#and that's just.. that's just SO fucking cool. never be afraid to be unique okay?

[fstbmp-a]

A friend inspired me with smth so I'm finally going to pop off and sound like the pretentious art college grad I secretly am

Writing canon characters is a farce. You're writing your character.

"Mirth what do you mean"

Thank you, strawman, allow me to elaborate. The second an author picks up a character, it is instantly their own. People put too much stake into fitting the mold, when really, you have ceased being a proper canon character the nanosecond you have initiated writing. You are writing your interpretation and, arguably, that cannot be considered the same.

You are INSPIRED. That's marvelous. That's fantastic, even. Your mind is fundamentally different from everyone else's, meaning this character, inspired by whatever take you enjoy most, is going to be irreplaceably unique. No matter what or who changes, that is a constant!

You're allowed to change and develop your character, unbound by whatever canon says or does. Roleplaying is a collaborative front and, frankly, you should be allowed to be as free with your muse as you wish. Get inspired by works, allow your characters to change and grow-- heck, if you get so inspired that it's so fucking different from canon it has to become an OC? THAT'S FUCKING INCREDIBLE!!! GO FOR IT!!!

You're a WRITER! Your work is irreplaceable because there will NEVER be another you and that's so freeing! You aren't held down by anything save yourself! If inspiration strikes, go for it! The entire purpose of this artform is to INSPIRE AND BE INSPIRED! So fuck around! Find out! That's the point! That's SICK AS FUCK!!!

Anyways, that's all! Have a good one, everybody!

[its-a-me-mango]

I saw your post about art fight (and by the way congrats and I'm impressed by the amount of pieces you've done) and you mentioned drawing furries. I kind of never did but I want to learn, do you have any tips on drawing furries?

Hi yeah my advice is to have an older brother tell you what furries are at the age of 8 and then get completely obsessed with drawing anthropomorphic characters until the age of 18, so if you missed out on that I'm sorry. /j

Anyway, my actual advice is to get used to drawing animals in general. If you already know how to draw humans then you've already done most of the work when it comes to furries, if not thats ok you can learn as you go! I always recommend looking at other peoples work that you look up to and seeing how they do it. Learning to look and pick out shapes and features is always my best advice, it's something you learn to do as you grow but being able to pick out characteristics, shapes and all sorts of what you're looking at will massively help with your work, never be afraid to look up reference!

Simply taking the time to understand how to draw some animals can help set you up for drawing furries, you don't have to learn every single animal right off the bat, just the ones you're interested in to start off with. Once you know how to draw one or two, all the other species should become much easier to learn, or if you just wanna stick with the one species that's fine too, whatever you're happiest doing!

For example, say you wanna draw dog furries, thats fair dogs are cool! I like border collies so I'm focusing on them, look at these guys they're so fluffyyyy

Right away you can pick out some key features, the pointy ears, the medium length snout, the long fur (especially around the neck), the markings, the fluffy tail, these are all key things that make up our awesome collie dog, taking the time to practice these traits first will help you later on for drawing furries, you can practice as you go if you want but if you're starting with nothing, go basic!

Once you're comfortable with drawing animals, putting those traits onto a human shouldn't be as daunting, head goes where the head is, tail goes at the end of the spine, and fur goes all over! Obviously there are so many ways to draw furries but I'm trying to be basic to start off with! Practising with putting human emotions/traits onto animals will help a lot to refine what you're doing, your first attempts won't be pretty so don't worry about trying to make them so, they're for practice after all!

Using this as my excuse to draw my border collie SMG4 inspired OC, come look at Jay he sucks so bad, you'll never guess who he's inspired by. Again learning to mix human emotions and put them onto cartoon animal heads is hard to learn but I promise it's possible and great fun once you know how!

There's no one set of rules for furries, it's whatever you feel works best! Add and take away whatever you want, maybe you want them blue and green with horns and wings, that's totally fine! Get as creative as you want and don't be afraid to go wild, furries aren't real after all, you can do anything you want!

Furries are so expressive and unique, it's one of the many reasons I love drawing them! You can get so much diversity and variation with their design and characters, they can be as realistic or as cartoony as you want! It's always important to have fun with what you're drawing and to be okay with making mistakes, you're not going to get it first try so might as well have fun getting to a point you're happy with!

Hope my insane ramblings helped somewhat, I never know if these actually help because my advice is always just "look at reference and say "fuck it we ballin" untill it looks right", I can't teach that to anyone I have to sound like I know what I'm doing lmao

[mrsbsmooth]

Future Islanders: My thoughts

My predictions about the Islanders we haven't seen yet, based on their character designs. This information will be 100% accurate, guaranteed*

*Not at all guaranteed

Spoilers under the cut. 18+. Contains gratuitous swearing.

Love his style, love his vibe, love his earring. He's so cute, and seems like he's gonna be really fun and flirty. But dear God, when I saw his surprised face, I just:

Those eyes - those fucking eyes. They are lifeless. Like this man has seen either seen some shit or had some serious plastic surgery, and I worry about him. I just… oh god, I got the ick so fast it's not even funny. And then I realised he got the same as Ozzy and got the Rocco flirty face which ends up looking like this emoji specifically

Definitely has a cool job though - maybe a runway model, artist, or some other artistic profession. Definitely from a cool part of Inner London.

*Editing to add:

It’s been brought to my attention that the way I worded this criticism is rather offensive, and I want to clarify what I meant. When I mentioned Andy’s eyes, I was referring to the way they were drawn. Usually when animating a character you’ll give them smile lines or crinkles to show a smile “reaches their eyes” etc, but this looks like they just slapped a shocked mouth on him and nothing else. My intention isn’t to make fun of his eye shape itself, or of any aspect of his ethnicity, it was a poorly worded/thought out criticism and I’m sorry 🤍

Villain. Calling it now, she's a villain. Her pose is too cool and confident to be anything other than a villain, because GOD FORBID Fusebox give us a strong, confident WOC that doesn't have some deep, unbridled desire to get her claws into whichever man we tell her we want.

I LOVE her design though. She's got super cute outfits, and isn't afraid to show a bit of skin (THAT CORSET TOP GIVE IT TO ME!) so definitely great style. I'm calling it now - she's a model. Might even be French. If she's French and a complete and utter bitch I might just fall in love with her, give me the pain, urgh.

SNAAAAKE SNAAAAAKEEE AHHHH IT'S A SNAAAAAKE

Don't let the glasses fool you. This man is a snake. I knew it from the second I saw him, and it's only been confirmed in the Casa postcards that @oliverslove posted. Never trust a blonde man (except Lewie, trust him with your life and ass).

Judges you on your book choices, but hasn't read one himself in years. Namedrops philosophers but has never had a unique thought in his life. Thinks some of Jordan Peterson's ideas "aren't actually that bad, when you think about it".

This is a man who looks innocent on the outside. "Oh, look at me, I'm a cute little nerd who reads books and plays D&D". But I guarantee, he's a fucking asshole. The kind of guy who thinks women owe him something, so treats them like dirt when they don't give him what he wants.

THAT SAID, his daywear is super basic but very cute, and he's wearing Versace underwear, so he's probably loaded. Jobwise - I'm putting my money on marketing or some other office-type job.

Okay, yeah, she cute. But I am suspicious of her too. Something about her screams Lily from S3 to me, like she's gonna come in purely to take my man. And what's worse, in the Casa postcard she's in bed with a girl, so she might even be taking my girl too!!!!

Love her style, but don't love her vibe. I can't even develop any thoughts outside of wild jealousy.

🤢 sorry, let me just *throws up in my mouth*, 🤢 Felix 2.0, God, I hate his character design so much. When I saw him briefly in his daywear I got SO EXCITED because I thought we might be getting a dadbod, but no, apparently the guy who walks around in the camel-hair woven poncho has a FUCKING EIGHT-PACK (FUSEBOX IN WHAT UNIVERSE?!!??!?!??) Then I thought he might be an environmentalist type, you know, vegan, save the animals and that. But then I saw his LEATHER JACKET and SHARK TOOTH NECKLACE and God damn it, I've lost all faith. This guy wants so bad to be Rocco it's not even funny, at least Rocco was decent looking, this guy has a pig snout for a nose and a smooshy face, don't ask me to elaborate, I hate him, and don't get me started on the fact he's wearing SANDALS with his FORMALWEAR

Smokes so much weed he can't get it up, will disappoint anyone who comes near him. Stay away, 0/10.

Gold diggers come get your man! It's Lucas Beresford-Smug the third. If this guy doesn't have a double-barrelled last name and a numeral in his name I will buy a hat and fucking eat it. Absolute guaranteed 100% arrogant FUCKHEAD, giant twat, thinks he is God's gift to women until he inevitably meets MC and falls so desperately in love that he changes his ways to show her he's the man she deserves. Yeah, okay, the storyline's predictable. Yes, he's likely an insufferable, sheltered, self-obsessed pig. But does that make me want him any less? ... No it does not.

Already posted it in response to @rebelrayne's husband's thoughts but what kind of spoilt little asshole wears a US$20,000 watch IN THE FUCKING SHOWER!!!!!!!

I don't care that it's water resistant to 100m you don't wear a $20k watch IN THE SHOWER and expect people to not think you're a complete and utter fucking asshole. He's a Jasper/ Lucas / Tom hybrid, with Taron Egerton's body and face, I'm getting a short king vibe but maybe that's just from the way his suit is way too big through the shoulders for him, making him look like a 1920's gangster. Works in finance or medicine, I will stake my life on it.

Blindfold this man, kidnap him, and handcuff him to the bed in the hideaway, he may very well be the death of my loyal Lewie route. He is so fine I can't breathe, it's something about the beard. Bearded men are the death of me. And if he's Ozzy's older brother, sorry, suddenly I can't breathe.

I have very few thoughts about him other than the fact he's a fucking stunning piece of artwork that, if real, I would physically need to take a bite out of. I am barking at him, god fucking damn. The arrogance and confidence and big dick energy required to wear an all-cream outfit is just... urgh, someone splash me with water.

Unfortunately, like his brother and Andy, our beloved and holiest daddy (Marshall) also got the Rocco treatment for his flirty face

It's not as bad because his beard covers the smirk, but holy shit, Fusebox, do better. I don't want to be doing a steamy scene with the boys and they whip out THIS. It makes me want to punch something. DO BETTER.

What an absolute waste of a hot-guy name. This dude looks like John Travolta had a child with Littlefoot from The Land Before Time. His mouth looks like it was slapped on his face as an afterthought, his eyebrows are too thick, and the only hot face he has is his angry one, which I'm going to be trying to elicit as often as possible. He looks like he's been to prison, Wentworth Miller vibes but not in a sexy way. Tried to join the skinheads but they didn’t want him. Tried to get a teardrop tattoo to look hard but everyone just ignored him. Strongest of strong dislike, 0/10, I will slander Toby until the day I die. Boooo. BOOOOO.

[theokusgallery]

What do you think about middle aged sunflower ????

Okay I'm going to pretend I'm normal and didn't just have a conversation about it yesterday within which I had to restrict myself because of Discord's stupid character limit

Anyway. Gonna talk about fanfics briefly, because fics tend to get more complex with characterization.

A while ago, I got really into Marvel, and for two months I did nearly nothing except read spideypool fanfic all day and night. If you know anything about these two (that isn't from the MCU) (I hate the MCU, I hate it so so much, this is not who Spidey fundamentally is, he is supposed to be a friendly neighborhood loner loser and you Cannot just give him an Iron Man suit and a mentorship with Stark and intergalactic missions at 16 or however old he is in those movies when the essence of the character is that he is an average struggling teenager who just happens to get superpowers and fucks up a lot at the beginning of his journey and mostly works alone and quit the fucking Avengers himself) (wow I started rambling sorry. Ignore that), you'll know that they are both around... 25-30ish, currently. Something like that. The only other fandom that I read as many fanfics of was Ace Attorney, where depending on the timeline, they can be from 23 to like, 35 with a kid. So I'd say me being so invested in a ship with 16 year-olds is... kind of an anomaly.

I don't usually like the coming-of-age, teenage love stuff, and I honestly have never found a single sunflower schoolfic I liked (except Spiral of course but even then they're in college) because all of them tend to... infantilize both Sunny and Basil at great length. And also tear down anything that makes them interesting characters. I think a lot of OMORI artists (that includes writers) are very afraid of doing anything substantial with teenagers, despite, you know, the actual plot of the game, and as a result, a lot of the time most fics where the characters aren't aged up tend to be... incredibly boring. Of course there are some that are good — exceptional even — but in the end all I can think of is the huge gap in... quality? that sounds wrong to say about a creative thing... interesting-ness, let's say (a very personal and subjective concept), when I stopped reading Marvel and went back to OMORI. I stopped reading fanfics altogether because I just couldn't find one I liked as much as the average Marvel fic that I hadn't already read.

Maybe it's a result of the writers themselves being young? I know OMORI's fanbase is generally a lot younger than Marvel's, so that could affect it. I mentioned schoolfics because there's a lot of them and because they were mentioned in my rant yesterday, but it's not really about the fact that they're schoolfics, it's about the fact that more often than not, the setting is the plot, and since it's just your average highschooler writing their favorite blorbos into their own environment and projecting (which is very cool btw, 99% of my own writing is projecting), the plot is... basically nonexistant. It's boring. It's boring and the characterization is usually dull. But even outside of schoolfics, I think I stopped trying to read fics that start with Sunny getting out of the hospital after the True Ending for the same reason : it's often plain and plotless and boring. And, fuck, my favorite books and mangas and such are slice of life, I'm all for mundane plots! But there's a difference between a mundane plot/realism and just no plot at all.

(This is not, like, an attack of OMORI writers who make schoolfics or fics that start with the above mentioned premise, btw, I want to make that very clear. It's very much a personal preference. I think it's boring because all of the fics I read in Marvel had a very unique plot/premise is my point. And also because the characters were a lot more mature and complex. Different strokes for different folks)

I think that's what I'm kind of sad about. OMORI characters tend to be complex and morally grey in their own way, and people tend to forget about that because they're teenagers and obviously no one can do no wrong before the ripe age of 18. Children are all innocent and therefore cannot be more morally complex than cinnamon roll soft boys/girls (looking pointedly at Sunny, Aubrey and Basil. But mostly Basil). Also, I think people tend to straight-up forget that 16 year-olds aren't, like, 10? Of course they're not going to be as mature as grown adults, especially Sunny OMORI, Dissociative Amnesia World Champion, but like... When I was 16 reading OMORI fanfics, half the time I was like "a 16 year-old would not fucking say that". But also generally more mature characters are inevitably more interesting to explore to me because I prefer more mature themes — I'm simply extremely upset at the fact that people don't explore the complexity that's already there when they're 16, including the very mature themes that are already there.

