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alildrifter · 2 years

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As much as I would love to see a Twiyor kiss that pulls all the stops and is just as heart pounding as the proposal scene, I feel like their first would be by accident?

Like they have given me two parents with two very demanding jobs and a kid that is honestly a little bit of a handful (no matter how well intentioned she might be, Anya can sometimes be a lot, especially for two inexperienced parents) and you’re gonna tell me only Loid/Twilight was exhausted? Nope.

I want their first kiss to be a simple one— I want these two equally exhausted parents to be going their separate ways for work and Loid/Twilight doesn’t even think about it when he leans down and gives Yor a peck on the lips until he registers that oh, his not wife has started to turn an alarming shade of red and that they have not in fact kissed before.

And instead of him handling this situation in a calm, collected manner (like any well trained spy would); he panics. He’s flustered and trying his best to calm down an increasingly frantic Yor as she tries to reassure him that it was okay even though it obviously wasn’t, evident by her all but speed walking away from him in the opposite direction of her normal route to work.

#I want them to kiss #but I want chaos in the process #spy x family #sxf #loid forger #yor forger #anya forger #twilight sxf #thorn princess #twiyor

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tohjwcc · 2 months

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Yasammyweek, day one:

Hurt/comfort

@yasammyweek

#yasammyweek #sammy gutierrez #yasmina fadoula #yasammy #chaos theory #camp cretaceous #they didn't let me blurr Sammy's pink color in her hair so it has to stay like that #bear with me i can NOT draw hands #i drew this in the car so it's not great but the best i could do atm #I'm learning how to draw them #....#I've never been capable of drawing Yaz's hair properly but I'm learning #I'm in the process of learning how to draw them. both Yaz and Sammy #i really want sammy to have a breakdown and cry and be comforted for once

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mayhemspreadingguy · 2 years

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Today I woke up and chose silliness!

(yes, the mood of my posts is all over the place but this is what you signed up for, it's literally in the name x'D)

This is another contribution to the silly rabbit au (by @cuubism ) featuring @magnusbae 's Dream in a hoodie.

#silly rabbit au #dreamling #well hob did say that he can fake is own death if needed but how many times will he have to do that? xD #at some point hob starts to attend his own funeral as a guest. and if anybody asks questions he's all like: no sadly i am no robert gadling #(/or whatever name he's been using) and i will miss that man dearly #(and he's speaking the truth because he's practically burying a life that he has built up. he's burying the person #he has been for past decades)#it's a slow process but hob starts to sprinkle the small but outrageous truths in conversation and let's others take it however they want t #he very inconspicuously adopts Dream's attitude and starts to play along with Dream's misleading truths #and then he starts to spin the tales in different directions - derailing Dream's stories #and THAT'S when the chaos really starts xD #why make dream's storytelling easier when he can twist it and basically fight fire with fire right? :DD #also. don't listen to me im just shitposting here

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maudiemoods · 8 months

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I just really love the little horns and tail designs

Bonus 😎

I used to wanna make out with him and I also hated him so much

#chaos my beloved but also hated <3 #hes one of my oldest ocs! I'd love to redesign him but augrhhgg hes been this swirly twink for so long idk how to change him!#please tell me you all had ocs you wanted to make out with too or i will delete my blog /j #ren won't shut up #maudiemoods art tag #he was my stress oc #i drew him when i was upset <3 #i used to blame my mental problems on him ISNFKWKDJWKS (i was never taught how to process my emotions)

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unintentional-sad-wizard · 4 months

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I need everyone to remember that disagreeing with how Biden handled one thing doesn’t mean he’s as bad as Trump. Yes, Biden has done shit that I don’t like. Yes, there are areas in which he hasn’t done enough good, or he’s done things that are actively bad. Trump will also do a lot of bad, and definitely won’t do as much good. Choosing not to vote for Biden is not going to “make a point”. With the way this system works, not voting for Biden is effectively the same as voting for Trump. People are acting like there’s some sort of secret third option that they’ll unlock if they convince enough people not to vote. That’s not how it fucking works. Stop saying that you don’t want to be complicit in the bad shit Biden does. If you do not vote for him, you are complicit in the bad shit Trump will do if he wins. There is no way to remove yourself from the equation.

#genuinely what the fuck do you guys think will happen if you don’t vote #what is the outcome you’re expecting #because a lot of you are acting all morally superior for planning to not vote #because you want to send a message and teach someone a lesson #but I don’t think you guys are processing what the outcome of that situation is #it is not going to end with both candidates hanging their heads and apologizing and stepping down #this is not your golden opportunity to dismantle the entire government and replace it with your cool new community focused system #that is not one of the outcomes on the table and you cannot will it into existence by telling people not to vote #either biden wins or trump wins. those are your options #and one of them is considerably more dangerous than the other #the being of chaos speaks

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istherewifiinhell · 1 year

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But wifi, how many times are you gonna make the same cake?? Well. Its different this time. I'll use a different pan, theres gonna be layers, not quadrants... whole new thing.

