#back in my day we blabla

[golden-cherry]

can somebody please explain to me why it’s so difficult to get concert tickets nowadays

because I don’t get it

[scentofpines]

my sister broke up with her boyfriend for the second time 3 months ago and moved back in with us and now he's already visiting her again every weekend?? And she talks about him very adoringly ughhh this guy openly admitted to her that he doesn't like it when she is happy if he is not the cause for her happiness. He was mad at her for going out to work (besides her fulltime studying at uni) on weekends bc she didnt have "enough time" for him anymore but in the same breath complained that she didn't pay enough rent for her part of the house THAT HE DIDNT PAY A PENNY FOR bc he inherited it. Then he indirectly accused her of cheating on him bc she had a male friend help her move out of his house 3 months ago. And now it looks like they might get back together I'M GONNA LOSE MY FUCKING MIND

[nevereverthem]

how do you think the mystic falls gang would have reacted if bonnie actually hooked up with kai?

TVD what if :

Ok, I tried thinking about this one and it was a bit hard. I focus so much on Bonkai these days that I kind of forgot how the other characters think and act.

I still wrote some stuff. Hope it's not OOC or at least not too much.

Please tell me in the comments !!!!

It doesn't make people want to read when I denigrate my own thoughts and writing, does it ? 💀💀💀💀

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Depends on the moment, but let's imagine Bonnie and Kai actually stayed longer in the prison world. They decide on a sort of 'truce' and end up hooking up not so long after. You know, sexual tension and all. 🙄 Then Kai will remember his sister's knife, betray Bonnie etc....

We've got Kai post-merge. He helps the gang stop Bonnie from killing herself. She comes back home.

Blabla.... Here we are a little time before they go to get the Salvatore mom from 1903.

Kai gets to handle his new emotions but is still being cocky and insensitive at times.

Damon's reaction :

Kai's nonchalantly sitting on a couch in the Salvatore house. Damon's here, keeping an eye on him.

_ You know, I can't believe you spent four months in that hellhole with such a beautiful woman and never tried anything.

Damon rolls his eyes at him, annoyed.

_ Maybe you're not her type. Though it only took me two weeks to get her consent.

The vampire can't believe what he just heard. His body tenses.

_ What are you saying ?

Kai grins wide, pleased he piqued Damon's curiosity.

_ Two witches in a bedroom. What could have happened ? I say bedroom but I should add couch, kitchen-

He doesn't have the time to finish his sentence that he's shoved against the nearest wall, vampire arms' strength keeping him in place.

_ She would never touch you.

Damon almost spits his words at Kai who's not impressed.

_ Oh, she did.

The vampire pushes him further on the wall if it's even possible. His eyes are dark, filled with rage.

_ Damon, stop !

Bonnie's voice reaches them from the side. They both look at her, then back at each other.

_ That's her bossy side that appealed me the most.

_ Shut up Kai.

_ See ?

Damon sakes him once more. Kai could easily throw him away with magic but it's way more fun to see him lose his temper over their sexual interaction.

_ What did he do ?

The vampire answers, eyes locked on the man he's maintaining on the wall.

_ He says you slept with him.

There's a short moment of silence.

_ Oh, that.... Yes, I did.

_ What !?

Damon turns his head to her, an incredulous look on his face.

_ I slept with him. So, what ?

_ We're talking about Kai.

The man in question raises a hand.

_ Yup. Here !

He's being ignored by both of them, so he lowers his hand. Damon continues.

_ The guy tried to kill me when we met. He shot you with an arrow. He left you in that prison world all by yourself and-

_ And, yet you ask me to work with him to get your mom back. Let's say we're even.

Damon freezes a second, he doesn't say anything. Kai mouthes a 'wow' with his lips and nods on agreement.

_ So, now would you please let him go ? We need him for the spell.

Damon looks back at Kai with murderous eyes. The bastard wears a stupid smile on his face. He's lucky to be useful today. The vampire reluctantly releases him, stepping back.

Kai gives Bonnie a warm smile.

_ Thank you-

_ Don't.

She stops him, hand in the air. She then turns her back on them, heading to the kitchen. Damon follows her, throwing Kai a look that indicates him to leave them alone....

Caroline's reaction :

I think she would want to argue about the 'bad guy, bad decision' thing. Blabla.

But she had no existence in what happened to Bonnie. She was too busy taking care of her mom who was in hospital. Then, when she was dead, Caroline decided to turn her humanity off. She didn't even have any sort of reaction when she saw Bonnie was back.

