#because i just assumed that it Wasn’t Allowed™️

[napping-sapphic]

bad news is that im stuck in another one of my random periods of insomnia but GOOD NEWS is that the recent update dragged me by the throat back into being a lesbian in stardew valley so i have something to occupy all my awake time at the very least

[hiddentrails7]

Severa: Sooo, did you kiss Laurent?

Gerome: No, the moment wasn’t right. Look, this man could actually be my future husband. I want our first kiss to be amazing.

Severa: Awe, that’s so sweet. So you chickened out like a little bitch?

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Lucina: The next person to say ‘weird flex but okay’ is getting a kick to the shin.

Owain: *Gives Laurent the kicked puppy look™️*

Laurent: *Sigh*

Laurent: Preposterous boast, but alas.

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Ricken: You're the most jealous guy I know.

Henry, immediately: You know other guys?

Ricken:

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Frederick: It’s beautiful out here.

Libra: And quiet.

Frederick: Too quiet.

Libra: ...Did we lose someone?

[Cuts to Chrom with a bear in a headlock, Vaike running to join him]

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Basilio: You treat an outside wound with rubbing alcohol. You treat an inside wound with drinking alcohol. Basic science.

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Sumia: I'm usually that person who has no idea what's going on.

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Lissa: Pose as a team because SHIT JUST GOT REAL!

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Frederick, to Henry: If the thought of something makes any of you giggle for longer than 15 seconds, you are to assume you’re not allowed to do it.

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Gaius: But when all hope seemed lost, I had an epiphany!

Gaius earlier: I'm going to throw myself into the sea.

[aroaceconfessions]

Okay so: I completely agree with the idea that you can be young and be asexual. You don’t have to wait and find out, don’t have to just assume “late bloomer” till you have Proof™️

But I also want to say this, more so for myself at a young age, who originally did say they were ace because the concept of sex disgusted them, because I was really, really young. I forced myself to be ace, in a way. Because I thought that if I thought the slightest bit about sex, or sexual attraction, then I couldn’t be ace, and I was gross and disgusting and would have sex and I didn’t want that so why in the world would I think about it when I could just stay where I was?

I refused to let myself confront that for a while. It ate away at me, and I felt so, so guilty for it. I felt like I was misrepresented every asexual person ever, and was a dirty, gross, liar.

So I stopped using the ace label, for a while. And it was a relief. There wasn’t that guilt. I let myself confront the concept of sex, and what attraction was to me. I didn’t force myself to shy away from it.

I am asexual, to be clear. I went back to the label, with a better understanding of myself, and how exactly it all worked in my head. I’m not repulsed by sex, and that’s okay. I never want to have sex, and that’s okay too.

You don’t have to decide on one thing, and it’s okay if you’re not exactly who you thought you were at the beginning. I went through a small hell and back figuring this out, and I definitely haven’t even had the worst of it. Allow yourself to figure yourself out, is all I’m trying to say, I guess.

[vestrabishops]

Random things that came from being a sheltered child with enough introspection to come to hilarious conclusions:

My mom was pretty strict about TV shows I could watch when I was little, but I managed to watch a LOT of That 70s Show reruns behind her back. I didn’t risk this with any other show I wasn’t allowed to watch aside from the occasional episode of Billy and Mandy when I knew she wouldn’t come in, but I was willing to risk it all for this one because my 9 year old brain was (as my 24 year old brain is) crazy hyperfixated on the 70s, and seeing references to Gerald Ford and disco on TV gave me unparelled levels of dopamine. Despite this, I did not at the time, know what weed was. I don’t know when I finally made the connection that the circle was them getting high as shit, but I spent years as a child thinking that a main aspect of the show was just sometimes they would sit in a circle and be really silly and people in the 70s just did that. When I told my bf this story he asked what I thought all the smoke was and 1) both my parents smoke so I didn’t really associate it with Drugs™️ and also 2) there were so many getting crap past the radar references to smoke filled hippie vans in kids cartoons I honestly just thought fog machines where really popular in that time period.

My mom used to watch The Oprah Winfrey Show every single day, so when I didn’t have school, I would help my mom clean the living room and watch Oprah with her. One episode she had on a doctor who quizzed the audience on how much people knew about health. There was one part where she brought up sexual health and my mom fastforwarded through it and told me not to look. The only thing I saw was the phrase “how often should you have sex” and I racked my brain trying to figure out what it meant. The only thing I knew was that sex meant if you were a boy or a girl, so I eventually came to the conclusion that “having sex” meant changing from a boy to a girl or vice versa like certain fish could do. I was slightly confused that humans could do this and no one ever told me, but I assumed it was something you only learned when you’re older and my mom would tell me when she thought I was ready. Anyways I’m nonbinary now, and I blame Oprah.

