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lostinmirkwood · 4 years

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Gendrya Kinktober Day 12- Phone Sex

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It started with a picture.

Arry (9:08am): I have to say, my tits look fantastic in this top today. I needed someone to admire them. 😈

Gendry had to agree, they did look fantastic. She’d taken a timed picture showing just her shoulders and chest with her folded arms resting on her desk just under her tits. As he was typing a response another message came through. Same angle, same position, but two buttons undone, a hint of her lacy red bra peeking out of her navy shirt.

Gendry (9:10am): Dammit Arya. I have a presentation in 20 minutes!

Arry (9:10am): 😘 Good luck!

Gendry shook his head and tried to refocus on his notes for the client presentation he was about to lead. It was for a sustainable and affordable housing complex near the city center that had been a passion project of his for the past six months and he knew he needed to wow the investors.

His phone buzzed again just before he entered the boardroom. The message made him smile and gave him a final boost of confidence for his presentation before he turned off his phone.

Arry (9:25am): I love you, you’ll knock them dead!

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The presentation had gone off without a hitch. The investors were excited about his designs and the city had greenlit the plans to go ahead with only a few minor tweaks to the design. After a celebratory lunch with his team Gendry turned his phone on back in his office. It buzzed several times as it powered on and he was unsurprised by the slew of texts that waited for him.

The Starks 🐺 (7 messages)

Arry (3 messages)

Hot Pie (10:30am): Sry 4 the late text, had dough tht needed attn. Good luck mate!

Davos (9:45am): Marya and I send our love lad, you’ll do just fine. You know what you’re about.

He shot off quick replies to Hot Pie and Davos thanking them and summarizing the meeting before scrolling through the Stark group chat quickly. Rickon had sent a meme about being the youngest child that had his older siblings up in arms. He shook his head at their antics. They might never stop talking to each other but he was pleased that he was included in their group chat. With some trepidation he opened Arya’s messages.

Arry (10:47am): Let me know how it goes when you’re done!

Arry (11:51am): You know… we should celebrate when your proposal is approved. With me naked and bent over your desk. Could be fun 😉

Gendry gulped, the next message was another picture.

Arry (1:10pm): Thinking about you taking me in your office. 😘

She must have locked herself in her office and drawn her blinds. She was angled against her desk, shirt unbuttoned again. This time her hand was at the cup of her bra, nearly revealing one of her deliciously pink nipples to the camera. She’d also managed to hike her skirt up enough to reveal her creamy thighs and the lacy tops of her stockings. Gendry groaned, his cock filling in his slacks, pressing uncomfortable against his zipper as he sat in his desk chair.

Gendry (1:34pm): ARRY.

Gendry (1:34pm): Have mercy on me woman.

Gendry (1:35pm): Also thanks for your support love. The plans were fully approved by both the city and the investors pending a few small design changes.

Arry (1:36pm): That’s wonderful Gendry! I’m so proud of you!

Arry (1:36pm): So, about that celebration?

Gendry (1:36pm): You won’t be able to stay quiet for what I want to do with you tonight. We’ll have to save that for the holiday party.

Arry (1:37pm): Oh? Do share.

Gendry (1:39pm): Tonight? Tonight I want to strip you out of your work clothes, but you’ll keep your bra, stockings, and heels on. I want to get on my knees before you and eat my fill from your cunt with your legs around my ears.

Arry (1:39pm): I like the sound of that. But why am I keeping my bra on?

Gendry (1:40pm): Because I said so.

Arry (1:40pm): Yes sir.

Gendry (1:42pm): Once you’ve come for me on my mouth I’m going to slide a finger in and begin to work you. I want you to take all three but I’ll work you up to that. Feel them pressing on that spot inside you that only I have found. It’s mine Arya.

Gendry (1:42pm): I’ll use my free hand to fondle your tits through that red lacy bra. They’ll be sensitive and the lace will be driving you crazy. When you’re dripping down your thighs…

Arry (1:43pm): Can I come on your hand? Please Gendry, let me come with your fingers deep inside me.

Gendry (1:44pm): No love. You’re not coming again until I tell you to.

Arya gasps in her office. She’s glad she’s been left to herself today to work on quarterly reports. She shifts in her chair, trying to relieve some of the ache building between her thighs. She wonders if she can manage to get herself off quickly and quietly enough after this when her phone buzzes again.

Gendry (1:45pm): When you're dripping down your thighs I’ll throw you on the bed and bring those stocking-clad legs up to my shoulders. I want to take you deep, Arya. This is why you’re keeping your bra on.

Gendry (1:46pm): Because when I start to fuck you I want to fuck you hard and long until your tits come out of that red lace. I want you screaming around my cock and begging for release. Once I’ve fucked them free then, and only then, are you allowed to cum.

Gendry (1:47pm): Now love, this isn’t entirely about me. I want you to tell me about where you want me to come. Do you want me to pull out and come all over those lovely tits and that sinful bra? Do you want me to cover your pretty swollen clit? Do you want me to roll you over and come all over that lovely arse of yours?

Arry (1:48pm): Inside me Gendry. Please come inside me. I want to feel your release deep inside me and feel it dripping out of me. I love it when you make a mess of me.

Gendry (1:49pm): Good girl. I’ll come inside you and spread it over your thighs as it slides out of you. I want you to smell like me.

Another picture message comes through from Arya. It’s looking down at her lap as she sits in her desk chair. Her shirt is unbuttoned slightly, showing a lovely flush over her chest. Her skirt is hiked up to her waist and her hand is sliding towards the black lacy knickers he knows she’s wearing from kissing her good-bye as she was getting ready this morning.

Arry (1:49pm): Gods Gendry. Can I come now? Please? I want you so bad, I’m so wet.

Gendry (1:50pm): No Arry. You have to keep your hands to yourself the rest of today. I told you, you’ll only come when I say you can.

Gendry (1:51pm): Be a good girl and don’t touch yourself. That means no rubbing yourself on your chair using those lacy knickers for friction. No teasing your nipples as you rebutton your shirt. No putting your phone between your legs and calling from your desk for the vibrations. Nothing. I want you dripping when you get home.

Arya mutters a few choice swears under her breath as she does as he says and fixes her shirt and straightens her skirt. She knows she could get off in a minute with how worked up his words have her but how commanding Gendry was and the anticipation make her follow his instructions.

Arry (1:53pm): Yes dear. I’ll wait like you want me to. 😩

Gendry (1:54pm): Good. Now get back to work you naughty girl, I know you have reports to write. I’ll see you tonight 😉

Arry (1:54pm): Love you!

Gendry (1:54pm): Love you too Arry. Always will.

How Arya manages to get through the rest of her day she isn’t really sure. It passes in a lust filled haze as she rereads Gendry’s plan for the night every hour or so. She’s not sure why she’s torturing herself but she knows the pay-off for tonight promises to be more than worth it.

As she’s on the train home with her headphones in her phone buzzes again in her hand. Glancing down she realizes that Gendry is calling her. Her stomach tightens as she picks up. Not wanting to be that person on the crowded train she quietly says, “Hello Gendry, is everything alright? I’m three stops from ours, do I need to pick something up?”

Gendry sighs down the line, “No love, just wanted to hear your voice. And for you to hear this.”

Arya smiles for a moment before she registers what she’s hearing. On the other end of the call is the slick sound of flesh on flesh, confusedly she asks, “Gendry? What are you...? But, I’m almost home!”

“I know Arry. I told you I wanted you dripping, so I’m making sure you are.”

Hanging up is the last thing on Arya’s mind as she listens to Gendry moan and sigh as he works himself over, getting himself off while she’s on the phone with him, surrounded by her fellow commuters that (hopefully) have no idea what’s happening in her earbuds right now. She’s trying to keep her blush from spreading over her cheeks and her skirt prevents her from crossing her legs to try to relieve the growing pressure. She loses the battle with her blush when he starts gasping her name as he gets close to coming. She nearly misses her stop listening to him, only catching she’s at her platform when the woman sitting next to her nudges her to move so she can also get off.

Arya stumbles slightly as she gets off the train. Gendry had just growled her name and sighed in her ears and she almost stepped into the gap between the train and the platform. She stutters out, “Did you just?”

“Yeah,” comes his panted reply.

“Well I just got off the train. I’ll be home shortly. Asshole.”

Gendry chuckles, “You did that to me Arry. I said I wanted you ready and I bet you are,” she is, but she doesn’t want to give him any more satisfaction, knowing he’ll get plenty tonight. “I bet your knickers are soaked again for me. Don’t worry, you’ll more than get yours. I wanted to make sure you’d get it.”

“Yeah, yeah, yeah. Still bloody unfair with so many people around though.”

“That was half the fun. Love you, Arry. I’ll see you soon.”

“Love you too. I’ll see you in a few.” She hung up the phone and picked up her pace down the street. Gendry was waiting for her.

#gendrya kinktober #day 12- phone sex/sexting #tomorrow is part 2 #gendrya #gendrya fanfic #arya stark #gendry waters #inappropriate use of personal offices #that tag will come back #dom!gendry comes out #and if you think arya doesn't enjoy that you need to rewatch the it's strong enough scene again

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rosegoldquintis · 5 years

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Bookstores & Cigarettes

Paring: Calum Hood x Reader

Warnings: Cheating, smoking, alcohol, break up, swearing, self doubt mentions of sex? shity writing, attempted angst

Word count: 3k?????

A/N: This is the longest fick I’ve ever written and idk how I feel about that! But I am kinda proud of this so let me know what you think!

Also, I was planning on posting this on my birthday which is on Tuesday so you got this a couple of days in advance:D

She brought the cigarette up to her lips wondering how she ended up here. She usually never went to bars or parties but tonight seemed to be appropriate to drink yourself into oblivion.

When she first met Calum she was on cloud nine but then everything changed once she saw him she cheating on her in her own bedroom.

She had been seeing Calum for almost 6 months when it happened.

She was on her way home from work after 12 hour shift. Everything that day had gone surprisingly good, but as soon as she started to approach her apartment complex she started to get a weird feeling in her stomach. Right as she put the key in the lock and turned it something that feeling in her stomach turned into small stabbing pains.

When she stepped into the apartment everything was quiet, the lights were off even though it was nearly 10 PM on a Thursday night. She went up to her bedroom because she just wanted to go to bed immediately, she had to work the early shift the next morning.

As she got closer to her bedroom she could hear quiet female moans. She thought she was imagining it since she lived alone and the only person who had a key to her apartment was Calum. She had given him a key in case of emergencies.

When she opened her bedroom she saw tell him on top of a girl and they were making out in her bed. She didn’t say anything she just stayed frozen in the doorway, not knowing whether she should scream, cry or throw something at the pair.

So she did the only thing that her body allowed her to do. She dropped the bag she was holding which made the pair break apart, she could see how something changed in his eyes, the went from lust, to fear.

She turned in the doorway, made a beeline for the living room where she had placed her phone and keys just moments before, she then walked right out of the apartment, got into her car and drove off in the middle of the night.

That’s how she ended up in a bar, smoking her boyfriends cigarettes at 11PM on a Thursday night. She had two people come up to her that night, the first was the bartender who asked what she wanted to drink or if she was fine,

“Give me the strongest you have” She said “Because tonight I’m drinking myself into a oblivion.” She mumbled once the guy turned his back to her. The bartender turned back around and poured her a drink. She didn’t remember putting the glass to her lips or anything after that. But somehow she remembered the second person that came up to her that night. It was a woman, a few years older than herself.

“Are you okay?” She asked as she looked Y/N up and down. “Do you want me to call you a taxi?”

