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admiral-bennetts-aide-de-camp · 4 months

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a lot of people talk about abed comparing troy to comfort TV, but not enough people talk about the implication of how, by saying that, abed positions himself as a parasocial fan

#im not bringing this up to have a “durr are troy and abed Healthy” discussion w myself bc i dont think thats really interesting #whats interesting to me is how troy and abed each view their relationship and how they position themselves #like particularly how troy talks about abed in Contemporary Impressionists #idk i think about it a lot and wanna store that thought here. maybe ill elaborate if i feel like it #community tv #community #troy barnes #abed nadir #trobed #although to be fair this is a one off line in Emotional Consequences of Broadcast Television #so i dont think it should be seen as a consistent insight into abed's inner world when it comes to troy #However i like taking funny bits very seriously because thats how youve gotta commit to the bit

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ghastigiggles · 28 days

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please spare some tickle headcannons for Sebastian I beg of you 🥺 hes a snarky ass fish that needs to get his shit wrecked

stupid fucking fish that i hate

lee

if you think you're getting within wrecking distance without a considerable amount of trust buildup you've got another thing coming

even then you're on Thin Fucking Ice and pushing your luck is inadvisable. but if you fall into that very minute miniscule percentile...

This fish is stupidly ticklish.

A lot of places he didn't even think could be ticklish actually are (his esca, for example) and he hates it, actually! thanks!

very prone to violence. cannot control his tail at all and is very quick to try and grab anyone who tries shit.

doesn't laugh right away. grits his teeth and tries to pass off the smile as a snarl. he's gonna hold that shit in as long as he feasibly fucking can...

when he eventually does break, his laugh is actually quite bright and a little wheezy.

"If yohohou - ghh, hah, if you dohon't - motherfuHUHUCKER -!"

good stamina but no patience. you have one chance to stop when he says he's serious or you're sooooo totally fucked. sorry.

ler

you fucked up.

you fucked up so bad oh my god you're so FUCKING DEAD BRO!!!!!

see the problem is he has three hands AND a snake body AND he's bigger than you. so uh. moving is gonna be a thing of the past for now.

oh no the claws. haha. uh oh!

he's an older brother and still has that stupid uncanny ability to just hone in on bad spots despite all this time away

won't stop making snide. snarky comments and teases the whole time

slow and meticulous. he has time to kill. and expendables, apparently.

"wait - you actually like this? pff- hah, well that explains a couple things! in that case, i'm sure you can last a little longer than this, can't you? no? hmm, let's find out."

evil.

#jibber jabber #pressure tickles #roblox pressure tickles #sebastian solace #i dont usually do hc things bc as you can see i cant really take myself too seriously or i'll Fucking die #but i had to indulge a little bit.#also that gif made me laugh my ass off so now you get it too

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puppyeared · 18 days

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43. For the ask game

43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately

going straight for the jugular arent we

#i know it says sexiest but the things i consider sexy are few and far between and i dont even take seriously myself #so i just imagined the coolest thing i coukd think of and it happens to be kaito kid #NO BUT FR his whole character intrigues me like. magician phantom thief that performs heists to lure out the mafia #and gives back every heist target bc hes trying to find one specific gem that grants immortality and glows red in the moonlight #THATS SO COOL MAN COME ON #unfortunately no matter how many times i try to watch dcmk i dont think its smth ill ever be interested in. they poured #all the coolness into this guy and i can live with that i think. its also heartbreaking thinking abt how much fun itd be to explore #his dynamic with conan/shinichi if the author didnt spend so much time making them straight as hell i cant bring myself to look #otherwise i would say franziska von karma.. umm trafalgar law OR nico robin../ and i guess len kagamine #my taste varies between a mix of character design and personality so its not solely based on one thing #ask game #ask #answered #yapping #sona #puppysona #i had at least 2 other ppl send this question in so ill keep this as my answer but also. what does that say abt me if ppl wanna know that #doodles

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spitblaze · 13 days

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No no, I don't think sex is bad because it's evil and dangerous, I'm not a puritan. I think sex is bad because its something men like to do, because they're evil and dangerous. Completely different.

