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I CANT UPDATE GENSHIN I DONT HAVE THE SOACE GONNA NECK
#I’m playing to get all free event skins#bc I am not fucking PAYING FOR THAT#DILUC. WAS A ONE OFF HE IS SO PRETTY#THATS IT!!! unless they give me idk Zhongli archon skin they’re not gettin a cent outta me#so that means I need to update the fucking app. so I can get Lisa’s skin#but anyways hey wassup#I need to fix my computer#then take shit off my phone and delete it#then move that shit off my computer as well#and then smth smth or other idk viola!! phone has enough space#please I can’t even keep space on a 265gb phone or whatever the space is……. gimme a terabyte I beg#head in hands#my computer I as old as me and it used to be my brother’s. y’know. 20+ years ago#and struggles to run fucking windows vista that’s all it has#so playing Genshin on that is absolutely out of the question#BUT BUYING COMPUTER’S IS FUCKING EXPENSIVE#AND NEW PHONE??? EXPENSIVE#wish I had a phone I could just use for Genshin. Genshin only phone. bc lord knows the app is gonna get bigger#ooc
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whatever happens, please don’t break
#god not a fucking DAY goes by where i don’t think of that one interview and this quote#does anybody have it word for word? please? i’ll pay you#literally every single time i think about how kunikida as w character was MADE for dazai. specifically to share his suffering#i actually sob into my hands because that means they were both destined for tragedy together and the long dark road they will walk#will at least not be lonely. because they have each other. they are each other’s light in the darkness.#DO YOU UNDERSTAND#bro the fact that kunikida is painfully aware of the imperfection of the world and how he still continues to fight for his ideals#paralleling dazai who finds humanity beautiful but cannot become attached bc he feels alienated from emotion#THE WAY THEY COULD HELP EACH OTHER????? SICK SICK SICK I AM SICK#i love kunikidazai sm i wish more ppl could see the potential#but some of you aren’t ready for the sheer perfection of their dynamic#also i’ve noticed that i am only capable of drawing dazai properly when it’s with kunikida what’s up with that 💀#and sorreyy i know their height difference isn’t THAT big but i didn’t realize until i was halfway into the coloring 😔💔#osamu dazai#dazai osamu#kunikida doppo#doppo kunikida#kunikidazai#knkdz#kunizai#lotus draws
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out of curiosity, would you consider yourself butch?
used to be a blonde underweight twink and now I'm a based jock still got the chanel bag and the sick albeit matured mind of a suckpig to prove it so I'm gonna let you decide whether you wanna call me that word just cuz I got a pussy and short hair. I promise you that there have been enough advancements made in the art of lesbian sexual dynamics in the past 50 years to broaden the vocabulary used to describe the plethora of types of masculine females.
#being called butch just reminds me of how much males have the freedom to navigate between male archetypes and how people pay attention to#the distinguishing features of these varying masculinities#but when a female is seen as masculine it all gets lumped under the “butch” category#her masculinity is seen as unnatural and therefore incapable of being considered genuine or taken at face value as it is with males.#its always brought into question instead of taken in consideration with the rest of the woman's life and experiences and her particularities#Hence... Butch is still being treated as though its a huge lesbian cultural phenomena instead of a specific niche thing#also i dont mean to invite the “you dont pass!!” anons again bc that idiot is missing my point entirely (which is that im truly not trying)#but the fact is that for the past 3 years i have found myself increasingly navigating the male social world#and discovering what it means to me as a female to have access to the ability to take my “masculinity” for granted... relax#forget about it#etc#i think thats entirely antithetical to the Butch thing which seems to rest on the tension of other peoples expectations of her#people broadly are more surprised to find out that im interested in women just as much as they're surprised that im a gym queen iykwim...#ive worked hard for this and now that ive gotten the Woman Social Role thing pretty much entirely out of the way i am living the dream#i think a large part of that is learning as a dyke to appropriate the language of gay men theres a reason their terminology had#staying power even when their scene was *literally* dying meanwhile all that seemed to survive from dyke spaces was butch n femme ??#its because theirs didnt necessitate the building and maintenance of a scene in order for the subculture to hold its head above water#their labels *largely* weren't predicated on their relationships to gender roles and its telling that for dykes it was#their labels rested on the need to simply show up anonymous n be able to easily flag whether they were looking to fuck or be fucked#alongside the set of circumstances under which they would be fucking or getting fucked or what have you#it all comes back to the restrictions of female social blah blah blah and i think the sooner we collectively set down what we see as our#responsibility as lesbians and as feminists to Be A Woman the sooner we can step outside of that#n start thinking clearly about our individual circumstances and the necessity of putting on your own oxygen mask first before helping others
