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stressedanime Ā· 4 months
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if i changed my url would yall know meā€¦.
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kacievvbbbb Ā· 6 days
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Okay so Iā€™ve spent the last couple days on Twitter (@kacievvbbbb if you wanna join me šŸ‘€) just fucking yapping about my new found obsession with the idea that Mihawk not only reads but is an active and well loved contributor to the pirate smut genre all across the blues. And I just needed to bring this to tumble to get more thoughts on it.
Here are mine;
- he obviously writes under a pseudonym would be funny if it was an anagram of like Worlds Strongest Swordsman or something.
- he writes essentially y/n fanfiction but he is always the reader.
- he is heavily perfectionist about his detailing of things like bodice ripping and that has lead to many a fun night for Shanks as he discreetly tries to rest just how exactly a bodice ripping would look and feel. Or if this sex position is even plausible.
-this one was a combined effort between @Dior and myself but he writes all the lovers as much more of an active participant in sex than the pillow princess himself actually is and this is because he thinks he is putting in exactly the same amount of work into sex as Shanks is which is laughable.
-Benn features heavily in alot of these RHP smut books. Benn
-He mostly writes RHP smut but he will branch out to other pirates like Crocodile maybe Doffy šŸ‘€. This gives Shanks heart palpitations when he finds out all this smut has been written by Mihawk.
- Mihawk almost kills both himself and Shanks by drowning the first time he finds out that Shanks knows about his little hobby.
- Shanks regularly requests they try something from the book and Mihawk has to stomp down the urge to throttle him. But again Mihawkā€™s reader is a much active participant in sex than he is and he is not a fan of all this work he has to put in even though he enjoys the results. Shanks is highly amused.
- Shanks for the first time in his life becaomes an avid reader with a habit and this confuses everyone that doesnā€™t know what he is reading and suffers Benn greatly who does.
- Shanks is lowkey very into the stories where the ā€œreaderā€ has sex with other men. He starts setting plans in motion.
- Mihawk also collects a lot of pirate smut a lot of it is about himself as well and this is his equivalent to jerking off. His next favorite people to read about are of course Shanks, Cricodile he is ashamed of just how much Doflamingo smut he owns. Lowkey maybe some King smut too.
- a contribution from someone on Twitter tha I live is that he also grades said smut about himslef and then sends the notes to the authors.
- he pseudonym is well known and well lived in the community.
-this is infact where more than half of his riches comes from.
- yes he also does read marine porn. He steers clear of anything that even remotely mentions garp tho. His favorite marine to red about is Sengoku I donā€™t fucking know šŸ˜­. I can just imagine him seating in warlord meetings shipping Sengoku with random fucking marines and pirates as he is trying to talk about very serious business
- he sure write the well known and well loved ā€œthe red haired emperor & meā€ series which is published in Morganā€™s magazine or whatever and Shanks always seeks him out no matter where he is and fucks him good and hard everytime a new chapter goes out.
- he continues to do this while at Cross Guild Buggy and Crocodile are non the wiser. His crocodile descriptions start to get more detailed a clown pops up every now and again in his writing Shanks might be on the verge of a heart attack.
- shanks is a little too invested in the situation some (Benn) would say.
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gen4grl Ā· 28 days
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you would think after all the yapping i do about these losers i would have a plethora of art uploaded ā€¦ noā€¦ so here is my first kantrio post lol
i did these over the last month while watching the olympic weightlifting and jamming to kpop (stan red velvet and kiss of life BTW!!!)
#pokemon#pkmn#trainer red#rival blue#trainer leaf#i made them classy and smoke from a joint idk maybe i should of done the classic aussie teen experience and make them smoke from a water#bottle bong šŸ¤© red is a massive foodie so ofc he has the multiple options of snacks ready lol my go-to fried food was a capriccosia pizza šŸ˜­#iā€™m always conflicted on the blue smoking hc (just cigarettes yall lol) i often see fanart of professor blue smoking and i see the vision#50/50??? let me ask the audience šŸ—£ļø i think iā€™m bias cause i am cursed with thinking men who smoke are extremely attractive lmao#there is 100% lore behind that second piece but i am so burnt out and i donā€™t think itā€™ll fit in tags lol#also just have a raging fear of sharing anything kantrio related LOL like raging projectile vomiting level anxiety#blue fears repeating the toxic cycles he grew up in but oops heā€™s doing exactly that in the second piece šŸ§#wowzers ā€¦ as kieran would say lol ā€¦ i love writing and thinking about blue and his emotional growth over those 3 years red was missing#but hey sometimes something hurts so badly it takes you back to that sad and scared child version of yourself right?#strength to me is like: red >>>>>>> leaf >> bluešŸ¤·šŸ»ā€ā™€ļø they technically both canonically beat blue in gamecanon so ā€¦ my girl is strong sorry#ainā€™t standing shy timid leaf in this house ā€¦#also - despite being acespec myself i didnā€™t know demi was under the ace umbrella! i think it suits red super well imo :p#pan aswell bc i donā€™t think he gaf šŸ˜­ also shout out to one of my fave pkmn artists kiriato šŸ«¶šŸ»šŸ¤§ i was going through such bad art block and#their work inspired all of these :3 i love their stuff sm espcially their comics šŸ„¹ i drew all of these using their brush sets too!!!#trainer blue#blue pokemon#red pokemon#leaf pokemon#pokemon art#pokemon fanart#pokemon frlg#trainer green#rival green#my art <3#kanto au
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goldkirk Ā· 1 month
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hey this isnā€™t aimed at anyone in particular but Iā€™m saying it for the record here: if I tell you no, please stop messaging me about fundraisers and mutual aid.
