pepprs · 1 year ago
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im home and already swallowed by despair. can you believe i was in CHICAGO a few hours ago. and now im here. lol
#i know i know. and i need to let the anguish motivate me to get out of here. but it feels like i dreamed it all#purrs#chicago#i had a rough time getting out of the hotel and through the airport to my gate and also im bad at math so i fucked up the calculation about#when my flight lands bc of the time zone change and i gave my parents the time in central time not eastern time so my dad was waiting for m#for like a half hour and texting me and i wasn’t answering bc i was still in the air and he was pissed at me and snarky in my texts with hi#and i was sitting there on the plane and could just feel his words ripping into me and the horrors rushing back in and i still haven’t#recovered from it honestly. it wasn’t that big of a deal he just said something that i misunderstood as him saying he was giving up waiting#for me and going home bc id already wasted his time and even though that was not what he actually said it just kinda burrowed into me that#my parents were mad at me and were probably also mad at me for not communicating with them AT ALL the entire time i was in chicago. and it#just was eating me alive. im home now and we haven’t talked about it but they did say things disapproving of the fact that i did a lot of#stuff by myself which i probably shouldn’t have told them. idk. it’s not even that bad i just am torn apart by their rejection of me and#utter inability to just like be happy for me without criticizing some part of it or restraining me. plus the house is just as much of a#biohazard as it was when i left and all the broken things are still broken and it’s like. a lot. i miss the hotel LOL#i think im just sleep deprived and not in my head right today but i do not want to be here. sinking in quicksand unable to breathe. but i#have to be the one to get me out of it and i should have learned how in chicago but i didn’t it was just a break and now im stuck again#delete later#kind of terrible that instead of being so proud and happy about what i did my immediate reaction is to be miserable that im home now lol
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silverware-drawer · 1 year ago
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What the hell is a "cue es em pee"
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@backflipo-numero-uno please stop impersonating your dead daughter on fucking tumblr and get therapy
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NO LISTEN ITS REALLY HER THIS TIME I SWEAR
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I'm reporting you for your own good m8
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and also because you don't tag the months-old interactions with mariana you keep reblogging and I don't wanna see that shit on my dash lmao
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damn slime your dead daughter knows how to write a banger post
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Finally finished the enchants on my scythe. Going to test this shit on a dungeon run will update
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you can come over and test it on me instead if i'm closer. like not in a weird way you can just hit me and I'll tell you how close I am to dying, how much blood I've lost etc
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fuck okay- pac I've been meaning to talk to you about this. Listen.
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you have. . . tendencies
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wait cellbit is this why your old blog got deleted lmao???
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shut up
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I hear you typing guapito don't you fucking dare
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NO MAMES
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GOD DAMN IT
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this island is so weird why did people seriously consider the disgusting green egg as a presidential candidate
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Nevermind gegg is my son now
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guys I cant believe it they are introducing dark metal soon its not a lie the admins really said so because otherwise it means they hate me GG woooo good fight i dont have to cry anymore!! well played!!
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etoiles you are going to get banned again stop provoking the feds
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you are right philza because you are the best ok i am never going to spam them again
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Good job I'm proud of you GGs
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sunnychuuya · 3 months ago
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Sally face >:3
the cameras thar Addison installed have eyes on them on Larry's side mr Addison sus frrr /hj
me after looking up a tutorial and still being lost
How do I activate the runes on floor three raghhh
I DID KT
thank God for light bulbs existing I'm so much less scared rn
guys I don't like this ://
Sodas gonna be okay right ://
also where's uhhh I think her name is maple she's gone that's sus
HEYYY UHH SWITCHED TO LARRYS SIDE WHY ARE CHUG AND SODA ALL FADED
WAIT THAT MEANS THEIR NOT POSSED RIGHT ??
SO THEYLL BE FINE
RIGHT GYYS
oh 304 is just fucking gone on Larry's side
the mirror in Todd's bathroom where the red eyes demon appeared in chapter two is shattered
why dids Todd's parents toilet have the void
Why doesn't it let me access the full rooms I can't go into the bedrooms
I dislike that all kf the suspicious ppls houses r not able to be accessed (charley, packerton)
WHAT THE FUCK IS THE GOOP ITS POSSESION GOOP I KNOW IT
Nvm I gor into packertons place
Theres nothing here tho ??
What the florp
I got it to work at the last second bruh i suck at the guitar bits
Mm circles
all the mirrors are shattered actually
did Mrs Gibson die 💀
I'm pretending to understand what's happening
FUCK THE GUITAR BITS R SO HARS
I'm definitely missing stuff :/
-GUYS NO FUCKING WAY WAS I RIGHT ABOUT ADDISONCBEING SUS ??
Addison: a young boy stands at the threshold of oblivion
Unkoen green voice: MEXMERIZED BY THE ETERNAL ABYSS
-Ph what the fyck this is creepy
-UHHHHH
SO MR ADDISON IS SUS
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"SO how long have you been like this"
*slowly slides away*
what the fuck
Litterally nothing could've prepared me for this
This reminds me of fullmetal alchemist bro
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Goop
ADDISON IS THE POSSESSY DUDE I thought it was The red eyed demon is the red eyed demon possibly an extension?
Im
Having trouble processing this I seriously thought Mr Addison was not actually gonna be sus.
NO WHAT THE HELL
I HATE THIS GAME
DUDE I CAN BARELY DO THE FUCKING PILLAR THINGIES
FUCK SHIT BALLS ASS
I paused the game and forgot I was doing this lmao
THIS IS SI HARD
t h e r e s m o r e
Bruh I'm gonna larry
I did IT
hey guys wtf
MURDER EVERYONE IN THE APARTMENRS ??
OKAY BUT NOT SODA AND CHUG RIGJT CUZ THEY DONT HAVE THE POSSESY GOOP
"I don't think I can do this. Please don't make me do this terrence" guys what if I just delete the game
Omori core (white room with knife)
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This isn't girlypop guys
"Goal: kill"
what if I'm crying
I HAVE TO KILL TODDS PAEENRS
I HAVE TO KILL MY DAD AND LISA
NO
Why do I feel so fuckijg guilty it's a video game
SAL NO CHUG AND SODA ARE INNOCENT THEY ARWNT POSSESED
The lack of music
Like complete silence except for footsteps
Makes this so much more painful
Killing soda is what opened the floodgates of tearss
"Youknow, I may not say this enough, but I'm proud of you, sal. You've come a long eay and I know it hasn't all been easy." Fuck. This hurts.
If Larry hadn't kms lsal would've had to kill him..
"I look at you now and I'm excited about the man you arebecoming. K think youve for a bright future ahead of yoj. I reallt do"
Haha funny joke I'm sobbing hea about to fucking kill you and then (prolly) get excuted. I hate this game.
Ih fuck not Todd
ASH I FUCKING WISH YOU WERE IN THOSE APARTMENTS YOU ARE THE FUCKING WORST I HATE YOJ
ENON DIED
FUCKING HELL
ThIS IS BECAUSE THE CULT RIGHT
TBATS A FAKE
SHIT
SHIT SHIT SHIT
FUCK
The music fading out
Fuck
ASH IDC UR STILL FUCKIJG WRONG
Wair no but I know her idea won't work bc like ik sal dies
Do NIT play memories and dreams rn
ASH NO SHUT THE FUCK UP- AHUT THE FUCK UP RIGHT NOWBTHIS IS YOUR FAULT, YOU HAD THREE YEARS YOU WAITED TILL THE LAST FUCKING SECOND
hey guys what the fuck
What the genuine fuck
Like okay I knew he died from before I started the game but
This still kinda hurts ngl
Fuck
Why couldn't they just like
Be happy
STOP ISBTHAT WHY I KEEP SEEING FANARTS WITH CLOCKS THAT SAY 6 33/18 33 ON CLOCKS YALL ARW DEVIOUS
Acheivment: suffer
Re you fuckin kidding me I mean I am suffering but God damn
Wait yea that's a good point wtf happened to Larry's body
Ash jm going to allow you go try to redeem herself but it's gonna be hard
NKO U HAVE TO PLAY AS HER :(
Travis is the cult member on the inside yea?
-"Oh gizmo is still alive, thats good at least!" [He hadn't left your room since the execution. It's like he knows] guys what the fuck
maple..
Pookies j do not remember the shed code
travis is still alive at least..
YALL I JUST REALIZED THE LIL PUZZLR BOX THING FROM THE TREE HOUSE A LONG TIME AGO ?? NEVER EXPLAIJED
great fucking job ash now Larry's gone bc of you too (actuslly I don't blame her for this one bc Larry wanted it yk)
girly just casually has a c4
Went into the temple
2nite wasn't great updates since I was just talkin eith the below user lmao
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viivzn · 4 months ago
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2 requests actually .. if you do platonic reader stuff, id love zuko & azula soft sibling hcs 🫶🏻
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pairs. platonic·gn!reader + azula/zuko. (siblings) - ATLA
req by. anon !
type. headcanons
a/n. hi there anon!! srry if i couldn't do ur other(?)oneshot request cuz it was accidentally deleted, but hopefully this is a payback!! /pos. might be proofread cuz im writing ts before the headcanons urghththrh.
a/n #2. also this was a long time ago,, hopefully you'll forgive me for doing this a little too late.. 😞 also srry if it's short 💔
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young!azula would definitely teach you firebending., not zuko though, he was a late boomer.
young!zuko and you would make flower crowns, whether it's pink, white or any type of flower! you both once tried the water lilies as a flower crown but failed to avail.
young!azula on the other hand; will invite you to her friend's hangout or whatever you call it. you summoned a strong bond with them too! mostly ty lee.
you and young!azula had a plan of action for the supposedly oblivious love birds; alas mai and zuko. it was eventually azula's first idea in the first place and didn't want to disappoint her, after a period of time, you agreed.
after a bit, you teased young!zuko while he was drenched in water, he sneered and went to the royal residence after. looking at young!azula, you gave her a high-five while smugging in entertainment.
after some time of young!azula's teaching, your flame became white in thin air, young!zuko was in disbelief and inquired if you could do some free styles. on the contrary, young!azula felt proud of herself and told you if you could give her something in exchange after.
currently.
after the agni kai between your brother; zuko and your father ozai, you provided sustenance for him and continued to cover up his scar. he would carry on — saying "i'm okay." yet you didn't believe him as you poured tiny bit of medicine on his scar.
though he remained quiet after the medication nor the aftermath.
azula wasn't there to visit your sibling either, you were deeply worried.
after the announcement of his banishment to find the avatar, you were completely left alone with azula.
