#anyways Im still at future 2.0

[years-n-feather]

I've been playing Sam and Max and I love it, also this moment was so funny to me

[lecliss]

Brooo Flay sucks sooo much. I was worried she was gonna be like Shirley but then she decided to be racist AND like Shirley. Get this bitch off that fucking ship. Just eject her ass.

[inthedayswhenlandswerefew]

Have You No Idea That You’re In Deep? [Chapter 3: I Have Claimed You]

Aemond is a fearless, enigmatic prince and the most renowned dragonrider of the Greens. You are a (newly widowed) daughter of House Mormont and a lady-in-waiting to Princess Helaena. You can’t ignore each other, even though you probably should. In fact, you might have found a love worth killing for.

Song inspiration: “Do I Wanna Know?” by Arctic Monkeys.

Chapter warnings: Language, mentions of death and violence, an extremely awkward brunch, one (1) jealous boi, Aegon-related chaos, dragon shenanigans, Aemond speaking High Valyrian, sexual content, fertility/pregnancy discussions, Cast Away 2.0, this fic is for readers 18+!!!

Word count: 5.6k.

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All night you swim in dreams of starlight, dragons, fire, the thrashing ocean, the words he said to you. Such words—escaping like a flood in the red haze of animal lust—are not to be believed, as you well understand. Axel Hightower used to tell you all sorts of things in the throes of his passion as you waited for him to finish, polite and vacant and bored; he used to say that he loved you, which was absolutely ludicrous. Last night in a torchlit stairwell of the Red Keep, Aemond Targaryen had not said that he loved you. What he had vowed instead was this: You are mine, you are mine, you will always be mine.

There is a cascade of sunlight hot on your face. You’ve slept late, yet the castle is still hushed. The courtiers are recovering from dancing and drinking and dining on dinner, dessert, each other. Though his words still ring in your skull, it is not Aemond you see when you open your eyes. It is his brother.

“You owe me,” Aegon says, racoon-eyed and smirking, leaning against the vanity in your small bedroom that is connected to Helaena’s by an adjoining door.

You jolt upright, your vision pained and muddled. “What…?”

“You owe me,” he repeats simply.

The horror must show on your face.

“Not like that,” he swiftly amends. “You owe me for last night in the Great Hall. I guarded the stairs to make sure no one stumbled upon you. It was no easy task. Plenty of other couples were in want of a dark place to disappear into.”

You clutch your blanket around you like a cape, hiding the shape of your body. Your nightgown is thin and clinging. “I’m sure you’re mistaken.”

“I’m sure I’m not,” Aegon replies. “I saw you sneak away together like thieves. And when Aemond returned, he had this sheepish smile and his cheeks were blood-red and his hands were shaking. My brother’s hands never shake.”

You consider him. “What do you want?”

“I don’t know. I haven’t decided yet. Then again, it is awfully satisfying to not feel like the only debaucherous sibling. You’ve put a good-sized dent in the armor of that dutiful, pretentious honor he wears. Perhaps that is payment enough.”

You think of Queen Alicent, of Otto Hightower, of Aemond’s pride, of your own future here. “Please don’t tell anyone.” You are disgusted by how helpless you sound, how weak.

“I have no intention to. Not yet, anyway.” Aegon grins like a shark and makes for the door. Then he turns back to say just one more thing. “You know, I am glad to see him happy. I won’t tell him that, but I will tell you.”

And he is mindful to shut the door quietly as he leaves.

~~~~~~~~~~

You expect Aemond to ignore you, in public at least; it is an unavoidable casualty of the circumstances. He is a prince destined to marry a Lannister or a Stark or an Arryn or a Baratheon, and more than that he is a man ruled by his sense of hereditary responsibility. You are a lady-in-waiting to a fragile, innocent princess and employed by a devout queen. Any impropriety on your part will not be tolerated. And if you fall from this pedestal, where will you land? Bear Island? Some lowly, anonymous house in a forgotten corner of the North or the Vale or the Riverlands? The flames?

Yet, paradoxically, the prince does not ignore you. He arrives to fetch his sister for a late-morning breakfast just as you are finishing dressing her: daisies braided into her hair, earrings and bracelets, a golden-yellow gown like summer or the sun. He takes her benign little hand and kisses the back of it. “Ready, princess?”

Helaena giggles and flushes a bright, childish pink. “Ready,” she agrees.

“Good. Let’s go.” Aemond turns to you. Your own dress is an intense, sapphire blue. This is not even remotely a coincidence. “You too, Moonstone.”

“Me?!”

“Yes, you. You are my dear sister’s faithful—and quite entertaining, I might add—lady-in-waiting. I’m sure she’d appreciate your company.”

“Oh, I would!” Helaena chirps.

“You…think it’s appropriate…for me to accompany you…to a private meal with the royal family?” You gape at Aemond, bewildered. And then, lowering your voice: “You really want me to go?”

“Of course. You belong where I am. I have claimed you, you are mine. Do you consent?”

“Yes.” The room is brighter, warmer, more spacious, full of potential. You walk with him and Helaena down to the gardens.

Among the blossoms and fountains and ponds and trellises crawling with greenery, a table has been filled with all the cures for a night of overzealous celebration: quail eggs, assorted breads, ham, bacon, honeyed porridge, fresh fruit, tea, tomato juice, more wine for those who aren’t ready to stop celebrating. There are exactly five place settings. Musicians are playing harps and lutes, but they fall silent when you appear with Aemond and Helaena. The queen is at the head of the table. Her father sits to her right. Aegon, pouring himself a massive cup of wine, cackles and rocks back in his chair when he sees you.

Queen Alicent sputters: “Oh, um, hello there, Lady Mormont…?”

“I extended the invitation,” Aemond says. “She has served the princess so well, I thought a token of our appreciation was in order. She has had a very trying few months, as you well know.”

“What—?!” Otto Hightower begins, but halts when his daughter grabs his forearm.

“Do you see how happy he looks?” you can hear her whisper.

Otto sighs irritably. “As you wish, I suppose.” He waves to the servants. “Bring another place setting.”

A chair, cup, plate, and set of silverware are procured for you. Aemond has them positioned on his good side. You sit between him and Helaena, gingerly filling your plate with fruit and miniature muffins, twirling your pendant with anxious hands. But when Aemond looks over to smile at you, you smile back.

“See how it cheers her?” Helaena says buoyantly.

“See how it cheers him,” Aegon quips as he sips his wine with raised eyebrows.

Sir Criston Cole arrives. “Good morning.” He observes the lack of a spot for him. “Oh dear.”

“What now?!” Otto Hightower snaps.

“I asked him to join us, Father,” Alicent says. “Forgive me for neglecting to mention it.”

“Well, fine then,” Otto grumbles. “Wonderful. Perfect. Let’s just welcome the whole court. Is that ferret Larys around, Alicent? Perhaps he would like an invitation too.”

The queen ignores him and occupies herself with spreading butter on a slice of banana bread. The servants assemble a place setting for Sir Criston and he sits to the queen’s immediate left.

“You may continue,” Otto tells the musicians. They resume their playing. “How goes your embroidery, Helaena?” His tone softens; he always softens for her.

“Oh, marvelously!” she says. “I’ve finished my praying mantis and begun work on a spider. It has flames on its back. Bright red flames.”

Otto beams. “Lovely.”

Helaena begins to sing quietly to herself. Aegon gulps his cup of wine and pours another. Sir Criston passes Alicent a bowl of sugar for her tea. They exchange a bashful glance.

“You must be congratulated for your mentorship of my grandson,” Otto says to Sir Criston. There’s a thick slab of ham speared on his fork. “Aemond performed astoundingly in the joust. I was pleasantly surprised. I know he has not spent much time in the tiltyard, nor had any particular appreciation for it until yesterday.”

“It was…an unexpected interest, to be sure,” Sir Criston says. He stares at Aemond, trying to force an explanation; Sir Criston, it seems, is equally curious. Aemond slurps his tea.

“I’d say it was mostly luck,” Aegon says.

“Aegon,” Alicent warns.

“Didn’t you see it?! That Lannister boy was about to impale him before his horse’s leg shattered like a…like a…well, like this.” He crushes a quail egg with his spoon for emphasis. Soft yellow yolk oozes across the plate. Alicent grimaces and returns to buttering her banana bread.

“It takes skill to capitalize on good luck,” Otto says.

Aegon smiles, wide and mocking. “How poetic.”

“Yet skill requires discipline, so you wouldn’t recognize it.”

“Well great, now I’m going to have to cry myself to sleep tonight.”

“I’ve received good news from Storm’s End,” Alicent interrupts. “Lord Borros Baratheon has agreed to bring his daughters to court so we can become better acquainted with them. There’s Cassandra, who is said to be an accomplished musician…and Maris, who paints and sketches…and Ellyn, she is known as a great beauty, and she’s very pious as well…and then there’s Floris…”

“Not now,” Aemond says, gently yet firmly, showing his left palm. Alicent desists. Sir Criston offers her a miniature blueberry muffin. Helaena leaves her seat to catch a grasshopper from a nearby bush. Otto squints at Aemond suspiciously. Aegon drinks.

Alicent is gamely refusing to give up on the meal. “Lady Mormont, how did you find Oldtown? You spent a year there, did you not? I haven’t been back to the seat of House Hightower in so long. I think I would scarcely know it. Is the port still a crystalline blue and swarming with ships at all hours? The sailors’ shouts used to keep me awake at night when I was a girl.”

“Yes, you were married to…” Otto does some mental math. “My cousin’s youngest son, is that right? Andrew? Anderson…?”

“Arthur?” Alicent says.

Otto shakes his head. “No, not Arthur. Adrian? Aaron?”

“Abernathy?” Helaena calls over from where she stands by the bush with a grasshopper in her cupped hands.

Alicent tries again: “Aston? Aiden?”

“Anonymous?” Aegon suggests.

“Axel,” you inform them.

“Right!” Otto says. “Axel! Poor lad. Gone too soon.”

Alicent bows her head respectfully. Sir Criston follows suit. Aemond slices his ham so aggressively the whole table quivers. “What is wrong with you?!” Sir Criston hisses at him. Aemond sighs and rubs his forehead with his fingertips. Aegon watches, extremely amused.

“In truth, Your Highness, I didn’t see very much of Oldtown,” you tell Alicent. “I was expected to spend most of my time with Axel’s sisters, and so I did a lot of embroidery and a lot of reading and a lot of visiting the sept, and…and…” And honestly I was bored to fucking death, you almost add.

“And a lot of attempting to make sons, I would imagine,” Otto says with a chuckle.

Aemond slams his fist down on the table. Everyone stares at him. He realizes what he’s done, clears his throat, and then continues eating as if nothing happened. Aegon bursts into a gale of laughter and rocks back in his chair further and further until it tips over. He lays like a ragdoll on the stones, still laughing, occasionally rolling around, not even attempting to rise.

Alicent mutters to herself: “Can we please just have a nice breakfast, can we please just have a nice breakfast, can we please just have a nice breakfast…”

Sir Criston comforts her with a pat on the back of her hand and the gift of another miniature blueberry muffin. She doesn’t look hungry, but she eats it anyway. They have soon tumbled into a hushed and private conversation. Otto Hightower rises to ask Helaena about her grasshopper. The servants begin clearing the table, stepping carefully around Prince Aegon.

“I’m going to take Lady Mormont on a tour of the gardens,” Aemond announces. He gives Alicent a parting embrace and she squeezes his shoulder fondly. Then the prince offers you his arm and leads you away.

“Aren’t you supposed to train today?” Sir Criston shouts after you both. “Hello? Prince Aemond? Uh, aren’t you supposed to train…?!”

You and the prince disappear into a trellis tunnel woven thick with ivy and climbing roses and jasmine and dangling chandeliers of wisteria. You are completely out of sight; not even sunlight can touch you through the curtain made of earth. Aemond turns your face to his—his hands on your throat, your jaw, your cheek—and kisses you in the verdant darkness.

“I wouldn’t mind being ivy,” he murmurs. “I could cover you completely. I’d grow over you like a second skin and never leave.”

“Ivy kills, you know. It ends up smothering everything else.”

“You don’t have to pretend you aren’t starving for me. It’s alright, I know the truth. I can taste it on you. There’s no shame in it.”

“Perhaps I’m bored of you now,” you say, lacing your fingers around the back of his neck, pressing your hips to his, biting his lower lip. “I’ve unearthed all your secrets and now that I’ve had you there’s no mystery, no challenge. You have nothing left to tempt me with. I’ve done it all already.”

In the shadows, Aemond smiles. “I can think of something you’ve never done before.”