I get enough messages that itā€™s impossible for me to keep up without devoting at least half an hour each day, when Iā€™m not even on tumblr that long most days. Me having a boundary about this isnā€™t a moral failing, itā€™s a lifeboat for me on my own blog.
In my personal life Iā€™m already advocating and donating literally as much as I can spare. This is not me not caring, itā€™s just me not willing to interact with that on the one place I go online to not interact with irl news and world events for the most part.
I cannot be upset all the time. I cannot be upset everywhere. I cannot use all my emotional and mental energy fielding my own upset from ongoing events. My options are to hold boundaries about this or stop coming online at all.
Iā€™m all for sharing information and signal boosting to reasonable extents, but the scale of it this year is so large and so enduring that it is literally not possible to for me to participate on every account I have. Iā€™ve previously shared links to Gaza eSIM donations and a major hub of verified Go Fund Mes here and elsewhere online. We, the online humans, know how to look those things up ourselves by now. There are many, many people choosing to do advocacy work, and right now, I canā€™t be one of them.
If youā€™re extremely upset when I tell you I canā€™t share/donate right now about a Gaza family or personal fundraiser you ask me to share here, just unfollow and block me. Thatā€™s what those buttons are for. Protect your own emotions and energy and get me off your feed instead of staying upset and continuing to engage with online people or content that upsets you.
Please donā€™t send repeated angry messages based on manufactured purity politics and moral outrage into my messages and inbox when I exercise the right to run my own blog.
#and on that note#I also think some people need to sit down and ask themselves#if their old end times anxieties and fears and preparations and word spreading#havenā€™t filtered straight into a new non religious end of society and end of modern world order anxiety that theyā€™re pushing on other peopl#even if it is the end times#you cannot change that by beating your own anxieties into other peopleā€™s heads#people can care MORE when they are GIVEN ROOM TO BREATHE#first rule of sustainable activism is you canā€™t do it constantly and you canā€™t push it on people constantly#you have to pace it and you have have have have HAVE to play long games#short term activism burns you out and if it leads to full despair from burnout it can get you killed via depression#itā€™s not a joke#thereā€™s a reason your elders have books and community lore about healthy activism even in times of crisis#they lived it. they learned from it. learn from them.#spend your time doing things that can make real impacts.#do little things online but unless youā€™re an actual information hub you shouldnā€™t be posting constantly about it#people wonā€™t even want to follow you anymore eventually because thatā€™s not why they followed you#and then you have no audience for your important message anyway.#I know this. I learned it myself on other accounts.#please. stop. harassing me.#how is harassing me going to make me MORE willing to change my mind and post? just because you demanded it?#I am an autonomous person#this is my ONE curated space on the website#you have a multitude of tags and other users#donā€™t waste energy on a person who already told you no. letā€™s call that activism rule number two#spend your energy where itā€™s not likely to be wasted#youā€™re needed for a long haul#act like it šŸ˜­#and stop spamming me šŸ˜­#hey little star whatcha gonna queue?
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starrysharks Ā· 1 year
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"everything's connected, you know! all those unsolved deaths in this town - it was ghosts, i'm sure of it!"
onion, the tritagonist of reassassination. a nerdy and somewhat naiive teen with a deep obsession for everything paranormal, they run the blog 'surREAL investigations' to tell the world - or their 6 followers, at least - the truth about the supernatural.
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vypridae Ā· 11 months
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"shhhh... you never saw me."
