#and Kyle admits defeat. looking away 'Okay..'

[treasure444]

A Deadly Secret John Price x Vampire Female Reader WC: ~1.5K Summary: You always tried to be good. Normal. But that falls apart the moment John Price finds out what you are. Content Warnings: Talk about blood, Smut, MINORS DO NOT INTERACT, John Price (He's absolutely a warning)

It had been a secret for a long time. No one fully understood the depth. You had kept up a great plan. Always hiding away on missions, feeding on the bodies of half alive soldiers. Enemies. Never your own. Until one mission, Price saw you get shot. Saw the bullet pierce your flesh. All but running to you, while returning fire. He had to stop the bleeding.

Cursing, he sat beside you, ready to press his hands against the wound, only to find no wound. “I’m okay.” You smiled softly, and got up like it was nothing, running to the evac point.You weren’t hurt, and not once did you falter. He was baffled. 

It was a few hours after the evac before you had all actually made it to the base again, and you still hadn’t had any signs of someone who got shot. Price couldn’t understand it. Once everyone was settled in the mess hall that night, Price opted to find out. 

He practically cornered you after dinner in the lounge room, and asked very softly if he could speak to you, so as no one else could hear him, and lead you to his office. 

You knew exactly what his line of questioning would be, it was what kept you hopping around team to team. Never staying in one place for too long. 

But damn it. You didn’t want to keep hoping from team to team anymore! You liked this one. The 141 had become a home, though no one truly knew you, knew the secrets. They treated you like you mattered to them. Each one becoming a friend in their own right. 

Johnny was friends with everyone, loud and boisterous, you could be a bit more reserved with him. Kyle had this quiet charm about him, someone you felt like you had known for years before you actually did. Simon was a bit harder to crack, but once you did the bad jokes flowed, and Simon had always been someone to listen to you before asking if you needed solutions, or just to vent. Price was probably the friend you had treasured most. Though, you’d never admit it out loud. He was the protective figure you weren’t aware you needed. Always checking in, and making sure everything was going okay. 

Once in the confines of his office, with the door shut tightly, the dreaded conversation started. “I need to understand.” He walked around his desk. You had stationed yourself near the small sofa in the corner of the room, but not sitting. Sitting meant this would be a long conversation, and you didn’t have the stomach for it.

”No, you don’t… you want to. There is a difference, Captain.” You spoke, eyes never leaving the cracked leather. 

“Then, help me understand.” 

“It’s not that easy.” You began picking at your dry cuticles, calloused skin flaking off.

“It could be.” You felt his eyes, and somehow that made you finicky. It made you want to crawl out of your own skin. Something you very rarely ever felt. 

“Can we just let it go? It’s nothing. I didn’t get hurt, didn’t get shot. I’m fine.” You finally had mustered the courage to look up at your superior, only to find him leaning back further in his chair. Thighs spread wide. Arms crossed in front of him, and you cursed yourself for finding him so attractive in that moment.

“No, Sergeant. We can’t let it go. I watched the bullet pierce your flesh. I saw it.” His eyes narrowed, as if he was trying to figure it out before you could tell him. 

You really didn’t see any way out of this. But you had to try, one final time. “Please.” You whispered. 

John looked at you, not saying anything else, but the resolve in his eyes. You knew he wasn’t going to let up, wasn’t going to let you leave his office, until you told him. You sighed in defeat, before once again turning your attention to the cracked sofa. “I’m not like you. I’m not,” you struggled for the words, “human…” 

You didn’t have to see John to know the look of confusion his face most likely expressed. But you powered through, “I’m a vampire. And I know.. ‘They’re not real’. I assure you they are. Assure you that I am one. I,” You took a steadying breath, before fully turning to face him, “I only feed on the enemy. I only feed on the half dead soldiers, that you and the boys leave alive.” 

John still didn’t say anything, leaning forward, and grabbing a sharp hunting knife out of his desk. You held your breath, and softly, “what are you doing?” 

Finally, he spoke up, “here I thought fresh blood was better.” He believed you, though you had no reason to lie to him, you found yourself relieved. It was, however, short lived. 

“Well, it is. That’s why I have to feed more frequently. The blood congeals in the bloodstream if it’s left for too long. Which forces me to have to feed pretty quickly after you make the kill. But I don’t mind!” You, once again found yourself picking at your skin, “Am I going to have to find a new task force…?” Your voice thinned out. 

You felt your stomach drop as John admired his knife, before putting it straight up to his hand. “Not if you don’t want to”, came his reply before he applied just the slightest amount of pressure, and opened a wound on his hand. Your mouth ran dry. 

John held his hand out to you. You shook your head despite everything in your body screaming at you to go over there. Fangs push their way out of your gums, causing your mouth to slightly shift. “Let me see you. The real you.” 

“This is reckless.” This time when your mouth settled, he saw the edge of the fangs poking out. 

“You won’t hurt me.” He was so resolute in his statement. He didn’t think you would hurt him, he truly believed it. 

“I could.” Your hand slid through your hair. Though you would try your best to not hurt the captain, you couldn’t make any promises. “Will you please stop the bleeding?” 

“Your self control should be admired… but I want you to come over here and stop it yourself.” He was bleeding on the carpet. You could hear the little droplets hitting the floor, the sound of air whooshing through your ears, his heartbeat. 

“Please.” You slowly took a step towards him.

“That’s it.” You could see the smirk on his face, but all you were focused on was his hand. You continued to advance towards him, saliva pooling in your mouth at how you thought he’d taste. “Just one little bite, dove.” 

That had been your nickname, you thought it cruel at the time it was given to you. “No.” You uttered firmly. Taking his hand in yours, you licked a stripe up where the blood had pooled to, due to gravity, all the way to the incision point. 

John watched in awe as your saliva had healed the wound almost instantly. You stood to your full height, headed for the door, before he grabbed you. 

He pulled you into his lap. Though you didn’t resist very much. It was a trance, it had to have been. Caused by the taste of him. You settled yourself on your knees, straddling the captain. “Take your fill.” His voice washed over you, as his hands settled at your waist. 

You just couldn’t help yourself as you sank your teeth into his neck. John let out the most guttural moan you think possible, as his blood, his life line, flowed into your mouth. You didn’t want to take too much… but you needed this. Needed a warm body, as a chill took over yours. He was so willing. He trusted you. 

Whimpering, you leaned closer, hands grasping at any part of Price that you could. “That’s it sweetheart..” You could feel his breathing stutter under your hands. ”Shit..” His hands pull you further into him. 

“Fuck, that’s it..” You could feel him lean further back, taking you with him. “Good girl…” 

You let out a soft moan, you had never been one to get into the feeding. Most of the men you fed on were half dead, but not John. His hands were caressing every square inch of your waist, hips lifting off the chair up into your body. Grinding so softly you wondered if he even realized he was doing it. That’s when it hit you. John Price was getting off on you feeding on him. 

“Fuck, dove. Please.” He whined. Deciding to toy with him, if only slightly. You stopped feeding, but left your mouth latched onto his neck, tongue gently licking over the puncture wounds, as he ground against you firmly. 

A slight noise of surprise escaped before you started feeding once more. The moans, and soft grunts leaving Price’s lips got louder and louder. Until you felt his entire body tense under you, and then shudder, one final pornographic moan and he relaxed against the chair and you disconnected entirely. 

John’s hand caught your wrist before you could fully slide off him. “You’re not going anywhere. Once I get my strength back… I’m repaying the favor.” 

[bloogers-boogers]

College AU hc:

Cartman is asexual and sex repulsed. He has a huge crush on Kyle that's pretty obvious to everyone around him. Kyle assumes that Cartman is just lusting after him and wants sex from him, but it's far from the truth. Ah yes, Cartman's homoerotic fantasy: holding hands, cuddling and hugs, how kinky lol.

I can see that, with how much it’s implied that Cartman’s has been sexually abused in the show he’ll probably prefer to stay away from anything related to intercourse. And of course eventually Kyle has to learn to be understanding of Cartman’s preferences. Tho I feel there’s gonna be alot of complications in their relationship because of this same issue but they’ll manage to overcome it after a brief time.

However I also see Kyle just cuddling Cartman after a huge fight they had because of this.

I see Cartman still not telling Kyle of being asexual just admitting his sex repulse but is never taken seriously because he tends to joke about it instead.

They were in middle of a makeout session while in bed and Kyle got turned on and just flipped Cartman over outta pure lust; he wasn’t being harsh but it was obvious what was on his mind as he plant small kisses on Cartman’s ears while grabbing his waist, in Kyles mind he was being sweet and romantic but ofcourse Cartman did not react well to it and kicked Kyle off shouting profanities at him as the shouting escalated.

“¡I get you want my hot body so damn much but that doesn’t give you the right to manhandle me!”

“¡I’m sorry, Cartman! I- I dont know what happened in me but I would have never gone further from that!”

“U huh, but you couldn’t just NOT flipped me over?? How the fuck am I suppose to trust you if you do shit like that!???”

“¡Fuck you, Eric! If you really see me capable of doing the shit those pigs did to you as a kid!”

*complete silence*

“You think…”

“What else do you expect me to believe? After you keep reacting like I’m about to rape you!”

“Kyle…” Cartman bites his down lip, he sighed defeated calming himself down as he rubs his face, “Kyle i don’t- I know you would never.. I- look, im sorry okay? I just.. don’t feel like going to that length.”

“Why not!? You keep dogging it and not explaining me why! Am I not good enough? Cause by this point I believe you find me disgusting.”

Cartman stares at Kyle in awe before walking towards him and holding on to his flushed cheeks, “Kyle I think you’re the most beautiful man out there..”

Cartman can hear Kyle gulp as he stares at him deeply into his eyes; listening to him attentively.

“I just don’t want to have sex, I find it disgusting.” He moves away, now arms crossed facing away from Kyle. “The act of two individuals taking off their clothes, rubbing against each other for fricción and some humping to gain pleasure .. I find it not only a humiliating display but a desperate act of attention.

When the most pleasurable thing you could receive is some warm hugs, kisses and hand holding. Isn’t that enough to please someone at whole? It’s enough for me.” He turns to look at Kyle; who now looks very confused. Cartman groaned annoyed, rolling his eyes, “Kyle I’m asexual you dumbass!”

“YOU’RE WHAT”

[bluejaysandblackbats]

Bloody Valentines

Fandom: DC Comics, Batfam, Young Justice 98, Titans, GL Corps, Legion of Super Heroes, Flashfam, New Gods

Summary: 90s vampire slasher AU

Chapters: 4/?

Characters: Dick Grayson, Joseph Wilson, Jason Todd, Charley Parker, Zatanna, Eddie Bloomberg, Daniel Cassidy, Chester Williams DC, Guy Gardner, Kyle Rayner, Lilith Clay, Raven Roth, Kole Weathers, Bette Kane, Donna Troy, Roy Harper, Jenni Ognats, Bart Allen, Virgil Hawkins, Richie Foley, Ayla Ranzz, Zoe Saugin, Rol Purtha, Darla Aquista, Lori Zechlin, Hal Jordan, Helen Jordan II, Orion DC, Lightray DC

Relationships: DickJoey, Daniel Cassidy/Zatanna, Jenni Ognats/Virgil Hawkins, Raven/Lilith Clay

Additional Tags: POV First Person, Unreliable Narrator(s), Vampires, No Capes AU, 90s Slasher AU, Homoeroticism, Horror, Slasher

Chapter Four: The Figure in the Dark (Guy's POV)

Kyle was a sweet guy, but he could be an airhead sometimes. We had to stop twice because Kyle forgot his first aid kit, road trip lunch, and palette. So, we went to a store outside town where he spent half an hour flirting with the counter girl. I had to practically drag him away. It bugged me sometimes, but I wouldn't want to vacation with anyone else. He'd been through a lot in the past year, and I wanted to give him a nice weekend away from the hustle and bustle of the city. That, and I thought he'd want to see the lighthouse there. He liked stuff like that. We got to our cabin at sundown, and Kyle insisted on investigating a light he saw in the distance when we passed the beach. I grabbed a flashlight, and he grabbed a pack of franks on the way out the door. "Why are you taking our weenies to approach the ominous light on the beach?" I whispered.

"Don't call them weenies, Guy," Kyle mumbled as he shook his head in disgust. "And... I think I see a mini skirt in the distance-."

"Is that all you think about?" I interrupted. "You ever heard of Fatal Attraction, Kid?"

Kyle chuckled and ran ahead of me. I followed close behind and flashed a light on a few people standing around a bonfire on the beach. "Sorry, can't hear you over the babes, the beers, and the bonfire. Oh my! Does anybody like hotdogs?" Kyle questioned.

A guy came around with roasting sticks, and I admitted defeat. I roasted weenies and cracked open a beer. I glanced up at the stars from a beach chair. Kyle plopped down next to me, his skin touching mine. Cold. He'd been cold since I met him. "You okay?" I asked. Kyle shivered and nodded.

I grabbed a blanket off the back of the chair and draped it over him, and he insisted on sharing the blanket with me. "It's okay. This is a gay beach," Kyle whispered.

"A what? Kyle, that's not a thing," I replied, "Besides, we aren't a couple."

"Yeah, but if it's a gay beach, it doesn't matter if it looks gay. I'm cold, and you're warm, and I wanna share this blanket with you," Kyle explained.

"Kyle, you do things that seem gay all the time. I thought you were gay for the longest," I confessed.

"Name one gay thing I've done," Kyle commanded. He wasn't going to let it go. Maybe I should've kept my mouth shut.

"You once described one of your male friends as divine art in motion while admitting that you'd date him if you were a woman," I answered. Kyle opened his mouth to protest, but he knew I was right. "Most of your friendships seem homoerotic, but I don't mind. You care about people, and you shouldn't change that for anybody. And it's the nineties. Being in touch with your emotions is cool now."

"I forgot you never lie about anything," Kyle replied as he took my beer. He took a sip and glanced upward. "You know the constellations. Right? You used to teach them to the kids."

"Tonight, we have Delphinus. Delphinus is the dolphin Poseidon sent to fetch Amphitrite in the myth," I described. Kyle poked his lip out and nodded.

"And you just know that? Like, you can look and tell?" Kyle asked. I nodded. "That's so cool."

"Thanks," I replied, "It's never gotten me laid." Kyle's eyes widened, and he looked at me for a response. "I'm serious."

He laughed and bit his lip. "That implies you've tried it on someone before," Kyle chuckled.

"I have," I replied.

"Listen, if it makes you feel better, I'll fool around with you for sharing your astronomy knowledge," Kyle teased. I spit out my beer. "Top of the clothes action only... Unless you take me somewhere nice first."

"I did take you somewhere nice. There's a lighthouse out this way and everything," I replied. Kyle laid his head on my shoulder.

We sat on the beach for an hour before returning to our cabin in the dark. I let Kyle use the shower first while I made something to eat. Real food. Not hotdogs. Kyle came out in time to eat with me and offered to wash the dishes for me after. I nodded and took my shower before heading off to bed.

Then, the strangest thing happened. It started to rain. No. Not rain. It stormed. Thunder, lightning, hail. The whole shebang. Kyle knocked on my room door, and I let him in. "I'm not scared," Kyle whispered. Then thunder boomed so loud it shook the cabin, and he damn near jumped into my arms.

"Scared of a little thunderstorm?" I teased.

"No! I'm not scared... I wanted to check on you," Kyle lied, "And since you're obviously terrified, I insist on sleeping in here tonight to protect you from this completely harmless storm."

Kyle jumped into my bed, and I smiled, shaking my head as I joined him. Lightning flashed, and he hid under the covers. "Sitting on a mattress is one of the safest things to do during a thunderstorm," I whispered before turning on my side.

Lightning flashed, thunder rumbled, and I swore I saw something standing outside in the rain. I flipped over lightning fast and knocked foreheads with Kyle. "Jesus!" Kyle cried out as he clutched his forehead.

"Did you-. Did you see that?" I asked.

"You conking me with your big ass head? No! No, I didn't see that," Kyle snapped as he rubbed circles in the center of his forehead.

"Sorry... But did you see the guy outside? Or maybe it was a chick... I dunno," I whispered as I made eye contact with him. I was scared to look at anything else.

Kyle sat up, and lightning flashed again. He ducked down and grabbed my hand. "Well? Did you see them?" I asked.

"I don't remember," Kyle whispered. We didn't say anything after that. I think we were both scared shitless. Kyle fell asleep after that, but I couldn't shake the feeling of wanting to cut and run. Kyle tossed and turned, whimpering and moaning as if something hurt.

"Kyle... Kyle, wake up," I whispered.

He opened his eyes, and when he saw me, he shoved his face into the pillow and started sobbing. "I know I'm no Mr. Universe, but-. Jeez, Kid..." I sat up and rubbed his back. I knew he had a lot of traumatic stuff happen to him over the years, but I had no idea he was so messed up.

Kyle cried until he fell asleep, and it was forgotten. I would've fixed everything broken in him if I could've. Kyle was a good person. He might've been a flirt and an airhead, but he was compassionate, forgiving, and one of my best buds. He slept like a baby after that, and the rain eventually stopped.