My parents are both against organized religion due to their own religious trauma, but my grandma is a very devout biblical scholar, so they decided when we visited her for the holidays, I should go to the Christmas service with her to make her happy. This of course, lead to me being talked at for hours as if I knew anything about Christianity beyond vague cultural osmosis. Honestly I didn’t find it overly confusing, but I did assume that when the priest said Jesus was born in Bethlehem, that they where talking about Bethlehem, Pennsylvania and came to the conclusion that my grandma loved Jesus so much because he was born so close to where she lived and felt a connection to him because of it. Also I had zero frame of reference for when Jesus was born, and when the angel told Mary and Joseph to follow the north star, I thought that he got the idea from the underground railroad.

[star-sworn]

do you ever think about how like. kairi was asleep for a year searching for sora’s heart and sora was asleep on that couch (for a week? a year? however the time difference works in unreality) and reached out to kairi’s heart somehow (assuming it wasn’t just her subconscious creating an image of sora) like do you ever think about both of them being asleep at the same time for a significant period of time and their hearts connecting with one another across realities within their dreams. do you ever think about what a beautiful image that is

sweetie. sweaty. honey. I only think about this maaaybe once a day. And that's not that hyperbolic. I mean you really said it all--They are literally BONDED across the chasm of reality itself. We can all speculate whether it's from the paopu fruit (as I think) or just The Power of Love™️, but regardless it's beyond romantic. And it was when she needed him. She needed him, and he was there. Whenever she needs him, he never lets her down, literally using himself (projected on to her I guess?) as a shield. I have no hands here, so let me use yours, I'll give you my keyblade, I'll give you my strength. Even when I'm in unreality you are not allowed to mess with Kairi. How many times must I teach you this lesson old man?

I do think what you pointed out about it happening when they're both sleeping is really interesting. There is a wonderful symmetry to it, dreaming of each other, reaching for each other--in a world without you, i'll dream of you, right? It seems that's how Yozora reaches Sora too, and possibly riku, given the endings of Remind and kh3? some very weird jumbling of memory and dream going on here. It reminds me a bit of CoM, where Sora is put to sleep in order to unscramble his memories. The concepts of dream and memory and sleep are often found together in kh. once nomura puts you to sleep, no telling what weird shit's going to happen to you lol. oh the sweet sweet torment of kh mysteries.

And iirc from a nomura interview from after the trailer drop it seems Sora was asleep from the time between kh3/remind and this moment of waking in the kh4 trailer, and that he was asleep for seven days (because of course he was). So either a week in unreality is a year in kh time, or there's even zanier time shenanigans at play. It could just be a way to quickly handwave over the intervening time, so they might gloss over all of this, but I really do hope they'll show us or describe to us the MoM scene from Sora's POV (and also how/when he got changed into his new 'fit lol). I wrote that mini fic on the MoM scene because it's so fascinating to me. He just knew. She must have been calling out to him, and he knew. How did he know she needed him? How did he get to her? I have to lie facedown now.

The fact that Kairi thanked Sora at the end, to me at least, (and im not a sap nor am i biased in any way) says that it was actually Sora, not her own imagining of him. But it does present this interesting idea if it is some sort of self creation--that in a moment of weakness, again her own demons, when she needs strength and courage, when she feels she's not enough, she thinks of sora, and that gives her that courage and strength. I mean, who does she know that's defeated Xehanort? (If you can't get Sora himself, store-bought is fine).

Anyway, I actually rewatched the kh4 trailer a few days ago and I still clutched my chest when it first reveals Sora on the couch. I don't think I'll ever forget how I felt seeing him there, knowing he was (at least to some extent) alright, seeing him so altered and grown up, so far from all he's known. KH certainly isn't in Kansas anymore. Just think, what if Sora had just saved Kairi, right before that moment cuts in and he opens his eyes? A girl can dream.

answering this ask Maria (can I call you that? mutual level up?), you literally have me kicking my feet under my desk like a middle schooler after the big dance. this was good for my soul. Kh always makes sure there's something spicy even in the seemingly innocuous titles, and wow, MoM truly has a banger. A love banger. This is where I'm torn. Because a sokai reunion after returning from unreality would be oh so sweet. If either Sora or Kairi don't fall to the ground because their knees give out when they see one another, it won't be angsty enough for me. And you've discussed before, Kairi doesn't have to girlboss her way to Shibuya in order for kh4 to be satisfying, iirc. and Im with you on that. to me, she's as much 'home' to Sora as DI is, so it could be a very cathartic way to end kh4, similar to the end of kh2. But also, them reuniting in quadratum, then perhaps even teaming up? sweet dreams are made of this.

