#but at least now I can draw yey

[zkylearnstherope]

Rush Hour [Where We Belong] - AvA / AvM Fan-Made

A very ambitious and late New Year's Special.

Thank you to everyone who waited.

When a proud King kneels, he must have a story to tell.

I know it's hard to believe, especially coming from the Kinky Blog, but the reason I actually started doing all of this fan art stuff was just to be able to tell this specific story. The idea has been around in my head for weeks, way before Being Cautious.

The plot underwent so many iterations but the base concept is still the same: King must find his inner child to find where he belongs. Yup, the [series tag] is actually named after this one. Why a child? Because children see the world as so much brighter, they run and run just to laugh at the stupidest things, and they would never ever try to k*ll themselves.

I am actually glad that I waited for a little bit before I made this. Like, I found my style now and can do some highlights and perspectives. It was hard to plan out but I really love how it all turned out. I hope you guys do too.

Author's Note

This took about a month to make. Around 7 days of planning the composition, plus 23 days to actually draw. Finishing with a total of 12 Frames / 7 Pages.

All four backgrounds are AI-Generated and then color-graded to match the scenes from The King.

The crowd consists of 10 different poses.

Most of my thoughts are in the WIP Post.

As some of you know, I did this because we somehow got 51 Followers a day after Christmas, and guess what- we're at 72 now. Yey!

Someone asked me why Gold looked like Glitchy King Orange. If you watch The King, you'll see that "The King" was one of Gold's games. He was a character that Gold used to roleplay. At least that's how I interpreted that scene.

Original characters by Alan Becker

[ellayuki]

26112022 - Wednesday (Netflix)

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'Enid's number.' is the first thing she texts as soon as she is back in the cold, comforting embrace of her own quiet bedroom. And, 'Also, Eugene's.'

'Hey to you, too.' comes Xavier's dry reply, followed by a snarky, 'Bold of you to assume I have them.'

Wednesday rolls her eyes and sighs. Boys are so vexing, even those who know the correct way to play hide and seek, and who have good taste in drawing materials. 'I know you have them.'

It takes Xavier a few minutes (too many for Wednesday's liking, she shall have to find an inventive way to torture him for it when school starts again), but he does send the requested numbers. 'Hopefully, this isn't the last time I hear from you,' he follows with, and Wednesday huffs.

'You'll just have to wait and see.'

She saves the two numbers and lays the phone on her desk for the time being.

She has more important things to do, now that she's back home, like catching up on torturing Pugsley (she'd had some new ideas before her parents shipped her off to Nevermore), and seeing to the state of her plants and blades.

She'll text Enid when she'll have the time.

~

"You've had my number for a week? Then why haven't you texted until now? Or called? We could have Facetimed."

This is why, Wednesday thinks to herself, though this time, she manages to keep herself from rolling her eyes.

Enid is… Enid. And as much as Wednesday feels like vomiting at the mere sight of all those bright colours, somehow, she doesn't want to see the other girl change. It's annoying.

It's vexing in a whole different way.

"I have been busy," she answers, and it's not a lie, she has been busy with all sorts of things. She's had an idea for another novel, for one thing, and the time to write uninterrupted (with the exceptions of Pugsley's miserable attempts at murder).

Enid hums, like she always does when she doesn't fully believe what Wednesday is saying (so vexing, honestly, when Wednesday speaks nothing but the truth), before she says, "Fine, I guess I'll forgive you this one time," in her sunshiney voice. "But! I will get you at least on Insta once the new semester starts," she adds, and it sounds more like a threat than anything.

Wednesday takes it as a challenge.

~

("Can you play me something?"

"Over the phone? At this hour? Who are you and what have you done with Enid?"

"Yeah, yeah, shut up. Most of the family's away for the weekend and it's so quiet around here that I can't sleep. So. Will you?"

"Alright. I guess."

"Yey!")

[redraven3093]

Catching Up with Phil's QSMP VOD

3rd July

LETS GOOO

Oh Chat makin Cookies?- HI PHIL!-E-eppy Phil

Oh maybe to Vidcon,- I mean French is in fire rn.

Ok QSMP TIME

YEAH-yo wtf??? The qusest today?

Ah Super Hero theme today eh?-ah it cant fly now eh?

A GIANT SQUID??- nah fam they are not doin that- a leo Themed?-stream o plaine

OH shit Hi Chayanne- YEAH FUQ THE MISSION

YEAH DÉCOR TIME- concrete?- OH YEAH YELLOW AND ORANGE THEME

Safety first- oh wait its broken?-oh it did?-ugh got bad felling about it

DON’T JINX IT CHAYANNE

?

Yeah its fixed-hopefully

LET HIM COOK-omg god look at that bag

Rare food?- oh shit the end fruit!!-Bone Soup

YEH ADVENTURE-wait why is fit with Dapper?

Hi Dapper- KIDS PLS-KIDS WHY??

Lol the poison Spider- Phil pls- I mean BBH is expensive- OMG BBH DON’T HAVE THAT

Lol dragon magic- OMG THAT’S HOW THE GOT EM???-that’s bs Phil

Oh hi Tubbo

RIGBY 2.0 LETS GOO- a whale?- oh its Dapper

Kitties! :D- oh? The Cat that survived the Big blow ystrday r8??- OH???

Oh shit fit omg- DIAMOND NOT FAKE THIS TIME LETS GOOO

Oh yeah 4th of Jully-YAH FUQ THE MONARCHY

Omg the Island is Fukin with them

Shinny!-Lol fake- SPIDERSS-omg the fancy Twins –

PHIL DON’T MOCK US THAT WAY

Yeah mission are BS rn-oh tempting the gods are we?- lol summoning Cucurucho phil ur son right there

Lol dapper-Lol Chayanne

  OH LOOP HOLE- BECAUSE ITS LEO’S THEMED TODAY FIT.

RAMON NO

Ah yes the Parents Gossip time- Yeah VID CON!-

PFft- FIT PLS- o mg

KIDS OMG PLS NO

Welp they done I guess-Rare fruit time!- 1 done and many bs along the way to go

Ohh cool sword- HOLY SHIT –

Yeah that would be Crazy~-I MEAN-

 OH THAT WAY

WHAT??!!OMG- Phil and Fit  have so many Illegal shit omg

Wat Shulqur?- OMG THEY USE NETHERATE

Lol- YEAH NEW MISSIONS- lol it crashed- Black Mail POG

Omg its still there- break the ruleee

Of course u did phil

Opp there goes Ramon and Chayanne-  boys wil be boys- they all lost it- RAMON NO

YEAHH  CHURCH VANDALATIONS

Phil is so Scared to be left with others egg

Hi Dapper- WTH? Where do you get that thing??- holly shit?- yeah 2009-2013 Vidio game rumours are crazy

Lol Chayanne is clearly alt tabbing

KIDS PLS

Guys pls it’s a place of holly matrimony – what is that?

NO more Marriges- lol

Time to pay I guess- oh god they did miss a few

Lol Chayanne- Yeah Dapper join in!

Lol yeah cmone chayanne why so stiff?- good lord Chayanne is living that admin life rn

Oh kitty- CAT CAT- catcucurucho- holy the cat is immortal

Kil the cat Chayanne- CIA CAT

Oh god Philza and Fit is just a menace

Oh? Chayanne u invited someone?- Dapper pls

OPP WE GOT EM BOIS!- Walter Bob??-Come on dude we just wanna talk

Omg fit pls- YEAH if BBH cant do it then no one can do it

Bad hair btw- oh yeah that ankle thingy-opp rainbow

Best bob

Omg Chayanne is Alt tab- he’s in emergency meeting

Ah! They’ve gone to Ramon’s Barber shop nice

Still waiting- Okk at least we get reconsiderations- Waltuh

Thank yu for yur service WALTUH

It wont break the emergences- break the holly mellon

YEAH CREATIVE

Yeah they all alt tabbing- “in my scientific reason-

Wat if he Forgo-opp wher did they go?

Do you get paid bob?- is it good pay

Lol Hot tub stream- YEAH NEW MISSION

Thanks Bob!- thanks KIDS- ah yes a loop hole

WAT??- new moshrom island

BOAT TIMEEEE-WTF?? A Lost TENTICALE???? IN THE RIGHT AMOUNTS???

Omg the kids was fightin for their life for that thing

Omg- Yey island- ahh brings back memories

Lol Sussy baka Phil- Oh they found one- oh not that one

BOAT TIME- OMG CHARLIE’S Corpse

Oh? An Illegal Villager Farm- BY AYEPIERR?!

Where are the going?

HOLLY SHIT????

Omg dapper pls- HOT NEWBLACK MAIL LETS GOOO- good god this place is confusing

 Oh the found it YEY

Oh no-FIT PLS-Trauma in coming

Fit is a charmer-oh Hey Baghera

Omg that thing is ugly

FIT PLS

Opp Bye Fit bye Ramon

Im really dozing off finishing this Drawings

Hi BBH- oh wait Crimson Forest?

CAT- THE CIA CAT

Yeah give Bad the scoop

Yeah its weird-welp time to chill I guess- oh shiny Fish- NOO it died rip

Still waiting

Weird bunny is so hard to find ugh

Wat is happening with Baghera rn?

