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[theladybrownstarot]

Pick-A-Card : Your future - Self's messages for getting into a relationship [TIMELESS]

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Your future self is telling me that you have a tendency to become quite aggressive and competitive in your relationship, which is not good for you and your partner. Apart from this, I really see that as a lover, you are someone who would go sea and beyond for your loved ones to protect them. When they need you most, there is no point if you let your ego and aggression come here. For some of you, you need to stop running away from love and let it come towards you. You need to clearly work on these if you want to attract relationships that can make you happy. Although I can see you have worked a lot on many things, and I really appreciate you for that. You need to stop expecting a lot from your relationships. I know that you're not delusional, but you keep a lot of expectations, which may burden your partner, so go without any expectation, but let there be equal give and take. Your future spouse may be a foreigner or may have some different background than yours, but whatever it is, they live far away from you, and most of you may connect through the internet by any means or through some travel purpose. You people must have been with young guys/girls when it comes to dating, but if you don't like it, then darling, somewhere it's possible your future spouse is younger than you by a year or two or months. You may get a proposal within months after you see this reading, but only when you believe you are changing yourself on these things, even if you come back again reading it. Your future self says that you need to take care of your total well-being before getting into a relationship. You should meditate, do breathwork, do yoga, or do color therapy too. For those who may have a crush, they are not the one for you because it's not the right time and you know less about it. You too need to reflect on what specifically you need from a relationship because most of your needs are from your past experiences, not on current or future ones. You may have Mars in Aries, Moon in Libra, Venus in Sagittarius/Taurus, or fire dominant. Basically your ascendant may have a fire degree and the rest I see water signs here too—Scorpio, Cancer, and Pisces.

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Your future Self is telling me that you are sharp minded , practical , but at times you may get rude and cold towards your partner when in a relationship. You may have extremely high standards, but surely you too are someone who is working hard for yourself of course , you will want someone of your level But this is not quite possible easily or you may not get one so the message it to Basically , lower your standards and change your thinking or perception of the guy or the girl you want in your life because in search of getting very high you may end up loosing what you could had. You are quite Stubborn in nature and insecure when You get into a relationship , which is something you need to work upon . You may too have the tendency to question, doubt or get easily scared in your relationship which clearly states either you have slow Self-esteem or you vision the person with you less than what you are which I don't wanna say but is quite toxic from your side but it's okay completely because you can work on it surely . You may too have the nature of controlling and dominating your partner Not letting them have their opinions or freedom in decision mostly wanting things to go in your way . Your future self is telling me that you really need to work on your way of expression like expressing your concern by communicating more with who is with you so there is no misunderstanding , also do you cry alone ? Please don't do that because for someone it may seem that after a fight or disagreement you are not affected like your partner is . You need to walk on this thing where you always hold onto your past or others mistake Because you will be unable to move on and forgive someone or your partner without giving a chance or space of improvement . Do not view or all the time see your relationships with anyone based on your past - heal from it and move on . After you work on these things you immediately attract your dreamt relationship but before that you may attract some money related opportunity before meeting your one and than starts happy changes which are big one ! Some people may have moon in Saggitaurus, air signs in top 3 or may have air and fire signs mix too and Mars in gemini.

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Your future self tells me that often when you get into a relationship with anyone, whether it be your first or any, it comes on, and there is a tendency for things to go quite fast,which needs to be slowed down. There's a rush of things either from your side or the person's. Apart from this, I am getting a message that your insecurities, which are personally rooted in major past experiences, come to the surface level when you are in a relationship, and all these insecurities are related to your suppressed conscious and unconscious mind. Even if not, you need to work on your healing, basically healing your perception about yourself and the way you see things while being with someone. You may also have difficulty in making decisions when you are in a relationship, also in general, because of some confusion that is always there in your mind. There is often a hesitation while expressing your emotions from a deep level. Let me tell you that your healing will be completed with others by knowing and expressing with them. You need to find out and discern who and what is good or bad for you, plus how you can deal with it without affecting yourself. For those who were testing a relationship, this is good news: you will be soon attracting it from 9 weeks to 9 months, and for others, manifestation can be a good way to attract a relationship by also being grateful and happy from the inside, changing yourself, and increasing your vibration and energy to the level where you are attracting a kind of your own. Your emotions are really powerful because what you will feel is what you will attract. You need to forgive and accept your past so you can move on to some new energy, increasing your aura. Make yourself more aware of yourself and take control of things, and then give the control to someone else or your circumstances. You need to bring a bit of confidence and creativity, which will spark magic in your positive thoughts, affirmations, and visualizations. This is a simple message for you: do not always rely on luck and take responsibility for your actions because luck is in your favor from now on. Do not hesitate if you need the help of other people because it's okay, okay? Because also I told you that you will need collective healing, which will involve people and you. A strong no for any relationship you want to go for right now because I have told you you will make one for you rather than chasing one. Reveal your inner self, and also, along with time, the physical mysteries of your life will reveal themselves with each encouraging step you take. You may have strong Piscean energy in you or water, Jupiter, Neptune, or Jupiter in Pisces or a fire sign and Mercury, or it could be in an earth sign.

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[starastrologyy]

Synastry Notes!🤍

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The Sun-Moon conjunction is an aspect that you often see in the synastry charts if married couples. So is a composite Libra rising (I’ve mentioned this before). Whereas The moon-mars conjunction is an aspect that you see in the charts of people who have children together (heterosexual couple). This is especially true if the woman is the Moon & the man is Mars.

Vertex & North Node conjunctions in synastry often will indicate a fated Union. For example, if someone’s Mercury conjuncts your North Node they can teach you a lot about communication & they are likely to bring your attention to the manner in which you think, learn, & process your thoughts. In its best manifestation, the Mercury person has the ability to positively shape how you communicate with those around you. However, Nodal synastry can be difficult, especially where Venus is involved, as it teaches you valuable life lessons that can be challenging to navigate.

Mercury square or opposite Saturn in synastry can indicate that the mercury person may feel intellectually inferior in the presence of the Saturn person. Alternatively, they may feel criticized or unheard by the Saturn person. Compromise, patience, and empathy are required when navigating this aspect.

Attaining a sense of financial/material security will be extremely important for couples who have their composite Sun in the 2nd house. This placement can also indicate that their shared values will play an important role in keeping the relationship grounded, stable, & long lasting (this is especially true if the couple also have their composite Saturn in the 2nd house).

Uranus in the 7th house of a composite chart can indicate that the pair may have an ‘unconventional’ relationship dynamic. The pair may be long-distance, in an open relationship, same-sex Union etc… In some instances, Uranus in the composite 7H can indicate that the relationship started very suddenly or unexpectedly.

Couples with a Composite Pisces Rising or Neptune in the Composite 1st house run the risk of becoming overly enamored/consumed by the relationship & each other (in the placements worst manifestation). I’ve actually seen this quite frequently with couples who drink/smoke a lot together & those who are highly co-dependent. Please note that this is not always the case and this is not the only manifestation of these placements. At their best, this is likely to be a highly spiritual, compassionate, healing, creative, & forgiving Union!

