#and it doesnt really matter anyway lmaooo

[harper-collins]

Hello Everyone,

I come to you with news about both my mental health and the state of my writing;

First off, I probably won't be posting anything of my own for a while here. Maybe an update for a book if it happens, but not anything outrageous. It's more of a quiet one for me as I have somehow gotten to one of the worst points in my life.

I won't give too much information, but I'm currently off work and taking time for myself, and I realised I should probably do something about my writing, whether it's just finishing it off awkwardly or explaining.

I don't want to give any of my stories an unfinished ending, and I really do love them all, even if I may not be super into their respective fandoms anymore; this includes all 7 projects. (ohmygod)

I've been working on my book semi-regularly, but as it's still in the basics, I won't share anything until I've built it up more. I know I say that a lot (whether you guys hear it or not), but taking on a project the way I have done is exciting and scary.

That said, here is the list of things I will be taking from now until I decide I can either handle multiple things again or finish them.

Rewriting An Eternity To Wait

Proceeding to finish the last few chapters of An Eternity To Wait.

Finish Mission: Return Home

Finish Experiment Gone Wrong...?

Write more or finish Scar in Yandere High School (RP) (as there is only one at the moment and it's a very bare project I started on a whim)

Finish Trapped in 'Dreams'

Rewrite the rest of The Twins, The Triangle And The Magic

Finish The Twins, The Triangle And The Magic

Add or Finish Billdip Cards Against Humanity

Full focus on my book, maybe write oneshots etc

To explain, The start is simple, the least amount to do in the projects goes first (AETW, M: RH), and then finishing some long-term projects (EGW?, Scar in YHS), and then T4ATM is put essentially in the back due to the pure size of the project. I plan on it being longer than the HP books, meaning it will probably take years to complete.

I have no doubt that T4ATM will signify the end of my fanfic writing (or at least series writing). I will then focus on my book, which has its own blog. These should be primarily easy considering that I have started all of these projects, and for all, apart from like two, I have plans ready for them. All I need to do is write them.

I can't say how long this will take, and I do apologise to anyone who's been wanting an update of others etc., but I'm just so fucked that this is probably the only way I'm going to get over this heap of self-inflicted work that I want to finish.

Of course, if the entire idea of making a oneshot inspires me (this includes the oneshot series I have), then I will probably write that, but then I will go back to the list. If anything changes in the list, I will let you know.

Thanks to anyone who cared to read this; it means a lot. I hope anyone who likes my projects will wait for them to be finished or just read them as they come out, but once I get my hands on something, I will do my best to sink my teeth into it and only that instead of going around in circles.

Thanks, cya.

[ijustreallylikepirates]

NEW DISVENTURE CAMP EPISODE!!!

-I LOVED THE SONGS OMG

-ALEC AND CONNOR LMAOOO

IM DEAD 💀💀💀

-WHY IS ALEC A FUCKING ZEBRA

-Alec wants to kiss Connor so bad oooo

-pls kiss im begging you

-NO CONNOR COME BACK NOW

-YOU HAVENT KISSES ALEC YET PLEASE

-and Alec was sad when Connor left… 🤨😏

-YUL WAS FAKING HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH GRETT HES SUCH AN ASSHOLE

-he can’t say those things to Grett I’m actually really starting to love Grett as a character now not because I feel bad for her just because she genuinely slays

-TOM AND AIDEN KISS???

-NOOOO NO NO NO NO

-at least Aiden didn’t really want to kiss Tom

-Trevor getting jealous about Derek spending more time with Kristal???

-TREVEK YESSSSSS

-Jake was seriously so mad with Tom because of that kiss

-Tom and Jake need to talk to each other

-just once

-please?

-ALEC IS ACTUALLY A PRETTY GOOD SINGER THOUGH??? MY HEADCANON WAS CORRECT!!!

-GABBELLIE AWWWW

-I loved every minute of the Gabellie in Piggyback

-everybody was so iconic

-TREVOR SINGING AND DANCING ON THE STAGE HAD ME DEAD WHY WAS HE MOVING LIKE THAT 💀

-TREVOR CALLING HIMSELF JESUS AGAIN LOLLLLL

Idk what else to say about this lol anyways one more thing I have to say

…

THE DC LEAKERS NEED TO STOP ODD NATIONS NEED THE PATREON COMMUNITY TO FUND THE SHOW AND HAVE TO PAY EVERYBODY WORKING ON THE SHOW IF THERES NO BUDGET THERES NO DISVENTURE CAMP GET THAT??? YOU BETTER!!!

Anyways I hope pookie Alec wins I’m still rooting for him and I always will 🥰 (no matter how evil he gets) IF HE DOESNT WIN ILL DIE

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when ur a movie fan but not one of those weird cinema snobs who like 4 hour long russian movies about a man in one room LMAOOO. like those kinds of people are so pretentious. anyways, heres my discussion of what "really happened" in 2001 space odyseey. weird foreign films are just too hard to understand and are complicated on purpose. i dont really keep up with current events because it doesnt effect me. the israel conflict is too complicated! but we have to vote blue no matter who because trump is the only bad politician. i dont agree with biden supporting israel but still hes better than the other guy!!!. why do you keep getting into the semantics? youre just pulling teeth! i dont watch international movies because theyre needlessly complicated !!!!!

