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[maxthelorax]

I hc that regulus has selective mutism and only talks when he’s with his immediate friends or if he absolutely needs to

[intellectual6666]

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[skillzissue]

God damnit I hate it here- the ONE time I try to fall asleep ON PURPOSE to get at least SIX HOURS of sleep and do EVERYTHING RIGHT RO SCHOOL TMR, I turn on my sleepy playlist and around two hours of light ‘napping’ I hear a huge THUD and suddenly my phone is just. Gone.

Where is it, you might ask? Behind the bed, ofc-BUT get this. It’s not behind the bed where I call just reach down and grab it from the side where I’m at. After listening to the sound I discover that it is behind the head board.

The fucking head board. How did it fail there??? I DONT KNOW. 😭😭🙏

But since my sleepy time playlist is still playing and I’m rlly tired, I end up just falling asleep for a couple hours but then suddenly, for no reason at all, I JOLT awake in a PANIC.

Like my eyes fly open and I’m suddenly just. WIDE awake. As if I never fell asleep in the first place. Cue me trying to get my phone out from it being WEDGED between the head board and wall for a fucking hour 💀

I ended up having to grab one of my drum sticks, taping a piece of card stock paper to the end of it and putting a bunch of tape on the end of that.

Yes I walked around my house like a bird looking for things for its nests.

No bc seriously it was a long, long hour of trial and error using the most random household objects you can imagine 💀AND I had to try to be quiet bc guess what??

MY SISTER SHARES MY ROOM. so not only was I trying to do this quickly as possible, but as QUIET as possible and it literally was the worst thing I’ve ever experienced 💀🙏

Now it’s 5 am, I’m not tired despite at ALL (but I know I will be bc it’s not the insomnia type of awake but the adrenaline type) I have school in less than 3 hours, and I’m debating wether I should go back to bed or do my homework or AAAAHDHDJ THIS IS WHY WE CANT HAVE ANYTHING NICE 😭🙏

[janeandhannabbw]

sometimes i feel like a degenerate. i used to love reading stories, but now all i need is a pic with the caption "good girl" and a pat on the head and i j u s t a h g h g hgh

[ogg-weatherwax]

semi-coherent AuDHD tangent about Sleep Token

I think i'm starting to like Sleep Token, i couldn't get into it at first because of the cursive singing and all the Imagine Dragons-isms. I love pop music and lots of different genres, I don't just listen to hardcore and punk and slam or whatever... I have the music autism, tomorrow i could spend 6 hours listening to and reading about a Bulgarian kazoo player who made a double concept album about the textile industry in the 1950s, or something. but it took me a while to get into this. like "ok he's doing this piano ballad thing for like 2 minutes, when does the metal start...? oh there it is!"

the first 2 EPs and Sundowning are growing on me. The production on their songs is always really good. so even if a song doesn't connect with me at first i can at least appreciate a cool synth hook or background vocal. I like the smooth 80s sax outro on the new song too :)

[rileycruel]

damn I miss drugs

[michaels-reality]

you always on that damn 'Untitled Document'!

[hikiko-mochi]

contemplating ways to work through my complicated feelings about body weight and being fat. Maybe put in the effort to try a diary comic about it. Though it’s hard to follow any storyline because the feelings and emotions are so raw, unfinished, and incoherent.

[skillzissue]

Hey is it just me or do you also get caught off guard-

-Thinking about there’s so much beautiful art in world. Like I complain about having a inconsistent art style, but honestly I’ve been thinking -

I wish that my art style (if I even have one smh) never changes from its malleable nature.

Bc I look at different artists and see how unique their shape theory is, the way the characters seem so alive and vibrant and easy to look at- I love those kinds of art styles. I love drawing with wide, crazy exaggerated expressions and poses that grab people’s attention. I want to draw like that. And it’s beautiful.

And then I look at different artists and basically cry about how soft their rendering is, how their characters look like their melting in their sun burst environments, with so many minor details and just little things that add up. It’s so, so pretty and soft and makes you feel gooey inside and when I look at it all I can think about how amazingly gorgeous it is. I want to draw like that. And it’s beautiful.

But of course, it doesn’t end there. Bc then I look at artists that depict their world through understanding the beauty in the mundane, how they paint the sky, sub ways, bike rides and parks and stores and everything in between. Their lineless styles telling a story with vibrant colors, small touches and grand lighting, displaying the softness of life through people just. Experiencing it. I want to do that. And it’s beautiful.

And there’s more. There’s always more- I could literally go on about this for hours but I think you get the point. Everyone has this unique style that sticks out and really pronounces who they are as a person, and as much as I want to have such a special way of displaying how I see the world, something that you look at and just say “yeah, that’s Skillz,”

I just. I honestly wouldn’t know what to do you know? I want to do all of these things at once. I want to study these different artists and interpret them in my own ways, make those strong emotional expressions and those soft spoken moments and those wide open backgrounds.

But I can’t do it all. There’s a reason why each person has their own style. Can I do it all? Can I? Is there enough time in the world? I have so many thoughts and sometimes I need the right brush to speak them.

PLEASE I needed to have 15 fucking art styles yesterday ONG 😭😭🙏

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Just me?

[cloudyydraws]

why won't it resonate

[janeandhannabbw]

i really like dumb sarcastic conversations that border on deep meaningful conversation until one of us goes "lol jack russel Perrier" or some shit

[sarahsenger]

my social battery drains so easily. there’s enough chitter chatter bullshit in my head, i can only handle so much of other people’s chitter chatter bullshit. 👍

[woundedsouldier]

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[thecopycat]

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[michaels-reality]

something people don't utilize in character design enough is the the teeth. And i'm not talking about vampire fangs or monster teeth, but more about crooked teeth, chipped teeth, missing teeth, yellow teeth, retainers, braces, teeth jewels, grills and stuff of the like. not everyone has a perfect array of teeth