#and it made me cry too :'3 thats not easy to do!!

[rexscanonwife]

‘some might say we’re released, pushing daisies, deceased

but we all know the worms must be fed,

there’s just one lingering fear, oh my soul, is it here?

or is it rotting somewhere with my head?’

[golisopod-mutual]

I finished the funny horse show, it was very good and I am glad I watched it. I knew the general deal w it but still wasn’t expecting to feel quite like I did while watching. I did really enjoy it though

[blingblong55]

Serving your master- Simon "Ghost" Riley NSFW

This is based on a request:

Ok but.. as I read the title to the latest fic “Starving” I thought it said “Serving.” Can you imagine? Poor little sub reader doing whatever our sweet Lieutenant wants. He wants to use your throat? Yes sir. He wants a nice home cooked meal? Yes sir. He wants to bend you over the table to go chasing after his own pleasure? Yes sir.

F!Reader, smut, 18+, MDNI, Sub!reader, Dom!Ghost, housewife!reader, manhandling, (all topics done/said are consensual), masochism,

A/N: voted to be posted first 2/3 votes...so here ya go

A while ago, Simon and you started this new and exciting part of your sexual life. You two started things slowly, first it was him commanding you to kiss him, then slowly undress, this all started off with simple requests. Your needs were no longer his priority...well at times they weren't. If you let another man think you were single, you'd have to get on your knees, ready for his mercy. He takes his wedding ring off and slaps you across the face, each time a little harder, his little toy has been letting other men see her? yeah, he will not have any of that.

It has been months since you two started this Sub and Dom relationship, you both enjoyed it, it was the time when you can have your wildest fantasies made, be treated poorly by him but still be loved. How you loved when he took control, never letting you think for yourself. And how he loved when he'd watch you cry from pain, begging to be hurt more and how easily he complied.

-- A collar on your neck, "Crawl to bed, like the good girl you are." his voice rough and low. You nod, skirt lifting up every now and then when you'd move, his hand prints from minutes ago on your bare ass. You were always at home, so he only allowed you to wear revealing clothes. If you cooked or cleaned, it'd be only when he told you to do so. --

"Make me food, my little toy" his voice soft. He never knew you were into this, letting him be more than a Dom, over doing your role as his wife and his favourite little toy. You were in the kitchen, a somewhat tight skirt on you, hickeys on your legs as you made him lunch. He leaned against the wall, a smirk on him as he watched you make him lunch. -- "Fuckin' listen to me," another slap to your face, "been such a naughty little thing," and another slap. You plead, begging to be touched, but all he does is tie you up whilst you cry. Legs shaking from the quickie you two had in the coffee shop. The car ride back home he made you give him head, thats the reason why your lipstick is smudged and why your mascara was proof enough you have to buy waterproof when with him. -- "She'll have the pasta carbonara," he looked at the waiter and dismissed him. "I actually wanted the-" he gave you a stern look. "never think for yourself, I do that now." was a sentence he had mentioned when you two made the rules for this side of the marriage. He wasn't so controlling, only when he knew you'd be looking at him, pleading him to control you, happened every other day though. -- One night, you had to use your safe word, he had been manhandling you. Tossing you on the bed, slapping and spitting on you. "Fuckin' tight." his hips slammed against your bare ass. The pain was always easy to take and so were his words. You both are masochists, always getting off on the pleasure the wax, life on your skin brought you both. How he would lick the small trails of blood that the knife would bring. But that night he pushed it too hard. He drags orgasms over and over, but you were too sensitive, feeling a little sick and his constant ass slaps weren't helping. "Starfish." you softly say as tears run down. He immediately pulls out, unties you and carries you upstairs and into bed. The entire time he kept apologising.

"I'm sorry, love." he cuddled to you, your back to him. He leaned over and wipes the tears off. "...it hurt a little more than the other times.." "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to get carried away that much.." -- Days when he came back after being gone for months and his missions wouldn't go right, he'd fuck his anger out on you. You'd go and pick him up, as always in your tight shirt and short skirt, he would get in the driver seat, you back to being his passenger princess. He would finger you, lick his fingers and park at some empty place. Take you to the backseat and start to undress you. You weren't aloud to speak, just watch as he undressed you. His fingers in you, his other free hand pressing your stomach, making you scream his name. Eyes shut as he kept finger fucking you. Your wet cunt leaking on his fingers, he would every now and then make you taste yourself. His spit on your thighs, your cheeks red from his slaps, your freshly changed nipple piercings digging a little into your skin, causing that masochist in you to be pleased. -- When you would ride it, he made sure to have your leash at his fist, just in case. Your hands on his neck, choking him lightly, dragging moans and various orgasms from him. He'd slap your face every now and then. He'd pull the leash when he'd tell you to behave, "shut it, I don't need your moans right now." But you didn't listen, you chased your own pleasure. He pulled more, choking you a little, turning you on even more. "I said shut it," a slap to your bare and sensitive tits. Cum leaking from the bouncing, he easily came four times. -- A/N: Not much of a full story...but snippets of your life as his whore...I mean sub :) Better thank me for feeding you, ya nasty whores😝

[autisticlancemcclain]

fic rec friday 22

welcome to the twenty-second fic rec friday! where, on friday, i rec five of my favourite fics.

1. you’re the one that never lets me roam by @littendeservesbetter

If any of his teammates were insulted—if Allura’s leadership was doubted, if Hunk was called too soft, if Pidge was underestimated, if Keith was attacked for his Galran heritage—Lance would defend them in a heartbeat. He knows his team and he loves his second family. He’d defend them to the universe and back.