TL;DR: I love middle aged sunflower, I love middle aged ships in general ! In fact, I will tend to prefer sunflower when it's aged up.

(... I probably should've led with that.)

[scaly-freaks]

The wolf den is one of my favorite books. Really changed the way I write relationships and characters.

(Your) Amara is such a lovable character. You write her with so much love and your love and care for her really shines through in the story. Her vulnerabilities and strength makes her so easy to love and genuinely relate to. She’s a uch a cool and unique character. I’m a huge Amara fan

I’m absolutely loving Alys and Amara ! They’re so weird and adorable? That scene where Alys is acting all creepy imitating aegon and Amara’s like “omg that’s so cool I want to be a witch” was kind of wholesome. I know that Alys and Larys are probably playing some bigger game, but I’m hoping that Alys could be a friend to Amara.

And poor little Jaehaerys and jaehaera!!! As much as I believe that aegon genuinely loves his children, at this point he kind of sees them as cute toys and not as actual human beings. I’m not justifying him separating Amara from Jaehaera, but I also don’t think he understands the severity of his actions - for both Amara and jaehaera - who needs her mom!

Aegon leaving his kids to the nannies was so sad. Alicent’s gone and Amara is banned from seeing jaehaera. But Amara and Jaehaerys bonding was adorable.

Aegon is being his usual self, making everyone’s life miserable because he feels rejected by someone he loves. He’s really not as smart as he thinks he is. Getting a new lover to make Amara jealous? He has tried that before and it didn’t work!! He’s just reaffirming her belief that she shouldn’t let herself love him.

Aahh thank you so much :')

I hear so many i don't read OC fics and urgh I hate OC fics they're just author self-inserts so it made me a little 'eh' about it at first. I think OCs are fucking amazing, and they may start out as author self-inserts but as they experience more of the plot, they take on a life of their own, so I really don't understand the vitriol against them. Besides, all literature is author self-insert to an extent. It is coming out of someone's brain, and you expect it not to be coloured with who they are as a person? Don't be daft. Even y/n fiction is author self-insert because they're the ones writing it.

Though I suppose I understand any objections if the OC in question is a Targaryen sister/daughter, rides three dragons, kills Alicent and Alys Rivers and Aegon, rides Aemond, makes Rhaenyra queen, and then becomes queen herself.

Not to get kinky over the Alys-Amara thing (age gap...I support this one), but I had this vivid scene in my head where she and Amara...you know, do stuff, and in the middle of it, Alys starts speaking with Aegon's voice, so it's like he's there with them. And it wreaks havoc on Amara, and she orgasms almost immediately with Alys between her legs (and Aegon's voice down there too...okay I'll stop). Anyway, I bet Amara would be the first to try and suggest Alys fucks the pair of them together, and I don't know how Aegon feels about sharing but I hope he says yes (it'd be the first time he actually sees Amara being pleasured by someone else, whereas she's seen him literally pounding Mirian).

Aegon absolutely loves his children, and I think is afraid his inactivity in regards to them will turn him into Viserys 2.0. But being too proactive is also detrimental as we're now seeing. I do headcanon that both Jaehaera and Jaehaerys grow up to be very violent people, but they actively understand their father and in an almost sociopathic way, hide the worst of themselves from him so he never suspects a thing. Everyone else suffers, but Aegon of course believes his own kids (ironically, he does turn into Viserys but just takes a different road).

"Aegon is being his usual self, making everyone’s life miserable because he feels rejected by someone he loves." I love this because yep, exactly. He can be very clever when he wants to be, but not when he's clouded by love, and the need to be loved the way he loves others. He thinks just because someone isn't crawling all over him and whimpering and blubbering the way he devolves to, that means they don't love him as much. He's not good at empathy, which is something I wrote in specifically as part of his canon character being raised as a prince. It was just a bit of fun. Of course it was, Aegon. It was fun for you, but you don't understand how it couldn't possibly be fun for someone else.

I didn't want to fall into the trap of getting Amara to "fix" him though, so she makes her own mistakes in regards to his behaviour, and then suffers/makes him suffer. She still doesn't get why he acts the way he does, but sometimes it clicks and she does what's best for herself (as she should).

[journalsouppe]

This is a repost with better images (and the original was posted to my main blog not here)

Uncensored version and close ups below!!

Also apologies for the small and crazy writing, I went insane playing this game and had a lot to say about it LMAO

Stickers are from NoodlesandTeaShop on etsy!!

Rating: 10/10 Played: Su 2022 Port: N. Switch Favorite? Y Replayable: Y Recommended? Y

Comments

my first ace attorney game!!

omg the little anime scenes are so cool

The twist endings/court conclusions are so well made

oh my god I'm in love with Kazuma <3 his theme T-T

each character has such a distinct personality esp from just their animation

I love the [sholmes/iris/ryuu] forhead thing

yeah I'm also in love with Ryuu T-T

the logic and reasoning spectaculars are my favorite thing they're so fun and stupid

Sholmes and Iris are the cutest dad and daughter duo

FIREWORKS? IN THE COURTROOM??

I am so stressed about the Hounds of the Baskerville case O_o

British Ryuu jumpscare

CHUUNOSUKE ON RYUU'S SHOULDER T-T

I like Gina's new job and personality

Ayy Gregsy is back

ohh the great departed soul is both Susato and Kazuma omg

AMNESIA? T^T

Ryuu is scared of everything and I adore it [me too Ryuu]

PLAGUE DOCTOR WANTS TO CUT ME UP??

The wax museum is horrifying wtf

case 8 [2-3] is an all time favorite

HOLY FUCK

[Phonograph sticker] looks just like Barok's

Love goofy Herlock clothes

Case 2-4 specific comments

THE PARALLELS ARE CRAZY

give me your damn sword Kazuma you don't need two of them

KAZUMA'S NEW THEME????

KAZUIMA'S FATHER?

DEAD?

I love how confident, sure, and determined Ryuu is now

bullying Ryu to pay the vendors T-T

is this a fake trial??

Beppo!!!

STOP FLIRTING IN THE MIDDLE OF A TRIAL

Was the will the note sent to Kazuma?

Finishing each others sentences

love [prison warders and a prosecutor, reborn] 10/10 music

Case 2-5 specific comments

FUCK NOT STRONGHART

Kazuma [eye roll]

JIGOKU???

The girls are FIGHTING [kazuma and barok]

IM MIKOTOBA OMG OMG INVESTIGATION

Elementary my dear Mikotoba T^T

TAP DANCING

Was the sword broken from Genshin? NVM LOL [im dumb]

Gregson in the luggage is so fucked

They're all family T-T brother Ryuu

Kazuma's theme is both intimidating but assuring

HOLOGRAM??

THE DANCE????

Iris Van Zieks... IRIS SHOLMES

THE CREDITS, I'm not okay

Game Dev notes

Masterfully done music, esp reinvented themes for change

incredible animations, gives each character so much personality

great story telling - best visual novel for length, story, interest, etc

chronicles has its own achievements - encourages replayability

great pacing and saving - east to pick up and set down

amazing foreshadowing - whole series planned together

incredible balance of comedy and tragedy

takes preexisting stories and tropes and masterfully retells them

Summary:

I'm afraid I won't have enough room to describe how much I love this game. I don't even know where to start :'). This game is a masterpiece of masterpieces. Easily comparable to FMAB in terms of incredible storytelling, foreshadowing, mystery, tragedy, comedy, score, design, you name it. I have never genuinely been so shocked by the surprises in this game, but they were all so well made and fit in the story seamlessly. The tragedy and comedy, the two most important aspects of a story to me, were not only very well balanced, but were used as expert emotional devices throughout the game. The character design is incredible. Small details such as Ryuu's arm brace or Enoch's mechanisms or Iris's dolls add such character and personality even if some of these details aren't plot relevant. Each character has a unique body type, face shape, facial features, etc that it is easy to identify each character without their hair or clothes. The deigns are also so brilliant that it even taught me how to not only draw older people and children, but to be able to distinguish between teenagers and 20-30 year olds in my art (instead of all looking the same age). The animations are beautiful and so ridiculous. I always looked forward to interacting with Herlock and the witnesses. These games also have one of my favorite scores, especially the way they are able to turn established themes on their heads. The music does an amazing job at establishing setting, character, tension, emotion, you name it. Now for the story telling. Holy fucking shit. Holy shit. You don't even realize how important every small is until it hits you in the face. This is a story that will rival my 1st place spot of FMAB [in terms of all media]. It is so beautifully designed and thought over that I can only say the writers at Capcom are true geniuses to make this story. It doesn't hold back any punches but also comforts you. It toys with your emotions and is smth almost evil, but it also gives you hope and confidence and lifts you up so that you can scream to the world. The key to this is Ryuu. He's no avatar like Link but you and him share a strong bond through shared experience. It was an ingenious move to have the first story be Ryuu accused of murder, you learn the hardest way possible how to become a defense attorney of true integrity. His relations to others is this game is incredible too. The betrayal, the longing, the tenderness. Him and Susato have an incredible "sibling" bond to where I truly felt anxious without her. Not to mention Kazuma. A human through and through. Once thought to be the righteous angel, he had later fallen from heaven just to learn the truth of who he and his father really are. Even as the game has ended, I still sit and contemplate on these characters. Although it was the right decision for Kazuma to stay, I am still in pain from their separation. I really wish I could say more but it's also hard to put into words all my feelings with so little space. If I could forget this game just to experience it again, I would. An outstanding work of art. I highly recommend. My new favorite game.

[tremendum]

good lord that's hot :') surprised you weren't steaming smh. but that's amazing, i'm so happy you had an amazing time. road trips are very fun, especially w people you have a ball with. very well deserved!

but aw omg, i wish you could've/could experience it :( and it's totally okay! i also jinxed myself, i finally got out and fucked around in the pool and i got so sunburnt... literally never happens smh (i never wear sunscreen.. only tanning shit. once it heals im still not going to wear it)

ooo love that we're both being mentally healthy.. well. you know what i mean ahah. and it's so fun! did you do it when it was muddy or dry? or both??? i think this is the 3rd year of having them, never had or done anything like it before now. but i used to ride on motorcycles with my dad since i was in pre k! always took lil naps on there which sounds crazy looking back tbh. and i swear im so boring, im just mentioning the only interesting things about me LMAOO

also thats so fun?!?! europe?! why'd you go and why'd you come back?? if that's too personal it's okay and i'd completely understand!! i've only ever been in the states im afraid. lived in only one state and traveled to a small handful of others. ugh YOURE the cool one, what are you talking about?! there's SO much about you that's interesting and unique, i love learning about you HAHA. ily xx <3

thank u!!! sorry i went almost immediately on a several week long camping trip and havent been active much since then bc of my job ahaha. but i miss u!! putting a cut here lol

but yeah i did it when it was muddy/snowy muddy and also once dry and it was soooo fun! i like snowmobiling the best tbh

thats so cute your dad took you on motorcycles omg <333 thats so cute ahhhhhhhhh! shut up ur so cool stop ive never been on a motorcycle before tbh

i studied for a few years in france! i came back bc of student visas and (toxic traits incoming!!!!) i missed the feel of a big uni -football season and basketball and tailgating and partying in the US LOL its just different! but i miss europe, i have a dual citizenship within the EU so hopefully ill go back and live over there one day! which states have you been to if you don't mind me asking?? i travel around the states for my job but not to too many places. so many places i want to go :D shush i love learning about u too!

[mew-ya]

I really love your maren character and was wondering if you could make a poly request for headcanons on what it would be like a fem lady in relationship with them both (katakuri, Maren x fem reader) you don't have to but maren looks like he gives great hugs ❤ ♥ 🤗 and I really would love a cuddle from both of them. I love you art and your oc 💗 and again you don't have to and if you charge for both writing and drawing I'm happy to pay for my request 😊 ☺.

I just really thought this request was cute, so I went ahead and did a little art and writing for it! I did both SFW and NSFW headcanons, hope that's okay! Sorry it took me a bit, I was waiting for a rainy day to sit down and think about this.

One disclaimer: I have never been in a poly relationship myself so im basically writing from a fantasy perspective, not a realistic one. If there's anything that seems incorrect let me know.

Poly Katakuri x Maren x Female Reader HCs (SFW & NSFW 18+ only)

Spending Time with Maren (SFW)

As a half porcupinefish fishman, Maren is always the appropriate size for the job. Able to puff his body up to beyond Katakuri's height, or shrink down to just a bit taller than you, he can completely engulf you in a hug if he feels like it. His torso is really soft, but his hands are rough from work--its something you love, and makes you appreciate the gentle warmth of his chest more.

If you're not a devil fruit user, he LOVES to swim with you! He gets a bit sappy about it--being a fishman was always something that made him feel like an outcast, so being able to swim freely under the water with you makes him feel like he's able to share more of his world with you. He's a pretty slow swimmer, so you dont have many problems keeping pace with him.

If you are a devil fruit user, he LOVES to (consensually) hold you close to his large body as he wades around in the sea and chat with you. It's one of his favorite places to be, and loves the feeling of salt water spraying on his skin as the tides roll over his belly. The fact that you trust him enough to allow him to hold you in such a treacherous environment makes him feel very loved by you.

Maren is the funniest person you know, so you always have a great time spending time with him! He enjoys causing chaos but is surprisingly attentive to the feelings of others--he's not afraid to offend folks, but he is kind-hearted deep down and will try to make up for any long-term harm he causes. You might get a little bit embarrassed of him sometimes, but he's really just trying to act cool for you.

He might get you two into some trouble but he'll quickly take the blame for it--as a troublemaker known for his harmlessness, he'll probably get off with little more than a slap on the wrist. He has a lot of charm, so it's not uncommon for strangers to do complete 180s on him--at first they'll be ready to murder him for his misdeeds, but after he talks them down, he becomes a loveable rascal in their eyes.

