana gave him a bland look. ‘I refuse to let you bait me like that,’ she muttered under her breath.

sjdfbdsjfbsjfbsjfsbhjs

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She had always been rather highly strung, but he didn’t mind since she was an excellent cook.

this does NOT endear me to li

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They would travel again, he was sure, once this business was finished. Then he would never be apart from her again. Every time they parted, he was secretly terrified that he would lose her, and so he went on the more dangerous trips himself. He didn’t fear death half as much as he feared loss.

oh these guys are definitely going to die part 2

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kwok and hsien-ko are like evil nick and nora charles/william powell and myrna loy according to li. obsessed with that comparison?

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The car turned and the grey rock of a quarry stretched out below them. The Doctor perked up. ‘A quarry! How very interesting!’ He paused. ‘It looks a lot like Skaro, actually. Or the land outside the Capitol...’

quarry jokes my beloved

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one of the other characters has very rapidly developed a crush on romana...cheers bro i'll drink to that

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Besides, I don’t think Hsien-Ko’s that keen on killing, which makes a nice change. I wish I could say the same about her man.’ ‘Typical male?’ she asked archly. ‘I don’t know. Anyway, after Xanxia, then Vivien Fay...It must be something to do with political correctness.’ ‘Political correctness?’ ‘Hmm. It’s a general feeling that discrimination is all right so long as it’s done by groups who were discriminated against earlier.’ ‘I see; tit for tat. Very childish.’

i. do not like this conversation. and it feels so contrived to link female villains back to political correctness in this conversation anyway??

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could've done without the implication that romana got groped

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According to K9’s internal chronometer, and cross-referencing with past data, the Doctor and Romana would be locked up by now, and would doubtless soon call for his assistance.

lmao he knows them so well

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K9 knew that the Doctor wouldn’t appreciate his killing these men, so he restrained himself to a stun level as usual, and started firing.

loving the implication that if it weren't for the doctor k-9 would be a killing machine

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She had met the original at home on Gallifrey, where it had become quite a celebrity

vital k9 lore just dropped

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K9 had been slowly climbing the steps to the South Gate of Heaven for several hours.

lmao i'd forgotten about him in all the action. you go little buddy!!

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i do like li and woo seeing each other and li realising that he knows this guy. li's death scene in general i was unexpectedly invested in?

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actually quite liked the end of that one! i don't think david a mccintee is the strongest of dw writers (sometimes he states character emotions rather bluntly in a way that doesn't work for me) but it had some compelling action, i (mostly) liked the dr/romana/k9 interactions, it's always nice when romana i crops up in the eu because she does so comparatively rarely, and if nothing else it felt like more of an EFFORT was made with the chinese characters than in the story it's a sequel of (even if, again, we all could have done without that eating dogs joke)

#laura reads dw books #laura reads the vmas #inserting a read more bcos it got a LOT longer than i expected

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screechthemighty · 2 years

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Okay, so, remember that “the Knight System is autistic” fic I posted the first chunk of like two weeks ago? Because technically it’s still not done. But I realized after the finale that I could tweak it before posting it to AO3 and make it canon-compliant and most of it would actually make more sense. Except I also wrote part five (which is the longest part before/after ep. five and included some bits that are decidedly non-canon now. But I’m too attached to them to not share them. So...yeah, here’s the plan:

1) The second chunk AKA part five will be posted below.

2) I’ll finish up part six and then edit the earlier parts to be canon compliant.

3) Then I’ll post the whole, canon-compliant version to tumblr/AO3 and you’ll be able to read it all in one go instead of chunked across two posts and incomplete and non-canon, lmao.

Yeah, I know, it’s a mess, but I’m Trying(TM). (Also I have another Moon Knight fic coming that will be a LOT more cohesive I promise).

Anyways! Alternate version part five of the “the Knight System is autistic” fic! CWs for internalized abelism/some abelist language, mentions of Marc’s suicidal thoughts/behavior, brief mention of child abuse, and a public meltdown.

iv. sensory overload

It hadn’t been the best day.

It felt like neither of them had slept all week. Marc was there, but only barely. Layla tried not to let that get to her, but...

“Can we not...can we not do this today?” Marc reached over to turn off the radio. “I’m sorry, I just can’t...”

He did sound guilty. In another time, she might not have thought twice about it. But that day, the silence made her feel like she was being buried alive. Marc leaned against the window with his eyes shut, hand opening and closing above his knee.

Damn it, Marc, say something. He didn’t, so eventually she had to. “So, you don’t happen to have any contacts in town that I don’t know about, do you?” she asked. “Because we could probably get this done faster if we split the work. I’m sure we could think of something to tell them.”

No response.

She let it sit. Let it sit until she couldn’t take it. “Marc...”

“I don’t. I don’t. Have anyone.”

“You sure? No war buddies? Maybe Duchamp or...” She glanced his way. “The woman you told me about, from the Marines? What was her name?”

Another long pause. His breathing sounded harsh. She’d thought it was just her imagination, her frustration making her hear everything more loudly, but even the rise and fall of his chest was choppy. “Marc?”

“I’m okay.” That was a lie. One of the few he had the nerve to say to her face. “Army Rangers.”

“What?”

“Walker was Army Rangers. Not Marines.”

Then he went quiet again. End of conversation, I guess.

Layla kept her gaze fixed on the road after that. A few times she thought she felt Marc glance at her. She couldn’t bring herself to look his way and confirm it. Just in case she was wrong.