I’ve said this before, but relationships that don’t really “get off the ground” or reach the desired level of commitment often have Venus-Saturn or Venus-Uranus hard aspects in synastry or in the composite chart. Venus-Uranus hard aspects tend to produce an on-again-off again dynamic whereas with Venus-Saturn there may be obstacles that get in the way of the pair fully establishing a committed connection (this can be because of distance, age differences, a difference in expectations etc..)

[cozymochi]

Hi there! I like your oc Tia 😊 she's so cool! I was curious how does she get along Leona? Especially in book 2? Just curious 🤔

(Thank you 😳 I have a more generalized scenario of their dynamic written out here.) Gonna have to forego Book 2 because… Leona doesn’t really engage with the Prefect that much in it. So, that more or less applies to Tia too. BUT! Book 3??

BOOK 3.. has so much. They were roommates for 3 days and 2 nights. LISTEN— Two ideologically opposed, obstinate, people stuck sharing a room? It writes itself.

Now Tia has to cook for him and take up all of Ruggie’s old duties during the 3-day stint all while having to fulfill Azul’s contract to get her dorm back? Crazy work.

It was the worst setup for both of them. I can’t even properly articulate all the thoughts I had about it, so incoherent yapping it is.

I don’t think Leona would have denied her room and board on principle (cough, she’s still a lady) nor make it a trial, HOWEVER! That doesn’t mean she’s just going to sit around, take his bed (she slept on the couch) and be coddled while dealing with this Azul thing. She’s getting put to work. It doesn’t matter who you are, you aren’t staying in Savanaclaw and doing nothing.

Like the usual scenario for the prefect, Tia apparently takes over Ruggie’s job of being Leona’s gopher during those 3 homeless days. I kinda wish we saw more of that, but I get narrative priorities and wanting to stay on track. [book 7 has entered the chat]

I believe… for the most part, Tia took over Ruggie’s job while rooming with Leona in stride. Mostly because when she does anything, she tries putting maximum effort into it. His room is not ideal, so she’s already cleaning and organizing from the jump. High key, working on something is how she functions since relaxing is hard for her point blank. Leona doesn’t really get that but, it’s whatever.

Her cooking? 100/10, he gets the best meat ever. Well. For an herbivore anyway. (…Can’t let that ego get too big right)

And you know what was glossed over during this time? The fact not even housewardens get a private bathroom. So somebody 🦁 is going to have to 🦁do escort missions 🦁 Nobody is allowed in when she’s in there using the shower. Just something very annoying for him to be stuck doing 💚😔 Oh also she gets up at like! 5AM!!

AnD SHE WON’T LeT him go back to sleep after that! She just will yap about the state of his room and seems to be bothered by every little thing that crosses her mind. Ruggie found it funny as hell at least. Surprised she got Leona up at all but hey, less work for him for once.

It’s fine though. Leona gets his payback tenfold by having her run around like a panicked gazelle during morning training. It’s very cathartic to see. That- and he makes sure his food requests are very dense and luxurious. What? She can’t live with herself if she doesn’t put in maximum effort all the time ☺️ It should never be a problem for her. Who kindly is letting her stay in Savanaclaw again? Who clears out the bathroom for her? He just does so much.

[Immediately ruins the room she just organized and has her running head first into Azul junk via omitting words just so he can be smug about it later]

…She gets him back again later by denying him sleep not by yelling — but purely from listing all her grievances that she had the entire time she was living with him. She had a lot to criticize. …This whole duping Azul plan she made worked great, not only did Leona get roped into it, but she also got to vent. :3

Leona was right. Azul wouldn’t know real villainy if it hit him. Tia is more of a villain than he ever could be. In more ways than just outsmarting his dumb contract thing.

He would never want to share a room with her again <3

I got my jokes and only yapped about the pain on a very bare bones level, but if time was ever dedicated to downtime moments—- I do think Tia would have voiced being grateful in an earnest way despite it all, even while staying there and under a lot of stress from various sources.

I’m not too certain how receptive Leona would be to it. Probably outwardly dismissive. Yet…

anyway everything’s still pretty cool with Leona after all that Book 3 stuff I guess.

BYE!!!!

[kazzsbrekker]

things i liked and didn't like about tog2 under the cut (after watching the movie once, this morning)

what i liked

the opening action scene! reminiscent of the comics, great character moments and dynamics, especially joe and nicky being silly, nile being badass on the boat, copley being part of the team

joe and nicky in general; they got to be their own characters and be in disagreement but they were also sweet and flirty and worked together in sync and affirm their bond for us

nicky's very pronounced italian accent

tuah as an addition to the team! he had good chemistry with the characters and i like the idea of an archivist immortal

nile being a badass. she got her own new weapon and looked hot doing it. AND she got to do the sao paolo 1834 move

quynh my love. my queen who has suffered more than jesus. fantastic portrayal by veronica ngo (shoutout to the breathing sound in the boat scene before they open the iron maiden)

"what if she doesn't recognize me" / "what if i don't recognize her"

immortal wives. could mention every moment between them, they mean so much to me. and now they're a unit again and it felt fitting despite their changed dynamic and history

in general, a lot of introspective and emotional andy moments i enjoyed, also her conversation with booker was beautiful. and her finally admitting she can't go first hit me hard

fight choreography was solid and really fun, nile's new weapon, andy's axe of course, especially joe kicking a guy onto nicky's sword like,, get it

that scene of andy walking through rome. CHILLS. she's so old and has seen so much and that was a gorgeous representation of that, especially when it culminated in quynh waiting for her there

what i didn't like

the new lore. none of that shit made sense and it didn't even line up with the first movie. i don't mind that it departed from the comics but i feel like there was some mamma mia 2 level of gaslighting when they told us andy lost her immortality when nile stabbed her. SHE HEALED FROM THAT. she stopped healing after the church fight scene, THAT'S when she was stabbed in the shoulder (again). and considering that in the case of booker and quynh, the wound not closing was instantaneous, it just doesn't add up. then the whole thing about the last immortal. i like nile being important and special, that's my girl, but discord was an awful addition to this cast of characters (as was to be expected) and none of her lore drops were adequately explained or made sense in the movie. maybe i need to rewatch but idk how they transferral of the immortality worked

that brings me to the dreaming (basically same complaint as above but it was getting too long). i'm trying to explain all this through nile not dreaming about discord because she's mortal now and only dreaming about tuah when he got stabbed because she only notices/realizes that's it's an Immortal Dream when something traumatic happens (such as quynh drowning) but it doesn't add up with none of the others knowing about discord and tuah for centuries.

everything about discord. fuck off. quynh should have been the main and only antagonist and we don't need uma thurman with unclear motives

0 emotional resonance in the third act. none of that hit i can't even put my finger on it but it just felt unearned. even the setup with the joenicky conversation didn't sell me on the weight of it. boring setting for the climax that has no relevance to the characters. i love these characters deeply and have thought about them every day for 5 years, i should feel more when they are in danger and when they.well

BOOKER DYING. a character death can feel earned and make sense even when it's sad. but this was just bullshit. suicidal character finds a way to kill himself yay! hope he and quentin coldwater reunite in the heaven of done dirty sacrificial depressed characters

cliffhanger. you can't do a movie like that and then bank on a sequel, you just can't. not with the production delays and keeping everyone waiting for 5 years. we're not going to get a third movie, i know netflix. they should have given us a real ending with potential for more

nile was underused as hell. sure she got the last immortal title but we deserved more of the literal protagonist. how does she feel at being 6 months immortal. how does she feel about her family. how does she feel about whatever discord is talking about. how does she feel about anything

the camera work. i'm not sold on all those shaky little zooms. it doesn't fit the mood of the film imo. also the cgi in the boat scene was uhhhh questionable

conclusion

not good. still love the characters and i loved seeing them again but i wish it was under better circumstances. and i assume that i won't get more. justice for my immortal family

[marinsawakening]

There's some real nuclear level cognitive dissonance to the way various monsters (Zora and Moblins, most notably) are clearly sapient, and the way you are simultaneously expected to slaughter dozens if not hundreds of them throughout your average LOZ game.