So why wouldn’t they do the same for him?

-

season 7 episode 4: Lance's thoughts after the game show.

this fic is genuinely one of my favourite handlings of that piece of shit episode ever fr. its klance BUT also not a half-assed apology!! im not articulating this right but my point is that this is handled so well and god bless my fellow lance stans

2. xo by @thespacenico

keith confesses to lance hoping that the expected rejection will help him move on ASAP. it doesn't quite go according to plan.

darcy does not miss!! seriously her fics always make me smile. my two favourite parts of this fic were  that a) when lance didn’t know who keith liked he assumed immediately and wholeheartedly it was hunk. that’s golden right there and b) shiro is a DRAMA LOVING BITCH

3. for you only by @paprbee

"Be mine," Keith mumbles, pleas, against Lance's lips, unwilling to pull away. "Yes," Lance whispers, smiling as Keith brushes their lips together again, pressing up and forward to kiss Keith properly. "You too... be mine, too." "I am," Keith tells him when they break apart reluctantly, their foreheads pressed together, tip of their noses touching, Keith's arms squeezing Lance gently in their hold around his waist and lower back. "I'm yours."

okay i cannot describe how much this fic makes me lose my mind in my own words i literally have to give you guys a snippet of the fic that made me actually cry real tears and struggle to breathe:

"Baby," Keith says softly and it sends a thrill through Lance, hearing pet names from Keith is so rare he always melts when he does hear them, specially when they're whispered against his lips this way. He presses a soft chaste kiss into Lance again before he continues to mutter softly. "My baby, I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you."

its just. the devotion. the repetition. it always fucking gets me. from keith especially, bc hes such a devoted guy!! he is loyal to a goddamn fault and beyond like!!! thats how he loves!! with his whole heart his whole body his whole soul his own being!! he loves and loves and loves!!!

4. i’ll be your romeo by @jilliancares

In a world where Soul Marks show up only after your soulmate has fallen in love with you, it's rare for them to appear when you're not already in a relationship. It's even rarer for them to show up when you're standing on a chair in your favorite coffee shop, screeching at the sight of a spider. Lance becomes well-acquainted with this brand of "rare", and he gets the cute barista, Keith, to help him with the search for his soulmate.

first of all soulmate aus my beloved. second of all jillian fics my beloved. third of all this fic is SO dorky and i love it!! i was hooked by the first scene bc it was just so funny. the way keith falls for lance...hes such a goober i love him

5. finally, you’re mine by @nezueye

“I need you to do me a favor.”

“Okay. Anything,” Keith says easily.

[...]

“Okay so, I just need-“ Lance sighs. He pushes his hands through his hair and braces himself. “I need you to break my heart. Once and for all.”

Keith chokes on his next words. “Excuse me?”

“Break my heart.”

- or -

Does Lance finally get the guy?

this is another devotion fic bc i am fully and completely obsessed with them. i made a seperate rec for this fic a couple months ago bc it truly made my breath stop like i could not process. there were three scenes in particular that made me gasp out loud and make my heart pound. just the easy way they love each other...sobbing

that’s it for today!! i’ll see y’all back next friday for the next fic rec post!!!  

[curiouslyattractivefishman]

I really should update these but!!! These are my guys!!!

So I was an Undertale/CoDZ kid so AU's are a part of the inspiration (in the sense of I don't have to create a new character from scratch, I made Ari before I gave DmC a chance, and only made Zona after that fact).

Here comes a wall of text so have fun with that :))

Arizona - Small spring/Great Oak

Armani - Warrior

Ambrosi - Immortal

I liked the idea of having an alliterative name, and I like to keep my names for demons Italian/Latin due to works like The Divine Comedy, as well as the sheer amount of religious talk in the cultures.

Ari is a goofball, he likes to play and hop and frolic. He's protective of the people close to him. He only really causes mischief, and pranks. He doesn't want to hurt anyone, only cause them a small amount of inconvenience. If a joke goes too far, you'll often find that he's the first to jump in to help resolve the problem. He often steals pens from Dante, spare Devil Breakers from Nero, and tools from Nico. He's sweet, and he's kind, playful, and dumb. While his Demon Form is much stronger, he often uses it to help people feel better. He's a huge fluffy boi, and that makes it easy for others to calm down and feel safe around him.

Zona, however, is much colder. Yes, he wants humans to be free of such a, shall I say, abusive ruler in Mundus, but Zona used to be something of a feral Demon. (I can't personally decide if this part of his Backstory is that Vergil tamed the feral Zona, or if Zona was injured and became indebted to Vergil after the Nephilim helped him.) But he is Vergil's Right Hand Man, hanging just behind the blue Nephilim and waiting to do his boss's dirty work. He enjoys playing with the creatures Vergil needs dead, and the fact that Dante is Vergil's twin does NOT save the red Nephilim. Throughout the course of DmC: Devil May Cry, Zona is curt with Dante after Vergil invites him to help The Order, and is polite with Kat, Vergil's Right Hand Mystic. However, after the twins fight at the end of the game and Vergil disappears into his portal, Zona turned tail and ran off, meeting back up with Vergil after the events of Vergil's Downfall. At this point, Vergil has become the Demon King, and he formally appoints Zona as his Second In Command, his confidant. (ALSO ZONA IS SOOOOOOOOO GAY FOR VERGIL ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️)

AAAAAAA THATS SO COOL!!!!! I LOVE HEARING DmC OCS ESPECIALLY BC THERES SO MUCH TO WORK WITH!!!!

