#anyways i wanna dye 😂😂😂

[lu-sn]

i am here today to talk about HORRIBLE OVERSIGHT in the pete fandom we NEED to correct our ways and see the light

but it is ok i will Explain

ok do u see this

this is a pha khao ma (spelling up for debate). it's a waistcloth commonly worn in south and southeast asia — you may have heard of it as a lungi / longyi. it's a rectangular, light, soft piece of cloth that (mostly) men tie around their (mostly) waists to wear in hot humid climates because it's very comfy and breezy and dries fast.

some fun facts:

it's very common to wear right out of the bath / shower because the dampness stays on your skin for a while after so this helps air it out

underwear is ✨ optional ✨ (although really mostly only at home. the fear of being pantsed in public is universal, after all)

it's often worn at home, but people wear it out as well and it is especially common in rural communities. if you've got a bunch of old uncles sitting outside on a veranda in a small town, they're all maybe sitting around in pha khao mas

(let me follow this up with: while it is common in rural regions, people in rural areas all over thailand do also just wear shirts and shorts and pants 😂 it is merely an option, not a rule)

what you see is the casual version. there are much more formal versions, and fashionable versions, and they are apparently having a resurgence with the thailand youth rn

the plaid-like patterning is a specific design that has centuries of history in thailand! different regions produce styles of designs with vibrantly different colors and dyes, and they're very proud of it

there's many ways to tie it: in these pictures, pete has it tied so that it hangs down well past his knees, but you can hoist them up to mostly be around your upper legs (leaving the knees showing). this gives you a TON more mobility to, say, run around or climb trees or beat up people

here is a reference of real people wearing pha khao mas. as you can see they are chilling

and the most important fun fact of all:

post-canon pete wears it ALL. THE. TIME.

we know pete wears these in the privacy of his home! they're his comfy post-shower post-workout jammies! every time we see him with one he has a different one! HE HAS LIKE SIX MORE OF THESE TUCKED AWAY.

he probably wore them a lot around his yaai. and now, at home, vegas sees him in them CONSTANTLY.

you may be looking at me, and then looking at these photos, and then looking again at me, and going, lu, noooooooo, this ruins the post-canon pete being unbearably cute and stylish and hot agenda!!! to which i say

no

it ENHANCES IT. it's about the DICHOTOMY

vegas watches as pete walks out of the bathroom wearing one of these and nothing else, and they're riding real low on his hips, and vegas chokes out a "what the hell are you wearing" and pete leans against the doorframe and wiggles his eyebrows and puts on his thickest northern accent and says "you wanna fuck me so bad city boy" and he's RIGHT OKAY VEGAS HATES THEM AND VEGAS DOES WANT TO FUCK HIM SO BAD ANYWAYS

macau gives pete sooo much shit for it but then he watches pete kick ass in one during training one day and pete looks like some rural film movie star in his tank top and pha khao ma and his fists of fury and macau goes, huh, actually, phi looks fucking cool, can i have one

when they visit yaai pete basically forgoes pants and just wears these all the time and blends in with all the old grandpas who pat pete on the back and ask him for his opinions on politics and vegas is so fucking confused and totally in love do you UNDERSTAND

anyway. all of this to say, if you were to write fics where pete wears a pha khao ma and/or draw him in one it would be HIGHLY CANONICALLY ACCURATE. and i would love you. thank u for coming to my ted talk.

(and thanks to @minorfamilysupremacy for being the first victim of said ted talk)

[mrs-monaghan]

Hey Shaz,

it's been a shit day so far. Do you have anything jikook-related to cheer me up? Much appreciated 💜

I'm so sorry you had a shitty day love. Something about Jikook in NYC gave me heavy Bon Voyage Malta vibes so let's talk about 2 or 3 moments. But first, have u ever heard about the Jimin pregnant allegations?

I mean its the bloody wind's fault but still, it definitely gave Mpreg creators original content to work with.

I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Okay I'll be serious. 😂😂😂

There is this really small blink and you'll miss it moment that I never see anywhere. I loved this part so much.

So basically JK sings mic drop adorably and when he looks around he finds Jimin looking at him and smiling. They then quietly stare at eo for a while 🥺🥺🥺

I rewinded it so many times it was so cute. It's the little things guys. It's the little things. Like when JK holds Jimin's hand in pretense of holding the rail thingy.

