#but i think thats what makes the issues so stark

[jrueships]

bcs this is rpf, i personally don't think i have the leeway to say 'he would not fucking say that' bcs these ARE real people, just put into a (hopefully) harmless fictional sense where it's written with the purpose of the people NOT having to see it. It's a (n admittedly odd) little hobby that has lanes, thusly, lines to respect -- in my viewing and partaking of it, at least. It has more range than being in some fandoms, but it also has fewer ones due to its niche nature. I don't know what this man whose story i have gravitated toward would or would not say, really, because i'm Not a part of his Real life AND i D O N ' T W A N T to be. My ire is not because i am policing a perceived possession of mine ( a 'favorite 'character', persay), it's really because i'm sensing an off-putting pattern of perception showcasing real people that reflect real issues.. in a hobby. it's just unsettling, i guess, to see

[bonny-kookoo]

X♡X♡ [SEVEN DAYS] Day 3 Teaser II

"What are you so scared of?" He asks, while being the personification of all the fears you've ever had.

Tags/Warnings: Porn with a lot of plot basically, inexperienced!reader, Dom!Jungkook, BDSM themes and elements, mild Angst, fluff, slow burn but we'regetting somewhere, they have chemistry but mc has trust issues, mentions of past domestic abuse (mental), Outercourse (basically non-penetrative sex), toys (those do get to be insude wink wink), Cumplay, it's messy smh

Length: Short

𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐧𝐨 𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐟𝐢𝐜.♡

-> Masterlist

A/N: I know yall want Night Vision at the moment but pls don't forget about this thanks

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You're still breathing heavily, cheeks still wet from the tears you didn't even realize had fallen from your eyes. Your lashes are still coated in them, wet and heavy, when Jungkook kisses your neck from behind you, a reminder that he's still there.

Just like he always promises. He never let's you feel lonely.

"Thats it." He praises. "Hold onto me like that. I'll keep your body safe while you let go." He chuckles, and only now do you notice the iron grip you have on his forearm over your chest, nails digging into his skin. You feel a bit bad for it.

Though you just lessen your strength a bit, not letting go.

Suddenly, his other arm moves, grabs something out of sight, before he runs the object through your slick-coated cunt and thighs, covering it in your arousal before it prods at your still clenching hole. "You think I won't fit?" He purrs against your neck, and you swallow thickly, a strange cocktail or anticipation and worry mixing in your body. "You think I won't claim this cunt as mine at the end of this week?" He asks again, and you can feel the wave if cool excitement wash over you- starting at your very neck, before it ends in the tips of your toes. "I'll teach your body to take me.." He almost chuckles, pushing the very tip of the clear pink toy inside, before he moves it back out-

Pushing it in a little further each time.

"I'll make sure to get you all ready for me.." he hums sensually, by now having learned of your little kinks you have, as the hand from his arm still keeping your upper body pressed against his own finds one of your tits, groping the soft flesh before his thumb flicks the sensitive bud once to see you squirm. "I won't let you forget any of this." He threatens almost, and you whine when you feel him push the toy even further now.

You feel so full. How much more is there to go?

"Jung-" you whine pitifully, eyes closed as your hips can't stay still, all of it a stark difference to the fast paced, almost aggressive orgasms he's given you just moments prior. "I cant-" you start, and he laughs.

"Oh you can." He tells you, before he gives the toy another push. "And you will."

[riayawrites]

Something Different~ 2

Pairing: Archeron!reader x Azriel

Summary~ Reader meets the IC and discovers more about her new powers

Content Warning: not much, maybe just some fluff ??

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Well this is awkward. Thats what I thought upon entering the dining area and taking a seat. "So, where is Elain and Nesta?" A question directed towards Feyre, yet I couldn't help but notice how my words come out airy and sweet, different from my usually tired voice. "Oh, well uhm.. Elain has closed herself off completely and Nesta won't even look at us." Feyre says slightly hesitant. "Please, Nesta would burn this place down if she could. The girl is so hellbent on going back to the mortal lands it's quite funny." Someone different says.

I looked over at her to see striking silver eyes that made me uneasy, different from fae eyes, different from any I had ever seen. She stared me down not blinking once as she watched every moment I made in the moment. "Amren!" Someone from the table shouts, The Morrigan I presume "You're making the poor girl uncomfortable, I have no doubts she's already scared and confused out of her mind." Quite the opposite, I think. Confused, yes, but scared? Not really.

The Morrigan turns her eyes on me, "Don't mind Amren, she's just seeing if you could be a threat.." I blink. "Not that you would be of course!" "We just all have slight trust issues when it comes to meeting new people." My shoulders un-tense after she clears what she meant up. I mean I wouldn't trust me either, a random girl imposing on their self made family, that also could hurt them, not like i'd ever though."

"What she truly means is that we don't know what you're capable of, having been thrown in the cauldron, who knows what you might of took from the wretched old thing." Cassian says. "Especially not with that weird glow around you.. I'm just saying its normal for us to not trust you fully" He finishes with a shrug.

I hum in acceptance "I get it. I don't know what I am capable of myself. This is your home, you have the right to feel however you want." I say finishing the rest of whats on my plate. "Nonsense," Rhysand says "Any family of Feyre's is family to us too. We will help you if you develop any abilities in the mean time, you're not alone Y/n."

I smile at my sister and Rhysand as I stand up "Thank you, It means alot." "Hey, do you want to go shopping tomorrow? I'll show you around Velaris!" I nod "That would be amazing Morrigan. I'll see you in the morning." I take one last look at the man with blue eyes and shadows and realize I never got his name. Well whatever I'll see him sooner or later.

I make my way to my room to get ready for the night. "How the hell am I going get rid of this glitter?" I mumble to myself.

Once I get in the room I search for the source of the light that was casted from my body. While i'm taking off my dress I feel a tingling pain in my back as i go to the mirror to look at whats happening.

As I turn around i'm greeted to a pair of.. wings? on my damn back. I almost pass out as I inspect the weird looking things that have sprouted from my back. The wings are a stark contrast from the common Illyrian wings i've seen so far, they are pearly and translucent and I move them back and forth. They have a beautiful swirl pattern going though them like veins, and I realize that they remind me of fairy wings from my storybooks as a child.

I take a deep breath as I try to understand the severity of the situation, my mind racing at a hundred miles per hour as I grasp what i've really become, an immortal fairy being. I feel an anxiety attack coming on as I come to terms with these annoying beautiful wings. So this is why I feel more graceful and fragile with my movements? I mean why did they just show up instead of being there already? I shut my mind up and try and move them around. I pathetically flutter them around on my back in a attempt to at least float off the ground

"Come on... Come on..." I say fluttering the wings with all my might until I finally feel my feet lift from the ground and i'm successfully in the air. I struggled flying over to the bed but I get there and plop down with a quiet thud.

I lie down in bed for sleep and try and go to sleep but the thought of me being some mythical fairy keeps me up..

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part 2 lolll im still a beginner writer but 3 will be out tmr i hope

@impossibelle

@annaaaaa88

[jamsofdeath0]

Im not going to say you cant remake an animation in live action and it work. There is always value in retelling stories and looking through different lenses. But I will say most live adaptations dont respect the orginal medium. They see it as childish. Think themselves above; mature. And in doing so they miss what works in the original stories. This isnt just about Netflix's atla. But it IS about Avatar the last Airbender.

Avatar is quite possibly the closest thing ro a perfect television show out there. Its a compelling, timeless narrative; so perfectly molded for episodic animation. I truly do not see what a shorter live action adaptation could do that the original couldnt. So much would have to change to refit for all that would be lost.

The wonderfully choreographed and animated fight sequences. The magic system so well thought out and drenched in real martial arts and culture it doesnt feel magic. Neither of these things can be captured the same with cgi or practical effects. One could say theres value to be had in the real martial arts being done in real life. But enough to recreate the whole show? I think not. I think one would have to move much further from the original medium. Such as a stage play, or ballet. Something off the small screen. A television show made of real people is vastly different from one made of cartoon, but in the end it follows the same structure. And what of the way you tell the story is to change if the structure doesnt? A large issue with tv readaptations from cartoon to live action is it is both to different AND to similar.

Cartoons are animated for a reason. Anything can be imagined into them. And so their stories take the shape of magic and colors and movements no human could ever achieve.

No artform is invalid. Pinocchio has been told countless times since it was created. Many stories hardly even resemble the orginal serialization. Its been told in every art form you could think of. On tv; in your books! Animated; in real life! Stop motion; video games! But the most striking to me a version ive never been lucky enough to see myself. A atage production where everyone but the titular puppet is a puppet themselves. Pinocchio sits in stark contrast to these huge life sized puppets as a human.

You might be wondering where this little tangent came from. We've been talking about atla. And I bring up Pinocchio because I would have personally never conceived of making such version of that story. A truly unique take on such an old tale. And if someone could make a new moving version of a story thats been told so many times then whats the sin of retelling a newer tale of a new story? Whats the crime of remaking Avatar?

Atla is nearly a perfect story. but that does not mean there is not value in re-exploration. I just wish people would reexplore it in a more interesting way.

