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if The Exile were a party system rpg-style video game, what would some of the characters voice lines in battle be? Like, if they won, or a companion went down, or a romanced Commander went down, or they got healed or something?
:))))) I had fun doing this.
For MC being down it's: platonic /romantic, and for healing it's: in need of healing/after being healed.
Vethna: MC's Down: "Ma Vysna! Hold on!" / "Tyrat'ri-- hold on, damn it! We've made it this far, haven't we?" In need of healing: "I need to heal!" / "Thank... you..." Victory: "And I thought Vygrand was violent."
Nikke: MC's Down: "Shit--! MC's down..." / "Hell no. Get back up, MC! You're not dying on me today." In need of healing: "Hey, uh, I don't think I'm supposed to be bleedin' from there. Am I supposed to be bleedin' from there?" / "Ah, yes-- the sweet satisfaction of cheating death... again." Victory: "You'd think they'd get the memo to stop trying to kill us by now, huh?"
Jost: MC's Down: "You're not supposed to take 'break a leg' literally, you know!" / "MC! You're okay-- you are okay, alright-- ? Just... stay there!" In need of healing: "I know you can see I need healing right now..." (said in the most passive aggressive manner ever) / "Ah, that feels good..." Victory: "F*ckers."
Amilia: MC's Down: "No! Stay there, MC, I'm coming!" / "No! MC!" (But it sounds like she's about to burst into tears) In need of healing: "In need of some help here. Now!" Followed by silence and then, a much quieter and polite: "... please?" / "Thanks..." (said with exhaustion) Victory: "I just love restoring harmony into the world." (Said very cheekily) OR, if the enemy is an animal: "I wish we didn't have to do that..."
Sabir: MC's Down: "MC! Get back up, damn it!" / "I'm coming, beloved. Hold on!" In need of healing: "Not to cause alarm, but I do have reason to believe I am on the brink of death." / "Ah, thank you. I'm a few steps from the precipice now, at least!" Victory: "... does anyone know how to get blood out of silk... ? ... no?"
Syfyn: MC's Down: "Stay down, MC-- I'll see it's done." / "NO!" (but screamed in the most utterly gut wrenching way ever in a mix of pure rage and utter terror) In need of healing: "We're taking too many hits here!" / "Thanks." Victory: "..." (She's cool and strong and silent. Maybe just like a small "humph" occasionally?)
Freedom: I feel like Freedom would be an RO that isn't a companion, ya know? Like you can't go out on missions with them but they're still part of the "main crew," and maybe they have a couple of special missions you tag along for. MC's Down: "That is... an inconvenience." / "Breathe, beloved. I will not let you fall so easily." In need of healing: "My body feels... weak...?" / "... odd." Victory: "Eugh-- their corpses already stink. Can we go now?"
#RPGS RPGS RPGS RPGS--#i had so much fun with this askjfkjd#answered#Vethna's lines translate to 'my blood' and 'one who i yearn for'#idk why but my brain is just imagining going into a boss fight you're wayyy too under-leveled for#and Syfyn's character saying that line: I'll see it's done#and then getting one hit 💀#vethna#nikke#jost#amilia#syfyn#sabir#freedom
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DP Headcanons
Just some headcanons I have about DP and its characters
1) Jazz had a lot of extracurricular activities in high school and was even cheerleader captain for a short period of time. She’s extra and a perfectionist, so she was also valedictorian, class President, and prom Queen.
2) Dani was trained to be an assassin. Vlad’s training and her unstable composition meant that she fights quick, fast, and dirty.
3) Jazz is considered a master of all weapons, particularly long distance weapons, but her hand-to-hand is the weakest in the team. She’s long limbed and very tall, so she doesn’t like moving around too much, which means she relies more on weapons. I think she’d also have weak bones (which is true for tall people), so she probably also likes fighting with melee weapons for that reason too.
4) Danny is a master at imitation. His ability to use the ghostly wail means that his voice adapted to imitate others’ voices too. I think it would also be cool if he had an ability to change his appearance like Amorpho, where he can imitate people who have died, usually as psychological attacks.
5) Danny having his ghostly wail also means he can sing really well.
6) Danny was too young to be the Ghost King when he was 14, so Jazz was expected to be the Queen Regent until he turned 16. However, he asked her to continue being regent until he was 18, so she stayed for 4 years. In that time, she completely reformed the laws and rules of the Ghost Zone until it was extremely organized (but unfortunately also rather totalitarian. Thankfully, Danny fixed that very quick but still maintained a lot of the laws she created.)