“I’m fine.” She mumbled as she stood up, she remember nearly falling over the woman but regaining her balance just in time.

She started to make her way out from the pub. She tried to figure out which way to go but it didn’t go as good as she had hoped. She didn’t remember picking up her phone, calling someone nor does she remember being picked up and falling asleep in someone else’s bed that night.

The next morning she woke up in all-too-familiar sheets and in an all-too-familiar room. She sat up too quickly which made her see stars, she closed her eyes and tried to focus. She was still dressed in the same clothes as she had on last night, she stood up from the bed. She went over to the door so she could pick up her shoes which were neatly placed beside a pair of black vans. Y/N carefully opened the door and as soon as she did she bumped into the person she least wanted to see, Calum.

“I’m sorry.” He said “I didn’t mean for this to happen, I was drunk.”

“That’s always the excuse.” she mumbled “You where drunk, someone else was drunk.” Tears started to roll down her cheeks as she looked at Calum.

“But the truth is, it’s never anyone's fault.” Calum looked down at the wooden floor, he didn’t know what to say or how to act. He knew he fucked up big time and there was no second chances.

“I’m sorry honey.” He said “I truly am, this wasn’t supposed to happen.”

“Will you just shut up already Calum.” She ran her fingers through her hair. “You’re the one who ruined this relationship and it’s always gonna be your fault no matter how much you try to fix it.” She said, she was angry. She couldn’t understand how someone who’s been cheated on could do that to another person.

“Are you ok?” He suddenly asked, he had looked Y/N up and down. Her eyes were red and puffy, her clothes had become a mess after she had slept in them and her hair was no longer in a bun on her head.

“What kind of question is that?” She hissed at him

“Do I look okay?” She motioned pointed at her red eyes. “Can you just fuck off?” She spat.

She started to walk towards the door and as she passed though the living room she was met with three familiar faces, Ashton, Luke and Michael. As soon as she saw them she froze. She could tell that they were there so they could try and convince her to forgive their best friend, except she couldn’t forgive him for cheating. Before they started to date they had been good friends and she had nearly giving her cheating ex a second chance but Calum had been the one that told her not to. He told her that people don’t change, no matter how much you want them too, so she didn’t see a reason to give him a second chance because after all, people don’t change, right?

It had been exactly one week and four days since she found her boyfriend cheating on her. Right now it was a 2:45AM and she was sitting out on her balcony, looking out over Los Angeles. She hadn’t slept in her bed yet, she couldn’t bring herself to remove the sheets or even touched the bed. Y/N had been sleeping on her couch, she had also moved most of her things to her guestroom, sure it was smaller than her room but she felt sick whenever she was in the room.

At first time moved so slow, she counted every tear that fell and she could feel herself slipping away. Then time moved so fast, she had gone to sit on her balcony at 10pm. She had gotten herself some food and was listening to some music, but before she knew it, it was 6AM and the sun was starting to rise.

She had been calling in sick to work for the past week because she couldn’t sleep at night. Y/N worked at a small bookstore in the middle of LA, she had never missed a day at work so after a week she had forced herself to go to work.

At around 9AM she arrived the the store, she unlocked the door and walked inside.

Her first day had been such a good day, there had been people coming in and buying book and talking to her as if they had know each other for forever. Once her lunch break came around she told her boss that she was going to run across the street to buy some lunch.

“Do you want anything?” She asked her boss, Kristine.

“I’m good.” She smiled as she helped the next customer.

As she opened the door to the cafe she saw a familiar head of beautiful curls, but she pretended that she hadn’t. The cashier took her order and she then waited for her food to be prepared. When the cashier called out her name Calum looked up from his phone, she could feel his eyes on her back as she walked out of the shop. She was just about to dig into her food when a colleague came into the breakroom.

“There’s a guys out front asking for you.” She seemed confused “He doesn't want our help.” The woman walked out of the breakroom and as she did Y/N let out a frustrated sigh. When she came into the store she locked eyes with the person she hadn’t seen for almost two weeks and she could feel the tears form in her eyes.

“What do you want?” She asked

“I wanted to see how your were doing?” He said as if he hadn’t done anything wrong. “How do you think I’m doing?” she asked frustrated

“I haven’t been able to sleep in my own room for two weeks and you think I’m doing fine?” “I don’t think you’re doing fine.” He said casually “I know I’m not.” Y/N looked at him. “Calum you were the one who told me that I shouldn’t give people second chances because people never change.”

“Well you shouldn’t always listen to me.” He said “Because if you hadn’t noticed, I can be quite stupid.”

“What are you trying to achieve here Calum?” She asked “Because I am not going to forgive you and I’m not going to get back together with you.” He ran a hand though his curly hair and sighed

“I was just hoping we could at least be friends.” She looked at him like he punched a puppy, he cleared his throat. “Because we were friends before we even dated, don’t forget that.” He said.

“I don’t want to see you Calum.” She said deflated. “You broke my heart, I wish I could avoid seeing you but your face is everywhere!” She felt like yelling but she couldn’t.

“If I invited you to a party.” He said “Would you show up?” He asked.

She didn’t try to talk to him anymore because this conversation wasn’t going anywhere, she just shrugged her shoulders and went back into the breakroom. Her appetite had almost disappeared but she forced herself to eat the food so she would have the strength to work for another 6 hours.

The following Friday she got a text message that read ‘Party at Ashton‘s place at 9 PM.’ She threw her phone onto the sofa and she laid her head down and suddenly there were tears rolling down her cheeks.

She didn’t plan to go to party at first but then she remembered that there would probably be free alcohol there, so she figured that getting drunk wouldn't hurt. Once she reached the house she could see that the hour was filled with people and she knew none of them. If she had been with Calum he would know everyone. She walked into the house and bumped right into Ashton, who clearly was the only sober person in the house. He want to hug her but she took a step back and shook her head, his smile dropped and he stepped to the side so she could walk past him.

She walked into the kitchen, took a beer and sat on the kitchen counter. After three hours of small talking with different drunk people two people stumbled into the kitchen, giggling at each other and talking among themselves. It was Calum and the girl from that night, his arm fell from the girls shoulder and the girl whined in protest. She hopped off the counter and as she was leaving the kitchen she purposely bumped into Calum and she walked right out of the door.

During the next week he tried to call, her text her and he even went to the bookstore again but this time she had no intention in talking to him so she told her boss that he had to leave or she would, that night she cried for 3 hours. She felt like giving up but that wasn’t her, she wasn’t going to give up because she was cheated on for the second time in the course of eight months. She didn’t know what to do, most of her friends had been friends with Calum so she couldn’t talk to them about it because it felt like hanging out Calum.

Nearly a month after being cheated on she was feeling better, she didn’t cry as often and she had just recently changed the bedsheets in her bed and moved back into her room. She had blocked Calum almost everywhere and apparently he was now dating the girl that Y/N had seen in her bed and at the party, her name was Agnes. After a while of stalking her instagram Y/N could see why he would chose Anges over her, she was so much prettier. Y/N found herself falling back into the same routines day after day, she didn’t really know what to do so one day she just decided that she should take an opportunity that had fallen into her lap a few days before she broke up with Calum. She had been asked if she wanted to write a book, it didn’t matter what kind but Y/N knew just what she wanted to write. She was going to write something that would help her heal and feel better.

Another week passed by and she had now quit her job at the bookstore and Calum had announced to the world that he was dating Agnes. He never told the world about Y/N, and they had been seeing each other for 6 months.

It was friday night and she was packing her clothes, since most of her friends stopped talking to her once Calum announced her relationship she was left to her own devices. She was listening to music and drinking some wine when the doorbell rang, it was nearly 9PM so she stood up from her sofa and when to open the door. When she opened the door she came face to face with none other than Calum Hood.

“Hi?” She said, Calum looked up at her in surprise, clearly shocked that she opened the door. He opened his mouth but closed it again, not not knowing what to say.

“Uh, hi.” He said, he then proceeded to ask if he could come in, Y/N didn’t say anything, she just stepped to the side and let him walk into her small messy apartment for the first time in nearly two months.

“Going somewhere?” He asked, she looked down at her feet and said,

“Uh, yeah I am.” She cleared her throat. “Well, technically I’m moving.”

“Oh.” He seemed surprised by her answers.”Can I ask where?” He asked

“To New York City.” She said, Calum’s head snapped back at the woman, he had known this girl for so long and she wasn’t the type that would just up and leave in the dead of night. Especially when she had a stable job and family in LA.

“Why are you moving?” He asked. “I thought you liked it here?”

“Well I don’t really have anything that’s keeping me here so I figured why not.” She grabbed her glass of wine and took a sip. “And since my publisher is located in New York I thought it would be best if I move there.” She smiled.

“Wait what? What publisher?” He said.

“I was going to tell you.” She said. “But then I found you in my bed.” She almost mumbled the last part but Calum was used to her mumbling so he heard her anyway.

“Oh.” Was all he managed to say, it almost sounded like had forgotten about that part. “So you would just have dropped everything and moved to New York?”

“Well if we would have stayed together I would have stayed her and just fly out to New York now and then.” Calum opened his mouth and Y/N could see that he wanted to argue back.

I think you should leave now Calum.” She said, he had been in her apartment for nearly an hour and she still had so much to do.

“Well I don’t want to leave.” He said “I want to know why you been ignoring me for a month and a half.”

“Why do you think I’ve been ignoring you?” She asked.

“HOW SHOULD I KNOW? YOU BLOCKED MY NUMBER Y/N!” He was now yelling at her and she was not having it!

“I don’t want to talk to you anymore Calum, can you please just leave?” She could feel the anger crawling up her back and she didn’t want to scream at him and she didn’t know what to say or do.

“NO, I will not leave until you fucking explain!” She could feel tears forming in her eyes. “Please just leave.” She said deflated, she walked up to Calum, she put a finger to his chest and said

“If you don’t leave my apartment now Calum, I will call the guard because I don’t want you here.” He could see the tears that now where rolling down her cheeks and he didn’t know why she was so upset.

During their dating period they hadn’t said I love you and since Calum had lost all his faith in love.

“It’s not like we loved each other.” He spat at her as he looked down at her.

“What do you mean?” She said as her voice broke, she had been in love with him since the start.

“Yeah, we didn’t love each other.” He said. “We never once said, I love you.”

“Well I loved you Calum, I loved you with my whole heart and you broke that into a million pieces.” She said, more tears were streaming down her face and she didn’t know what to do.

“If you ask me out relationship was doomed from the beginning.” He said, not affected by her tears.

“Fuck you Calum.” As she said this she pushed him towards the door, without saying anything he walked out the door, slamming it behind him. She fell into the door and slid down to the ground, when her knees met the ground sobs took over her body. She finally let her emotions free and after god knows how long she let herself fall into an empty darkness.

Tagging some cool people and mutuals

@glitterprincelu @futurewriter2000 @talkfastwalkfaster @geekygoddesss @anashtonkink @c-sainthood @astroashtonio @softforcal @irwinkitten @fratcalum @lilbabycalum

#calum hood #calum 5sos #calum imagine #calum hood blurb #calum blurb #5sos #5 seconds of summer #calum 5 seconds of summer

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fireflys-glow-journey · 5 years

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It’s the End of the Second Week (Part 1)

Today is Friday, January 17th. I’m currently waiting to start my shift at work, and so I decided to sit down and pop out this update. I made it through my first week of my last semester of college! I know that’s not saying a lot, especially since this is my eighth semester and I know the ins and outs of learning a new class schedule and adapting to new classes pretty well. But I’m extremely proud of myself for one reason: I stuck to my fitness schedule almost perfectly.