[cleromancy]

still thinking about (always fucking thinking about) what i posted here, on mia's explicit on-page murder vs. jason and felipe and how it's treated both by ollie and bruce respectively, and also by their respective *narratives*.

one of the things i loved about winicks ga/ga&bc run in general was like. it was so uninterested in punishment. when someone did something harmful the emphasis was on the consequences--material and emotional--rather than issues of Right vs Wrong. it focused on who was hurt, where to go from there, how to fix it, and i found that especially 🥺 when it came to mia killing.

because the reaction is so compassionate to her. like, no one is like shaking their finger at mia like You Did A Bad Thing, it's like ollie and dinah *both* immediately are horrified by the fact that she's going to have to live with this for the rest of her life and moreover that ollie put her in that position in the first place.

i already posted these panels but. look again.

and mia and jason as characters were in conversation with each other from the instant mia started being built up to be the 2nd speedy--the same way roy and dick were always in conversation with each other (because everyone knows the REAL second robin was the first speedy). and doubly so when winick took over and tweaked her backstory so she was also homeless. (gonna make a post on the HIV development at some point and how starlin openly talked about wanting to give robin AIDS...)

but like. look

vs

*Jason* couldn't handle it so now *i* can't keep him as my partner compared to. the blame falling directly, and rightly, on ollie for putting mia in that position in the first place... *and* this is the arc preceding the one where mia actually takes the speedy mantle! she wasn't speedy yet! she killed someone on her test run! and she still becomes speedy! and she does a fucking phenomenal job as speedy! tied for first fucking place if you ask me and roys my most favoritest and specialest guy!

and like. god. they don't linger on whether or not mia was wrong to kill that man. ollie clearly thinks there was another way, but he's not going to drill that into mias head, unlike someone else we could name, *bruce.*

"consequences, robin, such as me accidentally crushing a man to death by climbing a teetering stack of cars like a moron. for some reason i am heavily implying that this is your fault."

like ... come *on.*

and yknow. a lot of this is just that starlin was a fucking hack. but what we have here is still that bruce would rather bash jason over the head with moral lessons than ever give more than a cursory consideration to how hes fucking feeling.

(which is also, btw, such a stark change from how bruce still was in the contemporaneous tec run or even the batman run directly preceding it where when bruce screws up by not telling jason willis was (probably) dead, he admits he screwed up and apologizes. like, its such a tangible, jarring shift from bruce being a flawed but loving dad into whatever the hell this is. --lets not start on wolfman here because he did a better job than starlin, not that thats a high bar. im not opposed to the bad mentor/dad bruce character development *in principle*, its about the execution.)

but yeah, like, just the way like... its about who put mia in that situation. its about how jason just wasn't good enough. its about how mia gets to keep trying to be a hero. its about how jason is benched (<- he was supposed to stay home in 425; officially benched in 426). its about how it didn't matter whether or not jason killed felipe, because jason "couldn't handle it." its about how it mattered that mia killed someone, because she shouldn't have ever been put in a situation where she felt like she had to.

the discourse about ga 69-72 is always so tedious and always so thoroughly misses the damb point. but putting aside the whole like yes yes naughty jason he shouldn't have done it or at least shouldn't have done it like he did it--namely scaring the ever-loving crap out of her--what happened was jason came to her while she was in uniform (<- NOT EVEN KNOWING ABOUT THE MURDER!! HE DIDNT EVEN KNOW!!!) and among other things that was him going, i'm like you, what happened to me could happen to you, and she said i'm nothing like you and it won't, and he said, are you sure.

but when it comes down to it if mia died and came back and set up an elaborate murderous rube goldberg machine scheme to get to ollie it wouldn't work because the first damn thing ollie would do when he saw her would be to give her a famous arrowfam hug and blubber all over her. and. i mean. come on, the jokers ass would be grass, you know it i know it, ollie would have rather caused a diplomatic incident or whatever the fuck than let the man who killed his kid live. (<- i say kid over daughter deliberately btw. genuinely don't think mia was in the market for another dad after the first one. ollies still her family, shes still his kid, thats how it is. i probably wouldn't be so inflexible about this if fandom wasnt fucking obnoxious about insisting that she *is* and *must be* his daughter, but they are so i am.)

anywayyyyyyyy speedy sweep! wahoo

[sofiaispunk]

The Space Cowboy and his Ladybug - CHAPTER 1

Javier Peña x reader

Summary: As you return to your hometown of Laredo, Texas after more than a decade away, you can't help but feel a strange mix of excitement and trepidation. You're here with your new husband, Steven, a successful lawyer from Austin, and you're not quite sure how he'll handle the slower pace of life in this small town. You left Laredo as a teenager, fleeing an abusive father and a painful falling out with your childhood best friend. But will this place ever feel like home again? Can the wounds of the past really be healed, or are they just scars that never fully fade away?

Words: 1,3K

Warnings: angst, trust issues, violence, brief mention of past domestic abuse (mentally and physically), insecurity, references to suicide attempt, smut, TRAUMA, not proof read

A/N: hiiii beautiful people! This is my first ever fic. Please tell me what you think and what I should change. Basically just write anything that's going on in that pretty head of yours. Ideas, comments, critic everything is appreciated. Have a nice day and enjoyyyyy

You can feel your heart racing as the car approaches your small hometown of Laredo, Texas, with your new husband Steven by your side. The landscape is beautiful, with lush greenery and rolling hills that are a stark contrast to the concrete jungle you are used to. As you drive through the town, you feel a sense of familiarity wash over you. The small houses and local businesses reminding you of your childhood, and the community feels warm and welcoming. „You ok, babe?“ Steven asked, barely looking at you. 

You met Steven through a mutual friend at a networking event in the city. He was successful, charming, and swept you off your feet with his lavish lifestyle. You started dating and soon got married after a whirlwind romance. He gave you the stability that lacked in your childhood. The love and support you missed out on and frankly you were done being alone and miserable. He was at the right time at the right place.

But as time went by, you realized that your lifestyles and priorities were vastly different. Steven was always too busy with work, and when you did spend time together, it was usually at high-end restaurants or events that felt superficial and lacked depth. You longed for a deeper connection and more meaningful experiences that were more in line with your values. Austin was great, just not for you.. It never felt like home, in fact your home did not even feel like home and nothing ever felt like home since you left Chucho’s farm over 10 years ago.

That’s why you were here, back in Laredo, a place you swore you would never set a foot on again. 

Memories flood back to you as you drive past familiar landmarks. „Yeah, I think I am okay.“ You reply while opening the window feeling the light texan summer breeze.

You close your eyes and take a deep breath, feeling the warmth of the sun on your face and the sweet scent of vanilla wafting from the small corner store. You can hear the sounds of children laughing and playing in the distance, but it's the sound of your best friend's laughter that makes your heart sing. It's your weekly ritual, saving up your allowance money to buy ice cream from the store. As you walk towards the store, your excitement grows with each step. You can't wait to spend the day talking and laughing with your best friend. As you sit on the curb, licking your ice cream cones, you share your dreams and aspirations for the future. You talk about the places you want to travel to and the adventures you want to have.

„ I will be the best astronaut in outer space. And everybody will love me because I will catch all the bad guys and bad aliens with my lasso!“ your best friends raises his chocolate ice cream cone above his head signalizing his victory. „Javi, so you will be an astronaut and a cowboy? Thats not even possible.“ You laugh wiping away a little drop of chocolate ice cream that landed on his forehead. „A space cowboy, dummy! I will be the first one and therefor the best! Don’t laugh at me.“ „OK OK but lets go home space cowboy  or else Chucho Is going to really send you to the moon. It’s getting dark already. Come on. Last one pays for the ice cream tomorrow!“

„-are you even listening to me?“ Steven looks at you with raised eyebrows. „Oh no sorry. What were you saying. I was thinking of something.“ You haven’t even noticed Steven was talking to you, too caught up in your memories. „Just 10 more minutes. And please close the window. You are letting the heat in and the AC is on.“ You nod and close the window. You take another deep breath and try to push the memories of Laredo out of your mind. You know that the town holds both good and bad memories for you, but lately, the bad ones seem to be creeping to the forefront of your thoughts. Even the good memories hurt. You've been trying to stay positive since returning to Laredo with your new husband.

You want to make a fresh start and create new memories in the town that holds so much history for you. But it's difficult when every corner seems to hold a reminder of your past. You find yourself walking on eggshells, trying not to trigger any negative memories or emotions. You don't want Steven to see you in a vulnerable state. You trust him, he is your husband you are supposed to, right? But lately he is being more distant and if you really honest with yourself you never let him get to know you the real you. Always too scared to scare him off and share too much of your true self. With Steve always being at work or on business trips you try to keep busy with your own projects and hobbies, but there's only so much distraction you can find. Thats how it always been. You live in a big house in a big, beautiful house in Austin, surrounded by all the material possessions and friends you've accumulated over the years, and yet, you just couldn’t shake off the feeling of emptiness inside.

