#and now 12 months later...

[aquanutart]

THEY'RE BACK!!!! my childhood manga!!!

[pseudophan]

I have this curse where Dan and Phil exclusively upload when I’m busy at work or when I’ve just left my apartment to go to the gym

dude i feel your pain. i used to have a curse where every time i got on a plane they would upload, but it wasn't regular uploads it was like. pinof 9 and that one time we got five different dan and phil videos in one day

[neolxzr]

moar sketchbook pages

[arrgh-whatever]

From what I know of the way you depict blood/gore, and assuming the alcohol consumption isn't particularly pronounced in the story (?), I think I'd go 14+. I'm not as familiar with comics as I am with books though, but there's plenty of very overtly violent xenofiction classed as kids books

i wouldn't say it's overly violent. Not "I Hate Fairyland" (rated 16+) but perhaps somewhere around "Blacksad" (rated also 16+ but it does have more fighting scenes and includes suggestive themes and drug abuse)

I'm also concerned about the themes in the comic (but that's unfortunately something i can not mention yet). I don't want to say they're Bojack level but some themes can possibly be triggering

I obviously can't stop anyone from reading it no matter how i will rate it. i just have that hopefully unreasonable anxiety that if I'll rate it wrong someone will fight me

[face-breaker]

oh yeah i got a new job :')

[youmakethelight]

Okay, but I'm casting my mind back to try to imagine how I would have felt about tboc daryl before season 10 got me so stupid about this show, when I used to be a casual viewer. And I still think I'd have just thought daryl lost his mind tbh.

This is just me going off on tangents about the show now, don't mind me.

He felt a bit off in season 1, I can't lie. The costume change would have thrown me even if I wasn't as attached, because I'm probs just the type of neurodivergent that struggles with too much change at once, and him being away from TF, in Europe, and looking so different, then calling Laurent useless, then the ways he looked at Isabelle at the end of 1x06 - that was all just too different to the Daryl I knew idk. But I stuck with it.

But having his first on-screen kiss be so entirely unpredictable for what I thought I knew of his character felt gratuitous*. And then it's like suddenly I'm being railroaded into following him on this rolleroaster that I don't understand. One minute he's longing for home, the next he's playing baseball and "just having fun". Then home has found him, but now he's invested in this kid I still haven't learnt to feel invested in yet. And he's never even talking about anything to do with home anymore, even after Carol is there? It's suddenly all just about Laurent, and part of the problem for me is there wasn't enough balance to convince me of the story.

And I think this was most of my difficulty with enjoying TOWL, too. (Don't come for me please for talking about my personal experience of watching TOWL.) I watched TOWL first out of all the spinoffs, and I remember this one part where I think Michonne and Rick were in a kitchen or something and Rick felt so different to me and it made me sad, and then she called it out. And he said something like that it's been so long, he's lost who he used to be or something like that. I can't remember exactly, but it made me sad. And I think, for me, I didn't get enough glimpses of the Rick I recognised within the short 6 episodes that I never felt satisfied or happy with it. And maybe I needed more TF references or something??? I didn't even feel enough concern for Judith or RJ from him - maybe I'm misremembering, but I think your memory of the feeling something gave you is important. I get that the leadership want these spinoffs to be accessible to people who didn't watch the flagship show, but I think that's a big part of where it's losing the magic for me.

The thing that was better for me about DD season 1 is that it was all about getting home, and his determination felt relentless throughout the first 5 and a half episodes before it suddenly got weird with Isabelle acting like they've been a family for 19 years. Like, before that, I felt connected to his mission.** But then in season 2, it's almost completely gone, and Carol feels like the only part I can still connect with. Like, I know Rick didn't mention Daryl either I think, but I wish both of them had talked about each other. Idk, it just would have felt more like it's giving me something I can connect with? Rather than just throwing the characters into entirely new situations and also deliberately making them feel a bit out of character?

That whole part in TOWL where Michonne feels surprised to find Rick a bit changed is so similar to what they seemed to want to do with Daryl and Carol, and I don't really get why they did it to either of them. It's more believable with Rick than Daryl bc 1. He isn't Daryl and definitely adapts more to new environments, and 2. It had been many, many, many years, not like a month. But idk, I still wasn't keen, but at least they gave it a redemption arc or whatever you'd call it. With daryl it's still just like - ???? And for what reason??? I don't know. I just don't find it compelling idk idk idk.