SO THE THING IS, we had an accident at the mutant turtle cake factory. YIPPEE [explodes]

[ID from alt: 1. A bundt cake in orange, blue purple and red, from above. The top of the cake is uneven and torn. The different colours form almost concentric blobs. 2. The bottom of the cake pan, with the top of the cake that broke off. Its mostly orange and blue. 3. The cake with a neon green glaze. 4. A slice of cake, the colours are wild swirl. END ID]

So anyway. Happy late 4 weekiversy, and/or early one monthiversy for the mutant mayhem trailer. However you prefer to count.

#some shit #tmnt #[waves] i only make weird fan works...#<- ill just reuse that shall i. im back!!!!!#i just. really like cake u kno???#i tired a different colour mixing process this time.... didnt work so i just. had to go back to the way i did before. oh well.#i forgot to take photos of the batter cause of that too.#but anywayyyyy. yes if you actually want to make a layer cake in one tin btw you should particaly cook each layer. just so u know.#I CHOSE CHAOS. and laziness... [<- person who made a whole 4 colour cake for funbrhdhdh]#i was. delighted to see it exploding in the oven honestly. lol.#also btw btw. the red IS IN THERE. i would never forget. it was the top layer. so. thus the bottom layer.#ans in photos it can look the same as the orange. but its there!!! if ya squint.

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avvidstarion · 10 months

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new tav they're a tempest domain cleric of talos and i can't choose between two names. do they look more like a torrent or a cataclysm to you? right now they are cataclysm but i can always change it. My thought process for each name is in the tags

#please give me your thought process in the replies i want to hear it #i shall not be playing as them for quite some time i was messing around in character creator and really liked their design so i saved it #pros for torrent: more obviously ties into storms etc and i like the way it sounds #cons for torrent: also has a big computer connotation and that doesnt really fit the vibe. also theyd be tor for short and i am already a #big fan of another fictional character named tor and i want my guy to have their own name #pros for cataclysm: not only associated with storms but also big change and chaos which talos is also god of #and also cataclysm is more in line with my own rules for tiefling names #cons for catalcysm: doesnt have as good a ring to it imo and theyd be cat for short which i dont like

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magpigment · 1 year

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finally got to episode one season two of prime defenders! my thoughts so far ^^ :

dakota :(

mallard >:((

#dandy blogg #jrwi spoilers #jrwi prime defenders #god i hate mallard so muchhhhh it’s not even funny #and also the way grizz is playing dakota so far straight up made me cry my poor baby boy #they all deserve the world #dakota on the edge of a panic attack for like the entire first episode #the way william and vyncent didn’t question him about it that much and even reamed out a spirit of chaos for being too loud #and mostly just tried to support dakota even if they didn’t understand what was going on like. fuck dude #dnd podcast got hands #william has always given me mom friend vibes ngl #anyway i’m loving the atmosphere of season two so far and i love the tone it’s set with the first episode #and the difference between william now and william then feels palpable which is impressive so kudos to charlie #can’t wait for him to undergo even more trauma ^^ <- literally cried about the trauma he already has last night #that scene with dakota actually sharing his feelings candidly and very upfront for once even tho he clearly struggles with articulating #and processing his thoughts and feelings about stuff but wanting to try for his friends because honesty is important to him #the way they’re playing all their characters is absolutely devastating and i’m ONLY ON THE FIRST EPISODE #i think season two is going to crush me dude ngl. can’t wait lmao

