#but ive def grown since then lol

[palilious]

You'll be the death of me

[gumshoegoat]

It's my 9 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

since when did tumblr start doing the cake day shit from reddit?? anyways tho been here since 2014 and I'm never leaving

[yusukenui]

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[dialovers-translations]

tbh i agree w your take on yui! ive played like..7 dialova games rn (thanks to your blog btw hehe it motivates me to actually buy the games) and ive grown to love yui. shes the blueprint of kindhearted sweet gentle mcs and her trope can be seen almost anywhere in general otome games n even those isekai/villainess shoujo/josei series. i knw some recent otome games with mcs like her too (liliana in piofiore is an example and i LOVE liliana so much. shes in the same situation as yui but instead of vampires its mafia bosses. 10/10 game)

i understand some ppl hate yuis character bt i also understand to ignore n block out the haters or any negative comments about her. self care 💕 there are many otome games now with mcs that suit their tastes. also like. if yui wasnt how she is, she def would have died in the prologue minutes later. her angelic nature matches so well with all the vampire boys demonic attitudes. theyre demons all of them. literally n figuratively lmao

yui does hv her dumb moments but all tht can barely be seen when she has A Lot of heroic moments thats not just 'badass girl kicks ass'. her kindness and patience and love helps the boys heal and hell it helps yui become a stronger person too.

i love yui as she is. also her japanese voice in the anime is SO beautiful!! wished she was voiced in the game ;w;

If we want to be 100% real, then the boys just cannot be fixed by NOBODY. But when you have a bunch of characters who are all incredibly headstrong, stubborn and need A LOT of convincing to have a different outlook on mind, a character such as Yui who has a broad heart and is willing to give people a second chance and look past their mistakes is kind of necessary imo.

Is Yui too good for them? Most definitely. She deserves better. In fact, NOBODY deserves the treatment which is done to her in HDB and MB. That's just the nature of the game though and it's one of the big factors which made the franchise so popular in the first place. The fans dig that kind of dark atmosphere. It's not like Rejet was trying to hide it either since they have 'SUPER SADISTIC' (DO-S) in bold letters in their branding lol.

[llunapastell]

i love jaemins flirty ass hahahaha "so sexy" i also love how he just does his own thing and doesnt care what you think while the dreamies (jisung) scramble to protect his image 😂

ugh me too i have such a soft spot for dreamies 🥺 they've literally grown up in front of our eyes...literal childhood besties 😭 hmm my fav dream era honestly might be hot sauce since it was their first full album together as 7 dream 🥺🥺🥺 i got into dream in 2020 so it was perfect timing bc i didnt have to suffer through mark leaving and then i didn't have to wait too long for them to come back and stay as 7dream LOL. i always love seeing them together though, they're so fun and give off such sibling energy ahsdjfkah. broken melodies might be my fav song from them (the VOCALS!!!) followed closely by my youth <3 how about you??

and yes ofc we can continue talking after the ss event 🥺 ur so sweet hehe and sorry ive taken so long to reply to these asks but i swear i usually reply quicker in messages HAHA

You’re sooo good bestie don’t worry about taking your time to reply!! It’s a crazy busy time of year 😭 but all in good fun I hope. I’m super excited for the event and have been working on my lil stayblr gift all week! Hehehe

I’ve been meaning to watch jaemin’s drama in full when life gets a little calmer lol. I’ve seen the ~important~ parts but I gotta sit down and watch our boy do his thing 🥰

Omg YEAH hot sauce era was somethin 😮‍💨 they fit that concept soooo perfectly too. They are too good tbh they do fun concepts and also sweet sentimental ones so well. Broken melodies came out at the right time in my life and ugh I’m so grateful for them for that. Def an absolute fav of mine as well.

My favorite era is actually we go up 🥲 we got such good content and I loveeee the normie fun youthful friends doing friend stuff concept. And I knew it my heart mark would come back. He’s just too good to be excluded like cmon now???

[sensenotsense]

ive seriously only started collecting kpop basically this year and it is crazy how much my collection has grown. espically with photocards since i thought they were stupid lol. i have 2 a5 binders of cards and my boy group is overflowing and will def need another one for next month....

[thedianadiary]

0018.

do you think weird it’s for someone to have never tried soda? i mean probably weird considering how prevalent it is.

is there any foreign film you recommend? i dont really watch any foreign films

do you have the same religious beliefs as your parents? with my mom, i dont think with my dad.

which floor of your house/building are you on now? the second floor.

are there any maps hanging in your room? No.

are you often a third wheel? or is someone a third wheel to you? I have been a third wheel SO MANY TIMES and sometimes its fine but many times i wish it were different.

what’s the last dvd you bought? i could not tell you

tell me about your favorite pair of jeans. I had an amazing pair but it got ruined and im DEVASTATED

would you ride a motorcycle if given the chance? (or have you?) i have and i really dont have much of a desire to again

is your hair healthy? nope. i lost about half of my hair during covid and it hasnt grown back. i switched to a fancy shampoo/conditioner and thats helped a lot but i need to take nutrafol when i can afford it.

if a hotel offered free breakfast in bed, what would you order? like a breakfast sammy

how often do you take a train? I used to take it pretty frequently but i havent taken it in a couple years

what’s your favorite led zeppelin song? I dunno i dont feel like looking

does your home have a balcony/deck/porch? a porch. its beautiful

what does your closet/wardrobe say about you? im introducing a lotttttttt of color

do you enjoy theatre? I love going to watch it. im no longer interested in performing . its been too long since ive gone to a show tho. id love to go frequently but as it turns out i need money and friends.

how would you feel about traveling abroad alone? Its tempting. 

