#bls they are reading me for filth

[bengiyo]

Cherry Magic TH Ep 3 Stray Thoughts

Last week, Achi grappled with what it meant to have someone interested in him. He enjoyed the attention, but felt like he might be taking advantage. Eventually, he came to understand that one sided attraction is also difficult for the person holding back. We left the two on a rooftop after Achi stressed that Karan wasn't making him uncomfortable. Meanwhile, Jinta also developed the same powers as Achi and had a less than stellar interaction with Min as a result.

Cannot believe I am watching BL in standard def in 2023 because Square Enix is greedy as fuck.

I kinda like that the whole office interrupted instead of just Rock.

LOL, Jinta actually has really practical concerns about this power.

Oh ho, who is Pai worried Bout running into?

I'm so glad this version of Kurosawa is also impatient with Rock for getting between him and Achi.

This whole office trip is new to me, but I'm liking it a lot. The manager seems to care about her people and seems to genuinely want them to have a good time.

Okay, that onsen scene was great.

Ah, so this is what they're replacing the fake dating for the parents with. Pai is trying to impress an ex boyfriend instead.

Well well well. You can't fall in love if you ain't clumsy.

Newwie is extremely attractive as Achi.

I like that we still got the scene where Pai realizes that she's okay by herself and then Karan shows up to defend them from street toughs. Achi even still got scraped.

Wound tending, my beloved.

This fond smirk is giving, "P'pEtE aBoUt AbOyZ"

For once they don't want me to believe this man is a good singer.

Pai's ex is played by Papang!!! Wow, be sucks!

YES, BITCH, YESS! READ HIM! READ HIM FOR FILTH! READ HIM FOR BLOOD!

Welcome back, baby is a messy eater. Marc is beautiful, holy shit.

Karan is down bad for Achi. I'm so glad they got Tay Tawan for this. He is so valid for that internal scream.

I'm excited about Songkran next week, but not Pai having a crush on Achi!!

The company trip was new to me this week, but I really loved it, and how they incorporated what was familiar. This is one of my favorite watches of the week. It's nice to be enjoying the GMMTV weekend block again, even if it requires me to jump through so many hoops.

[nikkotinamide]

Master List of DM & BL Read/Watched

DM

Priest

七爷 (Lord Seventh)

天涯客 (Faraway Wanderers)

镇魂 (Guardian)

杀破狼 (Sha Po Lang)

过门 (Through the Strait Gates) 😢

默读 (Modu)

残次品 (Can Ci Pin)

Meatbun

二哈和他的白猫师尊 (2HA) 🥹

余污 (Remnants of Filth) 😭

MXTX

人渣反派自救系统 (SVSSS) 😂

魔道祖师 (MDZS) 😡

天官赐福 (TGCF)

Gu Xue Rou

乱世为王 (To Rule In A Turbulent World)

Cang Wu Bin Bai

黄金台 (Golden Stage)

Yi Shi Si Zhou

小蘑菇 (Little Mushroom)

Yang Su

督主有病 (The Governor’s Illness) 😢

Hui Nan Que

飞鸥不下 (Flying Gulls Never Land)

Qiao You

偏执受想开了【重生】 (The Obsessive Shou Moves On)

Zhi Chu

可爱过敏原 (Lovely Allergen)

Hei Dan Bai

飞鸽交友须谨慎 (You’ve Got Mail: A Cautionary Tale) - read before the author’s anti views came to light

BL

Chinese / Taiwanese

镇魂 (Guardian)

陈情令 (The Untamed)

山河令 (Word of Honour)

Plus and Minus

Kiseki: Dear To Me

Thai

2Moons

Tonhon Chonlatee

Bed Friend

The Middleman’s Love

Kinnporsche The Series (so toxic but so good)

Japanese

30-sai made Dotei Da to Mahotsukai ni Nareru rashii

Kieta Hatsukoi

[isabeauwolf]

I'm curious. What was everyone's first anime amv's that you watched and what ones stays in your mind rent free?

This Ryou Bakura/ Yami Bakura amv got me into RED back in high school. If ya'll have read the og Yu-Gi-Oh manga and Duelist, ya'll know. If not, let's just say its wayyy darker than the 4kids anime we grew up with and a lot of stuff was censored. All the crap Yami Bukura put poor Ryou through, Yami was super creepy and throwing out death punishments left and right, but the people deserved it. That was even before the card game was introduced!

I know, I know, Inuyasha is basic and over memed to death, but it's still very close to my heart. It was my first anime in middle school and is very close to my heart, say what you will, but I love the dub. I've re-watched the series 5 times before The Final Act aired, I watched it every week both in subbed and dubbed. I've read the manga online years ago after the original anime ended cuz I had to know what happened! I bought the VizBigs and have a couple of the anti-manga which I hope to finish collecting someday, have other merch and games too.

I'll even share that I used the instrumental version of "Dearest" while walking down the isle for my wedding. Why? The song fit my husband and me so well, we had been through so much together and our love only grew stronger. Even while we were apart, we never stopped thinking of each other.

Eternal Snow always hits me with heavy nostalgia. Do I always cry while singing it? Of course, I do. I always come back here in winter to listen to this beautiful song. I remember watching the whole series on YouYube in high school after reading the manga. The story really sticks with you and inspiring, no matter what your dream is.

This amv I think best summarizes Kai Chisaki, Overhaul perfectly as a character. He has such a twisted mind, but that's part of the reason he was such a great villain, and his style/quirk made him such a bad-ass villain.

The way Pops found Kai as a boy, alone, covered in filth and I imagine he was hungry, always made me feel as if we were missing something from his past before the latest chapters came out. He wanted more than anything to replay the man who saved him, rebuilding the Shie Hassaikai's former glory and reputation along with returning people quirkless. Might have saved so many lives who were eventually lost, but at the end of the day, he still choose the darkest route and solution.