ARI SEEMS LIKE A JOY TO BE AROUND I LOVE UR OCS DUDE…

this is my OG timeline Oc! her name is Asmara and she is Nero’s mom! (the quality is FUCKED BC TUMBLR HATES ME)

She’s a succubus and Vergils VERY ESTRANGED ex-gf.

She’s 400~ years old and from Indonesia. She was the firstborn of a king and queen in Indonesia, making her a princess. She is the oldest sibling and sister to 3 brothers.

She was turned into a succubus in her 20’s.

She was hiding in Fortuna when she met Vergil. At first they didn’t get along, but the two eventually begin to care for eachother as time goes on, which leads to them jumping into a relationship.

Vergil breaks it off because he thinks she’s weak and making him soft, and leaves her, telling her he never loved her. (He’s lying).

She’s forced to abandon Nero, as she’s being hunted down by the King Asmodeus, and since everyone in Fortuna fucking hated her, they told Nero how much of a whore his mother was.

Since she’s been turned succubus, she still technically has Human DNA, which is recessive to Vergil’s dominant genes, making Nero look almost nothing like her.

She is really kind and motherly, but more of a mama bear character. If you mess with her son, or her loved ones, she’s hunting you down.

Her weapon is a copper whip that is embedded with the spirits of her ancestors. She also has the ability to produce sparks from her palm (which are rather weak but become MUCH stronger when channeled through her whip)

She was eventually captured by Asmodeus and was trapped until (in my AU) Urizen killed him, which set her free. Not knowing who Urizen truly was, she ran away, not looking back, searching for her son.

Reuniting with everyone is definitely… an experience.

She keeps her distance with Vergil. She (unfortunately) still loves him but knows better than to fall for him a second time. They don’t go out of their way to interact, and every conversation they have is extremely awkward.

With Nero, she is a great mother, supportive and caring and just wants to make sure he’s happy, but she doesn’t seem to understand that it’s gonna take some time for him to process everything he’s going through.

She’s cool with Dante! She enjoys his quips and finds him funny.

She helps out at the orphanage and all the children call her “Mama Mara”. She is extremely proud of all of them and loves them all as if they were her own

now for my trainwreck; Ángel

(i never properly drew them lmfao)

Ángel is my DmC OC, and as their name suggests they are an angel!

Their full name is Virtue Ángel Amare de Pluma, but since Dante didn’t bother trying, it’s just Ángel.

(He still pronounces it as Angel, too)

Ángel is a Virtue angel, and their job specifically is to save the souls of every from Limbo City, since the demon menace has been cleansed. They are rather stubborn and close minded, and truly unknowing of the Human world, or what humans are forced to live through, making them come off as a huge bitch, but they truly do have only the best intentions in mind. Due to how they were raised as an angel, they view themselves above humans, and sees it as a simple fact, though they are kind to them, they are quick to cast out or judge those who aren’t believers. Their personal ‘pet project’ is saving Dante’s soul.

Dante, of course tells them to fuck off, but realizes that Ángel is really the only person who can somewhat relate to him.

Their relationship starts off really rocky. Imagine the Jehova’s Witness knocking at your door every 4 AM and telling you all your sins. Yeah.

Ángel finds Dante’s overall horniness abhorrent and repulsive. Dante keeps flirting with them because he finds it hilarious how flustered he’s able to make them. The two warm up to each other slowly. Ángel does become a more accepting of Dante’s nature even though they deny it vehemently, they refuse to have anyone believe that they enjoy his sin. And Dante learns more of what it is to be a Nephilim, and about being an angel. Like how everyone gets along in this universe; its mostly trauma dumping until the become friends.

Ángel’s relationship with Kat is much better! They are always kind to her and the two get close rather quickly. Ángel is always there to protect and support Kat, no matter what. Kat is actually the person to make Ángel realize the beauty, rather than responsibility, that humanity is.

all three end up in a poly relationship teehee

[eyothings]

Myths of the Realm (spoilers)

Now that we can talk freely about it: What can i say? I think i have been served from the beginning to the end with it.

Not only the best music of the whole raid is the Uldha one, where my wol is born and has lived for many years, but Deryk is none other than her deity Oschon (I knew he was him all along so it was super funny to read his lines when he pretended to be human, especially at the beginning when he tried to avoid the wol as much as possible) and he is the only one who gets to stay - thanks to a monkey (that are my favorite animals) and us (heh) I have been served so well - it even managed to help me unlock some dark areas in my OC lore. As for the Deryk shippers, congrats you've won big time here haha The story is super romantic whether it's platonic or not (On my part i see more Oschon as a big mentor or a brother for my Wol, someone she'll always feel very close to, like a soulmate but not on a romantic level)

For the story, at first i didn't understand why they really wanted to die, they could have accepted their condition as deity and stay with us, but then i realized everything they might have been through all those centuries, not only changing physically but having to deal with weird stories like the whole incest family tree - talk about awkward situations - i believe at some point i'd have wanted to die asap just to keep whats left of my dignity.

I find that very funny that Menphina is the only one who felt the need to clarify her relationship with Oschon, but not Althyk and Nymeia nor Azeyma and Thaliak! (I see what you did there writers!)

Each of the twelves stories were amusing and touching (especially Azeyma TT-TT), and the whole ending made me cry so hard, i think the last time i cried like this was for Elidibus with Pandaemonium story line.