And in my opinion she would be the last person to be able to judge her since she slept with Klaus. And we all know all that it implies.

Overall, I think she might want to argue but then just make sure her friend is okay (when she has her humanity back on).

Elena's reaction :

I feel like she would understand-ish. ~

I mean, she's in love with a guy who kills people when he's heartbroken sooooo..... 🙄

She would be like "Sure, he kidnapped me, chased me through our highschool and practiced magic on me like I was his personal guinea pig.... But he's cute and I'm sure there's good in him, deep down. I found it in Damon, so hey, who am I to judge ? Also, the guy almost died to help saving you from killing yourself. So I guess sleeping with him balances it all. Oh right you didn't know about that part ? Surprise ! You would be dead if that weren't for him. Yes, that's his fault you were trapped by yourself in the first place....... He fixed his 'mistake' ? Anyway, I don't mind......... Is he good in bed ? .... What ? Just asking. 🙄🤣

Stefan's reaction :

Honestly I have no idea. He's been too busy with Caroline, basically. 😭

Kai sort of helped get Stefan's mom back.

I suppose he'd just want to be sure Bonnie's alright. And he'd be like 🤷‍♀️.

Matt's reaction :

I'm sure he would be like "WTF Bonnie ?"

He would be shocked at first but he would be more worried than anything else. Bonnie's traumatized by what she went through. The conflict between the trauma and the sexual interaction could be hard on her.

At the same time, he's used to having friends who make dubious choices. So, he's focused on being happy Bonnie's here.

_ Whatever you decide. Just be safe.

_ I'm not in a relationship. I've just slept with him.

_ Whatever. Just be safe. I don't want to lose more of my friend to that supernatural shit.

Tyler's reaction :

At that point, he would be so protective of Liv that the shock is sort of rapidly replaced by something like "Use whatever sexual power you have over him to keep him away from Liv."

When Liv decided to go and try to kill Kai she "chose death over" Tyler. Now they're separated. But he still cares.

_ I love her. So keep him away.

Bonnie's like "WTF !?"

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So, that's it !

I hope my rambling was up to your expectations. That's what came to mind when I thought about your question.

Btw, I first wrote it entirely and was so satisfied, but I forgot to save it..... I was so pissed and had to write it all again. I feel like the previous version was way better but I could not remember it all perfectly. 😭😭😭😭

So here we are.

Tell me what you think in the comments !

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The Vampire Diaries Masterlist

[enden-k]

have you considered drawing all your babygirls together? the overwatch boys (I'm so sorry I don't know their names. I like them bc you drew them but I'm not into overwatch and names take a lot of time for me) and haikavetham? idk I'd just like to seem them together again. maybe haitham and the cool robot guy outfit swap as well? or concept swap?

if you feel like it of course.

(also I think youve done it before but I've been really into outfit swaps lately and haitham in kavehs shirt lives in my mind rent free)

rama and haitham outfit swap would be so hilarious bc rama lit walks w his ramathussy out. the haithussy would destroy all of sumeru if he walked out like that for sure, cyno would arrest his ass immediately

but yeas idk maybe ill draw more niran w kaveh bc last time i did, i enjoyed it too much AHHAHA (crack ship?) but yea if i draw them both i think i might draw symweaver kavetham together for fun, no promises, just like. if i would draw them, it would be those bc symweaver is literally the kavetham of overwatch (prettiest babygirl in the world busy with projects til morning and his autistic (ex)roommate/(ex)best friend whos the opposite of him and still, they make it work etc blabla)

yes i did it before (drawing kavetham outfit swap) haitham rlly looks nice in kavehs shirt............rlly nice......rlly nice nicecneini

btw sorry for lack of genshin art or smth idk if some miss it but unfortunately im really bored of genshin lately. dunno if its the game itself and the fact that im just way too attached to sumeru that i really lose interest the more we dont see/are there again as we move on (i rlly tried moving on but its so hard, rn im just very casual and do the barest minimum hhhhhhg bring me back to sumeru pls thanku)

anw obv i still love my babies too much and im always open and free to scream about them or share my thoughts and hcs or whatever. is just bc of the genshin boredom and me moving back to old fandoms (ow2) and other fandoms (hsr), im drawing other stuff from there i enjoy. i def wont leave the game/fandom tho and ill cook up some kvthm some time dw, im just waiting for the next time i have more days off work so i have enough time to brainstorm and rlly get into it again

[talkingtea]