[divinerulerluvr]

If you're still doing the angst prompts can i get 23.“How do I make you love me again?” with either jimmy or kyle? I understand if not! ty :)

okay :)

“How do i make you love me again?” With Jimmy Darling

Small warning of alcoholism and substance abuse

- - -

Jimmy stumbles into my caravan, clearly very drunk.

We had just had a fight about him being an alcoholic but here he is, shitfaced at four in the morning. I stay in my bed, ignoring how he slurred my name out.

“Come on, Y/n,” he whines, standing at the end of my bed. I sit up, glaring at him. He has a frown on his lips. His eyes were bloodshot and his skin was pale. ”What’re you doing?” i ask him flatly, not bothering to be nice to him while he’s in this sloppy state.

“I-I felt bad about earlier and I wanted to apologize to... you,” he stammers. I hadn’t seen him this level of drunk in a while. Jimmy had three levels of drunkenness. 

Level one, he would be a little happier than usual. Irrational and irresponsible were the only good ways to describe him in this state.

Level two, it was more sloppy and he usually got more sappy and mushy during this state. Apologizing for being a shitty person or telling me how much he loves me.

Level three was the level that told you he was in a bad place. He rarely reached this level. If he did, it was followed by him disappearing for a good twelve hours and coming back with either random money, or no money at all.

Right now, he was at level three.

“You’re drunk, Jimmy. Go to sleep,” i say with complete and utter irritation. He sighs heavily, closing his eyes in disappointment. “I’m sorry but you’re right. I have a problem and i-i need help,” he keeps speaking even though i had laid back down in my bed and rolled onto my side as a way to ignore him.

“I need your help. I don’t know how to fix my problems. It-It’s hard to just drop an addiction like that,”

I stay silent, my lips pressed tight together as i feel a tight knot in my chest. I always felt this way because of him. “Just go away. We can talk when you’re sober,” i mumble.

He stays silent for a moment and i think for a second that he had left. But of course, he was still in my caravan.

“Do you even love me anymore?” he asks, breaking the momentary silence that i had genuinely enjoyed. I sit up in my bed again, staring dead at him. “We can talk when you’re sober, Jimmy. I’m not talking to you when you’re like this,” i try to say one last time.

He doesn't accept the excuse. “Just answer my question, Y/n,” he says, his slurred voice clearing just a bit.

“I don’t love this side of you,” i answer honestly, almost afraid to admit the fact to him. His face falls and i can just feel the heartbreak in him. I immediately feel guilty about my words.

“How do i make you love me again?”

I furrow my brows, my eyes adverted from his so i didn’t have to see the saddened look in them.

“Get sober,” i say plainly.

He stares at me for a moment before nodding in defeat. “I love you, Y/n. I’m not gonna lose you over something as stupid as being an alcoholic,”

“Then get sober,” i keep insisting, ignoring his attempts to make me take back the statement. He presses his lips together, his face going blank before he turns to leave my caravan.

The moment i hear the door close behind him, i fall back onto my bed. 

My blankets usually smelt like him. It was the only thing bringing me comfort through the nights he was on a bender.

Now, they just smell like cologne from a store.

- - -

this got depressing real quick i apologize.

[falloutjay]

Eric x careless/troublemaker reader, reader was always a crazy kid, she felt no one really understood her, and her only real friend was Esther Stoley, Annie Knitts and Nicole. But Reader has always admired Eric and never gotten why everyone hated him (she finds both Kyle and Wendy very annoying). One day, she finds him and Butters making their next scheme, and she wants in. After an effective day of pranking, they (well Eric but reader likes Butters's company) take her under their wing. They generally start hanging out and starts to be the 'girl' of the main group (she thinks of Stan, Butters and Kenny has her brothers) and she finds Eric and Kyle's banter hilarious. It gets better (for her at least): she always defends him now (be it irrationally, rationally, verbally or physically) like: Heidi tried to warn Reader about Eric...but the poor girl leaves with a broken nose or Wendy was just upset how someone so awful, could have someone advocate for them and starts to plan to tell her about the breast cancer incident when Bebe would tell that it's Y/n and if anything, what she did to him would just make her stay more, making Wendy stop. She was also a big fan of the Coon and would just gush about how cool he was (she does like Wonder Tweek, Mosquito and Toolshed but she loves Coon the best). Everyone was pretty divsive, some people thought it was funny and teased him on it (like: Craig, Stan and Kenny), some people shipped it (like: Clyde, Butters and weirdly Nicole/Tweek), but some people were afraid of those two becoming a couple (Kyle, Heidi and Wendy). Eric is strangely 'no comment'y about all this until one day, Eric is just about to be turned into the principal when suddenly Reader in a elorate plan, knocks out the witness and pins the blame on someone else. After that's over, Reader can't take it anymore and happily asks him to be her partner/boyfriend and Eric proudly accepts and the two go on to create to create anarchy. May others pray for their safety.

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I'm currently still in the process of moving and my exams are still not over, but I'm trying!

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Eric Cartman x careless!troublemaker!female!Reader

“Don’t you think that’s a bit extreme Eric?” Butters asked, eyebrow raised as he listened to Erics new pranking plan. “No, it’s not at all, “eXtRemE”.” Eric retorted and shook his head.

They didn’t notice that someone approached them, listening to their plan. “W-well if you say so, I trust you, Eric.” As the fatter one of the two heard a twig snap, his head turned immediately and look at a kid from their class. What was her name again? “Who are you?” Eric asked unimpressed. “Y/N.” She answered dryly.

Butters kept looking between the two, moving his head, whenever someone said something. “What do you want?” “I want in on your plan.” “What makes you think I want someone like you in this? You normally play with the girls.”

“What does that have to do with anything. Just because I hang out with Esther, Annie and Nicole…That changes nothing about the fact that I love what you’re planning here, and I want in.” Eric seemed to think about the proposition for a second.

“Okay. I think I need one more person around here. Butters can barely do one fucking job.” So, he explained the plan to you in big detail. And in your humble opinion, it was brilliant. Once Eric had finished explaining, he looked at you with a sly smile.

“So, what do you think?” You pretended to think for a second, before an evil grin appeared on your face. “Why stop there? We can also pull a prank on the teachers and the school buses if we put in a little more effort.” “Never thought about that one before. I like your way of thinking, Y/N.”

The two looked into each other’s eyes, clearly seeing that mischievous spark in each pair of eyes. Butters watched you in horror, afraid of what he had just now witnessed. “Ohhh hamburgers.”

Y/N became a regular in Stans gang rather fast. Kenny and Stan love her to bits, just like she does. They love hanging out with her and to Kenny she’s like Karen. One thing that Y/N really enjoys is listening to Kyle and Eric's bickering. No matter the topic and no matter how loud or extreme the two get, she just sits there like it’s a cinema and the two are the newest marvel movie. Speaking of superhero movies, South Parks very own heroes are a topic ever so often too. And to Cartman’s delight, his trusted friend loves talking about The Coon. His super-secret hero identity. She would also gush about Wonder Storm, Mosquito and Toolshed but she would always praise The Coon, which is a melody in Cartman’s ears. Another thing Cartman loves about his only female friend is how she loves defending him to anyone. Be it teachers, her fellow girl friends, or anyone else. When Heidi tried to warn her that Eric means bad news, she had to visit the nurse afterwards. Y/N had detention for breaking the poor girl’s nose, but she sure as hell didn’t regret her decision. Even when she was shunned by the girls from there on.

“I just can’t believe her. Maybe she will change her mind when I tell her about the whole Breast cancer thing? You know… It could affect her too, maybe that’s wha-Wendy…” Bebe interrupted her and sighted. “You remember how Heidi was? How every time we said something mean about Cartman, she would only try harder to prove us wrong?” “Of course, I remember. How could I forget.” Wendy mumbled and stabbed her fork through her salad. “If you try to reason with her, she will just hit you with the whole “He isn’t like that”-schtick. You can’t change her mind, okay?” Bebe eyed their classmate who was happily chatting with Eric and Kenny a few tables away. “I guess.” Wendy said defeated and closed her eyes, asking herself how Eric could even make a girl interested in him.

On another table across the cafeteria, Craig and those guys were seated. Oddly enough, their topic was similar. Y/N L/N and Eric Cartman. “I don’t know why but they’d make quite a cute couple you know?” Clyde said with a smile before biting into his burger. “I know, right?” Nicole agreed and to everyone’s surprise, even Tweek nodded along. “I don’t think they’d become a thing though.” Craig mumbled lazily. “Why?” Clyde asked, obviously interested in the gossip.

“Well, Kenny, Stan and I teased him about it in History class, but he keeps saying he doesn’t like her that way.” “Aww, come on Craig, you know very well that he would never admit it just like that. Guys don’t just admit they have a crush. I’m sure he likes her. I mean, she the only one who can stand him for longer than a day.” Nicole commented, a sly smile spread across her face. “I just think the anti-Cartman fraction would rather die than see those two become a thing.” Token commented and his eyes darted across the room, looking at Kyle, Heidi and Wendy. “Well, I guess we will have some funerals to visit sometime soon.” Nicole replied and everyone at their table had to involuntarily smile.

“That’s it. ERIC. To the Principal. Now.” Mister Garrisons voice thundered through the hallways and a confused Y/N closed her locker. She let out a deep sigh, knowing something must have gone wrong with his new plan.

“Guess I gotta bust him out again.”

Knowing the way to the principal by heart she made her way there, only catching a glimpse of the in pink paint and glitter covered Mister Garrison, who kept cursing like crazy.

Y/N happily skipped past the not-occupied secretary desk and took a seat next to Eric. “I already wondered where you are.” Cartman commented unimpressed. “Sorry, I had to look at Garrison for a second. So what went wrong?” “This stupid asshole over there saw me set up the paint bomb in Garrisons locker thing.” The brown-haired whispered and pointed at the kid that was sitting across from them. “Thanks to that asshat, I will probably be suspended for some days or some shit.”

“Okay, I’ll handle it.” The h/c-haired said and got up to go over. She hovered over the boy who was looking up to her. “What?” He asked annoyed. “You’re Jonas Miller, right?” Y/N asked with the sweetest voice she could manage. “Yeah, what makes you care?” He asked, before a fist connected with his face. Surprised by her own strength, he seemed to be dazed and fell onto the other chairs.

“Y/N, what the fuck?” Cartman cried out confused. “Fast, hit me!” She said, not fazed at all. “What? Why?” “God, just do it!” Trusting his mischievous partner Erics fist landed on Y/N pretty face and he even felt a hint of remorse. “Good punch Eric. Now the other side.” Once again, trusting his opposite, he did what was asked. Despite now feeling rather woozy, Y/N grabbed Jonas and laid him down in a different position. She then made Eric kneel next to her and hold her.

“If you ever tell anyone I cried, I will tell everyone about your dirty little secrets, yeah?” Eric nodded, somewhat intimidated, and impressed, watched her do her best to cry heavily.

Hearing the blood-curdling scream, Mister Mackey and the secretary came running, looking at the scene before them. Mister Mackey immediately made sure that everyone was okay, before asking the roughed-up Y/N what happened. With a trembling voice, she answered: “J-Jonas over there did the prank on Mister Garrison and-and tried to pin it on-on Eric. So, I c-came here t-t-to tell everyone t-that Eric was with me t-the whole time. When Jonas n-noticed that, he hit m-m-me and Eric punched him, to-to help me.” The now fully awake again Jonas looked at the girl in horror. “N-No! That’s not the story! I- I DON’T WANT TO HEAR IT, M'KAY?!” Mister Mackey interrupted him. “Hitting an innocent girl?! Jonas Miller, you will have to face the consequences!” Y/N still held up her best puppy eyes and Mister Mackey finally turned to the two troublemakers. “Eric, will you bring Y/n to the nurse, please. I will bring Jonas to PC Principal personally, m'kay.” Eric nodded, somewhat petrified, and guided Y/N along the corridors. He felt shocked. He didn’t know why. He never felt this scared before.

Once in the nurse’s office and after Y/N was handed an icepack, she was the first one to speak, once the nurse left them alone.

“You’re so quiet.” She commented dryly. “Thank you.” “For what?” “Getting me out of there. I never- It’s fine, okay? Don’t worry.” Silence fell over the two once more. Y/N just enjoyed the cooling ice on her burning skin and Eric still felt thankful for what she did for him. For him. And no one else. She would have never done this for Kyle. Not for Kenny. She did it for him.

“Hey Eric?” The boy next to her nodded. “You know I wouldn’t have done this for anyone else right?” Eric nodded once more. “Can I ask you for something?” “Of course.”

“You know, I like you a lot. So, would you maybe like to be my boyfriend?”

Bonus:

Eric gave no answer. He just slowly intertwined his fingers with hers and that was answer enough. “Are your cheeks red from blushing or is it from me hitting you?” “Maybe a bit of both.” She laughed and to Eric, it was the most beautiful sound he ever listened to. His girlfriend’s laugh.

Kyle was doing his math homework and started to get annoyed with the harder and harder becoming questions. A vibration ripped him out of his thoughts. He fished for his iPhone without taking his eyes off the paper and unlocked it. The contact read “FATASS” and it was a picture. Kyle's eyes widened in horror as his eyes scanned the picture. It was a picture of a list with dozens of prank ideas. The caption was what truly terrified him. “Me and my GIRLFRIEND brainstormed a bit, hope you’re ready Kahl <3”

Kyle felt like crying. Not only because of his math homework but also because his worst nightmare became a reality. Cartman has a Girlfriend. And it was no other than the infamous Y/N L/N.

[lotusthekat]

All We Ever Wanted (Was Everything)

Fandom: She-Ra and the Princesses of Power

Rating: G

Relationships: Kyle & Adora

Characters: Kyle, Adora, Lonnie; MENTIONED - Catra

Summary: She inspects the bandages, and eventually her hand touches the claw marks again. Adora doesn’t cry again.

Kyle says nothing either and so they’re really silent. The other kids’ talking is nothing more than incoherent mumbles. It never makes sense to him, and he doesn’t think he’ll ever learn to understand.

They’re both looking at Lonnie and the rest, then they’re staring at their own laps, inside their little, lonely corner.

“Maybe…” Adora is hiding her wound again. “Maybe they didn’t mean it?”

She doesn’t specify who ‘they’ are, and Kyle neither agrees nor disagrees. He shrugs and gazes away to the side. “It still hurts,” he whispers painfully.

Takes place pre-canon. Canon divergent.

Word count: 1.749

AO3

A/N: More Adora & Kyle because this is my life: dedicating myself to an underrated platonic relationship because fandoms won’t do so >:’v

Again, be aware of the tags and the trigger warnings below! This might be OOC since I’m still new to this fandom ^^; Hope you enjoy!

TRIGGER WARNINGS - abuse/bullying, physical abuse, major character injury and childhood trauma

NOT CATRA/C*TRADORA OR LONNIE FRIENDLY!

--

They… haven’t gotten back for a while now.

Kyle admits he’s been worried for his two friends, Adora and Catra. They were all playing together really, but then a scream alarmed everyone. When he realized, Lonnie had a black eye, Catra ran away and Adora went after her. Lonnie’s been angry this whole time, so Kyle would rather stay on his lane until everyone’s apologized and calmed down.

If anything, it’s all Kyle can do here. He can’t go out there and help his friends. He’s not wanted anywhere, but it’s not like he wants to be completely alone in the Horde. It’s not really worth it.

Kyle is sat in the endless greens, while Lonnie rants about Catra and everyone else comments on her behavior. Kyle is not really sure how he feels about the feline. Catra is… scary. She’s pretty close to Adora, but otherwise she never gets close to anyone and she messes with him a lot. Even so, Kyle is concerned about her, because she doesn’t lash out like this out of nowhere. He hopes that she and Adora come back okay.

Fifteen minutes become thirty, and that’s when Kyle hears someone coming.

The boy almost greets Adora and Catra back, except Catra isn’t with her, and Adora is…

Kyle gasps and rushes to her.

“Adora, are you okay?” He asks.

She doesn’t reply. Adora looks like she’s been crying for a whole lot of minutes, since her eyes are red and puffy. The girl looks like she’s about to cry again at the question.

“Adora, where’s—” Lonnie approaches them, stopping when she takes a look at the blond girl. As a result, Lonnie becomes a lot angrier, “Seriously?! Catra is the worst! She even scratched Adora!” She tells her other friends.

“D-Don’t say that,” Adora speaks up but very quietly. She’s never looked so sad before.

“Am I wrong, though?! She hit me out of nowhere and she hurt you, too! This is wrong!” Lonnie insists, irritated.

“S-She didn’t mean to, Lonnie—”

“Why do you keep defending her, Adora?! She’s always been like this! She doesn’t like us!”

“Shut up!” Adora yells back, her voice wavering with tears.

Despite her pleads, Lonnie only argues more. Kyle watches, in conflict. He understands how angry Lonnie must be – her black eye is enough of a reason, Kyle gets it, but…

He avoids standing up to Lonnie or Catra or anyone else – because he’s wimpy and lame, and a crybaby – but this isn’t fair to Adora. Lonnie is only making everything worse.

“S-Stop it, Lonnie!” Kyle stands between the girls – his adrenaline immediately going away when Lonnie glares at him.

