#being shitty as fick

[candyskiez]

What gets me about Mogami arc is that it would've been so easy to say that Minori was being mind controlled and that she wasn't actually like that. That's what I was fully expecting to happen. But the fact that she IS like that is both way, way more interesting and also way more fitting with the themes. Like if they'd gone "Nobody is worthless and the idea that you are allowed to decide who lives and who dies or who is beyond redemption is fucked up. You do not decide other people's worth. You do not decide if people are capable of change." but then had Minori being actually really nice, that wouldn't have had nearly as much impact.

Because sometimes people are fucking awful! Sometimes people do horrible, fucked up things for selfish reasons that you would have every right to never forgive them for! And you still don't get to decide if they deserve to die for it, because you do not have the right to decide what someone's life is worth. Community means community for everyone, even people you despise. You can decide to never see someone again, like Mob did with Minori, but you do not get to decide if they should lose everything for it. Because that is a dangerous mindset to have.

And Minori actually realizing the consequences of what she was like and all she could say was sorry, knowing it wasn't nearly enough? That shit was devastating. She knew an apology wasn't nearly enough. But what else could she say? He just saved her life after she'd been horrible to him. And it's not about if Minori deserves forgiveness. It's about the fact it's better for her to be one more person trying to do good than for everyone she met to suddenly be grieving. It's about the fact that now one more person is trying to put good into the world, and might help more people, and might end up becoming a good person. It's not about if she deserves it. It's about the fact debating whether or not someone deserves forgiveness doesn't help. Pretty much everyone has someone who views them as not deserving to be saved, so the whole "punish everyone who does something bad" idea becomes even more dangerous when you take that into account.

I really like how MP100 handles it because it isn't about whether or not Minori deserved forgiveness, it's about the fact that the idea that there's a point where your life stops mattering because you've done enough shitty things is really messed up, and ultimately encourages people to stop trying to change at ALL (as we see in separation arc. God the way this story is structured is ridiculously good.) It's better for there to be one more person trying to do good than for yet another loss that will have massive collateral damage. It's better to trust that people can be good, even if you never want to see them again.

I feel like one of the reasons this arc gets me so hard is because it essentially shows Why someone would be pushed to behave like how we see Mob start to. Of course you'd stop holding back and being kind to people if you weren't given a reason to believe it'd work out. Of course you'd become jaded. Of course you'd turn out like that. It puts you in that situation and makes you *get it*, and goes "Horrible things will happen and it will make you feel like there's no point being good, because it will only blow up in your face. But doing that will only hurt more people. You will only become someone else's reason for giving up. Keep going. There are things that are worth trying again for." And I want to bite a wall over it.

I don't have the words to explain it right now but like. I also feel like if Mogami was a pure evil villain it wouldn't have felt as hopeless. I don't know how to explain it. I really want to explain it but I don't have the energy right now. Do you get what I mean. Help.

This is incoherent because I have had A Day, but. Mogami arc good. Have I mentioned Mogami Arc good yet. I love mogami arc guys .

[poison-note]

I hate having to turn tumblr live on and off ever 7 days!!!!

Gimmie a fucking off button you cowards!!!!!

[29121996]

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[slurpingnoise]

it is such a sad and lonely experience living alone. I have been in this shitty 1 bedroom with just my cat for one year now and I don't think I have ever felt so isolated from everyone

[blackhill2245]

You jokingly call billie eilish

Crack fick ngl, billie x platonic fem reader

You do not have permission to repost, copy or translate my work.

I sighed in boredom. It was the middle of the summer holidays, and I had shit to do.

I've done all my homework, who the fuck gives homework over the summer? Anyway I've finished all that, and I've finished all my personal projects and I've painted and re did my room... twice!.

So I sat there scrolling on Instagram falling asleep, despite it being 8pm. I see all my friends out having fun on holiday and I'm here in shitty ireland, like how dull can my life be?

I groan about to throw my phone across the room, again, when I get an idea. I giggle to myself and lay on my belly, fliping through my contacts, deciding to ring celebrities and see what happens. I click on Taylor Swift. I don't like her music, but like I don't care. Anyway, I try calling her, but it instantly declines, so I try again, and I get an automated response saying I reached my limit. I groan, flopping back on my back and decide to see if anybody posted on their story in the two seconds I was away.