"zuzu's going to be fine, [name]. i'm deeply sure he'll find the avatar as soon as he can." the fourteen year old lady approached you while the boats took off from the sea, departing from land. "how are you so sure?" you questioned, knitting both eyebrows. "i'm just sure." the woman gave you a reassuring smile as she deposited her free hand on your shoulder. finally withdrawing herself away from your figure. nonetheless, you felt unsure. azula always lies.
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heartz4tob · 2 months ago
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25/08/24 23:59
i made the decision to stop caring so much about you. gosh how stupid i was for pouring my heart out to God about you when i didn't cross yours once. i'm gonna say this one more time. i have deleted all evidence of you in my camera roll, i cut off the long hair that i treasured that i thought you would've liked, i blocked all your friends and the reminders of you that would be an obstacle in this journey. but one last time i want to recap on everything since i've fallen for you:
the moment i saw you in whoever's post i knew i would fall head over heels for you. you stood out to everyone in that photo and i was determined to know who you were. once i found out your name through stalking everyone you knew, i became obsessed well not until after qasim. i fell in love with the idea of you knowing nothing about your life other than the basic stuff.
i really wanted to know you toby. i wish you knew that. the day i followed you on instagram i didn't know if you'd follow back (i wish you didn't, this wouldn't have happened) when you did that's when all hell broke loose. and when i found out that you won poty award, i was so so proud of you. you will never know how proud i am of you toby. and when i found out you got an academic award for whatever you achieved i was beyond proud of you. i am your biggest and no.1 supporter.
but i was obsessed with getting your attention and getting you to notice me. i'd follow up on everything about you, i was desperate for your love. and when i found out you could've loved another i crashed out. i unfollowed you and wanted you out my mind in hopes that "out of sight, out of mind" would work. it didn't. it made me even more obsessed with you.
and when i saw you days after i tried removing you from my life, i was so kilig to the bone. the way you smiled and the way you looked under the sunlight made me melt. (no pun intended) like why did you have to look? i get it my mom honked the horn but you looked at me? ME? i actually wish your eyes never met mine.
i love you toby but im not letting you take over my mind, heart and life. you've brought me nothing but doubt and stress. you made me skitz out night after night making me change myself in ways so i could look appealing to you. i've prayed to God for 30 minutes just to get an answer. you will never know what i said. you made me believe there were good people in the world but at what cost? you made me happy and miserable all at once. how is that possible? i will never forget all the sadness you made me feel but if you ever need me my arms are wide open for you. i am not waiting for you anymore but my heart will continue to wish you Godspeed until we die. good luck with your basketball stuff and good luck in the next academic year.
and this is not my position to say but if you ever feel bad about yourself please consider my thoughts. if you saw yourself through my rose tinted glasses you'd never have a bad thought of yourself again. no matter how much people tell me, i think you're perfect in my eyes. God made you with so much love and care that i can practically see Jesus Christ through you. you're beautiful and you'll never hear me say that. (Solomon 4:7)
i wish nothing but the best for you. and one day i hope you find a woman of God who treats you perfectly. a proverbs 31 woman. i pray that she builds you to become an ecclesiastes 5 man. im so sorry but ive had enough. i've had enough of all the doubt and sadness loving you brought to me. although this whole thing put me through some tough stuff in not going to be a liar and say it was a waste. i enjoyed my little fancy for you even if it meant tears being shed. i mean hey, that's life. loving you made me realize that love can be silent and that i can love someone without knowing them properly and with no words exchanged. you made me believe that i do indeed hold love in my heart and it isn't all just bad in the world.
i truly believed it was you and me. and if my prayers are answered and we are in Gods plan i hope when we meet again in the future that we make it, and i intend on waiting forever if that's the case. (Genesis 29:20). cause gosh i wanted it to be you so bad. but if it's not you then that's okay and i'll learn to be okay with it. and to be honest i really do not see myself loving someone that's not you, i hoped it was you from the beginning. and i pray if it's not you and me in this lifetime that it's you and me in the next one. "sa susunod na habang buhay" is associated with your name in my heart.
but if you did reciprocate the love i have for you, i'd be the best you'll ever have. the love i have for you is unhealthy at this point. and in all honesty i was more pulled in by the idea of loving you than building my relationship with God first. i'd be as loyal as a dog to you. you could break my heart 1 million times and i would still rather that over giving it to someone else. gosh toby i love you so much. the love that i have for you in my heart needed more space so i planted the love i have for you in things i loved too. i envied anything you loved knowing ill never be those things. inanimate or not. how crazy do i sound right now?
you looked like a prayer i made to God about my future husband and i was gutted realizing that you may not be that. i know deep down that you're a good guy toby. don't let that potential go to waste and please don't be consumed by the bad people around you. keep your dreams alive and i just pray and i pray so hard that you end up succeeding in what you aspire to do. if you can't be with me i pray you be with God. build that relationship between you and Jesus. keep going. i'm here on the sidelines rooting for you.
please, if you feel like the world is mean to you, run to me. call out for me and i'll be there for you. i'm an idiot for you.
this whole account made me realize how deluded i am. and i don't think i can go like this for longer before i actually go skitzo, and, for the last time,
i love you toby. goodbye. 💗
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1-danid · 9 months ago
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The hate i have for society hurts me. My private pictures got leaked on some site made fir perverts snd pedophiles. Yet when i grow up ill be the one who was a slut. Ill be turned down jobs because im indecent while this boy who I don't even know gets to walk around scot free. Gets to live his life to the fullest. Feel proud of himself, have a family have children. Yet im fucking scared to tell anyone who knows me about whats happened incase they see me differently. How is it fair. Why am i to blame? Why am i not the victim? Why is my life ruined by the actions of a stranger? He doesn't even know my name. Or my age. Or even where im from. Im so sick of people. Im sick of something always going wrong when im getting better. Im sick of being sick. I m crying and i hate crying. Im ranting and i hate ranting. I hate this. Life is supposed to be beautiful. Im supposed to be young and wild. Enjoying my stupid teenage years, yet i cant even do that. Whats the point?
I can't even eat without feeling sick. I cant even text anyone without feeling dirty. Like im tainting them. I swear everyone i talk to i ruin somehow. Either im too quiet, too loud. Too nice, too mean. Too dry or too energetic. For once in my life I want to be fine. To be told that im actually doing okay. That it doesn't matter what anyone thinks because im allowed to be me.
I don't even know who i am. I feel like a jigsaw puzzle with all the pieces but no one to put them together. Like ive be given up on so many times. Everyone taking a piece of me as a souvenir. Sometimes i wonder if ill ever feel whole or complete.
Sometimes i wonder what i was made for. Not in the sense of a greater good or a passion, but in the sense of am i meant to be suffering or am i just failing. Was i menat to be the loud and reusable friend? Am i meant to wait to be wanted and sought after? Do i just sit her and fester in my misery?
Because if that's so i cant do it. Im tired of putting in the effort and not getting anywhere. Always falling two steps back. Always falling behind.
For once in my life let me be in peace. To thrive in my happiness. I swear i was getting better. I swear. Im trying. Im trying as hard as i can. I just.
I think im gonna delete tumblr for a while as well. To be honest i might disappear. And thats okay. Because in the end you'll move on. Youll find new moots, better moots. You won't even remember me and my silly little asks. And thats fine. So goodbye for a while. Who knows maybe ill see you again.
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coffeeclubbuchan · 2 years ago
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i got stressed with essays and exams so i dont think ive used tumblr in like. a year and a half? im not too sure that any of my mutuals even post here anymore. i believe the fandom here is dead (or most are minecraft stans who sometimes post cc stuff) and ive moved on so no more posts unless i start watching everyone again :( 
occasionally ill watch a vid here and there but ive moved on to other kinds of content now (i have had a full blown obsession with daredevil/pedro pascal/The Batman/comics in general for the past year if anyones interested). i only thought this was appropriate to post cause i saw the detective AU i was writing on an old save and it reminded me about this (im so sorry i never finished it. re-read it and its not as bad as i remember but itll take much effort to clean up and finish and I Don’t Have The Time ATM.)
also should say - im so happy for james and his content/music career :D hes the only one ive been sorta in the know about (apart from fraser on twt) and he seems to be more happy now than he has been in the past few years combined. hes basically became detached from the rest of them but has grown so much on twitch. v v proud and looking forward to what he does next
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beomglocks · 3 years ago
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<<something like a part 2-ish of hotel antic but can be read separately>>
summary : your criminal bf pays you a visit
pairing : criminal!beomgyu x police!reader (established relationship)
warnings & other : smut, oral m receiving, some choking bc ofc there’s choking, handcuffs are involved, slight exhibitionism(?), mild language, weird foreplay..., this is a VERY old draft, posted a long time ago but deleted but here it is again!, wasn't too proud of this one but its kinda cute-ish so enjoy, posting old drafts, sorry in advance
w/c : 1.7k
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you slammed your notepad on the desk in front of you and groaned looking outside at the vast darkness of your town. unfortunately, you were not a rock, paper, scissors connoisseur thus losing against your coworkers. here you were doing the closing shift when you could be home cuddling with your boyfriend or partying your stress away with them.
you still haven't acquired the promotion from police detective to private investigator yet but you've been doing small tasks at your precinct to show that you are in fact capable. of course, being scolded by your head chief for not arresting beomgyu that one time didn't help your chances.
but it's ok, your boyfriend made it up to you that night.
you sigh, fiddling with the pen in your hands. you look up at the clock and see that it's only 12 am. 5 more hours to go.
you can only imagine the stress reliever your co-workers are going through at the bar right now. that could've been you if you had thrown rock instead of paper. you felt cold and alone being the only one in the precinct but everyone trusted you'd be fine since you are a trained officer.
you figure you should stop sulking and get some work done for now. getting up, you pick up the notepad once again to update the missing person log.
before you can get far you hear the familiar click of a gun directly behind you. "am i seriously being robbed in my own police station?" you think to yourself. you mentally curse remembering how your own self-defense gun was in the drawer of the desk you just got up from.
