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red-dyed-sarumane · 1 year

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ASA FUCKING RTED MY ART?!?!!?!?? IM LOSING MY MIND I LOVE ASA'S ART THATS ONE OF MAGNETITES MAIN ILLUSTRATORS. RTED MY ANNI ART. AND THEN RIGHT AFTER WENT

HELLO?!?!?!?!?!!??' IM GOING TO CRY. AND THEN THEY RTED IT AGAIN TO THEIR SUB ACCOUNT TOO. BOTH IMAGES. HOLY SHIT IM GOING TO CRY. WAIT WHAT THE FUCK MAGU DID TOO WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT THE FUCK GUYS

this is it ive reached the peak of being an illustrator. theres nowhere left to go. to have ur fave vocap share ur art & then their artist u really admire share it TWICE & praise u this is it ive peaked

#woke up like aw hell yeah magu liked my art again. wait why are their so many other people too if they just liked it #so i checked #and now in LOSING MY MIND im going to cry #ECSTATIC. I DONT EVEN THINK THATS ENOUGH TO COVER THE EMOTION IM FEELING RIGHT NOW #I. GUESS THAT MEANS I REALPY DID GOOD THIS TIME. OH MY GOD #magu-san goto #anyway ive mentioned it before but its super cute how both asa & sena yuta are super into their songs #sena yuta's not in my notifs to be clear i'd be freaking out about that too if true but im just saying #both illusts post theories & such from time to time & get excited about things its cute

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hedgehog-cynder · 2 years

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so it was all intentional huh.

im being plagued by realizations i have already had before. it was all intentional this scene took a whole day to film it was all intentional all intentional all intentional

oh my fucking god the realization is setting in finally. holy fucking shit. im gonna think about this for as long as humanly possible.

#stranger things #byler #will byers #mike wheeler #im losing my fucking mind im so fuckfing normal #ill need 3 to 5 business days to recover from this #its nothing i didnt know but having the confirmation. just. feels different.#im gonna shut up now and go curl up on the floor and maybe cry #frankie says things

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widevibratobitch · 5 months

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omw to play emotional support for my mom disguised as ✨fun family bonding time✨ for the rest of the week <3333 there's something so deeply wrong with me uwu teehee

#and i still havent texted my friend back even tho she texted me a week ago and i told her ill text her back this week when i have the time #and i DO have the time. im just fucked in the head and the prospect of having a conversation with another person where i again #have to pretend im not at the very brink of a serious mental and emotional breakdown. is making me lose my fucking mind #ik she's having a bad time rn and she needs the reassurance and jesus fucking christ i tried i had two long conversations with her #that were allllll about her. only her. not a single word about me. that's fine. this is what people need in such moments right #to just get patted on the head and hugged and told their suffering is real and what happened to them is unfair and just made to feel #that for a moment they're the centre of attention and it is all about them. this is normal. this is why therapy exists.#so i try to give this to her but it is fucking draining. and i NEVER get the same treatment back. like she caught me crying at uni last week #and like yes she'll say some nice things but she'll always find a way to turn the conversation back on the topic of ✨her✨#like we started talking about my therapy and i finally got to actually say a word or two about what im dealing with. but then she goes #'yeah im just trying to figure out what's wrong with me when i listen to you haha like i could never cut myself cause it looks ugly.#ofc it doesnt look ugly on you haha but i could never lol'#like thanks haha good to know ill just shut up then and steer the conversation back onto you why dont i. i mean its not like #i spent over an hour a few days back sitting with you and listening to your talk about your childhood and validating you and not saying #a word a single fucking word about myself even tho i was also going through it myself but who cares right. and now im the bad guy again #because im not texting back.#i feel like im finally fucking snapping cause at this point im properly fucking angry. IM having a bad time too. IM going through it too.#I have bad coping skills and had a fucked up childhood and traumas in my life TOO and im allowed to just not be able to handle it #i really wanna break something lol maybe therapy's working after all lmao #oh also this is why i dont eat breakfast. i do it once and then feel guilty and suicidal lol normal behaviour #pojebie mnie zaraz przysięgam na boga mam dość kurwa BASTA