7) Both Dan and Dani like to be called “Danny/Dani”, but when around Danny, they stick to Dan and Ellie. This is bc I don’t believe they’d just change their names so easily when they grew up this way and in some ways, they are literally Danny, so I don’t believe they’d like changing their name, but they are aware that Danny is the OG so they change their names when he’s around.
8) Danny is the most well-rounded fighter of the group and as he grew older, his powers and strength grew exponentially. His identity as both human and ghost meant that he rules over all aspects of death and life. He gets new and random powers almost every day and they never stop growing.
9) In terms of strength, Sam is stronger than Tucker. The power scale in my imagination looks like this: Danny > Dan > Sam >=Tucker = Dani > Jazz > Valerie. This doesn’t mean that the people on the bottom are the weakest, it’s just according to raw strength and my ideas of Danny’s royal court.
10) Danny has no specific queen/consort but only bc Sam, Tucker, and Valerie are chasing off anybody else. I can’t decide if he’s specifically polyam or not, but I think the relationship between all 4 of them is definitely complex and hard to understand, even for them.
#jazz is a donut and danny is a blunt#I glaze one and pass the other around so everyone can get a hit 💀#jazz fenton#danny fenton#danny phantom#phandom#dp headcanons#ghost king danny#dani fenton#dani phantom#dark danny#dan phantom#dan fenton#dp royal court#everlasting trio#team phantom#phantom family#valerie gray
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Recent doodles cause I was sick so obviously I had to give that to the vampire hunter man. The transfer was mostly successful btw, the headaches are less frequent d(^^)
Text and other ranting ⬇️
This one has no text. It’s just Simon waking up a little feverish— I was going to draw him getting out of bed and other longer character interaction comic stuff, but I uh was also having the head pain at the time 💀💀💀. Maybe someday later.
Simon is in like a robe or housecoat and saying “I-I’m all alright” and there’s a bit in parentheses under him that says “says guy who is clearly ill”. Then there’s a littler doodle of him doing the unsteady walk you do when you’re sick sometimes in his pjs—
The text is as follows: (Christopher) “oh my god— Simon, go lay down you are burning up.” (Simon) “immokayy” (Christopher) “you are swaying on your feet please—”. I think Simon would probably deny that he was anything less than in perfect health even when visibly not 💀. Or do the thing of “I’ve had worse” or “I can handle it” and like no, sir, what you’ve missed here is that part of handling it is rest, go lay down!!! Also Christopher is here because I just wanna see all the Belmonts getting to be a family and have significantly less responsibilities to deal with. Good lord do these guys need just a fun slice of life everyone is alive and well and we threw them into modern times AU holy shit… And also Christopher is Mr. Dad Guy Belmont, he’s definitely the guy out of all of them to be harping on someone to take care of themselves. Idk I feel like he gets extra dad vibes having been the guy allowed to be a dad on screen lol. Although I could see most of them doing this for someone though, so Simon has to go through like a whole maybe 5 other dudes insisting that he go rest and following him to make sure he’s alright. That whole denial thing is not going to work 💀. I’m thinking maybe I should draw that huh, ok another one on the ever growing list—
#castlevania#castlevania games#simon belmont#castlevania christopher#christopher belmont#akumajo dracula#akumajou dracula#art post#my art#yay drawing the blorbo going through situations you’re in yay!#he probably has the most messed up fever dreams ever like#that shit’s gonna be sending him back to the spinning room in Draculas castle like#somebody get him an icepack :(#also like now that I’m thinking of it—#Belmonts generally seem to have an immunity to contracting supernatural things like#Simon tanks transmissible hits from werewolves vampires and zombies all the time and doesn’t end up any one of them#and I imagine the curse got to him because it came from like demon dragon Dracula monster that’s the embodiment of humanity’s sins#I mean that sounds like a pretty big deal to me—#they also seem to have some kind of resilience against being injured in general too#Trevor gets stabbed in the heart and lives long enough afterwards to be picked up by Julia and saved#but does this resistance to things apply to illnesses?#like do they just very rarely get sick— do they get sick at all— is it only like high level illnesses that they can get#do they get sick and then just like tough it out way better than a not supernatural whip wielding magical bloodline person—#it’s probably some kind of difference in frequency and intensity tbh hmmmm#interesting thing to think about—#either way Simon has some crazier illness than I had I just had like probably severe eye strain or smth#he’s going through it 💀💀💀
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I actually made SUCH good progress on slaughterhouse chapter 6 tonight I wish I could talk about it (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) Every day it gets closer to being 100% done and now it really is a matter of two or three pages. The writer’s miracle has finally happened. The hyperfocus has kicked in and we are crossing that finish line guaranteed 💪😤