Even in BOTW/TOTK, which clearly tried very hard to make bokoblins/moblins equivalent to animals, they possess the ability to build human-like settlements and show capacity for complex strategy. In older games, particularly the top-down LOZ games, monsters' sapience is straight-up textual, with multiple monsters talking to you as people. It's pretty much impossible to pretend monsters like moblins or the old school/river zora are anything but people. And yet they're the fodder enemies. I believe this contradiction is what the kids call 'ludonarrative dissonance'.

Jokes aside, much has been written about both video games' and the fantasy genre's tendency to create sapient (or sometimes outright human) fodder enemies, and the racist/xenophobic implications hereof. I'm uninterested in summarizing or retreading these discussions. I just want to note some of my observations on how the series has dealt with the inherent tension between 'monsters are sapient' and 'you should kill every monster you see'.

First that comes to mind for me is the Oracle duology. To my knowledge, these were the first games to try and combine the old-school monster zora and the OOT-style friendly zora. It did this by dividing them into two camps: the savage river zora, and the regal sea zora. The sea zora detest the river zora and do not want to be associated with them, stressing their differences.

In this same game, however, there are multiple moblins who display sapience, most prominently the Great Moblin. The Great Moblin is a bandit who leads a large group of other moblins; he talks, has motivations and desires, can strategize, etc. In Seasons, after you destroy his keep, you can find him sadly making bombs by hand, trying to regain firepower. You can blow up his house for fun.

So although Seasons/Ages draws a firm line between the 'monstrous' river zora and 'civilized' sea zora, it also contains probably the most obviously sapient monster in the franchise. I don't think the Oracle games had any political intent/message, I doubt the devs spent even a moment considering the implications here. Mostly, it reads like a confused attempt at mixing 'old' and 'new' attitudes toward monsters (especially with the zora), oblivious to the unfortunate implications this creates.

Echoes of Wisdom then picked up this sea/river Zora divide and ran with it. EOW is a game clearly trying to marry 'old' and 'new' Zelda. It is a top-down '2D' game with traditional Zelda dungeons and enemies, but with open world exploration and a lot of player freedom. The sea and river zora's conflict can easily be read as representative of the conflict between 'old' and new' LOZ. In the end, the two have to come together in harmony to progress.

Nothing of the 'old' attitude toward monsters remains, though. EOW obviously does not consider the river zora as monsters, seeing as you cannot create echoes of them. The other monsters, though still capable of using human tools and building BOTW-style settlements, have even less indication of sapience than BOTW's monsters. Although it can't quite cast monsters are pure animals (not if it wants them to have keeps), narratively speaking, they are no more people than a snake. By removing the river zora from the category of 'monster', EOW is feels free to once again use monsters as nothing but canon fodder.

This very much seems to be the 'new' attitude toward monsters. LOZ has gradually been moving away from monsters as sapient creatures, or trying to, anyway. Monsters do not talk anymore, and their settlements are noticeably less technologically advanced than they often are in older LOZ games.

In fact, as monsters became less and less sapient, they also seem to have gradually adopted a... 'tribal' aesthetic, for lack of a better word, based on racist pop-culture depictions of a variety of non-white/east Asian cultures. Older art would often give moblins/bokoblins armor/clothes that were at least similar to Hylians'. But over time this has steadily diminished, with many games giving them overtly racialized/ethnic features (such as Twilight Princess' dreadlocks on its bokoblins), quite obviously to 'other' them from the European Hylians. Monsters have never been portrayed as 'civilized' the way Hylians are, but the racial coding very much does seem to have increased in tandem with animalistic framing.

TOTK goes so far as to make monsters explicitly creations by Ganondorf, for the purpose of serving him. I do not believe this is the first time monsters have gotten the framing as creations of evil (for one, BOTW and its blood moon sure did), but it's the most blatant I can remember, as it's in a major story-relevant cutscene.

What's interesting to me about this is that it makes little sense when we consider the fun facts about monsters that occassionally appear on the loading screens, or their entries in the hyrule compendium. These refer to their living habits, diet, etc. in ways more akin to an animal than a nebulous creation of evil magic. This contradition also exists in BOTW, where the monsters 'rise with the blood moon', reborn through the Calamity's power, but are also very much described more as animals than miasma.

To fully illustrate what I mean: compare a bokoblin to gloom hands. One of these is a part of an ecosystem, one of these is not. Yet both of them are supposedly creations from Ganon's evil magic. It just doesn't really line up, does it?

All of this to say: I think Nintendo and/or the LOZ devs are by now perfectly aware of the optics of using sapient creatures as fodder enemies. As video game stories have become more complex, tolerance for this trope has decreased. As such, the LOZ franchise has attempted to move away from this. However, they wish to maintain the bokoblin/moblins' basic conceit as, effectively, humanoid enemies with a degree of intelligence.

So in their attempt at compromise they have revealed some very telling presumptions. Less human = tribal aka not white or Japanese. Former monsters that are 'humanized', the zora, become by and large friendly with Hyrule (ALBW as a possible exception, depending on how you look at it). None of this development is strictly linear, of course; for example, EOW's monsters do not follow BOTW/TOTK's design principles. But it's nonetheless a pattern, and the optics aren't great.

I don't really have much of a conclusion to all this. If anything, I suppose that the series' treatment of its monsters fits into a long-standing pattern of LOZ attempting to address criticisms of racism/xenophobia without understanding how they actually connect to their world. Or perhaps: trying to fix their optics without wanting to fix their hearts. Depends on whether we presume ignorance or malice, I suppose.

[bustybounty]

I finally confessed girlfriend, Mary, about my arousal-based growth condition. I was expecting confusion or disgust, but instead, Mary smiled and called me perfect. Later that night, I felt her arms coil around me and reach for my cock and balls as I heard her pur into my ear. "Grow, grow, grow~ I want to see just how big I can make you"

Having your girlfriend get so turned on by the fact that you were capable of growing purely based on your level of arousal certainly ignited a spark in your brain that immediately put your condition to use.

As she reached for your already quite sizeable package, she'd feel it pulsing, throbbing in her hand, eager and needy, her eyes widening and a big smile forming on her face as she saw your cock growing a few additional inches while hardening, and your balls growing like plump, juicy grapefruits. She had never seen anyone that big before, and was eager to see how much further she could take it.