[m1ckeyb3rry]

LMAOOO I’m about to rewrite and entire parody for aiku I’ll send it in once I complete it it’s funny it’s like the reversed croagunk trope instead of cockblocking it’s helping him rizz girls up

SHSHSH goodra underrated goat I do love its vibes sm legible and snores collecting dust in the basement LMAOO after that one convo about the moon/space manshine shenanigans it’s disappeared forever but I can imagine nagi sending snorlax out only for it to continue lying down taking up like half the field and whenever he tries to get it to move it just swats him with its arm and send him flying by accident LMAO

AHAHA Rin being so desperate he goes to Shidou (wait the Karasu beef full circling to that second lead idea we talked about way back when)

LMAO “not unproblematic” tullia catching strays but Karasu holding a mini grudge for having his baby birds electrocuted like they ran into a telephone pole because of lanturn is so funny

Wait yk a combo I think is funny yarou because it also means bitch/bastard in japanese LMFAOOO wait but shoyoi is kinda cute too the way barasu sounds has me cackling though LMAO bayosagi love triangle wait this could be a kdrama on its own

LMFAO lowk makes me wonder if Karasu refrains from fowl products because he’s like “those are my children…” but FR full circle development where he’s confident enough and thinks it’s ok to be mediocre ehdhsjshsj

LMAOO you should give him that fit in a goofy crack spinoff side episode he would totally wear it (imagine they have a musical number with the phineas and ferb dance style too)

Reo calling bachira banged freak and raichi shark teeth LMAOO truly teenage boy activities kurona also catching strays everyone calls him a midget too ok but two sides of the spectrum both equally as attractive barous cluelessness imagine he just goes “your hands are tiny” and instinctively does that finger bend thing over your fingers (im so bad at explaining i hope ykwim) while Karasu KNOWS and just has a shit eating smirk on his face maybe there is something about guys who style his hair up like that

I didn’t even consider that they didn’t exist oops but WAIT THAT MAKES THE IDEA GO HARDER I’m not crying bruh imagine reader goes to the safari zone and is like wait I thought beautifly didn’t exist here?? Is yayoi doing some pet project and then big reveal

LMAOOOO I lowk love when memes have the “running faster than chigiri” aspect it’s so funny like the bllk equivalent of running faster than sonic the hedgehog but SHSH NO PRESSURE im just happy to receive whatever you come across don’t feel obligated to look for one specifically LOL

NO FR because like what you want me to add a period?? Nuh uh I don’t enjoy those vibes which is why I also default to just using “…” too LMAO

AHAHAHA ok so maybe i do need to use proper punctuation when explaining stuff my b I definitely used a run on sentence when I explained that part so I’ll make it less confusing next time LMAOO that’s so funny thigh that would actually be really embarrassing if that WERE the case though

Wait I’m loving the drama of this Isagis last straw Karasu comforting mc (CRYING THE BROTHER THAT STEPPED UP) I fw this Isagi so hard the conflict and character complexities >>>>> and the added love triangle yayoi originally leaning towards Barou not Isagi BRUTAL I love it

Otoya being spike is so funny bro getting demoted but actually seeing how everything is so interconnected is really interesting since we’re like metavisioning looking at a universe you created imagine life being this interesting but anyways I’m not about to get into an existential crisis rn

The way you’re converting readers (me) and yourself is so funny HAHAHA

IT DOESNT MATTER IF I MEMORIZE THE ENTIRE DEX (not gonna happen) but wait i just realized what this means CONGRATS ON 1K!!!!! Not you saying “idk it might be awhile still since it fluctuates” literally one day ago LMAO but here’s to more miraverse shenanigans!!!! DONT WORRY DADDYS HOME SHSHSHS but THANK YOUUU I just saw the event so I’m running rn let’s see who I get inspo for LOL

- Karasu anon

PLEASE DO SEND IT IN OMG an aiku parody would be insane…i love how no matter the au/verse aiku somehow makes his way into infecting it w crack LMAOAAO he’s lowkey the face of the miraverse (in a diff way than nagi and karasu)

nagi’s goodra is so CUTE tbh honestly it’s one of his best pokémon too considering it’s a pseudo legendary (wait now that i’m thinking abt it so many of the characters EXCEPT reader have pseudo legendaries 😭😭😭…like chigiri has a dragonite, nagi has a goodra, hiori has a metagross, karasu has a garchomp, and noel noa has an aggron…meanwhile reader’s rocking w galvantula LMAOAOA) PLEASE nagi finally meets his match w his snorlax he asks reo if that’s what it’s like dealing with him and reo’s just like “yes 😐” omg wait potential ova that’s just nagi attempting to train his snorlax ⁉️

HAHA YESS this is the au i was referencing when i mentioned rin as a second lead!! i’ve had it cooking for a while but yes since nagi’s the main lead and karasu’s the bestie w weird tension (i’m realizing this is a format i utilize often) rin has 0 way of winning like it genuinely hurts him to know that reader would rather go for a) lazy dumbass genius or b) cocky rude weird hair over him LMAOAOAO that’s why in the smau reader calls him “poor kid” she’s not here for that bfb dating younger men era 🤫 nagi’s like a couple months older than her and karasu’s a year older than her she is NOT abt to go for baby rin (especially considering there’s a whole subplot with sae that’s again meant to subvert the reverse harem vibe while also still having lots of love interests)

wait this just reminded me that isagi is canonically older than nagi and both nagi AND isagi are older than reo KDBCJSKS

LMAOO no because given how much we’ve talked abt tullia bullying otoya it’s impossible to call her UNPROBLEMATIC (not that otoya doesn’t deserve it ofc) but for the most part she’s pretty chill it’s like specifically otoya who she messes with 😓 PLEASE IT’S LITERALLY KARASU’S OWN FAULT TOO if i had a nickel for every time karasu got cocky and challenged someone he was wildly unprepared to face w his team of baby birds i’d have two nickels which isn’t a lot but it means bro needs to be STOPPED 😭 it’s a good thing he gets garchomp later on i think garchomp will be 99% of karasu’s impulse control as well as his main battler