#lyrebirds speaks#IM REALLY NERVOUS. TO POST IT.#I can’t believe I’m finally talking about posting it I’ve been in the trenches with this one for so long#maybe it’s a bit silly to be excited bc like. I’m pretty sure people have forgotten all about slaughterhouse skdjskjdk#and the subject matter of this fic is violent/triggering enough that a lot of people won’t want to read it regardless#the story overall can be so punishing to megumi that sometimes I worry it will drive people away#chapter 6 is not as heavy hitting as for example chapter 2. but it is pretty heavy#so honestly it’s a bad chapter to come out of hiatus on LOL#but I am proud of it. I pushed myself outside my comfort zone as a writer and worked hard to be able to say what I wanted to say#and I think it’s going to come together by the time I’m finished#I also have a beta reader this time. which I really appreciate#I’m not going to post until I get her feedback obviously but I will be forging ahead with chapter 7 in the meantime#so that it won’t take a year�� for me to update again… 💀#it’s not gonna take a year. chapter 7 is already 60% done anyway#ANYWAY. I’m full of nervous energy I’m rambling in the tags#slaughterhouse new chapter soon but for real this time
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tough pill i have to swallow is realizing that “getting better” doesn’t mean “getting to do more things,” getting better for me means taking better initiative in protecting myself. and THAT means making sure i do LESS things
#sounds kinda obvious but i only just realized it lmao#feels like i have to grieve a lot of my goals now but no one said the healing process would be easy#danbles#and for anyone else that has a disability that prevents them from doing smth#or trauma that makes certain triggers limit their opportunities#or neurotypes that make it harder for them to love smth like they used to#or whatever else#i don’t want to make it sound like you have to give up on the things that make you happy#I’M certainly not going to#but a huge value of mine has always been experiencing everything life had to offer#and everytime that backfires (whether it’s burnout; triggering a flashback; triggering an episode; putting strain on my body; etc)#i always just thought to myself ‘it was bad timing’ or ‘i haven’t gotten better yet’ bc the endgoal was to always get to that point where#i could experience it. i want to try new things all the time. i want to feel normal and be included in everything#but if smth keeps Making Me Feel Bad then maybe there isn’t a version of myself that can take it on#it’s not resilience to put yourself in harm’s way#idk how well i’ll be able to put this into practice tbh. i rly rly like exploring different experiences#even negative ones are valuable to me#but the least i can do for myself is recognize that i might not always be the problem#maybe i’ve already hit the limit on all the self-work i can do. maybe it’s the environment or situation itself that’s the problem#fuuck guys i feel like i’m going thru a stage of grief here why is this shit so hard 💀
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the downside of getting cool new horror sans red walls is reorganizing your room and realizing GODDAMN IT I HAVE SO MUCH USELESS SHIT IN HERE
#why do i have a sleeping bag i have only had ONE SLEEPOVER??????#and the like 8 unused jackets when i really only use 3 on the regular 💀💀💀💀#the lamp that i never use. the fairy lights i never use. i already HAVE a central light why would i use those#the 18 plushies i have to get rid of for space (i no longer have shelves. isnt that swell!)#on a side note i did find every halloween costume ive worn Ever#fish triglycercule..... french fries triglycercule...... hot dog triglycercule..... cheese triglycercule........ (there's a theme)#cannot hang up my mirror yet a shame 💔💔💔#I HAVE AN EMPTY LITTLE CORNER IN MY ROOM😈😈😈 this will be the mtt shrine#PIN MAKER GOES THERE MTT (not really but sanrio is close enough right???) FIGURES GO THERE#should i start being cringe and start printing out mtt merch to tape all over my walls like a 2000s teenager#i feel like my mother would Euthanize me if she saw that (she no likey murderous skeletons)#gonna start painting things to hang up but theyre only vaguely mtt reminiscent (the closest thing i can get to merch 💔💔💔)#ALSO I HAVE TWO SWORDS NOW 😁😁😁😁😁 actually tho#am i a loser when i saw the swords and i was like 'ooh this would be good for references when i draw!' 💀💀💀💀💀#winter cleaning is so nice :3 i have SO much dirt and dust and rubble on my everything in here i need a vaccum#dust? dust...... dust sans. dust sans? like the leader of hit group murder time trio???? MURDER TIME TRIO REFERENCE??????#real tricule
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slight hsr spoilers but—
they might as well have just impaled me on a stake
#honkai star rail#honkai star rail spoilers#hsr#hsr spoilers#hsr 2.2#hsr 2.2 spoilers#penacony spoilers#hsr aventurine#im going to CRY#AGAIN#STOPP#im going to eat a BRICK#tfw one throw away message hits harder than the entire last part of the trailblazer mission combined💀💀#i was going to complain that i was sad he was mostly absent for this part#but uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#this message thread???? hello???#im going to throw up#i love him sm its not even funny#going to be replaying this dumb short little message thread in my head all day smh#can’t believe i get to say im playing hsr for more than just the astral express fam now#im there for the astral express fam and him apparently#sorry you can’t give him a backstory like that#and then make him send us shit like THIS#and just expect me to be normal about it#also i do NOT want to talk about the ‘there aren’t many friends’ line#i’ll die if i think too hard about it#top ten hsr threads that emotionally RUIN me#his other thread is in the top ten too i hate this man (said while loving him dearly)#they really did not have to go that hard with his story and personality and play style and design and—
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Would you believe, this was my first time ever seeing the Pacific Ocean?