I rush past all the boring shit before seeing billie eilish posting about her dog shark. Suddenly, I had a light bulb moment, and I pressed on her profile and pressed DMs, I pressed call and waited.

Just as the call was going to end, it answered, "i pause for a moment shocked before belting."

"BE MY, BE MY BABY! MY ONE AND ONLY BABY!" I stop singing, looking at the phone wide-eyed and red in the face. I looked like a mess, having just woken up my hair everywhere. My makeup was ruined because I didn't take it off before I napped.

"What the fuck" I hear a man say as billie laughs turning red. "Well?" I'm not gonna lie I was sitting myself.

"Yo! What the fuck!" She laughs rolling onto her side and sitting up showing her brother Fineas in the background who looked confused.

I take a deep breath about to start singing again before billie interrupts me, thankfully.

"Yo, whyd you call?" She asks, recovering from her laughing fit she moves to sit next to Fineas.

"Girl, I was bored," I whine, not moving from my awkward position, I was sitting up, but my face was smashed into my pillow.

"You're gonna get your makeup all over your pillow," fineas notes, I shrug. "This shit doesn't come off, it's like.... water proof, " I try to think, but I just give up in the end.

"Hey, where you from?" I hear some commotion on the other end as billie leaves speaking as she walks away coming back with her spider, or teranchula, same thing.

"Ireland," I roll my eyes, "get me away from hear." I drag out the sentence rolling off the bed, showing how much I hated it here. "Didn't expect you to answer." I sigh, head crooked arms splayed out legs looking like a dead spider.

She laughs to herself, handing her spider to fineas, who looked like he wanted to throw the thing across the room. "I don't usually, but what's the harm?" I look off screen "hello little man" I coo sitting up my dog rocky cokes into my room, I hear billie asking who I'm talking too so I flip the camera to show him off.

We ended up talking for an hour before I had to go for dinner, yes I have dinner at 9 Sue me.

I was sad to end the call, but the billie said, "Sad you have to leave, girl, what your um oh wait here." I raised a brow, not understanding what she meant, but then I get a notification that BIlly_boy2901 started following you, "hey is that you?" I laugh at the name, "yea can't have people knowing about my secret account you know?" I Humm "smart" I sigh saying goodnight before we ended the call, for some reason I wasn't really in shock which I thought I would be, she seemed so normal I don't know I thought she would be different but whatever.

That night, I had dinner and went to bed. I talked to billie in the morning despite it being so late in America that she stayed up to talk. I smiled to myself, thinking about how sweet she was.

Girls, my first fiction, ahhahaha anyway, hope you enjoy ❤️

[dragon-appreciator-fray]

*takes a deep breath*

I am writing some deeply uncomfortable and unpopular chapters.

Fray, surely you jest.

Venture below the break then, if you dare. Spoilers of varying intensity for chapters 17-21.

The next Patreon chapter revisit the dynamic of the very first chapter that presented this story in a gentle manner.

Astraea pries a sleeping Ayre from the grip of their loved ones and actively denies giving satisfying answers.

This is a cruelty that must be taken on faith.

Eventually, Ayre gets to poke holes in Astraea's framing. Astraea's friends were kinda shitty for the first year. If anything Ayre has made amazing progress.

Too much, progress.

Not hours after Ayre is beginning to terms with having a well balanced support network, their first most loyal supporter is revealing that she needs Ayre to give up on something they have committed to.

And the coercion that is meant to convince Ayre is that Astraea could arrange for Ayre to get a new body. An instant transition, framing it in such a way that Lenore would get her own too.

And then the Goddess adds her touches.

It is a weight that causes Ayre to panic, lash out, come to blows with Astraea.

And Ayre fucking gets it. Just a few touches and Ayre knows that the Goddess's promise is true. Imagine getting to feel whole and comfortable in a body again. And now it all feels wrong.

You could have everything arranged in such a way that you feeeel perfect. But you have to let a Goddess have her way with things like she knows what is best for you. It will be a perfect in her image.

Astraea ultimately breaks this off. Her Goddess is hurting Ayre in the ways Astraea spent months learning to avoid.

I decide to mercilessly cut the chapter here. Dividing it into "Bitter Hearts" & "And Broken Things"

As Astraea makes her last case for why Ayre should not be the 1 Vampire solution to preventing something genocidal in nature.