Unfortunately, Maren can be a bit stubborn when he doesn't want to do something. He is a very laid back guy, but there are some places he simply does not want to tread. He'll try anything once, but if he did it once and didn't like it, good luck getting him to do it again. His adoration for you is about 1% stronger than his stubborn nature, so it may take a bit, or a lot, of convincing in the form of snacks, kisses, and foot rubs, but he'll always give in at the end.

He's often the life of the party, even in quiet times at home. He'll whip out his banjo and write romantic songs with a comedic twinge about his love for you and your funny quirks.

His favorite thing about you are the weird things that make you unique, and he notices them all. It can sound like insults sometimes, "what do you mean you love the pores on my nose?!" but you've learned to appreciate them, he just has a funny way of showing his love.

In Bed With Maren (NSFW)

Calling this category "in bed" is a stretch, Maren is pretty much DTF anytime, anywhere, most consequences be damned.

This man fucks. He's not incapable of a good, slow, lovemaking session, but it's not his default setting. He wants to have fun while he shows his appreciation for you.

He tends to be rather controlling and dominant in bed, and is the biggest tease you know. He gets a huge amount of pleasure at teasing you until you snap--you always tell yourself you'll win next time, but by the end of the night, you're begging for him to just fuck you already. If you take matters into your own hands, he's very compliant but might tease you for being impatient.

Maren is very particular about making sure his partners get off multiple times (if possible) before he does--while it's not impossible for him to go for multiple rounds, he loves taking a big fat nap after blowing his load. Would not call him an aftercare king, but he's a damn fine nap spot once you two are cleaned up.

Hes very bitey, which scared you a bit at first, but he always asks first, and is gentler than he acts. He has a pretty feral vibe but is actually surprisingly restrained for the level of horny this man contains.

Spending Time With Katakuri (SFW)

Katakuri tends to work longer nights and weekends, so alone time with him is a bit more uncommon. On the off chance that Maren is the one working late (?!), you two tend to opt for a quiet night reading books cuddled together with a cup of tea.

He's the more mature of your two partners, though Maren tends to have more common sense than him. Still, Katakuri is a very good listener, so you feel very comfortable venting to him about your problems. He takes everything rather seriously, which can be refreshing after a day with the ever-joking Maren.

Katakuri's hugs are very gentle, and you can tell that he has a fear of hurting you. Because of his role as a family protector, tends to treat those he loves with a lot of delicacy. He doesn't see you as weak, however--he just is overly conscious of how his strength can harm people because of the life he leads, so he's always sure to pick you up very softly.

Due to the nature of his work overseeing his island, it's not uncommon for you to take time off from your own work to hop onto his shoulder and ride around with him for a day as he tends to affairs. You love watching him work because it seems to be something he legitimately enjoys--this role he's carved out for himself as a caretaker for his own community, he shows a lot of care and interest in the affairs of his fellow townspeople. Everyone is always happy to see you two together, as they all were so worried for Katakuri being alone for so long.

You make a point to share every merienda with him if you can! It's not always possible, and Maren may or may not be there. On the times you're alone with Katakuri in his little mochi palace, you enjoy each other's company in silence as you chow down on gourmet desserts.

Katakuri loves you completely, and feels undeserving of two such wonderful partners. He rarely gets emotional about it, but once in a while, the mask will crack and he'll be putty in your hands as you pet his temples and tell him how wonderful he is.

In Bed With Katakuri (NSFW)

Katakuri is less sex-driven than Maren, while you see yourself as somewhere in between the two. More often than not, you're the one initiating with Katakuri, unless he's really hot and bothered one day, in which case, you can sit back and enjoy while he makes sure you won't be walking right tomorrow.

This man is a big goober when talking about sex and prefers to call it lovemaking. That attitude bleeds into how he prefers to have sex--slow and romantically.

He's a bit awkward about showing his attraction to you, but will obey your every command as well as he can. His dirty talk tends to be stiff and a bit silly sounding, but he's trying out of love for you. He will do anything you ask, even if it makes him look completely silly.

One of his favorite things to do is take you from behind, cum inside of you and keep thrusting through his sensitivity until he's ready to start pounding you hard again to another climax. Breeding kink much.

He might have a bit of a size kink but you're not sure he knows. You can tell from the way he makes himself big above you, and the way he watches his large cock disappear into your small frame--you keep it a secret, because you're pretty sure it'd embarrass him and make him try to stop.

Katakuri is an aftercare king--he always checks in, makes sure you're comfortable and having a good time. He can be rather self conscious about his performance, so he feels inclined to treat you to the utmost care after with warm blankets, cuddles, a cup of your favorite tea, and kisses planted along your arm.

Spending Time with Both (SFW)

These boys love quiet days at home, although Maren's presence tends to turn anything into a bit of a party. You love that--the playful teasing, Kata's rebuttal, your giggle, Maren grabbing the both of you and throwing you to the bed for cuddles, Kata baking fresh cookies that you and Maren feed to each other while Kata takes a sip of coffee. It feels like home to you.

Speaking of cuddles, having two 16'+ boyfriends means you 1. need massive pillows/bedding, 2. do not need pillows/bedding yourself because it's built in. Maren is especially comfortable to curl up on with a big soft belly and round arms. He's a serial napper, his quiet, rhythmic breathing can lull you into slumber quickly. Kata is wonderful to read a book on--he'll prop his little reading glasses on his nose and stare down at you in his lap as you read your favorite fiction books together.

Your favorite place is between them--the little dip between their torsos pressed together is made for you. They gently cover you with their large hands in embrace, falling asleep in a big cuddle.

One of your favorite places to go together is the beach at night--its a special place for all of you. Maren brings his banjo and plays all of your favorite songs, along with some you hate to tease you. You roast marshmallows over the bonfire, the scent mixing with the salty ocean air. Katakuri constructs a comfortable mochi seat for you as you get your cold feet close to the fire.

In Bed With Both (NSFW)

It is rare for your nighttime beach rendezvous to not turn into some form of lovemaking--so it is always a special night for you all. You bring out the best in each other, even in bed. Maren is tender with the two of you, Kata more confident, and you feel the best when you're with both of them together.

Maren being the flirt that he is, he tends to initiate any form of intercourse in a half-joking manner, looking for your approval and interest. Once you climb on top of him, it's over--he'll be all over you, and it won't take long for him to try to goad Katakuri into joining.

Katakuri might pretend not to notice, in respect of your boundaries as three people in a relationship. But Maren always beckons him over when hes nearby, and Kata complies, ready to smother you between the two of them.

They both might be big, but in a threesome, you're in charge unless you explicitly say so. They listen to you, your body language, the sounds of your moans and do their best to make sure you're having the time of your life. Even Maren, who tends to be domineering one-on-one, is at your beck and call for any words you may have. You call the shots.

Maren's variable size is a boon in intercourse, especially when it comes to times when you both want to spoil Katakuri. The sight two of you climbing all over his cock, giving little kisses and nibbles as you rub yourself against him drives Katakuri absolutely mad.

In times when you want to go the extra mile to show Maren a good time, one of the best things you can give him is dominance, and you're more than happy to do so as payback for all of the times he makes you beg for him. Chaining him up, or even just having Katakuri hold his arms back while you both use him for your own pleasure drives Maren up the wall.

The most close and comfortable position for you three tends to be Maren on bottom, yourself sitting on his cock, and Katakuri on top controlling the pace with his gentle nature. They're both so amazed you're able to take them both at once, and the feeling never gets old. The closeness is incomparable, both of them inside you, rubbing against each other as they surround you completely. And the moment of pleasure always comes too soon yet too slow as all three of you climax at the same time, and you collapse onto each other sweating.

You really get the best of both worlds with the two of them--a gentle, huge lover, and an adventurous, size variable firebrand that both love and worship the ground you walk on. After a pounding session, you drift to sleep as you lay on Maren's tummy and Kata rubs your back with the tips of his fingers.

I fucking adore these two if you couldn't tell haha, so I hope it didn't get too sappy. 💜

Hope you enjoyed imagining yourself with these two! I do have ko-fi if you want to tip but it's entirely up to you.

[pumpkinsouppe]

Uncensored version and close ups below!!

Also apologies for the small and crazy writing, I went insane playing this game and had a lot to say about it LMAO

The way I has to paste in a sticky note to write more anjfdnsojfndsjnfodjs

Stickers are by NoodlesAndTeaShop on Etsy!!

This is the only game I’ve given a 10/10, I seriously love this game so much and this spread is my favorite thing ever

And if you’re curious how I set up the spread here it is!

Writing typed below!

Rating: 10/10 Played: Su 2022 Port: N. Switch Favorite? Y Replayable: Y Recommended? Y

Comments

my first ace attorney game!!

omg the little anime scenes are so cool

The twist endings/court conclusions are so well made

oh my god I'm in love with Kazuma <3 his theme T-T

each character has such a distinct personality esp from just their animation

I love the [sholmes/iris/ryuu] forhead thing

yeah I'm also in love with Ryuu T-T

the logic and reasoning spectaculars are my favorite thing they're so fun and stupid

Sholmes and Iris are the cutest dad and daughter duo

FIREWORKS? IN THE COURTROOM??

I am so stressed about the Hounds of the Baskerville case O_o

British Ryuu jumpscare

CHUUNOSUKE ON RYUU'S SHOULDER T-T

I like Gina's new job and personality

Ayy Gregsy is back

ohh the great departed soul is both Susato and Kazuma omg

AMNESIA? T^T

Ryuu is scared of everything and I adore it [me too Ryuu]

PLAGUE DOCTOR WANTS TO CUT ME UP??

The wax museum is horrifying wtf

case 8 [2-3] is an all time favorite

HOLY FUCK

[Phonograph sticker] looks just like Barok's

Love goofy Herlock clothes

Case 2-4 specific comments

THE PARALLELS ARE CRAZY

give me your damn sword Kazuma you don't need two of them

KAZUMA'S NEW THEME????

KAZUIMA'S FATHER?

DEAD?

I love how confident, sure, and determined Ryuu is now

bullying Ryu to pay the vendors T-T

is this a fake trial??

Beppo!!!

STOP FLIRTING IN THE MIDDLE OF A TRIAL

Was the will the note sent to Kazuma?

Finishing each others sentences

love [prison warders and a prosecutor, reborn] 10/10 music

Case 2-5 specific comments

FUCK NOT STRONGHART

Kazuma [eye roll]

JIGOKU???

The girls are FIGHTING [kazuma and barok]

IM MIKOTOBA OMG OMG INVESTIGATION

Elementary my dear Mikotoba T^T

TAP DANCING

Was the sword broken from Genshin? NVM LOL [im dumb]

Gregson in the luggage is so fucked

They're all family T-T brother Ryuu

Kazuma's theme is both intimidating but assuring

HOLOGRAM??

THE DANCE????

Iris Van Zieks... IRIS SHOLMES

THE CREDITS, I'm not okay

Game Dev notes

Masterfully done music, esp reinvented themes for change

incredible animations, gives each character so much personality

great story telling - best visual novel for length, story, interest, etc

chronicles has its own achievements - encourages replayability

great pacing and saving - east to pick up and set down

amazing foreshadowing - whole series planned together

incredible balance of comedy and tragedy

takes preexisting stories and tropes and masterfully retells them

Summary:

I'm afraid I won't have enough room to describe how much I love this game. I don't even know where to start :'). This game is a masterpiece of masterpieces. Easily comparable to FMAB in terms of incredible storytelling, foreshadowing, mystery, tragedy, comedy, score, design, you name it. I have never genuinely been so shocked by the surprises in this game, but they were all so well made and fit in the story seamlessly. The tragedy and comedy, the two most important aspects of a story to me, were not only very well balanced, but were used as expert emotional devices throughout the game. The character design is incredible. Small details such as Ryuu's arm brace or Enoch's mechanisms or Iris's dolls add such character and personality even if some of these details aren't plot relevant. Each character has a unique body type, face shape, facial features, etc that it is easy to identify each character without their hair or clothes. The deigns are also so brilliant that it even taught me how to not only draw older people and children, but to be able to distinguish between teenagers and 20-30 year olds in my art (instead of all looking the same age). The animations are beautiful and so ridiculous. I always looked forward to interacting with Herlock and the witnesses. These games also have one of my favorite scores, especially the way they are able to turn established themes on their heads. The music does an amazing job at establishing setting, character, tension, emotion, you name it. Now for the story telling. Holy fucking shit. Holy shit. You don't even realize how important every small is until it hits you in the face. This is a story that will rival my 1st place spot of FMAB [in terms of all media]. It is so beautifully designed and thought over that I can only say the writers at Capcom are true geniuses to make this story. It doesn't hold back any punches but also comforts you. It toys with your emotions and is smth almost evil, but it also gives you hope and confidence and lifts you up so that you can scream to the world. The key to this is Ryuu. He's no avatar like Link but you and him share a strong bond through shared experience. It was an ingenious move to have the first story be Ryuu accused of murder, you learn the hardest way possible how to become a defense attorney of true integrity. His relations to others is this game is incredible too. The betrayal, the longing, the tenderness. Him and Susato have an incredible "sibling" bond to where I truly felt anxious without her. Not to mention Kazuma. A human through and through. Once thought to be the righteous angel, he had later fallen from heaven just to learn the truth of who he and his father really are. Even as the game has ended, I still sit and contemplate on these characters. Although it was the right decision for Kazuma to stay, I am still in pain from their separation. I really wish I could say more but it's also hard to put into words all my feelings with so little space. If I could forget this game just to experience it again, I would. An outstanding work of art. I highly recommend. My new favorite game.

[missingn000]

hi yes this is incredibly late b/c work is shit tm but better late than never amirite

anyway, something about this chapter that leapt out at me immediately was Maki’s “uh, we are kids.” because i’m pretty sure something similar was said a couple chapters back (i can’t remember the exact instance though) and it seems to be a recurring theme in tpg: people being put into roles they don’t quite fill, not through any fault of their own, but simply because they cannot. gojo’s deification by jujutsu society is one such example, but it wasn’t something he had a say in, while nobara by comparison appears to have voluntarily taken on the task of acting(!) like an adult. she does, thankfully, end up joining maki & gang on the playground, but her conversation with higuruma undoes some of that progress:

“You treat me like a kid!”

“You are a kid!”