I got the opportunity to go aboard this beauty on one of my days in California and honestly between the hype of rollercoasters (one of my hyper fixations, with me constantly talking about Arrow Dynamics like an old lover) and the delight I had doing laps around The Queen Mary? I’ve never had a more perfect and delightful experience ever in my life.
#not a poll#ships#ship#the Queen Mary#ghosts#haunted ship#haunted locations#haunted#gonna be so for real tho GhostRider at Knotts gave me so much glee and joy#like magnum xl 200 is my favorite coaster bc it rides like Vortex used to before it got too rough#but I haven’t felt that mystical beautiful childlike glee on a coaster since I discovered that magnum xl 200 rode the way it does#like I love RMC’s and I love Arrows. but DAMN was that such a good GCI retrack I had to bump it up above Steel Vengeance on my favoritesList#so rn my top 3 are Magnum XL 200. The Beast. and GhostRider#and like I LOVE Steel Vengeance and GhostRider basically hit it so out of the park on one go that it outranked every coaster in California#also me sending a photo of The Hall of Justice to my parents for them both to respond ‘Union Terminal’#while I was shouting ‘UNION TERMINAL’ in the middle of Magic Mountain 💀💀💀 like glad to know we all had the exact same reaction#let’s be so fr Union Terminal could eat that little replica for breakfast and still be hungry#if I can I think I might try to get to at least Kentucky Kingdom this year. but if not then definitely this year#I’m sure I could probably set up a trip out of it with my rollercoaster enthused cosplay friend who lives the next state over#I also rode X2 and Viper obviously and it’s very funny to me that the coaster that bankrupt arrow is standing next to the last Megalooper#viper rode exactly how you would expect it to ride#the entire time I was giggling and going ‘Arrow what the fuck you silly weirdo I love you’ as my legs tried to come out the car#like I think I was the only one on the train bc my friend opted out of trying another arrow after X2 (which was super fun)#(my friend I went with is afraid of rollercoasters but they were such a good sport!!!)#I got them on a couple B&Ms which they expectantly enjoyed a lot more than the Arrows and RMCs that I was dying to ride#I really only am ever excited for B&M inverts bc all their sit downs ride exactly the same lmfao#we ran out of time for Riddler and Batman wasn’t running ): but we did ride a premier launch coaster!!! and between the time when I stopped#riding vortex and started riding The Beast. Flight of Fear was my favorite coaster. so Premier launch coasters are p good gotta say#still can’t believe at like 4/5 I was tall enough to ride the vortex (70000x in a row bc no line) and too short to ride the Beast 😂#like I cannot express enough how much I love Arrow. deeply and truly love Arrow. I ride our suspended every chance I get
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between my phone battery being gregnant/dying and the path of that damned typhoon, i am so cooked jsbfhsdvfdsvf i can't even see notifs/reply to messages from there bc it keeps shutting down, im typing this all on pc rn, it's so inconvenient ueueueue
#eintxt#the nearest service center for my phone brand is 2-3 hours away 💀👍👍#i want to get it fixed this weekend but this bitchass typhoon also hits this weekend!#bc what if this is the one that make our roofs fly off#lowkey still have a bit of trauma from that one typhoon that made it rain inside our house & fucked up my whole town years ago#WHILE I WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF MY RESEARCH PROJECT EVEN BTW#i need to protect my laptop tablet pc and merch when that happens again#if im inactive/unresponsive this weekend u alr know 🗿#i need to charge my power bank and load up some mobile data on my old/back-up phone
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age of calamity is so funny. when you get a new playable character, you get a little mini quest with enemies so you can get comfortable with playing as said character and getting used to the combos and whatnot. the enemies are usually a moblin or two, lizalfos, bokoblins, the usual
but with sooga, his whole training quest is like. a silver lynel. a black hinox. multiple moblins
he is canonically very strong and is kohgas right hand and crazy skilled in sword fighting etc etc. the fact that they were like “mmm yes let’s make his training the most difficult bc it’s accurate to his character”