YAROU ACTUALLY IS SO FUNNY especially because both of them are kind of uhhh kind of bitchy (especially to isagi) but agreed shoyoi is kinda cute sounding!! bayosagi love triangle…i have many thoughts about it that i will get to TRUST but agreed it’s giving kdrama

see i feel like the mediocre thing relates to his end of the world comment in the egoist bible too so it’s like in character yk?? like now he’s SEEN the end of the world (almost) what with team x and their nonsense, almost witnessed all of his friends die (if reader hadn’t sent nagi back to help save everyone they would’ve been overwhelmed because karasu’s garchomp is legit the only one left) and nearly died himself, and i feel like that makes him realize ykw why should i gaf abt being mediocre or not mediocre??? him realizing that as long as he’s happy nobody else’s expectations matter to him…lowkey this DOES mean that fwtkac reader doesn’t really fit because he’s too happy post epilogue to care about a rival but actually wait yk what would be cute imagine reader’s like a pokémon nurse who comes out to do check ups on the daycare pokémon and make sure everything is looking alright but karasu ends up falling in love with her so for a solid while he just makes up illness and injuries to call her out for like “oh my lucario hurt his paw” and she comes out and lucario is just standing there like “😐” obviously not injured and she’s like ???? but eventually she ends up liking karasu back and then he asks her out and it’s all cute and adorable (pursuit reader is just glad he’s finally getting married because she’s been making fun of him for being the last one to settle down for ages…“how did otoya AND aiku end up in happy relationships before you???” “I DON’T KNOW”)

REO DOES NOT CAREEE HE’LL VIOLATE ANYONE i love villainous team v reo he’s so so funny and his crashouts are legendary 😩 PLS YES THAT’S EXACTLY WHAT I WAS THINKING like barou has no idea that you’re flirting so he’s super serious about it and he’s like “wow your hands ARE very small 👍” and does the finger thing (ik what you’re talking abt) but karasu starts messing with you because he knows you’re trying to rizz him up (he’s already rizzed up obviously i think if a girl flirted w him he’d fold in 0.2 seconds) but he’s so funny about it and it def culminates in him lacing his fingers through yours and using it as an excuse to hold your hand (he definitely calls you mediocre for having small hands as a joke though HAHAHA)

NO THAT’S WHAT I’M SAYING LIKE IT MAKES IT 10X BETTER one thing about hiori he is going to LOVE his love interests like there’s something distinct abt the way i imagine hiori as the male lead he’s on a completely different level than the others…the closest in terms of emotions is probably nagi but with nagi a grand declaration of love is just him getting out of bed and like. cooking breakfast or smth 😭 so the scale isn’t quite the same…but hiori always goes all out in my mind like i’ve never imagined him being normal about someone he genuinely loves he always does insane shit like building a house or importing an entire species of pokémon instead of just being like “hey i like you” the way karasu (eventually) would JFJFJSSJ wait speaking of which your request for the event hehehe miscommunication/misunderstandings w hiori…i’m considering some things (i feel like that trope generally implies humor but it’s hiori he doesn’t give crack vibes to me…he’s like nagi i can only write him seriously unless he’s just a side character but trust i will cook smth up and it will be good)

PURSUIT ISAGI IS SM FUN I LOVE HIS CHARACTERIZATION because honestly he definitely thinks that he should be stepping into barou’s role as his best friend but he has zero idea how to do so meanwhile karasu does it so naturally (in this au i fucked w everyone’s ages so isagi and barou are a couple years older than karasu and are the same age as yayoi if i didn’t say that already) which is just another punch in yoichi “inferiority complex” isagi’s gut…eventually he does end up being kind of a cool older cousin/sibling to reader but it takes him a lot of effort to get to that point 😕 and for the love triangle i was lowkey think that yayoi would actually have originally liked isagi but isagi never pursued her (given that he thought she liked barou) so he kinda pushed her towards barou and she ended up falling INSANELY in love w barou (who wouldn’t) but that way the possible eventual yayosagi isn’t just her settling it’s her being like look i always liked you and maybe i still might but i have a lot of trauma from barou’s abandonment/death and isagi’s like yo me too let’s just be friends again and see where things go KDFHSKJDSMJDJS i lowkey love them as a trio and the relationships/duos within that trio honestly this is a version of isagi i would actually enjoy writing (ofc i’d have to braid in more of his canon characterization but this is a fun foundation to me)

OTOYA JUST GIVES SUCH SPIKE ENERGY i feel like based on vibes/lore alone, tullia is fluttershy, karasu is applejack, chigiri is rainbow dash, reo is rarity, otoya is spike, nagi is pinkie pie but like the opposite?? like he’s also incredibly random and insanely lucky with stuff but he’s super lazy instead of super energetic, and reader is twilight sparkle (not just because she’s the protagonist LMAOO)

HAHAHA BRO THANK YOUUU IT’S VERY UNREAL but AHH hiori inspo?? cheating on karasu i see /j 😭 it’s okay two of the twelve so far are karasu reqs…the way i only have four spots left and ZERO people have requested for nagi i think people don’t even realize how much i love him despite him being all over my blog because i never get reqs or anything for him 😩 or maybe it’s that everybody hates nagi atm so nobody wants me to write for him 😓💔 THAT’S OKAY THOUGH NAGI GETS PURSUIT SO WHO’S REALLY WINNING ⁉️

[tonberry-yoda]

Hello! I hope you're having a great day! I am a pansexual INFP with he/him pronouns! I would like a romantic matchup for One Punch Man please! :)

What I want out of a relationship: Most of all, understanding. We may not always look eye to eye on everything, but we understand each other and defend each other no matter what. As well as someone who we can go out and do crazy shit and have fun but when we need to just be able to relax and cuddle we do that as well. And when either of us need alone time, we can respect that for each other as well. Someone who can communicate with me well is good as well.