You've been feeling this way for so long, and it's getting harder to ignore. You've built this life that many would envy, but you can’t help but feel alone and disconnected. Of course you’ve tried to talk to Steven about it, but every time you bring up the topic, he brushes it off, saying that you're just overthinking things. You know he means well, but his lack of understanding and concern only makes you feel more isolated. So with time you just dropped the topic all together and returned to this persona you created once you left Laredo. This strong, fearless persona who didn’t miss her life, who could punch back and was not scared of anybody and who never suffered a heartbreak. She was everything you wished to be and so you suppressed every bad feeling, every longing and just pretended. Deep down, you know that you need to confront your past and deal with the emotions that come with it. But it's scary to face the pain and trauma that you've been trying to forget for so long. You're not sure if you're ready to open that door and relive those memories. You've become a master at pretending to be happy, putting on a smile for the outside world while masking your true feelings. You don't want to burden your friends with your problems, so you keep up the facade of having it all together. But sometimes, it feels like you're suffocating under the weight of your emotions.

You and Steven pull up to your old childhood home in Laredo. As you step out of the car and take in the sight of the old, run-down property, a sense of nostalgia washes over you.

"Well, it's certainly a fixer-upper," Steven remarks, eyeing the peeling paint and sagging roof.

You smile, feeling a sense of excitement and determination. Renovating this old house is a challenge, but it's also a chance to create something beautiful and new.As you settle into the house, you begin to envision the possibilities. Fresh paint, new floors, a modern kitchen, and updated bathrooms. It's going to be a lot of work, but you're ready for it.

Steven suggests calling in some contractors to help with the renovations, but you shake your head. "I want to do this ourselves, to really make it our own."Steven looks at you with a mix of admiration and concern. "Are you sure? It's going to be a lot of work, and we have busy schedules."

You nod, feeling a sense of determination. "I'm sure. We can do this together."

As the conversation turns to the logistics of the renovation, you can't help but feel a sense of excitement for the possibilities that lie ahead. Maybe this project is the first step towards creating a new chapter in your life, one where you can reclaim the parts of yourself that you left behind in Laredo.

Part 2

[the-heart-of-a-monster]

I'm still midnight-the-ultima, i just changed my blog name

OKAY SO THERE IS SO MUCH I WANNA DISCUSS ABOUT THESE LAST FEW PAGES. Since I know how to reblog (And I will be reblogging a ton of ur stuff) properly now, I was planning on talking about it via that, but you may not see it so I chose to do an ask instead.

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First up: The contrast!

There is a clear distinction between the themes of what's currently going on with Shadow and Sonic compared to Amy and Rouge. While the boys are sitting down and drinking some soup with a lovely village full of wonderful people, the girls are stuck wondering what's going on with their friend. They have to deal with a group of agents trying to take their buddy away from them, something they obviously don't want! Meanwhile, the guys are just having the time of their lives with each other! (Well not really, but this is probably the best night Sonic's had in a while!)

The way these stories are being told, back to-back within the same issue, is just such a great writing technique! The contrast is stunningly good!

It- I don't really know what else to say about it. So... MOVING ON I GUESS!

Next: People being mean to Omega

I really like Omega just because he's fun and shares my sense of humor, so seeing him get confiscated like this hurts me. (But in a good way)

uhm

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thats it

Numero Tres: wtf is even going on with this robot like huh?????

Aight I honestly have no clue, but I'll try and piece it together as I go. Bare with me.

So, the first sign of Omega seemingly getting "Hacked" was all the way back in issue 6, when the girls went with Omega to scout for any dangerous Dark Gaia monsters. This was when Amy discovered they could be peaceful creatures if given the chance to be. Omega charged in though, and from then on it just gets even more interesting!

As shown in the third panel of page 16, Omega's bullets and bombs don't do anything to harm the monsters. Poor guy is absolutely useless against them. This is because someone needs Dark Gaia energy within them to do any damage to them and thus absorb their energy. This is, similar to this issue, a stark contrast to Sonic earlier on in that same issue. Sonic was able to kill a group of giant monsters with ease, and even started eating their corpses when he was done absorbing their energy. (Maybe I'll get to that in a reblog who knows) But this bit is about Omega so we'll mostly forget about Sonic for now-

The point when Omega gets hacked may take place in the first panel of the very next page, or in the fourth panel of page 16. Either way, I think I know how exactly he got hacked.

The Gaia Monsters could sense that Omega was a robot, and chose to absorb themselves into him by force. Since these creatures work best with organic beings, which I'm pretty sure they know, this action screwed up Omega's internal workings and made him self-destruct. His body, while up in flames, was still somehow intact, so the Gaia monsters were still okay within his body. Meaning that once Rouge and Amy fix him up, he's still messed up.

Also, something I noticed about Omega when he imploded, was within the explosion itself. We see the eyes of the Dark Gaia monsters surrounding Omega while they're all grabbing him as he explodes. If this isn't possession foreshadowing or a sign that he isn't himself anymore, then idk what is.

This scenario perfectly ties into his character, though! As an Eggman robot with free will, Omega has a mind of his own. He refuses to let anyone control him, not even his own friends, which is a very good mentality for a war machine! When he goes along with Rouge and Amy, his first thought when seeing the creatures is to kill them all and show no mercy! (He loves violence, making him one of my fave characters instantly) Of course, when he begins losing his autonomy to the very same creatures he wishes to destroy, Omega would rather sacrifice everything about himself, even his own body, just to be rid of them. He may not have a brain, but Omega still wants all these monsters out of his head! And if destroying himself will do the trick, (Even if it doesn't) then he will gladly take that risk, as long as he still has his free will intact.

What could this mean for Omega moving forward? Uhm... idk, he loses his personality? He goes apeshit?? Is he gonna remain peaceful, like how the Gaia monsters were with Amy before Omega attacked?? I really don't know, as the author-

Also I wanna mention that I forgot about Omega's obvious hatred and negativity that the Gaia Monsters were able to feed off of, like what Amy mentioned. Whoops! I guess that explains how they managed to get inside his head.

So about him getting confiscated and being called an 'It," really depends on his behavior after this. If he's still on their side, I don't see a point to it. If he's not, then get him tf outta here ig

i may agree with Amy about calling Omega a person, because as stated before he does have his own free will and autonomy, but I do love the added touch of the agents arguing that he's literally just a malfunctioning war machine and nothing else. Really shows how on the fence we are about G.U.N. being a force of good or not.

OKAY I KNOW THIS IS REALLY SUPER LONG BUT THERE IS ONE MORE THING I WANNA MENTION BECAUSE IT HAS TO DO WITH BOTH SONIC AND OMEGA HERE-

RIGHT! So since my theory is that Omega has basically a buncha dead Gaia monsters swimming around inside his head, I literally just realized that it has to do with the whole theme of this book. Some people may not notice it because I sure didn't for a very long time, but I recognize the theme as "Having and keeping your autonomy, and accepting yourself as a person." We see this in every time Sonic doubts his own worth and autonomy, we see it whenever someone steps up to him and goes "No u wrong," and we see it in Omega as a character.

Compared to Sonic, Omega is completely confident in himself and he's well past his character development arc in terms of his autonomy. Omega has been reminded time and time again that he isn't just a robot, but a friend and an adversary. While he may be fine with being just a tool of destruction since that's basically all he wants in life, he is very much aware that he also has a soul somewhere inside of himself, and that he isn't a heartless monster. He has friends, whether he likes it or not, and is very confident in who he is.

Sonic is the exact opposite right now, unsure of himself and questioning how far he'd go during a fight. He wants to keep himself intact, wants to be this selfless, brave hero that everyone knows him to be. However, in this dream to keep being the person everyone thinks he is, Sonic is losing his sense of self and autonomy. He has been slowly going through more and more character development as time goes on and is carefully putting himself back together, bit by bit, but he still has yet to fully accept himself for the hero he truly is. Sonic still sees himself as a monster, something to be ashamed and afraid of, and can't yet tell which half of him is real and which one is fake. He hides all his insecurities away, tucking them into a tiny box and not letting them see the light of day.