“Who asked you, Kyle?” Lonnie pushes him aside, Kyle pathetically falling back.

“Leave him alone!” Adora steps at her. “At least he’s not yelling at me!”

Kyle looks up, afraid they might get in a fight, but the brown-haired girl leaves them be.

“Alright, fine, you crybaby. But don’t say I didn’t warn you,” Lonnie hisses.

Kyle flinches when someone touches him, though it turns out to be Adora. Lonnie has walked away.

“Are you hurt?” Adora checks over him as she helps him get on his feet.

“I-I’m okay. But…” Kyle gulps at the claw marks scratching her face. “I’m sure that hurts a lot more.”

Adora looks away, covering the wound with her hand. She vaguely glances at the other cadets and so she pulls Kyle with her to the same corner he was before; the unnoticed, unbothered safe place to him. It’s… weird having someone else with him.

“I know Catra has a really hard time getting close to people… but I don’t know what went wrong this time,” Adora admits in a low voice. Kyle is a little surprised she’s talking to him at all, but he lets her. “Maybe I did something wrong?”

“What? You didn’t do anything.”

“B-But I’m supposed to look after her. She got mad at me and h-hurt me in the face,” Adora hiccups, fresh tears dropping. “I just wanted her to apologize and be okay with everyone. I know she didn’t mean to hurt Lonnie.”

Kyle hums, unsure what to answer.

“Maybe I should’ve said something else… or stayed with her…” Adora mumbles to herself, trying desperately to dry her own tears. “I-I’m the worst friend ever.”

“I think you’re a pretty good friend, Adora,” Kyle reassures her, “I know you did your best.”

Adora looks up confused. “Y-You think so?”

“Mm-hmm.” Kyle scoots a little closer to her. “Maybe Catra just needs some time to cool off, y’know? You could try to talk to her later… or maybe she’ll come back here by herself. We could wait and see.”

Adora sniffs, considering the suggestion.

“That’s not a bad idea…” she mutters. “Maybe she’ll be ready to talk on her own time.”

Kyle nods. “Yeah, she must be really mad… I don’t know what for, but we’ll figure it out.”

“Okay. Yeah, you’re right.” Adora sighs.

Kyle watches as she finishes drying her tears. He doesn’t really know how to comfort people because he’s never done so, but he stays somewhat close to her if she needs him.

“Th… Thanks, Kyle,” Adora whispers, giving him a small smile.

Kyle’s face flushes. “Oh, ah… you’re welcome." He grins shyly, "That’s what friends are for, right?”

“Yeah…” Adora’s little grin fades.

He frowns in worry and is about to apologize when she brings up something.

“How did you get those?” Adora points at the bandages hiding his arms.

“Oh…” Kyle gulps. “We were playing a little too hard today. I was, y’know, being me,” he laughs awkwardly.

Adora doesn’t laugh with him and instead asks quietly, “Who did it?”

Kyle opens his mouth but decides to be silent. Regardless, he timidly points at the other cadets from afar. One person specifically. Adora seems to catch his sign.

“It’s okay, though. It’s usually… worse,” Kyle clears his throat.

Adora seems defeated, as if she’s fought three training robots in five minutes. Kyle didn’t really expect her to be that concerned about him, but he decides not to say it.

She inspects the bandages, and eventually her hand touches the claw marks again. Adora doesn’t cry again.

Kyle says nothing either and so they’re really silent. The other kids’ talking is nothing more than incoherent mumbles. It never makes sense to him, and he doesn’t think he’ll ever learn to understand.

They’re both looking at Lonnie and the rest, then they’re staring at their own laps, inside their little, lonely corner.

“Maybe…” Adora is hiding her wound again. “Maybe they didn’t mean it?”

She doesn’t specify who ‘they’ are, and Kyle neither agrees nor disagrees. He shrugs and gazes away to the side. “It still hurts,” he whispers painfully.

After that, they don’t talk about anything else.

--

Adora actually sticks by Kyle’s side until it’s dinner time. Maybe she’s not too comfortable around everyone else.

The girl barely eats her ration bars – she’s gotten Catra’s too –, even though the gray ones are her favorite if memory serves him correct. Kyle eats quietly from the other side of the circle, where sits Rogelio, Lonnie and the other cadets he doesn’t really know. At this point Lonnie is laughing along with them. Everyone acts like nothing happened.

Eventually, Adora stands up and leaves the bars aside. Kyle follows her (but hopes that isn’t uncalled for).

“Where are you going?” He wonders when they’re alone.

“I’ll go after Catra.” Adora doesn’t turn around. She sounds… tired but worried. “It’s not fair for her to lose dinner.”

“Right.”

“I should be going.”

“W-Wait, I could- I could go with you!”

Once Adora actually looks back, he regrets the words that came out.

“I-I mean…” Kyle clears his throat. “I just thought… you might need help? N-Not that you can’t do stuff alone, that’s not what I… uh…”

While he’s ready to be ignored or maybe scoffed at (seriously, Kyle? How pathetic can you be? he hears Lonnie say), Adora actually smiles at him.

“Thanks, Kyle,” Adora whispers, “but I’ll be okay. You can go eat with the others.”

(Kyle wants to say the opposite. That he wants to go with her. That he wants to share that little corner with her, because no one has ever wanted to go there with him. He wants to go with her and make sure she has that little corner for her, too. Even though he’s probably going to be easily knocked out by everyone and everything, it yells more than his fears for the first time in his life.)

“Okay,” he replies. “I’ll see you later.”

“Later.”

Adora finally leaves.

Kyle watches her go.

He sighs and returns to the common room.

Adora doesn’t come back.

--

Everything is back to normal then.

Adora and Catra are playing together again. The claw marks aren’t gone, though. There are other times they fight, but Kyle doesn’t see them around anymore.

Lonnie still mocks him often. Other cadets have joined her. Even Rogelio agrees with them at times.

It stays that way until one day. A pretty low day. There’s no one at the common room this time. Kyle was kicked out of the training for ruining everything, and Lonnie pushed him too hard. He's dried his eyes out of tears at this point.

The room is dark and empty, abandoned bars dirtying the floor. Kyle is hungry but his food was pretty much stolen when he tried to find it.

It’s one of the really bad days.

Kyle spends the rest of the day there. He plans to stay hidden until the night. He doesn’t want to face anyone else today.

That’s when the door opens, and Kyle hides deeper in his arms and knees. He’s really not up to have Lonnie make fun of him for another ten minutes again. But there’s no laughter, no multiple, fierce steps, no teasing…

Nothing, but quiet steps and breaths.

He awaits but there’s nothing. He doesn’t really dare look up. Not until whoever is there plops down beside him.

Then there’s crying.

The room is barely illuminated, if not for the light from outside, but Kyle notices the red scratches staining shaky arms and ripped clothes.

Kyle scoots close until the bodies are touching, and Adora cries harder as her energy falls against him. Her sobs echo in the empty room, the lonely corner only they know.

Kyle doesn't cry again, no energy left. But he stays for Adora.

[shurisneakers]

espresso [13]

Summary: In which your best friend’s brother begins to set you up on dates when you mention that you haven’t been in a relationship in years, but things don’t go as expected.

Warning:  angst, pining 

Word count: 2.1k (???)

A/N: hi !  all my love to @samingtonwilson​ for making me not sound like a 6 year old when i write this never-ending series and for being a true queen ! we stan an icon

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Previous part- Part 12 || Espresso Masterlist

To Bucky:

Can we talk?

From Bucky:

Coffee shop at 7?

To Bucky:

Okay.

It almost felt like déjà vu. But this time you were nervous, and not nearly as much as you were confused– a stark contrast to the meeting you had at this very location months ago to start this deal.

It was deserted– for now.

You knew the crowd would pick up gradually as students filtered in for their daily dose of caffeine, so you didn’t have much time.

You took a deep breath, pushed open the door, and let the bell above you jingle. A joyous sound for something so… jumbled up.

Bucky perked up at the noise, pausing momentarily from cleaning the counter.

I got this. I got this.

“Hey.” He sent a tiny lopsided smile your way as you took your place at one of the stools before the counter.

I don’t got this.

“Hey.” The confidence you’d felt just outside was beginning to slip away.

Fuck.

“Can I get you something to drink?” he asked politely, gesturing around to the menus in front of you. It was almost eerie how uncharacteristically silent your surroundings were.  

“No, I’m good. Thank you though.”

He nodded as he pulled a stool towards him to sit. The counter separated the two of you. “We have about thirty minutes before the usuals start coming in.”

“Okay.”

Be brave. Be brave. Be brave.

“Did you read it? The letter?”

“Yes.”

“And?”

And it scared the shit out of me.

“Fucking hell,” you cursed, sighing lightly. “I’m so confused, James. It was so fucking confusing.”

“Why?”

“Because of the dates. Every time I thought there may be a hint of something more, you’d set me up on another date with some other guy who I didn’t even like. Did you do it on purpose?”

“No. Not consciously at least. I would never,” his voice slowly trailed off.

“But?” you pressed.

“But I did spend time thinking about it and… reflecting, I guess. And I think my defense mechanism or insecurities or whatever did have a role in it, but I never noticed until you pointed it out.”

“That’s a fucking dick move, you know.”

“I know,” he swallowed, tired eyes on the counter flitting up to meet yours. “I’m sorry. Truly. ”

“And what is it with these?” You pointed to the cups in front of you. “Why is everyone so obsessed with these?”

He leaned forward on his forearms. “I used to write little pieces of poetry whenever you came in. Or messages when you didn’t look like you were having a good day. Just innocuous stuff.”

“Why didn’t you tell me?”

“I thought you saw them but didn’t care. A bunch of times you threw them away pretty quickly so I kinda figured you were doing it to save me from humiliation. So I just stopped after a while.”

“I didn’t see them.”

“Yes, I know that now.”

“Do you remember some of the stuff you wrote?” you asked hopefully. “Do I get to read it now?”

“All of it.” He laughed and pulled away from the counter. “But you’re not going to see it again. It’s too embarrassing.”

“Why do you hate everything you write so much?”

He shrugged. “I tend to get dramatic a lot. And emotional.”

“That isn’t a bad thing.”

Wordless, he just picked up a cloth to wipe at some glasses he knew were already clean. Until, “Any more questions?”

“Why didn’t you like Rumlow?”

“Oh, come on.” He looked at you like you were kidding, disbelieving. His expression fell when he realized you weren’t.  “Really?”

“Really. We’re getting all the skeletons out now.”

“Because-” a disgruntled sigh, “because he was absolute garbage! He was a fucking dick and I already hated him, but then he went and did that whole thing with Dot-“ he gestured wildly to make up for unfound words.

“-And after that I literally couldn’t look at his face without wanting to punch the living shit out of him.”

If it wasn’t clear by now, you could tell by the clench of his jaw that talking about Rumlow triggered something in Bucky.

Deciding to spare his anger before it spiraled through less important explanations, you pointed at the bandage wrapped around his knuckles. “What happened here?”

“Punched a wall.” That was a lie, you could tell. But you didn’t push it any further. “Pulled a Kyle.”

You rolled your eyes at his outdated joke, but he didn’t seem to mind, going back to wiping at the mugs in silence.

You just watched him breathe through it, his shoulders dropping tight tension as seconds passed.

“You know, you never actually told me what happened at the bar,” he spoke up, attempting to change the topic smoothly, but it didn’t go unnoticed.

“How much do you know?”

“Only what Dot told me, honestly.”

Fucking Dolores.

You groaned. “Dot? Fucking Dot knows about what happened?”

“She doesn’t know anything,” he interrupted before you had the chance to whine more.

You looked at him quizzically.

“It wasn’t my story to tell. She just said that your reaction made her realize there was some kind of history between you and Rumlow because no one leaves so suddenly in the middle of a conversation.”

You were gonna regret this but-

“Why was she in your room that day?”

He titled his head in confusion. “Which day?”

“Your birthday. I came to give you your present and she was wearing your shirt.”

It was like you couldn’t help yourself.

You cleared your throat after a beat, straightening your posture. “Actually, I’m sorry it’s none of my business. I didn’t-“

“Becca spilled her drink on her,” he explained coolly. Not defensive in the least. “I just gave her a shirt so that she didn’t have to stay in that for the rest of the night. Nothing happened between us.”

Oh. Becca had mentioned that she’d spilt her drink on fucking Dolores. Okay, maybe you didn’t connect the story. In anger. Maybe a little jealousy.

“I’m sorry, it wasn’t my place to ask.”

“It’s alright. I was going to clear it up that day but you left so suddenly.” You almost snorted as he continued, “She asked about you after the bar. She was a little worried.”

Slowly, the guilt of disliking her so badly was starting to creep into your mind. You’d always known there was no real reason to.

You owed her an apology basket.

Maybe two.

“What’s going on in your head? I can feel you thinking too much all the way here.”

“Who the hell writes people rejection letters, Bucky?” The thought was absurd enough to warrant a smile from you and a small laugh from him.

“Told you it was dorky.”

“Didn’t realize it was to this degree.”

“Yeah, well.” He shrugged, not saying anything to defend himself.

You glanced at the clock above the register. You had only ten minutes to go, and almost all the questions you had thought of had been answered.

Almost.

The one thing you wanted to know itched at you, aching to get out but you weren’t sure you had the confidence to just fucking ask-

“You good? Sure I can’t get you a-“

“Do you have feelings for me?” you asked directly. A straight shot.

His eyes widened slightly in surprise. To be honest, you were almost shocked yourself at how blunt you’d just been, but you were so tired. So tired. You wanted it done, out in the open. Clear air for once.

“Like, right now. This instant.”

“Y/N, I-” A sigh. A slow comb of his hands through his hair. A glance to the side.

“The letter, James.” You didn’t break your stare. Didn’t dare. Your heart felt two seconds from bursting through your chest. “You wrote it in the letter that you used to.”

No movement aside from a shift of his gaze downward, focusing on restless fingers. He pursed his lips, another sigh. But he said nothing.

Seconds of silence passed.

It almost felt suffocating.

Your eyebrows were knit together. “Bucky-”

“Yes.” You fell silent as his eyes met yours with little hesitation. “Yes. I do.”

You didn’t know what you were expecting him to say, but you froze. You opened your mouth but shut it again, unable to form any words. Well fuck.

His shrug was nonchalant, but the fall of his shoulders to a defeated slump was anything but. “Y/N, you have to know that our friendship means the world to me, and if this is going to change everything, then please, please stop me right now.” “I-”

“You’re my Mario,” his voice cracked but the corner of his lips tugged upwards. “I can’t afford to lose that.”

You didn’t know what to say. Of course everything it would change things between you. How could it not?

It’s not like you wanted to give up what you had with him. You didn’t know if you were being selfish, but the intensity of whatever it is that you were feeling was there and it hurt.

“Don’t-” he interrupted your train of thought with a restrained, almost forced smile. An attempt at confidence, perhaps. “Don’t overthink this. You really don’t have to say anything.”

“I just-” Bucky continued, another dramatic gesturing of his hands when words fell short. “Figured it was ‘bout time you knew. Properly.”

“Since when?” you sounded unsure.  

“How long? Oh, man.” He laughed softly and shook his head. “Shits, I think it’s been a good couple of years now.”

Silently, you mulled it all over. Sat with it all for a minute.

He smiled, genuine now. No longer forced and tight, but relieved at the loss of the weight on his chest.

He set down the glass he was holding and swung the rag over his shoulder.

“I’m… fuckin’ shit at communication, Y/N,” he admitted as your lips pursed. “You know that. I couldn’t tell you, I couldn’t tell Dot. I couldn’t talk to Becca, forget anyone else. It’s so fucking hard for me to talk about-”

“Feelings?”

“Feelings,” he confirmed, nodding. “Emotions. It’s almost like I can’t. It’s easier just shut up and listen to others talk all the time.”

It made sense.

Even though he asked you not to overthink, everything he did was thought over, and then thought over again, and again and million more times just out of selfless concern.

“It feels selfish. And I hate feeling that way.”

You knew he wasn’t very open but this-

This was new to you. It didn’t shock you like you’d thought it would, but it was still… a little difficult to hear.

“What you feel is important too, you know. Not that you should feel that way, but it’s okay to be a little selfish,” you replied, voice soft.

“Yeah well-“ He paused before shaking his head. “Communicating is just something I have to work on, I guess.”

“Me too, apparently,” was your mumbled response.

All of this could have been avoided if you’d just had this conversation months ago. Like proper adults. Mature adults.

“We both have some serious issues,” he said lightly, cracking a smile at you.

You didn’t respond. You just played with the hem of your scarf, unraveling a piece of thread from the rest of it.

You could hear the sound of cars pulling up to the shop. A glance at the clock confirmed an incoming crowd.

But something felt incomplete.

You felt uneasy.

“Ah fuck, here they come,” he cursed, a quick smoothening his hair before pulling on his barista cap.

You took it as your sign to leave, gathering your few belongings that sat scattered before you.

“I’ll see you around Buck-”

“Y/N.”

You lifted your head to meet his stare.

“I know I shouldn’t really be asking this, but are we- We’re good, right?”

You stopped your own restless fidgeting.

You couldn’t tell him you weren’t sure, could you? Could you tell him that and that you were relieved?

