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saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi riptide#gillion tidestrider#GONNA START FORMATTING MY COMICS BETTER. W THE PROPER 'PREV' 'NEXT' LINKS#REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO CONTINUE THIS SERIES BUT AAAUUUHH MY BRRAAAIN MY BRAIN IS SO IDEASSS. I HAVE 3 OTHER PAGES SKETCHED OUT#NO PROMISES ILL FINISH EM ANY TIME SOON OR EVER. MY WHIMS ARE THEIR OWN BEAST AND I ONLY DRAW ON MY WHIMS#THAT BEING SAID IF U COMMISSIONED ME ILL GEEETT TO YOUUU IM SORRYYYY. ART IS AN EMOTIONAL RELEASE FOR ME N BABY I HAVE EMOTIONS.#ESPECIALLY ABOUT GILLION TIDESTRIDER CHAMPION OF THE UNDERSEA HERO OF THE DEEP.for the desc here i put smth that i typed up in the tags of#another thing i made. i gotta make a proper Baby Gillion tag or smth. eventually.. eventually...I LOVE DRAWIN THIS LIL BABY GUY..#i also LOVE depicting the teachers as just being so fuckin mean. ofc theres variation in that. just like in all things.like the teacher her#idk if itll be mentioned but the octo lady is named Ms Octburn.an octopus pun based off the name of an actual councilor i had#when i was in elementary school i got bullied alot but teachers never did anything. i hated adults and didnt trust them.#but this councilor o mine was so genuinely sweet. i remember spending alot of time w her. she doesnt work there anymore.#but that one school adult that actually earns ur trust and is there for you when they can be.its SO important for a child i think#i hope she knows how much she helped me.youll see in the next page that ms octburn isnt perfect either.but she tries. they all try.somehow.#ALL these comics are gonna be inspired by somesorta experience o mine in the school system. school is so fucked up u ever thing abt that#AND GILLIOOOOONNN IN THE MOST FUCKED UP LITTLE SCHOOL OF ALL. MAINTAINED BY A CULT. CENTERED AROUND HIM. OUR CHOSEN ONE#I IMAGINE ALOT BANKS ON HIS SUCCESS. THIS IS THE WORLD. THE WHOLE WORLD. THE PROPHECY IS GOING TO COME TRUE N UR TELLIN ME#THAT ITS THIS LITTLE IDIOT THATS GONNA BE SAVING US? WHAT IF HE FAILS. IF HE CANT GET THIS RIGHT THEN HE WILL FAIL AND WE WILL DIE#WE NEED TO TRAIN HIM. WE NEED HIM TO LEARN. AND TO SUCCEED. OR ELSE WE'RE DEAD. WE'RE ALL FUCKING DEAD. I IMAGINE THAT MUST BE STRESSFUL#in other news i hope ppl actually giggle when they read these. they ARE intended to be comical. dark humor or whatever. like its also sad#this is intended to be a sad comic series. but a funny one too. does that make sense? god i hope so.saw some1 say they had flashbacks-#-reading this. like YES!! THE INTENDED EFFECT!! YOU GET ME!! i love seeing ppl get upset on this lil baby boys behalf. i LOVE seeing ppl-#-wail n weep n cry in the comments. i LOOOVE seeing ppl RELATE to baby gillion. and i love letting u all know that this wont be a happycomi#gillion gets his happiness arc in the actual show. this series is one of unfortunate events. teehehehe. do u guys remember that show#i keep listening to the lil songs from A Series of Unfortunate Events for inspiration. GOOD STUFF!!#anyway uuhh uhh thats all i got in my brain. for now. feed me ur comments give me ur input i NNEEEEEDD THHEEEMMMM
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Batman Annual #25
Before Talia took him in, before he was dunked in the pit to have his memories restored, even when operating purely on survival instinct, he always split a meal with the other homeless people. It may not have been essential to his survival, but caring about and helping other people when he couldn’t even help himself was just always such an intrinsic part of Jason’s core.