idk i saw this mori card and immediately needed to draw it. ik most if not all of my followers don't like or hate mori but i drew this for ME. for MYSELF. and i'm proud of it
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themintman Ā· 20 days
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yall y'all y'all I always forget that like. I post public art. On a public account. Like I don't realise that people actually SEE my art or think about it or whatever. Bbut. My GOODNESS. this month I have seen my art in the wilderness and I AM. TERRIFIED???? HELLO???? PEOPLE KNOW ABOUT MY PUBLIC ACCOUNT????? it's so scary goodness me. ANYWAYS KNOW THAT IF YOUVE REFRENCED MY ART AT ALL I DO KNOW. I HAVE SEEN IT AND I AM PROBABLY FREAKIG THE FUCK OUT GOODNESS ME. IM JUST TOO SCARED TO RESPOND BEYOND LIKE. A LIL EMOJI REACTION. HHH
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lemongogo Ā· 1 year
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every morning i tell myself i wont be late 2 work this time and then every morning i sit here like rhis w my breakfast reading trimax like the morning paper
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suddencolds Ā· 4 days
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. not snz
on healing and on fear (tags)
#(typed this up at 3am and scheduling for later) no one needs to read this šŸ™#today i went back to the site where i got injured back in may to partake in a sport which i haven't touched at all since the injury#and i think what struck me was the realization that#i don't know if i'll ever be able to stop being scared again :')#for a time climbing was very special to me...#it was one of the only ways i could feel myself improving so tangibly when improvement is usually so difficult to track#i liked seeing myself get better at something šŸ˜­ i liked going with friends and puzzling over the same problems... i liked having something#to look forward to after work. and perhaps having something to look forward to sounds simple... but for me it meant so much :')#for the first couple months after the injury i couldn't wait to get back into it#and then one day i woke up and i was just afraid#the fear feels so much more tangible now that i know i am not overreacting... it's awful knowing that in a way i was right to be afraid#i always knew there were risks associated; i have always been cautious#but i had just been starting to learn to be braver šŸ˜­#and fuck... today i stood there and looked at the wall and thought. how can i ever not be afraid again?#how can i go back to how things were before? when i loved this? when i could tell myself that - despite the fear - it was meaningful to try#i wanted to come away with the takeaway that i could take things slowly and get back into climbing - maybe precisely because#i remember so keenly how i loved it - but how could it ever be the same?#šŸ˜­ i know this is just part of growing up but#in some ways i am tired of growing up... :') in some ways i just want that joy as it was then#delete later probably#i suppose i haven't lost anything but typing this made me sob for something i couldn't quite name
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hella1975 Ā· 10 months
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ive never felt more rural than i have in the past few weeks since hanging out with a lad who has only ever lived in cities. what do you MEAN YOU'VE NEVER DONE A MORRIS DANCE
#he didn't even know what morris dancers WERE i said some shit like 'you know it's summer when the morris dancers come out'#and he was like 'the what now' I FEEL LIKE IM GOING CRAZY. HE'S FUCKING WITH ME SURELY#AND THIS HAPPENS SO OFTEN ABOUT THINGS I JUST ASSUMED WERE BASICS#'harvest festival šŸ¤Ø' PARDON. YOU ARE JOKING#and also the CONCEPT of a village is baffling to him. i said there's probably about 100 people in my entire village#and we don't have a pub or a single shop the closest ones are in the NEXT village over which is a 3 mile walk#and this boy was HORRIFIED. we are both in a constant state of thinking the other is taking the piss#and now every time i think/do something abundantly rural im SO self-aware šŸ˜­#my mum told me the farmers are gonna do a xmas tractor run through our village this year#(they usually miss our village bc even by village standards it's tiny)#and she was like 'shame you'll miss it! i'll send you a video!' and im there already picturing this boy's face when i show it him#like sigh. yeah. yeah okay maybe the rural england is ingrained deeper than i feared. never escaping the allegations etc#had a conversation with him the other day that concluded with me 100% genuinely being like 'you need to touch grass'#i literally said 'i think it would fix you. like actually go and touch some grass what the fuck'#bc at this point he's so far removed from nature that it's INSANE TO ME. i didnt realise how much i took growing up rurally for granted#THESE PEOPLE DONT EVEN GET DRUNK IN FIELDS. THEY HAVE NO FIELDS. I HAD TO EXPLAIN TO HIM WHAT A CAMP OUT WAS
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purpurussy Ā· 2 months
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#tw suicide#idk i feel like i am probably gonna kms after TIT#i would do it sooner but i asked one of my friends to come with me and it would suck if i made him go alone#and it is something to look forward to which is helping me hang on i guess#but ughhhh once uni starts again in september i know everything is gonna fall apart.#i already got an extension on my thesis due to being a useless shell of a person who can't motivate themselves to do anything atm#but i was supposed to get some work done over the summer and have so far done nothing#hence why i want to kms before i have to talk to my fucking supervisors again and admit yet again that i simply cannot do this šŸ˜­#and it's not just this. my executive dysfunction has been so bad over the past couple of years and it's only getting worse#to the point where i can't imagine being able to work at all. and if i can't work i can't get out of my parents house#and then what the fuck is the point.#every time i see someone on here talking about bonding with their parents over dnp I'm like damn what's it like#to have parents who actually want to talk to you DSFGJJKL i know they let me live in their house at my big age#but that's only bc id literally be homeless otherwise and they're not like evil. they just don't love me#also went through a deeply embarrassing breakup recently#tl;dr ive been in love with this person for over a decade and i thought they were the dan to my phil or vice versa.#then after 10 years they left me and i'll spare the details but it has me wondering if they ever loved me#i thought it was a ā€œlet's live together and get a cat one dayā€ relationship#but now i feel like for them. it was just a ā€œsex and video gamesā€ type situation#i am trying soooo hard to at least be creative bc that makes me happy sometimes but it's hard to not be overly critical of myself#and now im getting to a point where i can barely even find any joy in this space any more. for a bunch of reasons#most of which revolve around me being extremely sensitive. and this is like my last bastion of dopamine so that fucking sucks#idk i don't see the point in my life any more. a social worker actually told me recently that i should consider euthanasia so.#it's just completely over for me i fear#this is not even mentioning all the damn migraines. and all the other ways in which my body simply doesn't work properly#sorry for this weird ass vent I'm not in therapy any more bc i couldn't find a therapist willing to treat me+all my diagnoses at this point#and im scared my friends will stop wanting to talk to me if i talk to them about this. several of them already have#the 2 friends i have left anyway. that's a whole other thing. when they said it's hard for autistic ppl to make friends i took that persona#so uh at this point it's vent here or develop a substance abuse problem. and im already halfway to having a substance abuse problem#anyway dan and phil for the love of god please fucking post something tonight. unfortunately you are my only hope
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seraphirism Ā· 1 month
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Hello! I hope youā€™re having a good day and just wanted to let you know that your explanation of chapter 4 was amazing!! If you donā€™t mind me asking though, who exactly is Falin? Or rather whatā€™s her big schtick? Cause I liked her in the chapter but couldnā€™t really understand why she is who she is.
