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hihi, so happy to see you back!! missed you lots, congrats on graduating!!
i saw you had requests back open again, and i was wondering if you could do preferences for the caregivers with a very sensitive little who practically cries at everything, is painfully shy, and needs comfort and reassurance 24/7 :(
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[🪄] the cg's with a sensitive little! | preferences
including : matt, chris, nick, nate, tara, johnnie, jake, carrington, sam and colby
divider credit : @v6que
a/n : i KNOW i had one other preferences post and i literally searched my entire account and can't find it, so ig it's lost media now 😭
Matt :
🩹 provides the BEST comfort
🦈 "i know hun, that thunder was pretty scary, wasn't it?" "yeah :(" "that's alright, dada's here now."
🫧 knows all your triggers/unsafe foods 'n textures
🩹 and does BACKBENDS to avoid them
🦈 "don' want sandwich :(" "oh no! dada's having a sandwich, little one is having mac and cheese. sound good?" "c: yeah!"
🫧 painfully shy? no worries, so is matt. he understands 🫶
Chris :
🥤chris....is loud
💫 "bein' too loud" "wha? oh, sorry hun!"
🤍 however, he does make the best boxed mac 'n cheese
🥤shy little? no worries! chris talks enough for the both of you
💫 constantly wiping your tears with his hoodie sleeve
🤍 "will a lollipop make things better?" ":( yeah"
Nick :
🌟 will ALWAYS be down to sit at home on bad sensory days
🗞️ always coming up with creative ways to bring his little out of their shell
🎥 "if only someone here loved bluey...." ":O i love bluey!"
🌟 best reassurance ever, "y'know i don't mind taking care of you, right?"
🗞️ can always IMMEDIATELY recognize when you're about to cry
🎥 "shhh, dada's here. let it out, i know baby..."
Nate :
🏒 unlike nick, he can NOT tell when you're about to cry and is always caught off guard
🌨 "oh! oh honey...shh, don't cry"
⛸ always tries making you laugh as his first response
🏒 lets you wear his hoodies on extremely tough days
🌨 "is that helping?" "mhm :c smells like dada :c"
⛸ he's got the spirit
Tara :
❤️ tara, bless her heart, did not realize how sensitive you were at first
🎞️ "baby, i was only gone five minutes!" ":c i'm sorry!" "oh no honey...don't be sorry, mama's sorry, mama should've let you know i was leaving"
🎵 cuddles !! with !! sugar !!
❤️ painfully shy? that's not a problem at all! just like chris, tara talks enough for the both of you!
🎞️ always holding onto her babies hand or hugging them :(
🎵 "mama's got you sweet girl/boy/little one"
Johnnie :
🦇 johnnie is a bit nervous when he realizes just how sensitive you are
🌒 because he's petrified of being the reason you cry
🐈⬛ "do you need a hug?" "mhm :(" "okay princess/prince, c'mere"
🦇 plays guitar/sings songs for you when your having a really bad day/night
🌒 "hollyw'od!" "we've already done that one five times, sweetheart." ":c" "okay okay, hollywood it is."
🐈⬛ ends up learning your triggers and does his best to avoid them
Jake :
♣️ oh jake, sweet jake...
🍒 he never INTENDS to make you cry
♠️ but with his loud personality and constant bouncing around? yeah...it ususally ends with
♣️ ":( 'oo loud" "dada's sorry baby...i didn't realize i was being so loud"
🍒 loves cracking jokes to make you smile
♠️ "there's the pretty smile!"
Carrington :
🧸 the best at making you laugh while your sad/crying
🍬 also loves just cradling you in his arms while you sit on his lap
🎧 "dada's got you"
🧸 human teddy bear so, snuggles are a must
🍬 learns your nonverbal cues when you don't feel like talking
🎧 "do we want....mac and cheese?" ":c" 'okay...what about...grilled cheese?" "c:" "grilled cheese it is!"
Sam :
🎥 the most reassuring man ever
👻 "sorry i got scared :(" "oh sweetheart, you don't have to apologize. everyone gets scared sometimes!"
💛 constantly lending his little an article of clothing for comfort
🎥 the BEST at tending to boo-boos
👻 speaking for you when your feeling shy
💛 "they're feeling a little shy right now, what's up?"
Colby :
👻 this man...THIIIISS MAN
⛓ the most protective cg imo
🦴 "what's scaring you hun? do we need to go home? does dada need to fight a ghost?"
👻 lets you play with his rings/necklaces as a distraction
⛓ wrapping his arms around you and assuring you he's got you :(
🦴 "tell dada's whats going on?"
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Wait a minute now hold on! Vampire Asmo makes the most sense to me out of everyone. He's the avatar of lust and what's most commonly known about vampires? Their bloodlust is usually the first thing one would think of. Like I already love to see the demons with the more "monstrous" attributes but this event? Flawless. This is purely me having an absolute thirst for demons being possessive and wanting to mark/scent their person up. 🤭
You're right—Asmodeus as the Avatar of Bloodlust is amazing. A little scary, though.
Vampire!ASMODEUS x gn!Reader, 1.1k words, nsfw, dark themes if you squint.
Content warnings: canon-typical vampire behaviour: possessiveness/jealousy, obsessive/unhinged thoughts, implied violence/murder, spicy towards the end.
more from the vampire!au
Vampire!Asmodeus whose aura is more alluring now, and it's stronger and more seductive than the strongest charm magic. He hopes he never has to use it on you.
Vampire!Asmodeus who falls even more in love with you because there's nothing more romantic than you willingly giving him your blood. He cries the first time he feeds from you because he loves you so much and you're so precious to him, and you taste so good...
Vampire!Asmodeus who is more sensitive to smell now than ever before. He loves your scent, but smelling others on you triggers possessive fury deep inside him. You should only smell like him.
Vampire!Asmodeus who is extremely clingy when you’re in public or around other vampires and demons. He’s not shy about being affectionate with you where others can see. He wants them to see how much he loves you. He isn’t shy about warning others to stay away from you if they get too close. His aura crackles with power and he growls, deep and menacing in his chest, at anyone that tries to touch you. It’s the only warning they’ll get.
(Vampire!Asmodeus who always knows if someone dared to approach you when he wasn’t around to scare them off. Your scent is tainted, and he gently coaxes the truth from you—you might not mention it if he doesn’t bring it up first. You shrug it off as silliness because everyone knows you’re together, and he hides his rage with fake smiles and gentle teasing. He waits until later, when you’re sated and fast asleep in his bed, before he goes hunting for vermin that should know their place.)
Vampire!Asmodeus who secretly likes taking you to public places where he can show off to everyone else that you’re his. When possessiveness simmers deep inside him, his emotions—his love for you, his lust for your body and your blood—amplifies tenfold. He's desperate for everything you can give him. Feeding from you and fucking you is so much sweeter when he’s overwhelmed with passion.
Vampire!Asmodeus who takes you to places like The Fall when he wants to indulge in a night of bloodlust and depravity with you. His hands roam your body and linger on your pulse points so he can feel your heartbeat beneath his fingertips. The heat of the dance floor causes your blood to pump faster and it enhances your delicious scent and taste even more.
Vampire!Asmodeus whose rumbling purr builds to a growl in his chest as crushes your lips together. He licks into your mouth and his fingernails dig into your hips when your tongue brushes against one of his fangs. His eyes blaze bright with possessive rage when he glares over your shoulder at the others watching nearby. He knows they're staring at you like a piece of meat, but they can’t have you because you’re his.
Vampire!Asmodeus who grinds his cock against you in search of friction because he wants you to know exactly how much you affect him. Bloodlust tinges the edge of his vision with red when you reach between your bodies and squeeze the hardened length against your hip.
(Vampire!Asmodeus who momentarily thinks about wiping that teasing smirk from your face by pushing you to your knees so he can choke you on his cock and paint your lips with his cum.)
Vampire!Asmodeus who can barely resist the urge to bite you now. He leads you off the dancefloor towards the private room he keeps on reserve for his use—he wants you so badly, he can hardly stand it—
Once you're alone, Vampire!Asmodeus rips your clothes to tatters as he backs you towards the bed and covers your naked body with his own. Your skin is so warm and glistens with sweat, and the sweet aroma of your blood and your arousal nearly makes him drool as he stares down at you.