PLUS. the title is something like “soogas daily drills” or something which made me laugh. like yes sooga goes out every day and just fights a lynel and some hinoxs for fun to train up. sounds about right
#his training looking difficult doesn’t bother me 💀 I just think it’s so funny#plus he’s like 75 right now?? so he’s plenty high to do it I’ve just been upgrading everything else#but he’s MAD powerful. his swords aren’t quite 100 yet#but when I max it out and up the limit and get them up to even 130+#he’ll be unstoppable#and im still getting used to his counter ability which is CRAZY strong and kind of op#especially when I get it right more than 3 times in a row. AND WHEN HES MORE POWERFUL?? he’ll take down a black hinox in one hit easy#sooga impa link and calamity >>#teba and riju are kinda cracked as well when they’re used right#zelda too#age of calamity#the legend of zelda
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I've seen a handful of posts about the different ways an a/n/detective romance could go down, and would like to throw my hat in the ring (with Zuri of course).
It seems like I'm sharing some braincells with people lol, because this post by @fauville and especially this post by @sewellsheart (I hope you guys don't mind me tagging you, if you do just let me know and I'll remove it) are both pretty close (or exactly spot on) to the thoughts I had earlier this week. It's also sorta kinda includes @wayhavenots headcanon of N being demiromantic.
(Also tagging @serenpedac because you mentioned that you'd like me to when I got around to posting this)
When I answered this ask with questions from the lovey dovey oc development prompts list, I mentioned that although Zuri finds aspects of each member of Unit Bravo attractive when she first meets them, Nate is who catches her eye the most. He's the closest to her type - Zuri flirts with him in book 1 regardless of the route she's in lol.
Considering the vampire senses, and the fact that sometimes Zuri wasn't being all that subtle lol, he knows this. And he flirts back too; there's some aesthetic attraction there (maybe I'm biased, but methinks Zuri is very nice to look at lol), but before much/any sexual attraction can come in Zuri’s attention pivots to Adam. I've mentioned before that she is drawn to emotionally unavailable people - but especially when they let a feeling or two slip, when she gets to see the asshole be more than an asshole lol. And Adam doesn't seem to be as indifferent to her as he was before. Quite the opposite actually.
It's no skin off Nate's back. As nice as it was, there wasn't any romantic feelings there, and it would probably be wise to not pursue something with her. Zuri is his handler's daughter, and having any potential relationship they have end the way his previous relationships did could have complicated his relationship with both of them. Besides, they aren't staying in Wayhaven for long anyway (ha!).
So it's no skin off his back. Really. Truly. Except watching Adam's growing interest in her makes envy rear it's ugly head. It's a familiar sight, one that has been directed at him throughout the 300 years of him knowing Adam. As he became his friend and his confidant, as trust and loyalty grew between them - little, stolen moments dotted the fabric of their friendship. For the first time in more years than he could reasonably keep count of, the desire for the romance he read in books and poetry blossomed into a love for Adam. To have him, body and heart and soul - and to give his own to him. From the moment he realised those feelings, he wanted to throw himself headfirst into love, into a relationship, with the man who knew and accepted every part of him.
But Adam couldn't bring himself to do the same. It was too risky, too dangerous. It would create a weakness in him that would lead to Nate's destruction. And Nate - kind, gentle, beautiful, Nate - doesn't deserve that. And Adam doesn't deserve him. So their feelings are restricted to those stolen moments, to the brief meeting of their eyes, to lingering touches. And if they trip and stumble and fall into each other's arms in the dead of night, they will return to the status-quo by morning. With there being a little more distance, a little more hurt in Nate's eyes and guilt in Adam's heart until the pain subsides. Until they fall again. They've been falling for centuries.
As much as it hurts, Nate won't push him. He understands his reservations and his concerns, how much the life he left behind still haunts him. His own haunts him as well, of course he understands. Even though he longs for the ghosts of their past to no longer hold them back.