Eventually, they reached the grocery store. Marc’s shoulders were tenser than ever as they went inside. She should’ve taken that as a hint, but Layla could really only think two things: that Steven wasn’t going to like how sore his neck were going to be, and that she couldn’t handle the silence anymore.

“So,” she said. “Are we ever gonna talk about this?”

Marc flinched, but didn’t look at her. “Can you please be a little more specific?” he said, his voice as tense as his shoulders. “I’m not a mind reader.”

“Any of it? You’ve barely been speaking to me about anything. We talk about work and that’s it.” Layla tried to angle herself so he had to look at her, but somehow he found a way to keep his eyes fixed on the shelves of bread. “Something’s eating at you. I want to know.”

“It’s nothing. I’m fine.”

“Then why are you clenching your jaw again? Why have I been seeing Steven so much lately?”

“I thought you like Steven.”

Layla straightened up. Was she imagining it, or did he sound...annoyed? Accusatory? “What’s what supposed to mean?” she said.

Marc closed his eyes tightly, as if his own words had caused him pain. “Nothing. I’m gonna go get more aspirin.”

“Marc - !”

She hesitated. That was her next mistake. She was so thrown off by him just walking away again that her body took a second to catch up. By the time she started looking for him, he was already lost in the crowds and the aisles.

How many times is he going to do this? How many times is he going to walk away from me?

Screw it. Layla didn't bother trying to look for him. She kept following her own list, head down. She tried to ignore the little doodle at the bottom Steven had drawn. Some stick figure monstrosity that roughly looked like Khonshu with a speech bubble that said, Weh, meh, I’m Khonshu and I’m bloody ungrateful, shut up worm.

Layla sometimes wondered what the deity was up to lately. If even Steven was starting to get outwardly annoyed...

Something shattered a few aisles over. Layla flinched and looked around. Everyone else seemed startled, but even after a few heartbeats, no one was panicking. Some kid must have dropped a jar. Nothing to worry about. She turned back to her shopping, until...

“Sir? Sir...”

Someone ran past her aisle and for the door.

Not just someone. Marc.

His head felt like it was being squeezed in a vice.

He couldn’t even tell which part was wrong. The lights were too bright, too loud. Every car that had driven past outside sounded like its engine was blasting directly into his ears. He could feel every seam on his clothes. Everything compounded to a swirl of nightmarish sensation.

And then there was Khonshu.

“HOW MUCH LONGER ARE YOU GOING TO STALL, MARC?”

Marc tried to keep his eyes fixed on the jars in front of him. He was trying to remember what kind of jam Steven liked. It felt like every memory was fading into nothing. Even the ones he’d been fully present for. How long had he been in this aisle? Where was Layla?

Layla. You snapped at her. You upset her. Fuck, why can’t you do anything right?

“WE HAVE WORK TO DO, MARC. YOU CAN’T WASTE TIME...”

“I’m handling it,” Marc said, or thought he said. Was the floor tilting under him? Sit down. You need to sit down. Sit down where, this is a grocery store, are you gonna sit in the aisles like a child... “I’m handling it...”

“Doesn’t seem to me like you’re handling anything.”

Marc thought he saw something move in the distorted reflection in the jam jars. He closed his eyes. No, that was almost worse. Light still trickled in through the gaps. His chest felt tight.

Breathe, Marc.

“YOU AGREED. MY FIST OF JUSTICE. WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN DOING WITH THAT LATELY?”

He didn’t know. Nothing had felt right in weeks. He couldn’t focus on being the fist of justice, he couldn’t focus on trying to make things better with Layla, everything felt wrong and it was so much worse now in this fucking grocery store...

Somewhere, a kid shrieked. Marc flinched at the sound, his body jerking away from the shelves—

Elbow hitting a jar—

The sound of shattering was worse than the shriek had been. Next thing Marc knew, he was hunched over in the aisle, hands over his ears. It didn’t stop that shattering from echoing in his skull. People were talking. Looking at him. A memory bobbed to the surface. Much younger, in a store, lost, lights too bright, too loud, all these faces, some concerned, some disturbed. What’s wrong with him? Hey, where’s your mother? Is he crying? Sir...

Sir, are you hurt?

The hand brushed his shoulder.

That, of all things, was the last straw.

Marc ran for the door.

He somehow made it outside without hitting anything or anyone, but outside wasn’t better. The sun was blinding. People were trying to get in. Cars...

I can’t do this. Someone was calling his name. More than one someone? Khonshu (leave me alone), Layla (no, no, she can’t see me like this, she can’t), Steven...

Steven?

Please, please, I can’t do this, help me, please, I can’t do this, I can’t...

A car horn blared.

Steven scrambled to a stop, hands outstretched. The driver looked at him with aggravation, shouting something muffled by the engine. “Sorry! Sorry, sorry, sorry...”

Wait, where was he?

Steven focused on getting out of the way of the car before looking around. Parking lot. Grocery store. Wasn’t sure he’d ever been here before. His skin had this horrible, residual feeling of wrongness crawling over it, and there were tears on his face.

Well, that’s not good. He wiped them away and took a deep breath. I should get somewhere quiet. I can think if it’s quiet. Where was the car? Where was Layla?

“Marc!”

Uh oh.

Steven turned around. He didn’t have to explain it. From the look on her face, she’d figured it out. “Sorry,” Steven said again. “I think I...we need a minute, d’you mind if I...”

He noticed something grasped in one hand as he gestured towards the parking lot. A bottle of aspirin. Marc had been holding it so tightly their fingers ached. “...didn’t pay for this, did he?” Steven said sheepishly.