"hands behind your head," says the perpetrator. you don't turn around to look at them but nevertheless, comply. what good would not listening to someone with a gun to your head do? you stay calm, moving your hands behind your head.
even in this situation, you think you might look silly since you're still holding the notepad and pen. "on the ground," the person demands. the person pushes the gun into your scalp but not roughly. you sigh and lower yourself to kneel on the ground.
you hear rustling and suddenly you're being hugged tightly from behind, "hey baby." beomgyu places his chin on your shoulder to look at you from behind. you turn your head to look at him and roll your eyes. "seriously gyu? i thought i was being mugged! what kind of fucked up foreplay is this."
"im stealing your heart," he smiles smugly, getting up. "plus, you look good in this position..." he eyes you up and down and bites his lip since you're still in the position he told you to get in.
"shut up!" you go to lower your hands and he grabs them. "wait baby, i came here because i thought something was wrong since you haven't come home yet but i think i have a new motive." he moves to stand in front of you and you already know what he's implying.
"im not sucking you off at my job beomgyu," you deadpan. he pouts, removing his hands from yours. "even though i came all this way to check if you were ok? do you even care about me? ah, my baby is too mean to me."
you roll your eyes, "no one told you to come here." he raises his eyebrows at you, "oh ok so what im hearing is you want me to leave?" he walks away slowly towards the entrance which is definitely not where he came in from. you stand up quickly and run to grab his hand. "don't leave me asshole, don't you see im alone," you whine.
he turns around, smiling at you, "so you want me here after all?" he brings you to your desk and leans back on it, bringing you into his embrace. "wanna tell me what you're doing here all alone? do i gotta kill someone hm?" he teases. you know he's joking but if you actually gave him some names you know you wouldn't see them the next day.
you look up at him, resting your chin on his chest. "i lost rock, paper, scissors." he tries to hide his laughter but fails. "i wasn't expecting that one," he sighs after his laughing fit. "oh well, at least you're here with me right?" he leans down so that he's whispering in your ear, "you can suck my cock now."
"you weren't even thinking of getting sucked off until after you made me get on the ground!" you scoff pushing him away. he grabs a hold of your hands so that you don't go far from him. you try to pull away from him, "did you actually come here to check up on me?" you mumble dejectedly. he sucks his teeth and pulls you back into him. "don't be like that jagi you know i care about you," he pouts.
he leans down to peck your lips but lingers there a little longer. he breathes out deciding to go in for more. you whine as he kisses you rougher with each second. he must've really not wanted you to doubt him. he pulls away briefly eyeing your half lidded gaze directed at his lips. "take that picture of me down," he frowns suddenly. "huh?" you pant.
what the fuck was he talking about? you ignore him, already addicted to his lips you go back for more but he shakes head. "look there's a wanted picture of me right over there!" he points somewhere behind you and when you (reluctantly) turn around sure enough there's a poster of him displayed on the "wanted" wall.
you groan punching his arm playfully, "what the hell do you want me to do about that! you're a criminal and this is a police station god what do you expect."
he chuckles, "kidding, you'll never see me in cuffs baby." he kisses your cheek tenderly then moves to your lips once again. you both make out for a couple more minutes so that you can ensure that beomgyu is immersed in the kiss. when he's distracted enough you take your handcuffs from their place in your back pocket and cuff his hands together. he pulls away quickly and you just laugh.
"ah jagi what's this?" he smiles but you can see the confusion written all over his face. "i finally caught you," you smirk. you look around for the gun he has carrying and pick it up to slide it back into his front pocket. you do so slowly enough to catch him shiver. "you're so cute," he says with grit teeth as he struggles against the cuffs.
"stop struggling, i heard it makes them hurt more," you say sinking to your knees. he watches you adjust yourself in front of him and he suddenly gets giddy, forgetting about his hands being cuffed. "if you were gonna suck me off anyways what was with the fit you threw earlier? just you being a brat huh?" he chuckles. you smile up at him, "its fun."
"it's fun? should i teach you s-" he cuts himself off when he goes to grab you but can't because of the cuffs. "my baby is so smart," he suddenly praises, switching his tone. you shake your head at his change. you bring his pants and boxers down at the same time to get on with it. he stays silent, watching you kitten lap at his cock which is already coated in precum. "quit teasing jagi," he grunts. 
you pull away, raising an eyebrow at him, "what are you gonna do about it?" his eyes go wide at your response and he tries to grab your hair to bring your head closer to his dick but fails. "uncuff me baby," he pleads. you ignore him, instead going back to teasing him. after a couple of grunts and whines from him you decide to go for it, satisfied with the noises you're hearing. "you're s-so good," he pants. "mm 'wanna touch you."
you bob your head back and forth with a purpose, not giving into his pleads. "s-shit," he mumbles. the noises you both are making join together and it's effective enough for him to get him to his high. "baby im-" you hollow out your cheeks and continue to suck a little harder. he lets out a string of incoherent curses as he shoots his cum in your mouth.
you choke a little at the suddenness but take as much of it as you can. beomgyu licks his lips as some of it dribbles down your chin.
he slouches back on your desk, panting heavily and bringing his pants back up as best as he can. he glances down at you again to see you wiping your mouth and chin silently. you hear the cuffs clank on your desk and look up to see beomgyu jingling them impatiently. "someone get me outta here my partner is crazy!" he yells with whatever leftover energy he has. you roll your eyes, taking out the keys and uncuffing him.
he quickly goes to grab your neck, effectively lifting you up from the ground. you gasp seeing as you were already out of breath from having his dick down your throat. "you're so cute when you think you can do whatever you want but that's ok i just have to discipline you more hm? i don't want you pulling a stunt like that ever again," he smiles looking down at your lips. you nod quickly. he kisses you for the nth time today then breaks away to rub his wrists. "that was torture," he whines. "all i wanna do is touch you now!"
"you gonna stay with me until my shift ends?" you ask him casually. he sits in your chair and you follow sitting on his lap comfortably. "of course i will, someone's gotta clear their names from the files." he kisses your forehead when you get comfortable in his embrace. you seriously think he fell asleep but he suddenly sits up after a while.
"wait aren't there cameras in here?"
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organic-guacamole · 3 years ago
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episode 209 spoilers below
I'm so late today but here it is
I love EJ, he's finally learning to be happy. I'm so proud.
Ms Jenn = every boomer during zoom calls, like jeez yes we can hear you stop shouting at me.
LOVE THE SUBTLE JOKE ABOUT QUARANTINE "these dark times" "you mean spring break?"
ah yes, remember when we thought covid was just gonna give us a longer spring break? good times
SEBLOS
damn the passive aggressiveness from Carlos and the absolutely over it tone from seb✋
CASWELL COUSINS!!!!! THEY'RE THE BEST!!!!
we needed more if this kind of goofiness for the first part of season 2 that only such an iconic duo can provide.
old old movies-
is it even that old, or is Nini being a gen alpha rn-
i choose to imagine EJ being scared of the movie and hiding in Ashlyn's shoulder while she keeps a straight face and then EJ pretending to be tough afterwards
aww redlyn are soulmates.... yknow, if gingers had souls
(please ignore me)
y'all saw how EJ's face *lit up* when Gina logged on? how dare you tell me he doesn't like her
ofc she's no damsel in distress, she's Gina porter, she's amazing.
so do we think she'd be the type to just glare at suspicious people? or bark at them
do they not know that Rini broke up? or is Ms Jenn just wanting Nini to suffer through her heartbreak to make her a better actress....
speaking of, why is Nini in the call? she's not in the show anymore. Unless she is, even after the rose and the song got cut, which would be so unfair to all those that auditioned properly before she even came back but whatever, she's the main character I get it 🙄
big red is a hero honestly, Nini better thank him for changing the subject like that
I can't-
i won't work you over the break-
this woman would 100% work her kids 24/7 if it was legal and idk how to feel about it.
YES GINA USE THAT CHARM
QUEEN
FRENCH QUEEN
SHE LEARNT FROM THE BEST (antoine obvi)
smh the airport lady, eavesdropping on Gina's call.
The way she was so happy to answer EJ's call, "eej"
I love them your honour.
EJ WITH PAINTED NAILS YES PLEASE
great now we need to see Gina, Ashlyn and EJ having a complete spa day and EJ getting really into it and Gina and Ashlyn take pictures of him when he's laying down in a robe with a mask and cucumbers on his eyes.
finally we get to see Gina's side of portwell
the way she considered it as flirting, this is the sign she asked for in episode 6 come onnnnn
no is Asher/jack really doing tiktok dances in an airport-
Ricky is me. I am burrito.
oh Lynne, sweetie, I'm sorry but the blonde hair is not it
is that even the same lady or-
THE BEAN
THE CHICAGO BEAN
THE BIG OLD METAL BEAN IN THE MIDDLE OF THE CITY 😭
jetlag is my go to excuse for anything... I haven't travelled in 2 years.
"welcome to the Lynne and Mike gossip show. where we talk about our depressed son that we both neglect in certain ways! And now a word from our sponsor, Nord VPN..."
SO MANY CANDLES
WHAT DEMON IS LYNNE TRYING TO SUMMON IN HIS ROOM-
is Nina becoming social media obsessed EJ from season 1? AND SHE LIED ABOUT HAVING SONGS TOO PLEASE WHY ARW THEY RECYCLING THE SAME PLOT-
Gina smiling at the picture of her family on Instagram makes me so happy, idek why.