who would you call a lyrical genius? Hmm. the writers for blue october 

how do you treat yourself? in some areas VERY well. in other areas im  a bit unfair

do you have an interesting passport? I don’t have a passport.... yet

are you going to pursue a career according to what you enjoy? yes

what happens to your old clothes? donations. a lot of them used to go to gram but now they are all donations.

what’s your favorite frozen treat? ice cream

if you wanted to go to the movie cinema, how would you get there? I’d drive

how many pillows are on your bed? LOL like 3857393.

would you pay more for organic food? no. consistently they say organic food is not inherently better have you ever had a crush on a sibling’s friend or a friend’s sibling? Nope

do you prefer being awake after everyone goes to bed or before they get up? for years and years now i stay up late and then i wake up early. 

do you know much about feng shui? (do you use it?) i know mild basics and a lot of it i like

how would you make friends in a quiet class? this is a bizarre question. i mean, im friendly in nature.

are you generally a quick learner? I guess it depends. When it comes to math…. never.

what’s your favorite spot to read? bed, porch, couch, wherever. 

do you save tickets from movies, etc.? If the movie/memory has significance. 

when’s the last time your bedroom was painted/wallpapered? uhhhhhh maybe like 10ish years ago.

if you randomly want to eat something in the house, do you eat it or wait? Uhhh... i would guess it depends. if im about to eat something else or if i have plans or something then i will wait. but otherwise theres not really a reason?

who knows the most about you (besides yourself)? this question makes me sad. i feel like no one really knows me right now. i definitely dont share my life/stories with anyone at all like i once did. i feel very umm.. removed from people. i dont really have anyone im close to right now.

do you have a nervous habit? (e.g. biting nails, tapping feet, smoking) uhhhh maybe cracking my knuckles

how’s your favorite pro sports team doing lately? off season. they def havent been ideal lately lol

would you be/are you a good role model to a younger sibling? that............ i hope would be true

[oflgtfol]

the absolute emotional highs about astronomy i've experienced in the past few years

- the first photos of pluto from new horizons released in 2015

- the first photo of a black hole released in 2019

- the initial phosphine on venus detection published in september 2020

[overdramatics]

spose ill be able to see if the issue is with my guitar or the amp tomorrow when i go to the guitar lesson lolzor

[mayakern]

No pressure but I'd love to hear some more puppy tips! Im a recent totally independent adult and Id love to get a puppy at some point but def need some info before I take on the responsibility (I had no clue their bladder develops at 5 months even though Ive been researching which is why I wonder if you have any more tips)

sorry in advance bc this is gonna be a LOT of preamble, but any time you bring an animal into your home it’s a huge responsibility and requires a lot of preparation.

so in general i am a huge advocate for adopting adult animals, especially dogs — UNLESS you have very specific lifestyle requirements (like we do). we needed a dog that was good with cats, other dogs, AND toddlers… which is just not a thing you can easily find adopting through a shelter, especially not in our area (NYC residents snatch up all the dogs within like a 5 hour radius) and ESPECIALLY not after covid (when a ton of people adopted dogs). which meant we needed to get a puppy so we could train in the behavior we needed.

we knew we wanted a companion dog for annie and that i want to have dogs forever and that it is a LOT easier to train in a puppy if you have an adult dog to model behavior from. so with our needs in mind, we started looking for a dog that would be compatible both with our lifestyle and with annie’s personality/energy level (she is a mid to low energy sheep dog and can be kind of a crab ass, but she is also very gentle and doesn’t like playing with dogs who are bigger than her). we did our own research and also talked to a couple friends of ours who work as or have worked as vet techs/other dog jobs.

with all that in mind… a LOT of what is good for a new puppy is going to be breed specific. if you’re getting a mutt, this can be difficult because puppies can look like literally anything so you really have no idea what they are until they’ve grown up a bit — and even then it can be tricky. like, we’re PRETTY sure annie is a border collie/australian shepherd mix because she looks like a border collie but acts like an aussie, but mixed breeds can be difficult because even if you’re reasonably certain which breeds go into the grab bag that is your dog, you never know which traits actually made it in. this is part of why standardized breeds can be such a big deal, since temperament is a BIG part of the package.

we got insanely lucky with annie because we knew her original owner so we had already met (and loved) her, knew her temperament, and that she was good with cats and gentle enough that toddlers would probably be fine too.

ALL THIS TO SAY…. the 5 month bladder control is specific to shibas. other puppies might have a similar timeline but i’m not sure. also, in general it’s recommended to take your puppy out with a frequency equivalent to the amount of months they have been alive (so if 2 months, then a potty break every 2 hours). this isn’t exact and you’ll need to get to know your dog. puppies also have very small bladders and relatively little bladder control (and don’t know they need to control it) and depending on the size of the dog, it is very normal for them to need to pee within 10-30 minutes of drinking water. because of this, it’s a good idea to give your puppy periodic planned water breaks and then take them outside instead of just leaving water out all the time. one thing i have done to figure out where rodeo is at is to give him water while we’re at the park (i have a collapsible water bowl and i bring a water bottle for the 3 of us) and then time him from when he drinks to when he pees, since in that situation he has total free reign over his potty time.

puppies need a LOT of recreation and in addition to walks, they need mental stimulation. scent games are invaluable for this!! i like to scatter a mixture of kibble and treats (in small sizes) across either the backyard or a safe portion of park and let the dogs sniff out and forage. they LOVE this shit. it might take some patience with a puppy if you don’t already have an adult dog to model the behavior, but once they get it they love it (especially if you use a treat they love). i literally cannot recommend this enough, it gets out SO many puppy beans in one go and i get to just chill behind them and like play phone games or call a friend. once your dog is used to this you can gradually decrease the ratio of high value vs low value treats for this, but puppies get bored easily so i recommend like… high mid value, if that makes sense. like you don’t need to give them hot dogs for this, but they probably won’t be super pumped for just kibbles. BUT if they ever are good with just kibbies, then you can use this method for every meal and it will make them so tired. it’s great!!