#spitblaze says things #obligatory </joke>#some of u jumped ship directly from christianity to leftism without taking the time to deconstruct #what exactly the issues with your christian upbringing are #like just forget 'men and masculinity are not inherently evil and i dont mean in an mra way i mean check urself for terf brainworms'#for a second.#its fine to want sex. its fine to NOT want sex. neither is a more morally or ethically pure stance than the other. its personal preference #wanting to have sex is about as ethically dubious as having a favorite color. relax #nobody did anything lol i saw a post lamenting the anti-sex sentiments in a lot of online wlw spaces #and how much of it is bc 'it makes me no better than a man' as if that means anything #ladies. go cruise at lesbian bars. its fine. be free #anyway if a terf/swerf rbs this in complete seriousness im gonna kill everyone here and then myself #just kidding. im only gonna kill the terf

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risingsunresistance · 4 months

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i guess im never fucking posting mcyt again bc that's like the 5th wilbur supporter that's been in the notes of that little pig drawing

get the fuck away from me, this isn't "discourse" or "fandom drama" anymore he's just an abuser

#might as well make your damn url ''i love abusers''#''i dont take victims seriously'' ''my support is all performative bc my favorite man comes first''#his 'apology' was just him admitting he really did all that shit. WHAT do you see in him #even his friends dont support him DROP HIS ASS!#anyways GOODNIGHT i cant sleep -_-#keep checking socials to distract myself a bit and all it makes me wanna do is delete this account lmao

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a-blip-of-billdip · 2 months

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this isnt what i usually post on this blog but I'm already sick of all the memes and 'jokes'. I am almost certainly leaving the fandom for good now because of the book of bills release and NO it is not because billford's community has an influx of supporters.

So the worship and romanticization of asylums and other abusive practices for mental health have been steadily gaining traction in recent years, especially with the rise of tiktok's toxicity.

SO many people, especially younger people, regularly talk about how they want lobotomies or how women they don't like should be lobotomized. They get tattoos of lobotomy like it's some quirky fun thing and not one of the most horrific tortures someone can endure.

These same people, ESPECIALLY leftists, will look at anyone they disagree with or don't like and say "get institutionalized, loser" or "et therapy" and it's always in a mocking way. it's always in a policing way.

because these people know that mental wards strip everyone of their freedom and their bodily autonomy. they know these places arent for healing--theyre for silencing.

So the amount of people i see treating bill being institutionalized like a good thing---even the writers and alex himself?

Yeah. Im out ✌🏼

#you people try to act quirky and say you like weird stuff and you like crazy people and hate normies #but then when someone isnt a normie and actually does want to change things in radical ways you want to put them in an asylum #i do not want to interact with any of you people!#i still love gravity falls (obviously) but im just... so over the fandom at this point.#even people who LIKE bill are trying to act like this is all a good thing #guess what asylums dont help :) they almost always make things worse!#so in reality if bill ever got out he would just be 100x worse and more vengeful than before! congrats.#Play stupid games get stupid prizes!#gravity falls #antipsych #i seriously dont understand why anyone things mental wards are in any way different than how they used to be a hundred yeears ago.#because they arent. at all. like literally at all.#they forcefully medicate you with pills that you dont need and that actively harm you bc random ass nurses diagnose you with #someething different every other day and ust give you a new pill for every diagnosis #i know someone who was put on antipsychs when not only do they not have a psych disorder but they had a heart condition and #nearly died bc of it. I myself was put on three different pills the very night i went in. they never #even hesitated to wait and see if i would have a bad reaection or if i reeally needed it.#bc why would they when heavily meedicating you makes you unable to think or reaelize what theyre doing is extremely unethical?#i saw multiple people held down and strapped to their beds and given sedatives for doing nothing at all. For simply asking questions.#I saw staff harass and mock and disrespect very speciifc kids (specifically the poc kids.)#I saw staff lie and try to incite fear in other kids and myself.#one of them told me the night before i was cleared for release tat if i said 'im fine' at any point they would keep me for another month.#and that if i didnt continue to take the meds (ssris) that i was overdosing on that they would come grab me in a van and bring me back #against my will.#Keep in mind i was here based off of lies. There was no real reason for me to be in that asylum.#So yeah. literally dont come on this post trying to defend asylums bc i PROMISE you i have more experience in the reality than you #ever could.#Theyre horrible and romanticising it even against a fictional villain is repulsive behavior.

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faaun · 5 months

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oh my god u rly are everyone you've ever loved !! for better or worse !! a part of you becomes them!