~~~~~~~~~~

Vhagar is too large to be kept in the Dragonpit anymore. When she isn’t flying, she can be found on the sand, on the cliffs, or lolling lazily in the shallow surf; after all, she is nearly one hundred and eighty years old. Aemond takes you down to an abandoned portion of the beach beneath the Red Keep—waiting patiently for you to navigate the terrain in your gown, helping you step over tidepools—and it is there that Vhagar is waiting. She is massive and gruesome and palpably warm; steam rises where seawater laps against her scales. She glares at you with muddy, greenish eyes. There must be intelligence somewhere behind them, but you cannot see it. You see only a grotesque, reptilian, immortal sort of power.

“Dragons are fire made flesh,” Aemond says, laying a palm against her snout. Jagged fangs jut out just below. “Our house owes everything to them. You can touch her, if you like.”

“And she won’t…um…obliterate me?”

He is entirely confident. “We are bonded, so she is aware of everything I feel for you. She knows I would not want you harmed.”

You press your bare hand to Vhagar’s scales. There is a deep, earth-rumbling growl. Heat rises in the air like an arrow loosed from a bow.

“Lykiri, Vhagar,” Aemond soothes. “Dohaeras.”

The beast settles. You have not removed your hand. Aemond is pleased, proud. He nods to the netting that hangs down over Vhagar’s side. “Up you go.”

You climb the rope ladder to the saddle—no easy task in a gown and the low heels that all the ladies of the court wear—with Aemond following closely behind you. Vhagar’s sides heave in and out as she breathes. She’s not beautiful in the way that Sunfyre is, or Dreamfyre, or even Meleys; she is not beautiful like gemstones or soft rain. Vhagar’s beauty is like a wildfire or a hurricane or a plague. She is a force of nature whose capacity for destruction demands to be marveled at.

“We’ll get you a riding outfit,” the prince says. “Leather and gloves and boots. For next time.”

Next time. Because this is going to happen again. Because he wants to do this with me again. “The saddle…?”

“We can share that.” He drops behind you into the saddle and loops a length of chains around you both, binding you to it. “The chains are very necessary. I made that mistake the first time.” He reaches around your waist to take the reins, kisses the side of your neck, rakes his teeth lightly across your skin, inhales you. “Don’t distract me. I have your life in my hands.”

“Fear not. It isn’t terribly valuable.”

“We can agree to disagree.” And then, to the dragon beneath you: “Vhagar, soves!”

She lumbers forward, slowly at first, and then accelerating like the churning of dark clouds in a storm. On her back, the saddle rocks forcefully from side to side; you grip the handles and learn to move with her, like a rider does on a horse. When she lists to the left, you do too, and then back to the right. Aemond keeps his arms on either side of you, his chest pressed to your spine, his body seamlessly aligned with yours, protective. You suddenly can’t stop thinking about last night in that unassuming stairwell of the Red Keep. You want him, but not for a moment or an hour, not even for a night. You want him forever. You want him in a way that can never be real. It is an excruciating ache, a pleasure so deep and twisting it borders on pain.

Vhagar’s wings—large enough to leave shadows the size of buildings—stretch out and carry her up into the clear cerulean sky. The wind whips at your face and claws cruelly through your hair. The world falls away below you. You stare over Vhagar’s side and try to comprehend it: you are no longer connected to the earth by anything. The motion is smoother now that she is in the air. This is where dragons are meant to be, like a shark in water or roots in soil. Only here is Vhagar graceful and swift. Only here is she young again. The waves crash below and pepper you with stinging mist. Ghostly shadows of fish and dolphins and whales weave beneath the surf. Sunlight sets the water alight like constellations. It’s overwhelming, the speed and the weightlessness and the defiance of the planet’s own rules. You cry out in exhilarated wonder like a child.

“I know,” Aemond says over the roar of the wind and the ocean. He’s still holding the reins, but he barely needs them; Vhagar seems to already know the way. His gloved hands wander to settle on your waist, and then your hips, and then your thighs, exploring you with delicious slowness over the fabric of your dress. You are desperate for him, bewitched, on fire. You guide his hands to exactly where you want them. He kisses the side of your face as he touches you, the breeze tearing through his hair, his breathing turning quick and tattered. “I hate this fucking dress,” he groans; but you’re both smiling.

Where can we go? Where can we go to be away from the royal family and the intrusive eyes of the court and all the reminders of how impossible our future is?

But Aemond has already considered this. The island rises out of Blackwater Bay like the moon at dusk. It’s not very large—just big enough for a dragon Vhagar’s size to tuck itself away in the lagoon—but it’s beautiful, with a field of soft mossy grass and a grove of crooked laurel and juniper trees and a rocky stretch of beach that is submerged at high tide. It’s within sight of King’s Landing, but just barely. The city is a silent, miniature version of itself on the horizon. As she nears the island, Vhagar’s talons dip into the seawater and reappear clutching a small, unfortunate grey whale. She lands on the edge of the field, the gusts from her wings ripping leaves from the trees.

Aemond climbs down the netting first and then waits on the ground for you, arms outstretched in case you need to be caught. Your feet reunite with the earth. “Here I am. Back on an island.”

Aemond laughs. It’s such a rare sound, and something to be cherished, like the gleam of a comet or a solar eclipse or the Northern Lights. “Umbas, Vhagar.” He pats the beast’s rugged scales and she ambles away and disappears down into the lagoon, presumably to eat her whale. “I always called it Little Dragonstone.”

“I think I prefer Little Bear Island.”

“Dragon Island?”

“Bearstone,” you suggest.

“Bearstone,” he echoes, trying it out. “Yes, I think I like that.” He goes to one of the juniper trees and pries up a large grey stone at its base. From beneath it, he produces a burlap sack containing books, parchment, quills and a container of ink, and several bottles of wine.

“So you come here often.”

“Yes.” And then he clarifies: “Alone.”

“For how long?”

“Since I was a boy. After I claimed Vhagar.”

“Hopefully not the same way you claimed me.”

He smiles, opens a bottle of red wine, swigs a mouthful. Then he kisses you so you can swallow it. Wine bleeds down your chin, your throat, your chest. Your blue dress is stained in reckless maroon wounds. You couldn’t care less. Aemond’s hands are in your hair, rough and euphoric. His voice is strained with desire. “Last night you asked to see all of me, and I obliged. Now I would like that favor returned.”

You shed your dress like a snake’s skin. Aemond’s impatient fingers help untangle the laces. His lips are on you the whole time, tasting wine and salt and lust and the sea. They roam from your mouth to your jaw and then down the slope of your neck, and then to your collarbone, still marked with the faint, divine, violet bruise from the night before. He yanks off his gloves, his tunic, all the rest of it, and pulls you onto the soft grass. You try to straddle him, but he pins you down on your back, his hands locked around your wrists. It occurs to you that the prince himself is a bit like a bruise now: trapped beneath your skin, aching constantly, an immutable part of your corporal memory. You can ignore it, you can cover it, but he’s there. And you’re terrified that he won’t ever fade.

“Don’t move,” he orders, grinning, mischievous. “There’s one more part of you I still need to taste.”

He’s kissing his way down your breasts, your ribs, your belly, your hips, teasing you with delicate, careful nips. He’s pushing your thighs apart. He’s dragging his tongue across your slick sensitive skin, hot and plump with bloodrush. The sun beats down and the ocean roars and the wind is inked with the sound of moans, and then those careless false promises spilled in the fog of passion, and then soft, exhausted whispers.

In the aftermath—quiet and still like a battlefield once the white flag of surrender has been waved—you lay gazing lazily at each other on the grass. Aemond’s sapphire eye glitters in the afternoon light. His naked flesh is pale and perfect and strangely vulnerable. The thought of him taking a sword to anyone is suddenly very difficult to believe; the thought of him marrying some Baratheon or Lannister woman is excruciating. Yet what can you hope for, with this hand of cards you’ve been dealt? This is temporary, draining away, setting like a sun. To cling to the illusion of permanence is like trying to catch smoke in your hands.

“I don’t think I can give you children.” You mean it as something to comfort him, but it comes out like an apology.

Aemond nods, acquiescent, and you cannot tell if his relief is genuine or if he is trying to spare your feelings. If he is acting, it is a masterful performance. “Perhaps that is for the best. Childbirth is a woman’s battle, but one in which skill cannot save you. I would not desire to risk your life.”

“I thought we agreed not to shy away from battles.”

He smiles vaguely, ambiguously, dusting his thumb across your cheekbone. “Do you know no spells to remedy barrenness? That seems improbable for someone of your…talents.”

“I tried during my marriage, but I couldn’t get to Oldtown’s heart tree. It’s within the Citadel. I was not expected to have any use for books or maesters. I cast a few spells as best I could from the Hightower, but perhaps the Old Gods could not hear me there.”

“Hm.” Aemond’s brow furrows; this troubles him. He would not shame you for it, but he hates the thought of you with another man. It guts him like a blade. This is unmistakable, like a stone beneath clear water. “You yearned to give Axel Hightower a child?”

“I yearned to prove myself,” you correct. “And Axel promised that if I conceived, my mother could travel south and stay to see me through my delivery.”

Now Aemond’s relief is obvious. It wasn’t your husband you loved so ardently; it was your mother. “She was the one who taught you magic.”

“Yes.”

“What was her name?”

You see her face, a flash like lightning. “Laurel. Like the trees, although they couldn’t survive in the North. She always said it was ironic. Now it feels more like prophesy.”

His voice is kind. He’s never lost a parent—not yet—but he knows what it feels like to be unloved by one, and perhaps that is very nearly the same thing. “I’m so sorry.”

“She didn’t want to marry me off to the Hightowers, but Father insisted. He is not a man to be swayed by the pleadings of wives or daughters. He would view that as weakness.”

“So he’s dreadful. You must be so much like your mother.”

You can’t answer him. The words burn in your chest like wildfire. You don’t want to talk about your mother anymore. You look to the blazing sapphire where his left eye once was. “Can I ask you how it happened?”

“I claimed Vhagar on Driftmark after Laena Velaryon’s death. Her daughters and Rhaenyra’s sons confronted me. It was the middle of the night. There were four of them. I was alone. I called the boys bastards, and I picked up a rock, but I swear I never used it. Jace threw dirt in my face and Luke cut me.”

The vision of him as a small, outnumbered, mangled boy hits you like a fist. “I would take it back if I could,” you say. “The loss of your sight, the pain…”

“It wasn’t just the eye,” Aemond explains. He is abruptly somber and distant. He is miles from you, years from you. “It was that they had mocked me and tormented me my entire childhood and then the second I finally had something of my own they wanted to take it from me. It was that my own father did not demand justice for me. It was that I had done nothing but speak the truth and I was expected to believe that my maiming was an acceptable trade for it. Only my mother defended me. Not a single Targaryen. If Rhaenyra and I share the blood of the dragon, how could she so easily revile me?”

“She was wrong. They all were. You were innocent, and you were worthy.”

“Rhaenyra is my blood but she is not my family. And neither are her bastard sons. They owe me a debt that must be repaid.”

“Your wrath is justified, but handle it carefully. Such hatred can turn back to poison you.”

Aemond scoffs, acerbic. “I don’t fear them.”

You smile. “You don’t fear anything.”

“I fear losing you,” he says, and then stands to lead you down to the beach.

You wash Aemond off you in the ocean, and then wash the ocean off you in your rosewater-scented bathtub back in the Red Keep; all evening you try to forget him, to remove his fingerprints from you like an ink stain or a curse. Nothing works. You dutifully help Helaena with the children, you play cards with her, you praise her eerie spider embroidery, you pace around attempting to read some terribly dull book about the history of Westerosi dances…and all the while Aemond’s voice—and those forbidden things he should have known better than to say—clang in your skull like bells.

But as you pass the fireplace with your book in one hand, distractedly tugging on your pendant with the other, Helaena snatches your forearm and drags you to the center of the room.

“What—?!”