I fear some peoples want Candice to be that poor little girl who don't know who she is so she finding herself and that's why she is acting the way she is but little girl is a 35 years old woman who make her own choices. It's easy to say I'm someone true to myself I have these values blabla but matching your actions to your words is another story and if doesn't match we need to take the hint. Falling in love with someone taken was out of her control, feelings isn't a thing we choose to turn on and off but the way you act is what will tell who you are. (Of course depend if she meet the guy find him cute so decide to go after him because she wanted cause yikes) Let's cut her some slack and say she didn't know the wife and her feelings was so strong so she started a relationship with him. Shading the wife was just her being a mean girl because she wanted to and I'm sorry but she lost my respect here. She was being a bitch, period. And I'm sorry but the rumors of her and grant, her sleeping with Charles and being the girl charles cheated camilla with like that's not a first. Girl has some serious lack of respect and love for her and others. And I know she'll be fast to go on insta posting quote about some girls going after dudes in relationship if one day if it happen to her because girls like that have no shame.

Was the Charles thing ever confirmed with actual proof or was it just a rumor that people ran with?

Aside from that Candice is not some clueless chick who just had all this bad luck befall her. She made choices and bad ones at that and instead of taking advantage of the grace she was given after the scandal originally broke she decided to lay low for a bit while he screwed some other chick before eventually going right back with him. As long as she associates herself with him that scandal will follow, her hiding from the world isn’t going to change that

[zenatness]

Rogue Trader continues to have... a few bugs. Nothing serious this time, but Philomena suddenly woke up with black hair. I've now had to ask Owlcat to remind Heinrix that having a preference is fine, but forcing it upon your partner is not.

I found a trinket on a tough enemy I killed that had a lot of boosts, etc. Interesting, I think. At a glance the drawbacks seem negligible, sure there was some warning in the description blabla the Inquisition's opinion blabla, whatever, I've got a note from the Emperor

For some reason only Philomena can wear the trinket? Huh, weird, but I'll just equip it and see how the stats chan- Cue the game forcing me out of the inventory screen and informing me that the item is trying to merge with my flesh. Your honor, I hadn't saved. Everything about the place we were in had signaled that something was very wrong here. I am a dumbass. Heinrix saved me by declaring that his authority overruled my privilege in this matter and took it from me. I suspect the only reason he didn't scold me was because I had very clearly learned my lesson about ignoring the Inquisition's warnings.

Speaking of ignoring the Inquisition's warnings, I went back and refrained from crating my stabby elf and uh... so the Marazhai romance sure is... something.

I wasn't wild about the "lets go and trap some people in a room and start stabbing" idea of a date, but I will say that Marazhai had a point with the whole "do you have any idea how many people die horrifically on your ship every day just to keep it moving? Get off your high horse" thing. I still wondered if maybe it was a bad idea. That maybe there were other romance options that should have been explored instead.

Like the woman who paints with the blood of her servants, or the woman who is in deep with the criminals who keep wanting to use my planets to sell slaves, or the woman who got us all thrown to the mercy of the drukhari, or maybe I should just have been faithful to the man who tortures people for a living.

I just had to accept that there's no such thing as an ethical romance in 40k. So off stabbing we went.

And... It Just Kept Escalating.

I thought "sex with a xeno on top of the still warm corpses of the people we just murdered" was going to be hard to top. And then it cuts to your bedroom.

Oh, oh dear, we sure got blood all over the carpet and sheets after we got back? Unfortunate, but ok.

I'll just turn the camera a bit so I can see both chara-

MARAZHAI WHAT IN THE-

Why is there a disemboweled corpse hanging from my bed?!

How did it get there?? Someone is going to have to clean that up! People are going to talk!

And then this asshole won't even kiss me the morning afterwards. Unbelievable.

[crazylittlejester]

Time Master Sword

So sense it’s Fathers Day when I’m sending this I’d like to Yap abt Nate 😍😍😍

Ok so first things first I’d like to announce that Nate’s stupid teddy bear is no longer in the comic and I’d like to mourn the lost of it

Ok anyways

Little bit of bg but in Age of Apocalypse (shortened to AoA id I have to talk abt it again) basically in earth 295 Legion (Charles Xavier’s son) goes back in time to kill magneto to make papa proud but ends up killing Charls Xavier. Which I mean how tf does that happen anyways this leads to Apocalypse taking over and basically humans are put in cages and idk what happened to mutants o read but like the words weren’t prossesing in my brain I’ll go back and reread it ig tho I think the mutants are put up to fight each other?? Idk

ALSO IMPORTANT LATER ON THAT I FORGOT TO MENTION BUT AFTER HE PUTS NATE IN THE FREAKY TUB MR SILLY INSTALLS A BOMB IN HIS BRAIN BASICALLY THATLL KILL HIM AT 21

So where we left off Nate was put on his stupid bath tub and basically this bath tub quickly aged him up to the point of 17 😍😍 anyways bro is mistaken for a human and is like hanged???? To something (like hands are cuffed on walls) and during one of their raids the Cyclops of this universe saves him but they don’t know that their related to each other and Nate just makes a fucking run for it.

