#attack on integrity

[furiousgoldfish]

I've recently heard that 'attacking someone's integrity' is a legal term, meaning it's a serious enough offense that it can be named in court as a specific psychological attack. It surprised me, because I hadn't realized it was a serious problem; and I didn't know what it was either. Attacking someone's integrity means attacking their moral soundness, their principles of right and wrong, their sincerity, honesty, the standards of their behaviour, the fibre of their character and identity. For example, trying to guilt someone by saying 'what kind of x are you'?, x being something extremely important to this person, something they base their entire identity on. This is basically a false 'two choices' scenario, a person will let you know that you're the wrong kind of person, if you don't do exactly as they say, and if you do as they say, then you're fine, and your identity and your integrity stays unchallenged. (Or so you believe at the moment. Your integrity should not be broken by saying no to someone).

 Anyway, all of this surprised me because I realized that attacking my integrity was just a normal part of life for me, I don't believe I spent a single day without my character being attacked in every way I could imagine. And it went further than just being attacked, it was spit on and lied about, regardless of what I did and how I tried to defend myself. The idea that it's a serious offense, and that it is now a legal term, makes me feel off about it, like maybe my character was under a lot of attack. Maybe even adults would have struggled with this kind of psychological attack and feel very strongly when their integrity is questioned. Maybe I felt so deeply ashamed and disgusted by myself because I wasn't allowed to defend my integrity, I wasn't to know that I even had one. And this is what people are fighting against, being in that kind of situation, where the value of their integrity is brought to the table in order to force them to do what someone else wants them to do.

[kakishirocream]

“The Ballet of the Dusty Snowfall” (Part 1)

[personalshredder]

Integrity appreciation post

[autisticaradiamegido]

day 251

so like remember when i said i was gonna be mentally ill about utena

[s0ckh3adstudios]

So was Axis like. programmed with that battle music. The battle music that he thought was too intense. Did someone have to make that for him. Because that leads to one of two options

Chujin is actually an insanely good music composer

or

2. Chujin commissioned Dalv back then LMAO

[drowsydregon]

u ever think abt how chen is basically responsible for everything that happens in the series

,, , pretty much everything in wilfilm era especially is correlated or caused by him

-- chen is directly responsible for pairing up garm and misako, which leads to lloyd being born down the line

-- he crosses the serpentine and elemental alliance, causing the serpentine to be locked underground by the end of the conflict. this dominoes into lloyd finding and unlocking the tombs. which dominoes into pythor unleashing the devourerer bc he was pissed abt being locked away. this snowballs into the first three seasons.

-- zane dies and chen tries to directly interfere with the main plot via the ToE. cursing chen to defeat him meant morro got unleashed, which dominoes into clouse being freed from the preeminent (i.e. DIT and skybound), which dominoes into cole confronting yang bc possession happened

-- there was the cut plot (or was it just a tommy lore tweet, idr) of chen manipulating krux and acronix. idk if that's a canon thing but i feel it holds up so i'm including it

-- harumi hatches the entire oni trilogy bc of the GD being unleashed ; again, chen is indirectly responsible for this one

and he causes AAAAAALLLLLLLL of this. because *checks notes* he gets bored easily and thinks it's funny to start drama

[talesfromthebandgeekmafia]

Listening to Thud! while driving was a mistake, I had to fight back tears so I could see the road.

Sam Vimes will commandeer carriages and shut down major roads to get home to his baby boy on time. He approaches being there for his son with the same uncompromising severity and dedication he gives to The Law. Character of all time oh my god

[zestyderg]

Context: a friend of mine recently played through FFC for the first time, and quickly realized that all of her problems could be solved with this one, simple trick.

Raja Vice? What's that?

[redbean-nom]

Rebel Admirals Rex & Kalani from an au where the clone and droid rebellions were a bit more successful

Rex's fleet (rebel fleet Remembrance) - the whole 'ahsoka's not actually a jedi' thing worked and most of the 332nd got dechipped. (maul still escaped, but they managed to patch up the maul-damage before he got to the hyperdrive, so the Tribunal is mostly okay). the extra resources & manpower allowed the clone rebellion to operate on a much larger scale, and they eventually allied with pantora as a whole with the backing of senator chuchi. cody and later wolffe brought their imperial fleets to join the rebellion about a year later (after the chips started wearing off).

the fleet (one venator (the Tribunal), four star destroyers, associated clones, gunships, fighters, and tanks, plus a handful of stolen imperial walkers and shuttles) formally joined the rebel alliance around 10bby.