“Stay away from the fire,” Helaena hisses fiercely, then drifts off without another word.

~~~~~~~~~~

You are Aemond’s clandestine companion; you are his shadow in unwitnessed moments.

Together you play late-night card games with Helaena, you accompany her on walks through the gardens, you watch the children frolic on the golden beach outside the Red Keep. You sit in quiet, dimly-lit crevices of the library and read for hours by candlelight: Aemond about history and weaponry and dragons and philosophy, you about herbology and gemstones. There are no books about witchcraft, of course; that would be sacrilegious, that would be punishable by death. But you can piece together information about the properties of seemingly innocuous items to craft promising spells. Aemond consults with the maesters of King’s Landing and writes letters to the ones in Dorne. They adore him; they give him the affection and admiration that King Viserys never has.

You and Helaena watch Aemond as he spars with Sir Criston. All four of you watch Sir Ivar Kellington blacken eyes and break bones. Aemond teaches you enough High Valyrian for you to practice with him. He’s never had someone to share this with before. The language comes naturally to you, it fits easily into your mouth and your mind; it sounds like magic. When you can manage it—once every three or four days—you and the prince escape together to Bearstone; otherwise you ravage each other in stairwells, in closets, in anyplace where the servants and guards and handmaidens will not glimpse you.

And then one day, you wake up violently, helplessly ill. You can’t keep down water. You can’t get out of bed. When you try to, your knees buckle and Helaena has to drag you back onto the mattress. You lay there feeling like you’re dying with cold skin and cramping muscles and the room spinning all around you. You try to hide this from Aemond; you don’t want to worry him, and much more urgently you don’t want him to see you like this. You are not strong or pragmatic or brave right now. You are obviously, pathetically weak. Aemond hates weakness. And you can’t bear to see him disappointed in you.

Your plan doesn’t work. Helaena tells Aemond on the second day, and he takes one look at you before dashing off to fetch a maester, a man who he can trust to have discretion. The maester examines you and asks you a series of questions, and it is only when he inquires about your last bleeding that you realize what’s wrong.

“It is my opinion,” the maester tells the prince in the doorway of your bedroom. “That she is in the early weeks of pregnancy. Some women are affected severely like this. It’s rare, but it happens. There are some remedies I can offer, but the best one is time.”

When the maester departs, Aemond remains in the doorway gazing down at you, his blue eye glassy and thunderstruck.

“I’m so sorry,” you choke out with tears slithering down your face. “I’m so sorry. I didn’t know this could happen. I didn’t wish for this, I didn’t ask for this. I swear I didn’t.”

But Aemond isn’t angry. He comes to you, crawls into the bed, pulls you to his chest and cradles you there. “This isn’t bad news, Moonstone,” he murmurs, his lips curling into a smile against your forehead. And only then do you know what he dared to hope for in the arching, scarlet chambers of his own heart, what he carved there like an oath. “This isn’t bad news.”

~~~~~~~~~~

Meanwhile, in the Sunset Sea, two fisherman have stumbled upon a very different sort of island than the so-called Bearstone.

It sits to the west of Bandallon in the Reach, out of sight of the mainland and equally out of mind. It is very small. It hosts no human settlements nor natural resources of any great value. There is no vegetation or fresh water or shade or hope. It is mostly rocks. The parts that aren’t rocks are either shards of driftwood or bleached bones.

What brought the fishermen to the island was a beckoning glint, like sunlight bounced off a piece of mirror. It was probably nothing, they both agreed, but who knew for sure; bits of treasure lost at sea have been known to wash up on the island. As they approached they saw him, first only a silhouette and then in full flesh: shouting, waving his arms, surrounded by wreckage. He has laid out upturned shells to catch drinkable water when it rains. Around his neck hangs a golden seven-pointed star. It is this that he has used to summon his rescuers.

The first fisherman calls from the boat as he readies a rope to throw: “Good gods, man, are you still alive down there, or are you a ghost?”

“Too sunburned to be a ghost,” the second fisherman notes.

“I am alive,” the castaway replies. His skin is lobster-red from the sun. His lips are cracked and parched, his hands are mangled from gutting fish and prying open mollusks. He was once a stocky, rather sweet-tempered man of dark hair and medium height but now he is wiry and weathered and sharp. “Though the sea tried its best to take me. Bring me back to my home and my family will handsomely reward you, you have my word. My house has power and wealth. We are one of the greatest in Westeros.”

“We’ll save you regardless,” the first fisherman says. The Mother implores us all to have mercy. But I certainly will not argue with an offer of payment. What is your name, sir?”

The castaway holds up a bloodied hand to shield his eyes from the sun. “Axel Hightower.”

[journalsouppe]

I initially played ACNH for 300 hours in between release day - july of 2020, and never played the 2.0 update or the HHP dlc until recently! So I decided to make a second ACNH spread with the goals to: experience as much of the 2.0 update as possible, beat HHP, complete all the bugs and fish in the museum (I have the fossils done and I will finish art another time).

I had a ton of fun but this was the longest grind I've ever done. I still have nightmares waiting like 5 hours for that damn giraffe stag to spawn my fucking god. Super worth it though bc this was the first time catching all bugs and fish even though I've played CF and NL :}

The Lily of the Valley sticker is a freebie I got from MariKrekeler!

Writing typed below!

rating: 8.5 played: sp 2023 port: nintendo switch favorite? Y replayable? Y recommend? Y series: animal crossing

comments:

Dagnel (YT) inspired me to pick the game back up

I look so cute in my work uniform >.<

the hopeful goal is to finish bugs, fish, and flowers

forcing the villagers on vacation to work and go to school is wild T^T

I love the evolution of adding new items like partitions and nature sounds

I didn't expect to do check-ups

OMG IT'S BAMS BDAY WHEN I PLAY AGAIN AND JULIAN IS HERE (my two faves)

decorating all the buildings does get tiring

i really love the venue decor

Bam gave me the pumpkin soup recipe while wearing my fruits basket sweater T^T!!!!!!!!!!

i can only play in short bursts as it's not as fun when playing alone and it's so grindy and long

an apparel shop is a really fun idea

kk concert goes pretty hard

IT TOOK FIVE FUCKING HOURS TO CATCH THE GIRAFFE STAG T^T

i haven't played aa4 yet but klavier reminds me of Julian esp bc julian was also in a band and had a falling out with a band member (ive played aa4 since then and can confirm theyre the exact same person lmfao)

8 FUCKING HOURS FOR THE MAHI MAHI

okay the rest of the writing is my checklist of bugs and fish i needed to catch and ... yall im not typing that who cares about that anyways T_T

Summary

This was brutal. I curse the name of giraffe stags, mahi-mahis, and Dagnel. I had a lot of fun with HHP and I'm happy to be done with 3/4 of the museum, but my god at what cost? I wish my 2020 self did like a small grind to get these pier fish because why the hell did it take me 8 hours for the mahi-mahi T^T. Enough complaining, I highly enjoyed happy home paradise. I never played HHD for ACNL so this was a fun surprise and I loved the range of homes you could design. I also loved how there were overarching goals to complete: school, cafe, restaurant, hospital, clothing store, and when those were all done you were treated to a KK rave. I also enjoyed seeing my favorite villagers again and getting to play in seasons I hadn't previously played in ACNH. I have mixed feelings about Harv's island. I like that a ton of characters are brought back but I think some of them could've been integrated on the onto the main island better, like reese and cyrus having an add on to nook's shop and also give us another nook shop upgrade T^T. I miss playing with friends but it seems I might be making plans to play with Grimspark! Perhaps in the future I'll pick up this game again to finish art and flowers but that'll be in 2024 me problem. Tired of grinding T^T.

[visitor64]

ART/OC DUMP PART 1: My stupid persona and main OCs

(Before we start… Hi, future Me here, this is very long, I don’t really have else to say… this is very long.)

Hiii

it’s time for part one of my thingy!!!!

WOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!!!!!

Anyways… MY PERSONA!!!

(And also explanation time!!!)

This is Visitor, my stupid thingy

I’ve actually made other OC introduction things before this, but they’re pretty outdated, so I’m not gonna show them…

probably

(Oh yeah, also, Visitor is a girl… I was gonna explain that she’s a tomboy, but I couldn’t get it to sound not cringy… and this still sounds cringy, Oh well!!!!)

New Visitor (Vistor 2.0), Old Visitor (Vistor 1.0), and Vistor in Mr SyS’ stupid 3D art style that I like to draw in, so I stole the art style completely which is why my art style is all geometricaly and stuff, and that’s why it looks exactly the same to my current art style!!1!!11!!11!1!

(I have never typed the word visitor in my life so many times.)

Uhhhhhh… ignore the last picture, I definitely didn’t draw that-

Okey that’s all that I have for Vistor! It’s now time for my main OCs!!!!!!

This is Ghost and Seefee!!!

Ghost was my old persona, before I was into Mario Madness, she’s just an OC now, and Seefee is my really really really REALLY old Mario Madness OC, I made her when I first got into it (which I’m pretty sure was somewhere in the middle of February), Ghost and Seefee are best friends

Team UNbeanABLE is an old thing… I’ll explain it later on, but it’s basically just a group of all my most recent OCs. (And there’s older versions, theres 1.0, 2.0 and 3.0)

So just remember to keep this for later, I’ll come back to it, or however they say it

Ghost doesn’t usually have legs… but sometimes I just draw her with legs, cuz why not!!!

Seefee actually has a backstory, it’s kinda dumb tho lol, so it’s basically just the main story of Mario Madness, to where BF and GF get the cartridge thing… and blah blah blah… but Instead it takes place in an ALTERNATE UNIVERSE to where Seefee has the cartridge sent to her house (on accident) and blah blah blah… yadda yadda yadda, but they decide to just keep her and not kill her or something cuz she’s so cool and awesome 😍😍🥰🥰😍 and Seefee is just fine with it because I said so- The end.

BUT WAIT! I said that Seefee’s backstory thing takes place in another universe.

Please keep that in mind for later, oh hey I’ve remembered how that goes… anyways, yes, PLEASE keep that in mind!! Because there’s a “OC” here that will be kinda confusing if you don’t

Anyways here’s some art of Seefee!!!!! Because all the art with Ghost is so cringy that I don’t even want to look at it!!!!!

(also some explaining time!!!)

(This is very very old)

…oh no

Okay… so basically…

When I first made Seefee, I had an idea of making a FNF mod about her, of course I didn’t actually do it… cuz idk how to code…

But uhh…

i dont want to talk about this.

Nah im just kidding!!

I also had another idea for a FNF mod thing, that being Fanfic.

It sucks!!

It’s literally just… a fanfic.

Okay so first of all, Best Friend…

…

keep that in mind for late-

Swapped spelled wrong is just a thingy to where stupid dumb head (Mr SyS) and Seefee switch art styles because of course they did

Feelings is a dumb thing to where Seefee and stupid stupid dumb dumb head have a crush on each other- WHICH THEY DONT!!!!! Feelings was actually made as a joke, but I still hate it!!!! I hate it SO. MUCH!!! 😊😊😊

Oh wait, I just brought up stupid dumb whatever in a sentence that also had Seefee… welp, I guess it’s time for me to say it now…

Team UNbeanABLE (1.0) is literally just the unbeatable team or whatever it’s called, but I put Ghost and Seefee in it cuz of course I did.

But hey… remember when I said that Seefee’s dumb backstory thing and herself took place in an alternate universe?

And also when I told you that you should keep Best Friend in mind for later 7-9 lines ago?

Well that’s where it all comes together…

I introduce you to…

MR STUPID!!!!

Okay, so let me explain…

Mr stupid is how I used to draw SyS, because I didn’t know how to draw him back then. When I finally learned how to draw him correctly, I decided to keep the old version, and name him Mr stupid, and make him from an alternate universe because of corse. Also, the reason why his name is Mr stupid is because I used to call SyS Stupid-Stupid for some reason, and I still kinda do… but only sometimes.

and he’s best friends with Seefee and Ghost…

…

BECAUSE OF COUR-

Sooo… Team UNbeanABLE 1.0 is Mr stupid, Seefee, and Ghost.

Team UNbeanABLE 2.0 on the other hand…

…

KEEP THAT IN MI-

Jk lol

Team UNbeanABLE 2.0 is the same thing but with Vistor

I didn’t keep it that way for that long, so I don’t have much to say about it, nor do I have too!!!

Man, I am now just noticing how complicated my OCs are…

Jeez…

Anyways…

I have one more OC to share, and then that’ll be all for today. Then I’ll make the next part that probably won’t be as long as this one… hopefully-

This is Comi, and… WOW, CAN YOU GUESS WHAT THIS CHARACTER IS BASED OFF OF!?!??!!?!?!? CAN YOU GUESS IF THIS CARACTER WAS ORIGINALLY GOING TO BE A PERSONA!?!?! BECAUSE ITS VERY HARD TO TELL!!!