"You have no place here", hearing those words from Pops, his father figure, that's probably what finally pushed him to do everything he did. Ignoring Pops wish and taking matters into his own hands, its brief, but it hurt him, he's shocked before recollecting himself and putting Pops into a coma.

Kai’s final scream makes me cry every time because you just know that’s when he realized he’s lost literally everything he ever had, his quirk, the ability to fix Pops, the Shie Hassaikai his only home, and the quirk erasing bullets and serum, his plan that's been pouring so much time and who knows how long working on.

I haven't said it often on here at least, haha. But MDZS is one of my favorite BL anime, danmei, and manhua I've been obsessed with since 2020.

If you haven't watched MDZS, or Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation, I highly recommend it. The world building, music, the characters, the animation and raw feelings it pulls out of you.

Lan Wangji and Wei Wuxian's love is only a part of the series, the depth of their feelings cannot be matched by anything after what they’ve gone through together. No boundaries to their relationship and not even death stops their love.

Lan Zhan let go of everything to protect Wei Ying and tried to feel the pain he felt. They went through life and death together. It was literally them against the world. Even though they had no one by their side, they were with each other.

I still have to catch-up with The Untamed... XD I always play their song, "WANGXIAN" before "Mourning for Love."

[iereiaio]

𝕯𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖈𝖆𝖙𝖊 𝕳𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖘 𝖔𝖓 𝖒𝖞 𝖋𝖆𝖈𝖊

4.1.2021

So before I start my reading,  I’d like to start this out with today is day 2 of Getting My Shit Together; I did a guided meditation to meet my higher self, and oh my god??? First of all, she was the sweetest thing. Before the guided meditation person said for us to meet, she was already in front of me; she was very eager. She rushed over, held my face and kissed my face all over and she spoke to me so kindly and with so much love. I even almost cried a couple times. She held my face and told me all about how I know what I need to do and what she’s so scared because of how bad I’ve been getting. She said she doesn’t want me to fall down a hole I can’t get out of and end up having my whole life ruined by people who wanted nothing but the worst for me. She reminded me that I deserve good things; and that I need to be kinder to my inner child. She told me my inner child was hurting but that she understands I don’t do this stuff on purpose. 

She held my face and kept out foreheads together most of the time; it was very motherly. Also she was literally just me; but naked, in a very long, white sheer dress that dragged in the grass, and it bunched up around us when she sat down in the flowery grass with me. her eyes glowed faintly and her hair was so long, she had weight put on her, and she was glowing. She looked so happy and healthy and at peace. She told me I have the strength to do everything I hope, wish, and need to do- I just need to push through hard times and rough periods instead of just buckling and letting rough times conquer me. She reminded me that I can achieve all of my hopes and dreams; I just need to push through on hard days and allow myself to have breaks and be kind to myself when I need a day off

So for my reading today,

 I think im just going to pull 1 card for todays overlook,  as well as doing a Haides reading. Hopefully i stick to that  (so much for this, -Rain after doing the whole reading)

im pulling my cards now. (side note: thinking about the day when I did a Haides reading, for my 2 cards I pulled The High Priestess & The Lovers and ive never been happier)

So, for my Haides reading, I pulled:

The Moon (R)

The Empress (R)

Three of Coins (R)

Page of Cups (R)

And The Wheel of Fortune (R) & The High Priestess fell out of the deck while I was shuffling.

So I take this as I’m on the right path, but not out of the doghouse yet. I’m gonna have more problems in the future, especially with my childhood- and it’s gonna really fuck me up (great), but I know I need to continue pushing through those tough days, and just keep my goals in mind, and remember I’m fighting a fight I CAN win, i just need to put in the effort. i cant win a fight if I’m laying in the ring. 

I need to be more vulnerable with myself (pulled The Hierophant as a clarifier card)- not only with myself but with people close to me as well. I need to allow myself to be open and honest with those I care about- I also need to allow myself to be more vulnerable with my own self. I often find myself unable to cry over things- but lately ive been letting myself get teary over things that make me sad, instead of just ignoring it... Good first step I suppose. Pulled one more clarifier and it was the Queen of Cups, I need to be warmer and show more empathy for myself. I am divine and I need to love myself and care for myself in the way I love and care for others. 

Headspace just hit me with a nice message. “it takes courage, openness, and honesty to observe the mind without judgement, criticism or censorship”

Anyway, as for The Wheel of Fortune (R) and The High Priestess; I feel like this is a warning and a reminder. A warning of the fact that more memories are going to surface the more comfortable I feel and the more at ease I feel. So I wont be... having an easy time; and that I need to be reminded of my own inner power. I need to know that I can work through those things; that i can rest and recover from reliving horrible trauma, but not while neglecting my projects, passions and myself. I can have both; I just need to learn balance and I need to channel my own inner power to do that. 

[comatosebunny09]

Milk

Summary: The effects of the demon’s blood art may have subsided. However, Kyojuro’s infatuation with your feline side still remains.

Genre: Smut, Modern AU

Warnings: Female Reader, Bl*wjob, C*m Eating, Filth

Part 2 for The Cat’s Meow. Before you ask, yes. Yes, I am. All the time. 😐 Hope you enjoy! Thank you so much for reading!

He doesn’t fully make it out of the Challenger, the echo of the thunderous engine having drawn you from your nap.

“Does my kitten want milk?” he asks with hooded eyes, plunging his thumb betwixt your sinful lips.

He drags your mouth open, a bead of saliva dribbling down your chin. You gaze at him through thick lashes. Paw at his thighs, knelt between them like the obedient pet that you are.

“Yes, Master,” you mewl. Nip at the pad of his thumb, peeking your tongue out for a taste.

Kyojuro releases an anguished sound, one that rumbles within his chest and vibrates your center. He bites his lip, an internal struggle swimming beneath the fiery pools of his irises. Probably stuck on whether to take you here in the garage or carry you to the bedroom to punish you for your impatience.

Decisions, decisions.

He chuckles, an expectant quirk to his brows. “Well then, kitten. Are you going to have your fill?”