Layla laughed. It quickly became clear that she didn’t find it funny. It sounded like she might cry. For a second, Steven’s own conviction that he might start crying himself any second now seemed irrelevant. “Hey, hey, it’s all right...”

He tried to reach out, but all Layla did is take the aspirin. “It’s okay, I’ve got it,” she said. She passed him the car keys. “It’s down that way. I’ll see you in a bit.”

She had that look again. He still didn’t quite know what it meant, but she always seemed to wear it when she came to him expecting Marc and found him instead. Not disappointment, but...something else? He didn’t have time to analyze it. She was walking away and he really needed to get to a quieter environment.

Steven speed-walked to the car, into the driver’s side, and only started the car enough to turn on the air conditioning. The white noise of the fan running and the cool air on his face gave him near-instant relief. Steven carefully leaned against the steering wheel and closed his eyes. “Bad time of day to go shopping, mate,” he mumbled.

Was that what happened? Out of everything he and Marc could have in common was...that on the list? He’d have to ask Layla what happened later. He didn’t feel good about it—he tried not to be nosy about what happened between the two of them, especially since everyone was still trying to work out what the boundaries were. But it was perfectly acceptable to ask about things that affected him, too. Waking up in the parking lot and nearly getting hit by a car because Marc had run out of the grocery store for some reason was definitely on that list.

Besides...he did worry. After everything he’d seen...what he knew and understood about Marc now...sometimes it felt like the only reason Marc was keeping himself upright was for Steven’s sake, not his own.

That couldn’t be enough all the time. It just couldn’t.

Layla came back eventually. Steven helped her load the car and quietly moved into the passenger’s seat as they started driving away. Despite his resolution to ask her, he spent at least five minutes trying to think of the right thing to say.

And of course, the first thing to come out of his mouth was, “Shopping trip didn’t seem to go well.”

Fortunately, as with the comment about the aspirin, it got another laugh out of her. Unfortunately, as with the aspirin laugh, it sounded like she didn’t really find it funny at all. “No. No, shopping trip went horribly.” They stopped at a stop sign. There was no one else around at that point, but Layla stayed stopped much longer than she had to. “I think it’s partially my fault.”

“What? No, how could it be?”

“I just...tried to talk to him about something sensitive and...it wasn’t really the time, but there hasn’t...” She shook her head. “I’m sorry.”

“For what?”

“I don’t want to drag you into this. None of it is your fault. There’s nothing you can do about it. It’s not fair.”

He understood where she was coming from, and a part of him was grateful she was thinking of his comfort. But this time... “I don’t know about that. He listens to me sometimes.” Steven tried for a smile. “Besides, I think...maybe this is starting to affect me, too. So maybe I should start getting involved?”

Layla considered it. When she finally moved the car forward, it was to pull over.

Then she started talking. It was a lot to take in, and it seemed like she’d be holding onto it for a while. But Steven go the gist of it.

He hasn’t been talking to me. It’s like he’s shut off. I can see him burning himself out but he won’t do anything about it. I thought we were supposed to be making things work, but...

They were. That was the whole idea. “So, I’m guessing all of this...boiled over, and then you tried to talk to him in the store,” Steven guessed. “Is that when he ran off?”

“No, it was after. He walked away from the conversation to get the aspirin, I didn’t go after him, I heard something break...next thing I know, I see him running out of the store. The clerk I talked to asked if he was okay, said he looked pretty freaked, but I don’t know...”

Steven thought about the tension in their jaw and shoulders and the fact that he’d come to in a parking lot with tears on his face. He thought about how bright the sun was and that it was, as he’d said, a horrible time of day to go shopping. He only ever went when it was late enough that only the stragglers and closers were left, or on the blessed days when his day off and the sensory friendly hours overlapped. And all the rest of that...

Hold on.

“Burning himself out working on this...Moon Knight thing, yeah?”

Layla nodded.

...damn it.

“Hold on.” Steven opened the car door. “Need to have a word with someone.”

He wasn’t sure it would work, but damn it if he wasn’t going to try. They’d pulled over next to a field, which worked just fine for his purposes. “Oi!” Steven yelled. He had to squint against the sunlight as he looked around. “Bird brain! What have you been doing to Marc?”

The shadow cast over him probably should have terrified him, but he was too angry to be afraid. “I HAVE REMINDED HIM OF HIS OBLIGATIONS-“

“Obligations, right. So you’re running him ragged? Yelling at him when he’s already working himself to the bone?” Steven turned around. Khonshu was doing his looming thing again. The sight did briefly make his throat close up, but his frustration overrode that quickly. “You’re killing him, you know that, right?”

“I...”

“No, shut up for five seconds! He’s so tense I need painkillers, he had a meltdown in a public place, you know he’s afraid of people thinking he’s bonkers...he needs to rest, and he doesn’t need you shaming him for it! Don’t, I’m not done!” It was impossible to read a facial expression when Khonshu didn’t have one, but the way he jerked his head back said indignant. “Did you learn anything after Harrow? Your last avatar tried to unleash Ammit on the planet, so you think, oh, I know, I’ll just badger the next one to an early grave! Marc’s the best possible avatar you could ask for, I know you know that, and if you had half a brain in that stupid skull of yours, you’d be doing whatever it took to keep him alive So, here’s what’s going to happen. Layla and I are going to make sure he rests and takes care of himself, yeah, and you can either get with the program, or I will personally make this whole arrangement very difficult. Understand?”

Khonshu bristled. “WE HAD A DEAL.”