Later on he meets a guy called Forge and joins his “theatre troupe” which is a cover up for when they rescue human hostages from Apocalypse. Also Forge is literally Nate’s father figure/srs but I can’t show photos rn for spoilers 💔💔💔

Anyways later on Mr Silly sees Nate and is like “🤯🤯🤯 MY SON” and basically creates ten out of ten disguise and calls himself his real name but I’m still going to call him Mr Silly ❤️ anyways Forge being 10/10 father is like “🤓no Nate you cannot help us you can’t even control ur goddamn powers” he joins the mission anyways bc Nate’s in his rebellious teen era even tho he’s like a year old which bc of his powers basically sends a HEY IM RIGHT HERE ULTRA POWERFUL MUTANT 😍😍😍 but Blabla some of Apocalypses forces attack and result in a few guys dying or injured and anyways forge goes to a shack where he presumed Mr silly was dead but then Mr Silly kills him and is all like Ha I’m not This guy you thought I was I’m actually one of Apocalypse horse men Mr Silly 😈😈😈

and guess what happened to forge 🤩🤩🤩

HE DIES 😍😍😍🤭🤭🤭

also ignore how spider man is there that’s for a later issue

Anyways Nathan Bisexual confirmed 🤯🤯🤯/j

Anyways Nathan Kills Mr Silly and then is like y’know I should go fuck up Apocalypse and goes fucks up his son instead which in the battle somehow lands them on earth 616

sorry for any weird grammar/spelling auto correct is my number one hater/gen

And sorry for the lack of photos I didn’t have as much from this part of the comic/gen

anyways happy fucking Father’s Day to forge of earth 295 who still dads in Nate’s mind

HE CALLS HIM SON 💔💔💔

NOT THE TEDDY BEAR

dude this was such a wild ride, spiderman being in there really just added to it

this plot is so insane alskskkss, you’re getting me curious about xmen

[fapper]

had my first date w a white man, and..... well.

ok so just came back home. its 5pm. we met at 1pm. but i walked back home 1 hour. WALKED.

red flags:

didnt pay for my drink

was a band kid

went to a PATD! concert

listens to hardcore rock and uses apple music

walked like 20 mins to see something but we needed an appointment so he said "nevermind lets come to my rooftop"

invited me to his apartment to "watch movies" right after... i was like. fuck no

but he let me into his apartment and it was clean and nice. the view was pretty. obviously the man is rich lmfao

had a picture of jeff bezos framed on his table as a joke

had 6 books on his shelves, one of which was a historical book about napoleon to which he said hes "currently reading"

said his favorite movie is american psycho

said hes like patrick bateman. no im not joking. he said he basically lives like him: works, works out, etc. said this was a red flag so he knows

said he comes to his rooftop all the time to look at planes and guess which airline it is from looking at an airplane tracker (?) which was so nerdy. he said this was a nerdy activity himself so. but like why would u do that lmfao like how bored do u have to be bro

followed me into safeway 💀 and grocery shopped w me ????? i was like man ummmm ???? and while i was checking out he entered his number on the thing and it subtracted 30 cents from my total 💀 and i had to pay still

after we got on the rooftop, we stood up to leave and he side-hugged me all of a sudden???? and said today was a good day blabla. BRO I DIDNT EVEN REALIZE HE WAS HUGGING ME BUT IT WAS SO AWKWARD AND SUDDEN???? AND IT WASNT A NICE HUG EITHER it was a side-hug?????? so i just smiled and said nothing.... ummmmmm that was weird

couldve offered to give me an uber ride back home but didnt

WHELP. that was a tragedy. mans fr just wanted me for sex... WHELP! that was a dusty..... moving on

[strwffy]

i’m really angry at everything and anything lately. it’s just all political stuff, and self stuff ig

i had a friend, who isn’t my friend anymore since i unfriend her. for political views and such.

