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angstyandromanticwriting · 2 years

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Lyutsifer Safin X Fem!Reader Angsty prompt with cute moments

!TW: Implied suffering from depression, mention of a fire, and loss within it/because of it, mention of wanting to commit suicide!

“Why are you doing this!?” You cried, and Safin grimaced as he looked up at you; he was currently in the middle of binding you to a chair.

“If you’re treated like a monster for long enough, you become one,” Safin spat, and you frowned, a pained expression on your face; you hadn’t meant to call him a ‘monster’, you were just angry and the two of you had been fighting when you said it.

“You aren’t a monster, Safin,” you stated, “I - I’m sorry for - for calling you one, but - I didn’t mean it. You should know that I would never, ever call you a monster deliberately, Safin; I love you, okay? More than anything.” Safin glanced up at you, gradually halting his tying of the rope. “I’m sorry,” you repeated gently, and Safin nodded his head once, before he began to untie you. Once he’d finished, you wrapped your arms around him, and Safin smiled weakly, before he returned the hug.

𖧷☭𖤍

You would be excited as you and Safin’s wedding was fast approaching, and you were looking around for him as you wanted to talk about it. “There you are-!” You faltered when you noticed him sank on the edge of the bed, his head bowed. “Safin?” You spoke gently, worried about him as you sat beside him. “A-Are you okay?” You inquired, and Safin reluctantly glanced up at you, and you frowned when you noticed that his dark greyish blue eyes were glistening.

“I wish my family could have met you,” Safin mused, his voice briefly trembling. You placed your hand on top of his, wishing you could take away the pain he was feeling. “Y’know,” Safin began again quietly, “all the memories come back, but they never do.”

You pulled him into a hug, and felt worse when you could hear that he had begun to cry. “How can one person be the source of so much pain?” You asked, before you lifted your hand to stroke his hair as shaky sobs escaped his lips.

“Have you ever felt this way, Y/n?” Safin inquired, looking up at you again.

You would think about it for a moment, a pained expression on your face. “Actually, yes - I have,” you admitted, “when I lost my mother in that fire-… I wanted to scream, I wanted to burst into tears, I wanted to get drunk and kill myself, but all I could do was stare at the wall in silence.”

Safin felt his heart sink, and he hesitantly intertwined his fingers with your’s to comfort you. “I’m sorry you had to go through that, angel,” Safin responded, and you shook your head, trying not to cry in front of him.

𖧷☭𖤍

You and Safin had started fighting again, and you were livid. “If you don’t like it, then why didn’t you leave when I gave you the opportunity to?” Safin questioned, his voice cold.

You shrugged, scowling at him as you did. “I guess you just never really see how toxic someone is until you breathe in fresher air. Y’know, maybe I was meant to be alone; I should never have decided to stay with you,” you spat, and Safin grunted, grimacing back at you. You then gave in, feeling bad for arguing with him again. “Let’s just stop, Safin - You know how this’ll end, anyway,” you murmured, and Safin tilted his head partially. You thought his action meant that he wasn’t sure, so you evaluated further what you meant for him. “Y’know - It’ll hopefully end with us making up,” you clarified, and Safin nodded, stepping closer to you.

“I know how it’ll end, Y/n,” he reassured, a soft smile playing on his lips, “of course I know. I just forgot how this began.” You nodded gravely, finding that you weren’t sure why you had been both arguing in the first place, either. “I’m sorry, Y/n,” he expressed, before he wrapped his arms around your waist, “I shouldn’t have let the fight go on.”

“I’m sorry, too, Safin,” you returned, resting your head on his chest as you hugged him back, “I hate fighting with you.”

“I hate fighting with you, too, angel,” Safin stated, before he gently lifted your face to his with two fingers beneath your chin, “I’ll try to stop it, if there is a next time we fight.”

“I - I hope there won’t be,” you whispered, before you connected your lips to his.

𖧷☭𖤍

You’d recently run into James whilst he was with Madeleine, and it upset you to see them together, and it even made you decide that you wanted to go with Safin back to the base; you felt as if you couldn’t face the pain of seeing them together again, and also you didn’t want them to distract you from your feelings for Safin. Safin would be surprised and delighted when you returned home early, and so he greeted you with a tight hug after you’d closed the door. “Are you okay?” Safin inquired when he noticed that you seemed upset, and you wouldn’t dare look up at him when he held you at arm’s length.

“I want to go home, Safin,” you answered, and he fell quiet for a moment, tilting his head partially. “Back to the island, with you,” you clarified, and a smile played on his lips; he couldn’t believe it at first, and when he realised you weren’t joking, loved that you’d called it your ‘home’, and was ecstatic. “I just - want to go somewhere where nobody knows my name,” you stated, and Safin nodded slowly, intertwining the fingers of his left hand with your’s. “Can we go?” You requested, and Safin nodded again, relieving you.

“Pack you and Sylvia’s stuff, and I’ll call for the helicopter,” Safin responded, and you nodded, setting yourself the task of packing bags for you and Sylvia.

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Hope you enjoyed this prompt! ❤️

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alohdark · 2 years

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Fluffuary 12th! I feel like I'm drifting away from true fluff, but I figure as long as it's not truly angsty and have a cute ending it's fluff enough. Right? Hopefully.

Anyway, here ya go!

“It’s going to rain.”

Frank looked up, away from the unconscious body on the ground before him. The night sky was covered with heavy, low hanging clouds. He sniffed the air, but only got a nose full of gunpowder and blood. He shrugged his shoulders. “Not what the news said earlier.” “The news was wrong.” Matt told him, dropping down to his knees to tie up the unconscious man at Frank’s feet. “It’ll be raining before the cops get here.” Frank grunted in acknowledgment but didn’t say anything. Matt was usually right about these sorts of things, and it had stopped surprising Frank some time ago. He held out a hand out of normal sight lines but he knew Matt would ‘see’ it with that radar sense he had told Frank about one night not too long after they had started this partnership. Matt turned on his heel and grabbed Frank’s hand, allowing him to help pull him to his feet.

“Is that everybody?” Frank asked.

Matt was silent for a moment, his head cocked at an angle. A tell that signaled that Matt was listening to something that Frank would never be able to hear with his own ears. He nodded to himself and said “Yeah, that’s everybody. Cops are almost here, too. We better go.”

Matt turned and started making his way through the debris littered around after the fight. Frank shook his head, knowing that Matt expected Frank to follow. And he did follow. Followed Matt out the side entrance of the warehouse and into the night.

Rain started the drizzle as they slipped silently through the darkness. They traveled silently, getting wet g until they were several blocks away to where Frank had stashed a change of clothes on a rooftop. They climbed the fire escape and made their way over to the stash of clothes. Frank couldn’t help but watch as the other man grabbed the duffel bag and retreated into the protection of an alcove.

“Come here, Frank, before you get soaked.”

Frank nodded and took the few long strides across the roof to the alcove where Matt was waiting with their change of clothes. Frank couldn’t keep his eyes off the other man as he stripped unself-consciously out of his form fitting Daredevil outfit. He was close enough to reach out and touch and Frank knew he should resist temptation.

Matt must not have gotten the memo about temptation because as he pulled up his pants, he gave purposeful look from beneath his eyelashes. “Like what you see?”

Frank startled and realized he’d been very obviously staring. Matt finished zipping and buttoning his pants and started pulling his shirt over his head. Frank hadn’t even begun to change. He quickly turned and unbuckled his kevlar vest. Matt smirked, amused. He knelt down and shoved his Daredevil outfit into the duffel bag.

Frank shouldn’t feel embarrassed but he did. Caught staring like a school kid with his first crush. He made quick work of changing down to his undershirt. He tried to avoid looking out the corner of his eye at Matt, focusing instead of changing in the small dry space they’d found on the roof top.

When he was ready to face Matt again, the other man was standing with his hand out, palm open and catching the falling rain.. It was pouring now and but the water wasn’t blowing into the little shelter just yet. Frank knew that Matt was aware he was staring again but he didn’t stop, or say anything to break the silence growing between them.

“I like the world like this.” Matt finally said, pulling his hand in and seeming to look down at the water running off his palm.

“Raining?”

Matt nodded. “Not always, not all the time. But, yeah, the world gets muted for just a bit while it rains hard like this. It’s not so hard on me, then.”

Frank reached out then, temptation be damned, and pull Matt to him just as he took a step to close the distance. Matt’s wet hand was clasped in his own and Frank felt a chill shiver through him. “Is that why you like the shower so much?”

Matt nodded. He twisted his hand in Frank’s grasp so they were palm to palm and fingers twined together. “When the world is muted like this, I feel...”

Frank leaned in and rested his forehead against Matt. He didn’t need for Matt to finish the sentence. Wasn’t sure if Matt even had an answer to finish with. He understood. With the world muted and blocked out it was easier to breath and forget and just simply be.

“All I can hear right now is your heartbeat.” Matt whispered. “And the rain.”

“Focus on me,” Frank said. He raised his hand and dug it into Matt’s hair. The strands were rough with drying sweat but Frank didn’t mind.

He wasn’t sure which one of them started it but soon they were kissing. Sweet and gentle hidden away in their own little world. Matt’s lips were slightly chapped against Frank’s but it was familiar in a way only Matt was. He licked along the seam of Matt’s lips and was granted access without hesitation.

Matt leaned into him, arm going around his waist and pulling their hips together. Frank groaned softly into the kiss and delved deeper into Matt’s mouth. Every move was answered with equal intensity. Matt matched him, fit against him as if they were made to be slotted together. When they broke apart, they were both gasping for air but neither was ready to relinquish their hold on the other.

“How about,” Frank started, leaning in and speaking against Matt’s lips. “We just kill some time and wait out the rain.”

Matt grinned. He kissed Frank slowly before pulling back. “I think I know something we can do to kill the time.”

Frank grinned back, kissing his way along Matt’s jaw before trailing back to capture his lips again. He held Matt in his arms tight and knew he could spend the rest of the night, for however long it rained for, just kissing the other man’s lips.

#fratt #my fanfics

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here4kpopfics · 2 years

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These are all the WIP I have that I’m serious about anyway. There’s a list of random ideas elsewhere.

Mainly using this post as a way to schedule my brain because I’m so scattered rn and the hyper fixation on writing is actually making me sick.

The Jimin one I thought about a few days ago. Will hopefully have it planned and written by his birthday. Haven’t decided about smut or just cuteness.

Bug and Confessions are for when I feel like being soft bc they’re my safe space. Halloween is obviously going to be Halloween.

And Feelings in Chaos is something I’ve been thinking about all day at work. Its Jungkook bc he’s easiest for me to write obviously. It’s a college au. So it’s something I haven’t touched yet. It has a majority of the members in it as well. It’s heartbreaking and angsty and depressing but also fun and chaotic (get it?) but hopefully if it turns out the way I’m thinking, it’ll still be comforting. Not as smutty. I’m using this as a challenge to focus on trying to world build and bring in multiple characters and focus on feelings and actual PLOT. It’s going to be a big one. Bigger than LTDO2. Either all in one but insanely long, or it’ll be a 4 or 5 part series separated by seasons of senior year of college.

But I’m going to take my time with it. I’m not going to work on it for a while. probably after the Jimin one or even after Halloween. Only adding to the outline until I have time to actually sit down to write without going insane like ltdo2 did. It’s a meaty depressing fic and I’m going back and forth on it plot wise bc I’m very paranoid about subconsciously taking from someone else’s story.

I need someone to run this by before I actually dive into this fic bc idk if it’s only good in my head or if it has actual potential to be a thing. So like. If any of my moots wanna be a soundboard for my crazy brain thoughts…ily.

#kelly posts #kelly writes

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fact-fictionx · 3 years

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IN PERPETUUM ET UNUM DIEM (FOREVER AND A DAY)

Bridgerton University AU by @hallownight89 [A03] & @fact-fictionx [girlwiththeredballoon AO3]

Oxford University is a Bridgerton hub; for as long as they can remember, every Bridgerton went to Oxford. With Edmund and Violet's children beginning to grow up and settle into their future, join them as they follow in their parents footsteps and attempt to navigate family, friends, studying, and love.