YOU CAN TELL I WAS INTO MARIO MADNESS FOR A LONG WHILE NOW!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH-

so comi is a thingy… originally gonna be a persona… again. But something happened and I didn’t like her for a short period of time, but I like her again… or is it a him..? Why does she look like a boy- Anyways…

wow, I am now just noticing that i need immediate help. (Because I made a OC completely based of a stupid polygon man from a Nintendo commercial released in Australi- OH MY GOD, MR SYS IS AUSTRALIAN OR IEN IDK HOW TO SPELL)

Okay… im finally done… I think that’s all my main OCs… now I just gotta get my other ones…

NEXT TIME!!

I would put more art here, but I’ve reached the max amount of pictures allowed to put (on the mobile app)

So I guess that’s the end of it

Huh, I guess it was a good idea for me to split this up into parts!!

So tune in next time for when I go insane… AGAIN!!!

BUH BYE!!!

Note: I actually started working on this before I knew how to use tumblr to its fullest (I didn’t know how to make the text bigger and smaller, I didn’t know you could move photos and text around, and I didn’t know that you could shorten the preview or idk how to explain it of your tumblr blog… post… thing) so I’m actually very glad I decided to do this art/oc dump thing, or this would’ve been very difficult.

Oh yeah, also, sorry for posting this late, I was busy with school and I had to go to this event that was going on there, but afterwards I did try to work on this as much as I could, and now it’s done!!! And it was worth it, it’s really long… I mean, there is literally NO WAY I’ll post something longer than this!!!

Oh wait, I almost forgot… you can ask me anything! I just gotta learn how the ask thingy works… I’m guessing it’s probably not that complicated, but idrk… so I guess for now you guys can just comment a question about something and I’ll just respond with an answer!

Thanks for reading, and see ya soon!!! ^_^

[anxsity]

u already know what i gotta give this

6 ⭐ / 5 ⭐

man. and in a game in which nobody was trade protected 👀 i would elaborate on this but i am nothing if not superstitious so ill leave it be. please god dont let me go through a vrana situation 2.0

ANYWAY- ya got da big man with a shorty to start it off. hot. sexy. setting the tone, future captain shit you know how it is. AND THEN AN OVI PP! CLASSIC YOU LOVE TO SEE IT. a beck fight? garf raised him so well im so proud. then jensens??? first goal of the year?? anythings possible ig. then lapdog, amazing babe ur doing amazinggg. AND THEN MIRO!!!! LIGHT OF MY LIFE!!!! FUTURE OF THE ORG!!!! OVI'S PRIDE AND JOY!!!! FIRST NHL GOAL IN 5TH NHL GAME!!!! it was so fun to see him and the whole team just truly excited for him, especially ovi mobbing him on the bench as a proud mama bear. oh also pretty goal sonny just the icing on the cake <3 i feel like so much has happened. happy birthday to both sandy (and happy extension!) and stromer! AND FUCKING CHUCKIE SHUTOUT!!!!!!!!!!! KING OF THE CREASE HIMSELF!!!!!!!! pls dont take him away from me gmbm. also shoutout to nicke for roughing it in the australian outback and still finding a way to pirate 💀 now thats dedication. and all against shittsburgh okay alright. okay. im so scared for tomorrow.

[goldenpinof]

As much as I love the new dnpg era we're in (and Im not complaining in the slightest) in the back of my brain I am finding it a bit strange that dan and phil are currently creating the exact content that for the last 5 years they (especially dan) have been saying they are tired of making. The whole "heres our sponsor, please hit the bell, like and subscribe!" Content. It feels very nostalgic right now, which I love, but also isnt necessarily sustainable. And the idea that they're only doing it to pay the bills on their house doesnt sit right with me either.

Im wondering if maybe theres a bigger picture. I feel like the gaming videos they are churning out are to sort of ease us in to a new era of dan and phil. If maybe they are playing a bit into the nostalgia of dan and phil, to gain back the audience that they lost after 5 years hiatus, so that then, they can slowly start to transform the content and the brand of dan and phil into something that better fits them as they are now. Because an abrupt change after 5 years of being gone, would honestly kind of mean they would have to almost start from scratch (bar the few thousand people that have been following them throughout), and honestly idk if an abrupt change would work for them either, bc even with dystopia daily, it was a cool idea, and not badly executed (apart from just kind of stopping halfway through) but it was also so different to anything else, that I think people found it really jarring, because it didnt really feel like the dan people were used to. I also dont know how well it really represented dan creatively anyway. I feel like bringing the gaming channel back, and also making it clear that its going to be different, its not specifically limited to games, is allowing them to take us with them on the journey of figuring out their new creative direction, rather than starting a few projects that get announced suddenly and then not going anywhere. It also means that when they are working on things behind the scenes that take months or even years to come into realisation, that can also just be cancelled at anytime, they are not banking on their audience just happily waiting with nothing to show for it, and can atleast still produce content that they enjoy and we enjoy, so that when dan inevitably does more standup or phil announces a project or they announce a new dan and phil project, it didnt come entirely from nothing.

Idk, basically i feel like the gaming channel is only the start of something bigger, and I dont think that bigger thing is them reverting back to 2016 dnp. Im interested to see.

oi, big asks bring so much pain ehfeliwdskd only because my answers usually are also big as fuck.

what i find interesting about this relaunch of dnpgames is that it's treated like the main place for joint content. what Dan said in the baking video can only mean that what was posted on AP channel or Dan's channel before, will now be on dnpgames. this gives them (Dan specifically) a way out of the dan and phil brand. it's like the joint branding exists outside and in parallel to their solo brands but doesn't intervene (it still does with AP but maybe it won't in the future). there's a better, more strict division between dnpgames + what's allowed on it and AP and their social media. it's so interesting to see how far they will go with it. they might bring back small portions of what they did before the hiatus (livestreams, dan vs phil, spooky week, gamingmas, game series and etc) but there will be new stuff as well. i wonder if the promo for all dnp brand related things will go on dnpgames now. before that, it was on Dan's channel (tours, books). i'm manifesting ladydoor tour 2.0 if the gaming channel thrives and there will be an audience to fill out the venues.

don't forget that Dan's decision to resurrect dnpgames allegedly came only in 2023 and because of his semi-flopped tour and difficulties with the dvd. no one wants to throw money into it, unfortunately. something happened in Edinburgh with BBC (wad related or not, hell knows). this dnpgames return is like a filler between solo projects (re: they are not banking on their audience just happily waiting with nothing to show for it). and it will be dropped the moment they are offered something serious. unless that something is gonna be precisely dnp brand related.

i don't think there's gonna be a huge change in the direction of dnpgames. we missed it how it was, Phil missed it because it allowed him to work with Dan and have fun. it can co-exist. i have an unpopular opinion maybe, but today's vibes are so unhinged. it's different from what it was before the hiatus, and i'm not talking about gay stuff. it feels like we're constantly running somewhere with them, and i don't like it. too much, too suddenly. and for someone who likes rewatching videos to find something new or just relax and laugh, it's a very uncomfortable schedule. and even dnp in the videos seem a bit frantic. plus different editing styles are visible, so it's like constantly jumping on a trampoline never knowing how high. i like consistency, so i need time to adjust? it's not a criticism, just an observation.

i think i have a bit different opinion to yours :) if it's the start of something bigger than only in the variety of content, but i don't think dnpgames will live for more than 3 years. 5 max. and this insane schedule will be dropped eventually. because it's unhealthy and EXACTLY why Dan backed out in 2018.

thank you for sharing your thoughts! let's see how it goes.

[narwhalandchill]

got requested to share my xueyi build so!!! here it is :]

(+ EU server crew - shes on my supports rn if u wanna add me to try her out alongside e1 RM and e0s1 blade)

anyway some notes:

a bit of xueyi 101 to start out jic - the atk orb and break rope are the standard for her; her break effect to dmg% conversion A2 trace makes quantum dmg a joke whereas her sources of atk are very limited. build-wise as this freaky puppetcore weirdgirl crit/break hybrid she wants it all rly; both crit, BE and atk, but prioritizing crit until some sort of 1:2 (guides tend to put 60/120 as the baseline) is key.

S5 aeon is perfectly fine and its what i used to have on her, i pulled indelible promise in order to end the custody battle over aeon between her and DHIL lmao (+ new gacha 4* LCs in hsr are like new 4* charas luckily - indelible promise after its initial release patch in 2.0 is now a permanent offrate on all banners except for beginner, phew). the crit on it is especially nice, rly hope i get spooked with some superimpositions in the future.

she shouldnt be on glamoth anymore really - this showcase is with her on spd boots (as you can see. duh) and she does reach the 135 spd for the 1st glamoth buff requirement when with RM (which is every time i play her) so its fine, but as i swap to atk boots when with sparkle im sure you can see why it would be... suboptimal. problem is. well. look at her rope. still havent managed to roll a comparable salsotto one so 💀 we live with this.

her relics are still a bit scuffed (chest and both her atk and spd boots are. fine. but could be better) but since i often have fx and sparkle patching up her crit its fine for now.

also yes i shouldve unlocked those last few quantum dmg and BE traces ages ago but its not rly that impactful when her dmg% is already as high as it is with the amount of BE i have on her so oh well x)

obviously given her dependence on break xueyis far from an universal dps - i only use her in heavily quantum weak fights (or in SU where u can get blessings to spam her ult for the weakness ignoring attack) but when she gets to shine she shreds So hard i love her sm 🥰🥰

+ heres the atk boots build ig. not that much changing as you can see but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[silver-wield]

Yesterday, I did something naive and debated with a clerith on youtube. They were pushing onto me that aerith di fall in love with real cloud the moment she was able to segregate Zack from Cloud. Thus this realization was only possible because she fell in love with him---------> then I told them that's like falling in love with a celebrity. That means jack shit basically. So I did went cordial and respectful but they went on ad hominem with me and I just figured that I wasted at least 25 mins of my life or more? Anyway, my sister refered we to here and I just want to expound on my thoughts on their argument.

Aerith is not in love with neither real cloud nor false cloud. She is in my pov, in love without a doubt with an idea. And idea of wanting to move on. It doesn't take a moment to figure out that she waited for Zack for 4 years and then you think she's mentally and emotionally stable? I don't think so. This is why she is craving for closure. She wants to know and I don't doubt that she's still in love with him. I mean Cloud was able to live with himself for 2 years even w/o closure (well he still needed it but unlike aerith's his was resolved quite fast with the help of his companions and obviously Tifa's words). But this girl for 4 years couldn't let go of Zack, and only wished for it because she knows he's dead.

Im getting off track here, but basically, she did not fall in love with false cloud, I think a good example was shown on remake when she was surprised that false cloud actually cared for her? And this was the dead one who knows such future. How come she doesn't know false cloud is capable of such? Perhaps because she never really knew him nor understood him? We see with Tifa that false cloud is acting different and with the others too. What aerith sees in both OG and this trilogy is just one side of the many sides of a coin. In short, she doesn't know him at all.

In fact her golden saucer date line only ever happens if and only if you treated her nicely, there was no real indication that her date was the canon one, it's just that, that's what people thought to be the case. Im not going to lie, I had to take a break from it because this happened once to me, where someone forced me onto a date and I was too introverted and anxious to say no and then I just ended up not going and when forced I had to punch them. It's interesting if aerith was a guy coercing a girl onto a date they didn't agree upon on like she did with Zack's. And well all the other creepy things she kept pulling.

Okay I keep going off, im not here to write a diary 😔. In conclusion, it's like meeting a celebrity then you see them in a new light, you think oh because of that effect, you think you know the real them when in Reality , you don't really know them. You never saw every single side. The way they fart, the way they watch dora , or the way they chicken out over a rabbit. Im saying that we'd like what we want to see, and aerith is such. She wasn't able to make him into zack 2.0 so since she barely has anybody, she goes with false cloud despite knowing full well about Tifa and Cloud. Despite knowing full well there's something wrong with him and she never bothered to share the with Tifa, her worried childhood friend. She's still stuck in the idea that she has, because if she was really mentally stable and healing? You don't go for the guy who still would remind you of your love especially without closure. That is a recipe for disaster, and it was because she did put down all her defenses, lost in her own naivety and died because of it when she could have known better. I don't doubt Crisis Core aerith could have been more logically sound, that's what I have to say. Mourning is a tricky thing, sometimes it's nothing, and sometimes it's all too consuming. Bow, now I have to learn not to engage with these debates online. Life is too short for such foolishness.

Aerith's feelings are summed up in one sentence in otwtas.

"He was a symbol of everything she held dear."

Cloud is a symbol of Zack and all the things she wanted to do and express to Zack, but couldn't because he died. She understands at this point she was using Cloud as a stand in, but that's what she loves him for. Thanks to Cloud being a fake Zack, Aerith got to express a bit of her feelings and go a few places she longed to while waiting for Zack to come back.