first of all, for some contexts:

a couple of years ago, 2019, i think? i came out as pansexual on twitter and also to my close friends only, and my sister. today, idk if i define myself as pansexual anymore, im more like, hey i’m queer.

i’m, today, questioning a lot of things. i wonder if i could be asexual, but also, i’m questioning my gender identity.

that friend i had, i knew her for 5 years. met in college and all. we had the same views politically, and just on everything tbh. i can’t be friends with people who don’t share the same political views, especially if it’s about human rights and all. so yeah, i did came out to her, at the time about me being pansexual. she was very supportive. in her discourse through the years, she even was a trans ally.

but, more than a month ago we met and she basically told me she was transphobic (she didn’t use that term tho) and that she is a gender critical.

i was very shocked by her sayings, and she said that she wanted to tell me because she knew that subject was important to me. i’m not gonna lie, i wanted to cry in front of her at some point, bc hearing her just hurt.

after 2 hours of honest debate, she said that we should keep on with our day bc we aren’t agreeing but that she wanted me to know. i told her that i was shocked and that it was very transphobic.

i came back home, thinking about that conversation for a month. and, i guess i was very naive. i thought that if she change her mind maybe i can debate more and she could actually understand, yk?

so, i made some research to debunk every shitty and fake things my "friend" said, and i linked her everything and blabla, it took me like a week of full reading on the subject and all. i was mentally very tired tbh. i sent my message, and we didn’t even debate since she didn’t want to lol.

to make it "short", she didn’t want to debate bc she won’t change her mind. and that she felt sorry if she hurt me with her words when we met. but that she still want to be friends and that she thinks we could actually stay friends.

it’s funny, because years ago i went to a shop to buy a book about trans identity and gender identity, when i was with her. she didn’t question it, and i didn’t say anything. i just felt like i could buy these stuff without explaining or whatever because it WAS a safe place to me. because i thought she was safe.

so, during my confrontation with her, i told her about me questioning my gender identity, about how i trusted her. about how could i be friend with her when she is against trans people, isn’t an ally, and also how can she be friend with me if one day i do a coming out.

it really hurt to read her saying that, she kinda knew i was questioning my gender identy, because at that moment, reading all her bullshit, i knew she just wouldn’t see me for who i am if i ever came out as non binary or anything actually.

so yeah, i am not sad about unfriending her actually, but i’m just really, really fucking mad since then and i can’t get away of that feeling. and now, while questioning my gender identity, i keep hearing her voice saying shitty things, and it hurts, it’s very hard.

[sitzfleischh]

Ok I only just caught up on Ted Lasso & plunged into the online hyperfixation/deep-diving two days ago so apologies if other people have already said this but-- so far I've been seeing a lot of people being like "oh Ted is going to go back to Kansas at the end blabla Rebecca endgame" and sure, Ted/Rebecca endgame is realistic but like... We know they're not ending up in Kansas, right? We have two episodes left, this show's whole thing is "Rom Communism." They will be using them to confirm to classic romcom structure where the penultimate ep is about everyone making the wrong choices and everything going to shit, so that they can have big realizations and make the right choices in the finale.

So, my official predictions are:

Penultimate episode

Man city faceoff, total football comes together and they win, hooray! Everyone is cheering but Ted feels out of it, feels like they don't need him anymore. This ep being called "mom city" also makes me think they're going to bring in Jamie's mom as a foil to his dad and start talking about mom stuff, maybe giving us some perspective from mother characters about their side of parenthood (maybe if we're lucky we get more of Roy's sister!) and continuing the motherhood theme for Rebecca

Maybe there's some kind of tie-in with Michelle and Jake, I feel like they were setting up that those two are actually breaking up, which is going to make Ted feel like he should get back with Michelle, even though that's obviously the wrong choice. Part of me thinks the "unexpected guest [that] has Ted on edge" could be Michelle, post-breakup? Maybe him getting distracted means the other coaches step up and win the game without much help from him, which ties into him feeling un-needed.