Likes/Hobbies: Writing, Reading, Cooking, Learning Obscure Facts, Conspiracies, Meteorology, Astronomy, 80s music (though I like most music), Going on Walks (especially while listening to music), Lasagna (seriously I'm like Garfield when it comes to lasagna), doing a little trolling, being the best person I can be for my loved ones, and being with loved ones for that matter, though I do enjoy a decent amount of alone time.

Dislikes: Being a burden, seafood, fake people, being looked down upon

Personality: Again, I'm an INFP. I'm very eccentric to say the least, I like to go on the road less traveled on and try new things. A walking disaster but I wouldn't have it any other way! I try to be nonconfrontational and work things out, but I won't be a pushover. I enjoy my alone time, but also enjoy being with my loved ones. I like to find a good balance. I try my best to become better every day. I'm not perfect in any sense and do fall into depressive episodes, but I try my best to be at least decent. I'm not the best at communicating, but once I find someone I can trust I open up easily!

Your type: I'm not too picky, just someone who respects me for who I am and can participate in shenanigans themselves is preferred.

Love language: I very much communicate with acts of service, quality time, and words of affirmation. I like any sort of love language towards me.

Thank you very much, I hope this was enough! And I hope you have a great day! :)

hi!! i am really good!!!! i have just been nonstop eating because thanksgiving was yesterday lmaoo. i hope you're doing good as well!! anyways, onto the matchup! thanks for sending it in because i have a great person for you!!

the character I chose for you is...

SAITAMA!!!

he's the perfect amount of goof and chill

like he would love to just goof around with you and hang out anywhere

he's down for whateva

he loves how caring and amazing you are

can and will cook you lasagna

he is literally just the guy you are looking for in a relationship

like will understand you always

need anything? he's always right flippin there

so good at communicating it's crazy

he'll help you learn how to communicate as well

he is so down for being a chaotic duo, but does need a chill time every once and a while

loves you for who you are like with all his heart

he's bad at communicating it (mostly with his expressions lmaooo) but will tell you how he feels when he needs to or when you need him to

as you said that you will be the best person for your loved ones, he will do the same for you and be his absolute best self

