#and stick with it until it’s too late

[bookwyrminspiration]

The first time through, when everyone was saying “wow, that Jonathan sure can ignore red flags!” I also interpreted that to mean he wasn’t noticing the red flags and was comically unaware of his genre, and that’s how I understood the beginning. But rereading it and lines like “If this book should ever reach Mina before I do, let it bring my good-bye” (from day 2) makes me realize he was never not noticing them, he was, as we said, just ignoring them and rationalizing it away. He noticed but what could he do about it? So perhaps it was more comforting (for a while) to let it slide instead of facing that something was wrong. Even though things were off. Just something I noticed about how my understanding has changed

[feroluce]

I've only recently started having my own thoughts about Emanator!Sampo and I think my favorite version of this is that he is technically an Emanator, it's just that he doesn't talk about it because Aha is a dick who only blesses people that don't want it and Sampo hates it here dkjxkdkdck

Aha blessed the Mourning Actors! A whole faction of people who have specifically made it their life's mission to resist Elation! THEY made a literal worm THEIR Emanator just to see if it would be accepted into the Genius Society! And when it wasn't, Aha just as easily killed it and tossed it aside! So I feel like there is a good possibility that Aha looked down at Sampo, this little oddball who doesn't seem to even like Epsilon or a lot of the Masked Fools and was like.

Hey.

You know what would be really really funny.

And I feel like being an Emanator wouldn't even be a plus for Sampo, because of how he operates. Sampo excels at blending in; he managed to smuggle himself onto a planet

that had been isolated for 700 years,

with only one (1) single city on it,

and going even further, he snuck himself into the Underground,

where the population is even more sparse,

and STILL. Not a single accusation of him being an alien! Not even after the Astral Express lands and proves that interstellar space travel is possible! Sampo is so thoroughly ingrained into Belobog that yeah, some people admit they don't know his origins, but none of it ever comes with the question of whether he actually is a Belobog native or not. Sampo knows exactly how to blend himself into his surroundings in the most subtle way possible. And being an Emanator, something far more powerful than any normal human or Pathstrider could ever hope to be, would only throw in a massive extra variable for him. Sampo would have to be so so careful to keep a lid on his Emanator traits, to keep up the appearance of being totally normal and average at all times. It doesn't help him at all.

And this part is pure indulgence, but I love taking Aha's closeness with mortals, and THEIR tendency to take human form, and twisting it into a case of THEM using Sampo as a vessel.

I want Aha to look at Sampo the same way all of us look at Sampo. A chew toy. A plaything. Something to shove through the meat grinder. Aha thinks Sampo is hilarious and a funny, silly little guy, and THEY want to put him in Situations just to see what he does. Sampo is not a fan.

This though, this is what makes Sampo so wildly entertaining as a vessel. Because Aha knows that Sampo does not want to be a vessel, does not even want to be an Emanator, and THEY find it SO much fun to watch the mental gymnastics he has to pull to convince himself he's ok with it, this is fine actually, because he's not exactly about to tell off a literal god. He doesn't feel like getting a smiting today, please and thank you.

Because squeezing yourself into a human vessel is so different than merely adopting a human disguise, there's already a human soul in there, it's kind of a tight fit. If Sampo doesn't make room, doesn't all but dissociate right out of his own body, it could cause. Consequences.

And so, Aha always gives a warning, just to watch him squirm.

It begins with the sound of bells.

Just little ones, at first. Small, clinking little sounds that could even be considered nice. Something almost gentle, like a wind chime in a pleasant breeze on a warm day. This is the signal for the countdown.

Sampo breathes in, breathes out. Makes himself as small as possible within his own body.

The bells rise and multiply, tinkling wind chimes give way to sleigh bells, to shopkeepers bells, the sound of something inevitable approaching, something entering.

Sampo breathes in, breathes out. Dilutes himself, weaker and weaker concentrations.

The bells rise and rise, multiply and multiply, celebration and tragedy resonating in the sound of church bells, ringing bright and loud, the sounds of weddings and funerals both the same.

Sampo breathes in, breathes out. Becomes like smoke, like vapor. Hollows himself out.

Empty, empty, empty until he echoes, like a bell, like something with the sole purpose of being shaken and rattled around, a thing to be struck, the sounds jarring and punched out and gasping and piercing the air, the lung, the eardrum.

Sampo breathes in.

Beaten he rings, bashed in he sings.

Aha breathes out.

