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I FORGOT TO THROW OUT AFTER THE EPISODE RELEASED NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
#hand jumper#webtoon#sayeon lee#heron#ig??? BRUH..................#these fireworks are going to SET ME ON FIRE!!!!#but that's alr i guess!!!!!!!!!#because charcoal grilled prawn literally solves all my problems#before thinking about killing people i need everyone to sit down and think of their favourite food#and manifest the version of them that has it!!!!!!!!#maybe then all compulsions and intrusions of the mind can just go away#what if we all just pictured better versions of ourselves and just did it!!!#if we all stretched out our hands and tried we can at least live in the world knowing we did try!!#and it's better than not trying!!!!! AND BEING USELESS PIECES OF ROTTING GARBAGE!!!!!!#idk i've had a shit three years man i don't think i can take this any longer#IGNORE THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#AND INSTEAD NOW LET'S THINK OF THE GOODIES YOU'RE GONNA GET IN TWO WEEKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#or now if you offer up your wallet to OUR LORD AND SAVIOUR sleepacross#and for the SMALL price of 5USD that's right 5USD!!!! this is to the people with credit/debit cards ofc#YOU CAN ACCESS THE GOATACROSS QNA BECAUSE IT IS PEAK!!!!!!#but just because the juninators[on here in case they aren't in the server] need to hear this so we can all sing happy birthday to her#INSTEAD OF MISSING IT FOR TWO YEARS#AND HAVING A WHOLE WINTER/CHRISTMAS COMPETITION IN DISCORD WITH MEMES AND ALL WITHOUT THIS CRUCIAL INFORMATION!!!!!!!#I THINK BECAUSE I KEEP THESE IN TAGS IT'S SAFE TO SAY THAT HER BIRTHDAY IS DEC 24TH AND WE SHOULD ALL SAY HAPPY LATE/HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY#TO OUR BELOVED QUEEN JUNI CHANG#BECAUSE NOW I JUST SHAFTED A 40K WIP I NEVER FINISHED FOR LAST YEAR'S WINTER SEASON FOR THE CHRISTMAS EPISODE OF 2024 IN THE RECYCLE BIN!!#BUT NOW WE CAN GIVE HER QUINTICE THE AMOUNT OF GIFTS THIS YEAR!!!!!!!!!!! SO LET'S DO THAT INSTEAD!!!!#ONE FOR HER BIRTHDAY!!!! ONE FOR CHRISLER!!! ONE FOR CIVIL SERVICE APPRECIATION DAY!!!!!#ANOTHER FOR BEING PEAK MENTOR!!!!! AND ANOTHER ONE FOR BEING GOD'S SILLIEST SOLDIER!!!![in our hearts!!]#APOLOGIES AS ALWAYS IF YOU MADE IT THIS FAR HERE!!!! AND A GOOD EVENING TO YOU ALL!!!!
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I need to buy myself a really expensive lego set.... as a treat.
#I have been a huge fan of legos for uh... many many too many years#and every year they get more and more expensive :(#granted they also use more pieces are are more detailed/ornate though#and overall look better#NO ONE talk to me about the history of ninjago dragon heads by the way#that will lead me onto a huge ass debate#but in summary:#brick built heads >>>>> molded heads#and with ninjago specifically#the heads went from molded#then SICKASS BRICK BUILT#EVERY DRAGON HEAD WAS SO UNIQUE AND DIFFERENT#And I remember when the FIRST dragon was released where it had a brick built head for the first time and!!!!!#ah what a trend setter that was#then. they went back to MOLDED.#WHY.#EVERY DRAGON HEAD LOOKS THE SAME AGAIN#and some dumbass print#wheres the imagination and fun w/ a giant mold with a dumbass print#and lately its been leaning into a mix of brick built and molded?#I think they are leaning away from the pure molded heads though#but now dont know what to do#I dont even like ninjago I just like the dragon builds man#enjoy a tag ramble my mutuals#if you made it this far into the tag ramble about LEGOS um??#thank you???#and im giving you a big hug with my mind
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I sometimes wonder,... do you miss me? Think about me?
#bit of a ârantâ / personal#feeling strange lately#can't really put it in words but...#dunno... lots of thoughts in my mind#not feeling good nor really bad#just... weirdly empty - maybe just tired#and havin the constant urge of leaving - just... pack everything and go far far away#I really miss having someone to really connect with... a soulmate#I still feel so out of place in my home - with the people around me - with my âfamilyâ#:sigh: dunno#I'll try to be strong#the sun cant always shine eh?#â« But I believe that any dream worth having. Is a dream that should not have to end.#So I'll build a dream that I can live in.
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head hurty
#was up so fucking late last night stressed out of my mind#cause it turns out all the stress and sacrifices i made for the foundational course i took??#all for fucking nothing#''the waitlist hasn't moved.'' yeah cause y'all brought in way more foundations students#than u actually had the diploma course space for#and like. theres nothing else i can fucking do.#if i try to get into a university i'd have to do something like a foundations course all over again#and have to do a bunch of shit i have no interest/talent in in order to get to the stuff i DO have interest/talent in#which is just fucking stupid. why the fuck is it set up like that.#if i'm trying to get into a uni creative writing course why the FUCK do i need to take SCIENCE#and i can't do online courses that are just writing. cause i can't fucking FOCUS in an online course#and any other course i might be interested in are in schools that are too damn far away and that i cant afford#so basically. i can do fucking nothing.#but once i tell my parents that the waitlist hasn't moved and that im definitely not gonna make it in#they're going to start HOUNDING me. even more than they already constantly do#im gonna have to sit through 3 hours of them yelling at me to ''stop pretending to be an idiot'#and to ''pull my life together''#and that ''everyone has to do stuff they don't like sometimes''#(yeah well my brain doesn't work like that. if i dont like the subject of the course i literally CAN'T LEARN)#(i will just straight up not retain any of the information and just be annoyed and stressed and upset the whole time)#and my parents will tell me im gonna end up living under a bridge for the thousandth time#and then they'll threaten to kick me out of the house/take away my internet for the millionth time#and then this will happen every day until i get into SOMETHING
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I need someone to make a post like
I'm so sick of "platonic ideal" this and "platonic ideal" that where the hell is "erotic ideal" "sexy ideal" "horny asf ideal"
so I can draw ZEX as a word bubble reblog to it
#Obviously it wouldn't do for me to reply to myself lol#Anyway welcome to - *calculates* - Hour 21 of today's wakefulness to fix my sleep schedule lol#When was the last one? I've forgotten but I always do this method so it feels very familiar even if I can't pin down when#Was hoping to get to 24 - still might but not looking super likely lol#Still - it's only Day 1 yet#How serious is this post? Idk man my eyes are barely open lol#Shower thoughts when sleep is far away are fickle things#Just enjoying the silly goofy#He's been on my mind lately love that handsome VUX <3#Silly pretty lads#SCII#Shitpost#Lol
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okay google how do i move out of eastern europe but stay in the eu but go somewhere i speak the language but somewhere that has healthcare and somewhere where i dont need to become a construction worker and also somewhere that is not germany. thanks
#i wanna go to aotearoa I've always wanted to but it's so FAR AWAY. also i need somewhere cold also i#love authentic gothic buildings too much to leave europe. but omfggggg#like it's truly so. i dont want to move somewhere where english isnt a main language but the#uk is out and ireland is unlikely and canada is just somewhat nicer french usa and nz is 4 days travel away. blows up#whatever i have 4 semesters of uni left to think about it. it just feels like im#hurtling full speed at the inevitability of living the rest of my life in Germany#i dont want to live in germany idek why but im sooo. like omg nooo đđđ#partly because it's such a clichĂ© but also coz it's such a vacation country for me like we#went there for vacation like. unironically at least 3 times every single year#insert joke abt *getting back at the 10000000000 german tourists that come to hungary every day* that I'm too sleepy to make#it's so . like i used to have a specific goal in mind (uk âčïž) but then SOMEONE had to go and leave the eu#and also the uk sucks fat shit like csöbörbĆl vödörbe omg. but now i have no#real goal so im just drifting w the vague knowledge that any second now I'll have to pack all my#shit up and escape before it's too late. but where đđđ#i have no qualms abt leaving my f*mily behind but I'll miss budapest#and if i left Europe I'd miss it too especially coz even canada feels really far let alone nz which yknow. 3-4 days of travel#it's the lack of goals that's killing me like OMFGG HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO WORK HARD AND#STRIVE FOR SMTG WHEN I HAVE NOTHING SPECIFIC IN MIND...#i mean ''get the fuck out'' is something but it's not Enough. i need to be insane about a#place that's accessible. all the cities/locations im crazy about are inaccessible for one reason or another#bristol and wales are in the uk. nz is on the exact opposite side of the planet. life so sad.#canada is the most likely one honestly but like omgggg. godddddjfdnffnfjfmmf#they should invent a budapest that's not in hungary. they should invent a hungary that isn't comically awful#barking#ok to rb#eastern europe#like im fluent in 3 languages and i can get by in like 10 other ones i Could brush up on any language relatively quickly if it came to that#but it's like. 1. I'd have to pick a location 2. learning a new language also means#getting an entire new personality as well which yknow. idk if i have the capacity for another one rn#i should just become fluent in the ones im somewhat good at but idk which to pick
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I know I'm not posting much lately but I started a new job and--yeah
And it's not that I don't think abt Metallica, it's more like that my thoughts go like
"king nothing > memory. Which is not a unpopular opinion, per se, but like. Memory won the continuity live war till 2023. What a world we live in"
And
"WELCOME TO THIS LIFE
BORN INTO THE FIGHT
HERE TO CLAIM YOUR DREAM
Dreams..... No?
Dream SIGULAR. I forgot that it was singular, I sang it plural, here to claim your dreams. Usually in English don't you say "claim your dreamS"? Ohhhhhh, but it's singular bc for james it can't be anything else.
>>>>>'there was no plan b. Plan b, c, d was making plan a work'
This is autobiographical as UN1, which also starts with birth seen as something immediately difficult. But screaming Suicide is more Abt yourself -you, your voice- and something external giving you a hand; while UN1 is others, what others do to you-- till it transforms you"
#metallica#song related#screaming suicide#the unforgiven i#un1#james hetfield#(d)jinn all'opera#my mind is a bit of a mess lately#i am currently teaching english to 3-5 yo and let me tell you-- it's wrecking my nerves snskskskssk#not the kids. it's not easy but they are full of love#no it's that i am not qualified to do it. i know jack shit abt pedagogy and ive never worked with kids of that age. and#it's a super posh kindergarden???? amd every week i have to do 3 different project that i came up with BY MYSELF?????#snksksks so yeah. i spend most of my energy burning anxiety and bicycling djdjdkjddj bc it's far away#i am a mess. i listen to tallica to decompress and my mind is dumb#and obsess over singular vs plural#like. i know there is nothing connecting un1 and ss together#ss is connected to cyanide. duh! and i'll get to that one day bc its BEAUTIFUL#but i am tired and idk what im saying anymore. is this a post?#so so messy#jinn out
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totk meme prompts / accepting / @gloryseized ( Link )
<< â you look distracted. whatâs wrong? â >>
     Mr. Link's food is unfairly delicious.
     The fish is soft and juicy. The broth: rich and fragrant with spice. Even the floating bits of greens and vegetables are somehow too good to pass up; this is probably the best creamy seafood soup Kido's ever had in his entire life.
     He can't bring himself to go for a fourth beakful.
     "Nothing," Kido says, too many moments later 'cause he's gotta force his voice out around whatever's clumped up at the base of his throat. He hates the way it wavers, dipping like something is wrong when it isn't. It isn't. Everything's great, everything's fine â he tries bolstering his weakened answer with, "this is really good," and even, after several seconds, lifts his bowl up to his beak to prove it.
     The taste hasn't changed. It's not like Kido wants it to â no person in their right mind would â and yet, disappointment twists in his gut. A strange ache grips his heart. Something dangerously close to yearning prickles beneath his feathers and it's all like some weird aftertaste, unwelcome in the face of this perfect meal.
     But that's the thing, isn't it? Mr. Link's cooking isâ perfect. Not like Genli's, who's still learning and likes leaving things in the pot for juuust too long. Not like Auntie Misa's, who's mastered timing but can be a little forgetful when it comes to flavour. Not like Uncle Nekk's, who apparently prefers his fish too dry, or Uncle Verla's, or Auntie Saki's, or anybody's back at home.
     Kido doesn't want to admit it after so many winters of wishing for this exact kind of night, eating beneath constellations he's more often seen mapped out by wings than by starlight, embraced in completely unfamiliar Windlines â butâ but.
     He doesn't take another sip.
#gloryseized#12. gloryseized#( this is so late and i apologise for that but!! idea popped into my head when you mentioned the concept#of kido and li.nk travelling together and i finally got to cranking this out ahhh don't mind the length!!#homesick kid who refuses to admit he's homesick because he really does like and want to travel rip#he's just never been away this far and for this long! give him some time to adjust :')#THANKS FOR THIS BTW ily hilary <3 )#* reprise / ic.#* reprise / answer.#* ic / para.#* v / song of the taming.
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...What if I told you I had an absolute shit ton of Pokemon trainer OCs I want to share?
#Static screams into the void#And a lot of them are psychics.#Because Psychic trainers are cool.#So far I have:#a re-vamp of my Pokemon XY (and kinda Sun/Moon) OC from when I was 15#Who is now Lysandre's niece that wants to run away from Team Flare. (And Shauna's rival)#A Sword/Shield dude (who is a weirdo backpacker that can talk to ghosts)#My Scarlet/Violet dude who's a psychic and famous actor who took a 'break' from acting to be a teacher at the academy.#(And is also my XY OC's uncle on her late mother's side)#and recently I've been thinking of making a Sun/Moon Team Skull dude.#I love all of these OCs so fucking much man-#I just haven't had the time/motivation to post about them.#I'm half-tempted to make a dedicated sideblog for them since I have so many.#But it feels kinda weird to make a sideblog just for that.#If anyone is interested in that though I'll consider it.#(I might do it anyway if I really want to though dhfjshfj)#Sorry to randomly Pokemon infodump on ya dudes-#But these OCs have been on my mind a lot recently.#I might also make a similar sideblog for my Owl House OCs since I have a lot of OCs I want to show outside of Raven.#But not sure-#Making/designing characters is just fun as hell I guess.
