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[egophiliac]

Since book 7 part 5 (the part where we meet Meleanor/Maleanor 👀) is coming to EN this month, i would love to see your take on lilia’s proposal to meleanor! i mean they were like little kids right? it couldn’t have been that serious…i think the only reason she even brought it up again is because she could tell lilia still genuinely loved her…(even if he didn’t realize it himself?) but, oh well! Let’s think about silly childhood shenanigans to numb the pain! ^_^ (orz)

oh shit?! get ready for a doozy guys, it's comiiiiiing ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ

I chickened out of posting the whole thing (look, I get VERY carried away when it comes to these wacky kids and their Tragedy), but I do believe that it probably ended with Lilia getting embarrassed and just shoving the first thing he sees into his mouth to try and cover for it.

(we're just lucky it wasn't a frog this time)

[hoofpeet]

When the aroace 💯

[hunterrrs]

just call him daddy kyle we know you want to

[tangledinink]

I can imagine the first cycle after moving. Probably Leo because Donnie likely has internal scarring, so leo goes through the process of laying his eggs, panics, his brother can't help, and finally, *finally* they ask for help. It's not willingly. It's not for fun. It's purely necessity. It's purely because there's *literally noone else* and the idea of telling anyone at all is so scary that the way they do so is in a note. Splinter sits them down and basically walks them through "You're safe, you're fine. We can handle this however you feel most comfortable, including getting you both on blockers if you prefer" and they just.... sigh. For the first time, there's *someone else* in their circle, and it's willing and it's warm, and it's *safe*. There will be tears.

Yes, except I'm not convinced that either of them could stand to tell anyone. Even if it was literally life or death (which it has been before,) I'm not sure if either of them could bear to give up that information. Donnie is finally, finally away from the people who hurt him when he got found out last time, and even though logically, he knows that it's different here, he's absolutely petrified of the thought that the same thing will happen again and it won't be over anymore. He's still horrified by the idea of anyone else knowing about Leo when he's gone to such lengths for so long to protect him, and Leo is likewise terrified in the same way. They've spent years with this being their more closely guarded secret, and that's going to be really difficult to give up.

But it's really not a secret they'll be able to keep for long.

They're in a completely different environment, with far less space and privacy. They're both stressed as hell and Donnie WAS on birth control and taking all sorts of vitamins and supplements to make sure he didn't eggbind again and now he's suddenly not and it's not only messing with his body, it's fucking scary. It literally keeps them both up at night. Neither of them know how to wash blood out of clothes or sheets. There's no private en suite bathroom they can sequester themselves away in. They're both literally making themselves sick with anxiety trying to deal with this, and they're used to handling this on their own, this is routine for them, but they're not used to all of this.

They'd probably metaphorically limp through a few cycles before their family puts it together and gently confronts them.

Venus probably figures it out first. She's pretty smart, and incredibly observant, and after all-- she quite literally experiences the exact same thing. April may not lay eggs, but I think she'd be able to get the idea after a bit as well. And while I think Splinter would realize something was wrong pretty quickly, Draxum would probably realize what was wrong first. Splinter has April, so he has a little bit of experience in this realm, but Draxum has Venus and so he has far more experience.

And so when they do sit them down and talk with them, it's going to be really scary at first. And then they get to, "you're safe, you're fine, we can handle this however you feel the most comfortable. It will be okay. No one will hurt you."

And then there's finally other people in the know, in the circle, people who will actually help them. And yes-- there will definitely be tears.

[achairwithapandaonit]

guess who just got employed!!