#so much so that it prevailed over basic self-preservation#my guy lost 90% of his cognitive function and he’s still out here helping people in any way he can#my post#new headcanon: that’s why he stole all 4 tires. because he wasn’t just feeding himself in crime alley.#or at least he was planning to expand his work now that he had more confidence in his ability to feed and care for himself#I mean he also isn’t the type to brag about his good deeds yk? we all know he was putting up a tough guy façade when Bruce found him#a mutual asked abt Jason’s white streak so I directed them to hush which ofc reminded me of this book#rather than it being exclusively a pit thing imo it makes more sense for it to be a combination of actual health related issues#like the chronic prolonged mental and physical stress he had to endure coupled with the fact that superboy’s punch kickstarted his body#in ways that are unknown to modern science#and then the pit also had a hand in it (probably??)#(imo). like Talia doesn’t have it. neither do Damian or Ra’s or anyone else who’s been in the pit.#jason todd#dc#batman annual 25#comic panels
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everyone always rants and raves about how good ao3s tagging system is but that tagging system is fully contingent on authors tagging their fucking works properly
#one of the main reasons i very very rarely read on there anymore#I just excluded like 6 tags that could be related to something i wanted to filter out to try and make sure nothing like that came up#and a bunch of shit i didn't want to see still came through cause the fucking writers just refuse to tag it#having a great system for filtering out content only works if people disclaim that that content is in their work#i saw an argument in a comment section once where someone kindly asked the author of a fic to tag it under something that was in the fic#and the author started arguing back about how they “shouldn't have to” ????#and refused to do it#I've steered clear since then#I've had way too many experiences of being caught off guard by something i had no reason to believe would be in a fic cause it wasn't tagged#reading any fic just straight up makes me anxious#cause what if i see some shit i TRIED to filter out but the author didn't tag#i just don't bother anymore#stresses me out
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What kind of prompts are you looking for?
Hmm, the more "specific" a prompt is, the more fun it is for me I suppose 🤔 If I'm already feeling low on inspiration "draw Character X" or "draw Ship Y" doesn't really help much, but silly scenarios or what-have-you's are fun to play with and imagine!
As for fandoms, obviously I'm deep into mxtx hell at the moment so those are what I'd probably latch onto first, but honestly any fandom I'm familiar with can be fun, especially if it's one that I don't have an excuse to draw for very much ^^ like revisiting an old friend
#getting to draw tintin art the other day was very refreshing that one had been sitting in my inbox for a hot minute#so was the hogan's heroes and discworld art from earlier this year#at the moment i'm definitely most interested in fandom related prompts though#every so often i feel the urge to draw ocs and make a call for them but i have to be in the mood for that#it's just nice to have fun ideas to play with after work when i'm feeling stressed and want to think about my blorbos u.u#honestly though any prompts are nice to get so honestly don't sweat it you really don't need to overthink it i just like messing around#if there's something you'd like me to draw send it my way!#i may or may not draw it depending on what my free time is like but i always appreciate them#it's just FUN to get to play with other people's ideas and it's nice to think someone is appreciating the end result#bene speaks
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Been passively thinking about my Digimon pet project and realized what a nightmare it'd honestly be for the Tamer characters in the setting to just exist, due to social media rip.
I can just imagine constantly having videos and pictures of them plastered all over the internet and every soc media site and app, whenever they have to go out and do their job, not to mention the total lack of privacy and some people definitely finding out where they live and all your information and being unhinged about it. Since that's kind of the reality of things as is.