Rescue mission?- Yeah get the kids to safety first- opp crashing

Server Close??- are we chill today?- oh hey Tommy

Yeah we back- opp cant see Dapper- uhh not sure coming with them is a good idea kids

Oh noo-welp guess we alone now-shit trauma~-

Yeah Rabbit sound fine-opp BBH? Ah so he did needs help-oh shit where is Dapper?

Dapper pls buddy don’t just jump where is danger kid- wait? Dapper isn’t there?-

oh there is Pomme too?- we cant see her-okk bye

ok following you king- yeah the train is soo awesome

opp guess we still searching

Cucurucho??-yey bunny- is the bunny normal?

YEAH FLIP THE OFF THE TARANTULA- ohno you lost it?

Yeah safety first kiddo

Etoiles???- u okay sir???

Yeah Do your Magic King- oh shit it attacks!- oh no king

Thanks, Dapper-oh shit that wikked

Oh shit- fuq off!- yu won’t fight today?

OH FUCK OFFF YOU BINARY BASTARD

No- Don’t go ANYWHERE near Tallulah you Bastard

Oh they are fuking with us at this point- Fuk

Oh hey baghera

Yeah Those binary bastards are so cruel- they cant attack while election?- opp bye Baghera

Oh hey Dapper wat are yu doing bud?- Omg lol

That’s not how fair trades work Phil

Yeah  the cats are clearly sus like random animals cant just appeared tamed out of no where

And only admins can killem

Opp Red Vine???- of course YOU would find them nice Bad-LOL

OHHH- prteey- okay chayanne stay safe

   Yay it work- BIG LAD-cant put him in a cage- YEAH LET EM ROAM AROUND!

YEAHHHH The Wither Skeleton Head is Cooler

Hah~ it remind us of him

Opp? Oh Yeah no u right Pomme is in way to many danger rn

YEAHHH BED TIME

Aww- yeah you go Rest King-

PHIL no Spoilers for the Spider kid movie

NOOOO

Yeah HOBBIE ANARCHIT SPIDERMAN LETS GOOOO

?? he breaks the rule of frame break?-  omg ANIMATION POG

Hobbie is so cool- yes Brtish Anarchist Spider

Wait who’s Signs is that? OH LEO’S

Kay get some rest Kiddo

Big stress- Lol Chayanne is gone FAST-

YEAH HAPPY 4th of JULY

Go eat yur cake Phil

BYE PHIL

[admirableadmiranda]

Yey! Sangsang gas finished erha I can scream about my fav arcs now. Of course, it will always and never changing reviving chu Wanning and Xia Sini arc. SEE, Mo Ran, when he has this realization, the slowly but surely understanding drawing to him, I just couldn't it made cry so hard please, AND THEN the foreshadowed things!!! Lmao, them mistaking Chu Wanning for Chu Xun and Chu Wanning injured soul are two. Then the Xia Sini arc. Oh no I will never not cry when reading that arc after the reveal. And the reveal oh gosh!!! The HAITING FLOWERS SCENT! UGH! MO RAN'S BACKSTORY! moving on, What's your fav arc Sangsang?

Also, did u have the experience calling their name like this?

Mo Ran... /frustrated /derogatory /sympathetic /horrified /exasperated

Chu Wanning /in tears

Anyways, most of the time I wanted to strangle them while hugging them. I guess that's called crushing their bones with a hug? Man the ride for erha, it was so perfect. For my angst driven heart, it was the best story I could ask for.

I have finished Erha!! I made it through and I loved it!!

Ah, Xia Sini and Chu Xun arcs were both great. As were the flowers and Mo Ran's backstory and just the whole thing.

Hmm... weird as it sounds cause I did just adore Ranwan, I think my favorite arc is the one where the clans try to frame Sisheng Peak for everything that's happened and all the reveals from there. That was what really cemented my love for Xue Meng, that was what made his parents (not the sperm donor) amazing and just the whole thing was so good. Especially with the way that in the end, while Madam Wang and Xue Zhengyong died, the mob failed. They couldn't destroy the heart of Sisheng Peak and in the end they came back stronger than every.

I think I wrote to my friends in the discord thread I kept up for reactions "MO. RAN. YOU. FUCK." at least four times. I also did bawl for Chu Wanning several times. At the end I was so happy that Chu Wanning and Mo Ran got to be happy together in all ways, with every wound tended to and every scar soothed. I didn't believe that such a happy ending could be pulled off, but somehow Meatbun did it and she's earned my respect for it.

As far as my danmei adventures have gone, Erha shot right up to the top of my list, right underneath Modaozushi. It's not my favorite yet, but it's pretty damn close.

This is hereby my recommendation that if you're up for an emotional rollercoaster of a story, give The Husky and his White Cat Shizun a start! It will surprise you beyond your wildest expectations!

[lavenderlyncis]

Hey Lyn, hey, hello, hi (to read in a overly excited high pitched tone of voice)!!!

So: I saw that you posted Midnight and I thought "well, I'll do the responsible thing and read it tomorrow" and then I got caught in a 48 hours work frenesí. And I just barely got free.

But I'm so so excited it's almost midnight, I'm tired as fuck buuut... I wasn't going to leave this unread anymore.

And here I am. I've read probably half of it and I'm going to scream in your ask because I'm probably not going to end tonight (quite a long one this one, I'm not complaining but... wow) and I need to scream:

1. Why is my boy alone? He can't be alone! Where's James? Where's Sirius? WHY IS HE ALONE? Now I'm going to be asking this in my mind every time you release a new chapter. So well done in the cliffhanger/trap you audience front but WHY IS MYYYY BELOVEEED ALONE?!?!

2. ""Not my fault that you're naive enough to trust me." That conversation with Remus and Sirius is amazing. I like the sarcastic "darkish" side of Remus so much.

3. I love that you called James beautiful since the beginning. Not handsome, not attractive, not fit... beautiful. And of course I got the song there: Will you ever know? You're beautiful, every little piece, love 🎶

4. Oh! Marlene fucking Mackinon in cowboy boots. I don't have any idea of how to draw but if I could I'd draw her in her boots. Oh yes.

5. I really really don't like Walburga and her parenting skills buuuut... the way you used that scene to show how difficult is for Regulus to read social context (hey, hi, that's me, having trouble to understand what is asked and how to answer, yep, me) is so clever. And also you used it to start (or strength) the Black Brothers angst. So well done.

And the last one in this (sorry, too long, I know, I couldn't help it) ask:

6. Oh my boy, my beautiful heartbroken boy. "His false smile was the thread that kept him tied together". I felt that phrase and oh boy it hurt (and yep, I got that song too).

So, yey, I got two songs so far (this is an accomplishment since Taylor's albums before 2012 -Red- are not exactly my thing and I don't hear them quite often).

Lyn this is so good, I love it. I'll scream more later 😅

*demonic screeching to show how much this ask means to me*

Thank you so so much for screaming in my ask box, never stop doing that! I love getting scrumpt at!

But please don't overwork yourself for me, the chapter isn't running away, love💙💙 If you see me complain over the amount of success for any of my fanfics, it's never ever directed towards you or anyone else on tumblr. I'm just screaming at the ao3 gods for not making me post at a more "profitable" time

1. Why is our beloved alone? Will the future of our poor boy look just as lonely? That and more we will find out! ... eventually, anyway

YOU GOT SOME OF THE SONG REFERENCES YAAAAS!! There are so many, I put my whole swiftussy into this

4. Northern Marlene in cowboy boots is something that can be so personal, actually

5. Thank you!! The constant changing of Walburga between abusive control and neglect is based on my own mother and her inconsistencies! As is our poor boy Regulus' inability to understand social cues. He is an autistic icon

Oh, you're going to LOVE red and everything after that, I just know it! I think I've used every debut song in this at least kind of. I don't think it's even possible to get every reference lmao

[jaydawne]

Even more Samuel art

This one is dedicated to the AU Samuel's I have drawn so far, including ones made by others because the AU's were too cool and wouldn't leave my brain. Putting them under the cut because the art takes up a lotta space.

Starting off, we have Samuel as a Sable mutant! Why? Because yes! Sables are cool

Next is DCA Samuel, with a heavy inspiration from Poppy Playtime cuz I thought it'd be fun. It was indeed fun.

And now onto Dragon Shifter Sam! I don't have a lot on him, but I have this so yey

And now, one of my favourites, Semi-drider Samuel! I'm still sorta trying to figure out the how with this, but he's very silly and feral. I do need to draw another version so he has pedipalps because I forgot to add them :( Also the markings on his legs and chelicerae are paint! Mikey likes to decorate his new features :)

Now moving onto AU's made by other people, this is Spirits Reborn! Samuel. Essentially, he becomes a creature similar to that of a Protector (a creature I made up to have an excuse to make Samuel a silly massive monster thing), probably gonna call it a Guardian or smth. He basically just does what he can to keep the forest and its occupants safe and whatnot. (The AU is by @/cokoweee, you should totally check it out if you haven't seen it already)

And finally, last but not least, Samuel if he were in @/Beebopurr's Lighthouse AU! (Another super cool AU you should absolutely check out it's very cool). After some converstaion with one of my moots, Lighthouse Sam ended up being able to essentially become a Kraken, which I have no idea how that would be relevant in the AU at all, but oh well the brainrot is too strong for me to change it. And joyfully, the whole Kraken-ing thing has lore! Which is always fun.

If you got this far, thank you for looking at my post and reading my silliness about my favourite OC I've ever made. Have a lovely day!