Monday: 2 classes, finished for the day by 12:30pm. Fitness schedule: stretch/yoga in the morning, full body workout in the afternoon. Monday is a good day, because I only have my two morning classes and then the rest of the day is mine with no work, research, or extra-curricular commitments! Because I have so much free time, I decided to make Monday’s one of the days where I work out in the gym. My sister was free, so she joined me! I won’t hesitate to admit that I used to hate going to the gym, especially on busy days, but honestly, I had a good time today! Because I hadn’t seriously worked out in a long time, I was really just getting used to the machines again and taking inventory of what my body can and can’t handle. First, I noticed that I’ve lost a ton of the flexibility I had from dance and soccer. Second, I realized that I couldn’t do as intense cardio as I used to be able to. But I didn’t feel too upset about this, because I knew that Monday was just the beginning of a semester of getting it all back!

Tuesday: 3 classes, research, and a club meeting. Busy from 9:45am to 8pm. Fitness schedule: yoga and arms in the morning. Tuesday’s are my busiest days of the week, so I decided to make this day a less intense one. I do a simple 10-minute yoga routine in the morning, followed by a 7-minute arm workout. It’s not terribly intense, but because I am restarting a regular fitness routine, I did feel a little burning in my muscles throughout the arm workout.

Wednesday: same class schedule as Monday, work in the evenings from 4-8pm. Fitness schedule: stretching and yoga in the morning. Wednesday’s and Sunday’s are the least intense days. I like to call them my “rest” days, even though I am still doing some light exercise. The stretching routine I follow differs based on the day. For days where I only have yoga or a lighter routine, I use a 20-minute full body stretch video. Otherwise, I use a video that’s about 10 minutes long to help me warm up before the rest of my workout.

Thursday: two afternoon classes, research. Fitness schedule: stretching and working out at the gym for a couple of hours. Thursday’s are my second-busiest days, but the nice thing is that I don’t have any commitments until 1:30! I get up at the same time every morning: 8am. This allows me to rest well and establish routine/habits as well as gives me plenty of time to go to the gym (and then some). Because my university has a large rec center, I decided to leave a half hour after I woke up to have time to work out, stretch, and explore the rec center a bit. It has four floors and many nooks and crannies with fitness machines here and there. On the third floor, there’s an atrium track with an area to the side where you can do weight exercises or take a mat and do yoga and stuff. I decided to take a mat and do my 20 minute stretch routine. Afterwards, I got myself a fruit smoothie with protein and went home!

Friday: same schedule as Monday and Wednesday, but work from 2-5pm. Since I only had a little time in the morning, I decided to do my stretch routine and arms. Shortly after showering, though, I realized that I was supposed to do abs instead of arms! I made a mental note in my head to do an ab routine on Sunday, when I usually only did stretching and yoga, and get back to my planned schedule next week.

I’ll make a part two since this is so long! Thank you for reading and keep glowing, little lights!

xx Firefly

#glow up #glowup #glow up journey #glow up diaries #Alivia D'Andrea #fitness #health #health and fitness #exercise #workout

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gowns · 6 years

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how to make pizza with attention deficit / anxiety disorder

10am: goes to grocery store, sees pre-made pizza dough. remembers how to make pizza dough. it’s easy.

10:15am: remembers sauce. decides: no time to make sauce, i’m making the dough. buys jar of sauce.

10:30am, driving: can’t wait to get home and start that pizza dough.

10:45am: opens computer so i can remember the ratio of ingredients in pizza dough. i see tabs open with advice on how to become a teacher and i start feverishly googling credential programs near me.

11am: what is a cbest? what is cset? do i have to take one or both or

noon: ok so i’m going to take the cbest. this week. then. the cset.

12:30: “i should probably get started on that pizza dough. but first, tea.” boils a pot of water.

[unaccounted-for time, most likely, googling and re-reading pages about cbest because there’s all these words and numbers that don’t make any sense to me. also checking a subreddit about teaching to make sure that some teachers like their jobs and some of them are in fact working and not just relegated to driving night shifts for uber]

2pm: “oh right. tea.” *reboils pot of water*

2:05pm: “pizza dough.... first step... need .... yeast.” *proofs yeast*

2:15pm: the yeast is dead.

2:15-2:35pm: weighing the pros vs cons of going to the store to buy more yeast vs buying pre-made pizza dough.

2:35pm: about to start a practice CBEST and realize that i will have to pick up daughter from daycare in a moment.

2:40pm: i want a pizza :( i want to make something :( maybe i will make some cookies!

3pm: dithers around the kitchen. makes a piece of toast.

my tea is cold. there will be no pizza. i have five books in front of me on how to be a montessori preschool teacher. (one of several career paths that beckons to me right now, promising to deliver me from rollercoaster freelancing despair into a solid lower middle class paycheck.) all around me there is work to be done. tasks to complete, lists to check off. the tasks replace the whirring sound and fill the void. usually, my tasks have to be broken down into bite-sized pieces, if they’re going to get done at all. that’s ok. remember: everything is in the doing. “idle hands are the devil’s tools.” idle brain is the devil’s playground. i get things done, in my haphazard way. i want to let kids know that you don’t have to be like a computer to get things done (function 1 -> function 2 -> function 3). sometimes you’re doing a task and it’s interrupted by several other things and you don’t finish any of the tasks, but you’re still making progress. cold toast and cold tea is not a handmade pizza, but it’s still nourishing. i want you to know that too. it’s ok to lurch from one thing to another. time slips away. and that’s ok. let it go.

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diaryofanormalkid · 5 years

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Thursday, May 2nd and Friday, May 3rd were such good days

This week started off pretty rocky because I was sleeping so irregularly, it kept messing with my work schedule and also the errands I had to take care of. But then it got better!

Monday

I started off this week on Monday working a 10:30-6:30pm shift. I think I fell asleep at 5:30am and woke up at like 8:45am to get ready for work. My shift went extremely well, except for the fact that I was super sleepy.

And then at the very end it just went haywire because I needed a certain paper to count my cash till, but we didn’t have anymore so I was running around looking for it for a good 5-10 mins.

It was the end of my shift and all I wanted to do was go home! I couldn’t believe this was happening right when I wanted to go home. I thought to myself “these things only happen to me.”

Eventually I found it and was able to count, but by the time I was done counting my till, it was a little after my shift had ended meaning I missed my usual bus to get home.

So I was stuck there waiting for a while, but not for too long. And then I walked to my bus stop and went home!

Tuesday

Today I had planned to get my high school transcripts to apply for colleges. However, after the horrendous weekend I had with little to no sleep and then going into Monday’s shift sleep deprived also, I didn’t have it in me to wake up in time to do that at all.

Even when I had woken up, I was exhausted. I believe I woke up after 1pm that day. This is what I mean when I say my sleep had become so irregular, I would wake up at different times every day.

As soon as I woke up though, I meant business. I called my high school and let them know I needed a transcript, however they let me know that I was expected to come in to physically obtain it.

Figures. I can’t lie, that was a major setback for my entire thing I had going for the week because I wanted to have these transcripts sent in as soon as possible so that I could further complete my application to apply for colleges.

And then they also informed me that it would actually be too late in the day to come and get them and that the only available time I can pick up my transcript would be in the mornings.

So... I was super limited with days that I could go in to get my transcript. I knew then, this week I would only be able to pick it up on Wednesday or Friday, since Thursday I was working.

My mom was so kind offer to take me the following day, which would mean Wednesday I would be able to get it and mail it off to the website.

So by now, I told myself at least if I’m not going anymore to get my transcript today, then I should go to pick up my friends birthday gift and card today. At the LEAST.

But seeing as how exhausted I was, I fell asleep in my couch and just spent the whole day recovering from the already tiring week. In my head I reminded myself that the next couple days I really needed to pick up my slack!

Wednesday

So here came Wednesday, a new day. And there I was again, still exhausted. I still apparently hadn’t fully recovered from all the sleep deprivation. Going to bed late Tuesday night didn’t help either.

I remember telling my mom and myself that today I would wake up at 8:30am so that we could arrive at my high school by 10am to pick up my transcript.

Did I do that? No. What I did was sleep in though. It was such a rainy, gloomy day. I had no energy to get out of bed so I slept in until about 12:30pm.

My mother was upset with me because here she was willing to give me a ride to my high school when she had work later today and there I was in bed sleeping.

I also had work today, so I didn’t have much free time to mess around and waste. I needed to make sure I was ready in time to catch my bus to work.

I managed to slip out of my house just in the knick of time to catch my bus. I have to give credit to my instincts and running abilities however, because if it hadn’t been for both, I would’ve surely missed my first bus.

I made it in time for work, and the shift surprisingly went super well once again. Which I was super happy about. It was least that could be going right in my life with all the mess that was going on lately.

This shift was from 2:30-10:30 and a fun fact is that my mom and I work at the same place, just different areas. So I always wait for her when she’s on evening shift to finish her shift.

Her shift lasts until 11:30 though, which leaves me waiting for a while. Gladly, I finished all that I had to while I was there so I made the most of my time by killing it quickly with silly things.

Thursday

Now today was another day I had work. Ironically, I wasn’t supposed to work today, it was just a last minute shift that was given to me by someone who needed me to take it.

I was happy I got it, i could really use the money after the expensive previous week I had. The catch was I had to be back first thing in the morning for this shift. 8:30-4:30pm to be exact.

I didn’t have a problem with it, as I was the one who approved to take it. However, I knew I was in for quite a shift with the lack of sleep after doing my evening shift Wednesday.

I kept telling myself on Wednesday, “okay Britney, you know you have a shift in the morning so you HAVE to make sure you go STRAIGHT to sleep once you get home.”

Did I listen to myself? No! I believe I fell asleep a little after 4am that night. And I was supposed to wake up at 6:30am so that I could leave out in time to catch my bus.

So I was barely on time to catch my bus that morning, but I still made it by God’s grace. I also almost thought I lost my phone on the bus that morning but quickly found it hiding in my bag.

So glad. By that point in the morning, I had already gone through so much anxiety just thinking about being late to work and then almost losing my phone.

The lack of sleep didn’t help at all, but regardless I was actually feeling more excited than I was anxious by the time I arrived at work. Super uncharacteristic of me, but true.

One thing I will mention is that I hadn’t worked in this part of the Tim Hortons in a long time. So while I had every reason to be nervous to come back to this part, I was still excited.

I tried to prepare myself mentally by repeating in my head “you won’t be clumsy,” “you won’t spill anything,” “there’ll be no accidents,” “positive energy,” “good vibes,” “today’s gonna be a good day,” and things of that nature.

And I kid you not, it was! I anticipated I would be a little rusty, heck and I even tried to prepare myself for the worst, just in case. But it was genuinely a really smooth shift.

I actually enjoyed my time that day. And LEMME TELL YOU... I saw my short crush! So that in itself was so rewarding to get to see him on a day I wasn’t even supposed to be there.

Short crush

So I peeped when he came really quickly because he was with a few other ppl and they kinda had a presence, all of them standing in line.

The whole time while I was taking orders, I could see him in my peripheral just staring at me subtly, but not so subtly. I was nervous but calm, cool and collected all at the same time.

By the time he got to the till, I was surprisingly able to look into his eyes and greet him hi, like any customer. I asked what I could get for him and his coworkers and they all began to state their orders.

For this I made sure to write down their orders because with how flustered I was on the inside, I knew for a fact I would forget. I took my time with it too, just to ensure that I didn’t mess anyone’s orders up.

So as I was making them, his coworkers and him were going back and forth double checking that the orders they said were correct, in the meanwhile, not realizing how confusing that was for me.

