#anyways i am Soooo autistic about them

[nuke-expo]

in my head . convex r the peak queerplatonic partners . no one brings out the unhinged behaviour in one of them quite like the other, yk ? it’s gay as fuck though they’re not just friends they’re not lovers they’re just. convex . gay evil people . they would hit eachother with rocks but they have matching earrings . scar would shoot cub as hotguy with no remorse but when cub asked to buy his basement he didn’t hesitate to agree . u get it . they get eachother .

[purpurussy]

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[ruthlesslistener]

listen I am about as pro-abortion as anyone can be, but aborting a baby just because they have Down's Syndrome should be fucking illegal. If you're someone who actively wants and is trying for a child, then you should be mentally, financially, and emotionally willing to provide for that child for the rest of your life if something goes wrong- because that is what being a good parent takes, and many many things can go wrong. Down's Syndrome is not at all close to the worst thing that can happen to a baby, and people with it can grow up to be happy, healthy, content adults- they just need a little bit of extra help and a different approach to raising them. If you just want a 'normal' child so that you can boot them out of your house when they turn 18 and have them around to take care of you when you're older, then you don't actually want children, you want an investment. A doll, not a family member. Not a person.

[hellfireeddiemunson]

i have bad melted soup brain today and i hate it

[cringelordofchaos]

craig is so fucking emotionally repressed and afraid of being vulnerable and open about his feelings and bottles them up way too much until he cant handle it and it never gets resolved i love him

he thinks he "is in control of his emotions", but in reality it seems like he's moreso blocking them out or ignoring them, or trying to rationalize the situation. (at least that's what it seems to be the case judging by the fact that's how he tried to help tweek feel better in Put It Down.) But it's literally canon that his primary weakness is communication so its definitely moredifficult for him to express his emotions unless he burts them out (like in his argument with tweek in put it down.)

love his relationship with tweek, it really forces him to confront an important part of life he is shown avoiding - emotions. and by talos it is difficult for him but he's learning.

though at the same time he's overwhelmed and overburdened, since tweek is pretty emotional and sometimes potentially clingy (due to him being naturally insecure of himself and somewhat relying on craig for encouragement), this might be perceived as a threat for craig who's practically afraid of emotions or vulnerability, and probably doesnt know how to manage them the best.

this is best shown (but not resolved) in Buddha Box where Cartman says the buddha box can help him block out anxiety or other people that may overburden him. he begins to talkabout tweek and feeling like hes always asking for his attention. so he just tries blocking everything out instead of confronting this or communicating this to tweek. its pretty interesting how they practically made it canon that he actually struggles with anxiety, despite him being the monotone, deadpan and calm one, especially when compared to tweek. im pretty disappointed they didnt resolve this by the end, but boy am i glad they showed the part of him that struggles as much as others. from what we know, craig is really not that close to many people, or much things, besides stripe, his guinea pig... so given his difficulties with communicating and accepting his feelings accompanied by the fact that he isnt and never was close to that many people, i dont blame him for finding it difficult to exactly manage his relationshiip with tweek, especially as tweek is really emotional himself. and craig does care, a lot, and does want tweek to be happy, and he tries helping him by simply being logical and coming up with solutions, rather than thinking emotionally, but sometimes that's simply not enough. and he does learn that in put it down but sort of starts struggling again in buddha box, except this time instead of learning to be emotinally vulnerable for tweek, he shuts himself off from everyone. though hopefully one day he learns to be more open, because that's pretty important in general but especially in a relationship, i think.

eurghhhh they complete each other so well. they are so different which does prove itself to be an obstacle but also is important for both of them, because they learn soo much from each other. Tweek learned how to be more confident in himself 'in a way he never has before' thanks to craig. and tweek is helping craig learn how to manage emotional relationships and life better and understand emotions in general.

Im not sure where exactly his emotional suppression comes from. It could be due to his family being more closed off. it could be due to him possibly being autistic. it could be due to both. it could be due to neither. but i love him nonetheless.

anyway sorry for small rant. the post was initially just gonna be one sentence but i felt like elaborating on what i meant. i love craig tucker soooo much. he makes me soooo happy.

