#and i feel guilty about it

[steventheslime]

Gravity falls thoughts-

I wonder if part of the reason Grunkle Stan was able to regain his memory is bc of Bill envoking the axolotle?

Like, maybe Bill attempting to save himself like that lead to the side affect of him not being completely erased (but now dormant) and thus all of Grunkle Stans memories weren’t truly erased either and were just made dormant.

Though there’s also the strong possibility that since Old Man Mcgucket was able to recall a few things I believe ( if I remember correctly) despite how many times he blasted himself with the memory eraser, that it isn’t possible to completely wipe the memories with it forever.

That makes me wonder why Bill wasn’t a problem after Grunkle Stan started to recall his memories. Was what little was left of him blasted out of his head? He was attempting to escape as he was punched into oblivion. Or maybe the memory eraser got him completely as collateral while the memories weren’t complete nullified- though I think there is side content that states Bill is still alive in some form but no longer a threat.

Anyways I need to rewatch gravity falls again soon lol

[vekovoysoldat-a]

❄️

[xdarkabyssx]

Why couldn't jk Rowling just be a good fucking person??? I have all these Harry Potter decorations I saved up for YEARS for when I had a place of my own to decorate. They're so cool! But I just. Feel too fucked up about it to use them

Like she HAD to go and actively promote genocide against people like me

Fucking cunt

[zenatness]

Whole family’s been sick for... nearly a month, yours truly not quite as long but still. I’ve been trying to get back to writing now that the fever seems to have eased up a bit but original short stories instead of Untouchable because... it’s a monster and I don’t have the spoons for it right now.

Verdict: I can write. Some of it is good, but it’s really highlighted my inability to get to the goddamn point of a story. I’ve found myself writing paragraphs about honey (it wasn’t even the bee story), a tavern owner (zero importance to the plot), and academic dishonesty (unnecessary detail). Three separate stories. Send help.

[uncanny-tranny]

I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.

I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:

Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)

Getting the décor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' décor section and I adore it)

Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often

Eat dessert first

Celebrate well, and often

Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)

Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.

Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate

Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)

Walk without having a specific destination or goal

Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.

I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.

[confessional-dashboard]

I sometimes feel like I can't take myself ANYWHERE. Lol.

I saw a girl at the climbing gym tonight who I absolutely wanted to DESTROY.

I see her every now and then; she used to work there at some point, and she still frequently comes to climb.

She's pretty and petite, with a slender, fit body. Tonight, she was wearing a sports bra and quite flattering leggings, both in black.

It was hard to watch her climb at times, because it was hard to get past the thoughts of wanting to bend her over or press her against a wall, take her hips in my hands, and RAIL her from behind.

[inkskinned]

you're in the habit of denying yourself things.

if someone asked you directly, you would say that you love a little treat. you like iced coffee and getting the cookie. you drink juice out of a fancy cup sometimes, and often do use your candles until they gutter out helplessly.

but you hesitate about buying the 20 dollar hand mixer because, like. you could just use your arms. you weren't raised rich. you don't get to just spend the 20 dollars (remember when that could cover lunch?), at least - you don't spend that without agonizing over it first, trying to figure out the cost-benefits like you are defending yourself in front of a jury. yes, this rice cooker could seriously help you. but you do know how to make stovetop rice and it really isn't that hard. how many pies or brownies would you actually make, in order to make that hand mixer worthwhile?

what's wild is that if the money was for a friend, it would already be spent. you'd fork over 40 without blinking an eye, just to make them happy. the difference is that it's for you, so you need to justify it.

and it sneaks in. you ration yourself without meaning to - you don't finish the pint of ice cream, even though you want to. the next time you go to the store, you say ah, i really shouldn't, and then you walk away. you save little bits of your precious things - just in case. sometimes you even go so far as putting that one thing in your shopping cart. and then just leaving it there, because maybe-one-day, but not right now, there's other stuff going on.

you do self-care, of course. but you don't do it more than like, 3 days in a row. after that it just feels a little bit over-the-edge. like. you can't live in decadence, the economy is so bad right now, kid.

so you don't buy the rice cooker. you can-and-will spend the time over the stove. you can withstand the little sorrows. denial and discipline are practically synonyms. and you're not spoiled.

it's just - it's not always a rice cooker. sometimes it is a person or a job or a hug. sometimes it is asking for help. sometimes it is the summer and your college degree. sometimes it is looking down at scabbed knees and feeling a strange kind of falling, like you can't even recognize the girl you used to be. sometimes it is your handprint looking unsteady.

sometimes it is tuesday, and you didn't get fired, and you want to celebrate. but what is it you like, even? you search around your little heart and come up empty. you're so used to denying that all your desires draw a blank.

oh fuck. see, this is the perfect opportunity. if you had a mixer, you'd make a cake.

