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horce-divorce · 2 years

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wow that was absolutely the worst night of sleep I've had in recent memory, gonna have to spend my whole birthday napping to make up for it 👻

#me #like fr i dont even know how to quantify that #i think i maybe slept for a total of like 2 hours #i am so sick to death of this fucking bed #its TOO SMALL for an adult human. i dont fit upon the bed. my *blankets* dont fit upon the bed.#the weighted blanket drags every other blanket off with it every night bc it's wider than the bed #and i love that Frankie will snuggle up to me and stay all night. BUT.#i toss and turn even on a good night #and every time i wiggle it makes her sink toward the middle of the mattress #which means after about 2 hours she is literally taking up the whole bed with her mimiscule little subway footlong body #and i am fucking trapped all of a sudden unless i get *up and out #of bed #between where she is and how fucked up all the blankets are and how im pinned to the wall w a pretzel spine #listen im gonna go smoke some weed about it and ill feel better. its better than not having a bed.... by like.. an absolute hair #but its very difficult and tbqh if im cursed to be fucking ill forever i at least deserve a decent bed #but i cant afford that so 🤪

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faaun · 7 months

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what the fuck even is a neuron. "describe how neuronal activity drives pathway-specific depolarization of peripheral astrocyte processes" i'll drive ur pathway-specific despoliation of astrocyte processes what the fuck i'm gonna fail this module idk what a brain is i feel so underqualified wdym test on 15 march i haven;t had a thought in my life

#i want a neuroscience-adjecent career and yet i am abt to run this module into the ground istg #are u ever so anxious that you end up doing nothing which u cant afford bc u have to catch up to many modules in a very short space of time #yeah #personal #studyrants #block this tag if u dont want to see these posts ill probably post a lot abt the horrors #GEVI expression colocalized with the astrocyte marker glutamine synthase 🤪#just tell me ur in love w me

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roachemoji · 6 months

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#bo posting #vent #i just need. to talk idk #i met with a psychiatrist the other day and i had to tell her everything #and there were 2 things that shook me #there was a period of time where i was heavily dissociating and i dont remember well or at all #and she asked me what made it stop #and i. i dont know. i coukdnt remember. its streased me out so much that i dont fucking remember #and then she asked about SA and i told her vaguely and she asked if id ever seen anyone about it #and i choked. because no.#ive tried several times but i either couldn't afford it or it wasnt a service offered #ive also just veen so afraid lately #ive been isolating bc i feel scared and unsafe around ppl i shouldnt feel this way around #i cant ask for things or talk abouy my feelings out of fear that #that im too much or overwhelming or overreacting or upsetting or offending like #i dont. even know how yo talk about this bc i dont want #comfort for this?? i domt know how yo explain it i just #my mind wont let me accept that its real #like im so used to love bombing ig??? that my anxiety around comfort and not validation i forget the word but #it feels like a trap sometimes bc there were times where it was #im so scared to be alone but im terrified to let ppl in right now #unless its me talking to the public void ig??? idk #🤪

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crippledasinfuckyou · 2 years

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found out i can hire an electric wheelchair for £30 a month which i can 100% afford and im v much considering it. one of the tires on my self propelled wheelchair has a puncture and i cant get it to the mobility shop to get it fixed, and in any case my wrists are getting way worse to the point where im now subluxing my left one almost daily, so self propelling is not doing for me anymore.

i dont know what my hesitation is, there's something there that stops me from just making the jump but im not sure what? maybe part of me doesnt want to admit im bad enough to need an electric wheelchair despite trying to the one i inherited from my stepdad fixed for over a year. maybe its the fact that i technically do have one despite not being able to get it fixed- i think i kind of feel i shouldnt hire one when i have one in the garage even though its broken because someone else might need it more?

idk i think im probably just being silly but who knows 🤪

#personal

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girlboypersonthingy · 6 months

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Hey, asking anon because im a little ashamed of my brain right now-

But maybe a reader x hazbin boys

Reader is having some troubling thoughts due to depression and so they shut themselves off from everyone around them

and when they finally open up (being cornered or convinced or otherwise)

they talk about how they were so ashamed they just wanted to preserve everyones good thoughts about them?

reader just didnt want to burden anybody by telling them she/he wanted to d*e?

im like in a small cave because i cant afford my antidepressants and i think they'd take care of me at least a little ^^'

OH ANON IM SO SORRY TO HEAR THIS. NO SHAME HERE! I am mentally ill as well…Plz plz plz dont be afraid to slide in my DMs and talk, I have time! That goes for anyone who finds my blog. Fr tho, im a loser nobody with no friends and too much time on my hands. Im also on meds and have ran out of my meds before so I know it’s not easy, withdraws are no joke. I’m a pretty good listener if I do say so myself~ and I also went to school for psychology, of course I dropped out bc mental illness 🤪✌🏻 so maybe I can offer some half decent advice…? Anyways! I love you, nonnie. Plz feel better and message me if you want ❤️‍🩹 so, im bypassing a few other requests to get yours done first. I just wanted to offer you a small heart to heart and I’ll try to get your request out asap! I’m gonna post the request separately. LOVE YOU ANON 😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘

#Jamie loves you

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zombiesama · 1 year

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I have to talk to my boss on Monday like hey girl my surgery that you rearranged the entire months schedule for? Cancelled 🤪!! please put me back on the schedule I cant afford no income for that long 😳 and the surgery might be rescheduled at any time so be prepared 🤪

#rice rambles #this is like the worst part of all of this honestly #i really hope it gets scheduled sooner rather than later bc if i miss on the ren faire this august im gonna be so sad