[sunshinelittlethings]

June 20, 2022 - Monday

Hello Tumblr!

Kumusta? Char akala mo naman sasagot si Tumblr e WAHSHSHHS. Anyway, I'm okay and I can say that I am happy right now. Btw, enrolled na pala ako and I am officially 2nd yr college student! Yey! Nananalangin lang ako na malalagpasan ko ang 1st sem ng 2nd yr college life ko at sana ay magfocus ako ngayon sa klase and sa life ko. Maybe I can flirt at someone or have a crush again but my main focus is my studies. Lalo na at lima ang major subjects ko ngayon. Hindi pwedeng papetik petiks ako.

I bought stationaries na for 1st sem and need ko pa bumili for stock kasi sabi mauubos ang notebook namin agad. Limang subject e times two since isa sa lecture at isa sa lab kaya ayon. Nagrestock na din ako ng mga highlighters at ballpen. Sa August bibili pa ulit ako ng notebooks at pencil at glue. Kailangan ko yon. Since puro drawing din kami. Need ko na din actually ng iPad pero nahihiya na ako magsabi kanila Mama kasi mahal din yon and medyo mahal ang tuition fee ko ngayong sem. Madami dami akong gustong bilhin wala lang pera. Pero at least nabibili ko yung mga gusto kong bilhin, kahit papaano. Hehe.

Dumating na din pala yung libro ko na Safe Skies, Archer. It is my favorite book ni Ate Gwy because it focused sa dreams ng bida. I mean, kahit malate kang abutin ang dreams mo, at least matutupad mo siya. Huli man pero natupad mo at nagawa mo. It is so healing for me since ang ganda ng story. Syempre except sa mga scenes na bawal sa mga minor no. All in all ang ganda talaga and recommended ko siya basahin sa iba.

Yun lang Tumblr~ See you soon! <3

[visd3stele]

can you write a oneshot post TWK where during Jude’s exile Jude is about to get married to a mortal man and Cardan stops the wedding?

yep, thank you for requesting :)

hope you like it 💛

'Til death do you apart

TW: abandoment issues and angsty angsty angst (with a bit of fluff at the end and bitter sweet happy ending)

A/N: A good first half of this is... emotional, to put it that way. Got a bit too much in the character's head and added my own sour mood as it happens when I write. But there is a happy handing, so yey! right? Also, I know it was supposed to (may)be short(er), sorry for letting myself go with the flow like that. All in all, I'd hate to take out any paragraphs, it wouldn't be the same and it's not my worst piece to be honest. What do you think?

masterlist ; requests

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Cardan's raven hair seemed to consume the yellow light pouring in the royal chambers through a huge window. All in Elfhame slept peacefully in their beds, but the king was wide awake, scribbling nervously on a piece of paper. The dark green feather of his quill bounced in the air as Cardan tapped its nib on the letter, letting a pool of blue forming around Jude's name.

The dark eyed boy brushed a hand over his face. Water slipped from the corners of his eyes, tears from the lack of sleep, he'd insist. The lopsided crown has finally fallen off his head, but Cardan didn't bother to pick it up. Like he didn't bother to change his visibly wrinkled white flannel shirt or the pants he wore to bed a couple of days ago.

Purple bags hanged under his lashes and red vines swam in the white of his eyes. It hurts when he blinked, but he couldn't rest. Not if it meant seeing her face. At least when he was awake Jude was a voice in the back of his mind, a name written in bold on his brain. But when he closed his eyes, Cardan saw her face. Her chestnut hair swiping around her splashed in droplets of her enemies' blood cheeks. Her big brown eyes catching the sunlight like autumn leaves. Her fit body, twirling in a fight as she draws knife after knife from her bodice.

"Your majesty?" A small, pale orange fairy dragged its wings inside. The same poor soul that'd come every day to deliver Cardan's letters to the mortal land. But the fairy stopped in its tracks. Usually, the High King wound hand over the neat piece of paper without even looking. But now, the king's head rested on his knuckles as his chin pressed against his fist.

"Leave," he said, not hiding the disaster he became. Exiling Jude has been a wrong call. He's been a fool to think she'll come back once she's freed of him. Sure, she married him. Only to secure her power, to further her plans. The thought wouldn't leave him alone. And what else did he expect? Cardan hoped Jude would be proud of his cleverness, but aren't most fairies silver tongued? Cardan hoped he'd prove himself worthy of the girl who bargained for his heart and didn't even realized it. But the only reason she stayed was for the crown. For Oak and Elfhame.

It could have been laughable if Cardan's heart didn't feel like lead in his chest. Jude Duarte, a mortal girl, caring more about his kingdom's well being than himself. Being a better fae than himself. Maybe that's why she left for good as soon as she could. Because there is no way his Jude, sly and fearless as she is, able to plot against the folk and the merfolk, didn't solve his little riddle. The only possible option is that: she is choosing to stay in the mortal land. Of course! She must have realized the truth about Cardan. That no matter what he does, he can't ever be more than a source of entertainment. That no matter what he thinks, wishes for or says, he'll always be the stain on the Greenbriar name.

The small fairy rushed outside, not daring to question the High King. Not since the weather outside worsened considerably in the spawn of minutes. Not since the earth became more and more rotten by day.

Cardan rose on wiggly feet, stumbling over his own shoes towards the golden cabinet. From there he took another bottle of wine, opening it with his teeth and gulping a quarter of it down in one setting. A strangled cry left his lips when his legs ceased and he fell on his knees. The king stayed there, unfinished letter forgotten. He should leave her alone, after all. Jude must have a good laugh at him, pathetically begging her to return to a home she never wanted. It's been months and the lack of response from his wife should've been enough of a clue about her feelings.

With one more sip, he laid on the cold floor, tail wrapped around himself like he hadn't done since childhood. And the king of Elfhame drifted to a dreamless sleep.

Meanwhile, in a beautifully decorated booth in an expensive restaurant, a man dropped to one knee in front of Jude, holding a small, velvet wrapped red box open for her to see a glistening ring. Upon seeing it, Jude's fingers moved on their own around the stolen ruby ring. One that belonged to another Jude, another life - hell! Another realm altogether.

That girl had high ambitions. She thought she could change the world, play an eons long game and actually win. That girl has pushed love, romanticism, so far down she didn't recognized it anymore. And it has been her demise.

While her lips moved and the one word came out to seal her fate, Jude remembered another proposition. Less formal, less sparkling and romantic, but more at the same time. More intimate, more real. Cardan has stolen her heart with that ring, she recorded. She has been so impressed and a thimble of pride clouded her heart for just one bit when the cruel prince swiped it off the first time. And when he gave it back, asking for her hand with it, her soul has already been opened for him.

"Yes," Jude said. And it was easier than the first time. Simple, as she thought it should be. No hint of a thrill ran down her spine, no excitement tumbled in her mind. She should be happy, content. Chasing adrenaline and victory costed her greatly. It ruined her. But all Jude felt as she stepped into the warm embrace of the man, with soft eyes, enough to heat up a frozen soul, was cold. A paralyzing, dreadful, painful cold.

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Taryn chewed on her lips standing before the majestic throne. She waited for Cardan, crumpling and folding back the formal invitation she received from her twin. The mild Duarte sister couldn't believe her eyes the first three times she read it, but sure enough, Jude was getting married. And since Locke was nowhere to be found, she needed someone else to help her pass through realms.

Cardan's foggy mind took in the image of the great hall, heart skipping a beat and breath catching in his throat when he saw her. "Jude?" He whispered to himself, the terrible, familiar headache being the only thing stopping him from running forward, scooping her in his arms and kissing her poisonously sweet lips.

But as he got closer and his senses came back in their rights, Cardan realized. Taryn. Not the sister he wanted. The sister he needed. His temper threatened to lash out, even though part of him knew the timid girl in front of the throne was not to blame for raising his hopes and then deflecting him. But Cardan was tired. So, so tired. Too much to do anything but simply dropping himself on the throne, leaning his back on one of its arms and swaying his legs over the other.

"Well?" He said, in the same way he'd have done it if he was still just a forgotten prince who still required submission from the folk. Cardan wondered if such a miserable state was the norm for him, if no one seemed to notice him digging holes into his heart.

"I'm terribly sorry to bother you, your majesty!" Taryn started and Cardan winced. The same voice, yet so humble, obedient, fearful. If the mortal girl's audience wouldn't end soon, the king thought he might do something he'll regret later. For such a perversion of his brave, wonderful, commanding Jude he couldn't stand.

"I know my husband, Locke, is one of your great friends," Cardan had to dig his nails in his palms to keep from rolling his eyes. Instead, he waved a hand in acknowledgement and waited for Taryn to continue. "And I was wondering if you could help me because of that."

"Locke needs a good story to keep him occupied," Cardan said condescendingly. "Find new games to play and you'll never lose his interest. That's all?"

Taryn's cheeks reddened. "That wasn't- I mean, I didn't..." she took a breath. "I need to pass to the mortal land. Quickly. My husband is... busy, and Madoc's estate is a bit off limits since we're having different opinions on my current domestic life. So I'm asking you," Taryn seemed to consider her words for a second, then added "if it's not too much trouble, your majesty."

"Pass through...?" Cardan's eyes lit up, an ember of the mischief and life that once dwelled in them. "What for, pry tell?"