The tying up of loose-ends with other characters' plotlines leads to Ted deciding he isn't needed here anymore and should go back to Kansas, episode ends on his return

Final Episode

Called "no place like home"

Trent wears James Lance's Dorothy shoes T Shirt

There's some kind of extended wizard of oz homage, probably someone makes a joke about Jamie not having a brain

Ted is back in the states but he's not feeling it, keeps seeing things that remind him of Richmond

Trent Crimm's book gets published, or maybe he emails a draft of it to Ted or something for approval-- either way the writers get to do a Trent Crimm as mouthpiece thing where he narrates from his book while we see shots of characters / Ted doing stuff and having realizations

Prompted by reading Crimm's book, Ted realizes that there IS no place like home, but his home is Richmond now and he needs to go back-- not because the team needs him, but because he needs the team. Ted's character arc comes to a close with him finally asking for help and taking the support of his found family in Richmond, letting them use the Ted Lasso Way back at him.

Maybe Rebecca and Ted get together, or maybe (in my ideal scenario) Rebecca adopts a kid or something of that sort and becomes a single mother-- she realizes she doesn't need anyone else's permission / won't be completed by love

This one is also more of a dream scenario but I like the idea that they would lean into the "single parents are valid" theme that seems to have been set up, and have Ted, Trent, Roy and Roy's sister, and Rebecca all together in a scene with their kids, supporting each other

Obviously there's still a lot I haven't covered here, like what happens with Nate, with Colin (& what happens with Trent beyond like.. he writes his book lol), with Keeley and Roy (I don't think they're endgame either), etc. But these are the most solid predictions I have about what's going on structurally and thematically. I have hopes and dreams for stuff (mostly more Trent content because I love him and just want to watch a show with him as the main character lol) but I don't want to jinx anything so I'm just assuming we get some good background content like usual, and probably a great book-reading narration.

[lady-lycany]

Little rant post about something no one's gonna read anyway cuz it's related to my life but I have to get that shit out somewhere so

My stepsis is a huge piece of sh!t and if there's someone you cannot trust at all- it's her. She's such a snake. And like, two months ago my mom met an old 'best' friend of my stepsis and spilled the tea about our life and my stepsis behavior and what bothers me the most- my fucking biggest weak spot- that I changed my name after school cuz the bullying I had to went through. And I was so mad about it back then, because I don't run around and tell untrustworthy people about my moms biggest weaknesses u know? And my mom was like "oh but you all got older and I'm sure she changed" blabla...

Well, I'm not sure about that. Because today my parents walked into that old friend of my stepsis again and she told them, that my stepsis was here in our town... Now, here's the problem. Wth b!tches like her that were befriended with snakes like my stepsis, you never know how much truth they're telling. Are they actually still friends and she snitched everything, my mom told her, to my stepsis? (which also includes that we moved and where we moved- this is something my stepdad is mad about and for once I agree with him) or did she really just see her from afar? And what did my stepsis here in the first place?

My mom couldn't have opened up about our private life to a worse person. Honestly.

Might be that nothing happens anyway, and when it comes to my weakness, the chances that someone uses it against me isn't as high as back in the school days anymore. But still. I hate everything about that situation right now.

[dreamingsushi]

Till the End of the Moon - Episode 26

I’m back from vacation, so now is a good time to get going with this series. I’m kind of anxious, because it started off so well and the last few episodes, we lost a little bit of that character consistency that made it so good to me in the beginning and it has been very frustrating. Hopefully it’s going to keep steering in the right direction and I won’t be too disappointed by the following 15 episodes.

She starts it up quite strongly. She asks Tantai Jin to marry her and make her his empress. Ye Qingyu disagrees with Tantai Jin agreeing to it. He says she needs to go back home and face what she has done, but Tantai Jin says that he doesn’t want to trouble her before the wedding and that she wants to cut ties with the Ye family, so her name should be erased from the family records. Tantai Jin wants to proceed with the wedding as soon as possible and ends up choosing an inauspicious day for it. Ye Xiwu acts cruelly towards her brothers. Ye Qingyu says she’s changed. And on to the wedding.

Tantai Jin’s coat looks like it’s covered with grass. I think... this is going to be the first costume design that I highly disagree on. The wedding starts. When he reaches out his hand for hers, she doesn’t take it. This sounds bad. We also discover that she got all of the nails when she asked him to marry her (but they’re already married, so I don’t get it). Anyways. It starts snowing. He offers his hand again and this time she takes it. Overall, she’s really off, but I guess he’s too drown in happiness to actually notice that she behaves extremely WEIRD!