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seithr · 3 months

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hit n run accident im fine physically but not thoughtwise mm ok sorry i have to talk

#its been nice. im going to kill everyone in this stupid fucking city and then myself now though. thanks for understanding #im fine. car isnt. intact but scratchedand missing a mirror and who knows what else.#1k to file the report and claim. i dont have their license. they ran. its midnight. im angry. its too much for my mom. im so fucking angry #sui ment #Im lucid enough to still know i dont like saying that if i can help it and again im not hurting but im just really sick and tired and angry.#hasnt this all been enough man im so fucjing tired waiting for good fucking news for once not nearly being run into concrete walls #i dont think i want to cry. i want something to hurt and ache and make sense of this before i lose my mind

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dandyshucks · 8 months

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everyone pray for me that i did not just give myself food poisoning (;･∀･)

#i may have made a bad decision with the meat i cooked shdjdkl BUT I THINK IT'LL BE FINE #it was past the date on the packaging but it didnt smell or look or feel off at all so . i decided to risk it #and now im panicking bc i think perhaps that was actually rly stupid fhdkdl #but it was. so much money. i had no idea the date was so soon on the package when i got it from mum #I would've frozen it if I'd known dhdksl i should've looked #alas !!! i think it'll be fine tbh bc it genuinely did not seem spoiled at all so ... now we just pray #i had a fairly small serving of it and I'll see how i feel to figure out if the rest of it is safe to eat or not #im just fhdjdkl crying a little rn bc the past two days have been so awful and im so tired #i rly dont want to get sick on top of everything else going on #i would like one thing to go well fjdkdl just like. one thing. this feels like divine punishment for having the old lady group go so well #im just kind of losing my mind rn i think actually fhfkdl i have a therapy/counseling appt on monday though so we'll see if that helps #i do not have high hopes fjfkdl #MANNNN. can the universe give me a break PLEASE. I've been trying so hard the past three weeks to do well 😭😭#im putting in so much work and effort fhdksl can i PLEASE have this one thing go okay djdksl i do not want to get sick !!!#if i do get sick then im just. hhhhh. idk djdkdl it's just one more thing to add to my pile of Bad ig djdkdl what can ya do djdkdl #i am going to pull myself together and stop crying and go play stardew maybe idk fjdkdl i feel like im starting to crack a little bit #augh. augh. i would love to catch a break djdkdl #dandy.cmd #vent //

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miallurk · 9 months

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In these days i realized i like art and writing and creating and shopping and taking walks and talking to people and cleaning and helping and studying and doing things but i'm just. too stressed, tired and burned out to do them. How great!

#i am losing my sanity day by day #drowning myself in the nearby lake seems better and better every day #why am i even writing this i have literally no mutuals or even people who'd care about #don't mind me crying myself to sleep haha #ooooh look at this pathetic baby. sitting in their little bed crying stupid tears. i should at least get tissues now while my crying isn't #fuck history fuck school and fuck me i quess #am i gonna start treating this as an actual blog and make a sideblog for reblogs? who knows! certainly not me; stay tuned for the story!#i'm gonna go and just let it all out into a pillow #vent ig #my mom is blasting holiday music in the other room lol #nice to have a whatever the fuck im having while “jingle bells” plays #at least i'm not hearing mariah carey ig #anyway i've probably hadn't been taking care of myself lately it has been worse despite me promoting it to everyone who needs #when i vented last time and it wasn't taken seriously so woop #anyway imma go try to calm myself and back to my notes i go #please gods what did i do to deserve thi s shit. fuck you #i hate it here i really do. i hate when these people talk to me i hate them. i at least can be sorta accquaitances with one but they just.#all stare and laugh? i actually can't. like i'm some fucking clown and laughing stock. just kill me at this point. i have been enduring this #for YEARS and suddenly i'm being a little bitch about it?? what the fuck. why am i so mushy all of a sudden. being shown an ounce of respect #and care made me expect it more? fuck #i'm just setting myself up for failure. i am just a giant loser and failure of a person.#everything seems so fucking hard. and pointless. i am tearing my rotten little heart apart with this. i am once again grieving things #long ago and things i never had. my everything has to be pleasing to an outsider #my value is my suffering. am i breaking enough? is this beautiful to look at #at my self destruction? i hate myself. i treat others so cruelly. i am a horrible fucking person.#my problems are not their burden - i forced it on them. wept like a baby because she left me. and what happened in the end? my paranoia got #to me. i left them. i fucking. i fid the thing i was afraid of being done to me.#this is showing so many issues.#so many things wrong with me. i shouldn't even be alive by this point - i wasn't supposed to survive past 12 #i am being forced to do this every day. someone please just end my fu king suffering