Not to mention that people would probably try to film everything on their phones or whatever, whenever there's a rogue/wild Digimon spotted, or something interesting ( read: dangerous ) is going on, with no regard for their own safety
Should probably consider giving the characters some kind of disguise or something, now that I think about it lol
#honestly that'd be such an annoying path to “fame” none of the characters would want#how do you even go out in public when everyone knows you're a tamer#like you KNOW some people wouldn't be normal about it at all#that just sounds like so much extra stress#I don't think even the fact that the characters “work” for a human-Digimon organization would help in any way#with dealing with stuff like that#how many people would BLAME the tamers for not being able to save someone despite their best attempts#or cause property damage even if they're doing their best not to#or think of them as a danger#how many civilians would die just trying to get a video or interact with a wild Digimon#not to mention other setting-related stuff like Dark Area spills and so on#god lol#personal Digimon project stuff#Digimon:Aurora#text post#digimon
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what personal quality exactly is the one where i am constantly driven to write "firing shots in the air" style posts but ones that i think my mutuals will be genuinely unsympathetic to. why can't i stop trying to compulsively confess that i'm an atheist. or making disclaimers about my fear that my career as a biologist will trick people into believing that i am someone who Cherishes The Sacred Importance Of Trees And Frogs [good, virtuous, near-druidic, queer] as opposed to my actual motivation, Thinks Taking Videos Of Cells And Arguing About Them Is More Fun And Materially Grounded Than Almost All Other Activities [stembrained, cold and sentimentless, utterly lacking in the sacred feminine, not even a real gay person and if you were it'd be one of the bad ones where you're just a coupled gay man whose perspective is not relevant to the modern era]
#i do understand if you guys think i'm not a real gay person but it would be really hurtful if you decided that specifically because my#aesthetics are no good and i hate when anyone implies that mysticism is a reasonable response to any forest-related information.#that's good information! don't do mysticism to it! there used to be real molecules in there!#box opener#id be a physicist or a perfectly cheerful spreadsheets guy long before id consider being a field biologist#my lungs stop working on inclines and i get so stressed about having bugs on me by surprise that if it goes on for several days#i start uncontrollably weeping.#it's just not viable. these are separate activities. me and my STED microscope are on some entirely other shit
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half baked thought but 1) it’s funny when people act like hawkeye has a deep respect for marriage as an institution and that it’s something he cares about in any way and 2) funnier when people act like hawkeye settling down with one person in sudden post-canon monogamy is viewed like the only good and healthy way to address his issues around abandonment and like, self-worth
#N posts stuff#maybe it’s not funny maybe it kind of ticks me off a little bit admittedly. especially point 2#‘proposed yourself into a corner’ hello ? i don’t think hawkeye ever wants to Get Married#i don’t think he has any particular respect for marriage as an institution. his anti-establishment values are pretty all encompassing#he’s friends with people who cheat and actively encourages their affairs (became less prevalent in later seasons but still a Fact)#and is seemingly perfectly content to sleep with engaged/married women himself#the womanizing became less of a thing in later seasons but honestly. i don’t see this as a Good Thing necessarily#i kind of see it as a less pointed echo of the 38th parallel episode where hawkeye can’t get it up bc the army is stressing him so bad#he’s not suddenly into the values of monogomy he’s too stressed and miserable to have fun anymore#i think it’s A Lot more interesting to have it be a mark of his post war recovery that he Does go back to cruising life and casual sex#he likes People and he does want to keep them in his life but i can’t ever really see him as a One Relationship type of guy#specifically because he Likes People too much to want to settle down. like his issue with carlye was that he was too focused on work#but that’s not what kept him from Proposing to her i think he just Didn’t Want to settle down ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#hawkeye falls in love with people all the time constantly i feel like you’re robbing him of that when you make him monogamous#ALSO ALSO ALSO i think it’s frustrating bc hawkeye’s issues around his self loathing are Not in relation to his romantic/sexual relationship#hawkeye hates himself bc he sees himself as complicit in the war machine and the atrocities of the army#he can’t get out without ruining his entire life but he Knows that every life he saves is either Temporary or an avenue for further death#he saves the lives of the soldiers on his table because he can’t Not try to save every life he can but he also Knows they are going to go#back to the front and kill more people and hawkeye Hates himself for having a role in that cycle#so to act like his self-worth can be resolved with a steady monogamous relationship is so frustrating bc we’ve lost the Core of the problem#(i know i know go to the shipping website get shipping takes/priorities but also Come On!!)#N talks MASH
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Sometimes I wonder what my life would have been like if I hadn't been pressured into going to college.