EJ's nails are so pretty, we needed to see it more (unless he had it on for the rest of the episode and I just.... didn't notice🧍🏽‍♀️)
oh not the tiktok kid✋
yes ma'am end this strange mans whole tiktok career
sir take a hint and leave
GINA NO DONT SAY YOUR LAST NAME HE COULD BE A HUMAN TRAFFICKER
Ricky, walking in style✨
weird kid, ok then Lynne, can't you see he's this close to the edge?
not all your fault baby Ricky, Nini sucks a bit more
RICKY YOU DIDN'T COME DOWN HARD ON THE SONG-
YOU ASKED WHAT IT WAS ABOUT AND SHE SHUT YOU DOWN-
PLEASE DO NOT BLAME YOURSELF
ok but the deleting comment thing was very bad
still don't know if I like Jack honestly
hmmm so Nini's calling herself Nini instead of Nina in her little egg seat, while trying to write a song without inspiration.... Nini, honey, Ricky was your muse, he inspired you to write all those songs, even if it wasn't good for the relationship.
that doesn't mean you gotta get back with him, or that you can't write a song that not about him butttt it'll take some time
the rainbow sticker in her box and her rainbow shirt-
anyways wbk she's not totally straight
Jack are you a criminal?
quick, Gina, check his ankle for a tracker
THE YES AND PRACTICE STRIKES AGAIN
the way Gina wasn't into it in episode 6 but she's used the technique twice now
stole her grandma's Pomeranian-
Jack where the hell did you pull that out from-
the fake crying killed me, that looks like so much fun though
anyone wanna raid a first class lounge with me?
wait so is jack not gonna go in with her?
wouldn't he go in too? help look for the credit card? SO CONFUSED
the first class lounge guy was so into the drama though, watch his face when they start arguing 😭
sorry to break this to you Kourtney, but you haven't even blocked the second act yet soooo...
take that as you will
I love how all of them are totally dissing the dance off
that's the most realistic part of this show tbh
shouldn't Nini have asked how she knew....since the start? why is the fact that her best friend has knowledge of a North high secret now dawning on her...
Howie is sweet honestly, at least he's trying to help. but I stand with Kourtney, don't take him back just because he sang an amazing song, and is giving you a heads up on what's gonna happen...
KOURTNEY IS ME TRYING TO LEAVE AN ONLINE CLASS
I hate school
ooo Nini's writing a song about bad internet connection 🤩🤩🤩
I never lie, except when I do-
son that is the creepiest thing you could say to a stranger that you've been "helping"
2 truths and a lie👀
he's an Ariana fan 100%
called it.
OLDER BROTHER-
WHAT-
free spirit? damn so brother porter was in that horse movie
so has she been kissed or not?????????
I feel like she's moved more than 15 times though so possibly
but then if she's moved so much, and before east high she never opened up to anyone, she's never been kissed then?? damn
same though Gina so let's be besties please
heartbreak president is a great song title idea, give Nini a call rn
but wait
is the no strings attached feeling thing about her telling Ricky she liked him? she thought she was moving away so she thought it'd be no strings attached???
guys I think I figured it out insert the "I've connected two dots" meme
THE DUKE SWEATSHIRT
IS THAT YOUR BOYFRIEND'S
OMG I LOVE I LOVE
NOT THAT I KNOW OF???
ma'am did you just kill me
yes you did
Lynne and Ricky have such a weird relationship
YES IT DID SUCK
TODD SUCKS
LYNNE SUCKS
yeah I get that you wanted Ricky to like Todd BUT THAT WASN'T THE TIME
right so we already know that Ricky was so desperate to keep Nini cuz he didn't want to be like his parents, and now Lynne's talking about this-
Richard needs a long hug
yes Lynne, it is your fault. thank you for finally admitting it.
YES DYE YOUR HAIR
BLOND HIGHLIGHTS RICKY WILL RISE AGAIN
"sometimes the best, last thing you can do for someone you love, is let them go."
gotta admit I teared up at that point
not me thinking big red was calling ms Jenn cupcake for a hot second-
Carlos please omg, you're at the "beach" and they're leaving for the pool?
also, why not just do the call from the hotel room please omg
"don't ask me"
"Carlos"
OMG WHAT HAPPENED
big red wants the tea
O M G
SEB IS JEALOUS
JEALOUS SEBBY IS MY FAVOURITE THING IDC
I'm surprised ms Jenn knew how to give Nini permission to screenshare tbh
So lily's been stalking the East high kids and spending time editing this video while she's supposedly in an immersion trip.... right
EJ and Ashlyn's picture is so chaotic, what even is happening there
"slacking off" bestie its spring break, obviously they're confident enough that they'll get it done in time so why not focus on your own musical.
jealous seb = sassy seb
please what if those guys Carlos is posing with are his cousins or something and that's why he's so confused about Seb
6 YEAR OLD EJ I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM
Nini saying she's obsessed with her ex, that's not weird at all 👍
I can just tell Matt had a blast harassing Julia with those puppets.
Jack please dont be like that, "yet"
chances are you'll never see eachother again 🥰
(honestly sometimes I really miss those friends I made on trips and stuff when we'd spend the day or week together, only to never see them again....those were the good days though)
Ashlyn and Nini should write more songs..... something better than this one at least
Nini: "im good"
cue the Tia Mowry (please I can't spell) crying gif
oh I forgot Ricky was in the show for a hot second
1. where did Gina get to film this without people being around
2. did she just... randomly change her clothes???
ok but the transition between Carlos and EJ
*chefs kiss*
now everyone shut up, EJ's singing
oh i think I'm pregnant
HIS MUSCLES
YES KOURTNEY
I love how big red and Kourtney went from being "the best friends™" to the couple in season 1, to kinda close themselves and having their own plots
sebby makes me so happy
props to biggies editing skills honestly
PORTWELL BEING SIDE TO SIDE I CANT
AND SEBLOS OMG
big red lives for the drama
"wow" so true Ricky
no he is not cute, stop it
"holding" ok that's kinda cute
yeah EJ's a lucky guy😌
jokes aside, it's not that hard to exchange numbers-
keep in touch if you want
ok I really like Jack now
if he comes back in season 3, maybe have him be LGBTQ+ ?
like the only out characters they have rn are Seb and Carlos and they're like the sterotypes, yk?
I'd love to see jack kinda break the mold
Ricky's breaking my heart
that song just hurts
the only thing
now I don't hate Lynne????????
HOW DARE THEY WRITE IN A PROPER REDEMPTION ARC FOR HER
UGH IM SUPPOSED TO HATE HER FOREVER
I mean I don't live her now but she's good
but honestly
"mom can I show you something"
IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL
THE PICTURE AND EVERYTHING OMG
I'm sobbing please help
Gina saying she's just waiting for the right guy and then EJ coming to the airport to pick her up late at night without her asking, offering to bring her back in the morning so she won't have to Uber, bringing her a granola bar (WHICH IS EXACTLY WHAT SHE FORGOT TO PACK) and without expecting anything in return???
ms ma'am you've got a keeper right there
her smile at the end was so heartwarming I really can't.
this episode was great.
it felt really short but I liked it, great character development for Ricky, Lynne and Gina.
Cant wait for next episode to see more of EJ being the ideal boyfriend /hj
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kazewhara · 3 years ago
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'M not sure this us the new thing you added cause im regretfully as observant as a damn pickle but, is it the pronouns xe/star? If I didn't notice them before, I truly apologize, if not, then I just wanted to tell you that I'm really happy that you feel comfortable enough to share this with us zuzu^^ star is a really cool pronoun ahh and it fits you so well, you're such a warm and bright person.
You're like astronomy books and pictures taken on film and photochemical reactions *cries in synesthesia and chem major,,, how do I explain myself,,, uhhh*
Also ahhh, you don't have to answer this (especially publicly on the blog and if I made you uncomfortable im really sorry and please delete this altogether).
Juust sent this here cause well,, im better at asks than dms and again, just saying again that im really happy that you feel comfortable with sharing things about yourself, I'm proud of you zuzu for being yourself! (I know this doesn't really mean anything from someone likee me, but you gotta know that people are proud of you^^).
I hope you have/had a great day zuzu
-Hecate
no no that's part of the new thing!! xe and star are two of my favorite neopronouns to use, and i kinda don't ask people to use them because i feel like it's an inconvenience.. but no, i'm not uncomfortable at all!
actually, on the topic of neos, i also really like cloud! star, cloud, xe, fae... those are my Big Faves :D i'm happy you noticed !! and thank you :( it does mean a lot, especially from you, a person i consider to be a friend ♡♡♡
but!! that wasn't the only new thing! oh boy ,,, i'm not uncomfortable with this at all, but i'm a lot more shy than i was when i first did it..
but i made an instagram and well ..
