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nyancatofficial · 2 years

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MUTUALS! may i have all of your cosplay ideas please <3

#i was gonna do alma but i forgot that i get rly dysphoric cosplaying guys so #and its NEXT MONTH i dont have much time #i would do pyramid head but its for a con so i wouldnt be able to go anywhere

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thatsgonnaleaveamark · 2 months

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booked a hotel and got the concert ticket aghhhh

#i talk #still gotta get the train ticket too but mannn i get way too worked up over this stuff #been procrastinating it for like a month now like i Want to go but there are so many unknown variables and that shit is scary #first time going to a concert in another country alone and i spent a lil more than i wouldve wanted but hopefully its gonna be worth it #and like im most likely completely overthinking this (as i do most things) and everythings gonna be completely fine #but ahh so many what if's so much uncertainty #but im also excited its like a tiny step outside of my comfort zone and you gotta start somewhere bc id love to travel alone more #(mostly bc i wanna travel but dont have anyone to go with but thats a whole other thing)#and ive been rly into this band for a few years now and i really want this chance to see them live bc theres prob not gonna be another one #(watch them come to my city next year lmaoo)#god im not made for this but do it scared!! do it alone!! i want to experience more things in life!!#ive literally talked to my therapist about this extensively and to several coworkers and everyones like do it! its a great first step!#went through every thing that could go wrong (but very likely will not) and alternatives for every situation

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b4kuch1n · 2 years

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wizard looking for a way home (aka wizard of dark space)

#pokemon #swsh #champion leon #wizard leon babeyy!#thank u to cosme for hangin out with me while I figure this one out lol #this! is the piece I used for the ''speedpaint'' thingy btw. I'll try to put together the video over the next month or so #lol. usually when I make wizard leon designs I riff with what comes up and think abt like. maybe his affinity in this set #like ''oh he'd do fabric talismans. oh he'd levitate. he does poppet stuff''#that at most. but this. the moment I started fleshing this one out I was like #oh he's really lost. for a very long time. to the point he's learned so much he's forgotten what many of the things on his suit does #like lmao I guess I can Not be normal about any astronaut leon huh!! its chronic for me #I couldnt get to some of the questions folks asked with this one. so this video will probably not be comprehensive #but I'll make another when those things come up!!#fksjdfk sorry lads most of u guys asked abt colors but idk if this ones the best for that. its got a preddy concrete palette #guess I can save talking about the more insane color stuff for when that comes up too...#we'll see!! hope it's gonna happen #for now. one more wizard leon for the book. have a good night lads!#tie a yarn round ur wrist dont forget the way back

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skunkes · 4 months

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if life is categorized by Before Loss and After Loss then I exist in the before but with a countdown to the after. and the countdown is always always present and debilitating. the loss will be debilitating too but i cant help myself. i will always suffer twice.

#i cant let go of it. i cant even enjoy good moments without thinking about how they'll just be memories one day #how they're already memories since moments pass so fast #everything is I'll Miss This and i already miss it and i cant believe once you're gone you're gone forever #and ill never ever see you again. and your shell is in the ground but where did the rest of you go?#should i look at your body one last time? on one hand itll be the last time i see you.#on the other hand it will be the last time i see you.#and the memory of you will die with me too. as if neither ever existed #it impacts me so much too bc i dont feel close to anybody really...and i dont make friends easily #so whats going to happen when the people who have always been there arent there anymore?#im going to be alone for so much of my life.#i will record your voice so im ready for when i cant hear it from the source while also knowing it wont be enough and one day #ill be wishing it lasted longer. it could be 12 hours long and ill want more.#how do you surpass this? it hasn't even happened. when it happens i don't know what ill do. considering my whole life has been #the timer. the countdown. hours and hours of anticipatory grief #and then ill be next. me. some of all thats left of you. it cant be true.#sorry. this gets worse every single year and its been going insane lately #id surprisingly been managing it well for months somehow ! it wouldnt cross my mind...and now its there again #like it accumulated and its all coming out right now. ive been crying for hrs tonight and last night #one day his things will just be things. things ive made and given him will be in my hands again.#talkys #i want to go hug my dad but then ill just cry over how one day i wont be able to....! how do i store it? how do i save it?#how do i preserve it forever....even as i take my own last breath....#i cant believe im the only one of me. and my dad is the only one of him.#i wouldnt want to be reborn as anyone else. i cant believe one day i wont get to draw or eat or be comfy in bed anymore.#i cant take it !! im so scared. ill be scared until the end. and you wont be there to hold my hand. im going to be alone.#and none of those years of grief and joy and memories will matter.#i wonder if it would help to tell him about this. i need something to hold onto for when it happens. anything. but i also know it'll make i #hurt more; obviously. just another piece of him that'll be gone one day

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faaun · 5 months

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procrastination is starting to have its consequences finally