Vampire!Asmodeus who is stunned by the love and lust reflected in your own eyes, and he wants you so badly but he won’t risk hurting you by rushing things. He murmurs his love and praise against your neck as his fingers tease between your legs and prepare you for his cock. He's so desperate for your blood on his tongue and your body clenching around his, but above all else, he needs to hear you say you love him too.
“You’re all mine, aren’t you?” he whines between open-mouthed kisses along your jaw. “You’re so beautiful and so perfect, I love you so much.”
His eyes meet yours when you cup his cheek so softly with your palm. “I love you too,” you say, trailing off into a high-pitched moan as his fingers scissor inside you and stretch you even more. You arch your back against his chest and roll your hips to try and fuck yourself on his fingers, but it’s not enough. “Please, I’m ready, I want you so badly—”
Vampire!Asmodeus who finally sinks his fangs into your neck at the same time he buries his cock deep inside you. His hips move in sync with the greedy, slurping pulls of blood he coaxes from your veins. He groans when you come first, your body tightening around his cock like the sweetest vice until he comes too.
Vampire!Asmodeus who licks the wounds on your neck to expedite their healing. His mouth is smeared with crimson and his eyes are glossy and unfocused. He groans when you pull him to your mouth for a sloppy, desperate kiss as pleasure surges through you.
(Vampire!Asmodeus who wonders if you like tasting your blood on his tongue after he's fed from you. Part of him wants to offer you his blood too—do you think about it sometimes, like he does?)
Vampire!Asmodeus who slides down your body because he’s still hungry for you. He bites into the soft, plush skin of your thighs and drinks while your hands tangle in his hair. He chases the taste of your blood with the cum and slick that coats your skin. He alternates drinking from your thighs and making you come with his mouth over and over until your voice is hoarse from screaming his name.
Vampire!Asmodeus who gathers you in his arms and curls around you protectively when you're ready to sleep. He licks his lips and hums happily at the delicious taste of your blood and cum that still coats his tongue. He traces the lingering bite marks on your neck and thighs as you drift off to sleep, the neat lines of puncture wounds arranged in shapes of the letter ‘A’.
Vampire!Asmodeus who loves you more than anything or anyone else, including himself.
Obey Me! Masterlist
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Blue Lock boys seeing your scars for the first time
Characters: Rin, Barou, Isagi, Tokimitsu, Zantetsu
Tags: gn!reader, established relationship, reader has a past of self-harm (cutting), fluff and comfort!!!
Only read if you're in the right mental space to confront yourself with this topic - stay safe!💟 Also, please don't request more of these. It's a sensitive and personal topic that I'll only write about if I feel like I'm in the right mental space (side note: I've been clean for almost 4 years:])
You're a few weeks into your relationship with your boyfriend, and while you've already talked a lot about deeper topics, something like self-harm never came up and you never found the right moment to tell him about your past with it. You weren't intentionally hiding it from him, but you knew you had to tell him at some point. Today you finally find a good moment for it...
As soon as you tell him about it, Rin is in denial. Even after you show him your scars, he keeps saying things like "No, you didn't do that" because he can't stand the thought of you hurting yourself. After a few minutes, he processed the new information and pulls you into a tight hug. He doesn't let go for minutes and keeps repeating how much he loves you and that if you ever get the urge to do something to yourself again, he'll be there for you until those thoughts are gone. "And you know I wouldn't love you any less if you ever hurt yourself again, right? But I'd do anything to prevent it from happening again."
Barou isn't sure about what to say. He just looks at you with a mix of shock and worry. He's afraid of saying something wrong that could hurt you in a moment like this - he knows he comes across as too harsh often - so he wants to let his actions speak instead. He looks down at your arms and gently pushes up your sleeves. The sight of your scars makes his heart ache, but it doesn't make him love you any less. This only makes him more overprotective over you than he already is. Barou carefully grabs your wrists and pulls your arms close to his face before he starts placing kisses all over your scars. "You're so strong... Those scars show the mental battles you went through. I'll make sure no battle will ever be bad enough to leave scars on your skin again."
Isagi gets worried immediately. He doesn't want to step over any boundaries, but he can't help but ask you a few questions about it. He doesn't force you to say anything you don't want to, but there are a few things he wants to know like for how long you've been clean, if you still get the urge to hurt yourself and what he can do to help if the urge returns. He politely asks if he can see your scars, even though it makes his heart hurt. He knows he'll get used to it at some point. It's a part of you he doesn't want to look away from. "Thank you so much for trusting me with this... You know you're still as beautiful to me as before, right? Your scars are a part of you, please never feel ashamed of them."
The moment you mention your past with self-harm, Tokimitsu gets tears in his eyes. He's really trying his best to not start bawling his eyes out, but when he gets the first glimpse of your scars, he can't hold his tears back anymore. He pulls you into a hug and starts apologizing over and over for crying because he doesn't want you to feel bad for your past. He refuses to let go of the hug and he also squeezes you a little too tight. He's just full of emotions and needs you this close to his body so he can process what you just told him. "S-sorry... It's just a lot to take in for me right now. But... I'm so proud of you for getting through this. You're so strong..."
Zantetsu gets extremely afraid of saying something stupid now. As much as he knows you don't mind his stupidity, he wants to avoid accidentally triggering you. He listens to everything you tell him about it and often nods to signal he's listening and understanding. Although, his sudden silence does worry you a little. When he gets to see your scars for the first time, he's speechless for a few moments. He feels like he has to say something now. He gets lost in his thoughts while trying to find the right words to say. You're already used to this, so you let him take his time until he feels confident enough to speak. But even after minutes, he can't manage to find the right words, so he pulls you into a long kiss and as you pull your faces away from each other, he looks into your eyes with the most loving expression you've ever seen on him. It tells you way more than words ever could.
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So how do autistic vampires work? Like we call know that your senses get really heightened when you're turned, but how badly would that affect autistic people who already have sensory issues?
I'm already really sensitive to light, sound, smell etc. to the point where I can hear electrical devices buzzing and kinda screeching? It's annoying as hell and can literally be painful so I can't even imagine how bad it would be for a newly turned vamp.
I remember there's a Castle audio vid where Celine comforts a pretty new vamp during a thunderstorm because it was so overwhelming for them, I'm not sure if Redacted has a similar video but both universes have established the whole heightened senses thing, right?
My biggest question is, could an autistic vampire have such a bad reaction to it that it triggers a bloodlust-like state?
During the inversion, Vincent told David that bloodlust wouldn't set in for a few days after Lovely's turning so does that mean bloodlust is something that always happens to new turns? From my memory, I'm pretty sure that's where Castle's vampires differ since bloodlust seems like a much more serious, finally ditch attempt for a starving vamp to save themselves.
Could an autistic vampire becoming extremely overstimulated cause bloodlust? Could textural issues cause them to hate the taste or texture of blood, leading them to unintentionally starve themselves to avoid further discomfort?
When non-autistic vamps adjust to their new life, we know their senses level out a bit and become more manageable, but would that happen for autistic vamps? Are their sensory issues completely levelled out and easier to block out, or would they just kinda return to how they were as a human and still deal with regular overstimulation for eternity?
I've always loved vampires and liked the idea of being one in these universes, but if heightened senses can literally drive autistic vamps to the brink of death... yeah I might pass on the whole 'eternal life' thing lmao
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Boundaries!
// pt: boundaries! //
Note: These are mostly for mutuals, but do apply to interactions.
Ula's Boundaries (link)
// pt: ula's boundaries (link on non-pt) //
Askbox
// pt: askbox //
We like asks! However we don't really appreciate chain mail, or asks that want us to send asks to others.
Please don't send in questions that are extremely personal.
We'd like if you could clarify when you want to responded to privately! If we don't know, we'll respond publicly.
We won't answer asks that pertain to donations / fundraisers because we aren't able to easily identify if the fundraiser is a scam or vetted. We don't want anyone to fall for scams!
We'd prefer not to receive gifts, but because we don't want to hurt anyone's feelings by accident. We appreciate the sentiment though <3
We do not make exceptions for these boundaries. We are sorry if this offends anyone but we are not going to risk us getting triggered.
Tagging
// pt: tagging //
Please clarify who you are tagging, whether it be Laura, Frankie or I.
