#bc i grew and i changed yada yada

[neuroticboyfriend]

i am so glad i have fostered a following where i can make these posts that would get me metaphorically shot on sight anywhere else. we're all about radical disability advocacy over here. boot up bitch. we're making a better world one person at a time.

[punnifullife]

I wanna hear your headcannons

Hmm i wasn't sure where to start, so apologies if this feels really jumbled. Also keep in mind i am cherry picking things from what dc has considered canon or not canon anymore sooooo:

starfire/koriand'r:

- Her personality is a mix of the bubbly one she has in TT03 and her NTT comic version. Warrior that will beat you to death if you wrong her, but can be very compassionate and considerate to those she loves. -struggles with social queues and human lingo (this isn't just for english, but any language. if you ever see the trouble in tokyo movie, she speaks Japanese for a scene but you can clearly hear/tell she's fluent but there's still a distinct way on how she talks/enunciates things). Since there really wasn't a "dialect/accent" for Tamaraneans, I like to think how she speaks IS the dialect/accent. And it's why her sister, Blackfire, seems to be much more "fluent". Some people can drop their accent/dialect when speaking another language, while others, no matter how much they speak in their 2nd language, will still have that accent/dialect there. (also bc i think it's a bit silly that to become MORE fluent?? you have to keep kissing? idk) - I love how she was a model for donna troy's photography gig, so i thought that would be cute to continue that (and her relationship with Donna!! bc wow did i fall in love reading about them in NTT)

Dick/Nightwing - He and batman had a fallout (he did not get "fired", but he left of his own volition. albeit on bad terms at first from differing views/ideals. I like to think that's partially why he was so moody in tt03 and why slade was such a great villain for him since slade(tt03 version) was very similar to batman at the time.

- He DOES grow out of that moody edgy phase, but he still has that bad habit of hiding his emotions/thoughts with others. While he's grown to trust them more and rely on them for missions, there's still that emotionally-constipated person that struggles to take off that "mask" and doesn't usually wear his emotions on his sleeves. And this continued to cause strain with all of his relationships. And if say a member of his team is hurt due to complications on a mission? you bet he struggles to not fall back on old habits to do things alone bc he can deal with it all by himself.

- When he's with TT, he's more relaxed and serious, but when he's back in the batfam, he ups the fake smiles and quips otherwise he might go crazy with how brooding everything is (especially being away with his found family and going "OH things don't have to be this damn depressing all the time. cool")

- remained the leader of TT in Jump City but as the team grew older and TT grew in members, things changed:

TT team:

- the older members (the ex-teens of the group) would all move on to managing their own cities or helping the younger generations (so dick in bludhaven, keystone city for wally, as well as other older members working at the east or west tower to help with younger generations not just be good heroes, but help them become capable of withstanding on their OWN. bc i like the idea the first members who [most of them] came from being in a shadow of someone else, so making sure future teen heroes don't fall into that ig?) so i guess like the JL where there's still a main core (with dick as the "leader" but the other main core can all step up to the plate too when necessary)

Batfam:

I know the new52 and crisis and yada yada has retconned and changed so much for all of their characters/stories (thanks DC). but again, these are just my AU/headcanons and anyone can disagree with what i gotta say:

- Jason todd becomes Robin ("unofficially") while Dick is a member of the tt03 team. TT03 is like... a 2 year story in my eyes? so by the end of the tt03 series, Dick becomes Nightwing and passes the mantle onto Todd. Todd is robin for like 1-2 years before his death. Tim takes up the mantle of Robin and then would either become red robin or put up the cape as he attended college AWAAY from gotham with duke and stephanie bc that would be fun (red robin, signal, and spoiler as a trio? sheeesh). Damian either joins before Tim leaves or something idk.

-babs is a bit was batgirl during dick's robin run. Would eventually become oracle and i think either staying in gotham or going to bludhaven could work.

- i know we all love the shenanigans with the batfam but i think a lot of these characters and relationships do better when they get to be independent. (which is kinda funny bc thats what bruce would want, even if he can be hypocritical and try to hold onto them due to his own trauma and unhealthy attachment.) but i would like to think eventually they could come together to help out in gotham every now and then. but who knows ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ bat stuff isnt my biig focus hehe.

So robstar/dickory stuff:

- on the fence if they stay together after the tt03 movie or at some point they do break up but it's more bc i always felt like star/kory was giving a LOT to dick and dick still had those emotional pull-back tendencies. and what i love about these two is that we have one character who is so in tune with her emotions vs a guy that struggles not to deflect a positive remark. and while she sees through a lot of what he puts out as a front and can always recognize when he's hiding something, she can't be doing all that heavy lifting (even if she's a warrior alien princess with super strength lool). So, if they get together during their tt03 era, can they work through that? Idk ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ (i also lowkey would love for some angst and rekindling as adults who've matured and have better ideas on what they want vs when they were just kids crushing on each other but it could go either way bc the tt03 did a lot of development between the two of them. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯)

- Dick grounds Kory. He's her sense of humanity. He's the first person she meets coming to Earth. He was always patient with her and loved showing her the world. Kory reads dick like an open book and he finds comfort in someone who can see through that facade TT03: There's a reason he hesitates to shoot her during the slade arc. why he picks her to search for slade. He can be vulnerable with her, even if it's in his weird way.

- a big fight involves moving forward in their relationship like marriage and children. To date is one thing, but to commit to something like that? To put his loved ones in danger? especially a child? He would have the fear of losing them OR his child losing HIM and kory. ofc kory would be understanding but i do think she would also get mad like "I was born to a race of warriors. Trained by the Warlords of Okaara. Am i so weak to need constant protection? I have respected the human morals to not kill, but I do not hold such beliefs and will do what is necessary to protect who I love most."

- Bruce wasn't necessarily confident in their relationship. It's a jumble of emotions that can be confusing. happy for his son to find happiness/love, sad/hurt/fear of his son moving on/away, a possessive/jealousy to keep dick around. But I do think when bruce and kory meet, he may soften a bit. I think it's why i like the idea of Tt03 star/kory meeting bruce bc she can be gentle and theres a charm about her.

Eventually they have mari! (and jake years later).

-Dick's job is to take her to school. but he's always sleeping in due to late hero shifts so it's usually a piggyback and acrobatic journey across the city to get to school on time.

-If she's hanging out in Gotham, then the public eye spread rumors bc they see her as another "black haired kid adopted by Mr. Bruce Wayne" and after 4 of them, people have just accepted the normalcy of it. ive also thought itd be interesting if she (and kory) were given some kinda tech like a watch that could disguise their appearance since big green glowing non-pupil eyes are kinda a give-away.

-jake doesn't get his powers until he's a teen. so while both kids were combat trained, he would take on the mantle of flamebird to go alone with nightwing!

[raayllum]

...? so if we swap out the immortal character for say, I don't know, a 60 yr old, someone older than both Viren and Claudia and maintaining the same power imbalance and you still don't see the difference shipping a 60/unspecified middle aged person versus a 60 yr old/19 (met at 17) yr old then I don't know man - like I get it yada yada it's fiction I don't care for them either but to pretend one isn't more problematic than the other, for like common sense reasoning, is a little silly

I don't know how to tell you this, but age gaps 1) aren't inherently bad and 2) what can make them bad/worrisome is the power imbalance, typically between men in their late 20s and girls in their late teens, that the age gap can bring in terms of maturity, life experience, and manipulation tactics. All things that Aaravos has over both Viren and Claudia somewhat equally. He's been more outright manipulatory towards Claudia, but he also quite literally has Viren's whole ass life in his hands to treat like a toy. So it kinda evens out there, if you ask me

Also will reaffirm in my tags: I grew up reading greek myth. Aaravos is literally thousands of years old, yet appears to be like, maybe in his 30s-40s (it's hard to tell because no visible signs of aging, but he's definitely more adult than young adult leaning). And if you grow up reading greek myth, gods are banging mortals left and right under extremely or outright non con situations (hi Zeus and Apollo in particular). I also read "Wuthering Heights" (one of the most fucked up quasi-half sibling relationships ever) and "Jane Eyre" (18 yr old girl and her 40 yr old employer) while getting my degree in how fiction can, or when it doesn't, influence reality, how views on age gaps and even incest has changed in society and fiction over time (the Victorians idealized a lot of weird stuff but we also get a lot of their moral hangups regarding sex in general).

