#and thats going to be so much fun to write the fallout of

[kozykricket]

okay. i know i said that my only real critiques or low points of deltarune ch3+ch4 was castle town lacking, and. yeah i think thats true. but i will also say. lukewarm take: ch3 was awkwardly paced. but i wanna chat about parts of it that i feel like arent brought up. so. critique time i guess? rambling?

okay, ive said this a lot to friends, but i really thought "oh my god darkners are actually NOT REAL theyre OBJECTS" was gonna be a much bigger point. and. yknow what? i do actually really like that instead of susie having another "right. no one would really wanna be my friend anyway. its just fake people, its just in a dream world" ... we saw her react with more confidence, take on a strong role and say "alright, but who cares? you're still real to me and i have fun with you all. who cares about the specifics" I LIKE THAT BUT ...i think it couldve maybe cooked a bit longer instead of being immediate in the chapter! another thing that i liked in ch3 regarding that, was it combining with tenna... with like "No one is gonna get thrown away, alright? Fuck what they all say. and we'll find somewhere you can feel you belong better, fulfilling your role." like. that was a genuinely really heartwarming moment and a FANTASTIC way to tie susies sad backstory to ... relating to darkners who feel worthless! BUT ...heres my big confusion with ch3: why did tenna feel so worthless? why did susie and ralsei and even all the darkners dislike tennas shows? literally the last chapter everyone was going on about how great the adventures in dark worlds are, and how... its just like, really fun. and tennas games, sure they got repetitive, but it was only 2 boards (i wish they kept the third board, then it'd actually get repetitive and there'd be reason to be like okay tenna this is actually getting boring. then he'd overreact like FUCK im so BAD at this ENTERTAINMENT i have SO LITTLE VARIETY no one LIKES WHAT I HAVE) which also now that i think of it kinda ties in nicely with his... mission from the knight to distract the lightners. hes like DAMN im TV and i cant even distract them?? what happened to me..

but idk. it just. it felt weird when the party was going "can we stop playing? can we just go seal the fountain already?" that being the main motivation to get to the end of tv world was weird to me. maybe if saving toriel had been brought up more, i'd have liked it, but like. then you've gotta quickly paint tenna as very much Evil and hes not i find it hard to exactly put into words, but i just. if you told me that the segment where everyones leaving tenna and the atmosphere gets all cold and broken... was as early into the chapter as it is, i'd be kinda shocked. like. wtf happens to make all that fallout happen. again i say, as much as susie has grown ... i'd expect her to EITHER have some resistance to the idea of darkners being "not real" or have resistance to the idea of "we have to stop playing games and go seal the fountain" but if you *got rid* of her whole "okay tenna can you fucking stop we've had enough of these games. you're old news. we dont wanna play with you anymore" then you'd also reduce the impact of her "i get it, i was thrown out a lot, too. i say fuck em."

ultimately i say like. the conclusion of ch3 really tidies everything up and i love how it all works out, how susie, tenna, ralsei, the knight, all come together. and toriel/sealing the fountain so like, its a good starting point for ch4 to hop off of. i think i'd want things to end up the same even if i could "redo" ch3. but its just the journey there that makes little sense to me. maybe the realest take is "ch3 had some weird pacing and some odd writing, as a sacrifice for ch4 to be even better. it ended on a really solid platform for ch4 to start from" that and it being a good transition from wacky stuff to serious shit but more than that, its just . yeah i really like the state of everything at the end of ch3 and start of ch4, but the way we get to there from the end of ch2 is all a bit odd to me ah, now thats out of my system and i can get back to gushing over the parts i fucking love about ch3&4 (oops, all susie interactions!)

[verdantwyrm]

I heard many arguments about how mouthwashing shouldn't have a fandom because they doesn't get the story's point and "fandomize" said characters

I'm kinda agree with them? Since I doesn't like how the Fandom actively ignores Jimmy and yeah the Jimmy hate train was funny but it gets annoying sometimes

People say mouthwashing shouldn't have a fandom not because of the fandomizing of the characters but more how they don't understand that you can ship, write fanfics, make happy endings or au's because they cannot comprehend someone doing all of that and then also engaging with the content in a proper, informed and literate way.

I talked more about that over here, but thats not the point of your ask. I think it's fine to be annoyed with how Jimmy, as a character, is routinely ignored. It's not that I don't think people can dislike him or that i'm saying people have to like him, its neither of those things, but outwardly removing him intentionally can sometimes come off like you don't want to comprehend him at all and the massive role he plays in the story. He is the villain, the fallout, and the why and how of Mouthwashing as a story and a piece of literature. You don't have to analyze him or write some deep thought-provoking piece every time you mention Jimmy, but it can come off definitely as very shallow when you simply write him to be completely nonexistent for no other reason than to ignore the whole plot of the game, the story and especially the other characters.

But you're not agreeing with the people that say Mouthwashing shouldn't have a fandom because of this reason alone, because even if it didn't have a fandom this would happen regardless, and almost everything in the existence of for-fucking-ever has always had a "fandom" so trying to say that this one instance, this one singular game shouldn't is hilariously naive and very silly.