Logistically, Logically, and Emotionally Astraea makes her appeals that this is reckless and doomed to fail.

The chapter after this is dedicated to under no circumstances is Ayre allowed to be the hero. They get to learn that their place in the world is so very firmly tied to their role in the Imperial Core.

They don't share a language. Ayre's very existance and a lot of the equipment they carry is at the Cinder Blight's expense.

It's not a situation Ayre can walk into the situation be expected to resolve with any amount of grace or tact. The only way they can even engage with the Cinder Blights is to try and consume them.

And this has consequences.

The last planned chapter of the Full Moon chapters swaps to Ayre's headmate.

You get to see what it's like for Lenore to take a back seat. And that it has always been a conscious choice to do so.

She knows she is so much lesser for sitting in a dark room beyond senses for three years beyond the brief sharing of body when Ayre needs her.

The moment Ayre feeds on something with a stronger will, she knows she's going to lose out. And fuck if she hasn't taken so much of Ayre's guilt and twisted it into her own thing.

Imagine if you could give someone you love dysphoria and got to feel it whenever they drag you out to help them operate the body for necessary violence to survive.

I'd wanna bury myself in the depths of the mind too.

I've got no interest in trying to claim that my perspective is anything but one of someone who has grown up ficking blissfully ignorant and traumatized in the Imperial Core.

So the only thing the Cinder Blights teach Lenore by being added to the head space is how to be plural and how to fucking spitefully resist extermination at all costs.

Lenore's chapter starts out hopeless and just pushes deeper and deeper until she gets browbeated out of it. It doesn't paint her or Astraea in a great light.

All of these chapters are absolutely these characters backsliding into weaker positions to internalize some important lessons.

Nothing works out for Ayre. And yet they push through to make the best of it. They drag Astraea and Lenore kicking and screaming through their own moments of weakness.

And as the sun rises, Ayre's older siblings arrive.

They're not the comically evil and abusive villains Ayre makes them out to be.

Threnodias has an entire lesbian harem that rivals Ayre's polycule.

The new Nineteenth sibling is just starstruck by Ayre and has all the worse impulses of Ayre's youth but the intent of meaning well is... right there and hard for them to ignore.

I... won't defend Twelve too much. But one of the first things he is likely to do is actually help save the lives of some minor characters Ayre and Astraea couldn't protect after being weakened by being buried in conflicts both external and internal.

Even the deeply unlikable sibling is protecting a reader's potential investment in the cast.

And Twelve has their own dolls with problems that Ayre will inherit if they kill Twelve.

It's going to be a whoooooole mess of trying to accommodate people who are here to cause problems right before Ayre's equivalent to a wedding.

[charmsandtealeaves]

Just in case my review didn’t go through because ao3 is being strange tonight;

(Taylor swift voice)

ITS BEEN A LONG TIME COMMMINNGGG

literally sat down to watch a movie with my dad and he picked the hunger games so naturally i did not get any reading done and had to wait for the games to be over. I spent the entire time drooling over Peeta, as can be expected of me.

NOW LETS GET TO THE PETER I HATE.

last I saw he was gonna be late.

Ha! I’m a post and don’t know it.

“INSTINCTIVELY KISSING HER CHEEK” JAMES DAMN I WISH MORE HIT MEN INSTINCTIVELY KISSED ME ALDHAKAHDHAJS

Ah yes. Peter. Fuck that man. He’s late. Eat people. While you’re at it kill him with a knife the second he walks through that door.

FICK ME HE CAME WITH IFE CREMA AND BEER AND TOLD LIKY HE SAW TOO MANY PATIENTS?!?!

Hold me back imma murder this dude myself

Fucking HELL I hope Sirius beat Peter to a pulp offscreen alfhalajdhs

FIN

When I tell you I have had such a shitty day… this just made me feel so much better. ❤️

[luvkuvi]

as a victim of being groomed.. anon PLEASE get out of there, even if 14 and 16 are one year apart, it’s still highly inappropriate since 16 only has 2(?) more years until they’re an adult,,

if he is only talking about sexual stuff, please do not engage that with him..cause that can lead to nudes being sent and you never know if he’s a bad person and will save them (with or without consent) or send them to someone else…

please save yourself the trauma of that type of relationship,, im not entirely sure if this is a situation of grooming but it vey much could be, or could be leaning into it..I know that when I was groomed, I didn’t know much about it cause the guy was really sweet and stuff at first but after a little bit, he started being shitty and just,, yeahhh.. :’) I was 11 when I met him and he was 15–

side note— I had this friend that I almost dated,, and then after we “broke up” because I came out as trans, he went and DATED, actually dated a 12 year old at 16…. And tried to justify?? And then used me and my groomer as an excuse??? Like what thr fick?