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My Rhodes Island “Vacation” sticker btw
#this is inspired by me getting zero pto. bc I’m a long-time contract worker not a real employee#Although I did learn yesterday that I am being forced to take a week off unpaid. so that’s cool. i guess I have to save to make sure#I can cover my expenses in August with only 3/4ths pay I guess. fuck me I guess#arknights#proviso
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Hi welcome to my very tired rant
#sapiosexuality#sapiosexual#cognisexual#i am SO. TIRED.#idc if we get rep but i DO care if we get BAD rep im gonna bite hollywood's ankle and shake it in my teeth like a dog#lgbtq+#my art#grim rants#PSA#i didnt try very hard for the art because im better with words but also i know peeps pay more attention to doodles#so take a bunch of chibi grims have fun#i made this in an hour dont look at me#demisexual#personally im a panromantic sapiosexual#if you have questions plz ask them#i cant promise ill have all the answers bc everyone's experience is different but i will damn well do my best#clown on this post and i will block you so fucking fast your head will spin
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the fucking. contrast between 'For a moment, our gazes held as we mingled in unity. One person. We had always been one person. Nighteyes had voiced it long ago. It was good to be whole again.' and 'I am content' like????? killing myslrf
#robin hobb you will PAY#the way . the way fitz doesn't fucking speak of beloved after he receives the gifts EVEN THO he knows he will probably never see him again#so desperate to appear content soo so desperate to be whole again but everything he does from the point on is shallow is hollow is not. rea#he doesn't even LET HIMSELF THINK ABOUT IT!!!! he doesn't even fucking describe not even once mourning beloved EVEN THO there's absolutely#no doubt that he's morning bc beloved was actually ACTUALLY one half of him and even the THOUGHT of beloved leaving him left him feeling#like he was dying like his fucking blood was draining away and yet and yet he DELIBERATELY skips months and months only focusing on molly#but even that is so so so halfhearted this is the supposed love of his life we r talking about and yet it doesn't feel SINCERE !!! it#doesn't feel like him and only at the end does he acknowledge beloved again COMPARING HIM TO THE BOND HE SHARED W NIGHTEYES WHO WAS YK ONE#HALF OF HIS SOUL AND BOND FOR LIFE AND SAYING HE WILL NEVER HAVE ANOTHER LIKE BELOVED BC HELL NEVER EVER GET OVER HIM#and that is the ONLY time it feels like he's sincere in fucking two chapters and i. 'i am content' ??? CONTENT?????????????#he didn't get a happily ever after he got an ever after he had to make peace with. i cant do this#fool's errand#rote#rote spoilers#fitzloved#fitzchivalry farseer#the fool#beloved
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i love when im minding my own business and then im hit with the extreme intense love for drawing sonic with the force of a train
#idk man im normal......#i just think about how grateful i am to be able to draw sonic and bring joy not only to myself but to others as well#i owe my life to sonic at this point lol. he pays my bills!!!#and hes given me so many opportunities i never would have had otherwise..man jon gray's seen my art. and he went insane over it#ive gotten to work with so many amazing people and i may get to work with even more if i get the idw job#i just feel so fucking blessed and lucky bc of sonic. idk. i dont take this shit for granted ever#sonic's been there for me since 2003 and hes never left my interest pool. he just got more prominent#and the absolute Joy i feel when i draw sonic stuff is just. unmatched honestly. it hits different#im not sure how to articulate how im feeling but i hope my love and enthusiasm and passion is coming across lol. i love sonic a lot
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tell me why i can hear another tenants fucking music from my flat. HE DOESNT EVEN LIVE IN MY BUILDING. HE LIVES IN A COMPLETELY SEPARATE BUILDING ON THE SECOND FLOOR AND I CAN HEAR HIS MUSIC FROM MY FLAT. MY FLAT WHICH IS IN A DIFFERENT SEPARATE BUILDING.