I read people saying that there was no more deities in this world, and i kind of disagree with it, i think the twelves will be back some day - If i understood correctly, they all decided to go back to the aetherial sea but they left behind some benedictions on Etheirys, meaning that, those benedictions will now receive the prayers instead of the twelves - and then i remember the primals and what happened before we board on the ragnarok and it gives me the hint that some day, those benedictions might just take the form of the twelves - Thats only a theory tho I'm also sad, people who have Thaliak and Llymlaen as a deity didn't get the chance to have a private moment with them (it could have been added after the final fight before they left as a special cutscene tho, but at least they added a special line for them, as Oschon did too and it made me cry lol)

Now when it comes to the raid and fight itself: • I think it was way too easy, the final boss really should add more random mechanics that we learned from the first raids • Aglaia was the hardest of them 3, and i really loved the vibes there, especially with Azeyma and Nald, the landscapes were amazing ! • I wish Sharlayan would look more like Thaliak's place too ! • I do love the secret mechanic they added on Llymlaen and seeing people spamming emotes on her • The hardest part of Oschon's fight was to manage to stay focused - This man is so beautiful, thats insane (and his japanese voice is incredible) ↓ This is the manliest mechanic i've ever seen ↓

In conclusion, Myth of the realms is one of the best alliance raid to me (Construct 7 will always stay my favorite boss tho) I'm sad to know that there are no ancient anymore, and i hope Dawntrail will give us an amazing story as profound as what we got from ARR to EW, as much as amazing characters too !

[deathberi]

I wasn't super baby, I was only 5 when it came out and my brother bought it. But I think I played it by myself the first time when I was like 9 or 10. I don't remember how I felt playing it, as I said, my English wasn't the best, but I got drawn into the world and story either way, without knowing details.

And so happy when other OG fans of Clerith exist, I get Remake just made it super easy to fall in love with them, but tiny pixel!Clerith ;;

And I do feel kinda bad for being anime only fan, haha. I just didn't read lots of manga when I was younger, especially not longer ones, so just never started. But I'm making that right now, bought the first out of the three boxes with 20 volumes in it, so I can start anytime and buy the other 2 when I'm done and have the money. : D

(And I'm just now finishing Rebirth for the third time or the last two chapters, I finished all the sidequests earlier (even the last one that was sent from hell, haha. And I just finished watching Aerith's trial in the Temple again and can't stop crying, haha)

//☁️🌏🍓💀

90s babies are not old dont call yourself that jshdjdjs 😂w even as a kid im pretty obsessive with understanding everything related to my favs and i dont really attach to a lot then so really they were one of my very first loves~ i think being long time fans really just make it all the more kind of...exciting? idk the most apt term i suck at english calming at the same time? for us when knowing that there are more of us like that out there <3 and that are still here after all these years

well at least you're beating me in the physical copy department? lol i literally only have just the matching ichiruki covers 😂 kubo's volume cover gaming is really good though so i definitely considered collecting everything before but nahhh it flew out of my priority list since i buy lots of other collectibles anyway. really cool you got the first set now though thats already a lottt~~ must be nice looking at them :3

(nice? or not nice? ToT im still not immuned to the last chapter... i've played it full twice, rewatched the cutscenes endlessly its part of editing >w<... aerith's trial is something i cant get through without making a mess of my face like hnggg that was too...too much my baby girl!!!!!! i still have a few sidequests to go and tbh im not that all in to do the remaining ones yet (lol some T&Y quests) but my latest rebirth achievement would be uhhh i finished the world intel! i havent decided on my next goal for rebirth im not really in a hurry to get the plat, maybe should start on a hard mode playthrough bc i didnt set that at first so i'd get done through the story very quickly >w<)

[i-know-a-place-we-could-go]

Do u think u could share tips on how to recover from an ED if ur comfortable with it ? I’m struggling a lot recently even tho I thought I was doing better

absoutely!!! i think this will just be me rambling because i dont actually know how ot explain recovery skdhskdha if thats cool? if you need anything, you can dm me too

putting this under a cut just in case!!

first, find a reason to recover. my reason is the having an ED is fucking terrifying and hurts me so much, as well as everyone around me. i realized this when i told my girlfriend about it and she looked at me so, so scared, and when i started passing out every week.

a recovery motivation for me is comparison photos. not bodychecks, because they won't help, but photos of my face from before my ED and during the worst of it. I hated how i looked before, but i hate how i look at my worst even more. I look dead and scary. Everyone was worried for me and I was so, so fucking mean, and all of that made me wanna recover.

tips uhm uhmm start slow. i added snacks to my day before i gradually increased the number of meals i was having too. have someone by your side to encourage recovery and help you on the bad days. stop checking calories and everything, stop weighing yourself. for me, i decided to weigh myself every other day then once a week and now i only do it about twice a month at my mother's request.

you are going to put on weight, and thats okay. its what your body needs. start with just eating which is the hardest part. get three meals in a day, two snacks, or as your body needs. listen to what it wants. then you can start focusing on a balanced array of meals with proper protein, carbs, sugars, nutrients, etc etc. its a pretty dull area, balancing everything out, and i honestly didnt pay much attention to it because i just focused on what i was craving (which surprise, was a lot of sugars and fruits) and that helped me a lot. then comes fear foods! scary as shit but its literally just food. you are going to have it and you are gonna be okay, nothing will happen to you. i sometimes record myself during those meals so i can remind myself that i did it later on and that nothing happened to me after.

its also okay to cry about it. for a solid month i made myself dinner every single night and i cried while doing it and i cried while having it. honestly 10/10 cry it was good. watching shows or youtube while having meals helped me too as a distraction and its also just fun. find a comfort show or yotuube channel or something and youll be okay. youll feel so much more energized and happier when you start.