[bloomburnburial]

extremely happy with my surgery recovery so far despite some frustration with the lingering pain/tightness. and recently catching glimpses of happiness of the sort I haven’t felt in MANY years; in fact it’d been so long since I felt anything better than Fine that I thought that Fine/Not Actively Sad had come to represent the upper limit of what I was capable of feeling but apparently that’s not the case, and it’s heartening to know that I still have within me the capacity to access actual and genuine happiness—I can’t honestly remember the last time I was as happy as I had been this past week

[blackjackkent]

Had a really nice 1-1 with my supervisor today. Insanely happy to learn that I'm being taken off the on-call work rotation! \o/

Me and the other front-end-only dev are being pulled from the rotation bc we don't have the infrastructural domain knowledge to respond to most of the high-priority systems issues that come up. My boss was very concerned that I might take it as an insult, that it would seem like they didn't think I was capable of handling the problems.

Obviously I'm just devastated. /s

[cherry-bomb-ships]

Also very excited to say that I have discovered a new way to clean out my drafts in a fraction of the time that it used to take me. It's so so efficient and yet so simple that I'm shocked I haven't thought of it much earlier. What is this method you ask?

I'm putting posts in the queue... without tagging them first >:3 And then I just check what's going to post today or tomorrow and tag those!! That way I don't have to go on these massive tagging sprees through my drafts, I just have to tag a few posts every day or two! 😭

[teapotenuse]

For the first time in my 34 years of being, I get to quit my job and walk straight into a new one. Every place I have quit previously, it has been because I could not mentally or physically cope with being there another day, and have had to take months to recover before being able to start looking again.

This time I saw the red flags, and I quietly started looking before I destroyed myself for an uncaring workplace. I am proud of me

It's taken years to learn, but I'm glad I made it. I hope y'all get here someday too

[dianasprnce]

guess who finally owes less than $10k on her car

[obstinatecondolement]

It's actually fucking hilarious going through my blog's archive to November and December 2015, because it give a lot of context to the impotent but relentless anger about ableism and being infantalised and denied agency over your life as an adult that is thematic to that fic I found a back up of last night that I wrote for NaNoWriMo 2015, lol.

[the-moogle-of-your-nightmares]

[multiplicity stuff, internalized ableism]

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me: i probably don't have any real multiplicity stuff going on, i'm just dressing up completely normal experiences in appropriated language because i want to be special

me: does a lot of my best functioning these days from stopping and going 'alright, who's driving. is the one of us available who's usually around to experience this kind of situation, which currently feels distant, confusing, and like it happened to someone else.'

me: we tell each other a lot that it's okay if you want to be out and about when it's not for a Specific Purpose--you don't have to exist for anything--and usually whenever one of us is reassured of that, we feel relieved and really appreciate it.

me: once i started checking who's there, i often feel like more than one of us is hanging around at the same time reacting to the same situation, and having Opinions about each other and what they're doing. sometimes we're annoyed with each other if one of us did something shitty or stupid because now we all have to deal with the results.

me: each of us i've gotten the chance to know so far doesn't have just one set of emotions they're associated with; they have different moods at different times, and different likes and dislikes.

me: most of us have patterns of thought--and good qualities and flaws--that are different from the others, even when they seem the same at first glance. often when two distinct ones do seem to be the same for a minute, it turns out they're just temporarily in such close tandem they seem like one; they separate again just as easily.

me: trying to think of one of us as The Real Core Moogle the body belongs to, and the others as hangers-on or guests, feels really really distressing and Wrong to both whoever's driving and everyone else.

me: it feels best and most correct to think of all of us as roommates trying to live an adult life and pursue our goals, while having to share the same body to do it through.

me: throughout this whole post i've been going back and forth between describing myself as 'us' and 'them.'

me: yep. definitely making it up

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

me up til now: fuck canon!nine. all my homies hate canon!nine

me sitting down to actually write prose about him, and FINALLY clicking together a backstory that's coherent within versions of the narrative where he's the nine that we get: no god damn it stop making me sad. you fucking Stop That

[findingyourrootscomic]

LOVE the worldbuilding So Much <33

Thank you :DDD

[pepprs]

update im normaler now. not totally normal but im normaler

[precureshowdown]

What’s the best place to watch precure?

Anon, I'm not really the person to ask about this bc I'm too paranoid about viruses to even touch the various yo-ho-ho sites out there (and I don't like torrenting).