We'd love to be tagged in 'tag your mutuals' games! (We can actually sometimes get jealous if we don't.. /lh)
Tagging is fine! However specific medianmates may have preferences.
I (Laura) would love to be tagged in Draculaura fan art, but please make it clear it's aimed at me and not Ula! Ula doesn't appreciate being tagged in posts about her source.
I swear we had had this in our boundaries already, but I suppose it got removed somehow. Anywho, please do not tag us in picrews unless you can make a bat. Our only exception is the yaeklore picrew, since they have a bat mask.
We like being tagged in posts with bats! We prefer microbats. We also like plushies.
Please don't tag Ula or I in stimboards. We think Frankie is fine with it though! She likes stimboards about monster high (but preferably not draculaura as that would upset Ula maybe, we don't know.)
Interactions
// pt: interactions //
Please don't ask us about eating habits, it's something we don't like discussing.
We would prefer not being sent labels and terms to identify with or as, unless you are a mutual and know us well. We do not like being given labels from those that we do not know.
Feel free to ask us about our plurality, but please don't make it too personal.
We like tone tags being used. Ula is extremely sensitive to tone, among other things, and will react badly if she feels threatened.
Please don't ask for our discord or Instagram unless you're a super close mutual! We don't tend to join servers, because we don't know what's safe.
Ula would prefer not to hear about ships containing her source counterpart, Draculaura. Same goes for Frankie. There are exceptions, but very few. We're all lesbian.
We will block you if we think you're purposely triggering Ula in a negative way. She's our anger holder and prosecutor.
This is always subject to change!
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Object of Affection (2)
Hey Velvet Nation! The person who commissioned Object of Affection, which I wrote a short while ago, asked for a sequel and here it is!
As before, this one is pretty heavy, even heavier the first, so please read the content warning carefully! The idea was for me to treat the reader exactly how I'd want to treat them with no concerns for anyone getting off on it except myself.
Warning:
The following artistic exploration of a hypothetical relationship between a dom and sub is very intense, and portrays extreme abuse that should never happen IRL, so please take the time to think about if that may be triggering for you before clicking through. It’s told in the second-person, which may make it worse.
Content warning for physical abuse, emotional abuse, non-con, drugging, unsanitary, gaslighting, isolation, and ableism in just about every way it's possible to be ableist short of slurs. Seriously, if you're sensitive to ableism especially, steer clear. There is some referenced misgendering kink directed at the reader, but not directly, and both the reader's AGAB and gender identity are kept ambiguous. There is a brief paragraph referencing ABDL themes.
Please keep yourself safe, your comfort matters. <3
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Mmm. Just like that. Stay absolutely still. Tight, aren’t they?
I think I like you like this. Don’t complain, now. Your limbs haven’t broken yet, have they? As long as you don’t put any undue stress on them, you’ll be fine. Just very, very sore. Now seriously, be still, or I’ll give your knee some undue stress with a golf club. And if it gets damaged punishing you, that’s your fault too, got it?
Heh. Do you have any idea how stupid you look? Stupider than usual, I mean. All tied up on a table in the living room, right between the couch and the TV so I can look past you while I watch the TV up above the fireplace. My little work of modern art.
You were an embarrassing mess last night on our double date, you know. Like always. The boy was way prettier than you, and not in a way you could take notes on. His facial structure, the bones or whatever, was just more attractive and pleasing to the eye than you’ll ever be. You’re always going to stay an ugly piece of garbage. No wonder his owner didn’t even ask about fucking you, huh? Not that I would have let her, since you are still my ugly piece of garbage, which has meaning even if it’s the one and only thing that that keeps me from cutting you open and throwing you away. That’s why I didn’t accept the offer to fuck her’s, because we’re monogamous, you and I, even if the only way we have sex is you watching me jerk off.
Careful. Don’t wobble, or you may fall off, and tied like you are you’ll definitely land wrong and snap something like a twig. That’d be funny, but do you have any idea how annoying it’d be for you to be disabled physically like you are mentally? I already have to tend to your every fucking need, your chores are the least you can do to pay me back and not just be a constant drain on my time and energy.
Oh, look at you blush, as though you still somehow have the capacity to feel embarrassed by how much you need me. Remember last night when they asked me all about you like you weren’t even there? It was fun watching you squirm when I told them how I go to the bathroom with you to wipe your ass because you’re too much of an empty-headed loser to do things like that by yourself. They were so shocked. I could see the sweat running down your face when they both finally looked at you and asked “Really?” like you’d said you’d seen a UFO. That was as close as you get to looking cute.
I like being in charge of those tiny aspects of your life though, though. I think they had a problem understanding what I got out of it, which is funny in and of itself. Like, do you know how much of an unlovable freak you must be for two separate people to be completely bewildered by what I saw in you? How I could possibly enjoy having a partner I have to spoon feed to keep them from hurting themselves?
Shut the fuck up, you know it’s your fault the forks cut your mouth up so often. It’s not like I sharpened them or something, that’d be insane. You just manage to fuck up sitting still and being fed.
But like I said, I like that. If you weren’t an unlovable freak someone else might love you, and you have no idea how much that would piss me off. They can find you pleasant as they like, but why should I have to share loving you with them? I’m still so angry about when you broke down last year having a crying fit over how much everyone but me hates you. I have NPD you little ableist bitch, why isn’t my love good enough, why do you need to horde it from other people too? You should be thrilled that our relationship is that closed off because it means a narcissist has you completely to themselves. You’re the perfect partner for me because you repulse everyone else who comes into contact with you, and it’s exactly because of selfish bullshit like this.
I guess I should be thankful for that. Listen, just because I enjoy all the ways you’re so loathsome doesn’t mean you shouldn’t feel bad about it. Don’t be proud of anything. Just be satisfied and content that your misery gives my heart a throbbing erection. I’ll compliment you for your failures when I feel like it.
For instance, not being able to feed yourself? That’s so...well, it’s not cute. It’s a burden on me and it should destroy every last speck of your self-worth, but that’s exactly what you need to understand as a good thing. The fact that you sit there and literally wet yourself from fear when I bring out the silverware every day is gross and irritating, but that you’re suffering a trauma response by doing something so gross and irritating – and shameful – is endearing as fuck.
Are you still moaning about having your arms and legs bent like that? You’re such a big baby. I should start treating you like that more, shouldn’t I? I haven’t let you wear anything helpful for dealing with you fucking up your pants on such a regular basis because I think it’s funnier when I make you make a mess, since, you know, you always have to clean it up yourself anyway, but maybe it’d be fitting watching a whiner like you waddle around in a big dorky diaper.
Ugh, don’t cringe at me like that. You know you’ll do whatever I want you to. You already wear clothes you hate. I don’t think I’d get much satisfaction out of dressing up a cis person in those ridiculous outfits, but I love seeing the dysphoria making your skin crawl, especially when we go out in public.
That reminds me, you’ve been doing good on picking your nose without me having to tell you to. Figures your one talent is showing everyone how gross you are.
Anyway, like I was saying…no, misgendering a cis person just doesn’t have the same ring to it. See, here’s the thing you need to understand, okay? I’m a trans woman, and as much as I love getting off on how stereotypically negative an example I am, I do just get those nice euphoric feelings when someone calls me by the right pronouns. I’m not transphobic. I’ve read all the science. It’s not just one of the many ways your brain is broken, gender identity is as valid as anything can be.
So imagine how thrilling it is to invalidate it, even knowing and fully believing that. If I were just a transphobe, what’s the fucking point? You give me a million chances to make fun of you for being deluded at best and a loathsome liar at worst. I don’t need to go to your gender for that. The exciting thing about dressing you in the wrong clothes, and making you wear the wrong pronouns pin, and writing your deadname on the wall in front of your cage where you have to stare at it…is that it hurts you. Your gender is as real as your bones, which means I can break it just like I can them, only screwing you over that way won’t make you a worthless invalid.
But that means I have to reinforce it, too. Can’t have you getting used to it. People in the closet can bury the pain, and so could you, if I let you. So I gender you correctly, most of the time, so that you and I are both fully aware I’m stabbing you with a knife when I don’t.