even if he isnt clinging onto you, it doesnt stop from how much he really loves you!

~~~

matchup rules --- pinned post

@tonberry-yoda

[zoeysdamn]

NOW BLOODIED PETALS CHAPTER 5 WAS THE ANGSTIEST CHAPTER SO FAR! i cant believe you said youll sprinkle a little fluff in there 😔 you fooled me 😟 tbh as someone who doesnt really read angst that much because im a sensitive bitch THIS HURTS SO GOOD like its TOO GOOD after i read every chapter its all i could think about 🤧 ALSO! i just noticed that this fic is very intergrated with the show and how it lines up with the episode dont know why it took me this long to catch it but thats such an amazing detail because now your fics makes it so much more visually imaginative especially the latest chapter like i can really clearly visualize the scene in my head as if it was actually a part of the show 🤞 I LOVE THIS FIC and i cant wait to see how it ends whether its going to most the angsty way possible or a possible plot twist I AM SEATED 🤭

Me trying to convince you that yes yes I swear my plot has some fluff and it's all planed:

Nah but, tbh I really did planned some fluff happening in this chapter 😔 but the thing is, I got carried away with unplanned scenes (like, the whole scene at the beginning with Enid and the shopping session was so much unscripted lmaooo). At some point I thought that the chapter was long enough, so I cut it before I could reach the kinda fluff part, sorry 😭 but I won't be able to escape it on the next uhuh 👀

And I'm SO GLAD to read that you appreciate the insertion into the show episodes bc it's something that matters a lot to me, I always try to match the show's ambiance the best I can! Even for episodes I kind of rush like the Outreach day one, I try to write to really match the already amazingly drafted atmosphere!

Anyway, thank you for reading (and listening to my lame author's rambling krkrkrkr), and stay tuned!! More angst, fluff and unexpected plot twists are incoming 👀

Thank you dear Anon, take care of yourself ❤️

[cheese-water]

i made my post at like 1am so yeah more things I wanted to say and response now :D

Ok the J being the antagonist would and could totally happen, but I don’t think that won’t be the case. I know Ranboo isn’t like professional film person (bro is still 19 lol), but usually in films and shows the secret villain won’t be a like main character best friend yknow? A lot it’s a side character who flys under the radar, but J could still be like main antagonist side-kick person. (I hope that makes sense

Omg just realized dsmp Ranboo and Zero- ok ok ok. In the first one an expert says to categorize their thoughts and memory loss could be why however Ranboo did that in dsmp and has already said he wants to keep Ranboo and genloss separate, so I don’t really think so(???) im not sure because memory loss for Zero does REALLY make a lot of sense.

Ok, im not a phycologist or anything but writing like good things down can help like awareness that not everything in the world is bad? And writing bad things can help people realize there can be things to improve upon, or like that they gotten past trauma that type of stuff.

Ok the dog thing could’ve been to clarify that like it is a dog because let’s say if it was like Spot it could easily been confused with like a human and if it was like food could be confused for the food etc

So I’d assume gen 1 started around 2023 because of the technology, in the journal its now 1900s which I think might be a good thing to take into account for the future. Anyways im assuming this is being seen through the eyes of the founder? Ranboo said he wanted to make a founders cut for chronicle 0 so maybe.

“Who do you think Zero will assume wrote that down? Their nameless dog” 💀 i-

 I feel like the ?s are not J because if J was writing stuff and Zero trusts J I think Zero(im sorry I give up on pronouns just calling them as they/them at this point) would probably answer the questions. Now heres my out there therory of of the options we get to pick are usually ? But one is says choose and one says radio. Currently out decisions didn’t matter until radio and we vote on next tweet radio is on and doing weird crap. So maybe the audience have a lot more control than we think?

Also in good thing part of journal it mentions a Jay and in the journal it mentions says J. They probably aren’t the same person.

Ending thoughts: I really like chronicle 0 I love the concept of ONLY getting words and no visuals or pictures because in gen 1 it was mainly videos. Also the the writing is just so cool like how the characters have so much personality and we don’t even know what they look like. The tweets used to be daily, but stopped so I think this is the part of nothing happens for 8 months lol, but until then I will be excitedly waiting for any continuation and proceed to get hyper-fixated on 19 tweets 3 of them being completely unhinged tweets!

That one idiot who should be focusing on 50 other more important things:

-☁︎🪷

POLLS THATS WHAT THEY ARE I KNEW I WAS FORGETTING SOMETHING WHY DOESNT NITTER SHOW PAST POLLS LMAOOO???? I thought they were just tweeting “?” oh my god everything makes sense now😭

[anakinskywalkerog]

omg no way tumblr never bothered to tell me you replied. plus why is nothing showing up in my following feed??? a bone to pick for next time ig

ahaha i missed this too you're so good with advice! ❤ and thank you hehe i have been informed the new pfp it a character calld lust from an anime called fullmetal alchemist, but i just like the aesthetic

it really is and thank youuuuu! im sure it will! *sends ✨good luck✨*

hmm i dont wanna obsess over han at all, because first of all, ELI! that would be unfair. and han is sort of crazy, anyways. i am listening to i can see you from speak now tv but i shouldnt because it reminds me of han. it also reminds me of anakin. very anakincore track. i cant help it though, i can see you is so good, although it gives more of a reputation vibe than speak now tbh. still love it anyways and thank mother taylor for it. are you enjoying speak now tv? what's your favourite track? i think im enjoying mine, mean and back to december, but everything is ofc v nice! wish we had a mine pop mix tv and some more beat to enchanted, but its perfect as it is!

yess "there will be plenty more guys 😂 trust me." that's exactly what i thought, too! like, he's here now, but someday there's going to be someone else EXACTLY like that. although it might not be so bad if i did make a decision influenced by him because he and i have a similar objective - physics/engineering degree at oxford/cambridge so its a win-win no matter which way i go ig. plus we're academic rivals. competition is the norm for us. but about intrigue with han...

"oh? whos your friend? (i asked han to pose for one of my snaps hehe) is this friend good-looking?"

... dude? like, WHAT? that sounds like pretty blatant flirting to me.

but lets not forget that once we were in the corridor and bro leaned in super close (keep in mind this was months ago and this was in the middle of like 15 other people anyways) and i leaned away out of reflex 😂 i think he looked at me later with a very patronizingly disappointed

kinda expression. i think that was a test, and i failed miserably but thats fine 💀

