#and i don't hate it. i love to see them in situations

[ofstarsandvibranium]

Given the World

Fandom: Marvel

Pairing: Bob Reynolds x GN!Reader

Summary: You like to bring little souvenirs for Bob whenever you travel for a mission.

Marvel Masterlist

You and Bucky were assigned as security detail for a senator in Hawaii. Being part of the new Avengers, you expected various kinds of missions, especially when Val was the orchestrator of the group. Being part of security was the tamest mission you could receive and you were gonna be in Hawaii for a month? Easy.

What wasn't going to be easy was leaving Bob.

You and he were in this weird kind of limbo. You two started off as friends, then the more you hung out with each other, you became best friends. Then, on a random night where you two were cuddled up and watching a movie, you two kissed and confessed your feelings for each other.

You two never put a label on it, but you were together. You didn't say you were exclusive, but you were. There were times you wanted to have the "what are we?" talk but every time you got close to it, you chickened out.

Yeah, you can punch, stab, and kick your way out of any situation, but feelings? Fuck. Feelings were hard and you didn't know how to navigate that.

But still, you tried to show Bob your feelings through other means, and that was through gifts.

Bob still wasn't cleared to go on missions, so he had to stay at the Watch Tower while you and the others travelled all over the world, helping people.

You brought him various keychains, mugs, plushies, books, etc.. You'd take pictures and send them to him. Anything to show that you thought of him.

Now with the Hawaii mission, you started thinking of what little things you could potentially bring back for him.

Even now, as you pack and Bob watches you do so from your bed, you think of him.

"Maybe a book? You said you liked history so maybe I can find a book about some of the local history? Oh!" you look at him with bright eyes and a smirk, "What about a coconut?"

He snorts, "You wanna bring me back a coconut?"

"I'm trying to think out of the box here! I'm trying to stray away from all the keychains, mugs, and magnets-"

"I like all of my keychains, mugs, and magnets."

You sit at the edge of your bed with a pout, "I wanna try to get you something different."

He softly smiles at you and scoots closer to sit beside, "I'll love whatever you bring back for me. Even if you don't bring back anything at all, knowing that you want to bring me back something is enough. You know I appreciate you regardless."

You nod and let out a deep exhale, "I know, but I always feel bad about leaving you here. I want you to experience everything I do."

"I will eventually. Once I get my powers in control and don't let the other guy out, I'll be out there with you, defending senators and civilians alike."

You snort and lean into him, resting your head on his shoulder, "At least I'm going with Bucky. Aside from you, he and I get along the best." You then move away, heading back to your open suitcase on the floor.

"A month long mission with a handsome super soldier in paradise. Yeah, that's the dream right there," Bob says it with a playful smile, but you see it in his eyes: the insecurity.

You look at him with a sad frown. You hate how ingrained his self-doubt is in him.

"I promise you, nothing will happen."

He clears his throat and nervously rubs his hands on his sweatpants, "No yeah. I know. It was just joke."

"Robby," you say his nickname softly as you approach him again, sitting on his lap. You wrap your arms around his shoulders and you stare into his eyes, "I'm interested in no one but you. I have feelings, really strong feelings, for no one, but you."

"I know," he replies softly and he looks away in shame, "I'm sorry." He takes hold of your hips to help ground himself.

"I understand. It's okay," you give him a quick kiss on the lips, "I got you."

"I got you," he repeats back to you.

You both rest your foreheads against one another and sit in silence. You listen to his breathing, you feel his fingers dig into your hips.

"I love you," he whispers, "and if you don't feel the same, it's okay. Because I'll still love you even if you don't love me."

You chuckle, "How can I not love you, Robert Reynolds, when you're all that I think about? Is your collection of souvenirs not proof of how much I care about you? Doesn't matter if I'm one mile away or one thousand, you're on my mind and being away from you for a month is going to be hell for me."

His lips perk up into a small smile, "Is it bad that I kind of find it comforting that you'll be as much as a wreck as me when you're away?"

You throw your head back in laughter, "Absolutely not."

His laughter joins yours and you feel yourself feel lighter. You suppose feelings aren't that scary after all.

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Bucky smirks at you as you and he follow Senator Collins and her husband around Aloha Stadium. It's a free day for the senator and he and her husband wanted to do some touristy things around the island.

You and Bucky follow her along with her regular security detail. However, your attention is divided between work and all the different trinkets you can buy Bob. Already your tote bag is filled with some funny t-shirts and a hat woven from palm leaves.

Bucky found it amusing and adorable how often you were straying from the group to buy something new for yourself or Bob.

"We're supposed to be working."

"I'm paying attention!" Your bag looks even heavier now.

Bucky snorts, "You trying to bring the whole island to him or something?"