"My sister's wedding, your majesty."

The king straightened, ringed fingers gripping the edges of the throne's arms, tail flipping forcefully behind him. "Which sister?" He asked as a wrinkle formed between his eyebrows.

"My twin, Jude. Is everything alright, sire?" Taryn furrowed her brows when Cardan jumped to his feet, clenching his jaws. His black eyes burned with fury, tail whipping the air aching to wrap itself around the unknown groom's neck. A hurricane of emotions flashed through him: jealousy, anger and hatred. But all that only to cover the greatest one from all, pain. Thinking he has been yet again abandoned by someone he loved, forgotten as she moved on with her life while he's stuck and forever will be, he knows it, is one thing. Having it brutally confirmed, happiness unavailable to him thrown in his face like Jude getting married meant nothing to him, was another. And it hurt more than his mother's absence, his father and sisters' indifference. More than his brother's betrayal, Balekin's punishments or his friends' affair.

"Sire?"

"I'm fine," he spitted. "Perfectly fine, Taryn. Now come on, wouldn't want to be late, would we?"

"We?"

"Yes!" The king seethed and stormed out of the throne room, not checking if the girl followed or not. And good thing he did, because if not, he would have been too late.

By the time the pair arrived, a blanket of stars littered the dark blue sky and a silver full moon glistered above the wedding venue. Taryn rushed to find her sister, but Cardan was stopped in place by what he saw. Rows of white chairs were aligned in front of a flower arch where a man dressed neatly in a midday summer sky blue laughed nervously with someone at his side. Waiting for Jude to show up on the path between the chairs.

Cardan took his time to analyze the man. He was his polar opposite. His hair freshly dyed in a sparkling color, his eyes warmer and softer. He was tall and muscular, wearing himself with dignity and not a single sign of self doubt or foggy mind. He seemed perfect, from the tidy outfit to the pleasant behavior. But the king didn't have time to mule over it. For Jude appeared at the end of the pathway. And his heart sunk in his chest deeper than normal, beating as if trying to escape its cage and run to where it belonged: Jude's arms.

The High King watched the white dress flowing around Jude's frame and for a painful, short moment, he dared imagining himself in front of her. Seeing her flustered cheeks like every time they kissed before, her blissful lips stretched in a rare smile and eyes watching him with love. sword and Cardan had no doubts that need be, the flowers in her hands would be as good as a sharp blade against enemies.

The High King watched the white dress flowing around Jude's frame and for a painful, short moment, he dared imagining himself in front of her. Seeing her flustered cheeks like everytime they kissed before, her blissful lips stretched in a rare smile and eyes watching him with love.

Cardan glared at the man's adoring face. It should have been him in his shoes. "You good?" A bemused voice beamed from behind.

"Vivienne?" Cardan questioned when he turned, taken aback by the golden cat eyes, pointy, furred ears and styled hair of Jude's older sister.

"It's Vivi, your highness," the title sounded like a joke when she said it. "Why are you here? Don't you have a kingdom to rule, more hearts to break or girls to exile?"

"I brought Taryn over. I though I should wait for her... for Locke's sake. Why aren't you there?" Cardan mimicked a bored demeanour when he pointed towards the venue. If the gleam that suddenly shone in Vivi's eyes was any hint, he failed.

"Why are you here?"

"You first."

The half fae frowned, but eventually, she answered honestly. "I don't agree with the wedding," Vivi shrugged. " I told Jude as much, but she's being stubborn."

"So she's just being herself." Cardan noted wistfully. "What's wrong with it?"

"She doesn't love him." The fae said as if she didn't just boosted endorphin in Cardan's patched up heart. Vivi noticed the wide eyed expression, the conflicted thoughts flying over his face as fast as they did in his mind. "What?"

"She doesn't? But... I thought... why then?"

"To forget."

Cardan's gaze moved from the wedding party to Vivi and back, mouth agap, head so full it felt empty. "Forget what? Who?"

"How much she misses Elfhame. How much she wants to kill someone she loves." Vivienne threw him a pointing look. "She's gonna regret it." The fae rose her brows towards Jude's figure, almost reaching the groom.

°•▪︎~▪︎•°

Jude accepted the hands reaching for her and offered her to be husband a tentative smile. The priest started talking, but she paid no mind. A loud throbbing thundered in her ear. Sweat pooled in her already slippery shoes. Droplets of rain started to rarely fall. She saw the audience shifting restlessly, the priest's speech quickening. The fine guy gripped her hands tighter and smiled at her.

"Maybe we'll have a kiss in the rain," he laughed adorningly.

"Mhm."

When the big question came, he said "I do" immediately. But Jude couldn't force her words out. She felt all eyes on her, as she struggled to speak. In the silence, only the rain falling faster sounded.

And then, words echoed loud and crystal clear in the opening. Except, it wasn't Jude's voice. And it wasn't "I do."

"Stop!" Cardan shouted. "Stop the wedding." The guests frowned and gasped, exchanging worried or confused looks.

Jude stared at the fae. His high cheekbones smudged with glitter, his thin pink lips that usually curled in a cruel smirk now wibbling and trembling as sharp breaths left and entered his body. Cardan looked at her through tufts of black hair, obsidian eyes wide with unspoken pleas.

"Stop it all," he said again, gaze locked with Jude's.

"What's going on here?" Asked the groom, stepping down towards Cardan. "Who are you?"

Before he could answer and worsen the situation, Jude spoke up. "Cardan, what are you doing here?" The mortal queen passed over her fiance and stood in front of the fae king.

"I- I'm not sure. All I know is that I can't lose you, Jude."

The girl shrieked out a laugh. "Lose me?" She hit him in the chest. "Lose me? You should have thought about it when you banished me!"

Cardan winced. "I had to, you know it." Jude rolled her eyes, but the boy was set to plead his case. "I gave you the means to come back, though. You never acted upon it. You never answered my letters, either."

"What are you talking about? What letters?"

"You're queen, Jude. Pardoned by the crown? You could've come back any time."

"And how was I supposed to know you were going to stand by it? By me? You haven't before."

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry, you would have known how much I wanted you back if you bothered to read my letters!"

Both of them were now highly yelling to each other, blinking through the cold spring rain that now soaked them. The wedding party left the venue in search of a fitting hiding spot.

"Jude, come on, babe. Let's go." But the bride fixed Cardan with her brown gaze, completely oblivious of the other man.

"I've got no letters! Why should I believe you?"

"Because I can't lie. Is that good enough of a reason for you?"

"No! No, it's not. We both know you can talk your way around it." Jude crossed her arms to restrain herself from physically hurting Cardan. She settled on glaring at him the best she could, giving him the look she gave Balekin when she pierced him dead.

Cardan opened his mouth to say something, but once again Jude beat him to it. "Leave. Leave and let me be happy for once!"

"I can't do that, Jude."

"Of course," she breathed. "Because then you'd lose the weak end of your cruel jokes, right? And we can't deprive the king of his fun."

"No," Cardan shook his head. "Because I love you!" Once the word left his mouth, his eyes widened. Jude's as well. But saying it was like making a dam disappear and letting all the water flow. The truth of it hit them both, and Cardan had to repeat it to make sure he said it out loud. "Because I love you, Jude. And I need you and I want you. Please."

What he was asking for, he didn't know. For her to love him back? For her to come home with him? For her to put an end to his misery and tell him off for good, cutting the thin strain of hope he still had?

"What?"

"I love you," he said slower, weaker. Cardan felt drained and the rain didn't help. It was too much like Elfhame since Jude left. "I wrote to you everyday, maybe I should have let you go. But I couldn't. I needed to see you. Speak to you. Even a fight or a death glare are better than your absence."

"Cardan..." Jude has been rendered speechless. She realized she loved him a while ago. But admitting it, accepting it, she didn't know if she could do. "You really thought I'd come back after what you did?" She didn't mean her words so sharp or angry, but she still heard the fae guards' laugh sometimes. Felt her heart breaking over and over again with the memory.

Cardan flinched and nodded. "I thought you'd be proud."

She barely made out what he said through the roar of the rain. But once Jude did, her heart broke once more. This time, for the truth behind his words. For the torture she put them both through by staying away. For the slight fear she sensed in his voice, though she couldn't understand what for.

"It was rather clever," she admitted. Cardan rose a pair of hopeful eyes at her – glassy, but focused – that clenched her heart. "Not as impressed as I was with the ring stunt," she added. "But it was a good riddle."

Cardan broke into a proud grin that only spreaded larger when he saw the ruby glowing on Jude's raised hand. "You kept it."

"Mhm. After you finally gave it back, I couldn't just throw it away." She took one step closer, almost slipping in her high heels Taryn insisted upon and catching her feet in wet mud. Cardan more or less flew over to grip her arm and steady her. Brown long hair fell from the side bun and got stuck on Jude's face. The High King's long, slim, fingers brushed it clear, gasping through rain drops dripping onto his mouth.

"Would you come back with me?"

Jude didn't answer. She was a woman of action, not words. So she did what she does best, acted. Full lips crushed against thin, royal ones. The queen tasted the sweet, cold rain on Cardan's mouth, feeling him frozen in surprise and smiling to herself. When she was about to pull back, Cardan came to his senses in fire. He brought her closer, biting her bottom lip gently as his tail wrapped itself around her leg to keep Jude in place.