Character bios: [Anthony] [Benedict] [Simon] [Kate] [Sophie]

*disclaimer. we are not latin speakers, the title is up to interpretation from many different google searches and reddit forums, but we like it. Q&A with the authors Ash & May under the cut 🥰

When are we getting it?

A: our boys birthday!!! M: SUNDAY 4TH JULY!!

I'm a Benedict sucker/lover/obsessed so...how much Benedict?

A: Have you met us…? Like 90% of our blogs are Benedict 😂 M: You and me both… so ALL OF IT. lol jk jk in all seriousness, Benedict will be in one of the main couples that we will explore in the first story.

Will the storylines be a little like the books?

A: the core essence of the stories yes but it’s modern so expect some changes and expect the unexpected M: somethings will be inspired from the storylines, other things taken from our chaotic brains. We have taken liberty with some ages & age gaps, and maybe given Violet a few less pregnancies 👀

Whom that mainly focuses on?

A: little bits of everyone one. The bios you’ve already seen will be the main focus to start with… M: Bit of everyone really. It’s a series, the first story will focus mainly on those we’ve already introduced.

Will there be other ships too? Like saphne, Polin or are they going to be just backstory?

A: it’s hopefully going to be a lovely nice mix of everything as we go through the ages... M: Yes, we have currently (partially) planned all couples up to Francesca, but they wont all appear at once (you guys do know it’s all just gonna be Benophie right < thats a joke)

Can’t wait to see your university AU - please say there will be a university ball or something similar where Kate will blow Anthony’s mind with her amazing outfit

A: it’s something that if it fits with the story we’d look to do…so maybe 🤷‍♀️who knows M: maybe, it’s not something we’ve really thought of, but will definitely look into it. Can’t say there was many stunning people at my sports ball but 👀

How many chapters are you doing?

A: ha given our planning document and ideas… god knows. M: no idea - but the plan is to currently split the university years into separate fic, all going under one series, so it hopefully will be easier to navigate for the future.

Will each sibling have a separate story?

A: stories will be told and weaved but it won’t be separate. They will intermingle M: if you mean like the books, no.

Who is your favourite character by now?

A: oooooo now that would be telling. M: Someone I cannot disclose…

How often chapters will appear?

A: once a week at a minimum we both work full time. May has Uni and I have a PT job and we have other series we do separate and prompts so… depends on how we are feeling but at least once M: Hopefully once a week - maybe twice if we’re feeling nice, maybe none if we’re completely bogged down

Will we see more characters than the ones you have already introduced us to?

A: definitely… like I said… expect the unexpected 😂😂 M: ALL OF THEM (well not all… but there will be more characters)

Hey when is your new fanfiction (the one you collaborated) is coming? Will it come after you've completed your All Fair and Wildest Dreams ?

A: As we’ve said above its coming 4th July so no. I shall still be working on All’s Fair and Wildest Dreams annnnd Baby Bridgertons and the prompts I get (i’m insane I know) oh and the other little pices of work I have on my “to write” list… AF is starting to come to a close anyway and WD will be winding down as well… but i have little one shots planned May will still be working on Poison and Wine and The Core of You as well, which if you’ve not read I highly recommend!

What are somethings you'd like to say about your fic?

A: If you all hate it… and don’t get all soft and squishy in parts then well I’m just gonna quit writing. M: if you guys all hate it, I’m going to be sad, so just pretend to like it ye?

Like are Saphne already a couple or will they be but the fic won't mention it

A: All will be revealed as we go... M: let’s just say there’s only one couple when we start off

Are the dad's alive?

A: We’re doing flashbacks, adorable cuteness and all the rest of it… M: they’ll be featured in our story, flashbacks and all that jazz

Will your new fan fic be very angsty?🥺

A: this is us… it’ll have a bit of EVERYTHING M: um maybe, fluffy, angsty, smutty, all of the above

#bridgerton #anthony bridgerton #kate sharma #benedict bridgerton #sophie beckett #simon basset #bridgerton fanficton #Bridgerton au #bridgerton fic #uni au

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chcrrysprite · 3 years

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Heeey lovely! Sooo…… MY TEARS RICOCHET intrigues me, BUT IM NERVOUS. I feel like it’s one of those angsty, painful, pull at your heartstrings type of fics. AND I DONT WANT IT.

But I kind of want it. So… care to share 😘

heeey!!! so, you're not really wrong about the angst and the pain, but this one actually isn't a new idea! My Tears Ricochet (or what's probably going to be called but you would still miss me in your bones) is actually the rewritten version of a fic i've already posted, this is me trying. it's just a title switch! it might sound confusing considering that they're both named for taylor swift songs and they're Technically the same thing, but i actually wrote a prequel to the OG "this is me trying" that would fit that title a lot better, so once i do a re-vamp of that OG, it'll get a new name :) hopefully that makes sense...

anyway. I'm not sure if you've read the original fic, but this one will involve, in some bullet points:

- theo having more of a spine (by reader request) - liam's really cute baby - the Big Damn Issue that that really cute baby causes for theo - a christmas eve party - background malira - hayden & malia & theo brot3 aaandddd - theo wearing glasses for no other reason except that i want him to and it's My Fic so i Can.

thank you for asking!!!!! if you want to know about any others (none of which have been posted already lol) then i'd be happy to answer those too :)

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hotchley · 3 years

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heyy sumayyah! firstly: i'm so sorry you got hate asks >:( some people really can't be nice... that sucks. i'm back with my hc to (maybe, hopefully) distract you/cheer you up!! just saying, it's LONG and it's kind of angsty in the beginning lmao sorry oops, but it gets a little better towards the end!! i promise!!

tw mentions of (bad) eating habits, very briefly implied abuse/domestic violence and alcoholism, brief mention of almost-fainting!!

so my own horrible eating habits got me thinking of Hotch who already doesn’t eat that much because of how he was raised (on his father’s bad days, his mother wouldn’t even be able to get up to make food and his father would be batshit drunk anyway, so no one made food and there’s nothing at home, and Hotch is too young and doesn’t know how to cook for himself, and that just carried its way into adulthood even after he learnt to cook (for Sean, because Sean is a growing boy and still has to eat and he would do anything to make sure Sean grows up happy) and even after he gets together with Haley, who always has to check in on him to make sure he's eating properly)

like, man would throw himself into his work, sometimes not on purpose but because he just was so intent on finishing just one more document, and time just slipped by and when he looks up again it’s 8pm, the bullpen’s almost empty, and then he realises that he actually hasn’t ate anything since he had his morning coffee. and after especially bad cases (Vincent Perrotta, Carl Buford, Tobias Hankel, that case on the pig farm, Foyet, etc.) he just, avoids food on purpose, distracting himself by finishing all the paperwork he has, even if they’re not urgent, sometimes even completing the team’s paperwork (as much as he can) just because he feels like he’s failed them. the team doesn't deserve to be bogged down by all these bureaucratic issues but he does, because what good is his role as their unit chief if he can’t even shield them from the evil out there, if he has to send his team into the abyss every single time and every time someone else gets more injured/fractured, and the least he could do is to help out the team with what he’s best with, right? all those behind-the-scenes, messy, cutthroat politics, because it’s okay if he takes the brunt of the scrutiny of the brass and if he could he would not even let the team relive what they’ve been through because they don’t deserve that, they don’t deserve having to recount their traumatic experience in a bloody report that will eventually just be filed and chucked aside but will leave emotional and mental scars on his agents that will never be erased.

or sometimes he’s just stressed out and anxious and food just really doesn’t go well with his stomach, and he opts to skip meals entirely - he drinks coffee only because he still needs to keep awake, to make sure he’s paying full attention on all these cases and victims and his team who deserve his 120%, and because his stomach’s been conditioned to accept coffee no matter what (over 10 years of being in the BAU after over another 5? years as a prosecutor, where he drank coffee like his life depended on it). and sure, he’s lost weight, his ribs slightly showing when he raises his hands to reach for things/take off his sweaters, sure he’s looked a little more gaunt and tired as the years go by, sure he’s had some almost fainting spells in his office after a long day without food, where his vision just blacks out for 5 seconds after he stands up and he has to clutch onto the edge of his desk to stabilize himself, but it's okay to him, because he must be the strong, stoic, reliable leader for his team and he can’t faint in his office, not when the blinds are open and the team can look in and when he knows that Derek, Emily and Spencer are all looking in concerned because he hasn’t left his office all day

and i’m just also thinking about how the team would just, do their best to feed him??? like, when they stop for gas on long road trips to/back from cases, he always doesn’t buy anything besides a coffee (black, as usual, with just a dash of sugar and cream on good days) for himself, but then JJ passes him an unopened nutri bar which she claimed she bought earlier for herself but now 'doesn’t feel like eating anymore', Dave silently hands over a cookie (chocolate chip, his favourite) and stares at him with his eyebrows raised until Aaron accepts the cookie and actually eats it, Derek slips a wrap into his hands somehow and offers to drive because 'Hotch, you gotta finish your wrap', Spencer casually asks Hotch if he can help him finish off this sandwich which he bought but cannot finish, and Hotch looks down and sees a perfectly fine egg and ham sandwich which hasn’t even been bitten into, but Spencer’s looking at him with those eyes (he thinks of Jack and how strikingly alike his sons they are) so he takes the sandwich and eats it, Emily openly challenges him and says ‘here’s the bag of chips i owe you, you better finish it all because i took the trouble of actually getting them or else’ and he goes along with it because he’s learnt that arguing with her is sometimes equivalent to arguing with Penelope, and that mostly ends up with him going along with both their ‘suggestions’ in the end anyway, and on the rare cases where Penelope goes with the team out into the field, she always packs homemade cookies and cupcakes that are so wonderfully bright and colourful, like everything about her, and when she gets to him with those sparkling hopeful eyes and says ‘I made these myself, come on, have a taste and let me know what you think?’, Hotch can’t help but accept it because he doesn’t ever want to disappoint Penelope and make her sad, because her bubbly and innocent demeanour reminds him of Jack and he would never do anything to kill that bright light that is Penelope

aND I’m getting some big emotions. imagine all the subtle (& not so subtle) things the team does just to make sure he eats (regularly) which may include and are not limited to: inviting themselves over to Hotch’s house for homecooked meals (Spencer, Derek), inviting him & Jack out on outings or playdates which most often than not end with them at restaurants where Hotch eats because Jack needs a good role model on healthy eating behaviours and he’s got to be that for Jack (Derek, Emily, JJ), or just showing up at his house/office to leave him baked goods/cooked meals that were always somehow ‘extras’ or ‘leftovers’ (JJ, Penelope, Rossi, Spencer) i'm sorry this got so long!! it was written a little over a month ago when i was procrastinating on my literature essay in the middle of the night, so i got a little angsty LOL. i hope this distracts you somewhat from the horrible ask you got! take care of yourself! sending love and hugs <33

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Putting my answer below the keep reading for scrolling x

Aww thank you for sending it!! When I saw I had an ask, I really thought it was you, and then it was that stupid anon and I was like: Oh okay then... I have to go eat dinner so....

Ohh... his childhood... the poor kid would've been so much smaller, but so determined to do everything for Sean because that's his little brother and he loves him more than anything... I love Haley though <3

He would so do that though. He would tell himself he could eat once he's done something- which is really unhealthy, if you're reading this do not ever withhold food, if you're feeling hungry just eat something it doesn't matter what it is because something will always, always be healthier than nothing- and then he would pick something else up and the cycle would repeat...

He would convince himself the coffee is enough, that there's nothing wrong with his habits because he's never done anything different, but he would know deep down that it's not right. But he still wouldn't eat anything because he knows it'll make him naesous either way.

The worst part is what are the team meant to do in that situation? They can't force him to eat... as much as they may want to, they can't...

YES! The team would have a tally chart of who last had to make Hotch eat, so they would have a rota, and occasionally (all the time actually) they would deviate from said rota and then they would all look at each other and then laugh because eh, it's fine!