DRINK WATER DRINK SO MUCH WATER AND HAVE SALT!!!! so important for ur energy and not fainting.

recovery isnt linear. theres gonna be days where you mess up some places and thats okay. maybe youll relapse fully and thats okay, you can and will get back into recovery. its not easy, but its worth it, and it gets easier every single day. idk if this was helpful at all, i hope it was, if you need anything dm me <3 good luck soldier

[seongminiz]

🧁 anon here, again, pls don’t feel pressure to entertain me but i thought there may be a 🤏🏻 small chance you’d be interested in my current unhinged thoughts.. thinking about how hyeongjun always has to have his way, gets mad when he’s not in control which of course makes him a very bratty sub but as i am claiming the made up title of president of the dom! swaying/leaning hyeongjun fanclub i’m trying to push the agenda that reader is always easily able to rile him up and he gets so mean when he’s mad </3 and that’s where my brain stops working rn but i will continue to think on ways that jjunie would be into punishing reader cuz i’ve got nothing better to do thank u :)

YES I AM VERY INTERESTED ACTUALLY LETS GO DOM!HYEONGJUN NATION‼️‼️‼️‼️

u r so right tbh ,, he gets riled up over every little thing n its so easy to get him to be mean to u , to the point sometimes he doesn't even realize you're doing it on purpose bc hes too focused on putting u in your place :(

ik i say this in all of my jjuni posts but hes the #1 dacryphilia enjoyer in vity like he will make u cry thats his ultimate goal no matter how hes punishing you.

with that said, his go-to way for punishing u when you're acting bratty is for sure edging. be it with his hands (side note, hyeongjuns hands r sooo ★_★), his mouth, a vibrator... or more than one of those at the same time, he won't be satisfied until he has you begging and in tears, apologizing for being a brat and promising you won't do it again (u definitely will)

if you're lucky n hyeongjun likes ur apology enough , maybe he'll even let u suck his dick after hes done edging u ! isnt he just so nice ? but u wont get to have him inside of u any time soon , hes someone who holds grudges pretty easily :3

[petorahs]

☀️ i am so sad, i heared that they wont include anything from fes or portable, so no femc, no answer or the like. I hate it here, why this disrespect to my girl Minako i will fight somebody at atlus HQ

oh. well i will say it straight (the only thing straight about me i fear lol) but thats likely not entirely true, ☀️ anon. idk if youve seen this post but it sums it up pretty well https://www.tumblr.com/petorahs/719925542729695232

and the full article published a while later:

bad ign reporting aside, i was also pretty upset at first since no femc and the answer! but then i saw a good point someone made about the femc case:

persona 3 reload has reportedly been in development for four years. and in that four years thats standard time to build a game from the ground up, maybe even too little – anyone who's been in game dev can tell us that. p3re doesnt reuse assets, too, it's completely from scratch. so having femc isnt simply a matter of model swap. they'd also have to program the UIs and make everything pink - sure, that could be "easy", but there's also the changed social links and team dynamics (more writing to be done), weapon system and all that (more coding)? so its like... i'd be actually surprised if they managed a femc during those 4 years. its quite a lot of work to re-adapt base p3 as is i feel and modernizing it. also i feel like atlus themselves wouldnt want to do their character and her fanbase wrong so of course they wouldnt fkn slap on a few pink menus and call it a day. they surely want to rewrite the s links and everything too in accordance to her. art takes time.

(with all that being said bullying atlus for femc is warranted actually maybe then her inevitable dlc might come faster lmao )

similarly, im fine with no "the answer" now despite being its #1 defender. theyd have to completely rework the 30:2 hour grinding to story ratio which is just not sustainable on a modern gameplay perspective. that also takes time.

its why i made this post actually. i somehow trust them, and i feel like most of us can stand to chill a little and have healthier expectations. as in not overbloated and not have the bar set in hell either (altho we should also do that too)

and i know, like anyone who's played this game, it means so much to so many people. and thats why its maybe impossible to please everyone, because its so many different things: a game that saved their life, a funny goofy lighthearted one where you catch demons, the most depressing persona game ever (altho i feel like p2 would beg to differ on that one-), or for me personally, a game that just made me cry man.

and because it means so much, everyone wants to see it be the best it can be!! and that means having hamuchan. i get that all of this riot energy is out of love for the game, really. but. yeah.

a remake seems like it's "less work to do" since the foundation's "already there" and i dont know how many people worked on p3re but like. i highly doubt theyre just sitting on their asses pissing off fans on purpose lol. (or maybe they are and im just too optimistic damn 😭)

[ahundredtimesover]

Hey Mimi!

It is my first time sending you a message, I thought I should let you know how much I love your work. I think I came across one of your JK fic about 3 years ago, probably PLM and I haven’t stop reading you ever since. I think its time to finally let you know, its the least I could do as one of your reader ☺️

Not gonna lie, I’m kind of picky when it comes to the plot and universes/themes but plm and inevitable became my comfort fics (and my favorite too) and I regularly read again some of my favourite parts, like the big fight in plm part 2 lol (you made me cry……)

I love your stories as a whole but to me you’re the author that write the best angsty pieces and I am a sucker for angsty fics, hardships, heartbreaks and all that stuff with happy endings so thats why I absolutely love reading you ! Its like you read my mind but write even better fics.