When she parted her lips in surprise, he took the opportunity to explore her mouth. The queen and king engaged in a quite improper dance of tongues and swollen lips, both ignoring the burning pressure in their lungs for as much as they could.

"Does it mean you're coming home, my evil queen?"

"I love you." Was all Jude said. Because if she didn't then, then she wouldn't have. Ever.

Cardan froze again. She couldn't mean it, could she? His mind raced frenetically in search of an explanation, but a soothing grip found his palm and Jude's thumb draw circles on the back of his hand. "Ready?"

Cardan tighten his fingers around Jude's. This was real. She was coming back with him. To him. She didn't abandoned him and even if she eventually, most probably will, that time hasn't come yet and he'll have this moments to cherish.

"Ready."

[khaleesiofalicante]

Heyyyyyy!!💙

How have you been?? Anything interesting??

This week has been weirdly good so I'm sending you the same vibes too!!

Exams are over!! And so are proyects!! And the work for this week!! So happy for that jdhdidhdk

I was gonna hang out with some people after school, but one couldn't make it so it got postponed till next week. Yay!! Its not that I didn’t want to hang out with them. I just didnt feel like it today, so it was a win-win. Besides, I think its the first time I will be going out like this for a long time, so I'm feeling kinda nervous but excited!

Also, I need to save my energy for this weekend because, well, my birthday is on Monday (Yey! ANYWAY) so my family is coming over and boy if I dont have the energy to deal with that shit right now. I think my dad even invited my grandmother (eww) BUT I dont really get a choice in all of this, so its whatever... (my dad really doesn’t know where to draw the line between families fighting and forgiving, and being toxic to each other smh, but thats not the point!)

At least I think half my family is pissed at each other, so I will gladly sit back, put some music and watch the drama go😎 you gotta see the good side of everything lmao

ANYWAY, HEARTSTOPPER SEASON TWO AND THREE, RIGHT?!?! THIS IS MY REASON TO LIVE I AM SO EXCITED!!

And also Young Royals and Love, Victor coming out (not a pun) soon, so looking forward to that!!

Nooooooah. Thank you for the good vibes. I’m sending some right back to you 💚 (because I can 😎)

And sending you a lot of energy too. Parties and family are gatherings are SO exhausting omg. Also just say the word, I can take your grandma down 😤

I hope it goes well. If you wanna come scream about it, I’m here 💚

Nothing interesting here. Just surviving the clusterfuck that is my country right now lol.

AND YES MORE GAY SHOWS WE LOVE TO SEE IT 🌈🌈🌈

[char-lotteral]

Look I'm not one of those people who believe Kishimoto decided to have Hinata and Naruto end up in the middle part of Shippuden. I believe he decided in the very last arc but he wanted to sound smart so he said he decided earlier on. Otherwise, they obviously would have more scene together. In Shippuden, they have only three scenes together ; when Naruto came back, the pain attack and the neji death scene. That's it. In the original Naruto, they probably have less than ten canon scenes not including fillers.

So I'm sorry I'm one of those who wasn't convinced by The Last. They literally had a basic villain go after Hinata who was cringe btw (the villain). They gave Hinata op powers which she doesn't have in the novel 👀. Despite having op powers, they made her the damsel in distress. Very "The hero saves the princess" cliche. Again, to justify them being together. I mean Naruto can't differentiate his love for ramen and romantic love so how??? He was just being nice to Hinata just like he does to everyone. He stood up for her just like he does for everyone.

Don't get me started on the Sakura Sasuke relationship 🤣. Cringe. They never knew each other. The whole Sakura's love for Sasuke saved him doesn't make sense. They spent barely a year in their genin year before sasuke left. Sasuke tried to kill Naruto and Sakura multiple times. Then at the end of the war, Kishimoto tried to do the "oh they have such a deep understanding between each other" which comes off as cringey. He gets her pregnant then leaves for years. She's literally a single mom who's broke.

Every relationship in Naruto is so cringey and forced except shikatemari. Kishimoto should've focused on the main story and fixed his potholes and leave the ending open.

Naruto would not have been perfect but at least it would've been remembered for staying true to its vision but instead it's remembered for cringey relationships, dumbass villain (except pain and madara) and a story that lost its core which is a shame coz I used to love Naruto. I was inspired by its messages but now....

OKAY LOL WAIT I ACTUALLY HAVE THIS LONG ASS RANT PREPARED XD

BUT FIRST Ive read what you said and I lowkey agree :p

HOWEVER

I DRAW THE LINE AT TONERI SLANDER. BECAUSE WHY

TONERI?? CRINGE?? THIS SEXY MOTHERFUCKER??

LOOK AT HIS WHITE FLUFFY HAIR AND HIS CERULEAN BLUE ORBS STARING DEEPLY INTO YOUR SOUL

SAY SIKE RIGHT NOW?!#*@*#&@*

okay lol now for the juicy part click readmore and beware I shall be brutally honest so yea enjoy

I mean, Naruto in general is a mess, not just the ships if we're being realistic. Alot of plotholes, rushed endings, this and that, the w a r a r c, Kaguya, the way they rushed Boruto ehhh. Honestly, getting into Naruto is literally my biggest regret of 2020 :"DD

Im an NH shipper as you can tell by my hotmess of a blog but i fully respect your opinion and understand your point of view. I also know a bunch of nh stans who have their complaints with their development. I wish Kishi gave more attention to his female cast really, thats all I fucking ask. If he did that one single basic thing, then maybe the endgame relationships wouldnt have been an asspull and theyd be given propper screentime with their love interest, both Sakura and Hinata. The Last tbh i think the writers played it safe and stuck to the whole Naruto shounen vibe thingy, so im not surprised it was plotted that way. Typical cliché shounen movie.

But does that bother me? No! The Last was a mess, their development was shit, they definitely needed more screentime but hey at the end of the day theyre cute as fuck, we have that kiss scene, flirting scenes, a shit ton of official art, three kids, Seiki's gif :33 and a whole ass arc for their wedding all that for just a shounen anime so eh. Compensates for it i guess xD theyre not toxic, unhealthy or whatnot. Theyre wholesome, soft and vanilla as fuck and exactly what i need in my hectic life rn. No drama, just two kind souls who are adorable as heck and theyre dynamic means so much to me and I will love them until i shall leave this earth.

Anon, im not even gonna waste my time and defend their development because i think it sucked too xD but if you wanna know why i love them so so so soooo much, Id be more than willing to tell you :33

Sasuke and Sakura on the other hand eeeehhhh i can see why people like them. Sasuke's hot, he's your typical hot bad boy aad Sakura's hot and pretty too. Basic blue and pink trope. Aside from their canon interactions, fans have all the opportunity to play around with their dynamic but for me, its just sooo basic and so hetero and can easily appeal to any 16 yr old teenage girl, no wonder it has an active fanbase on twt and---- AM I MAKING ANY SENSE? AHDBAJJE LIKE ITS SO-- BASIC, your usual bad boy x pretty girl trope that you get to read in YA and coming of age novels. Not only that, but going back to canon, they have too many negative interactions for me to like them together :p The least Sakura can do is put down her own foot and yell at him for not contacting them for god knows how long. I also dont like how he always gets easily forgiven >=[[. I mean at least He's compensating as a dad good for him but ehhhh i still dont like him and Sakura together :v And im not falling for that "Sakura is the reason why Sasuke isnt lonely anymore" because thats NARUTO AHHH. Sasuke said that Multiple times. HE LIGHTS A FIRE INSIDE OF ME. HES MY SUN. MY ONE AND ONLY FRIEND. LIEK?? THATS NARUTOOO romantic or not, Naruto was the reason for his not so lonely existence anymore smh >=[[

Sasuke almost murdered her and Naruto and made their lives a living hell but hey its all good!! He's my best friend and Sakura loves him!! So set him freeee into the worldddd~~

Sasuke left his family without even simply contacting them but can easily contact Naruto through a hawk but hey thats fine! His and Sakura's feelings are connected afterall! Sasuke gave her a ring and said thank you! Who cares about leaving your family. She loves him and he loves her so yey!!! All is forgiven :D

DID I MENTION SASUKE ALMOST MUREDERED HIS OWN DAUGHTER AND HE WASNT CALLED OUT FOR THAT@*#&@??!?#,*@#,#

Sasuke gets too many life points this isnt fair >=[[ But tbh he's nerfed so bad in Boruto manga and anime power wise. Like in that time travel arc and the manga. The rinnegan kunai thing was still so funny to me even if it was Borushiki. I just idk its so funny to me lmaoo

OKAY WHAT ELSE. I dont even know any more. Im tired of complaining about Naruto and just when Ive finally gone a little bit away from Naruto, Hinata fucking pulls me in again 😩 she has me on chokehold pls send help. Watch castlevania!!! and one piece!!!! ten times better than this anime about a loud blonde boi who wants to be president. Trust me

overall, i dont fully agree but i lowkey agree i guess. I do respect your opinion tho :))

EXCEPT WHEN YOU CALLED TONERI CRINGE. HOW DARE YOU CALL THAT SEXY MF CRINGEY---

[wendibird]

SPN 15X19 Observations

So, here we are. Second-to-last episode of this show and what has been said will be the Season Finale. (While next week’s is the Series Finale.) 

Without further ado...