#i had a moment of lucidity idk im in this café the person i went on a few dates w is coming to see me i said come study w me #and they said okay immediately even though im a town over and i dont like them i really dont feel even a little attracted to them that way #but i did let them bite my neck a week ago and it still hurts i let them hold my hand i just #i never start anything #i let them kiss me. why do i do that? i dont feel anything towards them #and i told them ill probably never sleep with them and i thought thats enough but it really isnt is it #they write poetry about people they meet even once #theyre coming a whole town over to study w me but its not a date i feel nothing towards them romantically and i dont want to lose them as #a friend. this was her line of thinking wasnt it? i would take the train and meet her near her place in ldn and wed study together and #shed let me hold her and she would never initiate much and we were just studying together and it wasnt a date #like . fuck. i dont want to do what she djd to me to another person ever #their shared location map went offline at london bridge like ok theyre in the underground they are fr coming a whole town over #its a short distance but the point is i think i should have taken what my friend said more seriously . she told me i was kinda leading #them on bc what i thought to be just meetups dates might entail more for them #anyway im gonna be clear w them this time maybe #....IT JUST NEVER COMES UP IS THE THING #do i have to clarify even if it never comes up #i do in fact hear myself #ok #the parallels r lining up #aaa

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seventh-district · 4 months

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not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go

(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)

#today's gone Badly and i'm upset but instead of venting abt it i'm gonna channel that energy into doing a bit of tag rambling abt Boothill #well. less abt Him and more abt uh. self-analyzing my anxiety surrounding contributing to fandoms. he's just today's catalyst #like. i know it's mostly a me thing. i'm hypersensitive to criticism and very conflict avoidant + socially anxious + perfectionistic etc.#so I'm the one that keeps myself from posting more stuff out of fear of being criticized or called-out for what i've made #bc inevitably Someone's gonna see it and think its OOC or a problematic take or they'll misread my intent. etc etc what have you #but like. that's inevitable. there's no way to communicate every single thing with all of the nuance required to avoid misunderstandings #and other times it's not a misunderstanding it's just a difference of opinions and that's Fine!! there's no accounting for personal taste #there's no accounting for several things actually. taste‚ bias‚ lore-knowledge‚ differing levels of chronic-online-ness‚ etc #so this isn't me complaining abt the state of fandom culture (although i do think. sometimes. ppl take shit a bit too seriously)#but anyways all of this is mostly just anxiety-fueled. it's not like i very often actually even receive negative feedback or anything #if anything ppl tend to tell me that i'm overthinking it and killing my own fun and worried that my stuff is more OOC than it is #which like. yeah. Yeah u right :) but that's just the way that i am! always losing the idgaf war i suppose #anyways what's Boothill got to do w this ur wondering. well. i've been thinking abt the quickly emerging concept that he's illiterate.#and it just. has me feeling a lot of ways. and watching ppl disagree over it has me feeling some Bad ways. bc it's def a loaded topic!#if you'll pardon the pun there. and i don't rlly have anything new to add other than that i'm conflicted abt it.#like yeah i saw the leaks days ago. of him mentioning 'not hitting the books' much as a child when we ask him why he sends voice messages #or voice Transcriptions ig. ykwim. and like. *braces for impact* ...i liked it? like. it doesn't feel right to call it endearing #i'm not trying to infantilize him. ok that's not the right word either but ugh. you know? what i mean?? who am i kidding even i don't know #it's not quite right to say that it feels like Representation either. but it's something close i guess #as a southern person myself who didn't receive a 'complete' education due to factors that weren't to do with my intelligence #the concept of seeing him as a capable force to be reckoned with and respected who also happens to have not received much formal education #i like that. i do. but there's so many issues w it at the same time. like. as i said‚ being southern myself has me Wary of the way Hoyo is-#writing him. as well as of the way that the fandom is taking the bits of his lore and running away w them. and i'm Very aware of how ppl-#will see a southern character and be All Too Eager to agree that they're lacking intelligence based on our Redneck™ stereotype #sigh. and before we even go too far with this. it's not even confirmed that hes completely illiterate. which is a valid criticism i've seen #there's Multiple reasons that could make him prefer voice to text. but regardless. i'm just worried that ppl will misconstrue my intentions #like. example: that edit i made the other day of him saying 'no thanks i can't read'. wasn't me playing into the stereotype of-#'haha dumb country boy can't read!' it was. in my eyes. something he'd say as a joke to make light of a potential insecurity #like. i think there's far more depth to Boothill's character if ppl could look past the surface. and i dont wanna contribute to the problem #but sometimes ppl Will have stereotypical traits and i wish the same could apply to characters as long as it's done Thoughtfully.