“No, you and Marc had a deal. I didn’t agree to do anything.” Oh, he was on shaky ground and he knew it, but what else could he do? What else was going to work? “We do this on my terms or you find a new avatar. And I don’t just say that because of what I plan on doing. I don’t think he’ll want to take your offer a second time. He barely took it the first time, least you forget.”

He felt ill bringing that up, but...weirdly, it seemed to work. At the very least, Khonshu didn’t say anything as Steven stalked past him to the car. Layla looked...more than a little concerned when he got back in. “Were you just yelling at Khonshu?” she asked.

“...yeah...” His hands still weren’t shaking. Huh. “Guess once you’ve been claimed by the Duat, nothing really scares you anymore.”

“Huh?”

“Nothing. Long story.” Steven adjusted the vents as they drove. He felt like he’d re-ignited that headache by shouting so much. Hopefully it was worth it in the long run.

There was, he realized, one more person he should try to talk to. At least this one would be more willing to listen. “Look, don’t tell Marc I told you this, but...”

Oh, he definitely won’t like this.

“Y’know, couple people at my old job thought I was...on the spectrum, you know what I mean? Not in like a, oh, look at Steven, being weird again way, they actually meant it. And I don’t think they were wrong, I was just already on the wait list for a sleep test...” He couldn’t hold back a laugh. “...guess I don’t need that anymore. Anyway.” He glanced her way. She had both eyes on the road, but the expression she used when she was trying to pick apart a puzzle. “I don’t pretend to know how all this works. But what’s happening with him sounds familiar, and...if it is, if I’m right, he’s not doing this on purpose. He’s just got more to jump through. More than having me rattling around. I know, that doesn’t make things easier for you, but for what it’s worth...”

Layla nodded. She still looked so tired, so...sad. There had to be something he could do to fix this. Not just for Marc’s sake. But how? It was a lengthy conversation to have...they could talk, but this would take some extra effort.

Maybe...

“Hey, do we have any extra notebooks?”

He shouldn’t have been disappointed when he woke up. He was trying to move past all that. He was really trying. The fact that he woke up feeling decently rested, not even a little sore, only made it worse.

He still takes better care of us than you do.

Marc rolled over and pulled the blankets further up. He might’ve stayed there if he hadn’t heard Layla moving around.

She’s not leaving for good, is she?

The thought was enough to make him get out of bed. He wasn’t sure what he’d do if he was, what he could say that could make things right (especially with how he’d been acting lately), but he knew he’d never forgive himself if he didn’t try. He had a speech all ready.

He didn’t need it.

“Hey, you might want to sit this one out,” Layla sad without looking up. “It’s not dangerous, this guy is just kind of an asshole...” Layla did a double-take when she saw him. “Marc?”

“...yeah.” He was taken aback to hear...relief in her voice. “How long...?”

“Three days.” Days. Of course it had been days. “Do you remember what happened?”

“Think I...freaked out in the grocery store. I ran...don’t remember anything else after that. Was Steven okay?” Steven, left to pick up the pieces again. You can’t keep doing this to him.

“He’s all right. Worried about you. We both are.”

Marc wasn’t sure how to respond to that. His chest was a hurricane of emotions—relief that she wasn’t angry, confusion as to why she wasn’t angry, shame that he’d made her worry, that she was worrying about him despite all the bullshit he’d pulled lately...what are you still doing here? Steven’s stuck with me, but what are you still doing here?

“Listen, I...” Layla hesitated. “I have someplace I have to go, but I can handle it alone. You should stay here and rest. And...” She got something off the table, one of those black and white notebooks he remembered from school. “...Steven wanted you to read this.”

Marc frowned slightly and too the notebook. Weird. Steven had never written anything for him before. “Are you sure you’ll be okay?” he asked.

“Yeah, I’m sure. Like I said, nothing dangerous, they’re just assholes. I didn’t want them bullying Steven.” She hesitated before squeezing his shoulder. “Promise me you’ll rest?”

Marc laughed bitterly, despite himself. “Don’t know how much of a say I get,” he said. “But...I’ll try.”

“Okay.” Layla hesitated again. He wished he knew what that look on her face meant. “I’ll see you later.”

“See you.”

He hated how dubious it sounded, even to his own ears. Hopefully Layla didn’t hear it.

Despite his promise, Marc put off reading the notebook at first. He just held it, fingers tracing over the cover as if he could guess what was inside just by touch. The longer he sat there, the more strongly he felt eyes on him.

“What?” Marc asked dully.

Khonshu at last had the decency to loom on the other side of the room. “YOU SAID YOU DIDN’T KNOW.”

“I did?”

“WHEN I ASKED.”

...no, they weren’t doing this. Marc stood up, gripping the notebook in both hands. He barely made it to the door before Khonshu stopped looming in the corner and starting standing in Marc’s way. “DO YOU KNOW?”

Marc gritted his teeth, sending a twinge of pan up his jaw. “Do you actually want to know?” he said. “Do you give a shit about the answer or are you just hoping I’ll make you feel better?”

Khonshu didn’t reply.

“Can I go? Please?”

When he looked up again, Khonshu was gone. Marc sighed and headed straight for the coffee maker. If was going to read the damn thing, he might as well be awake when he did.

Once the cup was brewed, Marc settled down, took a deep breath, and forced himself to open the notebook. Steven’s handwriting was getting to be familiar at this point, almost calming. Or it would’ve been, had his stomach not been trying to claw its way out of his body.

Hello! Feels a bit weird to be trying this, but I’ve got a lot to say and I know a lengthy conversation would be a lot of effort. Long and short of it is that I’m worried about you. Layla says you’ve been struggling lately and I can feel it, too. (Unclench your jaw. I know you’re doing it right now.)