Because I was standing there making their orders thinking “should I start these over or read them back to them to make sure they’re correct?” Like what do they want from me???

I ended up just zoning them out and focusing on making what I had written down because I trusted myself to write down everything properly as I heard them say it.

When I was finished with making everything, I handed them all to them and him, and they got some of the drinks mixed up with whose was whose, so I had to point out which ones was which ones.

The whole time my short crush was staring at me half adoringly, half awkwardly because he could see the confusion on my face as I wondered why they couldn’t figure it out.

So then he left and I told them all have a good day. Ahh, he’s so cute. And that wasn’t the only crush I ran into that day because I also saw my American Dragon crush/short guy... at the same time.

Short Guy

[Let’s just get this straight and lemme remind you all that short crush and short guy are two different people in my world!!! So don’t confuse the two no matter how similar they look.

Because the difference is, I do not have a crush on short guy, hence why he doesn’t have a crush in his title! They both just so happen to be short though

So basically

short crush = reciprocated feelings since I am also attracted to him but

Short guy = unrequited feelings since I am not attracted to him back]

I was going on my second break of the day when I ran into short guy. He was also on his break which is why we were both in the cafetaria.

So since I ran into him, I decided to just sit down and eat with him since it was the middle of the day and there are so many ppl in the cafeteria with hardly any seats to sit at.

After I fixed my lunch I kinda waved to him to come sit over with me. So... for the first time with him I was actually comfortable talking and eating with him.

All the other times before, I would always be so nervous to talk or eat in front of him, because I know how he feels towards me. And I didn’t want to give him the wrong idea.

Being self conscious and having low self esteem doesn’t help when you’re eating in front of someone who you know is attracted to you. But today, for some reason I was just so calm.

Anyways, we talked about a few different topics and we kinda just stayed on them for a long time. And I was actually eating too, which was progress, so I felt good about myself.

And eventually my American Dragon crush came to sit down to eat with us since there was still not very many seats.

American Dragon Crush

All throughout today I kept seeing him since he was working morning shift like me. And every time I saw him, I would say something to him. Which to me, is nice because he’s not the type of crush I am usually comfortable talking with if I initiate it.

[My relationship with American Dragon crush is a bit complicated because he’s:

Younger than me by a year and a half

Shorter than me ALSO 👀

Filipino, his mom probably hates me because she sees me alll the time but is so short with me / language barrier is hard at my work when everyone speaks Tagalog and you can’t understand what they’re saying

I am lowkey crushing, but my mom would NOT approve of me even LIKING him so looool

My mom told me the other day she agrees that she thinks he has a crush on me!!!!! So that’s confirmed, he likes me back

He literally ran away (just kidding walked away) when my mom was coming towards me to talk one time like he was scared of her or something looool ]

Anyways, when he sat down with us... my very first instinct was to feel awkward. But the settings and everything made me feel calm, and I thought to myself “as long as nobody says anything weird, this will be fine.”

I really didn’t think either of these guys would try anything or say anything weird because they’re not really like that. There was SOME tension in the air, but it quickly got eradicated.

I tried to keep conversations going between them both to fill the silences that would happen every now and then, and was pretty successful tbh. That really made me feel at ease.

The last thing I wanted was for one to feel weird just because I was talking to the other. I was just glad they both could play along with the whole thing and not put me in an uncomfortable situation.

The lunch time flew by with the both of them there and continuing talking to me and each other. My American Dragon crush asked to borrow my charger so I said I would give it to him.

When I went to get my charger, he met me halfway to take it. I jokingly warned him “protect this with your LIFE. Don’t break it. Or you will never get to use my stuff EVER again.”

He told me, that’s fine and he’s not gonna use it for long. I also told him to make sure he brings it back before he leaves since he was gonna be done his shift a little earlier than me.

He came by his shift and had my charger in hand all neatly wrapped up ready to give to me. He’s like “here you go.” And I said “were you gonna leave with it?” He was smiling and said no.

Honestly thank God, because he would’ve completely and totally lost my trust since I’ve made that mistake before with other ppl.

Anyways, back to my shift at work that day...

I really didn’t have much trouble at all with taking orders other than for when new prices came up. Every now and then I would just check with a coworker to make sure I was charging the correct prices.

And since I was closing, that meant I was counting, meaning it was gonna be a pretty easy-going end to my shift. To me, counting my till is always so peaceful to me.

Closing went super smoothly, other than some ppl coming to ask for coffee last minute. But I had a quick and smooth close! And I got changed and ready in time for when I had to sign out.

I was wearing the most cool outfit after my shift at work. And I just felt my hair went SO well with it, like I was just so upset not more ppl got to see it.

But for the ones day did see it, I definitely blessed their lives for wearing such a cute fit. And I kid you not, I was so upset that this outfit was going to waste that I just up and went to the mall!

If I couldn’t get more ppl at my work, I said I might as well go and let ppl at the mall get to see my great taste in fashion. So I waited until my bus came and was on my merry way!

Alright alright, so my bus was packed and I kid you not... some man “snuck” a whole dog onto the bus! And I was not in the slightest upset about it!

As much as I joke around in real life about how I’m allergic to dogs, I really couldn’t tell you how I excited I was that a dog was somehow on this bus directly in front of me!

It was a super well trained dog too. It was the cutest lil ugly pug and whenever he would move the slightest everybody would look at this lil dogs every move.

I tried my absolute hardest not to sneeze around the dog to give away that I was allergic but I think my watery eyes gave it away once I was sitting there long enough.

As much I was suffering, I still wanted to be as close to the dog as I was. He just made my already good day even better and I knew I would have a nice story to tell when I got home.

Anyways so eventually the dog got off, then I was at the mall in no time. My plan for the day was to get my friends gift, her card and gift bag and then get out!

Since originally I never went on tuesday, today seemed perfect to do it because it wasn’t Friday (aka the busiest day of the week for the mall) and I was done work.

But boyyy, when I tell you it was BUSY! Way busier than I expected it to be. I didn’t remember that Friday, the next day was gonna be a P.A. day, so therefore no school.

That meant all the high school students took this as an opportunity to come to the mall on a Thursday instead. It made for my time at the mall like 3x longer than I thought it would take.

The lines were super long in Sephora when I went in. And literally any other time I looked over they remained that way so I just decided I would take my time choosing my friends gift.

I TOOK FOREVER THOUGH. Like the time I took in there was the equivalent of getting stuck down a YouTube rabbit hole and not realizing how much time has gone by!

But I found the CUTEST stuff for her AND myself. But obviously the main goal was her. I intended to buy a perfume and that’s exactly what I came out with.

Not the original size I had in mind, but regardless I believe my friend will appreciate the scent and effort it took to find a perfume for her. It really does smell amazing.

And it’s good quality that I hope will last! Since the bottle size is so small, there’s no telling if it will actually last all that long, but I think it’s a matter of finding the right scent first.

At least I know now if she truly really likes the scent, I could always buy her another one with the bigger sizes. Of course they’re way more expensive, but it’s quality perfume that lasts.

These are the items along with the card that I ended up getting her. I hope she likes/appreciates them. They’re definitely more on the practical side of giit’s, but nonetheless still good gifted

As for myself, I was spending a LONG time looking at the perfumes in Sephora. I was just super fixated on finding one for myself that I would also like so that when I finally do have the money I can eventually use it to buy the bigger bottles of the perfumes that I found and liked.

I found a lot of them that were decent smells, but i’m telling you, there was only one that fell in love with completely and obsessed with and can still smell the scent of today.

And I mean LITERALLY still smell the scent of because the scent is still remaining on the paper I sprayed it on which is crazy impressive! I’m sooo in love with the perfume, it’s so good!

You wouldn’t believe it, but that scent is actually THE first perfume bottle I picked up once I got to Sephora and I kept going back to it because I couldn’t believe how good it smelled.

I am definitely making that investment when I find the money because smelling like that???? I’d be irresistible everywhere I go! Here is a picture of the perfume:

As for all the other perfumes, they were subpar in comparison to this! What an experience it put me through. And now I will never forget that scent!

So once I had got done shopping for my friends gift in Sephora, I went to eat some Chipotle because ya girl was starved! I also got Starbucks to try the dragonfruit drink!

The one with coconut milk this time because I’d already tried the original mango dragonfruit drink with water and then another time with lemonade before.

All three of them are amazing flavours and it’s my go to from Starbucks at this point. Not that I go to Starbucks often anyways. I waited super long for the line at Starbucks.

But even worse was once I left the place, the line got waaay longer right after so I felt bad for how packed today was.

Anyways, I felt soo guilty after spending all the money I did in one day. I could’ve refrained from buying all the food that I did at the mall since I had food at home good and ready to eat.

But I couldn’t resist how hungry I was in the moment either. Plus, I had been having chipotle and Starbucks cravings the whole week prior so I’m glad it’s out of my system.

My period really did me dirty financially this time. When those cravings hit... they HIT! And I just can’t resist!

Anyways so by the time I left the mall, it was getting dark and I had to wait a while for my second bus so I decided to wait inside the Tim Hortons at the bus stop.

I always feel weird waiting inside a place and not buying anything because I know some places they tell you to purchase something, so I decided for buying an iced coffee to keep with me for tomorrow morning when I wake up.

I told myself it was to help me wake up in time tomorrow morning since I knew I would be tired, but then I also bought those new Oreo pockets...

That one I didn’t have any excuse for, I just was craving to try it. It was good, but sooo not worth it. As I was buying my iced coffee, I saw my bus pull up to the intersection.

It was a mission and a half though because as soon as I got my iced coffee I had to run so quickly to the bus so that it didn’t miss me! I got super lucky because she was at a red light.

Once I got to the bus, I saw my Model crush from my former University! I see him every now and then, but if there was any night I would want to see him, it would DEF be tonight.

I was super happy once I realized it was him because I wanted him to see my in this outfit! When I walked past him, I was acting super confident.

The whole time I was on the bus I was fighting the urge to look at him the entire time. I was so desperate to look but I told myself, only when it’s not obvious. I did pretty good on that.

Eventually he got off at the stop he usually gets off and on at. And then shortly, I was home. BOY was I glad to be home. But I was even happier that I had a wonderful day!

Friday

Today was... pretty good! My intentions were to pick up my transcripts from my high school, then drop off my sisters resumé with her at a mall. However things took a spin for the better today.

So lemme just start by saying I was STILL tired today when I woke up. To be clear, I somehow still ended up going to bed at like 4am last night because... bad habits.

But anyways, remember that iced coffee I bought? Yeah, well first thing after I woke up I went straight downstairs to drink it. I was THAT tired.

But i eventually came around and found a really cute outfit to wear out today. I was definitely dragging my feet however to get dressed. But my mother sister and I left by 10:30am.

I was super hyper due to the iced coffee/adrenaline rush I was experiencing from being so tired, so you could imagine how annoying I must’ve been.

Somewhere along the way, I asked my mom if she could drop my sister and I at the theatre to watch Avengers: Endgame but surprisingly she gave us money to go and I couldn’t believe I was finally gonna be able to watch it! Just like that.

So I found out once I got to my high school that the guidance counsellors need to sign my transcripts in order to send them out to give to me. I was simply... disappointed but not surprised.

It’s always something with me. So the secretary who was there was very helpful in arranging for me to pick it up next week whenever I was ready to get it, thankfully.

And then all of sudden as we were leaving, my mom randomly offered for me to take a test drive around the parking lot of my high school. It was totally spontaneous but serious.

So I took her up on her offer. After I was done, my mother said apparently I did an amazing job on my first time “driving” and that she couldn’t believe I had done my turns so easily.