And that interest in Zuri...it means something. But Nate finds a little bit of selfish comfort in the fact that they will continue on with their lives when the mission is complete. They will go on, with Zuri having breathed new life into his team, his family, with her acceptance and excitement, her brightness and her resilience - with her humanity.
Except... they are staying in Wayhaven. They have a home there, and Zuri will be working with them as a human liaison. He's delighted! Wayhaven is a small, charming town full of good people who should be protected. Meeting and getting to know Zuri has been wonderful and friendly, and he's looking forward to learning more about her. But that means she and Adam can continue to develop a relationship, and he has to watch as she slowly slips past his defences.
As painful as it is to watch him fall in love with another, he ultimately wants to see Adam happy, and perhaps Zuri is the person who he will find that with. She is lovely, after all. She was determined to help the people of her home when the maalused arrived and made people ill, human and supernatural alike. She was quick to protect Adam from being infected as well. She was curious, always eager to learn more about the world she'd been thrust into. She was charming and cheeky and kind, subtly coming to his defence with a smile and a wink when she met Unit Alpha while remaining friendly and gaining their favour (this is from the dialogue option where the detective can go: "just so you know, I like museums too." the smiling and winking there is Zuri specific, so not in the actual text).
They slowly grew closer, toeing the line of crossing into the deep, dark waters of their past. And the closer they become, the more it stings to see watch the tentative hope build up inside her. To then see the flash of pain in Zuri’s eyes when Adam pulls away, the guilt in his eyes when she stitches on a smile, the resignation in both of them that Nate knows all too well. She eventually starts turning to him for comfort, whether it's in the form of a distraction or advice. When she does, she's nervous and can barely meet his eye, hugging herself tight as though to keep herself from falling apart. Being vulnerable like this with someone is the last thing Zuri wants to do, but everything is eating away at her, and she just needs... something. Someone. Some way to come up for air.
The reasons are more complicated than Nate initially thought. It turns out that Zuri is just as conflicted about their connection as Adam is, with her keeping him at arms length as well as his interest evolved into longing. Into something she she can just barely recognise, something that scares her. Something she doesn't think she deserves. It gets easier to talk to Nate, just a little. Just enough for him to feel like a soft place to land, safe and warm as he allows her to curl into his side - although she catches the gleam of envy or jealousy or both.
Nate is doing his best to conceal it, but he can't help how he feels. The thing is... he isn't quite sure where it's coming from anymore, and a rare but familiar feeling stirs in his chest. And Zuri looks so comfortable buried against his side, hiding away from the world while allowing him to see the parts of her that are sharp as shards of glass, beautiful when they catch the light. And when he manages to make her smile, to make her laugh, his heart skips a beat and all he wants to do is drink in the sight of her in all her beauty...
Then he thinks of Adam, and all the times he melted at his dimpled smile and soft gaze, the times he got drunk on the sight of him standing by his side, laying underneath him...
Oh. Oh no.
Eventually, Nate does speak to Adam. I'm not entirely confident in my thoughts on how this would go down, but I don't think he would pretend that his feelings weren't there or hurt. I think Nate would tell him that his feelings for him haven't changed, but he ultimately wants him to be happy and that he might find that happiness with Zuri (there might be a little bit of awkwardness here considering his developing feelings for her). But he'd also let him know that what he's doing is only hurting her; she may not be completely innocent here, Nate knows that Adam is hurting as well and Zuri can be just as wishy washy, but all of this should let him know that pushing away the people who care about him achieves nothing. It only cause pain all around, and Adam needs to decide on whether that is or isn't something he's willing to keep doing.
This is where the the poly can come in (finally, I know). There's two possible routes for this.
1. Nate and Zuri develop feelings for each other, but remain friends while her relationship with Adam progresses and they eventually get together. Adam ends up having a general idea of their feelings for each other, based on their physical reactions more than anything. So, after a long, long, long while, Zuri and Adam talk about Nate and their not so previous feelings for him (I can see Adam talking about Nate also having feelings for Zuri like it's the most obvious thing in the world, while she's in complete disbelief lmao). They'd have a long talk about what that could mean for them, and once they determine that they still want to stay together, Zuri proposes that they talk to Nate about him possibly joining them.
I can't imagine what that would be like for Nate. Maybe it would be a little confusing. Maybe it would feel unreal that two of the people he cares for the most, the people he is in love with, love him as well. And after what could be years of him watching them together, on the outside looking in, wondering if he'd ever be able to share in their love, or if the bittersweet feelings in his chest would be his burden to carry for eternity - something he was willing to do if it meant they both got to be happy.