To be honest I wasn’t sure I was going to enjoy the work environment of IWYTS and the boss/assistant dynamics, not usually what I tend to read, but once again its you and I ended up reading the first 2 chapters until 4am yesterday. So yeah I can’t wait to read the next chapters and its definitely going to be another masterpiece :) it took you half of a chapter to prove me wrong actually. 

I ended making this ask about me when I wanted to tell you how amazing of an author you are and thank you for sharing your passion with us, taking the time to write such beautiful stories. Its really impressive to see how you build your characters with amazing and deep personalities, how easy it is to understand them even if we are not alike at all, we get attached to them nonetheless, and how perfectly written the storylines are. I think we can all tell how hard you work on those aspects and I have so much respect for authors, I guess it takes time and a lot of self-indulgence and its really inspiring! I even think of writing for myself after reading for the nth time my favorite fics of you bc I wish I was able to write such perfect stories haha

So yeah, long ask but I really wanted to thank you because it brings me so much joy and peace to read your fics, I’ll obviously continue reading and supporting you and wish you the very best always !! Sending you so much love 🤍🤍🤍🩵🩵🩵

ANONNNN THIS IS SO SWEET you’ve got me all 🥹😭🥹😭🥹☺️☺️☺️🥹🥹 first of all, HI! Thank you for making me feel the love! It’s always nice to know about the comfort that my stories bring to people.

And I totally get you! I’m pretty particular with the storylines, too. It’s why I started writing - there were all these good stories that inspired me to come up with my own plots that I specifically liked, and here I am now! (Here’s your reminder that you can totally do it and you’ll surprise yourself 😉)

Thank you also for commenting that about the characters. It’s one of my favorite things about writing - being able to write the complexities of human beings, their emotions and desires and fears and stuff. Like, I try not to write antagonists in my stories but I do write the main characters as flawed individuals (which may rile people up 🫣) and just being able to write out their journey as they try to become better is always so satisfying. I was just talking about it with a friend how emotionally draining it is but it’s all worth it when I get messages from people saying they can relate.

But I also understand your feelings about IWYTS. It’s not my go-to au bc I’m particular with power dynamics as well so I try to navigate carefully. Not sure but this story might surprise you! But thank you for giving it a chance ☺️☺️ i hope it doesn’t disappoint.

Sending you all the love, anon! This is enormously appreciated. I hope you’re well always 💕💕💕

[taegularities]

Rid you're crazyyyyyyyyyyy

just finished cmi11 IM FUCKING CRYING holy shit that was so good oh god

first of all the conversation between oc and her mom made me cry so hard- it hit home for me, as a girlie with mommy issues, that part felt so real to me. Oc's courage to stand up for herself like that and tell her how much she hurt her own daughter is something i dont have in me. It broke my fucking heart, that yearning feeling, i cant believe you put that specific feeling into words rid [are u part of the mommy issues community as well🧐 or are u just that amazing, a true fucking artist (i saw that anon calling you the beyonce of ff and i agree 100%)] idk how to describe my feelings rn, that part definitely left a mark in my heart, ill never forget it

second the domesticity in these two dorks oh my goddddd they're driving me crazy, theyre so cute and in love and im in love with them and i want to cry bc i want what they have but bc irl men suck the hopeless romantic in me is gonna have to live through fanfics for the rest of my life and that makes me fucking miserable but bless the fanfic gods like you that keep my soul alive, idk what id do without you

lastly that scareeeeee oh god like i knew itd be a negative but it had my heart beating out of my ass (idk if thats a phrase) but the way they handled it oh god, the emotionsssssss the fears and insecurities, just reminded me that theyre human, even if theyre the most fucking adorable characters ever, theyre still human and i loved seeing such nuance. You really are doing an amazing job rid, not only writing the story, scenes and dialogue, but also the way you write these characters in such depth, its so fucking refreshing to see.

i want to kiss your beatiful head that holds your beautiful brain, seriously ive never ever been so enchanted by a piece of writing before (and i read so much fanfiction its like an addiction) you are by far my strongest fix. For real tho, your writing, and particularly cmi has touched me deeply and I'll never ever forget it. So thank you

Rest assured and stop doubting yourself bc youre seriously incredible and so fucking talented. Now rest up and take care of yourself, i imagine its not easy to birth such work (i mean 36k you monster, i loved every second of it but damn girl take a break before you burn your brain out) but no srsly i hope youre eating well, sleeping well and doing things that make you happy and relaxed. You deserve all the best of this world rid🫂🩷

sincerely ~ 🐼✒️anon

panda hi hello oh my gosh, sorry for being late, but you mentioned so many important things, so i wanted to take my time HELLO!! never stop sending these lovely af reviews 🥺

i know... she really is inspiring bc the courage to stand up against someone you feared for so long is admirable. i'm part of both the mommy and daddy issues community even though it's gotten a lot better lol like i wonder why it's such a recurring theme in my fics 🤣 i'm so sorry you could relate to oc :( but i'm glad you liked the scene so much.