Aaravos is not like a '60 year old man'. There is no real world equivalent. This shit happens every single time there's a vampire or god or angel or mortal shit (which errs towards teens, bc YA, but is also there in Adult fiction) but like. You think that immortal being is cognizant of a human being 15 vs a human being 30? You think they have any solid comprehension of what that lifespan is like? You think Aaravos gives a shit as to Viren in his 40s (which, how would death aging work anyway?) vs Claudia being basically 20 when Aaravos is thousands of years old?

TLDR; I get that age gaps on a base level can make people uncomfortable, but that sort of reading requires and engages with zero critical thinking skills, because it's the power imbalance that that kind of age gap can help facilitate that's the issue, not solely the age gap itself. Same as to how most toxic/unhealthy relationships, regardless of the ages of people in them, also have power imbalances, because that's what makes it unhealthy. And the unhealthiness of the ship can sometimes be precisely why people like it, even if it isn't my cup of tea, but I don't have to get up on my moral high horse about it

I think it's a little silly to buy into rhetoric that pushes far right conservative moral panics, sorry

[yakultii]

unpopular opinion (on this website at least) that I’m yet to change (feel free to gently change my mind tho - I swear I’m openminded I just have rejection sensitivity dysphoria if u hit too hard but also I grew up queer and neurodiverse in rural aus so I can kinda take it) but I really do (as of rn) feel like ChatGP/ai haters come from a place of immense privilege in 2024 (and personally I feel I do have that privilege where I could easily formulate an argument to hate it), obvs it’s not ethical in so many ways but neither are many things (don’t get me started) and sometimes you reach a need for survival in which you’ll utilise any tool presented to you at your convenience (not that “if you can’t beat em join em mentality” lmaohelp) and no I’m not talking about writing a uni essay or creating art (bc personally I’d never use it for either of those things) but why are people so mad about using it as a search engine or planner etc (u can enlighten me fr cos maybe I’m missing something) like if you don’t need it for that, don’t use it for that who cares (maybe u are better than everyone go on slayer) but we all mad about everything all the time. obviously it’s biased yada yada yada but you can manipulate it to be whatever kind of biased you want it to be, the same way you do with google! and if you approach it w the same critical view you do when u use other sites idk. plus if ur doing genuine research ur obvs not using ChatGPT (ur probs not using google either) ur probs using it to clarify ideas before then finding other more credible sites. The problem I do strongly consider is it probably does mean that future generations won’t develop high level critical thinking skills but we were on the path anyway lmao maybe I’m not who I think I am, maybe I’m now a nihilist lmao why am I even yapping. actually no - idk that much ab evolution but maybe quick thought, isn’t it likely that humans are going to adapt to critically think in different wahs about different things? the same way we once critically thought about our survival in the caves and nowadays we be thinking about what we post on social media(lol I should do more of that rn) whichever way society goes we gon be just fine. it ain’t gonna feel fine at all for a lot of us but… yeah idk I give up.

[possuminnit]

tell me about,, ur,,, OCS!!!!

SORRY I TOOK AGES GETTING TO THIS i wanted to answer it on my pc for typing reasons. umm i know i havent really talked about any of them but since i went on a dive into looking into my neph lore yesterday ill tell you about her!!! (link is art of her lolz)

so baseline info about the mc server i was going to do with irls because thats where she started; we were all making silly characters to play over i think it was summer break just because we could. basic thing is a lot of things would happen to our character, then something very major, then the next day they would wake up in the mc world. so everyone was from a different universe basically. i think each lineup was like... two were aliens/alien-esk but each from different little worlds <- not super sure, one was more from a modern world, one was from a pjo universe, then neph was from a old time-y royal thang. (100% chose that because i had techno;s crown on my skin and wanted an excuse to keep it also because i was very into royal aus when i made her)

OK so basically her story is like. any royal au you'd ever read inthe world. she grew up with her parents heavily disinterested in her, leaving her teachers to deal with her bc they were like who care we just need you to wear the crown one day and rule so we can chill forever. acted decently the same with her brother who is like 4 years younger than her or something. who cares this is not about him !!

her story is a lot of just being ignored and being both understanding and vaguely spiteful over it whatever, she deals, does her school yada yada. one day she ends up getting pissed off after her birthday is ignored once again so he goes to the royal guard and is like hiii! train me :3 and her being prince he was like. yeah ok ? sure. whatever. uerrmm she trains, shes like awesome really, she gets better than the guard over the time its cool its whatever shes just cool like that. Whhile she's training she meets one of the guards, also in training, her name was evelyn . You already know they fall in love 🔥 but its secret they cant really tell about it because of a lot of reasons ehhh whatever. years pass its pretty cool they also get caught a few times but dont Amen. changes on neph's 21st birthday though, her fuckass dad catches them kissing, drags both of them to the court in front of the queen and is like GUESSS WAHT.!

the king and queen order for evelyn to be beheaded. and she is, in that moment, and neph has to watch it. neph is ordered to be exiled but shes like you literally just killed the love of my life <- does some cool quick thang and yanks a sword from a guards hand and starts demolishing the court room. she doesnt get away unscathed obviously, shes a little fucked up and bloody but she does not care she keeps going 🔥anyways she kills her mum and dad, steals her dads crown, then dips. and then yay wow she wakes up in the mc world !!!!!

theres some other things in-between there, and even more about her after the whole dropping into the mc world but ehhh... u get her baseline lore thats ok. i willll say she does fall in love again and is so sick and twisted over it ❤️Sorry neph

[wildwoof]

I'm making small amends because I realize my thoughts don't quite match how things go. While I still stand by the fact of Koga being demisexual. He wouldn't quite, I suppose, be demiromantic as well. This would mean that he'd have to have an emotional bond with someone to truly fall in love with them. Koga has said on multiple occasions how he "loves" Rei. He "fell in love" with Rei. But, when he first fell in love, he never even spoke to Rei. Which, in a way, could be seen as a "false" love, but the fact that Rei simply saved him in an emotional way. Brought him back before he completely lost himself due to being lonely, all alone in the world. Rei's music kept him as a young boy with no one in life from potentially doing anything reckless. But, Koga believed it to be love at this time. It can ALSO of course be just a platonic love due to the nature of Japanese writing.

Yada yada yada, I've talked about this before, so I shouldn't delve deep into it again, esp since this isn't supposed to be a post about a ship. BUT HERE I AM BC I CANNOT STOP MY BRAIN FROM TALKING ABOUT THEM. No matter how hard I try not to. My Gods, it NEVER ENDS. Anyways, he doesn't necessarily need the deep bond to feel something akin to love for someone. Just typically he doesn't allow anyone IN to get to know him better unless the bond is formed. He has to trust them & feel comfortable with them, which can be taken sort of like demiromantic. But it rests in a definite grey-area, which leans more toward grey-romantic. He sits on a cusp that truly depends on the emotions he's feeling toward the person & how he HIMSELF is feeling.

If he's got his walls up, it's less likely he'll let someone in within that bond first. Like say if he fell in love with Rei at that point in a TRUE romantic sense, then it'd make him more panromantic over demiromantic since he never spoke to Rei at that point, a "love at first sight" or "love at a distance" moment. But if say for Kaoru, he had his walls up around him until slowly chipping away as they spent more time together, growing closer. So, he'd have that bond before falling in love. Adonis sits on the edge, due to trying to close the gap with Adonis when they first met each other, yet later putting up walls around himself with Adonis, until once again beginning to chip away at it as they grew closer.

You know what? He's just grey-romantic. His ways of letting people in around him is just so all over the place & infrequent, that he truly just falls into that spectrum over demiromantic. Though, in a lot of potential instances, it's VERY like demiromantic. If you think about how he used to be vs how he is now, he has a greater chance NOW of letting people in more readily. To give them more chances & feel an attraction to them. It's still rather infrequent, though. After all, he spends majority of his time around the other idols he knows in ES, but a few other students as well. Plus, the biggest thing is him experiencing the romantic attraction without necessarily desiring the relationship.