A challenging smirk curves his lips whilst he toys with the velvet choker around your neck. Grazes your sternum with deft fingers, sending electrical currents pulsing throughout. Kyojuro then proceeds to sweep your hair off your naked shoulders, gathering it into his fist behind your head.

Saliva puddles in your cheeks. You never relinquish his gaze whilst you eagerly work his belt through its loops, undoing the bottom buttons of his dress shirt, your stomach churning with anticipation.

Kyojuro lifts his hips from the leather seat, helping you divest him of the heavy layers of his slacks and briefs. They pool around his ankles, belt buckle clinking softly against the concrete. You suck in a sharp breath, watching his dick slap intimidatingly against his abdominals whilst he sits back on his elbows.

You swallow. Swipe at your lips with your tongue. Ingest the salty aroma of precum gathering at the tip of his prominent cock head. Your gaze ventures southward, soaking in the beautiful veins that throb beneath the tan skin of his shaft. They end their excursion at tight, pulsating balls that you weigh in your hand, evoking an approved hum from the Adonis before you.

Your nails dig pretty grooves into his impressive thighs. You progress forward, slightly lifting your ass into the air, a cool breeze contrasting against your swelteringly hot, slobbering cunt. You chance an experimental lick at the underside of his shaft to the tip of his head, earning a hoarse groan in response.

“Don’t tease me,” the blond pleads, burying five shaky fingers into the soft confines of your hair.

Your pussy hiccups.

You’ll have all night to make it up to him if you decide to take your time.

It is your turn to smirk as a steady hand encircles his scorching cock. Loving the texture of the wispy, flaxen tendrils assembled at its base. You suckle on the tender head, nibbling with just enough teeth to make his legs spasm and his breath catch in his throat. A firm hand pressed to his thigh to ground him; you release the reddened flesh with a noisy pop! Fix him with a haughty look whilst you lap at him with the finesse of a cautious feline.

You’re eager to have all of him in your mouth, to taste every bit of him. But you want him keening for you first. You swirl your slippery appendage around his slit, dipping in briefly to draw a gleaming string of precum from its borders.

“Fuck, baby,” Kyojuro drawls, tightening his grip on your locks.

He oozes more of his honeyed essence onto your lips, and you greedily drink it up.

Kyojuro tosses his head back as you take more of him into your mouth. Inch by delicious inch. Mutters praises and obscenities as his shaft disappears within the scorching cavern of your mouth until your lips meet his pubic bone. Tears spring to your eyes, the head of his dick having tested your gag reflexes. You hollow out your cheeks as you work your way back to his crest, saliva glazing his shaft with a slick sheen.

“Oh fuck, that’s my girl.” You bask in the tightening of his abs as he bites his fist to reign himself in. You can tell that it’s taking all of him not to buck up and fuck your mouth, what with the minute twitch of his balls at your teasing. He doesn’t want to hurt you, however.

Despite the devilish games you play, he’s still ever the gentleman until you give him permission to do with you as he pleases. Though now, you wouldn’t be too adverse to him throat fucking you.

You employ your other hand to pump him into submission whilst your tongue makes several delicious expeditions over his tip. Covering whatever ground you can’t reach with your lips. You bob your head in conjunction with your ministrations, giving him just the right amount of friction, drawing more of his tangy substance into your mouth.

Obscene sounds fill the quieted garage. Your pace quickens, Kyojuro’s hips undulating off the driver seat to meet your mouth in controlled thrusts. You take to kneading his heavy balls as you work your tongue back into the fray, sliding it against the underside of his erection as you take him repeatedly into the back of your throat. He is all but begging, reduced to an amorphous blob under your tiny hands and devious mouth.

At some point, the arduous roll of his hips, morphs into something more frantic as he throws caution to the wind and holds your head in place to fuck into your mouth. Your piteous gagging fills the atmosphere. Saliva and precum bubble around his cock. Your eyes roll into the back of your head, pussy trembling and clamping down on itself.

You know that Kyojuro won’t last much longer, his breaths having quickened and his fingernails digging painfully into your scalp.

Kyojuro’s hips sputter after one final rotation. He comes undone at the back of your throat. Coats the insides of your jaws with viscous, briny cream that cascades down your neck and glides down the valley of your breasts. You milk him greedily, sucking on the throbbing flesh until he twitches from the overstimulation.

Once you’ve devoured every morsel of cum, you plant a chaste kiss to the bulbous head, reveling in the pitiful whimper that leaves your boyfriend’s mouth.

“I’m still hungry, Master,” you purr, voice deceptively innocent as you kiss your way up his stomach, undoing the buttons that remain in your way.

Kyojuro hums, pushing your matted hair back from your cheek as you meet him in a succulent kiss; twine your tongue with his in a decadent dance that leaves you writhing for more.

“Greedy little thing, aren’t you?” Kyojuro coos, massaging your generous ass cheek with his large palm. A low moan rolls in your chest as he squeezes just enough to capture your labia in his fingers. Pins you with a ravenous look as his eyes glint in the fluorescent light.

“I guess I’ll just have to fill you up until you burst, now won’t I, dear kitten?”

<< The Cat’s Meow | Masterlist

[liyazaki]

how about vegaspete fics? do you have any recs?

I rarely read fics- not because I don't like them, but because for me, the brain rot has to be so advanced that I need to spend more time with these characters well beyond the source material (and that doesn't happen to me often).

howEVER- both Bad Buddy and KinnPorsche got me back into fan fics just a little this year, so I've read my fair share. I also absolutely didn't write one or two of my own... 👀

that being said, I'll level with you, Nonnie: she's a kinky bitch and has been for many years, so the VegasPete storyline woke a part of my feral brain I never expected it to in the context of BL.

which is a long, drawn-out way of saying- I've been gravitating towards the VP smut. and by gravitating, I mean that total filth-with-feels is all I'm reading where they're concerned. their toxicity mixed with their natural D/s dynamic is just delicious.