Guys... Jikook are so obvious its insane that the fandom as a whole doesn't just support them 🤦🏽‍♀️

Anygays, I wanna bring up Jikook feeding eo here. JK is the one who offers. A rare moment of him using honorifics 🤭

So JK looks at Jimin's mouth, but it's the way Jimin looks at JK's eyes.

It's something he always does; looks str8 up at JK when his boyfriend is feeding him. Kinda gets my explicit senses tingling. Remember this?

That's JK feeding him a sausage in one of the many dynamite behind the scenes. (Thanks @chicknbunny13 as always 😘)

Tell me that doesn't give u an accurate picture of how Jimin looks like when he's shouting in JK's briefcase. 👀

It kind of reminds me of this

Whoever made that fuck you. Seriously 😫😩😩

Oh God. We are getting sidetracked here. Get it together guys. What's wrong with you? 🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️

Moving on swiftly, I also like this part where JK says he wants to dye his hair and Jhope asks him

Of course Jimin already knows;

He knows everything about JK. Everything. He's the only one at the table who seems to be aware of this whole JK dying his hair thing before hand. 🥰

Can we take a second to talk about this here?

He was annoyed that they started getting filmed immediately. Even though he knows that's why they're there; to create BV content. And this is the guy they like to heavily accuse of feeding fans?? Okay, sure.

Anyway I love BV Malta for Jikook. We like to say they were on their honeymoon but it really did look like it. Even Suga noticed

Jikook really had a great time in Malta. Thats why I wanna know how they looked like off camera seeing as on camera they looked like honeymooners. 🥺🥺🥺 damn those lucky Malta Armys gatekeeping images and footage 😭😭😭😭

Bonus: a Bon Voyage 3 compilation

Hope this short trip down memory lane cheers u up my lovely 😍😍

[ballplayersxo]

https://www.tumblr.com/ballplayersxo/732566555741831168/anybody-got-tea-on-the-current-spurs-they-used-to?source=share

i came across this ask which ill give my first shot at answering in my own way cause im a spurs fan! and girl all i can say is i wish there was more tea to report on 😭😭 not to say that theres zero drama going down in san antonio.. ive always asked myself: theres so much nba tea floating around but so little on my guys?? but now i understand that drama doesnt happen as regularly bc gregg popovich has more control over these niggas off the court than you would expect. in other teams its not really a common thing for coaches to hold players accountable for non basketball related things but id compare pop/the organization to a teacher/school because in a way they operate as figures of authority (similar to college-style basketball). its tougher to find spurs drama since he keeps the younger guys on a tighter leash after learning the hard way from tim duncans messy ass divorce/tony parkers cheating scandal but i assure you tea is there even tho its harder to find. i do agree with anon that sochan and vassell look like hoes but idk if we'll ever get to know that (unproven rn) side of them aside from speculation by who they follow on insta. including jeremy whos the most active on socials, all of them trained to move in silence + being a small market + tight pr means less reports but yes there is some tea and hottakes id like to spill although its not much

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speaking of primo hes an ex spur but josh primo signed a new contract after joining the clippers and proposed to his (white) gf (story in attachment above). congrats her ig he has the face of a child whos balls havent dropped yet AND is a sex offender 🤷🏾‍♀️

context for everyone who doesnt know: primo was waived (even after he signed a contract extension apparently) because he flashed his ugly d*ck to a team staff member and then claimed he did it bc he had mental health issues. after primos babyface was sued by his psychologist (the woman he flashed) he was waived without so goodbye to his creepy ass. (on a personal note i really hate how "mental health" is used as some excuse for these sorts of things. like this nigga seriously thinks theres any valid excuse for flashing his tiny pp at women?? especially the woman whos job was helping out his "mental health" shit in the first place?? foh). it had way less info than an event like the kpj case but i think the lack of it is a testament to the spurs pr so there could be other stuff in the bg we as the public simply dont know abt

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on a more positive note ik julian champangie has a gf. shes makes frequent cameos on his insta and vice versa and have been together since high school. also i dont have the link but i clearly remember another anon in an old post here claimed that sochan is bi and follows trans women but ill put that to sleep since its false. being bi isnt 100% out of the question obviously (literally anybody can be bi without us knowing. looking at you dwight.) but theres no real evidence besides: omg look he dyes his hair and has an aesthetic he must be bi!!! i think people see a nigga who has an eccentric sense of style and instantly wanna jump to label him but nawww ive seen his following on insta 😂😂 anon was confusing "trans women" for TONS of polish/british/american (all white) insta thots. hes a cutie but it wouldnt be farfetched to assume hes not into black women. yall he aint bisexual hes biracial 😂😂

https://x.com/RTNBA/status/1691153501299134464?s=20

unrelated: sochan rookie hazing wembanyama during the offseason was kinda funny tho