Things, for as long as they exist, no matter how they're made, will always have a fandom, and thus, will always have annoying people. It's up to you wether or not you let them dictate how much fun you have in that fandom. Create your own echo chamber, who's going to stop you?

[whenwillderekhalebehappy]

fallout new vegas thoughts

- im having a lot of fun and the game good

- i wish i couldve fixed boone and mannys friendship somehow

- im glad the animal friend perk exists bc i feel really bad killing animals, especially the little baby ones

- on that note, when you shoot a gecko in the head they grab at their little head and scream and it makes me so sad :( thats just a little lizard guy i dont wanna kill him :(

- i love raul hes the best and i love his lil pencil stache and his snarky comments

- lily is also much beloved, my big ass grandma

- mean sonofabitch, the super mutant in north vegas (? west vegas, freeside?) is also great i always say hello to him

- its so cool that theres male ghoul prostitutes at gomorrah

- i like that theres always/usually a way to resolve a conflict peacefully ! on my 2nd playthrough i sided with the ncr and when colonel moore orders you to 'deal with' the great khans i was worried that genocide would really be the only option but it wasnt ! you can just convince them to leave, very nice

- its so funny that the kings are all carbon copies of elvis presley but they dont realize who elvis presley is. peak writing imo

- also i just really like the kings, i think they do good stuff in freeside

- the Legion is a really compelling antagonist because even though they are easy to hate, you do get why they're so successful and what their appeal is

- i wish you could romance benny. like he sucks so bad and i want him.

- snuffles the mole rat <3

- the rats are also really cute

- i love the minor characters like no-bark, jerry the punk, beatrice and so on. they really add a lot of color to the world.

- i always get lost in vaults bc the local map is always completely unreadable so im always running around trying to find shit

- sometimes i find it a little disappointing when you cant go inside of a certain building, like the searchlight airport and some of the buildings around new vegas, like i wanna see whats in there

- benny + all the chairmen relentlessly calling me baby <3

[teecupangel]

No thoughts just Connor being de-aged and Haytham find that adorable

They were like fighting or smth (wow thats new) and Ratonhnhaké:ton gets turned into a child and Haytham experiences the joys of fatherhood and being affectionate to his son or something?

Sorry if this is weird I got a bit tipsy and thinking about these two makes me real sad

If you want one where Ratonhnhaké:ton remembers his past even as he deaged, A Little Problem by TheWyldeWynd might scratch your itch.

So, for this one, we’ll make Ratonhnhaké:ton not have any of his memories. He fully regressed, down to only having the memories of when he was at the age of his regression.

Here is where the fun part comes.

Depending on how old you want Ratonhnhaké:ton to be, this can go either way:

1. Regress him before the death of his mother and the burning of his village.

2. Regress him after the death of his mother, maybe even just a few weeks later.

For (1), this would be more wholesome and can be quite humorous. Ratonhnhaké:ton only read about Haytham from the journal his mother kept (cue Haytham going “Ziio writes about me?”) so he’s curious and he trusts Haytham when he tells him that he has to stay with him for a while because they were ‘searching’ for his mother. Of course, the fallout would be bitter if you let Ratonhnhaké:ton learn his mother’s death. There’s also the underlying angst in every move Haytham makes. He is given a chance to experience what he missed. He is given a chance to feel the full weight of what he had missed. But only a taste. Because, no matter what, he would need to return his son to his real form. Letting him stay as a child or ensuring he would grow up with Haytham this time around… it was a sort of cruelty that Haytham did not wish to partake in.

For (2), well… this is heavier on the angst and awkwardness. As much as Ratonhnhaké:ton would want to know his father, it wouldn’t take him long to realize that Charles Lee works for Haytham. Haytham wouldn’t make things better as he’ll try to act like he did when Ratonhnhaké:ton was his actual age because this child’s rage and grief was simply too similar to the emotions Ratonhnhaké:ton showed with his eyes alone. There will be father-son bonding but it would definitely be tainted by Haytham’s affiliation to the Templars. Even if he tells Ratonhnhaké:ton that Charles acted on Washington’s orders, Ratonhnhaké:ton is smart and perceptive enough to ask back…

“But you let him live even after learning Mother died, right?”

And that was the day Haytham knew…

Their relationship, no matter how old or young Ratonhnhaké:ton becomes, will always be too strained for them to truly be father and son.