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random thought usually i kin characters that i love the most or characters i rather hate in a way (hate is too strong of a word though hmm)
#i usually don't exactly share things outright or directly abt myself to others. if you go out of your way to do so or analyze me you're#always welcome to do so ngl that intrigues me a lot. i do that w others often n the idea of the same happening to me just feels too foreign#i know hmm why exactly i'm like this rn n i don't care enough anymore to rlly write about it anymore#each time i think i write too much or say too much that's usually when i get worse n worse#earlier this year this summer when i was doing pretty well but then.. 'i talk too much'#n then part of me just disappeared since then#it hurts when it always feels like a part of me is just always hidden in a way. not that it's my intention bcs#i really want to just be myself n be authentic or wtvr but#this.. loneliness that has always been with me that i#hmm. thinking abt it n i haven't had any good dreams lately huh. despite sleeping early i still haven't rlly slept well#n the real world feels like a dream too. n then#this emptiness that's just always there despite all the things that have made me happy lately. it all feels like a dream#the past feels so far away. the sight of the stars the dawn on the horizon. the clouds yonder over the beach#all of it slipping out of my reach. the chill breeze hugging me n how free i felt in all those moments#reaching out.. reaching out wld leave me be to either fall or drown#in a literal sense n. also metaphorically#in hesitance for either outcome. perhaps everything's just taken away by the wind instead.#every trace taken away by the rain that floods my mind?#dunno what i'm writing. i just can't feel that i'm.. living properly. despite all of this#that disconnection or wtvr along w the regret n guilt n wtvr that just. piled up or wtvr#i lost a part of me that night. all these reflections confuse me so much n just warp my mind to other worlds#dilemmas so many dilemmas n these thoughts n emotions just contradict so painfully n#i'm fine. but. i don't want to forsake my progress or my younger n future self n#who am i? what do i want? why can't i.. reach out? incompetence on so many levels it gets hard to hold unto myself#but still i'll hope i guess. still dream n wish n write. but i'm just losing my energy n motivation to connect w reality#i'm sorry. for everything. so much i can't write.. but everything's crammed in my head or smth. but i'll be fine i'm fine#this is my fault. i'll do this on my own. i'm sorry#it's so confusing bcs i love myself more than i hate myself n i know what i need n should do but. yeah#i'll be fine eventually. with wtvr i'll do n wtvr pain so long as i still live even if i lose hope so long as i hold unto tomorrow..#i'm too tired to reach out for others n for myself anymore. i'm sorry. i'll be fine though i'll just think of other stuff for now
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#tag talk#I want to ramble about my views on the supernatural but I also really don't want to speak anything into being#I genuinely have a fearful respect for the supernatural that manifests itself by keeping that shit away from me with a ten foot pole#I've known people who claim to have some level of clairvoyance and because of that I've made boundaries between me and them#because I genuinely do not fuck with spirits or ghosts or anything supernatural at all#because whether by accident or joy or malice toys get broken and I don't want to be in anyone's toy box#whatever barrier exists between my physical existence of joy and friendship and the supernatural existence I would like to stay put#when I was a kid I burnt ants with a magnifying glass and crucified frogs and impaled locust on cactus#and I fear the same level of curious dissection that permeated the culture I grew up in#the casual destruction of things people had built simply because it was fascinating#I have a friend who claims to see ghosts and hear spirits. and I don't fuck with that one bit#either her childhood house has hella mold and also retraumatizes her regularly or she's genuinely clairvoyant#and her ghosts have quieted since she moved out which might speak to the former#but I still maintain boundaries about topics because I don't want to risk shit.#my life is rough enough as it is that I don't want to risk infection. once you open that door you can't close it.#anyway. I don't fuck with spirits or ghosts#Late Night With the Devil is a really good movie btw that's what sparked this ramble.#really good but just tipped over the edge of my boudnaries so I had fun watching it but yikes#a little too close to home for me to enjoy#perks of growing up in a community that encouraged magical thinking and belief in spiritual warfare#anyway. I'm gonna go play btd6 to clear my mind and close whatever gates may have opened#lose the attention of whatever being channel by being observed. that's the thing.#thinking about them. watching them. seeing them. they thrive on being observed.#speak of the devil and he will appear.#so I do not think of. I do not speak of.#and frankly this tag ramble is too far as it is. I shouldn't even post this but oh well.#gotta edge that trauma somehow right?#I'm lowkey glad the summoning circle carved into my leg never really scarred enough to stay.#I don't need that shit following me.#teenage years were bad and frankly I'm glad I'm never going back to that
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i may love being alone but i hate being alone
#my roommate left today and is gonna be gone for a week and i'm already going insane#i'm trying to keep myself distracted but it's still too quiet i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it#i do not understand my own mind. when shes here i'm perfectly fine keeping to myself if thats what i want#but knowing that shes not in the next room or whatever and isnt just at work or something is. not okay with my brain#maybe its cause i live in a new place far away from family or friends. idk. god#ive been talking so much lately im sorry hwbsnfmskvkks#âËâčâËâïž bunny babbles âËâčâË
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â PROF. GETO'S CLASS IS SO HARD, BUT HE'S SO HOT!! â
⧠pairing: professor!geto x f!reader (part one of the prof geto series)
⧠summary: you were a 4.0, straight A student, until professor geto's class, the same far too hot ethics professor fawned over by faculty and students alike. you didn't understand what was so special about him...until you start having dreams about him.
⧠warnings: 18+, nsfw, a lot of smut (mostly fantasy), depictions of student/teacher relationship (only ok in fiction not irl!!!), reader is a grad student in my mind, but age is vague, masturbation (f + m), fingering (f! receiving), sex (p in v), getting off to his voice in recorded lectures, arousal from reading his writing, amateur's take on moral philsophy and ethics, art by @/jatinsohanvi, google scholar graphic by platonic loml @laneysmusings
⧠wc: 10,149 (i have a problem) | part two
âYouâre late,âÂ
Your first impression of Professor Suguru Getoâs class was that you could never be late again, unless you would like to be chided in front of all your peers for your tardiness.Â
Your first impression of Professor Suguru Geto himself was that he was truly the most breathtaking man youâd ever laid your eyes on. His inky black locks tied into a neat bun, his deep royal purple vest buttoned over a crisp white button up with pressed gray slacks, his pretty lips pressed in a small frown, as his dark gaze pierced through you. And you donât know what stirs in your chest â a fleeting moment that is tucked away under a bite of your bottom lip and burning cheeks.Â
And now you knew why when you had walked into class, the amount of unfamiliar faces in this course had far outnumbered the ones in your usual course load â the same reason why this man undoubtedly had three chili peppers next to his professor rating on some website out there.Â
And now you were faced with him staring you down as you stumbled down the stairs of the all too full lecture hall.Â
As you muttered apologies, and took your seat far too close to the front of the class, smack dab in the very front of the very same professor whose eyes still were concentrated on you, before sliding back to the class at large.Â
âNow, where were we?â he says, continuing the lecture.Â
Ethics was not your major â you were a philosophy grad student, and although the two went hand in hand â no, they were not the same thing. Ethics are the moral principles â like rules to follow to live a moral life â people can follow, while philosophy is the study of knowledge, reality, and existence. And this class encompassed both â an ethics and moral philosophy class. Your eyes slid around the room â and compared to all the random majors stuffed into this classroom, you had no doubt youâd do well. Your eyes met Professor Getoâs â maybe one slight doubt.Â
And when you get your first essay back, you eagerly flip to the last page of the paper, wondering what accolades and compliments youâd receive this time. Your eyes find the grade, and your stomach drops, a gaping maw that consumes you from the inside out.Â
You got a B.Â
A B+ â an 88 on your paper in this course, and you stared at the grade on the very last page of the paper you had collected from his desk â Professor Geto had insisted everyone submit their papers both physically and electronically â his scrawl in red pen littered each page of what you thought was a thoughtful and even clever paper on the existence free will and the ethical and moral dilemmas that surround it. And he had given it an 88.Â
You had a 4.0 point average â you had gotten the highest scores in some of the most difficult courses required by your major, and now you were going to be derailed by a class you took on a whim? Thatâs not happening. No, you were going to get him to change your grade. You were seeing as red as the ink that tore your paper to shreds.Â
âCome in,â your knuckles had rapped against Professor Getoâs door, your heart in your throat, as you heard his reply, entering his office. His office was as pretentious as he was. A much larger office than you had seen before (poor Professor Ijichi had a shoebox of an office), while Professor Getoâs was three times the size, outfitted with large, beautiful windows, distinct bookshelves, and even a lovely deep mahogany colored couch with decorative cushions. And you knew why that was the case â Professor Geto was an expert in his field, revered, even at his relatively young age. And the university had coveted him, and managed to lure him to work behind these ivy covered walls. While other professors who have been here longer are stuck with offices that donât begin to compare.Â
Academia was truly hell.Â
And yet, Professor Geto seemed to rule over it with an iron fist. Even now, you found your professor looking as annoyingly perfect as ever â his elbow resting against his desk, pen in his other hand, as he flipped through more papers on his desk, his hair in a messy bun, a few black strands falling across his furrowed brow, his pretty lips pursed in concentration, and his dark gaze flicks up from his work to you, and his lips curl, your name leaving his lips, âgood to see you, please sit,âÂ
You had planned to attend these office hours in victory, to apologize for your misstep in the first class, and let your professor praise your paper to no end â but instead you were going to see why your paper was graded so harshly.Â
Your speech was ready, you were going to lay it out, you had the perfect explanation and the excellent reasoning âProfessor GetoââÂ
âI know why youâre here,â he cuts you off, lips forming in an utterly condescending smile, âyou want to discuss your paper, correct?âÂ
âI am, I wanted toââÂ
He sits forward in his chair, setting down his pen, âIâm going to save us some time by explaining my comments on your paper, do you have it?â and you close your mouth, pulling the paper out of your folder and handing it to him, âYour paper was one of the best in the class â it was thought provoking, grounded in research, persuasive, even made me consider some points I hadnât beforeââÂ
You blink, his praise catching you off guard, your thoughts twisting in on themselves, âThen why did you give me B?âÂ
âYou didnât allow me to finish,â he sighs, as he flips through your paper, looking up to meet your gaze, âyour paper was excellent when it came to philosophical concepts, but your ethical conclusions on the other hand, could use some work,âÂ
You gaped at him, âWhat did I possiblyââÂ
âTo put it simply, you were trying to use your knowledge of philosophy to cover up your lack of knowledge in the field of ethics,âÂ
âI wasnâtââÂ
âAnd thatâs okay, because that means I have something to teach you donât I? Thatâs why youâre in this course, to learn,â he gives a tight lipped smile, tilting his head. Oh youâd like to learn a lot more from him â like the ethical dilemma of wanting to murder your professor, âand Iâm here to teach â and this paper is a teaching moment â and from your expression, I assume you didnât read the comments I left in detail,âÂ
And your cheeks burn, as your eyes fall away from him, âNot fully in detail,â you still swallow your shame, and meet his gaze, âI donât mean to be a bother, Professor, but how can my paper still receive a B â Iâve never received that low of a score on any single paperââÂ
âThereâs a first time for everything,â and you have to bite back your retort, âyeah first time having an annoying prick for a professor,â and he rises from his desk to hand you back your paper, âthe bottom line is, I know youâre capable of better, this class isnât going to be easy â Iâm not going to hand you accolades for no reason. You have to earn them â if you arenât up for the challenge, you can drop the class.âÂ
The option was there â you could simply drop the course, rid yourself of Professor Geto and his ridiculous criticism forever. You could take a class with one of the many professors who delighted in your papers (even the ones youâd written at 3 AM and submitted not proofread), and go on with your life and preserve your 4.0 GPA with ease.Â
But then you looked at him again. He was unfairly hot, even when he was fucking putting you down, he stood in front of you, offering your paper, his fingers long and thick brushing yours by mistake as you took back your paper, a watch on his wrist gleamed in the low light of his office. You glanced around his office, saw the awards on his walls, pictures of him giving lectures or receiving honors, and the books that lined his shelves werenât dissimilar to your own academic shelf at home. And your eyes fell back to his, as he stared at you curiously, lips pursed, as your paper slightly crumples in your fist.Â
âNext paper is due in two weeks?â and he pauses, before his lips curl in that same grin.Â
âYes it is,â and a smile graces your lips, lightning quick.
Like hell you were going to let him win. You were going to get him to praise your papers (and maybe that wouldnât be the only thing he praised) â if it was the last thing you do. Youâd get an A in his class, hell, youâd get him to beg you to be his teaching assistant (heâd look very nice on his knees for you, wouldnât he?).Â
You rise from your seat, and grab your bag, âIâll see you at your next office hours then, to discuss my paper topic,â and he watches you leave, his eyes piercing into your back as you do.Â
âSee you soon.âÂ
Oh, he would.Â
âRight on time,â Professor Geto barely looks up now when you knock on his door, his door now always ajar for office hours.Â
Now you had made a habit of showing up for his office hours, youâd bring your paper topic all picked out, along with your handpicked sources you had chosen for your paper, all typed up in a neat bibliography. And heâd kindly rip it apart with that same damn smile on his lips. It had been a few weeks, a few papers later â and you finally had worked your grade up to an A-, not quite an A+, but youâd get there. You had to.Â
Because it wasnât just about your GPA now â you were going to get Professor Geto to praise you â through any means necessary. The man was stubborn, even when youâd come back with an improved draft, heâd only hand it back to you with a smile barely tugging at the corner of his lips, with no compliment to be had â only small check marks scribbled in the margins in your papers, with the occasional âgoodâ written next to it.Â
âWell, we all know what happens when Iâm late,â he laughs, a noise that makes the ice dagger clutched behind your back ever so slightly melt, âI made you laugh, extra credit?âÂ
And he rolls his eyes, and you notice that his dark eyes are hidden behind glasses today â and god, why does it only make him even more gorgeous? Heâs already brilliant, itâs unfair for him to look as if he was sculpted by the gods as well, âIt takes a lot more than a chuckle to earn extra credit,â and you canât help but bite your lip.Â
No, no, heâs the worst. It didnât matter he was the epitome of every academicâs wet dream, you were above that. You had a goal.Â
âSo, can we discuss my next paper?â you hand him your bibliography, and he takes it, delicate fingers flipping through, your mind notes the absence of a ring on either hand, before brushing the thought aside.Â
âYouâre writing on the morality of good or bad actions,â he hums, as he looks over the sources you had chosen, âScanlon, good â have you readââÂ
ââWhat We Owe to Each Other?â Only about a million times â well more like six,â and he nods appreciatively, âof course youâve read it,âÂ
âI didnât just read it, I wrote a paper on it, similar to yours, actually,â and your eyes flick up to meet his, heâs leaning forward in his chair, red pen in hand, as he scribbles notes in the margins, as well as on the back of your bibliography, âof course I donât have your penchant for rambling,âÂ
You pout, âI donât ramble â I like to make my pointââÂ
âMany times, and the same one,â and your mouth opens, only to find a wry smirk on his lips, âIâm teasing, another one of my very tedious qualities, and how you stand it during class astonishes me,âÂ
You cross your arms, unable to meet his eyes, as you choose to stare at your bibliography instead, âYouâre not completely tedious, more like irritating,â and he huffs a chuckle.Â
You had to admit, begrudgingly, Professor Geto was aâŠgood teacher. And you had your fair share of awful teachers â many of them were brilliant, accomplished people in their fields, but didnât know how to translate and convey that in their lectures to students who simply knew less than them. But GetoâŠhe knew how to break down complex concepts and theories of moral philosophy and ethics to a science, he knows how to make students understand these complicated topics that you had seen other professors fail to, and he does it while being an intellectual dreamboat to most of his students â the ones that swarm his desk after class, still there even as you slowly make your way out of the lecture hall.Â
âA rare compliment from you,â he raises an eyebrow, âIâm touched,âÂ
âYouâre one to talk,â you furrow your brow, and a smile pulls at his lips.Â
âDidnât know you wanted my approval,â he tilts his head, leaning forward to lean on his elbow on the desk, âwell, you have improved remarkably in the class so far, and if you keep going like this, I may have no choice but to praise you,âÂ
âYou will,â