That ending was so cute, I love them <3

Noo!! Don't be sorry it go so long, I love it so much!! I might have to work it into a fic... wait... one of them may have referenced JJ giving him in a sandwich, unless that was only in my head lol

#tw eating habits #tw implied abuse #tw alcoholism #tw almost fainting #🌙anon #people talk to me

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violetnotez · 5 years

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You’ll Be Okay- Todoroki x Reader

@sizzlingbarbarianglitter: Could you do a one-shot with Shoto where the reader is usually all cheery and enthusiastic, but after a mysterious phone call she seems kind of down the entire day.. finally during hero training she kind of loses it and Todoroki comforts her.

Hello anon, thank you for the request! I hope you enjoy this and *cough cough this request made me realize my absolute love for writing for Todoroki and him being a soft boy

Anyways, sending lots of love to you and I hope you like this :)

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Todoroki x Reader

Genre: Angst to Fluffy

Word Count: 1460

One Shot

(RULES | MASTERLIST COMING SOON| REQUESTS OPEN!!! :))

“Good save Ochaco!” you yelled encouragingly, preparing yourself for the next toss.

Today was a rare free day in class, and instead of sparring against each other like all of Baku Squad was doing, you and Dekusquad has decided to play a game of “Quirk” volleyball.

It was exactly the same way volleyball is played, except quirks were allowed, which made it 10 times more interesting. You were playing Boys Against Girls, with Todoroki, Izuku, and Iida on one side and Ochaco, Froppy, and you on the other.

The game was coming to a fierce end, with you both tied for the last point. Todoroki turned to look at you, panting slightly in the hot afternoon sun as you high fived Ochaco for giving you guys the tying point. For as long as he could remember, he had always admired your outgoing and optimistic attitude. The whole game you had been playing hard, and he couldn’t help but notice how pretty you looked in the afternoon sun, your shirt clinging to you slightly-

“Hey Todoroki, don’t be getting tired on me just yet!” you yelled with a tired grin, mistaking his staring at you as zoning out.

He shook his head, the tips of his bangs damp from sweat.

He looked down quickly, feeling so dumb for allowing himself to stare at you so unchecked like that- he was usually so good at keeping his crush on you form plain sight.

You took the ball from Uraraka’s outstretched hands, not noticing Todoroki’s blushing expression and preparing to serve the ball up, all the boy’s preparing for your serve. They knew you’d been holding back this whole game to preserve your extremely powerful quirk- most likely to use it for this very moment. They watched your very move, twitching from nervousness. Todoroki admired how calm you looked, as if you had no care in the world. You brought the ball up, preparing to use your quirk to hit a powerful blow to the other side-

You felt the power in your arms diminish instantly, staring at your hand confused.

“Mr. Aisawa,” Froppy greeted your angsty teacher, “is everything all right?”

Mr. Aisawa walked over in your direction, making eye contact with your tired yet smiling expression.

“Yes, Froppy, everything is fine,” he stated plainly, “Y/n, if you’d come with me, your parents are calling you from the front office.”

You felt your heart drop-was something wrong?

Todoroki noticed your body stiffen slightly, your smile becoming slightly less bright.

“Of course sir,” you replied, giving your friends a quick “Goodbye” as you walked with your teacher.

They all stared at you and Mr. Aisawa walk away, the game of volleyball forgotten.

“I wonder what’s going on with y/n,” Ochaco thought out loud, concern on her face.

“Hopefully it’ll be fast, so we can finish our game,” Froppy added, walking under a tree to cool off.

Izuku and Iida followed Froppy, thinking of something else to do until you came back.

Todoroki stared at the lonely ball on the floor, worried for you. He saw your whole demeanor change, something none of the group saw- he knew you were dealing with something and didn’t want to say anything. After weeks of watching you from afar, he knew how you acted, and that wasn't typically you.

Deku and Iida had decided to spar lightly while Uraraka and Froppy stretched, Todoroki leaning against the shaded tree, deep in thought.

How was he going to talk to you? He wanted to ask you so badly how you were feeling- he wanted his cheerful y/n back. He hated seeing you like that, just pretending to be happy. He would do anything to get back that beautiful smile of yours, the one that was always so spontaneous and took him off guard in the best way possible.

He was usually not much of a talker, and never shied away from what he was thinking- but with you, it was harder. He wanted to say everything exactly right, but everything he thought of sounded exactly wrong.

You came back 10 minutes later, your shoulders slumped as if you were carrying a huge weight on your shoulders, your head bent down.

“Y/n!” Ochaco cried your name happily, not noticing your defeated posture

Todoroki turned his head quickly, already noticing your change- to him, it was so obvious, even as you gave Midoriya a smile as he handed you the volleyball.

Everyone went back to their original places in the game that had ended a few minutes before, the boys again twitching in anticipation as they watched your every move. Todoroki, most of all, was taking careful care to watch your movements-You weren’t smiling and you weren’t relaxed- your face was preoccupied as you looked down at the ball, your lashes fluttering as you blinked too many times. You sighed, looking up, serving the ball without using your quirk- taking all the boys by surprise.

The game began again, the shouts and grunts of the competition filled the air, you and Todoroki not fighitng as hard as your teammates. You were preoccupied with keeping your emotions at bay, while Todoroki continued to worry over you.

Iida hit the ball your way, and noticing it too late, you feably went to hit, it going out of bounds and giving the boys the winning point. Strangely, nobody cheered about the victory, knowing it really wasn’t a true win. You were usually always so focused and competitive in games, making sure you gave it your all. Todoroki was convinced something was wrong, even as you smiled and stated jokingly that you would beat them next time. He was going to get to the bottom of this and make sure you you were okay.

Todoroki waited until he felt was the right time to talk. All his friends were relaxing on the bleachers of the Track course, you sitting a few seats in front of them, staring at the mountains and hugging your elbows, not engaging in the conversation.

Were you intentionally isolating yourself from the others?

He walked down, his heart racing slightly and his hands shoved in his pockets, sitting next to you without a word.

“Hi Todo”, you smiled weakly, using your nickname for him as your voice wavered slightly. He nodded, his nerves making him mute- he was never this alone and this close to you before. He noticed you hastily brush your cheeks with your hand, a sign you were holding back tears.

He cleared his throat nervously, asking, “Are-are you okay?”

He grimaced, hearing how unintelligent he made himself sound- of course you weren’t okay! You were clearly dealing with something, and he responded with nothing that was comforting or helpful. He made himself sound indifferent and if he just noticed your demeanor when he noticed all day. He internally wished he could kick himself for sounding so foolish when you responded with a sniffle.

“Its that noticeable huh?” you chuckled weakly, your voice hitching. “Im really sorry if Ive been...moody...I ddint mean to mess up the game or make you guys sad...I just-”

You shoulders began to shake the more you talked, and the more you talked, the less emotion you could control. You began tearing up, the tears trickling down your skin.

Todoroki instantly tended to comfort you, crouching in front of you instead of sitting beside you. He didnt know really what to do, except that he needed to comfort you. He rested his hand on your knee, hoping that by doing that, you would know that he was there for you. He waited until the tears subsided a little, you tear soaked face smiling down at him, making his heart stop.

How were still so beautiful when crying?

“Im so sorry Shouto, I didnt mean to-” you began.

“You dont have to apologize for anything, y/n,” he reassuring replied, “emotions are natural and it isnt healthy to keep them bottled up.

I-” He gulped, hoping the next thing he said wouldn't reveal too much about how he truly felt about you. “I noticed all day you weren’t yourself. You weren’t as cheerful after you arrived back from the office. It pains me seeing you upset,y/n, it truly does.”

He looked up at you, his cheeks on fire but his face still strong and steady like the Todoroki you know and love.

You looked at him, your heart fluttering and skipping a beat. You found it cute and endearing, even though you felt slightly guilty for making him worry.

He reached up, his hand shaking slightly as he wiped a tear from your cheeck, pushing a strand of hair out of your vision so he can see even more of your face that he found gorgeous.

You smiled at him, and this time, he knew it was a true smile that he loved so much.

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soyeahitsmiddleearth · 5 years

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Multi-Dimensional pt. 2

The Company x Reader

Trigger warning: reference to past domestic/animal abuse

Really angsty but funny at the beginning.

@barbar126

So when you finished your little '10 minutes alone in your house' test, you were actually pleasantly surprised to see everyone sitting around your living room and enjoying their tea and food without a fuss. They hadn't even taken their weapons back, and nothing was broken either.

After that, you realized that things were probably going to go well and you can afford relax a bit. Plus... free labor.

Around 5 or so days pass by without much incident (of course showing them how to use the bathroom was awful since they didn't seem to grasp the fact that the water just comes out of the showerhead and they don't need to fill anything... and that the water could actually be warm if they waited for 10 damn seconds).

You made the mistake of not telling the 'dwarf' known as Dwalin to wait while you got everything set up, and when you turned he had already been half-naked.

Suffice to say, you screamed so loud that a bunch of those 'dwarves' came running over with weapons drawn and everything.

You're going to have to make a spray bottle and spritz them when they pull out their pointy things like that, but only after you're 100% sure they won't shank you for it.

The first time they saw your barn full of horses, cows, goats, and some sheep they were excited, and when they saw your aquarium room with all your fish and the terrariums with your snakes and turtle that you pet sit, they were a little more nervous.

The youngest, who you know to be Ori, had asked if the reptiles would eat them, but you only smiled and said, "Not unless I tell them too." You can't actually make them attack the dwarves, but it's best to keep them on their toes.

You decided to 'employ' all of them to help you take care of the animals, though you don't really need it, and may I say that the sight of your tiny hamsters, rabbit, and turtle being held in big 'man' hands is probably the cutest thing you've ever seen.

Yeti has also betrayed you, for he has fallen in love with that blond 'hobbit' known as Bilbo, and will only listen to him. If you had known Yeti would drop everything and have an affair the moment you turned your back, you would've sent them away (not really). The first time Yeti refused to come to you while he was snuggling the small hobbit shattered your heart. The betrayal shot through you like a poison arrow and spread throughout your whole body, leaving nothing in its wake other than sorrow and pain.

You got called dramatic for that.

"Fine! I don't need you anyway, Yeti! I've got Copper!" You cried, much to the amusement of your guests.

To be honest, you act like a total nut job with the sole purpose of bringing some joy into their everyday lives... and to keep them underestimating you in case things go south.

The quieter Balin seemed to take to your cat Butterscotch immediately, and now you rarely see him without ole Scotch in his lap. Your other two cats Midnight and Mittens were a little less pleased to have so many people around them, but they tolerated the dwarves and eventually got to petting terms with them.

The brothers Fili and Kili (you keep mixing them up, you're ashamed to admit) seemed to like your rabbit and hamsters the most. After you showed them how to feed the little fluffy boi's and how to open their cages, you often found them walking around holding them in their arms. It's very cute.

Thorin, the leader of this entourage, acts like he doesn't care for any of them, but you saw that bastard feeding Copper scraps under the table when he thought you weren't looking. And, apparently, Mittens kinda likes him which is interesting.

It's been only 5 days, but you found yourself becoming fond of the lot of them rather quickly, and they to you (though you don't know that).

You have two spare bedrooms with medium-sized beds, the love seat, long couches, and a chair in your living room, and a small couch in your bedroom too. You decided that moving the couch out to one of the other guest bedrooms would be beneficial, but it'll take some time so you were postponing it.

Now is as good of a time as any, you suppose.

You had been feeding your fish with Nori and Ori, and when the inspiration to move the couch hit you, you handed them the shaker and said, "Be careful not to overfeed them, otherwise they will explode and I will cry." You make your way to the door and pause, "A lot."

With that, you leave toward the stairs, and Copper rises from his spot next to Thorin (you feel weird not saying Mr. before) to follow after you.

"Oh, here's my good little boy!" You kneel down and squish his fluffy face, making over-exaggerated smooching noises as you kiss the top of his head and his snout, "Who's a good boy? Who's my good boy!?" You ask in a baby voice, scratching his back and petting him all over. His tail wags excitedly as you smother him in affection, and it only makes your heart melt, "You would never betray mommy, no you wouldn't! You wouldn't ditch me for a hobbit, would you baby? Oh, I love you." smooch, "so," smooch, "much!" You kiss the top of his head one more time, then stand back up with a bright smile on your face.

Someone clears their throat behind you, so you turn and see the majority of the intruders standing behind you. Some of them look amused, a few disturbed, and others are actually laughing.