She doesn't and never did love Cloud for himself. She doesn't know him as himself. Once she dies, she understands better what's happening to him, which is why she describes him as fragile and easily wounded emotionally. She cares for Cloud, but that's not love, and ofc he has no feelings for her. Everything about him is and always was obsessed with Tifa.

[todayisafridaynight]

hi its "almost died as an infant" aoki stan anon again. im still thinkin about what to say medical wise BUT U GUYS HIT THE NAIL ON THE HEAD ABT HIS DEATH like im already frustrated with the "redemption by honorable death" thing that the game keeps doing (east asia has such high suicide rates i dont think its a very responsible narrative to continue telling in general tbh) but especially for a disabled character who had every right to feel vulnerable and betrayed and get a little evil. hes not Right but hes very Understandable and relatable. but then he still chose to live on and face the consequences (ARGUABLY HARDER AND MORE RESPONSIBLE. A GOOD EXAMPLE AND EXPECTATION TO SET especially for a POLITICIAN) and then they kill him anyway with some fuckin BULLSHIT EXCUSE and i feel like its partially because nobody can be bothered to put the effort into continuing a compelling and morally grey disabled narrative and it. hurts to be cast aside like that. especially after they made such a big deal about ichiban being a NEW protagonist/saga with a NEW identity and then. you still just gave me nishiki 2.0. you retold me the exact same story and used a blatant asspull to FORCE it to be the same story and give ichiban a dead brother figure to lament over for the next 5 games???? rgg i thought you wanted him to be different from kiryu???? sigh. it better be a fakeout and he resurfaces perfectly fine in a few games like kashiwagi or else i'm going to start scaling the walls of the rgg office and dismantling it piece by piece

hey howdy. can we call you MAS (medical aoki stan) ima call you mas cause i'd like to hear *mas from you haha gottem

BUT YEAH NO YOU'RE RIGHT. like i joke that ichi and aoki were kiryu and nishiki 2.0 but at least with nishiki, his death was like. .2% more valid while aoki's it's like..... rage. anger. death. i hate it here. this was so fucking stupid there was literally no need for this other than to fill a quota and try to make a "ichi really is the heir to kiryu's legacy" statement. LIKE ICHI IS SUPPOSED TO BE THE NEW FACE, GIVE HIM SOMETHING DIFFERENT- LET HIM KEEP HIS BROTHER SO THEY CAN PURSUE THE FUTURE TOGETHER THIS TIME

it's especially more upsetting regarding aoki as "being cast aside" because we can discern that was a huge thing for him and was a big reason why he turned out the way he did- being seen as useless or something that could easily be disposed off, so for the narrative to do just that right at the very end when it looked as though it was promising him a better future is just so...... rgg you're always so close but not close enough im going to strangle you

[cluelesslesbian]

hahaha

(ignore my tags- just needed to... vent rn)

[europeanguy]

[dreamwritesimagines]

i KNEW something was coming after all the fluff we got from you last chapter- i would like to blame everyone asking for angst bc i did NOT ask for this- honestly cherie should've just joined cecily and elias and hugh at the trenloves' house :(( and to think it started so happy!! you play with our feelings dream 😭😭 anyway i'll TRY to comment on the lines as i did when i was first reading them but the later knowledge and HEARTBREAK will make it harder for me :((

“We will go there earlier for preparations,” the Duke said. “Us, Miss Cecily’s family and the Bridgertons.” okay this was a bad idea BEFORE the thing in the study happened smh it's Iike they WANT anthony and cherie to have their little affair

Maybe you could be unchaperoned again. cherie i know this is offensive but honestly you ARE acting like a walking scandal rn-

“She just told me to come and get her if she doesn’t come here by noon,” Elias said and grinned. “So I will go and get my future wife by the noon.” elias is honestly the cutest when in love i knew there was a reason i always used to prefer mr bingley over mr darcy (something that has been ruined by having to extensively analyse the text 😭😭 i still love mr bingley a LOT though)

The Duke took a look at him over the newspaper he was reading. “You did shout it out of the windows last night, Elias.” the duke is once again being iconic af i love him

“I’m drunk on happiness,” Elias said. “I am to marry the love of my life, I think the whole London should know that. Can you believe that she agreed to marry me? Me!” elias being mr bingley aka a golden retriever aka the cutest human being alive 2.0 also this just reminded me of that one scene in pride and prejudice (2005) where bingley is seen to be practicing his proposal to jane with mr darcy and if that wasn't last chapter- (yes im ignoring the angst my reminding myself of the fluff before)

Maybe it would make him think about you and him. Since you were lovers now, it was obvious that his approach to love was changing and surely seeing a wedding would make him rethink about marriage proposals as well. do you know how HEARTBREAKING this is to read after the study scene?? dO YOU??

“Five weeks and then I will have ultimate happiness.” Elias grinned and you and the Duke exchanged glances, unable to stop smiling at the look of utter delight on Elias’s face. okay but the duke and cherie finally bonding and it being over elias's happiness is the cutest thing to happen ever hopefully this whole thing with anthony will at least bring her closer to her family?? hopefully??

“Y/N, I don’t know anything about this,” she whispered. “I was not raised to be a marchioness let alone a duchess, I do not have the training that Lady Miriam had for example.” awww i feel so bad for cecily she's BETTER than miriam and comparing herself will only make her sad :(( she deserves better than feeling like this :((

“My lord?” Elias sounded almost offended all of a sudden. “Cece, I think we can drop the formalities now, I don’t want to be called my lord by the love of my life.” every time elias says love of my life my own life force is renewed again and i believe in the power of love and friendship to conquer all

Elias didn’t even blink as he turned to Cecily. “We can just round that up to ten?”

actual footage of elias leaked

“Considering how right I was about this union, I do not understand how you two keep fighting me on anything, honestly. Everyone should just always do what I say without question to save us time.” i mean to be fair she isn't WRONG-

“Would you excuse me and my betrothed for a moment sister? I’d like to make sure I convinced her.” i know we keep on calling anthony a slut but damn this entire friend group just consists of manwhores huh

You were almost halfway done with her list of basic needs for her when she knocked on the door and opened it, making you look up. Her hair was slightly disheveled compared to a couple of minutes ago, there was an excited gleam in her eyes and her lips were swollen as if— you know my first reaction was oh shit cecily will find out in no time now that she knows the pleasures of kissing and the appearances afterwards but i guess she won't find out soon after all!!

“Um—Elias and I will go by my house together to talk to Hugh, would you like to join us Y/N?” once again she should've just joined them dream this is an unrealistic reader i would have taken any possible chance to spend more time with hugh-

“No one can be unkind to you,” he said, his voice quiet with fury, a dark shadow playing in his eyes, “Ever.” yknow i was going to say something about this being hot or something like that but i can't anymore it's too sad now

“Do you remember what you were like when I started courting Daphne?” Anthony rolled his eyes at him. “I remember very well what you were like, Simon.” okay all things aside i love simon standing up for cherie as if she's his own sister she deserves an army of older brothers (i'm pretty sure once hugh gets a gist of what went down he'll join the cherie protection squad)

You held your breath, looking at Anthony who looked way too uncomfortable all of a sudden. the look of a man who knows he's about to be EXPOSED

Elias had done what? okay but to be fair elias TOLD her he asked all of his friends to dance with her and planned it perfectly

“I’d die for Eli but that girl is a walking scandal,” Simon cut him off, making you pull back, your stomach churning in pain. “Your words, not mine. You said and I quote, God knows what example she got from her mother while she was in France, and I’ll have to dance with her.” okay but IMAGINE if cherie was somehow in england earlier and had SOMEHOW overheard it- it would for real be pride & prejudice 2.0 with elizabeth overhearing darcy and him falling in love within 2 seconds of actually meeting her

“But there are no games,” Simon’s voice snapped you out of the haze of anger. “Are you sure about that?” i will once again say go simon!! yeah you're ruining this whole ship but out of wanting to protect our girl!! this is theoretically a good thing!!

“I’ll see you in the drawing room, Daphne and I have news for the whole family.” okay but a baby?? possibly?? yes i know it's off topic but??

“No one can be unkind to me, is that right?” you managed to say through frozen lips and he stepped closer to you, making you step back. this is the exact moment people could HEAR my heart break my poor cherie :(( just marry hugh he never would've said anything like this

“I’ll scream,” you bluffed, glaring up at him, trying to wring your arm out of his grip. “People will find us here unchaperoned, and you will have to marry me then.” you know it's so so sad that she was so convinced it'd be like an actual punishment for him

“Go ahead,” he dared you, a shadow crossing his eyes. “I think Simon is still within earshot. I’ll get the special license, we will be married in a week. So go ahead and scream, get everyone here.” it's even more sad that if they had married now there would've been NO way of convincing cherie ever again that he loved her-

“I never want to see you—” your voice echoed through the foyer, your accent getting stronger, “Or talk to you again, ever!” Oh No™ we know shit is about to go down if something echoes through the foyer

Lady Bridgerton, Eloise and Benedict were by the stairs, completely frozen at the sight of you two but Lady Bridgerton was the first to overcome her shock. okay but these are also like the three WORST possible people in the house to catch them- (save for like simon 😭😭) i cannot wait to find out their reaction after they actually had time to process this

“Anthony,” she said, her voice possessing a forced calmness in it, “Let go of her at once.” oh she's like MAD mad like anthony is going to be in real trouble very soon- that said, will we have an extra scene/headcanon of the aftermath in the bridgerton house??

“You will have to excuse me Eloise, I will not be joining you and Pen today,” you managed to say before turning to Anthony. “But I suppose that’s a good thing. After all, you wouldn’t want to be seen with a walking scandal, would you?” okay shots FIRED i don't want them to fight but also i can't wait to see more of cherie roasting the shit out of anthony

You didn’t even wait for anyone to say anything as you turned around and stormed out of the house, the last thing you heard before the door closed behind you was Eloise’s voice rising in anger: “Anthony, what did you say to her?” okay yeah anthony is going to be verbally beaten up by like half of his family isn't he- i kinda feel bad for him even though he deserves it?? like he has GROWN cherie pls don't be stupid for long-

“Is everything alright?” Lucie asked softly as she reached out to rub at your back, trying to calm you down and you let out a breath, biting inside your cheek until you tasted blood. oh no :(( knowing cherie she'll try to keep this hidden from cecily too as to not deprive her of any happiness in this period so once again she'll only have lucie to lean on and though i love their friendship cherie probably needs a licensed therapist at this point

thank you for this chapter (though it broke my HEART) and i hope you won't mind me walking over to team hugh once again <33 anthony needs to go stand in a corner and think about what he's done but cherie needs to realise people can change their minds about things she's a stubborn ass and though we've been comparing elias and anthony to mr bingley & mr darcy, cherie has some of elizabeth bennet in her too!! anyway i'll stop analysing all the intertextuality considering i've been obsessed with pride and prejudice these past days and would find dozens of connections where there technically are none- anyway, i am ACHING for the next chapter!! have a wonderful few days until then <33

Omg Merel loveeee!❤❤

Angst is going to be so much fun😏

I feel like if what happened didn’t happen, it was going to be very easy for Anthony and Cherie to sneak around at Stormview because Anthony has been there multiple times when he was a kid, he knows all the secret passages and what leads where😈

Cherie had plans!💔

Wait why was Mr Bingley ruined for you? I’m curious!😱😱

Elias is definitely a golden retriever lollll😂

Cherie was actually hoping he would proposeeee and then….😈💔

Cecily is going to be under so much pressure but luckily he has Elias who worships the ground she walks on❤❤

Elias has zero idea about how gown shopping works, he just throws money at modiste whenever he’s told😂

i know we keep on calling anthony a slut but damn this entire friend group just consists of manwhores huh  I AM DYING AT THIS-😂

YES! DEFINITELY YES!😂

And that was their first kiss!❤❤

once again she should've just joined them dream this is an unrealistic reader i would have taken any possible chance to spend more time with hugh OMG I JUST-😂

she deserves an army of older brothers (i'm pretty sure once hugh gets a gist of what went down he'll join the cherie protection squad) Oh I think she will have it and when Hugh hears…😏

Oh yeah, Elias told her but he didn’t say he forced Anthony😏

Everything between them would’ve been over before it started if she heard it before😱😱

just marry hugh he never would've said anything like this He really would’ve never said anything like that, you’re right!❤❤❤

Omg yeeeees! She was convinced that would be a punishment and-

Can you imagine if they did end up getting married? Like, if she screamed? 😱That would be so complicated and there’d be so much angst, I love this idea!😍❤

All 3 of them will be furious with Anthony!😏

Yessss, we will have a HC with it! It’s coming today!❤❤❤

Things changed for him for sure, like he has grown but implying that about her mother…. Like, Cherie is extremely sensitive about that😏

cherie probably needs a licensed therapist at this point SHE REALLY DOES!😂

Wait you’re team Hugh again?😂❤

Elizabeth Bennet is awesomeee and I totally see what you mean!❤❤

Omg darling this is absolutely amazing, I LOVE THIS! THANK YOU SO MUCH, ILY!❤❤❤

[sterekficrec]

Lost fic masterpost 2.0

This is the new masterpost list for lost fics we haven't found ourselves yet and we need some help with finding. This list contains all asks that are asked after May 31st, 2018. If you asked us something before that date and it hasn't been answered, please check out our Last Chance Asks post first, if it isn't on there feel free to send us the ask again.