[popping-greenbean]

hello I am here to appreciate your art thoroughly like I’ve been meaning to for weeks and am finally actually doing here we go 

this is my favorite of your recent works and the only thing I can think about when this image is in front of me is (well, my brain turns to mush in awe mostly) but THE SHAPES. i will now point out all my favoritest little details because I’m obsessed w your art

first we have poofs. these shapes make my brain so happy it’s like my favorite shape ever and that’s why I love Venti’s design so much AND YOU JUST MAKE THAT EVEN BETTER!!!! 

like just look at that perfect curve!! it’s so pointy in it’s roundness and it’s so voluminous and just the epitome of *poof*

your clothing fold lines are also incredible the convey so much while being so simple it makes me rrrrhwhrhbwbsbnsnfnf this sleeve in particular

and can we talk about how you do the corset shape. PLEASE can we talk about it my brain goes nuts for it because like corsets are stiff and they bend strongly AND THE ANGLE OF THIS LINE!!!

ITS SO SHAPED!!!!!! and the crease I can do distinctly imagine this sharp bend making in the material of the corset uuuuuuuuwhdhsnnfndnf urgh I love art so much I love artists so much I love thinking about art and shapes so m

next I have to focus on how amazingly you shape legs and your anatomy in general because. just look how gorgeous????

the shape of the knee. the smooth transition from knee all the way down to ankle the way the ankle bones are shaped, EVERYTHING. I am obsessed. I am GOING to do a study of your style one day I swear your style makes me so happy and your anatomy and how you stylize your shapes is everything I want in my art which I why I have so much to say 

anyway a moment to appreciate this little guy and especially this shape 

yes it may be just one line and a scribbly one at that but it is so. shaped (apparently that is the only word in my vocabulary but like what other way is there to describe it. it’s like a really nice texture but for my eyes it makes my autistic brain so very happy) and also his eyes and his face in general look so cute and squishy here I want to bite his cheeks

and can we take a moment to talk about these wings. I am in so much awe at how gorgeously shaped and detailed these are I want to stare at them for literal hours I’m not even joking I absolutely could and would

I’m also soooo obsessed with your expressions grins like this one are my favorite ever I swear and yours are so shshhdjsncjfkwjfnfnf

okay I only have room for one more image on this ask and I’m saving it so I’ll just mention how much I love the way you shape Venti’s braids without an image to accompany it. they’re so flowy and you can tell they are actively being blown by the wind at all times and I love with all my heart did i mention I love your art

OKAY!! last image is to mention my probably favorite piece of yours of all time you have no idea how often I think about this image I have so much to say about it

this Heizou spread right here. THIS!!!! IT MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME!!!!! what I adore about your style is that you can so easily do both very squishy chibis and more realistic and more detailed in anatomy and stuff while still being very stylized and it’s so clearly the same artist and ough. I want that so bad when I stumbled on you it was insane because somehow your art is everything I wanted for my style (mostly in terms of anatomy and expressions and things you are SO cool) and now I can study your art!!!! (also I don’t want to sound like I’m gonna go copy your art style I just love a lot of the elements you put in your style and I really want to learn from you and how you stylize so :] thanks for being on the internet where I can see your amazing work because every time I do I’m reminded of how much I love art!!!!! and I have so much love and appreciation for you you have no idea) also that shoe is gorgeous and so shaped and your hands are so pretty they make me want to trace the shapes with my eyes and make weird little gremlin noises in happiness 

alright that has been me thoroughly appreciating your art!!!!! I will continue to adore you probably from afar and through way too deranged tags because I’m shy but anyway one last I love you and your art okay bye

HELLO I OPENED THIS UP AND I WAS SO SURPRISED AT HOW IN DEPTH THIS IS HI THIS IS THE SWEETEST THING I'VE EVER EXPERIENCED????? WHAT OMG THANK YOU SO SO MUCH ??

no bc like literally all the things you've pointed out are some of the things i especially love to do when drawing characters!!! i love folding and creasing fabric to emphasize a pose, i love the complex elegance of muscle shapes on bone structure of the body, i love drawing facial expressions!!! and your wonderful detailed remarks being done on a page of venti drawings i did makes me so happy too frfr because even though i've sort of moved away from genshin-posting here, he's a character that i've really loved and loved to draw since the start, and all the things you've commented on from this page are little things that i had at some point made conscious decisions to do when i draw venti in particular fjdjhghh little things like the hair and clothing never falling straight down bc i want it to seem like hes always moving or drifting or theres always a little breeze surrounding him! and giving him rlly big smiles and expressive faces because of how wide his range of emotions is in the story and his voices !! and wings and feathers are things that i'm constantly doodling and messing around with in my sketchbook so it .im just :)) reading this has made me feel very warm and fuzzy inside and like actually i cant thank you enough for taking the time to just?? do all this??? ;o; not what i expected to see today

[ceasarslegion]

The DNI that made you do math to use it?? 👀👀👀

Youre the first one who asked, so you get the answer.