But I will not be changing his sexual attractions. He is DEFINITELY demisexual. No doubt about it. The last thing on Koga's mind at any given point is sexual attraction. Playing guitar matters more. Singing on stage with UNDEAD matters more. Taking care & loving Leon is far more important. Sure, of course, he'll take care of HIMSELF when necessary, after all body health is very important as an idol. But his desires for sexual interactions is not on the top of his list of priorities. He's not going out of his way for anything sexual, but of course when he has that emotional & romantic bond, then his sexual desires will grow a bit more. He'll want that physical connection with his partner. There'll be that comfort for him in being close on such an intimate level with his partner.

[whitneys-puppyslut]

Finch (Robin's PC)

18+ / minors DNI

Hi guys. Thanks for the support on my first two drabble thingies. And welcome to my blog, since I haven't said that yet.

I'm gonna start a little series where I show off my personal PCs I use when romancing different characters in DOL. I made them all in the sims since I'm not confident in my drawing skills... so their actual in my head designs are a little different than the screenshots you'll see here. And of course, the actual sprites in DOL differ quite a bit as well. But y'know it's just so you guys get a sense of the character.

I might also put all of them into a world in the sims with their love interests and see what happens lol.

Anyway, without further ado, here's Robin's PC: also known as Finch!

Headcanons under the cut

Finch the Bodyguard

Get it? because robin is a type of bird and a finch is also....... yeah I'll see myself out

she/her pronouns

bisexual

Finch isn't her real name. But nobody knows her real name, not even Robin or any the teachers...

Leighton knows, and Bailey knows. But that's about it.

Finch erm... "persuaded" Leighton to change her name on school documents.

She's not above using sex to get what she wants... i mean in this fucked up city you do what you gotta do.

She prefers not to have to resort to that though.

Most things do go her way, after all she's smart, attractive, popular....... and intimidating........

Yeah she is BUFF in case you can't tell. She loves building muscle and working out... but mainly she's like that out of necessity.

I mean it helps to be able to fend off attackers and pursuers.

Or simply scare them off before they even lay their hands on her!

She has scary dog energy

Whitney knows to stay out of her way.

Bc the one time he did stop her in the hallway and tried to put his hands on her... did not end well for him.

EVERYONE recorded that fight. It's not everyday you get to see Whitney get pummeled into the ground...

And then he SCRAMBLED to get those videos taken down....

It's okay tho Finch actually made a truce with him and helped him threaten persuade everyone to delete the videos.

As long as he promised to keep his and his friends' hands off of her loved ones.

So yeah they don't interact with each other now but they both know the terms and conditions of their little truce

Robin & Finch <3

So how did Robin get the hot goth baddie?

Well as per the plot of DOL they grew up together and were friends and he looked up to her and yada yada

They were pretty much acting like lovebirds way before they actually made it official

And their situationship was fine as it was, for a while... but Finch really feels like she needs to devote herself to people entirely. And she felt bad having her attention pulled away from Robin, her best friend since forever, by other friends and especially other potential love interests.

So she was like fuck it and, in the privacy of Robin's room one night, while he was playing video games, they made it official

It was all sappy and shit <333

She DEDICATED herself to him

She's a great gf honestly

Neither of them are very fond of PDA, and Finch is very stoic and rather serious irl, and she feels like she needs to keep up her intimidating persona

so they keep the lovey-dovey shit behind closed doors

i love them they're so cute

her other little "title" alongside "the bodyguard" is "robin's protector" bc that's basically what she is. She doesn't let any harm come to him as long as she's there.

She even pays Bailey's rent for him. So yeah she juggles like a million jobs trying to afford that

But she tries to find jobs that are safe that robin could do, bc honestly that lemonade stand... isn't helping much.

Unfortunately all the higher paying jobs come with a lot of risk. Risk she's not willing to put Robin through.

She feels very protective over him, not in a weird way but genuinely she hates seeing him hurt, but it's gotten to the point where she feels like he can't go anywhere and do anything.

It's putting quite a damper on his confidence levels.

And she's noticed.

But what can she do other than try to protect the love of her life?

And when it gets to the point where she has to choose between a confident robin, or a safe robin, what will she choose?

Is it even up to her?

Wow sry guys that was a lot. Also as much as I love DOL I don't actually play that much so I might get some details wrong or miss big plot things that I just haven't seen so... yeah.

Ok bye lol

[fanonimus]

I already expressed my problems with Harley's design, and my brain kept working, so I decided to create an AU to gather my thoughts.

So, here, Poison Ivy:

The paper flowers were made by Harley.

You can see that I mostly just gave her a different dress and horns, and mostly left her design alone. I like the green skin and red hair.

I did play around with her backstory because I personally hate it, and it makes me want to bash my head into a wall.

So I made her a backstory that will make some DC fans triggered. (I am specifically looking at christians because I know my kind. We are really sensitive about gods and stuff, it's annoying.)

Pamela Isley had grown up in the lower end of bristol. Her parents were emotionally distant, her father a botanist and her mother a chemist. She found plants interesting, and loved being out in the gardens and the greenhouse. She learned to care for the plants when she was young, and she loved to just show affection.

At the age of six, she discovered her metahuman abilities, which made her resistant against natural toxins and sicknesses after she was bit by a poisonus spider, and nothing happened. It wasn't even inflamed.

She grew up not knowing anything about gods and religions, as her parents weren't believers.

When she was around sixteen, she somehow got to the whichcraft side of tiktok, maybe bc of her plant obsession, and there she saw that some people worshipped hellenistic deities and worked with them She loved the idea, and that day, she made an altar to Demeter, but received no reply, no sign of the goddess hearing her.

The people she talked with online about this suggested that she try with someone else because maybe Demeter was not satisfied with her. So she did and reached out to an older deity, Gaia.

And she received an answer, and many after that. The mother goddess loved her offerings and the care she showed towards plant life and nature.

She got her PhD in botanics like her father, and she found a job at WE's bio-friendly program.

One day, she was praying to Gaia, just a night routine, when the goddess reached out to her, and asked her to stop humanity from hurting her. Pamela, of course, accepted her request.

Then she changed, became an ecoterrorist, yada yada, the rest is pretty much how it goes in canon, except she prays to gaia.

The little stone at her waist is actually an artefact blessed by gaia that amplifies her powers and provides a direct connection to the goddess.

She had a massive crush on a psychiatrist at arkham called Harleen Quinzel, and after a few hiccups (walmart clown) they got together.

Ivy lives in a biodump that got way too toxic for anyone to live in. (BTAS Ivys living situation basically.)

If you have any questions about the AU, feel free to ask em.

This is it, thanks for reading, have a nice day, drink some water.

My DCAU collection.

[ehveerivv]

VENT

I’ll edit later bc I know it’s written all wacky and the tenses make no sense. I’m tired and I need to go to bed, it’s already light out 😭😭😭

I love my partner; there’s literally nothing she could do that I wouldn’t crumble into a pile of adoration over.

Her stepdad is a different story…I’ve met the guy twice in our relationship so far. The second time was after a night out with my partner and Ghostie. We went to a popular urban legend spot and ran out like little bitches after hearing a LOUD shriek which at 4 in the morning really fucks with you (lol). We went there to drop my partner back at her place. Our interaction consisted of a simple “goodnight be safe yada yada, nice to meet you by the way, I’m dating your kid”

The FIRST time I met her stepdad was at work. I was working fast food at that point in time. I had NO CLUE who he was. He came up to the front counter and said (word for word)

“hi, can i get a medium fry to go? Who’s your T doctor?”

My guy W H A T ? You meet your kid’s partner and the first thing you do is ask about my medicals? What happened to “hi nice to meet you?” And either way, I was on the clock, at work; doing work things. At the time I didn’t even know who the hell he was either. There was zero introduction. For all I knew he was a complete stranger.

While it was an incredibly invasive question I answered honestly, explaining that at that point due to the law change I stopped taking T until after my birthday (which was a month before this interaction) he kinda “hmm”’d at me and said something about his T shots and it hit me; bro is also trans. I wouldn’t have ever guessed that. I thought that was super neat cause now I knew I already had something in common with him.

A few days ago my partner told me that because I don’t bind or go out of my way to present one way or another that her stepdad was making comments that I’m “not really trans” because I don’t bind at work.

First off, not that it’s her stepdads business, but binding in a hot and greasy workplace while being a smoker and on top that being off of T which means my estrogen levels rocketed and thus made my boobas painful didn’t seem like a great idea. I choose breathing over chest pain :)

Second, I was stealthing at work aside from like 2 other coworkers who I know outside of work.