I'd share specific recs but I try not to let my freak flag fly too much on main, so I'll leave you with some sexy GIFs & a call to action: go leave some kudos & comments on your favorite fic filth! fandom writers are the gift that keeps on giving & we don't deserve them.

send me vp asks, song reccs (no more please), etc.

[outrunningthedark]

Your posts are a breath of fresh air (i am NOT kidding here). I never that everything would fall apart even more after 5.11 i‘m really shocked, because i didn‘t expect this and this kind of mess. As for BL chemistry, i‘m sorry Oliver i‘m still searching this as well as what he called fun Buck. Haven‘t found it yet so i gave up…

I appreciate the love, babes! I'm not here to suck up to anybody - not a showrunner, a writer, or even Oliver and Ryan themselves. If I don't like something, I'm gonna say it. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ The cheating angle did NOT need to happen to prove that Buck is unsatisfied with his current relationship or that he's spiraling downward. I wanted Buck to put himself first WITHOUT making TayKay the victim. Even if he initiates the break up (because who knows, maybe KR has written TayKay as a doormat that is willing to look past this *one* indiscretion), it's like, dude...you SHOULD be read for filth because you not only cheated, you LIED. There's no satisfaction in the end of BT for me other than no longer having to see MW and her ableist-enabling (and homophobic, and racist) self on my tv. Then we've got AK being allowed to drop hints about what's up next for her character throughout the rest of the season while mains like Jennifer and Oliver are saying they don't know what's gonna happen. Can everybody follow the same script, please? And, ofc, as I've mentioned a few times these last few days, Oliver's supporting the current "romance" (and ignoring the infidelity aspect) because...he had to try to get people interested in BL? But all he really did was talk up his new co-star? Because at least she's not MW? *gag* I thought he was supposed to be better than that.

[punpunsutatta]

reveal your watch & rewatch drama list

thank you for tagging me @billlkin @tutontawans @itoldsunset & @chusangwoos <3 i'm tagging @prany @morksuns @tipnaree @mrdumpling @laowen @tontawantu in return 🤍

icb i'm gonna read myself for filth like this LMAOO,, i'd like to preface this by saying i have adhd 💀 i'm not gonna bother explaining why for each (i'd literally be here all day abdjsb) so i'll give a lil progress report along w/ the clown rating i give myself for it):

currently watching:

aka mostly not current but i refuse to drop them <3 i'm gonna start with the present and go backwards

abbott elementary (not a drama but i need to point out how the only show i'm caught up with was on hiatus 🤡)

2521 (solely through the dash 🤡)

business proposal (solely through the dash 🤡)

enchante (through the dash & tay's essays in the gc <3 🤡)

kinnporsche (hasn't started but gonna be honest with myself abt this one from the jump LMAO 🤡)

cutie pie (two weeks behind 🤡)

not me (8/14 🤡)

semantic error (5/8 🤡)

flop4 (4/16, help i can't even commit to hate-watching 🤡)

extraordinary you (16/32, from i think summer 2021? 🤡)

color rush (help there was a s2?? 🤡)

a Pakistani drama that i waited Months for, even got my mom hooked on and then ditched her 8/39 eps in 🤡

i promised you the moon (1/5, the shock of returning from hiatus to a dumpster fire abxjab, still kinda wanna put myself thru it tho bc i'm clearly a masochist 🤡)

100 days my prince (2/16, literally only started bc of kyungsoo 🤡)

crash landing on you [7/16, started this 3 times, even found a hindi dub to watch with my mom (who called me out on ditching her again) 🤡🤡]

the untamed (no joke, i have started this show at least 8 times. i put myself thru the lotus pier heartbreak every damn time just to not finish 😭 it's been 2 years but i'd rather blacklist every tag than give up on it) (🤡🤡🤡)

dark blue kiss (i'm fake af for only watching the petekao clips when dbk was my intro to bl, morksun i'll get to u one day i s2g) 🤡

a different Pakistani drama (18/21, the last few eps have been downloaded on my phone since 2018 but here i am 🤡🤡)

descendants of the sun (2?/16? it's been like 5 years lol 🤡)

rewatching:

SKJELNFKSQMDALKS 🤡

to-watch:

aka my list is 80+ items long so here are the shows i really thought i'd beat the attention deficit for and still hope to one day 💀)

atots

the untamed

enchante

semantic error

the 1st Pakistani drama 💀

the player

light on me

voice in the rain

the gifted

[boysbeloving]

highlight what you like or what applies to you

thanks for the tag Krishna <33 @i-got-the-feels

and @sereinartemishan (thanks, love!)

hot shower or cold shower // texting calling or email discord (i've never been a part of any discord....it's a group chat thing right? ya...i would be silent lol) // earbuds or headphones // paperback hardcover or ebook // matte or gel // 12 hour clock or 24 hour clock (it's only time [bonus points if you get the reference]) // blue or green // sunsets or sunrises // tulips or orchids // candle light or moonlight // sci-fi and fantasy or horror // pen or pencil // pandas or koalas // gold or silver // sneakers or boots // denim jacket or leather jacket (neither....i haven't found good ones in my (plus) size ever...so what if i have big boobs....give me a decent jacket??!!)// pink or purple // chocolate or sour candy // deodorant or perfume // drive-in movie theater or the cinema (neither if i could help it...we don't have drive-in theatres in my country and i avoid cinema as well...just sit at home and watch something) // pastel colors or neutral earth tones (i go for pastel when defining a colour palette for books but personally i go for deep shades in clothes and lipsticks) // lemonade or fruit juice // past or future//