#on my friends living room floor they love together but one of them has been london for weeks or maybe months #to be with her love. im on a foam mattress from one of their beds next to a glass bottle of water opened by one of them #in a mug given to me by another. the weather felt like my childhood today and it also felt like 2 years ago.#(put space in the heavens Einstein's idea and hes your friend too so nothing to fear) around the table they drank and laughed and i thought #i hope you keep growing so full with the love you receive . i hope your appetite becomes insatiable from how used to it you are #and i know youre all leaving soon but i hope one day you miss this and that youll be happy you miss it #its worth missing i think #i thought he didnt care but he said after exams hes going walk around this area over and over #(this is near where he lived and where we visited almost daily for a year)#(hed come across the bridge on a lake)#we went where she used to live and at the entrance a fox sat calmly. it just yawned and stared.#it felt important somehow. i think maybe their impressions of me will never be close to how i feel inside but i think #i love them enough for that not to matter. i dont think theyll ever know this. i dont think if they did it would change much.#and seeing them smile makes my heart glow anyway. today i tried their malaysian tea the ginger burned my throat #they warmed my heart. hes going to canada soon and hes going to the US soon and shes going everywhere soon ill never understand #how were supposed to live with memories and with seperation and with the past but we do it anyway so i think it doesnt matter much #i wanted to write a poem for the lab rats with the fibre optic wires lit with blue forcing them to turn around and around #something about how im sorry that the two photon arrays burned the inside of your brain. im sorry about the sharp points of multielectrode #arrayes. im sorry about everything we do to you. she asked to see me tomorrow. im trying to have self control but i miss her so awfully #last night my friend talked to me and i updated on everything that happened with love and the lack of it and she just started laughing #and she told me about the same thing from her side. and she told me about how she loved london because she would walk the streets #and she felt like the people were her. and her eyes would go over the people and the bag of bagels and the construction men they probably #have a kid at home maybe shes a daughter. this kid is crying for her mother and the building you just walked past caused #blisters and pain and people died in it and very likely people were born in it. we talked for hours and i felt like #i was holding her hand just like that time she held mine watching a horror film. i love her so much #my friend is a genius and i remember her picking up the charms of my phone and staring at the leaf hanging from them. shes side stepping to #music drinking dangerous cider and cocktails from a movie and chit chatting with billionaires and undergrads #i love her dearly. his head covered in electrodes. she tells me about a syrian guy shes in love with and she says #what you feel and what i feel is like cocaine. ive tried a lot of fucking cocaine.#she says ive reminded her of what living actually feels like and to never put energy into someone who doesnt see me this way.

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retros-artandstuff · 4 months

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vriska + a transmasc dave doodle

#tryna get into colored pencils again we'll see how it goes #its been a while since ive done a good tag ramble #but like i dont hv anything to ramble about #my art #traditional art #doodles #fanart #homestuck #homestuck fanart #dave strider #dave strider fanart #vriska serket #vriska fanart #oh actually i do hv smth to ramble about today #that being scheduled posts #yknow scheduled posts are actually really convinient and helped me quite a bit #like i used them for a couple months and honestly really liked useing them cuz it allowed me to hv a pretty consistent posting schedule #but in the end i just didnt feel right with it mostly due to the fact that even with it set to post three times a week it felt weird to hav #some of my drawings posting weeks after i finished them. like they were old news to me already but they were barely being released to every #one else it just felt weird for me ig. not to mention that like on the rare occassions that i didnt have anything to post i felt obliged to #draw smth just so i would have smth to post and most of the time that led to me being unhappy with my art. so now ive just decided like fuc #it imma post whenever i want and honestly im really happy with that even if i might be going a little trigger happy with the posting button #recently lmao. ive just been drawing a whole lot and hv so much to post its insane. hell i still hv things in my gallery that i needa post #but ill save those for the next couple of days lol but yeah thanks for coming to my very long ted talk/ramble and goodnight 😴#damn im such a yapster what the hell

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megastrikeback · 7 months

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Riddle goes to Idia's room for Manga Recomendations (Cater advice). Idia shows off his colections featuring the more questionable manga he owns. Riddle gets, understandably, curious. Most Akward missunderstanding of their life insues.

#art #comic #twisted wonderland #idia shroud #riddle rosehearts #had a thought and i was like 'I should draw this lol' here it is #and actually finished a sketch comic for once?! crazy actually #Anyways i have been thinking about them way to much the parralelism is CRAZY #chronically online x chronically offline do you guys get it #a part of my brain is like 'girl this is so cringe people will kill you for this' but like. i dont care enough to not do that. ssry #to my friends that will see this um uuuuuuu #whatever see you in like 3 months next time i do a cringe ass comic i still wanna post bcs its not sdo bad actually

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kohakhearts · 5 months

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lately ive been thinking a lot about goh’s parents. and all i have to say is . theyre kinda bad <3