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rearranging-deck-chairs · 6 months

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13, trying to prevent yaz from spiralling when they get separated: i need you to do a deepdive into eschatology

#fghgjhjhggh #'yea i know this sucks babe but we'll figure it out the fate of the world is on your shoulders i believe in you kisses <3'#like thats where you'll end up right #'find out when the aliens come try and take over'#eschatology and death cults and conspiracy theories probably #forced to sift through like centuries of that stuff for years on end trying to find the Real in all of it #and you cant.......stop. bc the world will end #i dont think you come out of that.................normal #even with the best starting condition you dont come out of that normal but yaz is like #functional only by virtue of her circumstances i think #she looks fine bc shes standing next to 13 #i dont think shes normal under the surface #i dont think 4 years of apocalypticism left her untouched #dan either i mean i dont think anyone comes out of that untouched but these two are like barely keeping it together beforehand #can you imagine how WEIRD theyve become #can you imagine how obliviously and kind of unsettlingly weird they'd be in support groups #the others would get it like sure none of us are really normal anymore but like #i think they'd be weird #4 years of having to depend on each other and not knowing if you'll get back home and having to take The End Times seriously nonstop as a #matter of urgency and duty #and then losing the third member of your party?#dan and yaz will be so weird and fucked up #iknow im repeating myself but im just trying to put myself in the frame of mind of #having to take intepretations of the end times seriously for 4 years #when youre already like a lowkey suicidal person to begin with #i think if yaz hangs out with 14 she'll say such weird and fucked up things entirely obliviously and he'd be like O.O #she probably still has 1900 habits that show up unexpectedly #or like just miscalibrated. has to take a trip to another country and takes a train bc she forgets planes exist #has to look up somethign and just goes SIGH. gets her coat to go to the library. and ryans like ??? ive googled it #and shes like oh fuck google

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swagging-back-to · 4 months

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finally went and got my GED diploma a year after i graduated :)))))

#the check in woman was like 'come on you cant leave without saying bye first!' and iwas like nonononono please no #she made me go talk to the woman who single handedly delayed my graduated by 6 months.#who is annoying as fuck and super classist and pro college.#when she asked what i do for work i was like 'an educator' and she was like 'oh so you've used the free college credits to get your early #childhood education?' and i was like 'uhhh no. still just as against college as i was last year. i don't plan to be an educator for long.'#and she goes well what do you want to do (not your fucking business lady. at all.) and then when i said 'anything' bc real people don't hav #the choice of their dream job or nothing. real people have to just take whatever is available to them--esp in our dead town.#and she was like 'oh come on in during the summer! I'm here for summer school! can take a bunch of tests to find out what your dream job is #can figure out what colleges youd like!'#i was just like ''yeahhhhhh. anyway have a good day' and fucking left.#i was actually debating going to college just a month ago. for the first time in my life i was seriously debating college bc it was my #choice and n oone had been pushing college to me for years. and then she starts this bullshit and im even more anti college than i was in #highschool #anti college #college is a scam #not to mention 'come in during the summer to take completely unnecessary summer school after youve graduated with almost a perfect score'#???? seriously how entitled do you think you are to my time?#i have work this summer. i have plans this summer. and even if i didnt i sure as fuck wouldnt spend my time being preached at about how #im wasting my life and dooming myself to poverty bc i dont want to go 6 figures in debt #and lost 4+ years of time i could be earning wages.

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vincent-sinclair-deserved-better · 23 days

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hm

thinking of my blorbos but not in a "i love you you love me all is well" way but a "i love you hope you kill me" way lol