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https://youtu.be/1VZykbSv7nk?feature=shared

dejounte and jaina are always on and off afaik lmfao girl secured some big bags. anyways dj talking about his experience with the spurs was insightful for me. i wasnt aware before there was alot of clash between ghetto behavior and how the organization wanted him to behave but frankly im not surprised by it

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not really gossip related but stories of irl players ive encountered:

(retired spur) i met david robinson at church when i was really young. i remember being scared of him at first cause he was so tall lol but i remember him sitting down to shake my hand and my parents taking a picture of us. its kinda embarrassing since it has the vibes of a baby crying on santas lap but funny nonetheless 😂😂

got an autograph from demar a few years back. it was quick and we didnt talk much since he had to leave after but he was cool when i asked

the only current spur ive met is devin vassell in a random encounter at the gas station (this was last yr). i recognized him but wasnt sure how he was gonna react to being approached for an autograph/photo but he was really sweet w it. i asked him where he was headed to & he said the gym but joked after that, a nap at home with his dogs lol. the names of his two dogs, iirc he told me: donovan and ace. very warm, he has a pleasant voice and smile too, if hes a longtime spur he should join our broadcast team once he retires lmao

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thank you for coming to my sas analysis despite my team lowkey tanking right now. have a great day owner, ill go back to lurking now, god bless you.

lmao anon thank you for this, i appreciate when you guys send long asks about things you care about!! but the josh primo case was definitely something that never made much sense to me. like why would he do that? i just can’t comprehend the thought process. it was a thing here in canada and a bunch of people were talking about it cause i know people who used to play with him. it’s getting weird. idk where to start with dejounte and jania but they’re both very annoying and belong with each other tbh. & gay/bi allegations are everywhere it’s crazy. lmao this was interesting overall though

[chocolatebageltje]

So my sleep deprived ass latched on to the idea of cosplaying Robin Sparkles from HIMYM and now it won't let go. I wanted a relatively easy & cheap costume to fix for an event and this popped into my mind all of a sudden and I was immediately like YES I'M GOING TO BEDAZZLE A JEAN JACKET IN 2023 OH MY GOD

I've already ordered the jacket from H&M :') Sadly the tint of denim will be slightly off but it was cheap and I have to make it work since I'm plus size so. Idk if I could dye the denim to make it look better? It's probably all gonna be like crackhead energy since I'm doing this on a budget and time crunch but still. I'm looking into wigs next but I can't figure out which would be better of these two:

I feel the first one looks more natural and is probably more accurate but the second one gives me Hannah Montana energy and seems more versatile for possible other cosplays. I'd also love to see what my ass would look like full blonde lmao. (Not that it'll probably matter because there'll be drinks at this event and I'm clumsy as fuck so I bet this wig will get snatched halfway through anyway)

I found some of the accessories already (lots of rhinestones and glittered starry patches) although I'm probably going to improvise on the jewelry. Also have to find a plus size jean skirt that'll work for me lmao. Kinda wanna find one with those cheerleader ruffles even though it's not accurate for the cosplay bc that'd be something I'd probably still wear after, those good old straight denim skirts I've always fucking hated on me. 😂

Anyway, I'll probably buy the rest of the shit tomorrow so I have enough time to bedazzle the jacket since the event is already next weekend 💀 I'm glad I could at least find most of it so soon bc normally whenever I seek something specific suddenly it's sold out everywhere. If anyone has input on some shit I could/should try let me know. I guess I'll post updates once I got the outfit together??? 😂

All that's left after is trying to find a Barney to match with and be awesome!

[ashren]

2, 5, 16 for ash?

THANK U FOR ASKING ABOUT ASH !!!! ily

i wasn't sure if u meant for the thematic ask or meta one so u get BOTH 😅

2. Drawing from the language of flowers, what flower would symbolize them?

Petunia - everything ive read has like two meanings, one is Resentment and Anger, but the other is the desire to spend time with your partner. It fits Ash's story arc pretty well :3

5. Which body part are they associated with (Example: hands/arms symbolize strength.)

My brain just goes to arm bc Ash loses one and it's like Part of his Story ™ so i... guess arms! I have no deeper meaning behind this one i'll be honest LOL

16. Breakfast, lunch, dinner, and anything between. What kind of dish are they?

Breakfast. It's his favorite meal after leaving the Empire, and staring a day without being hungry is shockingly good for morale. Ash would be a whole ass breakfast, eggs, pancakes, hash browns, grits, coffee, etc. (or Insert whatever your regional breakfast of choice is 😂) Post Empire he allows himself to indulge more often.