"Gift giving is one of my love languages. Leave me alone."

"Love, eh?" he cocks a brow at you, "So you two made things official official?"

You nod, "He said it first. He was feeling insecure about me being here with you for a whole month. I reassured him that I'm not interested in anyone but him and then he told me he loves me."

Bucky grimaces, "He thinks you and I-"

"I know, right. As if you're not madly in love with Sam."

"...I'm not madly in love with him."

"Suuuure, Buck. Anyway, all of this," you pat your tote bag, "is just me bringing back some of the world to Bob, because he deserves it."

The super soldier chuckles and shakes his head, "You two are disgustingly cute."

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You dump out two tote bags filled with gifts for Bob. He looks at the pile on his bed and then at you, "Honey-"

"I was on an island for a month and they had cool things! Look," you hold up a palm tree figure, "I know you don't smoke anymore, but this is a palm tree bong and I thought it was hilarious. So I bought it for you."

Bob looks at you in confusion and amusement, "I-Well alright then."

"I swear that's the weirdest thing I bought for you. Everything else is pretty tame."

Bob grabs a t-shirt and unfolds it. He snorts and reads it, "'I got lei'd in Hawaii'?" He laughs and tosses the shirt onto the bed, "You're lucky I love you, because that's horrible," he says pulling you to sit on his lap, "Thank you though. I appreciate all the gifts and I'm happy you're back."

"You're welcome and same. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else but here with you," you peck his lips and hold him tight.

Bob will never tell you, but he thinks the best thing the world has given him, was you.

[sourle]

KILLERS VER OF THAT LOVE ME NOT POST PLEAASEE

Not Enough Love

Koi ni chite iru, kocchi wo miteyo!

WARNINGS: none

NOTE:

Killers WHAT DO THEY THINK ABOUT YOU:

1x1x1x1

He does not care about you, AT ALL. Heck. If she decided to engage or respond to your confession, just know it's a way for them to manipulate you. He does not care if in the end it's hurt your feelings, after all she's the embodiment of hatred, of course they would hate you.

John Doe

Even so, after the confession the next time you two met he won't remember you due to The Spectre. Either he reject or accept, it'll end up the same. He won't remember you.

Noli

He's not looking to date. He never really does. Doesn't matter the situation. So.. yeah no chance with this guy.

Guest 666

You like him? like.. like, like? He's flustered but he won't outright accept or reject, he'll test you first. By annoying you that is. Trying to understand you, to see if you accept him the way he is by annoying you.

Azure

Yeah no, he does not want to date. Don't be sad, it's just him with his distrust and The Spectre and all.

Mafioc00l

He's surpised yet not at the same time. He's amused by your bravery on confessing but just know he will only see you as a toy. At first. He'll get pretty bored easily and would reject you lol.

Itrapped

He's not looking for one. Not yet. Though I must say, if he found you attractive, he might just ask for a casual dinner time, that's it. Rest? ehh... yeah rejection.

NOTE: SO.. like... you can request other characters.. im thinking of also adding NPCs.. and un-added survivors

[startinglinereads]

Happy pride month !!! Here are some of my SamBucky pride headcanons that I plan on incorporating into a fan fic!

1.) Sam's gay. I would assume he used to be unlabeled because he didn't have the time to explore himself. He was just too caught up most of his life with the avengers and air force duties—so it never really crossed his mind. Bucky helped him figure himself out. The two would have deep, meaningful conversations that would lead to Sam figuring his own sexuality. Bucky is bisexual. He figured himself out when he realized he had a crush on Steve, but Steve never felt the same way. It would be a Heather by Conan Gray type of situation. Of course, eventually he finds his way to Sam.

2.) They are very private about their relationship. It isn't because they don't want the whole world to know who they are as people, but because they want to separate their love life from work. Since both of them are well known, they don't want people focusing on their personal lives and bad people coming after them. This doesn't mean nobody knows about them. Their friends and coworkers do, especially Joaquin, who's like their own child to them. It means they don't confirm to the public that they're in a relationship and don't answer to the press.

3.) Their cat dads. In the comics, Bucky has a cat—so does Sam. So, it's common sense to assume they're both cat dads. Sam wouldn't be open to the idea of getting a pet because he thought they wouldn't have time to care for an animal. That all changes when Bucky brings his cat to Sam’s place. (Alpine.) He doesn't agree her living with them at first, but then warms up to the cat when she gets attached to Sam. He brings home another cat (Fígaro) so Alpine isn't alone when they're out for too long.