"What?" You ask indignantly, feeling your face heat up from embarrassment. You forget that there are others in the house who aren't use to your animated way of talking to your babies.

"You have quite an interesting way of speaking with your animals." Mr. Thorin asshole Oakenshield states (he's actually a pretty nice guy).

You can't even help the violent blush from spreading across your cheeks, "D-Don't talk to me like that!" You exclaim, pouting rather childishly. "Copper! Attack!" You yell, pointing in his general direction.

A few of them stiffen, but Copper just kinda lazily ambles over and sits down in the middle of the dwarves, making you gasp dramatically. There's some more laughter, and while you knew Copper wouldn't actually attack them, it did nothing to ease how flustered you are like you thought it would.

You throw your arms up in the air in defeat and yell exasperatedly, "Fine! Have fun laughing while I put small animals in your things!" You don't wait around to see how they react and instead walk up the stairs and head to your room to begin moving the couch.

There's some murmuring that you can hear down below.

"Did we actually offend her?" Someone whispers.

You don't know their voices well enough to decipher who is who, yet, but their conversation actually warms your heart a bit.

"We didn't, did we? I only found it to be slightly amusing, and cute..." Another voice states.

"Yeah, it was cute, t-the dog I mean..."

Ooh, they think you're cute. Nice.

You decide that you should stop eavesdropping and go ahead and start moving the couch. Or try at least.

At first, you try pushing it, but the carpet simply doesn't allow for it, so you instead try to pull it, but that doesn't work either. Then, you crouch down and manage to lift it slightly from the ground, and so you, still gripping the gap beneath it, slowly walk back with it a few steps. You only manage to make it about 3 feet before you have to take a breather though.

You do that 4 more times, and eventually, you make it to the still-open, door. Once you get it there you stop and lean against it, panting quietly from the exertion.

For about a minute you stand there, and once you've caught your breath somewhat you lean back down and lift it as much as you can again and begin dragging it backward. You make some grunting noises from your effort and breathe out loudly when you drop it 2 feet later, standing up straight since the position is making your back hurt.

You bury your head in your hands and groan dramatically, "I'm a failureeeee!"

"Are you okay?" Someone says behind you suddenly.

You turn your head a bit and see one of the brothers, the brown-haired one, Kili you think (or was it Fili?), on the stairs looking at you with furrowed eyebrows, so you drop your hands back to your side.

"Just peachy. Do you need help with something?" You ask, wiping your hands on your jeans.

He shakes his head no, then glances at the heavy couch you're trying to move. "No, but it looks like you do."

You look down at the couch, then back at him and shake your head, "No, no I've got this. I've just gotta bring it across the hall over there." You point towards the end of the catwalk, but your resolve diminishes slightly when you realize just how far it is. Of course, you don't retract your denial since you don't want to look stupid. "All good over here."

You turn your back to him again and go back to your little system of lifting it slowly, pulling it back a few feet, then dropping it.

Honestly, it's painful to watch.

He then asks again, "Are you sure... you do not need help?"

You shake your head 'no' and don't bother turning or answering verbally this time (definitely not because you're out of breath), instead you just do the same process again and finally pull the damn thing all the way through your door.

"S-See? I've got it all under control!" You look over at him with a weary and very unconvincing smile. Damn, you don't even believe it yourself.

"Hey Fili, come here!" He calls suddenly, not acknowledging your assurance that you're all good.

Oh great, now they're gonna watch you fail together and make fun of you.

You huff indignantly and turn away, moving to pick it up again and, hopefully, arrive at your destination before you can be embarrassed anymore today.

Heavy footsteps ascend up the stairs and you groan internally, but continue nonetheless.

"What is it?" You hear him ask Kili (now you've got it), "Oh, uh, what is she doing?"

You do your best to tune them out and just go about your business. When you drop the couch this next time, though, you kinda just stand there for a moment and wait for your back to stop hurting.

A voice then pipes up next to you, "Allow us."

You look down at the blond dwarf with surprise, not having heard him approach, "Um, I don't know if you'll be able to..." Your eyes drift over to Kili (you know that's his name for sure this time) who is at the opposite end of the furniture, and when he lifts it, it goes up much higher than what you managed.

How is that even possible? They're smaller than you are! In height, at least... Okay, actually maybe it does make sense since, as stated 5 days ago, these bitches are thicc👌.

"Okay." You don't see the point in arguing any further and just step out of the way (plus you hate physical labor), watching as they carry the whole couch to the other room in record time. Now you just feel silly, having so adamantly refused any assistance when the job effort was cut in half in literal seconds.

After a few moments of just standing there, you follow and go into the room, seeing that they've already placed it in a free space in the room.

"Is this alright?" Kili asks, looking over at you with a slightly smug expression.

You just nod dumbly, looking between them and the couch a few times, "I don't...," you pause before you finish that thought, squinting at the couch, "Move it a little to the left."

They do just that, and when it's done you smile brightly, "Looks good. Thank you."

Fili opens his mouth to say something, but a loud knock on your door and barking from Copper and Yeti silences him.

You spin around on your heel and look downstairs frantically at the entrance, seeing a distorted figure through the wavy glass of your front door. Your eyes go wide, and you turn back to the two brothers, "Don't go outside!"

You then race downstairs, the two following close behind, and wave everyone looking at the door over to you, "Go hide over there," you point to an area out of sight from the front door. You smile and say, "Good boys!" out of habit, but another knock keeps you from getting embarrassed.

You start to run over to the door, but pause and run back to say, "And don't leave this area. I don't know who's here."

A louder knock resounds throughout your main room, and you yell, "I'm coming! Just give me a moment!" Once they're all hidden away, you make your way over and open the front door.

Your face falls immediately, "Erick... what are you doing here?" Suddenly all the confidence and joy washes out of you, leaving nothing but a barren wasteland of confusion and dismay.

The man at your doorway, Erick, looks down at you with a blank stare, then down at your dogs. A smile comes to his face and he says, "Hey, Copper! I've missed you, buddy!"

Copper doesn't go up to him, instead he growls a bit and you feel satisfied about it. Yeti just turns away and goes to where everyone else is hiding, no doubt to look for Bilbo.

Erick steps forward a bit and goes to pet him, but you snap, "Hey! Leave him alone. What do you want?"

When you ask what he wants, he steps back out onto the patio and glares at Copper briefly before looking back at you, "I just came by to see Copper, is all. He's my dog too you know."

His words make your blood boil, but you try to keep your cool and instead shake your head, "No, the moment you raised your hand to him he was no longer your dog. And I doubt you made a trip all the way here just to see him. Just tell me what you want so I can get back to my day."

His fists clench at his sides and you unconsciously flinch but maintain eye contact. "Fine, you're right. I came to take him back home with me."

"What?" You ask incredulously, looking down at Copper's sweet face, then back up at him. "Yeah, no way, he's my fucking dog."

"Yes way, he was our dog, and being as I bought him for you and paid all his bills before you began this worthless animal sitting shit, I have more of a right to him than you." His voice sounds so smug, and his smirk makes you sick to your stomach

"You only bought him for me because you needed something to make me stick around." You argue, "Why are you doing this now? Why not last week? Or tomorrow? Or literally any other time? Why did you have to come by without even calling me in advance?"

He crosses his arms and leans forward intimidatingly, purposefully looming just to unnerve you, "Because I want my dog back."

Oh, you know exactly what he's doing. Copper is precious to you in more ways than one, and after your not so great breakup with this slimy bastard, he looked for every way to piss you off and fuck you over. You can't count on two hands how many times he threatened Copper's well-being just to force you to do something. He thinks that by taking Copper now he can psych you out and make you come back to him. And, well, he probably can, but there's no way you're going to just give Copper to him.

"Over my dead freaking body." You snap back, crossing your arms much like he did, "I can pay you back for everything in cash, but he's not going anywhere with you."

"Yes, he is. I've got the receipts to prove it too. Give him to me or I take you to court."

Oh, this fucker.

"Then fucking take me to court!" You stand your ground and shake your head, taking a calming breath so you don't explode, "Why can't you just leave us alone? Copper is my dog, I love him so much, and you know that! I'm sorry I broke up with you and it hurt your feelings, but you have to leave him out of this! Isn't there something else I can give you? Like my money?"

"Well... I suppose I can make this all go away." He suddenly says, a smirk curling upon his lips and he leans down slightly.

You don't dare hope that he's going to say something rational. "How?"

"Just let me take you out on one more date, I'll show you that I'm not that guy anymore." He attempts a 'sweet' and 'apologetic' smile, but you can see right through him, "I didn't even mean to hit him anyways." Just as you expected.

You lean back when he gets closer and your nose scrunches up distastefully. "Um, yeah, you didn't mean to hit him because you meant to hit me, or did you forget about that? I'm not going anywhere with you. End of discussion." At this point, you've completely forgotten about the 14 people hiding not 20 feet away. You're just so damn angry you can't even think straight.

"Then I'm going to take him back home with me. And if he happens to get out and run into the middle of the road... well, my dog door doesn't lock, as you know."

You recoil at his hateful, disgusting words and feel a spark of emotion shoot through you, "I w-won't let you take him. He's been through enough because of you!" In a way you're expressing your own frustrations through Copper, speaking about him in a way that conveys what you're actually feeling too. "Please, Erick just leave us alone. I can pay you back for the things you got him, that way you haven't lost anything."

"Except for you." He tries to sound disappointed and regretful, but you know he isn't. He isn't. "You know I love you..."

For a split second you almost believe him, but you shove that trust away as soon as it appears. It took you a long time to get to where you are today, and you're not about to relapse and start forgiving him again now. "You don't love me, Erick, you love to control me. I left, and that's your fault!"

"If you won't get back with me, then give me Copper and I'll leave you alone."

Great, an ultimatum.

Yes, having this prick leave you alone for good would be wonderful, but sending that innocent fluff ball with him is a death sentence. You don't know what he did to him when you weren't home if he did anything at all, but you loathe the thought of Copper being at his mercy (mostly because he has none).

Copper was the only ray of light in your dark life then. He was your only solace, your beacon of hope, and your only ally when Erick made you drive everyone else away. In some ways, you'd first die then part with him.

"No! I already said I'm not going to give him to you! You only gave him to me so you could use him against me anyways! You don't love him, and you don't love me. You're crazy."

He glares daggers into you but doesn't reply to that. Then steps to the side and whistles, "Copper, come here."

Copper's ears twitch, but he doesn't move to get up. He's scared.

When Copper doesn't move Erick begins to step inside, but you get in front of him and glare up at him, "Hey! You can't come in here, Erick!"

He doesn't move at first, clearly not having expected you to stand up to him physically like that.

"This doesn't have to be difficult, Y/N. Just give me his leash and we'll be on our way."

"Over. My. Dead. Body!" You repeat, reaching back to push Copper away a bit and urge him to run off.

"That can be arranged." He hisses, a dangerous glint gleaming in his eyes.

"Hey, g-get away from me!" You shrink back and start to step away, but he reaches up and grabs your wrists, causing you to physically cringe when his skin meets yours. "D-Don't touch me!" You cry in alarm, hearing some shuffling from the very place you hid your new friends. The new friends that you instructed not to come out. Copper stands up when you start to shout and he barks at Erick, but he only ignores your good little floofer and shakes you a bit.

"You were so much better when you listened!" He snaps, releasing one of your hands to grab your face in a bruising grip.

"Stop!" You yell louder, voice slightly muffled and intended for both him and the no doubt distressed dwarves and hobbit. One of your knees comes up almost on its own, and though it doesn't quite hit it's target, it does hit his stomach. His grip on you loosens, so you wrench your wrist from his grasp and shove him backwards out your door, causing him to land on his butt on the wood deck.

"Did you really just do that?!" He screams, staggering to his feet with murder in his eyes as he moves to come back inside. "You're gonna fucking wish you-"

He reaches towards you, but you slam the door on his fingers before he can come any closer or finish his threat. A loud cry of pain comes from in front of you, but you slam your door instead of going to look. You turn all the locks quickly and step back from it, tripping over your own feet and falling on your butt much like he did when he starts to bang on your door from the other side.

