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Anon.
Are you fucking serious right now?
I saw your message and I had to take a full-ass walk around my block because I was genuinely afraid I’d punch my goddamn wall.

Let me break this down for you very clearly, so even your AI-smooth-brained moral compass can process it:
You are not entitled to shit.
Not my writing. Not the ending. Not a single fucking word I typed out with my own fucking bleeding fingers.
You think you “need” closure?
Cool. I “need” eight hours of sleep, a functioning spine, and respect from strangers online. Guess what?
None of us are getting what we want today.
Fanfiction is a gift.
Not a product, not a service, not a series finale you paid for on HBO Max.
A gift.
You don’t throw a tantrum because the gift didn’t come with a bonus epilogue and a director’s cut.
Your entire ask is a monument to entitlement. You say “if you're not going to write it, I think it's fine to use Al?”
I did NOT write it for AI. I wrote it for human readers. For emotion. For narrative voice. For soul.
AI doesn’t have that. You want a soulless machine to mock my style and feed you a bootleg version of my work?? Which is, not to say but, the equivalent of a a knock-off Louis Vuitton sold from the back of a van?
Then don’t ask me. Just go to your shameful little corner and live with the fact that you’re the kind of person who disrespects art to feed your own dopamine addiction.
You wanted permission, so now you get the wrath.
I see in your other little asks, “AI is there to make things easier.”
At whose fucking expense? The thousands of fanfic writers whose fics are being scraped, harvested, mimicked and tossed into machine-learning hell so you don’t have to wait for an update?
Do you have any idea how many of us have had our fics [both in our caratblr and other fandom spaces] show up on AI mirror sites or been plagiarized by bots? Do you know how many real authors are losing book deals, commissions, or livelihoods because of this exact entitled logic?
Let me give you a basic fucking rundown since you clearly didn’t do the homework:
AI is not ethical – Generative AI is trained off data sets that include unauthorized, uncredited, scraped work from unpaid artists, writers, poets, journalists, bloggers, fanfic writers—fuck, even therapy forums.
Authors are suing OpenAI for ingesting copyrighted novels without permission.
Fanfic is already vulnerable – We exist in a legal gray area protected only by community ethics and mutual respect. You're breaking both.
You say “I won't post it anywhere, it's just for me.”
Oh, wow, thanks. So you only want to steal quietly. Like that makes it better.
You think the damage only happens when it’s public? WRONG.
Every time you plug an artist’s work into a machine, it gets processed, stored, used for training, forever.
You have no control over where it goes or how it’s repurposed later. You are feeding the beast and killing the creators in the process.
Don’t give me “I respect you but—”
If you respected me, this message wouldn’t exist.
You get your AI-stitched ending, it doesn’t scratch the itch, and you feed it another one.
And another.
And another.
Until the entire fucking archive is turned into a graveyard of replicas and you’re the ghoulish little shit dancing on the corpses of every writer you leeched dry.
And you say “I think I’m just entitled to a bit of closure”?
Entitled. You actually used the word.
Thank you for confirming what we already knew:
That you don’t see us as people.
You see us as content machines that owe you something because you liked our work. You don’t want closure, you want control, and you will NOT get it from me.
You’re entitled to a bath, a glass of water, and the air you breathe—not my writing, not my thoughts, and definitely not a fucking auto-generated Frankenstein mockery of my style you can jerk off your emotions to.
So here's your closure:
No, you may not touch my fic.
No, you may not feed it to a bot.
No, you may not engage with my writing, my blog, my friend's blog, or my community ever again.
Block me. Report me. Cry about it.
But know this:
Every time you open an AI generator to finish a story you didn’t write, you are choosing to destroy the very creators you claim to admire.
You should be ashamed, but you won’t be. Because parasites don’t feel guilt, they just suck and suck and suck until there’s nothing left.
I'll never forget this time and date.

I hope it was worth it.
Let this be your final fucking warning.
— Celeste.