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#theres this feeling i get sometimes. i find it very hard to articulate. its part despair and part awe. dispair at how beautiful the world is #all those intricate little process coming together to organize the chaos. i dont kno y i feel it so deeply or y it hurts so much #because its just. no matters what horrible things r going on in the world. ur body is this miraculous collection of chemicals and reactions #mobile containers of water with a history that spirals back billions of years. and you can hear and see and experience and reflect #and when you die the world goes on spinning without you. if we as humans destroyed this planet past the part of our ability to inhabit it #it wouldnt even matter. there would be continued life past humanity. cosmically we r tiny and insignificant and we dont matter #but were beautiful and wonderful and infinity complex and knowing that leaves me in agony. because i want to kno everything right now but #mind is too small and i walk around with the disorientation of someone whos just been hit in thr face ans i cant focus enough to read #cant make the words make sense and i cant justify the time it would take to try. so i sit on my deck. in the sun. crying as i think about #how the light hit the grass in my front yard the last time i was home. how the cliffs in the backyard are ringed with red lines of iron #separated out as the water leached through the sandstone. how every avaliable surface is stained green as organisms reach upward toward #the sun. and its beautiful and i dont kno y im crying. maybe its bc i cant just throw everything aside and chase that feeling. im not #allowed to feel it. im not allowed to talk abt it in the way i want. bc im afraid no one cares as much as me in the same way. bc when i #talk abt what i study its obscure and academic and so far from what most ppl think abt that they get intimidated and dont try to understand #so i just try not to talk abt it. or maybe im just afraid. bc i have my 1st TA meeting tomorrow and i meet with my new advisor friday #and im worried and im afraid i wont b able to do this in a way that doesnt make me feel like im dying. bc i like to b busy and i like having #a strict schedule but if u throw me that knife im going to stab myself with it bc i dont kno how wield it as a tool without hurting myself #sure ill get the job done. but at what cost? whatever. ill try to b better this time. try to hold tight to the wonder. but that feels like #reaching out into forever. knowing ill never make contact. not knowing what im reaching for.#the closest approximation to the feeling i can find is that scene in the terror. where go0dsir is asking if god is there. any god. and it #doesnt matter bc he can see god in the landscape. in an environment that's so harsh and barren that its killing him slowly in the worst of #ways and its beautiful. its still beautiful to him. there is wonder here. and im wasting my time laying in a dark room crying bc i put #myself into a container so constrictive that the surface snaps and i come spilling out as an angry liquid. smearing away into nothing #unrelated

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imogenkol · 2 years

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WELCOME TO EDEN’S END - Far Cry 5

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#oc insp: Lorna Holt #oc insp: Rocky Blackburn #god I’ve been wanting to make far cry ocs for SO LONG #and I’ve been replaying fc5 so here have some fresh baked babes #technically STILL baking cause well I was up late af in the early stages of developming them #but I’m impatient and wanna share #Lorna is the deputy and Rocky is her cousin #they weren’t close like at all growing up #but then he disappeared out of nowhere and everyone just assume he finally left Montana to start a new life of his own #but then the more Lorna gets tangled in the Eden’s Gate chaos she learns that Rocky was actually kidnapped by them #and he was passed around the Seeds as they tried to brainwash him #for the most part they didn’t succeed. Rocky just started acting like he was gung-ho for Joseph to survive #Lorna gets LIVID and tears through everyone in her way to rescue him #and then the two team up to take down the cult - growing pretty close in the process cause Lorna is insanely protective of him now

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kingspuppet · 11 months

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The daunting realization that it's officially November which means NaNo and I'm not prepared in the slightest.

#; OOC || Bri ♟️#//I really wanted to try again this year to see if I can get more out of it than I did last year. Even if it's only by a small margin.#//But with all the loss and chaos it's been difficult wanting to do anything creative.#//So I'm extremely nervous about how it'll go. But maybe it'll help get some motivation back?? Hopefully?#//It's probably going to be a slow process still so I can't make any promises on a timeline.#//But maybe it'll help restore some of my confidence and creativity a bit to jump back in the game on here. 🙏

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savrenim · 2 years

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gods nov 5th is the gift that keeps giving

#I recently have been dragged into I guess sort of the boku no hero academia fandom in the funniest of ways #which is to say I read a crossover fic went 'huh that's good' and decided to read more fic while also deciding to never watch the show #which I've only done for one fandom before and tbh it might legit be a more fun fanfiction reading experience than the normal one #it is WILD trying to reverse-engineer what is simply well-accepted fan theory and what is actual canon #I've definitely gotten a few guesses wrong but the osmosis process is really fun #(esp bc if you want to be a good detective you have to check dates; even people writing very carefully close to canon #might have written a fic before canon came out)#BUT ANYWAYS I guess I read BNHA fic now it's actually pretty good #probably bc there are multiple characters that fit my standard..... not even 'blorbo' preferences #my 'you have a backstory and/or situation that means fanfic written about you is most likely going to hit the spot' preferences #1 defs being Eraserhead bc let's be real 'I am a very tired gruff teacher working two jobs at once who does not get any sleep and has #against my own will adopted all of you why is this happening to me I'm so tired' is The Most Relatable #Hawks bc Crafted Into A Weapon From Childhood is The Weapons Feels^TM #and then Dabi bc that was the crossover that I read that was fun ok it was a silly jjk crossover of 'what if Gojo is reincarnated as Dabi'#that just transferred all my 'HELLO FAVORITE CHARACTER' emotions onto Dabi who then I go and look up and has also the sort of backstory #that makes him fave character material #SO here I am sitting here just generally happy with all of this watching my annual Nov 5th meme compilation #and LO AND BEHOLD there is strong arm 'trending during the us election: destiel/ BNHA' meme #and I'm going 'what the fuuuuuuuck my new favorite fandom aLSO TRENDED IN THE NOV 5TH CHAOS????'#so obviously I had to look up why #WELL THE WHY WAS DABI BACKSTORY REVEAL #anyways my housemate had to check on me as to why I was screaming and it turns out that indeed nov 5th #is the gift that keeps on giving #if you have read this far down in my tags I feel like you now know uncomfortably personal things about me #esp if you know enough about BNHA to understand all of that #so if you have any fic recs About My Favs I'm taking them I esp enjoy canon retellings bc it's REALLY fun to try to figure out #which bits of those are actually canon