2. Why does your oc look the way they do? What are your reasons for their appearance?

Ash is BLUE bc he's a Chiss! He actually started out as a Mandalorian OC so he was vaguely alien but then i changed his story and liked him being Chiss and in the empire 🤪

He dyes his hair blond for a while after defecting, just because he can. He's got control over his appearance for once so he does the queerest thing u can and fucks up his hair :3

5. What kind of abilities and power level does your oc have? Why did you give them their powers? What's the in-universe reason?

Baby boy is force sensitive and was trained by some Impressive folks in the Empire, and YEAH he's a little op but! that's ok bc i mentally ruined him with trauma :3

Ash actually learned how to use the Force IN the Empire, which was part of the main thing that lead him to defect, so he's actually a little scared of the Force. He's only seen it truly in the context of the Dark side, so he rarely taps into that side of him.

Other than that he's just a really talented Speeder Bike Racer (which he doesn't REALIZE is bc he's force sensitive, but that's ok he's trying his best lmfao) - the reason i worked that into his story is literally because while i was working on Ash, I was like listening to the radios from Nascar races bc i think they're funny

16. What aspect(s) of the universe's lore are they connected to? Do they change/add lore to the universe?

YEAH BC why the fuck not, star wars is a goddamn mess of a universe anyway

yeah so Ash doesn't really interact with the movies much aside from one BIG thing, he defects on the day the first Death Star blows up, but like, before it's blown up. He and his team help revels blow up the Empire Base they were stations on, which was a communications base, that would have been responsible for immediately alerting other imperial ships if the Death Star needed back up. (i just always thought it was like, maybe a little weird that none of those big star destroyers launched an attack immediately on Yavin, It's not like the rebels won with firepower lol they essentially got lucky that the DS had that weakness)

ANYWAY other than that i do have some AUs within the Mandalorian, cuz like, i wanna make Ash and Rylin smooch Din Djarin ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[guessillcallitart]

Bella: Hey, me, Lise and Michael are going to dig up a grave. Wanna come with?

Tilly: What the hell, Bella?

Bella: Come on, let's make it a date.

Tilly: What kind of date would that be?

Bella: ...a fun date?

Tilly: No.

(What is my sense of humor😂)

"I know it's not a festival but I hope it's good enough." Bella smiles. I take a moment to look at her, the purple and scarlet skies dye her long, blonde hair auburn and her light grey eyes have taken on a joyous glint. I kick my shoes off. The emerald green grass feels prickly under my feet but pleasantly so. "Shut up." I smile. She drags me under a wisteria tree and sets up a speaker. Music blares around us. Bella twirls me around and I look up and see the sky darkening to a velvety indigo. A few stars appear.

Tilly based on @frogboyandzombieface, you're awesome <3 I accidentally based a character on you, I've been daydreaming about her so much tbh. Anyways I hope you like this :) I feel like it's not as good as my snippets usually but I like it??

taglist: @char-writes, @the-void-writes, @athenswrites, @thyming, @wecandoit, @jezifster, @aalinaaaaaa, @jacquesfindswritingandadvice, @magefaery, @aloeverawrites

Let me know if you want to be removed or added :)

WIP title: Victorian Shannon

Genres: fantasy, ya fiction, lgbt+, adventure, romance, horror

General content warnings: mature themes/topics such as death, blood, violence, trauma, abuse

[ajcrwl]

wanna look at my bg3 screenshots? 😳👉👈

we all had a laugh at this one, didn't we. come on.

I found out that hats give everyone purple hair. It was funny to imagine that my guy's blonde with pink hair changes when he wears a hat.

But then! I applied a dye to it, and went back to normal!

It's a shame I bought the dye from THIS little shit who ROBBED me. That's right, I'm getting robbed irl and in game now! Smh.

*chuckles* I won anyway.

Love it when you're so excited to do more exploring but Gale needs to take a shit.

The next bit was really funny to me because the book was called something sciencey about neurology. I got excited for a bit. Could it be?? Some science behind mind flayers' powers, etc?? And then you read it and find out that it's about a patient who was straight up cursed/possessed, but the doctor still diagnosed him with a neurological disorder 😂

This goddamn staff. It shoots fireballs but it's so broken that it literally damages everyone around it even if they successfully rolled to avoid damage 👍

Ngl, almost shat a brick here.