[cinnamon-notes]

“People like me are gone forever when you say goodbye”

I used to live by this ever since I got my very first heartbreak. Whoever was the one who said goodbye. I'd just never get back on my footsteps. However, when I dumped D (yes, the one who shares her birthday with Taylor), I did it because I was getting too involved and got scared. She was the first person ever to be my muse. She was the first person I've ever written a poem about. Before that, I'd only write about solitude, abandonment, nature, excruciating longing for something inexistent, the cruel elegance of rain. She never got to know that, though. She didn't even get to know she had poems written about her. Let alone that said poems got me into contests and earned me publishing contracts. Sooner or later I will text her. Sooner or later I'll either mail or hand her those poems. Every Christmas, going back to my hometown means many things, including asking myself whether this one will be THE year, or I'll just leave it on hold for another one. I feel like she has to have them. She has to be able to read her. She has to know about it. Although I'd feel much more guilty because it'd be like putting a whole burden on her again, and I don't think I wanna do that. But she deserves to know. Doesn't she?

[datcravat]

brexit <3

[egophiliac]

like mother, like son, but less wholesome this time?

(I couldn't decide whether or not to put them together, so have them in all the different ways!)

[skeleslime-phantom]

Maybe he'll come around to it? 🤔

[not-quite-normal]

hi!!!! there been news articles saying that the working conditions of spiderverse were rlly rlly bad to the point of 100 ppl quitting or someting…. sorry to be liek an annoying reporter and b kinda invasive but is this tru D:

the big article that came out, for anyone curious: https://www.vulture.com/2023/06/spider-verse-animation-four-artists-on-making-the-sequel.html

there are some aspects about the article that i don't feel comfortable commenting on, but yes a lot of animators did quit. a lot of it had to do with the issues mentioned in the article, but a lot also left because disney opened a studio in vancouver (where sony imageworks is located) and had to hire an entire crew. i don't blame people for leaving spiderverse to get in on being a part of establishing the disney vancouver studio

i will also say that some of the information going around is incorrect; we did not work 11 hours a day, 7 days a week for over a year. working 7 days a week is illegal, and though some people worked sundays, they were clearly told that they could not work the next saturday if they worked a sunday. we encouraged people to not work ghost hours, and OT was always optional (except for saturday work towards the end, but nobody was punished or anything if they couldn't work a saturday). we also get paid for OT. i was on the movie for over a year but we certainly weren't crunching that whole time. like the article said, we were idle for a long time

it was undeniably a hard movie to work on and with such a large crew, everyone had a wide variety of experiences. the anonymous animators in the article aren't wrong, but i will say that there are people that felt differently, or not as strongly as them. it's a complicated issue that doesn't have a simple solution

i just hope this doesn't tarnish your view of the movie. we worked hard on it and everyone's immense celebration of the animation is making all that hard work very worth it!

[ruporas]

feast (ID in alt)

[crimeschild]

the barbie (2023) experience as an afab non binary person is just [reconnecting with your femininity and love for pink bc you couldnt when u were younger bc being too girly will get u made fun of] [feeling guilt bc u dont identify with being a girl but girlhood is so inherently beautiful and magical and no experience is truly like it] [healing the inner child in you by allowing yourself to enjoy dolls and pink and maximalism] [unapologetically letting yourself wear pink and be stereotypically girly in a society where being non binary means you have to be presenting androgynous 24/7] [getting your grown-up heart shattered and then put back together again by your inner child using sparkly glue over and over in the span of two hours] [realizing that no matter what you do you have somewhat experienced girlhood and it shaped you to be the person you are today and you will never get to erase that experience or truly disconnect yourself from it] [appreciating and understanding your mother in a way that you thought wasnt possible without experiecing motherhood]

[nightlocked-in]

“peeta is bisexual” you guys are losing the vision. peeta isn’t even straight. katniss INVENTED sexuality for him. whatever katniss identifies as, he’s like “yeah, i’ll take that one” no questions asked

[asfodeltide]