🐾anon

to that anon pls read what 🐾 nonnie has to say! they gave very valid points on why you should really break up with that dude. i too had a bad experience with relationships at that age luckily i got out of it before it can spiral into something more.

[resident-gay-bitch]

Hey!

Not to be dramatic but I can't get the moment with the boys in the last chapter of Mommy's issues out of my head. I dunno why the whole situation makes me laugh that much. It's so good to see them together, teasing each other. Jeff and Grant being casually together. Wannabe fuckboy Gareth as I never imagined him and it's so freaking hilarious to me. Poor baby Eddie who doesn't keep anything from them even if it makes him an easy target for their mocking comments because he just trusts them. The whole thing is living rent free in my head for literaly no reason.

It's just a little, little part of the story. Dunno what's wrong with me, eh.

Love them boys so much. <3

I didn't want to get too much out of the main story with this badass reader under the coms. So here I am.

Thanks for reading this non-sens looool

oh my goodness this makes me genuinely so happy because i loooove them all too. like they’re just a little group of big idiots who are all alienated in this shitty town they’re stuck in and so they have come together so we’ll. they physically cannot keep a secret from one another, it is the most impossible thing in the world. they just trust eachother so much and love eachotjer wholeheartedly. like when jeff and grant came out, eddie and gareth were just like… “okay cool i guess, i we kinda figured, you two make googly eyes at eachother all the time.” and then when they told them they were dating g and e would just gone ballistic and started screaming with joy for them and then started bullying them for being gross and in love and pretend gagging over it and gareth bei

not a wanna be fuck boy is so silly and dumb and he’s really not good at it and is definitely NOT a fick boy but he thinks he has game because compared to the other three he does. and they all hype him up so much and tell him he’s a fuckin god with the ladies. and it gets to his little dumb head.

like they’re all so sweet and wonderful for eachother and they’ll be bestest friends forever, no matter what.

i love them so much.

[scarecrowscarecrow]

when i was six i rememnber m dad cfryon cryinf as je mowed the lawn. he foun d a r abbit,half rotted in the bust benreath waybes window. it stunk in the sun and looked up at us with clouded eyes. i asked my dad if rabbits went to eaven . he just sobbed,. i donr remenber dad ever being that upset even wharn mom died, he jist got cruel. drywall falls on my gead and the sun bears town and all i feel in my mputyh is ash and grit something bad happned that day. thers nothing good lefy.

my brother the rabbot, the fiers the lawn myself my father, scrying and crying and not moving to burty the damned dead. rabboysr have always beeen gentle crearires. why were we named stom them the aahses are too lloud and they fall into my ears, i feeel dead.i m not breathing my lunds are full of air i cant rememeber last sunday i acant eremnber past a camera lens i cant remember the last yime i smoked and it felt good i cant remember bing safet ibn bed with someone who trusted me as i amm an d not fot this. named aften small birds known fro shutting down easy prey easy chase but with no meat no skin in the game nothing i wlet her down i lost him fucj whi did i never see it sooner is this an attack is it erealapse itsbeeebn five ficking years sinec i last did this im hoing fucing backwards im hurting im sobbing the worst thisn is i mlike this im no nbetter rhan the insane things in the woods im going to svacre everyone maybe i want to.

did you know that the rabbit speciec Sylvilagus has 13 wild species? 13 days thirteen species was i reallt revereted back into my nuber my birtday my shitty fucking lucj. when i was six i rememnber m dad cfryon cryinf as je mowed the lawn. he foun d a r abbit,half rotted in the bust benreath waybes window. it stunk in the sun and looked up at us with clouded eyes. i asked my dad if rabbits went to eaven . he just sobbed,. i donr remenber dad ever bei

gonna go shave my head. brb.