Fuck, it’s hot when you cry. You’re getting me hard on purpose, aren’t you? I’m trying to watch anime, weeb that I am despite still somehow being above you and owning your ass, and all you can think of is how much you wish my cock wasn’t still in my pants. Fine. This is what you want, right?
Go on, watch me, you little creep. Look at my hand going up and down my dick, stroking to the cute girls on the screen. Has it ever occurred to you how pathetic it is that staring while I masturbate to Japanese cartoons is your definition of sex? You’re so pathetic.
I’ve had this new idea though…we don’t even need to untie you.
No, we’re not going anywhere, but I like that you assume that every time your face is level with my rear. That’s a good kissass. Let me just take these pants off though and…yeah, okay, you get the idea. Shut up, I know I don’t have to grab your hair and force you between my cheeks like this, I like being unnecessarily violent, how fucking hard is that to understand?
With how hot it’s been lately, I’ve been sweating so much it feels like I’ve lost half my body wait just dripping off me. And I haven’t felt like shaving my body hair in fucking ages, so I’m just kinna covered in a carpet drenched with sweat. Seriously, have you ever seen a man this hairy? I’m a woman but sometimes when I’m feeling lazy you can barely see my skin for the slick, sweat-soaked hair covering me from the neck down.
Oh, fuck.
Yeah, lick bitch, just like that…it’s just like pussy, isn’t it?...I deserve to get eaten out like a girl...you make me feel so girly...
Ughhh...fuck...
Mmmhhh…you really are capable of providing a service once in awhile. Fuck though, I got it all over my hands again. Whatever, let wipe it off with your hair, that’s what it’s for. Remember when I got a big handful of that greasy hair of yours and jerked off with it? That was fucking disgusting, but hot too, so I don't see any reason to wash your hair more often.
Fucking hell, that was nice. Where do you get off wanting to be loved by other people, anyway? Can you imagine your old friends and family watching you lick a hairy asshole? If they didn’t hate you already, they would then.
But they do. Hate you already, I mean. They had to put up with you for over two decades since you were born, how couldn’t they? It’s infuriating that you still sometimes insist you remember being told you’re loved, as if you aren’t obviously just lying to yourself. Every time they seemed like they didn’t hate your guts was just them trying to get through the day with polite fiction. How could you think otherwise after I got them to record how they really felt about you? I really thought hearing your mother say you were an unwanted piece of shit that ruined her life would have had an effect, but I guess my effort to cure you of at least one of your delusions was a waste.
Did you think I faked that somehow? Like I could just clone people’s voices? Grow up. I should let you read more about the world to keep this silly sci-fi stuff from getting in your head, but you can’t handle that kinna information overload. You can barely even read a picture book.
You have me, though. You have me and always will, just like I’ll always have you, because you belong to me. You’re my property. Everything you do is because I want you to do it. Everything that happens to you is because I want it to happen to you. To even call you a “toy” would be accurate, but an understatement nonetheless. You’re my beloved. No one else could ever be my one and only, my partner.
I love you. Maybe I should say that more.
Aw, fuck. You’re going to get on my nerves later being able to do even less than usual, but I think I want to see you land wrong anyway. I’m going to kick the table over and see what happens, and if you disappoint me I’ll just have to get the sand wedge after all, so try to make it good.
Ready or not…
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Jay from Ninjago romantic concept!
Jay is definitely such a softy, I love him lol- Keep in mind I'm still not really far into the first series but I hope since this is a general concept (no specific season) that I get his character right. Feel free to add someting if what I did wasn't accurate, I did the research I could. I'm taking my time with the series but I think I know enough about him to write something :)
Hope you like it! Aged up as usual, this series needs more content.
Yandere! Jay Walker Concept
Pairing: Romantic
Possible Trigger Warnings: Gender-Neutral Darling, Stalking, Self-Destructive behavior, Obsession, Invasion of privacy implied, Manipulation, Deception, Dubious if you're in a relationship or not at times, Clingy behavior, Paranoia, Mental breakdowns, Overprotective behavior, Isolation mentioned, Guilt tripping, Kidnapping mention, Delusional behavior, Mind break, Murder mention, Violence.
Jay, out of all the ninja, is the one most likely to be completely lovestruck with his darling.
Sure, Kai is flirtatious and a romantic, but Jay is very emotional about his crush.
He's less straight-forward and often likes to watch his crush from afar.
Almost everyone knows he has a crush, however.
No one said he was good at hiding his feelings.
Jay's darling could be minding their own business or simply treat him as a friend...
Meanwhile Jay is feeling his heart thump rhythmically and he's completely out of it.
His obsession consumes him quickly.
Jay is one of those people who'd do anything if it meant love.
He can come off as desperate at times when around other people if it meant getting your attention.
Jay easily gets drunk off your affection/attention.
Safe to say the blue ninja is one of the most sensitive and soft of the yanderes here.
Which is both helpful... and a pain.
Jay would be Obsessive, Clingy, Manipulative, Protective, Loving, Delusional, and a bit Unstable.
Jay would do just about anything to win over your attention.
This is a trait shared among the ninja but Jay certainly has it to... extreme measures.
For example, Kai and maybe Cole/Lloyd like to impress you but nothing that would hurt themselves.
Jay doesn't care if he bleeds for you, he'll do anything.
The blue ninja is definitely one of the more obsessive ones towards you as his darling.
He isn't flirty yet he writes about you in journals, trains in front of you, and tries the classic form of giving gifts for your adoration.
If anything he's mostly a stalker, good at it too due to being a ninja.
The others are concerned about this behavior.
They try to confront him but he denies all of it.
He's looking out for you.
In front of you he's nervous and stumbling on his words.
He's trying to boast to you but he's so anxious.
Your smile alone just about makes him melt.
Then there's when he stalks you.
Jay is more focused on you than any video game he's ever played.
It's... scary.
You have no idea he does it, either.
Far as you know Jay is the cute blue ninja who most likely has a crush on you.
Jay is incredibly affectionate.
He always wants to be 'hands on'.
Once he has the ability to he will crave physical contact.
Hugs, cuddles, kisses, hand holding, everything.
He melts into all of it and never wants to leave your warmth.
You'll be sitting down on the couch or something, when no one's around Jay sneaks in.
Next thing you know your eyes are pried from the TV, Jay holding your hand and guiding his lips to yours.
He loves you so much.
He never wants you to let him go, he'd rather die in your arms.
Jay can be manipulative.
Nothing like Lord Garmadon sinister....
He just does a lot of guilt tripping.
You can barely part from each other without Jay clinging to you, begging to stay a little longer.
He makes you feel bad...
Which may make you stay...
Which he likes.
Jay, like all of the ninja, is incredibly protective.
He doesn't want anything happening to you.
The idea of you getting hurt makes the already emotional ninja lock up and... break.
The ninja bounces the idea of isolating you around in his mind at times.
Would his parents take good care of you?
Should he put you somewhere alone?
Maybe he should just not leave you....
Jay is very loving and loyal, willing to do anything to see you smile.
If you fight he plays the victim card at times just to get you go stay.
He is a master at manipulating emotions.
He is delusional, before you ever get together (if you even do) he's convinced you adore him like he does you.
You two already adore each other!
You must!
He just needs to introduce the spark.
Under extreme stress, Jay gets mental breakdowns.
If you tried to leave/got injured Jay may not be able to handle it.
He'd fall into a depression, get moody, and he may even snap and actually kidnap you.
After that he's just not the same.
In this state Jay may even kill.
Normally he doesn't, he thinks of hurting others, but no murder.
With his sanity gone... well there's no telling what he may do.
Normally he's docile until the moment you're mentioned.
Then he's jumpy and aggressive.
Like a feral animal.
Overall, Jay is a yandere who's willing to do anything for his darling and is very centered around his emotions.
This can make him a handful at times...
Yet if you truly love him, he'll only be dedicated and loyal to his love.
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#COTHARACH: an affiliated flayn rp blog, loved and cherished by mik (20, they/them, gmt +8). a little fish swimming through the tides of a new world. rules and portrayal notes may be found under the cut!
RULES
ON AFFILIATION: this blog is affiliated with the officers academy. as such, personal blogs and rp blogs not affiliated with toa will be softblocked or blocked.
ON SHIPPING: i won't prioritize it but i am open to shipping with chemistry and ooc familiarity. my other caveats are that i am NOT open to shipping with non-students or non-minors and that i would like for things to be plotted out.
