#but I just need to scream into the void first.

[neuxue]

The one and only downside to having been fortunate enough to take an extended amount of time off of work a while back is that now I know that simply not having to work for a living would fix like 99% of my problems. And I just have to carry that knowledge with me every day. Into work.

[thus-it-is-proclaimed]

God but think about the whiplash Phoenix experiences between Miles and Dahlia.

When it’s said and done, and whenever they do finally cut the shit and get together, him being in the midst of feelings and it makes him scared.

Why wouldn’t it? To our knowledge he never has another serious partner (though Dahlia wasn’t exactly a serious one, it can be argued Phoenix in his Young Dumb Obsessiveness absolutely felt like it was) between her and the idea he does get together with Miles. (Kristoph we will put aside for terms of discussion.)

But to imagine an older, more jaded Phoenix who is looking at Miles Edgeworth and feeling that old swell of absurdly strong feelings. The echo of his tendency for reckless devotion, for putting the people around him on a pedestal, the all encompassing love he has inside his heart. Imagining that he feels that swooping sensation before the plummet into immersion and it. Scares the SHIT out of him.

Because realistically? He has almost only ever been hurt by this pattern. He must know it’s unhealthy and dangerous, even on a subconscious level. And despite all he has been through, it’s still there. He can still feel it.

Phoenix Wright, loving Miles so much it hurts, being for once absolutely terrified that it will all come to crash down on him again. He was almost killed, framed, and injured by Dahlia while she was alive. She came back to literally haunt him and cause havoc on his life, threatening those he loves, resulting in the situation that sent him falling through a burning bridge in effort to save his family. Because his ability to LOVE. His willingness to sacrifice everything to protect the people he clings to around him.

Just thinking of this realization, and how Miles can meet it not as a savior or a saint, but proof that even those who have hurt Phoenix at some points could still be eventually trusted with his heart. Miles, who goes through such an arc of growth and maturity, at a point he can promise Phoenix to take care with his feelings. To be able to be trusted, and trust in turn. That though they may argue, may hurt one another, at the end of the day Miles is not another devastating chapter in Phoenix’s list of reasons to never allow himself to show his full heart to another.

He is proof that Phoenix can trust someone who knows of this tendency. Who won’t use it to manipulate or gut him. Who doesn’t secretly despise every breath he takes. Maya and Pearl and Trucy and Apollo and Athena are all people in Phoenix’s growing family, who stick around and support.

But Miles Edgeworth has seen Phoenix through hell, tribulation, and devastating lows on both sides. He knows Phoenix has such intense depth of feeling. And if they come together into a relationship, Miles taking this onboard and loving Phoenix for it. His passion and kindness and selflessness and drive.

[cinclidaefang]

Hello everyone, may I draw your attention to my recently acquired boy? My little guy?

His name is Kuroha and he is a one month old mexican black kingsnake :}}

[ratland-art]

so the mha manga finally ended and it was as mid as I was expecting (haha mid hero academia) but coincidentally I received the news on the same night I ranted to my friends about how I kinda popped off with this fanfic I uploaded to ao3 when I was bored in my senior year and basically what I’m saying is-

life is short and I can do whatever I want but I wanna make a webcomic (?) building off of those few chapters I posted using or like? reclaiming the characters as my own? I’ve seen some people literally just repurpose the designs/backstories as their own as a kind of “fuck you horikoshi” and that’s so based but idk if I wanna do that or do my own thing entirely.

because YES I agree wholeheartedly I’ve just never made a decision in my life and I won’t start now. (I will likely make my decision when I’m bored at work tomorrow, I just need to rant now lol)

like yes obviously I do have original ideas and designs I’d like to use but also so much of my original concept is rooted in the mha universe that it’d be difficult to have that degree of separation entirely? one of the most infuriating things to me about mha (aside from the obviously problematic elements) was the excellent concepts and horrible execution so part of this is just me going “fine, I’ll do it myself.”