#please get the fuck off my and my friend's and other writers blog#you're NOT welcomed#you deadass came into MY inbox with a digital scalpel asking to butcher my fic#and expected me to say “yes queen go ahead”???#feed my blood sweat and tears into the algorithm grinder bc YOU can’t wait???#go gnaw on drywall#the entitlement is fucking radioactive#“i won’t share it” oh wow babe THANK YOU for promising to keep your theft private. like that makes you less of a digital robber#cry me a river build a bridge and then jump off it#you don’t “need closure” you need a damn hobby and some fucking boundaries#go knit or scream into a jar or idk read a newspaper#don’t treat writers like vending machines and throw tantrums when the candy doesn’t drop#AI is not your little storytelling fairy godmother. it’s a grave-digging industry leech#go sit in a corner and think about why no one wants you in fandom spaces anymore#and don’t come back unless it’s with a goddamn apology and a clue#mylovesstuffs asks
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i like to think that my mc has huge ass mer dca plushies & belphie takes them every once in a while
#art#obey me belphegor#obey me mc#rambles in the tags....#rmb#me talking about my mc should not be allowed + it makes me want to sit in the corner of shame#i HAD to get them involved. if i can talkabt obey me to the attendants then i gotta do it the other way round#which will be thru mammon and asmo... im sorry... but theyre the friend friends toter has in the devildom LOL#WHICH MEANS they experience the same shit my friends have to which is me crying over the sillies#they got levi (and satan) involved in the making of those plushies. i dont know how and why satan got involved i just know he was#this is like 100% something toter keeps a secret around the purgatory hall gang but solomon finds out and#this is just an excuse to punch solomon sorry#i love him like that#he's funny#also toter's just a TEENSY bit afraid of simeon bc yeah being with an actual angel is. yeah. what the fuck#luke doesnt need to know but also shit i gotta draw him w the daycare attendants now AAAAA#the plushies are as soft and comfy as my cloud plush (which is also what i like to think belphie's pillow is like)#(bc its so fucking SOFT AND COMFY i love hugging it and have brought it to uni at some point)#(we fucking LOVE these types of thingsi fell asleep after my test bc of it)#but ye comfy and big and they have arms = hugs#..........what do you mean i want to have them irl no i dont hahaha#sobs#i dont need another moon dissing me bc of my poor sleep sched#anyway more rambling they are not normal about the daycare attendants and HoL has to deal with it ssssssorry#louder than levi when it comes to these i fear... motherfucker looks at one thing and is just#“ohmyfuckinggod five nights at freddy's security breach daycare and maptime attendant sun and moon?1!2?1”#out of topic but mammon levi toter play mobile legends together and its HORRIBLE#hahahahhahahaahhahaha#mc rambles#must make new tag just in case i look for stuff bc ... i will forget 💔
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was craving a burger and milkshake and then thought abt forever partners jean and neil so enjoy a drabble as i eat my burger and drink my milkshake
“You said we were getting food,” Jean starts as he stands outside the entrance, eyes flicking around before settling on Neil looking at him expectantly. “What is this?”
“Food.” Neil pulls the door open, holding it for Jean and tilts his head, urging the other to walk inside.
It’s late, nearing midnight on a Friday night. Neil wasn’t at all keen on cooking, the laziness weighed down on his bones and he’s hungry. It’s not ideal to stand around and wait for the food to heat up and season and the like so, with a craving for bubbly soda and burgers, he bothered Jean until he got an answer.
As they stand in line waiting, other locals having the same idea or a penchant for fast food, he watches as Jean surveys the brightly lit menu hanging on the wall. He didn’t tell Jean exactly where he was taking them to eat, already knowing the complaints and comment he’d get if he told the truth.
It isn’t a lie, really. But rather, simply hiding something from the man.
“Neil,” Jean murmurs and turns to him with a deadpan expression. A furrow to his brows that nearly makes Neil want to smile. He really does enjoy messing with him. “This is junk.”
They step forward in line as Neil shrugs. “No. Junk is chips and chocolate. What we have here is burgers, sandwiches, and fries.”
“I will hit you.”
“Hit me after we order and sit down.”
After several minutes of waiting—with Jean muttering a line of colorful threats in French and Neil all but unaffected—they finally order their meals.
Or rather, more accurately, Neil orders for Jean seeing as he refused countless times and stubbornly glared at the poor cashier. Although, he knows better. With each time Jean glanced at the menu, gray eyes always found the drink section and if Neil had to guess, it was most likely the milkshakes. Sugary sweet vanilla with whipped cream and an added cherry to top it off.
Once it’s paid for and they grab their trays, he and Jean move towards a booth near the window. Jean sits on the other side as Neil takes the seat facing the door.
Neil breaks the straw through the paper, placing it on the corner of his tray as he sticks the straw into his soda that clinks with ice. As he sips his drink, Jean is staring at the wrapped food in front of him, a thin line of his lips like he’s unsure what to eat first or where to start.