#and staff just say ‘oh we can’t do anything bc its not 11pm yet.’#ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS.#i am autistic person who has just spent a full 12hrs in extremely overstimulating public spaces#i am exhausted and i have had to wake up at ass o’clock in the fucking morning#every day for the past like week and a half and will be expected to do so for the forseeable future#i am extremely sensitive to noise and have no ability to zone things out#like everything is always at the same volume for me#all the fucking time no matter what#and they say like oh well in the community there wouldnt be anything to be done so we cant do anything here#BUT WE ARENT IN THE COMMUNITY. ARE WE. WE ARE AT A SUPPORTED LIVING ACCOMMODATION WHERE I HAVE BEEN PLACED#BY MY LOCAL AUTHORITY WHO ARE PAYING TWENTY THREE GRAND A YEAR#AND I AM PAYING FIVE HUNDRED A MONTH#IN ORDER TO RECIEVE SUPPORT FOR MY DISABILITIES. A BIG ONE BEING MY FUCKING AUTISM.#YOU KNOW. THE ONE WHICH IS BEING DIRECTLY IMPACTED BY THE BEHAVIOUR OF ANOTHER TENANT.#WHEN I AM BEING PUSHED TO MY LIMIT ALREADY. LIKE IDK FEELS KINDA CRAZY THAT THIS ISNT SOMETHING THAT CAN BE SORTED.#i fucking hate men there is just literally no fucking respect or consideration like its genuinely disgusting and so fucking infuriating#and like he says that staff (women. btw) are being too naggy about it. but never fucking stops to consider that maybe.#maybe people wouldnt have to ‘nag’ you about it IF YOU JUST. DIDNT DO THE THING THAT IS ACTIVELY CAUSING OTHER PEOPLE STRESS.#IDK FUCKING WILD IDEA JUST THOUGHT OF IT.#literally die i want everyone involved to die like I CANNOT DO THISSSSSSSSSSSS
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my summerslam predictions
this is very much a yap fest so if u dont wanna see a bunch of paragraphs of me yapping and me very much going insane then dont click the read more, but if u want to see me yap then go ahead 😋😋
bailey vs nia jax
winner ? i think nia jax
why ? for one, im not rlly excited for this match and just from knowing jax i think she might win regardless.
shes just an icon anyway! i love bailey and ive loved how much shes grown and became an amazing superstar but i just hsve this gut feeling nias gonna win. i dont rlly think tiffany will cash in bc she needs to flaunt her mitb purse for a bit!!!
p.s: bailey's championship run is kind of boring ngl?? like ofc shes cool n all but we've already seen all the layers to bailey being champion and i need a new one and ineed it now
logan (fuckass) paul vs la knight
winner ? la knight. no take backs
why? I FUCKING HATE LOGAN PAUL PLEASE LA KNIGHT WIN PLEADEMPLALSPELSLSKWPWLWL
but in all seriousness, logan paul is barely here?? istg he shows up, yaps, and then leaves for like ten decades until someone provokes him again. hes barely defending it and hes not here enough to even do so. la knight DSERVES this belt! when i tell u hes been freaking phenomenal in the main roster and judt to think hes never had a belt is wild?? he needs to win point blank periodt
p.s: i just know logans gonna try smthn anf fuck it up and thsts gonna cause him the match and what will i b doing? pointing and laughing
p.s.s: i will be sending a very nice and long letter if la knight doesnt win
sami jey- i mean zayn 😁 vs bron breakker
winner ? bron breakker
why? for this match im just going to wing it honestly bc there are SO many possibilities for this but im moreso on bron's side.