will i trim this down? no. should I have? probably. but im so happy I have a fellow new fan to enjoy the ride with. we both missed the hype for 3, but hot damn, we arguably picked the best time to become kh fans. Hope your finals are going well sweetie, and you have a wonderful Christmas. thank you for this gift in my tumblr stocking, it's always welcome.

[veneli]

Damien x Gavin Wedding HCs!

continuation of Damien x Gavin Relationship + Engagement HCs

This is going to be a VERY LONG POST. Bear with me and the newlyweds.

Planning Process!!

they are so in love your honour

They got to planning straight away!!!

Gavin was ecstatic and he was the one to tell the others that they were betrothed

They cried together that night and Lasko almost passed out from joy

Damien and Gavin chose their venue pretty easily, they found a nice part of a forest with a large clearing

Got a simple viney veranda so say their vows under plus a few dozen chairs and a long aisle carpet

Damien had strokes trying to choose his outfit

He is SO detailed and honestly he was more stressed about the wedding than he was the actual proposal and that was already stressful enough

They went to so many shops to look for suits (and dresses because gender norms can fuck off)

Gavin found his pick pretty easily since he knew exactly what he wanted to do

When he found the one he told Damien to go outside (he wasn’t allowed to see it until the First Look™️)

Damien eventually found his, took another few months tho lmao

Catering was planned enough for like, 50 people + dessert

Caelum and Freelancer made cupcakes for a surprise

Huxley was gonna get the flowers and vines and bouquets and decor

Freelancer was their photographer

Caelum? Flower boy of course, they got him a little crown and bracelet

All their parents were invited (except for Lasko’s)

Huxley’s moms were ecstatic and bought them so many gifts

Damien’s girlboss of a mother met up with them and promptly swept them both into a hug and whispered “i'm so proud of you both” and Damien found himself sobbing like he was 5 again into her shoulder

She was the wedding officiant (as a Department worker she decided she could do it) and Damien was delighted

Assuming this is after everyone met everyone in S2FL, the Shaw pack and the Solaires were invited!!

They even chose to have the ceremony on the Winter Solstice so most people who were invited would be having a good time

They both run hot (ones a fire elemental and the other is an incubus what did you expect) so the cold didn’t bother them in the least, plus if Dahlia is where I think it is (in/near Arizona US) it shouldn’t be too cold in the winter

The Big Day (pre-ceremony)

They weren’t allowed to sleep together the night before (to save some energy for the big day, said Lasko)

Damien and his mom slept over at Lasko’s house for the night at his offer

Planned to have their ceremony after sunset so the vamps could come out and watch

Everyone arrived before sundown though, they all wanted in on the final touches and congratulate (congr-congrao-congrtu- sorry Caelum) them and leave messages

The two lovers had their own separate rooms in the house to get ready and were NOT allowed to see each other that day until the First Look ™️

Damien was close to just swatting Lasko away and barging into Gavin’s room

Freelancer and Hux’s moms were in charge of keeping Gavin grounded

The number of times they had to keep redoing his makeup because he would not stop crying

Damien had his mom and Lasko to help him with his prep

Both have self control issues and they could hear each other complaining to their prep team they wanted to see the other

That kinda comforted them both and eventually settled down

The First Look ™️

Right at sunset they planned to have their First Look

They did this in their front yard (all the neighbours were watching cause how could they have NOT heard of this from the ruckus they made)

Damien was waiting for Gavin, his back turned to the front door with his mom and Lasko making sure he didn’t peek

At 5 on the dot Freelancer opens the door to let a blindfolded Gavin out

He was guided down the short path by FL and Hux’s ma

He tapped Damien on the shoulder and just grinned his stupidest, most loving, happiest grin he could muster (which wasn’t hard given their overwhelming joy)

Damien turned around and gasped so hard Lasko thought he was going to faint

Gavin wore this beautiful piece

Or this one, if he wore a dress (ignore the face)

Just the right amount of charming and elegant and plenty of sexy brought to the table

Damien LOVES the pink (and the way that the fabric wraps around his body too ugh)