aaaand my last big tip is to clicker train. this can be a bit confusing to read about so i recommend watching videos to familiarize yourself with how it works, but it is SUPER worth it! puppies pick up on reward patterns super fast but do not have a long attention span and might have no idea what you’re rewarding them for if you don’t start them out with a clicker. i can’t speak for less clever breeds, but rodeo picked up the clicker training in the first day and i accidentally trained the corgi puppy downstairs on the clicker too since he and rodeo play together so much lol.

anyway this was a horrifically long post, i hope it helps. honestly i would not recommend getting a puppy unless you can work from home and have a decent chunk of time to dedicate to raising a literal baby (in fur form).

[straykats]

okay! i have questions for you too.

1. what is your favourite colour?

2. when is your birthday? (if you don’t mind me asking)

3. if you could assign yourself a flower… what flower would it be, and why?

4. who’s your skz bias? why?

5. are vampires good at math? (yes, this is a joke. guess the punchline)

[send me some questions!!]

omg wait i have another bad pun. teehee but its ti-hee (was supposed to type "hi ti hehe" and then it hit me) also im gonna put these utc bc they got.. a bit long JKDSNVS

1. im not sure what my favourite colour is but im gonna. get some photos. i am so >:( that they're not the same size AHH um i like these colours but i don't think i have a very serious "this is my fav colour"??? it kinda just depends on what the colour is regarding (ie. colour car or smth)

2. i was born in aug 2001 - imma virgo kid, to limit down the days lol

3. lemme just *whips out my language of flowers book* *stresses* okay. not okay. this is hard.

alyssum (meaning: worth beyond beauty ; possible powers: calm/moderate anger, protection) because those 'possibe powers'... i feel that that is my role in this house LMAO but also some protection would be nice. 'worth beyond beauty' because (if im interpreting it right) i defs value the thought that is put into things a lot...? OR

myosotis (ie. forget me nots) (meanings: clinging to the past, memories, remembering, true love, faithfullness ; possibe powers: healing, secrecy (?)) because idk hashtag relatable to some of those but not in the best way. can defs do w some healing too LMAO but also i've always found these (and babys breath) really cute and ive just liked them

4. uh oh i have a very big minho/hyunjin/seungmin war in my head but like as a fourth party i am the one receiving damage?? idk who my bias is ngl but its one of those three, if all three isnt a valid answer.

minho: honestly,,, dont even know. i just feel drawn to him + maybe i find comfort in who i think he is as a person/how i've perceived him and how i believe him to be? idk if that makes sense. that aside, his (+seungmins) vocals are literally my fav like. ya thats some good stuff right there. i think i first biased him when i realised we have A Lot in common (or at the time we did, and now hes just permanently here)

hyunjin: his Mind. his way of thinking, him seeming like hes a massive labrador or smth but he ahs this really deep and emotionally intellectual side to him? idk if im phrasing this right.

seungmin: ngl back door seungmin is to blame but since then he's grown on me so much and idk why he's top3 but every day i literally just have a little "sigh, seungmin <3" moment

(i dont exactly like my answers but i also dont know how else to answer hm. i think all the members have a very special place in my heart but im much more emotionally drawn towards hyunjin and minho, and seungmin is this curveball that i never expected so now im just Confused)

5. oh gee i wonder. idk, i wonder what the answer is 🤔 i'll make a very not so wild guess and say yea, they are. (ngl the first time i heard this joke it took me a hot second to understand it rip) (also i hope this reply doesnt come off rude or smth i feel like the intended vibes are.. missing. my brains starting to not process thigns at this time nvjkvns)

[osdd-1bitch]

// partly a vent? but also if you have any type of advice as to what i can do pls say,, gotta be honest im still INSANELY fucked on if im a system or not :( for a while i was dead set on it but i ended up just not saying anything to my therapist and fell back into that "ok no thats not me, im just a really vivid daydreamer" mindset.

then your blog auto-popped up as i was typing and i clicked it and im back to that "maybe" thing. im just so conflicted rn ughhh goddamnit :( ive been having an extremely stressful past few weeks (no specifics but alot of my trauma resurfaced, alot of shit triggered me, similar traumatic situations etc) and i missed both of my therapy sessions the past 2 weeks, so ive kinda reverted back to being dependant on alters who im not even sure are alters or not. and even THEN im not sure how to bring up to my therapist that i think i may have OSDD or DID?? like idk how im gonna come back after 2 weeks and say "hey btw all this traumatic shit came back up and i think i might be a system bc i talk to people in my head who arent me lol but anyways can i use ur fidget cube?" ??? SO much has happened and im really debating on just pushing down that it might be osdd/did and pretending nothing is wrong for the sake of keeping myself mentally stable yk ?? gotta say i just dont know what to do at all. lets also not forget im 13 and shouldnt even have to deal w this much stress EVER but dfghgtf. im just really struggling to tell if this is my maladaptive daydreaming or DID man :(