(rex got put in charge of the fleet because he's the least traumatized out of all the surviving officers. cody ran off to live with obi wan on tattooine.)

Kalani's fleet (rebel fleet Independence) - something happened and he and kraken managed to steal a chunk of dooku's ships (and later a good chunk of whatever was left of grievous' fleet on utapau) after his death. they essentially got lost in the chaos of o66, since the rest of the separatists thought they were deactivated after the shutdown order, and escaped with essentially a full separatist fleet. since they were active instead of stuck on agamar, kalani noticed that the leader of the empire happened to be the republic's supreme chancellor, and decided the empire was the new target of the CIS army. he later encountered the clone rebellion and decided that since the clones had effectively deserted the republic and were now fighting the empire, they were therefore allies.

the fleet (one dreadnought, three cruisers, one stolen imperial carrier, associated droids, fighters, transports, and tanks) formally allied with the rebel alliance around 10bby, with the backing of serenno and raxus secundus.

[stuffyflowers]

Like I thought it was pretty well established chujin isn’t the most reliable narrator. Why are you taking his word completely uncritically he has an established prejudice against all humans hellooooooo.

[furiousgoldfish]

Normal process of working things out:

a person causes harm to you, unintentionally or intentionally

a person acknowledges what they did

they apologize sincerely and hear your side of the story

person makes amends, makes up for what they did, puts effort into fixing it

person doesn't repeat the offense

if the harm is fixed, and the person is reliably sticking to their word and not repeating the harm, a process of healing and forgiveness takes place naturally

The abusive way of 'working things out'

an abuser does harm to you

they blame you for it, for the way you reacted, the way you perceived it, and your emotions about it

they fail to apologize, instead they blame you for needing an apology and for not immediately assuming it was one time accident

instead of making amends, they threaten to do worse next time and insist it wasn't that bad and that you deserved it, in their head you are not even allowed to have your own version of the story

they accuse you of 'being paranoid' and 'living in the past' if you are scared they'll do it again. Then they do it again.

you're not allowed to call them out on it or to expect better from them, you know they'll do it again, you cannot trust them, you can tell they don't think much of you, and you're accused of harboring grudges and not giving people a second chance if you fail to force the process of forgiveness, for something they're clearly not sorry for

everyone sides with them and turns against you for being a horrible person and failing to forgive, while only knowing a twisted and embellished story of what happened

[totaldramafan-lauri]

Make Use Of Me (chapter 1, preview)

Dec. 7 EDIT: ONCE MORE, WITH BRAVERY THIS TIME. No more chickening out. You can read this thing FOR REAL now. Sorry for being weird, and now....sorry if this wasn't worth it. XD

O-OK...here goes....

First thing's first: I am not expecting a lotta people to read this. I'm not asking people to read this. At this point, I'm making this mostly as a passion project, and if anyone enjoys it, it'll be a really cool bonus. My writing style isn't gonna be for everyone, and the characters I write aren't the most....popular characters in the CRK X Reader community, and I imagine this isn't really something a lotta fans'll be demanding more of.

This is LONG. This one chapter is 56 pages long. I am a VERY wordy writer,

So......why'm I posting this preview? Well....partially as an interest gauge for people who WOULD wanna read it, but...mostly as a motivator. As something to remind myself of whenever I get lazy. After all....I can't quit after I made the first chapter public, right? By doing that, I put myself out there...And, hey, I even tagged it, so, if by the off chance, someone did read it, I'm basically promising them more eventually.....

But, again, I'm not forcing anyone to read this.

Not only is it long, but.....This first chapter is probably my least-favorite thing I've ever written. By posting this chapter by itself, I'm testing to see if it does its job of making people wanna read the rest, cuz....right now, I'm not so sure how well it succeeds at that.....

This is the boring part of the story. It's a bunch of setup, and me jumping through hoop after hoop after hoop to just get everything started. I know setup is important and all, but....I'm already a very wordy writer, so....oof....There is some interesting stuff that happens, but it takes a while to get there.