“And that’s enough reason to shut me out?!”

oh, higuruma… your intentions are kind, but your lack of tact is almost cruel. i think nobara’s response, coupled with the next line (“…brought a cannon and she’s not afraid to swim”) are very telling of her true feelings: even though she hates the fact that higuruma’s a murderer excluding the fact that his boss is worse, she is aware that he’s her parental figure now, and seeks (as all children do, especially those who were denied of it) emotional validation from him. higuruma really tried to pull the “being a child is not a sin” card but nobara didn’t hear the ‘not’ part lol. i find it depressingly ironic that his attempt at shielding her from the ugly truth of humanity & the entire mess with the sheriff end up widening the rift between them—it’s not… a terrible idea, in theory, but their circumstances are unique: nobara’s trying to understand & rationalise why the person she’s stuck with as a father did what he did, but she can’t do that if she’s missing some of the puzzle pieces. more accurately, higuruma won’t give them to her because the picture they complete is bleak, but she doesn’t know that!!!!

“I don’t know, Nobara. You deserve better than this.”

“You’re right, I do! But you won’t even try!”

… yeah sure kugisaki “you’re not my dad” nobara. and then, as if on cue, her phone rings with a call from her actual dad. the way she has to fight the urge to answer the call is nothing short of heartbreaking. she has to quash her own hopes, before her dad does it for her.

AAANDD THEN THEY HUGGED. THANK YOU FOR THIS. the part where higuruma wonders whether he’s about to be socked in the face reminded me of toji and maki’s hug in ch4 (yes i remembered), cus toji thought the exact same question. is this intentional please say yes. nevermind your answer is irrelevant i’m gonna start drawing parallels anyway /lh. toji & higuruma both start out extremely rough around the edges and knowing fuck all about parenting; maki & nobara both grew up with parents that didn’t love them. at least maki & toji had something to bond over (beating the shit out of other people. uh, curses. i mean curses.) nobara and higuruma on the other hand…….. lol

Also I didn’t miss the way Nobara was saved from a curse!!!! again!!!!! but the group shrugs it off, you know, as kids who literally just exorcised a curse by themselves do, and nobara’s too preoccupied with her crush on maki to feel all that offended. okay all jokes aside i think it really helps that they’re her age + she’s already interacted with them prior to this; she’s in a much better mental state than when higuruma first found her. i think it’s really cool that nobara has even more people fighting for her, which is exactly what she wants; she just hasn’t realised it, and i hope she does someday. (on an unrelated note: gotta love how maki takes centre stage and cleaves the curse in half though… her using yuuji’s sword as a platform to power herself thru the air is just 👌)

Does Nobara have anyone like that?

Yes. Yes, she does. Chi you’re drawing so many parallels here and I’m gonna throttle you. please don’t pit higuruma against a special grade…unless it’s toji, that’d be funny. who lets their kid bring a sword to school anyway?? tbf, it’s Phantom Guardian; i adore the idea that yuki’s cursed energy is with her, at all times…

btw yuuji is my fave if the pfp wasn’t obvious enough, and i cherish every crumb of his characterisation i get. i love the way he’s able to de-escalate any social situation because of how emotionally perceptive he is. kinda want to put him in a room with yuuta and maki and see what happens lmfao 💀💀

okay that concludes my horrendously long ramble. thank you for making it this far if u did. cheers

HIII KAY OH MY GOD??? THIS ANALYSIS IS SOOOO i put it into a word counter out of curiosity and the website said the reading level was college graduate so. 100000/10 analytical skills the curtains were indeed not just blue

response below cut this got long as hell

you're totally right that "uh, we are kids" was said in an earlier chapter! maki says it to megumi when toji gives the kiddos the stuffed animals he got for them at the zoo, and maki suggests they play with them:

--

Megumi turns up his nose. “Playing with stuffed animals is for kids.”

Come on. Maki slants an eyebrow. “Uh, we are kids.”

--

megumi is another child who had to grow up way too fast before gojo took him in, and now has to make up for lost time that he doesn't know quite yet how to reclaim. it's so cool you noticed this parallel between them, because it's gonna be super important in the upcoming chapter!!

it's so true that all of the tpg kids (and initial teenagers that are now in their low twenties) had some aspect of childhood taken away from them. isolated from the villagers, nobara tried to shed her own childlike qualities because she thought she had no choice but to take care of herself, especially because of the yet-to-be-revealed circumstances of her parents' disappearance.

and god....yeah, higuruma really has no idea how to handle that. i've said it before and i'll say it again: it's so, so important to me that he's genuinely terrible at this. he's the pinnacle of right idea, wrong execution: he wants to fix the ills of society but does it in the worst possible way, and he wants to shield nobara from how dark and terrible the world is by telling her she's just incapable of understanding it altogether. he doesn't want her to know all the pointless cruelty in the world. he doesn't want her to know he killed the sheriff to free her from the countryside. higuruma shutting her out is his way of protecting her, but the way he carries out his protection almost does more harm than good. almost.

PLEASE THEIR HUG....you're not delusional to draw that parallel between nobara & higuruma and maki & toji!! nobara and maki are the two tpg kids that have the most on-screen clashes with their parents, yet despite their initial doubts towards their parental figures, they still crave that emotional validation. after a lifetime of being shunned, finally, someone cares about them -- only nobara is half-convinced higuruma doesn't. i think some part of her does know he cares, but it's a part she refuses to acknowledge because she doesn't want to be let down by her father. not again.

nobara's confrontation with the curse was so!!!!! i really wanted to follow up with yuuta telling maki that nobara cares more about actions than words, so maki demonstrates her sorcery abilities rather than just saying it. maki's words post-fight, however, do end up having an impact on nobara: she's able to correct any misconceptions before nobara even has the chance to draw them. this will also be important as nobara's character develops!!

maki carrying the phantom guardian with her stems a lot from toji's desire for her to be able to protect herself, even in his absence. especially after the kids meet mahito in shibuya back in ch12, both nanami and toji don't want their kiddos to be unarmed, hence why yuuji also has playful cloud stuffed into his backpack.

YUUJI MY CHILD. MY SON. his emotional intelligence + crumbs that he blames himself for his family's doom even though it hasn't even happened yet. the first yuuji angst moment of many, many, MANY more

as for higuruma vs some special grade where he'd have to hurt himself in order to protect nobara...huh. yeah. sure would be interesting if that happened someday

alright, i'll conclude my horrendously long reply here. also sorry for the sukuna rant in DMs last night i think i was on something else

[joshhhhhhhhhhhhhhh]

MARIO BOXARTS RANKED BECAUSE ODYSSEY'S CAME UP IN A CONVERSATION WITH A FRIEND

also i'm just snipping tooling these from my backloggd mario list lol

this is whatever! it's got donkey kong feet and the colours are fairly easy to look at and hey it does tell you what the game's about but also like eh, never been into this old ass artstyle, pauline has more focus than the playable character 

good start to the real series! this trend in NES boxart where they'd show actual sprite art from the game so as to let you know what you're getting into is pretty cool and by now this pose is so recognisable that we just know straight away "yo this dude's JUMPIN like some kinda PLATFORMER", also they're not using Mario's usual design but instead fire mario which i kinda like because it's very contrasty and shit, good time all around

what is this, what am i getting into, this could be fucking anything. mario's holding 2 fingers up because it's mario 2 but like what else am I supposed to get out of this. not a huge fan

"Super Mario 2 Bros.: Mario Madness" ass graphic design what the hell, also Mario's front leg looks like it's coming out of his cock, never really lovedt his art, he has a turnip because you can pick up turnips and things in general which yeah that's showing off a central mechanic in the boxart which is good but otherwise ehhhhhhhhhhh

super mario 3 bros ass graphic design, but this one's a lot more iconic and generally beloved, doesn't do much for me though other than show a new powerup off and one that sure does look like Mario's flying, woah this is bigger and better. Nice contrast in the background, generally nice art, but shrug

Mario is completely flying here with a cool new cape and yo who the fuck is this absolute mount taking centre stage on the box? That's bold and different! Also from here onwards we've pretty much found the Mario logo design specifically, these colours and that font are still appearing today. Do think the background could stand to have slightly more going on though

Mario is flying again, even more obviously, but now that we've made the leap to 3D we've got an actual 3D render instead of just 2D key art - even the logo and backgrounds and shit are 3D. This is Mario's big jump! Note that the earth is round as if to imply that this is Mario's largest and most open adventure yet. That goomba kinda fuck ugly though. General visuals are of the time but this one is still really good and entirely accomplishes what it set out to do

red strip obscuring some of the art bothers me but this is pretty peak boxart, more than anything else it's just nice art that embodies the new visual style for this game alongside including tons of the game's unique and charming character designs - maybe doesn't quite get plot or even genre across but it sure as hell looks good so

not a fan. it's Luigi which is a plus and he's clearly afraid and there are ghosts there and the logo's good but just none of these renders are all too good and Luigi's disembodied head and arms are kind of uncanny

what even were they fuckin trying dude. Okay it's a fine Mario render and he's got a new tool to help him out, sure - thje logo is also solid even if it reads more as Super Mari Sunshine instead of Super Mario Sunshine - but it's the everything else. Hardly feels tropical other than the title, Delfino Isle is NOWHERE to be seen, and what in the actual fuck is that word art text circling around that you can't even fucking read. Epic failure.

PEAK ALERT PEAK ALERT good god this art is amazing, goated as all hell art style with some of the best designs Mario and Luigi have ever had and a clearly colourful world with dangerous new foes in the background, sure! Just sick as hell

closer to the game's actual art style than 64 was but otherwise kind of a step down to me - Mario is so in front of everyone else that their designs don't really shine as much as they could.

I fear we have yet another complete fucking flop on our hands. These renders are surprisingly poor for the time and then the boxart itself accomplishes about 10 times less than the original game did. We're communicated that there's more playable characters now and we've lost everything else and even gained weird shitty motion blur on a static image to boot.

colours aren't quite as easy on my eyes as those of Superstar saga but banger art and character designs still shine through, and hey all the babies are clearly here too that's cool, perhaps a bit busy tho

now see I quite enjoy the art and think these renders are good enough by now to rep on a box art - said box art also shows off the mega mushroom super duper well in addition to a clear return to the 2D gameplay that's been gone or so long, but I also find this boxart weirdly deceptive lol? Namely in that Mario and Luigi can't exist simultaneously in the game except in multiplayer, but the multiplayer isn't enough of a focus for me to think "rep it on the boxart", so idk

Paper Mario goes 3D which is communicated well here, and all our playable roster are here with nice artwork for everyone - even the support fairy things I forget the name of are flying around without being too distracting - looks nice really. Though I kinda think Count Bleck doesn't need to be there? Or if he is that he's moved around somewhat? Like he's weirdly distracting being positioned like that

ladies and gentlemugs it is with great honour that I present to you actual kino - gorgeous as hell logo, super great render, and the core premise off the game laid out so beautifully that all you need to do is take even a glance at this box, and you know exactly what you're getting into. Space is pretty as hell, this boxart is pretty as hell, this game is pretty as hell, you just know from looking at this that you're in for an incredible time.

okay now the Mario and Luigi series would adopt this general design sense going forward and I'm pretty eh on it, I like the new logo and the tiny Mario Bros walking on top of it, and hey all the art is still good, but like I don't think all this negative space really achieves anything and I think more could've been done

now we go for a box I quite like, the red along the bottom is nice and appealing and then the main artwork showcases that we've got actual emphasised 4 player multiplayer now plus Yoshi plus at least one cool new powerup, ain't that sweet? Also some of the NSMB boxarts get a lil busy but I think this one is in the perfect zone of not too busy right now.

once again I come bearing kino, in what's effectively just the Mario Galaxy boxart but with a different set of nice artwork and also with Yoshi, plus his powerups shown of throughout the background, very cool. I prefer the comparatively more simple Galaxy 1 boxart and I've never loved how 2 favoured light blue skies, but still really nice

now this one is. nice. certainly shows off the titular 3D - and triples up on the return of the tanuki suit with both super leaf in the background and land having a tail and the goomba having a tail also. But eh idk there's not much of an identity here lol. it's just lots of "things that are in Mario"

here's one that's also a "things that are in Mario" featuring a bonus misleading "are Mario and Luigi here because multiplayer?" visual, but the yellow patterned background stands out and the coin emphasis is there which is this game's main unique selling point, so yk it's decent

I don't love this art style as much for Paper Mario but it's colourful, it has lots of stickers which is the name of the game, lots of random hosuehold objects in wacky Paper Mario style, like yeah no this is pretty solid

okay now see this is where the nsmb covers just start throwing too much shit at you at once - there are 3 different types of yoshi all doing different things here and a piranha plant attacking luigi and a goomba that's bubbled up and yellow toad has the new powerup but the new powerup is also rolling out of a question mark block and it's like dude slow the fuck down man!

now this one is obviously less iconic than the original Luigi's Mansion boxart but I do think placing more emphasis on the mansion and giving Luigi an actual body is a step up, though having a standard Mario boo there instead of the cool original ghosts is a lil sad

god the more the series itself goes through fatigued the more I feel fatigue writing about it, but hey this is the final NSMB one so. It's whatever. Still a bit cluttered but mixed up the backgrounds at least. Eh. Logo design neat I suppose

so continues aforementioned whatever trend and I still don't really like it - but suppose this one uses the space better than Bowser's Inside Story does. Once again new styled logo thing still cool

shows off 3D and multiplayer fun and the new powerup in a nice way and there's more original iconography to the game so it's a step up from 3D Land, but also there being 2 of everyone still feels so weird lol

peak as all hell, love the Mario design and the simple render gets across all that it needs to - construction ass yellow and the simple font gives it a homebuilt feel and it's very obvious what the game's actually about. Somehow they managed to communicate that without being super busy as well.