I was sooo nervous and scared but also impressed with how I did as well. I honestly don’t have any reference of how good or bad I did though, so I’ll assume she was being honest.

Anyways then we headed to the mall and quickly dropped off my sisters resumé. And my mom dropped us off at theatre. I was so happy we could watch Avengers because I jokingly made a Instagram story about going to see it by myself just yesterday.

But now it’s actually a reality and I’m so glad. The whooole struggle to get food was a mission because we went back to THE SAME MALL by bus just to get food from the food court and bus back to the movies.

Then we snuck in our food since we had no time to eat it, otherwise we were gonna be late. And my sister literally snuck in a whole cup of pop from the mall into the theatre without anybody even realizing looool.

The whole time watching the movie I was sooo nervous because I didn’t really have any solid ideas of how the movie was gonna go down aside from the very few spoilers that I saw.

It was amazing! Sad, but not THAT sad for me because I didn’t have THAT much of an attachment to these characters since I didn’t even properly watch the first two avengers.

But I feel so relieved now that I don’t have to worry about spoilers! And also, I sat ALL the way through! Even though my bladder damn near bursted by the end of the movie!

I kid you not, I got up like 2 mins before it ended because my instincts told me it was gonna end soon and I was trying to time it. And I was right because it ended like right when I was about to leave!

I was so happy it was over and then I just made a RUN for the bathroom!!! But anyways today was amazing and I’m glad my week could end off way better than it started!

I still have one more day left to work, today. But I think I can handle the new week ahead now that I’ve gotten some things taken care of this week ☺️

Thanks for reading if you read allll the way through!

#personal #diary #dear diary #avengers #avengers endgame #crush #american dragon #american dragon crush #short crush #short guy

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apryllfool · 5 years

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So. I meant to make a post yesterday but h I.

I had homework due last night and tonight, and it’s hard on nights like tonight when I got home at about 10, and the assignment is due at 12, but I got it don e. Now I have stuff due tomorrow too so I’m debating staying up, though I’ll get home at about 7:30 tomorrow, I think-- so that’ll be better. But today I worked from 1:30pm to 9:30pm, and this work is actually seri o u s. Like, serious. I felt like I kept screwing up, and I have a credit card quota or smth and I have to get a certain amount of people to sign up per month? per week? Honestly it keeps changing.

I guess that’s my biggest problem! Like, with the training videos, they were a lot different in practice! And then today was my second day, and it went a lot different than my first! I just am not getting a chance to get used to anything? It feels like I keep needing to re-learn what I’ve already learned and idek if that makes any sens e. Like, it’s only day 2 but I’ve been been shown like 3 ways to make returns, which I’m not the best at, but I’m better at that than at exchanges, oh m y. Those darn exchanges. And you’d think cash would be the easiest thing to handle right! But I literally have been failing at counti n g. I’ve always been good at counting... :c

And don’t get me started on those dressing rooms. They were a mESS, couldn’t even clean it all by the end of my shift. I work from like 10:45am-7:15pm tomorrow, and I have homework that I can either do now or later, and I’m still deciding cuz I’m sO tired.

But ahem, I saw great stuff on the dash today! and I’m all caught up in the chat so bless, I usually open up tumblr on my breaks and try and catch up some time during the day cuz gotta~ But the art was so great, and I heard flame colored the hotak/dri one and she is so good I love he r. And aku is great at drawin g

I also wanna talk about how perfect that Ib au is for those babs. Like, Reina batting the dolls away with her broom?? She would 100% swat those things far awa y. And she’d pick up Ken, and protect them and even I wonder wh y. Maybe because they can’t take care of themselves? Mayb e. But hi, if anything screwed her over in Ib tho, it’d be when she had to rip open dolls to get out of that room? And that doll that was coming out of the painting like. Big r i p. She might just hit that one with something too. Anyways I love it and wanna talk more about it but h, I’ll rebloop it later bc tired, but I have so much to say and thank you aku,, I love reina too and need to do more with her but it makes me feel like I’ve succeeded a lil whenever you guys do/say something that’s just so accurate for he r. and it gives me ideas and I love yall

#tldR #I love you memes

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beans-and-rice101 · 6 years

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Merry Christmas

Prompt: Imagine being the Christmas Gift Master for the Avengers or the Justice League. - @darkshadow3942

DISCLAIMER!!! I DO NOT PRETEND TO KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO LIVE WITH SOCIAL ANXIETY/BEING INTROVERTED!! I DO NOT PRETEND TO KNOW WHAT IT IS LIKE TO LIVE WITH A SPEECH IMPEDIMENT!! MY KNOWLEDGE ON BOTH SUBJECTS IS INFORMATION I HAVE GATHERED FROM UNRELIABLE SOURCES! however i am lazy and can't be bothered to do research rn SO IF WHAT I'VE WRITTEN IS INCORRECT OR MAKES YOU FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE OR UPSET PLEASE FEEL FREE TO LEAVE A RESPECTFUL COMMENT!!

So this is actually completely wrong when compared to the prompt but I took creative license so fuck you. Also it's way late for Kringle but WHO CARES. I worked pretty hard on this so be gentle?

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"T-Tinsel? Check. Tree? Check-k. Obnoxious self-sus-sustaining Christm-m-mas lights? Check. Met-t-ticulously crafted gingerb-bread houses that n-no one w-w-will eat because I w-work for a t-t-t-team of ungrateful sh-shits? Ch-Check." You placed the clipboard down after ticking the last box. You had volunteered as Christmas organizer this year as Pepper was busy trying to convince Mr Stark to leave her pregnant ass alone for five minutes. Worst. Decision. EVER.

You had decided(in your naive eagerness) to invite not-really-Avengers as well because you pitied Quill when he tried to explain the concept of Christmas to the Guardians. Plus you wanted to meet the Spider-Man that Mr Stark had been fussing over. God that man needed to chill. You had only hoped he would relax enough this past week for you to get everything done. Hardly. But no use dwelling on the horrors of unpaid apprenticeship! You still had a lot of work to do. Let's see... Hang up the tinsel and assorted decorations, figure out how to attach the lights to the top of the compound, hide the food from Clint and Thor, pick up the order of mince pies from Bow's and Holly's Bakery, be at the airport at 10:00am sharp to recieve Mr Stark and Mrs Potts, arrange the assigned rooms for the Wakandan and spacefaring guests... God... What were you forgetting!?

You pulled out your phone and look back through your notes for the day. Ah, yes. Pick up Peter. Peter? Oh, right, Peter Parker. Spider-Man. Happy was away with family - who were invited to join, but declined - in California. This left you with the additional task of either driving Mr Stark to meetings and seminars or organizing for chauffeurs. You honestly preferred the latter, but To-Mr Stark always insisted on paying you for the ride. Plus, he wasn't that bad as travelling partners went. In fact, for the co-CEO of a multi-billion dollar company, Mr Stark is pretty cool. He isn't without his snark and a certain level of entitlement; and occasionally forgets that people like you live under different circumstances, but all in all, not the worst boss. Certainly better than the one that pays you.

Lost in thought, you very nearly ran into someone. Looking up at the person steadying you, you swallowed loudly at the sight of Steve Rogers. You smiled weakly and mumbled an apology as you looked down at your watch. "Oh sh-shit!"

"Uhh..?" Your gaze snaps back to Steve, who looks more than a little worried by your outburst. "Everything alri-?"

"I'M SORRY I HAVE TO GO THANKS FOR THE CHAT BYE!!" You sprinted past him; later you were informed that this was when you dropped your phone, but at the time your thoughts lay with the fact that it was 9:45am and you had to get your ass in gear.

You barely got to the airport as Mr Stark's plane was set to land. He and Mrs Potts had insisted on flying to San Francisco themselves to pick up Eddie Brock - Mr Stark's newest "find", whom he was as of yet, unsure of. Mr Brock had agreed on the condition that he stayed in a hotel of his choosing as opposed to the compound. Whether that was a lack of trust in you, Tony or himself, you weren't certain. Whatever the case, you didn't mind, as it was one less room for you to organize. As you contemplated Mr Brock, you turned up the radio, listening to the Christmassy songs.

Despite your responsibilities this year, you still found that you enjoyed Christmas. There was something about the cheesiness of it all. How over the top people would get, going to such great lengths to prove their Christmas Spirit. You were content with spending most Christmases by yourself, but lately you had been wondering what Christmas would be like when spent with someone. Don't be mistaken, you had plenty of memories with your family, and they stayed in touch, but it had been years since you had been home for Christmas. Your thoughts moved to the Avengers. Superheroes, secret agents, goody-goodies the whole lot of 'em. Most days, you found it hard to understand how so many different people could share a space... Maybe you envied them... You weren't much older than Peter Parker, but you would never consider to include you in the superhero equation.. You tried to convince yourself that you wouldn't belong, anyway. You had nothing to contribute; aside from coffee, bad jokes and a stutter that even your family couldn't decipher.

The car door opening jolted you out of your thoughts, and you looked over to see Mrs Potts sliding into the seat next to you. "How's planning going?"

"...How d-do you d-d-do it?" Mrs Potts laughed. After Mr Stark and Mr Brock were seated, you began the drive back to the compound. Along the way, you stayed mostly silent - unless it was to correct dates and names Mr Stark got wrong that Mrs Potts missed - and listened to the conversation. It was clear, at least to you, that there was both an air of caution from Mr Brock towards Mrs Potts, and a faint tint of distrust in Mr Stark's words to Mr Brock. You had never thought to ask why Mr Brock was of such interest to the billionaire, and from the air between the two men, you didn't intend to pry. You, personally, thought Mr Brock was quite polite, if a little blunt. He thought to include you in conversation, despite barely knowing you for a minute. When you started driving him to the hotel, preceding dropping off Mrs Potts and Mr Stark(who seemed hesitant to leave the two of you alone...), Mr Brock seemed to grow more closed off. You supposed he didn't want to distract you; or perhaps he didn't care.

With the lack of conversation, aside from occasional directions from Mr Brock, you started zoning out again. There was no point in returning to the compound straight after dropping him off. You would only have 20 minutes, then, to spare before it was time to go pick up Peter. Mr Parker? Should you address him formally as well? He was maybe two months older than you. You supposed it was better to be safe than sorry, but something about it felt wrong...

"Thank you for the lift." You nodded, smiling at Mr Brock as he got out of the car. "It was n-n-no problem, M-M-M-M-..." You sighed, giving up. You just nodded again. Mr Brock pulled his suitcase out of the trunk himself, waving off the doorman. You leaned out the side window, taking a moment to figure out your words before speaking. "I'll be b-b-back-ack at 6:15. Is that-at okay?" Mr Brock copied your earlier action before stepping back from the curb. You waved at him as you pulled away, contemplating what to do. You supposed you should at least pick up those pies from the bakery. In fact, it wasn't too far from Mr Parker's address... Nope. Didn't like it.

The bakery smelled fresh and the air was warm, compared to the snow outside. You rubbed your hands together, regretting not wearing thicker clothes. "Order for Mr T-T-T-Tony St-t-Stark?" The barista looked through the boxes and picked up a large cream one with clear plastic on the top so you could see the treats inside. You smiled thanks and regretted not returning the "Merry Christmas!" that followed you out into the cold. You sighed, taking a moment to look around. The street you were on wasn't too busy, and the shops were cheerful enough, but it seemed you were destined to be in a mournful mood this afternoon. You checked the time. 12:42pm. Not too bad on time. You decided to keep the pies in the back so that you weren't tempted to eat them. You had cookies at home that you could snack on.