#i think maybe i could have been quite happy in a trade#idk if i would have still had to stop working bc of disability#it seems likely#but i probably would have made a lot more money in the linited time i was able to work#and id have more useful skills now#like#what can i do with the skills i got now#judge people's parenting#proofread my wife's papers#not do any financial planning or taxes or anything accounting related bc it stresses me out too much#ghost.txt#rambling in tags#at least the college i went to#and dropped out of#was on the cheaper end of things
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when i think of corporate greed i remember how the worker comp attorney for the insurance company told my mom's workers comp lawyer (bc they have known each other for years) that they were essentially waiting for her to die and that's why they didnt' pay her for months the amount she was owed
#she got the judge on her side the year before she died tho and after that they didn't miss a goddamn payment#it was a conservative judge too and he was like what the fuck#her cancer supposedly wasn't related to her fall - she still had massive head injury issues from her fall years later tho#but i think cancer came back bc of the fall even tho i can't prove it and i think it's why it went to her bones and the brain liquid#if i could go back in time i would relive 2020 - that horrific year - all over if it meant i could save her from that fall#and if i'm wrong it still doesn't save her then#well#but i can't go back in time#so here we are#personal#for context she fell in 2020 at work -> diagnosed with stage iv cancer in jan 2021#originally diagnosed w/stage 1 bc she caught it early in 2016 and “beat it”#died this past march#the stress of worker's comp assholes didn't help her cancer shit i can tell you that much#just how evil can you be if that's your thought#'lets wait for her to die'#like are you a disney villain how do you go home and look your loved ones in the eye#this is why i told my manager i refuse to work with any insurance clients we might ever get
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No. YES. no. YE--
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#i am having really bad whiplash#i went on my facebook and saw this#obvs this is fake but#jfc i think my neck broke from the whiplash#tom hiddleston problems#pls dont put tom in star wars for several health reasons#MY HEALTH REASONS#well yeah everyone knows how much i just dont want to see him in my childhood loser space series#but i just had a thought of tom being in star trek#and i balked#i dont like it mama#dont do it#JUST CAN YOU NOT#ANY STAR-RELATED FRANCHISE#JUST PUNT HIM BACK INTO DRAMA#ILL BE FINE#god the stress from work is killing me if im making too many tags about this
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#I have thoughts about the new tour yet I am not sure if I should share (given why I do so in tags)#I am not surprised to see denmark is absent#I am a bit surprised to see no scandinavian country AT ALL#not surprised to see germany and the uk have most dates (that's sadly something I've seen a lot from bands/artists I like)#a little befundled with the route he has scheduled for both germany and the uk dates#glad to see other countries like switzerland france and the netherlands get their debut#not surprised it is in october since that seems to be around the same time for his europe antics last year as well#all this said I am a bit conflicted what to do myself#I'd like to go to gigs on this tour#yet I've already run out of the country four times these past upcoming five months (three times to finland)#since it is quite expensive and maybe not something I will have time for given I hopefully get an internship in august#with that in mind I feel like I should probably go for only a few dates#and yet last time I felt very much like I was missing out and overlooked because I didn't go to “more than two shows”#and here is where I feel like my thoughts are probably not great#i was thinking about maybe going for hamburg as first priority since it is the closest (4 hours in train)#then have frankfurt and munich as second priorities making it a little mini tour#I am not sure if I'd physically and mentally be able to do more than three gigs in a row#yet if I am I sort of want to go to zurich too because I've never been there#two days to decide is not very long#I feel very stressed tbh#and I hope noone will take this in any wrong way#please I really dont want to feel shit again#I know my last concert related take was on the fence#(even though as it turned out the venue did worse than me in that regard)#but this one is really just me thinking about what would be the smartest plan#other possible options would be to go for zurich since it is in a weekend (sunday) and then - depending on whether or not I have work#either go home or follow jere to amsterdam (then maybe paris and brussels)#another option is berlin then hamburg and then to home from there (so two shows)#or london and bristol since its the weekend (maybe manchester as well if it is not far - so up to three shows)#the latter I am a bit concerned about since being trans in the uk is not great atm
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I wish I had friends near meeeeeee to distract me from my brainnnnnnnnnn