This person was one of the other two weirdos from the Half Life RP discord server i teased at in this post earlier this week:

Once again, i want to disclaimer that this is not a callout post, I will not be giving any details that could be used to identify this person, and I will not be posting screenshots this time because they are still active on tumblr afaik. I dont want this to be used to bully anybody, this is just meant to be my personal experience with my specific side of this story. You can DM me directly or throw in a private answer request in an ask if you want screenshots, but only people i already know and trust not to cyberbully them will get a direct link to the DNI. The person in the story I linked is no longer active anywhere online, which is why I provided screenshots in that story.

And before i lay out the DNI details, I just want to say... there is a FINE LINE between requesting accommodations for a mental illness and infantilizing yourself. I can handle the former just fine, I will do all I can to help, but if you're a grown-ass adult babying yourself and then going "waa im autistic i cant do anything" i have ZERO tolerance for that. Buddy, I'm autistic, and I'm telling you to grow the fuck up.

Yeah, this person was one of those. They were over 18, and had public breakdowns about how everything was just soooo hard for them and everybody else was being problematic and ableist for *checks notes* asking them to wait in a line that was a little long for a new phone plan. Real example, they were screaming and crying in the vent channel because the line at a verizon store was a little long, and implying their father was ableist for asking them to wait for 20 minutes. Buddy, there are some things you JUST need to deal with in the real world regardless of whatever mental soup you have going on. If your autism is that bad, the solution is looking into things like noise canceling headphones, sunglasses, etc. But the world will not stop having lines that you just need to wait in sometimes because you dont like them.

I know that sounds harsh, but they werent exactly the type of person im willing to give the benefit of the doubt to. The majority of their problems were entirely their own fault, and they were clearly enabling and feeding the harder parts of their autism rather than doing anything in the way of learning to cope with it. I am terrified of spiders, like full on panic-inducing terrified of them, but I throw hands at them instead of running or freezing up. One time, I posted a photo of this gigantic-ass spider that was in my dorm room after I screamed and squashed it with my heavy duty winter outdoor patrol boots (im a security guard, not a cop, before anyone draws the wrong conclusion from that), and they proceeded to vague about me IN THE SAME SERVER about how problematic and insensitive i am for triggering their arachnophobia. My brother in christ when did you ever say you were triggered by spiders? Do you expect me to read your fucking mind?

Another instance was when they asked for the role to access the nsfw channel. They were over 18, so it was granted. They then got mad at us whenever we got horny on main in the sex channel because they were only there for the dirty jokes (that were posted in the main server anyway because none of us consider JOKES to be inappropriate). They literally asked for the sex channel role and then claimed we were being problematic because we talked about sex in the sex channel when they were uncomfortable with sex. And they had borderline puritan attitudes around sex. They acted like sex was icky and gross and should never be discussed around them lest it corrupt their pure innocent soul. Yeah thats your own fault chief, grow the fuck up.

Some lightning round stories: they broke up with their boyfriend purely because he liked "irredeemable media" and when said boyfriend said they were being a total dick for that, they proceeded to whine and cry that he was actually being abusive and terrible for being upset that he was dumped over the fucking movies he liked of all things. They once sat outside their little siblings recital and complained that their parents were problematic for not charging their switch enough because it died at the same recital they couldnt be assed to sit in for because "waaaa its too boring and thats bad for my autism." Didnt even TRY, just sat outside the door playing switch and then complained that their parents didnt charge their switch enough. Can you not plug something into a wall your damn self.

Needless to say, i didnt like them very much. I can handle legitimate accommodations, but they were just so self-infantilising that they gave the rest of us a bad name. Your autism is not an excuse to act like a fucking baby. You are not made of porcelain, you will not shatter at the slightest touch, being uncomfortable is a part of life youre going to have to deal with. Its not your autism at this point, youre a grown-ass adult who throws a tantrum when the line is a little long. GROW. UP.

Now that that rants over, lets get into what the DNI on their blog was like, because this behavior from them that I just outlined really contextualizes it.

Their DNI had two tiers. The first was "red flags," which meant that if you met any one of them you apparently werent allowed to interact. Of this included your typical nazis, pedophiles, terfs, and... beastars fans. No word of a lie. Being a fan of beastars was apparently just as bad as being a nazi. What did my boy legosi do to you? (Side note: i am forever enamored with how these people seem to think that theres people out there who both self-identify as nazis and would respect a DNI. I didnt even respect that DNI. I didnt interact with them because i thought they were a terrible person, but i did not take that DNI seriously. I was openly posting about beastars in the same server LMAO) and it wasn't just beastars, there was a ton of media that i didnt even know had discourse around them that they listed as red flags if you ever touched. Amazing.