hii and thank you so much for liking it (*ā‰§āˆ€ā‰¦*)šŸ’ž!! I go on a tangent when Iā€™m speaking/writing so everything ends up all over the place?
also, I donā€™t mind at all, in fact, thank you for asking about Falin \(//āˆ‡//)\!! I wanted to talk about her so bad (and I decided I was going to make long post about her pretty soon! seeing your ask made me so happy, cause now I have a reason to talk about her!)
[also, anon, I kinda had one thing in my head and it turned into another so I feel like I deviated from what you wanted and turned it into something else? I apologise in advance if this was not what you meant. please let me know if this is what you meant or something else :D!]
spoilers for main story chapter 4, part 4 and 5 are below and trigger warning for breeding, captivity and human trafficking (technically not human but it still applies i guess?)
now, for people who have not read the story or donā€™t remember it clearly, Iā€™ll briefly go over what happened in the main story revolving asking her, before jumping to what we know about her character and some of my own theories + things Iā€™ve noted about her. unfortunately, we do not have information for why she turned into such a twisted character but I think that might be revealed in the coming chapter since the case of Seiran family has not been wrapped up yet; the investigation is still going on since the Master of the Seiran family is still alive.
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her actions, leading up to her death:
this is meant for those who have not read or do not remember the events revolving her; Iā€™ll wrap it up quickly! in case you have not read my previous explanation about chapter 4 (part 3-5) and are confused, please give it a read!
it begins when the butlers (+muu!) were taking shifts at night in various places inside the Seiranā€™s palace (doing their guarding duties) when they hear the maids calling out to each other that ā€œshe went into labourā€ or ā€œthe child is about to be born, grab [insert necessity]!ā€
[note: for child, the word used in Japanese by the maids is 子/ko which does not only mean the child of a person but could be the child of an animal too. that was one of the assumptions of the butlers; that the child was a cat/dogā€™s baby OR that the child could be of another possible (hidden) mistress of the head of the Seiran family.]
but it becomes strange when this happens again, and then again. now, the butlers were suspicious, especially when Falin reacted in an unusual manner, saying she had not heard the maids act like that before heading back quickly, avoiding the subject.
now everything comes to light when:
[this is after the Master of the Seiran family had been kidnapped by mr elf, and Fennesz and Haures were away searching for the Master of the Seiran family.].
Ammon, Boschi, Aruji with Falin at their side are confronted by the sight of elf guy interrogating the Master of the Seiran family.
[note: elf guyā€™s people (their kind as a whole) are from the West (specifically from the valley regions.). they are governed by Elboa, the green headed elf looking guy with a hood.].
there itā€™s revealed that the Seiran family had kidnapped the people of elf guy (people of the valley.). Boschi assumed it was for experimentation, like the Sardis family did. In response, when Boschi, in a repulsed manner, makes this remark out loud, Falin says this, gazing at elf guy with fascination:
ā€œOh my, how rude! I have no interest in such trivialities. Lookā€¦(gesturing to elf guy)ā€¦.at that crystalline skinā€¦those blue eyesā€¦those elegantly shaped ears.ā€
ā€œI want to keep beautiful things close to meā€¦increase them in numberā€¦and share them with othersā€¦isnā€™t that human nature?ā€
she was the main culprit behind the kidnapping and unlike what the butlers were assuming, it was not for experimentation purposes (like the Sardis) but her desire to possess beautiful ā€œthingsā€ and share them with others. not only does she keep the people of mr elf (locked up for her viewing) BUT she wanted to increase their number. now, what was the best way to do that?
breeding. she forced the really beautiful male and female captives to have children together, to produce even more beautiful children for they would be ā€œmore desired by clientsā€. now itā€™s kinda ambiguous whether she sold only the children or the adults too; but she did have the elfā€™s people sold to nobles for high prices. thatā€™s the reason for the children being born mysteriously each night but never being seen or heard of.