MaDD and plurality are weird to work w, especially since MaDD can and often is be caused by trauma and there are some expressions of MaDD that one could put on the plural spectrum. Its mucky either way and can suck to deal with

before i continue, id like to say our experience on therapy has...not been great so ill refrain from giving therapy specific advice for fear of our past experiences clouding our judgement, but you can share the trauma bits and get some help without talking about plurality. the rings system did some videos that might help about talking to a therapist,red flags ect, lovely folks, you should give em a watch if you havent. either way id say you prolly shouldnt bring this up yet, but info is also good in general

and also, some personal advice, be very very careful on the internet, especially social medias at your age. we were in your shoes once and it did fck us up quite a bit

either way, i seriously doubt youll be taken seriously, not in a bad way, full grown adults struggle to get help. and stressing about specifics can just lead to, you guessed it! more stress. its totally fine to drop all lables and just exist for a while and try and do whatever, talking w sysmates or daydreaming whatever, you dont have to name these experiences for now, just live them. doubt is weird, and youll almost def be wout dxing for a few years either way.

just live your life, try not to bring up trauma wout professionals, and be very safe on the internet, and preferably get off tumblr and move somewhere safer, its really not a place for people your age. i know you probably wont listen to that bit much, but at least be extra super safe.

self dxing can take years btw. its not really a matter of weeks, lived experience and analyzing yourself and just questioning takes a lot of time. take it slow

and its totally fine if its not did. or madd. or either. dont stress, dont try and conform yourself to dxes and stuff rn, especially since you are both v young and just started questioning. im not saying your age means you shouldnt, if you have did you have it rn, but things can take time to come to light. just b honest w yourself and open to the options, mkay? self dxing is a lot of research on top of the work. if you started questiong round now tbh many systems if they questions at your age would get a dx or self dx at like 15,16,17 ect ect, and thats if they question. do what helps you and talk to your therapist, you dont have to mention did but talk about questioning disorders and junk.

this sorta age is when figuring yourself out rlly starts to happen yknow? that doesnt mean you should be cornered off n stuff, n kept away from dxes, but it also means you should be very careful n research a ton. if you find smth you resonate w it, keeping it in the maybe pile for a year or two can seem like its a long time, but will help a ton in the end, if its true or not. if its stressing you out a ton, its okay to not think about it for a bit, you have time.

and again, please please please try and get off social medias they can mess w your head a lot, and try not to share your age online again. im torn abt publishing this n may delete this ask n repost the response, but im not sure

tldr:

i dont wanna tell you to not question or identify symptoms, but things change a lot n you are just dipping your toes into life. take things slow and sit on them, thats the best advice given to us at your age. you could be absolutely right, you could be confused, you could be dead wrong, and all of these are okay. just keep yourself open, research and rlly think abt it (like months of thinking abt it) before it can age properly in the maybe bin. and also be safe online, dont share your age and stuff n keep off toxic n inapropriate sites like this best you can. options are open and symptoms can change over time. just exist and take note of things. dont stress over lables, n self dx should stay in the possibly-maybe bin for now, itll be worth the wait

[neo-shitty]

toffee!

ah yeah, i think quarentine has given people some opportunity to actually just sit with the person they are, rather than be rushing around for the person they want to become. its good you got smth good out of isolation! ah thats great! hope you had fun and ur partner in crime speeds back home so you can get out more hehe.

ah yeah ty, good suggestions.

hmm good point, i was sort of putting it separate to the whole not-sexualising thing, but yeah. mmm yeah i totally agree, some of the enhypen fics/imagines *shudder* and even reading innie stuff is just a bit *icky* cos everyone still thinks of him as our agi ppang. yeah def would be good but sadly this just seems to be the world we live in. :(

ah yes the holy masterlist (not sarc) i have actually read in the rain and gladius maximus before, but ill go look for in class! oooh thats good! character development lol. hmmmm yes champagne problems was the angst to end all angst, that shit hurt. it was actually one of the first of your fics i read and i recall almost crying over the whole thing, it was so heartbreaking, i can see how it almost made you want to drop angst. good that youve allowed yourself some lee-way tho :)

hehe thats so cool. okay here we go, ill try not to be mortally offended (/hj)

cheese - yes same, i liked it but that was all there was, it wasnt a super standout track. it was rlly underwhelming for me but some of the hook is super catchy so there is Redemption (tm) in store for cheese maybe

thunderous - mmm, yeah at first i totally agreed, i think they suffer from too much good music syndrome, that all their other tracks are such fucking bops its hard to stay at that level of perfection. the choreo was beautiful tho and tbh, the track has grown on me since ive been watching all the vids abt it. its my brothers favourite track

domino - YES GODAMMIT IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE TITLE TRACK. the raps, the vocals, the vibes, the fucking domino sound in the back? i would have streamed that shit on repeat. but tbh, as good as it is, it doesnt have that sort of grandness/oomph that skz seems to like in their title tracks so i can see why they chose thunderous (tho domino would have been so good) *sigh*

ssick - yeah same, not my fave track by a long mile, the crowd cheering was a ?strange? choice and the chorus was a bit bare/empty, plus like i mentioned earlier, it was kinda funny to me for some reason but ill still play it if im playing thru the whole album

the view - ahh one of those not like other girls (/j) i honestly think its just a good party song, just a bop to play in the background when nobodys rlly paying much attention. its pretty generic pop music but catchy

sorry, i love you - hehe yeah i thought it was going to be sadder as well, but i rlly loved the fact that they all just got to sing, which almost never happens, i dont think ive heard felix sing for a long time, so i enjoyed it. wasnt rlly a standout track but i just casually like it. looking forward to the fic haha

silent cry - this song i swear, some bits are rlly good and then others are just? why?? it does sound like a dance song tho idk. definitely not one of my faves either

secret secret - YES its so good! its such a chill song and i love their vocals in it. the combination of lo-fi/fake strings backup stuff and their heavenly vocals just makes it *chefs kiss* im listening to it rn and just... its so beautiful. it gives me pumped up another day vibes ya know? like my pace is edgy get cool, this one is energetic another day i feel like. overall i love it