The second tier was "yellow flags" which meant that you werent allowed to interact if you met any 3 or more of them. Here was mostly media, including homestuck fans, neil gaiman fans (WHAT DID NEIL DO TO YOU), and harry potter iirc. (WHY DID YOU SINGLE OUT BEASTARS?? WHAT DID MY BOY LEGOSI DO TO YOU) my favourite part of this though, was that republicans were listed under yellow flags. Apparently its worse to be a beastars fan than a republican. We arent gonna fucking make it

[sh5]

all the addiction resources on this site are spread by neolibs who don’t truly understand discrimination against addicts and still think some kind of come-to-jesus moment is what an addict needs to break out.

like, you wouldn’t post, “if you are stimming and you have social anxiety, YOU NEED TO ACCEPT THAT YOU’RE AUTISTIC AND HAVE A PROBLEM. HERE ARE RESOURCES FROM A GOVERNMENT THAT HATES YOU. HERE’S A WEBMD ARTICLE ON HOW AUTISM IS YOUR FAULT AND NOT GENETIC. FIX YOURSELF (because I am frankly morally bothered by the autism epidemic in my peers)!!!”

but people post and reblog posts like that about addiction, often, and honestly, it’s a club of reblogs of people complaining about how teenagers are soooo stupid today for getting hooked on one of the most addictive, most easily accessible substances on earth. don’t y’all drink caffeine? eat/drink sugar? anyways.

it’s just a circle jerk of chronically online people patting themselves on the back because they’re not currently an addict (and they are, they’re on an addiction forming medication or at least caffeine, most likely), that they, unlike their peers, have resisted temptation. it’s, again, like the government, like other anti-addict sources, the conception that addiction can be avoided with the right steps, that addicts chose to be addicted, that you can be too smart to become an addict. these posts aren’t directed at addicts, they’re directed at the friends of addicts, ones who aren’t quite over a literal cop telling them that they’ll go to hell if they touch a joint in middle school. these friends are less socially conscious than they’d like to think, evidenced by the fact that they believe interventions through tumblr to literal strangers are A: effective B: respectful/kind/right to the addicts themselves.

[lostmykeysie]

I have a super long comment for you about the Horcrux Hunt bcs I want to comment every chapter I read but I forget bcs I download the ao3 doc to my books app okay here we go!!!!

Agahdgdjd I just finished reading it and I loved it soooo much. Remus and regulus friendship is EVERYTHING to me. The platonic kissing!!???? As an Aspec gal this means so much to me bcs ahhhdghdhd and let’s be real those two deserved a little song after all that tension and then just cute little kisses bcs they both need a good loving friendly kiss aww. And I loved the flirtiness bcs I just know those two would constantly have such good banter and get along and I SOBBED when reg became a part of the lupin family. Also. HOPE LUPIN.!?!??? The best Hope I ever did read about. She is amazing and now the only version of Hope I accept ty very much.

ALSO also I love regulus so much and love your characterization of him and seeing his growth. Also I am autistic and I headcanon reg as autistic and there were so many moments in the way you wrote him that fit in with that that made my heart so happy UGH and some moments where I felt like he’s aspec of some sort like aro specially and wow reg my boy <3

And ugh Remus and his feels over being accused as the traitor??? Rough but also I love the angst. His complicated feelings about himself and others and I can’t wait to see him sort shit out and start healing bcs he deserves to heal and be ANGRY and sad and everything. Remus my best boy <3

Also I’m just getting into jegulus so I’m super excited to start reading the missing link!!! The way james is already slowly creeping on him agshdjd I can’t wait to see it all happen.

OKAY THATS ALL I LOVE U AND UR WORK AND U ARE AMAZONG OKAY BYE GONNA GO READ THE MISSING LINK NOW HEHEHEH :))))

Oh PS I loved Remus getting to scream and go off on dumbledore that was amazing and more people should get to scream at him.

i always download long fics to my kindle so i feel you baby!!!!!