ON FORMATTING: i use small text with icons in my writing. if you have any issues with readability or would like me to change my format, please let me know! as for my personal preference: i would prefer it if my partners could use small text in their replies so i can read it more easily <3
ON OOC CONTACT: as tumblr's IMs have been acting up recently (for me at least) i prefer discord dms. my username is emblian! i am part of toa's discord server so you may also ping me there. i will let you all know now that, while i have grown more comfortable speaking with others ooc, i am still prone to bouts of anxiety and may pull back at any given moment. please don't take this personally! i may just need some space and time to get myself together.
ON REPLIES: my schedule has gotten considerably less free since i'm starting my semester so expect me to take anywhere from a week to a month to reply. i'll do my best to avoid having my partners wait for too long, of course, but i just want to be clear just in case you think i might be ghosting you or forgetting our thread. though that's not out of the question—i'm also a pretty forgetful person, so feel free to ping me if you feel that may be the case!
ON TRIGGER WARNINGS: i will use general trigger warnings for things such as gore, extreme violence, suicide, and other topics that i deem sensitive enough to warrant it. i will be using "tw // (word)" as a tag. if you have any triggers you'd like me to tag, please feel free to let me know through a dm. i also tag spoilers under "spoilers" but... for a series this old, i don't know what else there is to spoil JDFNLKDSJFG
ON OTHER FIRE EMBLEM GAMES: i am most familiar with three houses, thracia, heroes, and awakening but have a general grasp on most of the other games. it can only take me so far, though. for games/characters i'm not too familiar with, i hope you don't mind if i ask questions!
PORTRAYAL NOTES ( NOT SPOILER FREE) (IT'S BEEN FIVE YEARS)
it has been 3 years since flayn was last here, so i understand that it may be confusing to have her suddenly drop in with all of the progress she's made. the explanation i have (detailed more in this post) is that she has been on a holy mission around fodlan this whole time.
my interpretation is based mainly on her in academy phase, once you've recruited her. so you can assume she has already been kidnapped and rescued and all that jazz.
three hopes revealed to us that flayn is prone to overexertion due to her actions in the war. this was something missing from my old interpretation that i'll be integrating into things i see fit.
people who know seteth may also be familiar with flayn; students of the blue lion house should also be familiar with her (and she will be similarly familiar with them) so you're free to skip the pleasantries and go straight to action. for ease of interaction, i assume that our muses have been introduced to one another in mission threads or settings that are official school business (i.e. an assignment), but do let me know if you prefer otherwise.
flayn is a nabatean, and while fellow dragonkin (or even particularly nosy humanfolk) may sense or suspect something up with her identity, it's a fact that won't be explicitly known by people who aren't seteth or rhea. so even if you and i know who she really is, your muse won't. having her reveal this to other people is not out of the question, but will take a long time and lots of trust.
similarly, her identity as seteth's daughter should be secret to everyone except for her, seteth, rhea, and other nabateans. so your muse wouldn't know the true nature of her familial relationship with seteth unless she says so (but this is something i feel she has less reason to reveal, as it implicates seteth too)
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Good evening ! Can I request a headcanon for Russia where his s/o is hypersensitive ?
Thank you in advance !
(HWS Russia x Reader) Hypersensitive S/O!
(Gender Neutral) Headcanons ~ A/N anon u have no idea how many times i mispelled sensitive while writign this. but ill let u know now. it was every single time.
Trigger Warning: None, just fluff!
- Here's the thing. Ivan is incredibly loving and affectionate. He cares for you more than he has ever cared for anything and is not afraid to tell you. But, he also has the tact of a toddler who just woke up from a nap.
- Considering how isolated he has always been, he also has terrible situational awareness. Unless his S/O is literally sobbing, he has no idea they're upset. Sometimes even when you tell him directly, he'll dismiss it as a joke or an exaggeration.
“Don't be silly, Y/N! It surely didn't mean anything. Simply forget about i- wait, why are you looking all mad now?“
- But the more he gets to know you, and the more he gets to see what happens when you take this personally, he gets better at recognizing your feelings.
- In social settings, it'll still be hard for him to tell when you were hurt by something, but he'll listen more when you try to talk to him about it.
- He would never want you to be upset! No, no, never! He has nightmares where you hate him, so he's very sensitive to how your emotions can flip on a dime. But... he'd be lying if he didn't say he was frustrated by it sometimes.
- Not because of you, really though. He would never blame you for getting ”“irrationally”“ upset about something. But... he just really doesn't understand. He doesn't have a thick skin per se, but subtle digs (and just... blatant digs) that hurt you go completely over his head. Sometimes he just wishes you two could be more on the same page, that's all.
”Moya kroshka, what's wrong?... w-what so wrong with that? Weren't they simply... being polite?“ He pauses as you explain, “Oh... wow. I would have never realized that was what that meant. Some people have been very rude to me, then.“
- (He does get pretty sensitive too sometimes! It's not that he can't relate, but his over-emotionality comes out of nowhere, compared to your constant sensitivity. Plus, you know he has a horrible memory when it comes to his emotions.)
- Despite all of that, he is always willing to change himself for you. If he's too blunt, he'll make sure to always think before speaking for you. If he's too overbearing, he'll give you space. Even though he doesn't really know how to deal with an over-sensitive S/O... he'll try his best.
- One thing that he can always do for you is just to be a shoulder to cry on. You're never too much for him. All you have to do is tug on his shirt a little bit, and in a minute you'll be cuddled up to him, sobbing about everything that happened that day.
”Do you want me to kill that person for you?“ ”No?“ ”Please let me kill that person for you.“
- Seriously, once you show him how truly upset you are, he is already taking your side before you explain. No matter what. And he is taking your side to the extreme. Whatever is upsetting you has to die, no matter what it did.
- He, unfortunately, does not understand how that can be just as upsetting.
- Just tell him to stop. Once he sees that he's upsetting you, he'll stop immediately (No promises about what he'll do once you're asleep, though.)
- So, a hypersensitive S/O with him would be a mixed bag. On one hand, he'd never invalidate you or let you suffer. But on the other hand, he never learned where to stop and where to start.
- But all that matters is that he would love a sensitive S/O just as much as a stoic one. He's there to comfort you and take care of you, regardless of how you act.
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beware of swimmingbreadshark/toona-fish
i hate that i have to make a post like this, i don't want any drama in this fandom, but this feels very important
even if you don't feel comfortable reading this, please reblog to spread awareness
please don't go and harass this user or anyone who's associated with them. just block and move on.
trigger warning (all illustrated only): gore fetishization, necrophilia, brief mentions of animal death, brief mentions of rape
i don't know how to begin a post like this. swimmingbreadshark (further referred to as "tasha" because that is its name) is certainly a user on this website. it also has a homestar runner blog by the name of toona-fish. considering i've blocked it i don't know how significant it is but i'll post this anyways because it's important.
i guess i'll just cut to the chase: tasha draws gore for sexual reasons, and on at least two occasions has drawn art depicting necrophilia. pretty much all of it can be found on its newgrounds sadostar (yeah great fucking name), though much of it is locked behind an adult rating. its description sums it up pretty aptly.
i won't be showing any of the actual drawings in this post.
since its tumblr and newgrounds don't link to each other and it never posts them on another website at the same time, i can't exactly prove that it's the same person (aside from both accounts using the same name and pronouns and having the same art style) but i will try my best
discord user named tasha posts this drawing in a discord server for another user named yuki. this same drawing is then posted on the tumblr blog toona-fish (also run by a tasha) and it is reblogged by hooray4dolphins (it doesn't say anywhere on the blog but yuki is one of my friends and i know full well that it's faer blog)
therefore, it seems rational to assume that tasha on discord and tasha on the blog toona-fish are the same person
this same tasha on discord links back to the newgrounds profile, and has also posted several drawings on the server that match up with pictures posted only on the newgrounds profile.
this image was posted on july 29th and the description pretty aptly describes the contents of it, though i won't be showing it in this post.
on the same day, the account on newgrounds posts the same image titled "take out the dog". you can double check this for yourself by visiting the profile (but please don't if you're sensitive to gore or animal death). hopefully though the tags are enough to tell you that they're the same.
so, it can be assumed that either the tasha on discord is extremely dedicated to impersonating this random person, or it's the same person behind both sadostar on newgrounds and swimmingbreadshark/toona-fish on tumblr.
here's proof of the necrophilia art, once again not showing the image. it also mentions rape so there's that. i won't be going into a lot of detail here because i've already made my point.
i heavily encourage you to block both swimmingbreadshark and toona-fish from viewing your account. i believe i've proven beyond a shadow of a doubt that these are the same person. thank you for reading, hopefully this was comprehensible enough, i've never done a post like this before and i intend to not do one ever again.