I think this one technically uses more of the space than the other white background boxarts and it's neat that Paper Jam is in the Paper Mario font, but for a crossover like this I really think there needed to be more done lol, this just looks so dull and plain and shit

this is a solid enough paper mario boxart, gets the main gimmick across pretty quickly without like overwhelming you on anything, doesn't evoke much else but it's fine

now here is some absolute fucking PEAK dude, so immediately gets across exactly the theme the game is going for with an epic globetrotting adventure, photograph aesthetic just gives this a travel log vibe and all the different world designs and costumes and core mechanics are conveyed super well, it also managed all that while being really easy to read and shit, just an absolute W all around

kind of feels like a linear downgrade from Maker 1 tbh - like the art is more expressive and Luigi is here which is a plus - the game actually supports multiplayer too so you're not being misled. But I think Maker 1 was just a little more elegant and immediate in getting across what the game is actually about.

would call this my favourite of the Luigi's Mansion boxarts despite not even having ghosts - cause hey it has a pretty neat mansion and Luigi is doing a good expression and he has a body still and also Gooigi is in there, I'm about it, just looks good

pretty fuckin weak ngl! It's kinda just "here's paper mario characters lol" with the origami gimmick only occupying a corner of the screen that your eyes just aren't drawn to. Just doesn't hit

last off! this. it looks cool! fucknig gigantic kaiju bowser. he's important enough to take centre stage in the boxart and the game reflects that. he's so out of control that even his own son is teaming up with you to stop him. I'm about it.

anyway done thanks for reading

[dzpenumbra]

2/8/23

There's this unfortunate theme going on in my life that's rearing its head lately. "I thought I was doing really well, then I started noticing that I'm really not doing well." And I want to say I'm inflating it a bit? Like... okay... let me find a way to put this into words. That I'm doing much better and doing a lot worse at the same time? In different respects, you know? So, some stats went up and others went down? I hope that makes sense.

I think it's part of getting older, and fixating on specific things. Today's challenge has been... as with yesterday... overwhelm. And identifying what the overwhelm really is. And what specifically it is about. And what to do about it. You know, no big. It's just completely crippling my ability to accomplish tasks on a day-to-day basis. So... figured I'd get around to addressing it. <shrug>

On a quick side-note, my hip flexors are being absolute bitches. I am realizing, as I said earlier with the whole... losing stats thing... I have no idea how to fucking sit properly, and I think it completely ruined my body. I don't think it's irreversible, obviously, but like... the damage is pretty severe. I think it's gonna take some time. And I did an intense core workout today and I'm afraid I intuitively used my hip flexors when I shouldn't have. And it doesn't feel good at all. So... that would of course be another reason to go to yoga with a teacher. To get corrections on shit like that, so I can learn what it feels like to use neglected muscle groups. Because I'm just flat-out guessing right now, and I might be guessing wrong.

Okay, back to overwhelm. So... what happened today was... after yoga and all that, I started to do the one big life thing I really wanted to get done today. Email my old therapist and see if he would be willing to help me (at least consult) with the screening and managing ADHD thing. He and I have a history, he knows me very well. But ADHD never came up. So, I'm sure he'd have a unique perspective. I wrote like 4 paragraphs summing up the situation (and if you follow this blog, you know that 4 paragraphs for me is fuckin short) and then remembered that my current social worker dude messaged me back. I went over to read his message and... something in there... something just fucking overwhelmed the hell out of me. My brain just turned to noise and I couldn't fucking understand the words I was reading. Like it just switched to another language or something, and I just was getting really frustrated and like... repelled? Like I just really did not want to be reading it. I gathered very little from the message, like the first few sentences, then it was just like... another language or something.

Here's the fucked up part. I was on Reddit before all of this, reading posts on how peoples' experience with the non-stimulant ADHD meds I was told I could be prescribed went for people. And on my way off of reddit, I saw someone's post, a random one in some general subreddit about their salary in France and how they are upset that their salary is so low compared to equivalent American salaries with the same degree. And a French citizen working in America responded to them, in French. The first paragraph was entirely in French. I took like 3 years of French in high school, I actually really liked it. I was never fluent, I never had opportunity to practice it conversationally (despite my mom being a former French major with a degree, but, yeah...) so I never really got comfortable expressing my thoughts in French, but I got really damn good at reading it and understanding it when it was spoken. I tried my hand at reading it now, 20 years later. I couldn't just get it fluidly, I was very slow at reading, but there were only like one or two words that I couldn't really logically parse in the whole first paragraph. That was a really cool feeling, I felt like I still had it, you know? Then I go and read the message that my social worker sent to me in my goddamn native tongue and my brain scrambles and I can't understand it!

I think the juxtaposition of those two events helped me start to understand that something else was at play here. My big question is what? While talking with my mom later about it, my first conjecture was emotional overwhelm, but like... what was the emotion? Was there even emotion present? Stress, I guess? She seemed to immediately reject emotion being the reason that happened, from the data I presented. My next theory was a trauma response, which can manifest in similar ways. A blindsiding force that just... hits me with a wall of overwhelm to push me away from "dangerous" things and situations. This could be it, because the point where I started getting overwhelmed was around where he was talking about all the screening for controlled substances and all that shit, and that's a big vortex of past traumatic experiences for me. But I didn't feel the trauma response. So... there's a running theory that I was kinda brainstorming.

Maybe trauma and ADHD overwhelm are working hand-in-hand, which is making them a bit... indiscernible? So, like... if I go in to do the dishes and I get hit by this gigantic wave of overwhelm... it's not because I have a trauma response to dishes... I really don't, I've done them enough times to feel confident on that. But that inhibiting force that I have to brute-force or finesse through is right there, blockading me and incapacitating me. If I get a trauma response? I feel like that same overwhelm might be on the very front-lines of that experience. Meh, I'm second-guessing myself. I don't fucking know, honestly. Maybe this was just an example where both were present, and the traumatic response was more manageable, but the executive functioning overwhelm part was not.

The reason I connected those dots was because there's a big common thread there - emotions. My massive emotional responses. So the thing that really confused me today was like... I thought I was having a trauma response - because in the doctor's office I think it was definitely a major factor - but... I didn't feel the anxiety, the caution, the alertness, the lack of safety... like I just got dropped into the woods at night and I hear sticks cracking around me, but... in a more subtle way. Like that same feeling, but the volume on it turned down to like... a 4. I didn't get that when my social worker messaged me, I got... just like... frustration and ugghhh, like nails on a chalkboard or something. Which is definitely an emotion, right? But like... I don't know, is tedium an emotion or just... a thing? Like I felt like a toddler about to have a meltdown because they have to wait 5 minutes before their TV show comes on or something, and I was just like bouncing in my seat like... "ughhh come onnnn, why doesn't this make sense? Why is this stressful?"

So, that's been the big musing of the evening. I would say the dishes example is like... clear-cut ADHD overwhelm. The doctor's office, where I straight up drew a blank when the doctor asked me what my primary fucking medium was as an artist, was much more PTSD/anxiety dominant. And today... was probably a blend of a light PTSD trigger, but mostly ADHD overwhelm. So, what I'm getting at, is that the mix might be a major factor in why things are so goddamn difficult for me right now. Like... the solutions for PTSD and depression have been right in front of me, and I've had people getting deeply frustrated and even giving up because I was too overwhelmed by them to even try. I just kept insisting someone come with me to make that process easier to manage, which ADHD people call body-doubling. So, and this is really a hail mary at this point, I am guessing the reason that I get super overwhelmed by the prospect of going to do things alone (on most days) is an ADHD thing. Trauma reinforces the overwhelm and confirms it, depression drains me of the confidence to brute-force through the overwhelm. So, while I focused so damn hard on doing trauma work and managing all that, this underlying inner chaos has been pushing back against it the entire time. And, for some reason, I kept getting side-eyes from people as though I was like... rejecting easy solutions to fix my life. Like I was being picky, or being needy, or dramatic, or I wanted to be alone or unsuccessful. But really, the idea of going to the skatepark felt that overwhelming. The idea of going to a coffee shop and just sitting there felt that overwhelming.

The worst part, as I said earlier, I had a strategy to overcome that overwhelm. Companionship. A... side-quest, essentially. So... no matter what, whether it's overwhelming or hard or not, I came out of it with something.

It's so weird, to me this entire narrative makes perfect sense and yet to so many people I talk to it's like I'm speaking another language. If someone came up to me and invited me to go shopping with them, and I didn't even need anything, I would say yes. Even if they weren't good friends. Because the act of doing that is already a success. But if I were to just go shopping by myself? The stars have to fucking align. The right amount of confidence, right time of day, I have to know exactly what I'm getting, why I'm going, I need a plan, I need a timeframe. Already the brain tornado is going full-tilt and I haven't even decided whether I'm fucking going yet. I've been dealing with this for like... 15 years, at least. At this level of severity, at least.

So... what the fuck is that? Is that ADHD? From my understanding, it very likely is. So... picture this. Do you think I would be a shut-in if I didn't have so much trouble leaving my house for stuff like that? Do you think it'd be easier to work on social anxiety stuff if I didn't have that barrier? Do you think my depression would be as bad? Like... I have this running theory that the underlying overwhelm, focus and organization problem causes all the other problems to completely snowball out of control, it feeds them. But, if the underlying problems can be addressed... I feel like that could snowball the other mental health shit in the opposite direction, in a positive direction.

I don't know how to sum this up succinctly - obviously, I just wrote a fucking book here trying to make sense of it. But I think it makes a lot of sense why the help I was being offered in the past wasn't working. It's not a fault of the help at all, it's good advice. But I have to jump 15 hurdles before I even get to the help... and I could use some help with the hurdles, you know? Instead of like... judgement... that those hurdles even exist for me...

I have a splinter in my finger I keep poking at. I want it out! :(

Oh yeah, so last thing. So... I was looking at the medications that the doctor said she could prescribe. I have given this like 45 minutes total research, so please don't take this as gospel and correct me if I'm wrong... but the non-stimulant meds for ADHD seem to be... targeting different symptoms than the stimulant ones. It seems like the stimulant ones are --- you know what, after wikipedia-rabbit-holing a bit.... I'm just not going to weigh in on this. I'm skeptical. Because stimulant medications have been proven effective for fucking decades and these other new ones are literally labeled as "alternative treatments" and shit, off-label effects and all that, and I'm frankly really fucking tired of taking medications for the "side-effects" when god knows what else it's doing to my body. For fuck's sake, this psychiatrist had me on an anti-psychotic, Seroquel, for well over 2 years because the side-effect was... it made me super fucking sleepy. And I took it to help me sleep. Like... there's nothing else I could've taken? Do we know what else that medication could've been doing? I don't know, it's weird to me. It feels like how Coca Cola can be used as a cleaning fluid because it's corrosive or something, so just use Coke to clean your house! I don't know. I just... I have an aversion. I want to go with the tried and true medications, at least try them, and apparently I just don't get access to them because they think I'm going to sell them to college kids so they can study real hard and have stupid parties where they giggle and stay up all night. Totally. Totally going to get rid of my meds that are like... possibly the key to turning my entire life around... for like $5 a pop, so I can... spend that money on fucking what? Or what, I'm gonna take a double dose and feel really cool for a bit? Then not get a dose the next day because of that and have to deal with all the burdening shit I'm dealing with right now again? Like... I swear... people just don't understand this shit.

But if I want to even try the stimulants to see if they work, and I go to a doctor to procure them legally, rather than try them on the street... I will be piss tested. Not piss tested to monitor my usage of the medication, mind you. Piss tested to check for other drugs. None of which would be legal drugs. Well, one would be... the only one that would actually show up for me at any point, in fact the only substance I have in my life that even remotely works for me (and we have a very messy relationship) besides caffeine. THC. So if I get the stimulants, and I decide I want to try smoking before bed again, because it was the best sleep I had gotten in years... when I didn't freak out... And to see if the meds help with my racing thoughts and panic attacks and all that... If I smoke, I lose my meds. I go back to this. Even though it has been legal for recreational use since 2017. The logic here? I'm guessing by their logic... THC indicates drug abuse (somehow) and drug abuse means... more drug abuse. And more drug abuse means the stimulants. Right? So... um... wait, no... what? XD Here's the best part: cannabis isn't even biologically addictive. And I guarantee this piss test doesn't check for alcohol, which is like the most fucking abused substance since the dawn of time. So yeah, I'm still really pissed about that. It's like a handful of self-absorbed hedonists decided to binge on anesthesia, so now if you want to get put under for surgery, everyone needs to be screened for deviant behavior. Even grandma. It's fucking lazy, it's draconian, it punishes everyone for the wrongdoings of the few.

I met with my former friend from high school (don't even wanna call her former best friend anymore) last summer. She was homeless, she was getting high by the river the day before her court hearing for a case where she was caught as an accomplice smuggling fentanyl across state lines. She was in rehab, and was getting high by a river in a beautiful park. She has 5 kids. She told me about how she was making money by selling her Suboxone (a drug used to help with opiate withdrawal) to her ex boyfriend, likely so he could get high, maybe so he could sell it himself, I don't fucking know. She wasn't even trying to detox, and she had fucking kids she lost custody of because of the shit. And me? I detoxed off of benzos alone, unsupervised, three fucking times. And I was prescribed them every time. I had to check myself into a rehabilitation retreat to be safe in getting myself off of medications that doctors fucking put me on and wouldn't help me get off of. I quit cigarettes cold turkey after smoking for 18 years. I have used substances recreationally less than any person that I know who uses recreational substances. At the peak of my smoking weed this summer, I was smoking like... 2 hits before I went to bed. Like, I can't remember the last time I smoked an entire bowl, let alone a joint. These motherfuckers smoke 2g joints for breakfast. And I get lumped in with them. And I get lumped in with them.

It hurts. Real bad. And, at the end of the day, I just wanna say this out loud. To any of you out there buying these prescriptions - pain pills, benzos, stimulants, etc. - prescriptions that people fucking need to function, because they have constant pain problems, they have acute crippling panic/anxiety issues, they have attention functioning issues... To those of you faking these conditions so you can get high for a few hours, or so you can make some petty cash selling these drugs to kids? Go fuck yourself with a rusty rake.

Okay, that's out of my system. Yay. That was well overdue. I'm late for bed, bye.

Um... good vibes first. Yeah, need a vibe reset! XD

I finished my bracelet, finally. The hemp cord weave that I was going to use for the necklace? Yeah, I committed to the bracelet design, I made custom findings for it out of paper clips that I reshaped into rings and a clasp. It fits pretty nicely and the clasp came out looking really cool, really legit. It's really cool when you finally make something by hand that looks like you could find it in a nice store, you know? It's far from perfect, but it's a first try that is designed for me, so I'm happy with it!

Alright, that's better! Bed time.

[redorich]

to those who carried on

A fic for @petrichormeraki​ and their Hermit!Tommy AU.