Damien wore (either): it was all Gavin could do to keep his hands to himself

Gavin was living for the chain (suit)/the off the shoulder cut on the dress (mmmm shoulders)

They exchanged rings at the door for the ceremony and gave them to Damien’s Mum

After that they walked around as a pair greeting their guests and thanking everyone for their gifts

GOLDEN HOUR PHOTOSHOOT

They are SO hanging up every golden hour photo

The Ceremony

Processional started at 7pm, sun was completely down and the Solaires could join them

William Solaire was there, how fucking honoured are they

Gavin waited by the front for Damien to come down the isle so they could have a “reverse first look” kind of thing

Gavin was positively shaking at the front so Damien’s mum tried her best to calm her to-be-son-in-law down

Mom and son bonding moment <33

Damien would’ve loved for his mom to walk him down the aisle but she was marrying them so,,, he got his best man Lasko to do the honours

Lasko cried when he was offered the job

since the lovers' only parent is their officiant, it was Gavin and Damien's mum making the processional followed by Freelancer (man/maid/person of honour) and Huxley (Gavin's Best Man)

Caelum skipped behind them throwing petals and confetti

Gavin could not contain his emotions while he watched his groom come down the aisle, beautiful as ever and GLOWING

Damien had a surprise for Gavin

He was literally glowing

(Choose one!!!!!)

Fucking beautiful

The crowd was gasping at it

Even his mom was shocked /pos

He got to the arch and Gavin just took his hands automatically

Freelancer, Lasko, Hux, and David (!!!) all got up for readings!!! Lovely went up too, with Vincent and they told bad jokes to ease their nerves (they all met in the E&E Games)

“Don’t kiss yet, boys,” Damien’s mum had to remind them as they got the vows and rings ready

they both wrote their own vows (*sob*)

Gavin said his vows first

"I, Gavin, take you, Damien, as my lawfully wedded husband. When we first met, through our wonderful friend Freelancer, we hated each other. I was insufferable. Still am, but you love me this way. We grew to like each other more and more as we spent time together. Cooking, studying, laughing, hanging out, even arguing over who got to hold the popcorn bowl on movie nights. For the 3 years that we have been together, as a couple, I've experienced many firsts. A first "i love you", in the morning. A first hug while I was brushing up. A first genuine kiss, loaded with love and passion and longing, for more than just my figure. A first argument where I felt bad for making you upset, and a first apology for being wrong. The first time we talked about forever. I'd never think this day would come so soon, but if it's gonna be forever, the sooner, the better, right? You are firstly, thoughtful, secondly, serious, thirdly, caring, and how could I forget, patient. I love you because you brought me to new heights I'd never experienced. You kept me grounded while I was sure I was going completely mad about my feelings. You were there for me when I thought one could be forever, but turns out, was just another false alarm. You were there to study with me and explain all the things I didn't understand with the patience of a donkey. I'm not saying you are a donkey, but you are, an ass sometimes. I promise, I will let you hold the popcorn bowl when we watch shows, and i promise I'll go to bed early after a study session. I promise I'll love you for the rest of eternity, however long that may be. I love you."

Damien wasn't sure if he could start his vows because he was trying so hard not to sniff back his tears.

He got to it, eventually, accompanied by many other sniffs in the audience

"I, Damien, take you, Gavin, as my lawfully wedded husband. You are insufferable. But I love that about you, because it allowed me to open up and rest when I needed it. It allowed me to understand that there are other things in life to studying - friends, family, found family, and a never-explored realm of emotions - love. For the 3 years I've been with you, I have experienced a euphony of firsts and have been amazed at myself, at how much I had changed. I doubt my mum would even recognize me."

(she laughed)

"She still does, thankfully. But Gavin, thank you, for taking my hand - literally - and guiding me though a world I would have otherwise never dared step foot into. I love that you are daring, carefree, and off-the-fly, ready to do whatever you like in the moment, living out every minute, every second to its fullest potential. You've showed me the reins, and for the rest of my life, I'll need you to guide me. because however much I learn, there will always be more. Knowledge has no limits, and neither does my love for you. I promise I will cook pancakes for breakfast, and smother them in whipped cream and kisses."

Gavin's crying. Damien's crying. Damien's mum's crying. Lasko and Hux and Freelancer are crying. (Everyone is crying at this point including me, writing this)

Damien's mum brought out the rings they got and they slipped it on each other's hands

they both kissed the rings before putting it on

then they held hands and

here's the part y'all been waiting for

"You may now kiss your groom."

they help each other's face as they kissed

Damien had tears streaming down his face and Gavin wiped them away

"I love you."