"Grow for me. I know you want to... You don't need to hold back..." Her whispers further reinforced her previous statement, she was clearly eager to see the extent of your 'powers', so to speak. Your arousal was obviously skyrocketing too, as not only were you hard like a diamond, you could feel your balls churning up more cum like hard working automated factories, your body burning and sweating as if you were in a sauna, the moment was really getting to you, and you couldn't stop yourself from growing even if you wanted to.

Good thing you were very happy finally letting loose and growing, not needing to hold back in the presence of your hot girlfriend, but instead, only getting encouraged by her the bigger you got. Feeling her body press against yours, her pussy quivering on your leg as she saw your cock reach three feet in length, with your balls completely overtaking your lap, even if they didn't reach the knees yet, they would soon.

She made sure of it, by rubbing them gently, stimulating them and making you let out a sexy groan, precum dribbling from the lengthening tip of your dick. "Wow, I'm surprised you're not overflowing with cum already. These are so full and bloated. I've never seen anything this big...and yet I just want you bigger. Grow for me. Grow, grow, grow~ Even when you cum, I want you to KEEP GROWING~" She said, biting her lip at the end, unable to cointain her excitement as was clear by her tone of voice.

Your body would comply, and you felt yet another surge of growth flowing down your spine and right into your groin area, heating it up even more on the outside, causing your balls to finally overflow onto the bed and over your knees, and causing your cock to grow beyond even her height. With it reaching what you felt was critical mass, your brain struggled to process the sheer enormity of your endowment, and it caused you to burst in orgasm, the intense pleasure rippling through your very being as you erupted like a geyser, cum splattering all over the ceiling several times, but also coating your own cock, balls, and your girlfriend, who happily showered in the thick seed, tasting some of it, and rubbing her cum soaked body against your already overstimulated dick.

Somehow, while cumming, her actions combined with her loud moans of "MORE! GROW MORE FOR ME~!" as she rubbed her tits and pussy against your gigantic, monstrous pillar of a dick, you started expanding again, cumming more and more with few signs of slowing down due to the continuous growth...

It looks like she was getting her wish, and you were finally able to let loose your pent up arousal in the best kind of way~ Who knows how big you'll become~?

[dameronspector]

Put Some Respect On His Name

Pairing: Poe Dameron x Fem!Reader

Summary: A woman from Poe's past tries to drag him back to the world of crime and spice running. Your hardworking, brave and noble Poe, who had worked so hard to reach where he is today, and to keep his parents' legacy alive. And even if he believes that he doesn't deserve it, you do, and you'd do anything to defend his honor, even if he was being a dumbass.

Warnings: Established Relationship, Cursing, Angst, Fluff, Insecure Poe, Jealous Reader, Some misunderstandings, Reader takes a stand for Poe, Some mentions about getting married, Mentions of Poe's past, Nicknames, Reader has beef with Zorii, Poe Dameron Deserves Better, might not be my best work, that's all I think!

AN: this was ignited in me because I couldn't stop thinking about the mistreatment + disservice Poe and Oscar received in TROS. They ruined his backstory and gave him a xenophobic, spice runner arc instead, along with a white woman telling him to stop being a rebel fighter and join her in spice running again? Not on my watch. He's very dear to me (i mean, my @ here says it all), Oscar is very dear to me, and I will correct this horrible storyline. As a POC, i strongly oppose such stereotypical storylines, i hate the kijimmi arc and i do not like zorii as a character, either. feel free to click off if you don't agree with this.

There are many words that you could use to describe Poe Dameron.

Charming, Hotshot, Posterboy, Way too handsome for his own good, a little short tempered, reckless, an excellent pilot, a fierce leader, risk taker, his endless loyalty , and these were just surface level attributes that everyone saw in him.

But to his loved ones?

To his loved ones, Poe Dameron was kind, he was caring, he was so fiercely protective that he’d lay his life down for someone, he loved openly, his emotions and feelings were written on his sleeve, he treated droids like they were his children, he was clingy, loud, sassy and funny, he was brave and courageous and kind and oh so sweet.

Especially to You. His partner. His better half. His soulmate and best friend.

Poe always made sure to remind you that you changed his life for the better. That he felt like you were a dream come true. And that you were it, for him. He’d promised you that once this war is over, he’s going to marry you. He’d confessed that he’d thought of this since the day he met a newly recruited you, 6 years ago. You were unofficially married, at this point.

What he didn’t know, or he knew but he wouldn’t accept it, was that he was just as special to you. His gentle words, even gentler and loving touch, his intelligence, his empathy and protectiveness, how he was secretly the most sensitive guy ever, his devotion towards his parents, the resistance, Leia and you—it was all very precious. He was your soul, and you truly, deeply loved him. He was everything to you.

This also meant that you were just as fiercely protective of him. Because he was, secretly, a little insecure and a people pleaser.

Anyone who tried to disrespect him was your personal enemy. Because they usually cooked up the most ridiculous shit ever, without knowing the kind of man he really was.

It’s been a while since you had to put somebody in their place for talking crap about your heart. But your wait was officially over, and it just so happened to be the person who was supposed to give you the information on Babu Frik. And the person also happened to be Poe's ex-fling.

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"I know a black market droidsmith."

Every head in the hull snapped towards Poe.

He had been especially irritated and angry for some reason lately. Maybe it was stress. Maybe it was something else. But it was starting to get to you too, as you saw his face get duller, and words get sharper as the days progressed. He was exhausted and overworked, no doubt. But that didn't mean he gets to snap at everything in his sight.

"Black market droidsmith?", Threepio chirped.

Poe's face paled, a grimace taking over his handsome features. You quirked a brow, exchanging a look with Finn and Rey.

"But...he's on Kijimi."

He'd told you about Kijimi before. How he'd been there just for rebellious purposes, nothing serious. But he'd never gone into details. The same shameful look tugging at his face as he recalled it. So you let it be. Didn't press him further.

"What's wrong with Kijimi?", Finn asked.

Poe hesitated, glancing at you for a second, "I had a little bad luck on the planet. But, if this mission fails, it's all been for nothing. All we've done, all this time."

“We’re all in this”, Finn replied, looking at you and then Rey, “Until the end.”

Finn held out a hand for you and Rey to take. You placed your hand in his bigger ones, Rey doing the same before she gave him a tight lipped smile.

“For Chewie.”

Finn then looked at Poe, who was still glancing around the hull awkwardly, a hand absently coming up to rest on your lower back.

He looked at Finn’s expectant face and quirked an eyebrow, “Hands?”

Finn nodded, “Hands.”

You held your hand up, Poe looked at it before his eyes moved upwards until his tired ones met yours, a soft smile on your face that was meant only for him, and he sighed, placing his heavy hand in yours, clasping it tightly and doing the same to Rey but in a more lax manner.

“For Chewie. Kijimi”, he murmured.

C-3PO comes over and takes Poe’s hand, Poe jumping in surprise and looking at the droid wearily.