putting my boring reply below the cut xxxxx

aspec babes deserve all the platonic kisses they want and deserve and they deserve them all xxxxx this includes me so WHY is no one kissing me platonic smooch smooch xxxxx i have said this before and i know i haven’t written it but reggie is definitely aspec xxxx

regus friendship means soooo much to me i have also said this before and i will absolutely say it again but like. i am obsessed with them. they are BEST friends. forever. they are something special that’s friends and family and more and i love them forever and they will always be besties in every single fic i write for the rest of my LIFE. and they FLIRT and i LOVE IT and hope is such a queen i feel like she deserves her own fic i also want to hug her i bet she would give the best hugs ever i bet she’s the only person regulus is 100% comfortable having those long hugs with that last arguably too long and it gets weird (this is how i feel about most hugs)

omg so i’m answering as i read so YES i AGREE i think there’s a tiny bit of me that is accidentally being a bit self insert with reg LOL ANYWAY i think we see reg very similarly xxxx

on the traitor point… a few people have said ‘how did he even forgive them in the end’ and i think that is so valid like to get over a betrayal like that from your closest friends would be so so so hard and i tried to reflect that and not just make it an easy fix because oh my god how is that not in the back of your mind always just whispering all the time??? like getting over that would be a JOURNEY so yeah it got a bit angsty haha but i feel like if anything it could have been worse it could have been unresolveable !!!! but it will never be because i am a happily ever after boy ONLY

i am a bajillion years late to this i’m really sorry i’m a pants person who is 99% offline BUT thank you so much for your consolidated comment it’s so sweet and has made me smile all lame and gross xxxx i hope you enjoy / enjoyed TML too i hope that it gave you the healed remus and the jegulus you deserve and maybe some giggles hopefully xxxxxxx thanks for being nice to me lol i honestly am so weird and lame and awkward but kiss kiss i am blushing like a loser xxxxxxxxx

[b-blushes]

ARGH i have thoughts r.e. last post but i cannot put them into words..... the autism of it all.......... :P

it's like. connected statements that i can't even phrase in a way that encompasses my whole thoughts and feelings hahahaha. like. i know i'm autistic and have no doubt about it, and i see a lot of 'autistic stuff' for want of a better word in me. also i often CAN'T see it in me in terms of 'am i behaving autistically (often derogatory)'. like i struggle to 'see' the things that other people clearly can see about me. (exceptions for some stuff but u know). and i didn't see *his* 'autism' nearly AT ALL due to this specific lens/lack of my own ability.... my lack of autism-dar........ like everyone was like 'waow laios is sooooo autistic' and i watched the show and was like. where. except for like the odd place. but that is NOT to say that he ISN'T!!! it's that he feels so familiar to me that i can't see where he's 'going wrong' if that makes literally any sense??? :P

a lot of the characterisation stuff in general about that show that i saw on here passed me by and i'm soooo interested in that. how much is what i saw here fandom interpretation and exaggeration so of course i didn't see it in the source material and how much is my own. like. lack of media evaluation skills or whatever. AND HOW MUCH OF IT IS AUTISM STYLE HAHAHAHAHA! I was expecting to feel so blorbo about him and i did but not to the extent that i imagined! (cannot stress enough that i do not think that it (the character depth) doesn't exist, nor am i saying that they're not rich and varied characters. i am commenting on my own thing :P)

ANYWAY it would be neat to read the manga and see if i read him differently that way rather than animated.

gosh i love stories!!!!!!!!

[woman-respecter]

omg i know this is a couple days later but i found your post about the people id’ing as autistic now and THANK YOU. it legit makes me feel… i’m not sure i have words for the emotions? for context i was diagnosed with autistic disorder in the dsm-4(!) when i was a little kid (which was then updated to asd when the dsm-5 was released), so i am like, Certifiably autistic. and it’s making me feel shrimp emotions that the same people who have either outright bullied me for being autistic or who have said Incredibly ableist things if they weren’t outright bullying me (again, specifically about my autism) starting to id as autistic now. the thing is i really do think a lot of them are actually autistic but they’re so incredibly misinformed and taking up so much space online it’s making me feel uncomfortable. the amount of misinformation makes me angry—i can’t really engage with autistic communities anymore because so many of the “symptoms” and experiences described are just symptoms of adhd, or trauma, or a thing that some autistic people do but that isn’t specifically a trait or symptom of autism, and actual autistic symptoms and experiences are being uwu-ified to the point that they’re almost unrecognizable. for example, i don’t know how to explain to people that meltdowns aren’t minor episodes of mutism/crying/something you feel slightly embarrassed about having in public, they’re something where if you have one in public, there’s a good chance the cops will be called on you—they’re SCARY! and i feel guilty about saying and feeling this because i’m pro self-dx and like i said, i really do think a lot of these people are actually autistic and just subclinical or with almost negligible support needs. but i feel uncomfortable expressing this… because the same people who i’m concerned about are the same people who bullied me and i’m sure they will again if i say anything. 🙃 sorry for the rant but tl;dr thank you for making that post, it made me feel seen haha ❤️

ugh im sorry you’ve had to deal with that shit, it makes me soooo mad. and ur being so much nicer about it than i would be bc i legit do not feel like these normies have the right to id as autistic for these very Normal People traits after bullying the fuck out of us real weirldos. yes i know that thats a mean and irrational thing to say but its how i feel. and i hate the loss of community that its resulted in bc autistic spaces are now filled with these tiktok girlies i cannot relate to at all. anyways im glad that i could at least make u feel seen, sending u my love 🫶

[ashleywool]

This is what I mean when I say "nothing is weird in New York."