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plushri · 4 months

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literally giving up with this doctor just going to wait until I move next year =/ she needs to get her hearing checked out fr

#she's good about everything else but she hears hypermobility and is like physio!#YES. I AM DOING PHYSIO. NOW DIAGNOSE ME.#okay I will just live with an undiagosed hypermobility syndrome it's fine because I'm doing physio for ONE of my joints!#fucking drives me up the wall #she does not listen #I specifically said I want to be ASSESSED for hypermobility syndromes #and she goes oh the physio recommended exercises so do those exercises =]#HOW WILL THAT GET ME ASSESSED FOR EDS YOU IDIOT #if I do my physio will a doctor appear in my home to diagnose me ??????????????????????????????#I'm going to hunt down my father and make HIM get assessed so I can have a diagnosed first degree relative then they will have to assess me #ALSO HOW IS PHYSIO FOR MY KNEE HELPING WITH ANY OF MY OTHER JOINTS THEY ALL HURT IM FUCKING LOSING MY MIND OH MY GOD #I CAN'T EVEN GO TO M Y DOCTOR ABOUT THEM BECAUSE I ONLY GOT REFERRED FOR THAT BECAUSE I PHONED THE SURGERY IN TEARS AFTER AN APPOINTMENT #whatever going to cry in bed

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butchybats · 1 year

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Blog thesis

#going through my texts last night and losing my mind #crying for an hour straight + incredible stress for two days in a row + a margarita makes me. well it makes me something alright!#im normal now though. just not about lesbian daniel molloy #ray says stuff

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anxietywasright · 2 years

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I loved you and you left me like I never meant anything to you

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dontttmindmeeeeee · 5 months

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me thinking an amazing story to do but im shit at writing:

#im tired lol #im going insane #im losing my mind #im dying #IM SHIT AT WRITING WTF #starts sobbing #crying violently #explodes violently #riot grrrl #grrr #explodes #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #ok bye now

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villalunae · 10 months

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*choking myself out* I WILL NOT BE TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF AGAIN

#personal #ANYWAY #me having to deal with the emotional stress of Not Letting Myself Let People Walk All Over Me and Advocate For Myself #like ughhhhhhhhhh. hate it. gonna have to have the You Need To Show Me How To Do My Job Or Im Quitting Before Youre Angry #That I Cant type convo which like whatever im good with that but i DO gotta lose my mind over it before and after cuz im Like That #@myself u always do this u always feel sooo upset for taking up space and being a burden that u unilaterally #let ppl force you into being one like Girl Lets Cut This Off #extending the shoujo hand to myself like lets make them mad now instead of being upset that they forced you into being smth that made them #mad <3 xoxo kill them also just like let it go find a nice lil weirdo job somewhere and Be Normal and 22 and Lame #theres heavy trauma thats caused all that but for the moment id Rather i be upset and cry abt it now then stress myself out for four weeks #until my brain busts open and i have a panic attack

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goblinbugthing · 10 months

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the neverending story is the best movie of all time btw

#the neverending story #text #ko’s rambles #I WATCHED IT FOR THE FIRST TIME WHEN I WAS SUPER YOUNG #LIKE EVEN MU MOM DOESNT REMEMEBR HOW OLD I WAS WHEN WE FIRST WATCHED IT #BUT THE ONLY THING I REMEMBER FROM MY FIRST EXPERIENCE WAS CRYING SO MUCH ABOUT THAT DAMN HORSE #AND IT STILL FUCKING HURT TO WATCH YEARS LATER #AND NOW THE WHOLE MOVIE IS ONCE AGAIN FRESH IN MY MIND #IM GOING INSANEEEEEEEEE #BASTIAN JUST LIKE ME FR. AUTISTIC 🫵#LITERALLY THIS IS WHAT MY AUTISM IS LIKE #THE ENDING HIT ME SO FUCKNG HARD DUDEEEEEEEE #IM LOSING MY FUCKNG MIND. THIS IS THE BEST MOVIE IVE EVER WATCHED. PERIDO