"I love you too."

they turn to light their candle, which will be left to burn all night

Damien used his fire and Gavin just magicked flames out of nowhere

they joined hands and lit the wick

And they kept their hands linked, while walking back down the isle, their recessional following them back to their prep cabin to redo any makeup and clean up and make out for dinner while the guests enjoy cocktail hour

Dinner is served after cocktail hour

The Shaws and Solaires joined up and went for a quick dash in the woods before coming back to ride out their magic-induced high with a few drinks

Darlin was drunk after 3 champagnes (literally no tolerance at all smh)

Dinner was served in a bit, the newlyweds barely ate due to the utter inability to sit still from joy

Toasts brought more tears to their eyes

Grand Entrance and First Dance

You'd bet they're both great dancers (they've danced so many times without leaving room for jesus)

They liked to switch up the order in which they enter and surprise each other (it's so fucking cute i can't-)

So this time, Damien was the one waiting for Gavin to make his way to the dance floor

Gavin came in wearing another surprise

(they dropped so much money on this wedding it's insane)

(pick one) It's FOOKING BEAUTIFUL

Damien had to pick his jaw up from the ground

Gavin grinned at him

"may I have this dance?"

Damien forgot how to speak so he just nodded and took his hand

Damien led the dance, though, he knew exactly what he was doing with his husband

they danced to "Fallin' All In You" by Shawn Mendes (who chose the song remained a mystery, but a spectacular performance all the same)

After their dance they sat down for a break and the guests milled in for their thing with the DJ choosing more edgy songs to match the night mood

Asher and Babe dominated the dance floor

So did Vincent and Lovely

Freelancer led Caelum out to do a little jive of their own and Caelum was so happy (I am going to make myself cry writing all this and seeing the scene in my head)

The Bouquet Toss (plus a little incident laced with accidental slips)

its the blossoms, your honour

orchids for sexuality and fertility, thoughtfulness, beauty, and charm

purple lilies for pride, success, accomplishment, and dignity

and white roses for purity and a new start

they also opted for a garter throw because... it's Gavin. why wouldn't he go for it

Gavin had it hidden under his dress, just above his knee

Damien decided to be bold and accidentally reach a little too far up looking for the garter

Gavin flushed and raised his eyebrows at him and smirked

Damien got the garter, eventually

They tossed them both and...

Our Southern Vamp Mr. Sam Collins caught the bouquet

Darlin was now sober enough to flush a bright red (brighter than Damien's optic fibre wedding dress)

They all cheered and Sam gave the bouquet to a very-flushed-Darlin, which they promptly hid their hot face in

Lovely caught the garter and blushed red as a beet

Vincent cheered super loud and went in for a kiss

Asher and Milo were jumping on Darlin' asking when was the wedding (forgive them, it's the Solstice)

David and William were grinning so wide for their pack/progeny it scared Angel a little

Sweetheart decloaked behind the newlyweds and dumped the remainder of the flower petals over their heads

and they looked at each other in shock and the look in each other's eyes are just

perfect

they share one more kiss

and then it was cake time

Cake Cutting

Their cake was rolled out

it was a cake made out of the cupcakes that Freelancer and Caelum baked together

(no need for cutting and each person gets a cupcake to themselves)

so freaking cute!!! (i got this idea from my aunt's wedding, they didn't want to make a mess of the place with all the crumbs and icing while cutting so they got cupcakes instead)

Grand Exit

Freelancer gave them both sparklers and they ran out of the venue with them held over their heads, a trail of stars flickering behind them as they boarded their car and drove away

they waited near the venue to wait for the guests to leave and go back to thank the team

They had a rib crushing group hug (Huxley's stronger when he's emotional)

Caelum assured them that "the cleaning magic would be easy because I feel really good" and they just melted

they got the place cleaned and tidied in 30 minutes (oh, the perks of having magic)

Freelancer shooed them home and hugged them one last time for the night

"congrapulatons Damien and Gavin!!!" <3 bless Caelum

they said than you again and they both went home

needless to say they did not sleep at all that night (if anyone ends up writing After-Wedding Night tag me!! I will read but I will not write)

"I love you, Damien." "I love you more." "I love you most." "I win." "God damn it, Gavin. Competitive even in love?" "How could I have kept you by my side all this time if I didn't fight for it?" "You can turn anything and everything into cheesy lines, can't you?" "I can, and I will, and I love you. Kiss me?" "You don't even have to ask."

God dammit I love them so much TvT