Tumblr media
it's linked in there now! you're free to take a peek if you'd like, but it's my way of saying that i am Very Much Comfortable with the people here because really, everything about this blog is my safe space... and its my way of building confidence soooo yeah!!
im gonna go hide again actually %*×;#£@;#,#*#
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uayv · 4 years ago
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i lose braincells every time i read some fan account engage with china political rhetoricXidols. please think critically ndjksafjksdl
usually its only a light sprinkling of shit but its especially a flaming pile of shit today with so many large brands coming out with statements about xinjiang cotton/uyghur forced labour. tl'dr on the issue is that a bunch of large companies said we dont support xinjiang cotton, and in turn a whole laundry list of celebrities and idols which have contracts with them or are some level of representative for the brand, have come out with statements to cut ties with these companies. (so far...nike / puma / adidas / calvin klein / converse / h&m / uniqlo / tommy hilfiger / new balance. lmao but im sure there will be more -_-)
fans just spout endless bullshit about being proud of their idols for coming out with statements + getting all defensive cause of the hate that their celebrities/idols are receiving on chinese platforms + rt chinese propaganda media outlets proudly touting the cutting of ties with these brands. and then to add on to the dogpile are some accounts which claim some kind of cultural leverage also pile on to make it increasingly political and push more chinese nationalistic rhetoric.
nfsldkjdlask its just frustrating because i fucking hate nationalism and patriotism. (i genuinely avoid watching a lot of modern cdramas because inevitably somewhere in the script there will be an emphasis for loving 'my country'). and especially the china variety because the rhetoric is so alive in my daily fucking life. especially in this case because the fandom aspect is my usual relaxation escape + the companies and branding aspect also affects my work since i work with a few of these brands + political chinese govt discourse just happening every day here in good ol hk = every aspect of my day.
side note 1: ppl talking about being so proud of their idols for making statements and cutting ties. tbh your idol probably fucking hated it.
cause it costs them a fuck ton of money to cut contracts like that
they probably really liked that brand or else they wouldnt of partnered and becoming an official representative
these arent small brands so they'll have to put away/throw away any products they own or wear
they'll have to delete any associations with these brands on all sns
if they didnt do all of the above they would not only be blackballed in the industry but also blackballed in the whole fucking country and demonized for something out of their control..which leads me to my second point
side note 2: the amount of tweets ive seen saying 'oh man no one forced them to make these posts so stop with the western propoganda'...fuck u man. they didnt really have a choice
sure the government didnt come knocking on their door and forcing their fingers to press post. but its not fucking about that. its about the structural system built into current modern society where every bit of ur life is inherently political and a representation of the national message.
i dont give a shit about whether or not the celebrities agree or not because we wont ever fucking know.
the more famous you are the larger the pressure for you to be a 'face' for chinese soft power so inevitably you'll have to fall in line with the nationalistic rhetoric
side note 3: there are regular normal ppl who work in these brands that now are facing a nightmare situation where their jobs are fucked. if this ends up really going to shit, these brands will have to pull out of the chinese market and those peoples jobs and livelihoods are gone.
side note 4: this issue was originally about human rights but here we are....
im also just ranting cause i had to overtime at work dealing with the fallout of this issue and then right when i got off work i was also flooded with this shit
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robinisaghost · 3 years ago
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animatic ideas :0 (ramble away, i would love to hear them!!)
mk thank you for enabling me, i will now be yelling
anyway
this is gonna be so obnoxiously long i am so sorry
can you add read more's on asks? eeeekkkk because this got so damn long lmao
mild dsmp spoilers obviously
this is the playlist, by the way
-im sorry boris (wilbur soot)
i think it would work really well with mmm slightly post lmanburg niki. andby slightly i mean. well when she leaves (that is the whole thing of the song gdfjkhgsdf) also side note at like 1 minute 11 on that song theres a discord notification really subtly in the background and it makes me paranoid every time i hear it. anyway god its such a nice song. even for just like. the end of lmanburg. not necesarily paired with a character, just the sense of leaving a place that was so highly populated before it got blown up twice and was like. the main part of the smp. yeah. anyway also the lines "they'll knock down the pubs before helping you...they'll let you jump under trains before helping you" yeah those four lines have big niki vibes but also i think the song could work well with exile tommy or actually even with the finale when tubbo is about to sacrifice himself? mmmmm yeah
-this is home (cavetown)
mmmm got exile tommy vibes innit. a lot of these have exile tommy vibes tbf i just like sad songs and also exile tommy. plus the song has a lot of like. the message is sort of like. changing yourself to appeal to others? like with "ill cut my hair to make you stare" but also the repeated thing of "ill figure out a way to get us out of here" which is clearly the main character of the song trying to help everyone when they are clearly not in a good way themself. yeah thats got big tommy vibes in general tbh but more like. pre finale tommy. i think he got a bit more independant after that.
-soldier poet king (the oh hellos)
ok this is self explanatory and has been done to death already but d a m n its kinda funky. anyway i had thoughts and actually started this but then lost motivation and deleted it all lmaooo. the only proof of its existance is a shitty storyboard in my draw which will hopefully never see the light of day again (unless anyone wants to see it :eyes:) anyway i had the thought of like. sbi? so soldier techno poet wilbur and king tommy. but tbf tommy and techno are kinda interchangeable with that, cos while techno is obviously the better fighter, tommy is used a lot, especially in lmanberg era and also i think he probably will be now that wilburs back
-pyjama pants (cavetown)
ok so i honestly dont remember why this is on the playlist but tbf this could go well with a bunch of characters. thinking like. phil and wilbur? or wil and tommy, or tubbo and ranboo are two that like. i know for a fact that i did not put the song on the playlist specifically for them but god thinking about it now it works so well with them
-boys will be bugs (cavetown)
OH BOY THERES A LOT OF CAVETOWN ON HERE HUH (i feel like that probably says something about me but shhhhhh we dont need to talk about that) ANYWAY
I think this could probably work really well with tommy? because of the whole like. trying really hard to come across as not caring about others, but really being like. very vunerable. but at the same time it could go really well with wilbur for the same reasons. also the song fucks ok cant deny it. to be fair i think it works better with tommy, because he's younger and also he really likes bugs (unless i am mistaken) which is just a cool coincidence but still)
-brother (kodaline)
FUCKKKKKKKKKKK THIS WORKS SO WELL WITH SO MANY CHARACTERS AND IS ALSO ***SO ANGSTY*** WHAT
anyway
i added it because of tommy and tubbo because holy shit, but also it could work very very well with wilbur and tommy, techno and wilbur, probably techno and tommy, and oh my god i just thought of this but this would work so well with phil and techno!!!! but yeah i originally thought tommy and tubbo because i thought it was a funny coincidence with exile tommy waking up underwater, and theres a line that says "if you were drowned at sea, id give you my lungs so you could breathe" and like. just thinking about the compasses especially. me gusta.
-feel better (penelope scott)
fundy. that is all.
no ok this works well with fundy but also probably karl sapnap and quackity, and also very much wilbur, like it works well with both. just mainly fundy idk why its got big fundy vibes tho. very poggers.
-as the world caves in (matt maltese)
ok but like this goes very very well with the explosions of lamberg. either of them. i think probably the first one is better, but i think it goes well with both. probably the first one, because it was way more emotional i think? cos it was the first time that their homes had been destroyed and everything, but also because it was so personal, because wilbur was the one who did it. i think that also it would work well if it was set during the explosion but also focussed on different facets? so like. one bit about wilburs perspective, one bit about tommys, one about phils, one about fundys maybe? idk just a bunch of lmaburg citizens' povs for this. its good. as the world caves in is a song that can be so gender tbh.
-do you hear the people sing? (les mis)
obvious obvious obvious...... but like..... also tbh it goes well with a bunch of things. like, mmmmm wilbur in pogtopia. the butcher army. lmaburg independance war (obviously ghdskj) but yeah. also this song just goes so hard like b r u h
-wolf in sheeps clothing (set it off, william beckett)
SO MANY OF THESE ARE LIKE. PRETTY OBVIOUS IF YOUVE HEARD THE SONG
but yeah. it would go so well with like. well any betrayal basically. so eret, from tommys pov maybe, or about wilbur from nikis pov, or wilbur from anyone pov tbf, or quackity from charlie/purpled/foolish/sams pov, or sam from tommys pov, really it works well with so many people which says a lot about the characters tbh but shhhhhhhhhhhh
-need you here (idkhow)
OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD
mk mk mk mk FUNDY AND WILBUR THO
like b r u h that works so well with them
also i started this one as well but didnt like it, theres a story board in my draw as well for it because like. oh my god its such a good idea i just am shit at animating and don't have a decent enough program :')
also also
the line "daddy has to go, and that makes me sad, but daddy will always come back, he promised" fuckkkkkk that works so well with like. say for example, idk, when they're celebrating schlatts death and wilbur leaves to press the button? the sheer fucking angst of that is enough to kill any one person istg that is in fact the entire reason why i started the animatic in the first place. just that line. also all the lines sung by the child voice. fuckin angsty as hell. also ust generally a banging song, as is every idkhow song
-green (cavetown)
another cavetown song huh. ok sure.
mk so wilbur and sally and fundy. like. for a start, the imagry of a fish at the start? boom sally.
anyway the lines "you looked so good in green, i hope you're well, and you look so good with him, (schlatt ig?) and I'm proud of you still (wilburrrr and fundyyyy) i miss your perfect teeth, i was too blunt, i hope you feel happy, that's all I want"
FUCKKKK
the whole song is about missing someone you used to love and only hoping the best for them!!!! and wishing that they are happy and safe!!!!!!!!!!! and hoping they still think about you!!!!! but even if they dont its fine because all you want is for them to be happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
-achilles come down (gang of youths)
OK I THOUGHT IT COULDNT GET ANGSTIER
so like. tw suicide but thats what the entire song is about and bing bang boom i just think it works so so so so so so so well with not only exile tommy (who obviously did try to kill himself) but also wilbur in a slightly more metaphorical way? so like. his self destructive habits leading him to a point where he had no choice other than to kill himself and to take his country down with him. and its all about other characters trying to help them and persuade them not to but also near the end there is a second voice trying to persuade them to go along with it, which im thinking like. if its wilbur, either dream or maybe just himself. his own brain persuading him to continue down the path that would inevitably lead to his and his countries destruction. also it works well with schlatt for the same reasons, except he doesnt want to die. maybe (since the song is so goddamn long) like. one verse for tommy one for wilbur and one for schlatt? dead gang poggg but also like. the verses cover fairly different things which work with one character but not so much the others, for example the first verse would be tommy because its mainly about persuading the person to not kill themself (which tommy did himself but shhh) the second for schlatt because its literally about drinking and smoking away your problems, and the third for wilbur since its more of a fight between the "good" and the "bad" sides, which is obviously what wilbur was experiencing. also obviously i have a soft spot for this song because its string instruments and french, basically my favourite combination ever (also i like his voice idfk lmao)
ANYWAY THATS ALL THE SONGS ON THERE SO FAR
i literally thought of another song while i was in the shower today but i dont remember which it was but a n y w a y the playlist will most definitely be getting longer, especially since there are so many more songs that are good for this but i just havent added them yet lmao. anyway ive been writing this for like an hour gsdfjhgdhfsg but still oh my god this was fun to write
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minlucent · 5 years ago
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standard exploit (m)
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➾ pairing: reader x kim taehyung
➾ word count: 2.7k
➾ genre:  smut, pwp but what’s new tbh, ceo’s son!au
➾ warnings: explicit sex, choking (breath play), degradation, fingering, overstimulation, unprotected sex, dirty talk, mild drinking of alcohol,
➾ summary: your plan to get info on the scandal surrounding a big company goes differently than planned when you meet the ceo’s son
➾ a/n: um this fic got deleted for some reason so im reposting!! pls don’t let this flop my dudes // side note: i in no way am trying to say that journalists sleep with who they are reporting on to get information,, I am sure they are all hard-working individuals who are respectful and considerate. This is just my mind being dirty and looking for anything to make even the slightest bit of a plotline
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You pretty much had one goal in mind; get the information you came for and get out of there; as a journalist, you didn’t want anyone to know your approach and get the information before you. You didn’t want to come off as a scouter for information, because Mr. Kim, who was celebrating the 10th anniversary of his company tonight, would obviously not tell you anything.  If you acted innocent, like you were just at the grand ballroom of his mansion for a good time, he wouldn’t think twice about opening his mouth and spilling what you so desperately needed.  