STAR LOST - ah thats so cool! i didnt know that! on first listen this song had a similar vibe to secret secret but then the beat came in and ahh its such a good song. i can totally imagine them putting this song to a concert footage vid, this song is so sweet.

red lights - LMAO YES ITS SO AWKWARD WHY DOES IT GO ON FOR SO LONG ah thats good! yeah good point, its quite intense hehe. but that is my fave trope and this is lowkey my favourite track on the album so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ just the combination of hyunjins and chans voices, the backing music, the lyrics ahh red lights my beloved

surfin’ - yes lmao its always a shock, i feel like they should have put gone away in between them, but its such a fun cute song, i cant get rlly mad. yeah, as an aussie i think im contractually obligated to like beaches lol. sand im not such a fan of, but my familys rlly into fishing and my brother loves bodyboarding so we stay at a beach house at least twice a year and we live like 5 mins from 3 different beaches (hehe all aussie cities are on the coast lol) so thats cool. do you like beaches?

gone away - ah gone away my beloved, i love this song sm, its just so pure and showcases their vocals and lyrics so well. yes the pitch change is very out of the blue, i feel liek they went directly from seungmins soft vocals to hans powerful ones which was an interesting choice, but hey, im not complaining

wolfgang - YES IKR ah im so happy he got to be included in that era and song. yeah its such a full on song i cant rlly listen to it if im in a quiet mood but its very motivating :)

hehe mood, i hope they do! ahhh no rest, but at least you wont have to pull a blink and wait a year for any word from the group lol. im not rlly into nct but im excited for them! ah hopefully youll be able to sneak some rest into that chaotic schedule, with enhypen (idk if u stan but yeah) squeezed into it haha

<3 w.a. 🐺

i wheezed at partner in crime, it reminded me of smth. i have a lee know fic in the drafts that i wrote 'in honor' of him (and his departure-ish). i'll tag you when i finish it, if you want. it's a rather hilarious one.

oh my god. based on my experience on the collabs i've joined before, writing explicit shit for '01 & '02 is not accepted (nct's maknaes) but with enha's hyung line '01 & '02 somehow it's okay? i do a double take every time i see fics like those i mean, technically, it's legal but still what the fuck. maybe it's just not for me at the moment. not at us venting our frustration about this. it's just something that's so accepted here that i am (in all honesty) slightly uncomfortable about. but oh well. that's kpop writerblr for you.

man i could've linked all the fics in the ask instead so you wouldn't have to go looking for them! i think i saw you like in class the other day (the fic i renamed into sharp-tongued, god it took me a while to remember the new title). describing champagne problems as an angst to end all angst is one way to put what i was feeling back in december. it just hurt to write and admit?? if that ever happened to me i would prolly cry :d

okay back to the album talk! i love how you answered with more thoughts. i love exchanges like these! i am a victim of the cheese hook and it's now one of my favorite tracks in the album. PLS, TOO MUCH GOOD MUSIC SYNDROME. that's on our self-producing kings 😌💅 also, your brother has taste! as i am typing this, domino's currently playing in my head and i realized that too, that it doesn't have that 'vibe' of a skz title track. honestly, this could be a title track of another group. ssick is starting to grown on me because i found the beats cool kdjsk not the not like other girls 😭 the view is the generic pop that i don't like but i get why a lot of people enjoy it. sorry i love you scratches a certain itch that i find myself singing the first few lines every time i remember it. i too would want to hear felix sing more!

> a mini junction on the album talk bc i got side tracked. on that topic, i want skz to switch positions at some point like i know those allrounders are capable of doing so. specifically, i want to hear seungmin rap!!!! (yk in the recent weekly idol he talked faster than changbin in a challenge and changbin is like the fastest rapper in kpop that's active atm if im not mistaken. my dandy boy has some potential and i want it UNLEASHED.)

back to album talk. silent cry is basically sad music to twerk to. secret secret is definitely one of my favorite tracks :( i loved how you compared the tracks HAJSAH i burst out laughing bc yk what, you're right! i want to make a star lost edit of skz but i simply do not have the time i want to cry. i love the song so much. ok, my dreaded track, red lights. idt i have played the track since we last talked. my friend sent me the lyrics tho and i'm itching to write a twisted au out of it. idk if you're comfortable with yandere but somewhere along those themes. the obsessive type of love that's sweet at first but turns rotten. IMAGINE IF THEY PUT GONE AWAY BETWEEN ASHJA it's like going from 50 shades to the notebook.

i was about to ask if you lived near the coast and you literally mentions it here god im so stupid. yes i LOOOOOOOOOVE beaches so much. living in an archipelago is fun :( i live in a part of the country that's more island than city so every time i want some vitamin sea it's accessible. i heard the waves in australia are great :( anYWHOOO gone away :(( every time it plays im compelled to skip it because it makes me sAD AND NOWADAYS I DONT HAVE THE TIME TO BE SAD. contrary to you, i dislike my quiet moods because i tend to overthink a lot.

i have this little analogy about how there are stays that enjoy songs the generic pop + mellow songs and then there are other stays that enjoy the noisy tracks. in my mind, it's like a perfect balance that makes me feel like all the tracks are loved in the end. just by different people.

