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fidgetspringer-art · 5 months

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- Thalassophobia -

#digital art #illustration #artists on tumblr #digital drawing #art #my art #original art #I wanted to see if i could capture the feeling of this creepy recurring dream i have #I think one of the spookiest things about this dream is that both my twin sister and my mum have exactly the same one #something we didn't realise until we happened to be discussing weird dreams one day and the giant fish were mentioned #and as we kept talking each of us took turns describing a part of the dream in perfect detail that lined up exactly with everyone else's #this dream takes place in a real location we all know but it doesn't look the way it does IRL #and all of our dreams share the same exact altered version of this place #we all see the giant fish and we all get the same feeling of bottomless dread when we look at them or approach them #I get chills any time i talk about this dream it creeps me out so bad #and i've been wanting to try to capture the feeling of it for a looong time #so here's an attempt

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discoveredreality · 2 months

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having a uterus is so shitty

#ari's shit #help i hate periods #ive been crying for a good 10 minutes #cause there is 3 of the same mouses in our house #and idk what to do #how do i tell them apart #help #why am i crying #this is so shit #and like the mouses r so fucking annoying #ugh #i thought it was exactly the mouse i wanted #now that my mum has it i hate it #and now we have an extra my dad sometimes uses one #wtf #why does everyone have a mouse like mine #i hate htis #help i cant stop cryong

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kissmefriendly · 2 years

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On a slightly more serious note, I just wanna post this before the final entry, not counting the epilogue. I’m so, so thankful for Dracula Daily. It’s been an absolute blast beginning to end, reading discourse, seeing the jokes and memes and all the art, reading theories and reactions. And getting to be apart of that! Reading this book again in this format was a hell of an experience but the fact that I didn’t do it alone, I don’t know. We’ve all gotten to experience this book in a new way in real time together. I love that. And I hope that it won’t be just a one-off event, either. And even if it is? But this? It’s been wonderful. So, thank you to everyone for collectively going nuts over a 130 year old novel. Thank you for posting and making those artworks and memes and analyses. Reminds you you’re human and not stuck and alone.

#sorry for being emotional lol #but seriously #I didn’t exactly make new friends or connections #I’m not exactly someone people like seeing post etc etc #but you know what? I got to be in the same room as a bunch of strangers while we all shared an experience #on a personal note #I looked forward to DD everyday because irl I’m pretty isolated #even online I’m isolated this is my 5th or 6th blog. and it was just nice to feel apart of a group #and yeah we still have the epilogue and all but tbh #idk I don’t want it to end #I don’t wanna go back to being alone #I loved talking about this book with y’all I loved seeing your art and theories #it was exciting!#I read this book when I was 8 and my mum had never read it and my brother was too young to #so reading has always been very lonely #but this? this was amazing #and I really don’t want that to end #it’s less about the book itself and more about the people I’ve read it with #which I guess is rather at the heart of the book #dracula daily #dracula #so long and goodnight #lol

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robotpussy · 2 years

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its always "be your own person, i support you self expressing yourself" but as soon as i mention anything i want to do all of a sudden its the wrong decision and i should just do whatever my mum tells me

#like ok i dont want to go to church anymore i don't want to read the bible with you anymore and i don't want to do a master's degree #after my current course i would like to rest and find a job and when i mention this its 'no no no you have to do and listen to what i say #im your mother i know everything even though i have shown that i actually have no idea about your interests'#its the same with what career i want to go into with film. i want to be in the art department but my mum so badly does not #want me to be in that department she always gets upset when i say i would love to be a production designer and its like #the actual industry job is very likely not going to EXACTLY like how it is at my school.... there is a whole department for that #its noy just one person doing everything. and then i have the coding classes...#i am literally taking them so she will shut up and wont start crying the same way she does when my sister doesn't do what she #tells her to do. i have NO INTEREST in tech at all and I'm taking these stupid classes because she secretly wants me #to be in tech because she knows everything abt that industry and not film I #and when i say uh i dont want to do that actually she just guilt trips me into doing i literally cant take this shit anymore

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nevergoesout · 1 year

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been pretty busy lately actually ! what is new ? went to see my dad in hospital which was a lot, stayed at my nan & grampy’s two weekends in a row (and going back this weekend) (i love the cotswold hills with all my heart) , beer fest weekend (which is our big annual family gathering more so than christmas!) was lovely and jam came for the first year - we had lots of obscure ciders including the whiskey cask one we can never find !! , i GOT A FIRST !! , got some bright yellow crocs like i had when i was small very cheap in a sale , got a table for our house and feels very much like a real home now ! living with friends is still everything i dreamed of so far, it’s so lovely , had my first ever tick bite , still don’t have a job , am very happy