*Even in season 9, when we met Connie, I felt a bit like 'oh are they gonna force a ship here bc they have them spending time together 🤨 (rather than just letting connie want to help for her own character reasons rather than making it about daryl and shipping), but if it's gonna be someone who isn't carol, I think I'm okay with connie', like bc we actually had reasons to like her and there was chemistry with Daryl. So why neither Connie nor Carol, but Isabelle? The show just never got me invested in darabelle in any way.

I already liked connie before they had her going on missions with daryl, so I actually cared about her a lot. I loved seeing her on those missions bc I was excited for her to have more screen time and I found her character empowering. So, I didn't want to see her reduced to just being Daryl's love interest, and tbh, I don't think they handled it well, bc they still reduced her to being Daryl's accessory, rather than giving her her own character depth. But I *still* would have been more on board with pairing up Daryl with Connie than Isabelle. Tbh, by the time that Carol was broken up with zeke, and they had the conversation about running away together, I didn't think of Daryl and Connie as making sense to pair anymore... But I also didn't see much point in the Leah romance either, so whatever, I guess this show just has a pattern of pairing up Daryl with random women he doesn't have chemistry with, instead of the ones he does?

**I always remember that Zabel pitched the idea for the show as "what if, in trying to get home, you find something else?", and the thing is, in order to get me to be convinced that Daryl "found something else", I'd have needed A LOT stronger of a pull for the French story. There was nothing there that hooked me to becoming convinced of Daryl finding something while trying to get home. Just having him voice the words "I found something", having Laurent the prophet say "you miss her too, I can tell", putting his crossbow next to Isabelle's hospital bed, and having him look at her for an extended time after she recovers, doesn't suddenly convince me of that idea. Idk. I'm not in the TV industry, so I don't know how that magic gets done - like when season 10 slowly turned Lydia into one of my favourite characters after she was introduced as an antagonist. But I have enough brain cells to see (from the moment they nonsensically forced them to share a bed??) that they were trying to convince us Daryl found "something" in France, and tbh, if I can see the strain in their efforts to make it happen, it's probably not working. And even NR couldn't answer why Isabelle when asked at NYCC. He was literally like, "idk they have similar pasts?? Idk???". Like, girl, if you don't know, why should your audience?

[remembertheplunge]

From the book "365 Goddess" at the page that contains December 22 Goddess Cailleach Bheur.

My responding margin notes:

12/22/2018: Dedicated to the men of the “L” unit and the citizens of Beard Park Homeless City. MAC and I toured it last night. endless tents in the dark cold longest night.

Note: 12/23/2024:

The homeless tent city lasted for several months, and then was taken down by the city ofModesto. MAC was a friend who had lived with me until 2014. He has been homeless since 2018.

The L Unit was a high security unit of the Stanislaus County jail. I had several clients housed in the Stanislaus County L unit in December 2018 that I visited there.

12/22/2019 margin note:

From the opulence of the Saint Frances Hotel Lobby to the cold, brutal street, to a Christmas tree atop the Twin Peaks I walked and joined arms with SFCA and the mystery and massage Kristopher yesterday.”

Note 12/23/2024

On 12/22/2019, I had driven to San Fransisco from my home in Modesto California to get a massage from Kristopher. His studio is located near the Saint Frances Hotel, a fancy place. The brutal street refers to the homeless on the street near the hotel. The Twin Peaks is a gay bar in the Castro District of San Fransisco.

SFCA is San Fransisco, California.

The Inuit Indians of Alaska say there are two plans for every day. Your plan and the mystery's plan. This is the mystery I referred to in my 12/22/2019 entry.

[freshthoughts2020]

[seilon]

top surgery…………tomorrow…………

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

happy 12th bday oliver

bonus: two particular frames i thought were funny

[guinevereslancelot]

just wrapped the first christmas present of the year ❤️

[tardis--dreams]

Me panicking because i have 9 missed calls and 5 emails talking about my absence and how "a colleague could take over for me" vs. Me knowing it's really not that important no matter how pushy a client is and that on top of it I'm underpaid and have way to much overtime so i shouldn't even care

[parallelunivrses]

hmmmm kinda wanna rewatch all of spn………… haven’t done a full rewatch since season 10 was airing I think……… is this a terrible idea….. yes. will that stop me though………

[selfinflictedgunshotwound]

my dad brought home a stray kitten 😑

[firebuug]

im so broke rn from my piano lessons but i barely have enough energy daily to do work this is true hell