[trickstarbrave]

Emil Pagliacci would do so much better as a first draft ideas guy who sends his half baked shit up the ladder to be assessed and revised, which makes it much more heartbreaking that he’s like. The lead creative director or whatever. Like what the fuck

i think its the peter principle at work heavily here. along with other generally bad management at bethesda

emil did fairly well on quests esp ideas. i think the dark brotherhood questline in oblivion was badly written. but many people enjoyed it a lot and had a lot of fun with it. so emil was promoted (along w already having buddies at bethesda) and kept climbing the ranks. then skyrim was a big hit and fallout 3 and 4 sold rly well, but cracks were forming in the foundation of his directing skills and writing abilities.

he said he doesn't like have a central design document because that means updating the document as they get new ideas or swap out old ones. so he just doesn't have it rather than assigning a middle manager who's job it is to communicate with various teams and update the design document. if people have questions then, he simply tells them to go ask todd howard. but todd is now the director of multiple studios under the bethesda umbrella and the teams are in the hundreds of members. it is not fucking feesable to just go ask todd like they could when they were working on fucking morrowind or something. how he doesn't understand this when he is in a senior fucking position is fucking baffling, but even worse is the fact no one has fucking stopped him. no one else at bethesda with any power to tell him to knock it off or he's getting demoted/fired is willing to do so. maybe its bc he's a yes-man kinda guy whos buddy buddy with all the other senior employees but genuinely thats no excuse. he's actively causing tremendous harm to the company with his directing and management. he should not be in a fucking directing position when he doesn't know basic skills for creative directing or management like "why is a central design document important especially for large projects where multiple people are working on it independently"

and also his writing is just bad. he isn't the worst at quest designs except for the fact he seems to hold contempt for his audience. at least with the dark brotherhood in oblivion he was trying, i can give him that. then with skyrim he just went "i would LIKE to implement cool features to make the gameplay and story more engaging but why bother? people will just mod it in anyways" and with fo4 said "why bother trying to write a super detailed, complex story? your players will just ignore it anyways--" because PLAYTESTERS were skipping dialogue.

he is obnoxious and needs to have as little creative control as possible at this point. he doesnt seem to like directing or writing. he doesn't seem to be very good at it either. he's insufferable and his ideas are boring. but tbh i think bethesda might just go under with microsoft closing them down long before emil is out of a senior position. microsoft will close down good studios i dont think they will let bethesda live unless tes6 literally blows everyone else out of the water (which i dont have faith it will) (and even then they still might microsoft is evil)

[pretentiousactress]

fallout 1 rant

god i hate trying to find content of other people also struggling with fallout 1 but all you can see in comments is just people shitting on the person struggling bc "lol skill issue you're supposed to find this thing in x y and z how do you not know" when A-there is a ONE HUNDRED PAGE MANUAL to the game that's just... a literal walkthrough in place of a proper in game tutorial. but this manual is stylized in it's writing, is a pain to realize exists (i only discovered it on accident bc i was in the game files trying to fix a bug), isn't scanned properly (several pages are the wrong orientation or just off), and long as hell. If you had the physical copy back in the day, it made sense, it was something to read and skim while on the ride home from the store and the game downloaded. B-the game is buggy as hell. Some quests or obvious dialogue are broken bc of bugs C-piss poor in-game direction for the player. you NEED to have read the manual to get the most out of the game, or even play. i feel like the game relies on that so much to do it's heavy lifting the game itself suffers for it, in a way.

I'm really struggling with quests bc the quest tracker is shit. Local area maps gives you no info other than like.... a vague floor plan. The game wants you to barter with some random NPCs that aren't merchants at times just bc they want you to encounter the function.... but barter is slapped onto everyone, even when they have nothing. Choose the wrong stats or anything in the beginning? you're shit out of luck make someone new. Exploring a dungeon is exhausting bc lootable objects blend into the background.

Some stuff i've only discovered by chance, either in game or someone mentioning it in passing, or watching a streamer play the game and see him interact with stuff. You literally cannot play this game without some sort of outside help LMAO. if you could, congrats!

i've finally found a proper walkthrough i think that will finally help me. It tells info straight forward. My first time playing i couldn't even leave the vault without dying bc of bad resources bc of my bad build. I personally HATE builds and crafting one, so since then i've just tried only following examples. I think i eventually got out before but then I also couldn't figure out how to enter a location bc NOTHING WOULD SAY just click the lil green triangle in the game when you enter the green bubble (and even later when i tried looking up help). I've gotten the farthest i've ever gotten recently, after finally figuring out how to enter locations but god my own brain suffers from its own pitfalls. Took me forever to figure out how to even enter vault 15. reading dialogue HURTS bc my eyes strain against the saturated green text on dark green for so long. thats not just a this game issue tho it's also a problem for me in modern fallout games if the text is too saturated i will not read terminals and i try to spend the least amount seeing it. Also not a fan of the fat jokes against one npc but it's a product of its time and just another me problem.

sucks hard bc i really want to like the game but with everything compounded makes it such a boring slog other than like... the few easter eggs and fun encounters i came across traveling between towns. I'll probably end up relying on watching Jabo's playthrough of it but im gonna give it one last go. properly adjusted setting from the start and properly following a walkthrough. not gonna patch the game with a fan patch just bc i dont care about it enough to put in the effort LMAO

hopefully i can eventually enjoy the game properly myself this way on my final attempt. I wanna like the game and have fun so bad but i might just have to accept it's not for me.

jesus im glad i never actually streamed playing this game bc i would have just felt so insecure with all my struggling and it doesn't help just how *mean* fans of old fallout are. Not all of them, but it's sad how it seems like the nice ones are the minority.