Third, I don’t owe anyone any type of masculinity or femininity. I dress comfortably and while I do present masculine outside of work sometimes I’m just lazy or not feeling like putting a lot of effort into the way I look.

Fourth- blud has been on T much longer than I have at that point, so no. Im not gonna look like a cis dude. And I don’t really give a shit 🤷

Why in the world was someone who has years of being trans on me try to beef with me and “out trans” me??? I’d met him twice at this point and both times I had been as respectful as possible to him.

The part that really got under my skin though, was that her stepdad has been raving about how I seem delicate and stupid, I’m going to be hate crimed, I needed protection from my partner, etc.

Delicate? Sure, I have vulnerable moments, but for the most part I’m delicate like a landmine and if you step on the pressure plate too hard yeah, I’m gonna explode.

Stupid? Yes. But just because I do stupid things and make some stupid choices doesn’t make me a stupid person. I’m competent and capable. I wasn’t climbing the work ladder with my stupidity that’s for damn sure.

Hate crimed? Unfortunately yes, but I do my best to not instigate and try my damndest not to put myself in situations like that.

Need protection? Nah, I’m good. Daddy raised a cryer with good aim, not a bitch :)

The “delicate” comment came from right after my parents nearly got divorced twice in one month and I lost the only grandparent on my dad’s side of the family that I had left. The women who raised me and the other woman I liked calling “mom”. Why can’t I be vulnerable in that moment and let myself feel upset over something devastating like that???

I’m not gonna go create beef with her stepdad or anything; but it’s really fucking frustrating that I feel like I suddenly have something to prove :(

Dysphoria is usually like a 3/10 like I can handle it and all, but now it’s like a 6/10 and it hurts a little more :/ and I was really hoping I might be able to get tips or even bond over also being trans with him over time.

[kyoghurts]

so uh there's this guy (pt. 2)

around the first few weeks of april, we were given a project film on gen math. it was easy if we're following the rules and criteria, but it was difficult to meet the deadline, which was by the end of the month. we were divided into four groups, if im correct. me and R are in the same group (surprising wow) with me having experience with acting,,, my leader deliberately made me as one of the main casts.

our first choice of film that we wanted to recreate was abt a family with four girls and one guy. four girls were the eldest and guy's the youngest out of all of them. one of the girls, me, was the second oldest and was like this simple yet elegant girl who was academically inclined and humble. one day this girl met a guy whos in the same studio that her younger sister's in, and this younger sister has a crush on that guy. but the guy fell for this girl instead. it wasn't the main part of the story, but my leader wanted to include some romantic shit for reasons i don't know. R is... that guy, and he had the looks and vibe that perfectly fits the character. he didnt want the role, neither do i, but we all just accepted it for the sake of our grades </3

we didn't get to follow our plan though. we noticed that it would take too long to finish this film. even if we had a bunch of scenes already checked, we had like 40 more scenes to go ☠ we were running out of time. and by some miracle R actually made a backup plan all by himself, and he told me about it before suggesting it to our leader. he didnt exactly told me the details of his plan, but he asked me if i could sweet talk my way with my leader in hopes of persuading her. i was SCARED bc i feel like my leader cherished our first choice of film, she's been so stressed w her upcoming broadcasting contest and managing our group, so i carried half of the burden most of the time. i told her that R would like to suggest another idea, and thankfully she quickly went with it too. R made a groupchat of me, leader, and some members that were in charge too. his idea was actually cute (PLATONIC, I SWEAR) and simple.

basically it was abt a guy who transferred into a new school and met a girl whos the president of the class and is smart. this guy is shy and meek and dumb in math, the teacher noticed this one day and suggested that the girl should tutor him. they went on tutor dates on and off of school. and fell in love yada yada. but then idk if its the girl or boy, one of them changes school and never met again. when the girl grew up to be a teacher and lives a simple life, her mother suddenly grew ill and had been hospitalized. the girl needed a large sum of money, which she couldnt afford, so she was in debt for a while until some anonymous person kind of paid all her debts off without notice. turns out it was the guy whos now a CEO and is successful asf. the last scene was supposed to be a sort of reunion with the girl and her class along w the guy. and they finally meet each other again.

we didnt exactly follow the whole plot, we made some changes along the way - we had to shorten the scenes and remove the others completely bc we only had like...two more weeks to finish. of course, im the girl, and SHOCKINGLY the guy is R. and no, the leader didnt propose this role, he volunteered. 😄 he ALSO told me he wanted me to take the role cos he's not comfortable with the others, granted he's not close w the other members.

we did this for the sake of the project. my thoughts were always "lets jst finish this early so we can leave it all behind faster" and in the span of that two weeks i was in deep suffering from all the shits the school has given me. i didnt even get to have a time of rest. and on top of that, the heat index was insane. about 45 degrees celsius a day, so filming outside was basically asking for a death wish...which we did have a death wish.

R wasnt exactly confident, but he did make up for it for his consistency. and i always try to encourage him whenever gets shy and frustrated when we had too many takes for just one scene. the most gruesome part was that we went on a park where the temp was high enough for our ass to sweat buckets and there was a scene that after i tutored him, sitting cross legged in the grass, he would stand...offer his hand...and yank me up and i stumble and he catches me with his arms. and stare at each other for...idk how many seconds but those seconds were fucking AWKWARD.

and im pretty sure i looked like shit cos 1) it was hot, i was sweating and 2) i barely slept, so my eyebags were horribly visible, and 3) i didnt have at least makeup on, which i dont depend on it everyday but surely its necessary for that occasion.

so i got to stare and pick out some details on his face for a good few seconds, i knew this before already, but his eyelashes were so long, even the under eyelashes. the sun was like blocked by the umbrella some of our members were holding, but it didnt stop his fair skin to glow and i could see the shadows defining his features, his cheekbones, the high nose bridge, the faint eyebags, he has faint moles under his jaw and some on his neck, and i can see my reflection in his eyes like IM NOT MAKING THIS UP 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

uhhh we took like 5-6 attempts on that scene and i swear everyone in the park was curiously staring at us...

i couldnt forget when we were on break, he took my arms and wiped off the sweat with his spare towel cos he's a nice dude like that.

there were also moments where we would sit next to each other on the tricycle or just walk idly when we can, both on and off camera. i could argue that this sounds romantic but its not 😭 especially when we never flirt like at all, his complements were always subtle and platonic. and i dont pay attention to his reaction when i say stuff like "your hair's nice" when he asks me if it suits him, i dont think abt how it would upset him whenever i fix his hair bc i always mess it up instead, and i'd just laugh when he gives me the side eye.

and yet everything he does is just endearing. even if its small. it grows to something bigger the more he does it. like simply listening to me yap on so many things, discussing on some deep shit about life and being so open despite his confusions. he lets me express my opinion whenever hes uncertain/opening up about things of himself. we laugh and hate the same people and somehow its never awkward, even the film doesn't phase him all that much, he gets shy but we just joke about it afterwards.

WE EVEN HAVE LIKE STUPID INSIDE JOKES BC ONE TIME I MISPRONOUNCED A WORD AND I MISSUSED A PHRASING AND HE JUST MADE IT BOTH OUR NICKNAMES. now whenever were in the mood into getting on each other's nerves we would just mention that simple joke and we'd be bantering by the second.

there was also that one time we separated from our film group and went home together. he has my nirvana hoodie on him bc he needed it for the film, and he doesnt have any black hoodies so </3 he kept telling me he'll wash it after the film, and when he gave it back to me, i couldnt help but smell the hoodie first thing i got it and it smelled good......

during the week before finals, we didnt talk all that much again. but i was surprised to see him send reviewers/notes to me. and he knows i have notes, still, he sent it to me without me asking for it. he sent it to J and my bff too. on the day of finals, he helped me revise on other subjects i didnt get to take on myself. and he taught me how to make a cheat sheet without getting caught bc he said i looked desperate 💔 which i was.

i think this was after finals. but we had a conversation abt friends and moving on w life. he said he'll never forget me even after 8 years cos he doesnt really have that many friends, and he compared me with him. which i cant deny, i do talk and know lots of people. but i had to argue that i personally am not close w all of them. and that i choose selectively on who i hang out with.

i told him i'll never forget him either

not too long ago. we held a party within our strand, R was a little late and the first thing i did when i saw him was laugh. i thought he was joking that he said he’ll wear all black — only if i wore all white. i didnt wear all white but he was actually serious 💀