It would probably take a while for Nate to get comfortable, he's already not so secure in relationships. And Adam, despite him knowing Nate and their history together, would probably have to adjust to accepting his feelings for him after repressing them for so long. That he doesn't have to hide them anymore. Zuri would definitely have to take the lead here, even though she'd be just as nervous. Two amazing people being in love with her? The thought of driving them away would be in the forefront of her mind sometimes.
2. Nate and Zuri develop feelings for each other, and he tells her about his feelings for Adam. She'd be a little surprised at first before having an "Oh, so that's why xyz etc" moment lol. She'd be really curious about his feelings and if they were ever returned, considering their centuries long friendship. Nate would be surprised by how well Zuri takes it, and they highkey end up bonding over the mess that is their feelings for Adam and their love lives in general (this may be when Zuri picks up on him possibly being demiromantic). They keep getting closer and closer, with Nate being more vulnerable with her as well. Both of them would kinda enjoy how freeing it is to speak with someone about all of it (they might even be able to awkwardly admit how envious they were of the other lol). But their feelings do continue to grow in the process, and the tension builds - and when their longing for Adam is particularly difficult to bear, they seek each other out and end up finding comfort in a completely different way.
It wouldn't be completely out of place considering N's past of seeking out connection and occasionally doing it through sex. Zuri would for sure do something like this, which I think is a little obvious from this post I made a while back - but she has done the whole 'hook up to forget' thing before.
Except this time, it's different. It's not just them seeking out connection or trying to forget their reality, it's also them wanting to lose themselves in each other - the person who understands them, that they've been able to be vulnerable with in a way they couldn't be with anyone else. Someone who they're (mostly) on the same page with, someone they care for deeply, someone they can share this desperate, heartwrenching, deep-seated longing with in the most passionate and carnal and unrestrained way possible. Until they can't think. Until they can't speak. Until the feel of each other's skin is all that exists.
This second one would obviously be a lot more complicated than the first, especially if/when Adam finds out. My head is empty when it comes to how they'd progress from here, unless we really went with the 'stuck in the safe house' option lol.
I delve into how Zuri would get involved in a polyamorous relationship in this ask that I think contextualises her perspective a little more.
But, yeah! Those are most of my thoughts!
#my brain has become mush writing this all out it's so long#and it isnt even with all the thoughts i had💀#one of them being how much harder this hits knowing how similar zuri and nate are#and how if all the events of the books are being considered...#zuri would be able to recognise that kiss with adam at the end of book 3 - a stolen moment with someone he doesn't think he deserves#the same shit he did with nate💀#idk if i could ever write a full on fic if this - idk if i could pull it off#maybe just little moments here and there#also zuri and nate's pillow talk will sometimes be them talking about adam lmao#will zuri get a little envious of their centuries long history - even if it was on a purely platonic way? yes#will nate know this? at some point yes - and that's if she hides it well enough for him to not just sense it#anyway here it is at last!#please forgive any spelling or grammar mistakes - i've been writing this for hours lmaoo#twc#the wayhaven chronicles#twc detective#a du mortain#adam du mortain#n sewell#nate sewell#oc: zuri jackson#adam x nate x detective#adam x nate x zuri
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early game woes
#liveblogging#liveblogging rogue trader#hard difficulty got hands 💀💀💀#kibellah is truly a “if i get hit one time it's joever for me” character lmao 😭#my RT is the only one unscathed + heinrix has only one trauma rn LOL#my RT 🤝 heinrix sanctified psykers gettin it done in the name of the god-emperor
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LUKA SELFSHIPPER!!!!! my bf selfships with luka and abby!!!