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okay so like. i saw your d20 discussion and i feel like it’d help to have some context on how it works in production! when a company professionally puts a trigger warning, they can’t make those with ‘middle ground’ as the base. think of it like speed limits. they have to start at 0-10 mph. just because 40 mph is slow compared to someone who regularly takes highways, doesn’t mean they don’t put up the speed limit. 40 mph is still enough that if the car hits something or someone, (i.e. sets off a trigger) it can do serious damage. so yeah, an semi-realistic opened up animal carcass to the average person has to be marked as HEAVY body horror. even made of foam? thats still a graphic image of a corpse. they’re not thinking about someone who is more casually used to seeing that level of gore, they have to think of the levels for the person it would actually trigger.
I am a production professional, and someone who has talked an extensive amount about warnings and content warnings, both the benefits and the failings in many people's approaches to standardizing them. I already know this.
As I said, I am complaining as a Me Issue and I am not actually criticizing or saying there is anything wrong with the processes, I am saying—as I stated twice in the post—that this is a Me Thing.
On top of that, most of my post and discussion isn't specifically about the official content warnings in the description, but rather the marketing and commentary and coy warnings (in the standard sense of the word) on Twitter building hype by constantly posting comments and videos of reactions of the cast (Erika running out of the room, discussions of how Much it is, adding in the ick reactions in the episode preview). These are not the "content warnings" — which are not the focus of my post or discussion — but are part of the marketing and tone-setting. This is about me complaining about myself as someone who ended up with certain expectations from all that due to that level of focus and was disappointed. Which is a me issue, and I'm just whining about it.
It's not about whether they're overtagging in the official warnings (bc I don't think they were incorrect at all to warn for the gore), it's more about the focus the concept got in other materials that aren't the warnings and the ways that they talked about it and my general musings about what expectations that ultimately sets in terms of genre and content that it isn't actually necessarily matching up on—for me—and how this has been disappointing it's happened in the past too.
But, while on the topic, I do think trailer and the general setting of the tone going INTO the series failed to prepare the audience in terms of expected content, which is also important and should work in tandem with content warnings to help set expectations. I've seen a lot of people say that they expected more Redwall—and that does not prepare anyone for semi-realistic animal guts on the table in episode two, not even WITH the proper content warnings.
I mean, I have a whole thing about precision in content warnings and levels and the ways that the way some content warnings either official and fannish fail even when they are beneficials in other avenues, but that's technically a tangent since my post wasn't actually about content warnings but about general marketing and ambient production commentary.
I also know you're trying to be helpful, but I find it EXTREMELY condescending that you felt the need to explain how warnings work by analogizing it into speed limits instead of just saying that they're tagging for the most sensitive hypothetical person.
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I just want to pick up a fic where harry isn't needlessly cruel to draco in an attempt to make him worthy of any love because of past canonical events. Especially when draco is painstakingly written to have worked so, so hard to change?I am so tired. And ridiculously triggered because you CAN'T filter these out 😔🙏... How do i refine my reading experience? There are no tags for this. The scenes just lie buried in fics. And i have spent so much TIME getting through long fics only for draco to be treated so poorly. It's such a common occurence! Or harry doing something really fucked up without consequence and draco being so accepting because he feels guilt. Like a casual use of veritaserum and then asking really invasive questions outside of what they agreed to be asking each other in what was supposed to be a safe space for the both of them. Or harry just sometimes casually being violent or angry in a way not necessarily part of the narrative... it's just something he does?
I'm not averse to harry with anger and trauma, this is why Balance, Imperfect, Heal Thyself, and A Sword Laid Aside are such treasured reads to me. It's just that they make sense...
So much of the fandom's fics will have something like this... like a really crude violation of draco's boundaries in popularly "wholesome" fics as a stepping stone for the romance. As them getting to know each other? But it really isn't that though... is it.I'm sorry, it's just NOT my thing. I don't know how to filter such things out. How do i keep a respectful distance away from such fics?
I respect the catharsis people find and seek with such scenes and pieces!! They're perfectly valid. I used to be just fine with such a relationship dynamic because they are undeniably good reads. And again, cathartic to see draco on the other end of the stick. But life just happens and somethings i can't enjoy anymore. I just don't know how I'm supposed to navigate my way around them.
Do you have authors that write these two with a more balanced perspective? Or maybe fics that deal with their hurt and pain and trauma with consideration but doesn't end up feeling like either harry or draco have to hurt the other more?
Also, l think you're one hell of an archivist and librarian when it comes to fics. Do you have any tips on how i can find the stories for me and peacefully navigate the ocean of fiction within the drarry tag?
Hi anon! I think I’ve received a shorter version of this ask a while ago but can’t for the life of me find my response so I’m not sure if I’ve already done a specific rec list for you. I love those long fics you mentioned, they all have excellent character arcs.
I totally understand where you’re coming from because I share the sentiment - and I’m pretty sure I know which fic you’re referring to re: the invasive Veritaserum scene. I’m sorry you’re having a rough time trying to filter those scenes out. As you said, they’re buried deep within the fics and to be honest I don’t think there’s an easy way to tag them, because characterization is very subjective and creators might see this topic differently. I might not come off as someone picky because I read and rec lots of stuff but I’m particularly sensitive when it comes to emotional imbalance in fic - I don’t enjoy characters being mean for the sake of it or taking advantage of another character written as meek/pitiful, it just leaves a bad taste in my mouth so I try to avoid those if I can. Now I think about it, this might be one of the reasons why I’ve shifted away from long “redemption arc” fics and have been reading more “friends to lovers” and shorts recently, as I find them more emotionally satisfying. Hmm 🤔
Unfortunately I can’t offer any tips in terms of tag filtering - I think that would be extremely difficult and frustrating, especially if you find it triggering. If I were in your shoes I’d solely rely on rec lists made by people in whom I trust and crated within those parameters. Or just avoid the redemption arc altogether and focus on fics where they’re already in friendly terms? I wish I could help more because even a rec list would eventually end and chances are you’ve already read all the ones I have in mind. Let’s see if my followers have any interesting tips that might be helpful in this situation!
PS: some author suggestions I can think off the top of my head are firethesound, tackytiger, blamebrampton, Writcraft, thestarryknight, bixgirl, astolat, Omi_Ohmy, aibidil, shiftylinguini
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what do you plan on doing for the fic, if you're okay with sharing? i really want to read your writing, but im afraid of triggering myself on accident!
Don't worry, I don't think there's gonna be much of anything in the fic that may be exceptionally triggering to look out for! However, if something sensitive does come up in a chapter I'll be sure to tag it before the chapter in an author's note!
At the moment, all I can really think of is that like, detailed descriptions of extreme violence and gore will be included, it is madness after all lmao, so I'd imagine most of y'all are already chill with that. I'll also be including some graphic depictions of medical scenes and surgery and shit since like, yanno, Doc is gonna be prominent throughout this so I guess that's something to keep in mind lol
I will be touching on stuff like parental loss/death, as that's part of Bank's backstory, and there will be a lot of discussions and explorations of parent child relationships that aren't 100% healthy, since that's the point of the fic. Absolutely nothing abusive or horrible is going on, it's just that there's some emotional disconnect and distance between Hank and Bank and the journey to fix that is the main focus of this fic! So that means stuff like tense moments and arguments and stuff related to that will appear occasionally throughout the story, but I will warn about it before the chapter starts, and I promise you, it's not going to teeter into anything that would actually be classified as abusive. Just normal shit with growing up yknow
And like, who knows, at certain points I might point attention to some character's personal struggles when it comes to stuff like backstory and shit, and for some characters that are going to be prominent, some things from their backstory will probably be sensitive for some people. Shank in particular, since he's unfortunately suffered from sexual abuse, BUT, at the moment, I don't have any plans to make mention of anything like that. IF I do, and this is a BIG if, I promise I will put a content warning, and I will not be divulging too much about it, nor is it going to be a prominent focus, and I will do my absolute damndest to stay respectful while discussing it.