Relieved that it hadn’t been in your head, that there were feelings on his end. Angry, though, that even if his intentions with the dates had been pure, what he did kinda sucked. That misunderstandings which could’ve been solved with a little maturity and a little communication lingered for so long, caused so many sleepless nights.

Could you tell him all of that and how it all hurt?

You knew he wasn’t looking for reciprocation. You knew he didn’t deem himself worthy of it. Even though he was good. Through it all, he was still good. Probably always would be. Too scared to hurt others, too scared to put the weight of his feelings on anyone else.

Maybe that’s why it was so confusing.

It was so fucking confusing.

His stare didn’t waver even as the bell above the door rang, signaling a new customer. Never a lapse in intensity.

“Yeah. I think we’re good.”

[benkouji726]

Four times they were THAT COUPLE and one time they were REALLY THAT COUPLE

I was writing the last two chapters of my Forlex 5+1 fic when the angst in chapter 5 got to me hard I had to stop and go write some stupidly fluffy stuff. So here it is, some Malex fluff because I only know how to write these two as helplessly in love idiots.

Summary: Four times Alex and Michael show their epic love without even trying to and one time they are obvious about it.

1. Maria and Isobel

Maria wanted to look away, she really did. It was a little bit weird to stare at your ex-boyfriend and your best friend who had finally pulled their heads out of their asses and were currently dating. But she just couldn’t.

To be fair, they didn’t even do much. Alex was saying something, and judging by the serious look on his face and the notes he was showing Guerin, it was not anything casual or flirty, but all business. Guerin appeared to listen earnestly too, he nodded now and then, sometimes interrupted Alex to ask a question or two. In short, they were just having a serious conversation, Maria should know, they were never intentionally being affectionate when she was present, no matter how many times she told them she was totally over Guerin by this point.

So they really didn’t do anything. But the atmosphere around them, somehow exuded intimacy and love, when they looked at each other, even the air seemed thicker. She didn’t know how they did it, and more importantly, how the hell had she missed it before.

Then Alex said something, worry written all over his face. Guerin reached out, closed the notebook in Alex’s hand, and laid his hand there. His pinkie touched Alex’s for about 3 seconds, and Alex visibly relaxed a fraction. Then Guerin pulled back his hand, and they continued to discuss whatever they were talking about, as if nothing happened.

“Ugh, they’re the worst, aren’t they.” Isobel appeared out of nowhere and looked at the couple too, “why do they have to be so in love all the time? It’s inconsiderate to the single ones, not to mention gross.”

Maria was never this grateful for Isobel in her whole life. “So it is not just me, right? I’m not some ex-girlfriend who gets uncomfortable watching her ex and her best friend make heart eyes towards each other?”

Isobel tsked. “Please, the way they look at each other, is SO MUCH MORE than just heart eyes, they could burn the whole place down with only their gaze, it’s nauseating.”

She then stood up, “I can’t watch anymore. I need to break them out of their loving bubble or I’m gonna throw up.”

But she smiled fondly when she walked over.

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2. Liz and Max

They were having a double-date-turned-movie-night when Liz said, exasperatedly, “Could you please tune it down a notch?”

Michael seemed confused as if he didn’t have a clue why Liz would say such thing to him. “What? You have the remote, you tune it down.”

Liz rolled her eyes. “No, I mean, could you stop being so...” she was lost for words for a moment.

“She meant would you tune down the PDA a notch.” Max, like the knight in a shining armor that he was. came to the rescue.

Michael looked down, to the one foot room between him and Alex on the sofa, and their not-at-all touching bodies, exchanged a question look with Alex, and said, “Last I checked, PDA still means public display of affections, right?”

“And you are practically sitting on Max’s lap.” Alex added.

Liz threw her hands in the air. “We’re doing normal couple stuff! What you two are doing, it’s next level of affection display, OK?”

She pointed an accusing finger to Michael. “Do you even know what we’re watching? Or have you counted all of Alex’s eyelashes at this point?”

To his credit, Michael didn’t even blink. “I was amazed by his eye color because it changed every time the screen light changed, but go on.”

“It’s called reflection you idiot.” Liz was exasperated, “and you did this lip tweak thing every five minutes or so, what was that about? You were like, this close to bursting but still trying to hold it in. It was very distracting.”

There was a little blush this time. “That’s not my fault. Alex has some weird sense of humor, he always laughs at the totally not laughable moments, and I find it cute, so sue me.”

Alex was offended at that. “Well, I find YOU funny, don’t I?”

Michael instantly forgot the existence of Liz and Max, and turned to Alex. “Didn’t say it was bad sense of humor, just weird. And weird can be good, you know. It can be fantastic.”

They looked at each other then, both smiling, until they looked away, Alex’s ears turned a little red, Michael cleared his throat, they didn’t seem to move, but somehow they ended up sitting a bit closer.

Liz sighed. “That’s a no on tuning it down, then.”

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3. Kyle

Kyle had enough.

He was happy for Alex. The guy deserved to be happy, even if his happiness lied on some angry cowboy who disliked him for no reason.

OK there had been a reason, but he proved himself, over and over again, that he was a new man now, even Alex had forgiven him, so Guerin’s dislike was getting a little ridiculous at this point. They couldn’t even have a peaceful conversation without Guerin’s snarky comments, it was tiresome to say the least.

Like now, they were researching the files of Project Shepard together, Alex was showing him some pattern of codes and asked him if he remembered anything from his Dad that could give a keyword to solve the pattern, when Guerin suddenly put a hand around Alex’s shoulder. He didn’t do anything else though, just hand on his shoulder, hips touching, and stood there.

But somehow his demeanor screamed “back off, he’s mine.”

Kyle was a little shocked to be honest. He never saw Guerin like this, and he also didn’t know what he’d done to cause this kind of behavior. He felt like an intruder for standing next to such a blatant display of love and possessiveness.

Then Alex turned a little to Guerin, put his hand into his curls, and pulled, just a fraction, which lasted only a second. When he took back his hand, Guerin took his hand off his shoulder too. His face a shade of pink, his eyes glowing with love and trust. They stood side by side, hips no longer touching.

If anything, Kyle felt even more like an intruder after that.

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4. The whole group

They were having an emergency meeting at the diner.

“I can’t take it anymore”, Isobel whined. “They’re insufferable. I was happy being single, but they just had to ruin it for me!”

“You? What about me? I almost went out with that guy just because they made me feel so lonely!” Maria glared.

“We went together to Planet 7 one night, they were so stupidly in love I almost went home with A GUY too.” Kyle said, if they were competing for the title of “most miserable witness of Malex’s epic love”, he would WIN.

“It’s not easy for the happily dating ones either, OK?” Liz said, “Max is trying so hard these days, because he would turn anything with Mikey into a competition, it’s exhausting.”

“Hey! I’m right here!”

“Anyway”, Liz ignored him, “Halloween is coming. I really don’t want them dressing up like some eternal love story and gazing adoringly into each other’s eyes while in COSTUME. It’s hard to watch when they are in regular clothes already, you know?”

They all nodded. Except for Kyle.

“From what I know, Alex doesn’t do Halloween, so is this precaution really necessary?”

Isobel snorted. “Michael didn’t have any chance to do Halloween before. I heard him talking to Alex yesterday that he would like to do the couple costume thing with him this year. He even brought out his puppy eyes and bashful smile in full mass. I left at that point, because otherwise I’d have to claw my eyes out, but I doubt Alex would refuse Michael anything at that moment.”

Kyle admitted defeat rather quickly.

“So, what do we do?”

———————————

“A themed Halloween party?” Michael asked, with doubt.

“Yes!” Liz replied enthusiastically, “we all have to dress up as the person of our dreams, be it a celebrity or a character, or some historical figure”, she threw a teasing glance towards Max, “it’ll be fun!”

“So, I should just dress up as Alex?”

The whole group groaned.

Alex laughed. “You are doing this so Michael and I won’t do the couple costume, aren’t you.” It was not a question.

Isobel rolled her eyes. “Gee, why would we do that, it’s not like you are THAT COUPLE.”

“That couple?” Alex asked, while leaning into Michael at the word couple, as if he couldn’t help himself. Infuriating thing was, Michael leaned RIGHT BACK.

“You know, the couple that grazes on everybody’s nerves because they are JUST SO IN LOVE that they look like they’re about to jump each other in any given moment but also want to wrap themselves in a warm fluffy blanket and never leave the couch? You are THAT COUPLE.”

“Okay”, Alex said slowly, as if he was struggling to understand, the bastard, “so how would it help the situation if Michael and I dress up as each other at the Halloween party?”

Guerin snorted at that, he seemed SO PROUD OF HIS ALEX for being a dick.

“You are NOT dressing up as each other!” Maria half yelled. “Nobody is dressing up as anybody in this group!”

“Alright! Jesus.” Michael laughed. “We won’t.”

———————————

“What. The. Fuck.” Liz watched Alex and Michael approaching, and she was speechless.

Well, almost. “You promised you won’t dress up as each other, you lied!”

Michael smirked, nose ring and eyeliner firmly in place. “Technically we didn’t. I’m not Alex, I’m his seventeen year old self, and he is a new man now.”

And Alex, honest to God had a curly wig on, smirked in equal measure, “What can I say? You chose an impossible theme for us to do any other costume. Now who’s fault is that?”

Liz hated them so much.

————————————

+1 Cameron

Cameron was waiting for bathroom in wild pony for five minutes now, she was getting impatient.

So when Alex and Michael tumbled out of it, she just couldn’t help herself.

Thing was, they were not even trying to hide the fact that they had been having sex.

Yes, the clothes were intact, the hair obviously combed, they were walking side by side, a reasonable distance between them.

But the satisfied expressions and fucked out bliss were also very evident.

“I always thought sex in wild pony’s bathroom was an urban myth, you know”, she said, conversationally, “who would do it here, I thought, with the smell, the sticky floor and the terrible soundproof condition, surely they would rather up and leave than keeping at it, right?”

Michael, as she predicted, shamelessly smiled, his posture relaxed, slutty even, he winked.

“Worth it for a great lay.”

What she didn’t predict, was for Alex to say, calmly and deadpan.

“And by great lay he means me.”

They continued to leave, now hand in hand.

[dawninlatin]

Online classes are the worst

A manorian teacher AU

Words: 1381

AO3: Click here

Based on the prompt:

Teacher AU: When you realize Person A and Person B have the same background during zoom class and holy shit they are living together!?

By @perseannabeth​ (omg I hope you’re okay with me using this, if not please let me know!)

Manon was installed in her office - laptop open and an iced coffee next to her - currently giving a lecture in organic chemistry. She knew half of the class wasn’t paying attention. Knew that the muted microphones and turned-off cameras meant the student was scrolling down TikTok or sleeping or not even in the same room as their computer. But as long as she got through her lesson undisturbed, she didn’t care. It wasn’t her fucking problem if they didn’t want to learn. Organic chemistry was awesome.

Online classes was a challenge though. Manon needed to be in a physical classroom, needed to have a chalkboard to write on, needed to pace around, needed to do crazy and borderline dangerous experiments.

She had been a high school teacher for 6 years now, and she loved her job - most days, at least - but her students could never know that.

In those 6 years she had built herself a reputation of being the uncaring, cold and slightly manic science teacher. This was naturally because she had learned that the teens respected her if they were terrified of her. Nothing would beat the look of pure horror mixed with awe she had seen on the faces of twenty 16 year olds that one time she poured ethanol on her desk and then lit it on fire.

But now, instead of getting to do those kinds of experiments, she was confined to a small office in her small home, with nothing but a laptop to teach her students. It was driving her crazy.

Even if she preferred teaching in a physical classroom, Manon had to admit, she had gotten the hang of Zoom pretty quickly. They were only in their second week of online classes after all.

This lesson was going great, all things considered, at least until a message from Kyle Williams popped up on her screen. She couldn’t stop the look of horror on her face as she read it.

Kyle: Wait…isn’t that the same bookshelf Mr. Havilliard was sitting in front of yesterday?

Nora: OMG

Nora: It is!!!!!

Omar: Are they living together??

Manon tried ignoring the chat, tried continuing with her lecture, tried stopping the blush that was currently spreading on her face.

Kyle: Are they dating or something?

Ellen: I bet they’re sleeping together…

Ellen: Or what if they’re secretly married???

Freddie: Come on, can you imagine Ms. Blackbeak married to someone?

Kyle: And Mr. Havilliard of all people…

Theo: So they are sleeping together then?!

Nora: EW! I don’t wanna imagine them sleeping together…

She wanted to die. She had to quit her job, had to leave town, had to go away…she could never step foot in her classroom ever again…

Ellen: But now that you mention it, they always look at each other really weird

Theo: And they are staying in the same house atm…

Omar: What if they have kids?!

Freddie: Ms. Blackbeak does not have kids

Freddie: I have never even seen her smile, imagine her with Mr. Havilliard

Jenna: I’m freaking out over here…

Kyle: Omg, now I can’t stop imagining them having sex…

That was enough, she needed to end this before she died of humiliation. Then she needed to say goodbye to her loved ones, because she would be imprisoned for life for murdering a bunch of teenagers.

While closing the chat window - and ignoring the sound of countless more messages - she schooled her features back into a bored look. «Okay, that’s enough for today.»

The messages abruptly stopped, and Manon couldn’t help the smirk spreading on her face, beet read as it was. «I want you to spend the rest of the lesson reading through the chapter on organic chemistry, and then I want a 2000 word paper on a subject you find interesting in that chapter delivered to me by Monday.»

Writing a paper hadn’t been part of her plan, but she needed to do something to make her students suffer, if only to stop herself from committing murder.

Manon ended the meeting, not bothering with the groans and complaints coming from her students. She had to quit her job now, anyway…

She shut the laptop, pushed her chair back from the desk, leaned her head back and closed her eyes.

«FUCK!»

-

Dorian was sitting at the kitchen table, grading book reports when he heard his girlfriend curse loudly, before marching across the hall and slamming the bedroom door shut. He silently counted to ten before standing up and following her.

Opening the door, he found that Manon was already lying under the cover, ignoring his presence. Dorian was curious to what had put her in such a mood - wasn’t she supposed to have a lecture right now? - but he knew his girlfriend, knew he needed to wait until she was ready to talk about whatever was wrong.

These past two weeks had been hard on them, but Manon especially. Not only because of the virus, he thought to himself. Dorian was doing okay, he didn’t mind staying inside, and he’d gotten a lot more time to read lately, but Manon wasn’t like him. She hated staying inside, hated sitting still. She might not admit it, but he knew the lockdown was challenging for her.

While slipping of his jacket, he padded over to their bed, laying down beside her. He gave her a few seconds to tell him to fuck off, before scooting closer and putting his arms around her when she stayed silent. She sighed at the contact, pulling the covers down slightly so he could see part of her face.

«Apparently, Kyle fucking Williams is in your English class, because during my science lecture today he noticed we use the same room.» Hearing the anger and annoyance in her voice, Dorian tried his best not to laugh, but as she gave him a deadly glare, he knew he had failed.

«Is it so bad? That they know, I mean.»

Manon groaned, burying her face in the covers once again. «I’m so embarrassed,» she said, her voice muffled.

Dorian let out a small chuckle, pulling her closer. Manon had been clear from the beginning of their relationship about how they couldn’t be seen together at work. He had been a little unsure of hiding it, but she had assured him that this was all about her, and all about her reputation at school, so Dorian respected her wishes. Manon wasn’t comfortable with displaying affection publicly in the same way that he was. She kept her feelings to herself, and those that were the closest to her. And Dorian had to admit, he kinda liked being the only one she truly opened up to. The only one who saw her smile and laugh and being giddy with love. It made him feel special. Even if he wanted to shout from the rooftops how much he loved Manon Blackbeak.

«It’s forgotten in a few weeks,» he said to her in an attempt to lure her out of her hiding spot.

«They’ll never listen to me again,» she complained, her head now peeking out.

Dorian pressed a light kiss to her forehead. «You’ll be just as awesome and just as scary as before, promise.»

She rolled her eyes in answer. «Why should I trust you?»

«Because you love me?» He poked her lightly in the side, now determined to make her smile.

Manon shook her head, murmuring something that sounded like «not in the slightest» into the thick blanket.

«You’re adorable right now, you know that?» Dorian teased, peppering her face with kisses. He expected her to bat his hand away, but she only leaned into his chest, sighing in defeat.

«You’re not making the situation any better right now…»

«You’ll be fine. Besides-,» he trailed his hands down her body, to her stomach, and the small bump that had begun to form, «they’ll definitely know in six months, cause we’ll have a baby then.»

Manon turned around so she faced him, a small smile finally playing on her lips. Dorian met her eyes, and found himself slightly taken aback by the amount of love and adoration he felt for this woman. «I love you,» he whispered against her lips.

«I love you too,» she whispered back, her mouth meeting his.

A/N: Hey!

I am sory for the mess that is this fic, I don't even know what I'm doing anymore, I need sleep...

Also, I'm sorry for not writing a new chapter of Queen of Peace, but that chapter will take time, and time is something I do not have atm, sooooo, I will try and update it on Friday:)

If you bothered reading all of it, congrats, I stan<3

I love reading your comments, so feel free letting me know what you think:)

Also did anyone get the vine reference...? God I really should sleep...