[pawified]

stepbro!satoru being nice, letting you use him for your own pleasure! he thinks your the absolute prettiest when your whining against his ear about how you cant do it or it feels better when he fucks up into you.

[i3utterflyeffect]

first purple now victim, lmao mangos just out here collecting troubled kids like pokémon huh

the fatherly instincts are just too strong

[paunchsalazar]

Fire Emblem Awakening families in my play through…

[gothoffspring]

the shack: nooboo's room

[zedortoo]

Mr stick more like Mr sick haha (ba dum tiss)

I mean hey at least he's rocking the pirate fit

[moominpopzz]

So me and my older sister just had to switch out the starter in our dads truck for him after it poured rain last night and,, he laughed when we came back inside so I thought it’d be funny to do a little diagram

Alt text also has what’s written incase my handwriting is bad ^^”

[elegyofthemoon]

question: is anyone having the trouble of tumblr eating your tags or is tumblr just being glitchy for me?

i wrote a post just a bit ago and wanted to ramble more on the post in the tags but when i went back to edit the tags, i saw half of the tags were GONE. so i tried to retag everything i remembered but even after i saved, the tags would still be eaten its kinda :/

[lychgate]

astounding to me that both fans and star wars canon itself want me to see obi wan as a kind and sagely man when he is actually one of the worst people ever obi wan would show up to the store with a coupon that expired a year ago and yell at the seventeen year old cashier until they break down crying then the manager would give him the item for free to get rid of him then obi wan would slice the cashier and the managers arms off then leave and write a one star yelp review and make six tiktoks making himself out to be the victim

this sounds a lot more like qui gon

[thedreadvampy]

idk I had a very interesting therap today but I just

like it's all very well to recognise that I gotta have a fucking open-ended breakdown and jump face first into the Sadness Bog sometimes instead of sitting on all my feelings

but like

I still have to go to work, you know? it's like. ok yeah have a breakdown which like until you jump into it you don't know if it's going to last an hour or a year. yeah go ahead that's all grand. you do have to get up in the morning and go to work though. you're not allowed to not do that. or to not pay the rent or not shower or not eat.

like all my friends and loved ones are constantly like 'you know you're allowed to be sad right' and it's like. AM I??? because I STILL HAVE TO PAY RENT.

[kicktwine]

hi hello i was thinking abt it bc of ur posts on vani and ven recently. what are ur thoughts on what bits of feelings vanitas gets from ventus. i am. curious tm

hello. you are in so much luck because I’ve been thinking about them somehow even more bc I just received a zine and also get to see them soon again with my friend. Hi. Hello

i tend to think it works like a sieve. Vani’s heart isn’t healed over, so it thinks it should still be getting feelings from the other part of it, which it does if they’re strong enough. He can get REALLY specific with them too — Ven’s happy because Terra gave him a strawberry tart. Ven’s relieved because he had previously been nervous but Aqua told him a story so everything is fine. — but he only ever gets the good feelings consistently (because that’s what he’s missing), and only gets the bad feelings if they overflow. At which point it kind of becomes dangerous for the both of them because they can get caught in a feedback loop of negativity and push it way worse than it needs to/they originally wanted to be and overstimulate each other just on pure Feels Angry or Feels Bad. Because!! Also! Ven can feel what vanitas does Only if it overflows from his side, only if they’re close proximity, and only the really nasty feelings. Most of them slough off into unversed or chimera unversed so this rarely ever happens, and it only becomes a problem when they’re too close and too busy and too upset. Like their boss fight. u could probably feel the nasty energy radiating off them

anyways I was getting off track vani can feel positive emotions from ven a lot and he can only really understand them when they’re happening and he ceases to really get it once they leave. His negativity reacts to ven’s positivity like fire and wood. It’s like depression+sisyphus’ eldritch madness. yaaaaay. Like this

Vanitas genuinely hates him. For a lot of reasons not the least of which is it hurts him to keep being taunted and never given the reward. but in those moments of feeling happiness maybe he can pretend the feelings are his and cherish them for a moment…

[maraiheroine]

entertaining @dolls-runeterran-dollhouse with clown-level gameplay accompanied with screams of fright at the consequences of my actions.

[ughscara]

aiya .. another week of abrupt disappearance — my sincerest apologies everyone ^-^

[dreamyprinx]

I finished one (1) drawing this month and that may be all y’all get from me

[egopathic]

i wish i was better at recognizing red flags in people before i made long term plans and invested tons of money/time/energy into them