Your editor was keen on you getting this information but wasn’t as excited about the methods you planned on using to get it. You had been working as partners for years, and he knew your ways, but although he knew that ethically, it wasn’t professional, it got the job done. He often just turns a blind eye at how you get the information from the source. After all, that’s why your organization is the most renowned in news; you break the stories that need to be told. With the flow of your words, you made empires and monopolies fall, just because you understood how men in power worked.  
The dress code was simple: formal, but professional. You put on a simple, pretty black dress that was short but long enough to leave some to the imagination, high black pumps and some pretty red lingerie.  To top off the sultry look you were going for, you painted on a deep, blood-red liquid lip, as you peered in your bathroom mirror, blotting your lips with a tissue, you decide to make things a little risky for the night.  Maybe you should forego the bra today.
You had a professional invite to the event, due to your position at the notable newspaper. You entered the elegant ballroom, lavishly decorated, and began to blend into the crowd. Men in charge of multi-billion dollar companies are easy to seduce, and you knew that you could easily get the information you needed with the bat of your eyes.
You spotted the CEO, Mr. Kim, talking a young man, who was looking rather bored you might add, that you’ve never seen before. He was stunning, with perfect facial features and a great build. Perhaps rather than getting what you need from a middle-aged man, you could get to know the handsome man better. Killing two birds with one stone.
Perhaps you were staring, because he suddenly turned away from the conversation with the CEO and locked eyes with you. You immediately looked away, cursing to yourself as you didn’t want to seem too obvious in your intentions.
You made your way to an empty standing table and looked back to see the same man walking towards you, two glasses of champagne in hand.
“No bra? Not very professional if you ask me.”
You looked down, shocked that he could tell so easily, but once you saw your nipples were hard and visible under the dark dress, you shook your head, laughing at yourself. “Formal dresses these days make it difficult to wear a bra with them,” was all you responded.  
“Fair enough. I’m not complaining.” He held one glass of champagne out for you as he began to sip on the other, but you took the one that was against his mouth for yourself. He raised an eyebrow at you, “The other one wasn’t drugged, I promise. I’m Taehyung by the way.”
“A woman can never be too safe,” you shrugged. “I’m Y/N; nice to meet you. So, I saw you talking to Mr. Kim, the man of the night.”
“Ugh, don’t praise him like that. My father is not half the man the media builds him up to me.”
His father is Mr. Kim? You knew he had a son your age but you didn’t expect him to be this handsome. However, thinking about it, they do have similar features.  There are many striking similarities.
You tried to hide your excitement; this is exactly what you wanted. “Not a very proud son, huh?”
“That’s one way to look at it,” he shook his head. “I should probably stay quiet about it though, or else I’ll get banned from coming to events like these. I can’t miss out on the drinks.” He downed half the glass. “No, but really, I’m only here for him to look like a wholesome family man, nothing else.”
You were slightly shocked how easily he was spilling his opinion on his father. Was he already drunk? You really didn’t expect things to go this easily.
You were pulled from your thoughts when he cleared his throat. “Don’t act so innocent. I know who you are and what you do.” You widened your eyes, slightly taken aback. You opened your mouth to defend yourself when he spoke again. “You’re Y/N Y/L/N. You flirt and seduce men to get them to spill information about their companies and end up destroying their career, but I seem to be the only person who knows that. Or, people don’t want to admit they so easily fell for your feminine wiles and told you everything you needed to know.” You felt your face get red and look away. You feel his hand on your jaw, making you look directly at him.
“Don’t worry. I’m not judging. In fact, I would love it if you would get your latest story about my father by working with me,” he raised his eyebrows and smirked at you, accentuating the word, giving it a double meaning.  
You grinned up at him. “Oh really? You know, once I publish the story, his career will be ruined. I’m able to do that easily. My name is very reputable. And I’m sure I can do more than just work with you,” you teased back.
“I know. I don’t approve of his methods. The way he profits off of others is despicable. He’s rude and inconsiderate towards anyone who he sees as below him; I’ve tried to get him to step down countless times.” His hand trailed up your arm, “And this way, I get to spend a night with a gorgeous woman and expose how he cheats all of his clients and workers without getting my hands dirty. As long as you don’t mention my name in the article, I’d say we have a pretty good deal; I saw the way you were staring at me. I’m sure you want me to have my way with you, don’t you?”
“You read my mind. But, I think we can save the business side of things for tomorrow, what do you say?”
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His hand, firmly planted on the small of your back, led you up the stairs and through a long hallway. No words were spoken as he led you to the room at the end of the hall; you don’t wait more than a second before you turned on the lights and put your hands on his collar and are pulling him towards you. His large hands grope your ass and he backs you into the room until your legs hit the bed and you fall back. You grin up at his figure standing above you as his hands roam your body; slowly, his lips are lowered to yours as he wraps his arms around your waist. Taehyung has one hand grasping your waist while the other slowly moves up to your chest, to your throat.
He only touches the skin lightly, let you moan and reach for his wrist; covering his fingers with yours, you squeeze his hand over your throat as you gasp, “Choke me.”
He curses as he does as you ask, closing his fingers around your throat while he pushes up the skirt of your dress. “Tsk, tsk. You’ve soaked yourself, huh? You’re a little whore aren’t you?” He doesn’t expect an answer as he takes two fingers from his free hand and rubs the wet spot on your soiled panties. You whimper as he plunges his fingers basically inside of you while ruining your fine lace lingerie. You feel your hips rut up against his fingers, but he stands in between your legs and presses his thighs into yours, keeping you pinned to the bed.  
You feel the desperate need to have his fingers inside of you and without words, you are begging him to take off your panties and finger fuck you mercilessly. Your eyes meet with his and you just know he can see the desperation in your eyes; with you rutting your hips up, trying to get any sort of friction, he smirks down at you.
“Such a needy little slut. But don’t worry, I’ll give you what you want,” he leaned down to press his lips onto yours, sliding his tongue between his lips as his hand pulled the panties down your legs. You felt one finger probe at your core, swirling around to gather your wetness; he applied just enough pressure to get you going without any relief.
You whimpered into his mouth as he dipped the tip of his finger inside you. You tried to rut up into his hand to get more of his finger but he held you down. He broke the kiss, “Be patient baby… I don’t want to rush this. I want to have you under me for as long as possible.” You frowned up at him but you were obedient in his wishes, doing just what he wanted to please him. “That’s my good girl,” he smirked as his eyes bore into yours.
He pushed his finger into you completely and massaged your walls, making you groan in pleasure. “Such a good fucking girl,” he murmured as he slipped another finger in.
“Oh, fuck!” You gasped out and sat up straight on the bed from the sudden rush of pleasure as his fingers pounded into you. You felt yourself getting wetter and wetter with each flick of his wrist, your pussy getting warmer and more swollen by the second.
“You like that? You like when my fingers fill up your cunt?” All you could do was nod as you pulled his face to yours and kissed him. He grinned down at you as he pulled away, making you whine. “I wanna hear you say it.”
“I love it, I love it when you fuck my pussy with your fingers. Please, don’t stop.”
“That’s what I like to hear,” he smirked at you as he slowed down his pace, looking for your g spot. When your hips twitch up, he knows he found it. He focused on that one spot and kept thrusting into it.
You felt the heat build up in your stomach and you knew you were getting close. You felt the hand that was placed on your hip move down to your clit, which he began to rub in slow circles, making you cum immediately. Your legs began to shake as you arched your back, cumming on his fingers.  
“Mmm, Taehyung, fuck. You make me feel so good.” You pulled away from his fingers and sat up on the bed, scooting back to have your back against the headboard.  “I want my pussy to be overflowing with your cum.” You spread your legs wide for him, giving him the perfect view of your pussy.
“So needy,” Taehyung chuckled, undoing his dress pants and stripping naked in front of you. His hard cock was gigantic, up against his abs as you could visibly see two huge veins go along the length. You licked your licks and took the same opportunity to pull your dress over your head and toss it into the pile of clothes.
He crawled onto the bed and spit onto your sopping cunt, making your pussy even more wet.  He began to position himself in front of your entrance before slowly beginning to push into you.  You gasp as you feel his dick sink into you. The head of his cock stretched you deliciously, then the rest of his length sank into you slowly.  It was when he was halfway in that you began to feel the marvelous burn as his long and thick cock stretched your walls.
He feels you tense up as he gets deeper; you weren’t expecting him to be that big.  “Hmm, you’re doing so well baby girl, taking my cock perfectly. You’re so wet, I’m sliding right in. That’s it.”
Once he bottomed out your felt your muscles relax, as his hips pressed into yours, his cock buried deep into your womb. You don’t think you’ve felt anything so deep before. Taehyung let out a groan as your walls squeezed around him.  