(we donā€™t have information about who the nobles were but it could very well be to nobles anywhere. I donā€™t think their clients were majorly from the East since that would be risky for them. anyhow, i feel like information about who the nobles were will be revealed soon since investigation is still going on into the business.).
thatā€™s how the Seiran family became so rich and influential in the first place (by human trafficking) so much so that even during the (current) wars that plagued the Eastern lands, the people governed by the Seiran family were always doing well, financially, were not impacted by the unsettlement in the East and were extremely fond of the Seiran family and grateful for their rule.
[the scene where Falin is waving and greeting the grateful civilians in carriage with Aruji and Muu becomes kind of unsettling when you think about it; the reason why the civilians could relish in security (financial + food + otherwise) was due to the money the Seiran family earned from trafficking. ]
[note: Seiran familyā€™s ā€œhuman traffickingā€ likely started when Falin married into the family (though we donā€™t know for sure from the main story.). Iā€™m not negating Seiran familyā€™s wealth in any way since they were nobility even 300 years ago, but their sudden wealth in the current years has been likely due to this business.]
after being exposed, the elf guy demands them to hand over his people but Falin says she had all of the ā€œproductsā€ burnt on the orders of her husband.
[earlier, Falinā€™s husband told her in private that he wanted to discontinue this ā€œbusinessā€ of theirs now because now they had established their power and their kingdom was rich. so he wanted all evidence of their business destroyed. he was especially afraid now, after the Sardis family was exposed, stripped of their titles and now regarded as criminals.]
Aruji confirms that there had been no fire (they would have smelled the scent of such a huge fire or seen evidence of it), proving to elf guy that Falin was lying. She admits after giggling that she would never have her ā€œproductsā€ harmed; she merely sent the products with her maids to her parentā€™s home.
[long story short; elf guy then threatens Falin in an attempt to make her show him where his people were, the huge bell rings (the one signaling angels arrival) and Falin leaves in the heat of the moment. elf guy runs after her, hot on her tail.]
she runs back to her castle, where she sees Seraphim and Cherubim. she is instantly entranced by their appearance, especially after they kill some of her men with their ā€œlight powersā€.
she asks them to kill her; her ephemeral life was going to come to end someday, hence sheā€™d rather it come to end with her last sight and the manner of her death both being beautiful. [her words, roughly.]
[note: she wanted to die by their light powers.]
Seraphim (after being weirded out šŸ˜­) agrees with a smirk. then he proceeds to stab her fatally (because he deemed her impertinent and arrogant for talking this way to an angel šŸ˜­). she slowly bleeds out as Seraphim and Cherubim leave with the cage full of elf guyā€™s people with them.
[elfā€™s people were seen being taken by the maids of Falin (by Cherubim and Seraphim above). after they saw the cage being transported, they killed her maids and men, and took the captives (the elfā€™s people) who offered no resistance since all the time in captivity had made them apathetic and out-of-it. Cherubim will likely use the captives for experimentation :(]
there, elf guy arrives; he had been waiting behind in the shadows, unable to step out because he knew the intelligent angels were stronger than the average angels and he wasnā€™t sure he could win in a fight against them. there, he sees Falin, lying in a pool of her blood, her face pointing to a mirror in the room, gazing at herself (covered in blood.).
elf guy (almost pitying her because he planned on killing her in a quick manner, not in the torturous way she was currently dying) asks her to look into his eyes. she looks at him before he kills her with one quick attack of his sword.
[he also almost pitied her for the fact her last sight was herself covered in blood and not something beautiful; beautiful things were something she had dedicated herself to, all her life. thatā€™s why he asked her to look at him so her last sight could be him (someone she called extremely beautiful and showed a desire to possess), fulfilling her last wish.].
thatā€™s how she dies, her last sight being ā€œsomethingā€ beautiful, right as she desired all this time.
now, with this out of the way, Iā€™ll only be focusing on her.
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Falin; her character and all the known information about her.
so Falin or ćƒ•ć‚”ćƒŖćƒ³ was the Mistess of the Seiran family: the wife of the Master of the Seiran family. she was originally a noble woman from a small aristocratic family located in a mountainous region in the East; her family did not have much influence and itā€™s not known how she ended up marrying the Head of the Seiran family.
the first thing we learn about Falin, comes when Boschi notices her and remarks, in complete horror that she looks exactly like his mother. he goes further to add that even her voice was exactly like his motherā€™s; only her personality differed as his mother was timid by personality.