The poor little guy is afraid, while Omega is confident. It's a complete contrast, like I mentioned before, and it's great storytelling!

okokokokokok that's finally it kaythxbye-

I AM LOOKING

im so excited for you to see where this is going

i also want to thank you so much for those essays i appreciate them sooo much it makes me sooo happy to read through them

[daenystheedreamer]

god the Omeagorverse is brilliant brilliant brilliant. so good so delicious so nutritious to me. thank you thank you thank you for sharing it. i am actively considering taking pen to paper to physically draw out the family tree and draw like hearts and smiley faces and stars around the vile nasty rot :)

MWAH even though i still think its embarrassing im glad people are enjoying it<3 and oh dont worry i have a family tree of like nearly 900 characters at this point. It Is Evil For Me.... It's Terminal,... ten pages of character explanations below the cut do NOT click unless u want to walk around in my lovecraftian mind palace (shed of dumb ideas and deviantart OCs)

865 characters in what five months. God,

jae: hes maegor's firstborn with vis :3 maegor thinks he's lame and not good enough. jae is also oedipally insane about viserys because maegor was gross about it so he's got mommy issues about vis. he marries ceryse' niece as like an apology gift to the hightowers like sorry we did polygamy and disrespected you and inventented gay marriage sorry about that. he was also betrothed to aerea (shore up inheritance + appease rhaena) but viserra took aerea on the world's worst bachelorette party to valyria and only viserra returned alive :3. jae gots nutso after vis dies and starts bringing in boy youths as court favourites and maris kills him in a fit of rage due to his grossness and also maris has her own shit going on (lesbian drama, dw about it)

viserra: married into the lannisters to keep the iron throne's federal reserve in the clear and cos raising taxes spells real doom. she femdoms her husband and then kills him as a blood sacrifice to have kids (only death can pay for life). became regent for a while before house lannister kicked her out. marries into harrehal (lucamore the lusty is her hubby) kills him too. marries a couple more times, has a coupe kids, ends up trying to fly her dragon (vhagar btw) into the sun or moon or something. not 100% on her death yet.

daenys: oh poor baby girl. vis marries her into the starks to keep her safe from court + there was stark rebellion drama. has weird tension with her mother-in-law whos a bolton and her husband sucks too. she has 13 kids (9 make it to adulthood). daenys ends up killing maegor its a whole thing, hush hush. goes nutso after and she and vis die together codependently as one theyre the same person etcetc

aegon: jae's eldest, momma's boy. momma's special heir to the throne special boy. hates his twin brother aerion because aerion is daddy's favourite and jae obviously wishes aerion was heir instead. marries a lannister cousin and a velaryon who hate each other and it causes a succession crisis when he dies. he has a horrible emotionally and physically incestuous relationship with his sister helaena. aerion ends up kidnapping helaena and it causes a minor civil war where aegon and aerion both die RIP

aerion: jae's second, twin to aegon, daddy's specialist evil son. whats a little child endangerment between kids. kills the high septon when hes 14 cos the high septon was abusing helaena and gets exiled to essos at FOURTEEN cos he refused to admit why he did it (didnt wanna ruin helaena's reputation). he was just like lol #yolo he was cringe anyway. gets radicalised in essos cos why tf should cringe aegon get the throne when aerion is way cooler. kidnaps helaena but also in their minds its somewhat of a rescue cos everyone in westeros is weird about helaena. him and aegon die together :3 also he has a bastard with a martell bastard who does Rhoynish Restoration in essos with her three dragons she takes over volantis and burns the rot out of it at one point but thats not important. she's doing her own thing. ALSO HE CLAIMED BALERION that's also why he's so cunty about getting the throne he's like um you got vhagar the girl dragon and i got the cool old valyria dragon that granddaddy aegon rode so 🤨

helaena: helen of troy :3 she's one of grrms favourite historical girls; 6 year old who is breathtakingly gorgeous and everyone is weird about it. her cradle egg dragon is called urrax after the story of daeryssa and serwyn and also she befriended dreamfyre cos dreamfyre got depressed after rhaena died and started terrorising oldtown cos rhaelle was there. helaena did her horsegirl magic on dreamfyre and saved oldtown and so oldtown loves her. every man in the world wants to marry her but shes literally 13???? that does fucked up things to your psyche. has weird relationships with aegon and aerion due to them being her protectors and the only men growing up who werent weird about her but guess what babygirl. all feudal men are weird :3

daenerys: named after daenys which of course made the evil destiny stars align. she's basically the middle child so she's mostly ignored by both her parents. her dragon is called seafoam :3 she thinks both aegon and aerion are too neurotic to be king and she would be wayyy better. somewhat worships maegor cos he didnt gaf about primogeniture. gets married off to corlys velaryon (he still exists here) but she doesn't mind to much cos she likes exploring essos with corlys. best friends with aegon's velaryon wife and HATES the lannister wife soooo much. after aegon dies, viserys takes the throne which makes her sooooo fucking mad but she gets to be hand of the king with corlys. after viserys dies she and corlys swoop in and do the westerosi regency era until her grand-nephew comes of age. absentee mother because she's too busy girlbossing her way through the red keep

viserys: babyboy you were never gonna be normal with a name like that. jae is weird about him cos viserys looks exactly like his namesake he's also soft and likes non-reptillian animals and being nice to people which is not very targaryen of him. jae has him trained by his kingsguard to beat the pussy out of him but it just makes vis an even sadder kitten. has clinical depression (diagnosed at 5 years old) so cant even get angry and rage and blow up the red keep like he wishes he could. forced to marry aerion's spurned betrothed who's their distant cousin alyssa arryn (half targ herself, i had vaella survive and marry rodrik similar to daella). alyssa is crazygirl she gets radicalised by a red priestess from asshai 😈 they agree to have a sexless unconssumated marriage though. viserys gets voted king after aerion and aegon die (aegon's kids and wives have their own drama going on so a council is necessary) and he's like what if i just kill myself but he's got a slightly evil kingsguard boyfriend whos like nooo dont kill urself youre so powerful now ahaha. pretty okay king, basically lets daenerys rule cos he's too busy being depressed and wanting to khs :( poor baby. anyway alyssa hears a prophecy about TPTWP and AA and goes megacuckoo and does blood magic to have kids and that's its whole drama dw about it. he does end up getting to kill himself though good for him 😭

maegelle: poor baby. gets married off to the hightowers at FOURTEEN cos jae thinks she's weird and autistic and needs her outta the red keep. he's like dont u wanna be lady of the hightower? its so big!! and shes like no because my special interest is religion and prophetic dragon dreams. she weirds him out too much with her prophesies of his death etc. ends up achieving religious euphoria ecstasy etc after getting visions and doing some miracles and abandons her husband and daughters to live in a convent. she doesnt realise she's just trying to escape the cycle of targ torment the only way she knows how :(

anyway thats just like 9 of my guys i invented. i mostly do this so i have something for my brain to think about when im trying to go to sleep but The Thoughts are tormenting me. can you tell im a little funny in the brain. anyway if u made it this far i love u i love u i love u♡

[orkbutch]

For me at least I ship Karlach and Astarion the most because I think it creates an interesting dichotomy for both of them other ships dont get.

Astarion whose used to being sexual to get people to like him and doesnt know another way is forced to step back because he cant jump straight into seductive vampire persona with Karlach

Karlach whose touch starved as hell and is in the worst dry spell is with someone who shows a clear interest in her but she cant interact on that level with. Her already being a character who wants a physical bond but has to gain a purely emotional one first

Theyre a ship where their individual issues with intimacy (physical and emotional) have an interesting mesh I think you dont get as much in Lae'zel

Interesting! I personally don't get it but again, I think shipping Karlach and Astarion is totally fine; The Whole Camp Polycule is great fun to me and I think the dynamics between every character individually are interesting. All I was saying was 16% vs 3% between Astarion vs Lae'zel is Telling imo because Lae'zel and Karlach make a lot of sense to me.

That said, my thoughts on Karlach/Astarion:

Karlach being as touch starved and sexually potent as she is makes her one of the least suited characters for Astarion in my mind. Obviously that tension is Interesting, but I think it'd get in the way ultimately. Obviously Karlach isn't going to be weird about having sex, you can play her romance nonsexually and shes very sweet, but shes still very eager and a little (ok, a lot) desperate, which is understandable. Karlach is living on limited time and wants to indulge in things barred from her for all of her adult life to the fullest while she can. Either way they could just be poly so thats not really a problem! I guess what I'm actually saying is I personally don't find sexual restraint something interesting for Karlach's character. I think it'd be kind of tragic tbh.

Karlach pretty much has to build a purely emotional bond first with Anyone shes seeing because of the engine needing to be fixed. Its something she can remark on as a change in her usual dating if you romance her. Which suits what you said, but also isn't something I see as unique with Astarion.

There is one thing I do see as an interesting, unique dynamic between Karlach and Astarion. Karlach is romantically delayed; shes basically emotionally a teenager with dating and shes playing catch up as quick as she can with what time she has. That makes her kind of gullible and earnest and quick to fall, but also aware of that, and therefore prone to shame about this stuff. Shes pretty sensitive, especially about rejection and feeling like shes special to someone.

Meanwhile, Astarion is JADED jaded, and heavily traumatised. He has layers of self protective coping strats, hes guarded, hes cold, hes unlearning a lot of shit, hes learning how to have agency of his own body while its actively invaded by a parasite. Dudes going through it! And I Do think that stark difference could be interesting. Karlach has a lightness and excitement that Astarion wouldn't have experienced in like, 200 years. Their opposite deals would bring a lot of tension, possible healing, hot vs cold, ect ect.

But ultimately, in my mind, I think Astarion would find Karlach needy and too sweet, and he'd hate that, and I think Karlach wouldn't feel very reassured by Astarion because of his flippant, glib ways. I think they'd lose patience with each other, and they'd find a romantic relationship pretty emotionally tumultuous. They wouldn't meet a lot of each others specific needs very well. But hey, thats what poly is for

[letitbefiction]

Swim - prologue

A/N: okay its three am, im high and in the mood for writing! I decided to rewrite an old fanfic of mine. A little ODD, but this time changing it a bit since well…im no longer 16. And mental health is a HUGE part of my life. I want to write down and represent mentally ill readers. Not the perfect y/n ideal, someone with emotional issues and shit they need to work on. This represents mostly bpd and ptsd, I’ll put triggers especially if there’s anything in specific in each chapter.