eli really is we even have loads of similar interests!

yw and sameee! it is hehe she even send me memes and is a pedro pascal stan (as she should. pedro pascal is an icon. love him) ! very happy with that

oh no, is everything okay? can i do anything to help? if it helps, my life is only peaceful because i am in isolation from all friends, hehe i need time to regenerate. i am an ambivert at heart. my extrovert meter needs to recharge lmaooo

also, a part of me wonders if cranberry is mad at me? basically, he aksed me to write a steamy story abt him and han (thyre best friends) and didnt want his gf to find out incase she thought he was weird (bro she already does. shes ur gf. she knows what weird she signed up for smh)

anyways i made a small oopsie. i asked some people to critique it for me, and one of those poeple may have been the girl from my diary, whos friends with cranberry's gf, and who previously told machete i liked him when i wanted it to be a scret and explicitly told her so, and the one who i knew cannot be trusted with secrets because she will tell someone and lie about it 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

anyways cranberry was annoyed (and understandably so.) he said his gf was mad at him (impossible - if she was, shed be mad at ME first cos thats how women are. better than revenge is living proof. but she isnt! ) and i get it, but then people stop being mad, right? i mean, ive been really mad at him too, for a variety of reasons. i forgave him though and he didnt even apologize like i did! but he seemed normal at prom perhaps a bit icy? a guy friend told me im overthinkinngit and while he may have been annoyed it doesnt mean hd stop being friends with me or anything, and that he definitely wouldnt stay mad because its not a big deal.

but i texted him cranberry with a pretty obvious joke and he didnt even find it funny??? like thats HIS sort of joke??? how does he ot find that funny??? my friend says he must be mad then, but says theres the chance he just didnt find it funny?

like, i get it, but i want to make amends! and i wont even see cranberry in person so i can never tell. but if he was mad, he wouldve blocked me, or left me on delivered, or just opened. but he even sees my stories n stuff!

plus his friends would be mad if something happened. like guys are super gangy like that. but his friends are not mad at all, like han and this other guy are totally normal and no one sad that. even when han brought it up the day after the whole thing, he didnt imply it was serious and just dropped it after joking around abt it.

my friend did say if i was friends with cranberrys friends, it doesnt mean they have to be mad, but what if cranberry and his gf broke up over something as stupid as a joke???? and it was my fault??? i would feel awful and i cant even tell or say sorry.

nor can i ask han over text cos then hed tell cranberry and itd be weird. and i cant ask eli cos i dont want to set a bad rep.

he texted about it and i delved into a tiny argument he said its fine but "just think more next time". i think he and han both know i didnt mean for this to happen and that it was a genuine accident, but people gte hurt over things even if they know it wasnt meant to hurt them. shoulve said no is proof of this.

but they did send me a video of them reading the story together [cranberry and his friends, it was han who filmed (i did ask them to film their reaction)] and cranberry was cracking up as he read it! if he was mad he wouldve abandoned it. but they sill seemed to love it. surely if cranberry was mad at me, then that wouldnt have happened?

jesus christ, thats LONG. i apologize for troubling you, i didnt think itd get this long! its just been on my mind :( ironically it happened yesterday just after i was so happy. ugh. boys are awful

yes haha thank youuu :) if you're okay with my constant somewhat accidental drama dumps, i definitely will :D

love you and stay safe x

hi sythe so sorry it took me so long to respond to this!

I hope all is well with Eli. but GIRL have I been listening to “I Can See You” sooooo much it’s literally the delulu girl anthem! I love it. having a little crush on Han just adds some spice!! there’s nothing wrong with a little seasoning to an otherwise boring existence 😂

I am okay 🩵 just really been struggling with my OCD lately. I hope it gets better soon.

no fuckinf WAY cranberry asked you to write a steamy story!!? girl that is NOT platonic. what are these men doing out here 😂😂😂😂 but I agree, very unlikely that he is mad at you

I love the drama dumps, I wish we could vent together for real because I have been ALL over the place with my drama lately 😅 but it’s fine, it adds the comedy. i’m watching my own life like a work of absurdism. I would absolutely recommend that strategy.

[chryblossomjjk]

Kiki, I've tried writing this a couple of times already and I get too shy to send every time, but I'm finally doing it. You're literally so cute and funny... like, that's exactly what I think every time I see you on my dash and I just had to say it to you at least once 👉👈. This is me every time I see your cute lil Koo profile pic and adorable and hilarious posts ---> 🥺🥺🥺🥺

Also it sucks so much to see the community labels here fuck over author's amazing stories like that. You deserve all of the recognition and praise for your talent and hard work 😔😔😔 I will always be here to offer my love and support as much as I can though, and I'm sure there are so many readers who appreciate everything that you do. (Tumblr labels still suck though and nothing will change that)

Now that I'm done embarrassing myself lmaooo, I'm sending you lots of love and smooches 💞💞💞

sending the biggest fattest thickest juiciest most collasal 'NO U' your way. genuinely, from the top of my fucking scalp to the bottom of my fucking foot, NO YOUUUU!!!!! I AM NO AGGRESSIVELY IN LOVE WITH U LMAO >:(

i literally feel the same exact way about you. like whenever i see you in my inbox, or whenever i see other creators answer your asks, it makes me uwu. you're such a light in this community. you always do your best to make people feel good about their work and i promise you it doesnt go unnoticed at all. hoping praying screaming that all the love n kindness you put out into the universe comes back to you tenfold :( <3 you're such a kind n bright soul its ridiculous and i appreciate u v much friend <3

and yeah these labels have been making me erratic lmao!! i am constantly going back n forth between "eh fuck it whatever as long as make things i like it shouldnt matter" to "naur fuck tumby for suppressing the shit that ive put sm time n thought into grrr >:("

but i def need to get back into the intrinsic values i started w bc like nobody posts their first fic expecting people to read it really, but you write it anyway bc you love to!! i need to focus on that bc i have no control over what the platform does!! and the people who support every fic drop, like you do, really motivate me to write. thank you so much for everything <3

[mint-yooxgi]

On one hand I dont care how long it is Ill read all of it in one go :') on the other Id love two parts just to keep the suspense going, honestly it doesnt matter to me, youre writing is so good ill wait luke 84 years for the next part 😁