While waiting for the husband to come to the bed chamber, she gives herself a pep talk that she did all of this for this day. She notices that Tantai Jin must be very happy. She’s super awkward, I wonder how he does not see anything of it. Or I hope he’s pretending? So she was missing one nail. When she kisses him, it created the ninth one and her eye turns purple. I forget about the jade she took for him. She admits that her goal was to kill him and that’s why she came back. After stabbing him with the first three nails. He says he still loves her, but she tells him she never loved him. Why? What’s the help to your mission in saying that? Especially when like 5 episodes ago before you left to free Xiao Lin you were thinking you could spend your life with him as your lover and prevent him from becoming a demon. But when she’s about to send the last of the three nails, the dragon scale protects him. The nails desintegrate. Nothing protects the evil bone/essence anymore. He asks her why she lied to him, but they both fall down together.

Ye Qingyu finally realized that Ye Xiwu cut ties with her family because she knew all along what she was going to do. He tries to convince his dad to leave, but he won’t abandon his daughter.

Tantai Jin has three years left to live. They can’t remove the six nails from his chest. Nian Baiyu is very sad. He wants Tantai Jin to rest, but the king wants to get changed and go see Ye Xiwu. And he’s wearing his wedding clothes, with the grass. Why? So blabla, you betrayed me all the time, I was still nice to you, loved you blabla. I failed, there’s no point to live, kill me. No, let’s suffer together, since you didn’t want my love, here’s a serving of my hatred. And that’s how she made him become a demon god. She shouldn’t have meddled to begin with. But at some point it’s interesting to see that sometimes, the supposedly “good ones” are actually awful people too.

Ye Qingyu gets the permission to go see Ye Xiwu. However, Ye Bingchang is there already. She reveals how she poisoned the porridge. Ye Xiwu blames her for Xiao Lin’s death. Then Ye Bingchang tries to strangle her. Meanwhile... She thinks of the past. Qingyu and Pianran comes just in time. Pianran tosses away Ye Bingchang while Qingyu tends to Xiwu.

And that’s it. I don’t see how they’re going to manage from now on. I don’t see anything. My mind is totally blank. I’m confused. Did she resent him for the death of her granny and Xiao Lin and that’s why she decided to act finally and stopped hesitating? I don’t know.

[traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors]

Sleeping issues, tw cptsd, (not sa) sexual stuff, panic attacks.

Hey, I have sleeping issues due to hypervigilance from my cptsd. They are mainly (1) that I have a very light sleep and wake up a hundred of times at night. I don't remember all of them but some. It became very clear when I was in hospital a few years ago and whenever someone came checking on me, I sat upright. They tried meds on me but they either didn't work or I slept for the next 48h. So they gave up (they assumed it was a temporary issue). (2) I can't sleep if I am not deadly tired. I will lay around useless and annoyed, waiting to finally fall asleep. Sometimes I chose to do that, if the bed is cozy, my boyfriend asleep and I am just fine enjoying the atmosphere until I can finally fall asleep. So it is not a "I expect it won't work so it won't work" self-fullfiling prophecy. Most days I just stay awake till 3am. (3) I need ages to wake up. I usually sleep 8-9h and wake up (and can't go back to sleep again). I will need almost an hour until I have gathered the energy, to put up my phone and scroll on tumblr, another hour until I drag my body to the couch and maybe after 3 hours or more I can pick up my sewing stuff and be at least a little bit useful. After 4 or 5 hours I am able to go to the kitchen and make breakfast. I hate it!

And recurring issues are, that I get panic attacks at night (which I believe are the worst because I can't process that it is just a panic attack and mix dream and "sensation of panic") and that I have nightmares. I usually dream very strongly, I occasionally can shape parts of my dreams, I remember a lot of it, after I wake up. Sometimes... A bit of a dream stucks during the day. One time I dreamt of some... Secret operation idk and there was a global issue we had to solve and I came to the solution. And all day I was half-dissociated because my brain was playing the scene, where I told the others the solution, over and over but I didn't remember what the solution was (granted, I also didn't remember what the issue was). Like, when you have a song stuck in your head and because you forgot one line it just repeats from the last chorus again, over and over. But with dissociation.

Lately I'm having a lot of dreams with sexual content. I am asexual due to trauma. It was always pretty similar, there is some male (not always the same) series character and I initiate sexual actions. Which is... confusing. Like, I have zero interest in it in real life and I am very repelled from sexual stuff, it's always combined with a lot of guilt so... It's not super comfortable to have those dreams. Plus I feel shitty because I can't have sex with my boyfriend but dream a lot about it with some serie character like?? It feels unfair to him, I know that's bullshit, but still.

What I can find online, put your phone aside before bed, drink a tea before bed blabla, isn't the solution to trauma issues. Do you have any solutions? From what I read, sleeping issues aren't uncommon amongst people with (c)ptsd,  but I couldn't find any solving ideas online...