sami is known for being extremely strong in ring and surprising everyone around him when he kicks a big guy's ass, yes, but then again bron fucking breakker?? HELLO?? have we seen him??? remember that one time he left someone SHAKING and they had to go to the hospital? remember when he DESTROYED ricochet? the amount of spears he did to people? plus hes been a freaking powerhouse in many ways and i think he deserves this title as well
liv morgan vs rhea ripley
winner ? liv morgan
why? bc i trust my gut and even tho it sucks to say, the liv revenge tour is not yet over.
liv morgan has been doing an fan fucking tastic job at being a chamption its insane and while ofc we all love our mami, i dont think wwe is just gonna grant her the belt right when she steps into wwe ?? thatd be so boring honestly bc i want to see MORE of this feud and how rhea will gradually win back everything from liv in a span of time. she cant just win everything back just from one ppv !!! so yeah i think liv will win, and i WANT her to win only because i want this rivalry to last a little longer bc if rhea wins, theyll basically just b going their separate ways.
p.s: i just KNOW during the match, dom is going to cost rhea the win. question is tho will it be on purpose or accident? i REALLY want dom to turn and be with liv regardless of him calling her a bitch and saying he hates her bc i know if rhea didnt come back during raw, he wouldve definitely kissed liv and wouldhe got wirh her. itll also give rhea more to fight for–the title, and her man–and itll fire the feud even more
damien priest vs gunther
winner ? gunther...
why ? at first, i wanted to say damien was going to win but honestly i have a feeling papa trips is gonna cook and make gunther win instead
gunther deserves a title imo (u can tell the three am brain was hitting here bc i forgot gunther was champion already) and i feel like damien would be kinda clouded by the insults gunther was throwing around that its gonna throw him off in some way causing gunther to win
maybe some shenanigans might go down which coukd cost damien the match as well like if JD and finn will come out and make damien lose and then thatll cause damien to possibly go face and break from the judgement day bc he doesnt want help!!
gunther might walk in to bash in berlin as champion (or maybe im wrong abt this prediction and he'll actually win it at bash at berlin but idk lol)
cody rhodes vs solo sikoa (bloodline rules)
winner? mmmmm cody?????
why? im so stumped for this match and i dont wanna say i dont care abt it but its not my top priority 🤕
i want roman to come back during this match and fuck everything up since he technically is still apart of the bloodline and then he'll put solo back in his place which will make cody remain but then again idkkkk so, im winging this one and will just watch.
cm punk vs drew mcintyre 😨😨😨😨😨 (with sethie reffing!)
winner? i dont know in the best way possible
why? this is just going to be a yap session but here r all my thoughts
im moreso siding with drew on this (GASP CM PUNK FAN WANTING DREW TO WIN?) bc punk HAS cost drew so many matches atp that itd make drew look so damn weak for him to lose and then hed just be complaining again the next day?? like it would be so freaking boring???
if cm punk DOES win i feel like itd be because OF something like some sort of distraction perhaps? bc as seth said, they have to follow ALL of his rules n stuff so maybe drew gets distracted by seth and then punk will pin and seth HAS to grant him the win (like how shawn michaels had to grant bret the win during that one match when he guest reffed)
i know this is setting the bar high but i want aj lee IF WWE LOVES ME! like aj slaps drew, telling him she'll never be his family n shit and then larry comes out and bite his ankles 😁😁 THIS IS SETTING THE BAR RLLY HIGH BUT IT WOULD BE QUITE FUNNY
#i wrote these predictions at like 3 am so if there r any mistakes pay them no mind#im going fucking insane#starting my liveblogging at 4 when the preshow starts btw but i might be quite slow bc ill be getting dinner w my dad#but yeah im so excited!!!#wwe#wwe lb#summerslam#wwe summerslam#summerslam 2024#wwe pay per view#wwe predictions#wrestling#cody rhodes#damien priest#drew mcintyre#cm punk#gunther#bailey#nia jax#liv morgan#rhea ripley#solo sikoa#sami zayn#bron breakker#ppv#wwe ppv#pro wrestling#wrasslin
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god why am i so fucking stupid. having adhd is truly a curse and i hate bearing it
#not to vent on main but. fml actually!#in my health assessment lab we had this case study assignment to do and i freaking. misunderstood all of it so bad#idk why but for some reason i thought we were supposed to make up a patient ourselves for it#…we were not#no :) we were not :) there’s a freaking. TEMPLATE for the exact patient we were supposed to do it on in the module#that i opened once and then forgot about because adhd just works like that#and now im literally . kmsing because we fucking . we fucking presented these orally in class#and i was only half paying attention bc i was (incorrectly) documenting my (made-up) patient information on the record#and i thought it was weird that like 2 or 3 people seemed to have VERY similar patients but did not question it further#…which is to say. i may be stupid.#and now i feel like dying because im gonna have to email my professor and TELL HER how stupid i am#and hope that she takes enough pity on me and my cursed brain to let me do it over properly#because my lab grade is now barely a 77 and i need a 75 to pass. and our final assessment is tomorrow.#i genuinely cannot live like this anymore im serious#i need a fucking brain transplant#anyway tl;dr guys please pray for me please please please im actually disintegrating rn#to delete later
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hate to do this once again but i really need some help financially
basically. i overdrew my account because my paycheck was short and some of my bills were higher than usual. my account was overdrawn by $100. one of my payments bounced & was returned.