BL VERSION

crying in the shower or making out in the shower (both...both is good...like...i personally cry in the shower so i get that totally) // give cute boy line ID or stalk his IG // share his earbuds or share his closet // manga or manwha (haven't read either! sorry!) // long dangly silver earring (i'm very emotionally invested in men wearing danglers) or dark leather cuff // time loop or reincarnation // blue engineering smock or red engineering smock (neither but also both...no preference here) // kisses at the beach or kisses in the mountains // cactus or chili plant (???) // fairy lights or spot lighting // ghost boyfriend or vampire lover // hard sub or soft sub (this is for subtitles right?)// stray cat or … actually that’s your only option (i'm not a pet person actually...there are fur allergies in the family....BUT! i always appreciate and adore other people's pets) // Hawaiian shirt (more tiddie display opportunities) or blue shorts // evil ex-girlfriend or predatory fujoshi (neither...it's the society) // suit jacket (i love me a man in a well-fitted 3-piece suit) or leather jacket // high school or university // kitchen drama or office drama // forehead kisses or cheek kisses (omg both....why would you make me choose between any kisses?? how about crotch kisses?? hhmmm???) // Viki or GaGaOOLaLa (neither) // Japanese arthouse depth or Korean high concept (both) // pink milk or yakult (neither...) // censored Chinese BL or trashy Thai pulps // body swap or dead body (neither! but if body swap has to be done then it should be in Kimi No Na Wa style...i mentioned this before as well right?) // sexy or story // back hugs or lap sitting (both...coz both have the potential to go from soft to absolute filth...starts with the grinding ofc) // piggybacks or cradle carry (JUST WALK SIDE BY SIDE OMFG)

if anyone wants to do this please consider yourself tagged by me!

[dangermousie]

Heelo mousie! Love your blog! Do you mind recommending some of your favourite Chinese BL novels or shows?

I've seen the untamed and read it. I'm currently reading heaven's official blessing and I saw the donghua. Anything other than these two?

Awww, thank you!

Novels: I am gonna be lazy and literally copy/paste the entire danmei section of my top 10 web novels post (except MXTX’s stuff since you are already reading it.) Let me know if you need help finding any of these.

Lord Seventh - I am only partway through this so far, but it’s already on the list because it’s smart and somehow intense AND laid-back (not sure how this works, but it does) and is honestly just a really really solid and smart period novel, with the OTP a cherry on top of a narrative sundae. Plus, I love the concept of MC deciding he is not going for his supposedly fated love - he’s tried for six lifetimes, always with disaster, and he’s just plain done and tired. When he opens his life in his seventh reincarnation and sees the person he would have given up the world for, he genuinely feels nothing at all. (Spoiler - his OTP is actually a barbarian shaman this time around, thank you Lord!)

Golden Stage - my perfect comfort novel. Probably the least angsty of any danmei novel on this list (which still means plenty angsty :P) It also has a dedicated, smart OTP that is an OTP for the bulk of the book - I think you will notice that in most of the novels in this list, I go for “OTP against the world” trope - I can’t stand love triangles and the same. Anyway, Fu Shen, is a famous general whose fame is making the emperor   antsy. When he gets injured and can’t walk any more, the emperor gladly recalls him and marries him off to his most faithful court lackey, the head of sort of secret police, Yan Xiaohan. The emperor intends it both  as a check on the general and a general spite move since the two men   always clash in court whenever they meet. But not all is at is seems. They used to be  friends a long time ago, had a falling out, and one of the loveliest  parts of the novel is them finding their way to each other, but there is  also finding the middle path between their two very different  philosophies and ways of being, not to mention solving a conspiracy or  dozen, and putting a new dynasty on the throne, among other things. It always makes me think, a little, of “if Mei Changsu x Jingyan were canon.”

Sha Po Lang - if you like a lot of fantasy politics and world-building and steampunk with your novels, this one is for you. This one is VERY plot-heavy with smart, dedicated characters and a deconstruction of many traditional virtues - our protagonist Chang Geng, a long-lost son of the Emperor, is someone who wants to modernize the country but also take down the current emperor his brother for progress’ sake and the person he’s in love with is the general who saved him when he was a kid who is nominally his foster father. Anyway, the romance is mainly a garnish in this one, not even a big side dish, but the relationship between two smart, dedicated, deadly individuals with very different concepts of duty is fascinating long before it turns romantic. And if you like angst, while overall it’s not as angsty as e.g., Meatbun stuff, Chang Geng’s childhood is the stuff of nightmares and probably freaks me out more than anything else in any novel on this list, 2ha included.

To Rule In a Turbulent World (LSWW) - gay Minglan. No seriously. This is how I think of it. it’s a slice of life period novel with fascinating characters and  setting that happens to have a gay OTP, not a romance in a period  setting per se and I always prefer stories where the romance is not the only thing that is going on. It’s meticulously written and smart and deals with  character development and somehow makes daily minutia fascinating. Our   protagonist, You Miao, is the son of a fabulously wealthy merchant,   sent to the capital to make connections and study. As the story starts, he sees his friend’s  servants beating someone to death, feels bad, and buys him because, as  we discover gradually and organically, You Miao may be wealthy and  occasionally immature but he is a genuinely good person. The person he buys is a barbarian from beyond the wall, named   Li Zhifeng. It’s touch and go if the man will survive but eventually he does and You Miao, who by then has to return home, gives him his papers  and lets him go. However, LZF decides to stick with You Miao instead, both  out of sense of debt for YM saving his life and because he genuinely  likes him (and yet, there is no instalove on either of their parts, their bodies have fun a lot quicker than their souls.) Anyway, the two  take up farming, get involved in  the imperial exams and it’s the life of prosperity and peace, until an invasion happens and things go rapidly to hell. This is so nuanced, so smart (smart people in this actually ARE!) and has secondary characters who are just as complex as the mains (for example, I ended up adoring YM’s friend, the one who starts the plot by almost beating LZF to death for no reason) because the novel never forgets that few people are all villain. There is a lovely character arc or two - watching YM grow up and LZF thaw - there is the fact that You Miao is a unicorn in web novels being laid back and calm. This whole thing is a masterpiece.