*lots of smoochies*

-Dawninlatin<3

[captainsassmanes]

48. “Why are you crying?” malex ❤️

Alex was a terrible fucking actor. Leaning against his Jeep with his head tilted toward the stars and a wetness on his cheeks, he cursed himself for ever coming.

No one seemed to really understand what he was going through. Or maybe it was just easier for everyone to ignore it. Since Michael was dating Maria and Alex had his few, truthfully pleasant, weeks with Forrest, the group has decided it was time to bond, spend more time together.

Alex had managed to come up with a good set of excuses to get out of most gatherings; movie nights, drinks, the Crashdown, even a weekend trip that Alex would have rather removed his own fingernails then suffer through.

But he ran out of excuses and his friends ran out of patience.

So he talked himself into going to the Pony, repeating his mantra “it won’t be that bad,” over and over again on the way.

As soon as he walked through the door, he realized his mistake.

From across the room, his friends looked like a group, like they belonged together. All smiles and arms thrown carelessly around one another. He was greeted with smiles and hugs and laughs but he knew they were forced to create a place for him, completely inorganic, so unlike the way it was for everyone else.

He gave Michael and Maria a tight smile, desperate to ignore Michael’s arm holding her close and the bile that rose in his throat. They both looked good, beautiful even. They fit well.

Everyone did.

It was once everyone started on round 3, loud laughter with open displays of affection, that Alex felt himself getting lost and fuzzy and decided to get some air.

It was a bit cool, each exhale releasing a small cloud in front of his face, but it felt good. He’d been too warm inside, face constantly flushed and hands clammy from clenched fists all evening.

Alex figured he’d been outside regrouping for fifteen minutes, maybe longer, no one seeming to notice. He bit his lip as another tear fell. He couldn’t remember the last time he felt so alone and unwanted.

“Why are you crying?”

Alex lifted his hands to his face, wiping away the tears, and sniffed. He shook his head and shrugged, feeling Michael move beside him.

“I’m fine.”

A small, disbelieving sound left Michael’s mouth as he copied Alex, looking to the stars.

“Do you think,” Alex paused to regain control of his voice, admitting defeat to his tears. “Do you think there’s a universe out there where you love me?”

Michael stood straight and looked at Alex who felt brave enough to meet his eye. Michael looked surprised, mouth moving but no sound escaping.

Alex offered him a small smile, not wanting to make him any more uncomfortable than he already was.

“It’s okay. I’m glad you’ve found your home, Michael. You deserve it. You deserve it all.”

With a sniff, he pushed himself off the bumper and headed to the driver’s side.

“Alex. You know I...”

“Don’t. I’m not sure what you were gonna say but, please, don’t.”

He rested his forehead against the cool glass of the window, closing his eyes and willing himself to do the right thing.

“You have never looked happier than you did in there. You’ve got your friends and your siblings and the best girlfriend you could ever hope for. Just, enjoy it.”

Alex climbed in and turned the key, turning his focus to his luggage and wondering if Kyle had a spare key to the cabin or not.

A small tap on the window grabbed his attention, Michael standing there, eyes brimming with tears.

With a sigh, Alex rolled his window down, face turned straight ahead, foot primed on the accelerator.

“Don’t go away.”

His grip on the steering wheel grew tighter.

“Alex?”

He shook his head and looked at Michael, memorizing every feature, every expression he could.

“I’m so glad you’re happy, but I can’t watch Maria have the life I wish I had. I just can’t.”

He pressed on the gas and moved forward, determined to not look back.

[spaceskam]

hear me out

Summary: Alex has a list of things to say.

ao3

Two months into sleeping alone every night, Michael was woken up to persistent knocking on his door.

His phone said it wasn't even 8 AM, so he figured whoever it was must've had a serious reason to be there. He managed to drag himself up and to the door, rubbing his eye all the while only to be extremely confused by the person there.

"Alex?"

"I'm talking, you're listening," the Airman insisted, pushing into the airstream with a notebook in hand. He still had serious bedhead and was in his pjs, but his face was hardened and ready to combat whatever enemy he'd decided was there.

"Huh?" Michael asked, turning with confusion on his face.

"Shut up and listen," Alex dictated. Michael raised his hands in tired defeat, falling back to his bed. "I realized almost all of our fuck ups trail back to you not waiting for me to come up with an answer or you completely misunderstanding something I say because I try to make you understand, but I fail. So I'm going through all the points I could remember and we're going to fix this shit. You can talk when I'm done."

He was so determined and who was Michael to say no? Not that he even wanted to.

"Okay, I'm listening."

"Shush."

Michael stifled a laugh, smiling up towards Alex as he opened his little notebook. He took a deep breath in preparation.

"When we were 11 and you had been in Roswell for, like, two weeks, you asked if I wanted to be your partner for a social studies project and I hesitated to look at Kyle to see if he wanted to be my partner, but you took that as a complete rejection and you walked away before I could even answer. I had to be partners with Carla St. Pierre who had a big crush on me and didn't take no as an answer, so I ignored you for two years."

"Oh, we're going that far back?"

"Michael."

"Sorry."

Alex huffed an adorably annoyed breath, shaking off the distraction. He honestly looked adorable in general. If he wasn't so deadset, Michael might've asked him to cuddle until he was more awake.

"In 10th grade, I asked if you wanted me to wash your gym clothes for you and you thought I was insulting you, but I was just offering to clean them without further questions.

"Before my first tour, you asked if I wanted to go get Taco Bell late one night and I took too long to respond, so you thought I meant no, when really I just was unsure if we'd be able to go without someone seeing us and I was worried for your safety, but you took the offer back before I could say that.

"After my first tour when we did go to Taco Bell at midnight together, you ordered for me because I took too long to decide and while it was really good food, I would've liked to make my own decision which is why you didn't get laid that night."

And it went on and on and on and Michael was beginning to feel like they were horrible for each other. How did he manage to mess things up between them that often in the time they'd known each other? It was insane. Alex had shown up with a promise to work it out, but how could they work out a problem that started from their very first conversation?

This was clearly the end of all ending. A giant message of every goddamn time he'd hurt him before never getting to touch him or his soft pjs ever again.

"And, most importantly, when I came to you and said I wanted to be friends, I meant that I wanted to get to know you, to start over away from all the pain and to make sure all this love I have for you makes sense and it isn't just some nostalgic teenage dream. I wanted to be friends and then together because friends make the best relationships. You thought I meant just friends. Why in god's name would I ever want to be just friends with you? Do you know how hard it is to just be in your space without smothering you with my face? I need all of you or I can't have any of you at all, that's how it has to be," Alex said, taking a heavy breath as he finished his 30 minute, thought out list.

Michael’s eyes were trained on the floor before him, his eyebrows tugged together in something akin to anger. Alex literally just came and busted into his house before eight in the morning to throw every single mistake he’d ever made into his face? He couldn’t have waited until he was a little less sober? He didn’t realize how quickly he could go from being excited about their future to completely empty. It hurt more than he could even put into words.

“Okay,” Alex said softly, kicking Michael’s shin, “Talk.”

Michael sniffled and tried to school his face a bit before he looked up at Alex. The moment he took in how cute he looked all over again, his bottom lip started quivering. He shrugged.

“So, what, tearing me apart at the Pony two months ago wasn’t enough?” Michael asked, watching Alex’s face become overwhelmed with confusion, “You had to come here and give me a written list of all the reasons why we shouldn’t be together? And to say it like it was going to be something positive... Fuck, you must really hate me.”

Alex stood there for a moment, opening and closing his mouth over and over. Michael thought about saying something else, but he had just listened to thirty minutes of all the times he hadn’t given Alex enough time to find his words, so he wasn’t about to make that same mistake again. They sat in silence for a while.

“Guerin... Guerin, what the fuck?” Alex asked, shaking his head as he threw the notebook down, “What is wrong with you? I-I just, I literally just came in here and told you I wanted to work it out with you! I literally just said you misunderstand me and you immediately misunderstood that! I wrote it down specifically so you wouldn’t understand me! What do you want from me?! I’m trying here! Fucking meet me halfway!”

Michael rubbed his hands over his face as he tried to mesh together what he was hearing and what Alex had just spent 30 minutes saying. How could listing all the ways they were wrong mean that he thought they were right?

“Alex... Even if you meant that, you just pointed out that I have been making you miserable from the first time we spoke. I have been fucking you over for nearly two decades. How could you want to be with me when you know that?” Michael said. He couldn’t hide the defeat in his voice. All he wanted was Alex, but it was clear that they were bad for each other.

“Oh my god,” Alex said, looking up to the roof with glistening eyes that made Michael have even more regrets. He was still hurting him. “What don’t you get, Guerin? What can I say to make you get it? Yeah, maybe we struggle to communicate and we should work on that, but you don’t make me miserable. For the last ten or so years, you’ve made me happier than anything else. When I get over myself and ignore everyone except for you, I am happy. You make me feel free and loved and safe and everything I have been denied my entire life. You are my everything and I want so badly to love you and be with you every goddamn minute of the day, but you won’t let me! You won’t accept it! I’m putting myself on the line for you and you’re fucking rejecting me! I don’t understand how a man who is so unbelievably intelligent could be so fucking stupid! Why can’t you just let me love you?!”

“Alex...” Michael groaned, feeling even more pain than before. This was too much.

“No! I’m still fucking talking!” Alex snapped, moving in closer. He jabbed a finger into Michael’s chest, glaring with all the feelings that he’d been forcing himself to bury for however many years. “I don’t give a shit if we shouldn’t work, I love you and I want you and I know you love me and I know you want this to work. I know you do.”

“Of course I do,” Michael admitted easily. Because it was easy. While his relationship with Alex had never been so easy, admitting he wanted Alex was never difficult. “But-”

“No. No buts. All we need is for both of us to put in the effort, that’s it,” Alex whispered, moving forward to place his forehead on Michael’s. Michael pulled him in closer, urging him to sit on his lap no matter how awkward the position might’ve been in the small space. He wanted him closer. “I spent all night filling up half a notebook on just you. You can’t reject me after that, that’s just mean.”

“I’m not rejecting you,” Michael said, a soft smile finding his lips. Even if he was just being yelled at, having Alex this close was enough to make him relax. “I thought you were rejecting me.”

“You need therapy, Guerin,” Alex grumbled, slowly slumping to tuck his head into the crook of Michael’s neck. Michael snorted a laugh, wrapping his arms around him in a warm hug.

“You do too.”

“We can go together,” Alex suggested, “Couples therapy would be super helpful.”

Michael thought about it for a moment, letting his hands slide over the soft fabric that covered Alex’s thighs.  The main thing keeping him from doing therapy (aside from the cost, of course) had been the alien ordeal. They would have to discuss how they could avoid talking about that. But... if Alex was that desperate to make them work, then Michael was too.

“Okay. Let’s do that. If it means getting you, then... Shit, I’ll do anything,” Michael admitted, his voice soft. Alex nodded and gave him a squeeze that had him smiling even wider.

Eventually, he let Alex go, but only long enough for him to take off the prosthetic so they could crawl into bed. Alex cuddled up close, not like he had much of a choice with the airstream’s bed, and was out like a light. Apparently staying up all night pouring out your feelings was very draining.

Michael was able to go back to sleep too, finally ending his two months streak of a cold bed.

[alexanderlightweight]

Home is You

This is for @alexmanesairstream! Thank you for the prompts, I sort of muddled them both together and then it got a little away from me!  Hope you enjoy it!

Michael was fraught with tension and he scowled at his beer bottle, knowing from the mental buzz that sparked like static electrify across his brain that Isobel was fast losing her patience.

“Look, Michael if it’s making you this worked up just go see him.”

“He clearly doesn’t want to see me.  Do you think it’s payback?”  Michael asked and ran his hands through his hair, trying not to think of all the worst case scenarios and failing.

“What I think clearly doesn’t matter,” Isobel said.  “Seeing as I keep on telling you to just go over to his place and talk to him in person.”

“We’ve been talking.  Talking is all we’ve been doing for a couple months now.  This was supposed to be the first step.  Sort of like a date.”  It felt odd to admit, but it was something that had been building for months.  A relationship built on trust and respect and not just desire.  It was supposed to be the beginning of a relationship that Michael had been craving for over a decade.  It was just like life to give him a taste of what he could have, then rip it away.

If this was Alex once again walking away from him, Michael was going to break and it was going to be explosive.  

“Sort of like a date?”  Isobel asked with little sympathy and then she scoffed, “if it’s only sort of a date then what does it even matter?”

If Michael had just a little less control, then the glass in the room would have shattered.  As it was, her wine glass gave a delicate little hum of warning and Isobel winced before setting the glass down.  “Sorry.  Look, Michael you have to figure this out.  Don’t let this be another misunderstanding or accident.  I realize you’re scared,” he shot her a glare that didn’t even phase her.  “But you both being scared is part of what made this take so long to get here.  Granted you both had different reasons for dragging your feet, but at some point you both need to stop making the same mistakes.”  

“If you’re wrong,” Michael warned, unable to finish voicing what he feared the most.

Isobel rolled her eyes and gave him a tiny mental push, “go Michael.  You don’t want to know what I’m planning if you two don’t manage to work this out by Monday.”  

Michael conceded defeat gracefully -with a grumble and the overexaggerated drag of his boots against Isobel’s floor.

-

Michael hadn’t been to Alex’s cabin very often.  The times he had been there, Valenti or someone else had also been present.  It was both exhilarating and neausiating to be approaching what he knew was Alex’s home and sanctuary by himself.  He wanted this to work.  More than anything, he wanted their relationship to be feasible and healthy and something that wouldn’t shatter as easily as bone.  Max may have been able to heal physical wounds and Isobel could root out mental and emotional ones, but not one out of their motley family could heal him if tonight went wrong.

Of course, it went wrong.

The first thing Michael noticed was that the cabin was lit and smoke was coming from the chimney.  It had been cooling down at night, but Alex would never have a fire going if he’d actually planned on meeting Michael for dinner like he’d promised.  Turning to corner to park and seeing Valenti’s car only made caused his mood to darken and agitation to churn in his stomach.  

From an intellectual point of view, Michael understood that what Alex and Valenti were working on was important, he also knew that a part -though not all- of Alex’s dedication to what was a rather thankless task, was because of him.  From an emotional standpoint, Michael wasn’t so understanding.  Especially if Alex’s reason for standing him up was because he was working with Valenti.  That shit wasn’t acceptable.  

It was with wild energy coursing through him that he unlocked Alex’s door with his powers, barely noticing that the door made a solid thunk as it opened.  The inside of the cabin was surprisingly dark, the only light besides the fireplace was a flickering lamp in the kitchen.

What did surprise him was a loud curse and then the sound of something being knocked over and then a quieter curse.  Valenti stumbled out from Alex’s bedroom looking like he hadn’t slept in days and his shirt soaked, an empty glass in one hand.

“Geurin?”  Valenti asked with what was clearly genuine surprise, “shit sorry.  I must have fallen asleep.  What are you doing here?”

“Trying to figure out where my errant date was,” Michael drawled, “just what kind of shit did you two find this time?”

Valenti blinked twice and then held up a hand, “give me a second before the interrogation, Guerin.  Actually, let me ask a couple questions first.  What time is it?”

“Past ten,” Michael said and watched as Valenti made his way with ease to the kitchen, grabbing a pot of what was clearly cold coffee and filling the glass in his hand.  The doctor didn’t even hesitate to down it before he rinsed it out and filled it with water that he slipped much more slowly.  

“Right, so I’ve been here... shit.  I got here yesterday, to go over something with Alex.  You said you had a date tonight?”  

“He didn’t mention it?”

“He’s ah...” Valenti sighed, “look I need you to trust me as a doctor okay?”  Michael crossed his arms in front of his chest and shifted his weight.  “Right.  Don’t even know why I thought that might work.  I got here yesterday and Alex was a little under the weather.  I convinced him to rest a little bit and he felt bad enough to agree, only when he woke up again his fever was pretty bad.  He’s not holding down medicine or fluids and his fever is high enough that he’s not making any sense.  He mentioned sending you a message and I gave him his phone, but it’s possible he forgot to send it.”  Valenti paused and took another sip of water, “or even type it out.  Like I said, he’s pretty out of it.”

“He’s sick?  Do we need to get him to a hospital?”  Michael asked, immediately alert despite the fact that he hated hospitals.  He hadn’t been around a human he cared about long enough to be there when they were sick.  He would have been, if it were for Alex, but they’d never had that opportunity.  

“I’d really rather not move him.  I gave him an IV earlier to get some fluids in him and he’s been doing better since then.  Honestly, he just needs rest and someone to look after him and help him out.”  Valenti said and he fixed Michael with a very serious look, “I have to get back to my apartment to rest at some point though.  If he’s not doing better I’ll probably have to take him with me and then to the hospital anyway, I can’t leave him here alone like this.”

“I can stay with him.”  The words were out of his mouth before Michael’s brain had finished registering Valenti’s words but he meant them.

“Guerin,” there was a pause, “you and Max and Isobel don’t get sick.  Alex is, he’s going to need a lot of looking after and a lot of help.”  