[ive-given-up-the-bug-diet]

This is a big rant that probably makes no sense so please ignore it it's for my own personal gain

I hate how my phone decides it has urgent necessary software updates that only serve to make the interface more alien to me and make my phone slow as shit, I hate that the skip ad button on YouTube is tiny now & that now ADVERTS are called "sponsored videos" and just SLIPPED IN amongst the rest of what i watch. All this change and data harvesting in the name of progress and personalisation i don't get to see because the more I scroll the more my recommended is just people doing that stupid fucking sniperwolf face in a thumbnail for some bullshit i don't care about in a LITERAL FUCKING AD THAT IS ALMOST IDENTICAL TO A REGULAR VIDEO WHEN YOURE ON HORIZONTAL

Why are companies so against me being on horizontal? "oH iTs jUSt liKe tiKtOk" I DO NOT WANT YOU TO BE LIKE TIKTOK IF I WANT TIKTOK ILL GO TO TIKTOK GOD FUCKING DAMMIT IF PEOPLE WANT TO INVEST IN TIKTOK THEY ARE NOT GOING TO INVEST IN INSTAGRAM BECAUSE OF YOUR SHITTY LITTLE "rEElS" OR AT THE VERY LEAST THAT SHOULDNT BE WORTH COMPROMISING USER EXPERIENCE

I hate how my old phone's autocorrect/spellchecker was almost perfect, I could type out the most incomprehensible bullshit and it would know what I was trying to say and my current phone's spellchecker can't even keep up with my - frankly mediocre - type speed and it just corrected "phone's spellcheck" to "phone's spellchecker". Sometimes I write the word so and it decides I meant to write "do". My old phone would consistently capitalise my "I"s and put in apostrophes where I would usually need them. My phone doesn't even capitalise my "I"s automatically. What did they do to the design of these phones that the spellcheck is worse?

Why did my phone just change "phones" to be "phone's"? Is it stupid? Why does it not understand after 3 separate times of me actively writing the word spellcheck that I want to write spellecheck and not spellchecker? Why when j wrote out "spellceckh" moments ago did it not correct me but it corrected me now? Is it too slow for my typing speed? Is the COMPUTER slower than my human hands?

I am going to find whoever makes these decisions, literally everyone involved in them - even tangentially, and I'm going to kill them with hammers. Im so fucking tired PUT THE APOSTROPHE INTO MY "I'M" RIGHT NOW YOU STUPID WORTHLESS PIECE OF PLASTIC SHIT YOU ARE A WASTE OF ENERGY AND A WASTE OF MONEY AND A WASTE OF LABOUR EVEN WHEN I AM USING YOU FOR THE MOST INNOCUOUS THINGS YOU STILL FIND A WAY TO INFURIATE ME SO I SPEND 5 MILLION YEARS USING YOU TO GET OUT MY FRUSTRATION ON PEOPLE ON THE INTERNET WELL IM DONE IM NOT DOING IT ANYMORE I HATE YOU YOU SOUL-SUCKING CREATIVITY-DESTROYING HATE-MONGERING PIECE OF SCRAP METAL. A fucking computer the size of a microchip that can give me access to all the world's knowledge and its too fuckinf stupid to correct my typing what a ficking rip-off. And I'm keeping those typos in just as proof of the horseshit I have to put up with.

[thewingedwolf]

would i absolutely prefer grrm stop writing these and focus on the winds of winter? of course. however, after jae finally ficking died, i did start enjoying myself more again, but also, i want twow bc i really understand why people say f&b is just anti targ propoganda, bc it is not nice to any of these lizard fucking losers, and it makes me desperately want twow to see what happens!!

cuz like, while i would always kinda resent basing your one (1) queen of westeros on a woman who did in fact live and rule until she died fairly old, and also put her son on the bigger throne and supported his claim, if grrm knew and planned for dany to die, and was always going to parallel his one (1) queen in her own right with his doomed protagonist villain. like. okay, tacky ass old man from jersey. whatever.