i just hate struggling in games if i'm the only one playing. I'm happy to struggle with others in a multiplayer. struggling on my own is what i already do irl im not dealing with that shit in a game that's helping me escape lmao

as shitty as bethesda games can be, they worked several miracles getting fallout into a format that's just far more accessible, easier to get started and understand, and still make sense. Bethesda know best how to make a genre of a game just... more casual and easier to digest. Not everyone's cup of tea, sure, esp depending on the genre (not a lot of people like starfield but i love it. a lot of people love most space games and i hate them LMAO). New Vegas, everyone's beloved, i don't think would have been loved by so many if it wasn't bethesda general easy to consume format with og fallout creators (tho maybe just fallout 2). best of both worlds.

if bethesda didn't snatch up the IP, fallout would have died in the 90s LMAO. but sadly, i just think a lot of people would have preferred that. it is what it is. people be wildin.

[nicegaai]

stuck on writing again. im gonna talk myself thru it in text post form

okay if i dont wrap this oneshot up before my brain completely burns out editing it i will lose my mind

naturally theres buildup to sex and then i really just do not want to write it. i can fade to black or otherwise gloss over it, sure. whatever. but then i have to write something AFTER IT and i also dont know what to do with that.

like i have a little bit im working on ...... as much as i dont want it to feel abrupt i just want it to be OVERRRR . i dont want to wrap up anything, i dont want to think about this. the dramatic spoiled artist in my brain is throwing a tantrum. It's Whatever. this isnt my magnum opus, its just me trying to exorcise myself of the ince/st kink demon again . it never works and i feel real weird about it. like am i propagandizing atp? im scared im passing this kink onto others accidentally. sorry im like this. nobody look at me. anyway

i dont want this to be Good as much as i want it to be Done <- lying

i could try to cut it off early . but oh my god if i ended it as soon as they start making out thats weird, i dont like that flow. if i cut it as soon as theyre in bed together thats ... tht only works if its a fade to black and then we come back afterwards right? wouldnt it be strange to have 5k words of buildup, then they kiss and it fades to black, and then thats it?

reading that, i might feel cheated. but my god i do not want to write another bj i dont want to write them actually doing it. i would NEVER get around to finishing that. like i said. i am so close to burnout i need to figure out how to end this quick. i wanna do it TONIGHTTTT.

and i think i do need to add more. i guess the morning after?

ughhhgh sghdhgshgshdskgks dgshkld gsd hsd js dsdkskfhsdkjfs dksjkhdf ksjhdfks jdhfksj dfksjdhfkjshdfkjshdf

ok ok .

because, i do want to play with the fallout a little. i have ideas. but i am also so so tired. of this i mean. (the fallout is ofc that they fuck again. which i also won't write.)

ok current game plan.

i go back into the document. i have an hr n a half. i write up a short aftersex interaction and end it whenever it feels right. do NOT make it long enough to let them leave the room. it is a SHORT conversation. then i go back and finalize the fadeout sex.

at this point i probably will have to leave (friday niteee bb) (i am a very slow writer) but when i get back i can go over the highlighted text ive marked to edit / research / etc... clean it up quickly. then do the ao3 format stuff i suppose !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! add tags summary etc.

....yeah ! yeah i guess.

writing fanfic is all about learning who u are as a writer i think. id like to move on to personal projects someday yk... first thing ive learned: do not let urself edit the same 15 pages on an eternal ocd loop: u will explode and die before u get to the actual end

anyway after this i promise to write all that cousin sex. somehow i have never lost interest in that au. having friends to talk ab ur au with always makes them more fun

[kitsunesx]

== BASICS

NAME : Kit.

PRONOUNS: They/Them

ZODIAC SIGN: Capricorn

TAKEN OR SINGLE: Single

Sexuality: Pansexual.

== THREE FACTS

I am filled with so much useless information it should probably be a little concerning.

I have a cat named Luna, named after the Sailor Moon character.

I have played over 300 hours in Fallout 4 and I still haven’t finished it.

== EXPERIENCE

PLATFORMS USED : Tumblr and discord. I’ve had a history of A LOT of different sites. 

PLOTTING / WINGING IT / MEMES : Memes are honestly the best way to go about things. I can wing it from there but I have a hard time starting from nothing.

== MUSE PREFERENCE

GENDER : I don’t really have one..

MULTI OR SINGLE : Multi, lmao you joking.

LEAST FAVOURITE FACECLAIM(S) : Whitewashed xo tbf i don't think i've really ever had any FC issues, so I dont dwell on it too much

== FLUFF / ANGST / SMUT

FLUFF: It's fun sometimes - I've found that I usually, eventually and accidentally, almost always end up turning fluff to angst so uh,,,

ANGST: MY FAVORITE. MY!!! FAVORITE!!!