J was absent, but i dont even think it’d make a difference if he was there. it just felt rather natural that he’d stick with me the whole time. THE WHOLE TIME, even the after party. its unusual bc he likes to go home early, often leaving before everyone does, but he didn’t suggest we’d go home. my bff even went before we did, and our conversation topics were just all over the place.

and in that particular moment i … yeah … i realized im deeply cooked.

i didnt think i’d enjoy the party at all 😰 but i did. and its all bc we yapped together 🫠

i dont think this feeling will last tho. i cant interfere with his goals, and besides, its better this way </3

RAGHHH I HATE YOU R IM GLAD ITS VACA SO I DONT GET TO SEE YOUR STUPID FACE

[sexybeast420696]

Dear rinnifer,

I hate to be pulling a franny and spencer on you, but I suppose this is better then sending a text so lol here you go,

I feel like we always have convos about the state of our friendship and how we feel about each other and yada yada yada whatever but i guess i’ll just say it again here bc ya

I truly do think you are my bestest friend. Through different friendships in my life, i feel like you have been the truest friend of them all. I’ve genuinely never met anyone so like me to my core it’s scary. The way we just get each other without saying anything, the way we are always on the same wavelength, its all so funny to me. And i truly do believe in some past life, we were sisters or something dumb like that.

Words can’t express how grateful i am that we met that fateful freshman year. I can’t believe how much we’ve changed and how much more we’re gonna change together in the future. Thank you for being the bestest friend, sister, soulmate, a girl could ever ask for. Thanks for driving my dumbass around everywhere. Thanks for getting McDonald’s at 2 am with me whenever i want. Thanks for letting me rant about my boy problems and comforting me when i cry over good for nothing midget munches. Thanks for just being the sister i never grew up with. Ok im gonna throw up now ttyl <3

Jizzy

[i-need-air]

Oh-- I really really -really- liked your wolf hybrid Bakugou and-- if you don't mind, can you do one on Kirishima? Just the general headcanons, if this is too bothersome then you can ignore this once again- thank you

Just general headcanons you say? Okay, I had this written 2k words in before I got this ask and now it's at... ehem, let me take a deep breath for this;

Word count: 3.5k 💀 [of HCs 💀💀💀]

Why do I keep doing this to myself aksdjkd I love Kiri so much, my god! Thanks for the ask!! 💗

[ Masterlist ]

Hybrid!AU Kirishima Eijirou HCs

× i mentioned him as a dog hybrid and we're sticking with it because it just feels right, yano? anyway!

× you found out about how the new hybrid shelter in your city helped bust a fighting ring

× which was horrifying to think about

× one of your friends explained the process to you and you were definitely interested in helping someone out

× shelters were still underfunded and didn't provide much to help the hybrids adapt to society

× so you found yourself in front of the shelter without a plan

× just a dream and a spare couch that could thankfully convert into a bed

× before you could chicken out you stormed through the doors like a mad person, catching the attention of the guards and the front desk man

× it surprised you how disinterested they were though; were they seriously the people that dismantled a whole illegal fighting ring?

× they called a sweet old lady to accompany you

× when you explained your situation her eyes sparkled, looking you up and down and nodding her head

× she took you through some hallways, showing you around the precinct, questioning you about what type of hybrid you'd want

× to which you honestly didn't know how to respond, like anyone you could help????

× it kinda pissed you off how she spoke about the hybrids like they were pets, suggesting you'd get a kitty or a bunny, since [her words] they were low maintenance

× is this really a good shelter?

× you looked around, finding prison like cells left and right, some with people that looked at you curiously, some covering from your glance

× they were locked in...

× some growling could be heard far away but the woman shook her head at you, disapproving gaze turned to the side as she took you further into the building

× another room, this time cells were bigger, a few occupied, yet covered from you, indiferent and uninterested

× a man was sitting on the edge of the bed, hands in his hair

× "Kirishima, boy, get up to greet someone"

× his red eyes snapped up, whatever he was thinking about slowly forgotten

× he blinked curiously as you hugged your frame, feeling uncomfortable, even ashamed to be there

× but a sweet smile took over his features

× "Hey! I'm Kirishima Eijirou!"

× it's really all it took for you to grow fond of him; he got up and came closer to the entrance of the cell and introduced himself in such easy-going manner you forgot about everything and anything

× he calmed you with his presence, even if it was very disheveled, with old ripped clothes and hair messy, painted red with obvious dark roots showing

× he had a black fluffy tail waving slowly behind him too

× you introduce yourself with his encouragement and mumbled how you wanted to help someone out today

× he just smiled at you, taking you in

× let me tell you something about dog hybrids: they can sense emotions and intentions so Kiri would be a very good judge of character and he really, genuinely took a liking on you

× the problem is how the fuck do you say out loud that you wanted to help him out

× because you sure as hell weren't going to say you'd adopt him; he's not a child? we're talking about a grown ass man here? literally looked like 6'4ft/1.95m?????

× it was so shameful, your gut turned as you cursed society and he sensed it, expression changing, falling a little as he saw you look very out of place

× "Hey, hey, everything's gonna be fine!" he said

× he told YOU that

× instead of YOU telling HIM those words;;; you almost burst into ugly crying, forgetting about everything else, your minuscule problems or shame or whatever and just nodded at him

× "Would you like to come home with me, Kirishima?" you said, ignoring the happy clapping the old lady was doing, watching carefully how his expression, clear as water, switched from easy-going and reassuring to shocked then hopeful

× "I'd like that" he breathed out "—a lot."

× as you went out the lady was telling him it was a shame they separated his group of friends, something about being sent to different shelters, how he had to be a good boy, to behave, yada-yada and seriously;;; he was taking it so lightheartedly, as if he was so used to this behavior or even was thankful for it?

× it was starting to get annoying, specially when they gave you a collar for him, like no fucking thanks, but you'd take care of it later

× since it was very random and unplanned, you were making mental gymnastics to figure out what to get and what to do first, like clothes, food—

× journey home was pleasant as he walked close to you, asking you questions about yourself with a gentle smile on his features

× meanwhile people got out of both your ways because he was intimidating and big and large but his smile screamed sunshine

× all while he never really mentioned anything about himself

× you made a point to ask him if he was hungry, to grab a quick bite at any restaurant you could get at then go buy some clothes and necessities

× you were so casual and this guy was so shocked

× i swear, looks at you blinking stupidly then ✨beams✨

× spoiler alert; big boy was hungry

× it didn't matter honestly, just seeing him eat without a worry [even if everyone at the restaurant was wary of him but got a stink eye from you] was a relief

× since you answered his questions about you, you decided to ask some about him; you were going to be roomies soon so might as well get to know each other

× shocked again

× stops mid-bite when you ask him something and stares wide-eyed

× doesn't answer but you can see he wants to and you're confused??

× "did I—... did I say something wrong?" you'd press, scared you'd spook him away or something

× he just gulps down and looks ashamed

× casually tells you they've been told at the shelter owners don't care about them

× 🙃 say what now bby?

× he kinda starts apologizing because he understands why you wouldn't wanna know and you put your hand on his; kinda mutes him for a second

× "Kirishima, we're gonna live together and hopefully be friends in the process, right? I'd like to know about you, as much as you're willing to tell me"

× [ falls in love right then and there ]

× he's met humans before, many actually—

× even in the short weeks he's been at the shelter he's seen people come and go and none talked to him like you did

× stares with stars in his eyes and chuckles awkwardly, blush on his face

× "You're really nice, [Y/N]" he said before eagerly answering your questions; course, it leaves you confused lmfao but you brush past it

× okay! shopping next, long story short it was very hard to find hybrid clothes for his size so you pick to change human clothes and adjust them for him

× as you again mention this stuff casually he's just awestruck

× when you got home, bags in hand, you were explaining to him how you really didn't have much; you were working to get a promotion soon but for now you had a couch that could open up into a very comfy bed, which he assured you it was enough

× you were lowkey unsure if he fit it because like i mentioned, big boi is big

× he does! so that's a relief but you started considering giving him your bed; you mostly fell asleep on the couch anyway and to be fair, it was really comfortable and you mention it as he looks around

× his head snaps at you, wide eyed, yet does not talk

× so you ramble bc that's something fun to do! "I mean I went to the shelter without a plan and uh, I want you to feel as comfortable as possible and maybe the bed is a better fit and—"

× Kirishima Eijirou sees: 💕💞💕💞💕💞💕

× has never been treated like this, like he's an... equal... something he'll take months to share with you, but we're getting ahead of ourselves

× the thing is this boy will fall pretty hard pretty fast, but will definitely take time to make a move

× bc he is respectful

× so he thanks you for the offer and tells you it's probably the best place he slept in all his life

× can your heart stop breaking for him? i mean it's a good couch but it's no luxury hotel bed???