my roommate sent me their half of shared bills yesterday. i didn't realize until i tried to pay said bill that the first bounced payment was tried again and went through this time
so i am short $75 for that bill, which is due on the oct 9th
and i have an appointment on monday for $60, but it's possible they might make me pay the $45 i owe from a previous appointment as well as the copay so uh
total needed: $180
ko-fi link in bio, pypal @elvenari
#carter speaks#i thought i was gonna be okay and then that fucking payment got pulled and i am. so stressed#and if i get all 180 in donations and it turns out they dont make me pay the $45 then#its gonna be grocery money#bc i literally have no extra money to feed myself
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‘how do u know ur vapes are fake’
> google image search the photo of the vapes
> ali express advert, DOWN TO THE MF PLASTIC BOX 😭😭😭😭
#stream#like#AKSLAKSLAKSLAKSLAJSLA#WHAT AM I SMOKING !!!!!!!!#i don’t even KNOW#i know it’s synthetic as FUCK#i literally just messaged my dealer a bunch of ‘look out for these for fake vapes !’ like ‘if ur paying for these u need to be paying less#than the jeeters per unit like SIGNIFIGANTLY bc the jeeters come w lab verifications’#these are all different ‘flavours’ btw#like if u can’t tell the difference between strains it’s fake
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bsd fic authors i understand yalls pain SO well right now why is it so fucking HARD to write dazai. like i have a whole fucking spreadsheet dedicated to tireless analysis i have done on my part so i can accurately characterize him but he is such an unpredictable and morally gray character that it's hard knowing his limits and boundaries and where he draws the line for himself.
#i hate when ppl make him out to be a sadistic villain with no remorse. like did we read the same manga 💀#but at the same time he is NOT crying abt all the ppl he sent to the grave. he sleeps just fine at night knowing he committed atrocities#yes he feels remorse? but he isn't like kunikida to weep at someone's grave for failing to save them#and then we have his emotions themselves#dazai isn't emotionless. far from it. he has difficulty expressing affection but yk he finds someone endearing when he trusts them#trust is very important to dazai and is one of the aspects of human emotion that he can fully grasp#but like everything else is in a hazy gray area that he does not feel like exploring. he feels alienated from his humanity bc of this#AUUUGHH can someone help me with character analysis PLEASE#I WASNT PAYING ATTENTION TO THIS MF UNTIL RECENTLY SO I MISSED OUT ON A LOT OF IMPORTANT DETAILS#see i would go and reread a few light novels but like i don't have time for that#and this is for dazai specifically. i am very well versed on his relationships w other charcaters#but just like asigiri himself said: it's very difficult to write dazai and write him WELL#so yeaaa i have a lot of smart ppl following me pls help#bsd#ALSO MY FRIEND STILL HAS NO LONGER HUMAN UUUUGHHHHHH I NEED THAT BACK BC I TABBED IT A SHIT TON#FOR LIKE CONNECTIONS TO YOZO AND BSD DAZAI AND WHERE ASIGIRI DREW INSPIRATION FROM YOZOS CHARACTER FOR DAZAI#THAT WOULD BE SUCH A VALUABLE FUCKING RESOURCE BC I DID SOME ANNOTATIONS IN THEM TOO BUT MY BOOK IS ANOTHER FUCKING STATE#I HATE IT HERE FML
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the ao3 stats are really such a perfect encapsulation of issues with fandom in general like 1) people refusing to let go of shit books made by a terf bc they were important to them as a kid, 2) an abysmal lack of f/f ships, and 3) an even more abysmal lack of non-east asian characters of color, especially black characters.