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The hermits know Tommy as a quiet young man who is very sad and contemplative. The more time they spend with him (against his will, but they know he needs the company) the more they learn of the little details. His favorite block is cobblestone, he likes building towers, and apparently his favorite woman is the Queen. They don’t ask why he wears a smiley mask even though he never seems happy. They don’t ask why he hides important things in his ender chest. They don’t ask why he wears a shattered compass on a chain about his neck.

(Once, he died in lava and lost his absolute mind. He was so upset about the compass that he didn’t even mention the stack and a half of diamond ore he had on him. Xisuma ended up manually rolling back the server just so Tommy could have it back.)

As time goes on, the tremors in Tommy's hands grow lesser. His dull blond hair seems a bit brighter, his bruises fade quicker, he doesn’t look quite so skinny-- he spends his time serenely building, resource gathering instead of running and fighting. He has a sense of humor under all that trauma, which the hermits unfortunately find out after another massive-scale prank war thought to be instigated by Grian actually turns out to be Tommy's fault.

Tommy starts swearing more. Doc gets the stink eye from Stress for this, but Doc insists he’s never once sworn around the young man. (That’s an absolute lie, but it wasn’t anything Tommy hadn’t heard before. Tommy thinks Doc is remarkably unoriginal in his cursing. He does take note of the German ones, though.)

Inviting Tommy to PvP minigames can be touchy, they learn. He likes to fight, but he fights like an animal with nothing to lose. Grian once chanted, “It stays in the pit!” and everyone present had to spend the next five minutes wrangling Tommy’s soul back into his body from wherever it’d floated off to.

Tommy likes to glide with his elytra. He claims he’s never had one before, but he flies like such a natural that a few people have their doubts. On a dark desert night, with dark blue eyes watching the night sky, he confides to Cub that it reminds him of the way his dad used to fly. He hates rockets, though. He does not confide to Cub that it reminds him of what his brother did to his best friend. He says enough that Cub can guess, though.

Scar gets fed up with Tommy’s creeper holes and makes Tommy help him fix them. At first, Tommy has no clue why Scar is breaking out things like coarse dirt and birch leaves and making the ground all fancy, but he’s not afraid of a little hard work and Scar makes it fun. He learns a lot about terraforming that day, and awkwardly comes back a few days later asking if Scar needs any more help terraforming. Tommy still hasn’t built a real base, not by Hermitcraft standards, but the small hill he’s built his dirt hut near now has a very beautiful, if amateurish, waterfall. He doesn’t tell Scar about this, but Scar finds out anyway. Tommy wakes up one morning to find that someone has left a shulker box in his house. Instead of iron-gripped paranoia, he just feels wonder that someone would give him a gift-- to the hermits, a single shulker box is nothing. To Tommy, it’s everything.

The shulker box contains coarse dirt, birch leaves, and a silk touch shovel.

Tommy helps Xisuma mine a giant hole in the ground near bedrock, because he realizes that he’s never thanked the admin for getting him his compass back. Well, that and the fact that instamining with a haste two beacon and an efficiency five pickaxe is a novelty. Xisuma lets him keep the cobble, since everyone knows it’s Tommy’s favorite block, but also insists he keep some of the other blocks like andesite and diorite. He pats Tommy on the head and tells him to talk to Bdubs about building a house some time. Tommy nods. He's taken aback by how tall Xisuma is, completely contrasting his mild nature. He reminds Tommy of Wilbur, on one of his good days before... Before. Not Ghostbur, though-- the admin is much too alive.

Tommy waits too long, so eventually Bdubs comes to him. The man is silly and outrageous, playing everything for laughs and unexpectedly tender. Bdubs plays up how beautiful he thinks Tommy’s hideous dirt shack is, then offers to help him build a house that’s better. For Tommy, building a house means settling down, accepting that this is his home now. Bdubs doesn’t know this. Tommy builds cobblestone dicks while Bdubs tries to lecture him about depth and block variation. Nothing gets done and Bdubs feels like he might have failed, but come next week Bdubs is flying over the area and sees the dicks are gone; so is the dirt house. In its place is a spruce-and-cobble cottage nestled near the tiny waterfall. Off to the side, he’s made a cozy doghouse for his fox, Theo. Bdubs doesn’t know how close that fox came to being named Fundy.

He spars with False, and she very pointedly does not mention how his stances are uniquely suited to a piglin. There’s only one renowned fighter who’s a piglin, after all. It's Tommy’s story to tell, if he ever does, why he’s seen enough of the legendary Technoblade’s fights to pick up on his stances, yet he’s not experienced enough to know that they don’t suit him. Instead, False gives him different stances suited more for tall, skinny people like the two of them. She’s got blond hair and blue eyes just like him. (Not that she’d know. She’s never seen his eyes, hidden behind his mask as they are.) Every now and then, he imagines her as an older sister, and the one time he says so, she smiles. When Tommy’s at home, looking at his own distorted reflection in his waterfall (he’s improved it since he built it), he muses that their eyes aren’t the same, their hair colors are subtly off. It’s close enough, he thinks.

Stress dies from fall damage and Tommy goes out of his way to pick up her stuff, because the hermits do these things out of the kindness of their hearts. The thought never even crosses their minds to steal. It crosses his mind. He doesn’t do it. Stealing from Stress would be like stealing from Niki.

He shows up at Cleo’s base unannounced and demands to see the “cool shit”. He is appropriately enthused by the giant armor-stand-bugs. She tries teaching him her armor stand magic, but it doesn’t really sink in. It’s okay, she assures him, most people don’t have the knack for it. He does, however, learn that buttons make excellent decorations. He also learns how to braid hair, bribed by ice cream. He is terrible at it, to the point where Joe has to come by to help the two untangle her hair so Tommy can start again. Watching the two bicker over capitalism and six million armor stands and a whole host of other inside jokes he doesn’t get, he thinks he’s starting to understand what friendship is supposed to be like. Joe and Cleo don’t see him clutching his compass. He and Tubbo weren’t too far off from this, given their circumstances. Maybe...

Maybe Tubbo can be forgiven.

Tommy makes minigames of his own, ones that don’t just kill you and steal your stuff. He builds things that are pretty instead of just functional, brews potions with Stress and only calls them drugs once (again, upsetting her is like upsetting Niki. Best not done), and sets up chicken bombs above people’s bases instead of just lavacasting them. (As Grian saw the hundreds of chickens slowly raining down upon his mansion, he got such a peculiar look on his face that Tommy feared he’d fucked up. The shorter, stronger (much stronger oh god why is he so strong despite being so small) man nearly crushed Tommy’s lungs in a hug, proclaiming how proud he was of Tommy. Tommy was proud of himself for not accidentally murdering Grian out of reflex. Was this what healing was like?)

Yes. It is what healing is like. Tommy knows this because that wound gets ripped open again. Tango shows him how to build the most obnoxious redstone-powered noise machine the two can think of. Tango digs a small pit, and asks Tommy to throw down his axe. Suddenly, Tommy’s in Logstedshire again; it’s not Tango asking, it’s Dream. His hands don’t shake when he tosses his axe into the pit, followed by his sword and his armor. It isn't until he’s placed the TNT down that Tango grabs his wrist and asks him what he’s doing. Tommy’s eyes clear enough that he can see past the blond hair and freckles. Tango isn’t green, he’s red. He's shorter than Dream, and his worried eyes are unhidden. Tommy shudders, then tells Tango everything.

Tango has no pity for Tommy, just understanding and sympathy. He doesn’t push Tommy to talk about it, but when Tommy’s done telling his story, Impulse and Zedaph show up. They all pretend that Tommy’s voice isn’t hoarse, that they all didn’t conveniently happen to look away when Tommy took off his mask just long enough to wipe his eyes. The men bake a cake together, fool around with honey blocks, and don’t talk about it.

Tommy knows very little about redstone, considers himself more of a builder and a fighter than an engineer. Still, Mumbo’s living base is inspiring, and Tommy often hangs around the man’s industrial district just to watch Mumbo work. Mumbo knows that Tommy hasn’t purchased a day pass, but it’s nice having someone around to talk to while he works. It’s not like Tommy is stealing anything. (Tommy totally steals from Mumbo’s industrial district storage system. The man’s farms are so efficient that he doesn’t even notice, so Tommy assumes it’s fine. What Mumbo doesn’t know won’t hurt him.)

Lava still isn’t his favorite thing in the world. He stays far away from it, instead of imagining what it would be like to hurtle towards it. Ren doesn’t really notice this, but he does notice that Tommy doesn’t seem to like his mustafarian base. On a spur-of-the-moment whim, Ren whips up some absurd plotline in which he is a lone weary traveller seeking refuge at Tommy’s base from strange alien overlords. The two have fun together, and the young man cracks more absurd jokes about it than the hermits have ever seen him do. When Ren leaves a week later to return to his own base, Tommy keeps being absurd, if a bit more subdued without someone to play off of. He builds a shrine to the “prime log”, which grows more elaborate each day. Beef and xB pretend to be his acolytes, despite having no clue what a “twitch prime” is.

They can’t see his face, but the smile in his voice is a far cry from the despondency he once wore like a heavy cloak. He is so much more animated and alive, full of motivation. He builds an entire island in three days, and hand-delivers an invitation to each and every hermit for his beach party. Everyone shows up, even those with packed schedules (Iskall) and those with introverted tendencies (Etho). Tommy is nearly moved to tears when they show up in groups of twos and threes, as though he hadn’t expected anyone to come. There aren’t enough chairs for everyone, but there is more than enough cake to go around. Tango brings drinks, Impulse brings meat to barbecue, and Zedaph makes an elaborate jump-powered grill. Keralis brings way too much confetti and several handfuls of cheap, obnoxious party noisemakers. Stress brings Tommy a crown made out of alliums. It shines far less than his brother’s gold crown, and it’ll die in a few days, but he wears it all night and keeps it in his ender chest until it withers away.

He spends five days teaching himself to make flower crowns. Even his best attempt is awful, nowhere near as pretty as the crowns Stress makes, but when he gives it to her, she takes off the one she was wearing and wears his until it falls apart.

He dies fighting a creeper on Grian’s behalf, and doesn’t even panic, because he trusts that however many times he dies, no matter how stupid or ignominious or revolutionary or important, Xisuma will always let him respawn.

He spends a grand total of nine diamonds to buy a single plot of land in the shopping district. He builds a cute little bench facing the sunset, with warmly glowing street lights on either side and a small garden. At the end of the bench he places a jukebox, and buys every single disc that Beef’s music shop sells, including Pigstep. He sits on the bench while Mellohi plays and watches the tiny silhouettes of his friends flying in the evening sky. Tommy looks alone on that bench, even if he seems happy, so sometimes other people stop by to sit with him. Scar declares the bench area a public park, since everyone likes it so much, and refunds Tommy his nine diamonds straight from the throne.

[kamari333]

I’m curios to ask (If it’s alright, feel free not if you don’t want to) what makes Underlust your fave Au?

Oh this is a great question! There are a lot of reasons!! Longpost under the cut. Forgive me, i typed this on my phone and i just woke up.

One is the designs. I fucking adore everyones designs! Sans is damn cute! Papyrus is cute! Napstablook is cute! MTT is cute! Grillby is cute! The color palettes and slight deviations that make them unique are all just Artistically Good and they hit me somewhere nice in the visual appeal part of my brain.

Another reason is that I just love the canon story! I mean, yeah, its really dark and tragic what happened to Mettaton. But the point of the story is that he overcomes it. He is able to heal. The story tells us that you can heal even after you get hurt that badly and it doesnt have to define you and thats wonderful and beautiful and something too many people legitimately need to hear.

And the RELATIONSHIPS!! MTT and Papyrus talk it out and have a relationship that isnt based in physicality they just genuinely love each other. And Papyrus is so clearly Ride or Die. It's just GREAT okay? And the Sansby is ALSO GREAT because Sans and Grillby are awkward and never talk until Sans does his drunken confesssion and Grillbz is just like oh god i love this dumb idiot drunk this is my life now.

And MTT and Alphys also have a great relationship! They are close enough to make Girl Talk even after what happened! Alphys knows cuz she patched MTT up but they're still making sass at each other! GREAT!!

Papyrus and Undyne have a great relationship!!! She doesn't infantilize him and admits he is good at the sex part of the job, she just thinks he is too clingy and romance driven to keep himself detached enough for work. And thats a legitimate concern! For his well being and the clients both!

Sans and Papyrus's relationship is great!! There is clearly a standard set of platonic affection being shared between them. They talk and joke and sass and tease each other. Theyre brothers and its great.

(did the creator draw a lot of underlust fontcest too? yes. yes she did. and that was also great. but these are two separate things and even without the obvious -gestures- "theyre fictional skeleton monsters, dont be weird", its also addressed that the fontcest part is not something to model irl.)

And i like to headcanon blooky and sans are friends even though they never interacted in the canon material we got. i like to think they would have eventually if it wasn't discontinued.

I love how the humans are adults and frisk is aroace. i'm afraid of children so having an AU where the humans are all canonically adult is great to me.

I love Toriel and Asgore's relationship. It is tragic what happened to them, but I think it's important that stories not always shy away from that kind of hurt. Some people need stories like that too.

I love Rosie the Rose's design and concept in general.

I also love the LUST mechanic. I love that there is an AU where sex is a prominent, plot relevant, societally prevalent and important thing. I love that as an Asexual, myself. It allows me to explore that topic safely, while having fun. I love how its treated as a both natural (meaning its normal and not gross or weird) and unnatural (not meant for monsters, specifically, under normal circumstances) thing. I love how it is defined as a Very Human thing, and what that can mean to me when analyzed and juxtaposed against the narrative foil to the idea that we are given in Frisk the Asexual.

I kinda love that the whole thing is 80% shitposts and pieces the creator made while just having fun living their best life. Yes the papyton comic, which is the meat of the canon, was done seriously, but so much was made of just the characters having fun being themselves and thats pretty cool too.

I know there is a lot of bad publicity around underlust. I know people have spread terrible rumors about it. I frankly dont care. I know it is a beautiful story made from beautiful art. wherever its creator is now i wish her the best in the world. It is my favorite AU (aside from my own lol) and nobody can change my mind.