[you can just imagine the extent of how similar they looked for Boschi to feel so uncomfortable in her presence; unfortunately we have no description of how Boschiā€™s mother looked like to pin down Falinā€™s appearance. all we know is that Boschiā€™s motherā€™s hair had a beautiful lustre to it and was likely long. Boschiā€™s hair colour is something he inherited from his father so Falinā€™s hair colour isnā€™t blue. we can also guess since Boschiā€™s mother had a frail physique, Falin also had a similar one; she was also likely not too tall either and had a slim/skinny build.]
she married into the Seiran family. she is a descendant of a relative of Boschiā€™s mother; (Boschi said so himself). while his mother did die in the fire, she had relatives remaining in her village. Falin is a descendant of one such relative ā€” this would explain her eerie similarity to his mother.
she was initially fascinated by Boschiā€™s appearance because ā€œhe is beautiful like Fubukiā€ ā€” both are cold, strong and have one eye. [this made me crack up šŸ˜­ Iā€™m sorry.]. we later learn from Finley that there were rumours that she had actually proposed to Fubuki a long time ago (to marry him) but was rejected by him.
there comes my next point! i think most fans got the impression that she was really young (like I did), being around the age of 25ā€“30 but I believe this is wrong. we know from her interaction with Aruji and Muu (where she was amused when Muu called her young) that she is a bit older (not calling her old šŸ˜­) but her age may be (from the way she recalls her past experiences as the time she was ā€œyoungā€) around 30-45. I want to push it further from 30 but with the current canon content, I want to be careful just in case i end up wrong.
[also Boschi saw his mother for the first time when she was around her 40ā€™s; I doubt someone in their 20ā€™s could look so startling alike to someone in their 40ā€™s. Boschi would have then added then that Falin looked like a more younger version of his mother: but he didnā€™t.
he said that their face, builds and voices were exactly the same; he could have added the age part too.]
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A bit of background about East:
now i want to focus on East a bit and the standing women have/had:
women of the noble families in the East are regarded with little to no importance. theyā€™re merely seen important for their ability to bear a potential male heir. Boschi further explained that they have no power or influence, live in seclusion, make no public appearance and have no political power (despite being mistresses of powerful noble families.).
an example of this is Bosciā€™s own mother. she was the third wife of his father, had no political power or influence and till her death lived in complete seclusion. because she hid the fact that she had a son, so a child-less wife was not important.
[the first wife killed the third wife and her son, after news of her son being born came out. the reason why the first wife had so much power to begin either is because she had a son earlier than the other wives and wasnā€™t willing for the other wives to have a chance for their son/s to be potential heirs.]
so for power, the women in noble families could and would sink pretty low.
now, with this in mind, letā€™s proceed!
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Falinā€™s role and how she stood out:
Falin breaks many of the stereotypes that we have of the Eastern noble women in akuneko.
first of all, sheā€™s the first and only wife of the master of the Seiran family (from what we know).
thatā€™s extremely strange, especially considering the noble men from the east so far have been depicted to have more than one wife. [polygamy was common; Boschi says so himself. monogamy, on the other hand, was uncommon.]
whatā€™s also strange is that she has no known children. sheā€™s been married to the head of the Seiran family for quite a while yet from their interaction, the topic of children never came up. [keep in mind, this is set in a land and time where women are only regarded important for bearing a potential male heir. wars are still rampant and there are new noble families attempting to rise to power. if she couldnā€™t have children, her husband would have another wife already. but thereā€™s a split chance her husband cannot have children, but that fact could have been used to oust him from power by a relative of his, from the Seiran family already.].
[so itā€™s unknown why they donā€™t have children or arenā€™t seeking to have them in a war struck region where male heirs are absolutely necessary for power.]
secondly, she had more authority/power (not on first glance) than her husband, the actual head of the family.
we know she (very likely) started the business of human trafficking; from how attached she was to it and how reluctant she was of letting go of it. she likely posed the business to her husband as a means of securing more influence and power in the Eastern lands (which is plagued by wars for power) but in actuality it was for her own twisted desire for ā€œbeautiful thingsā€.
her husband acquiesced to her whims very easily. this can be seen by when brought up the subject of ending the business and destroying the ā€œevidenceā€, she quickly managed to dissuade him with a little assuaging.
she even admitted in front of Aruji, Boschi, Ammon, her husband and elf guy that she manipulated her husband to follow her whims in this business.]
one other incident, which proves this is, when the butlers were told not to guard the master and mistress of the Seiran family (new guards of their own were assigned), she immediately went up to her husband and subtly hinted that she was ā€œafraidā€ the new guards would not be able to protect her husband as well as the devil butlers (who have quite a reputation for their strength).
in actuality, she was not concerned about his safety (or even her own, to be honest.). she wanted the butlers by her side so she can gaze at their ā€œbeautiful faces ā€œ while she went about her day. she did end up accomplishing that as her husband had the devil butlers reassigned only for her protection.
her influence over her husband can also be seen in when she manages to rope him into allowing her to dine with Aruji [instead of dining with him], in hopes of seeing the butlers from close enough (as they would be guarding Aruji right in their room) since she wasnā€™t getting enough opportunities to see them from close enough.
