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sweetgaleria · 1 year
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Help a college student graduate by answering a survey!!
Hey!! Are you over 18 and in the miraculous fandom? Then this is for you!!
Hi everyone, this is my last semester of uni, and one of my final projects to be able to graduate is to write a scientific paper. I'm writing an article about adult fans of children's animation, specifically Miraculous Ladybug. My goal is to understand what makes adults (like us) want to join fandoms centered around shows aimed primarily at children, and to do that I'd love to hear directly from the source! The survey takes around 10 minutes to answer, it's 100% anonymous and it would help me immensely!
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I need at least 30 people to answer, but honestly the more the merrier! I've also made a little thank you gif at the end, so if you see it let me know! If you have any questions feel free to send me an ask, as well!
Please reblog so it can reach more people! Thank you so much!
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ghostinurattic · 21 days
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hi hello enjoy some self indulgent self insert art bc ya boi is now a dabi simp
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sherlock-is-ace · 28 days
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#oh wow...#i just had an oh shit fuck moment#wow#i usually complain about the one therapist i had in my entire life and how she wouldn't just listen to what i was saying#if it didn't fit her textbook definition of whatever she was thinking at the time#and how i talked to her about my anxiety and how that made me feel and she would only focus on how i acted#so the example i gave her was the one time i went into a shop to buy something by myself#because my mom didn't want to go in for me and arguing with my mom in front of the shop in public and then inevitably have to#go in myself either way was way worse to me#because of the embarrassement of arguing in public. the fact that my mom was gonna spend the entire walk home telling me how i have to#''just suck it up and learn and just overcome my anxiety because i don't have a problem'' or whatever#and then having to go into the shop where the lady had been watching me from inside the entire time how i clearly didn't want to go in#and possibly be even more awkward with teary eyes because of the anxiety and awkwardness i already bring to the table any day...#all of those things that were going inside my head were trumped by the fact that i did go in and did buy what i needed#although my heart was coming out of my chest the entire time... all that didn't matter to my therapist because in her words:#''if you had anxiety. you simply wouldn't have gone in''#which is ridiculous#but anyways... i just had an epiphany... that was masking wasn't it?#forcing myself to do something that brings me major discomfort to make my mother and the shop lady not judge me?#pretend i'm a normal human being just doing normal things instead of someone who's about to have a heart attack buying embroidery thread?#panicking the entire time because i wasn't prepeared and hadn't scripted the entire transaction in my head?#yet still going in and putting on my ''normal person'' mask to try to seem like i wasn't just dying seconds ago (and still was)?#isn't that literally what masking is?!#and the ''autism specialist'' ass therapist was like ''if you did it then you don't have a problem''#when i'm literally telling her how much of a problem it actually WAS?!#you know what's the best part about all this#that when i told my mom after i left that therapist that she didn't listen to me because [insert everything above]#my mom's response was ''well sometimes therapist will say things that you don't want to hear but you have to accept them''....#same woman who's always saying how much she hates therapists because they ''will say whatever and pretend they know shit''#ok so it's only The Truth when I tell you it isn't...
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I’m not immune to self inserts..
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I think he would listen to my rambles hehe
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No context for the last one lmao
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I LOVE HIM SO MUCH AKSJSJSNIWJSHSANSEUSSJSJSKSJSJ AAAAAA
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steakout-05 · 18 days
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i was thinking about how it took me a while to figure out i'm aegosexual (which basically means that there's a disconnect between yourself and being the subject of attraction) and i thought about how much i really dislike and just cannot see myself in slash reader fics. i tend to dislike these fics for multiple reasons, but some of them include that the reader self insert is usually really boring, has no personality outside of being lovey dovey and isn't unhinged enough for certain characters for reasons outside of contrasting personalities for my tastes (like spamton for example, why are you writing a normal protagonist to pair with fuckin spamton of all characters). but another reason is that i literally cannot connect myself to the reader self insert. like i cannot imagine myself in their place at all, it's always another stand-in that i imagine instead and thinking about myself in their place makes me uncomfortable. i can't see myself in their place because i don't see myself as a subject of attraction, and i'm repulsed to that idea. so i imagine someone else instead because that's better to me. and also because of the aforementioned reasons that have more to do with the writing of the self insert, i just cannot imagine myself acting the way the self insert does because I Personally Would Not Fucking Do That™. like i would not be romantically kissing a guy on a date, i would be infodumping about my special interests for 3 hours and then start ranting about how funny cars are while he just smiles and nods lmao
this is why i've never really self-shipped with any character. like i can be attracted to them and be like "i wanna hold his hand/kiss him/do inexplicable things to his psyche", but in reality i could never actually see myself as a subject of attraction by this character, so i'd either ship them with another character i like or imagine a sort of stand-in that has some of my traits and lives out my fantasies but still isn't me. i can fall in love but i can never connect because ew that's gross and weird. watching from the sidelines by reading fics and looking at fanart about characters being shipped with others and being intimate with each other is more my cup of tea.