PULL A BLINK. bro i fucking hate yg entertainment. they have the biggest kpop girl group LOCKED in their basement when they could be (and i mean this in the most business-like way not morally) milking money of the quad. they're yg's biggest hope at not being bankrupt atm so it's a damn fucking mystery to me as to how they aren't doing anything. (jk i just realized lisa solo album soon, but i still need a ot4 cb hELLO)

i stopped looking forward to the teasers. rest > kpop boys. i don't want to sound like a cult member but have you tried checking out nct? are they just not your thing? (i get it tho, that's one hard group to get into). and yes i do stan enhypen!

wow i love how long these asks are! they're like online penpals. but i also want to ask about you! how have you been lately? are you feeling okay both mentally and physically? how's the weather there? do you have anything that you want to talk about? maybe an interesting book you read? feel free to bring up anything you want to share! i'm getting conscious about talking about myself HAJHSJ

and yet another long answer B) i am sooo sorry T___T should these ask exchanges feel draining to you, feel free to stop sending them in AAAA

[theskyexists]

Harrow the Ninth Act 1

So Cytherea went to the Houses to draw the Emperor there. And she knew he would come because the revenants would follow her. Then why the fuck did she fuck with the Lyctor-potentials?

That part of the story makes less and less sense.

So the House planets died and God resurrected them. For real.

But how is that possible if the revenants - the spirits of these planets ran away?

I thought she was seeing Gideon but instead it's Tomb Girl.

But she has Gideon's eyes.........

Tomb Girl has been visiting her since opening the tomb???

What the Fuck

Nice lil reference to the 'temporal' bone when we find out for def sure that this isn't the timeline we know.

Giving us a whole act is pretty generous.

I started this thinking what the fuck. And also, with my doubts because it really is very different - but no worries - the mysteries are still as thick and fast as before - and that cannot help but spur the reader.

I'm thinking that from the moment she opened the tomb - some kind of - some kind of timeline split occurred - and Gideon fades in and out of this Harrow's life. What with the experience of getting choked out by nothing.

‘There had been another girl who had grown up alongside Harrow - but she had died before Harrow had been born.’

wonderfully put. In a way, this is fascinating. In another. Did Gideon really have so little impact on the other cavaliers/necros that everything happened almost the same way? Or are these false memories? Is she the only one who doesn’t remember her - doesn’t know she exists - every imprint of Gideon’s presence instantly wiped from her mind after it occurs?

A FAIL STATE.

we are in a TIME FUCKERY ladies and gents! Harrowhark is trying to find an optimal state of reality!!!

Why else have God lamenting his failure to master Time....

What the FUCK lol

And holy shit aahahahahaaa this kiss

I think Harrow created a new timeline just to save Gideon's life - and gave up her own for it. And I think she's tried to do that for a long long long time.......

So we're getting flashbacks to this Harrow’s version of events.

Truly it is GENIUS that the writer was like - hm ive got to follow Harrow now. But unlike Gideon - she understands almost everything she sees - so how can I make things impossible to understand for the reader?? And then fucked up time and Harrow's mental health so completely that there truly is no way of knowing what the FUCK is going on.

Bravo.

And I AM loving this retreading of Harrow's experience of trying to become Lyctor - but different. All the details are probably the same...the tea being too overwhelming for her taste buds - her disdain for clothed constructs. Those are gems. The insanity muddles the waters - but I’d say this Harrow is much less sure of herself - less titan - because there was no other titan to sharpen herself on or harden herself against.

Something about her age is relevant. relief huh....

The keyring is also different this time around...

Ianthe is really growing on me actually

WOw Teacher is so forthcoming this time around. wow. the Emperor really actually realised he might have to explain some fuckin things instead of giving them a riddle and letting them fight amongst themselves??

so the first six were half necros and half cavs...

all ‘sixteen of us’ were there to meet cytheria? the last lyctor

‘if she went, she chose to go’ that’s definitely the impression that was given from her smiling at the point of death. but........was all of it just grandstanding then? just a way to get people to lyctorhood quicker?

i adore the concept of Harrowhark working around her ‘insanity’(time fuckery) by giving a sign which clandestinely means; what the fuck am i seeing right now for real  actually?

eggs? implantation? zombie? compromised? he took pity?what

the flashbacks keep having people saying: is this how it happened? which i think is quite indicative of deliberate falsehood

well that was totally fuckin incomprehensible in a broad sense!

and the writing is often so damn dense god. these books are made for rereading

[dreammutual-remade]

idol!you and lucas

request: please do a bullet scenario about lucas and his gf both being sm idols - anon

word count: 2.6k 

a/n: first of all,,,, this gif hurts me badly, seCOND OF ALL im so sorry for the inactivity !!  I have finals this week and I graduate really soon n ive just been v busy !!! also I had hella writers block trying to finish this ish up but I hope u like it anon !!!!its a lil hard for me to write as an idol just because thats such a Wildt lifestyle but I did my best ily

warnings: cursing n also some crying because god knows all of our boys prolly have during their idol days :(((((((

what’s up butter cup

let’s dive tf in

as a pre-warning thingy i’m making you a singer so i’m very sorry if you can’t sing i can’t either bby

alright so this story begins when you’re not even 16 years old and you audition for a bunch of companies

tbh you didn’t think you were /that/ good at singing or dancing but ???

all the companies wanted you??? you got offers from JYP and SM and Pledis ????? go off queen

we stan

anyways

you decide to go with SM since they produced leGENDS SHINEE

FUCK I LOVE THOSE GUYS

(binch if u went to JYP u literally could have been in TWICE ?!?/&.&. ABSOLUTE LEGENDS UR LOSS THOT)

also because you just think that’ll be best for you ?? idk we don’t judge here (i already did though i’m So Sorry)

on your first day as a trainee you’re in search of the female dorms and you just can’t find them

eventually you run into this,,,, Gang Of Adolescent Boys

they’re wearing dorky ass muscle tees and keep saying shit about “foreign swaggers”