Additionally, you have absolutely nothing to fear when it comes to triggering events that COULD pop up in a story. You won't be seeing any actually fucked up shit happening in this, the furthest it'll go will be maybe a hostage or torture situation, but it'll be the usual madness kind of deal. Nothing serious, I'm not that kind of writer.
I know a lot of fanfic I've read will sometimes drop some FUCKED shit on the reader out of nowhere for no reason and I'm EXTREMELY opposed to just doing that without warning or any valid reason to include it in the text, and I don't have any reason to include anything in that category within this, so I'm not gonna. I promise you, you've probably got nothing to worry about!
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It's Friday the 13th! Here's a list of 13 of my favorite scary books.
(If you have any particular triggers you're concerned about, feel free to send me a message about any of these! Please do not risk putting yourself in a bad place! I never mind giving a heads up on this kind of thing.)
General trigger warnings: sexual content, pedophilia, rape/sexual assault, extreme violence, deaths of children, deaths of animals, physical abuse, pregnancy, gore.
1. Let's deal with the reigning monarch first - Stephen King. I'll just let him have one entry for several books, since the guy has written 18 million.
1a. It. I read It, and then immediately read it again, for the first time when I was 12 years old. I carried the book around like a Bible. Not only is it truly scary as hell (the history, the deaths of Edward Corcoran and Patrick Hockstetter, and overall the idea that some things, no matter how far you run, you cannot escape - only try desperately, again, to destroy), it also has some of King's most solid characters, and an ending that isn't a total crap-out. He couldn't write great female characters then or now, but Beverly is far from his worst. And there is that scene near the end, but it's brief and easy enough to skip. 1,200 pages of story managed to work when I was a kid, and they still work now, even looking at the whole differently.
1b. Any of King's short story anthologies. I'd say my favorites are Night Shift, Nightmares and Dreamscapes, and Everything's Eventual, but they're all pretty great. The guy really shines in short form. And I dare you to read "The Jaunt" and not feel at least a little freaked out at the end.
1c. Different Seasons - the stories are far less supernatural, and it works. The four novellas are all tight, and all very different. Apt Pupil is one of the creepiest things I've ever read, and there's nary a ghost or beastie to be found.
1d. Christine, Pet Sematary, Salem's Lot, Desperation/The Regulators - the opposite of the above. These are pure supernatural terror, and a hell of a lot of fun. If Different Seasons is the drama looking for award nominations, these are the slasher flicks you watch with your friends while screaming at the characters and tossing popcorn at the screen. (Cujo's another one, but since it's rabies, it's a little more real-world.)
2. Let the Right One In, John Ajvide Lindqvist - an absolutely terrifying book where the scariest thing is not the vampire. Oscar and Eli are one of the sweetest platonic love stories I've ever read, and the bad guys absolutely get what's coming to them. It's a bleak look at suburban childhood - and desperation for something more.
3. In the Miso Soup, Ryu Murakami - this book sets you up for an uncomfortable time, and only gets worse. Short, tight, and terrifying. Murakami is more well-known for Audition, but I found this one far more disturbing. His stuff generally is not for those with sensitive stomachs.
4. Battle Royale, Koushon Takami - the movie is good. The book is better. Once you get past the slightly rocky translation, this one's going to have your adrenaline going from the very beginning. There's not going to be any Hunger Games-esque changing of rules: of 42 students, only one can survive. (I do not recommend the manga. It's mostly torture porn - sometimes literally. It's more disgusting than frightening, and while that doesn't automatically make me dislike a book - see just above this one! - I felt here that it was an unnecessary addition that actually draws away from the horror of kids forced to kill one another in favor of shock value.)
5. Ghost Story, Peter Straub - if there's ever been a horror writer who could easily have made the jump to awards-winning literary fiction, it was probably Peter Straub. Don't expect easy answers or easier scares here. Ghost Story is a very, very slow burn, where even as answers start to appear, so does a creeping fear you never even noticed until it already has you in its grip.
6. The Ritual, Adam Nevill - okay, I'm one of those who doesn't like the weird stuff that pops up near the end (you'll know it if you get to it), but the first 2/3 of the book? Holy shit, good luck turning the lights off before bed. It's rare that a book terrifies me. This one did. In the best way. Too bad about that last bit, which I mostly find ridiculous. 🤷♀️
7. The Passage, Justin Cronin - another contender for being closer to literary fiction with a veneer of scare. The first part is tighter than the end (and this is only the first part of a trilogy), but the whole is excellent, and the level of character development is as deep as any I've found in horror. When you feel sorrow and kinship even for the monsters (both human and otherwise), you're in good hands. Or bad ones, I suppose! I've read this one, like It, several times despite the extreme length, and it's always a ride.
8. Books of Blood, Clive Barker - short stories from a guy who not only never pulls punches, he'll start hitting harder just when you think you've gotten used to the pain. It has a story called "Midnight Meat Train," for god's sake! Just give it a go. This is pure horror, and you'll find both hardcore splatter and intelligent presentation.
9. The Final Girls Support Group, Grady Hendrix - a lot of fans of Hendrix actually dislike this one, but I found it a ton of fun, even if I also wanted to smack basically all the characters. 😅 It's just dumb fun jumping off of the same dumb fun as the movies that gave us the concept of final girls. If you ever wondered how Laurie or Nancy did after the end of their endless franchises, give this one a go. (If those names mean nothing to you, try Horrorstör instead!)
10. 20th Century Ghosts/Full Throttle/Strange Weather, Joe Hill - like his rather well-known dad, Joe Hill (legally Mr. Joseph Hillstrom King) has the horror gene, and it manifests best in his shorter work. His novels are good, but his quick-punch short stories and novellas are better. (Bonus points that in one story in Strange Weather, his main character is a butch lesbian, and while he clearly tries hard, it's... well. Let's say "a valiant attempt.") If you saw The Black Phone, it's based on one of his stories. (I hear Locke and Key, his comic series, is also amazing, but I haven't read it.)
11. Swan Song, Robert McCammon - Robert McCammon has never gotten much attention outside of horror circles, and I genuinely don't know why! Like Peter Straub and Justin Cronin, McCammon's stuff is more akin to literary fiction than "paperbacks from hell." This one is a take on apocalypse, and it does it amazingly. Many people cite The Stand as one of their favorite Stephen King novels, but I think McCammon did the same idea much, much better. Give it a go! His other books are excellent, too.
12. The Book of Accidents, Chuck Wendig - I went into this one blind, and loved it. It was creepy, the characters are interesting, and it honestly presented twists I never saw coming. Many Wendig fans say Wanderers (and its recent sequel) are better, but I haven't read them yet. They're on my list for this year!
13. The Gone series, Michael Grant (6 volumes, with another 3 in a sequel series) - these are YA, but they hit like a truck. What begins as a veneer of weirdness just gets crazier, bloodier, and darker. It's a quick read, and I swear, once I got past what initially seems like a snooze-fest main character and "meh" plot in the first book, I didn't put them down until I'd finished them all. These books are dark. Grant is also excellent at writing characters often reduced to stereotypes in horror (including female and LGBT+ characters). (As an aside, he [uncredited] helped write the Animorphs books with his wife, so if you liked those, you'll probably enjoy the equally well-developed-but-hard-hitting material in Gone. He and Katherine Applegate are also the parents of a transgender woman that they have fully accepted as a daughter instead of a son, and are vocal advocates of trans rights, as well as the Black Lives Matter movement. Solid people I very much admire!)