4.) They dance in the middle of their kitchen at 3am. Bucky wakes up in the middle of the night because he struggles with PTSD and gets nightmares sometimes. He goes into the kitchen to cook a late-night snack. Sam wakes up missing him and plays soft jazz/romantic music (Bucky claims he hates it, but he's actually a sucker for the type of music Sam plays) while Bucky cooks. He does this to calm Bucky down and they wind up dancing.

5.) Bucky loves to fluster Sam whenever he gets a chance. This is because Sam is easy to fluster. He'll bring Sam flowers, give him forehead kisses, and write him sweet notes before they go to work. Sam gets Bucky back though by surprising him with hugs from behind, cheek kisses in public, whispering sweet nothings into his ear, and taking him out on cute dates. (Joaquin totally gave him date ideas.)

6.) Sam and Bucky attend pride events regularly. Even though they aren't answering questions from the press, it doesn't mean they don't try to hide who they are. Bucky isn't as open about his sexuality than what Sam is, but he will never deny who he is if asked. Sam is more open and talks about it to spread awareness to the community. Since he is Captain America, he wants to lead by example for the queer community.

7.) They are very flirty in public. They might not confirm that they are a couple to the press, but paparazzi photos prove everything they need to know. They hold hands in public and Sam teases Bucky at every chance he gets to get a reaction out of him. Bucky takes Sam on romantic dates at restaurants, motorcycle rides, and to bookstores. (I assume Sam likes to read, so Bucky spoils him by buying books.) Sam takes Bucky stargazing and drive-in theaters.

8.) Sam tries to be more old schooled to impress Bucky. He buys older suits from Bucky's time that he somehow discovers on custom suit tailor websites and Craigslist. Sam goes as far as to set up old-fashioned dates and finds old types of alcohol Bucky may like. He goes to extended lengths to see him smile. Bucky finds Sam's attempts endearing and loves it.

9.) Bucky is little spoon, obviously. He enjoys being spoiled by Sam and letting his guard down when he had been putting up on a strong facade. At the end of the night, he leans on Sam to be vulnerable.

10.) Sam and Bucky always keep things that remind them of each other wherever they go—like their dog tags or pictures of each other in their wallets. Every time they travel, they collect things that the other likes and store them—like if Bucky loves a cat keychain he sees in a store, Sam buys it and puts it in his car because it's a reminder of of Bucky whenever he gets into his car to run errands.

Let me know if you want more!

Love who you want and be yourself! Happy pride month <3

[calen-00]

Taking the Lead

☆Content: Umemiya/reader, female reader, nsfw, aged up, p in v, riding, praising, intimate fluff cus ume is cheesy like that.

☆A/N: Tumblr has me shadow banned, reposting to see if this works💀💀

Ao3 link

Umemiya was someone who is used to have control over things, both in his role as leader and his personal life, every situation is always on his hands and he is very comfortable with that. With you is not very different.

He took the first step by conffessing his feelings to you, the one on giving the first kiss and he enjoys having his way with you on bed. Having you under him, whimpering, screaming his name, he loves having the pleasure of giving you his everything and watching you enjoy it. He enjoys watching you take all his love.

Now, is not that you don't enjoy it that way too, but you can't help but want to reciprocate his actions, and you tried, but he always brush it off with a "oh but you don't have to do that, love. Let me take care of you" and you hate it (not really), cus you can't say no when he speaks to you like that.

So the night he came home absolutely tired to even get up from your side on the couch you saw it as the perfect oportunity.

– oh, poor baby. Long day at work? - you said while wrapping your arms around him, hands caressing his hair lovingly as he hid his face your chest

– Hmmm, so long... - he answered you almost dragging his words.

The space between you two was non-existant, this were the types of day were he was the neediest, just looking foward to have you in any way possible, he just needed to be close to you no matter how. And you were not one to let it slide.

– I got you, Haji. Why don't you let me take care of you?

Your hands run down from his hair to shoulders, along his biceps and down his abdomen, until reaching the hem of his shirt and sneaking them under it. You felt him shiver under your touch as you caressed the bare skin without restriction.

– hmm, you don't have to do that, love... - and there was again the same phrase, but this time he didn't make any intention to move or change the roles, in fact, he gave you more space to let you keep touching.

He was needy like that.

– of course i do, what type of partner would i be if i didn't take care of my boyfriend? - your hands kept exploring his body and he kept trembling under you - specially when he is this needy.

One of your hands left his torso to his crotch, quickly noticing he was already hard under his pants. He let out a low moan that the touch and you couldn't help but smirk at that.

He finally pulled away from your chest, looking at you with his face all red and a kind of smile that told you "you are playing dirty but is working so fucking well". That was your green light.

– Fine... just this once.

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The couch got cold and now you were warming up the bed, your bodies felt on fire tho. The room full of dirty noises of moans and skin slaping.