Valenti gave him and look that Michael didn’t even try to discern, he just shook his head stubbornly, “I can take care of him.”  

-

The list of things to track about Alex’s condition was long but not overly complicated.  The most important thing was to monitor his temperature and keep track of his fluid intake.  Valenti had been very clear that if anything got worse that Michael was to call him immediately, for once Michael didn’t argue.

Alex’s body was flush with heat, his face too pallid and hair soaked with sweat.  His eyes were glazed over with fever and when he met Michael’s gaze there was little recognition for a few minutes.  Then he seemed to collect himself enough to offer a small smile before he buried himself back into his pillow.

-

Taking care of Alex seemed to mostly be entertaining himself while Alex slept.  Michael hadn’t been sure what to do with himself at first; heating broth that Alex couldn’t quite hold down and texting both Valenti and Isobel updates on how Alex was doing.  She’d offered to come over but he’d been firm in telling her that wasn’t necessary.  Now he found himself pressed against Alex’s side, using his tablet for research and waking Alex up when he felt the other man needed it.  They hadn’t talked much, Alex being either too exhausted or too sick to have a serious conversation.

It took a week for Alex to get back on some semblance of a meal plan.  His body rejected most solid foods and Michael knew it was driving him crazy.  It should have been driving them both crazy but Michael, Michael found a strange sense of peace in looking after Alex.  In the fact that Alex was letting him instead of fighting to do everything himself.  

Michael had only left the cabin twice and that was to grab some of his things and make sure the bunker was sealed tight.

Taking care of Alex while he was sick was one of the most intimate things Michael had ever experienced.  Alex was stubborn and proud but even he knew when to lean on someone else and the fact that he hadn’t insisted Michael leave, hadn’t asked for someone else to see him like this.  It made something in Michael hum and settle happily in his chest, his entropy evening out as though Alex’s breathing and heartbeat were a song that soothed his mind.

It was like they were in their own little world.  Valenti had been called to a nearby hospital for an emergency and since Michael wasn’t sure exactly how Alex felt about anyone else at the moment, he didn’t bother letting anyone besides Isobel knowing what was going on.  

-

“So all it took for you to get along with Kyle was me getting sick?”  Alex teased him, cheeks finally showing some color that wasn’t from a fever and Michael rolled his eyes while using his powers to tuck the blanket around Alex.  

“I can tolerate Valenti when he’s useful, if I have to.”  Michael admitted sourly, “this isn’t going to become a common thing, Alex.  I wasn’t going to risk you dying or something and he’s the expert on human illnesses.”

“So what you’re saying,” Alex drawled with a glint of mischief in his eyes that made Michael wary, “is that Kyle has a better understanding of my anatomy than you?”  

“Alex,” Michael said warningly and was greeted with a smirk, “sometimes I wonder if you want me to break his face.”

“Sorry.”  He didn’t sound sorry at all, “but you kind of set yourself up for that one.”  When all Michael did was glower at him, Alex chuckled and reached out a hand to him.  “Thank you for trying to work with him.”

-

Taking care of Alex when he was incoherent and mumbling unintelligible things and barely able to hold a cup without spilling on himself was the easy part.  Taking care of a bed-ridden but coherent Alec was a trial in patience and a test in cunning.

“Guerin, no.”  

“What happened to Michael?”

“Michael is reserved for when you’re not holding a very sharp razor.”  Alex replied and gave the blade a very wary look.  “I’m fine waiting to shave.”

“You’ve been complaining about how being sweaty and not being able to shave is making you feel gross.  I can help with that.”  Michael sat down next to Alex and put the razor back on the tray of grooming supplies he’d gathered.

“I haven’t seen you clean shaven since we were kids.”  Alex raised a brow and looked at him challengingly, “you sure you know what you’re doing?”

“You’ll find I’ve only perfected my technique over the years.”  Michael said and grinned smugly before letting his mouth soften into a much gentler smile.  He raised his hand slowly and cupped Alex’s jaw, “I can tell it’s bothering you sweetheart, if you can, trust me with this.  Okay?”  He made sure his voice and his grip were tender, no demands.  If Alex decided he didn’t want this, Michael would respect that.  Alex watched him, brown eyes dark and gorgeous, brow furrowed in a way that made Michael want to soothe away all of his exhaustion.  

“Alright,” Alex said, pressing his cheek into Michael’s palm.  “I’d appreciate it then.  And Michael,” Alex paused, “I do trust you.  

Michael’s breath caught in his chest and he bit back the biting humor that defensively came to mind.  Even after all this time spent with Alex, there was a lingering fear that nipped at his heels and hid in the shadows of his brain.  

“Let’s put it to the test then, Private.”

-

Alex held himself still.  The moment, the act of Michael shaving him felt fragile.  It was his skin that a blade was pressed against, but he felt as though he were a sniper with Michael in his sights.  

Michael’s hands were calloused and warm, gentle but firm on his face, moving Alex where he needed to go.  The blade a steady and soft pressure.  Each slide of it against his face came with a strange pressure before it disappeared.  Soon enough he realized that Michael was using his powers to delicately maneuver the razor so that Alex was completely safe from even the tiniest and most accidental of cuts.  That devoted attention -on top of Michael’s dedication while he was sick- nearly broke Alex’s already cracked heart.

“I’m sorry.  I don’t think I’ve said that yet.”  He finally murmured, trying not to startle Michael.

“Alex, not right now.”  Michael said and gave him a stern look, “let me finish this.  I’m almost done.”  

Alex waited until he’d lifted the razor away to wipe it clean and then reached up, tangled his fingers with the hand Michael still had on his jaw.  Tilting his head he pressed a kiss to the now unscarred skin of Michael’s left hand, “you just keep on taking care of me.  I didn’t get to tell you how much I was looking forward to dinner.  To a real date, with you.”  

Michael gave a slow shuddering breath and clenched his eyes shut for a long moment, fingers tightening on Alex’s.  “Alex, why do you... you.  Fuck, you have the absolute worst timing for everything don’t you?”  Michael opened his eyes and Alex swallowed, already having forgotten what he meant to say in reply.  Michael’s eyes were fierce and burning and Alex felt consumed by the intensity.  

“Every time I try to wait for the right time, I hurt us both.  I don’t want to, I can’t keep doing that.  Eventually, I’ll be too late again.  Waiting for you was , Michael.  I don’t want to push you away again, just because I can’t figure out when or how to tell you what I feel or what I want.”  Alex kept his gaze locked on Michael’s.  “So, because I think I need to make it clear.  I wanted that date with you.  I knew what I was going to wear.  I wanted that night to end with a decision.”  

“And what decision would that be?”  Michael asked, voice hoarse but gaze no less relentless.  

“That no matter what, I’ll be there for you.  You’re my family, Michael.”  Michael’s gaze dimmed a little and Alex quickly continued, “but that’s not all I want you to be.  I wanted to tell you at dinner that I wanted more. That I want a relationship with you.  That I still love you.  I’ve never stopped loving you.”

Michael didn’t let him add anything else, just half lunged forward and Alex was dimly aware of the tray hitting the wall.  Pushed out of the way by Michael’s powers and then he was lost.  Pulled away from reality until his world began and ended with the press of Michael’s lips on his own.  Fingers sliding through his hair and tangling with the messy strands and hushed words of “I want that.  I want you,” pressed between gasps of air against his lips.  

He didn’t know how much time had passed before they parted.  Michael pressing one last kiss against his lips before pressing tiny, softer kisses against his cheeks and neck.

It took a long moment for Alex to come down from that euphoria, he was dizzy from the exertion of their kiss and he could do little more than rest a hand on Michael’s head.  By the time Michael stopped lavishing him with affection, Alex was waning and his eyes fluttering in a desperate attempt to stay awake.  

“If that’s all it took to wear you out, then we’re going to need to work on your stamina darling.”  Michael’s teasing was gentle and Alex gave a tired scoff in response.  Whatever energy he’d gained that day was gone and he just wanted to fall asleep with Michael’s comforting heat and weight against him.  “Alex, Alex stay awake just a little longer.”  Alex struggled to open his eyes and was rewarded with a soft, “there we go.  I meant it when I said you have the worst timing, let me just finish this and you can sleep.”  

Michael’s voice, his hands, the words he was speaking and even the scrape of metal from the razor all seemed twined together in something deeply comforting.  

-

Michael stretched out, tearing off his shirt as he headed to the Airstreams shower.  It had been a long but successful day and he was pleased with the amount of work he’d gotten done.  It had been a few months since Alex had missed their date and somehow, during the two weeks that he’d taken off, everyone had decided to have problems that had to be fixed.  While he couldn’t complain about the steady work, it did bite into his time spent both with Alex and in his bunker.  Of the two, Alex was his priority, but he did miss time spent discovering and learning more about who he was and where he was from.  The piece of his ship that Jim Valenti had left Alex, stayed in the bunker under the cabin, a place that Alex and he had been converting to both a lab and a more functional safehouse.  

Done with his shower, Michael went to grab new clothes and then cursed.  He’d been doing laundry at the cabin and apparently, he’d been forgetting to bring it back with him.  Deciding that if anyone pulled him over they could just deal with it, he put on his dusty and grease smeared jeans and forewent a shirt.  It wasn’t until he went to grab the rest of his dirty laundry that he really looked around the Airstream and he paused, taking in something that should have been obvious.

The Airstream was practically empty.

Oh it still held pieces of him.  It was still very clearly somewhere he had lived, but the longer he looked around the more he realized he didn’t live there anymore.  Somehow, in the days, weeks and now months of being with Alex, he’d only slept at the Airstream when he was too tired to drive home.  Or on the rare occasions when they were in town and he convinced Alex that it was faster to just stop at the Airstream instead of driving to the cabin.  

Michael drove on the side of too fast as he headed back to the cabin.  Alex was in the backyard, his laughter ringing through the air like a siren call when he arrived and Michael followed it.  The beagle pup they’d rescued was darting around, valiantly attempting to chase a soccer ball that outsized her.  Alex turned and smiled at him, looking healthier and happier than ever and Michael understood now what Alex had meant about feeling seventeen again.  Except they weren’t, they were better now.  Stronger, able to take care of each other and he knew that neither of them would ever look away again.  

“Too hot to put a shirt on, Cowboy?”  Alex asked as he met him for a kiss.

“More like I forgot that all my clothes were here,” Michael said evenly and he could feel Alex tensing under his hands, “I’ll have to remember to take some spares over tomorrow.”  

“Just some spares?”  Alex asked, voice tinged with hopefulness that let Michael know they were both on the same page.

“My home’s here,” Michael said and he put his left hand on Alex’s chest, right over his heart.  Alex was the music he needed to survive this planet, to survive the universe.  Whether that was here, in a little cabin in Roswell or on a ship set to explore the universe.  So long as he had Alex, his mind was quiet and life was worth it.  

[atlas-of-a-human-soul]

The wrong girl, pt. 9 (E.D.)

Summary: Unlike Ethan who is done with life, Grayson who is calling every lawyer they have on retainer, Y/N is actually prepared to do the work and make this nightmare end, before it ends her and Ethan’s chance at love.

Warnings: angst, violence, swearing, slight fluff

The Wrong Girl - Masterlist

Defeated, the three laid in different positions all over Ethan's room, each doing their own thing.

Ethan desperately searched for all possible information on what his ex spilled, shocked to find Jack joined in, accusing him of assault.

Grayson argued with their lawyers, going overtime on strategic plans for resolving the issue.

Y/N, however, didn't search any information about anything. She sat with her knees drawn to her chest, head tilted to the side as she stared at Ethan Grant Dolan, wondering just how much more catastrophes can they survive before they break. She watched the boy she loves - a little bit broken, a beautiful disaster, just like she is. And that's when she hatched a plan.

Texting Jack, she pushed herself off the ground, determined not to let anyone hurt her turtle man.

"I have to go. Do something. Just, uh, don't do anything stupid." She leaned down, letting Ethan grab her forearm as he pulled slightly, wanting to keep her with him.

"I don't want you to go." Mumbling, Ethan stopped breathing altogether once Y/N pressed her lips against his and unlike him, it felt like she breathed him in, overwhelming her senses with Ethan and the vanilla musk that he loved to drown himself in.

"I won't be out for long. Okay?" Brushing her nose against his, she smiled, pecking his lips once more as her hand moved down his cheek, sensing his nod more than seeing it.

"I love you." Ethan whispered meekly, wanting more than anything to keep her at his side and protect her from the world especially since her name is dropped in the media more than once as his long term fling...even the name itself contradicts the statement because no fling is long-term, that's already a relationship, a love without bounds and he was certain it could survive this disaster. He had to believe it could.

Without saying it back, Y/N pecked his lips once more for good luck, walking away as his heart fell. He didn't exactly expect her to say it back although she told him she feels the same way, but he knew he has to earn her trust, to truly know she can count on him. He has a lot to make up for, but it doesn't mean it didn't sting not to hear her say the words when he did. Even as a small mercy now when he is in a disastrous position.

Y/N on the other hand is a woman with a purpose much too big to think about the I love yous or who has to rectify their past mistakes.

On her way to a meeting point, she texted Kyle and the crew, checking they're in position as she couldn't have Jack suspect anything.

Once confirmed, Y/N walked with her heart in her throat, hoping this works out. There’s a lot riding on her plan, more than she’d like to admit. She and Ethan deserved a chance at a real relationship, a proper attempt to be who she knew they could be.

Upon arrival, she noticed Jack to already be in place, not alone as she assumed it would be.

"Oh, look! Trash is here!" The annoying shrill tone of Ethan's ex girlfriend already made her skin crawl more than words. Y/N couldn’t help but wonder how the hell did Ethan force himself to listen to this plastic human being talk, let alone scream in the bedroom - he must have been seriously off his rocker to be with her for a year.

"Don't talk about her that way." Jack grumbled under his breath, wanting to protect Y/N even if she's not his anymore. He might have chosen to go back to his ex, cheating on Y/N in the spur of the moment but Jack really did love Y/N. He spent a year absolutely enchanted with every little thing she did, the good and the bad. She was like that song you always smile to, the one that lights up your spirits without a fail. And it hurt like a bitch when she left him for someone else...even if he did cause that himself.

"God, is her vagina magic or something?" The obnoxious girl rolled her eyes in disgust, her lips pursed and her arms crossed.

"I'm here to help you take Ethan down. He deserves all he gets." Y/N smirked, reaching out for Jack's hand, shamelessly holding on. He doesn't fight contact. In fact, he intertwines their fingers and smiles, feeling his heart flutter.

"He already fucked up, huh? That was fast." Jack chuckled, turning toward Ethan's ex with a smile. "Told you she's cool."

"Yeah, so, what lies do you have out there on him and what truths that can damage his reputation?" Y/N moved closer to Jack, leaning her head on his arm like she used to do when she's tired, expecting the brat before her to speak.

"Well, I have a DNA analysis that says he's the baby daddy. Took me months to fake this, but it will pay off. Also, told the fans he cheated with you, but it was me who did, hence the baby. Oh, and Jack told everyone he hit him, but Ethan only told him to stay away from you. Did I get everything?" She giggled to herself, cradling her pregnant belly, as if showing it off. Y/N had to stop herself from actually rolling her eyes at the woman, hating every moment spent in her proximity. If she wasn’t pregnant, Y/N would gladly slap the smirk off her face.

"I wanted to bury him, but I'm not so sure he deserved all of that." Jack said gruffly, seemingly disgusted by the woman he took up an alliance with.

"So those were all lies? Ethan isn't the dad?" She turned from the pregnant witch toward her ex, "and Ethan never hit you?" Y/N repeated for good measure, not knowing if it was clear the first time.

She didn't know Ethan, Grayson and thousands of fans all sat down in shock of the news, watching the live stream Kyle and the camera crew all broadcasted on Twitter, Instagram, Facebook and Snapchat at the same time, making sure the truth is spreading just as fast as the lies.

"And I'm Ethan's girlfriend, not his fling." Y/N smirked victoriously, stepping away from Jack, giving him a disapproving look, shaking her head in disappointment.

Ethan screamed back home, unable to hide how happy and proud he is of his girl, but most of all, freaking out about the fact she called herself his publicly. All he could think about is not being free of the PR mess that loomed over his head like a knife ready to strike, but about the fact she truly does love him.

"I've been his best friend for years. I've loved him for years. And he is my boyfriend now. I suggest you talk to the real baby daddy and Jack...I have no words. I can't believe how wrong I was about you." Turning on her heel, Y/N wanted to leave. To return home and curl up with Ethan after asking him to fuck her brains out so she stops thinking altogether. She just wanted to feel Ethan, hear his voice and have his hand run up and down her back as she felt his heartbeat under the palm of her hand.

But Jack reached out, grabbing her by the elbow, his eyes screaming hurt and desperation as he yanked her toward him, his free hand latching onto the back of her neck, pushing his lips onto hers without permission. Desperate people do terrible things, but so did those cornered without a way out. However, no matter how hard Y/N tried to push him off, struggling to get away, she was no match for a man of Jack’s statue.

Kyle didn't even hesitate, rushing out from behind the bushes, forcing him to let her go, landing a sickening punch to Jack's left cheekbone, effectively dropping him to the ground.