#my aunts 50th this weekend so going to be lots of love and champagne and silliness #i love the dynamic w my mums family sooo much #all our cousins are almost exactly the same age as me and my brothers so we very much grew up together (despite living 100 miles apart)#except my baby cousin who is now almost 8 ! we get on very well she’s adorable #but like the whole family has the same sense of humour #and last weekend we spent so much time sat around doing crosswords together very shoutily waiting for the rain to stop #and a lot of time calling novak djokovic names #alia

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eepybish · 1 year

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Please don’t ever take it personally if I don’t confide in you or reach out to you for help the way you do me. I have my people I talk to about my shit, I have those I lean on. And while I appreciate the support, and am glad I can be that for you, my not reciprocating the need or want for the same help and support from you is not a reflection of you or necessarily our relationship. I come to people in a lot of different ways, that probably don’t seem like a big deal to you but means the absolute world to me.

If you’ve ever let me bitch or rant to you, thank you. If you’ve ever held my hand (literally or metaphorically) while I did something tough or scary myself, thank you. If you’ve ever answered a question or helped me solve a problem, thank you. If you’ve ever been a distraction from the noise, thank you.

All of those things help me, and I appreciate you immensely for it.

Now, my friend, will you stop beating yourself up? That’s my friend you’re hurting, and that hurts me too. If you hurt, I hurt. So, take care of yourself, yeah?

#I’m on my therapist friend shit again #but seriously I’m there for a lot of people and I almost never seek the same people out in the same way #I go to my mum or my psych about pretty much everything #and if not them then I usually have one or two close friends I talk to #I don’t need anyone to do exactly for me as to what I did for them #just be you and be kind and then I’ll be good #I got a lot of thoughts but the main one is god damn I wish therapy were more universally accessible #go see a therapist if you can okay? I promise it’s worth it

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theladyfae · 2 years

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maybe you're both opj...

I mean it's definitely Tyler but...

@latinposeidon you and i have begun to blur,,,

#we are ALL opj ofc. the collective hivemind #im giggling this is so stupid ahsjskks does this make me and tyler the same entity ???#mutuals who don't shut up about hating each other are actually the same person on a self destructive streak #of 2 years already slay <3 #i keep glancing at this and visibly trying nkt to laugh and i dont exactly want my mum to ask why #faera's #🐝☕️

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izzy-b-hands · 1 year

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Absolutely horrific heart pounding nightmare woke me up for the day. That's. a start to it lmao

#text post #it started out so cool and had like. Jim as a diver? in something v futuristic for some docu that olu was narrating #but it just got. horrible minute by minute #Olu's narration revealed that the earth had been decimated by a war involving multiple nuclear weapons #and somehow things were like. okay enough for some survivors like him and jim to make it? but things were V Fucked lmao #then midway thru jims device/pod thing broke and it felt like i was literally controlling them thru an ocean under the crust of the earth #(no idea what that's abt lmao i think my brain spaced on set dressing this dream a lil bit)#and it was like trying to swim them thru pudding but with so many irradiated and fucked up and ANGRY sea creatures all around #i got them to the surface after floating past a bunch of bodies but they were basically out of air by then so they were gasping hard #and i woke up right then and woke up basically the same way lmao #it's been several minutes now and my heart is still pounding like mad #and im crying a little and can't seem to stop but today i set aside to try and force myself to have a good big cry #i need to find something to watch to make me cry tho so maybe s2 thus far again lol bc certain moments might do it #more likely i need to see what else i have from my past watchlists that are Guaranteed Cry items and try one of those #so i can get over this current thing with the ptsd and get my shit back together even temporarily #duct tape that all back together in the box in my brain until the next random trigger (bc i still dunno exactly what made this one go)#i think it might actually be my brain processing late a lot of Move Feelings re: mum & family bc that's what Housemate #and i talked abt last night a lot but ultimately im ???? as to a for sure trigger #anyway GOOD FUCKING MORNING i guess aksndjffjfj

