The problem is they both make sense.
John lacks any agency, and as his abilities start "failing" he loses more of what little he has. The only things he can do is perceive the world through Arthur's eyes and talk to him in his head. That's it. He has no material effect on the world around them. He is solely 100% reliant on Arthur for his continued existence and influence on the world. He can't ignore Arthur whatsoever (unlike Arthur who can ignore John easy peasy) he can't Do anything but talk and observe (and also experience the deaths of people Arthur touches but ultimately that does nothing). Of course he is going to be distrustful of other people and possessive over Arthur.
Arthur feels like suddenly he can't rely on this very reliable thing that has been keeping him alive this whole time. It would shake anyone up. Especially with the shit they have to deal with? If he can't rely on directions he will be sliced to ribbons or shot without a chance of fighting back. They may as well be dead already. And for all of John's lack of agency, it's Arthur who has to actually deal with the consequences. He's the one who's getting wounded and torn to bits and has to fight all that. Plus it's HIS body. If someone's existence relies on your body, you have the right to refuse, bodily autonomy is a human right.
The problem is they've gone through this cycle before (cycle of learning and forgetting and learning that they are One Unit and need to work Together vs The Problems and forgetting) but never has it shaken Arthur so much. Even when they've argued before he would still listen to John's directions. But now? Everything is in question (as is probably the intent behind John's "failing" abilities.) They DO need other people to help and they DO need to be careful and include John. They cannot truly trust someone else while keeping John a secret or without his input. Arthur has the most control over the situation and the onus is on him to make the compromises. Yeah it's his body but 1) countless times he promised to John that they were in this together and 2) at this point separating them would be so traumatic that they may as well be One.
All of this is to say, curious that Arthur is so willing to tell Oscar about literally everything EXCEPT John. What happens if he does? What if there's someone else to assert for John in a way Arthur can't ignore so easily? Would that legitimize the shared ownership of Arthur's body? What does it mean for John to gain agency by the loss of Arthur's autonomy?
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Self Ship Valentines - Day 8
Prompt: “Sweet kisses”
Description: Bronwen didn’t know anything about relationships, not until she found herself in the throes of one. But, even as the world seems to be turning in on itself and growing harsh, Claude always seems to have the time to tease.
“Hey... sundrop?”
No response; just light, but deep breaths, showing the woman was still in a deep sleep. Likely one filled with dreams, as she always woke up having had a great many, but even if he didn’t want to wake Bronwen up... well, he also wanted to see her face again.
“C’mon now, it’s time to get up, sweetheart.” Claude’s voice was low, loud enough to be heard but not enough to scare her awake. Light kisses trailed along her spine and up her neck, a few phrases muttered as Bronwen began to stir. Claude leaned on one arm, his green eyes watching as Bronwen eventually rolled over to her other side. Now facing him, her eyes soon fluttered open, a yawn escaping into the open air as she finally woke.
“Ah.... Claude?” Bronwen replied, voice low and laced with exhaustion, “Good morning, sweetie...”
Claude chuckled and ran his hand through her hair, green eyes drinking in the look of her freshly woken up from some type of dream; only seeming to smirk a bit when Bronwen blushed and his her face a little under the sheets. Claude quickly responded, pulling the sheet down so he could see the flush upon her cheeks.
“Oh, no. None of that now.” He remarked, shifting and trapping her with one arm on her other side, causing him to loom over her a touch, “I get to see you first thing in the morning, Bunny.”
“B-But-!”
Claude ‘tsk’ed in reply, shaking is head a bit to interrupt her, “Nope. No excuses. I get to look at you.”
“Why would you want to, though? I mean... I just woke up. I’m kind of a complete disaster mess.” Bronwen muttered, which only made Claude chuckle in reply.
“Seriously? After all this time, you still haven’t understood how beautiful I know you are?” He remarked, leaning down a bit closer to her, “Guess I’ve still got to find a way to show you then, huh?”
Bronwen looked a bit surprised, but before she could ask what he meant, Claude placed a soft kiss upon her cheek. She let out a squeak of surprise, blushing even darker, but couldn’t respond before Claude kissed her again- this time by the corner of her lip. Bronwen couldn’t help but start to giggle, especially as the assault of kisses continued- one on the tip of the nose, another on the forehead, on the cheek, drifting as Bronwen kept giggling in reply and wrapping her arms around Claude in a hug.
“Claudeeeee!” Bronwen laughed, shaking her head as he laid a kiss upon her collarbone, “Have mercy, I get it, I get it!”
“Nope.” He hummed in reply, placing more kisses upon her neck and then her shoulder, “Don’t believe you.”
Bronwen tried to roll over so he wasn’t looming over her, and instead she had turned away from him, but that just lead to kisses on the back of her neck before he turned her over again. There was a brief pause as Bronwen managed to stop giggling and catch her breath, Claude’s hand on her cheek as he simply looked at her again.
“I like you best with a smile on your face like that.” He remarked, and Bronwen felt her heart jump for a moment. Tangling her hand in his hair, she played a bit with the silken strands as she looked up at him with just as much love in her eyes.
“You’re a secret sap, Claude.” She remarked, but pulled him closer towards her, giving him a gentle kiss; tender and soft, brief but enough to pour the love she felt even within the deepest parts of her heart. He returned it with the same amount of love, resting his head upon Bronwen’s heart afterwards.
“But that’s part of what I love about you, Claudey.”
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One day in 2019, I had pain so bad I went to the ER.
My gut felt like there were red hot needles and knifes being stabbed into it. I felt nauseous. I felt faint. I very nearly threw up.
It was not the first time I felt this way but it was the worst I’d ever felt. I’d been getting increasingly bad pain for over a year and I had gone to countless doctors trying to determine what it was.
The doctors at the ER — thankfully — took me seriously. They determined I had a severely infected gallbladder and the only way to save my life was to have surgery to remove it.
I still had to give consent before the surgery.
I remember being terrified. I was alone. There was no one to help me. And somehow, even though the only course of action I could take was to consent to the surgery the fact that I had to before they could take action made it all the more terrifying. The consequences of the surgery would mean I would live, but I’d never quite be the same. I felt cheated by my own body. Why was it this way? Why couldn’t I be healthy? Functional? Why wasn’t my body working with me?
The nurses, doctors, and surgeons there were all incredibly kind to me.
One surgeon in particular — the one who ended up operating on me — said something that will stick with me for the rest of my life. “Your body is there to help you. Sometimes, when part of the body is no longer helping you, the best thing to do is cut it away. You’ll be so much happier after the surgery. You won’t be in pain anymore.”
I think about that a lot.
I think about it a lot when I see trans men begging for help to get top surgery and are met with resistance or well meaning but ignorant messages begging back to not “mutilate” their body.
I think about my surgeon, who was so kind to me and knew what to say when I was scared and crying and alone in my hospital bed.
Your body is there to help you.
Sometimes, when part of the body is no longer helping you, the best thing to do is cut it away.
You’ll be so much happier after the surgery.
You won’t be in pain anymore.
I hope you get your top surgery.
I hope you will be so much happier.
And I hope the pain will end.
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