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greppelheks · 11 months

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Healing and growing and experiencing new things is so great, but it's also so damn overwhelming. I'm feeling so overwhelmed with all the decisions I have to make, all the things I need to think about, all the setbacks and joys I need to process, all the emotions that are a part of that. All I wanna do today is cry and sleep.

#Which is exactly what I'm gonna do tonight #I'm just gonna have a few drinks and watch a movie and CRY because my body needs the release #personal #I just got texted that there's an apartment opening up and that I should call TONIGHT if I wanted it #and I just started Sobbing because I can't make another decision at this moment #Gonna let go of all my responsibilities for tonight and just have fun #I cancelled my plans for tomorrow 'cause I can't deal with the chaos and worry and depression at my sister's house right now #'cause I've been overwhelmed and worried about her for the past few weeks on the daily #I hope I can put some stuff on paper and figure some stuff out #I miss... a few weeks back when I was optimistic about it all #I'm just insecure and worried now #I'll be FINE but the process is... a process #couch! blanket! fall food! alcohol! period drama with keira knightley!

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asmoonlightthroughthepines · 1 year

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#my dudes i am absolutely losing my mind (and not in a good way) over the absolute fucking assholery of the french govt those days #and the general daily chaos; and whenever i check international news sites it seems like it’s barely mentioned? beyond rubbish piling up?#and i’m torn between not wanting to reblog stuff because 1.is french politics boring for y’all? and 2.tumblr is a welcome distraction and i #don’t want to throw that kind of photos on your dash with no warning #but also it’s so hard not to reblog it all bc it vaguely helps me process the absolute FUCKERY OF IT ALL (and so far screaming into a pillow #hasn’t helped much)#anyhoo pls feel free to DM if you have thoughts/preferences #bc i always enjoy and learn so much when you people reblog about local politics #but don’t want to assume the besties enjoy that stuff on the dash when we’re all here to forget about life’s hardships 💕

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grimmjowjaegerjaquez · 2 years

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much as i like sa2b i do not want the normal sonic level part of the game i want the chao garden and the chao garden ONLY it is THE only reason i want to replay that game

#i saw that there was like. a steam/pc version of sa2 and got excited #and also that there was a mod someone made for it that expanded the chao garden a little bit #which i thought was wow cool!!!#however i am very lazy and dont want to go through the process of setting all that up so.#i will simply sit here and covet the possibilities

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justabunchofdragons · 1 year

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hello o7

#chaos.txt #aughhh im so tired. not enough spoons to do private life updates so im just... sending it out to everyone #uhmmm im doing good! have not made as much progress on my neocities as i wanted :/ studying is going well though #still quite stressed but less so because i have Been studying #working on a few new carrds + paintings #would like to do some digital art studies .. clouds and landscapes they are calling me ..#what else. i went to go watch astv again! it felt revolutionary in a different way the second time #but i cannot economically justify going again! excited to have it on streaming because i would LOVE to do some scene redraws #listening to worlds beyond number + very much obsessed. been also squinting at a few commentary ytbers cuz some of the stuff they say is..#not. great. i don't fully like em. hm. also been organising my files etc etc. made a cute notion that im not using! as expected #thinking about writing some fic tbh . had some epic watcher ideas a while ago that i would like to explore #im going to ... schedule this. for tomorrow. not in the headspace to . speak . to people. aa. its fine #i miss u guys. i think. i am so anxious and stressed all the time !! aagh. so dramatic. so dramatic chaos. what a mess. goodbye lads #see uuu all . in maybe 10 days .nods. maybe another life update in 10 days. because my exam is in 20 #this exam is so so so important guys. idk. why it feels more important than everything else ive done for the application process but it doe #and it. stresses .me .out. ok gbye forreal now

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