SMUT: Fun fact! Up until this blog, I only ever wrote smut with one of my besties...and that being said, I am still extremely picky about who I write it with. I'm hyper aware I'm not the best at it but considering all of my knowledge on the stuff came from books and film, I guess thats not surprising lmao

tagged by: @misfittcd

tagging: @notfrsale, @temporalobjects, @ovilis, 

[dimplypack]

As someone who's put in, uh, 191 hours as of 10/7, i cannot agree more. bethesda has basically gone on record saying they expect the modding community to keep the game alive, and they intentionally left a lot of features un-tutorialized so that the online community could discover basic features together. Features like: if you rebind the alternative hotkey for jumping/boosting to a key OTHER than spacebar, you get a horizontal boost instead of a vertical one. I can't even fathom who figured that out, but personally I rarely rebind keys, particularly to alt-hotkeys.

Literally the only thing that kept me playing past 20 hours was finding QoL mods and using exploits built into the game, like one to make the inventory UI not look like garbage, and one to make the menus faster because they have like half a second of buildup every time, and one to make stealth gameplay not pointless. I can't count the number of times I've come across what is clearly an intentional game design choice which struck me as completely baffling.

Also, the main story so far is just absolute garbage. Slight spoilers, but it literally just skyrim in space, bethesda couldn't resist putting dragonshout equivalent powers into it, which you ALSO get from fucking space temples. Apparently when you complete the main quest, you can cycle back to the start for NG+, and they designed it that way with the sort of players in mind who like to start skyrim over and over again (while modding the hell out of it usually). Unfortunately, I'm the sort of player who never progresses in the main quest cuz i get sidetracked by everything else, so they've kinda screwed my demographic over.

Speaking of unoriginality, Of Fucking Course theres space cowboys, an entire faction of them. This game banks so hard on previously established Bethesda TM cliches. And then theres the city of Neon, which is just bargain bin Night City, complete with annoying adverts blaring at you from billboards, rampant corruption, greed and poverty. But the city is about 1/20th the size of Night City. There's so much more but I don't want to write an actual essay about this dumb game.

That being said, compared to their other big titles, Starfield is significantly less buggy (still buggy as hell) and the secondary questlines that are tied to different factions are much better than the main quest. Random encounters in space after arriving at a planet actually feel like theres some heart put into them, and building ships has been fun (though also frustrating, even with exploitin glitches to make ship parts clip into eachother). In the end, if you liked the feeling of playing skyrim or fallouts, you'll enjoy starfield. And thats about as far as its cultural osmosis will go.

I think the biggest sign of the grand “fall of Bethesda” or whatever is the fact that Starfield officially released a full calendar month ago today and I literally have zero idea what it is about or what happens in it. absolutely zero cultural osmosis seems to have happened, which would’ve been unthinkable for a Bethesda RPG like ten years ago

[a-friend-of-mara]

Yall ever start something and just keep going and it turns from a 2 minute tangent into a whole on short essay?

Well I did

Watched this video:

Wrote this essay in the comments...

I'm going to be honest, old games were of higher quality on average than new games... I'm young but I'm extremely prone to sensory overload and COD Cold War gave me so much of a headache upon first booting it up that I put down my controller and gave up on it... like... when I was in elementary school I had games like Halo: Reach and NFS hot pursuit, games that were fun! Games you bought then played without spending more money. Now we have slop with so many DLCs and micro transactions that I just feel sad playing them...

Games were fun

Now they aren't

Quick tangent:

How do you make art that resonates with the people that experience it?

You could write a book... but theater of the mind only goes so far. So why not theater with actors in the flesh realm? There's only so much you can do on a stage. So a movie screen!? Yes it can resonate much stronger but I ask a question, instead of a passive experience where you're just along for the ride, why not something a bit more... what's the word? Something to feel connected to, something that *feels* more real. A virtual interactive medium perhaps? Oh a video game? That can't possibly be art!

Watching a play, it's theater, people see it it as art... reading a book, it's literature, people see it as art... watching a movie, it's cinema, people see it as art, playing a video game, it's games, most people DON'T see it as art.

I feel like if only the best of games got the spotlight, games that told stories, games that took risks, games that revolutionized the industry, I'm talking Red Dead Redemption, I'm talking Fallout New Vegas, I'm talking about The Outer Wilds, I'm talking Half Life 2, I'm talking Portal, Spec Ops: The Line, Cyberpunk 2077, Disco Elysium, Frostpunk, Celeste...

Games that make you feel emotions during the most numb days of your life

Games that make you think when you've been running on autopilot for days

Games that truly could be considered art in and of themselves

What do you think would make someone feel more emotions, letting them read about something, witness actors recreate that something on stage, see a version of that something on a screen, or let them walk through that something themselves?

If you want to convey just how horrible an event that happend is, (for the sake of argument budget, effort required, and time, aren't issue), would you write about it? Show people pictures? Get people to see a play based on it? Make a movie to let people see what happened? Or would you put someone as close to in the shoes of those effected as possible? Let them walk around in the aftermath?