“Funny,” Marc muttered, though he did make a conscious effort to relax his jaw as he kept reading.

Thing is, I know you’ve had a lot on your plate. Not just lately. I’m guessing forever, and I’m guessing it wasn’t just me. Now I don’t want to make any assumptions, so just tell me if any of this sounds familiar:

You don’t notice you’re hungry until it’s too late (especially when you’re working)

Sometimes it feels like the same amount of work feels like it takes twice as much effort as it does everyone else

You have at least three bad sounds, five bad kinds of fabric, bright lights make you want to claw your eyes out, and being out in public too long feels worse than a fist fight

You can hear the phone charger at night and no one knows what you’re talking about when you mention it to them

You can’t always tell what people are thinking from their faces, but everyone acts like you should. Really people act like you should know a lot of things when you don’t. It’s like they want you to be a bloody mind reader.

I’d ask if you talk too much sometimes, but Layla said you stop talking entirely. Still counts towards my point

You kept having “tantrums” even as an adult. (They’re not really tantrums I’m telling you that now. But everyone calls them that, because people are stupid. Anyway!)

There was more to the list, but Marc stopped reading the list after the last one. He had to set the notebook aside and breathe past the memory...panic, lights too bright, hands harshly jerking him along out of the store...

You’re too old to be doing this, Marc!

It was like all he ever did was give her reasons to hate him.

But how did Steven know about all that? He wasn’t supposed to experience those moments. That was the point. Marc picked up the notebook again, bypassing the rest of the list to get back to the main point.

Now you’re probably wondering, “Steven, you handsome devil, how do you know so much?” Because I’ve been living that. My whole life. And I know there’s lots we don’t have in common, but we could have all of this in common. And if we do, I can help.

I know that this isn’t something you like to talk about. But none of this is your fault and none if it is anything you should be ashamed of. You don’t have to push yourself to be like everyone else. I understand. Layla does, too. We’re both worried about you, and we don’t want you to keep hurting yourself like this.

I wrote down some of the things that help me. Just promise me you’ll think about it? If not for your sake, then mine, and Layla’s. He’d scratched something out there. Marc could guess from context: it’s hurting us, too. Steven had probably taken that out, not wanting to make Marc feel worse than he already did, but...

He wouldn’t have been wrong to say it. Marc knew his behavior was hurting them both. He just hadn’t seen a way out. Story of his life, now that he thought about it. Backed into a corner. No way out. No way to ask for help, because there was no one to ask, or because asking would mean admitting that he was...broken. Unlovable.

But here was someone holding out a hand. Steven. Saving him again.

Marc flipped the pages. Steven had filled them with various bits of advice. Less exhausting times to go shopping. Earplug brands. All things Marc might not have thought to do—or allowed himself to do, because he didn’t want to attract attention to himself, because he couldn’t stand people looking at him like he was insane...

But when Steven said it, it felt like permission.

That’s it, really. We can chat if you have more questions. We love you. Laters!

And then, right under that:

He’s right.

Don’t kill yourself over all this.

-Jake

“...shit,” Marc muttered. That was unexpected.

For a long moment, he sat in silence, fingers tracing over the words. Eventually he got up and moved to the bathroom, and the mirror inside. It was a bit embarrassing, he’d never admit to it, but...if he rested his forehead against the mirror and closed his eyes, he could pretend. Just for a second.

“I’d hug you again if I could,” he muttered. “And you too, Jake, you asshole.”

It was the calmest he’d felt in months. Maybe not calm. Just…understood.

It felt good.

#moon knight #my writing #my fanfic #I'll link to part one in a reblog because I don't know who has and hasn't read it

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bisluthq · 3 years

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Before joining Tumblr I had no idea about TTB (or Kaylor tbh lol. I knew about harmless shippers but never about people actually truthering it) and once I found out about it, I was so shocked like y’all got no idea lmao. It’s legit a CULT

Right. Look like my journey with this - for new readers - is in 2017 I heard Dress and was like “damn that’s gay” and I did a young Google and Elite Daily was like “this is about supermodel Karlie Kloss” and I was like “that’s hot” lol. Then I was like “let’s find out more about this stuff” and I found TTB and I was like “oh no this lady is full blown crazy but also so funny, I’m obsessed” and every few months I would check in with her for a few posts, have a laugh, and go back about my business. I used to follow several conspiracies, no other celeb ones tho - like my other favorite one was the Earth is in a glass bubble one because it’s so creative.

Then in the pandemic I had time right and I was over Caroline Calloway so I started following more closely. And all this time I was like “Dress is for supermodel Karlie Kloss, Elite Daily told me” so eventually seeing like Cam’s blog and less crazy Gaylors I was like “let’s make a blog and like give people an alternative because ffs TTB sucks ass but obviously these two hot ladies fucked and a dope song was made” and that’s how Swiftiesleuth was born.

And then I kept learning more stuff about it and eventually I was like “yk no Dress isn’t for Klossy sorry” and like the blog wound up taking directions I never expected and I’m so grateful for that and for all of you in what has overall been a fairly shitty time in my life.

One of the cooler things about doing this, other than making me laugh a lot and making y’all laugh sometimes, is that I have helped some people out of a cult and that feels pretty good.

#nat talks the konspiracy

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redinkofshame · 3 years

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1. How many works do you have on AO3?

17! My favorite number.

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

178,176. Dang!

3. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

@theDuckPond Solavellan slow burn? smlungst, 62,553 words

New Life papae!Solas with lots of smut, 6606 words

Marigolds in the Hanged Man Varrigold! :D Varric/Marigold, 43,527 words

(3.5 is Dreaming With You (Solas x Reader), but I’m only a partial writer on that one so I’m not counting it.)