YEEEAAAHHHHH!!!! I am a Luka selfshipper :)💘 😮 I love that you selfship with Lucy that's so awesome, she is such a sweet character with so much energy and light. I get your frustration that she only seems to be brought up in relation with other characters and not celebrated on her own. she deserves moreee!!! AND YOU AND YOUR BF BOTH BEING ER SELFSHIPPERS??? YOUR BF HAS TWO ER F/OS!!! LET'S GOOOOOOOOO 📣📣🗣🗣📢📢📢 I feel like ER selfshippers should be more prevalent but then I remember how old it is vs the average ages of selfshippers in the community hahaha. I think the fact that it streams free now in a lot of places/resurgence in interest because of the pitt might boost our numbers if younger people start watching it for the first time. I only picked it up randomly last year just because it happened to be on television when I was scrolling through channels and I wanted to see what all the fuss was about haha. Once I saw Luka it was so OVERRRRR for me!!!!!!!!! Can't emphasise the...lightning strike that hit me HAHAHAH I'm working my way through G.oran V.isnjic's filmography right now he's so supernaturally outrageously gorgeous to meeeee the height the voice the stare LIKE IYKYK and I'm sure you do 😂😂😂
#anyways WOW!!! Thanks for hitting me up I thought I was all aloneeee out here ❤️❤️❤️ weewoo weewoo 🎹 weewoo DUNDUNDUN am I right (< theme)#to be upfront I'm not particularly fond of abby nor luby but I appreciate that your bf loves her and good for them like GET LOVED!!!#one can only guess why I feel that way 🙄😂😂💀but I come in peace and civility 🤝🕊️ there's more to ER than ship wars#plus this is a selfship blog like canon relationships can be kind of inconsequential and irrelevant to my activities...often hahaha#f/o:luka
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this is how i felt yesterday when my friend said "I'm not real, I'm only in your imagination" and i bit him to prove otherwise
#true story by the way 💀 /srs#he went on this whole little tangent about how “i fell into a coma from running into the streets and getting hit by a car”#and how “none of this is real it's all one big dream and I'm just a figment of your imagination — that's why no one talks to me”#and i just sat there slowly falling into a slightly panicked state because I HAVE DPDR and i just 😭#i bit him and he broke character and i was like “yeah okay loser you can't fool me”#he was being silly but alas i had already been a bit out of it that afternoon 😭
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skybound collectively unshitting their pants after acquiring the full rights to clementine, the coolest character in their own franchise
#clementine and lee....unbeatable sorry (im not sorry actually)#ive been finally watching the show lately and lets just say its increased my opinions of the games hsdfksjd#dont get me wrong its not the worst thing ive ever seen but hoo boy does it go downhill. binged 6 seasons and hit a brick wall at 7#struggling to finish it now but ive made it to S10#havent heard much better things about the comics...i just want to know more Lore#it speaks#twdg#sorry skybound she will always be telltales baby shes living her best life at ericsons forever no matter how many comics you make#idk how much clearer S4 can be about ericsons being clems forever home but apparently skybound didnt get the message#im just surprised they havent shoved her into one of their 1000 shows yet#something i used to want and now deeply fear. i just wanted her to have a cameo but theyd never let it end#one of the last things telltale released being the end of clems story is Very fitting it closed the book on her And the studio#(averting my eyes from the walking corpse that is now telltale 2.0 💀 still fitting i guess now just sad)#the credit graffiti and the 'thanks for playing' make me cry every time 😭 S4 is such a love letter S4 my beloved
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monitoring by deco*27 could be a soldierspy song if you just give me 12 hours and 5 cans of monster to explain
#not rb#I need to stop saying this type of shit#already feeling like that one “sponge plus star equals clam” spongebob gif#“guys I think apple is orange” *never elaborates* *leaves*#okay but listen. LISTEN‚#pov character (of the mv) is a paranoid freak projecting a mix of fear (of judgement) and desire onto the singer.#said singer ultimately just wants them to be okay but might be unusually persistent/devoted in said endeavour (up to interpretation??)#“lean on me with your whole weight” thinks of their dynamic in emblue where soldier constantly sacrifices for spy for practically no reason#(other than his commitment to the system)#is that how spy sees him? a willing‚ almost eager pawn?#“call my name‚ and anytime I’ll come hither” do you get it. Do You Understa#also just. The theme of perceived inseparability#“I'll always be by your side” are words the pov character is putting in the singer's mouth#(well. the entire song is. but you get it)#(actually on a meta level this song works best when sung by vsynth/vocaloid bc of both the fictitious nature of the singer and the fact tha#that *all* vocaloid songs are technically putting words into the mouth of an interpretation of said singer. if that makes any sense)#sorry that's off topic anyways my point being#the pov character is both put off and endeared by whom they perceive to be a weirdo watching them#this is the closest they have to a support system. this is the only person they really have batting for them#they are also unwilling to really open up to this interpretation of the singer because it's easier to imagine that they already know#that the pov character won't have to go through the trouble of exposing themselves. that the singer understands in the way they need to#and is blindly‚ unquestioningly loyal Anyway#remind you (me) of anyone#this is how I justify listening to this fucking song on repeat for the past 72 hours#this is also how I spread my “soldier should lovingly maul spy because they're both freaks” agenda#ty for coming to my ted talk. I had to save this in my drafts first to make sure I didn't hit the tag limit 💀
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