If you know what one (or more) of these are then let me know through an ask and mention the number.

Thanks in advance for all your help :)

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1.

Hii! I'm looking for this fic I read a while ago, it was on ao3 and kind of short I think.. Stiles catches Derek smoking weed naked, and it involves shotguning.. I remember it had embeded images of shirtless Derek(or some model who looks like Derek more likely) sitting on the floor by the bed.. Hope somebody knows this, I really want to find this :'(

2.

Hi! I don’t know if you can help with this but I’ve been looking for a fic everywhere. Stiles is older than Derek and Talia brings him in to help Derek through his rut or heat. I can’t remember much else. I hope you can help!

3.

Hey, I was wondering if you could help me find a fic where stiles thinks Derek doesn't find him attractive Derek doesn't get hard, and Derek thinks that stiles doesn't want him because of this and there's just hella miscommunication?

4.

Hey I was hoping maybe you could help me find a fic? All I remember was that is was like a retelling of season one but Stiles was older and an FBI agent?

6.

Hey there! I wanted to ask about a fic I read some time ago. It’s sort of au. Stiles doesn’t live in Beacon Hills anymore but helps out Deacon and him and Derek meet when he helps out Dereks pack with something. He’s a witch or something like that. I’m sorry for being so vague and in one of the cases Derek gets possessed by a demon, who kills people by dehydrating them. And Stiles gets the demon out of him. Have you guys recced anything like it? I really want to read it again. Thanks :)

7.

Hey!!!! So I was wondering if you could help me find this sterek fic?? They are married and they have a few kids I think mpreg. It has a lot of chapters and in one of them their daughter I think her name may start with an l goes to a dance with a vampire, Derek isn’t so sure ab it. And one time stiles has to go on a trip for work or maybe a retreat with Scott and Derek has to console there few month old, as he hasn’t been away from stiles. Please please!!

8.

I was wondering if you’d be able to help me find a fic? Derek and Stiles are on a date and they have Cora with them. When they’re buying tickets, the person at the ticket counter flirts with Derek and assumes he’s chaperoning a date between Cora and Stiles. I think Stiles yells oh hell no and then kisses Derek?? I wish I could remember more, but that’s all I recall..

9.

I've been looking for a certain nsfw fic where someone "gives" Stiles to Derek as a birthday present, I'm pretty sure Stiles is tied up in a hotel bed or something like that. Thank you so much in advance 💖

10.

Hello! I read a fic once and I cannot find it again and I would really like to reread it. Of what I remember the sheriff is an alpha and dies and Stiles has to take over and the sheriff left a lot of debt. So Stiles starts to sell off chunks of land and works a ton of jobs to try to pay it back.

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Hey, I’m looking for a fic where Stiles is a spark, but he’s hella freaking powerful because when his mom died he kind of tried to bring her back, but it latched onto his baseball bat? I think Lydia is actually the alpha of the pack, and Laura and Cora are alive (I think the rest of the Hales are too?). Derek was like, literally married to Kate for a while and then they divorce and Stiles and him break into her house and totally trash it. Help????

12.

I was wondering i you could help me find a fic (i'm desperate), the only thing i can remember is that derek keeps a 20 dollar bill by his door in case any girl scouts come by, but they never come because the moms think he's some kind og bad guy. Stiles meets a girl scout mom and konda confront her about it (and by confront i mean like really yell at) i think it might have been a slowburn fic Thank you:)

13.

I've been looking desperately for this fic where Stiles gets Emissary/Druid training from Deaton but eventually Deaton refuses to teach Stiles anymore so Stiles leaves Beacon Hills in search of another teacher he leave sometime before the alpha pack he finds a teacher and travels a lot but eventually returns Beacon Hills after a few years very powerful helps them defeat somthing and eventually hooks up with Derek.

14.

Hi please if u could help me this sterek fic? Both derek and stiles were deputies . Derek was new there and parrish like stiles which made Der jealous . I dont remember much but help ..

15.

Hey I was hoping you could help me find a fic? It's been a while since I've read it, but I know it was based around the sacfricial killings, but they were being used to resurrect some people I think? It was magic!Stiles, and at the end he kinda changed the spell to resurrect the Hale family instead? Sorry I can't remember much else, but I know I really enjoyed it and I can't find it at all. It would mean a lot if you found it!

16.

Hello. Love this blog helping find fics for other people some of which I’ve read and loved. I’d love if you could help me find a fix where stiles, Jackson, Erika, issac and Boyd are selected to be seventh to the hale family. Mr. Harris is the servant and the living family is Cora Derek Laura Peter and the grandmother. Stiles of course is Derek’s servant and finds the truth out about his forgotten pass and what he is to Derek’s. Changing him Erika and issac into werewolf’s. Hope you can find!!

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Hello! I was wondering of you could help me find a fic. From what I remember, Derek comes home (from college I think) for the first time in years, and finds that his family loves Stiles, who he has never met. They hate each other in the beginning. Thank you for any help you can give, and thank you for all you do for this amazing fandom! :D

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hi!im looking for a sterek fic that has stiles staying in beacon hills as a supernatural doctor? and then he gets an email from derek that says that derek is hurt. stiles also has a bunch of journals full of information about the pack. and them stiles has a really bad leg injury. and the sheriff is dead. stiles listens to either mozart or bach to calm down, i can’t remember. please, help me. sorry if my descriptions are a little messy, im stressing over it bc i want to reread it. thanks.

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i’m trying to find a fic where the pack accidentally wishes on a shooting star about stiles, and they wake up in this alternate universe where stiles doesn’t know who they are and he’s being brought in by deputies, && they find out that stiles is a mage of some sort in another pack, i’ve been trying to find it forever. also thank you!

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For the prompt you asked: what about Stiles going crazy trying to plan the perfect Christmas party with the pack but everyone has a different religion or belief and Stiles is squishing a little of everything in there, the party wont even be on Christmas eve but in a different neutral date or smthng. And obviously since most of the pack is still busy with school(or college?)he ropes Derek into helping with preparations. Obviously they end up making a big mess out of everything. they also fight a lot untill Derek snaps and Stiles realizes that Derek's only problem with Christmas is he misses his family so much(and the only reason Stiles wants to party it's bc it makes him remember his mother)And the pack arrives at the new Hale house to find them like that, depressed and with a burnt out dinner in the kitchen, ligths popped and tree destroyed. And it magicaly snows in that moment(or maybe it's Stiles?)

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Hi, sorry for my bad english. I’m looking for sterek fic. I know I read it in AO3. I don’t remember much but almost in the end Stiles and Chris are arguing because all the stuff his family did. How bad Stiles was tortured by Gerard and I think Stiles was pemanently injured in one ear and one eye. And also Chris was yelling that he killed his father and Stiles said in the end it didn’t mather because He was damage forever. I really hope you can help me.

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hi, so i was hoping you could help me find a sterek fic where stiles and derek are childhood friends, and stiles is pining after him but derek and paige are dating, and stiles gets jealous when paige is sitting in his seat and almost has a mental breakdown? i think stiles starts ignoring him, and derek realizes that he no longer sees paige as his future mate but stiles. thank you!!

23.

Hi, Sterek fic I can't find. With Stiles drowning, bc of himself or feelings being too much, Derek notices and saves him, and the Derek warms him by turning into his alpha form? Stiles really like shifted Derek. Thank you guys! :)

24.

Hi I was wondering if you could help me find these 2 sterek fics where: 1. Derek and stiles are on a stakeout looking at a bank I think when someone approaches the car and Derek pulls stiles into his lap and stiles begins to question his sexuality and if Derek likes him. 2. God I can’t believe I didn’t save this one but I can only remember a scene in the fic where stiles and Derek were at a drive though movie theatre and they were kissing and it was all about Derek self healing. Pls help.

25.

Hey I'm trying to find this fic on archive that I read before but I can't seem to find it. If you don't do this sort of thing sorry in advance. But if you do all the teenagers are alive and Stiles is getting bullied by a group of douches so the pack challenge them to a series of games. Girls vs girls and boys vs boys. They win of course. Anyway if you know of this fic please let me know

26.

I need help finding a fic pls. Stiles meets Derek young (around 4ish) and they're soulmates (Derek knew when Claudia was still pregnant). There is def an age gap. Stiles grows up knowing Derek is his mate, and tries to mate with him, but because they spent so much time together while he was young, stiles's wolf develops quicker than it should and goes into heat, so they try to separate them. Mama S. and Hale family is still alive, and theres an alpha/alpha mate convention at some point. Thanks!

28.

hey! i'm looking for a fic where stiles is living on the east coast working for the government and then he saves somebody's life by recognizing that the agent was walking into a trap of a vampire coven so he starts working with this supernatural sector of the government (and people named jessica and jason i think) and gets sent to a national council thing and reconciles with derek and the pack after having left beacon hills and stuff

29.

Hi! ❤️ thank you so much for taking the time, I was just hoping someone could help find that sterek fic where it’s established relationship, and stiles works for a company because he came up with a famous slogan for some type of candy/food and the company rlly loves him, at one point goes on a business trip where someone tries to have an affair and stiles is like WHUt NO and goes back to Derek immediately feeling guilty even tho he was 100% loyal? Thank youuuu ❤️

30.

Hello! I love this blog a lot , keep up the good work. :) I was recently reading a fanfic where stiles is kidnapped by jennifer and she uses derek’s semen in a spell to make the “werewolf messiah”. Can you help me find it?

31.

I am looking for a fic. Derek is the alpha and he and stiles get together and cook meals. First Boyd is added to the group and then Isaac. Isaac becomes a foster of Boyd's parents. Then Erica is added. They give Erica the bite after discussing it with her parents. Please help

32.

Hi! Looking for a fic where Stiles is bitten by a fox at the zoo, changes into an actual fox, which means he’s terrified of the werewolves, including Scott and Derek. Derek has to lure him out with a trampoline (definitely inspired by that video of a fox on a trampoline). I looked everywhere I could think of but no luck :/ hopefully someone’s heard of it! Thank you!

34.

Hi! I’m scouting the internet for an old sterek fic I read once where stiles and Allison bond over the summer after s2 and in a drunken mistake Allison gets pregnant but it’s not romantic? I can’t find even a trace of it anywhere but I VIVIDLY remember it

35.

Not a fic Rex but could you help me find a fic? It’s been months apon months since I have read this fic but it’s a sterek fic and stiles was kinda of controlling and would never be a good bf to Derek so they never did anything derek wants to do only stiles. And I remember they talked about it and were getting better and Derek asked to go on a hike to show stiles this pond or something idk for sure and stiles almost says no and it’s angsty and amazing.

36.

Hi! I've been looking for a fic that I read a while ago, I don't know if it's been deleted or not and I don't remember it clearly. But from what I remember, at some point Derek stayed with Stiles and his dad in his wolf form because he was traumatized and felt like he was inconvenient to everybody? Sorry I'm not being very clear but if that rings any bell... Thank you!

37.

hi! There was this Sterek fic form Isaac's POV where he was Stiles' PA and he really shipped him with Derek, but all the other two do is fight-- and in the end, he finds out they've been married for around 5 years. Do you know it's linked, by any chance? :)

39.

Hey! I’ve been looking everywhere but I can’t find this Sterek fic and was wondering if you could help me? All I remember is that Stiles is pregnant, him and Jackson are really close friends, and something about ‘is Thursday a good day to tell your ex you’re pregnant?’. Thank you so much if you could help! ❤️

40.

Hello! Okay so I have my been here in a while, but I've ran out of fics to read. And I'm not sure if you guys are still active. But do you guys have some where Sterek start dating, but it's because one of them like the other and the other one thought, "why not?" But they end up falling for the other. Sorry I know this is too specific. :/ but thank you!!!