A/N2: tbh this is more of a prologue than anything, so look out for some more content because IM BACK

Warning- mentioning of c*tting, slight and its not in depth obviously. Its just one sentence tbh

Paring- Peter Parker x stark!reader

Type: idk casual, nothing more its just a prologue

Word count: 1.6k

A personality disorder is a type of mental disorder in which you have a rigid and unhealthy pattern of thinking, functioning and behaving. A person with a personality disorder has trouble perceiving and relating to situations and people.

They say that when you’re a teenager you’re going to make memories for life.

Well, whoever said that can go straight to hell along side the memories you ever made.

It was a constant thought you had in the back of your head, especially in the mornings; mostly because it involved school and seeing people you absolutely despise.

Your alarm went off practically screaming at you to get up, but you? After fighting to find your phone you turned it off and threw it to the other side of the bed.‘Whatever’s out there, its not worth waking up at six in the morning for’ you thought to yourself, pulling the covers over your head in a pathetic attempt to hide from the morning sun.

“Y/n dear..your alarm went off four times already” a voice called from the other side of your bedroom door. A small knock following it. You could hear the door slowly open as slow and dragged feet made their way to your bed.

“Come on.. I know you hate mornings but you have school to go to” the elderly voice hummed before sitting on the side of the bed, slowly taking off your blanket shield away from you.

You slowly opened your eyes and looked at your grandmother with a disappointed look. Humming you slowly sat up and slouched on the bed “I know gran” you grumbled “exactly why I hate mornings”

But the elderly lady just chuckled at your response “oh come on sweetheart, you know you hate mornings even if its 1 pm” she smiled and put her hand on your y/h/c. You sighed and shrugged, watching her slowly get up. “Well, I made you some breakfast to perhaps cheer you up and help you with your medicine” she said, tapping your knees as if to urge you to get up.

She smiled playfully as you fixed your posture with a weak smile “yay..” you cheered sarcastically as she began walking towards the door.

She had good intentions really, and you knew that. Thats what you loved about your grandma. No matter how much of a hardass you were, she was always so kind to you. Always extremely patient and at least trying to help.

…

But honestly the mentioning of your pills kind of made you lose your appetite.

“wonderful, get ready I’ll get the coffee ready” your grandma hummed before closing the door. “Thanks gran” you smiled sweetly, slowly removed your warm covers and getting up on your two feet. Your smile dropped when she did, its six in the morning and smiling before coffee was almost impossible.

Your room was messy, per usual.

You never bothered to keep it clean more than four days anyways, and god knows that nowadays you were too tired to try and clean it anyway.

Your bed was attached to the wall, the window right above it, on your headboard were old pictures taped with some duct tape.

The only framed thing was a sentence scribbled on a note, and that was resting on your bedside table.

At the foot of your bed was an enormous amount of books. From sketchbooks to manga and comics to even random school textbooks that overflowed your small book storage.

Next to it was your white trimmed mirror and just like the wall over the bed, there were pictures all over, but this time less personal. A collage of movies,bands, shows and just general stuff you seemed to like.

Walking on the cold wooden floor you picked up a bunch of clothes on the floor, and some from the closet. Choosing a rather normal outfit, nothings special.

A beige T shirt with a print, black baggy jeans and blue converse you thrifted the other day.

You grabbed your jean jacket from your computer chair and stepped out to the living area. You went to brush your teeth and after a few minutes you returned, to eat, ironic isn’t it?

“You look wonderful dear” your grandmother smiled seeing you walk tiredly by her multiple times while getting ready. Going up and down your small apartment. The smell of pancakes interfering your thoughts constantly as you got dressed, almost urging you more than your grandmother to head out to the kitchen.

After looking over yourself multiple times before giving up knowing you won’t be satisfied with the reflection anyways, hearing your name cut your thoughts short.

“Y/n—” “coming!” You yelled and swung your door open with a pressed smile. “this smells delicious!” You sighed in delight as you got closer.

The kitchen matched the rest of the house, cozy and warm, most colors were consisted of cream, orange and white. You had a fairly new equipment even though Queens isn’t known for it’s ‘good wealth’ so you weren’t one to complain.

You walked closer to her, reaching up your arm and opened the cream colored cabinet above your grandma’s head, fetching two plates and placing one next to your beloved guardian.

“a good breakfast for a good day!” She smiled cheery as she pointed you to where the perfectly made pancakes were cooling down “Thanks gran” you kissed her cheeks delicately and smiled.

“Hey how are your cut—“ “they’re healing. Got then covered. And got this jacket just in case” you showed a weak smile. Showing her your bracelets on your wrists before looking up at her, desperately wanting to get away from the subject. She sighed and smiled “..right..good good” she nodded quietly. You smiled awkwardly and grabbed honey from the lower cabinet, heaing over to one of the small kitchen chairs with a sigh.

Not even a second passed since you sat down and the gray haired woman spoke again. “Here ya go” she humned, earning your attention quickly when placing the orange plastic container next to your coffee cup.

‘Serenada’ , a mood stabilizer you felt was useless.

Closing your y/e/c eyes and hanging your head low, the thoughts of ‘why am I like this’ and ‘wow your brain is so fucked huh?!’ reaching to your mind faster as you force the white sedative down your throat.

But you smiled back at her, afterall, its not her fault you’re like this.

Time passed quickly when you have someone to accompany you, and even better when it’s your grandmother. But soon it was time for you to leave, either that or you’ll miss your train.

“Your parents would be so proud of you..” she whispered suddenly, causing you to stop at your tracks as you picked up your blue school bag from the floor.

You smiled sadly and nodded “heh..thanks gran” you muttered before heading out, trying your best to ignore the flashing images of the last time you saw your family back in 2010.

‘That was..so random..’ you thought to yourself as you placed your headphones over your head and let the music overflow your mind even if it was just a bit.

- - - - - - - - - - -

The sun shown directly over your head, which was ironic considering how cold it actually was in queens during the autumn.

The sound of rushing steps and traffic crossing your music from time to time as you pumped into a few people, trying to squeeze past so you got to your train in time. Unlike another person who barely made it through the door, you knew him, after all he was your neighbor-Peter Parker.

You glanced over to him before forcing your eyes to look away as he made his way through the cart, desperately trying to fix his appearance, probably for Liz.

You eyes somehow made their way back to him, a pop of red and blue flannel reaching out through his blue sweater collar, he seemed tired non the less he seemed energized. his eyes were open and ready, like waiting for a command.

‘Like a dog..’ you thought to yourself, not even sure why the comparison even came to your mind. Maybe because of the fact he looked like a lost puppy most of the time.

His disheveled curls running loose over his forehead no matter how many times he had tried to fix them into place. Brown bright eyes staring ahead, music muffling through his white headphones.

You scanned him down, you weren’t sure what was your opinion on the particular boy. He was odd and bullied , but also liked by most people who aren’t flash.

But how come you never even talked to him even though he’s your neighbor for the past 7 years? fearing of getting attached or maybe just refusing to get ideas into your stubborn head.

Either way, you were complete strangers as far as you knew. And right now you’re starting at him.

His eyes suddenly darted at you, they were delicate and warm, a small spark appeared in them. He sent you a gentle tight smile and you turned your head with a blank stare, pretending as if you didn’t just stare at him for a few good minutes.

You weren’t one to get attached, or rather let others even try to get close to you.

You soul was drained out of your body years ago and you were left with anger, constant anger and frustration.You were constantly drowning in your own thoughts and feelings, never seeming to focus on the light above.

You were chained to the bottom of the ocean, wondering if you’ll ever learn how to swim.

[thedroloisms]

yes theres no doubt a large disparity esp on here when other communities outnumber this one in size. I mean to say the new wave over-saturates this behavior, when they all share the common mindset of "at least my guy is not as bad as that one" they conform to putting a controversy in the back of their mind because they never expect their guy to be subject to that limelight or little things that get dream lambasted for because they take part in it. Making sure their punching bag stays as that only punching bag. And seeing it happen to them is such a foreign thing to experience, so they have find ways to cope with it even if it means to drag a name that has nothing to do with the situation. It's my thought process at least that the critical thinking the general community adheres to will always be based on bias and malicious take-downs to make themselves seem better to a wider range beyond theirs. Its so naturally performative too, their statements have like a veneer of snarkiness to it that you can clock right away. Using "she didn't say anyone so we shouldn't speculate" and ignoring the deliberate details she dropped, makes empathy look like a smoke screen to deny or not talk about the person who everyone knows is in plain sight. I understand its a sensitive subject to most people but seeing the evidence of her spoken word be accused of being associated with leak stuff in order to blame something other than their guy is so disgusting. So thats why in this situation, seeing the stark differences as an observer, I can't help but laugh too otherwise I would go mad.