Lmaooo, I just wasn’t expecting this one scene to be so long honestly, but I think I'll just keep it as one part for now unless it really gets too long, then I'll see about splitting it. I already have what I want to happen in the next part planned anyways, and I don't want to keep splitting chapters just because they’re longer than I intend lmaoo

[himejoshiba]

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hell yeaaaaaah lol!!!!!!! i think i FINALLY learned how to purge omg. it really doesn’t do much for me when i try to do fingers down the throat, i gotta clench my stomach muscles rlly rlly hard for a little while like a cat coughing up a hairball lmaooooo but it worked better than any time ive ever tried before!!! my stomach is basically empty now i think, i could feel a difference once i got out everything that was in there and still stuck in my throat. obvs it doesn’t matter because all those calories have already been absorbed but it’s a good start, it makes me feel way better about myself to be able to reset myself into having an empty stomach, plus if i keep doing it and get good enough ill be able to basically evacuate my stomach immediately after eating anything so the calories wont have time to be absorbed!!!!! i know they say purging doesnt work but i really dont believe that. you lose weight when you have a stomach flu and vomit, why would this not work??? maybe its more calories than purely restricting would give you but purging cant just NOT work entirely thats ridiculous. also my brothers fiancee is bulimic and shes lost a TON of weight its insane, she used to be bigger than me and now she is SMALLER THAN ME, its soooooo triggering for me lmaooo all i can think about is how much i want that. anyways wanna hear the stupid part. this is like the first time ive ever properly purged and guess what. BAM blood immediately!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh well lmaooooo. hopefully i dont rip my throat open or anything. but i mean again its not all bad, the blood felt extra validating because it means my stomach must be EMPTY empty and im vomiting hardcore. love it lol

[kristiliqua]

i have been constantly thinking about the damn taz au recently im so ill man

i want to talk about it . so bad . like aaaaaaaa i have some specific bits that i really love but dont wanna spoil at all but RHRHRRRRHHGH FUCK !!!!! i just .,, taz!tallulah . thats it . thats all im saying . i love her :(

also i originally made scott smajor be leon the gachapon guy , but i am now making him be badboyhalo . because Fuck scott smajor ^_^ i am not having a weirdo like him in my au lmao (also bbh is just perf for leon)

also man oh man half the fun for this au for me is simply coming up with chapter titles . ive made it a thing where they have to be srs and rhyme with another bit (thatll go in the ch summary) and boyyy oh boy r they fun to hatch out :D i’ll give u all one just for fun — one that easily comes to mind is “trust or forsake, which will you take? (an eye, an ability, or a life at stake?)” :3 yippee (there are so many chapter titles on god . its a miracle that i actually enjoy coming up with them or else i’d be fucked LMFAO)

also taz!missa is a thing now too . a minor character , but he’s there . bc i said so :)) (taz!deathduo is real btw ur welcome)

man can you tell i really just wanna ramble and gush abt this au . bc i really just wanna ramble and gush abt this au ,,, i love it like it is my baby and i will cherish it forever

frowny face . i want to post Something for this au on ao3 already (i have so many snippets just written bc ,,, i had to let out the energy somehow) but i also dont wanna spoil shit before the actual fic so ????? i guess i’ll suffer . and or just rant abt it on here , el em ay oh

i havent even fully written anything thats for sure gonna be in the main fic (well maybe thats a lie . i have so many snippets that im sure one of them will be usable at some point) . i wrote chapter one (and two ?) a While back , but im def not using that lmfao

jusssst . sigh . i love this au sm and im So sorry to my qsmp followers who followed me for qsmp fanarts and ended up getting a ramble abt some au u dont know or care abt LMAOOO — just ignore this , smile .? or join/spectate my brainrot as i slowly lose my mind , idk

,, also . have i ever said that i made fantasy costco be ‘fantasy tescos’ instead ? bc i did , since in my eyes tescos is just the british version of costco ,,, even though i dont Really know what tescos is , or if its at all similar to costco (im american pls forgive me) but they sound similar so idc (,,, i havent even gone to costco either , actually . im just balling it out here fr)

oh yeah i was thinking abt making a pogtopia wilbur slash vilbur arc thing for taz!wilbur in a particularly long arc in the story (cough cough stolen century cough cough) too ,,,,, so that might be a thing . idk . maybe bro kinda loses it in those hundred years , bc fucking hell how r these mfs still sane after that /hj (its like he becomes apathetic as he sees all of it as meaningless and futile . bc these ppl and this world is gonna die anyway , so what purpose do morals or any kind of care serve ? theyll be gone in a year anyway , it rlly doesnt matter what happens to them before then [later , he Does snap out of it . maybe after a more emotional death hmm who knows] . plus paranoia with the whole impending doom thing el oh el couldnt be me) . methinks i’ll maybe write smth for this idea (smth that u all might never see lmao) . smiley face :))

anyways fuck it this is the end of this long ahh post . beeye

[tears-of-boredom]

watching deadly class and god damn thats an identical white boy. just like the other ones. this one gets beaten to a bloody mess more often though. and Saya's name is really god damn close to mine and one time someone pronounced it a bit weird and i got a bit surprised.

tbh im on ep 7 and im kinda losing interest in the plot. ill watch for the bloody dudes though. but this series is definetly not helping me with my temptation for smoking.

yeah im ten minutes into this episode and its really fucking boring. i mean like the villains hot and all but i like do not care for these people enough for this. im just honestly waiting until eveyone gets all bloody again. tbh i was readying myself for boring teen shit cuz of stuff ive seen from the fandom, but i guess i was preparing for the wrong kind of boring lol. i mean uhh marco?? what the fucks even the main guys name lmaooo. im really hoping he dies in a bloody mess cuz the breed of white guy he is looks really good when literally on the brink of death and covered in blood.

anyways yeah im giving up at uhh 27:16 of episode seven. and spoilers sorry but so im watching this on some website for free and i think episode 5 was somehow cut short, because i did not see like chico dying. like any of that scene. i just had to piece everything together from the "previously on deadly class" half minute of episode 6. it doesnt really matter anyways but its kinda funny. also in the pilot when marco tried to kill himself im pretty sure i thought "do it you pussy" and i laughed about that for a solid minute. and at another point i think it was something,, basically just an intrusive thought came related to the scene i was watching, and i laughed about that as well for some time because it was like a horrible thing to think if i actually meant it. shame i dont remember it cuz i bet it was real funny. oh and i was also thinking about the like villain dude, chester i think? i was thinking whether or not the burn scar was prosthetic and im gonna look it up now.