Games could be the most effective means of communication ever, if only they were given the chance to. Imagine a story about someone in a minority group and their mistreatment by a good chunk of society. Imagine how it would make you feel, the descriptions of what insults were thrown, how they were disrespected... would it ring louder if you could see them crying after? If you could see the glass shatter as they throw a hand through the mirror? Feel the bass of the speakers shake the whole room? How do you think it would feel to have to get to school each day, only to be called insults the whole day and you couldn't just close your eyes and plug your ears because the story won't move unless you're paying attention, if your first person view of the ordeal suddenly collapsed onto the floor the moment you close the door when you get home and start sobbing uncontrollably? To read about something gives you an idea, to see something gives you an image... there's a lot of things you can't truly understand until you experience it.

And thats why I know video games can be art

[cannedvampirejuice]

I want to know Ghost lore (he looks so interesting)

this ended up long as fuck and im sorry

He's in the infirmary for all of Arc 1, his magic is "cockroach magecraft", "starfish magecraft", or "survival magecraft" (depending on his mood). he's functionally immortal and able to slowly regenerate parts of his body over time but like. thats it. he doesn't really have any other tools outside of not dying, or helping others not die, and even then other mages have quicker/more effective ways of doing that. Anyway the main point is that for Arc 1 he's regenerating and just briefly pops up during Temple of Time to help other staff.

Arc 1.5 is when he starts getting active, summoning Salieri and Izou during Shinjuku, a weird fragment of Dantes during Shimousa (though he is not an active participant of that chapter, this Dantes is more like a piece that gets accidentally shaved off from the OG's dream jump and the chapter goes as normal), and Constantine before Salem. Im on the fence about how I want to do SERAPH, or if that should be Ritsuka exclusive.

Arc 2 opens up a lot more awkward since well. Thats Not Ghost's Salieri! I plan on doing some fun stuff with that. Theres a lot of potential (but also stuff I dont want to move around too much) since Arc 2 is when who he's summoned starts making canon story appearances.

A really fun one i may skip to and edit later would be Traum with both Constantines. I think it could elevate some of the flatter parts of his writing in the chapter by making him look at a mirror image of himself and directly try to confront a him that stands with PHH. Also how even so fundamentally opposed they still are the same person/see how the other thinks the way they do. And it pisses them both off.

I havent fully plotted stuff out yet but also with literally every other sort of take on Ghost- whos been the player name ive been using for all my time playing FGO- I want him more in the backseat and exploring other stuff going on in those chapters. if he even shows up. He does not have REM REM powers and it's still Ritsuka's story. But like how a cockroach can survive a nuclear bomb he's still there and kicking and wants to live just as much.

Probably the only major writing plot i havent thought about how to write a dynamic for is with Kadoc. Since he's joined team Chaldea he does a lot of what i had originally wanted Ghost and prototypes of Ghost to do. So I could take this a lot of places as either comrades or rivals.

I also really only spoil myself on character releases and basic plot beats when we get new story chapters so I have no clue how im going to handle Ordeal Calls yet. I know the most about Id and thats going to be. Explosive. especially since im going to have to essentially write anything as an epilogue. Ghost cant participate in Heian-Kyo, or use REM REM, so he cant participate in Id. He's going to get hit with the fallout and just curl up and die for a bit.

Another thing im sure everyones noticed is i cant decide how large I want Ghost's party to be. I think Merlin is an interesting addition as an observer who could more directly-yet-indirectly assist Ritsuka through Ghost. Also he would probably enjoy Ghost's backstage string puller thing hes got going on. but i get indecisive about his full inclusion.

Also there's Asclepius! Who I think would be very interested in Ghost's magecraft in the ways he's very interested in Heracles. But I worry about accidentally making their dynamic too one note so I keep going back and forth about it.

And then im even more wishy-washy about the inclusions of Douman and Takasugi. I really like having Takasugi around because I think he's a character that can have really interesting dynamics with literally everyone in the cast, in dialogue and with lore skillset. He's a really fun and interesting character. And he also gets stupid jealous. I think that's a quick and easy way to add some petty conflict that isn't as high stakes as (gestures at everything).

Douman is harder to justify to myself at times because while I think its funny to have a dynamic where he's contracted to Ghost specifically to try and get Ritsuka's attention like a jealous ex showing off a rebound- I get a bit stuck after that initial gag. The only thing ive really thought of doing is having him be the literal devil on his shoulder. Someone who whispers some really easy shortcuts that can be carved out in blood- the faster way- the easier way- a way to be more helpful to the group. And having to say no, we take the harder but safer/kinder/less bloody path- and then reel Douman in. Ghost also falls into Douman's weird preference where he only works for people who have white hair.

All of that and all I can really say is that the only solid piece of writing i've done for this crew is. A brief interlude that takes place during Water Monster Crisis! And it only really focuses on Dantes!

I have all of this to day and my notes are still very scrambled and incoherent! And all of that and I still dont have his pre-Chaldea story pinned down! lol!

[meowrimo]

__φ(．．) : do you have any writing goals this year? for instance, is there anything you want to try out or experiment with?

(´｡• ᵕ •｡`) : talk about the fic that you enjoyed writing the most! and don't forget to link it in your response if it's published!

o( ❛ᴗ❛ )o : is there a trope / au you'd like to write more for?