i'd say in my personal experience, older fans tend to be even worse about the "my guy is a good guy and better than dream" rhetoric specifically bc they cling to their experience in choosing "the right side" as giving them a moral high ground. a lot of said people are specifically even invoking dream's name in terms of decision-making in this situation, basically saying "ohhh this situation isn't like the dream situation, if it was like that then obviously i would've dropped him" or on the flip side being like "we can't be like dream fans, guys, we have to Drop Him and call him an awful inhuman monster #fuckmen" etcetera whatever. obviously there are plenty of problems with newer fans as well but i've seen pleeeenty of people acting in stupid ways who were specifically here for the allegations against dream in 2022 (including something i saw earlier which made me laugh a little bit - someone going "look i cant support abusers i used to be a dream fan but then the allegations dropped and i stopped supporting him because i didn't want to look bad :( i dont support will gold anymore but i will continue to draw wilbur soot" like ???? okay) - i feel like new fans are more of an issue bc they take this attitude from older fans and parrot and amplify it, but honestly i wouldn't really say new fans are the root of the issue (though obviously their lack of supporting a Bad Guy in the past factors into their superiority complexes in the present)

while there have been quite a few idiots making this situation about dream (some people outright accusing dream, though honestly i think those people were just trying to deflect the situation onto their favorite punching bag rather than making an actual accusation - and a lot more people bringing up the dream situation specifically to soothe their own complicated feelings because Obviously they care about victims and Obviously they care about holding Bad People accountable) - i feel like the majority of what i've seen from people other than the copium is just a lot of people going all :( support shelby #believevictims don't speculate, which is. wow. crazy to me as well to consider it leak to ... talk about literally publicly available information? like leaktwt is when you listen to music lyrics now i fucking guess.

you really, really do have to laugh, honestly. i didn't know what to expect from this situation but my god, i did NOT think it'd be this bad

[beebthatscreams]

You know how I said I had like more for my funny OC based on @altocat’s headcanons? (If you would like to not be @ ed for more of this please tell me I just know you said if we make stuff off of yours you wanna see) Here’s more!

I have a habit of building ocs for videogames with gameplay and how the player interacts with them in mind. Breaks universe emersion? Yes. Do I enjoy it? Yes :) and I wanna keep developing this character so if anyone wants to like yell about Eden with me in dms or asks if you’re shy 👀 I must scream. I was unsure to go for remake continuity or OG continuity so confusion.

CC

Eden, in contrast to what everyone thinks, is not resentful of Sephiroth and actually tries to seek out getting along with him. He however has lot of issues with her (most reasonable some not), that accounts for the dislike between them most think is mutual.

Her brother is important to her and is the only person she feels will care about her without ulterior motives. After her injury it became obvious that in Shinra your treatment is equal to your usefulness. Sephiroth, and to a small extent the other first, is the only person she trusts not to have that mentality. Conversely she’s more than guilty of this. Being friendly and highly personable are little more than a persona and she has very little connections deeper than acquaintances save for those she needs to be close to to be deemed important enough to keep. Her character revolves around meeting the conditions of conditional love. Her frazzled hair and noticeable dark rings under her eyes lend to how hard she pushes herself.

Zack (as the player) has the option to do side quest revolving given by Eden when she’s present in the Soldier floor. A series of 4 typical battle sims followed by Eden asking a small series of questions at the end. Certain answers will trigger different but mostly non-important dialogue changes. You’ll receive an odd materia thats unlabeled as a final reward. Upon testing its a high risk high reward spell of a 2% chance for a 1 shot in exchange for 99% of your health. The health is not taken if the 1 shot doesn’t hit but time and mp is still wasted.

You’ll receive only two emails from Eden and one about her. The silver elite makes mention in one of their emails that they wonder if they’ll ever hear about her again or if she’s gone from SOLDIER for good after their usual Sephiroth based news. One email you receive from her is just a bit of world building about materia fusion and that if he needs any help or wants to try anything strange to talk to her before accidently breaking something. The other email is at the beginning of the Nibelheim mission that only states: “Could you keep an eye on my brother? He won’t talk to me. Tell him I’m sorry for what I said before he left.”. You never get the chance

FF7 (remake)

While the death of Sephiroth has turned Hojo from at least appearing put together to dishevelled and probably twice as crazy Eden as a stark contrast looks more well put together than the last time you saw her in CC with a noticeable change in design.

The once tired eyes, messy hair, and grey clothing under the lab coat, is replaced with a bright demeanor, tight high ponytail and bright pink blouse.

The first time you hear of her is Chadly passively mentioning that his data goes to the materia specialist but “She seems to dislike me for some reason. I wonder if my research isn’t satisfactory.”

Later when Aerith is captured outside the meeting of board directors you can hear her muttering about how Hojo is so obsessive with his personal experiments she handles nearly all actual leadership duties within the department, they might as well just have her take his place already.

This sentiment is furthered by her short conversation with Aerith that happens after the combat with the experiment in which she says: “Hojo won’t be a problem, I won’t let anything too awful happen to you sweetheart”, and nods to often undermining his commands, but its unclear if she actually has the power for her promise. She mentions remembering Aerith's files but feeling like they had met sometime before. Though the conversation doesn't go further as the rest of the party arrives. Avoidant of combat, she lets them take Aerith without a fight. The team suspicious of this press a couple questions she technically answers before they decide that chasing down Hojo is more important. Her behaviour towards most of the party members is strangely casual and she refers to Aerith and Tifa by sweetheart and honey respectively, giving the group a coy wave as they leave and telling them to not kill Hojo but she doesn’t care about his condition past that. Cloud looks back before they fully leave making eye contact but quickly keeps going as the tinnitus commonly related to the illusions of Sephiroth starts. It’s unclear exactly why.

She is not seen again but Red XIII when asked about why she would let them go says: “Miss Eden is just another one of Hojo’s experiments. But she thinks somehow, they stand on equal footing and she won’t face consequences.” This is the first time she is referred to by name in this ‘game’.

[hikari-ni-naritai]

Hey Em, Im not sure how to deal with something? I broke things off with a longtime friend recently.. Gist of it being that they were very bad at communicating most anything which eventually resulted in them creating a rift that grew for a long time, until it hurt too much so I proposed we split off indefinitely if not forever. While I think this was the healthiest decision, it still feels really bad? I feel healthier mentally, but the grief for the friendship is only getting worse. They said some shitty things that I hate them for, but on the other hand I miss them and wish it could have gone differently. I almost wish I could just hate them completely, but I dont.. I guess what I'm asking is, do you have any advice for dealing with something like this?

hmm. anon i love you but im not sure im the best person to ask about this. ive been told i dont deal with my emotions in a very human way. furthermore i dont tend to form meaningful emotional connections with people who are just friends, so when they drift out of my life i just. am not really bothered by it, usually. but i will offer you what i can: overcomplicating a very simple issue in an attempt to simplify a very complicated emotion.

so like, i dont do active splits with friends. if someone starts annoying me and i dont want them in my life anymore, i just stop talking to them. and usually at this point theyve also stopped talking to me, so it isnt like im just ignoring them outright. and it also doesnt hurt me. but i do have experiences like what youre talking about, specifically with romantic relationships ive had to break off for one reason or another. and both your case and mine are similar forms of grief.

i think its important to understand what grief really is. and im sure everyone will have different definitions, but i think the core of it is trying to hold onto something you cant have anymore. there's a pain inherent to losing someone, but people tend to torture themselves by wishing for things they have to give up. you wish things couldve been different. you wish you couldve maintained your friendship and your friend couldve been healthier for you. i dont know what that possibility looks like for you, but i know youre imagining it and hurting because it cant be real. for me, when i broke up with someone i knew i couldnt stay in a relationship with, i spent a while doing the same thing, holding onto all the cute domestic fantasies id been imagining the last year, thinking maybe i should just suck it up and let myself be happy in a situation where i knew i couldnt, wishing i could just. fix everything and be okay.

and like. thats not a BAD thing. thats normal. its healthy to let yourself grieve when youve been hurt, even if you know its for your own good. but at a certain point, you have to decide to let go. you have to make the conscious choice to move on and leave your fantasies behind. and like, it sucks! it hurts! and i wont discount that! you can take your time to ease into it, and you can wait until you think youre ready before you start. but one day youve gotta do it.

of course, this may very well just be a case where my brain's fuckin broke as all hell and it doesnt apply to normal people. if you think im stark raving mad, i encourage you to ask someone more well-adjusted than me. this is just the only advice i can offer you. love you anon. im sorry things didnt work out. i hope you feel better <3

[bestworstcase]

can we open the box labelled "yang thoughts™"

or as i like to call them, yots,

hgsgfjdk here’s one i’ve been chewing on for a good long while now: there is a line of connection that i want to draw between yang’s anger and what the narrative appears to be doing rn with salem and to a lesser extent cinder, to the point that i almost think yang might end up being the locus of their villain-to-hero arcs from the protagonist side.