Pulling up at the Parkers' house, you braced yourself for conversation. "Hi. I'm here for P-P-Peter Park-k-ker." Ehh. It was understandable. That was what you told yourself as you rung the doorbell. You heard the sound of footsteps(sprinting??) approaching the door, and it swung open to reveal a boy with a cheery smile and messy brown hair. He yelled goodbye to someone inside, before hauling his backpack to the car. He was already in when you got there. Oh boy...

"So... You work with Mr Stark, too?"

"For. I work-k for Mr St-tark."

"Oh. Right. So... You've met the other Avengers? Like... Personally?" The dreaded question. You shifted slightly, preparing the words on your tongue. "N-no. Not p-p-personally. I only work-k for Mist-ter Stark."

"Oh." Peter looked out the window. Oh God... You knew what he was thinking about. Here it comes- "So... Is your stutter, like, a speech impediment?" You sighed quietly. "Yes, it's a sp-peech imp-p-p-pe-pe-RRAA!" You slammed the breaks in frustration, skidding a little. You took a deep breath, and turned to Peter, who looked more than a little shocked. "I understa-tand that you have qu-questions, and this is p-p-probably your first-t t-t-t-t-... Your first ex-per-i-ence-" You said the word slowly. "-with someone lik-ke me. But I have answered these que-questions too man-n-n-n-ny times before. P-p-please do not ask-k anymore." Peter had the conscience to look apologetic and he nodded in understanding. "Okay. I promise not to ask anymore questions like that."

"Thank you."

You arrived back at the compound at about 3:08pm, and watched Peter run over to greet Mr Stark. As soon as you had started driving again, you felt guilty for snapping. You were grateful to Peter for being the civil one and apologizing, and you knew he crossed a line... Forget it. He apologized and you forgave him. He even offered to take the pies in, so you guessed there were no hard feelings. Anyway, back to doing your job which, funnily enough, didn't include yelling at superheroes.

You had 2 hours before you had to go pick up Mr Brock, so you decided to run back to your apartment and amuse yourself until then. You had all but given up on completing your other tasks. The Avengers would simply have to put up the tree themselves. You would apologize tomorrow. You hoped Tony would understand...

Your apartment was kinda chaotic, but you were pretty decent at keeping things in the area they belonged, so it wasn't too hard to navigate. It also meant you were less likely to lose something valuable if you were broken into. You pondered this as you prepared a simple sandwich for yourself. The ideal Christmas dinner. At least munching on it gave your mouth something to do. You checked the time. 5:41pm. You supposed you could leave now and pick Mr Brock up early. Or wait outside for him.

You decided on the former, as you realized the latter made it seem like you were here for suspicious reasons. You found out from the front desk where he was staying and took the stairs to avoid people. Mr Brock's room wasn't difficult to find. You knocked. Inside, there came a sound like a wounded animal. You grew worried, as Mr Brock's voice sounded deeper when he answered. "Yes?"

"Uh, hi. It's m-me, ag-gain. I hope I'm n-n-not intrud-ding, bu-but I had t-t-time to spare s-so..." You trailed off as the room behind the door grew quiet. "M-Mr Brock..?" Getting no response still, you knock again. The door swings open to reveal... Mr Brock. He looks a tad more shabby and a bit nervous, but he smiles anyway. You recover your professionalism and return the smile. "I've pu-parked the c-car out the fron-nt. I hope you d-d-don't mind, b-but I'd like t-t-t-... The evening to m-myself." Mr Brock looks confused. "You're not going to the party?"

"I'm n-not an Avenger."

"Neither am I." You huff. "I d-don't work WITH Mist-ter Stark-k. I'm his assis-sis-sis-..."

"Assistant."

"...Yeah..." You give him a tight-lipped smile and gesture back to the stairwell. "I'm g-gonna wait in the c-c-car..." Mr Brock nods, turning back to his room. "I won't be long."

Indeed he wasn't. You were only sitting in the car for 10 minutes before Mr Brock slid in behind you, looking only slightly less disheveled. But he was in a suit, and you'd seen Mr Stark look worse, so you started driving. The car ride is much like before, only you occasionally catch Mr Brock muttering intensely to himself. Odd. Now that you think about it, Mr Brock seems to be absent of many common traits among the people Mr Stark tends to recruit. Perhaps that was the reason for the underlying hostility between the two. Mr Brock certainly makes you slightly anxious. But you boil that down to second hand stress on his behalf. Checking the time again - 6:12 pm - you force yourself to calm down. If Mr Stark trusted this man enough to allow him around his pregnant wife, surely he's safe enough to share a car with.

You pull up to the compound and smile encouragingly at Mr Brock. He returns it and nods in gratitude before getting out. You watch him stumble up the stairs, a distant part of you wishing you could join in. Inside looks so happy and bright. Such a distant, alien world to you. So far out of your reach. Held within your sight by one man who, while friendly enough, barely acknowledges your existence. These people are far removed from you. The good they do surpasses your life. This is what you force yourself to remember, and you wipe the tears from your eyes.

The drive home is difficult, to say the least. What with the tears in your eyes, and the pull you feel back towards the party, you're surprised the car moves at all.

Your apartment is cold when you arrive. Not only due to the obvious symbolism of how lonely you are, but also because you forgot to leave the heater on. You don't care much, though. After everything, you just want to crawl into bed. At least there, you can dream. You can return to the party, to be greeted by smiling faces, all of them delighted at your arrival. There, you can exist in the world you crave. Part of a family that stretches through space.

There, you might just have a Merry Christmas.

#prompt writing #darkshadow i'm sorry #avengers #christmas #venom #guardians of the galaxy #doctor strange #this is fucking sad you're welcome #ugh #i have issues with christmas

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flynnerider · 6 years

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Day in The Life AND Special Announcement!

“Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it.”- Steve Jobs

Hi everyone!

Sorry it’s been so long since my last update! It really is true what they say- no news is good news! I still LOVE my job, and that’s what I’m here to talk about today! A lot of people ask me what exactly I do, and when I was looking into the DCP I had the same kinds of questions, so I’m here to walk you through a day in the life of a Slide Operator at Blizzard Beach!

First, hours. I usually work five or six days in a row, then have two days off- rarely the same days each week. Blizzard Beach is open from 10AM-5PM every day, so when I work I always get off at 5:30 PM. There’s four possible Slide Op shift start times: 8AM, 9AM, 9:45AM, and 11AM. 8’s and 9’s are assigned “morning jobs” like filling water coolers, cleaning sand areas, and occasionally slide testing to help get the park ready for guests. 11’s are “breakers” (more on this later), and 9:45 is a “normal” start where you clock in, go to our morning meeting, or “breakout”, and head to your first stand. I started at 9:45 this morning!

Every morning I get up, get dressed in my swimsuit, Disney Parks polo, and blue shorts:

Then I eat breakfast and pack my backpack. Here’s what’s in my bag:

From left to right: My lunch (today, Trader Joe’s pepperoni pizza mac and cheese; usually, salad or a sandwich) and a snack (tortilla chips today), my wallet, my hip pack and water bottle (we don’t say “fanny pack” at Disney; my hip pack always has sunscreen, a towel and rubber gloves, and a tiny rubber ducky to bestow upon a kid who needs it), my sunscreen AND backup sunscreen (I’m loyal to the Trader Joe’s brand but I just ran out yesterday), my whistle, my nametag, a padlock for my locker, my keys, and my hat. As you can see, I have a lot of little accessories that I need for my role! Not pictured: my watch, which I wear out the door, and my sunglasses, which I keep in my car.

At Disney, starting at 9:45 doesn’t mean clocking in at 9:45; you have to be in the park, in uniform, ready to work at EXACTLY 9:45. I leave my apartment 40 minutes before my shift start time each day. It takes me about 20 minutes to drive to Blizzard. Once I’m there I can clock in 15 minutes before my shift and pick up my assignment 10 minutes before my shift.

Your assignment is the rotation you are on for the day. There are six Slide Op “rotations”; each one has three “stands”, or positions. You rotate through these 3 positions in order throughout the day. When we open at 10, the 9:45 starts on the first stand, the 9 starts on the second, and the 8 starts on the third. When the breaker comes in at 11, they go to stand one and “bump” the 9:45 to stand two, the 9:45 bumps the 9 to stand three, and the 8 takes their first break. Then, when the 8 comes back from break, they go to stand one and bump the rotation through and the 9 gets their break, so on and so forth. Make sense?

Today, I was on Tike’s- my favorite rotation! The Tike’s rotation is Summit Plummet/Slush Gusher bottom, Tike Solo Top, and Tike Tube top, so at 10 after morning breakout I went to Summit/Slush bottom to start my day.

My job is to sit there between the slides, welcome riders when they reach the bottom, make sure they exit the catch areas, and push the green “dispatch” buttons to let the Slide Ops up top know it’s safe to send down the next person. It’s fairly easy- watching two slides at once takes a little getting used to, but I got the hang of it pretty quick and I don’t mind Summit Bottom at all!

Now to the place that gives Tike’s its name- Tike’s Peak! Tike’s Peak is our play area for little ones 48 inches and under and their families. There’s a very shallow wading pool with fountains, a play structure with some teeny tiny slides for our smallest skiers, a racing slide for guests of all heights, and two slides for folks 48 inches and under only.

When the breaker comes to Summit bottom and bumps me off I go to Tike Solo, the first of the two slides.

Tike Solo is so easy it’s criminal- I sit in a chair, check heights (no big kids or parents allowed!), make sure kids go down on their backs or bottoms, and watch to see that they’re clear of the slide before I let the next kid go. It’s a really relaxing stand and you get to have so many cute interactions with kids.

When the next bump comes through, I go to Tike Tube. This one is also 48 inches and under only. I stand in the pool at the top of the slide (about two and a half feet deep). Kids bring their tube up and hand it to me, and I help them get seated the right way- legs out in front, handles facing in. The tube may be a circle, but contrary to popular belief, it does matter which way they sit! Then, when the lifeguard at the bottom gives me the all clear signal, I guide the kid’s tube into the slide and watch them go! Good, clean, cute fun. My lovely friend Aimee was kind enough to take a picture of me on Tike Tube today- here I am in all my fully-uniformed Slide Op glory!

(My whistle is backwards because otherwise when I bend over to help kids into tubes it hits them in the face, but I promise it’s there!)

Then I took my first break, a glorious half hour, at about 12:45, and did it all over again! I took my second break, a fifteen, around four. I ended my day out on Summit bottom. After we close at 5, we do “closing jobs”: my closing job today was cleaning the bottom of Summit Plummet with magic erasers. Living the dream. Then we have our evening breakout and I go home!

In the evenings, I’ll either go home and relax in front of the TV or go out with my friends or roommates! We obviously love going to the parks (I go two to four times a week at least), but we also love going to dinner (the staff at our regular Pei Wei recognize us; one time they gave us free donuts!) and shopping at Trader Joe’s. Tonight I went into Downtown Orlando with my roommates Misty and Georgia!

We went to the library and got frozen yogurt!

Speaking of fun and parks, I have a big announcement! Blizzard Beach closes for refurbishment every winter, and this year, when we close on October 27th, all of the Blizzard CP’s will get sent to new roles and locations! We’ve all been very anxious to find out where we’re headed, and the wait is finally over!

Yours truly (and a couple amazing coworkers) are moving to Main Street to bring a little extra magic to the holiday season! Main Street Daily Ops is an umbrella term that covers a number of locations; Cast Members are responsible for Parade Audience Control (PAC) for the fireworks and parades throughout the day, running the Sorcerers of the Magic Kingdom game, checking FastPasses at Town Square Theatre for guests meeting Tinker Bell and Mickey, and operating the Magic Kingdom Railroad! Because we’re arriving so late in the season, we’re expecting to just be PAC, but my friends and I are SO excited to be in the most magical place on earth during the most magical time of the year! I start in Magic Kingdom in late October- come see me in my new digs!