× [ we need to pause, OP made herself sad ]

× ok, so he's really helpful around the house, and he knows how to cook!

× takes no time to talk about his friends, special his best friend that cooked for everyone at the fighting ring and forced them all to help and that's how he was pretty decent at cooking himself

× wasn't the best though, but followed instructions like a boss

× he lives for your compliments

× literally his tail wiggles with no shame

× seriously;; tell him he did a good job even at the dumbest thing and—

× puffs chest

× wiggle-wiggle

× "Thanks!"

× 🥺💕💞 make him stop, he's so cute

× did i mention he has like floppy black ears? Omg his earsssssssssshnnngggggggggg

× because they move whenever he walks and they're mesmerizing

× and one day that you're observing them for science [not because your heart was like 💘pom-pom💘] you noticed his roots

× remember when your heart broke for him? hah, have some more because as you asked him, he started telling you that he was pushed into dying his hair red for the spectacle, diversity and what-not

× reassured you he grew to love it now, being part of who he is

× also gets a little bit shy when adding he wouldn't want to change the color in hopes of finding his friends someday and for him to be easily recognizable

× you bought him hair dye that same day

× WHICH! apart from gaining extra 🥺💕💞 from him, it created a nice routine between you two!!

× you offered to dye his hair and it was such a great time; he made you laugh, conversation going just as easy whenever you talked, you got to know each other a little bit more and—

× heh

× at the end, after applying all the red hair dye, you massaged his scalp gently

× guess who melts in your hands? yes, giant ass dog-man melts into a puddle under your hands and it's the cutest fucking thing you've ever seen

× I'm serious, he sighs and leans into your gloved hands with zero [0] shame, eyes closed and peaceful expression on his features apart from a small smile

× you tease him and he laughs it off, but promise him you'd give him head scratches when he was finished with the dye, washed off and hair dry

× and you better deliver

× "Don't think I forgot!" he'd say as he'd hop on his make-shift bed in the living room by your side, tail moving from side to side

× as you start playing with his locks, he falls into your lap and starts snoring

× move an inch and he opens his eyes to look at you confused

× puppy eyes questioning you if you're leaving 🥺

× yep, you fall asleep together

× you point out to yourself that those puppy eyes will be the death of you

× he's a touchy guy, okay? since he's been touchy with you from the very start you never questioned it, even read on the internet that many hybrids descended from house pets need physical affection, like hugs, pats, scratches, all the bag, so it wasn't a big deal for you

× except it was a big deal because he's been around for a month and you're already catching feelings and that's bad because you did not bring him there to fall for him but to help him start a new life and—

× oh my god, what if he thought you were one of those people from the horror stories about hybrid adoption that only wanted them for one thing—

× no, no, no, nO, NO.

× anxiety was getting to you as the guilt of catching feelings for him, plus the fact that he was financially dependant on you for the time which would've made it even worse if he found out, PLUS he comes from such a rough life, he definitely needs a break and doesn't need his first human friend in forever to be a piece of;;;

× Kiri catches on this really constant and increasing feeling of anxiety; he starts to send you worried glances but doesn't know how to proceed

× in such a soft voice he asks if you're okay, if something is on your mind

× and since you weren't sharing anything but acted as if everything was alright even when he felt you lied, Kiri started to get worried too

× why were you anxious? why weren't you talking to him about it?

× oh, god, was he a burden? because he felt like one;;; did you want him out? he felt like an extra weight for you and wanted to do something about it but maybe you got sick of him? he felt unmanly...

× the fact that he knew he cared about you as more than just a friend made him even more anxious and it didn't help that whenever he touched you he heard your breath hitch or your heart beating louder; he got his hopes up then down because

× you smelled like people; people he didn't know, people he wanted to know because he needed to know why did you smell like them? were they a treat? were they potential partners? he really did not want to ask bc Kirishima felt like it wasn't his place to know

× as tension grew in the house you decided to gift him a new phone, ready to give him some news that reached your ears

× it seems Kiri himself liked to do sports and mainly jog to keep himself active and he's started to pass by the local dog-park to play with the dogs

× imagine your surprise when a few neighbors asked you if he'd be willing to train their dogs bc he's been teaching them stuff like once a week and the dogs listened

× big time dog whisperer; he says "Sit" to one dog and all dogs in the neighborhood sit too, you get me?

× so you said it would be nice for him to have his own money; not like you didn't help him without care, but you saw his face every time you bought something for him and really felt like he needed some real independence

× he's in ✨awe✨ because you came up with clients already that were very eager for dog training sessions, which he loved??? and suggested hours, wages??????

× and you gave him this new phone to help him with it if he's interested too?

× "Well, the normal price on the internet around the area is—"

× "[Y/N]."

× "Hmm?"

× "You're really amazing, you know that, right?" he'd have his lips curled into a sweet smile

× which makes your heart go crazy and this man notices how you get flustered

× loves it

× get ready for compliments; a lot of compliments just expecting your sweet flustered reactions

× he's slow at realizing your feelings for him because he beats himself down and seems himself as less of a man but tests the waters nonetheless and a d o r e s every time you struggle to thank him for said compliments and don't know how to continue functioning

× catches on and gets his hopes up

× and so you do

× listen, this is hilarious because you're both dumb idiots and want to be respectful towards the other meanwhile he hugs you tighter and for a little bit too long, loving how you melt into him, kisses you on the cheek and sees you get all flustered, looks at you like you're the only one to ever matter until you stop talking, turning everything into a giant mess of silence until you both grin at each other???? I'm getting second-hand embarrassment, just kiss???????

× and it happened with an accidental kiss

× you greeted him as he walked through the door, excited to tell him about your promotion, rambling about the take-out you ordered while he smiled at you

× and it started to be usual for you to greet him with a kiss on the cheek, right? just what normal roomies do, you know [mhmm~]

× he's taking his shoes off and knows the kiss is coming, but just before you press it on his cheek you whisper/squeal "I got the promotion!" to which he turns his head in surprise at you making your lips press together by accident [mhhhmmmmm~~~]

× cue both of you apologizing, looking like a mess

× he's blushing

× you both loved it

× why are you standing so close to each other?

× why did he lick his lips in daze while staring at yours?

× which one of you was leaning in for another kiss?

× it didn't really matter because he's kissing you slowly, taking you into his arms like you were made of porcelain

× glues his body to yours and breathes you in, lips locked, neither believing it was real

× lifts you up in his arms with no difficulty and smiles, both inches separated from another; "Congratulations..." his breath would fan over your face;;;;

× yeah, okay, he takes no time to confess, resulting in a mess of manly words skdjekldj you guys talked that whole night while cuddling and stealing kisses, you on his lap

× [ his nose brushing your neck; he loves your scent omg ]

× it becomes official pretty much instantly and then all your worries wash away

× all the anxiety, all the stress and overthinking, they've all been sorted out in one night and trust me, afterwards this man is pure honesty and loyalty

× he won't hesitate to talk to you about anything and will be such a patient sweetheart with you, listening to every word you say without judgment

× loves cheesy stuff? as in the most cliché stuff seen in movies? that's his shit right there; whenever you two see each other after some time apart [sometimes 5 minutes apart] he'd pick you in his arms and spin you around, then expect you to kiss him

× if you don't, i will skfjdkfk step aside 👀

× skin contact; please, touch him

× if you're not he sends you those famous puppy eyes and we all know they're killer

× sighs, happy to hold you tight against him, engulfing you into his big frame; yeah, you're where you belong, in his arms.

× everyone in the neighborhood loves him; it's ridiculous, seriously, because you find out he helped around all the time when you were at work and gained everyone's love

× makes an instagram account to teach people how to train their dog and becomes an internet sensation, a small celebrity

× also bc he's hot and sometimes posts working out pics

× skdksjs imagine this: makes dinner for both of you, lits up some candles, goes all in, then fucking posts it on ig saying "waiting for my baby to come home #surprise" forgetting you can see it lmfao

× you see the story on your way home and 🥺💞 "ye i love his oblivious ass"

× soft gasps when you tell him after dinner

× has the audacity to be surprised, like babe????