( one of the reasons i sat on this ask so long is this is a thought i’m having a REAL hard time articulating to my satisfaction, so bear with me. )

the yang we meet in v1-2 doesn’t exactly wear her heart on her sleeve, but she carries her trauma a lot closer to the surface than her teammates do. our first glimpse of the murky STRQ past comes from yang volunteering this extremely personal story about how she struggled after losing her mom and learning that her other mom abandoned her, as a way of empathizing with and getting through to blake that exhausting herself isn’t helping anything. which is, i think, presently the high water mark for yang vis-a-vis expressing this childhood trauma in a healthy or constructive way.

bc what gradually emerges after this scene is this… pattern. of yang—i think, comparing this shit she’s gone through to her perceptions of what other people have experienced. & this is a more loaded way to say this than i would like hfkfhsl but i feel like yang gets a bit of a complex about her trauma after she loses her arm, in that she develops this tendency of kinda,, tunnel visioning on herself, her pain, and it makes her worse at connecting emotionally to other people’s suffering in the way that she did with blake in v2.

we first see hints of this when she lashes out at ruby right after losing her arm, but i think the clearest illustration of it occurs in the yang+weiss talk in v5. bc two important things happen in that conversation:

1. yang sorta,, resentfully tries to shove weiss away by doing the, “you don’t GET what i’m going through, you have a huge family” thing—& is blindsided (and contrite) when weiss gently pushes back on that

2. in stark contrast with how easily yang intuited what was up with blake and how to get on her level emotionally in v2, yang CANNOT wrap her head around why blake left. she’s too mired in her own pain and feelings of abandonment to be able to empathize with blake until weiss helps her put those pieces together.

& like i want to make clear that this is not a “yang gets more selfish” / “yang doesn’t care about blake” line of reasoning bc i know that’s not an uncommon take in certain circles 🥴 but like, this is a TEXTBOOK response to trauma gkgjsshbk the erosion of yang’s empathy + the defensive emotional crouch she sinks into after the fall of beacon, thats the tip of the iceberg. she’s in acute psychological crisis on account of being dismembered and then kicked right in the abandonment issues.

anyway

what i’m getting to is this scene:

RAVEN: [Spring] was scared when we found her! Weak. No matter how much training I put her through, she never learned! She wasn’t cut out for this world, and with those powers, she would’ve been hunted her entire life! What I did—

YANG: “Wasn’t personal.”

RAVEN: It was mercy!

YANG: Which is it, mom? Are you merciful, or are you a survivor? Did you let me walk into that trap because you knew I could handle it, or because it meant you could get what you wanted?!

RAVEN: It’s not that simple. You don’t know me! You don’t know what I’ve been through, the choices I’ve had to make!

YANG: You’re right. I don’t know you. I only know the Raven dad told me about. She was troubled, and complicated, but she fought for what she believed in, whether it was her team or her tribe! Did you kill her, too?

RAVEN: …I’ve stared death in the face over and over again, and every time I’ve spat in that face and survived because I’m strong enough to do what others won’t!

YANG: Oh, shut up! You don’t know the first thing about strength! You turn your back on people, you run away when things get hard, you put others in harms way instead of yourself! You might be powerful, but that doesn’t make you strong.

RAVEN: Who do you think you are, lecturing me?! Standing there, shaking like a scared little girl—

YANG: Yeah, I’m scared. But I’m still standing here. I’m not like you. I won’t run, which is why you’re going to give me the relic.

RAVEN: And why would I—

YANG: BECAUSE YOU’RE AFRAID OF SALEM! And if you thought having maiden powers put a target on your back, imagine what she’ll do when she finds out you have a relic. She’ll come after you with everything she has… or she can come after me. And I’ll be standing there, waiting for her.

RAVEN: You don’t want to do this, Yang.

YANG: Nope. But I’m gonna do it anyway.

[She shoves past Raven, heading for the open vault.]

RAVEN: I… I’m sorry.

YANG: …Yeah. Me too.

in ANY other story, this would have been a triumphant moment of catharsis for yang, finally giving voice to all this pain and resentment she’s been drowning in for almost her whole life and getting to throw all of her mom’s fucking bullshit back in her face until she’s stripped away every justification and forced raven to APOLOGIZE. but in rwby—

this is how it ends. she gets that apology—and it’s hollow. she turns around and raven’s left her AGAIN, ran away because things got hard AGAIN, and after all of this, after yang made herself vulnerable and threw herself into this terrifying, painful, difficult confrontation with her mother, in the end all she gets is a token apology, and more abandonment. so she watches raven fly away, and then walks into the vault to collect the relic of knowledge, and the plain truth that *nothing she said* made raven care about her enough to stay crushes her.

which is a lot more true to life, as far as how this sort of confrontation with bad parents generally goes. real life does not tie itself up in neat cathartic little bows after you rake the person who hurt you over the coals.

& this is a HUGE emotional problem for yang, because getting to this confrontation has been her driving motivation for ALMOST HER ENTIRE LIFE! ever since she learned about raven, she’s been desperate to find her, to ask WHY, to get answers and closure and healing—and at the end of v5 she gets that confrontation and those answers and it doesn’t fix a goddamn thing.

all that remains is the anger and the hurt with nowhere left to go. that’s part of why things are so weird between her and blake in the first half of v6—blake is not like raven, but her leaving stirred up similar feelings to raven’s abandonment and obviously that’s hard for yang to work through, it’s hard to let herself be vulnerable with blake again right after raven sucker-punched her by running again. and patching things up with blake does put her on the road to healing, i think, but she’s not there yet—

& that brings us to THIS:

SALEM: [to Ozcar] Why do you keep—coming—back?!

YANG: Why do you?! All this endless death, because something bad happened to you once upon a time? Nobody gets a fairytale ending! Everything I’ve lost—every person I’ve lost—is because of YOU!

SALEM: …And who have I taken from you, girl?

YANG: Summer Rose. My mom.

SALEM: …Hm. Her, again.

and. ok

i know that the general reception of this by the fandom was: fuck yeah, yang, you tell her! so my take is… idiosyncratic BUT

what strikes me about this exchange is this: salem does not make even the slightest effort to justify herself or rationalize her choices. she asks for clarification, and then she’s amused by whatever her private little joke about summer rose is—but there’s no, you know, this:

RAVEN: It’s not that simple. You don’t know me! You don’t know what I’ve been through, the choices I’ve had to make!

or this:

RAVEN: Who do you think you are, lecturing me?! Standing there, shaking like a scared little girl—

and we have that contrast happening simultaneously with yang reducing “you were abused and imprisoned your whole life, lost the one person who ever cared about you, got cursed with eternal suffering for asking the gods to bring him back, and then spent millions of years alone on the planet after watching those gods slaughter every single person on the planet besides you, after which they brought your former lover back as their loyal champion” down to “something bad happened once upon a time” which—lmao. yang had raven DEAD TO RIGHTS during the v5 confrontation, but with salem she’s scoffing away literal millions of years of being tortured by the gods as salem throwing a tantrum because she didn’t get the happy ending she wanted. it’s belittling and it has almost nothing to do with what salem’s actual motivations are!

which is to say—as i see it, there’s a reversal happening in 8.9. yang isn’t stripping away her absent mother’s bullshit self-justifications to force raven to give her the apology she deserves, anymore; instead she’s lashing out in a blind rage at the nearest acceptable substitute for raven, while salem is more or less like “…ok?” hfgdjdcfh

and that serves, i think, a couple of important narrative purposes:

1. imo it flags that yang’s arc in void wonderland is likely to turn on the goldilocksish fulcrum of confronting this anguish and festering bitterness that has been tearing her up inside ever since 5.14 and figuring out the right balance between burying it or drowning in it so she can heal.

2. it also feels, to me, like something of a who you are in the dark moment for salem: we have been told over and over again that she is narcissistic and impossible to reason with, always by sources of dubious trustworthiness and always contrasted by little emotional beats that don’t add up—and then. this happens. at the exact moment when salem’s deep, DEEP rage at ozma begins to boil over, this child screams what amounts to “who cares if your life sucks? everyone’s life sucks, but how dare you make MY life suck!” in her face, and her reaction is to calm down. she reins in her temper and offers zero apologies, zero explanation, zero justifications, just. who did i take from you. gbfhdjx like .

3. & THAT is one of many, many instances of the pattern of characters saying things about salem and those things being almost immediately juxtaposed with salem acting differently, which is all wrapped up in the big theme in salem’s arc of storytellers shaping reality for their audiences and her total surrender of the narrative to ozma throughout the centuries and so forth: the horse is very dead.

4. (i think it’s probably not a coincidence that this happens RIGHT before 1. the very weird fight with hazel that kicked off with salem releasing her own hostages and 2. the repetition and elaboration of the lost fable “salem looks away & oz braces for a fight, catching her off guard” beat—which in lost fable lasts all of half a second but HERE gets drawn out quite a bit)

5. lastly, the other thing that i chew on with this exchange a lot is—well, this:

WATTS: You know, it’s impressive that you haven’t realized this yet, but I don’t work for you!

[Cinder, furious, dangles him off the roof; he scoffs.]

WATTS: Please. You can’t just threaten me like everyone else.

CINDER: You think you’re so clever, don’t you, Arthur?

WATTS: Salem sent you to bring me back—

CINDER: Salem isn’t here right now, but I think we can still come up with a plan while she’s pulling herself together. First, I’m going to watch you plummet to an unremarkable end, and then I’m going to burn a path directly to the vault, where I will wait to tear that magical puppet to pieces, and take what is mine.

[Slowly, Watts starts to laugh.]