I don’t even know what to think going into this second-to-last episode. I don’t expect a “happy” ending to this show. But I can’t help hoping for a fitting one. One that makes some kind of sense. That does the characters justice. We’ll see how it goes. (Also, I want some GOOD content for Sam. *LOL*)

(Also, my notes might be sparse because I want to concentrate on the show.)

- Everyone’s gone.

- Except these three.

- Does Sam and Jack know about Cas?

- THEY DON’T KNOW YET!!! *crying* (To be clear, not upset that Dean didn’t tell them sooner. Since obviously there had to be a phone conversation at some point, or at least texting so they’d know where to meet up. THAT kind of news isn’t something to tell over the phone if you can help it.) 

- The music is really playing this up well.

- Oh Jack….. 

- And he’s still killing plants.

Commercial Thoughts:

I’ve said this again and again but I still don’t like how Chuck is being written. He might as well be rubbing his hands and cackling evilly. 

That being said, this really is sadistic. One of the few things that’s kept Sam and Dean going through all of this has been the people they’ve been able to save. (Crowely caught on to that in S8 and used it to good effect. But he was like a sniper, precise with it. Chuck is like a fricking nuke.) 

And Sam losing hope always makes me sad. (Have noticed the looks Dean keeps giving him. Still checking on him and how he’s doing and worrying about him.)

- This camera work is weird. Dream-like?

- DOGGY!!!!!

- omg Dean’s happy about a dog!

- WOW. That’s a new low.

- So, no animals? (Guess they’re gonna have to go vegetarian eventually if this doesn’t get fixed.)

- Michadam!!! 

- WHAT?! (No Adam?! HOW DARE CHUCK!!!)

Commercial Thoughts:

Okay, Chuck taking Adam is a really REALLY low-blow! (But then, that might be what pushed Michael to decide to help them after all.) 

Not surprised that Michael can’t open the book. Wondering if Jack can? Or they could call some reapers and see who wants the job of the next Death. *LOL* Hold interviews. “What will you do for us if we give you this promotion?” (crack thoughts, don’t mind me.)

I’m not sure if Chuck has realized that they have nothing left to lose. And that’s generally when people are at their most dangerous. (I mean yes, they have each other, but in the wake of what’s been lost? Literally the whole world? They can’t let that go. They can’t just sit back and treat it as a vacation. It’s not how they are.)

- CAS?! 

- WTF?!?!?!?! (Did NOT want to see Lucifer again tbh. And apparently neither did Dean. *LOL*)

- Okay, so Lucifer promoted the next Death.

- Is he actually dead this time?

- One can only hope.

- YEY! LUCIFER IS DEAD AGAIN!!!

Commercial thoughts:

So…. what was the point of all that again? 

Okay, I get that in the end, the book is open and now they can hopefully read it. Seems kind of convoluted. (Also, do NOT get me started on the whole “God and the Darkness have no pull in the Empty”. Unless God just replicated Lucifer, like I theorize he did with Lilith.) 

Wondering if they just did all that to have Luci and Mark P. back one more time.

- Sam being his super-smart self! <3

- What is Sam not saying?

- Hey! Isn’t that the lake where Jack was born?

- FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!!! Fricking Michael.

- Bloody winchesters

- That’s what Sam wasn’t saying. I don’t think they trusted Michael.

- Sam figured something out.

- Wow. That is some poetic justice!

- I’m actually impressed with that.

- So now what?

Commercial Thoughts:

Wow. Okay, that was a weird twist of a way to get there. But I’ve honestly got to say that I like it. It works. (I’d always hoped Jack would still be the key to Chuck’s downfall.)

I still feel sorry for Amara though. Like, is she just nothingness? Is she an alternate personality deep inside Chuck now? 

And what about Jack? Can he put things back to how they’re supposed to be? Bring everyone back? Did he get Chuck’s knowledge as well as his power? At least of who all he took away? 

Guess we’ll have to see.

Also, usually I’m not a fan of the trope of the “Good guys” sparing the villain who’s killed tons of people because “they’re above killing”. But in this case? It really was fitting. And a worse punishment than killing Chuck would have been.

- OH GOD I LOVE THIS SONG!!!!

- Sammy’s cafe!

- (Okay I’m getting a little misty)

- His smile!!! 

- OKay, I might cry now.

- They raised God.

- Awwww….. (The names)

- Okay, so, I’m not okay! (But I’m okay with it, so… good thing?)

- So it ends with them doing whatever it is they want? 

- I wonder if the Apocalypse World people were brought back? And their other friends. (And Eileen? I’m sorry, I know not everyone ships it, but I do, and now Sam doesn’t have the great Plot of the Universe conspiring against him.)

After-Show Thoughts: (After I’ve had a few hours to ponder things)

Let me just say, the music in this episode? Like, just even the background music? It was amazing! It did such a good job of invoking the emotions that were being felt by the guys. And their choices of songs used were also good. :) 

Michael: So, in some ways his character shift in this episode seems odd after the last time we saw him. But then I thought more about it, and I think Adam’s death had a lot to do with it. In the previous episode in which we saw them, of the two of them Adam actually seemed to be more stable, and often had good, grounding advice for Michael. Now with him gone, all Michael had was himself. And at heart, he still wanted his father’s love, despite everything that had happened. And I still think he’s an interesting Parallel/Contrast to Dean, who also had the same father-worship for a long time, but over time he’s come to understand that John was wrong about a lot of things, and he needs to make his own way. I don’t think that’s something that Michael ever REALLY learned. Not deep down. 

Lucifer: I found his presence here to be annoying. I get that he moved the plot along. And I get how much at least half of Buckleming love him. I am glad that his part was brief and that he didn’t get a redemption arc. I do wish Sam had been able to kill him. (I know, he couldn’t have because only another archangel with an archangel blade yadda-yadda. STILL though…) Or that there had maybe been SOME meaningful interaction between him and Sam for old time’s sake, since that always gets nice and spicy. (Because Jared and Mark P. always keep in mind everything that’s happened between them and put that into their performances.) But time limits and all that. Also, why were there no wing-shadows on the floor when Lucifer died? There were wing shadows on the floor of the friggen church at the end of S13 and he died like 15 feet up in the air. *LOL* I mean, then whenever Sam looked at the floor in the Library he could remember that Lucifer is Dead for Good. 

And I just rewatched the scene again and when he died, he just went poof. Like, in the past, unless a finger-snap thing is involved that’s not what happens when angels die. If they get stabbed, there’s usually been a body left behind. Heck, at the end of S13 there was a full-on light-show. Now it almost looked like a regular angel death just with redder light instead of silvery-blue. Was that because it was just a thrown-together mock-up of Lucifer that Chuck made? (Like with Lilith? Because he’s NOT supposed to have any sway in the Empty! Dammit, how hard is it for the writers to remember the stuff that was already established?!)  

(Sorry. Continuity issues bug me. And they’ve bugged me from Season 1 on, so I know that’s not a new thing. But it does feel like they’ve gotten especially worse this season.) 

(Also, I’m starting to get tired so I’m going to try to wrap this up here. *LOL*)

I did like how they brought Chuck down. When it comes down to it, they weren’t following a pre-set plan. (Well, what happened probably WAS written in that book, but they didn’t know what it was.) Instead they found their own way with what they had. They figured out what was going on with Jack, and Sam figured out some bullshit spell to make some cool light-effects in order to fool Michael and Chuck into thinking they were setting it up for him. The only aspect of it that fell a little flat for me was the extended exposition on how they’d done it. It’s a trope that crops up a lot. The whole “Haha see what I did there!” But, on the other hand, I also realize that unless they’d shown us each step of the process as it was happening, there was no real way around presenting it that way. And it WAS more dramatic to have the audience in the dark until that moment. Also, I can’t deny the effectiveness of the scene where Chuck keeps beating them down but they keep standing up again. I mean, isn’t that an allegory for their whole lives? And at the end he’s incredulous as to why or even HOW they can still stand. What makes them keep going? True, part of it was that they knew the plan, and they knew this was part of it. (Which I think is why Sam opened it up with punching Chuck. To turn the confrontation more physical and draw it out, or he might have decided after all to just finger-snap them.) But part if it is also them just being them. They’ve both been down this road before. Like their whole lives have been this road. And they’ve both been to hell. Both suffered unimaginable tortures. And they just keep going. When one stumbles the other gets up. Or they get each other up. And they laugh in God’s face. Just… THAT was well-done. And Chuck's ending with them NOT killing him? That was absolutely poetic. Because now he's busted down to "normal" and has to figure out actual life (or just end his, but he'd have to do it himself) and he didn't even get an "ending" of his creations killing him. Because even if he did make them, he clearly still doesn't understand them. And I liked them saying "no" to the revenge game. (After making sure that he couldn't come back again as a problem. Cause they ain't dumb either. Despite what everyone keeps saying about them.) 