Thanks for your continued support, everyone! I appreciate all of your encouragement and interest in my life. Coming soon (for real this time): my Disney do’s and do nots! This is something I’m very excited to share- should be coming about two or three weeks from today!

See ya real soon,

#dcp #dcp blog #dcp fall 2018 #dcp 2018 #Disney College Program #Disney #college #program #recreation attractions #blizzard beach #attractions #main street #main street usa #slide op

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thisisjustafiller · 2 years

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food log and babble

4/11

woke up at 9am, slept around 8 hours

10:45AM: coffee, snack cake (170)

12:30PM: healthy choice brand spinach linguni (230)

8:50PM: dumplings (400)

total: 800

woo! good day. finally had my first day of work, and it was pretty simple. just stocking and getting used to where things go. this week is only three hour shifts, just to get me used to the flow of things. the team seems fun. the humor around the place is... interesting lol. i’m going to like it there i think.

eating went well enough. i wasn’t really hungry when i got home but i still made myself have something. i need to get used to eating again, so no letting that slide. my stomach kind of hurts though. it was a lot of dumplings lol. it seems as if i’ve lost another pound as well, but we’ll see about that in the morning. might just be because i emptied my guts yesterday and not any real loss. i’m hoping that even though i’m raising up my totals i’m still going to see a little more weight loss. i mean, i AM still cutting well under after all. high restriction freaks me out a little is all.

i’m hoping as i eat a little more my nails get stronger. aside from the hollowness of my eyes, that was the first thing to take a hit. my nails are all kinds of cracked and starting to get a little ridgy. its not great.

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theopennotebook · 7 years

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Skins FanFic

Chapter 4: Maxxie’s Turn (Maxxie POV)

I woke up wrapped in Finn’s arms pleasantly surprised not to have a headache. The sun was streaming through his opened curtains, it was probably late morning. I rolled over and admired the arches of his cheekbones, ran my fingers over his square jawline and smiled to myself as my touch caused him to stir… I could hear my phone vibrating from somewhere on the floor beneath the clothes that lay haphazardly all over it. I wriggled my way out of his grasp and began to rummage through the piles until I found my phone under Finn’s pants. I sat on the edge of the bed and checked my text messages. The first was from Auntie:

FR: Auntie xo

Saturday 8:30am

Good morning my sweet niece. I see that you and Zye are already gone. I hope you two slept alright. Behave yourselves today girls. Haha! I will talk to you two later. I am leaving for work in about an hour. Xo P.S. Maxine, call your mother.

To: Auntie xo

Saturday 11:45am

Hi Auntie. Sorry for not getting back to you earlier. We are at a friend of mine’s house and my phone was upstairs. We slept wonderfully thanks. I think we’re going to go get a bit of shopping done. Could you e-transfer Zye some money please? We forgot our wallets at home. Thanks, Auntie! I’ll call my mother later this evening if I remember.

I looked over at Finn. Still sound asleep. On to my next message then. It was from Zye.

FR: Zye-Zye

Saturday 8:45am

Maxx where are you?! Mom is probably already awake! I’m going to be in so much trouble when she realizes we aren’t home! I don’t know why I let you talk me into these shenanigans! I swear if I’m going down I’m taking you with me!

FR: Zye-Zye

Saturday 8:46

Mom just texted me! What do I do?!

FR: Zye-Zye

Saturday 8:48am

Maxxie, I’m still at Cook’s house, he’s making me breakfast. Are you up yet? Are you okay? I’m okay, don’t worry. Cook is a lot nicer than I thought. How’s Finn? What time do you want to head home? Mom is texting me, what do I do?!

FR: Zye-Zye

Saturday 9:00am

TTTTTTTEEEEEEEXXXXXXXXXTTTTTTTT MMMMMMMMMEEEEEEE BBBBBBBBAAAAAAACCCCCCCKKKKKKKKK

FR: Zye-Zye

Saturday 9:30am

Okay. seriously. Wake the fuck up. You’re making me swear. You know I never swear.

I chuckled at my cousin’s innocence.

To: Zye-Zye

Saturday 11:56am

Good morning crazy. Control your rage Zye-Zye. I’m just going to freshen up and then I’ll come get you. Don’t worry about Auntie, I already dealt with it. I’ll see you soon.

FR: Zye-Zye

Saturday 11:57am

I hate you … but that was a great night! Let’s do it again tonight! Wait until I tell you what happened with Cook!

To: Zye-Zye Saturday 11:58am

Take it easy party-animal. I can’t wait! See you soon.

And last but not least I had a text from… Freddie…

FR: Freddie

Saturday 10:00am

Hey Maxxie, I had a great time with you last night. Are you busy today? There’s something I need to talk to you about.

I locked my phone, set it on the dresser and headed for the bathroom. I needed to wash the shame off of my face…

I let the steam from the running tap fill the bathroom. I sat on the floor with my back to the bathtub. Flash memories of Freddie pinning me up against the cool brick of the wall in the alleyway beside the club, his body pressed against mine, his lips on my neck… his hands up my dress…. All over my body…. One of them sliding into my tights… beneath my underwear…

I jumped as someone knocked on the door.

“Maxxie, are you in there?” I heard Jack call from the other side of the door.

“Ya, sorry Jack I’ll be out in a second,” I said frantically turning off the water and opening the door.

“Good morning,” Jack said with a smile.

“Hey, Jack,” I said pushing past him and going to retrieve my phone and shoes from Finn’s room. Jack followed me.

“Looks like you and Finn had some fun before he passed out last night.”

“What do you mean?”

“Have you looked in the mirror yet today Maxxie?”

Slowly, I turned to face Finn’s full-length mirror. My neck and chest were covered with an unsightly number of hickies. I was guessing based on what happened last night that there were definitely more than I could see. A wave of shame washed over me.

“Maxxie?” Jack’s voice was tainted with concern.

“It’s nothing,” I said, trying to act natural. “He just knows that I hate hickies, that’s all,” I said gesturing towards Finn, trying to make a joke out of the situation.

“I guess the pills made him a bit crazy,” Jack said chuckling uneasily. “I’ll grab you a sweater and a scarf to cover those up.”

“Thanks, Jack,” I said feigning a smile.

“Are you staying for breakfast?” Jack called from his room.

“No, I have to go get Zye.”

“Can I come? She and I kind of hit it off last night… she seems like a great girl… do you think she might be interested in me?”

“Um… she and I have some girl bonding to do… maybe next time?” I lied.

“Oh, come on Maxxie…” He said handing me a sweater and a scarf. “Wait, what do you mean pick her up? Where did she end up last night?”

“Oh, just at one of my friend’s houses. Why?”

“Oh, no reason… I mean I saw her with Cook at one point so I was just curious…”

“Oh…” I just wanted the conversation to be over.

“So why can’t I come?”

“Next time Jack-Jack. Say bye to Finn for me?”

“Yeah, I’ll tell him to text you when he wakes up.”

“Thanks, Jack. I’ll see you later.” I said giving him a kiss on the cheek as I walked down the hall of their flat and to the door.

I had just gotten in the elevator when I felt my phone vibrate in my hand.

FR: Freddie

Saturday 12:30pm

Hey Maxxie, did you get my message earlier?

To: Freddie

Saturday 12:31pm

Hey Freddie. Yeah, I did. I’m just leaving Finn’s flat. What’s up?

FR: Freddie

Saturday 12:31pm

I’m at the park behind the college. Can you meet me for a minute?

To: Freddie

Saturday 12:32pm

Yeah, okay.

FR: Freddie

Saturday 12:32pm

Cool. See you soon, yeah?

To: Freddie

Saturday 12:33pm

Yeah. See you soon

I don’t know why I agreed to meet Freddie… especially after what happened last night. Finn would be crushed if he ever found out… but there was just something about Freddie… something I couldn’t resist…

I found my feet leading me to the park without me having to tell them where to go. Soon enough I could see Freddie sitting on a park bench. I snuck up behind him and let my fingers run along the back of his neck before coming around the bench and sitting beside him.

“Hello, Maxxie.” He said smiling at me.

“Hi, Freddie. What’s up? Your text sounded serious.” I asked sliding a little bit closer to him.

“Nothing, I just needed to see you…”

“What about Effie?” I asked, rubbing my hand on his chest as I moved even closer.

“Well… After you and I… Effie came back to the club to try to make up with me, but we started fighting again ten minutes after she left so I told her I was sick of her games and I walked away…” Freddie moved my hand. I maintained my proximity to him anyway, hoping that he was just playing hard to get.

“So, you guys have broken up again?” I asked sliding impossibly closer.

“It’s complicated… that’s why I asked you to meet me…”

“Freddie, last night was great… but I’m with Finn…” I said, playing coy. A fling could be fun, and as long as Finn didn’t find out, then who was I really hurting?

“I know, I know… That’s not why I called you here.”

“What?” I slid away from him, the atmosphere around us shifting.

“I mean last night with you was great and all, I mean, lots of fun yeah? But… something else happened last night…”

“Oh, really Freddie? What? You fingered another girl too?”

“No…no… what happened with you was great Maxxie. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t sad to see you go when Finn got sick. I mean I would have fucked you right then and there and dealt with my guilty conscience later… you know you’re walking boner bait. …but I had another connection with someone last night…an emotional connection.”

“Who Freddie? Because it sounds to me like it wasn’t Effie.” I snarled, a rage beginning to burn inside me. “Do I know her?”

Freddie looked out to the fields, he grew distant.

“Freddie. Who is she?”

“Zye.”

I stood from the bench, not wanting to be remotely close to him.

“You mean my cousin?” I spat at him.

“Yes, that Zye.”

“Was this revelation before or after you decided it would be a good idea to cover me in hickies and finger me in an alley?”

“Don’t be like that Maxx…” He stood to face me.

“Before or after Freddie?!”

“I’ve had feelings for her since I first saw her at school… but I didn’t think she felt the same way until last night…” He ran his hands uneasily through his shaggy brown hair.

“Did you hook up with her?”

“No.”

“But you wanted to!”

“We were dancing and then Effie showed up.”

“So, you ditched her for Effie? Good luck trying to get her back. My cousin can be quite impressionable Freddie…”

“What’s that supposed to mean?” He said facing me. His gaze was a mixture of confusion, anger and …fear…

“I mean that Zye will believe anything I tell her about you because I’m her cousin. Blood goes deeper than any feeling she may or may not have had for you.” I got in his face, close enough to feel his shallow breaths on my face.

“Oh, come on Maxxie. Don’t be this way. I don’t even know why you’re mad. You said it yourself. You’re with Finn! Yeah, we had fun, but when it comes down to it, it shouldn’t have happened at all!”

“Yeah, I am with Finn. But it still doesn’t mean I’m going to let you fuck around with my cousin.”

“Have you always been such a sore loser?” He asked as I turned to walk away.