#need to talk to anyone irl who isn’t related to me or dating my mom or my therapist#anyone else near me please I’m losing my mind#nature isn’t healing me sleeping in a fully dark room all day isn’t healing me how do I magically fix this without having to put any work#into it oh I can’t oh u have to do the work okay how do I do that. therapy once a week. oh. okay. yup.#can I speedrun it? oh no? I can’t. oh damn. okay fine whatever. therapy once a week. AND I HAVE TO ACTUALLY LISTEN AND DO WHAT SHE SAYS. bro#what the hell okay fine#well here I am !!!!! where is the fixing where is the feeling better I feel like all I do is stir up all these touch emotions from every#part of my life at once and then she sends me off to rot for week before I come back and talk again#I just feel like I’m losing it!!!!! and ik it’s extra bad bc birthday countdown is on in my brain and im stressed and i feel like a huge#fuck up that can never be fixed and like I will die having done nothing with my life except weigh other people down and so exhausting and my#brain won’t ever shut up like yes I get it years and years and years of built up shit that I never properly dealt with and still hold blame#for constantly and I feel like I will never be fixed like I CANT be fixed like this is a losing battle and I just am struggling today man#idk what I was saying I just took my morning weed hit to try and relax my back a little and now my brain is like scrambled eggs#which is good that means it’s working#I’m gonna try to take a nap maybe cause I only slept four hours and it was like choppy thru the night and then maybe I’ll go to the lake#later I’ve been feeling the need to be in a body of water recently
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I'm back to be annoying about it. I was doing a lot of thinking today to try to drown out the screaming matches my supervisors were having with each other :)
Imagine, if you will, a scrapbook of the best summer you ever experienced. Imagine flipping through it, looking at each badly-focused, blurry photo and fondly remembering the exact moment it was taken. Glittery stickers adorn the corners of the pages, handwritten notes from your friends fill the space between pictures...
Sufficiently nostalgic? Good. That's the aesthetic I want the Halo University AU to have.
Anyway. As a 'no plot, just vibes' AU (so far?), I THINK what I'm gonna do is just write it as a collection of snapshot scenes that form a loosely-connected narrative, and I was not joking about the Carly Rae Jepsen soundtrack, so each one is going to be themed around/inspired by a song.
(If I had sufficient art skills, I'd make a cute little fake polaroid for each chapter too.)
And! Since it's a fun, no-pressure writing exercise for me to work on when the mood hits, I think it'd be cool to make it a little. idk. interactive? I want to use it to explore dynamics I might not normally think about, so feel free to suggest two or more characters (doesn't have to be a ship) and/or a Carly Rae song and I'll see what I can do with it! I have a FEW ideas already cooking that I'll probably start with but. go wild, if you're interested.
#i can picture a cohesive aesthetic so clearly#it's grabbing me by the throat and shaking me#i'm honestly surprised i haven't done more song-related fics#considering how often a song will put an entire fully-formed scene in my head#work is gonna be so stressful for the next month#and i just want to write something fluffy and low stakes#also . i may have to do some character research#if someone suggests a character i don't have a lot of knowledge about/exposure to#but i will do my best to honor any requests#spartan university#i've also been coming up with irrelevant worldbuilding details for it#go figure#building the scenes around songs gives me easy chapter titles too :)#writing hack
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Taking a moment to say how pissed and stressed out i am that my dad has taken the day off
#Ive been wanting to make art but i went back to work after my vacation and im struggling with how little time i have#And i endured my dad being here the last 2 days and i just#Wasnt really able to make the art. I tried but i felt too scared and stressed out#I need to be able to feel the love and i just couldnt feel it because all the fear was there#So i get stuck in this dilemma where over10 hours or so go down the drain bc of work related things#But when im home i cant really relax either#Ive only been back at work for 3 days and my dad was home for 2 of them and im already at a point#Where i feel so stressed out that i feel like im losing my mind and havent slept (even though ive slept)#I regularly get to that point bc i have a lot of trauma and i just. Have a very very stressful life#I was off for 2 weeks finally relaxed and now i already feel like im losing my mind#Im really really really upset because#I felt all of this love and i wanted to make art. And having to wait the whole work day to be able to get home and do that is brutal#But at home i havent quite been able to either#And i feel powerless which has made my ocd worse. And when my ocd is worse i feel really really bad and my feelings are hard to bear#And i waited for my weekend to finally be able to maybe calm down and catch up with myself and do something i love to do#But my fucking dad is here. And i feel like a lunatic. And i feel so overwhelmed#It freaks me out when this happens bc when i feel love and when i wanna make art its a really really special thing#This phenomenon is why i pushed so hard to keep living for such a long time#And it finally comes and i feel like its slipping through my fingers like sand#For factors that feel like they are out of my control#I get really triggered around things i love leaving and not staying and having them fall apart because of some awful thing i cant control#This is a rerun of what happened when i was 4 years old. But Man. It doesnt get any fucking easier#I hate living with my parents. Theres never any certainty that anything can really be yours#Because one of them can just decide to do something that triggers you so so badly all day long and just wrench the joy from your hands#Now ive been trying to really sit with my feelings. I mean really sit with them. But it's like being on a mechanical bull#And sometimes i fly off!!!!!!