-

The ship had finally taken off and Rey was busy tinkering around with the D-O droid, Finn cleaning his blasters while Threepio busied himself with cleaning the ship.

Poe was, as usual, at the pilot seat, jaw clenched tightly as he made the hyperspace jump to Kijimi. You leaned against the panels on the wall, watching his tense body push at the buttons, that same old furrow between his eyebrows, and it seemed like it was a permanent part of his skin now, his scruff with the newer gray hair and jet black curls lined with some silver strands glowed in the light of the hyperspace, making him look like an angel.

He was an angel, just a grumpy one right now. But you loved him nonetheless.

Pushing yourself off the wall, you sauntered over to the pilot chair, pushing a hand in the back of his thick curls, massaging his scalp soothingly.

His eyes closed in contentment, face relaxed and a sigh leaving his plush lips as he leaned into yours touch like an eager loth cat. A little smile pulled at your lips, eyes shimmering with adoration for your favourite flyboy.

“That feel good?”, you murmured quietly, not wanting to disturb the peace that had settled between you two.

He hummed, hands coming up to tug you in his lap before they snaked around your waist snugly, your hand continuing their pace even as he leaned back on the head rest, eyes still closed.

After quiet moment, your arms half circled his neck and you pressed your face into his neck, Poe’s arms hugging you closer, lips pressing a tender kiss to your hair.

“Are you okay?”, you whispered into his skin.

He hesitated, his breath hitching before croaking out, "Yeah. Why?", which did not sound confident, either.

"Well, you've been extra mean lately, Commander", you teased, pulling back slightly to observe his face.

He had cracked open one eye, a small smirk tugging at his lips, the light of the hyperspace bathing his face in a light blue hue, "Is that so?"

You hummed, running a hand over his scratchy stubble, making him preen at your touch. A guilty look took over his face, lips pulled into a frown and eyebrows creasing in thought.

"Sorry. It's just...been a lot", he rubbed his tired eyes with a hand, the other hand playing with your shirt at the waist.

You smiled in sympathy, "I know. But you can't be snapping at everything you see, baby. Especially not at those who are just trying to help", you pointedly added, referring to Rey, Finn and Threepio.

His cheeks turned a shade of red in embarrassment, eyes intently focused on the way his fingers fiddled with your shirt.

You knew, very well, that he wasn't doing this willingly, nor was he happy with himself for behaving like this. Poe was basically sunshine in human form, always flashing people a smile and chatting their ear off. It just proved that the war had taken a toll on everyone, even on someone as composed and pleasant like Poe.

"I...I don't like it either. Just, can't help but worry about all this", he offhandedly gestured with his hand, referring to the situation before falling back into his easy going side again, "I'll be fine though. Don't worry", he gave you a small, shy smile.

You looked at him closely, understanding that this was his way of saying 'I don't feel like talking about this right now', and returned his smile, brushing back the loose curls from his forehead.

"Okay, baby", you leaned forward to kiss his forehead. He closed his eyes in content before cradling your face in his hands, bringing your attention back to him.

"I need to tell you something", he said seriously, while rubbing his thumbs on your cheek.

Your heart suddenly felt like it had stopped.

"What is it?", you mumbled, hands coming up to hold his wrists.

"l-You know I've spent some time in Kijimi, right?", he asked, a strange, hesitant look clouding his eyes.

You furrowed your brows. "Yeah..."

"So uh-I worked for the Spice Runners of Kijimi. It was run by Zeva Bliss and I...met this girl, Zorii. She was Zeva's daughter. And uh- we were partnered for many recon missions and spice runs", Poe coughed nervously, his hands falling down to your shoulders, massaging them as if he was comforting you for the next part.

"We spent a lot of time together. One thing lead to another and we...had a thing going on."

You froze. A strange feeling nagged at your stomach, the thought of Poe going back to that place just to- no. He'd never do that. You blinked your eyes quickly to get rid of the tears.

"But, it was over for me the moment she asked me to take over the Spice Runners' group. I didn't want any part of it. She was pretty insistent but I swear, I had no interest in it. Since that day, she's held a pretty strong grudge over me. I-", he swallowed nervously, daring to look up at you, who was still frozen in place.

"I just wanted to let you know before we go there. I don't wanna hide anything from you, honey", he added in a soft voice, big hands smoothing over your arms.

The words tumbled out before you could stop yourself, "Do you love her?"

Poe’s face crumpled into a look of disbelief and shock, “What?! No!”, he cried out, squeezing your biceps in his hands.

“Baby, it was a long, long time ago and was very….juvenile. And it’d never work out, because her morals are completely different than mine. It’s just- no”, he said softly, face awash with urgency.

“I love you. Only you. You’re everything to me. You know that right?”, he pleaded, voice wavering as he did so.

You swallowed your tears, softening as you looked at his earnest expression. Poe was always a very gentle lover. But there were very few instances where he let himself be vulnerable.

This was one of those instances.

He found it difficult to express himself, he'd say it felt like he was being a burden on others and didn't want you to live through his own demons. Even though you've been there for every single night where he's woken up, screaming and panting, by that same dream again and again. The one where Kylo Ren had tortured him for information.

Pursing your lips you gave him a slow nod. "Okay. I trust you", you reassured in a quiet voice.

He let out a huge sigh of relief, hand resting on the back of your neck to pull you down, your head leaning against his shoulder as he drew you close, his cheek resting on your head.

"Poe?", you breathed out into his shirt.

"Yeah?", his hands rubbed your back comfortingly.

"I've got you, right?", your voice had simmered down to a meek, unsure tone, which caused Poe to feel like there were pinpricks in his chest.

Poe closed his eyes in frustration, all of it aimed towards himself. Maybe if he hadn't decided to be a fucking dumbass and go on that planet, all those years ago, then this wouldn't have happened, he thought. Even his beloved mother was upset with him when he returned. His dad had to be the one to calm her down, the memory of his mom's pained and disappointed look leaving a sharp ache in his heart, still.

Swallowing against the guilty lump in throat, he hugged you tighter, pressing a lingering kiss to your hair.

"I'm yours, honey. Forever."

-

You already hated this planet.

The smell of wet mud, the constant snowfall, the gloomy weather and the persisting feeling of being watched, was making you more agitated as time passed by.

But above all, the thought of coming face to face with Zorii Bliss, was the most annoying of them all. You weren't sure how you'd react. You'd completely shut down ever since you stepped on the planet. The overwhelming thoughts about this whole situation making your head spin and mood sour. You were sure Rey had caught on, and you were glad she hadn't questioned you about it.

Poe was trying his best to get your attention but you'd return it with half hearted smiles and a lost look, making him worry harder by the minute. You were holding your blaster so tightly, he was worried you'd end up bruising your hand. He'd tried gently relaxing your grip, but you simply brushed him off and walked ahead with Rey, leaving behind a forlorn Poe and a confused Finn.

He was already on edge about being on this godforsaken planet again. Now he had ruined everything with you as well. Maybe this was a bad idea. And if this went sideways, he'd never forgive himself.

The scene was, as usual, not good. Stormtroopers were harassing the locals, roughly grabbing them and asking for identification, beating (or killing) anyone who disobeyed- just the usual.