× Kaminari finds him through social media and this baby cries in relief for a good half an hour

× both team up to find all the gang

× guess who talks praises about you all the time? mhm, this guy right here is proud to have you

× and Denki has to deal with it;

× anywho! want to break him for good? tell him you love him for the first time

× GETS. SO. EXCITED. AND. EMOTIONAL.

× but forgets how to speak

× finds his words to say it back after staring at you entranced, grinning like an idiot, taking you in his arms and giving you a bone crushing hug while shaking in place

× he's never felt this loved and adores every second of it

× you're like a drug and he's deep gone, man

× tells you he loves you every single day

[dakotazoidstan]

heres camp counselor au things

(if they dont make sense sorry i was a camp counselor for 4 of my formative teen years so now my brain is mush and i can’t comprehend this didnt happen to others <3 pls ask tho if u have questions i love talking abt it)

- these arent (all) ships, these are the counselor pairs i made (at my camp they changed thru the summer but these sets are soooo fun to me) and the age groups i see them with (also something that changed irl but again, the mental image)

- shy 13 year olds? meet gwen & leshawna. such cool vibes on both of them that mix so well and the girls love them. gwen was very hesitant abt the job but ends up liking it a lot bc all the withdrawn/artsy campers that claim they would rather be elsewhere actually loooove her. and leshawna is so good at getting the cabins hype for activities. and ofc they r besties and mesh rly well together & are great leaders for the kids yada yada <3

- justin (gay man) loves hanging out with katie (bi) & sadie (lesbian) and doesnt mind letting their two cabins hang while they gossip, leaving cody to wrangle the cabins.. poorly. they like him bc hes dorky & funny but they dont rly listen to him </3

- when jo first saw her cabin assignment she literally almost quit but she actually.. ends up liking it. the little girls love her intensity and how shes strong enough to hold like two of them by each arm. they ask staci lots of questions & she loves answering them while they braid her hair.. jo becomes very protective of staci. decides nobody else is allowed to think shes annoying

- the courtney/izzy/cody/lightning brot4? yeah they were actually all campers And cits together! so theyre a very Fun & Known group of counselors. they end up in so many skits and songs at every campfire bc kids love to see them. lightning & courtney know theyre popular, cody wont admit it (humble king), izzy doesnt care

- duncan thought he would hate the job as well but he’s obviously a softy at heart and it grew on him fast. he expected kids to be scared of him & his tats/piercings/hair but he forgot: 11 year old boys think that shit is so cool. hes lowkey banned from being a teen counselor tho bc he let them get away with too many pranks, which is why the head counselors paired him with brick. at first he thinks brick is a square but they become friends and brick is more chill than duncan thinks so they have fun :)

- 15 year old boys. love. owen. hes fuckin hilarious bc in the cabin he lets them swear a bit and hes really loud and aaaaalways has snacks to share and loves to party. always lets the cabin make smores at night. super duper friendly & great at bringing shy kids out of their shells.

- sierra & mike are in the horse club!!! they love horseback riding <333

- chris is the camp director, obviously. don rr is head male counselor and blainely is head female counselor. chef chef.

- honorable mentions: rock, spud, and the step brothers are on program staff, which is basically heavy work/set up/clean up/fire building/other behind the scenes stuff. they arent counselors with kids but sometimes help run activities and kids looove them bc theyre so cool. rock actually is a cabin counselor sometimes when there isnt enough male staff bc he likes it but the others dont actually like kids enough for it.

- geoff, bridgette, brody, justin, alejandro, katie, jo, tyler, brick, jasmine, eva, & lightning are lifeguards :)

- dawn looooves stargazing and telling campers about the constellations and their astrology charts

[yougotthat-write]

this has been in my head for days but like a fic where rafael barba (law & order: svu) and nevada ramirez (trouble in the heights) were twins who were separated really young bc their parents divorced and i needed to get this out of my brain. there's probably spelling errors and stuff.

so, rafael grew up with their mother - who was nice, loved him, and gave him the drive to pursue his career, and became a force to be reckoned with in and outside a courtroom. nevada grew up with their father - he was abusive emotionally, physically, mentally yada yada. nevada ran away when he was like sixteen, changed his name, started a new life for himself in washington heights doing bad boy tingz.

anyway, flash forward to you being the newbie on the svu team, meeting everyone and oh, who is that cutie in the suit and constant scowl on his face? barba starts to like you, you like barba. sonny is screaming "when is the wedding?!" and amanda is teaching jesse how to hold a fancy pillow that holds the rings. this annoys you and barba but also, are they wrong?? no.

but before we can get to all the cute relationship things and marriage, we're at the chest aching pining stage, and a case comes into svu where women were being assaulted/raped. the rapist slipped up one night and left dna at the crime scene or something. warner gives you the results and the guy is in the system and it's learned he's part of a gang (nevada's obvi)

so you and nick make the trip up to washington heights (shout out to the in the heights movie and soundtrack that i can't get out of my head!!) and you start asking around about the perp. you and nick find him but he bolts. you follow him to a warehouse or something. idk how you and nick meet nevada, maybe you walk upon one of his deals or something?? idk but it results in a shootout.

bullets flying around, shouting, the whole nine yards. men scrambling into large black suvs but you and nick are ok until a window rolls down in one of the suvs and it stops you in your tracks. a hand starts to extend through the window, you don't hear nick yelling at you to take cover, and you don't feel the bullets hitting your vest until your on the ground and looking up at the sky.

was that? no. it can't be. but you knew those eyes anywhere.

then you feel the impact, the pain that makes you suck in a hard breath and makes you feel like you're suffocating. you start to groan, tears pricking your eyes as nick comes into view. he has a phone to his ear, his lips moving but you can't hear the words because you let out a scream. nick is trying to tell you that the bullets only hit your vest but you can't hear or feel anything other than the pain.

you're rushed to bellevue. you have a broken rib, bruising, your head hurts like hell from the concrete. nick rode with you to the hospital. olivia is the first to arrive, eyes glassy with anger and sympathy. her voice croaks out, "who did this?" nick goes into detail about the gang they encountered. he didn't see the face of your shooter though. fin, amanda, and sonny file in.

amanda tries to joke. fin offers a shrug of "it could be worse." and sonny says that his ma is making cannolis for you. they all stand around your hospital bed, giving looks of sympathy, trying to figure out who these people are and who shot you.

the last to roll in with a knock on the door is barba. you didn't see him yet because the wall of people around you hasn't parted. his hair looks disheveled. he isn't wearing a suit jacket. he's slightly out of breath and amanda quips, "did you run here, barba?" you feel nauseous. sonny gives a lopsided smile, "you look rough." barba doesn't quip back. he parts the sea of people and when you look up at him from your bed, you let out a scream.

the room is hectic. everyone's eyes widen, nick lays a hand on your shoulder. olivia tries to soothe you with words. fin takes a step back towards the door, asking for a nurse. barba steps closer to you and that's when you start to slide away from him. your chest hurts when you try to sit up, nick and olivia try to push you back down into bed. amanda watches you quietly.

rafael says your name and you turn to look at him, eyes teary. he watches the tears slide down your face and you look him in those green eyes that you would know anywhere and whisper shakily, "you shot me."

while nick has never been a part of the barba fanclub, even he is taken aback by the accusation. fin makes a 'this girl crazy' face, amanda looks between you and barba, sonny's mouth is open like a fish, and olivia is speechless. a nurse comes in and asks what's wrong. amanda asks what drugs you've been given. you haven't been given anything that would make you this delusional.

the look in your eyes - the fear - made rafael step back. now he was the one with the ache in his chest. he did what? you're babbling like a baby, tears falling onto your hospital gown, body trembling. every detective in the room knows who you are. they know you're a strong person, an honest person, a fighter. but they also know barba. a man with a quick mouth, snarky looks, and a library of law stuffed into his brain. he was a fighter. he was honest. it's why the two of you seemed to be hitting off so well.

but accusing him of shooting you? everyone thought you lost your marbles and rafael looked like he had just been shot instead.

everyone started bombarding nick with questions. what did he see? who was there? where did they go? nick told everyone what happened again but paused. "we saw the window roll down... and uh," he looked over at you for a moment. "i told her to take cover. i ducked away and when i looked at her... she had this look on her face." nick's gaze flickered over to rafael. "she looked like she knew the person and she just froze."

rafael swallowed the bile in his throat. "you can't be serious-"

"where did you come from counselor?" nick bristled and rafael's gaze hardened at the fellow spanish man. olivia put her hands up between the two men who stood on opposite sides of your bed.