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widevibratobitch · 4 months

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im so fucking mad at myself at my mother at her dead husband at god fucking knows what. "concentrate on yourself" well i cant can i. now more than anything i should and i cant. losing my fucking mind istg

#i wasted the whole fucking weekend because i *had to* come visit her and once i visited i *had to* hang out with my fucking grandfather #watching him cry about grandma and bitch about modern times and the waiter not doing his job because the café was full to bursting #and it took longer than usual to get our coffees so ofc he had to loudly insult him in third person. oh and then he had to bitch about #gay people and women who dont want children too because of he did. and i sat there and listened to it because i HAD TO #wasted four fucking hours. and then i HAD TO go to the theatre with my mom because she got us tickets because she wanted this #to be a nice day for me but i dont have fucking time to have nice days rn but in order for HER to have a nice day i need to at least pretend #i am having one. so i wasted another almost two hours on that play #which was some modern uselessly loud to the point of being physically painful bullshit bad enough that we left mid-show #and then i had to go meet with her friends so lost another two hours and by the time i got home to write that bullshit thesis it was 11pm #and i barely got anything done till 1 am because i went through another stupid little mental breakdown and then it was almost 6 am #and i had to stop because i had a train at 8 and i already only slept like 3 hours that day #and then i got home yesterday totally fucking exhausted and i started reading stuff for the thesis but i was falling asleep so i laid down #'for 10 minutes' and i woke up today at 6. not having written a word lol #and now i could just say fuck it and defend it in september and it would make my life so much easier. but my voice teacher wants me #to get accepted for the masters degree even if im already planning to get the deans leave for the first semester so like. god.#i cant do this lol #i know i should have started earlier but i was kinda busy losing my fucking mind and lying in bed staring at the ceiling for hours #and contemplating dropping out completely lol god i hate my life so much it's unreal

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theohnocorral · 2 years

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I'm being forced to listen/feel the base of my neighbor's garage rave.

#going through it for no fucking reason right now #and on top of it i have to listen to the vague impression of music through my house #i can feel the base #its literally making my windows make noise #they stop every like 10 minutes for a three minute break #im losing my mind #im crying and my house has a heart beat #its literally just the base #i cant hear any of the actual goddamned music #i thought it was over #i just didnt notice it over my fucking crying #i hate fridays #i hate october #im so deep in for fucking nothing #what the fuck #what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck

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jeepers-scoob · 1 year

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Everything wrong with me ends up being cyclical. Specifically I have kinda bad emetophobia so feeling nauseous makes me really anxious but being really anxious makes me nauseous so they go hand in hand bc I also just have an anxiety disorder. All this to say I'm almost always feeling sick and anxious and that's why I deserve all the treats bc what a way to live

#text #kayla rambles #theres nothing like waking up and immediately thinking youre going to puke so you panic and it makes it worse #or when i actually do get sick i make myself more sick bc of how upset i get like ill puke cry so hard bc i puked that I puke again #and now im tired and its not even 7 am and now i have to worry about feeling this way when i go into work which is always fun #thankfully i have today off but i have to figure something out so i dont lose my mind #also how annoying is it that my emetophobia is specifically in regards to myself i can handle others puking can even help clean up #but god forbid i puke cause then its all down hill

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dannysboi · 2 years

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The horrors are NOT neverending, in just two weeks I WILL have different problems! They are always changing and there's beauty in adventure like rosethorns and leg breaks

#my torture ends in a week #it was gonna be two months but only one week now #im still losing my mind and crying every 6 hours when i think too hard but now only for a week!#sorry im like #the difficult part of trauma therapy just got moved up from two months away to just a week #im excited cause ill stop worrying about it afterwards #ill deal with repercussions but im tired of yhe anxiety of anticipation of hurt #wanna go straight to the bruise that rises to the surface and fades

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