[itā€™s also interesting that her husband said that the devil butlers were invited to the Seiranā€™s residence because he was concerned for her safety, not his. he says this as a reminder to Falin, in one instance, (I guess trying to keep her in check because he was a bit suspicious of her and her intentions.).
so did she possibly manipulate her husband into inviting the butlers? itā€™s canon (in aknkā€™s story), that the devil butlers (while they are detested by people all around the world) are well known for both their beauty and strength. since we know she wasnā€™t concerned for her own life, could it be she invited them after hearing talks of their looks?]
moreover, unlike the noble women of her time, she was extremely confident and sly (in all matters, with all people, even strangers.).
ignoring her husband now and focusing on her interaction with the other characters:
when she saw Boschi for the first time, she approached him confidently, even inquiring about how he received the injury on his arm and eye. his attempts to reject her questions (rudely too) only brought her satisfaction and made her even more curious and him.
in the incident where she dined with Aruji, she had managed to convince Haures too, into allowing her to go inside Arujiā€™s room without informing them prior. and Haures genuinely seemed unable to deal with Falin and her persistent personality.
she switches her approach too, depending on who sheā€™s dealing with: with her husband, itā€™s gentle, concerned and complacent; with the butlers, itā€™s persistent and clever.
even when she was revealed to be carrying out that business, she was calm and amused by Ammon and Boschi regarding her with hatred. even after that, she made one last further request to Aruji to capture elf guy in return for anything Aruji wanted (which they rejected.).
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Extra:
I want to talk about one more incident where I loved the writerā€™s subtlety in showing Falinā€™s character:
it was when she wanted to have breakfast with Aruji instead of her husband; the reason she states for this was: that being surrounded by fully armed, ā€œfaceless menā€ (the guards) would make her not enjoy her breakfast. and thatā€™s when she remembered the ā€œfaces of the butlersā€ (with whom she would be able to enjoy her food, since she liked their faces).
she could have said she wanted the company of Aruji or the butlers over the guards, or remembered them because she likes spending time with them or that theyā€™re more amusing; any excuse could have passed. but she said she remembered the faces of the butlers and thought she would enjoy her food better with them in her presence.
[by the way, this was after the head of the guards was changed because the original one was injured; the temporary head of the guards made it a rule to wear armour that covered their faces as well i think?].
Lastly, itā€™s interesting how Falin, a mere mistress of the Seiran family has a name (despite the eastern noble women being put down in terms of power and influence) yet her husband was only ā€œMaster of the Seiran Familyā€ throughout the story ā€” all in all, to show how irrelevant he was and how he had no power or a role in the story, besides his title.
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my own thoughts:
I mentioned in my previous post that I would like it if the writers could give more focus to the Seiran family, in particular, Falin.
how did a woman from a small aristocratic family end up marrying the master of a (relatively) bigger noble family and rope the master into following her desires? (if she did start the business of human trafficking) how did she convince the master of Seiran family?
also, what started her obsession with beauty? considering how rooted it is in her, did it start from her childhood? did her parents engrain it in her? [I can come up with loose reasons for almost every question in my mind but my mind goes blank for why Falin could have been so obsessed with beautiful people. she didnā€™t show much regard for riches either so why beauty of all subjects?]
(another thought thatā€™s been on my mind) is that the killing of Boschiā€™s family was something well known in the aknk world; Berrien affirms this as well. so itā€™s unlikely that Falinā€™s ancestor (the one related to Boschiā€™s mother) did not know of the killing of Boschiā€™s mother.
how were Falinā€™s family okay with her marrying into the Seiran family when they were responsible for killing her family just 300 years ago? itā€™s unlikely they have forgotten it because (call me delusional) but I think they do keep records of everything (since the Eastern lands in aknk are loosely based off feudal japan.)
Or wait āœØ! what if they (Falinā€™s parents) made her marry the Master of Seiran family because they believed it would be a good proposal for her (Seiran family being rich) and they could benefit from Seiran familyā€™s riches too if Falin marries into them (their past bad blood be damned)?
and Falin knew of what the Seiran family did to hers years ago, which is why she doesnā€™t love or show any regard for the Master of the Seiran family āœØ?
[Iā€™ll shut up; these were mostly my own thoughts from what canon content I could scavenge. but I think even if this isnā€™t the truth (what Iā€™ve proposed), itā€™s pretty close the truth. so Iā€™ll settle with that.]