And now, just my dude looking very pretty 😊

ps. I still don't know who this mf is -_-

[void-galaxy-shenanigans]

((Anonymized name/initials for their safety because I don’t wanna be that a**hole even to a narc. Also note both our parents are narcissists, dad is extremely likely diagnosed, & our therapist also suspects (both from chance meeting him & from our sessions) he’s also a sociopath. Our brother might be a narcissist, & if not he’s still very narcissistic & neglectful & self centered to everyone in his life. So other than us, everyone mentioned is narcissistic at least, & likely a narcissist too.))

C (parents’ friend who’s a narcissist): I’m a god! This means anyone who stays around me for a long time is also a god! (/paraphrase)

((Note she’s also claimed to be Anubis’ wife & lover...she’s a cishet white woman from Idaho USA, European heritage.))

Mom, giggling: I’m a god!

Dad, serious tone: So if both your mother and I are gods, because we put up with— I mean, stay around [C], then you guys are gods too! Because you’re our kids! (/referring to us & our biological brother)

Dad, still serious: *goes on a very long explanation of dominant & recessive genes, referring to demigod as “little g” and deity as “big G” genes, & how if they’re deities we must be, especially because we also Put Up With™ C, & how Deity is a dominant gene, but even if it wasn’t with both parents being deities we’d still be one*

Us, to ourselves / not aloud: Oh no. She’s fueled their egos even worse.

Us, to them: Isn’t that narcissistic? And like....cult behaviour?

Mom, lighthearted as if it’s not bad: Yea, she’s definitely a narcissist 😂. And yea, that’s how cults start 🤷‍♂️.

Us: 😬 ...

Mom, semi jokingly in later conversation: You’re a god, poof and make it happen!

Me, very snarky & obviously non believing: Yea, just, ‘ta-dye-dye ta-dye-dye’ it into being. Poof, it’s fixed.

((For reference, when we were really little our dad would use the phrase ‘ta-dye-dye ta-dye-dye’ to pretend he did something magical, like unlocking & locking the car door with a key at a distance. He did that until we were roughly 11 & stopped believing it was magic (after other people told us it was technology, but he’s an IT tech so that didn’t deflate his ego). We were referring back to the BS stuff, but he took us too seriously.))

Dad, semi serious: See! You did it! 🥰🥰🥰 All of that was just training for you to be a god. 😁

((AKA ‘be a part of our charade of perfection’))

Me, to myself: Oh g*d no. Brainwashing, magical thinking, /and/ narcissistic thinking? I’m not falling into that trap.

I’m way too exhausted to deal with this, on top of everything else. The body is very physically ill right now & we went to work a full 8hr shift anyway (because we’re a new hire; it’s too soon to call in without being labeled flakey/unreliable & getting fired again).

They may be “just joking” now, but I can guarantee they’ll use the excuse ‘but I’m a god 🙂’ for labour demands & other sh!t down the road. 😕

~Nico

[osamusriceballs]

It lasted until I cut my hair and redid my natural color but it all depends on what dye you buy and your hair itself too

Oooooh soft blue sounds nice!!! I’m excited to see how it’ll come out!! 👀

I was thinking of watching it over the weekend? I’m swamped with work and I don’t wanna risk missing any deadlines but ajajaksmsmsnd I’m so excited to watch it!! Prepare yourself for paragraphs of my reactions 😂

I love you too!! ❤️💕🎉

I need to dye my hair soon anyways- I’m slowly getting the Kenma look here, so it would be perfect timing to dye them blue!! The only thing I’m worried about is that the blue will be too persistent, and that I won’t be able to dye it blonde again after it- ahh- but I’m gonna be brave! <3

I’ll definitely show you pictures when it’s done!! <3

And I’M READY FOR ALL OF YOUR THOUGHTS!! <3 

Good luck with all your work though!! You definitely deserve some rest on the weekend then!! <3 SENDING YOU A HUG!!