[sugarbooger513]

Mine (Stepbrother!ChosoxFem!Reader)

This is my collaboration piece for @severelytalentless Are You Afraid of the Dark collab! I had a lot of fun writing this... work. I hope you guys enjoy it! Thank you to my very amazing friends who helped me out during this piece, especially my wifey @kentosovertime and my bestie @roughwithfluff. It wouldn't have ended up as well written as it did without the help.

Warnings: stepcest, possessive nature, unprotected sex (wrap your willies), oral (fem receiving), spit, Choso slaps reader in the face like once, he also slaps in another place, daddy kink, dom Choso, Choso is very petty, mentions of cheating ex, mentions of alcohol and nicotine consumption, degradation, praise, slight breeding kink if you squint

"Don't bother calling me anymore! I see what's more important to you.." You hang up your cell phone and throw it across the room. Your bed feels colder than it usually does, but you lay on it anyways, allowing your tears to flow onto your pillow.

Your boyfriend, now ex, of two years had called you with a plea, begging for your forgiveness. How could you forgive him, though? When you heard about your best friend sleeping with him, you couldn't get the image out of your head. You knew she thought he was attractive, but there was never a worry in your mind that either of them would take it anywhere.

You sit up, suddenly realizing that he would be on his way home from work in an hour, maybe two. You had to leave before he got home. It wasn't like you feared he would hurt you for leaving him, but he would certainly try to guilt you into staying with him.

Your heart rate increases when you realize that you have no idea where you can go. He knows all of your family, and is pretty loved by all of them. Your stepmom even has the habit of calling him her son. 'Her son...'

You rush to grab your phone, dialing the all too familiar number. If there's one person in your family you can call, it's the one he's scared of.

"Y/N," your step brother lets out a long yawn after answering, "what's up?" "B-bubs.." You can hear him drop something on his end. "Honey, why are you crying?" "He.. he cheated on me.. with her.. you were right.."

Choso bites the inside of his cheek, suddenly enraged at the thought. He never liked that guy. When they first met, Choso punched him in the jaw for being an asshole. You were mad at him at the time, but eventually understood why he did it. Since then, your ex was too scared to look Choso in the eyes.

Still, he now finds himself smiling.

"I'm so sorry, honey. Is there anything I can do?" Your sniffle makes him clench his fist. "He's going.. to be home s-soon." "Drive over here. I'll set up the guest-" "C-can you get me..? I don't want him tracking my car.."

Your pitiful voice goes straight to his crotch. Even though no one else is at his home, he finds himself trying to conceal his half hard cock with the kitchen counter.

"Of course, honey. Pack a bag. I'll be there in twenty." "I-I love you, Choso.. thank you." He has to bite his lip to keep from moaning. "I love you too, honey."

When he hangs up, he groans loudly and places his head on the cool marble. "Okay," he talks to himself aloud, "just.. keep yourself in control. You got this, Choso. She's your step sister, for Christ's sake." He shakes his head, grabbing his keys.

Still, he can't deny the things you do to him. It makes him feel terrible, but you're so damn tempting. He always figured that your hugs would last a little too long, your eyes scanned him a little too much, your hands lingered on him a little too suggestively.

He knew better, though. Your teenage years were spent on tons of dates with guys who were the complete opposite of your stepbrother. He would sit in his bedroom, no doubt on a video game, while he listened to guy after guy go in and out of your bedroom. It wasn't like you were a whore.

Those guys just eventually showed their true colors.

He knows that when you love, you love with your entire heart. That's why he was there for you through every heartbreak. He would hold you for hours, dry your tears with his own shirts, make you your favorite snacks, take you on long walks so you weren't cooped in the house all day.

Why? Well, because in his mind you already belonged to him.

You pace your living room, already holding your overnight bag in your hand. Of course, you'll probably stay with Choso more than one night, unless your dad tells you to stay with him and your stepmom instead.

Who are you kidding? If Choso offers to let you stay longer, you would much rather stay there.

Your front door opens, and you jump in fear that your ex came back early. "Shhh, honey it's me." "C-Cho.." Choso walks across the room in quick strides to pull you into his strong embrace.

His hands gently cradle you against his body. "He doesn't deserve your tears Y/N. Don't give him the satisfaction." "Y-you tell me that after every breakup, Choso.." "I know. That's because none of them deserve your kindness."

You close your eyes and feel yourself relax in his strong arms. He's never let you down. Choso has been the only guy in your life to prove he would always be there for you. You truly trust him with your life.

That being said, you can't ignore the feelings that have formed over the years for your stepbrother.

Your fingers grip his shirt in an attempt to pull him even closer to you. He sighs softly and buries his face in your hair. "Is there anything I can do for you, Y/N?" "Just... don't leave me. Please?"

His heart pounds in his chest at your feeble plea. His throat seems to dry, so he can't manage to speak. Finally, after what feels like an hour, he clears his throat.

"You know I won't, Y/N. I never have." "And never will?" His large hands squeeze your body a bit harshly, but your breath only increases at the feeling.

"I never will. Now, why don't we get you loaded into the car and get you home?" You finally pull away, blinking your still teary eyes at him so innocently. "Home..?"

The look on your face has his body on fire. You look so damn innocent, just like an angel. They're still red and puffy from your crying, but that only has him straining in his pants.

The things he would give to take the innocence from your face this second..

"Of course. My home is yours for as long as you need." He jingles his keys in an attempt for you to hurry and follow.

"What.. what about as long as I want..?"

That sentence has him blushing furiously. He looks at you with a raised eyebrow.

"Of course. You're family and I love you, so my home is yours. We should go though. I don't want to-" His sentence is cut short when you wrap your small arms around his frame.

"Cho.. you're the only person in my life that cares this much.." "Don't say that, princess. You know that isn't true." His large hands are so gentle as they rub your back comfortingly. The small action has your heart pounding.

It also has your core burning for more.

"I-I want to stay with you." "Princess, then why are we still here?" There's a hint of laughter in his teasing tone. "I mean.. stay with you." You bury your face in his broad chest, hoping desperately that he gets the hint.

And oh boy does he ever. He can't help the small groan that escapes his throat at the mere thought.

"Y/N.. you don't mean that." You finally look up, shocked at the tint of rosiness on his usually pale cheeks.

"I-I do mean it.. You're the only guy who has ever-" "I'm family." "Not blood. D-Don't act like you don't feel the same Choso!" His eyes widen, and your accusation has him backing away from you, causing your hope to falter. Had you been mistaken this entire time? Had the stares and lingering touches really just been his own way of showing platonic affection.

"Choso.. I-" "Am I truly that obvious, Y/N?" You blink once, twice before giggling softly. "Y-yeah.. have I not been?" "No. Your.. attention always seemed to be on others. I just assumed.. you saw me as your big brother." You shake your head, walking slowly to stand directly in front of him again.

You've always thought his eyes were gorgeous, a slight grey tint over the almost golden color, they truly are their own unique shade, but right now they seem even brighter.

"I.. I was scared. People would.. call us freaks if anything came of any attraction to each other. I mean.. we've known forever that we weren't related, but our parents have been married-" "Going on ten years now. Even dated for five years before that. Trust me," his hand reaches to touch your cheek gently, as if he's afraid he could break you, "I've been bouncing the pros and cons in my head for so many fucking years."

Your cheek fits so easily in his palm, as if it was made to be there. "So.. who gives a damn about the cons anymore?" His eyes darken at your words, suddenly not focused on your gaze, but your lips. "I don't think I do, Princess." He suddenly turns the two of you, pressing your body into the wall that was originally behind him.

His lips hover centimeters over yours, making you whimper pathetically. "Tell me what you want. I'll give it to you, Y/N." His lips turn at the corners, making the already handsome guy seem even more so. Your hands reach out, gripping the loose t-shirt he's wearing tightly. "I-I need you, Cho. P-please?"

"Well, why don't we take this little.. fiasco to my place?" "No." He tilts his head in confusion as you smirk. "Fuck me on his bed.. onii-chan."

His lips are on yours the instant that word leaves your mouth. Despite the fact you're almost certain that Choso doesn't know what lip balm is, his lips are so plush and soft. It catches you off guard, causing you to moan softly in his mouth.

He isn't shy about exploring your body either. His hands grab every bit of plushness they can. Your hips, thighs, ass, until he finally reaches your breasts. His hands squeeze them harshly, not caring about any actual pain he could bring. You gasp in the kiss, which allows his tongue to finally invade your mouth, easily taking over as the dominant one.

He tastes faintly of cheap wine and cigarettes, but that doesn't shock you. You've spent multiple nights in his room smoking and drinking after rough breakups.

You have to smack at his shoulder a few times before he pulls away, leaving a strand of saliva connecting the two of you. He lets out a deep growl before grabbing your arm to yank you upstairs.

He kicks the bedroom door open, not caring about possibly busting the damn thing. "I have waited for so fucking long," he shoves you onto the queen sized bed that you once shared with your ex, "to have you all to myself. Now that I have you..." He pulls the shirt over his head, causing your eyes to shamelessly wander over his toned body. He catches your gaze, causing him to lick his bottom lip in anticipation. "Oh I am never letting you out of my grasp now, little one."

You sit up and, without a second thought, throw your shirt off and into the floor. "A bit possessive, are we?" He chuckles a bit darkly. "I don't see you complaining. Besides," he rips your pants off in one fluid motion, purring at the dark spot already staining your panties, "it seems you know who you belong to." His head is almost instantly between your legs, his hands shoving your thighs open effortlessly.

He licks a long stripe up your covered slit, causing you to mewl. "Go ahead, princess, tell me exactly who owns you." This time he places a small kiss just over your clit. "F-fuck, you!" "Hmmm," his hand comes down to smack your pussy with an unnecessary amount of force. "Not good enough. Try again." He lands another smack, this one making tears prick your eyes.

"W-what do y-you want-" you cry out as he lands two more smacks on you. The pain is startling at first, but it quickly has you moaning in pleasure. "How about that fun little nickname you've given so many men that have entered your bedroom?" You squeak, making him chuckle. "Oh come on, there's no way you thought I never heard you. Always had the fucking nerve," another smack, this one even harder, "to cry out for other men while I was in my bedroom dreaming of making those pretty eyes cry in my bed. Come on, call me that sweet little name and I'll fuck you better than any of those assholes could have."

The last smack has you screaming, and you can't seem to care that any of your neighbors could hear. "D-Daddy! Y-You own me! I-it's always been you, I swear daddy! P-Please fuck me, I-I need it!"

He groans loudly before ripping your panties from your body. "I'll have to remember that you beg beautifully once I get you home." Two of his fingers spread you apart, and he smirks at the puddle of essence already pooling on the bed. "So fucking wet for me, aren't you?" He doesn't give you a chance to answer before he buries his face in you, eating you out like a man starved.

The sudden onslaught of pleasure makes you try and clamp your thighs closed, but one of his hands shoves it back down. His eyes look up at you as he continues to lap at your drooling pussy. The stare speaks every word he can't at the moment.

This is for his pleasure, not yours, and you're meant to lay back and take what he's giving you.

Your fingers tangle in his raven hair, and the slight pain has him growling against you. His lips wrap around your throbbing clit, sucking harshly, and he shoves two fingers into you without any warning.

You knew beforehand that Choso had slept with at least a few women, so he's not inexperienced, but you never knew that he was this experienced. His long fingers curl into you, pushing against the spot that has you screaming his name to the heavens. He has to rut against your mattress in a desperate attempt to get some sort of relief.

"D-Daddy.. I-I'm g-gonna cum.." He could already tell. Your walls sucked his fingers in as soon as they entered you, so he knew you wouldn't last much longer. "Hmmm," his sharp teeth nip your clit gently, but it still makes you squeak, "I sure hope you aren't telling daddy what you're going to do.. That would be awfully rude of you, little one."

The sheer dominance and control radiating from him has your eyes rolling in the back of your head. Since when was your sweet step brother so demanding? "C-can I please cum, daddy? I-It feels t-too good.." You feel that damn smirk against your clit. "Of course, baby. Just scream my name when you do it, okay?"

He really must not like you talking much, because he doesn't let you answer him before he starts ruthlessly pounding his fingers into your cunt. Your entire body arches from the bed as you cry out for him. It takes one last flick of his tongue on your swollen bud to have you writing in the bed, coming completely undone before he even pulled his pants off.

He slows down, but doesn't completely stop, allowing you to ride out your high as he uses his tongue to lap up every drop of sweetness pouring from you. "Good girl, I've got you sweetheart. Are you feeling up for more, or do you need to stop until we go home?"

He sits up, eyeballing your form as he licks his lips clean, ignoring the fact he's dripping your own cum from his chin onto you.

You giggle, still a bit spaced out from the intense orgasm. "W-want you.. inside me, please daddy?" He chuckles softly before reaching to finally unhook your bra and fling it to the side. "Of course baby. Where are your condoms?" "D-Don't have any. I'm on.. the pill." His cheeks flush a bit, but he doesn't question anything else.

He makes quick work of his sweatpants, leaving him in only his boxers. The outline of his cock alone has you snapping back to reality. When he pulls the boxers down, you outwardly moan when it slaps back against his abdomen. He's much bigger than any guy you've had before. Also, it's so.. pretty.

The shaft is a lot like the rest of his skin, a very pale color that almost shines if sunlight hits it. The head is a soft pink, very reminiscent of the blushes he always seemed to get if you teased him too much, with droplets of precum around it. A large vein runs from the underside of it, and you can see it actually throb the more he stares at you.

"See something you like, love?" You whimper at the very affectionate nickname. "I-is it going to fit? I mean.. I've never.." "Don't worry, little one," he gently lays you back, "daddy will get it to fit. If it hurts too much, just let me know. Okay?" he grabs one of your exes' pillows, placing it gently under your lower back. "O-okay, daddy. I trust you."

His smile warms your heart. "That's my good girl. Spread your legs for me." You nod, following his instructions immediately. His hand reaches between the two of you, grabbing his cock and gently rubbing the tip around your entrance. "You sure you want this, Y/N? I don't want you to feel forced." You whimper, nodding instantly. "P-please fuck me, Choso.. I've waited so long.." You spread your legs more, effortlessly enticing him.

When his tip enters you, you're already a moaning mess. It just feels too good. He watches your expressions intently as he slowly pushes into you, searching for any signs of discomfort. Once he's about halfway in, he stops completely.