“Jean,” Neil says around the straw. “Your food is going to get cold if you keep staring at it.”
“I know that. I am..thinking.”
“Mm,” Neil hums in response and takes a mozzarella stick from a bag on his tray. He reaches over the table, an elbow supporting his weight and used as leverage.
Jean’s eyes flit up at Neil then at the piece of food he’s holding. “This is not remotely healthy.”
“You’ll run it off. Take a bite.” Jean sighs, shoulders slumping forward as if he’s asking himself what deed has he done to be cursed with Neil’s existence. Neil persists and says again, “Jean. Just take one bite. It’s not going to kill you.”
“I truly, deeply, hate you.” Jean leans forward and does as he’s told, a soft crunch fills the atmosphere and he sits back as he chews.
Satisfied, Neil sits back as well and opens up a little packet of marinara sauce to dip the rest of the piece and pop it into his mouth. “Sorry. I think I’m obligated to tell you that you’re not the first person to hate me.”
They settle into a silence after that. They each eat through their burgers, dip fries or mozzarella sticks or onion rings into sauces as people come and go.
Neil is halfway through his soda when Jean picks up the straw to idly twirl around his fingers.
“It’s going to melt.”
“Not if you drink it, stupid.”
“I would’ve been fine with water.”
Neil shakes his head and takes the straw from Jean’s fingers to break the paper and slide it into the lid of the cup. He pushes it towards him, using the internal struggle of the other man to clean up whatever mess they made. By the end of it, he nudges Jean’s foot with his own. “I don’t want you to be just fine. You can have something you want, you know.”
Jean surrenders easily with that, taking a sip of his milkshake. “Not always.”
“Who’s telling you that?”
He doesn’t answer immediately, glancing out the window to watch the cars pass as it becomes later and later. “No one.”
“If you want something, tell me. Or don’t. I’ll always get it for you.”
Jean doesn’t look at him, too focused on the world outside by Neil feels Jean’s foot hook around his ankle. A silent gesture of a thank you and Neil leans back against the leather seat, taking his cup of soda into his hand.
#all for the game#aftg#the foxhole court#the sunshine court#tfc#tsc#jean moreau#neil josten#jeaneil#my favorite forever partners ugh#um this is also probably some kind of au idk#don’t ask me#i wanted something#thought of these two#bam drabble written#platonic or romantic no absolute idea#i want them out of my head#i really do love them#sigh gonna cry while drinking my milkshake and sit in the corner in the dark#nora sakavic
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....idk in a fandom this gigantic how are people already coalescing onto a handful of popular headcanons and scenarios that just become the baseline now, when the source material gives us literally limitless possibilities to work with
#the torrential flood of 'jayvik with 4 kids' content im getting on arcane twt is incredible rn#but i do feel like im sitting in a bit of a corner bc i feel like the only person at this point who doesn't hc viktor as trans sobs#there's obv absolutely nothing i have against it it's just become a surprisingly pervasive fanon view that it's actually difficult to avoid#i think at least half of fics in the jayvik tag are trans viktor lmao#not to say i don't read any that are. but it's just not really what im interested in#i fear it will become one of those fanon hcs that will just be accepted as fact and if you happen to not ascribe to it you'll be ostracized#i've even started to see 'don't mpreg this you better be talking about trans pregnancy' like hi. sorry but are you new here#half my interest in the ship esp postcanon stuff is the weird magic and monsterfuckeryness of it all#like how can you not explore interesting other ways of giving them kids. he's connected to the arcane. he might still be in herald form#who the fuck knows. if i see pregnant viktor i would honestly prefer it to be Weird and semi-nonhuman thats the cool shit#i just. idk. srs please im not trying to say anything bad about the trans viktor headcanon it's fine and im glad ppl see themselves in him#it's just. it is becoming rather inescapable. the 'castiel loves bees' effect yknow.