Stains of Filth (Yuwu) - want the emotional hit of 2ha but want to read something half its length? Well, the author of 2ha is here to eviscerate you in a shorter amount of time. This has the beautiful world-building, plot twists that all make sense and, at the center of it all, an intense and all-consuming and gloriously painful relationship between two generals - one aristocratic loner Mo Xi, and the other gregarious former slave general Gu Mang. Once they were best friends and lovers, but when the novel starts, Gu Mang has long turned traitor and went to serve the enemy kingdom and has now been returned and Mo Xi, who now commands the remnants of his slave army, has to cope with the fact that he has never been able to get over the man who stabbed him through the heart. Literally. This novel has a gorgeously looping structure, with flashbacks interwoven into present storyline. There is so much love and longing and sacrifice in this that I am tearing up a bit just thinking of it. If you don’t love Mo Xi and Gu Mang, separately and together, by the end of it, you have no soul.

The Dumb Husky and His White Cat Shizun (2ha/erha) - if you’ve been following my tumblr for more than a hot second, you know my obsession with this novel. Honestly, even if I were to make a list of my top 10 novels of any kind, not just webnovels, this would be on the list. It has everything I want - a complicated, intricate plot with an insane amount of plot twists, all of which are both unexpected and make total sense, a rich and large cast of characters, a truly epic OTP that makes me bawl, emotional intensity that sometimes maxes even me out and so much character nuance and growth. Also, Moran is my favorite web novel character ever, hands down.

Anyway, the plot (or at least the way it first appears) is that the evil emperor of the cultivation world, Taxian Jun, kills himself at 32 and wakes up in the body of his 16 year old self, birth name Moran. Excited to get a redo, Moran wants to save his supposed true love Shimei, whose death the last go-around pushed him towards evil. He also wants to avoid entanglement with Chu Wanning, his shizun and sworn enemy in past life. And that’s all you are best off knowing, trust me. The only hint I am going to give is oooh boy the mother of all unreliable narrators has arrived!

The novel starts light and funny on boil the frog principle - if someone told me I would be full bawling multiple times with this novel, I’d have thought they were insane, but i swear my eyes hurt by the end of it. I started out being amused and/or disliking the mains and by the end I would die for either of them.

The Wife is First - OK, this one did not make my top 10 web novels but it’s a sweet, fun gay cottagecore fest. Our ML, a royal prince, and his spouse, a smart if delicate aristocrat, keep house, eat noodles, play with their pet tiger, make out and spoil each other rotten, while occasionally fighting battles and outwitting their court enemies. It’s so very mellow. That couple redefines low drama - they are both nice and functional and use their brains. It’s as if a nice jock and a nice nerd got together and then proceeded to be wholesome all over the place.

I mean, the set up could be dramatic - our ML the prince, lost his fight for the throne and is about to be killed. The only person who stayed loyal to him is his arranged husband the aristocrat guy who ML never treated nicely since he resented marrying him (marrying a man in that world is done to remove someone from the ability to inherit the throne.) And yet the husband stood by him not out of love but beliefs in loyalty blah blah. Anyway, he transmigrates back into the past right after their wedding night and is all “I got a second chance OMG! I don’t want the throne what is even the point? I want to live a good long life and treat the only person who stood by me really well!” And he proceeds to do so to the shock of the aristocrat who had a very unpleasant wedding night and generally can tell the man he just married would rather eat nails than be married to him. But soon enough (no seriously, it’s not many chapters at all) he believes the prince is sincere blah blah and then  they get together and they pretty much become cottagecore goals.

In terms of dramas, I only do period dramas (or novels) so I am not the person to be able to recommend any modern BLs. There is a flood of upcoming (hopefully) period BL dramas but it’s relatively thin on the ground now. The two I will recommend is Word of Honor (which is AMAZING) and Winter Begonia (which I just started watching but which owns me already.) I have a tag for both - the one for the former is huge and I cannot recommend either strongly enough. I’ve heard good things about The Sleuth of the Ming Dynasty, but I am not big on mysteries so haven’t watched it for myself.

In terms of the upcoming BLs, the ones I am most looking forward to are Immortality and Winner Is King, but The Society of the Four Leaves also looks promising.

[bengiyo]

Thai QL Favorites Tag Game

Tagged by @telomeke who has been a delight for years.

Credit also: this game was created by @thatgirl4815 as Thai BL Favorites Tag Game.

Thai BL only adds some interesting wrinkles for me.

Favorite Thai QL: I think it is and always will be I Told Sunset About You. I've been in queer cinema for a long time, and I really appreciate how ITSAY reaches beyond the confines of BL itself and becomes a huge marker for queer cinema. Also, this show healed the hole that Love of Siam (2007) left behind. I spent over ten years holding in that angst, assuring myself and others that our pain would be worth it. Even after six years of BL, starting with Love Sick the series, I didn't feel like I could put that down until the final moments of ITSAY.

Favorite Pairing: In Thailand? I think it's Khaotung and First because of how special their friendship feels and the work that they've done recently together. Long-term, it's probably OffGun because of how stable they are. They established a blueprint for how to be a professional pair and keep the fans at an effective distance.

Most underrated actor: Honestly? It's Boy Nattapon. We give all the GMMTV boys their due, and obviously Billkin and PP get their flowers. Still, Boy holds the entirety of Ghost Host, Ghost House together. I don't think Todd Techit could have done that without Boy's presence.

Favorite Character: How dare you narrow this down to one character? For now I'm going with Uncle Man in 21 Days Theory. He is visibly queer man who spends the show trying to support his nephew, and reads that boy for filth when he comes at him sideways. He also helps his sister take care of her son, and then focuses on his own relationship with their dad. It's hard to be a gay uncle sometimes, and I think he captures that perfectly in an incredibly sweet show.

Favorite Side Character: It's Saleng from Moonlight Chicken. Mark is always doing incredible work in supporting roles at GMMTV, and the loyalty and care he inspires in Jim and Li Ming really holds that show together. Saleng is that cousin who is kind of a fuck up that you're just so relieved finally gets it together. I am always captivated by the way Saleng moves and how many folks rely on him as a way to say when they need to say. Since people sometimes say MLC isn't QL, I'll also say... Cheep and Dej from My Ride. It's always gay uncles fo rme.