"How you doin' baby? Any pain?" He leans down to give you a gentle kiss. "G-good. I-it kinda burns, but nothing bad, I promise." He smiles against your mouth and starts to push in again. "We're almost there, little one. Just- fuuuuck." He finally bottoms out, the stretch of it making you whimper loudly and wiggle around. He pants on your face, the scent of you still heavy on his breath.

"S-so fucking tight.. can't believe this is happening..”

He chuckles softly, giving a tentative thrust into your heat. You bite down on your lip, finding both pain and pleasure in the burn that courses through your body. "D-daddy-" He cuts off the rest of your sentence by leaning back onto his knees and grabbing the back of both of your thighs. He manhandles you easily into what you can only assume is a mating press.

"So easy to throw around, aren't you? My pretty baby.." He pulls out of you until only his tip is still inside before slamming back in, causing you to see stars. "You take cock like a pro, baby. I wasn't sure a cute little thing like you could handle it." You tighten around him at his foul language, causing him to growl. "I'm gonna ruin you for anyone else, baby. I'll make sure I'm the only one who can make you scream. You want that, baby? Want daddy to fuck the imprint of his cock into your slutty little hole?"

You throw your head back and cry out for him. "P-please! Make me your little toy, daddy. W-want you to own me.. prove who I belong to, please?" You know you've done it now from the way he snarls at you. However, the sudden ringing of your phone makes both of you freeze. He leans back up to wrap your thighs around his torso.

He's the first to reach to the floor and grab it, still buried deep inside of you. "Oh, lookie there.. a video call. Hello?" Did he-

"Choso? Where is Y/N? Why do you have her phone?" Your ex's voice sounds from the speaker, making your eyes shoot open. You meet Choso's eyes, mouthing the words 'hang up' over and over.

"What does it matter? She dumped you and called me." "Of course she did. Dude, let me talk to her." Choso chuckles darkly, finally thrusting into you, making you squeak loudly despite your best effort to stay quiet.

"What was that?" "Y/N. She's currently.. held up. Or.. down, rather." He smirks at his own joke, reaching down his free hand to start circling your clit with his middle finger. The feeling has you tightening your thighs around his waist.

"You... what?" "Are you deaf and stupid? I said she's busy, aren't you little one?" He smirks down at your form, panting and shaking your head in a desperate, silent plea. This can not be how everyone finds out about this. No way in hell.

Choso's mocking pout makes your face flare up. "She seems a little shy. Let me show you instead." "N-no! Choso I-!" The choking gasp from the phone call shuts you up. Choso's eyes show no mercy as he looks at you almost amused. "That isn't what you should be calling me, is it?"

You look directly at the camera on the back of your phone, your face a deep scarlet color. Before you can correct yourself, the hand that was idly playing with your clit launches up, smacking your cheek with enough force to have your eyes switch to his. He smirks and shoves his index and middle fingers in your mouth without warning, making the ring he wears clack a bit painfully into your teeth.

"Pretty little whore just needs to learn some manners. Don't you, love?" He gets a wicked grin seeing how you blabber around his digits, trying so desperately to behave and give him an answer. "Sorry, princess, I didn't quite hear you. Try again for daddy." He shoves his fingers farther down your throat, causing you to gag and cough. Spit pours out of your kiss bruised lips, making Choso moan above you.

Your teary eyes make him pull his fingers out, wiping the spit across your face. "Why didn't you tell me you couldn't speak? Silly little girl. Now, what should you be calling me?" "D-Daddy! I'm s-so sorry.." He groans, running his thumb down your bottom lip. He gently pries your mouth open before leaning over you, letting spit fall from his tongue into your waiting mouth. He purrs as you swallow it so obediently. "I know you are. You're such a good girl for me. Oh, he hung up." Choso chuckles softly and tosses your phone back to the floor.

"I believe that I have some work to finish, right baby?" Both of his hands grab your hips, surely leaving bruises, before he starts to mercilessly ram into your sopping cunt. Your throat is still somewhat raw from his fingers being in it not two minutes ago, but he's determined to pull every sound he can from you.

He slides one hand down, harshly pinching and rolling your swollen clit between two fingers. Your cries only encourage his ruthless actions.

"D-daddy I-I.. something.. something doesn't-" Your pleas are cut off when the hand on your hip actually lifts you off the bed, giving him enough access for the tip of his cock to batter into your cervix.

If you aren't sore tomorrow, he hasn't done his job.

Sweat drips down his forehead and chest as he growls deeply. "There we go baby. T-that's the spot. Cum for daddy, want you screaming until my name is the only t-thing you know." His hand starts slapping your exposed clit again, finally throwing you over the edge. When the coil in your abdomen snaps, you scream his name, raw throat be damned.

Choso hisses as you tighten around his cock, spraying his lower abdomen in your essence. "Sh-shit I-" His sentence trails off when he thrusts into you one more time, letting out an animalistic snarl as his own climax washes over him.

You can feel his cock throb as he unloads his seed deep inside you. The feeling makes you tremble and mewl. There's so much of it that it still manages to spill out, staining the bed sheets under you.

He's still panting pretty heavily when he slides out of you, careful in case you're still too sensitive. When you squeak, he reaches up to cup your cheek. "You did so well, baby. I'm so proud of you." You nuzzle into his hand, placing a small kiss in the palm. "Th-thank you, daddy. I-I'm so tired." When your eyes start to flutter shut, he carefully stands from the bed, shamelessly admiring your disheveled state. "I'm sure you are. Let me get us cleaned up. Then I'll take you home, okay?"

Your small nod is plenty of an answer, so he rushes to the bathroom to search for a rag. He takes only a few seconds to wipe himself clean before rushing back to your side. You wince slightly at the feeling of the cloth wiping you down. "Shhhh, daddy's got you baby. I'll be done in just a second." He smiles to himself as you visibly relax into his touch, allowing him to finish.

"You know," he chuckles as he helps you pull your clothes back on, "your dad is going to try and kill me." "Your mom is going to call me every name in the book." He nods in agreement, finally starting to dress himself.

"So.. should we stay quiet? I imagine shit-for-brain isn't going to, but we can play that off as him being an idiot." You bite your lip, weighing the consequences of either decision.

There's no doubt in your mind, you want to be with Choso. It's clear he's willing to do whatever you want, but from the look in his eyes, the answer is obvious.

"I'm not hiding it." He blinks at you in shock. "B-baby.. your repu-" You stand up, despite your legs screaming in pain. He's quick to rush over and pull you into his chest. "I don't care.. I love you, and I don't want to hide it anymore." You squeak loudly when he picks you up bridal style, holding you easily with one arm.

The kiss he gives you is soft and loving, full of nothing but his affection for you. "I love you too, Y/N. I want nothing more than to tell the world that."

He carries you downstairs to grab your overnight bag, and then out to put you in his car. He really refuses to let you do anything, since he even leans inside to buckle you up. Your protests have him laughing. "When you're with me," he kisses your lips after getting into the driver's seat, "you're the spoiled princess. Got it?"

The drive to his house is quiet. He holds your hand the entire time, stroking along it with his thumb, occasionally bringing it to his mouth and kissing each knuckle.

"Oh.. oh shit." "What?" You open your eyes from almost falling asleep.

Your blood freezes when you see what he's looking at. Your dad's car is already parked in his driveway.

Tags: @katgalle, @savonline

[celeste-clearwater-06]

Random Headcanons (Thorin's Company)

In celebration of reaching 100 followers, I've decided to write these completely random headcanons right off the top of my head! These are just little cute and strange oddities each character would have!! (Featuring our favorite character, Y/N 😌💗)

Fair warning, this turned out WAY LONGER than expected, so just be prepared 😅

Please like and reblog if you enjoy it!!

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Okay, lets just start off by agreeing...

Kili hates spiders

Like, just a deep-seated hatred for those things

And the ones in Mirkwood gave him serious PTSD

But he especially despises the little ones that crawl all over you, up in your hair

Any time he sees one its just-

"FilifilifILIGETITAWAY FROM ME!!"

And everyone's just laughing at him while he's on the brink of tears 😂😂💀

Kili doesn't really scream, more like a gasp of disgust

HOWEVER-

Fili does scream

And he secretly has a super high pitched scream

And although he does a reasonable job at pitching it down when he's aware...

There are occasions where the older brother will let one slip and he's teased so badly for it 💀

There was one instance where Fili threw a daddy long leg at Kili, which made him yell

Then proceeded to shriek at the top of his lungs when he tripped over a fucking log while trying to run away 😂

And by hearing it, you and the company thought it was a woman in distress, come barreling over, weapons drawn and war faces on

Nope, just Fili who tripped over a dead tree 🙄

Honestly, nobody believed it was him at first

Also, let's just say, canonically, that you dropped out of the sky into middle Earth (like literally every x reader fic on this platform)

And are a part of Gen Z

And let me tell you, teaching the company Gen Z slang is a BALL

The one's who use it the most are surprisingly Dwalin and Gloin 😂😂😂

Most of the time they just say it if you ask them to because they want to learn all about your world and "unique language"

Because let's be honest, hearing Dwalin say

"Shawty???? wHOT ON ARTH ISSAT SUPPOSED TA MEAN?!!1?"

DEAD-

Or even Thorin sometimes

"Bruh? I'm afraid I do not understand..."

pLEASE tell Bilbo and Bombur that their food is 'bussing' 😂

"I'm sorry... It's what?"

And speaking of teaching things...

You and Bofur have an epic handshake 😎💜

It was something you taught him in the span of a few days, and he learned very quickly

It never fails to impress the company (Thorin pretends not to 🙄✋, but he's the most impressed out of everyone)

You and Bofur are like the 'cool uncle' and 'favorite cousin' if you catch my drift

He can be a terrible influence on some of the young ones, and you are everyone's favorite 😂

Also, just to add something for Bofur, I think he would be an ABSOLUTE GOD at making shadow puppets

Ya know, almost everyone can do the basics like a rabbit and dog, but this dwarf can make crazy shit like a deer, butterflies, he even did AZOG a few times

Don't even ask me how 😳

So completely different subject, but now let's just talk about our 2 favorite grandpa's, Gandalf and Balin 😌💗

I have a secret about them....

They have a club

And what about, you may ask?

Shipping the member of their company

Now these two have been around longer than anyone else in their travelling party, so they are not oblivious to young blossoming romance

Typically they don't talk about it that much, but whenever they catch you and your love interest, whoever it may be, flirting or lightening up at the mention of each others names

These two just share glances, smile, maybe roll their eyes at your obliviousness

Something like;

Gandalf: " 😏'

Balin: "😌"

And NOBODY EVEN KNOWS (well, maybe you do, but you've decided not to tell anyone)

These two are the definition of subtle hints

And you've dubbed it "The Romance Grandpa's"

And they just laugh at it, but think it suits very well, though they insist it's not a club, just a 2 part insight

Elrond may have even gotten in on it too 😂

So everyone knows that the Company loves stories

Whether it be telling or listening, they are just in love

So, when they get tired of listening to the same old tale of Smaug claiming Erebor, they turn to you,

who just so happens to have an endless supply of Disney and fantasy movies locked in your brain by childhood memories

So ofc, you're going to tell them all about princes, princesses, magic, etc.

Their personal favorites are The Princess Bride and Beauty and The Beast

Were very confused about Snow White and the Seven Dwarves,

So now Fili, Kili, Bofur, and Dwalin WILL NOT STOP SINGING "HI-HO"

Just walking along the trail to Erebor, those four are singing, and Gloin has decided to add wHISTLING TO THE MIX

Thorin has lost it 😭💀

Okay, so everyone knows that Ori is more than exceptional at art

I mean, he's just so talented with his hand in drawing and painting

I feel like he would write some form of fanfiction as well

Ya know, maybe not like x reader stuff, but just sweet little fluffy stories about him and the fair dwarrow/dwarrowdam he fell in love within the blue mountains 🥴💗

(Or about him and you, given the circumstances 😉)

I also feel that Bilbo and Dori are secretly very good at art, they just haven't really discovered it yet!

Maybe Bilbo, at drawing his home, the plants he grows in his garden or the occasional bluebird that will perch on his window in the morning

And Dori would just make beautiful paintings of his brothers, more drawn towards things like scenery (lakes forests etc.)

Now, a while back, I had a list of headcanons that included characters who would have their nails painted (per the anti toxic-masculinity movement)

But I feel that I could have added more characters, say Ori, Bofur and most certainly Bilbo

ESPECIALLY ORI

He just lives the color, the shine, maybe even the smell of nail polish, and watching you concentrate on painting them 🥺

And he's also VERY good at painting your nails as well, so that's a win-win

Speaking of beauty...

every

single

one

of these boys are suckers for flower crowns

It doesn't matter if they pretend not to, grumble, complain when you put the crowns on their head,

THEY LOVE FLOWER CROWNS 💐

Forever and always

You, Fili, Kili, Dori, and Ori are usually the ones making them near the campfire or in the road when you see a bundle of them as you pass

And Thorin just nods his head, maybe rolls his eyes, and smirks whenever you give one to him (#dramaking)

Dwalin just "hmphs"

Gandalf smiles and thanks you (#1 grandpa, next to Balin 😌)

And Bifur really appreciates flower crowns as well

Teaching bofur how to make flower crowns 😩

It's like a little craft club on a rainy day!! (And Nori loves it more than anything since it keeps Mother Hen Dori occupied, rather than bossing him around 🙄)

Now let's focus on the leader of our company, since he needs his spotlight!

Thorin is AMAZING at getting/making gifts for people

I don't even know how, but he is!!

You know how he never let go of that grudge with the fucking Mirkwood elves?

Yeah, that memory of his comes in handy when it comes to birthdays and Holidays (Durin's Day for example)

One day, you had been feeling stories of home, and how you dearly missed your old stuffed animal

So on your birthday, Thorin had asked for help from the company to gather their supplies and skills together

And made you a new one 😩💜🥺

Dori sewed, Dwalin hunted for the fur, Bofur made it a little wooden hat, Fili and Kili put little braids on the top of its head, Ori gave it a little bow of ribbon

And so, on your next birthday, they all presented you with this ADORABLE lion stuffed animal and you just fUCKING CRIED, HOLY SHIT-

All in all, the company may have some quirks, some oddities, yes

But their your company

And that means they'll forever love you, and you them

Because that's what family's for 💗💗

(And throwing spiders at Kili 😈💗)