#aegosexual#also i'm not like. sad about this or anything#maybe i'm a little disappointed that i probably won't experience some things but i'm not like. crying about it.#i literally don't care about it and i think i actually prefer it this way#being seen as something arousing is fucking disgusting and weird in a bad way to me and i don't think i should ignore how i feel just to-#-experience something i won't enjoy.#i just want to watch my little fictional men hold each other and kick my legs like an excited schoolboy about it in peace#also unpopular opinion but slash reader fics SUUUUUUCK and i'd rather read something else instead#now let's sit back and watch literally everyone get mad at that opinion lmao#i'm kidding i'm kidding you're obviously free to enjoy slash reader fics#i just find them to be completely unrelatable and i feel like throwing a self insert into the mix kinda ruins the whole dynamic for me#like i just personally find the idea of meddling in that character's life and being their hubby to be very unattractive#especially when the self insert is so barebones that there's no chemistry#we need more slash reader fics that are just an expression of how much the reader admires the character and nothing more i think#idk maybe i just haven't read enough slash reader fics to appreciate them as their own thing disconnected from me but i really just kinda-#-don't like them because the ones i've read were mostly kinda boring..... sorrgy#i always preferred projection anyway#although i do like dating sims. of course i don't attach myself to the MC but i do like them more than reader fics. i wonder why that is.#probably because the MC tends to have more character traits i guess? so then i can just consider them to be a different person-#-and i'm just pressing buttons for them#it's more free and directional i guess
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flowering-darkness · 1 month
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"I should back up that last post to my documents so I won't lose it. it turned out quite long"
that last post: is seven pages long when I paste it into a document for safekeeping
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ff2-soda-pop · 6 months
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oh i just had a psmd idea related to my main team and some of the lore stuff
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tiny-cloud-of-flowers · 8 months
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friendly reminder that my self-inserts are not OCs (I know that other people count theirs as such, and that is absolutely fine, but mine do not count as such)
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catgirlexplosion · 3 months
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drink of choice
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girlscience · 7 months
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i hate that my brain is like this. i hate that it does this to me. i see so many people for whom their sexuality is a source of pride and community and finding their sexuality opens a whole new world to them and they become open and confident people who are more themselves than ever before. and that's amazing! i am so happy for those people!! but it has never been that for me and i despise myself for that.
#i want so badly to say 'I AM [insert sexuality here]' 'IM OUT AND IM PROUD!'#i want to find local community and go to the gay bars#and meet people and make friends and kiss girls and all these things i see online or in fanfic#(listen i have been reading a huge amount of griddlehark and there is a lot of modern aus that i desperately desire)#but my brain thinks i am lying about all of it and whenever i say no i'm not lying it sets about convincing me i am#i think about women and it instantly goes okay but men though. what if you thought about them instead#and then it's all i can think of even though i don't want to#i think about dating a woman and it says actually. think about dating a man#i say i don't want men and it says that's rude and mean and you never know what could happen#and you don't believe there is some magical difference between men and women they are all just people so you are a hypocrite#if you leave men out and honestly you don't find men repulsive and there have been men you thought were attractive even if you can't figure#out of it was attractive like sex or attractive like marble statues#and you say you like body hair on women but it weirds you out on men but it's the exact same thing so you have to like it on both#and you read so much mlm fic and so little wlw so you think men are hot cause you've thought some of the mlm stuff was hot#so obviously you want to have sex with men#even if all the men who have actually hit on you irl made you uncomfortable#you didn't actually stop it from happening and honestly you really wanted it to happen and you just wanted them to force it on you#cause you are a evil gross freak who fetishizes#nevermind. this is spiraling.#and is just turning into a way for me to hurt myself more with this
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bluebellhairpin · 7 months
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“No one’s stopping me either”
LIE AGAIN!
HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I CRIED AND POUTED OVER WANTING A HAPPY ENDING FOR NERWIN?!?! HMMMMM????🤨😒
Yeah well no one want to talk about the NICE ENDINGS do they????? I write of blood tears and gore and the hoards come flocking but heaven forbid I write about helping him GRADE PAPERS IN MY DREAM HOME.
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marmotsomsierost · 7 months
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I was fixing my hair when a patient checked in, so i stopped, got their vitals, then returned to the computer to put the vitals in and quickly fixed it (in a less elaborate way than i had originally planned since the usual sudden deluge of patients had clearly started for the evening). I had just started to call the next person up when the patient's family member went "uh-uh, no, you did not just do that to your hair in 5 seconds and two little hair clips, what!'
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I kind of half-turned back to awkwardly be like 'i mean. I did. But also the line is like five people deep so i can't really demonstrate' but they went 'no, no, i see you're busy, i see it. But i wanna see that again, but slower. Sometime.'