The four of you had dressed up in huge coats, hoodies pulled low on your heads to conceal your faces and to protect from the cold, Threepio and Poe's arguing being the only sounds in your little bubble as you all tried to sneak away from the main streets, to avoid being questioned by the troopers.

"You, up against the wall. Show me your identification. Where's your identification?", the stormtrooper demanded, rough housing a woman.

The five of you ducked behind an alley way before the group could notice you.

"Alright, I know what we should do", Poe murmured, his shoulder pressed to yours as he turned to address the group.

"So do I, we should leave", C3PO chimed.

You scoffed, "I like that idea, threepio."

Poe closed his eyes, "Clam it, Threepio", he gritted, earning a glare from you, causing him to clear his throat in shame.

"Follow me. Let's head down this way", he instructed, motioning towards another alley.

You looked at him longingly, Rey catching on to the look on your face before you averted your gaze away and walked straight into Poe's back, an 'oof' leaving your lips and hands resting on the plains of his back, Finn supporting your shoulders to stop your fall.

"Heard you were spotted at Monk's Gate. Thought, 'He's not stupid enough to come back here.'"

A woman's voice floated through the empty space, the voice heavy and staticky beneath a vocoder, and you froze.

Peeking over Poe's shoulders, your eyes fell on a helmeted figure. Red suit with golden accents and blaster holders, her helmet was intricate and huge, golden metal surrounding it with a large visor in place of the eyes, her blaster trained on Poe.

You felt a fire lick in your stomach at the sight.

"Oh, you'd be surprised", Poe quipped, his hands raised in surrender, and somehow that was more annoying to you.

"Who's this?", Rey asked.

"What's going on?", Finn added.

Poe shifted in discomfort, his eyes trained on you as he replied, albeit hesitantly.

"Guys, this is Zorii", he watched your eyes narrow, and felt your hands grip his coat.

"Zorri, this Rey, Finn and (Name)", he introduced you three, slowly turning back towards her, observing you from the corner of his eye.

Why was he acting like this was some kind of 'make new friends convention'?

Your jaw ticked in irritation and anger, hands dropping from Poe's back to grab your blaster, pushing him to the side to aim your own weapon at her.

Your group bristled, Finn and Rey watching you in wonder, Poe sliding his hands around your shoulders to pull your arms down, slowly pulling you back against him.

"It's okay, baby. Relax", he softly murmured in your ears, like it was meant for you only, while pulling you against his side.

"I could pull this trigger right now", she threatened, watching you and Poe closely.

Poe scoffed, hand splayed on your back, "I've seen you do worse."

You felt your throat close up.

"For a lot less”, she responded.

Poe sighed in exhaustion, “Can we just, uh.... talk about this?”

She chuckled, “I want to see your brains in the snow.”

Your face scrunched up in anger, Poe squeezed your waist to distract you.

“So you’re still mad? Zorii, we could use your help. We got to crack this droid’s head open and fast”, he motioned towards C3PO, who jerked back in offense.

“Pardon me!”

Poe ignored him, “We’re trying to find Babu Frik.”

Zorii pulled back in surprise, “Babu? Babu only works with the crew. That’s not you anymore”, she spit out in distaste.

Rey walked over to stand next to Poe, “What crew?”, looking between Poe and Zorii.

Zorii chuckled, “Oh, funny he never mentioned it. Your friend’s old job was running spice.”

Poe clenched his jaw. You side eyed him.

Finn sputtered, his eyes wide in shock, “You were a spice runner?”

Poe decides that this is the moment to be an immature child and instead of answering the question, he mocks, “You were a stormtrooper?”

“Poe”, you gritted your teeth, glaring at him in irritation. He pursed his lips.

“Were you a spice runner?”, Rey pressed.

“Were you a scavenger? We could do this all night”, he bit back.

“What the hell is wrong with you?”, you snapped, causing him to whip his head towards you, brown eyes softening after he took in the upset look on your face.

“Baby-”

“T-18's online yet?”

Poe abruptly stopped as a stormtrooper’s voice floated in.

“Yes, sir. Scouting the perimeter”, another voice echoed as footsteps approached the alley steadily.

Everyone stood up straight, maintaining silence to not alert the troopers.

“Walkers. Stay close by”, Zorii warned and made her way down the street, the five of you following closely behind.

Poe’s hand was back on your waist, his attentive eyes were wide with earnestness, an apology ready on his lips, as the two of you walked behind the group.

“I’m sorry. For back there. I don’t-”

“Forget it, Poe. It doesn’t matter”, you sighed solemnly, pressing a hand on his chest to push him back slightly.

“Honey, hey—it does if it upset you. I’m sorry-”, he began, trying to pull you closer but you stepped back.

“Sorry for what? For acting as if this is all normal, or for being an asshole for no reason again?”

His face fell.

“I’m not stupid. I saw the way you didn’t even stop her when she put you, us, at gunpoint. What the hell was that, Poe?”, you whispered angrily, eyes stinging slightly.

Poe frowned, a devastating sheen of tears covering his eyes, voice softened in sincerity, "(Name), please, I just didn't want the situation to escalate, I swear."

"Just-Whatever. Don't forget your roots, Poe", you replied shakily, mouth coated with that odd, bitter taste as you walked next to C3PO, preferring his chatter over being near Poe (or Zorii), for now.

"What's happening between you two?", Finn quirked up from next to Poe, who was watching you longingly in front of him.

He swallowed his tears, dragging a hand down his face before sighing, "All my fault."

Finn raised an eyebrow and watched Poe hang his head in defeat, hands clenched into tight fists. Finn felt a slight disturbance in the air around him, Poe's sour and dejected mood permeating his force signature.

And Finn knew, he'd have to leave you two alone for sometime, promising himself to give Poe a hearing, after you all get back on the ship.

-

After trudging in the snow for sometime, listening to C3PO tell a story about how R2 and him had gone on an adventure with Luke, and nursing a headache that came on from the overthinking, you had finally arrived at the destination. A run down garage where you'd found Babu Frik, an Anzellan, working on various gadgets with his large safety glasses on, his small body jumping from one part to the other.

He was very quick and witty, sharp jabs and quips leaving his mouth in his high pitched voice as he went back and forth with Poe and Threepio, who was nervous about the whole ordeal.

"Can you make him...Babu, can you make him translate it?", Poe asked.

Zorii and Babu spoke in their native language as you stood next to Threepio, giving him support.

Threepio had always said that you were his favourite, after Luke, Leia and Rey, and it was a compliment that you cherished, much to Poe's dismay, as it seemed like this was the only droid that Poe didn't get along with.

Zorii sighed as she switched to Basic, " Yes. But it will cause a complete-"

"A complete memory wipe", Threepio solemnly finished.

The room quieted, your head whipped to look at the golden droid and Poe's eyes widened.

"Wait, wait, wait. We make him translate it....he won't remember...anything?", Poe asked in disbelief.

"Droid, memory go blank", Babu confirmed.

"Oh...", came in Threepio's response.

"Wh-There must be some other way!", you reasoned, a frown tugging at your lips as you took in Threepio's dejected form, keeping your eyes away from Poe.