bc like. he makes these decisions on purpose, obviously, like adding Daenerys who dies of the shivering sickness after her father pretty explicitly denies her a throne (and stole his sister’s), it’s all a clear parallel to a lot of what’s happening in Dany’s story, and seems like it’s pointing towards certain outcomes in Young Griff and Jon’s stories. Of course he’s going to add in these parallels with Rhaenyra, and if the ending for Dany really is potentially being eaten by one of her dragons (and the more i read f&b the more i start really thinking it might be true), and he’d always planned on having Rhaenyra’s death be this violently poetic end at the hands of her own evil, awful brother, with her and Aegon victims and villains in the legacy of their family’s house, and this is echoed in the last of the Targaryens once again burning their own house down as victims of their own shitty mindset & propoganda of godhood, while being villains to every innocent person caught in their violent crossfire, like it’s really well done and narratively interesting & kudos for really committing to the kind of fucked up, but way more complex ending for the series (…but is it committing if he dallies and never finishes twow).

but also matilde lived until 65 u old man bitch!!!

[submisivobedientsissy]

Evidently Women on here can't Read And Understand Plain English wen I've said IM NOT LOOKING FIR OR INTERESTED IN WOMEN OR MISTRESSES OR DOM MOMMIES AS U CALL URSELVES. YOU ARE ALL RUDE AND IGNORANT AS FICK WITH THE RUDE WAYS YOU MESSAGE PEOPLE. IM NOT A SLAVE, CUNT, WHORE, OR ANYONES PET. CALL ME A BITCH ON UR FURST MESSAGE AND YOU WILL SEE A BITCH!! VERY IGNORANT AND DISRESPECTFUL TO THINK U CAN MESSAGE A SUBMISSIVE OR A SISSY N B RUDE RIGHT OUT THD GATE. THE DOM SUB DYNAMIC IS BUILT WITH TESPECT IN MIND BCUZ IF U DONT RESPECT THE PERSON, ITS JUST A ONE SIDED DYNAMIC AND THE SUBMISSIVE SISSY HOLDS ALL THE POWER BCUZ WITH THE PERSON SUBMITTING TO U WITHOUT QUESTION IS A GIFT NIT A RIGHT. U R NITHING SOECUAL AND THE RUDENESS, IGNORANCE, DISRESPECT, AND SHITTY WAYS WOMEN TEWAT MEN ATE THE RWAON I CAN STAND WOMEN!! SO IF U MESSAGE ME BEING RUDE OR LOOKING FOR A RELATIONSHIP, YIU WILL B BLOCKED WITHOUT QUESTION! I DONT WANT A WOMAN UNE SHES TEANS N GAS A BIG NATURAL DICK. SILICONE DOES NOTHING FOR ME N DONT HAV THE JUICES I SO LONG FOR N CRAVE. WOMEN ARE WASTING THEIR TIME SENDING MESSAGES!

[queerhollyleaf]

tbh the main reason i wanna learn how to drive soon is because i don’t know if i can continue college full time. if i could drive and got a car i could extend my time at college (and on residence), but i wouldn’t have to deal w shitty buses, trying to get to my dad’s, not being able to do anyhting

[angrelysimpping]

I want PC to restrain hybrid cat Bailey and ride him, or just fick him, while calling him the same names they used while he was an actual cat, in the same affectionate way.

Oh, he would have to be restrained. Otherwise, he's going to keep you from speaking. Which means you would have to ride him.

He's hissing and growling, all the muscles in his arms flexing as he tries to break free from where you've secured his wrists to the headboard. Bailey hates this. Hates being restrained, hates being under you. Hates how his tail has wrapped around one of your legs, how his mind is starting to go hazy with pleasure.

He'll blame it on your scent when this is all over. On that stupid part of his brain that now urges him to mate with you at every opportunity. On the way your hands feel on his chest and how you moan his name as your tight, greedy hole devours his barbed cock over and over.

That's the only reason this is happening. Some shitty magic that's screwed with him. That's the only reason his hips are rocking up into you, why there's a purr rumbling in his chest.

And then you fucking call him one of those god-awful pet names from when he was stuck as a cat.

His eyes narrow, ears flattening to his head as you give him a smug grin, calling him another fucking pet name. He's not sure what's worse, the stupid names or you're tone. Teasing and strangely full of...something.

Affection, if he had to name it.

He doesn't want to name it.

He bucks up into you as hard as he can, pulling a borderline pained whine out of you. He keeps bucking up, hard and fast, making you grab onto his shoulders and rock down on him as best you can. You cum with a cry, nails digging into his skin and walls pulsing around his cock bring Bailey to his own peak. He keeps jerking up into you as he cums, ignoring your pained whimpers as the barbs on his cock prick your insides. The barbs can't feel good, but maybe they do to you. You keep grinding down onto him even though tears are starting to wet his throat where you press your face into the joint between his neck and shoulder.