Favorite scene in a QL: The opening scene in Moonlight Chicken is really good. However, I think it is the breakfast scene with the uncles in episode 8 of My Ride. Focusing on the way long-term love requires a relationship to shift and that it requires maintenance was really special for me at the time and I regularly think about that scene.

Favorite line in a QL: "You never understand me. I'm hurt." -Oh-aew, I Told Sunset About You

Most Anticipated QL (& why): Only Friends. I just think Jojo deserves it, and I think it'll be fun for all of us.

Healthiest relationship in a QL: I think it's still Dean and Pharm from Until We Meet Again. They're very good at each other, and all of their drama was external.

Most toxic relationship in a QL: VegasPete is the obvious answer, but I think I want to highlight Farm and Bright from Together With Me.

Guilty pleasure series: Love in the Air. Not a fan of MAME, but this one snuck past and got me.

Most underrated series: You're My Sky. I feel like the kind of muted response this show got signaled something about the way tastes for prestige BL wasn't a thing, and maybe contributed to the death of Nadao Bangkok. I think this show is really excellent, and it bugs me that it has such a low rating from so many of us.

I think most folks have done this, so I won't tag. However, feel free to tag back if you want to do it!

[noona96nwrite]

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I’ve moved around a lot so I’ve learned to listen to what people say, but I’ve also learned to keep an eye out for what they mean. Especially if you’re someone moving in someplace that’s “lived-in”, where existing house guests are more than just co-habitating - maybe if not a “home” in the traditional sense, it’s nonetheless the sort of place where people have meshed even their unconscious habits, and with those unconscious habits, you get unconscious boundaries.

I first noticed this when i moved into a sublet that had a literal throne and scepter. It was positioned with the best view of the TV that also gave its claimant easy access to his fridge tucked nearby when reclined on his seat. The TV remote was never far; every member of the household, knowingly or unknowingly, helped give the throne its aura of majesty by never neglecting to put the remote back within arms’ reach from the seat of his throne. This was the only household practice common to all that could be referred to as tidy, since the house had the kind of appearance that the pretentious among the poor hope to avoid in some sad attempt to trick the world into overlooking their poverty: there was grime on the doors and light switches, hand stains revealed thousands of iterations of the dudes tapping the wall under the entry to the hall every day, corners of the house went weeks unswept, etc.

But that doesn’t mean they were sloppy, unstructured, immoral, anarchic or whatever. it just meant that the instinctive habits that held the household’s way of life weren’t expressive of values like, “keeping up appearances,” it was facilitating, among other things, the comfort of The Dude which produced the majesty of the throne and scepter. The dude was the only leaseholder, and after one look at this situation, I rightfully presumed the other roommates were, like me, unable to find some other place to accept us with our bad credit, and so settled into this dude’s nest, where he was able to effect his unspoken and spoken rules to uphold tacit or explicit values.

The place I live in right now is not like this. For one, my move-in was greeted with the explicit, “feel free to take up space downstairs or up, it’s your space, too.” For another, the state of the landscape of the house is what you’d find in the home of a low-level civil servant in a rural area, both in the appearance of an immaculate household and in its cozy, Western-inspired decor.

What also distinguishes my present situation from the one I first described is that this one feels suffocating and less navigable because even though The Rules are explicit, they don’t mean what they think they mean in practice. With the bachelor slum, you can at least jump into their flow of things once you catch the logic that animates it and ride it out, but here, I’m having to decode what they think is explicit, direct, etc.

Like the very first thing they said and would repeat, “feel free to take up space downstairs or up, it’s your space, too.” Having lived in so many different places with so many different habits, unspoken and spoken, conscious or unconscious, I know better than to take people at their word, so I decided to test what the unspoken boundaries were as I took up their offer to freely “take up space.” I began by leaving a water jug downstairs on the kitchen counter, tucked into the far corner beneath my cupboards.

This was meant to be a control, not even a test. The corner of the kitchen counter underneath their cupboards features their blender and their container for keeping their straws, so they don’t have an issue with keeping things out on kitchen counters, certainly not “kitchen-appropriate” items. Plus, with the limited space available in a two bedroom townhouse for three adults, any reasonable person would see someone imitating your appropriate use of space in an unobstructive manner not as “taking up space,” for that would suggest an intrusion, but merely a fact of life that there isn’t any other place to put it.

A reasonable person would think, ‘I put my blender and straws for my shakes underneath my cabinets, you have a drinking vessel underneath yours, this fits into our existing patterns, i don’t see an issue.’

But these aren’t reasonable people.

When I talk of “mental landscapes of what something should look like,” I speak of this: to my roommates, the bachelor slum guy, and for a lot of other people with a disordered personality and/or some miscellaneous/undiagnosed/unacknowledged neurosis around “cleaning,” it’s not “cleaning” itself that’s the issue. It’s that to avoid a breakdown, they require a degree of harmony between the mental landscape in their heads of what their environment should look like and the environment as they see/apprehend/understand it.

Take the bachelor slum for a second. Cleanliness is not their goal, but that doesn’t mean they don’t have a “mental landscape of what the living room should look like” that was centered on “TV-Recliner-Fridge-Remote,” and if there wasn’t a harmony between the mental landscape and what the living room is actually like, “WHERE THE FUCK IS MY REMOTE?!”

My roommates’ landscape is so tedious and their emotional response to its disruption so dysfunctional that they continuously made the conscious decision to use their hands to open my cabinets and use their fingers to rummage through my things so they can then use those same fingers to pick up my jug and stow it away from sight, from having disrupted the landscape in their heads and how it looks in real life.  Every. Single. Time. I. Left. It. Out.

This still yielded useful lessons, though:

“Feel free to take up space, it’s your place too” is the most direct and unambiguous statement anyone can make, but to my roommates it was flexible to the point of meaninglessness. If someone can be that clumsy in communicating something so direct, so easy, so straightforward, imagine the complications of interacting with someone like this on more difficult topics, broaching more challenging themes, anything that takes a bit more patience.