"Give me that damn dog, Y/N! I will get a judge involved! I'll sue you for assault and robbery!"

He continues to scream and break things outside your door, and at some point you wrap Copper up in a tight hug, sniffling softly from a mixture of both relief and fright.

Erick screams every curse in the book. He screams violent threats against your animals, describing what he's going to do if he ever get's his hands on them, all the ways he's going to hurt you. How he wants you to die, and how he'll kill you if you ever cross paths again.

You don't know how long he goes at it, yelling these hateful and threatening things at you and your poor animals, but eventually, he quiets. With one final kick at your door and exclamation about how he's going to get you for this, he leaves.

Your heart is beating rapidly in your chest, and you're unable to move for a little bit until Copper's cool nose presses against your cheek gently.

He's shaking (or maybe that's you), you notice, so you stroke his head gently and mumble, "Hey, it's okay sweetheart... It's okay." You don't know if he can understand you, but your voice seems to calm him regardless. Despite being slightly traumatized, you're actually a little proud of yourself for standing up for yourself and Copper like that.

More shuffling registers from behind you, but you don't turn to look. You don't want them to see your tears, even if you consider them your friends. People are horrible, and when they see someone like you as you are now they either pity you needlessly, or see someone they can take advantage of. And you're done being taken advantage of.

You just continue to sit there on the ground, hugging Copper's fuzzy head to your chest while you whisper comforting things to him, sniffling occasionally while you wait for your violent trembling to cease.

A few minutes pass of complete silence, you could probably hear a fly landing on something with how quiet it is. There is nothing you loathe more at this moment then having to face the people behind you, but you stand up anyways.

"Miss Y/N?"

Ah, you recognize that voice. It's the hobbit Bilbo, and it sounds like he doesn't know what to say.

You ignore him calling your name and just dance around the topic and try to make a joke out of it by stating, "W-Well that was awkward, wasn't it? I didn't think this is how our day would go." You don't turn to face them, shoulders stiff while you look at Copper's sweet face and try to keep your tears at bay, "I... I don't feel so good all of a sudden. I think I'm going to retire early tonight." Your voice is soft and weak, heavy from crying, and you just feel humiliated all around (especially at the way your voice breaks when you attempt a laugh).

You turn slowly and force a smile, one much too bright and cheery to be paired with your puffy eyes and heart-wrenchingly frail demeanor. "H-Help yourself to my kitchen."

You cannot stand the expressions on their faces, even the half-deaf one heard everything, so you turn your gaze down to your feet and, without another word, make a bee-line for the stairs and practically run up them with Copper and Butterscotch on your heels. Even Yeti follows after you. "Good night!" You rush out before slamming your bedroom door, avoiding the same 14 pairs of eyes still trained on you.

If you had taken a little longer to look at them, you would've seen more than pity though. Some of them held anger, some looked sad and empathetic, and some were simply shocked or upset themselves. They've seen nothing but the strong-willed and funny part of you, so seeing that...

It seems that your distress has affected the mood of this company quite a bit more than you realize.

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lori-hime · 4 years

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I haven't written much about what I've been up to lately, so here's some word salad updates~ 🥗

NijiGaku Anime

So I started watching the new LL. I hadn't been keeping up with SIFAS' story, but I did read some of it when it first came out. I gotta say, I'm really enjoying all of the changes they decided to make for the anime version of the story, to both the characters and story. It's starting to feel like something coherent. The story in the game was ok, but the main thing that interested me was the interactions with Muse and Aqours, overshadowing the actual "plot" and even Nijigasaki themselves. But the anime really made me interested and excited about the story and characters again. I would be a little annoyed about the personality and dynamic changes, but honestly, I'm used to it by now. LL always ends up doing this sort of thing, and the personalities only seem to become solidified after the anime airs.

A little disappointed in Kasumi's change in some vague ways I don't really feel like describing, but honestly it balances out because Ayumu is fantastic now (previously one of my least cared for of the group.) Yu's personality is surprisingly super gay fun and I'm really excited for her and Ayumu's dynamic in particular. They're so cute. Seriously feel like I'm gonna ship them hard.

I also really like Rina's initial personality in this. Not only is she bad at expressing emotions through her face, but she also seems bad at expressing them through words too. I feel like this is gonna be much more interesting than her already being cutesy and genki like in the promo stuff and SIFAS.

When Karin was first shown, I had mixed feelings. At first I was like oh god I'm gay and she's beautiful. But the whole sexuality flaunting thing kind of put me off for several reasons I don't really wanna get into explaining. I really didn't know how to feel. I started liking her a little more during SIFAS, when she competed against Muse in DDR and lost... started feeling like I was getting a glimpse of her real personality without the whole sexy idol persona. Although not much has happened in the anime with her yet, she's giving me Nozomi vibes and I love it. I actually think if I had gone into this without previous knowledge of the characters, I'd be betting she'd become my fave for sure.

My list has gone from Kasumi > Rina > Kanata / Emma > Karin > Ai > Setsuna > Ayumu > Shizuku to Yuu > Ayumu > Kasumi / Karin > Rina > Kanata / Emma > Ai > Setsuna > Shizuku

Still biased a bit towards characters that have shown up more in the first two eps, so it'll undoubtedly change. But It's really interesting how much the characters I already felt I had good placements for changed so much.

Edit for episode 3, because I didn't post this fast enough. Student council speedrun was fantastic. Yu continues to be incredibly gay. I wonder how this episode will affect the ships people will gravitate towards. LL has always been a fairly monoship fandom, heavily gravitating towards specific pairs. Of course that's largely the fault of canon itself, often pushing and developing single ships. Well, I suppose we saw a big change with Aqours, though, especially with season two. But even then, the ships tended to stay at least between girls of the same year (aside from my rarepair, shout-out to YohaRiko.) Now, I wonder. From the very beginning, before Yu even had a name, it felt like they were really pushing the shippy stuff @ the viewer. I wonder if that’s still gonna be the angle. I'm not entirely sure how I feel about it yet. I really want to see more YuAyu rather than YuSetsu, but I can't really be mad at more gay content unless they try to make it a DEEP story and then fail to resolve it but haha they'd NEVER do that, I'm sure!!

As for the others... I'm guessing they're gonna push RinAi, KarinEmma, YuuKasu, and maybe YuuShizu? My original guesses were that AiKarin would be a thing, evoking NozoEli v3. But I guess that'd be too predictable a third time. KarinEmma sounds like it could be cute and sweet, RinAi feels like it has adorable potential, and YuKasu vs. YuAyu sounds like it could have some good comedic rival-y potential, given they don't make Kasumi super serious about it and make it really angsty. Not that a cute idol show would ever do such a thing haha!!!!!

Higurashi Gou

Also started Higurashi. I doubt many people know this, but I used to be a major Higurashi fan before I got into Touhou. It was my main "fandom" I guess, even though there wasn't really that much of a fandom to interact with comparatively. Anyway, despite that, I didn't think I'd get into this remake super hard... but I'm really loving it so far. The art style is really pretty and eye candy, and it turns out it's a direct continuation of the story rather than a remake. Very excited to see where it's going, and also to see a lot of my baby Rena again.

An interesting difference to me as I'm rewatching are my feelings for Keiichi. While I don't hate him, over the years I've really grown tired of the generic male leads (especially in harem anime) like him. Of course, he's definitely not AS generic as they come, or maybe perhaps that's just my bias from when I used to really like him. The me back then found him unique enough to stand beside the girls. Nowadays, I definitely can't say the same. At least he doesn't grate on my nerves as much as most other harem anime protags do, however. I feel like despite lacking the quirks that make the girls so likeable and unique, he still has something going for him... perhaps the fact he's framed as inherently different from everyone else, because he comes from the city, and the way he acts a bit more realistically to the scary things that are happening. Although those things are obviously explained away later, at least for now I still accept him for what he is, old bias or not.

Genshin Impact

Been playing Genshin Impact religiously and loved every second of it. Though I've caught up with the main story content, so sadly it's slowed down. I'd never heard of this game before it came out, so I was absolutely wowed that such a game was f2p. I've heard a lot of people criticizing it because they added gacha in at the last minute, and I definitely understand being annoyed through the pov of someone who was anticipating it. But part of me is still really thankful that the game is free at all. I suppose that full but paid 60 dollar game would still be a better experience, but because of my non-existent budget situation, I may not have ended up playing it at all.

Aside from the arguably shitty monetization practices, however, the game is fantastic. It really is as similar to BoTW as people have mentioned, and I really appreciate that. BoTW, from a gameplay standpoint, is absolutely my favorite game. It's exactly what I want from any given game. So I really appreciated this. The story and characters of Genshin are also really interesting. I really like Qiqi, Venti, Fischl, and Xingqiu, among others. I spent a while rerolling for Qiqi or Venti 5*s, and eventually got an account with Qiqi. Venti on the other hand I've been trying to roll for but sadly haven't gotten. I have 1 roll left before the banner ends, so hopefully.. My friends whaled him for me. I swear I tried to stop them! I owe them my soul...

HoloLive, Pikamee & Vtubing

I briefly started getting into HoloLive a little while ago. After the Aloe stuff, I started worrying a bit about how the company handles these situations as well as the girls' freedoms and how much of their donation money they actually get.. (I made a post about it a while back.) After a while my worries died down a bit, but then came back full force with the Coco and Haachama situation. After that and one too many uncomfortable sexual jokes, I decided to just distance myself from HL. It's a shame, because I really enjoyed their personalities, but it was making me feel uncomfortable more often than not.

I told myself it’s fine, I’ve got Pikamee if I ever feel like watching vtubers again. And then like a week later... Well, it’s not really something I wanna talk about here, but she made some posts on twitter that made me too uncomfortable to continue watching her either.

On a much lighter note... A friend of mine showed us how to use prprlive and facerig to use the Touhou CB Live2D models, and Asa and I played around with Mokou, Kaguya, and Lyrica’s. It was quite fun, and I do look forward to using the Kaguya one for private streams on one of my servers. I’ve actually always wanted to try out vtubing stuff myself, but not really publicly. Of course, the costs for getting a model drawn and made specifically for me are too much for something I’m not really committing to, so this is perfect. I’m excited~

Touhou Cannonball & Kagura Thoughts

It’s been a long time since I talked about Touhou CB on my blog, and I’m pretty sure I left things on a pretty bad note. Mainly dissatisfied with Mokou’s portrayal for pretty shallow reasons on my part, despite they game having just started and having a lot of room to grow. And grow it did. While I quit pretty early in because of that, Asa decided to take over my account. She realized that it was pretty easy to upgrade any given character you had to a 5* without having to rely much on the gacha. She ended up playing a lot with the goal of upgrading everyone we had. I came back to it around July and actually had a lot of fun with it. The cast had gotten much bigger and we really enjoyed playing on multiplayer. It wasn't the best game ever from a gameplay standpoint, but it definitely had it's charm. The announcement of its death, although unsurprising, came at the worst time. Asa and I actually cried a little when we saw the announcement, ngl. The game had such good, wholesome, Touhouy vibes to it. Nonetheless, we made the most out of the last month or so after the announcement. We played a LOT of multiplayer and had a lot of really cute and good interactions with other players. Near the end, we realized that Lyrica was the only character from the normal banner we were missing, so we grinded like crazy (mostly Asa) to try to get her... we ended up getting a number of 5*s but none Lyrica... she eluded us to the very end. It was quite sad, but how hard we worked for it still felt satisfying somehow. We were able to max out our multiplayer level and complete a ton of goals we wouldn’t have otherwise.

So after this bittersweet experience with Touhou gacha, and all the scummy things I've been hearing about Lost Word, I've been thinking like... I'm done with Touhou gacha, at least for now. Don't wanna hear anything else about it for a good while. And then the 25th anniversary hits and they announce Kagura. Ugh. Please, give me a break. Needless to say, I'm gonna have to give it a try. Touhou is my life, I love rhythm games, I love Touhou music, and I love character collecting games. And I've been waiting for something to replace SIF gameplay in my heart for a long time. I'd banked my hopes on SIFAS but it's really barely a rhythm game so.... at least now that I've gone through CB's death and seen how cruddy LW is, I'll have lower standards and not get my hopes up too high.