He doesn't care. He doesn't. He needed to shut you up and now he has.

"Stinky bastard."

Your words are slurred, but he hears them clear as day. He bucks up violently, headboard creaking as he lurches forward in a vain attempt to free himself, to flip you over, to press you face down, ass up, and make you shut up.

The rope holds and you let out a breathy laugh as you nuzzle into him, seeming to relish in his anger.

"My handsome stinky bastard."

Bailey stills. To his dismay, the purr in his chest kicking up a notch as you keep mumbling praise mixed with stupid pet names into his skin. He hates this. He hates you. He-

"I love you."

-hates that stupid fucking purr!

[trillgutterbug]

henlo fwends, today is my 10 year ao3nniversary! 😱

in honour of this auspicious occasion, here are some of my fave fics i've written posted over the past few years (and if you like em... there are more where they came from!). the terror temper its strength, adding honey until quite cold [edward little/tom hartnell. 3.4k. mature. crossdressing, gender stuff, oral] erebus and terror throw an evening of entertaining pageantry. edward ends up in the dress.

lest with my own eyes i behold thee beaten [francis/james. 7.5k. explicit. roleplay of a noncon+minor sexual situation (all "onscreen" participants are of age and consenting), dirty talk, anal, oral] james tells francis the story of his teenage abuse at the hands of a tutor. then they fuck about it. man's perdition is of himself [hickey/tozer/little. 1.8k. explicit. anal, dubcon, rough sex, hitting, bruises, dirty talk, power dynamics, hickey is his own warning] lieutenant little throws in with hickey and gets more than he bargained for - namely, solomon tozer's dick.

narcos meditations [pacho/amado. 3.8k. explicit. first time anal, established relationship] amado's pretty bad at sex. thankfully he has a good teacher. my own vineyard i had to neglect [javier peña/steve murphy. 3.5k. explicit. smoking, oral, sex in a car] a stakeout gets boring. then it gets interesting. generation kill a rose by any other name (would still smell like feet) [brad/ray. 20k. mature. gender/sex swap, gender shenanigans, canon-typical levels of homo/transphobia, generally unpleasant language and behaviour, getting together] an inexplicable accident in the desert changes ray in a fundamental way. (or does it really? brad can't tell. because he's stupid.) change in the r.o.e. [series] [nate/mike, one-sided nate/brad. 5.5k. explicit. oral, some d/s elements, jerkin it, dirty talk] the last thing mike expects to see when he comes around the corner of the outbuilding is lieutenant fick having a combat jack. band of brothers lay down in the tall grass [baberoe. 9.9k. teen+. shaving, pining, sharing a foxhole, getting together] obligatory bastogne fic ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. star wars that which survives [kylux. 6k. teen+. post-tfa, force bonding, h/c, medical stuff] stranded in a broken-down shuttle with kylo ren after the destruction of starkiller base, hux is forced to confront some unpleasant realities. you many unassaulted cities [kylux. 3.4k. explicit. trans hux, oral, vaginal sex, mild dubcon, dirty talk, power dynamics] (it's just smut, guys.) marvel thine own self [brock rumlow/jack rollins. 20k. explicit. a/b/o, mpreg, abortion, abusive relationship, dubcon, shitty power dynamics, dead dove] brock has never let anyone get at him during a heat. not once. (or: why condoms are a good idea.) concerning flight [thorki. 5k. explicit. genderfluid/lady loki, oral, vaginal sex, post-ragnarok] loki does what she wants. sometimes, what she wants is thor. black sails natural law [flint/silver. 2.4k. explicit. first time anal, established relationship] they have performed every manner of indecency on one another, except for one thing... the magnus archives it serenely disdains to destroy us [jon/martin. 13k. teen+. getting together, asexuality, oh my god they were roommates] jon's flat is being fumigated. he is not impressed. martin offers his spare bedroom. letterkenny spirit of the code [wayne/darry. 4.4k. g. getting together, internalised homophobia, miscommunication, idiots to lovers] wayne breaks his leg in february. it's a whole to-do.