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Unpopular opinion
I am actually a fan of T3 Fuuta
#both his current personality and his design#his design definitely takes some getting used to at first#but then you're hit with multiple different realizations as you start analyzing different parts of it#for example how the slip on shoes might be a reference to Haruka's slip on shoes from T1#or he picked em because they're most simple style but still keep a part of what he's comfortable with (they have sneaker-like sole)#and then his socks. people hate on them socks so much but honestly? they don't actually look that bad#yall are just too used to basic ahh white/grey/black socks that any variation from it upsets you#and also given how his clothes‚ a button down shirt and slacks‚ look like a uniform (school uniform? work uniform?)#the socks still being the same are like symbolic that there's still part of his old self under this current self#back to uniform tho. Again. Feels like a nod to Haruka. But also potentially to Mikoto?#since an important part of Mikoto has been ripped away‚ it's like he's practically dead now (one missing shoe)#Fuuta wasn't particularly close to anyone there but he did try to talk with both Haruka and Mikoto before#Wait I mentioned how it could be a nod to Haruka but not Mikoto. Uh.#Something something Mikoto's stress (and John's birth) related to work.#can't really formulate it properly#Man I almost died just few (2) days ago‚ of course I'm not well enough yet to properly. Like. Write.#Uhm. Ann ee ways#Wait also didn't add why I like his personality. Or. Well. It's not really his personality exactly?#Not sure if that makes sense. Like#You can tell its him in a way. But like. Blurred. And from his voice lines it makes it sound like he's not quite present mentally while he#he talks. Like he's basically running on autopilot. Partially. Not sure how to explain it.#If you've experienced it you know what I'm talking about. Like‚ when it feels like you're watching yourself and others simultaneously from y#your actual perspective but also from third perspective and things you say feel only vaguely connected to you but not quite?#Like. You know what I'm talking about? Does that make sense?#I don't know. Well anyways. I love him and think even his current self is great and I hope he does actually manage to be helpful.#Unfortunately‚ I feel like other prisoners will find him annoying and likely even distance themselves from him.#but maybe he'll be able to help ease the mental pain of at least one person by being there to listen to them.#He likely wouldn't be able to give any proper advice or anything tho. But he'll listen.
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[Sigh]
[Floats off into space]
#gin.txt#my dad has been such a problem lately#he's never respected me but recently he's gotten worse#the other day he called me lazy and was extremely mean about it#also he hates working#I've not been getting enough hours at my job so I decided to be Sad Ant With A Bindle and went job-searching#I thought about a second job to consistently have a few days a week#this is mostly so I can earn more money but I'm also doing it to show up Dad#and I think my mom picked up on it if Dad running to me and asking me to help him search is any indication#ofc this is brought on by Dad feeling tense about his relationship as my mom had been stressed. the only thing to motivate him IS-#-relational stress#so yeah. my dad's getting hard to stand again#also!! I fear that I messed up my partner's mood a bit. they mentioned something about being tired but not in response to my venting#nonetheless. this is why I got this blog. so I can shut up to them foreverrrrrr
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