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anyway, thatā€™s it! iā€™ll pipe down now but thatā€™s what I could piece together. please let me know if i got a fact wrong (as the length of the story does make it easy to confuse parts of it.)
i hope we learn more about Falin, her childhood and what led to her character becoming the way it is! if they donā€™t, Iā€™m coming for studio wasabi āœØ! have a wonderful day, anon (*^ā–½^*)!! i hope this was a good read!
and if thereā€™s something you all want to add into what Iā€™ve said, propose an alternative idea to what Iā€™ve said, or correct me in something I said, please comment below or send me an ask. i donā€™t wish for incorrect information to be passed around, especially from my own mouth.
have a good day everyone! I love discussing the story content of aknk so feel free to send me asks anytime (*^ā–½^*)! please pray for me, (if youā€™re someone that prays) because my exam result is coming out tomorrow morning šŸ˜­)
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spacedlexi Ā· 1 year
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skybound collectively unshitting their pants after acquiring the full rights to clementine, the coolest character in their own franchise
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downsteepy Ā· 2 months
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i am very grateful that im not someone that has to deal with daily seizures but it is evil when it takes like a week and a half's worth of business days to recover from a seizure
#if i had them everyday or every other day i would be so fucked šŸ˜­#id like to say they dont bother me per se but the entire week after is laying in bed after 11 pm and wondering if jts going to happen again#bc my head feels like its about to explode#and then do not get me started on the fear of getting in the shower within the first few days of one happening .#reasonably i understand that my seizures happen from 11pm to maybe 3 am on average .#but ill have a seizure and then have to hype myself up for like 2 hours just to take one 3 days later st like 2 pm#my seizures do not interfere with my day to day life in extreme ways but existing knowing that i have them during a certain time frame is#like. Hey man can you grow up#also it is really funny being told theyre probably hormonal or stress related and should 'probably stop' as i get into my mid 20s .#Well im turning 25 next month and evidently i still have seizure activity in me#also also heres a fun fact: my epilepsy does not have an actual named diagnosis they just said i certainly have a Form of it ā¤ļø#they dont know what causes them and i have no real warning signs (bc a headache =/= potential seizure)#they dont bother me but i do have to live with the knowledge that i could have one any day now and wake up to my mom asking me questions#hope everyone can tell i have a lot of feelings about my epilepsy despite not talking about it like ever ā¤ļø#the only thing that really bothers me is the no warning signs. ive been perfectly fine and had them. ive had massive migraines when i was#unmedicated and didnt have one. very bizarre#and ofc all my brain scans come back normal all the time so they dgaf Lol
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Hey guys quick PSA I canā€™t believe I as an adult am making about another adult but if you have so much nonexistent beef with me that you have to DM someone who knows someone Iā€™ve spoken to like twice about if we correspond then thatā€™s absolutely insane and I highly recommend you seek therapy of some sort because what
Stalking my tumblr dot com hayden christensen smut page over a whole lot of nothingburger with nothingsauce and a side of nothing with fries drama is unhealthy and not good for your psyche.
The beef is so not there you can call that shit Impossible!! šŸ˜­
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the-lark-ascending69 Ā· 5 months
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> be a robin buckley fan
> be lesbian
> project on robin
> look up "internalized homophobia robin buckley" on tumblr because it's cathartic
> 3/4 of the posts are about st3ddie or just about steve
#saw one in which steve was like ''no robin you don't understand! i have never been loved! i don't know how that feels like!''#i have several grips about that interpretation#going from the fact that's not true (dustin is clearly a big steve fan + robin herself cares about him deeply)#to the fact he probably wouldn't be introspective enough to voice his emotions this concisely not to mention he'd probably wouldn't take#a moment to realize he's never felt loved if that were the case. i mean. he could think that. when he's like 35 and more in touch with his#inner world. 19yo steve can't even get the hint that hitting on a girl who's already clearly taken (nancy) is wrong so like i don't expect#him to be that smart#but i can live with people having takes i don't agree with. my opinion doesn't have to be everyone else's opinion if you see steve that way#it fine#what bothered me was the fact he was saying this to a lesbian living in the 80s lmao#who tells him that 1) her whole life has been an error 2) she doesn't think he'd want to be close to her if he truly knew her and 3)#3) is paralyzed by fear of social suicide if she dares believe for even a second that the girl she likes may like her too#like i dont need people to do deep dives into robin lore and quote from memory lines from Surviving Hawkins abt robin feeling like she's#rotten inside. not supposed to have friends. feeling like something is wrong with her and that pushes people away etc etc#the fact that she's a lesbian should tell you enough abt who has the biggest chances of being loved šŸ˜­#also bothered me that it showed up when looking up posts abt internalized homophobia because?? where's the internalized homophobia therw#unless it's gay steve feeling bad abt it in an AU (as if canon robin didn't go through it)#like look im not bothered to find steve-centric content in the robin tag cos people are gonna tag her in posts mentioning her.#she's his friend.#but there are barely any posts at all about robin's internalized homophobia. like i saw 2 or 3. compared to all the steve or steddie ones#where's the love for my babygirl šŸ˜­šŸ˜­#anti steddie#not really but y'know i don't wanna bother anyone#edit: the bit about there being like 3 posts on robin w internalized homophobia isn't exactly true. there are a few. but they still feel#drowned in st3ddie posts#like something isn't right here
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