#i really want to interact with this fandom and im trying to like. reply to people on twitter. and even more now it feels like#if my headcanons don't align to the popular fandom big names' then it's pointless. i have no 1-on-1 communication with anyone#in this fandom it feels very lonely. i watch everyone make great art and jabber on and i kinda just watch and wave from the corner#anyway i'll just keep imagining my weird arcane herald mpreg or w/e. it's fun. prob will never write it tho cause the fandom clearly#knows what it wants and that isn't it lol. i barely see any arcane herald fics which is WILD. like canon gave you a feast and you're#ignoring it in favor of just having viktor be human in everything. lowkey hydrogen bomb vs crying baby lmao#i can think of three postcanon fics that have arcane herald viktor and i hold onto them so tightly lol#but yeah. this goes for more than just trans viktor it's about 'all timelines all possibilities' in terms of what people write in fics#it's for the most part very...tame? in terms of creativity of concept? there's darkfic of course but.#not nearly enough in the way of Weird that i'd expect given what's actually offered in the source material#'go write it yourself' well im trying it's taking forever and also the fandom's made me hesitant to write anything weird bc it seems like#there isn't interest in it. like bro even the number of fics featuring mage viktor is insanely low#the number of viktor permutations we have to work with and the fandom opts for the easy ones almost every time. sad
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does this . make sense
#there's somewhere haskill in the corner and a couple of other guys but they do have redeeming qualities. and different Vibes#my favoritest of faves! I carefully picked them up throuout years of my life and keep them in an ugly corner of my heart#jenkins taz#amadeus 1984#antonio salieri#from the new world#squealer#the grinning man#barkilphedro#I think I should have added book!barkilphedro to match the vibes but him and tgm!phedro are basically different characters.#one Sparks Joy and the other Doesn't.#how can I actually describe my feelings toward these guys?#squealer makes me feel a whole spectrum of deep emotions I'm just sitting here looking at the wall. contemplating life. thinking.#I want to cry when I think of him. he makes me sad. which is the greatest compliment#barkilphedro makes me manic HE'S SO FUNNY he brings so much joy. he's so funny. he makes me happy#drooling like a dog at jenkins. I'm sorry it is what it is.#<- The less we love a woman the more she likes us (c)Alexander Pushkin#and salieri? BARK BARK BARK BARK GROOWLLLL GGRRRRRR GRRRRRR BARK BARK#I need him . biblically#mjrdm.txt
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Was really nervous about posting that last doodle lmao, this post AC AU has been stuck in my head for quite some time but it’s really niche and prob weird to some people BUT HEY niche and underrated bullshit are my specialties aka I have no one to talk to about it 90% of the time✨✨✨
#fuji yaps#like has anyone ever thought of a safer Sephiroth that’s not malicious and megalomaniacal#I just thought it would be fun to play around with a pseudo god concept#except said pseudo god hates what he is and what he’s done#and he just wants to sit in a corner and cry#:(((#ff7#ffvii#sephiroth#advent children
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something to be said about how someone you barely know can be instrumental to your learning how to grieve
#Molten rambles#Just. It’s thinking about Technoblade hours again.#I lost my grandfather less than a year after Technoblade passed on the day my apartment finally flooded with enough sewage that my complex#Kicked us out and made us functionally homeless for over a month.#and I don’t think I cried until I found that poem#You know the one#do not stand at my grave and weep#I am not there. I do not sleep.#Somehow my grief for my grandfather and my childhood and my apartment and my life and my health found themselves all tangled up together#Under the umbrella of. Caring about a YouTuber and his legacy?#Sitting in a corner crying over a dead man who I viewed as impossibly older and kinder and wiser than me#But he’s not anymore. He’s stopped running#I have all the time in the world to catch up to him now and it still doesn’t feel like nearly enough.#I am gonna be older than him. I’m gonna be older than him *soon.* and I haven’t done anything like what he did by the time he had to go.#And all I want is to ask if we’re doing ok. If he’s having fun up there. if he’s disappointed with how much life has gone to shit down here#He was just a guy. I don’t think he’d say anything particularly profound. I just think he’d be kind about it. And right now I am…#severely lacking in kindness.
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Hunting dogs light novel when?