Thirteen seems the appropriate number to end on, but if you're looking for more, a few additional names you might seek out: Natsuo Kirino, Scott Thomas, Dan Simmons, Stephen Graham Jones, Nick Cutter*, Otsuichi, Poppy Z. Brite*, Ronald Malfi, Jason Pargin, Shaun Hutson*, Lee Mountford*, Jack Ketchum*, John Saul, Kelly Link, Ramsey Campbell, Alma Katsu, Katherine Dunn, Lee Mandelo, Paul Tremblay, Gretchen Felker-Martin*, Shirley Jackson, Max Brooks, Graham Masterton, Jeff Strand, Lisa Tuttle, Tim Lebbon, James Herbert, Josh Malerman, Catriona Ward, Richard Chizmar, Kealan Patrick Burke, Brian James Freeman, Bentley Little, Simon Clark, William Peter Blatty, Norman Partridge. Also check out the publications of Cemetery Dance and Valancourt Books!
*Extreme content warning
I will not and will never insult your intelligence by recommending Dean Koontz.
Happy chills! 😁
(And if you ever want personalized recommendations based on what scares you - or not! - drop me a message!)
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How does one deal/ handle with the death of a friendship? I've just recently lost a close dear friend of almost seven years by pushing her away to the point of her blowing up on me one day, and me taking that in personally/ her words. I allow things to affect me pretty quickly, and deeply. I'm missing her like mad, yet I don't know if she will ever forgive me for blocking her/ ignoring her on everything. She has not however tried to get in contact with me. With this being an online friendship, I should have said to you already. Sorry if this triggers yourself, or anyone else/ or bothers you. It's just, should I try to get her back into my life? She is over the age of 50, and has many health issues. I miss her, please, any advice would help from you/ your own followers. Thankyou for taking the time to read this. Have a nice day, and take care of yourself today.
that's a big question that depends on the nature of the relationship and the ending! i want to get into the other details of your ask first.
what were the reasons as to why you were pushing her away? you aren't responsible for someone else's reactions. her response is her choice, she didn't need to blow up, she could have expressed her feelings in a calm manner, distanced herself, etc. i especially want to say that a 50 year old adult conducting themselves this way is extremely questionable.
if you have the capacity to feel things deeply then that is how you experience things, disallowing yourself from feeling things to the extent that you're able would be to repress your sensitivity. there's nothing wrong with your sensitivity.
are you missing her and who she is or are you feeling the compulsion to close the gap between you because it's uncomfortable to be uncertain how she feels about you/be at peace while she might be mad at you?
why did you block and ignore her? what did she do? i feel like that's a pretty substantial part of this.
again do you want her to forgive you because you want to cultivate/and feel capable and realistic in the idea of cultivating a healthy relation with this person, or because it's uncomfortable to not be forgiven?
you don't need to worry and take responsibility for how i may receive this, trust that if i don't feel comfortable with something i won't engage with it.
it sounds to me like this was a very tumultuous, drama-filled and painful relationship. if i'm right the question is do you want that type of relationship in your life? does it fulfill and nourish you?
you mention that she's over the age of 50, and i want to note that this degree of drama with a middle aged person isn't showcasing her as a very stable or safe individual. i'm curious too, how old are you? if there's a significant age gap then that makes me even more inclined to call her unsafe.
you also mention her health issues, why? it makes me feel as if there might be a sense of protectiveness/care/obligation from your side, and if that's the case i want to emphasize that it is not your responsibility to neglect your own emotional needs to be there for someone else. at all. and not only is it not your responsibility, but it can be outright harmful to yourself.
for your question on handling the death of a friendship, particularly of this nature: if it has died, let it be dead. don't try to revive it, to breathe life into something that is rotten. let it be done. allow yourself to grieve, but know that, especially for toxic relationships, the grief does not indicate that you've made a mistake or that you need this person back, simply that something has changed in a major way. it is okay to grieve and to be sad and to miss someone; and also work towards being okay without them 🪞🕊️
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You're more amazing than undies
Preview of a kinky villain-vs-hero scenario maker where I haven't really gotten to much of the kink part yet and I might not finish it because I mainly wanted to play around with the idea of having a few randomly-selected parts of the scenario to base your choices around and that part's done already. I could probably pivot into a pure sfw version instead
Kinky Supervillain Scenario Maker
You're going to become a kinky supervillain, with the goal of defeating your hero nemesis and subjecting them to kinky torment! First, create your nemesis by rolling a six-sided die (https://www.random.org/dice/?num=1) or just choosing.
Your nemesis is: 1: A femme fatale, wielding seduction and allure in addition to combat prowess. Not necessarily female; femboy fatales are all the rage in this city! 2: A calculating genius, an expert at gathering information who relies on plans and preparation to win the day. 3: A brash hothead, whose extreme skill and talent are surpassed only by their confidence and ego. 4: A grim vigilante, who takes everything seriously and never lets their guard down. 5: A novice prodigy, gifted with especially strong powers, but with very little experience using them in combat. 6: A team leader, weak on their own, but commanding a small squad of other low-power heroes.
Their power is: 1: Super strength. They can throw cars and punch through walls, making them dangerous up close and difficult to restrain. 2: Shapeshifting. They can change their appearance for stealth and espionage, or transform into animals for combat. 3: Psionics. They can read minds with telepathy or throw objects around with telekinesis. 4: Gadgets. A wide arsenal of weapons, vehicles, and/or other tools make up for their lack of powers. 5: Pyromancy. 6:
But they have a weakness: 1: They're very sensitive to touch, and this can even break their focus during combat. 2: Their powers work on a strict time limit, after which they're completely powerless for a good while. 3: They secretly enjoy being helpless and at a villain's mercy, making them less likely to resist or escape once defeated. 4: They avoid seriously hurting you, for either legal or personal reasons. 5: They're naive, oblivious, and gullible. 6: They share one of your kinks.
You have your own powers and assets, purchased with Villainy Points. You have [INSERT NUMBER HERE] VP to buy perks, and you can get more by picking drawbacks. By default, each perk costs 1 VP.
Copycat: Pick a power from the hero power table to gain, but it's slightly weaker than the hero's version. You can spend an extra +1 VP to make it just as strong, and a further +1 VP to make it even stronger!
Flight: You can fly around, letting you get wherever you want and making you difficult to catch. For +1 VP, you can fly super fast!
Illusions: You can make illusions that are convincing at a glance, but are slightly transparent. For +1 VP, they'll be properly opaque, and they'll be able to trick the other senses too.
Hypnosis: Mind control! It works easily on civilians, but to use it on someone powerful, you'll need to wear them down first. It wears off with time, but you can implant triggers for a strategic advantage or a funny prank.
Handy Henchmen: You get a gang of goons that obey you without question. They aren't very smart or strong, but you've got a lot of them. For +1 VP, they're strong and skilled, and of average intelligence.
Villainous Vehicle: A car, a blimp, or even a submarine, you get whatever vehicle you want, tricked out with all sorts of special features and gadgets. You can buy this multiple times to get multiple vehicles, or one vehicle that can switch between forms.
Evil Lair Deluxe: You already had a lair, of course, but now it's got everything a villain could ever want! Supercomputer, defense turrets, sex dungeon, all the necessities!
Power-Sealing Cuffs: Lock a super in these handcuffs, and their powers will disappear. They're big and heavy, so using them in combat is difficult, but they're great for capturing! For +2 VP, you can make them lighter and easier to use in combat, even changing their shape into something such as a whip.
Filthy Rich: You might already have money that you used to buy your other perks, but ill-gotten gains are hard to use outside the black market. Now you have loads of money to spend legally! Unfortunately, the black market doesn't accept cash, only VP. For +1 VP, you go from millionare to billionare; anything that can legally be done with money, you can do it.
Escape Artist: No matter how the hero corners you, you always have some trick up your sleeve to escape back to your lair. If the hero wants to capture you, they'll have to find your base and challenge you on your home turf!
#asks#i was so focused on Villain Things like powers and tools and goons that i forgot it was supposed to be kinky#and honestly a villain-vs-hero scenario maker just kinda sounds like fun so i might drop the kink part#i'll have to come up with more weaknesses tho#but again the main point is the randomly generated circumstances for the player to respond to#i think that's a neat way to make picking perks more interesting#and it adds replay value!#i picked villain-vs-hero because a super-nemesis is an clean way to make random things that you have to deal with#could probably work in any scenario maker by giving the player a random perk and a random drawback to start out#i don't like that idea as much tho#OH a thing i think is key is that this gives you a clear goal to work toward#and then gives randomly-generated obstacles and opportunities for that goal#anyway back to writing that “he's stealing my boyfriend so i have to suck his dick” story
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