"Blank, blank", Babu stressed on the fact again.

"Doesn't R2 back up your memory?", Finn tried, a hopeful look spreading on yours and Rey's face.

"Oh, please. R2's storage units are famously unreliable", C3PO quipped.

Rey sighed, "You know the odds better than any of us. Do we have a choice?"

There was a pregnant pause before Threepio spoke up again.

"If this mission fails...it was all for nothing. All we've done...all this time", he relayed before sitting down at the chair for Babu to hook him up to wires. As he did so, he looked around the room, his white bulb eyes lingering on you and Rey.

Poe bristled, "What are you doing there, Threepio?"

"Taking one last look, sir...at my friends."

You felt your eyes sting, a hand patting the droid's shoulder before you sniffled and walked away, the tension in the room being too much for you to handle.

Everyone turned their heads at the movement, Poe moving to go after you, before Zorii announced that she'll be keeping lookout for night raids and he stopped, feeling Finn's glare on the side of his face.

"I'm coming with you", he said, causing Finn to facepalm himself, Rey looking between the two men with a confused stare.

Poe wasn't going out there to spend time with Zorii. He just wanted an excuse to go after you without making a scene.

"You still don't trust me, huh?", Zorii scoffed, making Poe roll his eyes.

"Did you ever trust me?"

"Nope", she laughed in sarcasm and climbed the stairs, Poe following behind.

-

The cold wind bit at your face as you leaned back against the bricked wall, the dampness of it pressing into your coat, causing you to hiss slightly. Wrapping the coat tightly around your chest, you closed your eyes and sighed, suddenly regretting coming on this mission.

All you could hear and see, were Poe's words before you left the ship and the way he was acting towards Zorii. It was stupid, thinking about all this during a crisis, but you were only human, and it came from place of love and protectiveness for Poe.

You let the cold wing nip at your nose and ears when you heard footsteps and murmurs and you paused, standing up straighter to pay close attention to the voices.

"How long it's been like this?"

Poe. Was he here with-

"First Order took control of the kids a long time ago. Can't stand the cries anymore. I've saved up enough to get out. I'm going to the Colonies."

Her. He was here with her. He didn't even bother to go after you? You felt your heart stutter to a halt, a deep pit caved into your belly that caused you to breath harder. In your panic, you somehow managed to catch a few bits of their conversation, and were able to fixate on only one part.

"Want to come with me?"

You felt your heart stop. There's no way she just asked this. You were probably hallucinating or whatever. You could practically see Poe hesitate, the fact leaving a bitter taste in your mouth, your lungs constricting tightly.

A lick of anger set your chest alight, the irritation and annoyance towards this whole scenario and his casual attitude making you clench your fists and reveal yourself to them.

"Why don't you answer that, Dameron?"

They snapped their heads towards you. Zorii's visor was open, her blue eyes looking at you in surprise and Poe's face slack with relief, standing up to make his way over to you.

"Oh, baby, are you-"

"Stop. Don't", you warned him, his steps faltering to a slow pause a few feet away from you, hands extended to embrace you. You felt your vision blur with treacherous tears.

"You wanna go with her? You wanna go back to all this?", you demanded with a shaky voice.

He opened and closed his mouth like a fish out of water, "No! Of course not, honey-"

"Oh, so you were just here to chit chat with her, then", you scoffed.

"What? No-sweetheart, I came here for you", he pleaded, voice soft and his eyebrows creased, causing a dent to appear between them.

"I was just-", Zorii began and you shut her down with a hard stare, the protectiveness and jealousy causing a swift change in your mood.

"I didn't ask you. And I didn't know pirates and criminals needed the Resistance's help", you deadpanned, your tone laced with a sharp edge.

Poe looked at you in shock, his eyes blown wide. Sure, you took a stand wherever needed, but he'd never seen you as angry as you are right now.

She scoffed, "You're forgetting your friend here was one of us-"

"Husband", you cut her off swiftly.

Poe's mouth fell open in surprise, his heart thundering against his chest and Zorii stayed silent, letting the information sink in.

"My husband made a childish mistake. He never wanted to be one of you. He never will be one of you. The moment he found out what you wanted to do, he walked away, did he not?", you challenged her. She shook her head. You continued before she pissed you off even more.

"His parents were heroes. He is walking right in their footsteps and now, he is a hero. He's almost died for this cause. Several times. So that the galaxy can live peacefully, so that he can honour his parents and mentors. You know why? Because he's not a coward", you gritted your teeth.

Poe's eyes turned glossy. Nobody had stood up for him like you have right now. is heart grew tenfold at your devotion and protection for him.

'Don't forget your roots, Poe', your words echoed in his ears.

"He gives his everything to the cause, doesn't even sleep or eat at times, ignores his own happiness and safety to dive head first into a battle, all because-", you choked on your tears, taking a momentary pause to swallow against the lump in your throat. Poe closed his eyes, an ache blooming across his entire body.

'Don't forget your roots, Poe'

"All because his heart is so big, that it has space for every being, in all of the galaxies. Because he wants his people to wake up to a brighter day and a better future. Because he's a good man. And you come parading here, asking him to turn back to a life of crime and running, to give up his dream. You know why? Because you know he'd be ready to help", you spit out, hands shaking with a mess of emotions.

Poe mentally slapped himself. You were right. You were so right, like always. Honestly, what was he even doing? This was not his dream. This wasn't him. Poe Dameron was born to be a rebel, a pilot, and a reliable friend, who could save his people. He didn't do it for the glory, he did it because he loved openly, because he wouldn't stand for discrimination and slaughter of innocents.

He did it to make his parents and Leia, proud. He did it to secure his future with you and your future kids. He did it because he was a good man.

'Don't forget your roots, Poe'

You were right. Like always.

"I don't believe you believe that-", Zorii replied and was cut off by Poe raising a hand to stop her.

"No, I believe that, and so does she. I'm not comin' with you", he replied with finality in his tone.

You paused, feeling like somebody had lifted a huge rock off of your chest.

"Honestly, I expected better from you because you knew why I left this. And you also knew, that I was never doing this as a means of living. It was just a childish whim", he shrugged.

Zorii sighed, unable to digest the confession, she tried once again, "Poe, are you sure-"

"Yes, Bliss. I'm not going to leave my family and the cause by running away like a coward", he shut her down, waving his hands in exasperation.

"I'd suggest you to leave all of this and join us instead. There's no point in leaving one hellhole to relocate to another, which could still have Ren's influence and hidden spies that'd cause another ripple effect. We are doing this to bring an end to it, once and for all", he conceded.

You looked at him with prideful tears in your eyes. This is the Poe you knew and loved.

She stared at you two for a moment before closing her visor, hand tightening against her blaster.

"I'll...check on the others", she sighed in defeat and made her way down.

You watched her go silently, observing the way Poe stood with his head ducked, fingers rubbing against each other due to the cold and unease, both.

You slowly walked towards him, the snowflakes in his hair making him look angelic, the cold making his nose and cheeks appear red.

His head snapped up when he saw your boots in front of him, glossy eyes fluttering over your face, his cold hands grasping yours in a desperate manner, like he didn't want you to leave. You furrowed your brows.