Labor and Loss papae!Solas with lots of sad, 4097 words

Kirkwall Karaoke f!Fenhawke drunken shenanigans, 7023 words

Wow I wasn’t expecting my karaoke fic to be on this list! And you guys really like your papae!Solas :D

4. Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

I do, yes, because when I leave comments it gives me anxiety that only seeing them reply fixes and I want to do that for other people. Unfortunately back when I updated every week (lol) I got in the habit of replying to comments when I posted something new... So now when I go a long time without posting a new chapter I leave the comments on read for a long time. Sorry guys!!

5. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

Honestly? This Nonsense. (Link is to a long series of messages to @keturagh at 3am, no joke.)

But, since then, I’ve figured out an alternative ending that’s much happier. I can’t help it. I want happy endings.

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

As per #5, all of them lol. The first one that came to mind was Marigolds, but honestly my soulmate au Vhenaslin feels the fluffiest to me.

And, of course, there’s this one ;)

7. Do you write crossovers? If so what is the craziest one you’ve written?

I haven’t, not yet :( Like, I like the concept but no combination I’ve thought of has given me even the slightest bit of inspiration.

8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Yep! I received one that was something like “Congrats! You’ve written the most insufferable OC I’ve ever read!!” and it was fucking hilarious because it was on, like, chapter 6? You read 6 chapters about a character you didn’t like and somehow it’s my fault?? lmao

There was another one I can’t remember, too, and twice people have called Elle a bitch. All of these happened to Elle from Duck Pond, so if that’s not a glowing recommendation~

9. Do you write smut? If so what kind?

ROFL yeah that’s why I’m here. Like literally why I joined the fandom.

Everyone I’ve written is m/f and not particularly kinky but pretty damn explicit. Sometimes I do fade-to-black or gloss over for pacing, but mostly... Yeah. There’s smut. let Solas nut

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of. Sure af hope not.

11. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope. At least, not that I know of!

12. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yes! There was a Solas x Reader post on tumblr that people were reblogging and adding a little more too, and I guess that the foreplay went on too long because @keturagh sent it to me like ‘you’re the expert of getting the P in the V!’ and I’ve never written Reader fic before (or since) but who am I to disappoint!!

Then someone compiled it all and put it on AO3 here. I don’t have a damn clue where my writing begins -- other than I got the P in the V lol. Every once in a while I get a notification of a comment or kudos on it and every SINGLE time I’m like

13. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

Very clearly Solavellan. Though I’m also very into Opal/Nik from the Minimum Wage Magic books by Rachel Aaron. I listened to the audiobook because Patrick Weekes shared their reading list on twitter once and it was on there and I’m a HUGE sucker for juxtaposition. Gets me every time.

I’ve since read uuuhhhh almost everything Rachel Aaron/Bachs has read, and there’s lots of great stuff in there, but MWM is still my favorite series of hers by far. My own personal Couch AU.

14. What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

Uuhhhh.... So many? Or more like I’m scared I never will, in any case. I started drafting a list of my WIPs and it got... long. I can’t think of any I made a deliberate choice to never finish. There’s only 1 fic that I wrote that I didn’t post.

15. What are your writing strengths?

Dialogue, pacing, and sex~

I consider my dialogue my biggest asset as a writer tbh

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

WRITING THE WORDS DOWN and also how do plot?

17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

In the fandom there’s a tendency to write lines in elvhen and then put the translation at the end and yeah no it drives me bonkers. It completely destroys the immersion and pacing for no pay off. I’m not going to scroll down to understand your story. I just read it straight and try to figure out what’s going on based on context.

I stick with the well-known canon lines that most of us obsessed fans know by heart. I think sometimes I put a translation in there for newcomers, maybe? One time I used a feature on AO3 where you can hover your mouse over the work and it has like a footnote? that you can use to translate. But I immediately stopped bc #1 I don’t know how that works on mobile and #2 it really doesn’t seem like that’s going to work with screen readers. But otherwise I just say ‘they said in elven’ or have the narrator translate it themself for the reader.

Also, a lot of people use the elvhen translations from that BNF’s project and like... If you WANT him to say ‘I want to paint you with my cum’ then just have the courage to say it straight!

18. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

lmao Harvest Moon. Yeah. After that was Tamora Pierce (modern girl in Tortall yep). Then was like a 15 year gap until I got frustrated at the slow pace of the romance with this egg in this game so I wanted to see if there was smut... (Cue Googling: Is FanFiction.Net still a thing?)

19. What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

Oh gosh. Hmm. I love all my girls, but Duck Pond was/is a major work of love. Unlike my short works I really had the chance to explore more in a full length fic, you know?

(Marigolds is also full length but it was my first fic and there’s some spots that I’m not too proud of.)

That’s all the questions but I’m adding:

20. What’s a fic you’re proud of that hasn’t gotten much attention?

because I want an excuse to mention how hard I worked on Kirkwall Noir and how I’m surprised how little readership it’s gotten. It’s Varric! It’s Marigold! It’s super short, unlike most my stuff. Maybe that’s why people don’t like it?

Hmm, I also used a AO3 pen name, but it would still show on my page, right?