That said, the phrases "boa constrictor" and "Upper West Side apartment" should not ever exist together in the same sentence.

On an unrelated note, I had a lot of bloodwork done recently. My blood pressure has been hovering around 90/60 for most of my adult life, and now it's in the hypertension zone, my triglycerides and fasting blood glucose are way higher than it makes sense for a non-diabetic who's never been overweight, and my cortisol levels are astronomical in ways that can't just be chalked up to being autistic or living in a world where boa constrictors randomly show up in NYC kitchen sinks.

Soooo, based on those things and a lot of other things, I think I have Cushing's disease and I think the culprit is a pituitary tumor.

Just feel like I should put that in writing somewhere. If I'm wrong, I'm sure there will be education in there worthy of sharing, and if I'm right, then I'll be gloating about it for the rest of my life.

Because it will be the second time in the last two years I've successfully diagnosed myself with something obscure and uncommon that doctors would later confirm to be accurate.

The first time was when I was experiencing cytokine storms after recovering from COVID in late 2022--my vitals were back to normal, but every time I stopped taking prednisone, my nervous system was gaslighting me into feeling like I still had symptoms. That usually only happens with cases far more severe than mine (mine was awful, but not hospitalization-awful, thank you Pfizer), but guess which population has a tendency towards abnormal immune responses? I felt like a conspiracy theorist when I suggested this to my PCP but she was like "that totally makes sense, try one more round of prednisone, that should do it," and IT DID.

Ever since then, if I'm looking up symptoms or conditions, I tag "and autism" onto the search terms. Which kinda sucks sometimes. Because research has suggested there IS a correlation between autism and pituitary abnormalities too, and I am interested in digging deeper into it...

But even in non-clinical sources, people always write these things as if they never think autistic people are actually going to read them. It's always "if you're a parent or caregiver and you observe this," and never "if you're an autistic person and you experience this." It's got the same energy as the research I've done about food intolerances in cats--Tex has had some gastrointestinal issues recently, but he can't TELL me what he's feeling or speculate about the source of his symptoms or do research on his own. I think the world is starting to understand that autistic people are not cats, but sometimes I wish the healthcare sector would catch up faster.

Anyway. Uh.

WHO IS KEEPING A FREAKING BOA CONSTRICTOR ON THE ISLAND OF MANHATTAN I HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS AND ALL OF THEM ARE "WHY"

[autisticbillpotts]

non autistics literally arent allowed to say shit about autism

Ive had allistic friends who are otherwise neurodivergent (meaning in these cases adhd which is soooo similar to autism aint it? no!) do things like mock me for giving an apparently nonsensical reason that I cant do something requiring gross motor function, mock me for using stim toys despite claiming they'd be fine if I needed to use other more Mature methods of sensory regulation, make fun of my self injurous meltdowns, make repeated comments about how childish weird and useless I am and appear to every passing stranger, act as though Im crazy or stupid for getting overwhelmed in unfamiliar situations, treat the autism diagnostic critera quiz as a fun game for who is the ~most autistic~, and claim that autism as a classification is a redundant grouping of traits despite the fact that it helps people to be able to name their symptoms and relate to others who actually get it (and the large amount of things that occur concurrently with it that they are always completely unaware of when I bring them up so really not informed enough to make that claim huh!)

anyway. this is why I feel more connected to people with psychosis/pds/etc than anyone with adhd who claims to be an autism ally

[saetoru]

hiiii i hope you know how much i love ghe way u write haitham !!! also sooo true haitham is definitely autistic!! (me too haitham me too) i think u get how haitham is actually a quite kind and selfless person despite people think hes arrogant, egoistical and such but like if u read some if his voicelines like the one where hes asked what concerns he has he says smth not about him but how people tend to hurt themself and like cmon would an egoistical person have that concern??? also he doesnt look down on anyone its just he knows how capable he is and like ughhhh i feel like ur writing is a breath of fresh air cause like some people make it seem like hes some arrogant dude BUT HES NOT HES JUST AUTISTIC GUYS like when people say they dont like him and its just traits that autistic people usually have…. anyway thank you for sharing ur writing i love going through ur haitham tag it makes my day