[loveovertemptation]

Happy late birthday! Did you do anything fun? Get crazy drunk? Haha

I didn’t drink for my birthday because well, I don’t normally drink. I want to buy a bottle of like vodka and just keep it forever as a momento. I guess it would make more sense to buy wine, but I HATE wine. I’m a tequila/vodka bitch and everyone’s like whaaaaat how do you drink that stuff?!? It always reminds me of the song that goes “tequila makes her clothes fall offff”. Anyways, sorry ADHD 😂 I went and did an escape room with my family after trying to convince friends and stuff to go for 3 years and it was kinda fun, just really crowded. I went again yesterday with my mom, dad, grandma, and cousin, and we broke out! Got a shirt from it that’s the comfiest thing. I’ve also been taken out to dinner like every day this week because they don’t lie when they say a girl’s birthday lasts a week lmfao! But now I just feel like I’ve gained 20 pounds oops. I also got to spend $150 on a like return gift card thing my mom had which I bought myself a hat that says 1538008 because gay. Basically been treated like a queen. Oh, my mom also bought my hair dye so I can finally go back to blue and get rid of this green/brown mess I’ve got going on right now since school is starting up in 2 weeks and I gotta look decent unless I wanna be single foreverrrr. Ps. Thank you for the birthday wishes :)

[b1ackcat105]

Bet

Author's note: Thank you @1darthbader1 for sending me the quote ask "Go on, I dare you" and "Is that my shirt?". And as always, thank you @ohmytheon for helping me figure out what to do. However, YOU CAN PRY MY 360 OUT OF MY COLD DEAD HANDS WOMAN! 😂 Anyways, hope you guys like it and enjoy!

“Alright, babe.” Kirishima leaned back onto the couch. “Truth or dare?”

Bakugou rolled his eyes and went back to his game. The three of them had planned on going to dinner later that night, but Uraraka got called in to do a quick rescue mission. She said she would text them as soon as the mission was over so they could head over to the restaurant. For now, Kirishima was getting impatient and trying to mess with Bakugou out of boredom.

Sensing he was being ignored, Kirishima poked Bakugou's side repeatedly. It caused Bakugou to grip the controller a little too tight. “Will you knock it off!?” he growled. “I'm not gonna play that stupid game.”

“But I'm bored and Uraraka hasn't texted us yet,” Kirishima whined, leaning his entire body on his boyfriend. Bakugou kept his attention to the screen, making sure to kill every last covenant fucker that attacked him. Normally he would play Destiny 2 PvP battles on their PS4, but, as his partners put it, he was put on “probation” from it after he got mad and broke their flat screen.

“Play with Ozzy and Death if you're so damn bored,” Bakugou snapped.

He had nearly been killed by a fucking hunter when Kirishima poked him.

“But they're sleeping together, I don't want to wake them up.” He laid his upper body on Bakugou's lap. Kirishima watched him play Halo 3. He’d made fun of Bakugou for still owning a Xbox 360, calling him an old man; however, that remark had only gotten him a blast to the face.

Kirishima was about to give up trying to make his boyfriend do anything until he realized something. He closed his eyes to appear defeated.

Oh yeah, this'll get him.

“I get it.” Kirishima let out a sigh. “You're too scared to play.”

After a few seconds, he thought his plan hadn't work. That was, until he heard Master Chief’s dying cries. He looked up only to be met with angry red eyes.

Oh fuck.

Bakugou set the controller down. “You wanna say that again Kirishima?” he threatened.

Kirishima swallowed his fear without letting his smirk drop. “I'm just sayin’; you seemed a little scared to play.” He shrugged, noticing one of Bakugou's eyes twitch.

“I ain't afraid of shit,” Bakugou said through his clenched teeth.

“Prove it: truth or dare?” Kirishima poked Bakugou's nose.

Bakugou through his hands up, “Fine, dare!”

Kirishima sat up, contemplating what he could get his explosive lover to do. He let out a dark laugh. “I dare you to wear an outfit of my choosing when we go out to eat.”

Bakugou narrowed his eyes dangerously at the red head. “I swear to the fucking gods, I'm going to make you pay,” he snarled. “Your turn.” Bakugou pointed at his partner. “Truth or dare?”

“Dare, of course.” Kirishima wasn't going to do something unmanly as picking truth. Nah, that'd be too boring. When he saw Bakugou make an evil smile, a small part of him regret his decision though.

How bad can it be?

“I dare you to wear one of Uraraka's shirts to dinner.” Bakugou crossed his arms, absorbing Kirishima's face as it went pale.

Kirishima felt his jaw basically hit the floor. “How the hell am I supposed to do that?” He groaned. “Her shirts are way too small on me.”

Bakugou shrugged. “Wear it as a crop top. Go on,” he continued, “I dare you and you know what will happen if you refuse.” He smiled wide enough to show his canines. They had a rule that if either one of them ever backed out of a dare, said person would have to dye their hair whatever color the others chose.