"Don't you ever come near me again!" Y/N cried out, wiping her mouth furiously, feeling sick to her stomach before running in the opposite direction.

"Are you okay?" Kyle rushed after her, the other guys joining them as she tried her hardest not to cry. It felt as if her lips are burning, poisoned, still dripping with invisible blood he caused her mentally more so than physically.

"Just take me home, please. I don't think I can drive." She asked, knowing Kyle is a kind soul and he would save her if she asked him to. And she wasn’t in a state to drive, her entire body shaking, turning numb as she scratched at her skin, feeling like his hands are all over her, dreading what would have happened have they met somewhere private with less prying eyes.

All she wanted was to be away from prying eyes, thinking how at least the truth is out there now and they can't touch her man anymore. Not without a public nightmare.

"Just take me home. Take me to Ethan."

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“I’ll keep you warm.”

The wind was hallowing as the snow fell from the Manchester sky. It was below freezing and you could see your breath as you can up and down the pitch before the match. February games were always difficult. The season was slowly winding down and the weather was harsh, always took your breath away. Night matches were always harsh, no sun to dull the ache of the frost in the air. The snow was heavy, every time it hit you it felt like it could slice your skin. No matter the amount of layers you wore, you could not shake the cold. Dele went through the motions of warming up pre match, stretching his muscles, warming up. Sonny and Lucas were kicking the ball next to him to get their blood flowing. Hugo was in goal, every time he dove to catch a pass the snow off the ground would fly into the air. Dele looked over to his right and saw Eric warming up, lifting his legs up to stretch out his hips, shaking the cold out of his bones. His cheeks were rosy and red, his signature beanie placed on his head to further prevent the cold from getting him. Dele had to shake his head and concentrate as a ball was passed to his feet by Winks. He couldn’t be distracted by how good Eric looked in the cold even before the start of the match. He couldn’t be distracted by Eric at all truthfully.

In the away team changing room Pochettino gave his prematch pep talk. Dele tied his boots tighter than normal to hopefully keep his feet warm. He half paid attention to the talk, he knew what he had to do. Only a single point separated the two teams and three points could mean a lot. Three points could mean they win the league come May. They drop any points and they could kiss the trophy goodbye. In was Manchester City, they’ve been here before. They’ve come back and beat them numerous times, they’ve also lost horrible here as well. Dele couldn’t focus on that, he had to focus on the here and now. He caught Eric’s eye from across the room and smirked at him. He was focused and in the zone, hyping himself up. Walking on the pitch always gave Dele butterflies, the sound of the crowd always overwhelming. No matter if they were playing home or away, in England or somewhere in Europe it was an amazing feeling. Hearing the songs and the chants and even the boos made Dele feel alive. He shook hands Witt the City players, lingering a little longer with Kyle, John, and Raheem. It was always good to play against friends, made things more intense.

“Play good,” Eric whispered to him before taking his position on the field.

Dele laughed and shook his head. It was an odd tradition of theirs for the last three plus seasons. Dele always froze up and got nervous before every match, no matter how big or small. Eric was quick with a reassuring word, either in person or via text when he was out injured or not in the starting eleven. He knew he needed it now, his skin vibrating with excitement and the bitter cold. He let out a harsh breath just so he could see it manifest in front of him. He jumped in place a few times to hype and warm himself up before Michael Oliver blew the whistle. The first few minutes were a major adjustment. Last time they played City was at home and in August, the second match of the season. The weather was much warmer and the stakes weren’t as high as they were now. Dribbling the ball down the right hand side, Dele tried to pass it to Kane but stupid Kyle had to do his job and block the shot which skirted off of Dele’s thigh with a sharp sting. The velocity of the ball plus the cold momentarily took his breath away. He ran after the ball up and down the pitch, making a run towards goal when Eric lobbied the ball towards him but Ederson read his move before he could even finish it.

“Good ball, Diet,” he called to Eric as he tracked David Silva towards Spurs half.

The halftime whistle blew and Dele headed towards the dressing room. There was no score even though both teams had five shots on goal. This was going to make a massive mistake or a small miracle for either team to score. Both goalkeepers were doing amazing. Dele removed his boots as Pochettino gave his talk and went over the halftime notes. He stretched his toes to get the blood circulating. He looked around the room at everyone’s rosy cheeks and chapped lips, cold sweat falling from their brows and necks. Eric was talking to Wink and Eriksen, talking tactics. Dele scooted closer to the conversation Kane was having with Lucas and Sonny, feeling he needed to be apart of it. He sighed in relief when he started to feel his toes again, his ears and nose as well. He was listening as Kane broke down the City defense, how to get around Kyle and John, how to scoot around Bernardo Silva. Pochettino was still talking into the abyss when Dele quickly headed to the bathroom. He washed his hands in warm water, stretching his fingers to get the sensation back before putting his gloves back on.

“You okay?”

Dele jumped at Eric’s voice and nodded. “Tough match so far.”

“Cold?” Eric asked.

“Proper February day,” he scoffed, looking down at his feet, wiggling his toes inside his socks.

“Get your boots back on Del, we have another forty five to play,” Eric told him softly, kissing his temple briefly. “Let’s get all three points, yeah?”

Dele shuffled back to his spot in the changing room to put his boots back on. When he returned everyone was clapping and hyping the team up for the second half. He exchanged a nod with Eric as he laced up his boots. Sonny passed by him and ruffled his hair that made him smile, no one could ever be mad at Sonny. He shook his arms out in front of him before stretching them behind his back, trying to remain loose. He walked down the tunnel with the rest of the team, jumping a few times to keep himself in the zone, to remain game ready. He knew what he had to do, wha runs he had to make, where he should pass the ball and to who he should pass it to. He took his position on the pitch, locking eyes with Winks and Kane before looking over at Eric and giving him a warm smile. Michael Oliver blew his whistle and Dele went into autopilot. Words from Poch and the team ringing through his head as he dashed up and down the pitch, switching from offensive to defensive quickly. He would smirk at himself every time he saw his breath in front of him as he huffed and puffed in the cold.

Around the sixtieth minute the game changed. Mahrez came on to replace Bernardo Silva and set the match on fire. The pass from De Bruyne was perfection, Dele could admit that. From outside the box Mahrez took his shot, no defender could block it, Jan and Toby were left stunned. Hugo pathetically dove to stop it, but it was too late. City was ahead. Dele felt defeated, wanted to just collapse on the pitch and call it a game, go back home to London and snuggle with Eric in front of the fire and drink hot cocoa. He took that image with him as the game restarted. It was only a goal, they’d come back from a larger margin before. This was Spurs who has that miracle run to the Champions League final. A single goal wasn’t going to stop them. Kane looked at all of them directly in the eye, silently encouraging them to keep their heads up and no lose hope. It helped because during the eightieth minute Christian made an unbelievable pass to Lucas in the box who headed it in to equalize the game. The noise from the away fans energized Dele, warmed him up from the inside out.

The match was going to end up in a draw by the time added time was announced. Five minutes to either win, lose, or draw. The numbness in Dele’s fingers was starting to creep up, despite his gloves. Eric was substituted around the eighty fifth minute for Lamela to give Spurs a better chance at an attack in the final minutes. When Dele had a moment to just stay still he snuck a look at the bench and saw how cozy Eric looked. Sitting with a blanket over his body, tucked in under his legs to keep himself warm. He had found a beanie and placed it firmly on his head. A small part of Dele was jealous, he was freezing and his sweat was just adding to the cold. The snow was still falling relentlessly, sometime during the second half it had turned to hail. Dele could picture the end of the match, could hear the final whistle ringing in his ears despite having another five minutes minimum to play. He couldn’t wait to get into the changing room and take a hot shower before heading to the coach to the plane to get back to his bed. He was just uncomfortable, his bones aching and feeling heavy from the match and the weather.

The final whistle blew and Dele just dropped to the floor. They desperately wanted the three points but taking one point back to London was better than dropping all three. He was exhausted, gave his everything in the last ninety minutes. He looked up and saw Winks extend his hand to him to help him up, which he gladly accepted. They hugged and congratulated each other on the match before making their way to other teammates and City players. He removed his gloves and playfully smacked Kyle in the face with them. He kept his eye on Eric as he made his way towards their fans to applaud them and thank them for making the trip up north to support them. With heavy limbs, Dele made the walk towards the away stands to thank the fans. He saw Sonny take off his top and hand it to a young fan whose eyes lit up in excitement. Dele laughed at the immediate chill he saw run up Sonny’s back from the lack of warmth. It was a novel idea but it was way too cold to strip down to an undershirt that was mesh.

“Good game,” Pochettino congratulated them as they made their way into the changing room.

They all say cold and exhausted at their cubbies. Some guys grabbed their bags and made their way towards the showers to warm up. Some sat on their phones and caught up with missed calls or texts, or just skimmed through their social media. Dele just sat still, toeing off his boots, tossing them behind him hoping they landed near his bag. He caught a glimpse of Eric who was sitting down not doing anything other than drinking water. Dele wanted to make his way to him but his bones were exhausted. He just wanted his bed and blanket, and definitely a cuddle from Eric to keep him warm.

“Diet,” he called to him weakly.

Luckily Eric’s radar for Dele was good because he raised his head at the call of his name. “Okay, Delboy?”

“Cold,” he replied with a dramatic shiver.

Eric was up and walking over to him in seconds. “What’s cold?”

“Hands,” he answered, stretching out his fingers.

“Give me,” Eric told him, reaching for his hand. “I’ll keep you warm.”

Dele sighed and hummed in satisfaction as Eric raised his hands to his lips and gingerly kissed his fingertips one by one. His lips felt warm and soft against his fingers, definitely a good sensation other than numb. He closed his eyes as he felt Eric’s stubble against his palm, sending a shiver down his spine, this time a welcomed chill. Eric dropped his right hand repeated the kissing of the fingertips with his left hand. Dele huffed out a breath as he wiggled in his seat.

“Where else?” Eric whispered against his fingers.

“My face,” he spoke softly.

Eric kissed Dele’s forehead, moving down to his temples and closed eyelids. He could still hear the soft murmurs of their teammates around them, the showers running a few feet again. He didn’t care. He wanted to warm Dele up and help him decompress after a hard fought match. He much rather be at home in their bed doing this, but it wasn’t anything they hadn’t done before in front of the entire squad. He heard Dele’s breath hitch as he moved down to kiss both of his cheeks, lingering there a little longer than necessary to brush their cheeks together. His rough stubbly cheek against Dele’s smooth skin. Eric subtlety moved from Dele’s cheeks to place a kiss on his noise which drew a giggle from him. He opened his eyes and looked over at Eric who just smirked at him and shrugged his shoulders. Dele’s cheeks started to turn pink either from getting the warmth back in his body or slight embarrassment over the public display of affection around their teammates.

“Okay Delboy?” Eric asked softly.

“Still a little cold,” he replied, his tone just as soft as Eric’s. He raised his foot a little to press along Eric’s calf, trying to hook him in a little bit closer.

Eric obliged and pushed himself closer into Dele’s space, barely any room in between them. Eric grinned at him, moving slowly towards him. He looked at either of them and everyone was preoccupied, no one paying any attention to them. Eric placed a kiss on his lips that took him a little by surprise. A small yelp falling out his mouth. “Better?”

“My-my mouth is still a little cold,” Dele said, trying to act smooth but failing miserably.

“We can’t have that,” Eric told him. He moved him to kiss him again, this time Dele was prepared. He sat up straight, stretching forward to meet Eric’s lips, his hand instinctively cradling the back of Eric’s neck. He tried to deepen the kiss by licking at Eric’s lips but he refused entry. They may have permission to be affectionate around their teammates but they needed to have some boundaries.

“Sit with me on the plane,” Dele yawned when they separated.

Eric gawked at him like he had said something outrageous and scandalous. “Of course Del, always.”

“Thank you for keeping me warm, Diet,” he told him sheepishly, his cheeks still painted pink.

“Yeah,” Eric nodded, the back of his hand tracing the color on Dele’s face.

[backtobasicbellas]

33 zadison. Can you make it angst? 😊

oof. haven’t done angst like this in awhile I hope i did it justice

zadison + “I missed something, didn’t I?”

word count: 1,775

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Madison comes back to life and doesn’t speak to Zoe.

When she does, it’s a biting comment or quick answers. There’s a lot of eye rolls and scoffs, but there’s never any conversation, and it just about drives Zoe insane.

She doesn’t know what she did; the last time she saw Madison, they were laughing and teleporting around the front yard. It’s one of Zoe’s favorite early memories in the Coven.

(Aside from, you know, impaling herself.

When she’s resurrected, Kyle tells her Madison stormed out upon not being crowned Supreme. She believes him, up until she uses divination because Madison keeps coming up in her dreams and something feels off.

She cries when he’s put the stake, but she can’t forgive him for killing Madison.)

So when she comes back, looking alive as ever with Mallory trailing behind her, Zoe feels emotions hit her like a ton of bricks.

Here’s Madison, who immediately took her arm and forced a friendship upon Zoe’s arrival.

Here’s Madison, who drives Zoe up the will like no one else.

Here’s Madison, the girl who tried to steal her boyfriend but ended up sleeping with both of them.

Here’s Madison, who was endlessly infuriating but oh so powerful to have on your side.

Here’s Madison Montgomery, the cold-hearted bitch that wrecked havoc but was familiar and comfortable all the same to Zoe.

But Madison clearly isn’t going through the same emotional turmoil Zoe’s going through because when her gaze falls to the brunette, her eyes narrow and she sports a cold, nasty glare.

“Where’s your psycho zombie boyfriend?” she sneers.

(Everyone knows not to bring up Kyle.)

Zoe gapes. “I...”

Cordelia fills in, “He was burned at the stake for what he did to you, Madison.”

Madison looks from Cordelia back to Zoe and lifts an eyebrow.

“Nice to know you waited until after I died to care about me,” she says with venom dripping in her tone before walking off, glaring at Zoe as she goes.

And Zoe tries. God, she tries so hard.

Madison moves back into her old room - their room - and Zoe does her best to make sure Madison has everything she needs. She tries to be there for Madison, in case she wants to talk to her or needs anything.

“God, what are you, my guard dog?” Madison snaps at her. “I’m not a fucking baby. I know how to take care of myself.”

“I’m just trying to help,” Zoe tells her, not as meek as Madison remembers her.

“Well knock it off! I don’t need help, especially from you.”

Zoe doesn’t say anything after that, just backs up and leaves the room. It stings, how cruel Madison is being. And she could blame it on Madison’s transition back to life, back to everything she once knew, but that’s not true. Madison is for the most part adjusting just fine, talking with everyone else - even Cordelia and Misty - without a problem in the world.

It seems like Madison has a personal vendetta when it comes to Zoe, and the brunette has no idea what to do about it.

“Maybe you should try asking her,” Queenie shrugs. “Madison’s pretty blunt.”

“I can barely get a sentence out around her,” Zoe groans. “I don’t know what I did!”

Queenie gives her a look. “Your zombie boyfriend y’all were sharing killed her on your behalf.”

“I didn’t ask him to do that! I didn’t want him to do that!”

Queenie only shrugs. “I don’t know why you’re trying so hard. It’s Madison; she’s the most stubborn bitch I’ve met.”

Zoe only grunts in response.

The only time it seems like Madison isn’t bitching at her is at night. There’s panting and crying and whimpers, and at first, Zoe hesitates before she even approaches Madison’s bed. But when Madison sees her, her eyes are wide and she looks so small, Zoe can’t help but crawl into bed and hold Madison until she calms down.

These are the only moments where Madison doesn’t fight her. She lets Zoe wrap her arms around the blonde and stroke her hair.

“You’re here with me,” Zoe murmurs. “This is real, you’re alive. You aren’t in hell anymore.”

And Madison calms down enough to fall asleep before Zoe crawls back into her own bed.

But Zoe can only go on like this for so long. Madison’s attitude and yelling and sneering is becoming too much for her, for someone she has to share a bedroom with.

There was a time where Zoe would’ve genuinely considered Madison a best friend - in a weird, twisted way.

Sure, Madison was an absolute bitch, but there was always something drawing Zoe back to the starlet. She could never cut her out completely, even when she tried to come between her and Kyle, even when she was set on being the new Supreme.

Madison somehow always brought Zoe back to her.

Now, she wonders where that Madison went.

But Zoe’s had enough.

She bursts into their shared bedroom on a mission. Madison looks up from her phone in surprise, then she lets out a scoff.

“Jesus bitch, are you trying to break this old ass house or what?”

“What the fuck did I do to you?” Zoe asks, standing at the foot of Madison’s bed.

Madison rolls her eyes. “What are you going on about now?”

“You are a complete and total bitch to me,” Zoe tells her.

“That’s not new, Sherlock,” Madison deadpans.

Zoe glares at her. “You’re fine with everyone else - hell, you even get along with Misty for the most part. It’s different with me and you know it, so does everybody else. So what the fuck do you think I did to you, Madison? Why are you constantly at my throat for everything?”

Madison sits up in her bed, giving Zoe a hard look.

“Why are you acting like you’d never do anything wrong?” she asks, angry. “You’re not a fucking angel, Zoe! I know that better than anyone!”