âSomeone is very sure of themselves,â a pause and then he adds with a quirk of his lips, âas you should be,â and heâs sliding your bibliography across the table again, and passes it back, âread the sources I recommended, and see about adding them to your paper â you may have some overlap in the other papers you chose so use your discretion on which ones you use,âÂ
âSo donât repeat myself?â You raise an eyebrow, and he leans back in his chair, crossing his legs.Â
âYou learn fast.âÂ
And you do â returning to your apartment to work on your paper, as you flip through his notes â as much as you hate to admit it, his notes and criticism did help â annoyingly so. He was far more detailed and perceptive than any other professor you had. Most had let you skate by without a second thought, and you wrote papers like you deleted your internet history after a scandalous romp through elicit websites â tools, clear history â and then onto the next paper or exam. But Professor Geto forced you to face your shortcomings, face the things that you didnât like to give a second glance to, lest your rejection sensitive self feel the agony of having to deal with criticism.Â
Each time you did it, you got a little better, and he had a little less to say â time and time again.Â
You leaned back on your bed, scrolling through the papers he recommended, but so what? So what if he was a good teacher? Doesnât mean he has to be as infuriating as he is â he knew exactly what to do to get under your skin, and he didnât prod at it, he scratched it.Â
And you found yourself typing his name (âsuguru getoâ) and T.M. Scanlonâs name into the search bar of your universityâs library collection, and his paper pops up right on top.Â
You stare at the paper for a good minute, before you click on it â and you start reading. And reading. And reading â and fuckâÂ
It was good. It was more than that â it gave you so much insight on this topic, it made you rediscover T.M. Scanlonâs work in a new light â and you bite your lip. And it wasnât just the research â the way it organized, the way it was presented, the way it was written â it was eloquent, but it wasnât unreadable or incomprehensible. It wasâŠreally good.Â
You imagined him, pouring over Scanlonâs work as he wrote notes in the margins of his copy, pages dogeared and passages highlighted, as he sat in his office typing away at this paper. His sleeves rolled up, his hair let out of his usual bun, his glasses perched on his nose as he read, only his desk lamp and computer illuminating his office. The keys of his computer clacking under his touch, lengthy fingers pitter pattering as he wrote his thoughts and analysis of Scanlonâs work â his brow furrowed in thought.Â
And you felt yourself flush, swallowing the lump in your throat, as you kicked off your blanket â it was so warm all of a sudden, pressing your thighs together. You shook the thoughts from your mind â what the hell were you doing? You glanced at the time, 2:39 AM it read back at you mockingly. You sigh, shutting your laptop down, and putting it aside â you need to do your skincare and brush your teeth. You glance back at your laptopâthe familiar of your flush clung to your skin like a forbidden kissâÂ
And you clearly needed sleep.Â
âCan you read this passage to me?â Professor Getoâs voice said, as he stood in front of you in the lecture hall â as you stood behind the podium that faced the entire class â hands in his pockets, in an olive henley, his hair tied in the usual neat bun, his black bangs falling in his eyes as always, glasses on, instead of the usual contacts. The class sat all around you â his exercise in getting the class to participate and get comfortable speaking in front of others, just as philosophers had done in the past (his very own âliterary salonâ he called it).Â
You swallow, keeping your eyes fixed on the book in front of you, ââWhen I ask myself what reason the fact that an action would be wrong provides me with not to do it, my answer is that such an action would be one that I could not justify to others on ground I could expect them to acceptâââÂ
âWhat do you think Scanlon meant by this?â he asks you, but his gaze was different this time, it held the amusement it always did when it came to you, but it was warm â no â it was burning. His lips were pursed, as he crossed his arms, the henleyâs fabric seemingly straining under the action.Â
âHe meant that an action that is wrong in his eyes when he couldnât expect others to accept the ground on which he could justify it,â and his lips curve into that damned smile, as he takes a few steps closer, rounding the podium, as he brushes past you, the brief touch of temptation incarnate â the dangling apple of Tantalus personified before you.Â
âAnd can you give me some examples of what kinds of actions would be wrong?â and heâs standing behind you now, and you canât bring yourself to look at him â but you can feel his gaze on you.Â
âSenseless murder,â and he hums in approval, his breath felt like it was warming your skin, âwanton violence, reckless assaultââÂ
âWhat other everyday wrongdoings could fall under this category?â and suddenly the class before you is gone, and itâs just the two of you in an empty lecture hall, âtheft, lying, student-teacher relationships?âÂ
And your breath catches in your throat, his cologne strangling any sense left in your mind, as his body heat nearly radiates off him, âProfessor GetoââÂ
âSuguru,â he corrects you, and heâs reaching for you, but he pauses, âcan Iââ and you only can nod, and his fingers brush your hair aside, ever so gently, âwould this be considered a moral wrongness, sweetheart?â his lips press a chaste kiss to your shoulder, and you shiver at the softness of his touch.Â
âWell, I am a student in your class, and even though Iâm of age, it presents a power dynamic and a favoritism that might beââ and your sentence cuts off as his arms wind their way around your waist, pressing himself to your back, âIââÂ
âGo on,â heâs murmuring his words against the nape of your neck now, as he pulls his glasses off to place them on the podium, âmight be what?âÂ
âMight be viewed as morally wrongââ and heâs chuckling, the vibration sending a delicious shiver down your spine, as he presses more butterfly kisses to your neck.Â
âHow can something be wrong when it feels so right?â he asks, and his hand is sliding down your side, âfeels so good, does it even matter what society views as right or wrong? Do their rules pertain to what weâre doing here?â and his fingers toy with the hem of your pants, teasing and pulling, as he pauses, waiting for your answer, âwhat do you thinkââÂ
âPlease,â you swallow, as you turn to look at him, seeing his lips in that same smile that haunted you, âtouch me,âÂ
And his smile only grows wider, âGood girl.âÂ
BUZZ. BUZZ. BUZZ.Â
Your eyes flutter open, your breath caught in your throat, as you stare at your ceiling, your hand reaching for your phone to silence the alarm. And you squeeze your thighs together, a distinct ache between your legs, your skin all too warm.Â
What the fuck was that?Â
You skip office hours the next week. You couldnât bear it â you could barely tolerate going to class now, as the dream invades your nights, with filthy variations that leave you perturbed and horny (mostly horny). The common theme only being that each time you get close to anything remotely thatâs anything (a kiss, a touch thatâs more than a caress, anything at all), you wake up.Â
Itâs as if your dreams are edging you â you groan into your pillow â and it was working.Â
Youâre so wound up, youâve even resorted to using your vibrator before bed, wondering if that would make a difference â it did, but only with you having a dream of Professor Geto using a vibrator on you during class â the vibrations growing even faster when you were speaking as he watched youâÂ
You needed to stop thinking about this. But how can you?Â
God, itâs even worse when youâre in class. You sit in your usual seat, front and center â and why does it feel like his eyes are on you far too often? Even as he lectures Professor Geto attempts to catch your eye during his lecture, trying to make a point, you all but glue your gaze down to the textbook and your laptop, typing away his words, trying to drown out the whispered words and groans from your dream that ring in your ears. You canât stop seeing him â unless you want to skip class, which you really couldnât when attendance and participation counted for a good chunk of your grade.Â
Class ended and you were packing up your things. You had to weather the storm â avoid being alone with him until the dreams were just a distant memoryâÂ
And then you heard him say your nameâÂ
Your eyes flick up to meet Professor Geto â who had his usual swarm of students waiting by his desk, but he parted the crowd, he approached your own seat, hands in your pockets, âDo you have a class after this?âÂ
âNo, I donâtââ the words slip out before your sleep deprived mind can put the pieces together.Â
âThen can you please stay after class? Iâd like to talk to you,â he says, and before you can say anything, he turns to speak to the students waiting for him.Â
And now you wait â your anxious energy singing at the frayed ends of your nerves, as you tried to hold yourself together â wondering what he could possibly want to speak to you about. His students dissipated one by one, until it was just you and him left in the lecture hall.Â
Just. Like. Your. Fucking. Dream.Â
You round the row you sat in, before walking down to speak to him, âIs there something wrong? The next paper isnât due until the end of next weekââÂ
âIt isnât about the paper,â and your heart squeezes, as you try to keep your breathing even, as he steps closer â and why, why did he have to opt to only wear a button up today â and a deep royal purple one no less, âI wanted to check in with you,â and he begins to undo the cuffs of his shirt, rolling them up â exposing his forearms and the pretty veins that ran along them â the same arms that he had used in one of your dreams to bend you over that desk, the whispers of heated kisses along your neckâ
You needed to get out of here.Â
You blink, âIâm fine,â and he tilts his head.Â
âI only ask because youâve looked tired the last two classes, and you didnât show up for office hours this week,â he crosses his arms, unhelpfully, as he purses his lips, the lines of his brow furrowed.Â
âIâm fine, Professor, I appreciate your concern â I just havenât been sleeping well,â you admit â it was the truth, âand thatâs why I didnât come to office hours. I was trying to catch up on sleep,âÂ
He nods, sighing, fingers raking through his hair â those same fingers that would feel so pretty around your neckâ âI know Iâm hard on you,â oh he would be, âbut itâs because I know youâre capable of more â most of these students are taking the class for an elective, but I know itâs more than that for you,â yes, itâs so you can finally earn his praise, âbut Iâm also here for your benefit, so if you need an extension or anything else, please let me know,âÂ
God, all you wanted was for him to maybe wrap you in his arms and kiss you, or bend you over, pull your clothes off and fuck you, or just to leave you alone all together.Â
You werenât sure which one you wanted the most at this moment.Â
âI will, Professor Geto, I appreciate it,â you murmur, biting your lip, as you try to focus on the task at hand â getting out of here, âI donât think I need an extension, Iâve made good progress so far. I just need to finish it, so I can revise,â
âWell, let me know if anything changes,â his lips curl, âok?â And you nod, and if you werenât so hyperaware, you swore you would have imagined it â but you didnât, âgood girl,âÂ
And you pause a moment â his lips did move, you pinch yourself discreetly â and you know it isnât a fucking dream. You only smile in return, giving a curt nod and goodbye, before beelining out of the classroom.Â
But you didnât stick around long enough to see the slight flush on Professor Getoâs cheeks â nor did you know that you two were thinking the same thing about yourselvesâÂ
What the fuck were you doing?Â
But to your relief, the dreams do subside, and youâre finally able to rest â but the thing that doesnât subside is your awareness of your professor.Â
You sit in class, watching him teach â and you knew he was attractive, hell, it was one of the things that made you all the more embarrassed to have him ream you out â having your super hot professor rail at you for your mistakes wasnât on your list of shining achievements (lest it was him actually railing youâ).Â
You needed to stop doing that.Â
But it felt as if you werenât the only one who was hyper aware. You felt as if his eyes skimmed over you during class this week, his replies to your weekly discussion board were less biting than usual, and his office hours were surprisingly canceled this week. First time all semester, but you werenât so full of yourself that you thought it had anything to do with you â right?Â
Either way, you had submitted your paper and now you were done with this weekâand as class finishes, you slowly pack up, looking forward to the week being over with and for a personal rendezvous with your bed. But as the usual gaggle of students make their way to chat with Professor Geto, your eyes flicker up to meet his, as he stares back a moment.Â
And you canât make yourself look away, and for a moment, neither can he.Â
But then a student calls for his attention, so his eyes flicker away, a smile on his lips as he spoke â and you turn to leave, grabbing your bag, as you look backâÂ
But why did his smile look so strained?Â
There must be something wrong with him.Â
Professor Suguru Geto drummed his fingers against his desk, but he felt more like shoving his things off his desk â if only to distract him for a moment. He pulls his glasses off, and runs a hand down his faceâgod, he hadnât been sleeping well. No, his nights were plagued, plagued by you â you had slipped into his dreams ever since that day he stopped you.Â
Why had he stopped you?Â
It wasnât the first time he had personally stopped a student who seemed to be struggling, he could count the times he had on both his hands.Â
But this, this felt different.Â
You were different.Â
But why were you different to him? He rubs his temples, from the moment you had stepped into his office he thought he had read you â an overachieving student used to getting their way, As handed out to them, and an inability to take criticism.Â
He knew, because he used to be one of them. But he knew you needed to be challenged to grow â but it was a matter if you would accept it. And from the moment you asked him when the next paper was due, he couldnât help but smile.Â
And his time spent in office hours with you grew more enjoyable each time you came. And when you hadnât last week, he couldnât sit still, checking the time, checking his email, and even checking if his office hours had been accidentally listed wrong in his weekly email to the class (they werenât). And the hour and half passed with many students hungry for his time and his charm â but not the one he was looking for.Â
Then those words had slipped from his tongue when he had stopped you, left his mouth like he was possessed, and now he had found himself here. Found himself thinking about how your lips parted when he said it, thinking about how you were feeling, thinking about you, you, youâÂ
Thereâs a knock at the door, âProfessor Geto?âÂ
And it was you.Â
âI apologize, I know you canceled office hours, but I just had a few questions I didnât get to ask you in class,â your fingers toy with the ring you wore, a folder in hand, a soft smile on your lips.Â
âOf course, come in,â and you did, your dress was painfully short, the fabric riding up as you sat, the folder in your lap, âis this about your paper?âÂ
âIt is, I was reading a few papers, and after our conversation, I couldnât help but find your paper,â and he tilts his head, âand I want to include it as a source in my paper, but I had a few points you made that I wanted clarified,âÂ
He raises an eyebrow, and he canât help but tease, âClarified or criticized? Are you planning on turning the tables on me?âÂ
âWell I do have a red pen,â you click your pen, lips curved in a smile, and thereâs a hint of heat that he wishes to unearth, pluck from the earth and possess himself, âbut I promise Iâll be civil,â
 âI have no doubt,â he had a million when it came to you â but that wasnât one of them. He runs his fingers through his hair, a few strands coming loose, âof course, letâs discuss it,âÂ
âYou discuss Scanlonâs idea of a social contract, everyone within this moral society agrees on whatâs right and whatâs wrong â the basic principle is that if there is a rule no one can reasonably reject as a basis, but is there such a rule that can exist?âÂ
He tilts his head, âScanlonâs theory relies on this premise â are you questioning me or the premise?âÂ
âBoth, actually,â you shrug, crossing your legs, âis there a magic switch that changes every person to be rational? Because I think only rational people can agree on what rules cannot be reasonably rejected â what about people who are cruel, inconsiderate, self-absorbed? Do those traits go away when operating under Scanlonâs social contract? You propose in your paper that moral reasons are not subjective â nothing is uncolored by human opinion,âÂ
âNo, butââÂ
âHow can we agree on what is truly right or wrong? How can one hundred people agree on that when everyone views these actions in different ways? Right and wrong? Black, white, or gray?â you rise from your chair to hand him his paper printed out, the paper more red than white with the amount of writing youâve done, âlike for example,â you lean forward, your hand braced against the edge of his desk, âcan one hundred people agree that student-teacher relationships are wrong? Because one veto,â your hand trails ever closer to his, toeing that dangerous line either of you had even yet to approach to cross. But here you were, seemingly barreling toward it.Â
And he didnât want to pull away.Â
He swallows, whispering your name, âThis canâtââ and you were so close â too close, your perfume hypnotized him, your fingers brush against his and he canât help but hold them, his thumb rubbing across your knuckles, âthey can agree that itâs wrong â the power imbalance from the authority of the professor and the age differenceââÂ
âI disagree, so the rule isnât legitimate, right? Even if one disagrees, the rule cannot be make valid,â and his breath catches as your fingers slide up his arm now, resting on his shoulder, as you lean over his chair now, as your other hand toys with the loose strands of his hair, âif the two of us canât even agree, then how could a hundred, or a thousand, or a million?âÂ
âButââÂ
âBut what?â you pout, your fingers dragging down his chest, toying with the top button of his button down, âI donât see you pulling away, do you want me to stop, Professor? Because I will,âÂ
And he swallows thickly, but he canât stop you â he doesnât want to, âBut, we shouldnât â it isnât a reasonable objectionââ he tries his hardest to stand firm, but he only crumbles when your fingers brush his cheek, tracing the cut of his jaw. And it feels like flames tickling at his skin, begging him to thrust his hand into the fire.Â
âLike I said, people are not reasonable,â your lips draw closer, and he can feel your breath warm his own, and god, why are you so tempting? And your lips stop short, barely an inch between your faces, âand besides, would you rather be reasonable or satisfied?âÂ
And thereâs only one answer â you.Â
He leans forward, lips nearly brushing yoursâÂ
RING. RING. RING.