This time you were on top of him, riding his dick and moaning loud everytime it hited your sweet spot.You grinded against his lap, fluttering around him as you repeatedly picked your body up and dropped it back down, allowing your weight to intensify your movements to the point that even he couldn’t hold back his pleasure, panting and groaning with your every movement.

– G-god... you are so good, love. So good for me.

And even like this, he couldn't keep his mouth shut, prising you for your good job, for the perfect way your body moved on top of him, encouraging you to keep riding until your legs couldn't do it anymore.

– That's it love, don't stop... - his hands traveled to your hips, helping you to keep on your movements as he could feel your legs tremble at his sides.

Why did it took him so long to have you like this? Pretty girl taking care of him, looking so perfect jumping on his cock. All just to satisfy him. He was living for it.

– Ha-haji... you like it, baby? - you asked between moans while lowering yourself until your face were mere inches apart, your hips not stoping even a second.

The look on his eyes were pure adoration, love in its pure form, down for you in every way possible. He loves the way you move on top of him, he loves the way you look at him, he loves having you in soul and body and he loves all the things you do just show how much you love him too.

– Like it? God, i love it... i love you so much.

And like that he closed the space between you two, taking your mouth in heated and passionate kiss. Full of disere, full of burning love. You found yourself submiting to it in no time and he took the oportunity on that.

Embracing his arms around your body, plating both feets on the bed, he started to pound on you with a quick peace, reaching deep and fast inside you. He knew you were suppoused to take the lead this time, but you have to understand him, he is a weak man and you were so good for him. He couldn't hold it anymore.

– Ah, Love you too! Love you, love you!

And you were so lost on it that didn't even noticed he took control again, moaning loudly to his ear until sparks exploded on your stomach, eyes rolling up as the ecstasy took over your body. He followed quckily behind you, a few thrusts more and he was empting inside you, filling you with his love.

Once you catched your breath again he gained a smack on his pec , with his cute red-faced girl looking at him with a pout on her face

– Ouch? And what was that for? - he asked between giggles, knowing exactly why he was guilty for

– Play dumb, i was suppoused to take care of you

– Oh but love, you did so well i wasn't able to control myself!

He laughed at it and you pouted even more while hidding on his chest.

Things didn't end up as you planned but for him you didn't exactly what you promised and even more. Beacause of that he fell for you more, if that is even possible. You have that man head over heels.

[arcane-ish]

I just thought of an AU where the Noxians don't come for Viktor so quickly and Warwick doesn't "die" in the attack with Isha quite so quickly.

Warwick hating himself because he's the only thing Viktor can't heal. Thinking that confirms his evil nature. Thinks of himself as disfigured and scary. So much rage inside, but he's not like Vi, he isn't turning it on himself, but who is really there to kill and punish. Yeah there is Singed, but beyond that.

Vi distraught over the situation, because of course she is. A battle between her struggling with change and her urge to save everyone.

She'd try to tell Vander it's okay, he's still the same, but that just makes things worse for him.

Jinx watching them and having the realization that actually really she is the one who understands him better. She creeps in and tells Vanderwick that for the longest time she thought she was the monster. (which of course triggers Vanderwicks "must make her feel better" instincts) Maybe contemplates telling (lying?) Vander that Silco did alright for himself.

Vander asking why there are not statues of Silco. (Vander feeling really uncomfortable with having a statue. Feels like they have a false image, they didn't know the real him. Maybe Jinx explaining that the statue isn't really about him, it's about the way he made people feel)

Jinx having the realization, she thought of herself as a monster, she loved Silco because she thought he was her one kindred spirit. Now she has the maturity to see Vander and Vi are broken in their own way as well.

(maybe that realization hitting that if all those people who seem put together on the outside are actually messed up inside too ... that means... Leading to Jinx creeping in on Ekko and sharing this thought with him [plus the news about Vander and Vi being back in town])

(actually this whole thoughtchain was triggered by the mental image of Vandrwick running around in pain and wondering why Silco doesn't have a statue/thinking Silco deserved one more. But that I remembered that he likely would have no reason to think that and so everything just flowed in retroactively)

[rivurivu]

go forth my warrior cats

Ok so since the brain rot has been so massive I made this like sheet with all the cats in mistclan, this was hard as I was trying to pinpoint who is related to who avoiding the future possibilities for incest, but honestly that's impossible in a community that's so small and that doesn't allow outsiders. Look the cats won't stop being xenophobic, but it is allowed that cats switch clans (only within other clans tho, they don't like rogues nor loners, only Spruceleaf got through with the sheer power of having a headache so bad the cats though it was a prophecy) political marriage is also a common thing