#cylas vents #negativity #negative #death wish #lmao #bitches be like '[potentially concerning thing]' and then add 'lol' as if it's funny or a joke lmao #like i mean technically it's not but then again it is bc it's me. like yeah don't worry don't take this seriously don't mind me ok #it doesn't really matter anyway kk. or maybe it's more like I'm the joke.#like idk the thought that like most of my f/os would probably kill me on sight should be less comforting than it is i guess #imagine casually making posts like this and still being like 'ok but maybe im not actually mentally ill maybe im faking maybe im lying to #myself maybe im making excuses maybe im imagining things maybe im just lazy' etc etc #none of the antidepressants since fluoxetine decided it's over have done shit and even my psychiatrist now is always like 'hm. so do you #want to keep trying other things' and like yeah what else can i do? therapy didnt do anything for this specific issue and the tagesklinik #lady didnt really seem to get my issue (well her suggestions for like therapy groups or whatever were more about socialising or whatever #like ??? girl that's really not the main problem here lmao but she also did have a point about how i would have to actually go there every #day etc but like #what else am i supposed to do #hi i am always tired and sometimes struggle to even get out of bed and thats why i worry about getting a job or something bc it could become #too much or whatever but like unfortunately thats kind of a requirement for everything lmao #when psychiatrist asks what i want/expect or whatever i am internally like 'a magic pill that just fixes everything and makes me a normal #functional human being' but like that's just not A Thing (tm)#so. like. what else am i supposed to do.#i don't want to be like this forever #idk how to tag lmai #using stuff like #tw suicidality #tw suicidal #tw suicidal ideation #just feels so over the top and like i dont have the right to use them lol

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cursed-tm · 4 months

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#fountain pens #anyway lmao if anyone wants to come out of the woodwork and help me out i still havent found my ideal pen #must be smooth in the body bc i have a weird pen grip and other pens tend not to be as comfortable #the closest ive found is the pilot explorer but the explorer is like. corporate core the pen. like if a pen was a sleep spell.#i have high hopes for the sailor tuzu but why the FUCK is it taking so long to get into stores #also $44 as an entry level pen? that's silly frankly what world are they living in #like i want it but i also dont bc why does it cost $44 what is is bringing to the party #hopefully i can try before i buy bc if i buy it and it's not actually my ideal pen i'll beat myself up #because seriously $44? damn near every other entry level pen i can think of costs less than that

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shrikebrother · 8 months

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#i uh. wrote a poem. sorry if its bad 😭 im actually kind of proud of myself bc ive never written a full poem like this before #pls feel free to tell me ur thoughts #ALSO dont take the bible stuff too seriously i know joseph appears in some prayers its just i usually only hear marys name when ppl pray #around me #original poem #poetry #original poetry #mother son relationship #txt

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reploidbuddy · 2 months

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TIL writer’s burnout is a thing and I recognize myself in the symptoms ;-;

#I have been struggling so bad with writing and I couldn't figure out what was wring bc I love writing #turns out the big time-based and quality-based expectations I put on myself and forcing so hard to write due to said expectations did damage #I'm so sorry i might have to do a small writing hiatus or smthn #Tbh I think I was taking my writing way too seriously and forgetting it's fanfic i'm making for free #like im not getting a cent out of this im not trying to impress a boss or anything #and i'm not saying this in a mean way im saying this in a “rly should have been more gentle on myself” way #and by putting so much on my shoulders for something that should be feeling small I started feeling overwhelmed and exhausted just thinking/#/of picking up my keyboard #im sorry I really dont want to disappoint y'all but it's just not working atm ;-;#rambling

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a-partofthemob · 2 years

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i want to re-read one of the most painful tear-jerking pillow throwing bathroom screaming terumob au fic i have bookmarked but i Know that im not mentally prepared to reread it

its the sword of damocles

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stef-rambles · 10 months

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watching a vid about Chucky the Doll as the new k!ll3r in DBD yesterday probably gave me the weirdest brainfart I've had lately and I needa share it with you guys... xD

just as a small heads up; characters are way OOC, I'm very well aware of it, this is just a fun little idea I had and wanted to share

DBD AU with my four fav genshin idiots (lovingly) Alhaitham, Cyno, Neuvillette, and Wriothesley but instead of them all being calm and collected as they usually are, imagine them all nearly shitting their pants and turning into whimpering, in the corner sitting and rocking their bodies back and forth, wide-eyed staring, and trembling, horror-stricken messes after getting a glimpse of the k!ll3r, who's actually a short Doll (totally not thinking of Scara, dunno what you’re talking about) running around and lurking in the shadows to hunt them down

bc I can totally imagine Scara doing just that, spewing stuff like “don’t chicken out now!” and “where are you assholes?” or “you’re mine!” and “that’s what you get when you play with dolls!” or “gotcha! you dumb shit!” while viciously laughing as he scampers through high grass, holding a knife almost the same size as himself, just to get a thrill out of seeing the others being absolutely terrified outta their minds xD

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