He jerks awake from his desk, papers sliding as he does, his breath caught in his throat, and his eyes wander â and finds no one else there.Â
A dream. He runs his fingers through his hair again, crumpling the paper he had oh so lovingly drooled during his nap. He needed to get his shit together.Â
But his current predicament wasnât making that easy â his cock strained against the fabric of his pants â was he a grown adult or a horny teenager?Â
Fuck. It wasnât going away â no matter what he thought, his mind kept circling back to you.Â
And his eyes slide to the time: 1:40 AM.Â
Far past the time any soul would be here, even cleaning staff would have been long gone. It was just himâ
And you.Â
âSo good for me, baby,â heâs panting, palming his erection, an embarrassing amount of precum drips from his cock for a barely wet dream. He ignores the gnawing guilt in the back of his mind â but he canât help but imagine the image of you, spread out on his desk, hiking that oh so teasing sundress up, only to find your underwear drenched â just for him.Â
His fingers would slide up your plush thighs, squeezing to draw a gasp from your pretty lips, âProfessorââ youâd say, unable to form a sentence, all those brilliant falling away under his touch, until it was just him occupying every crevice of your mind.Â
âWhereâs that mouth now? So needy fâme,â heâd murmur, âbut such a good girl,â and you were, his thumb tracing his slit, smearing his pre-cum, as he imagined you spread on his desk, your puffy folds nearly showing through your far too translucent panties, âmy best studentâs so pliant for me now,â
And his hand moves faster, and he can imagine your fingers reaching for him too, your smaller fingers wouldnât be able to even touch as much as he can â but god it would feel so much better.Â
But heâd want you to feel even better than he did. Â
Heâd tug your underwear down, stuffing it in his pocket (his fee for all of additional office hours), and he would prep you right â fuck you open with his fingers, two or three, before he tasted you. Your fingers would dig into his scalp as you moaned his name again and again, before you came all over his face.Â
Heâd lick his lips clean of your release, before dragging his cock down your sweet cunt, watching his precum mix with your cum, as your walls flutter around nothing, craving to have him sink into you.Â
âProfessor, please,â youâd beg with pretty, kiss bitten lips between pants, âplease,âÂ
âWhereâs all those quips now, sweetheart?â heâd tease, as he would let his tip tease your clit, pulling a moan from your lips, âall those words fall away when you want this cock, donât they? Been thinking about you like this, wondering what youâd look like spread out under me,â and he would lean down to kiss you, âitâs even better than I expected,â
Heâs jerking himself off in earnest now, the lewd noises of his hand around his cock filling most of the silence, his low groans filling the rest. And heâd finally sink into you, inch by inch, until heâd kiss your cervix with his weeping tip.Â
And, god, he wishes his fingers fisted around his cock would be as good as your cunt would feel around him. He would fuck you slow at first, âI know those boys canât fuck you as good as I can, as well as I can,â heâd tell you, as he would pick up the pace when youâd tell him to, making you cum again and again with his cock, thumb rubbing at your clit, until he was finally close. Heâd either cum all over your stomach, marking you with his release, or if youâd let him, heâd cum inside you, filling you with his seedâand then heâd watch it drip out when he would pull out. He groans your name lowly, shuddering as he comes all over his hand, hard.Â
Fuck.Â
Thatâs the hardest heâd cum in a long time. Heâs a mess â panting and flushed, as he leans back, head against the back of his chair, too spent to even clean up. And then he finally does, cleaning himself up well, and collecting his things to leave the office.Â
But he only treated the symptoms, not the problem itself. His hard-on is gone, but his mind is still filled with thoughts of you. How heâd kiss you sweetly after, how heâd clean you up, care for you gently, make you rest because you never seem to do enough of that, and heâd let you relax â finally relax, as you slept the night in his arms.Â
As he heads to his car, he knows that heâs utterly fucked (without even being fucked) because he has feelings for you. And he didnât know if they were going to go away as easily as he hoped.Â
But he hoped they would. He owed it to you, your education, and your future career not to act on these feelings.Â
And he sighs as he sits in his car, starting it, but why did it hurt not to?Â
It was that time again.Â
Your next paper had come around again, and you needed to prepare a topic before you went to speak to Professor Geto. You had put it off, something you had never done with his class, but you wanted to limit the amount of time you spent with him, if only for the sake of your heart.Â
Watching him in lectures was bad enough, your thighs pressing together as you watched him speak, his impeccable looks and intelligence a deadly combination for your heart (and your body). You could barely focus, your eyes too fixed on the way he wrote on the board â his fingers too lithe and too thick, his voice all too alluring when discussing Kant and Aristotle and you canât help but think what heâd sound moaning your name.Â
God. Fuck. Â
Either way, you needed to listen to the lectures again since you werenât able to pay attention. Maybe without watching the video would be better, you settle on your bed, notebook and pen in hand, as you place your headphones on. His voice filled your ears, and youâre scrawling notes.Â
But your mind begins to wander. Heâs lecturing on the deontological ethics, and all you can think about is how he could make you cum with just that voice of his. Â
Shit, you shifted your thighs again, feeling that familiar ache again. What would he sound like when he moaned? How would it sound to have him touch you, run those long fingers down your thighs, and whisper filthy things in your ear?Â
As you listened to the lecture, his voice became white noise as your fingers slipped past the waistband of your shorts, and you shut your eyes.Â
âThatâs it, sweetheart, spread your legs for me,â heâd murmur in your ear, his chest pressed to your back and heâs urge your thighs wider, and his fingers would press against the wet patch on your panties, and heâd hum, âso wet fâme and I havenât touched you yet, Princess,â his lips would kiss your pulse, âyou like my voice that much?âÂ
âProfessor,â you gasp, as his fingers would tease you through your underwear, the fabric growing more soaked by the second, âpleaseââ and his thumb would ghost around your clit, teasing you, as his long fingers would piston in and out â they would reach so much fucking deeper âI need toââÂ
âAlready begging? I knew you learned fast, but not this fast,â and his fingers would tug the crotch of your panties aside, his fingertips tracing around your outer lips, before a finger pushes past your sweet cunt, âfuck, my favorite studentâs pussy is so fucking tight. These boys are not fucking you right,â and you whimper, his finger would be so much thicker than yours, as you glide another finger inside you, the two dragging against your walls, âlisten to your pretty cunt,â heâd grin against your skin, âand the wet squelch of your pussy, âso pliant for me, takes my fingers so well,â heâd murmur with a chuckle, âpractically swallowing me up,âÂ
And youâre bucking your hips against him, wanting, needing him deeper, because your fingers donât reach as far as his does, moans leaving your lips.Â
âIâm soââ youâre moving faster and faster, his lecture still filling your ears, your pre-cum soaking your shorts and onto the bed sheets, âI canâtââÂ
âCome on, Princess, use those big words of yours, you have no problem usually,â his hot words would whisper in your ear, and youâd hear him rub his erection against your ass, trying to get himself off, and youâd grind against him, wanting any friction, âtell me,âÂ
âLet me cum, please,â and he would smile, running his fingers through your hair, before he bore his thumb down on your clit and sunk a third finger into your needy cunt, just as you did now. And itâs too much for you, your toes curl, your messy walls fluttering around your fingers, as you cum all over your shorts and sheets with a groan of his name. Your fingers were soaked, as you pant, trying to gather yourself, as you came down from your high.Â
âFuck,â you murmur, tugging off your headphones, so your cunt doesnât have to twitch listening to his dulcet words again. And youâre pulling your fingers out, your cum dripped down your fingers, as you shifted, far too wet underneath you, as you tried to slip off your bed to take a shower and clean yourself up.Â
And then you realized, you didnât even hear any of the lecture.Â
Double fuck.Â
Why was this so difficult?Â
You stood near his office, trying to work up the urge to approach his door for office hours? Since itâs almost the end of the semester, there had been an influx of students attending office hours, and with everything, you had found excuses in your head to avoid office hours. But you couldnât avoid him anymore.Â
For your final paper in the class, you had to have a meeting with him during office hours to discuss your topic, complete with bibliography and outline. And it was almost time for your meeting.Â
But you didnât know how to go in.Â
The last few weeks in class have made things worse. You couldnât help but watch the other students fawn over Professor Geto, his lips curled as he spoke to them. And youâd leave class without a word. You had to stick through the semester and your feelings would disappear with time. You wouldnât have to see him, you wouldnât have class anymore, and you couldnât talk to him.Â
Or wouldnât.Â
But now you had to. And you didnât know howâ otherwise than just to do it.Â
You knock at his door, âCome in,â and you open the door to see an empty desk, blinking, âIâm over here,â
And your head snaps to your right, and Professor Geto is sitting on his couch, his legs crossed with a stack of papers in hand. His jacket is slung over the side of the couch, his deep maroon button up sleeves rolled up, glasses perched on the tip of his nose.Â
âI thought you lived at your desk,â you raise an eyebrow, âdecided to change it up for the end of the semester?âÂ
âEveryone needs a change of scenery,â he leans forward, placing the stack of papers on the table in front of him, âdo you want to sit here or move to the desk?âÂ
You shift in place, before moving to the couch beside him, âThis is fine,â he stares, âwhat?âÂ
âJust surprised, you always have something to say,â he leans on his elbow, âno smart remarks today?âÂ
âFresh out, can I offer you my proposal for the final paper instead?â You say dryly, and he cracks a smile, holding out your proposal. He clicks his red pen, readying his sword.Â
He takes it, his dark eyes darting back and forth as he reads, his brow furrowed in concentration â and you canât help but want to reach out and smooth his brow for him, tease him that heâll get wrinkles. But you canât. Canât because that would cross a line that neither of you should cross.Â
âYouâve come a long way,â he says, as he flips it back the front, writing only a few notes here and there.Â
âBut?â You wait for it.Â
His gaze flickers up, a tilt of his head, âThat was the end of my sentence,âÂ
You pause a moment, âReally?âÂ
âReally,â he scribbles a few more notes, âI look forward to reading the paper, it will be excellent Iâm sure, maybe youâll even get higher than a B+,âÂ
âOh, ha, ha,â sarcasm dripping from your tongue, but you canât help but smile, âyouâll miss me and my endless need for academic validation,â but was it really academic validation you were after now â your eyes gazed at him sitting with the tip of his pen pressed to his lips â or was it his?Â
And itâs his turn to pause, and his lips curl into a soft smile, âI will,âÂ
Your breath catches, âReally?âÂ
He chuckles, âReally,â he licks his lips, his eyes glancing downward at your proposal than at your face, âIâve enjoyed our chats this semester,âÂ
âHave you? Even when I argued with you,â a half nervous half serious laugh dies on your lips when his gaze meets yours, far too serious for your heart to take.Â
âEspecially then,â his fingers run through his hair a moment, before he speaks again, âI canât say you could say the same,âÂ
âAnd why couldnât you?â his eyes flicker with an emotion you canât grasp fast enough, before it slips away into the depths of his dark irises.Â
âBecause you stopped coming,â his voice is soft, his tone barely even, and this gives you a real pause, heat flushing your body, as if his words had set every nerve ending alight, your mouth growing dry along with it, and it gives him a reprieve he needs to brush it aside, âyou donât have to, of course, these office hours are not relevant to yourââÂ
âI didnât stop coming because I didnât enjoy it,â you cut him off, swallowing the lump in your throat, âI stopped coming because I did,âÂ
He stares, âWhat do youââÂ
âI donât want academic validation anymore, I donât care about my GPA,â you consider it a moment, âok I do,â and he snorts, âbut I care more about validation from you,âÂ
âFrom me?â he says, and his gaze tries to meet yours and it canât â but his fingers brush against your skin, making your breath catch, your eyes finding his, âand what kind of validation do you want?âÂ
And you canât find the words, and you hesitation makes him shake his head, âI apologize, I shouldnât haveââÂ
âWill you have a drink with me?â and heâs speechless for once, âafter the semester is over, of course â I know it wouldnât be ethical before,âÂ
And his eyes find yours again, âSome would say it would be unethical after too,âÂ
âI would say it depends,âÂ
âOn what basis?â and you canât help but smirk.Â
âAm I being graded, Professor?â and you delight in a small crack in his smiling veneer as a light flush dusts the tops of his ears, âand if Iâm good, will you call me a good girl again?âÂ
He swallows, âI donât want to cost you your education or yourââÂ
âI understand the risks, but we arenât contemplating shifting a trolley to hit one person or five, or murdering one healthy person to save five sick ones,â and he raises an eyebrow, âitâs a drink to celebrate the end of the semester,âÂ
âAnd if it's something more?â he nearly whispers, the softness of his voice reflected in his features, as his fingers that rested on the couch twitched beside yours.Â
âThen weâll cross that bridge then,â and then you add with a small smile, âOr hit the metaphorical person with the trolley,â and it pulls at the corners of his lips.Â
âYou make a fair point,â and you gasp in mock surprise.
âThe first time all semester you agree with me,â and he chuckles, a noise you wished you could hear him make innumerable times more.Â
âNot the first,â he replies, before leaning forward, pressing your outline back into your hands, his fingers brushing yours, âwe both agree youâre a good girl, donât we?âÂ
And your breath catches, his words warm your skin, turning your blood to lava, âProfessor,â and he smiles again.Â
âWhen we go for drinks, call me Suguru.âÂ
~~~~Â
The semester wears on and finally draws to an end, but finals induced hibernation begins for you. A mix of papers and exams, you finish everything â including your paper for Professor Getoâs class. As always, he has you submit a paper and electronic copy, the paper copy to be dropped off at his office mailbox. And you do just that, the mailboxes being only around the corner from his office, and your heart squeezes at the thought of him. After this, the class was over, it was done. You werenât his student anymore.Â
And you place the paper into the mailbox and sigh, chewing your lip as you pass by his office, but find the door closed (and locked, as you quickly turned the doorknob to test it). Where was he? This was the time he was usually in his office, but maybe he had left campus for the semester â had he forgotten about your drinks?Â
Fuck. You hadnât even discussed a time or place, you had left it vague â âafter finals.â Your cheeks burned at the memory, you were far too flustered to elaborate. And you had spent far too many nights imagining him calling you a âgood girlâ in many other situations.Â
And then you heard a call of your name, your gaze snapping up, your heart leaping, but only to see the department head.Â
âHi Professor, how are you?â and the two of you make polite chit-chat, until he asks you.Â
âHave you applied to be a T.A. for the department?â and you blink, âapplications just opened and I think from what Iâve heard about you around the department, I think you would be an excellent candidate.âÂ
âIâd love to be â how does the application process work?â and he explains that itâs a double blind process where applications are viewed without personal information of the candidates, and then matched with a professor based only on resume and writing samples.Â
You can barely listen to the department head, still far too distracted with thoughts of Professor Geto â so you agree to apply, if only to placate the department head, and make an excuse to leave.Â
It had been a week or so, as you lay in bed in your apartment, staring at your ceiling â you hadnât even bothered to get Professor Getoâs personal number. You couldnât even reach out to him if you tried, as the only way you could was through his university email, which was out of the question â the university had rules against a professor and student dating, and if anyone found that email â you sighed â it wouldnât be good.Â
Maybe it was for the best.Â
The only communication you had gotten from him was an email from Professor Getoâs mailing list to the class from a few days ago, stating that he was out of state in a conference, and he would return soon, but your grades would be emailed to you. But the paper copies would be available to pick up in his office from 3:00 PM to 6:00 PM on Tuesday. It was almost time to pick up your paper, and your nerves bit at you as you thought about the possibility of seeing him. Who knows if he would even be there to begin with.Â
Would it be anything? Would it be nothing? Was there not any point to this at all?Â
Oh, great, you were becoming existential.Â
You sat up, the only thing you could do was go. So you do, taking your time to get dressed. If you were going to see him, you might as well look your best.Â
Fuck. You couldnât go in. It had taken you longer to get back to campus than you thought, and now there were only a few minutes of his office hours left.