Anyways some kitties and who their related to

Hailstar is Icecrackle and Hollyberry's father, who in turn is the mother of Pondleaves and Iciclepaw whoever's the husband doesn't matter he might be dead (also I gave Pondleaves some of Holly berries red because I thought it would be cute even though that's not genetically possible, let me live) As you can see there's plenty of nepotism going on here

Kestrelcaw is Deerpaw's mother (I know I drew her being pissed but she's not a bad mom, it's more of a society issue what goes on with deerpaw)

As per my last comic Petalspots is Nightsky's mother, and Streampebble is his horrible uncle (sometimes you can hate your own ocs), also as a fun fact dappledbranch also kinda helped raise him but I'll explain that later

Hornetbuzz and Goldendawn are Leafglint and Mudtrail's parents

Snowshade is rampaw and mistpaw's mother, yes she's that extra that she named one of her kits after the whole clan gimmick leave me alone. Whoever the father is idk, could be egretwing

look I really wanted to keep this clan small because the bigger it gets the harder to manage any storyline will be, so some cats parents are misterio

Foxpaw is Featherflights and Redoak's Daughter

And that finishes all cats with actual family

Anyways apprentices and who their apprenticed to

Deerpaw is apprenticed to Nightsky

Foxpaw is apprenticed to Pondleaves

Rampaw is apprenticed to Red oak

Mistpaw is apprenticed to Petal spots

Iciclepaw is apprenticed to Hailstar (NEPOTISM!!!)

Anyways some other random elements of this clan in particular and it's culture because I love yapping

The clan is situated on a mountain, so seeing mist is a very common occurrence, this is what makes up a lot of the folklore for Mistclan religión, as it is believed that warriors ancestors view them through the mist, it is as sacred as the stars to them. When a cat becomes leader it must travel to the highest place of the mountain where there is a lake turned waterfall, there touching nose with the lake is where the leader ceremony is done, for a leader ceremony it is expected that the most capable warriors of the clan go as well to celebrate.

Look I do not like original warrior cats 9 life system, it is a nice nod to the belief about cats life but it is a massive detriment to how the narrative plays out, so in my fanclan this is more a belief than a reality.

Same thing with starclan itself, think of the starclan of these cats as more in line with series one starclan being ominous and not really being able to talk to ghosts or have a secret ghost wife. The only thing that reigns true with the current series however is starclan being like a branch of many other afterlife's but I will explain this in detail later.

[feminismisstillahatemovement]

It's a very strange experience listening to the three hour conversation between Bono and Joe Rogan: I'm a huge U2 fan, and consider them the only band continued into the modern age that can really be meaningfully compared to the very greatest of the past like The Beatles and The Stones. No Line On The Horizon, from 15 years ago, is a glorious, stunning album I love, probably the best of its decade, and you can even make a very fine album from their last two (Innocence and Experience) if you mix the better tracks together.

I really like hearing him talk on anything to do with creativity, poetry, the deeper meaning of music and song. I even like hearing his takes on faith and religion, and the window into the more interesting parts of the religious mindset it provides. I'm not a believer myself, but it's clearly been a rock that has sustained him and the band and held them together all these years, which is a great advert for their faith. He's the most relatable Christian voice I know.

I don't get the hate for his dreaming big, reaching for something beyond his grasp, any more than I get it for Elon, and the mosquitoes constantly nipping at both of their ankles and dismissing their good intentions and astounding achievements I just view as a kind of soulless pond scum of humanity, incapable of adding anything of worth to their age and so trying to bring everyone else down to their extremely low level simply to make themselves feel more comfortable with their own mediocrity.

Where it all falls down for me is whenever he opens his mouth about politics. I really tried to listen with an open mind to see how he was seeing the world today, but I just couldn't get there. It seemed like he was editing out all of the inconvenient realities of the modern world from his worldview, and doggedly focusing on unexamined platitudes and a gullible loyalty to corrupt institutions that I just don't see is warranted.

It reminded me of the last time I ended up in a pub with a friend from my youth, and hearing him describe his views on the politics of the day: it was like listening to a nineties liberal just stepping out of a time machine into the modern world, with no knowledge or acknowledgement of the age of monthly Islamic terror attacks that began on September 11th 2001; the unprecedented scale of mass migration and its negative effects everywhere in the west; the madness and irrationality of the modern left, with its visceral hatred of white people and men (and now women), as well as the working classes they used to claim to represent; the brutal censoring of all dissenting opinions to the Woke/PC narrative, and the mandatory celebration of the mutilation and sterilization of children.

None of this seems to be enough of a reason for either of them to question their allegiances from the past, or accept that the left they once felt a part of simply isn't there anymore, and that they're now continuing to support a "side" that is hateful, destructive and unworkable, simply out of habit and cowardice.