"I- I'm sorry, honey. I wasn't going to go with her, I swear. I just-", he closed his eyes to gather his thoughts, bringing your hands up to press a kiss to your knuckles before continuing.

"She brought up how she was leaving for the Colonies and asked me if I wanted to join. All I could think about, was how I was presented with a scenario to run away, again. And I just...I felt so ashamed. For having done that instead of helping my parents out. And for being a...pushover? I don't know. That's why I didn't answer sooner, I was...I'm sorry I can't take a stand for my stupid mistakes-", his words were cut off by a shaky breath, his brown eyes looking at you so earnestly, lips tugged into a sad frown, curls flopping over his forehead just so.

You softened instantly, removing your hands from his to place them on his stubbly cheeks, making him sigh in relief, a gentle smile spreading on your lips.

"You need to start putting some respect on your name, Commander", you cooed, thumbs rubbing under his eyebags as his hands rested on your waist, eyes twinkling like stars in the moonlight.

"Yes, becoming a spice runner impulsively was stupid. But that doesn't mean you're a pushover, baby. You're just eager to help. Especially to anyone you know, even if it was for a brief period. That's how good you are. I'm sorry for being so mean to you", you continued, squishing his face gently as he squeezed your waist.

"And I'm so proud of you. You've come so far and you even rectified your mistakes. I'm sure your parents are so proud of you, as well", you whispered lovingly, leaning up to kiss his forehead.

He sighed against you before hugging you close, your head buried in his neck and arms fisting the large coat on his back.

"I'm so grateful for you, y'know that?", he mumbled into your hair.

You giggled, pressing closer to him, a hum leaving your mouth, "And I, you."

He swayed your bodies, the sound of sirens and howling winds being the only ones present, apart from the thumps of content heartbeats, that belonged to the two of you.

"Also, when did we get married?", he quipped, a smirk etched on his face already.

"Oh my god", you groaned.

"No, no, because I wasn't invited, I don't have photos or anything..", he teased further.

"We've been married since we met, now shush", you mumbled burying deeper into his warm skin, and sighing in content.

He let out a joyous chuckle, his breath hitting the hair on top of your head before he kissed your temple in a lingering way.

"I love you, my dear-wife-that-I-didn't-even-know-existed", his lips brushed against your skin, hands smoothing across your back.

You pulled away and brought him down for a sweet kiss, a hand cupping the nape of his neck.

"I love you forever, my dear husband", you mumbled against his lips.

The two of stayed there, wrapped up in each other's embrace in the moonlight, the snow falling around you like a shower, before the peace was disturbed by Rey's call, the reality crashing down on the two of you.

As long as you had your Poe next to you, you were ready to face anything and everything.

For the Resistance.

For Leia.

For your Family.

For Poe.

-

AN: oh godddd i spent too much time finishing this but ugh i love my poe so much. I wish him and oscar received better treatment from the studio and the writers.

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tags: @aria725

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commentary:

first three generations are HARD theres so so many good ones. porygon, porygon 2, shedinja, and slaking come close behind the winners

the designs start slipping in gen 4 but giratina normal world form and gible are worth mentioning

gen 5 was the last one I played and yamask, darmanitan, and sandile are good but not enough to beat cute normal dove

gen 6 had some really dog ass designs so cute robin wins. looking at it over again and clauncher is nice too

I don't really feel very strongly about many of the designs in gen 7 but I also like mudbray, kartanana, and meltan/melmetal

I like the badly assembled fossil gimmick in gen 8 and the fish head on legs is very charming to me. I like cramorant too. I like calyrex but only because he looks like he would be a really really mean character in aqua teen

generally unimpressed with gen 9 but rellor is seriously a cut above. I like rellor on a level close to my gen 1-3 favs. dondozo and tatsugiri are fun and have a cool gimmick but aren't very close to rellor. I like orthworm in a sort of perplexing way

My top pokemon picks from each generation

farfetch'd

2. dunsparce

3. TIE

4. regigigas

5. pidove

6. fletchling

7. drampa

8. dracovish

9. rellor

[sonic-adventure-3]

4-E is insane omg. sonic explodes and dies. also the spindash in levels clearly designed for it goes so hard. the level has a shit ton of paths and rails and shit to spindash off for insane height over the entire fucking thing. it’s so good if i were better at this game and were it not 4am i know i would spend so much time optimizing that. all the cyberspace levels i’ve tried have an indescribable sense of freedom i don’t think i’ve seen in a sonic game. not that i’ve really played enough not-spinoff sonic games to know, but like, it’s a totally different beast compared to the base game cyberspace.

WAIT I KNOW. IT REMINDS ME OF MARBLE BLAST!!!! genuinely while it’s still definitely sonic and you can play it sonic-y, some of these levels almost feel like something out of marble blast. it’s not 1:1 of course, but it’s the best comparison i can think of

unforgivable that it doesn’t restart the timer when you wipe out despite there being no checkpoints though. the difficulty is something i can acclimate to but the lack of a quick restart or restart upon death feature sucks

[samglyph]

I truly believe Will Wood is an incredible musician and songwriter and is one of the top lyricists in the last decade both in and outside of the genres that he chooses to play in with absolutely zero irony. I also believe that you can only fully understand that if you’ve either had a pet die before listening to his music or you have a history of drug abuse and mental health crises. Or you’re trans.

[dustykneed]

Hello! Random whipper snipper! Share a WIP of your work!

ooh, with pleasure. six the musical araleyn fanart? in the year 2k24? more likely than you think xDD

i realize this looks finished, but technically i'm still deciding whether to add a background or not lol. still, for the sake of sharing a proper WIP, here's a line or two from an araleyn brainworm WIP that i started reworking yesterday (mild tw for religious guilt and period-typical internalized homophobia from aragon's pov):

She remembers sharing her bed with Anne at Henry's behest, remembers the nights of tossing and turning and trying not to think about Anne asleep next to her-- remembers waking up to dark hair spilling across her pillow and the press of blood-warm bosoms against her own, softer than sin, as hot as the Devil, remembers lying still as death, mouthing prayers into the heat of Anne's neck like an act of penance.

[teddybeartoji]

thank you everybody who crossed their fingers and toes bc aventurine AND acheron are now both safely at home:3333333333

[rattusrattus3]

Ok I feel better ❤️‍🩹 thanks everyone

[lesbianraskolnikov]

Thinking about razumikhin HE IS SO KIND. he's obviously a very wonderful friend but iirc he and rodya aren't even notably close this is just his only friend/the only person he gets along with. They have a bond and some closeness sure but considering the lengths razumikhin goes for rodya. He is so Wonderful and Kind. Hell even nowadays you can have good friends who will not put up with that (in regards to him lashing out due to his mental strifes) He Is Incredible To Me. AND HE DEFENDS HIM SO MUCH.

[bare1ythere]

After thinning out my switch game library and trading an old 3DS, I managed to get Emerald for VERY cheap. thank GOD

[scionshtola]

i dont really care that much about like. other people not liking the way i write the relationship between cori and shtola. but i am starting to feel like the things i like most are things other people are not going to like aklsdfjsd