Thank you for the tags, @roguelioness and @thevikingwoman !! Consider yourself re-tagged so you can answer #20. Also tagging: @blarfkey @broomclosetkink @elveny @bardinhightown @keturagh @luzial

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katierosefun · 3 years

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so after one really big latte, a muffin, a run which resulted in a near accident with an oncoming car, and a shower in which i contemplated my own mortality, here’s my thoughts on the adorable me & au podcast, because babe wake up new hyperfixation dropped. very spoiler-y, i’m sorry in advance for how f*cking long this is, this might only have like two people reading this but i have many thoughts please listen to this podcast because it’s so cute and i listened to it all in about 2.5 hours?

- firstly: the main character is super relatable. like, scary relatable. meet kate “acunningplan” cunningham, a gal about to enter her senior year of college and just kinda,,,lost. she works as a barista and very confused, very...stuck gal by day, fic writer (and still very stuck gal) by.........not barista hours.

- honestly, i love kate. idk i’m about to enter my senior year of college, and bro i related so hard to her fears of “bro i can’t even think about next week without feeling overwhelmed”. she misses her best friend whitney a lot, who is currently on the other side of the country for an impressive internship. so that can be kinda lonely.

- but fear not, kate has an escape, like so many other fic writers/fandom people: fanfic. this whole story references tumblr without actually naming tumblr (let’s be real....it’s tumblr, from the “notes” to “this stupid app keeps crashing”), and kate follows this tv show about werewolves and supernatural creatures. very gay. only problem is that there’s not a whole ton of people active in the fandom, since this show is relatively new.

- however, in this small fandom, kate meets ella: otherwise known as “hella-enchanted”, who is another fic writer.

- kate is very obsessed with the idea of alternate universes, and for that alone, i love her.

- okay, so even if you’ve never fallen in love with a person online/in fandom circles, i just wanna say that ella and kate’s interactions are still so super relatable. the shooting messages, the starting random conversations and getting a little thrill when you see someone liking your personal post or whatever. it’s very wholesome.

- also, at the end of episode 1, kate goes on about how “yeah, fanfic is kinda odd, but it led me...to you” and it was so soft and gentle you just know your heart is gonna melt huh

- at one point, kate decides to be vulnerable via vent post about something that came up on the show (and oh god yeah i feel...things. kate relates very hard to one character in the tv show she’s following, and tbh,,,yeah. i can’t quite word it right now, but i think anyone who feels kinda.....stuck? would relate.)

- the “EXACTLY ONE PERSON ASKED FOR THIS ESSAY SO HERE IT IS” please

- also oh :’)))) kate talks about ella’s playlists and when i tell you i squeaked a little bit because oh hey--

- anyways lol yes can you relate to like,,,posting a vent post and forgetting to delete it and being mildly horrified (but also mildly touched) when someone actually responds?

- ella’s very sweet, just responds with “seems like one of my favorite fandom people needed a pick-me-up” and :’))) i would die for ella! (i mean, i would die for all the characters)

- okay yes also all the bits where ella and kate scream at each other about fic. very relatable, very real, you can tell that the writers of this podcast really knew this feeling, and i just :’)))

- THE TWO DEBATE OVER TITLES,,,,,kate keeps sending in crack-y titles and also song lyrics, and ella comments on “well,,,i just read this whole wikipedia page, so i think i’ve lost the high ground”, so if y’all KNOW i started laughing at that

- also LMAOOOO the moment when conversation diverts from fic and fandom to slightly more personal things! kate being like “oh,,,,,you have an actual job! like,,,you’re an actual adult and.....how’s that?” and then quickly rambling on via message “actually let me change the topic because that’s probably too personal”...

- okay so there’s this bit where ella drops the fact that she’s never read anne of green gables because “listen,,,,you have an ex-girlfriend who sang the anne of green gables musical all the time--” and kate’s “.......ex-girlfriend? you had an ex-girlfriend? girl--” (and BACKSPACING ALL OF THAT because “god i’m such a freak”)

- much gay disaster

- so much gay disaster

- opportunity for kate and ella to meet irl comes up! at a fan convention! in toronto! (and kate lives in bc). kate’s best friend (remember, internship one?) invited kate over to toronto for this thing anyways, and then ella posts something about “heeeey i’m gonna be in the area so if anyone wants to meet up for the fan convention...”

- let me just say......kate chucking her phone across the room because she freaked out about that. again. very cool, very nicely done, very relatable, etc.

- ALSO,,,,i forget if this was one of kate or ella’s fics or if it was the actual tv show, but there’s this tidbit where the characters in the literal fandom has this conversation:

“don’t waste your time.”

“what?”

“don’t waste your time on me.”

and the way that reflects kate’s feelings-but-she’s-not-trying-to-think-about-it for ella please let me just die here

- okay, so kate does decide to message ella about the meet-up, and let me just tell you, kate’s inner monologue about the worst possibilities for ella’s responses:

“1. no response. which is terrible.

2. you find out you’re not wanted after all. :(((((

3. the most terrifying response of all.......” (an enthusiastic “yes i’m so glad we can meet up!!!”)

- well, of course ella responds with #3.

- gay disaster kate not knowing how to acknowledge her feelings for ella...she goes on this “you don’t wanna come across as....y’know because if they suspect that....y’know.....and like, i don’t....y’know--” oh my god kate

- anyways, kate works at a coffeeshop, right? and her co-worker stewart (nonbinary pansexual co-worker! we love to see the rep!!) being like “oh yeah maybe you can bring over your friend!” and kate panicking because “ohhhhh i’m not too sure about that,,,,she’s,,,,,,,,,busy......” (ie. the awkward moment of having to explain that,,,,,,your online friend isn’t exactly someone you’ve met in real life,,,,,,,,and not sure exactly how to explain that so you just,,,,,,“ohhhh uhhh......y’know...............it’s really hard to.......get her out of.....work.....”