If you got this far, thanks for reading my rambles and have a good day~

#loritalk #super long im sorry #there's even more stuff i wanted to talk about but it was already long enough as it is

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yinxiong · 4 years

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do u have any anime recs?? ive only watched the popular ones like haikyuu, bnha and aot but its kinda overwhelming to look for new ones so im asking u since i know & trust that u have good taste

ooohhhhhh boyyyy im vibrating bc 1) you’re asking me for anime recs 2) yOU SAID I HAVE GOOD TASTE HDJK THANK 🥺💞

okay but being serious here ,,, i’m not sure exactly what genres you’re looking for so i’ll put a list of my favorites + other ones similar to those 3 you might enjoy :))) if you have anything specific in mind lmk !!! i recently compiled a list of everything i’ve watched / tried to watch (it’s quite embarrassing actually) so hopefully there’s something you’ll like on there 😊

fullmetal alchemist: brotherhood

genre: shounen, action, fantasy, women characters being badass

very brief summary: two boys learn alchemy and try to get their bodies back, ends up unravelling government conspiracy in the process

this is my all time favorite uhdfdjks

top tier, a masterpiece truly

i'd rate it 100/10 but it surpasses that honestly

it's just really REALLY good

might be a little bit slow in the beginning but trust me it picks up quickly

if you’re interested it’s originally a manga and has some more details the anime left out !!!

assassination classroom / ansatsu kyoushitsu

genre: shounen, school, action, kids being kids but with knives and guns

brief summary: a class of kids are assigned to kill a super monster before he blows up the earth in exactly one year - the catch is that he’s their homeroom teacher :D

basically kids learning how to be assassins but also trying to pass school and it's all very heartfelt and you WILL adopt them all

10/10 i cry every time

honestly watch this first it’s very easy to follow

also a manga with a few storylines the anime left out, not crucial but i recommend anyways since i read it first before the anime even came out and it just has a special place in my heart

noragami

genre: shounen, urban fantasy, gods being literal disasters someone pls help them

brief summary: a girl accidentally meets an unknown god and asks him for his help, slowly learns more about his world (i’m so sorry this is really vague but it’ll all be covered in the first episode trust me)

the gods can find spirits (dead people) and turn them into weapons if that’s cool

sexy animation !!!!!

only big flaw with the anime is that they mess up the main character’s characterization a little bit so you might want to read the manga? also only has two seasons and the manga is further along ,,, but everyone is currently stressed tf out over the plot ohmygod ,,,

gekkan shoujo nozaki-kun

genre: romantic comedy but heavy emphasis on comedy, slice of life, literal chaos

brief summary: a girl has a crush on a guy who turns out to be a manga artist, she winds up being his assistant (this barely covers it though)

a bunch of high school kids being chaotic and oblivious

just watch it i can’t really explain it in words you’ll be laughing a lot

only one season so if you enjoy there’s also more chaos in the manga

your lie in april / shigatsu wa kimi no uso

genre: shoujo, classical music !!!!

brief summary: a former piano prodigy who no longer plays because he can’t hear music meets a violinist that brings color into his life once again

look

this is top tier

so beautiful hhdjfdks

i watched this on my new tv and shed real tears

as a pianist/musician i adore it a lot hhhhh the pieces they chose to play are all the favs (i performed a medley with my violinist friend for a show once hahahah)

a little sad tho beware of feels

the opening song is like . so freaking well known omg

akame ga kill!

genre: shounen, action, lots of fighting and blood, war

brief summary: a boy joins a group of assassins who are working to overthrow the shithole government (yea sounds kind of basic but there’s more to it)

mainly just girls with weapons

i mean there’s guys too but the girls are the best characters

the weapons are lowkey magical too

yea this is where my nickname came from lol

the anime gets a 7/10 but the manga probably 8/10

manga is darker, more graphic but better plotwise

no game no life

genre: shounen, a bit of ecchi ugh, lots of mind games

brief summary: two genius gamer siblings get transported to a world where everything is decided by games, they decide they want to beat god

very colorful and pretty animation!!!!

there’s some questionable “fanservice” moments but ignoring that the plot is legit

only one season tho :(( pls it was so popular when it came out where is s2

there is a movie prequel, a lot more angsty but still vv good

ao haru ride

genre: shoujo, the usual high school romance, slice of life

brief summary: a girl meets the guy she used to have a crush on, only to find that his personality has completely changed (she has too though)

insert falling back in love

one of the shoujo classics haha

i binged this in one night a few weeks ago

not sure if it was worth it but i had fun lmao

just a low stakes cute anime

also very pretty

only 12 eps, the manga finishes later

given

genre: just music boys being gay lol (jk it’s kind of sad)

brief summary: a boy learns to move on from his ex by joining a band (this is possibly the shittiest summary ever but i dont wanna give anything away hdjhkjs)

just watch it lmao it’ll make sense

idiot boys

band boys !!!

feels but not overwhelming

the comedy is top notch though

i adore given so much hhjkdf waiting for the movie to come out

THE MUSIC IS SO GOOD

all the songs are on spotify i listen to them way too much

yuri on ice

genre: figure skaters being gay that’s all you need to know

brief summary: a figure skater falls into a slump, somehow winds up with the top skater as his coach (yet another shitty summary sorry)

hmm this isn’t actually one of my favorites but it’s popular enough so why not

i just really love figure skating hfjdks

it’s pretty accurate i’d say! there are even easter eggs of top men skaters irl hahah

definitely dramatized lol

but still pretty fun

bungou stray dogs

genre: shounen, urban fantasy, very dapper mafia / detectives

brief summary: a kid on the run after getting kicked out of his orphanage accidentally saves a detective, shit goes down from there

pretty fun as you learn about their powers, watch them solve mysteries

the fighting is cool too

until the machine guns appear ugh i just tune that part out

oh yea all the characters are named for actual literary figures and i didnt realize until s2 💀

fairy tail

genre: shounen, magic/fantasy, action, friends !!!!!

brief summary: just mages in guilds going on quests lolol what more do you want

fr it’s honestly quite chill

like there’s definitely an ongoing plot and lots of subplots / arcs

but it’s very character driven

so many cool character designs

was OBSESSED w this in middle school ,,, highkey embarrassing omg

one of the big anime/manga, if you like bnha i’m sure you’ll have fun with fairy tail

this was a stupidly long list and im clearly way too excited ,,, if you have any questions or just want to scream about any of these, my inbox is always open ;)))

#ask #anon #anime recs #plsss im a weeb #ive definitely lost followers over it #but idc anymore #tysm for this ask ily

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astickofbutter · 4 years

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oh!!! good job then! amanes always bene a bit melancholy anyways lol

OHH!!! IM A MINOR IN HS TOO WE'RE GONNA HAVE HARD TIMES WHEN WE'RE OLD LMAO im glasses amke my cheeks look bigger than usual so ppl fiets impression of seing me is always "cey has hamster cheeks!!!!"

JAHWJDJE AWWW THANK YOUA AGAIN 😳🥺🥺💞💞💖

oh glad to hear u got the motivation!! good luck!!!!

also dw i coudl never hate anything!!! this tsukasa week is so all to enjoy every bit of content!!

I actually made him stand in the rain as an extra effect. Lol, I have way too much fun making depressing/angsty stuff.

Oh! I KNEW it! I always got that "minor" vibe from you ever since I started following you! Cool to know I was right. And I can only imagine what it'll be like when we get there.

AWW! HAMSTER CHEEKS!!! THAT'S SO CUTE!! YOU'RE SO CUTE!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!! 💞💖💖💞💕💖

Thank you!! Hopefully I do well, considering that this will technically be my first contribution to the fandom other than my upcoming Idol AU. Ah! I'm getting nervous jitters just thinking about it. But it's going to be pretty angsty and violent so I'm kinda afraid of how people are going to react. Because I can get pretty dark and uh...it's not what people would often say as my best quality. As a matter of fact, they say it's one of the worst qualities I have.

One example would be of the one time me and my sister were cutting the branches off of a bush in our backyard with bow cutters and she said that she felt like she was cutting the stems of a flower. And I said that it felt like I was cutting someone's bones....long story short, she didn't talk to me for the rest of the day because of how much I freaked her out. And that's not even scratching the surface of how bad I can get. I'm a horrible younger sister omg. XD

Anyways, this getting pretty long so I gotta stop. I LOVE YOU CEY!!!!! WITH EVERY FIBER IN MY BEING, I LOVE YOU!!!💖💕💕💞💕💖💕💕💖

#HOLY SHIT #I'm the worst when it comes to thing like this #XD #why am i like this #I LOVE YOU CEY!!!!#even though you're probably very creeped out rn #Thank you for bearing with me #💖💞💕💞💖💖💕💕💕💞💖💕

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moonlit-imagines · 5 years

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Prime Time

Bellamy Blake x reader

warnings:

a/n:

prompt: @everydayimfangirling: “Could I request a Bellamy Blake x reader imagine set in s6? Maybe where the reader is a nightblood and instead of Clarke being chipped and going through all that shit, its the reader who goes through it all? Super angsty. Hopefully that makes sense! I'm sure it'll be great! Thank you so much! ❤❤❤❤❤❤”

Your blood was black and more valuable than you could possibly know. You thought that after the time of the commanders was over, the only good thing that came from your blood was radiation immunity. But it’s never that simple, is it?

When you arrived on Planet Alpha, you weren’t sure to expect. You were definitely mesmerized by the new scenery, and confused by its current state. After a very long day of being cuffed to a wall and hoping you would survive this eclipse, the population of this village arrived, along with some answers.

You and Bellamy sat across from each other at the table in the cute little bar your friends were trapped in. Their hospitality skills were unmatched. You hadn’t felt this welcome somewhere since Lexa had a group of you over for a feast. That is, before she was almost poisoned and a war almost broke out.

Getting off track here: Bellamy and you were discussing the current situation.

“What if they don’t let us stay, Bel?” You spoke lowly. He grabbed your hand and squeezed it reassuringly.

“Don’t worry, Clarke’s going to take care of this. Everything will come together soon enough.” He explained.

“Do you ever still wish you were on the Ring?” You asked. Bellamy sighed.

“Sometimes. Too much has changed, I wish I had been able to preserve old memories, now their just tainted with the truth.” Bel frowned, causing you to frown, as well.

“I’m sorry, Bel. I truly am.” You rested your head on the table.

“Hey, y/n, it’s not your fault.” He told you. “Don’t stress yourself out. You’re the only thing that’s kept me sane through these past few years. Remember that.” He gave you a weak but genuine smile.

“I love you.” You leaned forward to give him a kiss.

“Y/N?” One of the guards walked into the bar and informed you of a change of plans. “You’ve been invited to tonight’s dinner, as well. I suggest you get ready?”

“Oh,” you blankly stared at the messenger, “uhh—”

“You can borrow a dress of mine, I don’t mind!” Delilah told you.

“Very well, we’ll see you soon.” The guard exited the building and Delilah led you and Bellamy to her closet.

“Thank you so, so much, Delilah. You’re so kind, it’s almost baffling.” You complimented.

“It’s my pleasure, you can pick whatever you’d like in here.” She told you. “I’ll leave you to it.” She closed the door and you heard her footsteps fade away. You looked through the array of dressed that Delilah gave you access to.

“I’ve never worn a dress before.” You admitted to Bellamy.

“I figured.” He replied with a sweet little smile. “You’re gonna look amazing in something that’s not inherently post-apocalyptic. Not that I don’t love your gear as it is.” Bel corrected himself.

“Yeah, yeah.” You chuckled as your eye caught a beautiful sky blue dress. That was the one, you pulled it out of the closet and held it in front of Bellamy for his opinion.

“That one’s perfect for you.” He observed the perfect stitching on the dress. “Try it on.”

You removed your jacket and pulled off your shirt and pants. Bellamy helped you get into the dress. It’s not like you needed help, but he was sweet enough to do it anyways. He adjusted the back for you and tied it up, then turned you around and admired this new side of you.

“I feel very out of place.” You crossed your arms.