Kirishima straightened his back. “Bet?” There was no way he was going to let Bakugou choose his hair color; the man was too evil when it came to punishments.

Bakugou held out his hand. “Bet,” he grunted in agreement.

*

Uraraka was on her way to the new restaurant that had opened up in their area. She’d complained that it had been too long since all three of them had gone out on a date.

Of course, Kirishima was all up for it. It took some convincing to get Bakugou to agree though. Eventually, she got him to go with the promise of giving him a massage whenever he wanted for a month.

With the restaurant in sight, she hurried to get inside. While she took a moment to catch her breath, Uraraka looked around for her boys. Finally spotting them in the booth that was as far from the entrance as possible, Uraraka took a moment to fix her hair, then made her way over to them.

“Hey, sorry I'm late!” she began. “The mission took a little longer than-” before she could finish her explanation though, she burst out laughing as she took in the sight of her boys.

Bakugou was wearing Kirishima's red v-neck with the words D.J. on it, his grey shorts, and red crocs to complete it. “Is that my shirt?” she asked in between laughs. Kirishima was clearly wearing her pink v-neck that was way too small on him. The poor shirt looked like it was one flex away from tearing.  Kirishima blushed, nodding his head, as Bakugou looked away and clicked his tongue. It took her a moment, but she finally calmed down. “Do I even want to know?”

“Fuck no,” Bakugou growled.

Kirishima giggled. “It's a long story.”

Uraraka sat down next to Bakugou. “Well, I'm all ears.” She propped her elbows up to rest her head on her hands. “Somehow, you pull off wearing my shirt as a crop top, Love.”

Kirishima brightened at her comment and started to tell her what happened as they ate. Uraraka occasionally put her hand on her mouth to stop herself from giggling.

“Don't you look dashing in that outfit, Bakugou.” Uraraka poked his cheek.

Bakugou swatted her hand away. “Shut it.”

Soon they were on their way back home, Bakugou grumbling away about wearing Kirishima's “stupid outfit” and how he was going to make Death attack his partners.

[unproduciblesmackdown]

tfw hating life enough for a reeadmooore

‪yesterday afternoon i’d blocked out 3 pgs in my sketchbook & by that night i was thinking like well i’m so close to finished the sketchbook finally (ive been using it about a yr and a half by now) that i could just stop drawing when i hit the end there‬

but i’d mentioned the impending end of my sketchbook space a friend is already in the process of sending over some they havent ever used so that will at least mean if i stop drawing it’ll just have to be because i want to lol

like in this case it’s special b/c of course i’ve had periods where i’m like smh what if i just don’t draw anymore, but that’s tended to be about being frustrated w some element or other of it all. this time it was mostly just that every day of my life i have a tiny bit less motivation or energy or etc. yesterday i was thinking all day about offing myself, which i’d done the day before, and done today too

like, it’s nothing new, i’ve been hating being alive and wanting to kms and only moving in the direction of less disappointment to more disappointment and having to care less about things i previously cared about because for one reason or another things get to a point where it only adds frustration to my life anymore

but despite depression and wanting to die and life being miserble all being Not New, that doesn’t mean that it doesnt matter anymore, because after day after day after day after day after day of it for years and years, you’re in a worse place than you were a while back, even if you do feel the same. even a single day of wishing you were dead the whole time is shitty enough. feeling overall like even if you’re in a good mood now, you know your life is trash and you’re going to go back to feeling bad soon, is also shitty enough

like the thing that drawing had going for me is that, like reading and writing sometimes and even some other shit, it’s something i like to do. i do it for myself, really. but it helps that its the way i trick ppl into being here in the first place to see anything i’m talking about. i have really crap appeal. i mean i’m bad at being appealing thru shit i draw, but it’s still way more of something anybody wants vs like five yrs worth of my text posts. like...i have over 10x more followers than i did on a blog where i rarely drew anything ever

but anyways despite me drawing b/c i enjoy it, i enjoy enjoying things less. always in the middle of that “loss of interest in pleasure” life lol.......it doesn’t really matter how long i do or don’t keep drawing, b/c i mean, it doesn’t much matter to me whether i’m having fun or not. i can be enjoying drawing and still wanting to die, because that’s whats happening lol.....nothing that’s a personal factor of my life is all that important to me, because my personal existence is not that important to the person living it