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knifeprtys · 2 years

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#trying not to cry n get into a state abt how this is our first christmas without rainne #bcos that would just upset and worry my mum and i can tell shes just trying to distract herself the best she can so she doesnt do the same #but literally im just sat here shaking n snotting over everyones presents that im trying to wrap #the past few years she was spending it at her boyfriends or would go to his in the morning #but whenever she was here she used to run downstairs to open her presents at exactly midnight and make us open ours frm her then too #i miss her so much #im probs gonna be even more of a mess on new year i wish i drank #its literally only getting harder #x

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nerdie-faerie · 2 years

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Been feeling very on top of my shit these last two weeks so of course that's when my mum wants to crack down on my lack of socialising. Ma'am I'm going to uni and focusing on myself right now, let's not get ahead of ourselves

#personal #+Extra #mother i dont have any friends in this city okay? they all live elsewhere but i get along with my classmates and im civil with my flatmates #lets focus on the positives aight? my damn extroverted mum and brother do not understand how i can be a uni student and not spend all my #time drinking and thats exactly why they didnt go to uni had serious relationships at my age while im sat in my room tryna remember to text #people back and to drink enough water at the same time but unfortunately i got limited mental space and never learned how to juggle #shes being very insistent about my lack of social life lately maam with what friends & what funds am i meant to be doing this socialising?#tbf i do kinda forget that other things exist outside of my flat sometimes i spend too much time in my lil box but she doesnt need to know

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yousaytomato · 2 years

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Get up late because of the horrors. It's midnight and I need to eat something. I know! Cup-a-soup! Get Cup-a-soup from box labeled "Minestrone". Add into cup. Pour on hot water. The soup is not red like minestrone. The soup smells like chicken. Retrieve packet from bin to examine more closely. Tiny writing. "Chicken and Veg." Chicken soup. In the Minestrone box. Pour soup down drain. Go to bed hungry because I do not want to use another soup :(

#:( like. kind of my fault #a little #but i didnt even know they labeled them #they all look exactly the same #and now im worried my mum will be mad #even though it was an accident #and she doesn't own the soup #and she bins my stuff all the time #:( just wanted my soup and then to go to bed #already feeling bad today #soup is supposed to be joyous not depressing #actually wasn't technically Cup-a-soup. rather heinz's 'cup soup'#incase anyone gets onto me about how the packaging is very clear actually #it wasnt :(#and it was in the Minestrone box!! all the rest are minestrone!!!#there are 4 other soups in the box. all minestrone #there's a box in the cupboard. minestrone #like wtf?? what kind of cruel trick is this #i don't eat meat. btw.#i guess that's important context #and it's midnight so no one else is up to eat the unwanted soup #and also the soup wouldn't really keep #im not intentionally trying to waste food #and by not getting a replacement. i actually haven't wasted anything really #woes of emily #food #if my journal was within reach this would go in there instead of on tumblr #but it's buried under some stuff in my room rn so. y'all get to read this too

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theloverstomb · 2 years

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I always interpret uncanny situations as spiritual experiences even when they’re not. like once I was alone in my bedroom and suddenly I heard my mum talking, things that she’d said earlier that day, word for word, clear as a bell, although she wasn’t in the house. I couldn’t understand it and why something so mundane would be relating back to me. I told my dad and brother about it and then my mum when she came back from work. a bit later on I looked at a video i’d took that morning of a bird just outside the window, with my mum speaking in the background, exactly as i’d remembered and heard in my room. the video had somehow started playing by itself while not being visible on my phone screen. I think i’m in an episode of the twilight zone at all times

#even more embarrassingly i’ve had this ‘memory’ for as long as I could recall of me having an ultrasound #somewhat disjointed but I could remember exactly how the gel felt and that it was cold #and it occurred to me as a teenager to tell/ask my parents about it #and they were like “hm. odd. you’ve never had an ultrasound. I can’t think of any reason why you would’ve ever had one”#so I became convinced that it was an inherited memory from my mum #or my unborn spirit observing an ultrasound from outside the womb #then I went to the doctors in 2018 and asked if I could be referred for an ultrasound #to see if I had the same genetic kidney condition as my mum #and the doctor was like “sure thing! oh it appears that you have had a renal ultrasound once before. when you were 3 years old”#i’m a clown. but in a transcendent way #l

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ivory--raven · 23 days

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spiny baby fhfjfjfjr beloved

#magically not exactly a newborn #power of film #my two childhood friends my mum babysat were in a tv show they were doubles playing the same baby #it was because of their mother's complication apparently? it's supposed to be a nice thing. and they got paid

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wren-kitchens · 1 month

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more of a rant than a vent but could be venty anyway idk i’m being annoyed at stuff tonight GKFHD