(.... y’all already know who it is sjdkdkd)

and you’re Meek and New and Small so you’re like um, hellowherearethegirlsdormsplease

okay there’s four of them and they’re all fckin huge except for one

the Biggest One with the american accent points you in the right direction and you try to scurry away but end up smacking into the Second Biggest One’s arm because he moved in your way on accident ouchie

“god lucas why don’t you just run the poor girl over”

“hYUNG PLEASE”

“hehehhehe i’m just kiddin”

and you just kind of mumble that it’s fine and go on your way

okay so you train for three yEARS before your debut

and you def come out of your shell alright like you’re Extroverted and whatnot

you still see those boys and even make friends with mark and donghyuck and the Foreign Members

but the entirety of the group you met has debuted except Lucas

you’re not close but you wave and say hi when you see each other

you turn pink everytime from Emotions and also Holding Your Breathe Due To Anxiety

and he was cute years ago but he’s only gotten prettier with age dude

they recently dyed his hair to give him some Blonde Stuff and he looks reaLLY GOOD

LIKE TO THE POINT WHERE U HAVE TROUBLE LOOKING HIM IN THE EYE

but eventually you’re like hey now i’m a grown woman i can handle this giant childish man !!! quit that @ emotions

alright so you debut like, days before him no lie

you’re a solo artist bc idk

red velvet was full 😔🤟

anyways you’ve been filming the video for the past couple weeks and the concept is sort of filmy and shimmery like old sparkly anime water u kno ?

and you’re wearing similar stuff to what ten was wearing in the new heroes mv (BIG OOF) except less warm toned ?

like swishy sort of see through white shirts and spandex underneath

you’re a Beautiful and Skilled dancer so they have u all over the place with this choreo

on the FLOOR on the WALL in the AIR

no joke they had you in a harness doing cool swirly shit in the air this is the stuff of legends my g

but like the inside of SM ? is very cold

if you’re not filming you’re bundled up in a blanket and trying to rub the goosebumps out of your arms and legs

because you have to look all smooth and flawless for filming and those are two things goosies are not

luckily the song wasn’t a huge ballad because it’s rather hard to belt out long ass notes when you’re upside down lmao

anyways, the song is a bop and the mv is beautiful and you are wearing minimal clothing and although these are all nice things but also

RECIPE FOR DISASTER

the filming is almost done thank GOD

you’re taking a break from filming and you go out in the hall in your costume to go get another water bottle because ain’t nobody around to give a pre debut thot a water bottle 🤧🤧

your arms are wrapped around yourself when lucas jogs up behind you and throws his jacket around you??

literally throws it like you made an oof noise

“um ,? thank you that was aggressive”

“i knOw i’m sorry it’s just you are practically naked and it’s Cold in here and also walking behind you i noticed you were Very Exposed sO”

you turn bright red because that means everyone has seen your ass prolly and you duck your head and pull the jacket tighter around yourself

“oh! i’m sorry i mean you look uhh? really good ?? yeah you look good nOT that i was looking super hard or anything or that i uH saw aNything BUt if i did it would look good i’m sure nOT THAT I thInK about that ?$/&/“

and now you’re both blushing very hard but you feel a little better when you see he’s just as flustered as you

you brush your fingers on his forearm to get him to stop staring at the floor and tell him thanks and ask about when he’s debuting

he tells you the mv filming is done since they had to go Real Far Away to do it and get it done ahead of time and that the teasers will be out in three weeks and then the mv release and then its Show Time Baby

you’re excited for him and he’s excited and you debut really soon as well and he’s excited for you and !!!!!

there’s excitement all over the place

he’s smiling so big and his eyes are cute and crinkly and :(((((

you still got a crush on him /sigh/

one of the staff literally yells your name down the hall and you’re like aw shit that’s my cue lol

you leave him with with a lil squeeze of his bicep and you’re BOTH shook

him because ?? was that fLIRTING

you because ?? THAT WAS FLIRTING

also because his biceps are thicc i’m gonna cry

big baby stands there for like 3 mins just shook and with uwus oozing from his pores

you skrt very quickly to avoid the consequences of your actions and get back to filming

okay TIME SKIP

your mv was released and did GOOD AS FUCK

you didn’t hear it from me but lucas + nct boys were seen on vlive jamming the fuck out to your song

you’re backstage like 10 mins from going on and having an absolute panic attack

what if you trip ??? or your voice breaks !!:&::

what if all the reviews say you’re Trash live and that the mv was better since they edited

what if you FLOP AND HAVE NO FANS

NO ONE DOES THE FANCHANTS

FUCK FUXKFUCKFUXKCUDJ

so you do call the king of debuts

mark lee

and you’re like mARK FUCK IM GOING TO CRASH AND BURN PLEAS LLSSE DHELPD ME

he tells you to Calm The Fuck Down and assures you it’ll be fine but it’s not working and mark is but a young boy he don’t know how to deal with FEMALES

you hear some deep ass voice on the other side ask who’s on the phone and mark says your name and then the voice is closer and deMANDING to be given the phone

u already kno it’s our boy yukhei

he can hear you gasping through the phone and having a mental breakdown and immediately makes his voice all low and soft

wow i’m , affected writing this shit

“hey, y/n, listen to me, you’re okay, you’re fine. i promise it’ll be okay.”

“bUT WHAT IF I-“

“you won’t. you’ve worked too hard and practiced too much. i know you i saw you do it. do NOT let all of that go down the drain. you can do this. now get your cute ass out there and take NO SHIT”

“i know but i am, scared”

“don’t be! this is what you love isnt it?”

“i mean,,,, yeah”

“and you want to do this more than anything don’t you?”