Whether or not they realized it, my roommates betrayed that their notions of boundaries don’t include others when it comes to their own neuroses. How else to explain taking physical possession of someone else’s things and shuffling them around so you can move another object of theirs out of your view after telling them it’s fine to take up space? For what other reason can someone think it ok to infiltrate a space that legally belongs to you so long as you are subletting, just so they can put your things out of sight and restore their sense of harmony and peace?

If this is true, there will be a double standard they’re not aware of, and you’ll be running into it over and over.

Sure enough, they leave heavy furniture downstairs for weeks, but if i leave say, a couple books i was reading on the same coffee table downstairs where they’ll leave notebooks, stationery, or whatever - I’ll find my books at the end of the day next to my door. Every time.

If I leave my glasses tucked up into a corner of the bathroom counter (because that’s a place where you put contacts in, right? A bathroom mirror next to a sink?) i’ll find them stashed away in the medicine cabinet or next to my door. Every time.

At no point throughout this has someone suppressed their compulsion touch other people's’ shit and paused to ask their owner, “hey, i know we said feel free to take up space anywhere in the house, but leaving a water jug on the counter under your cupboards in a manner consistent with how we keep our blender is a step too far for my anxieties,” or, “hey, i know this will sound weird, but don’t leave any more books on the coffee table downstairs than I already have on there, i get stressed out.”

The manipulative bachelor slum guy at least had the courtesy to make his demands clear and the consequences for not fulfilling them consistent by screaming about his remote and being generally a really chill guy, so it’s much easier to adapt to that than these people, who throughout this and still to this day (though less lately) insist, “oh please take up space in the house it’s yours too.”

Now, as much as I berate clean freaks, we have to acknowledge that it’s not about cleanliness, though they’re neurotic enough to think that that’s the point. Leaving your eyeglasses on the bathroom counter is not a sign of filth any more than a blender on the kitchen counter is a sign of moral failing, and my roommates reassuring me with apologies any time i try and use the kitchen around their dinner dishes isn’t about me being bothered by their dishes (that’s their neurosis, not mine), it’s about them reassuring themselves, since i’ve never asked nor would i ever ask anyone to apologize to me for the dishes leftover after cooking dinner (what am I, a clean version of the bachelor slum asshole?)

But to clean freaks like my roommates who have no hope of rationalizing themselves out of a carnival of their own making, there is no difference that matters here: counters with a jug or glasses are just as filthy and therefore nerve-wracking as if you had left a streak of shit on the counters from smearing your filthy ass across them, but if you leave something out it’s ok because you know you had a good reason to so there’s no need to panic: ‘If the landscape in my head does not harmonize with what I see before me and I can’t personally account for discrepancies, I’ve lost control and It’s Stress Time.’

in other words: they can upend the standards for what things NEED to look like based on changes THEY make to the actual landscape - whether it’s leaving heavy furniture downstairs for weeks, or dishes overnight, or crumbs all over the stove overnight, or blenders on the counter, since those are things within their control - but once someone else alters the landscape like with a jug, or with their glasses, or with a bit of scrambled egg on the floor ok that, that’s it’s that’s why we have mice, it’s why there’s mold, blah blah.

[bengiyo]

21 Days Theory Ep 3 Stray Thoughts

What is up with Thai BL boys and putting their whole pant legs in water???? Why are they fully clothed to wash X's hair??

The version of Sexual Awakening that Thailand likes works best for high school. They should take notes from Japan on how to do that for adults.

Okay, the false start on the romantic music was funny.

Love how terrible these boys are at keeping their story consistent with this collective flirting.

Honestly, I'm really enjoying the 21 Days as an arbitrary timeline. It's interesting knowing the approximate time gaps between moments. This is usually very vague in BL.

I wonder what X experienced that makes him always choose some contrived reason for him to get Q to spend time with him.

I really enjoyed the shots they used for this working-together quick montage.

Poor Toy. Now I'm sympathetic to a heterosexual crush.

I love Uncle Man so much. I've had versions of this conversation with my friends and relatives when they worry about early queer signs in their kids. We need more queer elders in BL getting in front of stupid plot drama. The mom's journey with her own internalized homophobia is very relevant to this story, but it doesn't need to be her son's problem.

Someday I hope to be this uncle, smirking as I drive my nephew/nice and their paramour out to a (not) date.

The specific juvenile reaction of getting jealous of your aunt/uncle who is just trying to help.

I don't think I like X contriving hangouts, but I do like him being direct with Q about his feelings when Q clearly misunderstood them entirely.

Call whoever it takes. I need a crossover episode where Uncle Man gets brunch with Cheep and Dej from My Ride. I have also had to read the Baby Gays in my community for getting rude with me because they thought I was overstepping. I do not want to date teenagers!!!

Okay, something is wrong with the engine on Man's SUV. They should get that checked.

Toy is adorable. I'm actually enjoying his interactions with Mook.

I'm unsure where I sit when it comes to Frank and Mind. As a former teacher, I feel squick and want them to pull back.

I like these street restaurants in Asian dramas.

Me, a Known Gay, feeling wistful about a straight romance in a BL? It's more likely than you think.

Yes, Uncle Man, gather him to and gether!!!! Drag him! Drag him for filth!!

On the real, I love the way he honors his nephew's feelings, and asked pointed questions to help him sort out what's going on. It's familiar to see people being possessive of their first attractions, but it isn't a healthy response to feed. Love the stern but compassionate correction. Take notes, babies!

"Isn't it just one of the many problems you have to face in life? If you know what you have to face... All you have to do is be prepared. Love is always worth the risk." 😭

"When love occurs, you need to just accept it or let it go." 😭

Yes! Don't make choices for the baby gays! Remind them that their lives are theirs alone to live, and cannot be dictated by the whims of others. I am on the floor! This is what I've been begging BL for.

This show could do with previews.

I'm so goddamn hype after that episode! This was fantastic! I see you, Rookie Thailand!!!