#truly a microcosm of fandom racism misogyny transmisogyny and transphobia all at once it's almost impressive#fiona talks#also the argument that f/f shippers should just make more content is so fucking annoying like lmao i'm literally in an event to make more#f/f content i am making more!! it's not our fault that wlw content gets way less engagement and attention from y'all bc you're too focused#on boring white dudes who stand next to each other for one scene to pay attention to the women with deep and interesting connections
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the post grad why did i get an art degree what am i even doing what do i want in life where am i going crisis has finally hit i want to. lie down in the dirt. or something
#WHAT AM I DOING!!!!#i get up i go to my stupid retail job i stick labels on bags they pay me fucking thirteen bucks an hour i come home i lie on the couch#too tired to draw in too much pain to go anywhere no energy to reach out to college friends to do anything fun#no idea where the even start with getting an industry job no clue what i even WANT at this point#trying to remember what i loved so much about comics i want it BACK i HATE this#WHAT IS THE POINT!!!! WHAT DO I WANT WHERE AM I GOING!!! WHAT COMES NEXT!!!!!!#there's no clear career trajectory i can't do freelance i need structure i can't work too much i need free time#my brain doesn't work every job requires me to move across the country the irs just took fucking three hundred stupid dollars from me#my friends live in different states i can't get a job without experience i can't get experience without a job#i can't work on my portfolio with no energy and no time and i dont have any money and everything is so expensive all the time#i can't get anywhere bc i dont drive and im too stressed to think about taking driving lessons again#and WHAT DO I WANT!#THE MOST INTERESTING THING I DO EVERY WEEK IS GO TO PHYSICAL THERAPY!#I AM EXCITED EVERY WEEK FOR PHYSICAL THERAPY!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!#anyway WHATEVER i need to go to bed#delete later#i got into spx. today. so. had to have a crisis about how i felt when i attended spx (energized. excited. a part of something. ambitious)#versus how i feel now (tired. unmotivated. kind of apathetic about art. disconnected)#i dont miss the stress of school but i miss being around other artists. ppl who speak your language and who want the same things you want#ppl who are excited abut art and that makes YOU excited about art. ppl who get you#i miss that i want that back#whatever. its 1am i gotta go shower i have an 8.5 hour shift tomorrow. wahoo. $13.50/hr lets go
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alright nero damn
#WHERE do i even start with this ohahnd m#ok first of all TOM why is your voice so fucking low???????????????????? like girl.........#i know he's being quiet but it's also so LOW. so murmuring...... so .... IntimateTM#the way they act so TETHERED to one another. the way greg is like OH YEAH for a second i forgot#i am bound to you. so am i gonna be okay bc are you? are WE?#YOURE GONNA GET CASTRATED ON PAY SHUT THE HELL UP NERO!!!!! I KNOW HE AINT SAY THAT ON ACCIDENT#he's still thinking about nero sporus he hasn't forgotten what he said to greg in that office he still feels the same way#greg is his sporus now and forever i'm suprised he didn't drop the sporus right there tbh#but i think i can keep you girl i KNOW that is all you are thinking about. that is a top fucking priority for you. you want to keep greg#at all costs. your job yeah you want that and all but the Real reason you want it all is to keep greg with you just SAY that#i mean. you did but still#also stop looking at him like that by talos!!!!!! it gets worse by the day i s2g#tom [looking at greg like he's his entire world]: die#ALSO THE WAAAAY HE TOUCHED GREG TWICE AFTER#cant just touch him once huh. touching his face tenderly is NOT ENOUGH i Must touch his shoulder too. more touching. he is mine btw#tomgreg
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