“well , yeah”

“then for gods sake don’t be a wimp and do it”

“hey i miss the part of this conversation where you were being nice to me”

“that part’s over babe you need some TOUGH LOVE now please for me and for yourSELF get out there”

“okay.. thanks lucas”

“anything for you, angel”

yOU HANG UP SO QUICK

how dare he

you were all Comforted but then he went on with that angel bullshit

okay long story short you ended the industry dude

all solo artists BOW BEFORE YOU

VOCAL QUEEN

DANCE QUEEN

lucas: shaking because His Angel did so well and you were wearing white and actually looked like an angel

but you don’t see him for the next like twO MONTHS because he’s promoting boss and you’re promoting your single and neither of you are home ever

when you do get a second to yourself you try to send him an encouraging text but

you seldom get a second to yourself :(((

he does the same thing and they’re so sweet :(

“good morning i hope u slept well !!”

“princess don’t forget 2 hydrate”

“i saw ur mnet performance u looked beautiful <333”

this man is practically begging you to wife him up i mean

he’s cute

he’s BIG and WARM

very sweet to you :(

talented and lovely

absolute dweeb

supportive of you even from great distances

BEST BOY UWU

you try to be just as encouraging back because he deserves it UGH

“bub don’t forget to eat i know ur hungry rn”

“!!!!!! you came foR MY LUNGS WITH THAT CENTER DANCE AT THE END BOI”

“why are u sending me messages u need to rest bby :((“

when things calm down though you,, see each other

he doesn’t formally ask you out and you don’t say anything but, youre dating sort of kind of

as idols you’re both still so so busy and you JUST debuted so neither of you are really allowed to date anyways

you settle for little bits of cuddling and secret touches as you pass each other in the hall

you both stand outside of your respective dorms at night to facetime without waking your dorm mates

he desperately wants to go on dates and do Normal Couple things but there’s no time :(

the most affectionate you’ve ever been is when the girl group who shares a dorm with you was out promoting and you had him over and you took a nap together :((((

he Insisted upon being the big spoon and basically wrapped your whole body up with his limbs

pressed a few lil kisses to the back of your neck and your shoulder when he thought you were asleep

you weren’t though and you turned around to kiss him on the cheek and then tuck your face into his neck and pass tf out

he has to leave though because mark texts him and is like YO I KNO UR WITH Y/N AND HER ROOMMATES ARE ON THE WAY HOME

ABORT MISSION DUDE

and that’s pretty much it :(

months pass without much between you even though you’re trying your best

and even though you live in dorms you’re still so lonely especially when you’re traveling because you don’t have any group members

you don’t want to annoy or worry lucas though so you don’t complain

he notices though and late at night he’ll call you while you’re in bed and talk about his day and how he misses you and wishes you were there

and when you get all emo he says he’ll be waiting for you at the airport

(he really does he goes and hides in the bathroom and texts you so you can go in there and TACKLE HIM)

he still calls you angel all the time :((((

god that’s another weakness of mine ??? IM SUCH A WUSS

but it has specifically changed to “my angel”

uwu

your first kiss and first Real Confession happens on the Worst Day Of Your Life

you’re about to go on stage (you’ve released an album since your debut so this is new stuff) when you get a call from your mom ??

she’s crying and tells you your grandma is sick and in the hospital and it’s really bad

immediately you’re barely holding yourself together because that woman half raised you and was the reason you stayed in dance and worked so hard to become who you are today

there are tears streaming down your face already and the makeup team is fluttering around you trying to fix what you’re messing up and it’s bad

you still have to go on though so you go and perform with tears in your eyes and your manager yells at you after for not pulling it together

you go home in tears and then you’re not looking where you’re going and ran straight into a staff who yells at you some more for being some entitled idol brat

originally you weren’t gonna say anything to lucas but, the staff pushed you over the edge and you call him in tears and are incoherent and can barely tell him where you are before you hang up

our boy BURSTS into your room and sees you sitting on the floor with your face buried in your knees and 🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨 !!

he gathers you in his arms and sits on the bed with you curled up on his lap

he holds you close and rubs a comforting hand up and down your back at the same time as he frantically tries to figure out what’s wrong

“y/n?? baby what’s wrong? angel, please you gotta tell me or i cant help”

“i jjJJUST Got a cALL and my grandMA IS SICK AND THEN I DI D BAD AND DISAPPOINTED EVERYONE AND My mManageR yeYELLED at me and theN I RAN iNtO a staffF meMbEr and he yELled at me too and I JSUT .$:&:&;& i’m sO SORRY u doNT need to deAL WIYH ME you have problems of YouR own and-“

“shhh listen to me i always care about you okay? angel, i want to help you no matter what you know that. also, if you weren’t so distraught i would go beat some SM ass you didn’t deserve to be yelled at :(((( how about we call your mom and check for updates with your grandma and i’ll stay here with you for the night?”

you nod and then reach for your phone while keeping as much physical contact with lucas as possible

he’s the only reason you haven’t reached the Depression Point Of No Return so

we stayin close

you put your mom on speaker and set your phone down before squishing yourself back into his chest and sniffling while the phone rings

your mom answers and you shakily ask for any updates and she tells you not much but your grandma has improved and they think that within a couple weeks she’ll be better

you cry some more and tell her you love them both and you’re so relieved and lucas kisses the crown of your head and is just There For Comforting

once you hang up and you’ve calmed down a little more you back up a little and turn to face him

“hey thank you so much, you didn’t have to come and help me so much but you’ve always been there to make me stop Freaking Out and laugh and i just, love you. yeah that’s what it is. I LOVE YOU I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU, WONG YUKHE-“

he cuts you off by snatching your face in his big warm hands and kissing you right on the lips

he then kisses your nose and your forehead and pulls you back into his lap to tuck you under his chin

“it’s all for you, angel ;)))) i love you more”