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alren-ki · 4 months

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#awled ren vents #I don't want to blame anyone for this #god knows I have enough trouble talking about feeling bad in the first place #but I'm feeling isolated again #I don't- like- being the one to step up and organize things #especially when people won't work with me #I wanted to play phasmophobia around my birthday with my phasmo group #I asked when people were free and when they wanted to do it and got barely anything in return #and it just felt Bad #I haven't gone out aside from grocery shopping or going to see my mom in forever #and it's making a backslide in my progress #Sometimes I almost think I'll never actually get better #I'm practically housebound #I don't know anyone close enough aside from my dad to help #I don't HAVE Irl friends #every attempt to reach out to people I used to know falls through and it hurts #I'm so fucking tired of being isolated #I'm so fucking tired of bending over backwards for other people and being expected to front flip three times on top of it.#it just makes me feel shitty #and it takes everything I have not to just dump a whole paragraph of 'things that have made me feel bad' and leave #but the idea of hurting them makes me feel shittier #so I'm just- stewing #rotting #thinking maybe it would have been better if I'd never gotten out of that fucking house #maybe it would be better for everyone if I had just never gotten into that thing #and all other sorts of things spiraling the drain #At least I wouldn't be relegated to planning anymore #half of this doesn't make sense. I don't care anymore I don't think

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butchfalin · 10 months

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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

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formulanni · 9 days

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Roan of Arc

Tag list: @st-leclerc @rubywingsracing @saviour-of-lord @three-days-time @the-wall-is-my-goal @albonoooo @ch3rubd0lls

#oh my GOD #I NEED to draw her fighting a dragon #I’m gagged #I love her so bad #she knows how Joan of arc felt fr #not f1 art #and tbh I think I’m just going to be drawing vmas stuff for the next few days 😭😭#chappell roan art #chappell roan #chappell fanart #vmas #mtv vmas #vmas 2024 #formulanni #good luck babe

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chloesimaginationthings · 2 months

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The Mikes and Vanessas celebrate 10 years of FNAF!

#myart #chloesimagination #comic #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #michael afton #mike schmidt #fnaf vanny #fnaf vanessa #vanessa afton #vanessa shelly #freddy fazbear #fnaf movie #security breach #fnaf anniversary #HAPPY FNAF anniversary week!!!#I WANTED to draw a lil thing in celebration 🎉#I’ll probably draw more things throughout the week in celebration #no doubt I’ll have more to draw after announcements/games drop #SUPER excited !!#SO OBVIOUSLY Michael and Vanessa are very excited for the anniversary #they still like Freddy’s after all #they need any excuse they can get to have a good time #though Mike and Vanny aren’t as enthusiastic you could say #Mike think they probably shouldn’t celebrate at all #seeing they’ve only had bad things happen to em 💀#and Vanny is just not even arguing just straight up nah #I bet they’ll get more into the spirit as the week goes on tho 🩵💜#it’s been awhile since I’ve last drawn all 4 of them together!!#so felt the most fitting for rn they return the crew ever

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bumbleboa · 5 months

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tonight's stream drawing

#one piece #monkey d. luffy #roronoa zoro #cat burglar nami #my art #this started out as just nami and then I felt bad for not making it into a bigger piece #so it grew these two dorks

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floccinaucinihilipilificationa · 11 months

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#good omens #´hello friends!! how are you!!#I hope you're doing well! ( ´ ▽ ` )#I have a big cough but otherwise I am good! It's nothign bad I am just very slimey #usually I am not a cough person I am not sure where this is coming from #most of the time I just get a stuffy nose #has my nose gotten stronger #but there are good news too I have already found a VERY good chestnut to put into my pocket this autumn!! its very small! (❁´▽`❁)#it's been a very warm autumn in Germany so far so it has not really felt like fall yet #but yesterday it was all rainy and stormy and I had two new books and it was the best day possible to have a slimey cough (:#and now I feel SO much autumn I am close to buying a set of window colors #I do not know what I would to with the window colors I just have this strong urge in me to buy a window color set #the last time I did a window color was at the birtday of a class mate I think she turned 9 and I made a deer #but for some reason we did this craft 5 minutes before we all had to leave so we had to carry our window color deer home wet #unfortunatly for the deer and me I fell down the stairs of her house and smeared the deer all over me and i screamed the entire drive home #which wasn't very long but it probably felt very long for the mother who had a screaming child covered in window color deer inside her car

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bigfatbreak · 5 months

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Birds of a Feather previous / next