But maybe I'm the one that's wrong about that: that's always a possibility, though in this situation I just don't see how. Having said that, it can never hurt to listen to others and try figure out how someone outside of your own skin is interpreting the world.

And the thing is, I don't actually want to change the fundamental nature of people like Bono, who just want everyone to love one another and think that that's the answer to everything. But sometimes love really isn't all you need: in the face of invading armies and sociopathic manipulators doing great harm while hiding behind the word, sometimes love itself is not the answer to the logistical organization of millions of people. But we do need people in the world who believe that it is, even if we maybe shouldn't be getting policy advice from them.

So that's all something of a conundrum for me, and a position I find harder than it should be to meaningfully communicate to just about everyone else.

[1000-gay-sons]

i like to think their second year was full of this kind of thing

[irenespring]

Thoughts on Bertha Russell (Many Thoughts)

I am So curious about Bertha Russell's backstory. We have little snippets:

Her father was a potato farmer.

She has lots of mommy issues. (George mentions her mother said she was the only child "worthy of her dreams" to which Bertha angrily responds that her mother's dreams were worthless because she died with nothing which is A Lot)

She has sibling issues. (George offers to invite her sister to a thing and she refuses)

She and George met when they were both poor, they made the fortune together.

She had a distinct learning curve when they first got to New York. She bought The Wrong House and made The Wrong Friends and had to learn and relearn things over a period of years. (I am especially interested about this time, because she would know Nothing, being the ultimate outsider, but she is a tactical genius and viciously ambitious...I want to see young!Bertha in the early stages of the struggle before she knows how to dress/talk/act).

I hope we will learn more about her because more than any of the other characters she wants things. Things that are nebulous, but she doesn't seem to realize are nebulous, because she has clear goals but they don't satisfy her so she has to make another goal. Loving husband doing well? Not enough. They have enough money to hear the call of the guillotine? It's not enough, they need status. They have status? Not enough, they need to beat Lina Astor. Now they've beaten Lina Astor, but I don't think anyone thinks that's going to be enough. George points out multiple times that he is content where he is and content to let their children marry for love to people of what Bertha considers middling station. She's the sole driving force for continued social climbing. And it doesn't matter how high they get, she wants to go higher, she wants to go "all the way" but there isn't an all the way unless I guess you're Empress of the World. But then the moon starts looking awfully conquerable.

She claims she's doing it for their children, but both children have said her suggestions aren't what they want. And it is heavily implied she just sold her only daughter to the Duke so he would attend an opera performance. She wants Gladys to marry the Duke so that she will be grandmother to English nobility. It's for her. So she is willing to use her children, her alleged motivation, as pawns. They aren't her real motivation after all, even if she may think they are. I do think she loves her children and George. I also think that she thinks she's helping Gladys, but I also think there's a limit to that love because it exists beside the yawning void of hunger within her psyche. George outright asks her if his love for her is enough to make her happy early in s1, because her love is enough for him. She says it's "almost enough" and that's significant and enough for him, which is telling, when usually any answer other than "yes of course" would be taken by a love interest as a searing betrayal. Anyway, the point is, her kids/her family are, at least, not her entire motivation and might not factor into her motivation at all, if she is fully honest with herself.

So, the hunger. The call to Rise. The rage that has her hyperventilating in bed alone after her failed party instead of crying in her husband's arms like most television characters would do. The instinct to look upon a room of people and think you will all bow to me you sniveling mortals. Why is it there? Like...why is she Like This? I think some of it has to come from what we can learn just from George's comment about impossibly ambitious, ruthless, low empathy Bertha being the only one "worthy of her mother's dreams." Which means her mother had dreams that were very important to her and that she never achieved. Her mother also guarded said dreams and judged her children harshly, we know Bertha has at least one sister, who is apparently judged not worthy in the eyes of her own mother. We know Bertha does not like talking about this and tries to dismiss it. Was there pressure on Bertha to be worthy? When could that have started and how did it manifest? Circling back to my interest in young!Bertha in NY, if the social rejection was bad in s1, it was probably worse then, and constant social failures would have made her angrier and more determined to both to become the queen of New York society and to see it burn. This is all stuff I want to learn more about in season 3.