aw man it is prosthethic. idk what i was hoping for tbh, i was just thinking that itd probably be easier to just get an actor that has a burn scar than do all that make up, espec since all the flash backs back to when he doesnt have them are animated, so you wouldnt have like that problem either.

but hey, at least now i know the vibe and basic premise of this show so i can read any fics i happen to stumble upon. that is literally like, top 5 reasons im watching all this shit: so i can read more fics and make sure that im not missing out on shit. thats why i thought this was gonna a be a bit more of a light show, cuz all the fandom shit seemed to be just teens, but its not like im that surprised that teenagers are writing fics about mentally ill trained killers like come on. thats like peak YA shit. also i kinda disliked marco at the beginning cuz he was talking a bit too harshly about "the scizos", but then he had that communist awakening and i kinda like him now. oh and you can call me a snowflake all you want but the word " the r word gets thrown around a bit too lightly for my taste. not rape, the other one.

oh actually i think the intrusive thought i had was something about viktor being gay or something. like way before marco said it. and im really trying to stop calling people gay for looking a bit too hard at someone. or maybe it wasnt that cuz i think viktor was saying some shit about sucking dick and if thats true then i had the full right to call his ass gay in my thoughts.

and before i go,, i fucking love billy. lord knows if i was in that school i would be so fucking whipped for that boy like oh my god. id def be a rat too. and im gonna stop here before i create a deadly class self-insert oc in my head cuz i really dont like this series that much. but billy is so fucking, uhhhh,,,,, well i was gonna say hot cuz thats like the word i use for attractive people usually, but i honestly wouldnt really call him hot.....ummm i mean id say cute if it didnt sound so patronising and infantalising......okay whatever he's attractive and honestly id call him hot if i even got eye contact form him back so...no actually i think just being in his vicinity would be enough....yeah my standards are like so low to the ground, you could manipulate me so fucking easily cuz my nerves would be too shot out the whole time to even register anything. and afterwards id be thinking "no im so aware of myself id know if i was being manipulated". also i already dont trust myself so you could gaslight me real easy as well. i mean id probably kill you if you went too hard with it cuz sometimes i get a bit in my head when frustrated, but honestly my weak ass would be brought down with the promise of like,, a hug. i am really fucking starved of attention and tenderness and literally everything that parents are supposed to give you and i dont have the strength to be in denial about that. i literally started crying when my sister shared an experience with me that i fully related to.

LMAO WHAT THE FUCK DID THIS POST TURN INTO IM SORRY ITS LITERALLY 5:05AM AND WATCHING MOVIES AND SHIT ALWAYS PUTS ME IN A MOOD. well,, i was gonna tag this as "i experienced media" but after this fucking text wall of rambling on i dont think it fits that anymore.

[lavenderbexlatte]

i think i havent even given a review for chapter 6 and 7 so here we goooooooo....................

ch 6 - its so funny how mc is so aware of the guys and feels silly and stupid for being around them. shes trying so hard to put space between them but they have no idea what personal space is. but at the same time they arent overbearing honestly. bless them.

interesting........... mc tries so hard to go unnoticed....... and YET! the bulbasaur man remembers her from a year ago and team K wants her for some reason. also he has an idea of why they want her.... so suspisious and im just dying to know

seungmin and his daughter 😂😂😂😂 i love it

if felix doesnt think its credit card fraud.... then im pretty sure it is credit card fraud

me wondering whats worse than ryujins dad or team k knocking on the door....... yeah i can see how chan standing at the doorway like a parent can be considered worse. he probably knocks on the door like a parent too.

ah yes she doesnt want them gone but she doesnt want to say that she enjoys their company and is grateful for them. i love lack of communication <3!!!!!!!!! shes been too lonely for to long and i FELT that.

mc didnt know the future but she truly played matchmaker by rooming with hyunjin and jisung. she did that. she orchestrated their lil enemies to lovers arc. good for her.

ch 7 - ah yes the two ocean boys trying to sweep mc up into going with the flow. very good stuff. love that.

food stand guy being impressed by mc's game.... yeah me too

its really endearing that the pokemon love jisung that much. i mean he is loveable. i wanna walk down the beach holding his hand too and looking at his cute face with his dumbass smile

ur friend mica is living her best life here banging lee know in the pokemon universe. good for her. she made it.

mc didnt take out the popcorn for the shenanigans that went down between the 3 of them BUT I SURE DID. i loved it. it was lighthearted it was casual but it was wholesome in its own way. jisung and hyunjin.......... so good.

but the real question..... how is this going to change the group dynamic........???? how are other 5 going to feel????? i feel like lee know and seungmin do not give two fucks actually lmaooo changbin is probably like MY TURN WHEN?? idk about felix and jeongin i cant really get a read on them............. idk about yall i just wanna see chans reaction and have a good laugh. i talk about chan like i hate him but i dont, i love him. i just like to see my blorbo suffer a lil bit. for character development.

im excited to see them battle tho. its gonna be fun me thinks and hopefully we find about team k sooooooonnnnnn................ i wanna know this drama i wanna know the secrets

another question... how come there are no file leaks for team k?

i literally can't believe how well you've hit on all the intended points...actually kind of floored-

that is mc's biggest conflict, huh? she wants to be detached, she doesn't think she should get close to people, but then she makes an impression anyway. people remember her. maybe it matters more than she thinks, to just...be nice, and be herself. idk maybe that's important 🤔👁

if felix doesnt think its credit card fraud.... then im pretty sure it is credit card fraud

cannot confirm nor deny that it Is just fraud 🤐💀

and as for the lack of file leaks on team k...why would anyone leak files on themselves? 🤐🤐

[kuiinncedes]

i have no idea what to write lskdjfljdk

[bae-belladonna]

A 90 lmaooooo?????