And youâre about to knock when the door opens, and you find yourself face to face with the man who has consumed every thought of yours for the last few months â good and bad alike.Â
âLate again?â and you canât help but smile.Â
âI prefer fashionably late,â and his eyes rake over your outfit, making your cheeks burn.Â
âYou certainly are,â and he steps aside to allow you into his office, and you glance between the couch and the desk, but he makes the choice and sits at his desk, âI have your paper right here,â and heâs rifling through his file of papers, âhow did your finals go?âÂ
âIf I have an A on this paper, perfectly,â and a smile tugs at his lips, and you raise an eyebrow, âwhat? Something funny?âÂ
âNot at all,â and he pulls your paper out, ha âI just recall you saying you wanted something more than, what was it? âMy academic validation?ââÂ
And your cheeks flush, âI did, but I also didnât hear from you,â and your fingers reach for the paper, and he holds onto it, âProfessor,âÂ
âI couldnât reach out to you because I was still your professor, but once you get this grade, Iâm not anymore,â and his gaze is sharper without his glasses today, his dark blue Henley doing nothing to help the flush on your cheeks â memories of your dreams flooding your mind, âand once you get this grade back, Iâm not anymore,âÂ
âAnd what does that mean?â you canât pull your eyes away from his, but his fingers let go of your graded paper, âhow about you look at the last page of your paper and see?âÂ
You pull the paper into your hands, flipping to the last page:Â
99 â I was impressed by this paper not only by the content but by its comprehension and use of both ethics and philosophy. But I was also impressed by the person who wrote the paper. Youâve shown determination and growth throughout the semester â and you have reminded me what we owe to each other. And I think we owe each other a drink, and a chance for this.Â
You feel his eyes watch you as you read, your eyes finally meeting his â his brow knit together, his lips pursed, concentrated gaze trying to decipher your reaction.Â
âWhy a 99?â And his eyebrows raise, as if to ask, âthatâs your question?âÂ
âYou had some spelling and grammar errors,âÂ
âReally? You couldnât let it slide?â And he tilts his head, before he sees your lips curling into a grin.Â
âSo you think itâs funny to mess with your professor?â And his voice drops, a playful tone that makes you nearly shiver, as he leans forward, resting his chin against his elbow.Â
âYouâre not my professor anymore, are you, Suguru?â he likes that by the way his teeth bite his bottom lip briefly, his eyes flitting to your lips for a moment and back to your eyes, âso I guess weâre using that trolley after all,âÂ
âIf you want to,â he says softly, âI wouldnât blame you if you change your mind, itâs a risk,âÂ
It was. It was a risk to your reputations, your careers, your futures â especially to yours. But, your eyes met his again.Â
âContractualism is about avoiding risk,â and he nods, as his gaze falls away, âbut some risk is necessary in life, and I think this is one thatâs worth taking,âÂ
âWe will have to be careful,â he murmurs, but already his fingers are twitching, far too eager to touch you, âwe canât make any mistakes. I donât want to hurt you,â he adds softly.Â
âI know, I donât want to hurt you either,â and you rise before slowly rounding his desk, âbut I want to know what itâs like,âÂ
And he canât stop himself â he gets to his feet, his fingers finding your cheeks and he kisses you. You can taste the black coffee on his lips, his kiss is gentle at first, so chaste and fleeting that youâd swear he didnât kiss you at all â and so itâs not a second before your lips find his again, in a deeper kiss that steals every ounce of breath from your lungs, and leaves only heat behind. This was dangerous. The very risk you were both trying to avoid, but as heâs pressing you into the edge of his desk, you canât find the logic you misplaced when those goddamn fingers youâve been dreaming about squeeze your hips.Â
âFuck,â heâs panting â god that word sounded more sinful on his lips than it should â as he presses sweet kisses to your neck, âwe shouldnât be doing this here,âÂ
âNot very ethical,â you chuckle breathlessly, as your fingers rake through his now disheveled bun, âbut I canât find the sense to care,â your noses brush, as you canât help but smile, âwhat would Scanlon or Kant say about this?âÂ
And his arms lift you onto his desk, several papers crumpling underneath, âWho the fuck cares?â heâs hissing, his lips find yours in a searing kiss, as his thighs press yours apart, as he settles himself between your legs, his knee grazing your core, drawing a delightful gasp from your lips, âI know what I want,â and his eyes soften, his fingers tracing the length of your cheek, âdo you?âÂ
Before you can answer, two pings catch your attention â your phone and his computer lighting up with a notification, and you both pause a moment, as your eyes glance at the banner notification on your phone, skimming over the words. The T.A. positions have been assigned.Â
âFuck,â you hear him mutter, and you gaze snaps up to his on his computer, the email now opened on his screen, âthis canât be rightââÂ
âWhat is itââ and the question dies on your lips as your eyes find where his rested âÂ
You â you were his T.A. for next semester â for the very class that you met in.Â
Fuck, indeed.Â
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⧠a/n: lets all remember that student and teacher relationships are bad in real life. it's ok to live vicariously through reader but unfortunately no professor will be as hot as professor geto or gojo T_T. s/o to @/laneymusings and @bucky-of-the-opera for beta reading this for me and being just absolutely wonderful!!
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Kinktober Day 11 - Virginity Loss with Kento Nanami
contains: nsfw content: (mdni), fempov, pnv (protected), loss of virginity, oral (reader receiving), fingering, age gap (legal - reader is college age), soft nanami
Ëâ⧠for more kinktober here - wc: 10k (bear with me here, itâs slow)
a/n: i apologise in advance for how soft this is, it is sickeningly sweet and a heads up, the writing style of this is a little different to some of the prior ones i've posted here...it's less horny smut in the way its written and more wordy? so if this one's not for you, it's all good, sometimes i just like to mix it up <333
The cool October air nipped at your bare skin as you stood out front of the crowded house, your angel wings from your costume rustling softly in the breeze. The party was fun, but it was getting late, and getting home was an issue.Â
The problem was, you couldn't call your dad. He'd have too many questions, too many concerns about why you were out so late. Besides, the revealing nature of your outfit wouldn't have gone unnoticed, and you weren't in the mood to listen to a lecture.
Your phone hovered in your hand, a name already highlighted. Nanami Kento. Your dad's best friend, a reliable, quiet man you'd known for a couple years. He was the safest option honestly and maybe a part of you was pleased with the notion of calling him, of seeing him after the night's festivities. There had always been something about the way Nanami carried himself-so composed, so controlled, it left you curious.
You took one deep breath before pressing the call button. It rang only twice before his smooth steady voice came through the line. "Are you alright?" he asked instantly, as though he'd sensed something was wrong, just from seeing your number at this time.Â
"I'm fine," you quickly assured him. "It's just. I'm at a party, and it's gotten late. I need a ride, and I really can't call my dad sooâŠ.â
There was a moment of silence, stretching the pause to its limits as he finally replied. "Text me the address. I'll be there in fifteen minutes."
Waiting around for fifteen minutes in the cold had your mind racing. All you could do was hope he wouldn't say too much about your outfit, a white dress a little too short, with wings fastened to your back and a halo precariously balanced on your head. It had drawn enough attention at the party already, though you'd shrugged it off with nervous laughter. Nanami was an altogether different story, though, and the thought of him looking at you like this made you feel nervous.
Sure enough, in exactly fifteen minutes, Nanami's black car pulled up in front of the house. You quickly headed towards it, heels clicking across the pavement. As soon as you opened the passenger door and slid inside, his eyes raked over you.
"Thanks for picking me up," you said softly, trying not to meet his gaze as you buckled yourself in.
But Nanami's silence was heavy, and you could almost feel the weight of his stare. He didn't say anything right away, eyes staying fixed on your outfit-the dress riding high on your thighs, the soft glow of your wings innocent. His jaw tightened slightly, a barely perceptible movement, but you noticed it.
"Of course," he finally replied, his voice gruffer than usual, with an edge to it. "But that's quite the costume."
You felt shy under his gaze, fidgeting with the hem of your dress. "It's just a Halloween costume. You know, harmless fun."
"Harmless fun," he repeated, his eyes darting back to the road as he shifted the car into drive. But the way he said it-twisted something in your stomach, a tension building between you impossible to ignore.
Nanami didn't look away from the road, but his thoughts were far from innocent. He knew he shouldn't be looking at you like this, his best friend's daughter, in a dress that didn't leave much to his imagination. Yet, there was something outright magnetic in the way you looked tonight-the way soft fabric clung to your body, pure white of an angel costume contrasting sharply with the rising inferno inside him.
He gripped the wheel a little harder, his knuckles white. What was wrong with him? You were innocent, too young for him- but the way you moved, the way you shifted in your seat as if aware of how you were making him feel, it stirred something primal in him.
"Did you have fun?" he asked way too calmly, trying to distract himself.
You nodded. "Yeah, it was good. Just got too late, and well, you know."
He couldnât stop his eyes from trailing along the smooth skin of your legs and then up to your face, lit up in a soft glow from the passing streetlights. He tried to keep a clear head, act like he wasnât losing his mind over being this close in proximity to you. It didn't help that the scent of your perfume lingered in the air between you, sweet and inviting.
"Your dad doesn't know you're dressed like this," he said-half a question, half a statement of fact.
You shook your head. "No⊠he wouldn't exactly approve." There was a little, nervous laugh in your voice.
Nanami grunted in response. "He wouldn't."
The tension between you both grew thicker, heavy with unspoken emotion until it was almost palpable in the cramped interior of the car. Nanami couldn't clear his head. What would your father think if he knew how hard it was for Nanami to keep his thoughts pure? How hard it was to pretend the sight of you, in that tight little dress, hadn't set something off inside him?
You shifted in your seat again, the hem of your dress rose just a little higher on your thighs to catch Nanami's attention yet again as he had to adjust in his seat.
The car hummed on silently, but it was obvious that he was trying to keep his cool, trying to ignore the pull between you both, and for some reason, you decided not to make it easy for him.
You shifted a bit in your seat, letting your legs cross; the hem of your skirt inched up just a bit more. You caught the slightest tensing of Nanami's jaw out of the corner of your eye, though he kept his gaze firmly trained on the road.
You bit your lip to suppress a smile. "You know," you said softly, a teasing edge creeping into your tone, "I've never seen you this quiet. You always seem so assured."
Nanami's brow furrowed and he let out a short breath. "It's late," he replied; the words were clipped, strained as if he wanted to force the conversation into something normal.
You weren't buying it. His body language betrayed him-tension in the posture of his body spoke volumes his words never did. You knew with just a little more prodding-a test of the waters-he'd crack.
You lifted a casual hand to your head to adjust your halo headband, your fingers delving through your hair to do so, before you laid your hand on your thigh, letting the fingers linger as you shifted again, angling yourself slightly toward him.
"Thanks for picking me up," you said, your voice soft and laced with something a little too sweet, a little too insinuating. "I guess I could've called someone else, but⊠I wanted you to be the one."
Nanami's hold on the wheel stiffened further, and you could almost hear the battle raging inside him. His eyes flickered sideways to you, only for a moment, before snapping back to the road.
âReally?" he growled, almost inaudible, the tone low, a little threatening.
You nodded, biting your lip as you leaned closer, your hand lightly brushing his arm as you adjusted once more. "Yeah⊠I feel safe with you.â
There it was, the first gap in his well-considered armour. He said nothing for a moment. It was as if every unspoken word weighed the air inside the car down and pressed on both of you with its unspoken weight.
Then, wordlessly, instead of turning down the street that would lead to your house, he turned left and went in the opposite direction. You blinked once or twice, peering out of the window just to confirm that he wasn't actually getting onto your usual route.
"Um. my house is the other way," you said light, though curious.
Nanami remained silent for another beat as the car sped through the quiet, dimly lit streets. Then, finally, he spoke, his voice rougher than before.
"I know."
Your heart skipped a beat, and a shiver ran down your spine at the implication: He knew. He knew exactly what he was doing. And instead of taking you home, he was detouring off course on purpose. A decision he had made despite the battle that had raged in his brain.
"Where are we going?" you asked, though the answer was just starting to formulate in your mind.
"My place." Nanami replied in a low voice, very nearly too calm.
Of course his words only had one meaning, and you paused for a second, the situation settling into your consciousness. It wasn't a decision he had only just now considered. He had thought about this, about youâand the barrier he'd held up for so long was starting to crack.
A part of you knew this might have crossed the line, a line neither of you could come back from. In the silence of the car, though, that pull between you became impossible to ignore.
You swallowed as your heart raced in your chest, shifting slightly in your seat as his words sank in. "Your place⊠are you sure?"
Nanami's grip on the steering wheel loosened, but only for a moment as he let a slow, conscious breath escape. He cast a look in your direction then, something dark in his gaze-a warning, and yet, something deeper, something feral. "No," he admitted in a low voice with a trace of growl. "But I'm doing it anyway."
His place. He was taking you there, and implications that sent your tummy fluttering into somersaults of excitement and uncertainty when he said so. There was no going back once you crossed this threshold.
The time quickly passed and it wasnât long before the soft hum of the engine stopped, and all that could be heard was your quickened breathing.
Nanami turned to you; his eyes locked with yours. In them was an unspoken question. He wasn't forcing you; this was something you had to step into on your own volition.
You nodded at him and he nodded slightly in return before moving to open the car door for you. His hand was soft and warm in yours as he guided you out. He took you inside and towards the lift. The silence between you was evident, but not uncomfortable. It was charged, alive with possibilities neither of you could deny any more.
As the lift opened onto his floor, Nanami escorted you down the silent hall to his apartment. His steps were sure, steady, but you could feel the tension emanating off of him like a coiled spring ready to snap. He hastily unlocked the door before gesturing you inside.
You stepped inside and the door clicked shut behind you, sealing the two of you into the quiet, dimly lit space. Nanami's apartment was sleek, minimalist, much like the man himself-clean lines, understated elegance. It was intimate, private, and the thought of being alone with him here made your skin tingle.
You turned toward him, soft light from the city filtering in through the windows and casting shadows across his face. He watched you once more, his eyes dark and intense. A silent war inside himself as he struggled to keep his restraint.
"You can still change your mind," he said, low and rough. "Sleep in the spare bedroom- and I won't push this any further."
Your eyes ran across his face, before meeting his gaze. Hal of you screamed to close the distance between the two of you, whilst the other half screamed to sleep in the spare bedroom and never look back on this moment.
But this wasn't about lust or desire; this was crossing a line, changing the dynamic between you both forever, but one you were ready to.
You leaned in towards him, your fingers brushing lightly against his chest. You took note of the quick rise and fall of his chest and the fast beating of his heart under your fingertips. His eyes darkened, his control slipping just that little bit more as he watched you.
"I'm not changing my mind," you whispered softly, resolutely. "I want this."
Nanami exhaled sharply, the last thread of restraint snapping as he closed the remaining distance between you. His hand cupped your cheek, his touch just as gentle as youâd expected.
For a moment, he just looked at you, his thumb brushing lightly across your skin, as if giving you one final chance to pull away.
But you didnât.
With a low growl, Nanami's lips finally crashed into yours. He kissed you passionately as if he had been holding back far too long. His hand slid around the back of your neck, pulling you closer, as he pressed your body flush against his, trying to get as physically close to you as possible.
The kiss deepened, and all the tension and desire that had built between you finally exploded in a rush of heat and sensation. You responded in kind, your fingers tangling in his hair as you succumbed to the moment, to him.
One of his hands had clutched your waist as he leaned you up against the wall, his tongue seeking entrance to your mouth. It was quickly heating up; everything was going so fast. And though you'd expected it, you suddenly became nervous, not knowing what to do, so you couldn't help but blurt outâŠ
âIâm a virgin-â
Nanami froze when you uttered those words, the revelation hanging in the air like a weight that neither of you could ignore. His lips lingered on yours, but the urgency that had driven his actions moments before seemed to vanish, replaced by a sudden stillness. He pulled back just enough to look into your eyes, his expression torn, conflicted. You could feel the way his chest rose and fell unevenly, the tension coiling tighter inside him.
He should stop. He knows that.
"You're a virgin," he repeated softly, as if trying to ground himself in the reality of the situation. The responsibility of what this meant sank in, his protective instincts roaring louder than his desire. The weight of his role in your lifeâbeing your father's best friend, older, more experiencedâshould have been enough to make him back away, to put distance between you for your own good.
But it didnât.
Despite everything, despite knowing he should be the responsible one and walk away, the pull he felt toward you was undeniable. His thumb gently traced the outline of your jaw, the conflict clear in his eyes as they searched yours. There was something about youâyour trust, your innocenceâthat stirred something deep inside him, something he couldnât easily shake off.
"I shouldn't.," he growled low and hoarse, yet with an edge, a residual hunger he could not hide. He closed his eyes for a moment and exhaled sharply as if trying to draw himself back in.
But when he opened them again, his gaze darkened, the tension between you flaring back to life. You saw the conflict, the war between what he knew was right and what he wanted more than anything in that moment.
"I-â Nanami continued, his hands moving to cradle your face, his touch still gentle despite the storm raging within him. "This changes everything."
You could feel the restraint, the repression, but you could also feel the resolve slipping. He was a man who prided himself on control, on doing the right thing-but right now, you were making him question all of that.