HELLO HI I LITERALLY READ THIS LIKE 3 TIMES AND MY SMILE GOT SOOOO BIG EACH TIME IM GONNA TRY NOT TO RAMBLE AS I ANSWER THIS

but omg yesyesyes i agree he’s got so much pointing towards him being autistic and ppl will bash so many things ab him and it makes me so sad but also i’m like … maybe u ppl just don’t like traits that tend to describe autistic ppl idk … BUT i read so many fics of him being autistic and i see kaveh having adhd a lot in fics where they’re written to be neurodivergent and i think the authors i’ve read from so far have done such a good job of writing them and yeah. u get it. he’s definitely got sensory issues i know this is so real and true in my heart

AND HE IS SOOOOOOO KIND. i think ppl gloss over the fact that al-haitham doesn’t look down at anyone so much like everything about this man is so disciplined. so disciplined. like someone of his intelligence in a nation like sumeru could do sooo much bad but he literally just wants to have simple life where he goes to work and goes right home HE JUST WANTS PEACE. and his voice lines IF PPL WOULD JUST READ THEM. like the one about when ppl read difficult and abstruse books and then he says “jk i don’t enjoy watching ppl struggle lol” AND YES. THE ONE WHERE HE BASICALLY WOES ABOUR HOW PPL MAKE THEIR LIVES MORE DIFFICULT THAN IT NEEDS TK BE. he’s so caring by nature and i feel like even he doesn’t even understand that to some extent like i think he sees himself as a practical guy who just wants everyone to have peace for the sake of practicality. BUT HE ALSO JUST. CARES. YOU KNOW ?????????? they way it’s just canon that he’s misunderstood by ppl at the akademiya and he just doesn’t bother to correct them bc he doesn’t care to. THROWS UP HES SOOOOOOOOOO LOVELY I WISH MORE PPL WOULD SEE IT. i cannot tell u how many fics i read and then have to close bc. they just. THEY MAKE HIM SO ARROGANT AND MEAN BUT ARROGANCE =/= CONFIDENCE. he’s aware of his capabilities okay :( he’s not some condescending know it all. im just rly picky ab the way he’s written fjsjdjf so then i’m like. ok. i gotta write the content i wanna see 😔

but omg i’m rly glad you read and like my haitham writing sometimes i get carried away and make it so like…self servicing w the way i write him and the dialogue and then i get embarrassed to post it skfjsjfn but i’m very excited u like it I AM KISSINF U ON THE MOUF and also i am kissing ur brain for understanding him

[piastrinorris]

okay i posted photos already but i wanna talk about the weekend so here is a summary: (this is a long post bc am on mobile i am so sorry)

1. FUCK showmasters. money-grabbing, delusional, godawful cunts. i'm glad he only had a 2-event contract with them, but i hope it doesn't put him off future UK cons

2. i got to tell him how much luke's character means to me, that he portrayed an autistic person very sensitively and properly which is tough to get right, that his range is phenomenal and i'm glad he's getting the love he deserves. i don't wanna be That Person and say he wanted to hug me but was ~forbidden~ to, but his arms definitely moved out before he looked at the staff member and then instead reached out to take my hand. he said "thank you, love, your words mean the world to me" and holy SHIT his hands are the SOFTEST THINGS IN THE WORLD!!!!!!! this was also day 1 so he was in the cardigan look and he looked So Ralph i couldn't keep it together lmao

3. when i tell you this man was a CONVEYOR BELT for photo ops. we all joked that you could have put a cardboard cutout in there and it would be exactly the same. same face in all of them and everything. he really seemed done with it all then

4. the panel was. well. about the same as any other. same questions as always were asked. same answers were given. i think bc music as a topic is so opinion based he's been actively deflecting questions about his personal music taste but my GOD did people push that anyway. poor man went into hysterics when someone said to say hi to wes, he was so done with the day. and oh my GOD he hates that panel host guy LMAO his face would be so sweet and gentle when he was talking to the fans and then that guy would open his mouth and jq's face would DROP it was so funny

5. i haven't even mentioned!!!! i made so many friends!!! mostly by wearing my djo hoodie everywhere lol. joe squared supremacy <3 but yeah. i've missed the con experience of just telling someone you like something about them and then spending an entire weekend attached to their hips lol