#I have so many questions about their characters#their backstories#they fought fucking werewolves 😭#we cannot just skim over that#please we’ve got these 3 (gonna omit tachi because he gets his moments in the main story) awesome characters#it’d be a crying shame to leave them high and dry without delving into their corner of he bsd universe#I’ve gotta know#was Tecchou a military kid? (my bets are on that)#how old is Teruko?#how did Jouno get caught?#how was he convinced to join? (I refuse to believe it was as easy as it was made out to be)#what events occurred to instil such a strong moral compass in Tecchou?#and don’t even get me started on the enhancement surgeries#I could and would write an essay on everything I want to know about these silly little side characters#who currently sit in a very antagonistic position#they consume my mind and soul#bungou stray dogs#bsd jouno#bsd teruko#bsd tecchou#bsd fukuchi#bsd tachihara#bsd hunting dogs#bsd
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hey google how do i stop being afraid and start writing again
#when do you know when to break the writing fast#and once you do how do you prioritise sk you aren't overwhelmed with 15+ things you want to do#part of this break is me avoiding having any options because once i allow myself 1 like 10 others fill my plate#and so i do nothing and just sit on a corner and Cry#pia.txt
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Not me crashing hard after sanremo manic week skjsksjskssjls
#sanremo#sanremo 2024#i just want to sit in a corner and cry#as a treat#you know when you have a fun but packed day/week/period and after it ends you just feel so wrung out
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it almost feels like having my mortal remains repatriated would be an easier process than this i am cold and tired and technically even not even allowed to be here legally
#vidhik.txt#i just want to sit in a corner and cry my eyes dry but i cant even do that#what i can do is make my way to where i am staying rn and hope tomorrow things are actually running so i can get my ec sorted
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Hope your day improves 💜💜
I hope so too! Thank you 🥺💜
#it only got worse now unfortunately.. I wanna cry#it just turned out that some frames I wanted to use for the pictures I got at comic con are a massive fail and I can’t return them cause I#can’t find the receipt#it’s really not my day today#I think I’ll just leave it at that and go sit in a corner or something#asks
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no that brought back annoying memories of freshman year high school
#don’t put me in gym ill kms#being one of the last ppl to be picked????? bc my friends weren’t in that class my god i wanted#to kill someone on the spot. i do remember crying in the corner in the bathroom bc it was just that bad#like me and my friends at lunch would all sit there in agony when we#were told that we had to have gym again separately. like we cried oughhh that was so depressing. then j wanted to kms all year
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gonna be thinking about trigun to keep me strong today (dealing with extended family)
#im gonna sit in the corner and think how tragic vashwood is and how much i want knives to explode#i want to draw so badly but theres no art supplies and theres no time and i am crying and pissing and shitting myself because of it#sorry for the tmi :P#pray for me
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I'm a hater
Stolen from twitter bc I need to see everyone's answers
#sorry I lied#you're swag I just wanted to experience the post as originally intended once sorry sitting in the corner crying how can I ever redeem myself
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Allowing myself to sit with the realisation that I don't love my brother anymore.
#I walked away from our relationship when he was incredibly rude to me at the breakfast table. On mother's day. when I had shingles in my#*eyeball.* The breakfast that despite the agony of shingles and the pain of the photosensitivity I made 99% by myself. The one he ate.#I was in so much pain but I'd pushed through because it was mother's day and I wanted a nice breakfast for mum because she'd been nursing me#through two weeks of the worst pain and hell I've ever been through. two weeks of pain so bad even thinking about it makes me want to cry.#and he had the fucking AUDACITY to knowingly hit my disrespect trigger that I'd explicitly explained to him and asked him not to hit.#I walked away that day but I thought even though I definitely didn't like him anymore and I had accepted the death of our relationship past#existing as roommates with extra steps I thought I still loved him. I realised yesterday I didn't at work but pushed it away. But now after#watching queer eye with mum I am here. sitting with the realisation that I don't love him anymore. when one of us move out I won't bother#keeping in touch. I unfollowed him on all social media years ago. I still don't think he's noticed. he'll be the shitty brother that I send#The obligatory happy birthday message too and I greet politely at Christmas and family gatherings. but that's it.#It's an. odd thing. to sit with. to accept. to grieve. after 25 years of knowing him. of only ever knowing life with him and loving him.#because he's my brother. because family is so so so important to my family. because we're supposed to love and support each other. but I#genuinely do not think he's noticed. how much I've pulled back. how much on my end we're just roomies. he's my shitty roommate i have to#be polite too. I'm not going to disrespect him back. but I don't care about him. unless we're in the same space for the same reason or it's#about someone else I won't do anymore than basic manners. basic politeness. because i guess he thinks I'll forever be his easy people#pleasing punching bag who's terrified of being left alone. of being unloved. who's scared of I'm too much if i take too much space I'll be#left alone. he doesn't get to see me grow. he doesn't get to be a plant in the garden of my life. not anymore. he has been replanted into a#pot in a corner away from everything else. he doesn't get to control me anymore. if he wants to be a weed fine. he'll be dug up and replaced#with something better. something that makes the garden better. someone. he doesn't get to be in my shade house when he's mint pretending to#be an orchid.
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