I also loved the scene where Jack brings everyone back. I would have liked to have seen some shots of some of the individual ones that we’d come to know being back, like Donna, some of those AU people (Eileen!) but I also get this ep was shot during Covid so they probably couldn’t get as many people back. (I hope some of them at least get name-dropped in the next episode so we know for sure that they’re back and alive.) But anyway, I thought the scene was well done, that song was a GOOD choice for it! (But then, I am a bit biased. It’s among some of the music I grew up listening to because my parents had it.) It may not be classic rock, but classic folk is fitting for the new God. :) 

Overall, I thought there were some pacing issues with this episode, but in general I was happier with it than the previous one. I’ve just been re-watching it (because I never catch everything the first time through, especially when I’m trying to take notes) and I just noticed something. Near the end when Sam and Dean are in the Library and Dean says “To everyone that we lost along the way.” I first was a bit puzzled about that, because my mind went to the more immediate people that they’d lost recently, and whom I’m assuming Jack brought back too. But on re-watching I thought about it in a grander scale. How many people have they lost in their lives due to Chuck’s story? Because Chuck thought it would make things more dramatic? I think he was reflecting on their whole lives, not just the last 48 or so hours. And that makes sense too with what Sam said following, about them finally being able to write their own story. (And yes, I know that Cas was not one of those brought back. At least, he doesn’t seem to have been. And though I don’t ship him and Dean, I don’t doubt for a minute that Dean cares/cared about him very much. It’s okay to love your friends. But I didn’t get the feeling that he was JUST talking about one person. That held the weight of years of losses.) 

I thought the ending montage was brilliant! Honestly, if the show ended here, I would have been okay. Not saying I DON’T want another episode! I’ll take whatever I can get. And I definitely wouldn’t mind seeing where they take their story. So yeah, looking forward to the next (and final *cries*) episode.

Anyway, that’s about all I can really dredge up this late at night. *LOL* This will be the LAST time I do one of these knowing there’s more to come. It’s the last week we’ll all wait in suspense for what’s going to happen next. After next week's episode we'll be into new territory of "That's all there is and ever will be." This has been quite a journey, and I haven’t liked all of it, but overall I still love this weird little show, and even more so the characters that we've met through it. So, to quote Bobby, “Here’s to runnin’ into you guys on the other side.”

[uthseikoashx-inflamedme]

What if Antonio (Gellert Grindelwald's chupacabra) had been created in 1899?

(Small theory here, probably not provable and based on very few clues. And not quite relevant for the plot of FB. But it might be cool, so here we are. Sorry for the mistakes, I’m doing my best!)

Antonio's existence brings several questions.

Just a quick recap

We saw Antonio in like 3 scenes, at the beginning of FBCoG. It’s the fantastic beast which follows Gellert Grindelwald in the carriage (*). Gellert hugs it with affection, then tells the creature is “needy” and throws it by the window.

A quite confusing behaviour.

We do not see Antonio in the next scenes, so it might be dead, but let’s hope it’s not.

So: Antonio may be a MACUSA’s creature supposed to watch Grindelwald, but it’s highly unlikely - unless if Gellert’s “very persuasive” argumentation skills also work on creatures. Indeed, Antonio helped Grindelwald to escape, was enchained with the Dark warlock in his cell and was considered as dangerous (Antonio wore a muzzle).

Therefore, Antonio is - was ? - more likely a creature which belongs to Grindelwald. Also, Antonio wants to hug him, smiles at him and recognises him, so it is attached to Grindelwald.

The questions are: what is Antonio? Since when Grindelwald has it? Why?

We don’t have any clue to answer, excluding the beginning of FBCoG... and Antonio’s nature.

What is Antonio?

Antonio, according the Harry Potter Wiki, is a baby Chupacabra. A Chupacabra is “a part lizard, part homunculus, blood-sucking magical beast”. The name “chupacabra” means "goat sucker" - in mythology, it was a creature who drank goats’ blood.

When I read that, I jumped. Then I read what a homunculus was and I jumped again.

A homunculus is (according to the CNRTL, here is the link but it’s in French) a small creature, sometimes described as a very small human-like creature, with supernatural and harmful powers, which were supposed to be created by the alchemists in the Middle Ages.

Here is the theory: Antonio have been created during the summer of 1899.

How, by who and why?

Antonio might have been created by Gellert and Albus, while they were doing experiments. Indeed, we know Albus worked (or at least exchanged letters) before 1899 with Flamel - and will work with him after - so Albus was able to perform a bit of alchemy (plus, I read in the HPW alchemy was sometimes taught in Hogwarts, when there was enough students who wanted to learn it for their NEWTs).

it would explain why Antonio was so friendly, “needy”: he knows Grindelwald for 28 years.

another explication to Antonio’s neediness would be: it has been created by two people who were in love with each other, and a part of their feelings had been somehow mixed, added to Antonio.

(so Grindelwald might have thrown by the window a representation of a) the man he love(d), b) his own love for this man or c) his former relationship. With rage. Yey. I also heard a bit about te parralel to draw between Gellert’s and Antonio’s neediness, will of attention (and affection), and it could match, explain it?)

Gellert would have loved to have a pet which’s a threat for Aberforth’s goats and which’s named after that, you can’t change my mind. It’s a fair point.

Antonio might signify "priceless" and "of inestimable worth" (and our two boys were sometimes a bit dramatic, it could match), or might be a reference - maybe was Antonio Vivaldi the favourite composer of Albus or Gellert. I don’t think it’s relevant though (or not according our current knowledge).

But why Grindelwald kept it - and then threw it?

So, if Antonio is a creature which had been summoned or bring into being almost 30 ago and if Grindelwald hates it, because it’s reminding him Albus Dumbledore, why didn’t he kill it years ago - like in september 1899? Or the following years? Why now? And why we didn’t see Antonio in FBaWtFT?

I also have a theory:

Antonio, which could consequently being a magic creature made during an alchemic ritual, could also being immortal, and to get rid of it, Gellert have to use his powers - to banish him, keep it far from him magically, somehow.

And in prison, Grindelwald was probably incapable of casting spells to reject him. So Antonio gladly came back. (and then had been throw by the window seriously that was cruel)

Conclusion

Well, it’s just a theory, and we can all agree Antonio might just be a creature stolen from Newt’s suitcase by Grindelwald as Graves before the end of FBaWtFT (well, that, it’s quite unlikely, because Newt would have realised). Or it can be Grindelwald’s pet since his childhood. Or literally everything else, like just a creature brought to Grindelwald to help him to escape by one of his followers, such as Abernathy. But it can also be interesting (and believable) that Antonio was actually a product and thus a daily reminder for both Grindelwald and Dumbledore of that summer, who was consequently forced to use magic to keep Antonio far from them.

(plus, Aberforth’s face when Gellert said he summoned with Abe’s very brother Albus a creature who likes sucking goats’ blood)

(and also, I supposed I’m not the first one who theorised something like that, @.bluecrownedbird‘s amazing Grindeldore art already often includes Antonio)

(*): for Antonio’s pronouns, I assumed “it” was the best, but pronouns are a bit different in French and I’m not quite sure of what I was supposed to use so let me know if I should change?

[questionofdarkness]

Some things I noticed during the latest chapter (256)

Finally another things I noticed! It’s been a while - then again, I doubt anyone really missed my rambling. These are a lot of fun to do though, so without further ado - let us begin!

The boyfriends are back! I’m really feeling Tamaki’s outfit in these. Also it’s just great to see them again.

Is it just me or did he actually improve his social anxiety a bit for being able to speak so directly to Aizawa? I mean Mirio is right there, he could also have said nothing and let him do the talking. 

Oh. My. Good! Look at those toys in the background! They’re adorable (and a bit scary). I wonder if this room was made for Eri specifically, I’m not sure if its.... fitting for the students otherwise. Can I also just say that I really like the big three basically having adopted Eri as well? It’s cute.

Dadzawa has returned.

On a very different note! Mina! Ew! But also yey! It’s a cool special move, but also looks disgusting. And poor Aoyama still gets hurt by his own quirk.

But he too came up with a new move! Well done!

Also can we just appreciate this panel below? Is Sato drooling? Did he make the cotton candy? Why does Toky look so adorable here? Didn’t Sero get one too? 

We also get more confirmation that Hagakure’s quirk isn’t actually invisibility, but light manipulation. Also how can she look so badass with just... gloves? 

Do you know what is something that I never understood? How tf she placed above Izuku in that first quirk sports test Aizawa put them through. Because I do not see how her quirk helped her at all with any of the tasks and we know from later on (a panel where she trains) that she is not very physically fit. Izuku on the other hand had trained hours on end before entering UA and was in top physical condition + he at least once scored very high with the ball throwing. So how on earth did he score below her???? (yeah plot, of course, but come one!)

Isn’t her acid like... dangerous? Shoudl she just shake it all over the place? Also Toruu and her wild gesticulation is a mood. Poor Aoyama though.

Look at Mina’s lil tongue. Look at how Kiri is about to burst with happiness. Look how dumbfounded he is at first. I love their friendship so much!

Supportive Iida is supportive! Also I love hearing about who they interned with (though I wished we actually... you know... had seen some of it?). Also Momo looks so majestic in her cloak. Might I also draw your attention to the fact that we do not see Toky in this? He’s supposed to be standing somewhere between Satou and Denki afterall. Maybe he was further to the back, but still, wouldn’t we be able to see some of his head at least? Unless, that is, he’s actually too small.

Is that DYNAMITE??? Also yes Majestic indeed!

Wait did Ojirou change up his hero outfir abit? I don’t think those gloves were there before, were they? I am so happy to see my tail boy again, it’s been so long. Also that pro hero looks fierce af!

I love that Koda actually got one of the top-tier internships, but he and wash? How on earth did they even communicate at all?

Yes! Gang Orca is back! And Jirou and Shouji together? Amazing! I never imagined them being friends much but now I find I actually really, really like the idea.