41.

I'm looking for a fic that Stiles was invited to Derek's wedding to Julia/Jennifer, but it turns out he was magically controlled to go along with everything so she'd have control of the pack???? Eventual sterek.

42.

Hiiii! I'm wondering if you can help me. I read this fic forever ago and it was a supernatural FBI type situation. Stiles was magic and sold potions on the side (I know to at least Ethan). Deucalion was selling drugs that were killing people. I remember that the drugs made you hover in the air before you died and Stiles got drugged (also pretty sure he was a suspect). Derek was an agent. Thanks in advance!

43.

Hey I'm really sorry to bother i am looking for a fic were stiles and derek are in a long term relationship but derek starts to neglect stiles so he decides to leave for a new apartment and derek realizes how much he has been missing. thank you i hope you can help me

44.

Hey! So I’m looking for 2 sterek fics that might have been deleted but I’m not sure. The first, someone is poisoning the wolves to makes them shift, and stiles and Derek get locked in a cage so that Derek would kill stiles. The second one, the pack goes to college, but Derek breaks up with stiles to keep him safe, and stiles starts taking pain killers. The Alpha pack shows up, but at the end Peter tries to kill Scott or Derek to become an alpha again. Any idea? Thank you!!!

45.

Hey I'm looking for a sterek fic and going out of my mind because I cant find it! All I remember is that they had at least one kid together and in the epilogue or sequel or something they were having a family dinner where their college age oldest daughter was bring home her boyfriend to meet the family. And I think the younger brother was non-binary of some sort and they were worried how the boyfriend was going to handle that. And werewolves existed but still a secret. Thank you in advance!!

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Im sorry i might be stupid but i cant find the askbox, im looking for a fic where stiles and derek are mates and there might be a abo dynamic, derek knows they are mates before stiles is born because he meet Claudia while she i pregnant, they start of young in the fic but get older as i goes. I must have been an explicit one. Sorry for any inconvinience

51.

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Hi! Looking for a stereo college au where stiles is obsessed with Greek mythology and even got a tattoo of it. Some internal homophobia in there too. Thank you in advance!

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hi! i am looking for this sterek fic i read last year I think. Stiles and Derek are both in college and Stiles is crazy about greek mythology - has some of the stuff tattooed on him. Derek is kind of closeted and maybe a little internally homophobic but is crazy about Stiles. Stiles has some Dark Things that happened to him back in BH.....Eventually Derek gets him a ticket to go to Greece? Any ideas? Thank you in advance!

I think these two are asks for the same fic, if not I seperated them in a. and b. so let me know the latter if they are not the same.

53.

Hello, sorry I have another ask. I'm looking for a fic where werewolves are known and the hale family is alive. Stiles has to spend time with every member of the pack to determine compatibility I think? They all dislike him. Laura hates him because they had a previous encounter and she bruises him. It's a sterek fic I think. Thanks!

54.

there's a fic i read years ago about stiles and derek both being accountants and working together. i think stiles was a new employee? possibly a student/graduate? sorry i dont have much information, its been years since i read it and i just randomly thought about it but cant find it

55.

Hey! I swear I got this Fic from y’all but I cannot find it now for the life of me. It’s a college AU where stiles rushes fraternities on a whim and meets Boyd. Boyd is a legacy for Derek’s fraternity and joins them, Stiles ends up rushing and joining Scott’s fraternity. There’s a whole bunch of pranking that ensues including Stiles stealing Derek’s pledge paddle... it’s a fantastic fic but I can’t find it

56.

hi!!! i was wondering if you know the fic where the pack finds actual wolf cubs and decides to raise them??? i remember it being a WIP and the wolves names were sköll and haiti (?). btw: i love this blog so much 😭😭💝

57.

hi! I’ve been looking for a fic where stiles (for a reason that I forget) pretends to be gay and ends up dating Derek while still pretending to be gay and then actually falls for Derek in the end. I can’t seem to remember what it’s called and I really wanna reread it. Hope you can find it!

58.

Hi, I’m wondering if you could help me find a fic. One where Derek had to sacrifice his love for Stiles to keep his family alive (some sort of curse on him to make him fall out of love) and magic!Stiles does everything to break the curse? If you know it please help

59.

Hi! I’m looking for a Sterek fic on Ao3 where the day after Stiles and Derek finally go forward in their relationship this random ass guy shows up, claims he’s an old friend of Derek’s from New York and convinces the whole pack, minus Stiles, too. From what I remember he used their names to place a spell on them to control them. Derek attacks Stiles then kicks him out of the group, Lydia shows up and helps Stiles break the spell because she’s queen, and they get the guy arrested. Plz help?

60.

Hey guys no pressure but theres been a fic stuck in the back of my head for months and I can’t find it. What I remember is that the pack are in a bar when a siren does a siren thing and everyone in the bar is under his spell and it was something d&s could resist only because they were truely in love. Sorry if this doesn’t make sense, English is hard for a dyslexic

62.

Hey!! First of all...... thank u so much this is always so helpful..... Second of all, I can’t remember the name and hopefully you can help?? It’s Sterek, it’s not an AU. Derek leaves and moves to Montana? Colorado? Something like that and coincidentally Stiles ends up going there for college and slow build???? And knowing these boys, some Angst™️

63.

UGH!! Can you help? Stiles goes to stay with Derek in Brazil?

64.

HELP, goin crazy looking for fic I wanna reread, Remember tons specific odd details. Listing them w/ hopes someone knows what I'm taking about! ABO adjacent, Stiles heat is called a wetting, Stile's dad gives his hand away only cuz its good alpha Derek, marital/mate tradition w/ fancy ornate bathtubs, Stiles has skirt w/ embroidered list of his skills on it, Derek bad a verbalized emotions. Regency era. Stiles has a miscarriage w/ lot of self blame. Issac is Derek's ward since he's a kid. Aaah?!

70.

Hello I'm trying to find a fic where when Stiles was young (and with the help of Lydia or Scott) did a spell to never find his soulmate. Like it was: he will have blue eyes, no green and brown; he will be strong enough to lift a car; he will play cello. The point of the spell being to not find him. Later he meet Derek and freaks out because he is perfect (multicolored eyes, werewolf strength...). Please help me find it! Thanks

72.

I am looking for a fic that starts with Stiles and Derek researching but then Stiles gets turned on and him and Derek end up hooking up. It's a 5+1 fic

73.

Hi! Can you help me find the fic where Stiles, Sheriff and a few other people from town were held hostage by werewolves(?) but also some humans I think and they were planning to escape but stiles said they should stay put. And at the end or towards the end Derek bursts in as a full wolf and stiles has to talk him down so he’ll shift back and the people who held him hostage know him as one of the most dangerous in the Hale pack.

76.

Hi Mod(s)! I am currently looking for a fic about magic Stiles. I don't remember any of the pairings, but I vividly remember a conversation between Stiles, Allison, and Lydia. To prove that his magic is real, Stiles sets his lacrosse stick on fire. Allison is prejudiced toward magic and says that Stiles could probably light a house on fire, and Stiles responds that he could, but then he would die of organ failure. Thank you for your help! I appreciate the time and care you put into this blog!

77.

Hey, thanks for all you do. Do you perhaps know a fic that is basically a rewrite of season 1 but Stiles has a dog, and Derek gets jealous of the dog, honestly I've been searching everywhere for this

79.

I have a question

all I can remember is Alison is matriarch of the hunters, Stiles is sassy as fuck... I think he was magic. I believe there was a coffee shop showdown where Alison didn’t realize that Stiles was there... I can’t remember if it’s a recent fix or something I stumble across finding new docs to read.

Cheers

80.

Hello! I've been trying to comb my way through your blog and searching google but I haven't been able to find the fic I've been looking for so I hope you can help me (and I hope I'm not missing the post and making a duplicate)

The story is a sterek fic where Derek goes to stiles for help because hes developing a sexual problem and only trusts stiles to look up the answer. Stiles find out it's likely a mate thing and suggests derek figures out who hes been spending a lot of time with. Derek checks out and crosses off each of the pack before settling on Scott (because of his scent, thinking its what's triggering the response), turns out its stiles and that stiles has a very active libido and that's what's causing Derek's problem.

I swear I had it saved but I can't find it in any of my bookmarks. So, any help you can provide at finding the fic would be super helpful! Thank you!

81.

hi, hoping for some help finding a fic? from around 2015 - sterek (either established couple or they got together during +), there's a big bad that mind controls or possesses Derek and makes him stab stiles. then in the next part stiles trains with the argents and they're still trying to fight the big bad. there's an OC that stiles is jealous of bc she is able to bring Derek out of the mind control/possession when he wasn't able to. that's everything I remember. any help is appreciated! thanks!!

82.

There is this fic that I cannot remember the name of. It’s a very slow burn where stiles and Derek once they decide to be together, wait until 18 for kissing (before that they do Eskimo kisses) and then to like 21 or something for sex. It’s really sweet and cute and stiles is understanding of his trauma. It may have been a de-aged derek, cursed, bonded, or fake/pretend relationship? If you know, I will love you forever and ever +1.

83.

I'm looking for a long Teen Wolf fic. Here's what I remember.

Stiles left to join the FBI. Cut ties with Beacon Hill. Never looked back. Becomes an FBI wunderkind.

On behalf of the FBI he goes to some werewolf or Supernatural Council event with his unit. It's a complete surprise the Beacon Hill pack is there, they're all cold shouldering each other. Everyone has grown into their own, and the pack is beyond thriving. Derek is some high muckity muck.

Scrooby doo mystery plot stuff, ends in Sterek.

It's long and has some time stamp sequels.

Does this sound familiar? I've been looking for it to reread.

85.

I’ve been looking for this one sterek fic where stiles has a crush on Derek and Derek is like in high school while stiles is still a kid. And like stiles comes over to the Hale house to hang out with Derek and he catches Derek making out with a girl (maybe Kate) and it breaks his heart.

86. 

Hi :) I’m looking for a fic where Stiles and Derek fake being in a relationship when Derek has to go to some werewolf retreat. Stiles learns magick and can see strings that run between…mates, maybe? I think there’s also a toddler named Luca running around. Idk I remember reading this YEARS ago and would really like to find it again🥺

87.

Hey. I was wandering if you knew of a fic that’s kinda oldish. But stiles and Derek meet and they’re like mates or soulmates or something. Anyway stiles pack which is like Scott, Allison, Lydia, Danny etc have been cursed by a witch and I thinks they’re getting their power drained or something? They’re lived are in danger and Derek helps coz Stiles is his mate. Possible chance they’re all at college

88.

hi! I am looking for a sterek fic. stiles works two jobs and is really tired driving home one day and accidentally rear ends derek (who is a cop?) who then comforts him when he freaks out. it is abo au and the pack are included. thanks in advance!

89.

Do you know a ao3 fanfic about sterek where stiles just presented as an omega and gets taken by the government to be the omega in dereks military group?

90.

Hey I was wondering if you could find this fic for me? I’ve been looking lol night and I can’t find it anywhere. I know it’s on AO3 if that helps at all.

So it’s a royalty au and pretty much Derek is a werewolf and he invades stiles kingdom under peters orders but when Derek gets to the palace stiles father isn’t there as stiles has hidden him and he ends up marrying stiles and stiles is like tricky and stuff and there’s one scene where they are in the garden and dereks soldiers end up in a field of wolvesbane and gets really sick and stiles goes in to save him and he gets really mad at his guards for letting the wolf just walk into it. And Peter is bad and intends on killing derek and stiles realises this and tells him and Derek ends up killing him. I think it would be classified as enemies to lovers? I hope that’s enough info to go off of

Thank you so much in advance I really appreciate it if you find it!

91.

Hi I have been looking for this fic for literally years, all I remember is that stiles and allison had a kid together years before when they were both on the outs from the pack in LA, but they come back and scott and allison end up together again, and derek left beacon hills for years but comes back and settles but keeps leaving and stiles is upset—eventual sterek of course—and there’s something big going on supernaturally? And stiles gets intense migraines? Honestly it’s been so long I could have imagined this haha but I will be so grateful if someone has heard of this! Thank you for all you do!

92.

Hi there! I read a fic a looong time ago and unfortunately, I can't find it. What I remember, is that Stiles and Derek move out of Beacon Hills and also get their own dog. I also think at first Stiles was on his own and he moved away for himself, not necessarily bc he was pushed out of the pack, but that may have been in a different fic and I'm just mixing them up. So sorry for being so vague! I hope you may be able to find it

93.

hi! i'm searching for a fix where the pack goes on vacation and derek and stiles have to share a room. basically stiles thinks that derek doesnt like his scent and leaves the windows open and they freeze their asses off lol. i think it was in a cabin or something in the woods.