HERE IS WHERE I PRETTY MUCH JUST DO PREDICTIONS (WHICH MAY BE TINFOIL, IDK):

Because I think we will finally get to see Bertha Russell: Season Villain. Every season needs a villain, and Bertha has pretty much vanquished all of them. The first couple seasons the overarching villain has been New York Society with its inequalities and pointless social cruelty, if that holds, Bertha is now the head of that system, having beaten Lina Astor and set herself up as the queen. Additionally, side opponents (not really villains) like Agnes also aren't in a position to make major problems for the protagonists because the Van Rhijn household is now the Forte household and cinnamon roll Ada is now in charge. Unless Agnes attempts to usurp her sister in a subplot (which I don't think will happen except for maybe one episode of hijinx) she's not in a powerful spot. The Society character is indisputably Bertha. And Bertha has been up to some serious villain shit. If she did agree to marry Gladys to the Duke, she's now against All the Protagonists---a sure sign of villain status. She's even against her husband, who swore to back Gladys in her choice of love match, and Gladys doesn't like the Duke. If Gladys wants out, Larry will almost certainly help her. And Saint Marian will help Larry either for love reasons or moral reasons, and hopefully Peggy has better things to do but she will probably get dragged into it somehow and if Marian's involved Ada's also involved and you see where this is going.

Also, show pacing wise, Bertha is due for a loss. I love her and I want her to win everything and be declared Empress of Earth and Moon but realistically that isn't going to happen. In a show where villains lose, it checks out. Gladys isn't going to marry the Duke, and if she does, everyone is going to regret it. One reason I think we will learn more about Bertha and her history is because if she loses she's going to Lose It. Dramatic monologue style. When she had a party and no one came she swore eternal vengeance and spent the night Angry Breathing and presumably fantasizing about the Red Wedding. She doesn't handle losing well. A big public loss after achieving every status symbol she could think of would probably break her mind, and she'll probably tell whoever she's talking to (probably George) enough backstory info that we the audience can fill in stuff. This is also where I would guess she and George would reconcile where he would see she is the person he loves and has not transformed into an automaton, she's just Messed Up, which he always knew and loved so he is Back In.

IN CONCLUSION:

This is who Marina was writing about. She is a primadonna girl, and all she ever wanted was the world. She cannot help that she needs it all, in this case the primadonna life: both the rise and the fall. She also knows exactly what she wants and who she wants to be. This is why she walks and talks like a machine. Unfortunately, she is becoming a self-fulfilled prophecy.

Oh, oh no. Oh no. Oh no. Oh.

[spywhitney]

How I sleep knowing I'll never trust anyone that hates Sydney but worships Richie:

[lynaferns]

I think I'm going to follow my own advice and take a step back from the fandom until things chill out because seeing so much fanart with the sassynes shown of Sun taken to an extreme is not doing any good to me.

I know that it's still fresh and it's going to be the only thing in people's minds for a while but I'm really missing when the fan content online was balanced with both angsty and wholesome post.

I have some reblogs queued for tonight and after that I don't know if I'm going to continue sharing DCA stuff for a while.

[starlightswordfight]

UHH REMINDER ALSO SINCE I HAVE BEEN SHARING A LOT MORE NEGATIVE THINGS LATELY that amid literally everything that's been going on, there are still things that you can do to retain control in your life in at least some areas!! not everyone can actively protest right now, not everyone has the means and that is OKAY! do what you can when you can!!

this post is a wall of text of me rambling about things you can do Right Now in your community or to keep yourself happy and motivated and going. it's a long one so it's going under read more. I also talk a lot more in the tags

i also use terms like Current Events a lot so I also apologize for the vagueness in some places!! I do not know if this will get flagged if I get more specific and my account has tried to go down twice now

#1: BONDING WITH YOUR COMMUNITY (WITH PERSONAL SAFETY IN MIND)

getting involved in your local community is a big big big thing I've seen talked about lately and I agree with that entirely!! the #1 best thing I feel like anyone can do right now is either volunteering at local support groups or getting involved in local activism

if you have a local community you can connect with for whatever reason then that's absolutely a good idea for both practical and emotional reasons. it can be for anything really, actually. reach out to friends, reach out to family, keep talking to people if you have the energy! it really does make a difference!

^ related to the above, if you can involve yourself in volunteer work, or mutual aid, or just helping others out in some other way, then absolutely do that! you can start with asking around, or searching up aid or other groups that may need extra help in your area, and go from there!!

I see a lot of people have been saying for months to organize and then absolutely no one ever explains how to organize, and if you don't plan on starting something up Yourself that is how you get involved. you find like minded people and you lend your hands. I just looked up "volunteers needed/mutual aid [insert town here]" and went off of that

and there are a lot of different places people might need assistance for. one example being food banks, pantries, are basically always accepting new donations -- if you have produce, not all of them will accept it due to safety regulations, but a local community garden might! libraries also will exchange more than books, and protecting libraries by showing involvement and interest in them is important now more than ever

local businesses, emergency aid if you have the certification, environmental work and disaster cleanup, assisted living areas, shelters, a lot of other specific areas I can't name right now. if you are physically able to seek out support and give back in turn (and if you aren't able to do one or both of these that's also okay!!) i highly highly recommend it. mutual aid especially goes both ways. do not be afraid to reach out for help, that is what they're there for

speaking of libraries!