I turned and shot him an icy glare before pacing away. That bastard deserved whatever was coming his way…

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riighteousfury · 8 years

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Tagged by: @darkmartyr

Tagging: anyone tbh im just lazy and don’t feel like tagging but it’s like midnight no son

A - Age: nineteen y’all B - Biggest fear: not getting to do any of the things on my bucket list C - Current time: 12:10 AM D - Drink you last had: water E - Every day starts with: my alarm at 5.00 AM followed my a length internal battle of whether i really need to work the morning shift or not (i always do) F - Favourite song: well rn i’m crying over the boy who blocked his own shot by brand new G - Ghosts are they real: JESUS YES. my room is 110% haunted. idk by what. but tbh it gets so bad during winter (at least this year) that it’s part of the reason i don’t sleep it there I - In love with: SHAMELESS, musicals, rose gold, NINA DOBREV, serbia, so much tbh K - Killed someone: only in my imagination and short stories L - Last time you cried: christ i cry all the time so probably like yesterday M - Middle name: don’t have one N - Number of siblings: 2 O - One wish: travel across the states/continent whilst living out of my hippie van with a few good friends P - Person you last called/texted: omg this sounds so bad but my best friend’s boyfriend. it’s not like that, he’s tagging along with her and i on a shopping excursion and i was just sharing some details with him. Q - Questions you are always asked: when are you coming, why are you late, are you drunk, are you high, what do you spend your money on, why are you crying R - Religion: i believe in god but i’m having some problems with him atm S - Song last sang: i don’t need a roof from big fish (hush it’s for a theatre class) T - Time you woke up: 5:45am U - Underwear colour: why ya asking me about my underwear, you haven’t even bought me a drink yet V - Vacation destination: everywhere omg X - X-Rays you’ve had: teeth, knees, ankles, elbows, Y - Your favourite food: sushi currently Z- Zodiac sign: cancer

#☀ || &. a guardare le nuvole su un tappeto di fragole — ooc #tw supernatural #tw drugs #tw alcohol #just in case

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stolideux · 8 years

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rules: once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. at the end, choose 25 people to tag! except that’s a crazy amount so I’ll tag like five of you instead

tagged by: @siiriusblxck @remusetlupus @wandmakesthewizard

TAGGING: @fukuroukashi | @theirsacrifice | @loathedlineage | @t0mriddle-jr | @venenatxs & anyone else who wants to!

LAST… [1] drink: water [2] phone call: last night, my mom wants me come home. [3] text message: yesterday, @fukuroukashi asked me if I was coming for the weekend. :P [4] song you listened to: Iris - Goo Goo Dolls

[5] time you cried: Last night, I was watching some dog reunions online.

HAVE YOU EVER… [6] dated someone twice: no [7] been cheated on: I Don’t know... But I felt like I was cheated. Meh [8] kissed someone & regretted it: no [9] lost someone special: yes. [10] been depressed: yes [11] gotten drunk & thrown up: YES

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

[12] Black [13] Navy Blue [14] Dark Red

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU… [15] made new friends: yes! [16] fallen out of love: Ha.Ha.Ha. [17] laughed until you cried: yes! [18] found out someone was talking about you: Yep. [19] met someone who changed you: I think so. [20] found out who your true friends are: ... I don’t know how to answer [21] kissed someone on your facebook list: nope

GENERAL… [22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: alot, like I only accept friend request from people who I ACTUALLY know personally so... yeah. [23] do you have any pets: Yes! I have tons right now. :) [24] do you want to change your name: Nope. I happen to like my Name. [25] what did you do for your last birthday: celebrated it with my BFFs and family. [26] what time did you wake up: Today? Uhm... 7:45am [27] what were you doing at midnight last night: watching Youtube. [28] name something you cannot wait for: Finish my studies and become a Doctor. [29] when was the last time you saw your mother: 2 Hours ago. [30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I Should have pursued Medicine when I started college but I didn’t-- [31] what are you listening to right now: IKAW - Yeng Constantino [32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: I don’t know. [33] something that gets on your nerves: People who can’t accept that they were wrong. [34] most visited website: tumblr and Fanfiction.net [35] elementary: Yes. [36] high school: Yes, 8 years ago. [37] college: graduated last year, starting again this June [38] hair colour: Brown, planning on changing it soon. [39] long or short hair: Long [40] do you have a crush on someone: yes. [41] what do you like about yourself? I... I don’t know. [42] piercings: Ears [43] blood type: Type O, positive [44] nickname: Calli [45] relationship status: Single [46] zodiac sign: Scorpio [47] pronouns: SHE [48] fav tv show: Game of Thrones, House M.D., The Night Shift, Korean soaps [49] tattoos: None. [50] right or left handed: Right

FIRST… [51] surgery: Spliter extraction. It got infected before a small part got stuck. [52] piercing: ears [53] best friend: I only have one. [55] vacation: Boracay, Philippines, 2013 [56] pair of sneakers: I prefer rubber shoes.

RIGHT NOW… [57] eating: nothing. [58] drinking: water [59] i’m about to: work on my drafts [60] listening to: Out of my League - Stephen Speaks [61] waiting for: closing time so I can sleep at home. [62] want: I’m pretty contented right now. [63] get married: YES, in the future once I’m financially stable. [64] career: Become a Doctor.

WHICH IS BETTER… [65] hugs or kisses: hugs [66] lips or eyes: eyes. [67] shorter or taller: either [68] older or younger: a little bit older than me [69] romantic or spontaneous: both [70] nice arms or nice stomach: either [71] sensitive or loud: A little bit of both, or balanced. [72] hookup or relationship: Relationship [73] troublemaker or hesitant: A little bit of both just for the heck of it.

HAVE YOU EVER… [74] kissed a stranger? no [75] drank hard liquor? YES. [76] lost glasses/contact lenses? I’ve lost count on how many times I’ve changed my glasses because I lost or broke them. [77] turned someone down? Nope. Never been in a relationship. [78] sex on first date? no [79] broken someone’s heart? Maybe. [80] had your own heart broken? Yes. [81] been arrested? no [82] cried when someone died? Yes [83] fallen for a friend? Yes, and it ended badly.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN… [84] yourself? sometimes [85] miracles? Yes. [86] love at first sight? Nope. [87] santa claus? nope. [88] kiss on the first date? never been on a date [89] angels? Yes.

OTHER… [90] current best friend’s name: Shai

[91] eye color: dark brown [92] favorite movie: Doctor Strange

#「 ✦┊ the voice from within ; ooc 」#( about mun )

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goaltracker · 6 years

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January goal-tracking: Week 2.

I’ll be honest, I got side-tracked with the report I had to do, so there are some habits I didn’t do for a couple days. Aaand... the laziness has hit some, I’ll admit. I don’t think it’s depression laziness because I’m still able to do something if I annoy myself enough, though, so that’s good news!

Academic Growth

Objective: Create habit of studying daily.

Measurement: I’m going to read a bit of the Spanish novel that I have chosen for my personal goals. If there is a word I do not understand, I will look it up and translate it for myself.

Update: I... haven’t been reading every night. I missed three nights this week. But I’m planning on getting back into it tonight!

Objective: Familiarize myself with LSAT test.

Measurement: I will study the flashcards at least 2 times per week for at least 20 min.

Update: I scheduled it but I didn’t do it. But! Jackie sent me an LSAT flashcard deck for Christmas! Which was hella cool! And measurement is going to change. I’m going to schedule that in at least a couple times this week. I’ll make it a daily habit for February since I don’t wanna add anymore to the list of habits I’m trying to build this month.

Personal Growth

Objective: Care for my cat.

Measurement: I will set up an appointment for the vet on his wellness and an appointment to the groomer’s this month.

Update: I bought a comb and set up soapy water to kill what I combed out but he wasn’t cooperating and I wasn’t getting anything. I set up an appointment with a groomer’s though for February, the earliest available. I will postpone the vet visit for a month for budgeting reasons.

Objective: Care for my car.

Measurement: I will add air to the tires. If tire light on dashboard does not turn off, I will make an appointment with a mechanic this month.

Update: I added air and light went off, all is good now!

Objective: Read daily.

Measurement: I will read from the novela I bought every night before I sleep. A minimum of one page should be read.

Update: Answered above academic goal.

Objective: Call family and friends more.

Measurement: I will call my abuelita, best friend, and cousin this month.

Update: I've talked or texted a family or friend everyday in an authentic way. I called Mayra and schedule another call for her, Cynthia, the dudes, Julio, and Ale. I got my grandma’s number again. I need to buy a card since I scheduled a time to call her too.

Professional Growth

Objective: I will be at least 2 minutes early to every shift.

Measurement: I will leave my location with plenty of time to get to my next destination without speeding and taking traffic into consideration. I will make sure to leave time for my lunch and breaks.

Update: I’ve been doing better.

Objective: Build tutor clientele for at least 5 hours a week.

Measurement: I will meet and set times with students and their parents that are interested in being tutored. I will contact people interested through Facebook, set up initial appointments, and set a consistent schedule for myself.

Update: I had my first meet with both! I bought separate notebooks for the three kids in case I need to write or take notes. Last two kids are going to be easy but first girl... I need to do homework on Trig... already scheduled but Lord help me.

Physical Growth

(my hardest area of discipline, we’re gonna build it up slow)

Objective: I will eat breakfast every day.

Measurement: I will wake up an hour before I already do to dedicate it to breakfast and reflecting. Later this time will transition to work-out time.

Update: I’ve eaten breakfast every day but on the weekend when I don’t have to wake up early, I don’t get up until 12pm, not having breakfast until 12:30pm earliest. Is this okay for me? Is this what I meant for breakfast?

Objective: I will make DIY weights.

Measurement: Since I do not want to buy weights, I will make my own from water bottles and sand. I will need to go to the beach this month and fill the water bottles with sand.

Update: I bought two Kombucha glass bottles and suffered through the acidic fermentation of death. I’ve washed them and they are both ready to be filled up. But it’s been raining every other day so I’m just waiting for a day where sand is dry to fill the bottles.

Objective: Get stupid HW challenge off the ground.

Measurement: I will record myself and my weight so I can get that stupid HealthyWage challenge going and stop stealing my money.

Update: I have decided... to ignore the emails and not do this. If I get sent to collections... it’ll be a gamble I lost. I’ve made my peace with the decision.

Spiritual and Mental Growth

Objective: Attend church weekly.

Measurement: There is a church I’ve been interested in, Santa Cruz Bible Church. It is at 10:45am on Sunday. Attend it.

Update: I skipped church this weekend. I know, I know. I’ll do better, I promise.

Objective: Attend meditation class weekly.

Measurement: There is a meditation class I’ve been interested in, down at the Veterans Hall at 7pm on Tuesday. Attend it.

Update: I went to the first one and it was nice! I plan on going tomorrow night as well. I really liked last week’s teaching on inaccessibility, which was something along the lines of: There are parts of you that others won’t understand and will only bring confusion and negativity when shared, rather than the positive reaction we hope. To avoid this, be conscientious and discern what parts of yourself should be accessible to others and what parts should be inaccessible.

Objective: See therapist monthly.

Measurement: Make an appointment for next week and attend it.

Update: Went to appointment. She read me like a book. I scheduled an appointment for next month but we’ll see if the budget allows it.

Financial Growth

Objective: Budget

Measurement: I will budget my bills between my first and second paycheck for the month. Then I will budget out a vet appointment, a grooming appointment, my therapist appointment. Money for the first LSAT book as well, if possible. Then I will budget out food and gas.

Update: I’ve budgeted out a therapist appointment, gas, groceries, loans, and most bills for this month with this first paycheck.

Objective: Pay of credit card debt.

Measurement: Once I have budgeted what I need to, I will pay the rest of my paycheck to credit card debt. Pay more than minimum if possible.

Update: I paid $200 off each card with this first bill. If possible, I will try to pay off another $100 each with the second paycheck of the month.

Wow. There’s much I’ve done, but still much to be done. I believe in myself. If I start moving slower than I anticipated I would, that’s okay. I’m still moving forward and that’s all that matters. I love me very much. Sweet dreams, Esther :)

#january goals #weekly update

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