“It’s only a few hours.” He kissed your forehead and held you in his arms for a moment long enough to call “forever.” But forever couldn’t be achieved, and you had to keep working. Bel fixed your hair up a bit, you told him it looked fine, but there were hairs sticking up every which way.

“Bel, please. Just help me get these weird shoes on.” You instructed. They were similar to gladiator sandals, reaching to just below your knee. Your borrowed dress was cut above the knee in the front, but reached to your ankle in the back, flowing perfectly behind you. Soon Clarke came upstairs to retrieve you for this dinner.

“Wow, y/n, you look great.” She looked you up and down, giving you a warm smile.

“Look who’s talking.” You quickly went over everything you needed in your head and said your goodbyes to Bellamy.

“Good luck, y/n. You guys are going to do great.” He followed you back to the bar area and while you left, you avoided everyone’s compliments toward you. You were a bit flustered. Clarke was more exhausted by it all.

The pair of you were welcomed into the palace and sat down in front of Sanctum’s leaders. Russel was a kind man, made an effort to make your people feel welcome, but his wife, Simone, didn’t share that quality.

“It’s rude to not eat when you’re a guest.” Simone told Clarke. You clenched your fists every time she spoke. You grabbed a piece of food and had to admit, it was one of the best things you’ve ever tried.

Your luck never was that good, tonight luck wanted to inflict pain onto you. While chewing something that was perfectly delicious, you bit your tongue. Very hard. Hard enough to draw blood. Your black blood unevenly reached your lips as you covered it wih a napkin. The Lightbornes stared at this new discovery.

“Oh dear, could we get a nurse in here?” Simone asked a guard who, in turn, rushed out to obey the Prime. “I’m sorry to cut this short, but I think it’s time you should go, Clarke.” Russel nodded in agreement.

“We need to contemplate our decision,” Russel told you two, “but y/n, please stay. We’d like to take care of your minor injury.” Russel motioned to a guard to have Clarke escorted out, then took you with him to a lab where the nurse would meet you. He quickly patched you up and left so that Russel could speak to you. “Black blood, hm?”

“Oh, yeah, Earth didn’t have many of us Natblida’s.” You told him.

“‘Natblida?’” He repeated.

“That’s our word for black blood.” You told him.

“Are there any others like you?”

—————

You woke up in a familiar place. Where was this?

Arkadia.

What could it be? A fever dream? The last you remember is speaking to Russel, then it all went black. Someone drugged you. But who’s there? A girl you didn’t recognize walked through an interesting looking red door. She twisted her hair in her finger and walked closer.

“What are you still doing here?” She asked.

“Where is here, exactly?” You looked around at this fabricated world.

“Your mind,” she replied, “well, my mind now. I’m Josephine Lightborne, your body belongs to me now.” She informed you, observing Arkadia. “Nice place.”

“What’s going on?” You asked. “How are you here? Is this even real?” You walked into camp and found all your dead friends, ones who had stayed back during Praimfaya. They were burnt to a crisp, just staring at you.

“Gross, what’s up with these guys?” Josie asked, standing next to you.

“During Apocalypse Two, they refused to come to shelter. Suicide by radiation.” You sighed and moved along to the next room. “Care to answer my questions?”

“Right,” She rolled her eyes and followed behind you, “This is all your mind, your memories. My memories were uploaded into you, so you were supposed to die during that. I’m not entirely sure how you’re still here...”

“My consciousness hid. I remember that much.” You opened a door in Arkadia and walked straight into Polis. When Alie had taken over. Kane was being crucified, there were chips floating all around, blood puddled on the ground, bad memories all around.

“Damn, I got blood on my boots.” Josie complained. “Well, I gotta say, this mind is a shit-show and I’d like to leave, meaning wake up, but I need to know how to get you out first.”

“Have fun with that.” You remarked and Josie’s jaw dropped.

“Listen, I’ll make sure your friends can stay here if you just give up now.” She promised. “We can’t both survive in here, and it’s pretty much over for you.” You walked away from her and she kept chasing you. “I’m gonna wake up soon, I expect you to tell me what to do when I get back, kapeesh?”

Josie disappeared and you were left with your own thoughts. You tripped and fell to the ground, but stood back up and found yourself on the Ring. There stood Alie at the computer, awaiting your arrival. She explained her comprehension of the situation and showed you how to defeat this intruder. You watched her movement throughout Sanctum on the monitor. She was with your friends, pretending to be you. You watched as she watched your friends watch a video of her being put into another girl’s body, it was awful. Your friends had immediately protested.

Bellamy was confused as to why you were excusing this behavior, only it wasn’t you. He could tell something was off.

“Hey, y/n?” He rested his hand on Josephine’s shoulder and she tensed up. “What happened after dinner last night, are you okay?”

“I’m fine,” she told him, “they’re going to let us stay, Bellamy. As long as we follow their customs. I’m guessing snooping around here isn’t going to bode well for us, so let’s get going.” You stared at Bel through the monitor, hoping she wouldn’t look away. It had only been one night, but it was a long one.

“Alright guys, let’s move out.” He instructed the group.

—————

You were exhausted. Mentally exhausted. The fighting was nonstop, and the place was falling apart. Poor Bellamy found out that you weren’t you, but you couldn’t tell him that you were still there. It broke your heart. Josephine had told him the news herself, it destroyed him immediately. His grief showed through anger.

“Give it up, Bellamy. She’s dead and you get to stay here, that was the trade off.” She shrugged and paced around him. “At least you get to survive.”

“Survive? How many chances have you gotten to survive? Her life was just cut short and for what?! So you could live another life as royalty?” He shouted, tears streaming down his face, shaking out of rage.

“It’s my right in Sanctum.” She told him smugly. Bellamy stomped away and hid from the others while he calmed down. You sat in front of the computer, crying and watching Josephine walk back to the palace to brag about the pain she had just inflicted on the man you love. Meanwhile, Bellamy was sobbing quietly in a secluded area, figuring out his next move, but before he could do that, guards knocked him out and locked him up.

“Y/N, you’ll need to act fast.” Alie told you, next thing you knew, Josephine was back and gloating.

“You know I’m going to win, just give up.”

—————

Bellamy and the rest of your friends rushed to get you away, but Josephine decided to stall and threated Murphy with a knife. Emori was hesitant on her next move, but got the radiation shield down. Bellamy took Josephine through the woods while she protested, nearly begging him to turn back.

Captured and afraid, you were trying to communicate with Bellamy through morse code. Blinking was your way of telling Bellamy it was going to be okay. He was scared, he didn’t know what would happen next. When you started bleeding and were put on the chopping block, Bellamy fought his restraints.

“That’s Josephine Lightbourne! I don’t think Gabriel would be pleased if you killed her.” Bellamy shouted at them, making them stop suddenly. Josie made a run for it and left Bellamy in the dust, it was time for you to hide.

You got full control, Josephine merely instructed you on which way to go, leading you underground until you seized and went down. Josephine waited patiently for help to arrive. Finally, Bellamy, Octavia, and Gabriel came to your rescue, Bellamy panicking ask he ripped the vines from around your neck.

“Y/N, y/n, stay with me.” He told you as he lifted you up and brought you to Gabriel’s base. He was begging you to keep fighting for your life, but you were unaware. You were still fighting, though. Josie’s memories had to be burned. After she showed you a little about herself, it was another memory in the pit. She cried and went on to the next one, and then you both died. Her drive got taken out and it was dark, you stood there, waiting for something to happen.

On the other side was Bellamy, freaking the hell out because you weren’t waking up.

“I’m sorry...” Gabriel told the siblings. Bellamy wouldn’t take it, he started to try resuscitating you.

“Bel, she’s gone...” Octavia placed a hand on her brother’s shoulder while he rushed to save you.

“No!” He yelled at her as he beat on your chest. “No she’s not! Y/N, listen to me, everything’s gonna be fine, just like you said. Stay with me.” He moved to your mouth briefly and back to your chest. “Just like you said, everything would be okay!” Tears started to escape his eyes, dropping onto your exposed skin. Gabriel and Octavia watched him with pity in their eyes. How long would he do this before he gave up and accepted the truth.

You opened your eyes wide and gasped, Bellamy stared in disbelief before grabbing you and pulling you close, Octavia let go of the breath she had been holding for so long. Bellamy started to cry again.

“I thought I’d lost you.” He whispered in your ear.

“I’m right here, baby. I’m right here.”

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thecarmillacurator · 5 years

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Season of Love movie review and news for new Natasha Negovanlis movie.

So two things: First, Carmilla’s own Natasha Negovanlis will be in Tello Film’s 2020 Holiday Movie, “I Hate New Year’s.” Woot woot! Check out Tello’s twitter (https://twitter.com/tellofilms) for more information.

Hey @tellofilms may we have an Elise Bauman cameo, pretty please? Or Kaitlyn Alexander? Or Sharon Belle? Or Anne Briggs? You get our point. You’ll get a built-in Creampuff bank of pre-purchasers and free social media marketers for your trouble, guaranteed.

Second: Season of Love. I rented Tello’s Season of Love Holiday film online yesterday and greatly enjoyed it. I’m not a Hallmark Holiday movie kind of lady, but this definitely had more gravitas than I see in Hallmark movies, and in my opinion to call it a ‘Lesbian Hallmark Movie’ would be unfair to the film. It’s simply more elevated than that. I even liked it enough that I’ll be re-watching it today. For my in-depth review, click to go beneath the cut below.

What I liked: The couples had chemistry ranging from good to really good. (There’s no Hollstein-level chemistry here, but that would be asking too much for mere mortals, wouldn’t it? Just kidding.) I enjoyed the romantic arcs. It was a romantic comedy, but wasn’t all the typical Christmas fru-fru (though it was still a lot).

Couple #1: Mardou and Iris. Mardou (Laur Allen)’s performance was especially well done, and the character had more engaging subtly than you typically see in Holiday movies. For you to understand that Mardou has been in love with Iris (Emily Goss) for years but has been exercising mature and caring restraint to not show it, to carry the movie, the role *had* to be portrayed with not just body language, but with sincere facial expression, especially with the eyes. Props here go also to choices made by the writers and execution by the director relating to the actors’ interactions and positioning. Iris’ performance was almost as good. I say “almost” because while the story gives Mardou a very serious, almost tragic role, Iris’ role shoulders lower levels of comedy in addition to the serious undertones of what her character is going through. This is accomplished through physical humor and situational levity (often related to depression-related awkwardness) with brief forays into the ‘useless lesbian’ brand of awkwardness. (One scene is *truly* a laugh out loud moment, and Emily Goss’ facial and body performance here was right on point. I had to pause the film just to finish laughing, and then watched the moment twice more just for fun.)

Couple #2: Lou and Kenna. The arc between the brewery owner, Lou (Jessica Clark), and welder, Kenna (Sandra Mae Frank), was a super cute idea in theory, and was actually super cute in terms of how it was carried off, though it needed more situational authenticity. This arc gets plenty of laugh moments, as that’s its primary role in the plot. Lou is beyond adorably clumsy. The filming/artistic decisions relating to how Lou sees Kenna in various supermodel-esque mini-shots are cringe-worthily hilarious. The mix-in fact that Kenna is deaf and Lou has to figure out how to navigate this is both heartwarming, because it brings in something society generally sees as a disability and again, the basis for a good part of the humor. The actors have good chemistry together. The height difference is again, ‘super cute.’ Lou’s blatant pining and angsty awkwardness is both relatable and charming. Kenna is fun. Her roommate is also fun.

My nitpick: (Nitpick? Maybe just disappointment over a missed opportunity...) This arc is where the film slips into a Holiday movie trap of not being authentic to setting. The reason this is a real shame is because both brewing and welding, combined into female love interests, is a hot idea for a wlw story. And so I wanted to see an actual female welder and a female brewer, rather than just pretty people given the titles. I know enough about brewing from watching documentary shows, visiting breweries, and doing my own research (I’m a long ways into a WIP of my own that involves a brewery and a brewmaster incidental as a sub-plot to my main plot) to see that Lou is a brewery owner only in name only, with no real development given here, nor attempt to make it look or feel real. The same goes for the welder: I’ve never welded, but my father has, and I grew up with a fair bit of rag-tag rural living and was around equipment and welders enough in my early life to know that nothing about the way Kenna is portrayed makes her being a welder authentic.