WATTS: Oh! Of course you are! Because that’s just what you do, isn’t it? And how has that worked out for you? You stormed into Fria’s room, thinking you could take on Ironwood’s top fighter and war machine, but you couldn’t! And that machine became the winter maiden! Oh—and let’s not forget your deal with Raven Branwen! Get all your enemies in one place so you’d have a shot at revenge; if only someone could have warned you against such a miserable idea. Oh, wait! I DID! But you pushed ahead and you lost it when all you had to do was your job! You think you’re entitled to everything just because you’ve suffered, but suffering isn’t enough! You can’t just be strong; you have to be smart! You can’t just be deserving, you have to be worthy! But all you have ever been is a BLOODY MIGRAINE!

…like the emotional overlap here with both yang’s confrontation with raven and her lashing out at salem is obvious, yeah? the context is different of course—watts has very different reasons for his rage at cinder—but it’s three repetitions of one character chewing another out for failings real or perceived, and the chewed-out character reacting differently than the first character expected; raven runs away, salem vanishes behind her inscrutable mask, cinder spares his life (for now) and cries.

and. in all cases, i think the narrative is inviting us to ask: did this really accomplish anything? was it worth it? did forcing raven to take an honest look at herself make yang feel better? did that experience change raven for the better? did throwing salem’s pain in her face and proving to her that even the lamp showing these children “everything” isn’t enough to make her not a storybook monster in their eyes actually achieve anything? did screaming at cinder meaningfully heal her relationship with watts or improve her as a person? no!!

and with two of the three occurrences of this being YANG, in a way that is i think pretty clearly setting her up to have an arc in v9 where she grapples with this, this unchecked anger and resentment and rampant trauma that is strangling her ability to empathize and emotionally connect with other people and by extension making it impossible for her to heal properly i just—this is intertwined very deeply with yang’s personal arc but the broader connections with the narrative as a whole seem. obvious lmao

or who knows maybe in v9 she’ll continue in a downward spiral until she slam dunks her life into a flaming dumpster and upgrade herself to the VIP lounge in my head i DO love it when characters hit rock bottom and promptly pull out a drill. at a minimum i don’t think this’ll be an arc that is all said and done by the end of v9, i think it’s gonna be a ✨process✨

[notenoughmuses]

👫 // viserys

Send a 👫and I’ll write four headcanons I have about our muse’s relationship ACCEPTING

1. Viserys is at first in their more canon relationships, trying to be perfect. The mindset he takes with Dany meeting Drogo is the same approach he takes with meeting Rhaenys. This is family after all and he doesn't want her to think ill of him. But after a while he realizes he can let himself go and he doesn't have to look after her like she's Dany 2.0. She's lived her life safe and protected in Dorne not on the run in Essos. This and that notion in general that he and Dany are finally safe and protected is one that hits him hard at some point when they are hanging out, maybe causing some mischief because Rhaenys insisted on it and Viserys cries in relief. He can pause and take a breath for once in his life and be in the moment with family.

2. For our Rhaegar rules verse, Viserys very much tries to live up to the expectations Rhaegar has and much like show Daemon at points feels like he will never amount to any of the expectations his brother, the king has of him and Viserys worries that Rhaegar thinks he will be like their father. But thats why he loves spending time with Rhaenys. He can be himself around her and not worry and he finds himself more and more drawn to her the older she gets. (Sounds so horrible I know but luckily a 4 year age gap between them is decent the older they get!) Viserys starts courting her when she's around 15-16 mainly trying to get a feel for her and if she's into him at all. Rhaegar has marriage alliances sent out, Rhaenys to Robb Stark. Viserys to Arianne Martell. Aegon and Dany to Tyrell family and back up plan, Cersei and Roberts children. Viserys doesn't care though the longer they flirt with one another and the attraction is clear between them and on one fateful night when Rhaegar and children visit Viserys at Dragonstone, Viserys finds himself on a midnight stroll by the beach with Rhaenys and thats when he proposes to her.

3. Being a ward of the usuper is not easy and it's even harder when you see your nice show up posing as her uncles bastard daughter. Viserys pleads with her and Oberyn to take him back with them despite knowing what danger it can put Dorne in. Cersei doesn't know how much longer she can keep two wards under house arrest in Kings Landing and Sansa is enough trouble. Viserys takes advantage of that when the purple wedding happens and Oberyn is to fight the Mountain. He thinks this is his chance to leave to a better place with family. (Not to mention Oberyn tells him of the marriage pact between him and Arianne. Though Vis sees a Martell he'd rather have) but disaster sticks and Rhaenys is nearly caught and put as a "ward" as well once Sansa has fled and Oberyn dead. Viserys though has a way out and he and Rhaenys flee to Dorne.

4. Being 4 years apart I can see them being more like siblings in any AU that they spend quality time in. Same goes for Aegon and Dany and this creates some interesting dynamics Rhaegar did not take into account. Mainly Viserys and Rhaenys ganging up on Rhaegar for things and to go do X Y and Z activities. They both convince Rhaegar to let all four of them go on a tour of the Seven Kingdoms with Viserys being the "responsible leader" (Arthur Dayne and William Darry are also in tow to keep them safe and in check. When they arrive in Winterfell, Viserys is pelted by numerous snowballs that Rhaenys learned to make from the Starks. Both Rhaenys and Viserys gossip the whole time when they arrive in Storms End, Rhaenys holding back a gangly but muscled Viserys from beating up a child. (Joffery. Joffery is an ass and Viserys has anger issues.)

[gayspock]

ALSO jool jool jool

im still very torn on jool. i think ultimately... i dont know. i dont entirely GET why she's here, still. like i mean i get it- she doesn't have anywhere to go, or whatever- but narratively speaking.

like i could understand some arguments. maybe, i figure, her purpose was to balance out the different groups (i.e, talyn crew vs moya crew). and i suppose that makes some sort of sense, both in terms of numbers and dynamics- but it still just isnt... enough for me?

because like. my PROBLEM isnt her being an "annoyance". i mean- ok, the screaming was too much to begin with, but theyve dialled it back so im fine with that, now. but like, i havent gone through too many forum threads/discussions on her, but i can easily see people writing her off as the woooorst bc she's "annoying" in general which. LOOK...

like, sure, i get it could be too much for some ppl still. but me? usually i dont mind if there's a character, who just causes issues for the others, and i dont mind if there's a character whos whiny, and i dont mind if there's a character whos kind of written to be "unlikable". im usually v fine with that, do you know what i mean? like- if it makes sense for the character to be that way then im okay with it. and i think its more reasonable for characters to sometimes be in that role, and sometimes even necessary.

and i mean that ESPECIALLY when like.. frankly i think the character *is* kinda justified in their upset/distress and is lashing out bc of it. like i dont think it makes any amount of sense for everyone, all of the time to take things happily and in their stride and its odd when ppl expect that of characters. like yeah shes fucking bitchy. i would be TOO in her situation.

my problem starts is when like... it kind of feels like thats the only purpose they have? or they lack depth in other regards. and with jool, ehhhh uhm.... ehhhh. uhm. ehrm.

bc like thus far... she really hasnt DONE anything except be a plot device at times, to cause further conflict for the others. we dont really have the time to explore her properly. and it IS kinda odd for her to still be there with them. we dont really see a decent exploration of her with the others... she just acts out, gets yelled at, end of... and i feel like, when she does cause problems, its never... interesting?

like- forgive me, i have issues a bit with rygel too. BUT when he caused conflict, at least early on, it was with more purpose. he had good scenes with zhaan. he sold them out, a few times, but it was a calculated decision that made sense for who he was and in turn who the rest of them arent. he's there, sort of, as this constant reminder of how they started out with respect to one another. and he himself does have good scenes - like in the last 2 parter, where he just killed that charrid, or that scene all the way back in s1 where he was imprisoned with that other leader, etc... theyre interesting beats, and good insights into that type of character

but thus far we really.. havent gotten that with jool. and when she DOES cause problems, a lot of it is just... "oh jool fucked it up again! booo!" LIKE... i dont know it just feels lazy and like she is there for no reason other than to cause problems. and its a shame bc she does... have an interesting enough setup that they havent touched on, like, at all. which i dont BLAME them for- theyve had a lot to do, thus far- but like... also?

if they dont have time for her... then why introduce her at that point in the show? its how i felt with, like, the first time they reintroduced stark. you could so easily have taken him out of those 2 episodes he was in, before he died, instead of swinging back and forth with it. i mean it. instead it just felt wishy washy, with the way he was brought into the show, too.

and with jool its like... even when she first appeared she really didnt do anything, in my opinion, except scream and write them out of corners. and like i said- she hasnt done anything interesting since. and to me, it therefore just feels... like why is she here? i feel bad, bc she is starting to warm up to me-

bc like im saying all this, bc we just got her first episode where i liked her (that is, revenging angel). she fucks up terribly. BUT it isnt just for the conceit of the episode- i mean, well it is, but we also explore HER more properly, and see her honest thoughts, and we get that nice bit of her with d'argo. like she isnt JUST existing to cause a problem - she's actually a character in her own right, which ike... you know... i think thats a far enough thing to ask of a character. and its like they didnt even have to give her sympathetic reasons behind stuff, which they did here- they just had to, like.. give her some dimension, other than what they did

anyways. i hope they build on her more from now on but im also unsure of when the hell they could. im certain we're going to be building back up to something mad in the upcoming episodes so god knows.