Hi anon,

I'm so sorry to hear about what's been going on lately.

As someone with (presumably complex) PTSD, I resonate with the sleeping problems you're describing (also with the caedosexuality). Honestly I think this is a little more complicated than a sort of home remedy - if you don't already have a therapist, I think it would be helpful to talk about these symptoms with one and perhaps get to the root of why these things are flaring up.

In my experience, I was at one point prescribed Prazosin for my nightmares. It's not FDA-approved, but it's said to help with PTSD-related sleep disturbances. It honestly wasn't helpful for me, but I understand that everyone reacts differently to medication. So if you have a therapist, psychiatrist, or GP, I would also suggest talking to them about this medication and if it would be compatible for you. Any other suggestions are welcomed!

I genuinely hope that your sleep improves on all fronts, and I hope I could help answer your questions at least a little bit. Please know you're not alone in this experience, and do let us know if you need anything in the future!

-Bun

[levok]

People really think Sara is gonna get in a car accident? 🤨

So they think both Wilhelm's and Simon's siblings will be involved in (both possibly fatal) car accidents?

I don't think Lisa would do that...would she? 🤔

Honestly, i was thinking the same! Not that Sara would get in a fatal car crash, but a car crash. We know she doesn’t have a drivers license, and the stand in is only for one day of filming. In my mind it makes sense she does something reckless as stealing her moms car.

And I can totally see them wanting to make some parallel to Wille/Erik, and Wille be all like, I would do anything to get my brother back, please forgive Sara blabla.

[bcofl0ve]

Oh no olivia's year round only at parties and after party crumbs and she with the wives of jonas brothers to at the end of the day she has 5 minutes of screen time in the transhes, i know she is written "olivia dejonge joys and will star alongside blabla" but she was like this cast as priscilla too in some articles lool sooo I hope this wait yields us more than 6 frames in the future

we know next nothing about the trashers, not even her characters name so saying she only has 5 minutes of screen time is an assumption based off of nothing unless you know something i don’t and in the case pls share LOL. the imbd still says it’s in pre production, and i don’t even think they actual it started filming at all yet. it was originally supposed to film last fall in new jersey but she was in australia for the fall and mentioned in an interview she was moving back to north america to film in toronto in the new year.

and then when she moved back over to this side of the world she moved to nyc- not toronto. 😅 there’s a reason my gut is saying the project just got scrapped LOL. but i’d love to be wrong!

[zoropookie]

POOKIE POOKIE OMG. so none of my friends are free rn so i'm gonna tell you to drama cause i need to yap😁. basically i went to this club months back right and it was hard to get in cause it was like a really high end club (with lots of security and me and my friend were 16 at the time (ik that's bad but shush). these group of guys helped us get in cause they already had a table there so we pretended to be their girlfriends. and i basically pretended to be the girlfriend of this fine ass model and guess what we got along pretty well, we even planned like to meet up for a date or smthin in the coming week. but the guy who my friend had to pretend with was kinda creepy. he was like 26 or 27 or smthin and kept on trying to like make advances on her even though we kept on telling him she's my junior. so we did get their insta's before we left cause yk good connections ig. i did not end up getting the model's insta cause he got some call and it was already 2 and we told my friend's grandma we'd be back by 2 so we had to rush out right. here's the thing, my uncle basically owns the places and we didn't think he'd be there but he was and we didn't get screwed but now all the staff there and some from few more other knows us cause my uncle does own a few places. he did get really pissed cause overprotective uncle and was like he'd take them to court (the other guys there, he didn't see the model with us) blabla which he didn't cause we convinced him. my friend saw the creepy guy at a concert again recently and guess was he was still creepy while sober and he looked like he started smoking weed so we blocked them all. back to the present. so i went shopping at the mall and was at LV when i saw this model again and he came up to me and i basically had to pretend that i met him at a resort when i was i bali cause a manager there knows my dad. he asked for a date again and i was like 'yeah sure but i have an exam in a few days (i actually do) , maybe after that'. but i think im gonna ghost him cause i dont wanna be associated with him anymore plus i already do have a situationship rn (idk what to call it tbh). so yeah that's the drama😁😁

i sincerely hope that you're always safe because that is extremely dangerous for you and your friend omg??? this dead sounds like something i'd read from a book but there's a lot of you that are genuinely going through that

i've had enough of creeps for a lifetime, always bring bear mace with you :)