also it sure hasnt helped that my sense of things like whether my life can get better or i’ll have the opportunity to pursue my nonexistent dreams or live an ideal version of my life that also doesn’t exist are all at all-time lows and only just getting lower day by week by month by year. the only way i can even look at cheering myself up is from a day-to-day perspective. and i can have a slightly more fun day than usual and then be extra down on the very next day b/c of how being a bit less numb means you’re crap-feeling emotions are now game too. and i’m very aware of how, if you’re not in a position that insulates you enough, if things get worse for you, that makes “things getting worse for you” more likely, and it’s an exponential drop that gets harder and harder to climb out of, and even if you move back up a notch out of good luck, you’re still just as likely to be knocked back down to where you were. the odds of me suddenly not only not fucking hating being alive but also having a life that doesnt fucking make me hate being alive? that’s a funny joke

‪also it’s frustrating that whether i feel good or miserable on any given day only really exists if i say something about it in a post like this lol... like i might feel awful one day but if i dont have it in me to spend ages writing about it, which is difficult also b/c putting feelings into words where ppl will only fully Get It if they’ve felt that way too, anyways if i dont write about how shitty i feel and post it then maybe later on when i’m feeling a little better or feeling a different kind of shitty, i also won’t be interested in being like “oh btw i felt awful the other day.” and if i don’t mention it, as far as everyone in the world knows, it was never a thing that happened, so it might as well not have. i mean, as a person i might as well not be happening, especially since i don’t want me to be happening lol‬

and like i was saying to someone the other day, its a lot harder via text to talk about shit b/c like, if you’re with a friend in person, you can talk abt boring or silly things and its easy and makes a good conversation. whereas talking via twitter means it would be clunky and time consuming to layout exactly had empty and depressing my existence is, and silly shit isn’t even worth the energy when you’re having a convo w lengthy gaps in it, so you can only really talk about the broadest, most interesting shit. which i don’t have much of, oh well

i do like talking and talking to people actually, it’s just rough when it’s all a few ppl online, even though i alsp extremely appreciate those people and enjoy the talking. it’s like, chatting to ppl online is like a piece of chocolate cake. it’s delicious and you love it, but it would be amazing if it was the extra bonus on top of getting solid meals every day, instead of it being the only thing you have to eat and you get it maybe once or twice a week and it’s still wonderful and is all the more valuable for it, but it isnt the same as getting enough to eat always, or Knowing you’ll keep getting enough to eat

anyways my social life is always its own special kind of depressing, even when i AM in the same place as friends. you’d have a hard time finding a situation where the concept of What I Have To Say seems interesting or even relevant to other ppl. and im not sure i’ve ever been in groups where i feel totally comfortable with everyone there and don’t feel out of place. so talking about the idea of knowing you always have access to someone to talk to or be with in person or having friends who you know you can hang out with and they actually like you and you still expect to have them a few yrs down the road—all that’s always been a “well, in theory i mean” or “at least, i imagine it would be like that” issue for me

tbh i generally feel the most comfortable enjoying myself when i do something alone; maybe it’s because i have more experience of ppl im around treating me really shittily than treating me well

ohhhhhh wellllllllllllllll what else do i have to talk about. hmmm the fact that feeling like i wanna die only seems to be regarded as an issue of “well are you gonna or not,” aka if you havent its a Victory and a happy situation instead of it being a matter of EVERY DAY I’M A CONSCIOUS ORGANISM I WISH I WAS DEAD AND MY EXISTENCE HAS BEEN HEADED IN THAT DIRECTION FOR AT LEAST THE LAST HALF OF IT

like how heartwarming that i’ve been actively suicidal for how many years? 6? 8? but i havent yet!! i always want to but just never get around to it and so this time for sure lol no more fooling around!! oh dammit and there goes another birthday still alive. like this is some elusive new years resolution or novel i mean to write.

funny i mention it because there’s practically nothing anymore that i want to do. even if i THOUGHT my life would ever become okay, i want fuckall out of it. i only exist, baby............and it’s like i said earlier, whenever i try to come up with a sad amount of potential motivations NOT to die, i have to realize that none of the shit is actually for me, or directly about me, or centered on me. like, this shit lost its charm ages ago.

well anyways. i suppose thats all i can think to say now. and it doesn’t make a difference whether i talk about my shitass existence and how crap i feel or not. it just gives the chance for a bit of it to exist in the world via a few other ppl being aware of it for a few minutes maybe, because who DOESNT want to thoroughly read a shit essay by some random weirdo about how everything sucks. the end