***

aaaaand that's all i have. if a fic would ever be written about this, it would be soooo long, holy crap. anyway, can someone else write it for me??? i have $6 in tips that i made last night and it has your name on it if you do this for me lolol

[bensonsballerz]

hello tumblr, im going to list down all my taichi fujisaki headcanons, including backstory stuff and post thh stuff! he’s one of my top three fave danganronpa characters ;w; hope yall enjoy!!

BACKSTORY + UP UNTIL UDG

taichi grew up an only child and had both parents in his life. the first couple years of his life (up until maybe 5th grade) were good! they cared for him and loved him, but things began to go downhill

taichis father is a traditional person (man has to be strong yada yada yada) but taichi wasnt turning out like that. thus, his father began to resent him. not only that, but his parents began to get busy and start working more and more, ultimately neglecting him in the process

taichi was bullied and didnt have many friends or none at all both in middle and high school. he was shy, nerdy, fidgety, timid, etc

in high school he was still all these things, but he also began to become more angry, depressed, and extremely anxious. to curb this, he began smoking cigarettes

around this time tho, in high school (or college), he meets takaaki ishimaru and hiroko hagakure. they all become good friends

in college, he was still struggling with bad anxiety and his smoking habits. fortunately he wasnt bullied very much anymore

he explored his sexuality his first year too, and pushes away the realization he is bisexual with a female preference

later on, he meets his future wife whose name i havent picked out. im thinking chiaki tho, cuz it’d be cute

she helps him overcome his smoking problem and helps him be less anxious

things are looking up! but then some bombshells drop: his father has died from cancer, and his fiance (or wife, id like to think he proposed in college too!) is pregnant

of course its scary and nervewracking, but fortunately its their last year of university, and they overcome it together. soon, they have their first and only child, the beloved chihiro fujisaki!

taichi is a very good and loving parent. he swears up and down to never be like his parents, and to make sure chihiro is loved and knows that they are loved

however, he can be very nervous and cautious. if overwhelmed he freezes up, which isnt good for a parent really especially for a baby (his wife loves him but can get frustrated at this)

it breaks his heart when he sees chihiro getting bullied. it hits home. he tries to encourage them not to let the bullies get to them (although taichi is still dealing with the internalized idea that he must be a strong man with no feelings)

when chihiro becomes a woman, taichi is a bit confused and upset. whether its with the headcanon of chihiro being transfem or the story of them doing it to escape bullying, taichi feels guilty because he sees chihiro doing this solely to escape the bullying. in taichi’s eyes, he sees it as changing yourself to be more palatable to the bullies

however, after doing some research and thinking about it, he later on accepts chihiros wishes because he just wants them to be happy. he does his best to be supportive and understanding!

when chihiro gets accepted into hopes peak, oh my god he is so proud and so happy for them!! (and maybe a bit jealous too since he supposedly wasnt good enough in high school)

he misses them while they are at school (id assume they have dorms) and he tries to be there and chat whenever he can, embarrassing chihiro (taichi doesnt mind, he’s actually kinda glad because its normal behavior for a teen)

taichi loves their friends too! he was a bit wary of mondo and leon but came to appreciate them. he’s also super stoked kiyotaka and chihiro are bonding! (bc taka is takaaki’s kid)

soon, though, the tragedy began to bubble up. taichi was simply walking to work (or maybe getting in his car) one day when he was kidnapped, supposedly taken to the same apartment complex as komaru. he’s completely terrified and is worried sick about chihiro and his wife, since he has no ideas about their whereabouts. he’s even too afraid to cause a ruckus or try to escape, out of fear of being hurt or killed. he mulls over the last thing he said to chihiro and his wife over and over, just wishing he could have said more and hoping they’re alive…

aaand thats about it for the backstory portion! im getting tired, but im not gonna stop here!! ill post soon what happened after his injury, reacting to chihiros death, etc

i hope you guys liked it!! sorry its such a long post tho, i might break it up later

[autumn-foxfire]

Seen too many people say Tomie was a good mom because "she still loved him!" "she got him that plushie!" "she gave him that letter!" And I'm trying so hard not to use the "yeah but it squicks me out bc she reminds me of my mom esp when people write meta explaining her" card bc I know you're not supposed to project on fictional characters like that, yada yada can't be a hypocrite with what we say to villain stans.

(+) but its just so unhealthy. I hate seeing Hawks feel guilty about "turning his back on her" and "not saving her" when he's been expected to since he was born. And he's not obliged to care about abusive or toxic parents. And who tf says he didn't save her, ahem. She should take some responsibility herself. He literally went through all that training and saved her from poverty. Being proud of him doesn't mean much when she was the one asking why he was even born or what good was he

(+) until money came knocking in the form of the Hpsc. And look, I get it. Not all bad parents will be on "be utter crap" mode 24/7, there's gonna be cooldown periods where they're semi-decent. And it shouldn't erase the hurt, it doesn't make all the bad times "okay" all of a sudden. But I think it hurts because Hawks is so forgiving. He doesn't mind. That one moment does wonders to make her a more preferable parent to him

(+) even tho I think her true colors would be right back to how she was before without that fancy house and her child bringing in all these luxuries. "Let's hope you grow up as strong as this guy." Doesn't feel as sweet to me, I'm sorry. Maybe she means it? Hori always sprinkles in good and bad traits. It's realistic and complex, but I need to think it over more. My feelings keep changing about this line.

(+) Rn I'm stuck on "it's just a comment, it was before she presumably got worse, anyone could say that to their child but is it hope out of care or hope bc anything else would make Keigo so pointless?" Still. Doesn't. Erase. How. She. Hurt. Him. I'll respect Hawks's feelings about this, but I don't think its healthy for him to feel guilty like this. Give him a better family please, its obvious his sense of self-worth came from her.

I understand how you feel Nonnie and I think on this matter, it comes down more to personal feelings rather than hard facts.

For me, I agree with your view that Tomie wasn’t a good mother. She was neglective to him at the worst and verbally abusive to him too and has probably been the root to many of Hawks self-esteem issues that we’ve seen him express in adulthood.

I think Tomie’s feeling for Hawks were complicated because she was an abused and mentally ill woman. Hawks was clearly an unwanted child (...and damn does that hurt to write) whose birth caused issues for her and her relationship with his bastard father and we see this expressed many times in the chapter (with both parents berating him for being born like he had any choice in that matter).

However, her going out to buy him the Endeavor plushie and going against the rules set by their abuser to do so also shows us that she does care about Hawks, even if a little. Sure Hawks might have excused it as “to shut him up” but it takes more then just that to go against an abuser and her comment to Hawks about hoping he grew up to be as strong as Endeavor also shows us she cares about him.

Tomie may have loved Hawks but it requires more then just love to be a good mother. I’d argue that Tomie was a bad parent towards Hawks and her treatment towards him shouldn’t just be brushed off because she was caring at times.

Her running away from her problems again, putting herself above the life of her son, shows us that she’s not a good parent, in my opinion. Just like how she put her child at risk by making him homeless, she put him at risk once again and can’t even bring herself to apologise to him for doing so. She’s not ready to face her problems and if she keeps running, I don’t think she ever will be.

Hearing Hawks blame himself for not “saving” his mother hurt me too because it should never be the obligation of the children to save their parents, especially ones who have hurt them in the past and he’s done plenty for her to begin with. However I think (and hope) this was just to showcase to us more of Hawks more negative traits where he tries to blame himself for everything that goes wrong (like he did when the League joined up with the MLA and formed the PLF).

I hope someone tells Hawks there is nothing wrong with cutting ties with someone who has hurt you too much and you don’t have to “save” them at the expense of yourself just because you’re a good person. I don’t want him to blame himself for Tomie anymore.

...Hawks past hurts me so much because it’s such a complicated situation where he was failed by both his parents T-T