(☆ω☆) : what's the word count of your longest fic to date? how long did it take to write that fic, and would you write another piece of that length (or longer)? :3

NESI BESI ! thank u for asking meeee :3

__φ(．．) : i think my biggest writing goal is to just keep going atp LOL i am very much stuck BUT !! once i break free, i’d like to get back into writing longer stories

(´｡• ᵕ •｡`) : you already know :3 but rough and rugged, soft and sweet !! i wanted to write out something with a lot of build up + tension, and i’m really proud of that fic ! its very self indulgent and it was just so much fun to write hehe first kisses are always so sweet 🤍

o( ❛ᴗ❛ )o : i talked about one here but another would be writing this one fallout new vegas x jjk au that has been infesting my brain … i just wanna write little snippets and play around with it bc i am the target audience LOL its going to be insanely self indulgent but i’m excited !

(☆ω☆) : OOO i think it was for the lake house !! it was like 23k ?? that took me maybe the span of a month to put together bc i was working on kinktober but tbh fine line might’ve had more but i need to total it !! let’s not count it bc i never finished it oop.. but i think it was around the same? i am ITCHING to write another long fic .. i think thats what i’m yearning for tbh

[mzhydes-funtimes]

When you get this, list 5 songs you like to listen to, publish them, and send this ask to the last 10 people in your notifs!

I dont know the tumblr rules of etiquette on this so imma answer then dyah

Or fuck imma just list them here bc im going to forget midpost the rules

Last night i had dragonforce in my head and ouuhhhhhggggg it felt soo good to losten to them again, it was specifically the song Seasons

And fuck acoustic version has soo many accidentals bc the notes are in marcs singing "blind spot" where its really hard to not get it sharp or flat but you can song above and below that just fine

2 one of the more fun song by amaranthe is Boom!1 its fucking exciting as hell. For a bit of background there are 3 singers the main lead - Elizy Ryd, whos the female singer voice, Nils Molin whos the male singer voice, and (now formerly as he quit the band 2 years ago in 2022) GG6 or Henrik (not even gunna attempt his last name) with the scream metal vocals. This song is about gg6 and explosion and bombs and shit but it sounds soo good

And this song is mainly sung by gg6 with the main chorus done by nils, hell elise is barely in the song and shes like the main amaranthe person, but thats pretty cool tho, every singer has a song specifically devoted to them

3 This next one im not as obsessed with the artist but my god does it sound soo cool its called Fly With Me and it sounds like a fuckin space exploration song

Mmmm its just soo good

4 Sumo Syco Sleep Tight. Literally fuckin amazing ass song. First off the Singer made the band by herself, somehow got a major publisher to back her band, probably writes most of the songs herself, makes her music videos independently and yeah

With this song especially i swear ive heard it on the radio before and the coolest part is that she made the band wear blue during the music video and blue screened everything at the end and it looked soo fucking cool

Damn im at the fifth already damn whatever lets see here...

Oh! The pretty reckless Death By Rock and Roll. First off the singer is the same person who played cindy lou who from jim careys the grinch but now shes singing about sex drugs death and rock and roll. But like this song is so good tho

And if you combine this with Save Rock and Roll by fallout boy you get a fun story. But yeah uhh if you wanna make a statement to a party dont bring a shotgun, everyone else brought one

Im so sorry for going off like this i just love music so much i have so many notes on how to write scales and shit and know so much abojt music and my favorite artists its so hard NOT to ger excited and god i havent listened to these songs in so long it feels soo good to listen to them again like a part of me woke up again anyways gotta go finish the ask hope you enjoyed my rambling

[whenwillderekhalebehappy]

so i just started playing fallout 4 ,,, here are my preliminary opinions

- lame storyline, i don't want to be married heterosexual. idc abt this fuckass baby either.

- fr tho, it feels like the devs just chose the most generic backstory they could think of so they could get that part out of the way. it's not interesting or good. moreover, if that actually happened to a person, they'd be traumatized and terrified, not running around looking for guns and stimpaks. like, it feels like my character doesn't even give that much of a shit that this happened. like ooh the world ended, my wife was murdered, my infant child was kidnapped, it is 200 years in the future, but yeah no i don't have any questions, ill just roll with it. LAZY WRITING!

- also: how does the survivor know that his baby is still alive. the story has him frozen, unfrozen to witness murder and kidnapping, frozen again and then unfrozen to start the game. how am i supposed to know when that kidnapping happened? like yeah it could've been recent but it could also have been 100 years ago.

- upon exiting the vault you immediately start like 11 quests. why?? for what reason?? i just got here??

- do not love that feral ghouls will just lay on the ground waiting for you to get close enough so they can attack you. 1. its annoying, you get ambushed every time. 2. why would they be doing that, are they sleeping? waiting? doesnt make sense for them to be doing either of those things. they're feral, they wander around attacking whatever comes near them, they don't lie down and wait for prey, thats just ,,, not how they work?