and ahhh the domesticity 🤧 it's been so so fun and relaxing to write!! real life romance can be hard to find, yeah :') so i guess writing these scenes and chapters has been extra cathartic (although it drives me crazy, too — the next chapter has been making me so jejfhdjjsgd), but here's to finding a cmi jk irl soon :') much more to come!!!🕯️

the scare was one hell of a ride 🥺 i cried a lot!! and even i have been realising lately that i sometimes try to make my characters flawless, but that's actually not what i wanna go for. i always snap out of it and then try to make them flawed bc they're human, and i think the cmi couple, despite how endearing they are, is definitely vv flawed :') thank you for pointing that out 🥺

your strongest fix?? girl PLEASE ILL CRY 😭💔 i love you so much, you're so sweet for saying that and seeing me in such a way, pls i want you here forever <3 i rested a lot after cmi11! but ngl, cmi11.5 almost burned me out ksjdhehd gonna rest even more after that hehe. tyssssm, i hope you're well and healthy and i appreciate you so much for your kindness, reassurances and love for this series/me. love you so much 🤍

[sharpth1ng]

Trans Anon here. Your answer made me cry but in a good way 😭 cause I know I'm not a woman but you're right, it's not all or nothing and can change. I was probably stressing myself out too much. Perhaps the Cis version really is better for my mental health right now. Will the sequel have both versions too? (NO PRESSURE) I absolutely want to read the trans version one day without pressuring myself. I think it's amazing that you did this version 💗 thank you so much, now I'm gonna cry some more bc crying feels good 💗

Hey, I'm so glad my answer helped a little. Its really easy to get in your head about it. The world wants us to be 100% sure about our gender and our needs before we even get to explore it and try it out and thats a lot of pressure.

There will definitely be both versions for the sequel as well, yeah. No pressure to ever read the trans version either, do whats right for you <3

[ftpverse]

Fragmented at Best an early FtPverse Riku angst mix

what it says on the tin. a replica boy who has a new life and a chance to start over but starting over isn't easy, is it? healing never is

-> [ listen ] <-

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tracklist + liner notes under the cut

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lies - evanescence you will never be strong enough you will never be good enough you were never conceived in love

hurting for a very hurtful pain - soraru & lon (とても痛い痛がりたい) i want you, it's you i want. // it shouldn't hurt anymore, but… the awful pain's right here in my chest…

imperfection - skillet can i be somebody else for all the times i hate myself

marionette - kredo (instrumental)

never forgive, never forget - the dear hunter but i was damned from the very start and bound by crooked plan then i was left for dead with my head in the ground and my hands tied behind my back

breaking the habit - linkin park memories consume, like opening the wound i'm picking me apart again

song to say goodbye - placebo you are one of god's mistakes you crying, tragic waste of skin

nothing left here to burn - lovers and liars broken record on the stereo shattered glass from a past i can't let go i hope to hell this is the last time i ever hurt

-error - kagamine len cover am i broken? i'm broken all right even so, i want, i want to breathe

sleepsong - bastille all you want is someone onto who you can cling

in your skin - lifehouse wake up, take a breath, remember why you're even breathing you're still alive give in, give it up, you're the only one believing in all of your lies

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some other notes:

this was salvaged from across like 3 mixes minimum lol. me cherrypicking the best songs and then furiously punching them into a coherent narrative. most of the songs i left out were Extremely Angst Focused to the point of being like. kind of hard for me to listen to haha. and mostly jsut there as angst for angst sake instead of really 100% fitting him; however shoutout to already over pt2 by RED (very fond of but something i could not tonally fit in the mix) and castle of glass by linkin park (song that has always made me think about repliku general that i'm fond of but really is too repliku general and not ftpverse specific enough, haha)

shoutout also to soulseeker by thomas bergerson, which i do consider to be one if riku's soundtrack themes, with marionette being the other. while i love the angry/desperate refrain of soulseeker quite a bit, it's just... marionette is the better of the two of riku's soundtrack themes, especially for this mix, because of: 1) better song flow 2) more coherent 3) i just like it way more and remember always regretting not knowing about it when i made the soundtrack/mixes that preceded me discovering it haha. the angry refrain is much more raw and the use of electronics (a genre i enjoy more than general orchestral and also relate to him more; both as a character and as a music genre he likes to listen to) just feels more fitting . for him . to me.

soulseeker is great out of tsfh's library but sometimes they can't all be tsfh songs, you know. (<- sentences that only really mean anything to me and probably just magik, but maybe also to the five people who were keeping up with the blogspot in 2013-2014)

other than that my thoughts are general 1) you WILL take my vocaloid songs and you WILL like it 2) me frantically picking one of three potential lifehouse songs... i forget the runner ups but in the end "in your skin" both fuckored me more and was more fun to listen to :)

er, and, 3) i went with breaking the habit over somewhere i belong becuase somewhere i belong was in the TTH ost mix lol!!! and also because breaking the habit means a lot ot me!!!!! for ftp riku!!! it's a classic!!!!

also its funny becuase sleepsong is quite not early angst (i strongly relate it to a chapter inthe 160s of dead inside lol) but thats fine its fine

last thought: im so mad i couldn't think of a better cover for the mix but who care..... was not deseprate enough to reread the manga about it lol

[hikari-ni-naritai]

multiples of 3^^

oh god thats so many

3. Do you like to get 100% achievements?

if its something within reach yeah! i have a few games 100%ed. huniepop for one. its actually a dream of mine to one day 100% huniepop in a single run of the game. itd be hard but i believe in myself.

6. Last game you finished?

finished...... uhhh sakura shrine girls. if id beaten that last monster in monster hunter i couldve said that but i failed. oh well

9. A console and/or handheld you’ve never played but would like to try?

i think my cousin had a dreamcast and i was kind of fascinated by the weird controller shape. i dont think theres any games im specifically interested on it but i would like to mess around with one.