Taehyung pulled back almost completely until just the head of his dick was still inside you. He slammed into you, his hips snapping roughly until he was balls deep. You whimpered at the sharpness of his thrust, but that didn’t stop him. He continued pounding into you, pulling out most of the way before ramming back in. You were glad that you were flat on your back because there was no way your arms or legs could support his harsh actions.  
“Mm, fuck, I’m so deep. You feel so good. My little cockslut,” his sentences were short and gruff as he didn’t let up on his pace. “Such a good whore,” he growls as his tightened his grip on your waist.
“Your sopping cunt is still so tight, fuck.” He places his hand on your stomach where he sees this cock bulging, “You can barely handle me. If I go any harder I might tear you in half.”
“I can take whatever you give me,” you mutter, but barely able to open your eyes due to the amount of pleasure you are receiving.
“I doubt that baby. You can barely breathe correctly,” Taehyung pants, ramming into you, “I’ll fuck you so, so good baby.  You’re gonna cum and soak my dick like a needy bitch.”
“Yes, please use me, oh my god,” your eyes are squeezed shut, your voice rising in volume as you feel your orgasm approaching.
“Hm, you like being used? Like a bitch in heat?”
“Yes, please fuck me, I’m so close. Please, don’t stop,” you beg, trying to focus on the way his cock feels inside of you, brushing against your g spot.  
Taehyung didn’t need to be told twice, as his hand moved down to your clit, rubbing in so perfectly that you were sobbing. “That’s right, cum all over my cock. Let everyone downstairs know who is fucking you, who’s cockslut you are,” he was commanding as his hips rammed into yours deliberately rough to match his words.
You felt the pleasure in your stomach boil over, as the most powerful orgasm you’ve ever felt washed over your whole body. You’re in complete bliss until you feel Taehyung going even harder, continuing to thrust into you and rub your clit.
You whine, feeling tears form, “I’m too sensitive. I can’t.”
“You can and you will.” His lips lowered to your ear, “You feel so good cumming on my cock, I want you to milk my dick until you’re sobbing like the cockslut you are. Can you cum again baby girl? For me?”
The only thing you can do is nod, letting him pound into you and rub your swollen clit until you let the overstimulation turn into another orgasm, cumming for him the third time of the night. You’re exhausted, just laying there and letting him use your body as a fuck toy to get off as he continues to slam into you.
“God, you’re such a good fucking girl, letting me use you how I want. You must love this cock,” he finally cums inside of your pussy, filling you to the brim. “What do you say we go back downstairs and let this cum drip out of you? Let everyone know who claimed you?”
The man barely gave you a minute to rest before he got dressed and put your panties in the back on his dress pants. “We should go down before my father realizes I’m missing. Let’s round two after the banquet.” You grinned at him as he helped you get dressed and led you downstairs, where someone will definitely see cum dripping down your leg.
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kdjb18 · 3 years ago
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Its been a long time sense ive written anything on here cause you know no one uses this app/website like they used to say but true I was just going through my instagram finally and archiving and deleted stuff i should have years ago and i remembered i had a cool blog on here so i started reading some entries and i realized how much ive grown and ventured away from my old way of thinking im on a complete new path of understanding what a healthy relationship is and how to avoid bad habits and patterns. One of my terrible patterns was obsessing over people im getting to know. I'd have thing big idea of who i thought they were going to be and how we'd end up and it was so unhealthy because 100/100 the would be nothing like the person i imagined them to be. Once i finally realized why i was doing that i finally started recognizing signs so i could avoid making the same mistake and repeating my bad habit. I havent dated in a while because i dont settle. I'm also using all of my interactions as learning experiences right now. So im not really looking to date im kinda letting things play out and teaching myself how to handle it correctly. I'm spent alot of time getting to know myself and trying to grow as a person that honestly im not sure if i could even maintain a relationship because i have so much more work i want to do on myself before bringing someone new in my life. I could go on and on but basically iy was just nice to know ive truly grown as a person. I have alot more work to do but im proud of where i am.
8/15/21
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goldenmessenger · 5 years ago
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TS Actor AU: Reach Out Your Hand Pt 1
Summary: Before recovery can come, you have to admit you have a problem first. In 2019, Roman’s been clean for about 6 years. In 2011, however? Clean is a long way away. He’s alone. Isolated. No-one to turn to. Except he might have one person. But Roman’s ignored him for the last 4 years. But then the voicemail comes.
Read on Ao3 here.
A/N: Hey everyone! So, I’m currently working on a multi-chapter fic set after the last two fics. But that’s probably going to take me a while. So in the meantime, have this fic that’s set 8 years before the others. This is some backstory on Roman, Remus, and Dillon, and how Roman got on the first steps to recovery. Also, I meant for this to be a one-shot, but it’s going to be a two-parter. It’s too long to post all at once. I apologize in advance for this, it’s really intense and a lot of whump and angst. I promise part 2 will make up for everything, and that’ll be up tomorrow.
As usual, let me know if you want to be added to the taglist! And once again, I apologize.
Content Warnings: Drunken texts, drug abuse, drug overdose, mild violence (vague mention), self-deprecating thoughts and language, whump, angst
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Thursday, March 20, 2008
Sent at 11:24pm
Text from (xxx) xxx-xxxx:
happhy B-day roe
its me Rekus
Remus
i gootta new phonee 
im sorry
iwas the worts 
woest
worsr 
Cant typw
To drukn 
Miss u tho
First b-day wit out u
Do u mis me to?
See u on th news
Got that moie 
Movie deal u wanted
Hop ur doin wel 
That ur happy
M not
Mis u
Love u
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Friday, March 20, 2009
Sent at 2:00 pm
Text from (xxx) xxx-xxxx:
Hey Ro, happy birthday,
it’s me again. 
I wanna apologize for the mess that I sent last year. Thought you’d like to know I’m in a much better place now.
I’m in college in San Francisco, probably gonna live there after.
Gotta boyfriend, just like you always said you would if we didn’t have to deal with everyone’s expectations.
Went to therapy, boyfriend’s idea
Though he was just a best friend then
It’s been really helpful. 
I was so awful to you. 
I honestly wouldn’t blame you if you never wanted to see me again
You don’t have to forgive me, I just want a chance to talk
If you want to meet up
Just let me know
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Saturday, March 20, 2010
 Sent at 10:00 am
Text from (xxx) xxx-xxxx: 
Hey Ro
Happy birthday again. 
At this point, I know you probably won’t reply
This probably isn’t even your number anymore. 
I don’t know why I keep texting you though
Closure, perhaps?
An inability to let go?
Whatever it is, it’s kinda sad
I can’t stop though
If by any chance you are reading this, please respond
I don’t care if it’s to say you hate me, or never want to talk to me again, please
I need you
I need my brother
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Sunday, March 20, 2011
Sent at 10:00 am
Text from (xxx) xxx-xxxx: 
Happy birthday Ro!
This will probably be the last time I text you. 
My boyfriend, Dillon, pointed out that if you were going to reply, you would’ve already
I need to move on
I need to heal 
I still love you though 
You’ll always be my brother
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Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Sent at 11:00 am
Text from (xxx) xxx-xxxx: 
Ro
Ro, what the hell?
I know I said that I wouldn’t text again 
But I just saw the news
You punched someone?
What on earth
I’d honestly be kinda proud of you if I wasn’t worried
Are you doing ok? 
That’s not like you. 
I was always the violent one. 
I know what I said before, but if you need anyone to talk to, I’m here. 
I won’t be waiting for you anymore, but I’ll still be here for you, if you need me.
All you need to do is reach out.
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Sunday, August 15, 2011
Missed Call at 1:00 am
Voicemail from (xxx) xxx-xxxx: 
 “Ro—Roman! Please, please tell me you’re there, that you’re alright—
I just heard, apparently you’ve been missing for two weeks? Two whole weeks, and I didn’t know—
Please call me back, or text if that works better! Please, no one knows where you are, if you’re ok, nothing!
I — I can’t lose you Roman.
I mean, maybe I did already, maybe I did a long time ago—
But that was different. At least you were alive. You were happy. At least, I thought you were happy. I’m not so sure about that anymore. 
But if by some miracle, some crazy insane miracle you still have this number, if you’re ok, please please let me know. 
I love you so much Ro. 
I don’t think I ever said it enough, but I do. So, so much. 
I hope wherever you are, you’re ok.”
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The dark hotel room was illuminated only by the screen of his phone. He stared at it with glassy eyes, unseeing, as the message finished playing. Roman was leaning against the bed, sitting on the floor. His phone was gleaming on the ground next to him. 
Roman had read Remus’s texts as they came, of course, but he hadn’t thought they were sincere. That they were real. Nothing else in his life was, not even his own parents. So why should his own twin be an exception? But he didn’t delete the texts or block the number. He let the messages keep coming. And he didn’t know why. 
Maybe because part of him had wanted to hope. Why else would he be where he was now? Why else would he have used the most of the little money he had left to get himself here? Here in a dingy little motel on the edge of San Francisco. He hadn’t told anyone where he was going, not that anyone cared. Maybe Remy might’ve. Remy, who Roman realized now might’ve been his only real friend. At least, he could’ve been, if Roman hadn’t pushed him away when Remy had attempted to convince Roman he had a problem. Pushed him away just like Roman had done to everything else good in his life. 
That’s why he hadn’t contacted Remus yet. Why he’d sat here in this room with it’s flea-ridden bed and peeling wallpaper for almost two weeks now, only leaving to buy food from the nearby convenience store. Remus’s texts had seemed like he was doing well. Roman had looked at his Facebook too. Remus was in college, was living with his boyfriend, a job working as a tech at a local theater. He seemed happy. Roman couldn’t bring himself to ruin that like he ruined everything else. 
But that voicemail—he hadn’t ever heard Remus sound so frightened before. So worried. And about Roman, of all people. Why? Why on earth? Sure, they’d been close as kids, but they hadn’t even been in the same room for years. And Roman had ignored all of Remus’s attempts to make contact since. He couldn’t understand it. It made his head hurt. He was feeling bitterly jittery, and not very glittery. 