#2: KEEP INFORMED

this can refer to a lot of different things, but on a federal and local level it is never ever ever a bad thing to keep up to date with what's going on. anyone trying to do bad things on a government level is relying on you not noticing or staying uninformed in the invent that you do notice. keep track of what's going on in your area and plan accordingly!!

keeping up with the news (and fact checking, always, because journalism isn't always ethically practiced), finding where your local city hall or equivalent is and staying up to date on local legislation, has always been important for safety and especially is right now. know how to determine a reliable source from an unreliable one, and know how to pick apart the difference between fact and misconstrued ideas spoken as fact. I'll probably make a post on that too at some point and link it here when I'm done

it is overwhelming to hear just how much is getting worse so quickly, but it's crucial that you don't allow yourself to become unaware, because that makes you easier to lie to. you do not have to work yourself to burnout or to a breakdown, please take breaks whenever you need to and put your own health first!!

but don't do yourself the disservice of not knowing what's happening around you. I want everyone to be as safe as they can, and to be safe you have to be informed

#3: FIND SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO (AND ALSO KEEP CONTROL OF YOUR LIFE EVEN IF IT'S IN SMALL WAYS)

staying up to date on current events has been overwhelming for me, but it also has helped me to maintain a sense of control in my life. and there are a lot of other ways to do that, too, and also give you sources of happiness and things to still look forward to! I'm listing what works for me but I'm sure there's infinitely more ways to pull that off

taking up or getting back into hobbies or interests is a very effective way to keep joy in your life, and this goes double if you're sort of stuck in your house like I am most days. you should get to do things that make you happy!! you deserve to still have things to look forward to!!!

I've also been personally using my interests to try to learn how to do more practical things that might help me and the people I live with; I'm a gardener so I've been working on trying to grow food, starting with sweet peppers. don't know if I'll end up needing that one day (or if my neighbors might, but as the economy completely fucks itself it could get very useful very fast), but having the knowledge and the means helps me feel more in control of what happens in my personal life, and it really has made me feel better and have a source of hope

I really hope that everyone who sees this is doing as well as they're able right now. saying all of this because I don't want to contribute to any ideas of complete hopelessness, if that makes sense. there are things worth getting up in the morning for and every one of you matters and you deserve to be happy. and I love you /p

even if you aren't utilizing your hobbies in that way (again, PERFECTLY fine, do what you need to forever), something like that might be useful for you, too! you can learn new skills or read up on all those things you already wanted to look into but kept putting off, you can carve out a little space in your world for Joy and for Whimsy if you don't have one already! it's good for you!! it's incredible in fact!!

[roobylavender]

i’m sure you’ve talked about it before but you expand more on your thoughts about talia & jason and how their relationship would be? what are some positives and negatives their interactions would bring? (your talia metas are everything)

thank you! on talia's end i think a lot of it would come down to balance and restraint. because there are a lot of unpredictable factors at play and on top of it her tutelage of jason coincides with her last years under her father's thumb so there's parts of herself that she's beginning to close off out of self preservation and exhaustion. that's why i like the placement of under the hood right after the close of lexcorp era even if it obv wasn't intended because it puts her in a place comparatively to take all of the risks after a year of complete physical and emotional isolation. and even then i feel like there would still be a lot of restraint because of the guilt over her part in jason's various massacres. i could see her reprimanding him but in a very cautious and empathetic way so as not to set him off the way bruce would if he was the one lecturing him. so like.. not quite in the realm of mothering but maybe teetering on the edge of it. and i do think talia would try to maintain some distance out of respect for his history. which may or may not fuck with jason emotionally because as possessive as he is of his own grief i do think he'd long for even the smallest semblance of what he thinks he could get. like guarded as he is he would certainly soften to her over time and abide by her guidance even if he didn't necessarily verbalize the fact. i don't really know that i'd see any negatives between them like at worst it would be awkward and strained because he wouldn't be sure of how to place her in his life and she wouldn't want to overstep

[railroad-migraine]

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[aitsf-considered-harmful]

i think the reason i'm so obsessed with bravely second's story is that, if the perspective had been shifted to follow the antagonists instead, their actions and goals could have been interpreted as entirely righteous and justified, without having to change anything else about their in-game portrayal

in many other settings, the idea of traveling back in time to alter the fate of the world by directly destroying a source of evil would be a perfectly good premise. In fact, I'm sure there's stories exactly like that out there even if i can't think of any atm

[no-one-hears-me]

I miss all my old friends and it's sad to think that they probably don't feel the same way