- i especially dont like that the ghouls also dont show up as hostile on the little navigation bar until they get up. the whole point of that is so i know if there's hostiles in the area. if all the hostiles just sneak up on you, there's no reason to look at it.

- the fact that you can just max out your SPECIAL stats kinda defeats the purpose of those stats. the point is that it allows you to pick strengths and weaknesses for your character, instead of it being skills you can learn. it adds difficulty and personalization.

- i genuinely don't like the "improved" graphics. maybe its because my pc is shitty and i have to run low quality, but i cant see shit. especially all the harsh shadows make it really hard to gauge depth and to see things on the ground (like feral ghouls waiting to attack you).

- why is VATS under Q. thats dumb

- follow up: why are we now using the enter key and arrow keys in addition to wasd. let me keep my hand on the mouse instead of constantly having to switch (update: after 10 hours in-game i found out you can also press E, still stupid)

- why cant i just go up to people and ask them shit. why do i have to wait until they want to talk to me.

- i do like the whole settlement building thing. ive been having more fun with that than anything else tbh

- it is nice that you can make radaway and you dont have to rely on scavenging or bartering for it

- they are harsh on the raiders. like i get that they're enemies but labelling them 'raider scum' is a bit much. like thats still a person.

- in the intro thing they say war never changes at least 3 times. i get it. dont overdo it.

- also in the intro, they just say the US ended ww2 by dropping the bombs on hiroshima and nagasaki which is a VERY BOLD statement about history.

- i've barely encountered anyone who's nice. ive met preston and his friends but beyond that its basically been nothing but raiders. where are the friendly npc's? it makes the whole world feel hostile and empty

- the variety of weapons and mods is ,, actually a little too much. i don't know the difference between a pistol and a revolver, let alone what a receiver is. the game kind of expects you to just , understand what all these things mean and how to best modify your weapons. I don't. i barely know what i'm supposed to be looking at. "um yeah i definitely prefer the hardened enhanced glowsighted tempered auto pipe revolver pistol over the hardboiled standardized incendiary double barreled shotgun rifle" <- statement dreamed up by the utterly deranged

- recently encountered super mutants, why do they yell at you that they are super mutants. i know that. i mean, the character technically doesn't since no one's bothered to explain all the new creatures to him, but still.

anywho, ive only been playing for a week or so, so there might be more redeeming qualities later on. but so far im not very impressed

[neondeaddrops]

090423.1

Alrighty today I've been playing Starfield; its pretty good. But it really is hard to call it anything but Fallout in Space. And all the ship flying stuff is entirely skippable. Not only that but it serves 0 purpose in game, you can't fly between planets in the same star system or even obects orbiting the planets you are orbitting. That was a little disappointing. I've been seeing people give it an 8/10 and I have to agree. Stayed up last night playing Genshin, I'm always amazed at how much fun that game can be. Switched from Starfield after a bug prevented quest progress and now I'm doing Rival Wings for FFXIV's 10th Anniversary. I didn't think it would be as fun as it is but I like it. I wish I could talk about sonething other than Video Games, but I guess thats another thing that slowly left me due to my surroundings. I haven't had anyone to talk about anything else with for so long. I want to see the Blue Beetle mivie, it looks good and its star hasn't been going around attacking people. I'm planning on giung camping next weekend. That should be fun. The weather today was perfect for it so lets hope that stays true. Work should be easy tomorrow so thats cool. Maybe I'll read my Star Trek book all day. I'm worried about how my account will shake out once all my bills come out at banks open tomorrow. I can't even figure out where it all went!? How am I still barely breaking even after my raise!? Gas can't be that much more expensive. I guess maybe I'm still getting caught up from the summer. Once the amounts lower on my credit cards the minimum payments will go down allowing me to apply more money to specific cards instead of keeping them all maxed out. Its startling for how many people $10,000 would life altering. This system was SO not built for thw world today. Hmmm I guess this one turned into me just complaining too. Oh well I like this stream of consciousness writing and I always have. Maybe I shouldn't tag these and let them live in isolation. On the one hand maybe someone will see them who can help and/or wants to be my friend, on the other it may be annoying or I guess even triggering for some people.... I guess I'd better not. I'll remove the tags from the first one.

[rakimaiirisa]

I love and hate how my brain latches on to just 2 damn video games. Fallout 4 and skyrim. I can't get into skyrim right now because I'm waiting and even then, the times I've tried to play it just to take screens, i just cant. The torches in game are missing textures and it bothers me so much, that I shut off the game once I see them. Another problem I'm going to have to chase down whenever I decide to get back into it.

Besides Danse and Jake are occupying my mind atm. Especially Danse. Hence the stream of steady pics I'm posting to the annoyance of everyone 😅 I'm trying not to flood his tags with constant pics but anything that involves him and Jake is definitely going to be tagged. I love the hell out my ships and Idgaf if people get annoyed by so many pics of them. Besides I'm having fun figuring out SAM. In also going to work on Jake's lore and info posts so I can eventually write stuff for him and Danse. Im not much of a writer and man, its hard to focus, but thats the plan for this blog. Anyway just rambling here,