12. answered already!

15. answered already!

18. A game you’d like to replay that you haven’t

mmm are there any? ive replayed most of the games i enjoyed enough to play once. i want to finish my 2nd playthrough of ff14 though. im still in stormblood on that.

21. A boss you think is really cool

does rakna-kadaki von monsterhunterrise count. shes not really a boss unless you consider all monsterhunter monsters to be bosses. OH. OH RIGHT FUCK. hephaistos ff14. i love that fight. raid bosses count as bosses for sure. i just redid that one earlier tonight

24. A “Wow” moment of awe

i think the first time i really experienced something like this was the first time i played through twilight princess when you swordfight ganondorf at the end. it was like. such a wildly different experience from the standard like "swing your sword and you'll maybe clang against the enemy and not do damage" like it felt to child emily like a real proper swordfight. i thought it was really cool.

27. already answered!

30. Spyro or Crash Bandicoot?

crash bandicoot babeyyyyyyyyyyyyy there was this guy at my old church who was like a full ass middle aged adult and he was friends with my parents and we'd go over to visit sometimes and he'd let us go up into his weird attic where he just had a ps1 for some reason and me and my brother played crash bandicoot up there a lot. good times. it was a little hot in his house. he lived right on the street where they had community festivals every summer so it was nice to have a base to go back to when we got tired outside. his front lawn was small but it was good to lay in and watch fireworks from. real nice guy. im rambling. crash bandicoot rules

33. Someone has never played a video game before but is open to trying any genre. What game would you recommend as their first?

if im throwing my anxiety out the window, id probably recommend super mario bros the original. if youve never played a video game, it would be really hard to get recommended something with a complex control scheme or unintuitive menuing and shit. so something with just a few buttons and an easy-to-understand goal is probably good for a starting point. im sure theres a lot of platformers like that.

36. What platform do you play on?

pc but i have a lot of old nintendo consoles and a ps4. just in case. its hard to get the gumption for them tho

39. Do games need difficulty sliders?

i think difficulty options would be more doable. its important that games are accessible to people with disabilities that would prevent them from playing on whatever the base difficulty is.

42. Worst game you ever played?

im very easy to please. i remember being very disappointed by various kart racers in my youth though. at least, i played them once and did not play them again. there was an m&m branded kart racer for the wii, and also i found diddy kong racing for n64 to be too slow for my tastes. but also i was a child.

45. Favorite content creator?

settled, the runescape guy who made the morytania-locked ultimate iron man account. i just recently rewatched his 12-hour video compilation of that. i literally came close to crying a couple times. its good.

48. Most satisfying villain death?

i havent killed him yet but theres no way i wouldnt be satisfied with the death of that fucking bastard in tales of berseria. one day im going to kill him. fuck that guy. i would say asahi ff14 bc i hate him with the passion of 10,000 suns but his death was not satisfying. i would like to kill him over again.

51. How often do you skip cut scenes?

never unless ive seen it before. well, except the cutscenes in monster hunter rise for when u go on a hunt for a new monster. i sometimes skp those. but in most cases i wouldnt dare.

54. answered!

57. Ask anything you wish!

lena please u have to give me something for this one. its okay i will provide the question. "whats a game everyone should play no matter what even if they dont think its that good?"

play shining force

[danielarlingtongf]

mid year book freak out tag

ty @oliviermiraarmstrongs!

1. Best Book You’ve Read So Far in 2022? the mirror and the light by hilary mantel... im fine im so fine

2. Best Sequel You’ve Read So Far in 2022? also the mirror and the light, LOL, but shoutout to jade war by fonda lee (a reread) and for the throne by hannah whitten

3. New Releases You Haven’t Read Yet, But Want To? notes on an execution by danya kukafka, the daughter of dr moreau by silvia moreno garcia, when we lost our heads by heather o’neill, the stardust thief by chelsea abdullah, mean baby by selma blair, the force of such beauty by barbara borland

4. Most Anticipated Release for Second Half of 2022? bloodmarked by tracey deonn!

5. Biggest Disappointment? the cartographers by peng shepherd — the premise was so cool but honestly the writing just felt clunky

6. Biggest Surprise? i rly shouldn’t be surprised because i adore zen cho, but order of the pure moon reflected in water was so funny and such a delight!

7. Favorite New Author? i read a lot of authors i’ve read before this year, but margaret owens and ryan la sala were new to me and so good in their genres

8. Newest Favorite Character? not to be on whatever the bookt0k ppl are on but i’ve only had whitman tagore for 5 minutes and if anything happens to her i’ll kill everyone in the room and also myself

9. Newest Fictional Crush? mr carrie soto (yes thats his name) you are so personal to me

10. Book That Made You Cry? lmao i cry way too easy so. the mirror and the light; carrie soto is back; i kissed shara wheeler; the heart principle; vespertine

11. Book That Made You Happy? half a soul by olivia atwater!

12. Favorite Book Adaptation You Saw This Year? only bad book adaptations this year. no peace. ever. :/

13. Favorite Review You’ve Written This Year?

14. Most Beautiful Cover? mouthful of birds by samanta schweblin

15. What Books Do You Need To Read By the End of the Year? god. uhhhh. all of them i can’t decide!

tagging @caradocdearborn @redarysvaledren @letthebookbegin @tridentari @beholdingslut