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rhaenyraisadyke · 1 month

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HAHA ONE OF THE SPOTS ON MY BACK IS GROWING SO I NEED TO GO ON HIGHER DOSES OF THE GOOFY IMMUNOSUPPRESSANTS AND IM GOING BACK TO COLLEGE SOON AND I CANT AFFORD TO GET SICK 🤪

#lichen sclerosus

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poptartmochi · 3 years

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the vergil-gioia 4 hour boat escape from fortuna is OUT!!!

the vergil-gioia 4 Day boat escape from fortuna is... in.. 😰😰😰

#remember like 2 hours ago when i was like oh my god.. what agony to be stuck on a small boat with a stranger for 10 hours 😩😩 oh honey..#the funny thing about this is that i don't even know if 4 days is accurate 😩 i found this boat from the 1980s (which has become my #decade of reference for tech specs for dmc even though it's not really logical. but 🤪. im so far gone that i cant afford to think abt that #now) for sale and it said the cruising speed was 7.5 knots but 🧐🧐🧐 is that with an upgraded engine! 🤨#if i thought trying to decipher this kind of stuff on helicopters was confusing... boats are like indecipherable lmao #the funnier thing about this is the implication that vergil just sailed for four days straight to fortuna out of curiosity for his father #just normal girl things 💅🏼#i feel the most logical thing for him to do would be to slice his way through reality and 🏃🏻‍♀️🕴️into a fortunan alleyway but #🤪🤪 i have written myself out of this avenue + also.. im not sure he had that figured out at 17/18? I don't think he did that until later #in the series‚ or maybe just in 5? idk.. but for gioia reasons‚ he has to travel there physically 😭#even funnier than vergil just. Deciding to sail to fortuna at the age of 17 because 🧙‍♂️💅🏼¯\_(ツ)_/¯ is vergil. at the age of 17. knowing #how to drive a boat...... why would he 😭😭😭 there is something hysterical about this to me #as for why he Has a boat to sail to fortuna to begin with?? well the conclusion is that he stole it 🤪 but. i mean he steals his whole #wardrobe as v so I don't think that's an Incredible Reach (although him sailing there Definitely Is Don't Get Me Wrong)#the funniest thing though.. the absolute peak of 🤨🧐 hmmm.. is not vergil being able to reliably sail between the mainland and fortuna.#no... the absolute most Questionable thing about all of this is that gioia...who would never have any reason to be able to drive a boat...#who would only be able to pick up so much about driving during the 4 days on sea with vergil (who. I don't think would be super keen on #teaching that???)... somehow‚ gioia is able to make that same journey Back to Fortuna‚ basically by herself with relatively minor trouble #if she didn't have plot armor she and nero Absolutely would have died at sea lmao #sriracha.txt #dmc #nero prime #long post #i feel like this rabbit hole has genuinely taken something from me.. my head hurts so much 🙈🙈🙈

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risaonda · 3 years

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brain keeps going and it's so funny bc I'm slightly more normal when I leave work but also

#venus ambassador give us a post #doesnt make sense realized i didnt wanna put it in actual post text #when i texted m*m the other day it was to ask if she'd be willing to help me try applying for ssi #bc Something Here Needs To Give or im gonna flip my shit #but she was busy yesterday so i said okay we can talk on monday bc she'll b here monday #and when i said that i was like ya if u can last til then and THEN i was like drama queen? ur fine #and then today while i was at work it really was just Oh I Get It. Oh U Are Not Fine.#ill be fine until monday i just have to figure out which mental battle is gonna win tomorrow #calling out bc im losing it vs sucking it up and going in bc existing is expensive and u cant afford not to 🤪#BUT back to my point. whats funny is im sitting here in a book store trying to figure out #how i can explain what im going through rn without needing to tell my mom that stress is making me sewer sidal 🙄#its like ultimately its fine im cool im normal but im SO not too. ya know <3 HGJHFJF #like thats such a conversation and im like i dont want u to freak out or scare u i am just (starts screaming) like u know #anyway thats where im at now HFHHFJF

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goatedgreen · 3 years

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literally im so fucking embarrasing to only myself like i needed this headphone adapter for my new phone so i went to my local electronics store to see if they had them (they did) but it was literally 10 fucking quid and my first thought was like "thats way too expensive im not paying that" but the guy had already scanned it and asked for the money so before you know it im handing over a £10 note like NO!!!

but anyway i walked out with my too expensive headphone adapter feeling like pure shit when i was like "no. i wanted to get a pepsi from lidl and now i cant afford it because i only had a tenner, im returning this" so i went back in and instead of just being like "aha i dont actually want this" i went "haha sorry im back again so soon! i got this for my brother and it turns out he already got one 🤪" ?????? I DONT HAVE A BROTHER. WHY WAS THE LIE NECESSARY???? anyway i got my £10 back but i cant go back in there ever again

#blaze.babbles

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prehistoricmancunt · 2 years

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happy period week while poor! free bleeding bc i cant afford menstrual products 🤪 luckily my period is usually short and i found a stray tampon for my heaviest flow day (today) and also i donthave anywhere to go bc i work from home (pls don’t send $ for menstrual products bc i'll still be too guilty to buy them when i have bills to pay and groceries to buy so i just wouldn't buy them lmfao so save yr money)

#its just kind of funny #text post #menstruation tw #money tw #alekz talks

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charonte-simi · 3 years

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Help I am once again looking at houses that I cant afford 🤪

Also why are houses so gosh darn big? Where are the bachelor pads? I dont need a house with 7 rooms wtf

It's impossible to find housing for single ppl in this area 😤

#simi speaks

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turb0pussy · 3 years

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feels like i should check myself back into the psych ward 🤪 cant afford that tho AND the thought of leaving my cat alone for all that time makes me break down even more so im stuck between the most fun rock and the most interesting hard place and yes i do want to d*e thank you for asking

#im just watching the cats being sweet and sitting in the window and just….. wishing

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