#taylor.txt #i have this fic worm but no time to write it #the tl;dr on why i disappeared is i went from casually working like 3 days a week to a full-time teaching position where im teaching #quite literally every subject. its a whole Situation but like im genuinely glad to be there and am hopeful to get the position next year too #but in between the end of this school year and the start of next im full-time at summer camp and i got that Promotion so…learning a new role #and also ultimately clocking more work hours if i had to guess #so basically like. dont expect to see much of me until late august……if that djskfjdkfjd #during finals things will hopefully chill out a bit but its hard to say honestly. also im graduating at the end of this month. yay #so anyway yeah…rip to my writing plans this summer lol

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rearranging-deck-chairs · 7 months

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how many times have you watched this scene or are you normal

#my thasmin is like. this little interaction but all the time #obsessed obsessed obsessed with it #the way she falls over the way yaz holds onto her basically the most tightly we like ever see anyone hold onto 13 #the way she wipes the sensation of yazs hands off her afterwards #the way shes so out of her mind #the way it's yaz who gets the worst of it bc shes always closest #shes always closest so she gets the ugliest side of the doctor. for her loyalty she gets this #and 13 Wants to give her so much more and she just...Cant #the way yaz knows this and accepts this #the way she knows everything and 13 knows she knows everything without her ever telling her anything bc #she knows yaz has been here. exactly here. right next to her every time. the closest #how could yaz /not/ know everything #she doesnt need to be told. shes seen everything. she may not know the details she may not know the stories. but she knows #'you dont understand ANYTHING' and she just goes 'alright. it's alright'#how many of these scenes have there been that we havent seen? if you ask me........Many #10 months between revolution and flux where it was just them and the doctor was chasing anything division? yeah Many #they barely touch each other too wheni write them #like they touch each other. duh. but it's like. its so tentative always its so careful and this is soooo physical #it has the same force as 'we were worried about you' but it lasts like. 20 entire seconds #i love when they touch each other like that i love when yaz steps over the boundaries #like when i made her beat up 14. feels good feels organic fhkghjg #or any time shes angrydepressed and she makes a pass at the doctor #its like jsut touch me just touch me just touch me for once #like how much time has she spent alone with 13 with no human around not getting any physical contact whatsoever #anyway

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ra-vio · 5 months

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semester is almost over. im dying

#my oc #rune #mori #i have a project due tomorrow and its finally scared me back into drawing #even though i should be working on this project but im SO SO SO TIRED #i went on an outing like 2 weeks ago the same week that i walked everywhere cause i was desperately #trying to get my taxes done but thats a different story but the point is i was walking a lot and i went on an outing where i stood all day #and then i had to go to class the very next day thinking i was fine but i wasnt.#and that same day after i walked across the city because i absolutely had to pick a thing up. i think the same week i met up with my mom #a couple of times but i was walking the whole way there. my point is that for 2 weeks straight i have been rigorously walking everywhere #and on my feet all the time with little breaks in between and my feet fucking hurt man #i need this semester to be OVER i need to sleep for a MONTH #but i cant because i have to scrape together SOME of this project and finals are next week #this class this project is for fucking sucks. all semester ive been teetering the line between pass and fail #and its not even my fucking fault. im so burnt out so i dont want to do this project. but i might fail if i dont #i need to at least demo it but i have like. one thing done and i dunno what to tell my TA about i #how do i tell my TA and prof that everything is too much for me so i absolutely could work on this project #my laptop is broken so im afraid to use it. the server kept going down last month so i was afraid to use that #so many stupid little things keep piling up and i'd sound really weird trying to explain why i cant do my work #because my desk is on the floor and it makes me really sad so no i cant do my hw. my fave candy has red40 in it so i had to stop eating it #but now i cant do my work because i was using it to help me focus on my hw. LIFE SUCKS BRO #anyway whatever happens. i cant wait to play video games again

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deoidesign · 2 months

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HI I think I sent an ask a while back about having recently found TaTA and a) if it came off as trying to rush/guilt you. I am so sorry because that was NOT my intent, and b) I can hugely guarantee you have at least one person who will eat up any return, no matter when it happens, because I care about the guys so much 🥺 really looking forward to whatever comes next!!

Oh, I appreciate this a lot thank you!

Tbh it's a stress I would have regardless of anyone asking me about it, I'm probably the biggest one rushing and guilting myself on it. Which might contribute to some of the burnout I had...

My complaints are more about people who are demanding "more content daddy" or asking me if I'm dead or asking on every single post I make where it is... Wondering when it's coming back is completely reasonable, it's been a long time! but there's definitely a line haha

my editor also keeps randomly scheduling me and then saying "oh, btw you're scheduled to return in 3 weeks. Is that alright?" And I have to keep saying no, that's not alright??? And then dealing with that process...

I could write an essay about all the reasons it's not back yet, but that doesn't help me feel any less pressured, and it doesn't help you all get the rest of the comic any faster...

As of right now I'm scheduled to and trying to return october 21. No official announcement yet cause I have to do a lot of work in that time, but it's my official goal at least. When we get closer I'll be able to say for sure whether it's coming back on that date!