I-I....kinda hate it, actually. The only reason I didn't scrap it is that I didn't realize I hated it until I was about halfway through it and the "good part" hadn't started yet. And I still spent a month writing the thing, so....I finished it.

I'm tagging this...as an experiment. If you wanna read this, go ahead. W-well, read my tags first, THEN go ahead. XD

All I can really say in this chapter's defense is that....I do try my best to salvage it. It's just setup, but I TRIED to make it interesting. And everything that seems like it didn't go anywhere, will later. This isn't the whole story, it's just the beginning of what's gonna be a BIG story. Anything that seems weird in this chapter, gets explored in the other chapters. This does set up a bunch of stuff that becomes important later (The friend character shows up later, the Colosseum becomes relevant later). This chapter is boring, but I tried not to make any of it pointless.

For the future: I'm aiming for five chapters. Chapters 2 and 3 will be a series of smaller vignettes that take place over the course of a few years, chapter 4 will be the climax, and chapter 5 will be something of an epilogue. After that, there will be two endings to choose from (which will make sense when we get there).

This probably won't be my favorite thing I've ever written, but it will be the most ambitious thing I've ever, and probably will ever, write. I haven't written something like this before, and it's all to flesh out this story and make it believable.

Right now, I.....I want to finish this. I'll probably still be writing this in February at the rate I'm going, but...at this point, I've put too much into it to give up on it. However, I'm STILL not completely ruling out the idea of my motivation dying before then. It COULD happen. So, what I'm planning to do is...setting a short-term goal of finishing chapter 3. After I do that, I'll post the first three chapters on AO3 together, and work on the rest. That way, even if I don't finish it, I'll at least have it over half done, and chapter 3 will end on a somewhat high note.

So, yyyyeah....Not a lotta people will read this preview. Overly wordy writing style + boring setup part of story + 56 pages long + assumed lack of interest for X Readers of this character (At least, I haven't SEEN many simps for her, m-maybe I'm wrong, I might be, I-I haven't checked any tags cuz I've been nervous, b-but it doesn't make my writing any better. In that case, this is my first time writing her so I'm trying super hard to do her justice >//////<)

I-if you wanna read this, and see if this first chapter does a good job of making you wanna read the better chapters, then...Go ahead.....

Some notes:

-This is still not the final draft. It's finalized enough for me to share, but I'm still not considering it finished. Even tho I'm working on chapter 3 right now, I STILL go back and edit this, even very recently. So, chances are, even if the story is finalized, small details and sentences are still subject to change. I know for a fact that there are still SOME placeholder bits in here that will change after I get some stuff cleared up. Recently, I even considered chopping off an entire section to make it shorter. I decided not to, but hey, it could still happen. I don't wanna waste anyone's time. The first chapter of a story, even if it's boring, is still very important, and I wanna make sure it's the best version of itself.

(A-and yes, this means that I've finished chapter 2 as well. The reason I'm not sharing it is that, unlike chapter 1, it was finished VERY recently, so I might still need to give myself time to edit it. From what I have, tho, I do like it a LOT more than chapter 1. There are some parts of chapter 2 that I'm legit proud of.)

-Even tho this first chapter is completely clean, I-I should mention that....this fic is for adults. The full version, at least. Chapters 3 and 4 are gonna contain some light N/S/F/W moments (the "fade to black" variety, so nothing explicit) and there'll be other slightly racey comments here and there. Just a heads-up. I'm gonna be uncomfy with minors reading this.

Th-that's all? I-I think that's all.......O-OK, so......h-here goes..... E-enjoy....

[bananasfosterparent]

[kingdomoftyto]

...BIG FEELS AND BIG PLOT DEVELOPMENTS AT THE END OF THAT BOOK, HUH

[touchlikethesun]

i think it's worth interrogating why, for some, "thinness" is associated with gender affirmation and niceness. i think it's worth interrogating why, for some, being bigger is associated with agression and ugliness. i think, if your first impulse to someone suggesting a character be depicted in a larger body is, "fuck you ewww how dare you," that maybe just maybe, you might have a few biases that you need to unpack. this is not saying that artists can't draw what they like, this isn't saying people can't headcanon what they like, but i wish people would think a bit deeper about why they view thinness as so desirable, and fatness as such an affront.