"I know it does," you whispered, stepping closer, your body brushing against his in a way that made his breath hitch. "But I trust you. I want this⊠I want you."
Your words seemed to cut through to him, and for a long moment, the air between you crackled with something electric, something neither of you could deny any longer.
He leaned in, his forehead resting against yours, his breath warm against your lips. "If we do this," he said quietly, his voice low, serious, "Thereâs no going back. I need you to be sure. This is⊠not something I can take lightly."
His thumb brushed against your cheek, his eyes searching yours one last time, giving you the opportunity to pull away. But you didnât. You met his gaze, your hand resting over his heart, feeling its rapid thrum beneath your palm.
"I'm sure," you whispered, your voice steady, filled with the weight of the decision you had already made.
The last bit of tension left Nanamiâs shoulders as he closed the distance between you again, his lips finding yours with a renewed intensity. But this time, his kiss was slower, more deliberate, as if savouring every moment, every taste of you. His hands slid down your back, pulling you closer, but there was no rush, no urgency. He was letting you lead, letting you set the pace.
As his hands moved over your body, exploring with careful restraint, it was clear he was holding back. Despite the fire between you, despite the overwhelming desire, he was still thinking of you, still making sure you felt safe, cherished, in this moment.
Nanamiâs heart raced as he led you to his bedroom, the very act feeling surreal. Every step was imbued with a sense of gravity, as though the weight of the moment hung in the air around you, thickening with anticipation and vulnerability. He was acutely aware of the fabric of your outfit, how it hugged your curves and accentuated your delicate features, your halo headband adding to the angelic aura that surrounded you. It was intoxicating, and he felt the primal urge to claim you, to make you his.
The room was dimly lit, shadows dancing against the walls as the city lights filtered in through the curtains. Nanami could hardly breathe as he turned to face you, taking in the sight of you standing thereâinnocent yet undeniably alluring, a vision that pulled at the very edges of his sanity. You looked like something out of a dream, and he felt a surge of possessiveness wash over him.
"I shouldn't be doing this," he muttered, his voice thick with desire. The conflict within him raged on, and yet, as he looked at youâhis angelâhe couldn't shake the selfish longing that consumed him. Despite knowing he didnât deserve to indulge in this, he found himself wanting you more than anything else in that moment.
As you stood there, your gaze unwavering, your confidence shining through your innocence, it was clear you were ready to embrace whatever was to come. Nanami took a deep breath, pushing the guilt aside. He didnât want to be the one to hold back your desires. Not when you were offering him a chance to explore this connection.
"Youâre so beautiful," he breathed, stepping closer, his hands reaching out to frame your face. He hesitated for a moment, his thumb brushing over your cheek as if committing the moment to memory. The softness of your skin beneath his touch sent a jolt of electricity through him.
"Breathtaking," he whispered again, almost reverently. The weight of those words held true as he leaned in closer, his lips barely brushing against yours. The hesitation melted away, and he captured your mouth with his again, deepening the kiss with a fervour that spoke of his hunger, of his desire to claim you in every way possible.
His hands roamed over your waist, trailing down to your hips, fingers digging in slightly as he pulled you closer. There was a desperation in his touch now, a need to feel every inch of you pressed against him. He wanted to memorise the way you felt, the way your body fit perfectly against his, like you were made for him.
When he pulled away just enough to look into your eyes, there was a fire in his gaze that reflected the storm within him. "Are you sure?" he asked again, his voice a low rumble, though he knew what your answer would be. Deep down, he wanted to hear it, wanted the reassurance that you were truly ready to take this step with him.
âIâve never been more sure,â you replied, your voice steady, filled with a confidence that both excited and terrified him.
With that, Nanami leaned in again, capturing your lips in a passionate kiss, pouring every ounce of his longing into it. It was both gentle and consuming, a collision of desire and tenderness that left you breathless. The world outside faded away as he lost himself in the sensation of youâthe taste of your lips, the warmth of your body pressed against his, the way your hands tangled in his hair, urging him on.
As he guided you back onto the bed, he felt the weight of his own insecurities creep back in. He was an older man, your fatherâs best friend, someone who was supposed to protect you, not take advantage of your trust. But looking at you, lost in the moment, an angel who was willing to give herself to him, he couldnât bring himself to stop. This was a gift, a chance to experience something beautiful with you, and he would be damned if he let that go.
There was a sense of awe in him as he looked at you, your innocence and trust in him making him feel both powerful and vulnerable. This was different from anything he had ever experienced before, and it left him unsure of how to proceed.
He leaned over you, brushing a strand of hair from your face, his fingers lingering on your cheek, his touch tender and gentle. "I promise to take care of you," he whispered, his voice low and filled with the sincerity of his intent.
You smiled up at him, your trust in him shining through your eyes. "I know," you replied, your voice soft and confident.
Nanami's breath hitched as he took in the sight of you lying beneath him, the white dress clinging to you. The fabric seemed to glow in the dim light of the room, accentuating your delicate features and the innocence that radiated from you. His heart swelled with a mix of desire and reverence, knowing that he was about to experience something truly special.
He leaned down, his lips brushing against your neck, trailing soft kisses along your jawline, down to your collarbone. The taste of your skin, the subtle scent of your perfume, it all combined to create a heady sensation that made his head spin.
His hands roamed over your body, caressing you through the thin fabric of your dress, mapping out the contours of your figure. He could feel the heat of your skin beneath his touch, and it only served to fuel the fire burning within him.
"You're perfect," he murmured against your skin, his voice husky with desire. "An angel, sent just for me."
You shivered at his touch, your body arching into his as you sought more of his attention. Your hands moved to his shirt, fumbling with the buttons, desperate to feel his skin against yours.
Nanami chuckled softly, his breath warm against your neck. "Patience, sweetheart. Let me savour this moment."
He helped you with his shirt, shrugging it off and tossing it aside, revealing his toned chest and abs. The sight of his muscular form and you couldn't help but run your hands over his skin, marvelling at the way his muscles flexed beneath your touch.
Nanami groaned at your exploration, his hips pressing against yours, the evidence of his desire evident in the way his erection strained against his pants, pressing deliciously against your thigh. He captured your lips in a searing kiss, his tongue delving into your mouth, claiming you, tasting you.
His hands roamed over your body, caressing you. He resumed his kisses along your skin, his teeth grazing you skin ever so slightly. The sensation sent shivers down your spine, your body arching into his touch, craving more.
"I want to worship every inch of you." he murmured against your skin, his voice husky with desire.
His hands slid down to your thighs, bunching up the skirt of your dress, exposing more of your smooth skin. He took his time, savouring the feel of you, the way your body responded to his touch.
You could feel the heat of his gaze on you, the intensity of his desire, and it only served to fuel your own. Your hands roamed over his chest, feeling the hard planes of his muscles, the way his heart raced beneath your touch.
Nanami's lips found yours again, his kiss deep and passionate, pouring all of his longing into it. He rolled his hips against yours, the friction sending sparks of pleasure through your body.
"I want you," he breathed, his voice raw with need. "I want to make you mine, to claim you in every way possible."
He tugged at the fabric of your dress, his intentions clear, but something held him back. The thought of ruining the delicate garment, of marring your innocence, seemed sacrilegious.
Instead, he let his hands roam beneath it, his fingers teasing along your inner thighs, higher and higher, until he reached your panties. He could feel the heat from you, the dampness that betrayed your desire.
"Tell me you want this," he whispered, his fingers already circling your most clit through the cotton fabric. "Tell me you're ready for me."
Nanami's fingers continued to tease and explore, his touch both gentle and insistent. You could feel the pressure building within you, your body responding to his every caress, every brush of his lips against your skin. The heat between you was palpable, the air thick with the scent of your combined desire.
"I want this," you gasped, your voice trembling with need. "I want you, Nanami- Please, don't make me wait any longer."
His eyes darkened with hunger at your words, and he wasted no time in responding. He hooked his fingers beneath the waistband of your panties, slowly dragging them down your legs, exposing you to his hungry gaze.
"You're perfect," he murmured, his fingers tracing the delicate folds, feeling the slickness that coated your skin. "So wet, so ready for me."
He leaned down, his breath hot against your skin, his lips brushing against your inner thigh. Slowly, teasingly, he trailed kisses up your leg, his stubble rasping against your sensitive skin, sending shivers of pleasure through your body. He couldnât help but grin at every slight shuffle from you as he moved closer to your pussy, heâd be lying if he said he didnât enjoy your shyness.
When he finally reached your core, he inhaled deeply, savouring the scent of your arousal. He looked up at you, his eyes locked with yours, before he leaned in and ran his tongue along your folds, tasting you for the first time.
You gasped at the sensation, your hips bucking involuntarily against his mouth. Nanami groaned in response, his hands gripping your thighs, holding you in place as he continued his exploration.
He lapped at your clit, his tongue swirling around the sensitive nub, before dipping lower to your entrance, tasting your essence. He alternated between licking and sucking, his movements slow and deliberate, building the tension within you with each pass of his tongue. âSo fucking sweet-â he groaned.
Nanami's tongue continued its relentless assault on your most sensitive areas, licking and sucking, driving you closer to the edge with each pass. As your pleasure mounted, he slowly eased a finger into your tight heat, his touch gentle and patient.
Your hands fisted in his hair, pulling him closer, urging him on. The pleasure was intense, building with each passing second, threatening to consume you entirely.
He worked you slowly, his finger pumping in and out, curling to hit that spot deep inside that made your toes curl. The sensation of his tongue and finger combined was almost too much to bear, and you could feel your walls beginning to flutter around him. âSuch a good girl.â
He added a second finger, stretching you further, his pace increasing as he sensed your impending release. His fingers moved in tandem with his tongue, one hand working your clit while the other drove into you, stoking the fire that burned within you.
Your moans filled the room, your body writhing beneath his touch, lost in the pleasure he was giving you. Nanami could feel your walls tightening around his fingers, your body tensing as you neared your peak. âCome on sweetheart, give it to me.â
As he felt your body tense beneath him, your thighs trembling, he knew you were close. He redoubled his efforts, his tongue flicking rapidly over your clit, his fingers pumping harder, deeper, determined to bring you to the heights of ecstasy. The world narrowed down to the sensation of his mouth and hands on your body, the pleasure consuming you entirely.
Nanamiâs voice was soft but commanding. âThatâs it,â he murmured, his words vibrating through you as he flicked his tongue against your clit. âLet go, my angel. Give yourself to me.â
With a final thrust of his fingers, your body gave in. Pleasure crashed over you in waves, your body trembling beneath him as you cried out his name, lost in the intensity of the moment. He stayed with you through every pulse of pleasure, his mouth working you gently as your climax washed over you, prolonging the sensation by sucking on your clit until you could no longer take it.
As you came down from your high, your breathing ragged, Nanami slowly withdrew his fingers, placing soft kisses along your thigh before sitting up. His gaze was filled with adoration as he watched you recover, his eyes trailing over your body with reverence. âYouâre beautiful when you come undone,â he said softly, his voice full of awe. âI could worship you like this for hours.â
Nanami leaned in, capturing your lips in a tender kiss, his hands cupping your face, thumbs brushing away the single tear that had escaped during your climax and he couldnât stop his smirk, you were so sensitive and heâd barely even started. âAre you okay?â he whispered against your lips, his voice filled with care, âI want to make sure I don't push you too far.â
You nodded, overwhelmed with emotion, your heart swelling at the sincerity in his eyes. "I just want you, Nanami," you whispered, your voice filled with longing.
His gaze softened as he reached for his belt, slowly undoing the buckle, his movements deliberate. He paused, searching your eyes for any hesitation, any uncertainty. But all he found was the same desire reflected back at him.
He smiled softly, leaning over to the bedside table and going through the drawer before retrieving a condom and some lube, ready to continue, but ensuring your comfort every step of the way.
Nanamiâs hands moved with care as he opened the condom, his gaze still focused intently on you, as if each moment was something to be cherished. His heart raced, not just with the heat of desire, but with the overwhelming tenderness he felt for you. He wanted everything to be perfectâgentle, yet powerful in its intimacy.
The tension in the room was palpable, but it wasnât just sexual. It was the weight of trust, the sacred bond forming between you as he prepared for what was to come. You felt it too, that sense of something so deeply meaningful, and it made your pulse quicken.
With the condom securely in place, Nanami applied a generous amount of lube as he soaked in the sight of your body beneath him, your silk dress still bunched around your waist. His eyes were filled with a mixture of admiration and reverence as he leaned in, his lips brushing yours in a slow, deliberate kiss, full of love and passion.
âI need you to tell me if youâre okay, if anything feels wrong,â he whispered, his voice low but filled with concern. âDo you wannaâ be on top? It might be better for you.â
You felt a surge of warmth in your chest at Nanamiâs question, his consideration only deepening the intimacy between you. His concern was genuine, and it made you feel cherished in a way you had never experienced before. The idea of being in control, of setting the pace, appealed to you, especially with the softness and care in his gaze.
You nodded, smiling up at him, the anticipation building in the pit of your stomach. âYeah, I think Iâd like that,â you replied softly, your voice steady despite the emotions swirling inside of you.
Nanamiâs eyes softened even further, and he gave you a small, reassuring smile. With a gentle movement, he shifted positions, lying back on the bed, his strong arms helping you climb atop him. You straddled his hips, your hands resting on his chest for balance, feeling the heat of his body beneath your palms. The vulnerability of the moment didnât make you feel exposedâit made you feel powerful, like you were in control, but still cradled in his unwavering support.
Nanamiâs hands found your thighs, his fingers tracing soothing circles on your skin as he looked up at you with reverence. âTake your time,â he murmured, his voice deep and comforting. âThereâs no rush.â
You took a deep breath, steadying yourself as you hovered just above his cock. You adjusted and the sensation of his hardness against your pussy sent a jolt of excitement through you, and you felt yourself growing even wetter, your body more than ready for him. Slowly, you lowered yourself onto him, the initial stretch making you gasp softly and you had to pause for a moment before taking a little more. Nanamiâs grip on your thighs tightened just a fraction, his breath hitching in his throat as he felt you take him in, inch by inch.
You slowly took more of him in, feeling more of a stretch, a slight sting from a fullness that made your body tremble with a mixture of pleasure and anticipation. You could feel Nanamiâs hands tightening their grip on your thighs, his silent encouragement pushing you forward, but never rushing you. His gaze was fixed on your face, filled with nothing but patience and reverence.
You glanced down, your eyes following the path of your own body as you straddled him, only to realise with a jolt that you werenât fully there yet. A soft gasp escaped your lips as you noticed how much of him was still left to take. The realisation made your heart race, a mixture of awe and nervousness swirling inside you.
Nanami seemed to sense your hesitation, his hands moving from your thighs to your waist, steadying you. He lifted his head slightly, brushing a kiss against your collarbone, his warm breath soothing against your skin. âItâs okay,â he whispered, his voice gentle but reassuring. âYouâre doing so well. Take your time. We donât need to rush anything.â
His words grounded you, reminding you of the trust you shared, the connection that went beyond the physical. You let out a shaky breath, nodding as you slowly relaxed into him again, feeling his fingers gently massaging your waist. You could feel his restraint, the way his body tensed under yours, but he held back for you, waiting, letting you set the pace.
You lowered yourself further, feeling the stretch intensify, your body accommodating his size inch by inch. A soft whimper escaped your lips as you took him in completely, the fullness sending a wave of pleasure mixed with a slight sting through your core. You paused, breathless, your body adjusting to the sensation, the initial tightness making you shudder.
The feeling of fullness was overwhelming, but in the best way possible. A deep groan escaped Nanamiâs lips, his hands now gripping your hips as he gazed up at you with pure desire, mixed with tenderness. You sat there for a moment, letting your body get used to the sensation, and Nanamiâs hands continued their gentle, grounding movements on your skin.
His gaze was filled with concern and affection, watching your every reaction carefully, ensuring that you were okay. He let out a low groan, his chest rising and falling with deep, measured breaths as he fought to control his own desire, giving you the time you needed.