I give this arc a thumbs up. It’s just... it could have been amazing instead of simply good.

Couple #3: Janey and Sue. The final arc is between Janey (Janelle Marie) and Sue (Waverly Earp Dominique Provost-Chalkley). They’ve been on-again-off-again sweethearts since high school, but life keeps getting in the way. Janey is in the military and Sue is a musician with performance anxiety related to singing in public. She also has a recently-ill mother, and finances are tight. This arc has some sweet elements, and the actors are cute together. I’ve not yet entered into the Waverly kingdom of fangirling, but Dominique is definitely a talented actress and plays the role perfectly: It’s impossible not to be engaged with Sue’s emotions and experiences through Dominique’s expression of her.

There are some bittersweet notes throughout this arc, and it is by far the most complex relationship of the movie even though it is secondary or tertiary in the film. In reality, it could have been the most impressive of the three stories, if the film had given it an ending that was realistic relative to Sue’s particular brand of anxiety. (Spoiler: They didn’t. Here is the one truly glaring point where the movie falls prey to the Holiday movie curse: Something unrealistic happens, essentially an invisible fairy-plot mother waves a magic wand behind the scenes and a personal struggle for Sue that shouldn’t be overcome so easily- if at all- suddenly is.) It would have been more powerful if Sue’s arc had ended without the typical holiday triumph in the ‘resolution’ stage that follows the narrative ‘crisis,’ and instead used the ‘crisis’ stage as a springboard for Janey and Sue to grow through the realities of her anxiety together, coming to a deeper understanding of the other, and maturing their love.

Music Bonus: The song Sue/Dominque plays at the end is fabulous! I would buy it on iTunes in a heartbeat if it were available. (It’s not. A big ‘why not’ aimed squarely @tellofilms.) There’s a music video on Tello, which you can see (but it might be pay to access). There’s a version on youtube, but be ware that whoever put it up isn’t officially related to the film or the song/song writer/performer and their transcription of the lyrics is off in several places. With how incredibly well Dominique sings, it would be great to see her reunite for a song with Natasha Negovalis (previously together in the Carmilla Movie, 2017) in Tello’s future 2020 Holiday film, since it will be about a music star.

In conclusion: The stories were decently solid, and were definitely enjoyable. There’s plenty of kissing scenes ultimately, so there’s payoff. It’s sweet. It’s cute. It is all HEA. There was humor mixed in throughout. It could have handled a higher production value, as sometimes between sets and sound, you can tell it’s not quite up to a movie theater release standard. It would be nice to see it not be every one of them all perfect-looking people. But, that being said, it does well. While well above the typical Hallmark holiday standard (for me, anyway), there were places where the stories could have taken on a bit more depth. (Oh: Just to warn you: There was one bizarre moment in the middle at a Christmas party with an encounter that felt out of the blue, didn’t make sense given who was theoretically invited to the party, and jerked me hard out of the viewing experience. Also, I suppose it could be a trigger for some people, though it’s relatively mild. I understand the point they were trying to make, and agree with it, but it did not belong in this movie, or at least in this scene.)

If you have the $6.99 spare to do the digital three-day rental, or $14.99 to purchase (I rented but will probably go back and purchase as well), head over to @tellofilms and take the risk. It’ll be a holiday pick of mine for years to come.

Please watch it if you’re so inclined! Doing so will hopefully brighten your day, and will help support the people who make generating wlw content of increasing quality possible for all of us to enjoy.

-- Happy New Everyone from @thecarmillacurator

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lululawrence’s December 2018 Fic List

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It’s December! As usual, it has given us many glorious fic reading opportunities, both those that are holiday focused as well as Louis birthday focused and totally not December related at all. I loved so many while I was trying not to go completely insane with the craziness that is also part of the season, despite not having gotten to nearly as many as I wanted to, but here are the ones that really helped me survive the past month.

The Lace That Saved Christmas by @alarrylarrie / Larrymama15 What a great way to kick off a fic rec, honestly. This fic was so cute and sweet and pure and lovely and all things good! Plus a bit saucy hehe Manda uses her words for good once again and blessed us with a Christmas fic this time. Defo a great fic to reread every year hehe

Just Say the Word by @louandhazaf / YesIsAWorld I am horrifically behind on all of the girl direction fics from the exchange, but this one was fantastic. The TENSION and the sexiness from a fucking kiss!!! I’m telling you, i was fanning myself reading it and it was a bloody kiss! Anyway. You have to read this if you have even considered girl direction, because it is soft and wonderful. And who doesn’t love pining idiot girls in love?

Treat Mothman With Kindness by @lesbianiconharrystyles / flowercrownfemme Okay yeah this fic was fantastic in the most crack fic way. It was crack, and yet not. It was soft and lovely and pining again and like…mothman Harry? You know you want to. hahaha The entire cast of characters is fabulous, though. Especially the lesbian cats.

The light is coming by @pocketsunshineharry / ishiplouis Okay so like. This fic has everything I love about A/B/O in it haha It’s angsty with a touch of softness and the kind of gritty animalistic undertones that can come with A/B/O fics that I kinda adore. Louis is pregnant and a bit feral as an omega and Harry is the softhearted alpha baker who just wants to take care of him. There is nesting, fighting of instincts, and all sorts of wonderful things. A fab read.

There’s really nothing better (than a beautiful boy in an ugly Christmas sweater) by @so-why-let-your-voice-be-tamed / we_are_the_same This is another adorable pining Christmas fic featuring a meet cute, punny Christmas sweaters, and a bet. Hehe It’s adorable and cute and I love it. A completely fluffy and soft read that is perfect for a cold night snuggled beneath blankets.

The Christmas Lift by @homosociallyyours / homosociallyyours Fake dating! Misunderstandings! Annoying but affectionate coworkers! Annoying saxophone playing neighbors! This fic has them all and it’s all done to PERFECTION. I was still thinking about this days later, which is always a good sign. Another great read.

Holiday Greetings (And Gay Happy Meetings) by @2tiedships2 / 2tiedships2 This is actually the first half of the fic! I haven’t gotten a chance to read the second half yet, so it’ll probably be part of my January list, but this first one is SO GOOD. I loved how she worked the fact that Louis and Harry had not only met before under less than stellar circumstances, but things just worked together so perfectly. It’s such a fun fic and I can’t wait to see how it all comes together for Louis’ birthday in the second part.

Empty Nights by Anonymous This is the fic that was written for me for the Tomlinshaw exchange! And unfortunately the only one I’ve been able to read from the exchange at large as of yet. Sigh. I’ll get to the others hopefully in January! Anyway, this one was FAB. It was so painful and angsty and awkward and lovely but all without being too much. So many feelings and it all comes together so so so perfectly and they are truly the answer to all the upset surrounding them and how healing and beautiful is that? Anyway. It’s a really really great read, and this person’s very first fic ever! I loved it.

Her Love On My Lips by @suddenclarityharry / FallingLikeThis SO SOFT! SO SWEET! SO PERFECT! I loved this fic and the way Tabby imbued so much emotion and feeling into the words. It’s so impactful while still being short somehow. I adored it. So, if girl direction is for you, you will LOVE this fic. If it isn’t for you, fine, but you’re missing out on a hella amazing fic here.

Winter Drabbles by @homosociallyyours / homosociallyyours These three drabbles came together to tell a longer story arch and it was so lovely. Such a sweet little taste of how they are together. I really liked them!

Drabbles by @laynefaire / Layne Faire (HisDarlin) The only other drabbles I’ve read as of yet, because I am woefully behind on pretty much all reading, but these are all amazing as well! This collection holds the drabbles Layne has written for the previous drabbles fests as well as the winter drabbles she wrote, so just hop on in and enjoy the ride, because they’re all wonderful.

Christmas With The Devil by @taggiecb / taggiecb Are you seeing a trend with my reading this month? I focused on shorter fics because I couldn’t handle anything long, and JUST LIKE ALWAYS Lacey took her Satan/Santa series and ramped it up a bit more with this one. How does she always infuse so much melancholy and fear and just…full-bodied emotions into her soft and happy fluff? She does! Just a touch of this and a pinch of that and it comes out to be this completely delectable experience of a fluffy cake. So anyway. That got out of hand, but all the same, this is a fab addition to the series and I highly recommend it.

Make my wish come true by @tommosgun / Star_Henderson Listen. Shar is one of the first writers i followed in this fandom and I’ve never looked back. This fic reminds me so much of why I fell in love with her stories to begin with. They’re so fun, there’s always an emotional bond that is so strong and so immediate and the way she writes it is like exploring something new. I can’t even explain it, but this fic is defo a Shar classic that was so fun for Christmas.

Set Your Heart A-Whirl by @becomeawendybird / QuickedWeen The first of six fics from our Secret Santa fic exchange, I’m kicking it off with this one because IT WAS WRITTEN FOR ME!!! We all wrote a fic based on the same prompt, and this one was just beautiful. It was so soft and sweet and cute and funny and ahhhhhhh! A true pleasure. You’ll love it. Go read it. hehe

Do Not Falter (There’s a Star Ahead) by @londonfoginacup / LadyLondonderry This was Emmu’s fic for Molly and NESTING OMEGA HARRY!!! Oh gosh this fic made me squeal softly into my pillow as I read it. I loved it. I’m sighing again just thinking about it now.

Twinkle Lights and Snowy Nights by @haloeverlasting / haloeverlasting This was the fic Brit wrote for Bri and SHE HURT US ALL. There is so much emotion and fear and hurt and yet love. So so so much love! And healing! Gahhhhh it’s beautiful and art and poetry and makes you just want to cuddle in some blankets. It was glorious.

You Should Be Here With Me by @dimpled-halo / dimpled_halo Jacky like… took Emmu and wrapped her up into a fic from the bubble tea to IKEA to just… ALL OF IT. Another fab A/B/O fic that is so soft and rife with miscommunications and good intentions and fixing what was messed up and just. LOVELY.

This Christmas by @suddenclarityharry / FallingLikeThis I might have commented on this fic twice and not even realized, but that’s okay because Tabby deserves all the comments on this fic. It is such a great read, featuring Exes to Lovers, and has flashbacks that fill in the back story as we go. It’s a wonderful read with just the right touch of pain and angst and just. Sigh. Wonderful.

love isn’t brains, children, it’s blood by @briannamarguerite / BriaMaria Bri went and wrote a full on Buffy fic for Tabby for the exchange!! It’s hard core and wonderful and Zayn as Spike kinda made the entire fic for me. Like, Harry as Angel and Louis as Buffy was already pretty amazing, especially when I realized Steve was Giles, but then Roman Kemp was tossed into the mix with Liam and I was just like the shock emoji the entire time I was reading. It was wonderful and such a great read!

Forget the Silent Nights by @londonfoginacup / LadyLondonderry As of writing this up, I still haven’t finished the last chapter of any of the three advent fics from this year, but it’s okay because I adored them all. This one was such fun reading from all the varied POVs and having little snippets of their history mixed in with the present story! I loved reading the insanity every day. You’ll have to go as Emmu how much of the fic is based on real life, too. The answer might surprise you. hahahaha

Santa Baby Honey by @sadaveniren / SadaVeniren Crack fic meets advent fic in the very best of ways. hahaha I died laughing so many times while reading this and went screaming to sada about it and it was just. Such fun and so insane and great and just. Do yourself a favor and read it because it’s a fucking TRIP.

hymns for restless stars by @turnyourankle / turnyourankle This fic had such feeling!!! Famous/non-famous!!! But of course, it’s complicated. Never so easy as just that. It’s wonderful and so soft and worrying and painful and lovely and made me cry just a touch. hehe This was the perfect addition to the other perhaps more lighthearted advent fics because while it was also lighthearted, this one also gave a dose of heavier emotions too.

And that’s it! I have SO MANY MORE Christmas fics to catch up on, so most of my January reading will probably be that. Get ready! hehe Happy belated Christmas for those that celebrate, Happy New Year to everyone, and ALWAYS Happy Reading! Please remember to leave kudos and comments (and reblog their fic posts, if they link them!) to show your appreciation!

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