Zoe grits her teeth, knows Madison is right, but she’s not letting her get away with this one.

“Don’t change the subject,” Zoe tells her sternly. “What is your problem with me, Madison?”

Madison takes a long look at Zoe, takes in the way her jaw is clenched and she’s leaning forward and how tense her body is. She lets out a scoff a moment later.

“All these years without me and Kyle and you still can’t figure it out?” she asks, giving Zoe a look the brunette can’t quite comprehend.

Zoe furrows her eyebrows then, completely taken by surprise at the mention of Kyle, that Madison would even use his proper name.

“What does this have to do with Kyle?”

Madison groans, looking at Zoe like she’s the most idiotic person on the planet. Zoe kind of wants to strangle her.

“It has nothing to do with him!” Madison exclaims, throwing her hands up in frustration. “It never had anything to do with him.”

Zoe tilts her head, lips twisting as she tries to understand what Madison is telling her.

“What do you mean?”

Madison scoffs, shaking her head. “Jesus Zoe, you’ve always been this fucking dense, haven’t you?”

“Madison...” Zoe says, still not following.

“It was never about Kyle,” Madison tells her quietly. “Never.”

There’s something that shifts in Madison’s eyes then. Zoe thinks there might be vulnerability there, or fear. Madison’s statement sits between them, neither looking away.

Zoe thinks about Madison before she died. She thinks about the way Madison immediately decided they’d be friends, how Madison literally brought her to the fucking morgue because Zoe wouldn’t stop moping about Kyle’s death. She thinks about the first time Madison came back to life, how they spent nights curled up in one bed, Zoe rubbing her back while Madison puked in a bucket. She thinks about how the two of them somehow always had each other’s backs, even if one second ago they’d been screaming. She thinks about how Madison fucked Kyle, and then the moment in the bathroom.

She thinks, just maybe, there’s something she didn’t pick up along the way.

The realization dawns on her face while Madison’s remains unmoved. When she looks back at her roommate, her features drop.

“I missed something, didn’t I?”

Madison snorts, but it’s self-deprecating as she avoids Zoe’s gaze.

“You could say that.”

“You never said anything,” Zoe points out.

“How could I?” Madison asks her helplessly. “We’d met each other for like a day before the bus and after that all you cared about was Kyle.”

Zoe softens, looking at Madison. “You were never just another person to me.”

“Sure felt that way,” Madison murmurs. “Especially since Kyle thought I wasn’t important enough to you to keep alive.”

Zoe sighs, standing in front of Madison now. “Mads, will you look at me?”

“No.”

“Madison.”

Madison resists an eye roll and meets Zoe’s gaze. “What?”

“I’m sorry,” Zoe says quietly. “If I knew...”

“If you knew, then what Zoe?” Madison asks with a scoff. “Don’t tell me you would’ve ditched Kyle. We both know you were in love with him.”

“He wasn’t the only one I was in love with,” Zoe admits, looking away.

“Don’t feed me that bullshit Zoe, I swear to god-”

“I’m not!” Zoe exclaims, gaping. “Seriously Madison, you can’t ever let yourself have anything?”

“Don’t tell me what I want to hear,” Madison tells her. “You know I’ve never wanted that.”

“Madison please,” Zoe begs. “Can you just listen to me?”

Madison looks visibly upset now, and Zoe’s stomach turns in a wicked way.

“Just go away Zoe,” she says, but it’s not as cold as it usually is.

It’s broken and too soft of a voice to belong to Madison Montgomery, but it’s hers all the same. She crawls back onto her bed, shuffling until she’s under the sheets.

“Leave me alone, please.”

Zoe stands there, defeated. She thinks her heart is breaking all over again, and this time it’s different from Kyle or Charlie or anything else.

She is coming apart by watching Madison do the same.

“Madison...”

“Zoe please.”

Madison’s tone is desperate, her voice cracks and Zoe knows they’re really in it now.

“O..okay,” she finally says, stepping away. “I...I’ll go.”

She walks out of the room, looking back to see Madison’s shoulders shaking and it kills Zoe to know that this is her doing, that she’s undone Madison in a way no one else in the house has before.

She doesn’t know if they’ll come back from this, if they can move forward.

But she knows she’ll keep trying.

[lovingsiriusoswald]

“Fragile, But Not Weak”

Part 7 - Her POV

Summary and Notes, Part One, Part Two, Part Three, Part Four, Part Five, Part Six, Part Seven, Part Eight

Pairing: Fenrir Godspeed and Delinquent!Alice

Word count: 2710 words

Tagging: @christmaswarlock @midnightcradle @pianoperson @wishiwasfictionaltoo​ @plumpblueberry @bumbleberry-jamboree @forenah-gaijin @the-cashewpeia and @5-of-spades​ i’m so sorry this was a week late, i got into art a lil too much and i deadass forgot about this AAAAAA as usual, thanks again so much for the lovely comments you left on the previous one (´⌣`ʃƪ)♡

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I was offered a lovely room, its interiors astonishingly decorated by the single bright, beautiful flower growing amongst the smelly, messy army men. Seth had a big smile on his face as I took in the sight. "Seth! This room is so beautiful!"

"It is, isn't it? I put my all in making it perfect just for you~" He sings as he smiles brightly at me. He places my bags down by the closet and turns back at me. "After all, a woman's safe haven is her room! Its the only place where she'd be comfortable."

He then walked towards me and gently holds my hands. "I know its overwhelming to stay in a place filled with brute men, but I can assure you that you can come to me whenever you need help. I'm the Big Sis of this ruckus of an army, and I'd be more than glad to help you, Alice."

"Big..Sis?" I asked very softly, unsure of what he was talking about.

"Oh, please don't get the wrong idea, I'm a man through and through!"

"I'm sorry for taking it the wrong way." I apologize as I start to look away from him.

"Its alright, Alice." He puts his finger underneath my chin and gently pulls my face upwards. Our eyes were fixated on each other for a moment and I felt like I was being pulled in a trance. "Come on now, I'm pretty sure that you're starved! You need to eat as much as you can~" He starts dragging me out of the room.

When Seth opened the doors to the kitchen, I was astounded by the huge amount of food placed on the long dining table. There was so much food, my stomach started to growl and my mouth drooled . "Come on Alice! Its time to eat!" Godspeed calls me over.

"What's happening? Why is there so much food?" I ask as I walk towards him. He had the biggest grin on his face as Ray holds his shoulder.

"We're having a welcome party for you." Ray answers and gives me a soft smile.

"A party?" My mouth drops open. I blinked several times, Why would they throw a party for me?

"You're officially part of the Black Army now, Alice!" Godspeed puts his arm around me and ruffles my hair with his other hand.

"W-wait wait, hold on, I didn't say anything about taking a side in this war." I remove his hand from my shoulder and grip his wrist tightly. He winces a little and looks at me worriedly.

"You aren't taking any sides, Alice. Don't worry." Sirius's calm voice "Just because you're here doesn't mean you have to fight. We promised to protect you, like family." His smile grows as he says the last word.

Why are you so nice?

"Now, enough with this war talk! You said you were starving, let's eat!" Seth pulls me to a chair beside where Luka sat. Cheers erupted in the dining area and I scanned the faces of these soldiers. They vowed to protect and keep me safe, even if they don't know who I am.

It felt surreal and overwhelming, I'm not dreaming, right? Unbridled emotions swelled in my chest and for the first time, it wasn't from fear nor regret. What good have I done? Do I deserve this kindness?

"What's wrong, Alice?" Luka asks softly.

"Oh! Nothing! I was just.. overwhelmed." I quickly plaster a smile on my face when I turned to look at him. Hunger got the best of me so I didn´t waste another second and indulged the savory and aromatic meals in front of me. "This is so good!" I say through my full mouth, unable to hide my amazement.

"I'm so glad you like it." Luka smiles at me. The fatigue that I was feeling  seemed to dissipate at each bite, recharging my energy and I've never felt so content.

"Woah, you really have such an amazing smile!" Godspeed exclaims out of the blue, making me almost choke on my own breath.

"Excuse me, what?" A chuckle erupts from my throat as I look up at him. He was seated across from me and had a goofy grin on his face. "Where did that come from?"

"Please don't think I lied, it was an honest compliment." He winks. A loud laugh slips from his lips and it was infectious. I stopped myself from laughing, but I couldn't help but grin. How dare he use my card against me. "Did that get ya?" He smirks at me as he wipes off the stray sauce from his upper lip with his thumb.

"Off guard, yes. Romantically, try again next time." It was my turn to wink and smirk at him, then we laughed at each other.

"Alice," Seth calls and I turn to him. "If it's okay, we'd like to know more about you." He has a soft smile on his face as he eats a spoonful.

"Well," I start. "In the Land of Reason, I work at a confectionery because I really like sugary food." I chuckle. "So when I decided to reside here, I wanted to continue my career."

"Other than being the sweet confectionery girl, what else do you do here in Cradle?" Sirius asks.

"Um, well, mess around in disguise?" I shyly answered, feeling my cheeks burn. "B-but I only do so because some soldiers slack off during their patrols!"

"Hey!" The man I'd thrown eggs at two nights ago reacts. I sink further down in the chair, suddenly ashamed of myself. Without my mask, I felt so vulnerable. "We don't slack off!"

"Yeah, I'd love to talk to the lady you were hogging off at the market about your duty." My mouth spits out the words without me thinking. My hands immediately cover my mouth and I glance over at the man, his cheeks flushed and his mouth agape.

"Your reaction to her statement proved that she was telling the truth." Sirius looks over at the man who sat back down to his chair. "We'll talk later."

"I'm sorry." I whispered to no one.

"You're not yourself without your mask, huh?" I hear Godspeed say as he places his elbow by the table and leans his chin on it. He had a smug smile on his face, he watched me as I try to sit properly. I hate how you read through me that quick, dammit.

"I'm too exposed to do anything stupid, my image would be ruined." I pout and reach for a glass of water.

"Have you always been a delinquent?" He asks, his tone serious but a smile still apparent on his face.

"Well, I guess, but not to the extent that I've become a criminal whatsoever." I breathe in. "Me and my friends were characterized as chaotic good, meaning, we have good intentions, but we do it differently and usually in a not so good way." A smile creeps on my face as I remembered the good days when everything was okay. "We do have rules though; we only mess with people, not hurt them. We replace things, not steal them. We usually do these things if we see something that isn’t right, or if we just want to have fun.”

"So you throwing that egg was something that you thought you did for the good?" Ray chuckles.

"Yeah, I'd like to think so. It was a bit rude that someone started shooting me for it." I eye Godspeed, who raises an eyebrow at me.

"Hey, I didn't know why you did it and you insulted my men. It was on instinct!" He exclaims defensively.

"Sure, you gun-shooting maniac." Seth rolls his eyes and Godspeed frowns at him.

"You wanna go?" He rolls his sleeve and clenches his fist.

"That looks like fun." I smile through the fork on my lips and watch them bicker back and forth, resulting in an arm wrestling match in seconds. The soldiers started to cheer and take sides, betting on who would win.

"Winner gets to be with Alice for a day!" Godspeed chips and Seth smiles, his feminine demeanor vanishing.

"If that's the case, you won't last a second!" Seth rolls his sleeve and places his elbow on the table, right in front of him.

"Hey now, I'm not a prize." I stood from my seat. "..but I'd love to see how this would turn out." I walk near them and witness their fight.

"Who's side are you on?" Sirius asks.

"I'd like to say Godspeed, but Seth is the 10 of Spades for a reason." I say as I look up at the taller man. Ray was beside him, cheering on his best buddy.

"That's good thinking, little lady." He pats my head and we watch the two fight, Godspeed's arms were slightly leaning down, but he's fighting as strong as he can. Through gritted teeth, I could see their amusement and willpower.

"Hear that Fenrir? Alice is on my side, give up now!" I could see Seth flex his muscles harder, making Godspeed struggle.

"Not fair! Ahh dammit. Another win for Seth!" Godspeed admits his defeat as Seth pushes his arm down. He immediately skips towards me and holds my hands.

"We're going shopping tomorrow Alice, its coincidentally my day off! It must be fate~" He hugs me and I giggle, memories of my old friends resonate to my heart and it aches with joy. I've missed this feeling.

"That sounds lovely! I can't wait!"

"You seem like you're used to being around men, do you have brothers?" Sirius asks as we walk to the lounge.

"I don't. I have a sister though, but we have a lot of guy friends — most of my friends are, actually." I smile at him and put my arms underneath my chest.

"When did you learn how to fight?" Godspeed asks as he stretches the arm he used to wrestle with Seth. "You kicked those Magic Disciples' asses with your bare hands!"

"My friends taught me how to defend myself, there were a lot of similar encounters back in my world. Minus the magic, though." I plop down the sofa and Luka hands me a strawberry and cream cake slice.

"I hope its as good as your expectations." He smiles sweetly at me and my heart nearly felt like it was gonna burst.

The men of the Black Army weren't a ruckus as Kyle had described them as. They're super sweet and generous, hospitable and very fun to be with. I actually felt at home and it's only been two hours since I got here. Do I really deserve this? Or is something gonna take this feeling away the moment I start to relish in it?

I took a bite from the cake and felt the sweet delicacy, balanced with the strawberry flavors and creamy texture, exactly how I like my cakes. "Luka! This cake is amazing!" I can feel my smile growing wider as I kept on taking another bite, my sweet tooth craving for more of the treat.

"Aww Luka's all red and blushing!" Seth teases him and I see him look away from me with a pout on his face. For a moment, he really did look like the Queen of Hearts. He tries to say something but he stutters, deciding to leave us in the lounge and went to what I assume was the kitchen.

"Is he gonna be okay?" I ask as I place the plate down by the nearby table.

"Yeah, he usually doesn't like being around too many people. He'll come around." Godspeed says confidently, beaming up at me.

After a few more hours of eating, I excused myself to go outside to breathe for a moment.

A gust of cool wind flutters the ends of my dress a little, inviting me to bask in the afternoon light. I pondered on the sweet emotions that grew in my chest, feeling my cheeks hurt from constantly smiling so much. Times like this had been very rare — almost like a luxury — ever since the fire. I wonder if I can make this feel a little longer, Maybe I should take Kyle's advice.

"Need some company, lady?"

On second thought, nevermind.

"Not really, but I don't mind." I look up at Godspeed as he sits beside me on the stairs to the courtyard.

"Did ya drink your medicine?" A small smile grows on his face.

"Oh shoot, I forgot." I gasp and I immediately got up, but I was stopped when he grabs my arm. He shows my pill bottle and a bottle of water. "Aww thanks." I smile at him and reach for it, but as I was gonna grab for it, he pulls them away.

"But first — answer me something." His expression turns serious all of a sudden, startling me. "You're too comfortable around Seth and the others, wouldn't Kyle be mad if he found out?"

Wait, what?

"Ha..?" I could barely even form a proper reaction. What was he talking about?

"You and Kyle are together right? I won't consent you to cheating— " He says this with a straight face and it was almost laughable.

"WAIT ONE SECOND GODSPEED." I almost scream as laughter erupts from my throat. "Me? And Kyle? Together? What made you think of such a thing?" More laughter rose from my chest and I had to sit down to clutch on to my aching stomach.

"Wait what?" It was his turn to be confused now. "You two aren't together?" Something in his tone changed, but I ignored it. I kept laughing until there was no longer any sound coming out of my mouth.

"No! He's my doctor and I'm his patient. That's all there is." I wipe away the tears that leaked from my eyes. "Plus, neither of us are interested in having a love affair whatsoever." I start to calm down and take deep breaths to cool myself down.

"Ah geez, I got really worried about that." He chuckles and he finally gives me my medicine. I check its label to see if it was the correct one, before taking one pill out and tossing it into my mouth. I take a few gulps of water and close the bottle cap.

"That was something I never knew I would hear, you really are an idiot." I giggle as I hand Godspeed my pill bottle.

"Hey!" He pouts at me.

"It was a joke!" I reached my hand out to his head and started messing it terribly.

"Hey stop!" He holds both of my wrists, leaning close to my face with a dissatisfied look and I laughed in response. "What's that for, lady? Geez!" He lets go of one hand and desperately tried to fix his hair in vain.

"For messing with mine, dimwit." I pointed at the stray away locks on my head and stuck my tongue out at him. He rolls his eyes and pulls away, shoving the pill bottle in his inner jacket pocket and a grin was painted on his face. "Thanks for reminding me about that."

"No worries. I did promise to keep you well."

"Why are you guys so nice?" I asked hesitantly. The grin on my face almost felt natural again and I couldn't stop anymore.

"Well if it meant we could see you smile that brightly, we'd spoil you rotten with kindness." He chuckles as he watches the sun slowly start to set. The way his eyes shone against the last orange rays of the sun was just as enchanting as a magic crystal glimmering underneath the moonlight. He almost looked like he was glowing with the sun just by his side, outlining him like he was from a painting. His magenta hair swayed lightly against the wind and he looked amazing. There's no point in hiding how breathtakingly attractive he is — now I can see why the noble women that often visited the confectionery gush so much about him.

"We should head back inside, dinner will be ready soon and if you want the best meals, better be there early!" He then grabs my hand again and pulls me back, a fit of giggles erupting from me.