6. day 2 was SOOOO much calmer. i think bc it was announced super late and also he was only there for half a day. HE HAD A LIL SCRUFF OF BEARD 🥰🥰🥰 and he seemed so much happier. like actual "hello! so nice to see you! how have you been?!" like you see how he is at most cons. he wasn't like that yesterday lmao

7. going off that, when i said "oh you know, just pressing on" he frowned and said "well i hope it gets better!" i said "oh it's great! i've had a good weekend, i hope you have too!" and he went "its been... fucking... lovely!" but the "fucking" was said under his breath in a tone that's usually followed by "mental" or "a shitshow" but yeah. THEN HE WINKED AT ME!!!!!! and said "take care now, won't you?" that's the jq i'd been seeing in videos.

8. photos were much the same but i liked my second one better AND he rubbed my back, said "thank you so much for coming, get home safe!" AND HE WINKED AGAIN

9. day 2 panel was fuckin. EMPTY. i asked him a question about how he said in the wonderland interview that he'd love to pursue a music career, i was like "was that for real or were you just saying it to get to the next question" and he was like "i'm just so lazy, it takes a lot of work to be a musician and i'm not one now, but someday i might start a band" aw. also he is a VERY sarcastic man who i think people take way too seriously lol. also x2 his bitchface towards the host was even less subtle LMAO

10. we saw him leaving and the poor man had his cap on and his head down, he REALLY wanted to leave and i don't blame him in the slightest

11. FUCK. showmasters. they deliberately oversold jq and didn't honour refunds, autographs were either included in diamond passes or bought on the day for £75 IN CASH??? and one of my new friends was the only one left when they cut for time from photo ops, she asked if she could just get one, JOE SAID YES BUT THE STAFF SAID NO. we had one staff member talking to us DIRECTLY about what time jq was paid to stay until, said "but it would be nice if he chooses to stay longer" and then started talking about how last year's summer event was so unfairly criticised?? and was like "even joe said he wasn't stressed" ofc he isn't gonna talk shit about a company he was still legally under contract for??? and one tried to tell us not to sit on the floor, 30ft away from the first aid room door, bc there was NO OTHER SEATING, saying that it's our own fault if we got mauled by a stretcher in an emergency. there was no emergency.

12. i have practically bankrupt myself at artist booths and i'm tempted to do it all again in liverpool in a few weeks lmfao

[eddiethehunted]

god the world needs more mean cunt eddie x headstrong confident steve . give me the kids trying soooo hard to keep them from spending time together because they know how fucking insufferable they’d be if they were constantly on the same side on principle. give me joke fighting that turns into real shouting matches that take a full week to repair bc they’re both stubborn and steve got just a bit too emotionally involved to let it go (eddie would never let it go anyways). only wayne can get them to shut up if they’re in the same room and riling each other up and he does this by threatening to quit his job to babysit them fulltime. clearly i think the world needs more cunty eddie bc seeing that sent me Into This State!

your mind............ anon i need to crawl into your mind come back here RIGHT NOW!!!!

side rant below the readmore bc i am Thinking

also ok tbh this is 100% me projecting and THIS IS MY EXPERIENCE OKAY..... i dont want anyone taking my words out of context and making me sound like a bad person.

i am autistic, right. sometimes i say things that come across as mean bc i have a hard time getting the tone right. sometimes i tease my friends but i go too far and dont realize it until they get quiet or call me out. sometimes i get really angry and defensive about my interests if someone disagrees with me. sometimes i miss social cues and end up just sounding like a jerk.

and sometimes im just a CUNT!!! OK! because i dont even think abt how rude im being until i've already done it!

ofc it is MY RESPONSIBILITY to monitor my behaviour but sometimes things slip and i fuck up and then i have to deal with the consequences. anyway.......... again this is me projecting but im seeing eddie as the same kind of autistic girlie as me so i think u can see where im going with this!

i just want to explore more of him being mean and rude and sometimes he doesn't realize it. and sometimes he does! and he doesn't CARE!!! until someone he cares about calls him out. and yk what!! he would maybe get defensive! but i personally think he'd ultimately do the right thing even if it pisses him off at first

i think that a lot of ppl write eddie as being very sweet and conscious of others' feelings and just a kind person and while i do think he can be these things i also think it's more in line with how he's written to admit that he's kind of a dick. he's #notlikeothergirls. oh you like metal? name every song ever

characters can grow and learn and change and i think he could do all of these things but i also think that he'll never stop being a bit pretentious and annoying. and hes so real for that

i think we should let our blorbos be cunts sometimes alright