That was a weird sentence. When did his thoughts stop making sense? He needed his pills, needed them. He couldn’t deal with all of these thoughts and emotions. He needed them to go away. He needed them to stop. He fumbled on all fours for the bottle, and finally found it, open and empty. That wasn’t right, it’d been full only...only...he couldn’t remember. A wave of dizziness hit him, and he pitched forward, face planting into the ground. 
Something wasn’t right. Why was his brain so fuzzy. Everything hurt so much, he couldn’t think. He needed help. He needed Remus. He somehow managed to find his phone, and hit the contact simply labeled “R.”
The phone rang. And rang. Finally, it was picked up. And a familiar voice spoke.
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Remus ran his hand through his sleeping boyfriend’s hair. It was a calming motion that somewhat helped to calm his racing mind. But not by much. Dillon had attempted to convince Remus to rest, but Remus couldn’t sleep. Not when Roman was missing. He’d gotten the news around midnight, from a former friend of Roman’s, Remy. 
Remy had been the one to tell Remus that Roman had been struggling with a drug addiction, though Remy didn’t know how long. He’d tried to get Roman some help as soon as he found out, but the other man had rejected it and broke off their friendship. Remy had gone to Roman’s apartment that morning to attempt to repair their relationship, with the hope that he could eventually convince Roman to get some help. But he was nowhere to be found. The door was unlocked, and there was two weeks worth of mail on the floor. He’d found Remus’s number on accident, on a post-it on Roman’s fridge, labeled “Bro.” That’s when he’d called Remus and, upon finding out he was Roman’s brother, told him everything.
Remus didn’t quite understand why Roman had his number saved like that, but the more pressing concern was finding Roman. Remus attempted to call Roman several times, each one going straight to voicemail.
He didn’t blame Dillon for falling asleep though. Remus would if he could. He couldn’t though. The hand that wasn’t running through Dillon’s hair had a death grip on his phone. He couldn’t stop staring at it, praying to anyone who would listen that it would ring.
He didn’t know what he expected though. Roman had never responded to him in the past, so why would now be any diff— 
“I’m a Barbie Girl, in a Barbie wooorld
Life in plastic, it’s fantastic...”
Remus startled as his phone’s ringtone filled the room. Next to him, Dillon shifted and blinked tiredly at him. 
“Why on earth do you still have that obnoxious song as your ringtone?” Dillon questioned, a little grumpy at being woken so unceremoniously. 
“You can brush my hair, undress me everywheere
Imagination, life is your creation...”
Remus could barely hear him. He could barely hear his own ringtone. All he could do was stare at the name that lit up the screen.
Lil bRO(man)
“Come on, Barbie, let's go party!”
Dillon looked up at Remus, the sleep slowly fading from his gaze as his brain slowly began to catch up.
“Re, what’s wrong?”
“I’m a Barbie Girl, in a Barbie wooorld
Life in plastic, it’s fantastic...”
The chorus of the song began to repeat, and Remus knew he was running out of time. This was something he’d wanted for years, and now, it was happening right in front of him. But he was frozen. For some reason, he couldn’t answer the phone.
“You can brush my hair, undress me everywheere…”
When Remus didn’t respond, Dillon sat up, and saw the phone lying limp in his boyfriend’s grasp.
“Imagination, life is you—”
Quick as a lightning bolt, Dillon grabbed the phone and hit ANSWER before it could go to voicemail. Almost as quick, he hit the speaker button.
There was a long moment of silence. Too long. Finally, Remus’s voice returned.
“Ro, is that you?” He asked, hopefully. “Are you ok, are you hurt, where—”
“Re. I— I didn’t acshully think you’d anshwer.”
Roman’s familiar voice leaked through the speakers like water through a broken dam. Despite Remus’s relief, however, he immediately recognized something was wrong. One look at Dillon’s face told Remus that he’d heard it too. The way Roman’s words slurred themselves together. Remus took a deep breath. He knew how to handle this. He just needed to stay calm.
“Of course I would.” Remus said sincerely. “Ro, why don’t you tell me where you are? Maybe I can come to you and we can have this conversation in person?”
However, Roman didn’t seem to hear Remus’s question.
“I meshed up Re, meshed up big time, I ran ‘way from evything ‘cause I shcrewed up, an’ now I’m losht an’ allone an’ I jus’ wanted to hear your voishe one lasht time…”
Remus felt his heart seize in panic at those words. He grabbed the phone out of Dillon’s hands as the man looked on worriedly. Remus clutched that phone like it was his lifeline. No, Roman’s lifeline.
“Roman, wait, what do you mean, one last time? Where are you, what’s going on?”
“Ate too many of th’ pret-ty white circles, and now I can’ shtand up right and m’ brain won’ work.”
Roman’s voice grew thick, and it began to sound like he was crying.
“M sorry Re, ‘m an awful brother. I can’ do anything righ’ an’ I was too much of a cow-ward to tell you I was here.”
Remus’s eyes widened in shock as his brain processed the information. White circles, didn’t a lot of pills take that form? Including addictive ones. And Roman was here? San Francisco?
He looked over to Dillon to find that his boyfriend had his own phone out, and was callling someone. Dillon caught his gaze, and mouthed 911. Keep him talking. Remus took a deep breath. He needed to keep it together. For Roman’s sake. 
“Roman, you’re going to be fine, just tell me where you are, and I’ll be right there. You said that you’re here? Where is here?”
“Th’ golden ci-ty, home of Saint Franny. Wan-ed to talk to you, couldn’ get up th’ nerve. ‘M in this shtupid lil hot-tel, it schucks. Bayshide Mot-tel, I think. Rom 320. Picked it cause it wash our birth-dayte.”
Remus quickly glanced over to Dillon urgently, and his boyfriend began relaying Roman’s location to the paramedics. 
“Ro, we’ll be right there, just hold on, ok? We’re on our way.” 
No response.
“Roman, Roman!”
Silence echoed from the other end of the line. 
“No, nononononono no! Roman, please!”
In a dark dingy motel room several miles away, the only sound was a brother’s anguished cries, and the only light was that of a cracked phone screen next to a limp hand.
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AN: Again, I’m really sorry about this cliffhanger, and I will fix it tomorrow.
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[ NICOLA PELTZ / POLYTROPOS / HORME / MUSE #13 ] / [ ELEANOR ILARIA ] is a [ TWENTY ONE ] year old [ MARINE BIOLOGY ] major. [ SHE/HER ] is known for being [ + PROTECTIVE & + PASSIONATE ] but [ - CARELESS & - DETACHED]. when i think of them, i imagine [ HIGH SPEED MIDNIGHT CAR RIDES TO NOWHERE, NEON LIT ALLEYWAYS, CIGARETTE ASH FALLING ONTO CONCRETE PAVEMENTS ]. and even though they’re a proud HU student now, we all have our roots. theirs run back to them being a [ MARBLE HILL PREPATORY (IGNIS) ] graduate. i asked around and it turns out they [ AREN’T ] an AOP student. in their interview, they managed to woo the admissions team by [ THEIR VOLUNTEER WORK PORTFOLIO + HIGH GRADES ]. i guess that’s all there is to know! unless… [ dakota / 22 / est / she/her ]
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hey, hey! my name is DAKOTA and im here to bring you the current loml ELEANOR ILARIA. if you wanna know more abt her keep reading !! and my inbox is always open for new plot ideas and past connections.
TW: ADDICTION, TW: OVERDOSE.
THEME SONG: delete forever by grimes
OVERVIEW
ella is my fighty little problem child. she’s always up for a good time, so if you need a partner in crime she’s prob the one you should go to. if you ever find yourself up at three am and need someone to go toilet paper your ex’s house she’s the one to call. if she was in hogwarts she’d be a gryffindor. favorite movie genre is horror. and if you touch her little sister, you might get a punch in the face.
FAMILY
eleanor is the black sheep of the family yet the pressured heiress trope at the same time. her family is comparatively very wealthy and as the eldest she has always been expected to carry on the family legacy by doing something important, really making something of her life. when she was accepted into hu it wasn’t a surprise, it was merely expected. what did surprise them however was her choice in major. people, in her eyes, weren’t worth helping. all they had done her entire life was let her down, use her. manipulate her. but animals were different, more innocent. so like she had done her entire life, she pushed back from the pressure and after telling them she was going for business management and administration, she secretly applied for marine biology instead. the fallout wasn’t the prettiest, but at least she wasn’t stuck doing something she hated the rest of her life. 
ADDICTION
TW: OVERDOSE, ADDICTION. in her junior year of high school she met a girl named lacey who was a year older than her. it wasn’t long before she was imitating her -- from her clothes, to her newfound niccotine addiction, to the way she snuck out at midnight when normally be tucked tightly to sleep by ten pm. they did everything together and eleanor found herself wanting more and more to please her, to make her think she was cool enough to be seen with the kind of people lacey hung out with. first it was as innocent as weed, then came lsd, and suddenly each time that she was handed a pill she didn’t even ask what kind it was before popping it back with a swig of water. it wasn’t about lacey, or looking cool anymore. it was about chasing the high and escaping her problems. she first knew she had a problem when she caught herself snooping through her younger sisters underwear drawer for some extra cash when her parents had caught on and took away her credit card. her worst was about a year ago, where it got to the point where she overdosed and almost died until her sister elena found her. after she saw elena’s face when she woke up in the hospital, she hasn’t touched anything since.
CURRENT CONNECTIONS
elena ilaria — TW: OVERDOSE, ADDICTION. the only one in her family she would actually call family is her sister, elena. the two have been close knit since diapers. every milestone, every bump in the road, they’ve been there for each other. not every moment was happy or on good terms but in the end they’ve always come out of it closer. in the darkest moments in her addiction, elena was a little bit of light that helped her pull through. most of the times she’s gotten clean its been for her sister. she’s currently been clean for the longest because her last scare she overdosed and almost died and elena was the one who found her. seeing her sisters face after she woke up in the hospital had given her the drive she needs to really get clean.
WANTED CONNECTIONS
past lovers, ex best friends, current best friends -- please come give me all of them !! i’m down for everything just plot with m pls :)
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