if this gets enough attention I’ll spill more ideas but for now I’m eepy and just needed to scream into the void about the creative limbo I’m in rn

[whatthefuckisasweep]

sighing and putting my head in my hands and crying and throwing up as i think about stanley uris and how he was the most terrified loser.

how he was deathly scared of being dirty, of not knowing where he was, of not being able to predict the world around him. how he was more scared of his world order being offended than anything else. how knowing that pennywise is real sent him down this spiral of 'what else can be real' and it broke him. but he STILL was the one who cut everyone's hand and made the oath. how bill constantly reminds him of his bird book and how it saved him. how he is more mentally fragile than eddie. how he's one of the only Losers who ever says "i can't do this", but he still gets to his feet and makes jokes right after he cries. stan uris, who, after Mike is like, "i just saw a killer bird!" goes, "what kind of bird?"

thinking about how we really don't know how his death went down so we don't know what he was thinking in those last moments. how he threw away his whole picturesque life because of a promise he made, and because he couldn't honor it. how he's such a private person, a quiet one, but he's so so so sharp and graceful. i wish they showed more of his fear in the movies, how much it fucked him up in the end.

stanley uris i think about you a lot.

[shummthechumm]

yellowfang genuinely believing that because brokenstar was "cursed" and that her (being manipulated into) giving him up...her loosing her daughters at birth...and that this meant she was incapable of birthing and raising a cat like firestar....ooooo...

then later projecting herself onto leafpool having the three...which, as old as their prophecy is, i would imagine causing some unrest in starclan....her children having a "pre-determined" destiny, being born against the same rules that brokenstar was...

both leaf and yellow and their similar powers...its all too much really

[tardis--dreams]

There's been interesting developments at work and i need to do a lot of work for university so i think tonight is the Perfect time to finish beyond evil

[ruby-static]

Follower Riley time fellas!

Bonus shots because look at this nerd in his lab coat damnit- :

(My fucking god! These bitches gay! Good for them! Good for them.)

[akkivee]

i think it’s interesting that when kuukou and ichiro collaborate with their music, both in nb and bbbat, the sound comes out closer to a bb sound, leaning heavily on old school hiphop vibes. similarly when samatoki and sasara collide, their music is in the jazz genres which is a dh sound

makes me wonder if it’s a reflection of their dynamics, eg kuukou following ichiro’s lead in their nb days/samatoki going along with a lot of sasara’s whims or maybe a dynamic to come 🤔

[boyybites]

And while it's 3am and I have no filter and can remember, thank you all for the support you've shown me over the years, I really do appreciate it even if I don't say it often. I keep forgetting that yeah I should thank people for their kind words and support since I'm more or less not just posting into a void or for a little hobby like at the beginning of my whole art thing.

So yeah, thanks so much for all your support and kind words and just general everything, even to the people that like my stuff for years (literally remember you guys from the beginning of this tumblr art blog and I do excited seeing you in my notifs<3)

[zevrans-remade]

yeah.... so i finally got to the start of act 3 and saw the reveal of the guardian/dream visitor's real self and i-

[mementoasts]

computer how do i convince myself that simply sending my friend a pic of something i think they'd like is probably not going to get me perceived as the most irritating motherfucker on the entire planet

[thatonefatgumsimp]

I NEED HELP (DND Stuff, might be a dumb question idk-)

So genuine question for DND side of tumblr, but- I've been thinking recently...

And are the things next to the dragonborn colors in the player handbook, like, types of damage that are less effective, their magical girl power, or both?

Cuz I never really thought about that before and I have absolutely no idea-

[skyllion-uwu]

*Comes out of the computer with a thousand yard stare* I played Doom 2.

[tsubasagirl]

Thank you DeNa.

[souenkun]

I am currently Going Through It trying to write a sexy times fic for a certain ship knowing full well that I'm just that rusty and not well-versed in writing those kind of stuff