- kate and ella video-chatting for the first time is very cute, very gay. very gay.

- they swap “how’d you know you were gay / liked girls” stories :’)))

- “that’s a cute story!” “you’re a cute story” [awkward silence] “please let me hide under the desk now” (have i mentioned that kate’s a disaster? i love her, but you’re a disaster. we need to be best friends.)

- kate.....describing herself as “irl fanfic disaster waiting to happen” and the whole “i didn’t know we were actually dating until she asked if she could kiss me” lmaoooooooooo (but okay yes this is also a mood? like,,,,,,idk something about heteronormative standards so like,,,,,it’s so stupidly hard to figure out if a girl is flirting with you or if they’re just being nice i am glad kate’s such a disaster)

- in other news: kate’s “how tf do i write a kiss scene i don’t like the word lips ughhhhHHHHH” (yeah, mood kate)

- lmao stewart (kate’s co-worker!) just chilling with kate and being like “oh yeah i figured you had a girlfriend? the one you’re talking about? ella?” and kate blanking because “wait you thought ella was my girlfriend? she’s not....uhhh....” and then later drinking with stewart and rambling about ella and panicking because “what if she realizes i can’t talk about anything except this tv show what if she thinks i laugh too loud what if i have horrific body odor what if she realizes i have NOTHING to say what if our meeting goes SO terribly that i need to deactivate and change my name just so i could like her posts at 3 am” and then her small “please forget i said any of that”

- oh kate :((((

- kate :((((((

- k a t e :(((((((((((((((((((

- anyways, kate does go to toronto.

- meets ella.

- very cute.

- ella...........very gay. they go into a coffeeshop and kate doesn’t know what to do.

- okay but what’s hilarious is that ella,,,,,seems so cool and suave and i too would be kind of intimidated by her but then these two idiots really talk about writing kissing scenes and the build-up and ella’s voice gets all,,,,,,suggestive and there’s this.....awkward gay silence between the two oh my GOD they’re both IDIOTS

- also okay yes kate and whitney, a irl friend, having a heart-to-heart. good. we love that. also, whitney being like “I MISSED YOU!!! YOU IDIOT!!!! and i’m glad you have a new friend, and you’re happy, but I MISSED YOU!!! I HATE THIS CITY AND I DON’T KNOW WHAT I’M DOING!!!” (whitney is also very relatable. ily whitney.)

- they’re so cute. they hug, and it’s sweet :’)) also, then kate says in a stupidly small voice “i think i’m....kinda in love with [ella]?” and whitney being best supportive friend--

- OKAY so we finally get an episode of ella’s perspective

- listen, you’re gonna think ella’s this cool, suave person who has all her own gayness put together (i mean, she kinda knew since she was 9 or 10 years old? she’s had a girlfriend? she seems like she has her life together? she’s waiting to get into grad school? she has a job? she just seems....cool and knows what she’s doing).

- but then you realize. ella is just as much a pining mess. (her bullet point list/schedule in her head is so relatable. as someone who uses her notes and reminders app religiously, that was just :’)))

- ella: reasons why this is not a date. and then....kate sends a message. (ella: reason why this....might be a date....kate keeps saying stuff like...that.)

- kate rehearsing how to tell ella that she maybe kinda likes her? very cute. (”you know the feeling in your chest when....uh, you know when you feel like you have a frog in your stomach--oh god not the frog NOT the frog”)

- the love confession is very cute, and also very relatable. “i like you a lot” “i like you too!” “no i mean,,,,like i like you. wait. which like do you mean? wait that’s not english. uh. what did you say?”

- kate’s “I HAD A WHOLE DRAMATIC FANFIC CONFESSION PLANNED OUT”

- kate and ella just spilling everything made me :’)))

- “i like how your brain works” “i made so many posts hoping that you would just talk to me” “you always make me laugh” “you just make me feel...better” “you make me smile”

- “this whole summer you’ve been making me smile and i guess it kind of freaked me out? ...i don’t know where my life is going but if i have a choice, i want to go in any direction you’re going because you are cute and smart and amazing and i like you a lot, ella. like that. so yeah. that’s what i was thinking i’d say.”

- i essentially explaine dthe whole plot but

- i love this podcast a lot

- it was very sweet

- and very cute

- very wlw

- i don’t even mind that i almost got hit by a car while i was running and listening to this it was worth it

- idk. just like. anyone who’s ever read or written fic or just like...not necessarily fallen in love with another person? but at least relating to that feeling of “oh god i am not qualified to talk to this person” and “oh god what if they realize i’m actually,,,,a loser” and “oh god wait how to friend” can probably hit a lot of people

- but that said. the romance was very cute, very sweet, makes me :’)))

- okay i’ll stop talking now but i just. it’s very cute, very relatable, i wish we had a season 2 but i think it’s a limited series. (but they’re living rent free in my head! forever!)

#caroline talks #oh god.......oh god #i'm so sorry for how long this is #but in case you couldn't tell i have literally so many feelings #so many feelings #yo @ me and au creators: thank u for making me feel seen and wanting to cry because of it!#it's beautiful #and very gay #and like idk even if you've never fallen in *love* with a fandom friend i think you can still hardcore relate to this?#just because like......bro there's something..........so soft about this #also.....gay disasters #also really saying 'hey everyone's actually super awkward there's no such thing as being cool and suave'#also just......AGH no someone please scream with me about this #i am going to SCREAM about this forever #i also....once again: feel WAY too seen #like.....WAY too seen #anyways #me & au

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