Kiri I love you and your ridiculous teeth too much for my own good. And I’m so glad he got to intern with Fat again!

best bird has returned and looks even more edgy and dangerous than usual!!!

Look at them all standing there, look at their high differences how is Shouji so ridiculously tall!

Supportive 1A is supportive! I love that Hagakure’s speech bubble is just.... blank. But I think the translations here might be a bit off. That’s what I get by reading free online chapters...

Sharp!

Their friendship is so cute.

I mean look at those two dorks. 

TOK (mina ships it)

I’m actually really glad the manga finally let’s them talk again like normal people. I was getting so sick of that stupid going red bullshit. Just let them be friends for heaven’s sake!

Bakugou wtf are you doing you gremlin?

What is that face come one Bakubro

Is it only me or is it absolutely adorable that All Might uses Izuku’s method of quirk notebooks to help him improve?

I should not have laughed at Mic laying face down on the couch as much as I did because he is hurting a lot but then again fucking mood!

I don’t think we have ever, EVER seen Mic that angry holy shit!

Bonus Yaomomo being extremley done with everything!

[oskarwing]

Day 3 - Advent Wreath

Summary: On the drive home Dean and Sam stop at a nicely decorated restaurant.  Word Count: 485 Aurthor’s note: I know it’s been a while since the third. I just got thrown into the worst exams and test spree of my life. Since I’m sick now I can finally catch up. (yey) I hope this is still good even if it’s been a whole while. 

The clothes Cas had gotten were alright, mostly plaid shirts and little boy jeans, what Dean would wear usually just smaller. The booster seat was dumb though and what was even dumber was that Sam was driving. At least he was playing some good music. 

Dean hummed along to it looking out of the window and sighed. It was boring not driving himself. He was debating if he should start drawing on the window again but this was his baby and he didn’t want to get any smears on her. 

He sighed and made a face crossing his arms in front of his chest. 

“Are you hungry?” Sam asked after a little while driving. 

“Yes,” Dean said and nodded. 

“Okay then let’s go to that diner over there,” Sam decided. 

The inside of the diner was decorated for christmas. Dean looked around at the set-up most of the Advent Wreaths look like they’re made out of real evergreens. 

They smell like it too.

The waitress comes over to them with the menu. “You like the deco? It’s self-made,” she said and smiled down at Dean. 

He made a face and shrugged. “It’s okay, I guess.” 

She raised an eyebrow and looked over at Sam with a smirk on her face which made Dean sulk. 

He knew those kinds of looks. It were the kind of looks adults gave each other when kids did something dumb and cute. 

He couldn’t really tell what he had done though that would warrant such a look. 

Sam grinned back though which made Dean glare at him. 

His discontent grew even more when the waitress handed him a kid menu. He wasn’t a child! But for people he supposed he did look like one… he’d just have to swallow it down. 

He looked over at Sam who was holding back a laugh and glared. 

Hopefully Cas got something to reverse this soon. Dean hated being stuck like this. 

So young, it was even worse than when he had been stuck in his teenager body… well, at least he wasn’t popping boners left and right now. 

And at least the food was good. Very good. Dean got a cheeseburger (kids sized but whatever it actually filled him pretty good) and french fries with a home-made lemonade (no beer for him apparently). 

They left after finishing their meal but when Dean wanted to walk out of the door the waitress held him back, 

“Hey, sweetie,” she said and bowed down to him smiling widely. “Do you want this one? We couldn’t hang it up,” she said holding out one of the wreaths. 

Dean looked at it. It was smaller than the others and only decorated with a small red band and small beads worked into it carefully. 

“Okay,” Dean said quietly and took it looking up at her. “Thank you.” 

She smiled at him and put a hand on his shoulder. “You’re very welcome.” 

Sam smiled at her mischievously, Dean rolled his eyes at him and went to Baby holding his brand new advent wreath.

[talesofnecromancy]

March 2018 #349

H: You call my name like that darlin’ and I’ll find you wherever you are! …What was that about?

Me: It occurred to me that I didn’t call you like an endearment or a friend but only like a summons. And that seemed unfair. So I thought I’d try it.

H: I’m not sorry for it - please do repeat the trial any time you feel so inclined. …what is it?

Me: I had supper with the mad author lady today. The topic of conversation got on to supernatural experiences and then on to ex lovers. It would seem almost everyone has had some sort of supernatural experience and at least one terrible lover and no one ever talks about either. Which seems odd to me. However it also reminded me that I’m very lucky to know you - thank you… Is that a chitten?

H: Yes.

(Nem tries to play with the fringe of my shawl and I try to pet her, which is rather like trying to stroke a shadow.)

H: (thoughtful) …Do you believe your worth to be less than mine?

Me: Yes.

H: Girl… why?

Me: You learnt two professions. You made a good living. You fought illness - you fought what you saw as injustice - fought a lot of things. You were better schooled. You’ve made more of yourself than I ever have. I’ll bow to that.

H: How do you measure the merit?

Me: The way society does I suppose.

H: You loathe society! You’re not at a ball - you’re here in a house in the woods talking to a ghost!

Me: Language! (it sometimes amuses me to treat ‘ghost’ as a slur and compete with H to make up ridiculous and more polite euphemisms for the hell of it.) I always thought my art would be worth it - worth something. It’s never made me more than petty cash - never even covered rent. You ever feel you haven’t made the best of your time?

H: Don’t change the subject.

Me: What-

H: The things you have achieved do not have an easy place on society’s pedestals. There must be things you’re proud of darlin’.

Me: Yeah, but no one else gives a shit and no one’s gonna pay me for them, so, still technically worthless.

H: Girl.

Me: Fine. Writing plays for the Fringe. Being in the circus. Writing stories.

H: Novels.

Me: Unpublished. Drawing my own tarot deck. Making jewellery. Sewing costumes. Talking to you.

H: What about your mother?

Me: She was awesome - what about her?

H: You nursed her.

Me: I made sure she didn’t injure or wet herself and didn’t sob constantly - that wasn’t a triumph. Killing her would have been - it was what she asked for repeatedly but I was too much of a coward. This is a horrible conversation - can we stop?

H: You see my point?

Me: No.

H: What you have done in your life carries weight. Society is not nor should be the final judge of that.

Me: Who is?

H: Time. … O darlin’ you look like the saddest wisteria vine I ever saw!

Me: (bitterly) Yey for me.

H: You’re truly unhappy - I didn’t mean to make you so. I only wished to make you cognisant of your worth - to me - to anyone with eyes to see.

Me: On that subject it’s still really difficult to see you - I think it’s got worse. I don’t like it. …What?

H: There may be changes.

Me: What sort?

H: In how we communicate.

Me: Bugger. Why now?

H: My folly with the apple tree or my mother’s wishes may be responsible. I’m not sure.

Me: It’s late. I’ll see to the candles.

H: There is an army of kits here - they’ve massed - I am not certain as to the purpose.

Me: Well, they’re all welcome to come over too.

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[umiwomitai]

Get to know me tag

*bold the statement that are true for you* & tag 9 people you want to get to know better

I’ve been tagged by @snoqlax thanks!! 

APPEARANCE

I am 5'7" or taller I wear glasses I have at least one tattoo I have at least one piercing I have blonde hair I have brown eyes I have short hair (i’ll cut it soon tho)

My abs are at least somewhat defined I have or have had braces

PERSONALITY

I love meeting new people People tell me that I’m funny Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me I enjoy physical challenges I enjoy mental challenges I’m playfully rude with people I know well I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it There is something that I would change about my personality

ABILITY

I can sing well I can play an instrument I can do 30 push-ups without stopping I’m a fast runner I can draw well  I have a good memory (sometimes)

I’m good at doing math in my head I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute I have beaten at least two people in arm wrestling I know how to throw a proper punch I know how to cook at least three meals from scratch

HOBBIES

I enjoy playing sports I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else I have learned a new song in the past week I work out at least once a week I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months I have drawn something in the past month I enjoy writing Fandoms are my #1 passion

I do or have done Martial arts

EXPERIENCES

I have had my first kiss I have had alcohol I have scored the winning goal in a sports game I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting I have been at an overnight event (what exactly is an overnight event tho?) I have been in a taxi I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year I have beaten a video game in one day I have been to another country I have been to one of my favorite band’s concerts

RELATIONSHIP

I’m in a relationship

I have a crush on a celebrity I have a crush on someone I know I have been in at least three relationships I have never been in a relationship I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them (i was bold wtf) I get crushes easily I have had a crush on someone for over a year

I have been in a relationship for at least a year I have feelings for a friend

MY LIFE

I have at least one person I consider a “best friend” I live close to my school My parents are still together I have at least one sibling I live in the United States There is snow right now where I live I have hung out with a friend in the past month (does my sister count?) I have a smartphone I have at least 15 CDs I share my room with someone

RANDOM

I have breakdanced I know a person named Jamie (and i hate her yey) I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce I have dyed my hair I’m listening to one song on repeat right now I have punched someone in the last week I know someone who has gone to jail (not personally but she’s family) I have broken a bone I have eaten a waffle today I know what i want to do with my life I speak at least two languages I have made a new friend in the past year 

Wow I’m pretty sure I don’t have 9 persons to tag like what? ._. But hey @cherribu @iksarai if you want maybe? Don’t have to of course!