94.

Hiya! Not sure if you’re still taking SOS Fic Searches. I cannot for the life of me remember anything more than a sterek fic with stubborn Derek / Stiles where Jackson asked Stiles out on a date on Valentines Day knowing Derek would be jealous, but when Derek doesn’t step in immediately, after the “date” Jackson texts Stiles “you’ll thank me for this” and then kisses him on the porch and Derek wolfs out and chases him — thus allowing for them to discuss their feelings and get together (but also keep it a secret from the pack for being assholes and making group chats without them)

95.

i’m looking for a fic that starts with stiles and derek getting into a fender bender. it’s in a universe where everyone registers as a dom, sub, or switch. stiles is a sub and derek is a dom. derek works with scott. after the accident stiles brings derek cookies and brownies at work. derek is some sort of officer or something that works with dom/sub rights or something?? there’s a protest which stiles goes to and it gets violent and at another point someone vandalizes where derek works. stiles and jackson are friends and jackson coaches lacrosse. i’m sorry if this is vague but i appreciate the help!

96.

I'm trying to find a fic and I'm hoping you can help- I've read it before but can't for the life of me find it on Ao3, and it's killing me! It's one where Stiles is magical, Scott pretty much goes insane- and there is a super amazing scene towards the end where Stiles winds up magically taking Scott's wolf away and giving it to Melissa, who lovingly embraces it. It was a great read that I could have sworn I bookmarked :(

97.

Hi! I’m not sure if you can help me find a lost fic. But I thought I’d give it a shot and ask. I read this Sterek fic within the last couple of months and i remember very little unfortunately. Basically I remember that stiles was allowed to sleep in dereks bed and Derek was acting like that was no big deal, but everyone else in the pack thought it was a massive deal because wolves and scent and stuff and I remember one of the women in the pack was pregnant but no idea who. This is so convoluted and I’m sorry. If you can’t find it no worries! Thanks!!

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Its funny to me the blatant hypocrisy of the BoruSara and KawaSumi fandom and their sheer shamelessness of not even trying to conceal it

KawaSara first kicked off with chapter 28 which was centered around them and the start of their friendship, which happened in 2019.

Antis were quick to mock us for shipping them after only ONE interaction when they spent the whole chapter arguing [ignoring the end of it where she forgives and reaches out to him]

When Sarada opened up to Kawaki about her personal feelings towards her dad in the past and her experience with Naruto and envy towards Boruto, people said it was no big deal, that she didnt really open up to him and all she did was talk about Boruto and Naruto. In fact they said they never even had a conversation and only ever talk about Naruto and Boruto.

But then in 2021 when episodes 190-191 came out that focused primarily on Kawaki and Sumire, SUDDENLY having only one interaction was enough, SUDDENLY them arguing and not getting along for most of the episode was ok, SUDDENLY opening up about her personal history with her father was meaningful and significant, SUDDENLY their conversations werent just about Boruto and Naruto [which by their logic IS all they talked about]

After only TWO EPISODES of interaction between them, yes Im 100% accusing BoruSara because I have more than enough evidence to support it because thats how shameless they are they dont even try to hide it, after just 2 episodes the BoruSara jumped on the KawaSumi ship and started saying it was the definitive endgame along with BoruSara

These same people were once on the MitsuSumi and KawaHima train, do you really find it a coincidence they suddenly jumped onto KawaSumi when they only had 2 episodes of hostile interaction that has never been brought up or referenced ever again? those episodes have been treated largely as filler that literally had no impact on Kawaki whatsoever, whereas Sarada's interactions with him did.

You dont find it strange how quickly they switched up? wondering why that is? its simple, the BoruSara fandom, a very large majority of it, want to protect BoruSara at any cost, they tried it with MitsuSumi but that ship was dead on arrival, they then tried with KawaHima and pushed that for a while, but then they saw the golden opportunity to kill 2 birds with one stone thanks to SPs bullshit of including something that wasnt in the manga and completely contradicts it.

In short Kawaki and Sumire are BoruSara's biggest threats, so what better way to protect their ship and play keep away than by putting your two rivals together? do not be fooled, these people dont genuinely care about Kawaki or Sumire nor do they truly think their a good pairing, they simply want them out of the way and are trying to force them together even though Sumire has been confirmed to love Boruto TWICE.

I wont even go into the manga scenes between them because there IS none, Sumire is iliterally a bystander while the rest of the plot is just happening all around her, shes not a part of the plot shes WATCHING the plot. She's not Kawaki's nurse like fools try to say, shes literally KATASUKE'S ASSISTANT, Kawaki's ACTUAL nurse is Katasuke and Amado, Sumire just assists them and barely that since all we've seen her do is administer needles, thats it.

Yet these people insist their soulmates, why is that?

When the KawaSara fandom were excited about actual moments and development between them, Sarada reaching out to Kawaki after he had a ptsd episode, becoming his first friend, helping him to train, watching him training, comforting him when he was distraught over Naruto, opening up to him about something so personal to her that shes never told anyone else, working together to defeat Boro, Kawaki supporting her being captain over Boruto, risking his life and relying on Sarada to find the core, Sarada saving Kawaki from Boro, Sarada including Kawaki as a member of Team 7, Kawaki being grateful to Sarada for helping to save Naruto, both sharing the same idolization and admiration for Naruto, Sarada buying Kawaki flowers.

All of these meaningful moments and development of them as friends, nobody even was saying it was romantic, we just were admiring their friendship and potential to become more in the future.

What did they tell us? that we were reaching, those moments meant nothing, they hate eachother, Kawaki doesnt care about her, Sarada doesnt care about him, KawaSara is a crackship, it'll never happen theres been zero development and interaction.

Compare to KawaSumi

Kawaki distrusted Sumire and rejected her kindness by kicking the plate of food away, fought her for trying to force him back in captivity, Kawaki was bitten and nearly killed by Nue because she was careless and disobeyed orders, Kawaki says shes a monster like him and flees, Sumire eventually finds him after having a sudden change of heart now that she believes hes 'just like her', Sumire apologizes about Nue and then opens up about her father and how Naruto and Boruto saved her etc, the whole time Kawaki is dismissive of everything she says and says he doesnt trust her or anyone, he continues telling her to leave him alone and pulls away from her but she continues to push herself on him anyway and him continues to pull away and tries to leave, she stops him because hes still injured and offers to give him a painkiller but the sight of the needle triggers him and he starts choking her, she tries to reason with him to no avail, he loses all trust in her when police and T7 show up believing everything she said was a lie to stall him, leaves her knocked out on the ground, Sumire begs Naruto to go easy on him because she somehow thinks hes the same as her despite knowing nothing about him, and thats it, these interactions are never acknowledged ever again.

Yet guess which one got all the praise and called proof that their soulmates and destined to be endgame?

Dont try and fkin tell me KawaSara is a crackship when KawaSumi is the most forced ship in the new gen with nothing going for it, the feelings werent mutual and Kawaki actually DOESNT give af about Sumire, she's just there because she works for Katasuke, not because he wants her there, and she only volunteered to work with Amado because Kawaki is always with Boruto so she'd get to ask him about him, the boy she ACTUALLY likes and Kawaki KNOWS she likes.

Im tired of mfs tryna act like their ship is superior when its literally standing on twigs while KawaSara actually has a decent foundation and an established friendship. KawaSumi is not popular and didnt gain popularity because its a good ship, it gained it because the actual popular ship, BoruSara, jumped on board and started pushing it to protect BoruSara.

Yall not fkin slick, yall act like yall confident but you are the most insecure fandom in this mug, the thought of Kawaki getting closer to Sarada scared tf outta you which is why you cant even handle the thought of them even just being friends and wanna insist they hate eachother WHEN THEY DONT.

Your not foolin anybody, your scared to death and you know what? YOU SHOULD BE.

If theres one thing we all know is history always repeats itself in Naruto, Naruto was like Kushina and married someone like his dad, Sasuke was like Fugaku and married someone like his mother, Shikamaru was like his dad and married someone like his mother, Jiraiya and Obito who parreleled Naruto had an unrequited love that was never reciprocated just like Naruto's wasnt

So if Sarada is like Sakura and Boruto is like Naruto and Kawaki is like Sasuke, who's she most likely to end up with given the pattern thats been established in the series? why do you think antis keep sayin they dont wanna see NaruHina and SasuSaku 2.0 but had no problem with MinaKushi and FugaMiko 2.0? I rest my case.

[noona96n]

Omg I am sorry for sending that long ask, I write that at like 3 am after finishing my assignment so I was so sleepy lol

Anyways I was just saying that I do trust that Shu Yi’s love but I think that even if he does want to still have revenge, he still wants them to be together at the end if that makes.

The thing that makes doubt about the following plot is the pool scene, like idk if is going to happen as a joke like the bridge scene or is it going to be serious. What do you think?

Finally I think that they have to fix their communication and insecurities issues for their relationship to work because otherwise is going to still keep bringing conflict in the future.

They are both really obsessive with each other which can really be toxic (so glad is just fiction 🤡) so yeah they really have to solve their communication problems, really hoping season three is just about them being a married couple that work on fixing their insecurity issues so that they can be a happy family with many children and dogs lol.

Like I nee to seem them being dads, especially after seeing Shi De with his baby brother, he would be an amazing dad, he has such big dad vibes yk.

oh, i thought the bridge scene 2.0 is quite serious... i mean, it essentially revolves around Shu Yi & Shi De joking around, yes, but that scene was like a loaded gun where they had an honest conversation (for the 2nd time this season), and Shi De understanding that he’s forgiven by Shu Yi, and  they also addressed some of the underlying issues (but still not resolving it 100% lol)

i think, Shu Yi forgiving Shi De and Shi De finally understanding that he’s forgiven and fully believing that Shu Yi loves him and wants to be with him forever is a step toward building a healthier relationship. i think it’s a pretty big milestone all thing considered... it’s just that the scene was written to be light-hearted; maybe it was to balance out the deep, emotional conversation and implications that were taking place? idk 

@soundsaboutrighttumblr​ also think that the bridge scene 2.0 is quite serious as they wrote a textpost on it.

(also, i’ve been saying that Shu Yi has always wanted to forgive Shi De and i do think that’s true... Shu Yi loves Shi De too much to stay mad at him. and, as u’ve said, that’s bcs they’re so in love and so, so obsessed w/ each other and that’s def not healthy at all! but i wanna clarify that forgiveness doesn’t mean forgetting or condoning the wrongdoings that were done to him. the way i see it, Shu Yi forgiving Shi De is just Shu Yi coming to term that Shi De caused him pain and that he still loves Shi De despite all that pain, that he’s now willing to heal the pain & fix the fractures of their relationship, and he’s ready to move to a better future w/ Shi De)

as for the pool scene, i think it’ll be an affirmation of their affection for one another. it’ll probably be very sweet and not too heavy... and that’s the end of their struggles/doubt for one another (coming to a full circle of their relationship). they’ll probably have another honest conversation in S2EP5 in a more neutral ground (?) im not sure lol but i don’t think they’d “taint” the beginning of their relationship w/ “bad” vibes ya know? and i think the writer would want the pool scene to be sweet and romantic more than it is heavy and emotional. 

as for marriage, yes, yes, yes! i’ve always been preaching about it lol i need them to get married! i don’t think they’ll be able to have kids (as of now) bcs Taiwan doesn’t allow gay couples to adopt kids just yet... however, if one of them have kids prior to their marriage, then their partner can adopt the kids as their own! im also unsure if surrogacy is a legal thing in Taiwan so yeah... probably unlikely that we’ll be seeing little baby Shu Yi or Shi De running around.

im sure Shu Yi will spoil Oscar rotten tho ;3 bcs he’s sappy for his bf and he loves his bf’s mom to pieces haha also, i really wanna see when Shu Yi finally meets the blonde lady (which i’ve been saying is Shi De’s stepsister!) 

anon's initial ask:

i really don’t have anything to say about Shi De tbh like, he’s my favorite character but i can’t get into his headspace or understand his mindset. his love for Shu Yi is to great and i always end up going ‘who is Shi De if he’s not in love with Shu Yi?’ like i legit dk who Shi De is... loving Shu Yi is his identity and his direction in life. i know people is capable of that kind of emotion but don’t understand it. 

thanks for ur insights into Shi De! and thank you for sending in ur ask again! it was lovely to read what u have to say! 

also, if ure sending in more asks, please break them into more manageable length!