âTake all the time you need,â he murmured softly, his voice laced with restraint and tenderness. He leaned up slightly, brushing a gentle kiss against your temple, his lips lingering there, offering comfort and reassurance. âIïżœïżœïżœm here with you.â
You nodded, eyes closing as you focused on the feeling of him inside you, the stretch easing bit by bit as your body adjusted. The sting was still there, but it began to fade, replaced by a warm, overwhelming sense of connection. Your muscles relaxed, the tension in your body melting as you slowly started to get used to the fullness, the intimacy of the moment enveloping you like a protective cocoon.
Nanamiâs thumbs brushed gentle circles over your hips, his voice a soothing balm. âYou feel incredible,â he whispered, his breath warm against your ear.
He was big, but the lube helped, and you allowed yourself to adjust comfortably. You could see the strain in his expression, the effort it took for him to hold back, to let you take the lead. It made you smile, knowing how much he wanted you but how much more he wanted to take care of you.
You began to move slowly, adjusting to the sensation of him inside you. With each shift of your hips, the initial tightness gave way to a deeper, more profound pleasure, but the fullness still made you pause every now and then, needing time to take it all in. Nanamiâs hands caressed your skin, his touch comforting and grounding, encouraging you to move at your own pace.
As you lifted yourself up slightly, you felt a slight bit of discomfort that reminded you of the tenderness of the moment. Glancing down, you noticed a small spot of blood where your bodies met. Your breath hitched for a second, a wave of nervousness flickering through you, you werenât worried, it was your first time, after all. Still, the sight made your heart race, if only for a brief moment.
Before you could say anything, Nanamiâs hand moved to cup your cheek, his eyes soft and filled with concern. He had noticed your gaze and the subtle change in your expression. âHey,â he whispered, his thumb brushing your cheek in slow, soothing circles. âItâs okay. Thatâs normal.â
His voice was calm, reassuring, like a gentle anchor pulling you back to the present. His eyes never wavered from yours, filled with nothing but tenderness and understanding. âIf itâs too much, we can stop. You donât have to push yourself, love.â
You shook your head softly, your chest swelling with affection for him, for the way he always prioritised your comfort. "No, itâs okay,â you murmured, your voice steady, despite the nerves that had briefly surfaced.
âYouâre doing so well.â he murmured, his voice deep and strained with pleasure. His hands guided your hips in a slow rhythm, matching your pace.
Your confidence grew with each movement, the connection between you intensifying. The pleasure coursed through you like a steady pulse, and you couldnât help but smile as you realised how much you enjoyed the feeling of being in control, of taking your time with him. Despite the initial discomfort, the intimacy was beyond anything you had imagined.
Nanamiâs hands moved to your waist, guiding you but never forcing your pace. His eyes never left yours, watching you with a mix of adoration and hunger, as if he was committing every detail of this moment to memory. His quiet groans and whispered praises filled the room, encouraging you to move faster, to take what you needed from him.
The rhythm between you and Nanami deepened, each movement becoming a sacred dance of shared desire. As you rode him, the discomfort faded, replaced by waves of pleasure that seemed to ripple through your entire being. The connection you felt, the intimacy between you, was almost otherworldlyâlike something pure and divine. It was as if you were both part of something much larger than the physical act itself, something holy, like the intertwining of souls.
Nanamiâs quiet groans echoed softly in your ears, blending with the sound of your own breathless moans. His eyes never wavered from yours, holding you in a gaze that felt reverent, as if he were worshipping you in this moment. His hands on your waist were not just guiding youâthey were anchoring you to this present, sacred moment. The tenderness in his touch was a constant reminder that this wasnât just about pleasureâit was about connection, trust, and love.
With each gentle rise and fall of your hips, you felt the tension between you building, a shared crescendo that felt like a prayer being offered to the heavens. The room seemed to glow, the soft light casting shadows that danced across your skin, making the moment feel almost ethereal. You could feel Nanamiâs restraint, the way he held back, allowing you to lead, to take what you needed.
You glanced down again, noticing the faint trace of blood still lingering where your bodies met, but instead of worry, it felt like a symbol of something being born between the two of you. It was raw and beautiful in a way that made your heart swell.
Nanamiâs voice pulled you from your thoughts, his words a low, reverent whisper. âYouâre divine,â he Nanami's voice pulled you from your thoughts, his whispered words, "You're divine," he breathed, his hands squeezing your hips gently as you moved. "You feel so damn perfect."
Shivers ran across your skin at his praise. You had never felt so connected with another person-so enveloped in the pleasure, in the love radiating between you.
But with every shift it grew, not just from the physical, but it felt as though your very souls were craving for each other, entwining like a vine in a precious garden. Every word that came from Nanami was some sort of hallowed sound. His breath on your lips, hands against your skin...it was the kind of veneration one pays to something holy.
Nanami's fingers traced lazy patterns on your back, his touch soft and soothing. Soft kisses pressed against your forehead, your cheeks, your lips-each one another silent declaration of love to you.
As Nanami held you close, his fingers tracing soft patterns on your skin, a fleeting thought crossed his mind. You were his best friend's daughter. It came to him in a flash, momentarily pulling him out of the sacredness of the moment, but he shut it down, refusing to let it intrude.
He wasn't thinking about that now, not when you were here with him, your bodies connected in such a profound, intimate manner. The tenderness in his touch was real; the love he felt for you stronger than any sense of guilt or propriety. It wasn't about what anyone else might think. It was about you, about the trust and bond you'd built together.
He leaned down and pressed his lips to your temple, a silent reassurance, as if it was a sealing of his resolution. Nothing was going to mar this moment-not the past, not expectations, not the weight of responsibility. His fingers dug into your skin, not in a harmful manner but in one speaking volumes about his need to hold on to you, to keep you close. "I'm here," he whispered-a quiet affirmation, yet a promise to himself and you, all at once. "Iâll be all yours-"
The words spoke of everything unsaid, all he couldn't explain yet knew in his heart.
With every subtle rise and fall of your hips, every time your walls clenched around his cock, the tension of the moment surged between you-a crescendo of shared longing that tugged along your very veins like a heartbeat. But as you got lost in the rhythm, you felt the change in Nanami's energy. "Let me take over," he whispered, voice low and full of promise. You nodded, breathless, feeling the thrill of anticipation at the thought.
As you eased yourself off him, his hands guided you gently to the side, and he shifted his position with grace. You found yourself lying back against the soft sheets as your heart pounded in your chest.
As Nanami settled between your legs, his eyes locked onto yours, the intensity in them making your heart race. There was something of the power in his eyes, a quiet confidence that coursed a thrill through you. You felt vulnerable yet cherished, knowing he was fully present, ready to guide you deeper into this moment.
Nanami lifted your ankles up, with a deliberate care, and laid them over his shoulders. The position opened you up to him; it heightened the sensation as he moved in closer. A soft gasp escaped you in a mix of surprise and delight flooding the senses because the positioning allowed for a completely new depth of connection.
"Just breathe," he whispered, his tone silky and soothing as he watched your reaction. His hands wrapped around your legs, his thumbs stroking the sensitive skin as he gently pushed his cock inside again, sliding through with ease now. The angle was completely different, hitting all the right spots, sending jolts of pleasure through your core.
His thrusts were slow and deep, taking his time, wanting you to feel every inch of him inside you. "Kento," you gasped, body instinctively arching toward him as pleasure mounted inside of you. This position allowed him to explore you more fully, each thrust setting off a fire that coursed through your veins, racing your heart and quickening your breath.
He watched you intently, his eyes filled with a mix of desire and tenderness, as if he were committing to memory every reaction, every sigh escaping your lips. "You're incredible," he whispered, the admiration in his voice wrapping around you like a warm caress.
He quickened the pace with each thrust, and his motions grew urgent in his urge to take you higher. The tension coiled inside of you tighter and tighter with each stroke. Nanami pressed forward, his lips grazing your forehead before tracing soft kisses down the hollow of your neck, each one sending new waves coursing through your veins. "Let go," he whispered, the soft air of his voice dancing upon your skin. "Just feel.
With his words still echoing in your mind, you succumbed to the moment and the pleasure heaving upon you like a tidal wave. Anything less would make the connection between the two all-consuming; every thrust pulls you deeper into the bliss of shared intimacy.
As he drove deeper, instinctively, your body coiled around him, pulling him in closer, urging him on. You heard the quiet, breathless groans escaping from his lips, each a testament to the overwhelming pleasure being felt together.
"Just like that-" you encouraged, your voice trembling with need as you lost yourself in the rhythm, each thrust sending you spiralling further into ecstasy. Everything else around you disappeared but the two of you entwined in a dance of passion, a sacred union of body and soul.
He was taken aback by just how beautiful you looked, lying there.
âYou really do look angelic," he breathed, staring at the way the dress clung to you. It was surreal to him-how someone so beautiful, so vibrant, could be here, completely vulnerable and open, just for him. The mere thought shot a surge of possessiveness rushing through him, igniting something deep within his core.
"I canât believe Iâm the only one that gets to see you like this," he said, his voice low and husky. The unspoken implication hung in the air, heavy with meaning. A fierce pride swelled inside of him, a protective instinct that raced his heart faster. You were his, and no one else had the privilege to know you this way.
He leaned down, pressing soft kisses against your legs, savouring it. "Knowing I'm the only one who gets to touch you like this-to feel you and see you⊠it drives me wild," he confessed, words tumbling from his lips in an fervour that even caught him off guard. It was not merely in the act itself but in the depth of your connection, the trust that you had in one another. He couldnât deny this had sparked up a desire of possession in him for you.
As you moved your hips to meet his thrusts, he groaned, burying his head against your shoulder, almost bending you in half from the angle he had your legs now. The deeper he thrust, the more the feeling of you wrapped around him intensified. Every thrust reminded him of the privilege he held, and he never wanted to forget the feeling of being inside you.
It wasn't one of those moments that would come and go but a promise of what was yet to be, an opportunity to get to know the inside of your relationship in that way-in ways more than physical. And in that realisation, a surge of determination overcame him to always cherish you, protect you, and make you aware of how well loved you were.
The rhythm between you picked up, Nanami holding you close as he thrust deeper, pushing you toward the edge of ecstasy. Your reactions to him-the gasps and moans falling from your lips-caused his heart to race even faster, firing up a flame of desire that threatened to consume him whole.
âI don't think I'm gonna let you go now," he murmured, his voice thick with affection. You felt shivers run down your spine at the conviction he drew behind the statement, a delicious thrill coursing through you. It sounded like a promise, a validation of this moment being more than just a one night thing.
With every thrust, it was like he testified to the fact that he knew you were meant to be together this way, bound by something more real than lust. "If youâll have more of me, I swear Iâll treat you right" he whispered low, truthfulness in his voice raw and palpable.
As he continued to move, the pace becoming more insistent, the heat rose between you. The way you surrendered to him, trusting him implicitly, made his resolve even stronger. He wanted to protect you, to preserve this connection with every part of his being.
âI want you in my lifeâŠproperly" he breathed, his voice breaking slightly, his emotions spilling over. "I want to be your person.â
Your eyes met and everything just felt so right. You could see the honesty in his eyes-the fierce protectiveness wrapping around you like a warm hug. This wasn't about desire; it was about love, wanting to be together in every sense.
He continued to move, each thrust a declaration, each moment together a step deeper into the bond you were forging. "You're mine," he repeated, his voice firm and unwavering, punctuating each word with a slow, deliberate movement. "And I'm yours, now and always."
He was putting every ounce into you, feeding the fire that was bursting to last between the two-this moment in the engraving of your hearts forever. Everything else faded around you, and it came down to just the two of you, entwined together in a dance as old as time, bound by passion and an unbreakable connection that seemed to be written across the stars.
With every thrust, the intensity between you became all too much. Nanami began to move with greater urgency, his grip upon you tightening as he urged you toward the brink.
It was as if you could feel the pressure build up in you, spiralling tighter and tighter every time his cock hit that sweet spot inside you. The room echoed with the sounds of your shared breathing, the soft slapping of skin to skin, and the sweet symphony of pleasure mingled together.
âIâm not holding back,â he growled, urgency creeping into his tone. âI want you to feel everything. I want you to remember this.â With that, he quickened his pace, thrusting deeper, harder, pushing you both closer to the edge. Each movement sent shockwaves of pleasure coursing through your body, overwhelming your senses, and you could feel the tightness coiling in your core.
âKento,â you gasped, the sound slipping from your lips unbidden. The tension was unbearable, a sweet torment that made your heart race. You could feel your body responding instinctively, tightening around him, urging him on, begging for release.
âIâm right here,â he murmured, his voice low and soothing, even as he lost himself in the heat of the moment. âLet go for me.â His words ignited a spark within you, and you felt the wave building higher, ready to crash over you both.
With one final thrust, everything alignedâthe heat, the pressure, the connectionâand you felt yourself spiralling over the edge. Your body trembled as waves of pleasure washed over you, crashing through you with an intensity that left you breathless. You cried out his name, the sound echoing in the space between you, as ecstasy enveloped you completely.
You held onto him as you gushed around his cock, the way you clenched around him drew him deeper into the bliss and he followed closely, his own climax hitting him like a tidal wave, surging right through him. âOh God,â he groaned, the sound raw and primal, his own body responding instinctively to the way you embraced him.
He savoured the aftershocks of the moment, thankful in this moment that heâd worn a condom. And as the waves of pleasure began to recede, you were breathless and spent.
Nanami gently lowered your legs from his shoulders, his touch tender and deliberate. He cradled your ankles in his hands, mindful of the way the position had pulled and stretched your muscles. His fingers began to massage softly, kneading the tension away with a skillful touch that made you sigh in contentment.
âAre you okay?â he asked, his voice low and warm, a blend of concern and affection. He looked at you with those deep eyes, searching for any signs of discomfort. The intimacy of the moment enveloped you both like a soft blanket, grounding you in the reality of what youâd just shared.
You nodded, a smile spreading across your lips as you felt his gentle hands work their magic. âIâm perfect,â you breathed, your heart swelling with warmth as you took in the sight of himâthe way he focused on you, the care he put into every movement. âThank you.â
Nanamiâs lips curved into a satisfied smile at your words, and he leaned down, placing soft kisses along your ankles and up your calves, each press of his mouth sending a shiver of delight through your body. It felt like a sacred ritual, a way for him to honour the experience you had just shared. He continued to massage your legs, his fingers moving with deliberate care, ensuring you felt cherished and adored.
âI want to take my time with youâ he murmured against your skin, his breath warm and tantalising. As he kissed his way back up to your thighs, he looked up at you, his eyes filled with a mix of mischief and sincerity.
âYou have me,â you replied, your voice soft but full of promise. âAll of me.â
Nanamiâs gaze turned serious for a moment, a flicker of something profound passing between you. âI donât take that lightly,â he said, sincerity lacing his tone. âYou mean a lot to me.â
He paused, taking in the moment, the connection that thrummed between you. He quickly discarded the condom before leaning in, capturing your lips with his in a slow, tender kiss that ignited another spark within you. The world around you faded, and all that existed was the taste of him, the warmth of his body, and the way he made you feelâsafe, cherished, and completely desired.
âLetâs stay like this for a while,â Nanami whispered against your lips, his breath mingling with yours, creating a heady sensation that made you smile. You nodded, content to linger in this cocoon of warmth and affection, feeling utterly adored in the aftermath of your shared bliss.
The world outside ceased to exist as you both lost yourselves in each other, the echoes of your passion fading into soft whispers, leaving only the sweet sound of your hearts beating in perfect harmony.
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Cw: Nsfw (gym owner+ your personal trainer Simon)
Simon notices you the moment you step into the gym. nervous, pretty, looked entirely out of place. He greets you with a nod and a gruff âHelloâ when you saunter to the counter and look up at him timidly. Gleaming doe eyes meeting his and a bit intimidated by his presence.
âI wantâŠwant to sign up for the courseâŠâ your voice comes out soft and quiet, still a bit scared by the wall of man in front of you. His lips curl upward slightly, though his schedule is pretty tight already, but he doesnât mind squeezing time out just for a cute and beautiful girl like you.