Then i went on my lunch and they were nowhere to be seen when i got back, but the secret is 1) halfass brush your hair that morning because you're running late, then try and fail like five times over the course of the training class and early part of your shift to make the squished bun you had the day before stay fucking put, then start the process for a braid before going welp the fuckin tuesdaymonday bus just arrived at ye olde emergency department and instead just wrapping the one single section you managed to divide out around the rest like a ponytail holder and then clip the tail twice at the base. It stays mostly because it's ratted together due to the aforementioned halfass brushing and multiple restylings without further brushings. Not a desirable state for hair, really.
Anyway. The triage nurse was like 'are those iridescent skeleton hands' and 'how the fuck do you always have such weird cute stuff' and the secret to that is poor impulse control when confronted with the 3 dollar aisle at target or the holiday displays at cvs.
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sentientpaperbag · 1 year
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Happy Valentines Day to Myself and Myself Only /j
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httpiastri · 9 months
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as happy as i am for lissie and marcus (even though I knew they were already together because I literally watched them make out with my own two eyes) it was honestly my last straw. I’m so tired of seeing everybody on my social feeds happy and in relationships when I’ve just had the worst week of my life and have basically given up on falling in love because if I can’t even drive how am I going to go to places where I’ll meet people?!?!? i have spent every Valentine’s Day alone while my friends go on elaborate dates and I’m just so so tired
not the make out sesh 😩 oh to see them with my own two eyes irl... what a pretty sight it would be
this got quite personal and hit a little too close to home so im putting a lil keep reading thing
love :(( i’m truly sorry you feel this way... but god i felt this ask so much... first of all, i'm really sorry about you having a bad week. it's completely fine to feel the way you're feeling, it must really suck, but i'm sure you'll get the license and you'll be driving shortly!! i am keeping my fingers crossed for you ❤️
i’ve always been very calm about relationships and love, very much “i’m not in a rush” and “it’ll come when it’s time”. i’ve always been a hopeless romantic but i haven’t been stressed about it – i’ve always been so busy that i haven’t really had time for love, and i've been okay with hearing about friends and their great love lives while i've spent pretty much every weekend and holiday alone at home. but… eventually, it becomes exhausting, you know? when falling in love for real just seems so far away and like something so hard to achieve in some way....
i also kind of feel you on the driving part... i decided not to get my license for a bunch of reasons, and idk how i'll get around without driving... but also as i am still living with my parents, it just seems impossible to meet someone, because where would i bring them? home to meet my snooping parents?? no way
i think we just gotta hold on to the hope that when it is the right time, it will happen. i don't believe in the whole "don't rush it" thing, i think that we're all allowed to seek and chase love if we want to, but i also think it's okay to take a step back and just breathe and be okay with the situation. unfortunately, our current day society is so formed around relationships, soft launches and hard launches and dinner date pics on insta and public proposal videos, that i feel like the pressure easily gets overwhelming. there's also something in the way that people think other people's love lives is any of their business, like friends and relatives asking me why i don't have a boyfriend, as if a partner is something i need to live my life? surely it would make it better, but i don't need to be reminded and hurt yet again over the fact that i'm alone, when i'm just trying to move on in life...
i'm trying to stay patient, open to any opportunity, and remembering that social media is merely a highlight reel and not reality. i hope you too can find peace in remembering that things will get better, we just have to work through this first. we will get through it and come out stronger on the other side. darling, if you ever need something from me, want to rant, or anything else, know that my messages and inbox are always open 💗
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squishdraws · 2 years
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i’m still unemployed. here’s a genshin self insert [uncoloured + close-ups under cut]
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thymeofarrival · 1 year
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I need to Do Things more often, I miss having things like callouses and muscle soreness
#thymewilltell#I mean the kind of muscle soreness from using them not generic muscle pain#generic muscle pain is not fun#I was going to make a remark about fun kinds of pain and have elected to instead remark that I’m not making that remark#if my phrasing makes no sense I’m sorry I have not slept#it is after 6 am#there’s not even a reason I just don’t feel that tired#I think I’m overtired actually#I could probably sleep if I could turn my brain off#instead I’m interrupting my regularly unscheduled laundry folding to go on a tangent in these tags#I have muscle soreness now from my long bow-tie-search induced walk earlier which is what prompted this#I need to find someone to belay me I miss rock climbing#(when I had callouses that’s where they came from)#my thought process always jumps around like this but when I’ve slept I tend to be better about inserting the connections for other people#I am not doing that currently so if things seem disjointed that’s why#I don’t insert the connections when I drink either and my filter similarly goes out the window#but I also get touchy then because I’m not constantly stopping myself from things like touching someone’s arm to get their attention#or hugging people that I’m not Really Close with#I miss my cats they’re nice to cuddle with#my eyes feel like sandpaper and I might fall asleep on the floor so I don’t have to move the laundry that I’m halfway done folding#the only thing stopping me is that it’s too cold without blankets#I bet this is because I took my meds too late yesterday and they were making me unable to sleep#even though they don’t actually work for what I take them for#dosage adjusting process my beloathed
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