#my art #feralnette au #birds of a feather #long tags #sorry I went apeshit in the tags #LETS SAY IT ALL TOGETHER NOW #I - M - A - G - OOOOOOOOO #its fun drawing marinette's back to Alya and having her appear stout and unstoppable and totally logical #and then you see her face and she's like two seconds from completely snapping and is keeping it together by a thread #as a note just because mari feels very certainly abt smth doesnt mean she's right. feelings can be valid and also irrational #in the throes of grief she decided it was better to be alone than to lose someone again so she started pulling away #and lila made pulling away very very very easy to do #shes also vaguely aware she's being unfair in pinning this on alya which is why she started spinning the drain on cockmoth again #legitimately all the shit that's happened to her wouldn't have been so catastrophic if he was never in the picture and she knows it #but the bitterness of her bestie choosing a fantastic liar over her at the worst of times stiiiiiings #alya's personal timing was bad but lila really took advantage of the fact that marinette had been acting off and weird #she basically clocked marinette as being unstable from SOMETHING and made up a lie about her #knowing she wouldn't have the strength to defend herself #between her social life going tachy bc of lila and losing fu in a way that felt like personhood death marinette was really put on the spot #and alya doing her thing of busting in there and assuming her bias is correct was a terrible combo #essentially marinette is highly unstable and alya is just realizing that #busting in and giving her a lecture when she's slightly hysterical and definitely delirious from exhaustion is NOT the way #to show her she's self sabotaging #cuz thats just gonna make her double down on self sabotaging. bc marinette will not accept that she is also a CHIIIIILD

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welcometogrouchland · 2 months

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Extremely bad batgirls comic I made featuring Steph's sex life and Cass' ability to read everything but the room

#dc comics #dc #stephanie brown #cassandra cain #batgirls #feels really wrong not tagging their ship here. they could be in an open relationship if you want #and Cass is either aspec or not down for sex for another reason and they've talked about it and whatnot #or it's just cass wingmaning steph #also those little scribbles in the bg are. vaguely circuit breaker and red canary BUT ONLY BC I BLANKED ON CHARACTERS-#-IN STEPH AND CASS' AGE GROUP WHO AREN'T GAY MEN OR TIM OR KON OR BART #i could've just had steph fuck a woman but i liked to imagine this could happen in canon. if DC were based (worse. much worse)#anyway normally i hate uploading bad drawings in poor quality but that just felt like the correct medium for this idea #I'm working on two dc for gaza Commissions rn and im a bit blocked w the lineart rn but we're truckin!

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yelly-ink · 1 month

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ethan winters!! <333

I'm absolutely in love with acrylic markers 😭🙏

#why can't my man just live a good life #I've never felt so bad so sorry so sad for a videogame character #ethan winters #resident evil 8 #re8 #my stuff

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obsob · 9 months

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bedtime story with my love !!

#mine #cats #oooooooooogh im so cold....bath time bath time :3 !#i hope everyone is hvaing a good week i am now DONE with work !!!!! hehe !!!!!!!!!!#i might not do any drawing for a little while . maybe just felt tips #also. cannnot for the life of me decide what 2 read...am like 30% way thro assassins fate but Um its . a little intense so im taking a brea #idk what im in the mood for....something....fun... but isnt bad #i feel like all 'light' books r bad. maybe i will just reread the goblin emperor. as i always do when all else fails #also. am going ice skating tomorrow i am SO excited . i hvent been in so so long its so exciting !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#mwah. hve good evening :3

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twinstxrs · 7 months

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fabian’s insistence on calling someone to tell them about lucy & yolanda because he thought people just deserved to know, out of respect. both deeply sweet & incredibly gutting. (bill seacaster move over that’s MY darling boy)

#(who is also his own darling man boy but that’s besides the point)#fabian seacaster #fantasy high #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #dimension 20 #ok sorry for all the posts this ep just gave me a lot of feelings it was so #the bad kids really felt like kids in this one for me. what an honor what an injustice & all that #fantasy high spin off season where it’s four episodes set during summer break and incredibly stupid my god please #FREE THEM

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remxedmoon · 2 months

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see?

everything’s fine.

(greyscale + extras below!!)

so! this was SUPPOSED to be a bonnie drawing. but for some reason i just Can’t draw bonnie to save my life today. and i needed to draw something simple to make myself less frustrated!! and by simple i mean this took me almost 3 hours and i had to redraw it because i didn’t like how the lineart turned out the first time!! oops!! at least it turned out cute🩶. and i got to play around with my textured brush!

also as a bonus, my terrible first attempt + the sketch!! that i apparently accidentally deleted at some point? so this is a screenshot from the timelapse. i dont know what happened to it…