âThe only time Iâm free now is 21:00.â Simon said, asking if youâre okay with it, and you agree without a doubt. This is the gym closest to your place, and has the highest rating among others, you donât mind if the session will start a bit later in the night.
Heâs a great personal trainer, like the what the comments say on the internet. Heâs meticulous, knows how to effectively improve your stance. Youâre not sure if itâs normal for personal trainers to stand this close when youâre squatting, so close that you can feel the heat radiating off him, his breath fanning on the nape of your neck. maybe he just wants to make sure you wonât accidentally hurt yourself, you think to yourself after few sessions with him.
Simon canât forget the first session, you step into the gym with the sports bra and gym shorts, hair tied into a high bun that shows off your flawless neck, he wonders how smooth it will feel when he runs his fingers along it. His chest touches your rear when youâre lifting weights, âIn case your grip slips.â He tells you when he sees the confusion in your eyes. His eyes glued on your hips when you just finished few reps of lying leg curls, ass cheeks so nice and supple, you breathe a bit fast as you keep lying on the training machine, unaware of him try not to form a boner from ogling at your moist lips and the contours of your body.
Youâre a bit frustrated with the progress you made so far, asking him if youâre not working hard enough. Your slight pout is too adorable, and he resists the urge not to swipe his thumb over your bottom lip. âYouâre doing alright, give your body some time to build muscles.â Simon reassures you, but he can still see the chagrin on your face. Youâre stressed out, he can tell, and as your personal trainer, itâs his job to help his student unwind, yeah?
The disappointment and anxiety are thrown to the back of your mind when he sits on the bench in front of the mirror, two fingers deep inside you, twirling and pressing the gooey spots with you moaning on his lap.
âLook at the mirror, sweetheart, look how beautiful you look when your little pussyâs swallowing my fingers.â His other hand move to your chin, turn your head towards the mirror. You can see his smug smile even with that disposable mask on, his fingers shoved deep into your cunt, bring out your profuse juices when he drags his fingers out. The scene is too embarrassing, your cheeks flush with arousal and shyness when you shift your gaze away from the mirror.
âLook at the mirror, love.â His tongue clicks twice, tone firm without any space for you to reject, so you obediently look back, let out a high-pitched sweet whine as you watch how his cock sinks into your tight cunt, pussy lips pushed aside to fit his fat cock. âFucking pussy so tight, so perfectâŠfuckâŠâ He inhales deeply, landing a soft swat on your bum and makes you yelp at the comfortable sting.
He definitely didnât choose to schedule your session this late, that no one will be in gym except you two, so he can bend you over every surfaces here and fuck you till you squirt all over the nearest wall. His hips never cease, shows you how much stamina and strength he has as the best personal trainer. Pinning you over the machine you did lying leg curls, the angle of the it allows your ass to arch up and let him drive his pierced cock deeper, each piercings knead and glide through your spots one by one every time he slams his hips back.
When your thighsâ twitching even harder than they were after your leg days, you looking up at him with dazed eyes, entirely blissed out from how many mind blowing orgasms he gave you, Simon lifts you up again, easily maneuver you to hook your knees over his elbows, he pushes his cum-drenched dick inside again, still rock hard and ready to wrench yet another release from your heavenly cunny. He walks you to the mirror again, every steps makes his hips bucks and cock thrust up in the force, and all you can do is moan and whimper. âtoo much, too much SimonâŠâ
But He only huffs out a laughter at your words while he stops in front of the mirror, giving you the full view to the reflectionâyour fucked dumb expression, thighs spread widely and supported by his strong arms, pussy swollen and clit peaks out from the folds, yet your tight walls still massaging his cock nicely as if youâre trying to please him.
âSo perfect, princess. look just right when youâre in my arms.â Simon presses a kiss to your shoulder, adjust his grip and let your weight help him to reach the deepest, the tip of his shaft rest against your cervix. âLetâs have the next round on the leg press machine, yeah? I know you hate doing leg press the most, maybe youâll be more pliant the next time, because you know how Iâll make you soak that seat after the session ends, hmm?â
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â.Ë áĄŁđ© â â early morning moments with skz !
âș đč . genre: fluff! jisung's a tiny bit suggestive
âș đč . a/n: since i've done late night moments with them, i think it's only fitting i write this as well! enjoyy <33 pls let me know your thoughts by reblogging or leaving a comment <3 (inspired by some of these prompts <3)
đৠchan đà§
Youâve been awake for a while now, snuggling and holding each other close as half of your body was on top of your boyfriendâs, almost latching onto him like a koala bear without shame. And he didnât mind, Chan never did, content with being glued to you in every situation, hugging you so tightly like he wanted you to morph into one, the same entity kept alive by the beating of a singular heart.
âYou fell asleep in the first 20 minutes of the movie last night.â You whisper, drawing random shapes on his exposed pecs, laying in the crook of his neck. Chan makes an apologetic sound before heâs interrupted by a yawn, stretching his arms above his head and letting one fall to curl around your middle. âSorry, baby. I guess I was pretty tired.â
Tired is an understatement, and you laugh, lazily reaching for your phone on the nightstand to show him exactly what youâre talking about, with him tugging you right back to his chest when you stretch too far. There is a picture of Chan, sitting on the couch with his head thrown back and mouth open, snoring away while the movie heâs been begging you to watch together was rolling in the background.
The laugh he lets out is quieter than usual, the remains of sleep obvious in his half-closed eyes and deeper voice. âDamn, I was out like a light.â
You continue cuddling for a while before agreeing itâs time to start your day, reluctantly separating and sitting up at the end of the bed, adopting the same stance.
Heâs still mumbling about something when you notice his hair sticking out in every direction, reaching out to tame the curls before stealing a kiss which only makes your boyfriend want another, and another until twenty minutes have passed and youâre still in bed, snuggling and making out like the world outside your bedroom did not exist.
đৠminho đà§
âMinho.â You whisper, tossing and turning under the blanket to face him, peering at his sleeping face. Your boyfriend was on his back, resting peacefully, unaware of the godly beauty he possessed, one people would surely go to war for, chest rising and falling rhythmically.
He doesnât respond so, you try again. âMinho!â this time, he scrunches his nose cutely and rolls over, away from you and your antics he was too tired to be a victim of this early in the morning.
âMinho, are you awake yet?â You know what they say, third time is the charm because your boyfriend responds instantly, voice loud and clear, the opposite of your soft tone which takes you by complete surprise. âNo.â
âOh, okay.â you whisper, feeling bad for disturbing him. âSorry.â you almost turn on your side and succumb to slumber before it hits you. Without warning, you swing a leg over his torso before rolling yourself over him to land on the other side of the bed, ignoring all his groans in protest.
âLiar!â Youâre nose to nose now and Minho barely gets to open his eyes before you push his shoulder, causing him to fall on his back as you climb to straddle him. You waste no time leaning down and connecting your lips in a sweet kiss, cupping his cheeks and squeezing affectionately. As much as he wanted to complain, Minho couldnât help but smile against your lips, body melting into the mattress while one of his veiny hands moved to rest on your exposed thigh, needing to feel more of you.
He should lie more often if this is the reward he gets.
đৠchangbin đà§
âBinnie.â Youâre gentle as you brush curly hair strands from his forehead, smiling when he instantly leans into your touch. âMy love, I know youâre awake.â
âThen you should also know I hate waking up to an empty bed.â He pouts, eyes still closed stubbornly. With the same fond smile, you roll your eyes, hand dropping down to slowly trace his every feature, knowing he could never resist you.
âI had a good cause, I promise.â When he doesnât budge, you reach for the tray on the nightstand and place it across his lap, over the blanket, careful his smoothie doesnât spill over. âI made breakfast.â
Just like magic, his eyes snap open and he sits up so quickly you wonder if he got whiplash that was instantly cured by the smell of his favorite breakfast. His eyes sparkle as his gaze moves back and forth from the tray to you, so touched and grateful as he takes it all in, noticing the effort you put in so early in the morning just to cook a feast and surprise him with breakfast in bed. Nobodyâs ever done something like this for him, love him so deeply and openly. Is this what being the luckiest man in the world felt like?
âI love you.â The words stumble out without second thought, eyes misty, forgetting all about being upset and giving you attitude. When you laugh, he does too, carefully leaning over the food to kiss you, the love of his life that adored him in the exact same way he adored you.
Love is the greatest gift heâs ever received and as selfish as it sounds, Changbin hopes youâll continue loving him this way for the rest of your shared lives, that youâll always remain by his side. He promises to continue eating your cooking even when youâre both old and grey, impaired taste and all.
đৠhyunjin đà§
The early hours of the morning found you in the arms of your beloved, sleeping away, undisturbed by the outside world and its people who were already hurrying around to get to work on time. You wonât be joining them today, nor will the man whose warmth was currently engulfing you whole, creating a safe love bubble you never wanted to burst.
Your face was buried in his chest, the soft material of his t-shirt moving with each breath he took, his heartbeat rocking you to sleep every time your eyes opened to check the time. Old habits die hard, but Hyunjin always manages to calm your racing mind even from dreamland.
Half an hour later, when the sun starts to peek through the drawn curtains, youâre awakened by tiny paws jumping on the bed, breathing and barking loudly. So much for sleeping in. Hyunjinâs eyes open with a smile, arms tightening their hold on your middle as he brings you even closer, resting his chin on top of your head while squeezing tightly. Morning cuddles were a must, even if your boyfriendâs other baby was too impatient to be let out to allow you to enjoy them to the fullest.Â
âGood morning, love.â He greets you with a kiss, lingering there for the briefest moment before finally tearing himself from you, giggling down the hallway as he quickly goes to allow Kkami on the terrace.
He comes back rambling about something that happened at a schedule the other day, blinking the sleep away as he hands you a water bottle, yawning here and there. Unfortunately for him, youâre not listening, too distracted by the way his plump lips move and his husky voice, the words going in one ear and out the other as your inner monologue takes over.
âYour morning voice is so hot.â Hyunjin stops mid-sentence, momentarily taken aback before he bursts out laughing, dramatically collapsing back into bed and reaching for your hand to hold. âWhat?â
You nod, now sitting up against the headboard, eyes still zoned in on his pink and wet lips, enthralled. âTell me more, baby. What did Chan do?â âHe wasnât even there!â See, not paying attention at all. But who could blame you when your boyfriend couldnât take the hint and finally kiss you again?
đৠjisung đà§
âI had a dream about you.â Jisung perks up from his place on your chest, the TV running idly in the background, showing a random cartoon. âWas I hot?â âYou cheated on me.â
He gasps dramatically but doesnât move, too comfortable as you continue running your fingers through his freshly dyed hair, almost lulling him back to sleep. âAsshole move, dream me. Off with his head!.âÂ
You chuckle, kissing the top of his head and turning into a puddle once he begins leaving wet kisses on your neck, apologizing or most likely trying to distract you from how heâs been acting in your dream. It was working, because you lost your train of thought a couple of times before managing to speak again, eyes fluttering shut.
âYou were very mean, actually.â Jisung hums against your neck, licking the skin before his kisses move downwards, to your collarbones, warm hands holding you down by the waist, touch burning pleasantly through your thin clothing.
âIâm sorry, baby.â He props his head up, chin resting right above your chest as his eyes bore into yours with a familiar intensity. âPlease let me make it up for you.â
Thatâs what he says but ten minutes into making out and caressing each otherâs bodies, his head falls tiredly to his previous place on your chest and youâre both out like a light, the warmth and cloudy weather of the early morning casting the spell of sleep on your forms and trapping you in bed for another three hours.
đৠfelix đà§
You were not a morning person, it was a well-known fact by everyone in your life. Especially by your boyfriend who usually stayed up to keep you company, talking the hours away and giggling under the blankets until you both passed out just as the moon was retiring for the day.
So, youâre more than perplexed when one very early morning, you feel a warm hand caressing your cheek, followed by soft lips peppering feather-like kisses on every inch of your face, coaxing you awake.
âBaby,â his deep voice calls, barely above a whisper to not scare you, leaving a kiss on the corner of your mouth this time, âwake up, angel.â
You make a face, eyes still closed in protest and make to turn over, away from him until you feel the bed dip and his hand in your hair, massaging the scalp gently. Was Felix trying to wake you up or lull you back to sleep? Pretty sure he was just as confused.
When he leans down again, hovering over your face, your arms spring up and lock at the back of his neck, quickly bringing him down and bumping your noses together. You see his eyes widen, inhaling sharply as he realizes what youâre about to do and dodges your kiss last second, lips landing on his cheekbone instead.
Groggy and grumpy from being woken up this early, you pout, relaxing under his weight as his chest presses yours down. âKiss me!â Felix chuckles and shakes his head, hands on either side of your head holding him up. âNot until you wake up and join me in the kitchen.â Once he sees you shake your own head and move to try and kiss him again, he adds. âI have a surprise!â
Now why didnât he say so from the beginning? You release him but he doesnât move away immediately, smiling from ear to ear before kissing your forehead and scooping you out of bed in one swift movement, strong arms under your knees as he giggles and jogs towards the kitchen, face brightening up when a smile finally graces your features. Â
đৠseungmin đà§
Every single morning, Seungmin was the first to wake up without fail, reaching for you to bring your body to his chest and cuddle until you also did, just laying there since he never wanted you to wake up alone.Â
Thatâs why when you woke up earlier than usual, with his chin resting on your shoulder and hot breath hitting your cheek, you didnât hesitate to move around and bring the blanket further up your bodies, making sure you were both covered and comfortable among the many pillows.
âYour feet are cold.â But Seungmin doesnât respond, legs intertwined and body still glued to yours like he never wanted to let go, couldnât. You sneak a glance over your shoulder and find his eyes closed, long eyelashes kissing the top of his cheeks as he rested, sleeping deeply. For the first time since youâve known him, Seungmin didnât smile in greeting as you woke up, still sleeping soundly like it was the most normal thing in the world.
It felt a bit strange, but your heart only grew as you watched him, admiring his side profile and the peaceful look on his face, the furrow between his eyebrows absent as dreamland took care of him.
You never got the chance to do this, wake up first and let your thoughts run wild as you resist the urge to squeeze his cheeks and plant kisses all over his face, love pouring out at a dangerous pace, threatening to suffocate him at any moment. Not like Seungmin would mind, adoring you too much to not allow you to do whatever you pleased.
As careful as you can be, one of your hands trails down and intertwines your fingers, gently bringing your connected hands to your chest as you curl further into him, content with getting more cuddle time, loving every single moment.
đৠjeongin đà§
âDid you know you talk in your sleep?â You mumble into his neck, squeezing your eyes shut as you try to hide from the obnoxious sunlight that is threatening to take your lover away with the start of a new day.
Jeongin laughs, incredulous. âNo way! Iâve had countless roommates and none of them have ever complained about me randomly rambling in my sleep.â He headbutts you affectionately, almost like a cat, and snuggles closer, also bothered by the sun but too lazy to get up and close the curtains he forgot about last night.
âIâm not complaining.â Looking up, you share a breath as you move to plant a small kiss on his nose, smiling when it scrunches up in fake annoyance, knowing your boyfriend loved morning cuddles as much as you did. âI actually think itâs kind of endearing.â
He rolls his eyes, big hand drawing circles on your back under the blanket, soothing you in an attempt to get you both to fall back asleep. Mornings were not his thing, and he really didnât want to leave you, clingier than usual. The bed was so warm, and you were so soft and smelt so good, how could he ever think about leaving? Not like heâd ever admit it out loud.
âWhat did I say?â He chooses to entertain you, stretching his whole body before bringing the blanket over your heads and moving his arms to hug you, turning on his side so youâre face to face. You pause, momentarily mesmerized by his beauty, messy hair and puffy eyes only making him look even more adorable in your eyes. Tracing his bottom lip, he puckers them to gently kiss your finger. âI donât know, I donât speak gibberish.â
He groans, regretting he asked and hiding his face in his pillow. âYou also snore.â âI do not!âÂ
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