#but they still deserve to recieve the world's judgement

[leporschespam]

kinnporsche characters as quotes by my mates

|| Porsche - part 3

these are all much tamer than usual,, hm-

so bonus quotes that don't fit kp characters in the tags 🤩🤩

[katiifaestarot]

THE READING TODAY IS: What Reassurance You Need to Hear Right Now ˗ˋˏ ♡ ˎˊ˗

-short and (mostly) sweet messages

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There are 3 piles and you will be picking through the picture right below this text!!!

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✨️🧚🏽‍♀️please choose your pile and may your intuition and inner knowing guide you to the pile with the energy most suited for you and most suited to help you along your path at this current point in time, no matter what that looks like🧚🏽‍♀️✨️

PILE 1- Useful Tension

PILE 2- Both Strong and Delicate

PILE 3- Contemplate Your Gorgeousness

** sometimes ( most of the time ) i will pick up on multiple energies that need attention or want to be expressed during the reading so i ASK YOU TO UNDERSTAND THIS DURING MY READINGS:

depending on how the reader(YOU) chooses to look at the situation or however the situation resonates for the reader(YOU) and because this is a general reading;

⚠️you HAVE to be able to use your better discernment + better judgement skills to fully absorb the message and be able to do the necessary work to keep you on track for the future you WANT for yourself⚠️

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OKAY PILE 1:

The pain, turmoil, obstacle(s), challenge(s), unwanted situation(s), etc-- you are going through right now; they're here to teach you how to use this lesson or difficult situation to your advantage and fully adapt to the harsh conditions being thrown at you! You cannot give up on yourself or your goals/dreams, its tough right now so you are able to utilize the lessons being taught to you at this very moment, later in life. You arent the only one going through something like this. Out of billions of people in the world, you GOT TO assume you're just another human going through another human expirence, like so many others, and yes while you may be learning different things or excelling in different places, you still are not alone pile1.

--sorry if it got harsh at the end, but i think the message of reassurance really would be to understand you are not alone so you can better assess YOUR personal situation from an objective perspective while understanding you are apart of millions IF NOT BILLIONS, of people who all go through something similar!!! So dont care so much and start utilizing this dark, negative, unwanted situation to YOUR benefit, and get yourself OUTTA THE DARK TIMES AND LOOK TOWARDS A BETTER FUTURE!!! dont get stuck in self-victimizing!!!!!

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OKAY PILE 2:

There's a VERY clear duality to you pile 2. you know how to be soft and endearing, as well as tough and strong!!! You always know where you're headed even if you theoretically "feel lost" sometimes!!!! You have an innate understanding that you are just flowing with the wind and the answers will come to you when they and YOU are ready!! So keep going KEEP FEELING and keep being your most free flowing self!!! So many surprises await your willingness to recieve and innate mighty but gentle nature. Stay Saucy and Pretty Pile 2 ;)

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OKAY PILE 3:

When was the last time you hyped yourself up pile 3? When was the last time you REALLY did a self care/self love day?? BECAUSE LET ME TELL YOOOUUU!!! YOU'RE ONE AMAZING HUMAN WHO HAS SO MUCH TO OFFER!!! YOUR ABUNDANT AURA IS JUST WAITING TO BE UNTAPPED BY YOU AND YOUR GORGEOUS SELF!!!!!!! You deserve so many good things pile 3🥺 so please dont miss out on opportunities because you lie to yourself and say you're not good enough for them or dont want to try because theres "competition."

What isnt for you, isnt for you; what is yours will come to you when you're open to receiving and willing to be in that gorgeous energy and attract!! Competition is EVERYWHERE!! so accept that and do your best!!! you got this!!!

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I sincerely hope you received what you needed and released what you don't !! See you again soon!! Take it easyyy and just breathe and fllooowwww!!! you got this! byyeee~🧚🏽‍♀️✨️

**please let me know how I'm doing in any way you can! That is the easiest way to supprt me. Dont forget to Follow Me on Youtube and Tiktok for messages, guidance, and advice 🥺 🥹 🙏🏼

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**I AM NOT A MEDICAL OR HEALTH PROFESSIONAL; PLEASE USE YOUR OWN JUDGEMENT AND DISCERNMENT TO DETERMINE IF YOU NEED OR WANT TO SEEK PROPER HELP OR TREATMENTS FOR YOURSELF OUTSIDE OF TUMBLR OR SOCIAL MEDIA!!

***AND REMEMBER: your own free will is always present within you; which has nothing to do with me or ANYBODY else. I am NOT responsible for YOUR choices after YOU consume my content on ANY of my platforms.

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[jksnrabbit]

Hi again, (i’m the anon from earlier), sorry if this is annoying or too much but I have more questions about Johnny. Again don’t feel like you have to respond.

What is Johnny doing in season two? Especially with the kiddads betrayal of Nicky.

How well does he know Taylor? Is he around as like a fun uncle or is he absent like Nicky is?

In both season one and two what was his relationships with the other families (both the other dads and kiddads)?

also since you mentioned birdie (henry’s daughter) she is canon as of the “see you again” intro about schmeggan (or however that’s spelled) during the hell arc in season two. Henry comes in and sings a verse about how brad helped him and mercedes name their daughter. Will has also said he gives Henry another daughter every time he’s asked if birdie is real.

thanks again for answering the previous questions.

i love the asks!! this is fleshing out johnny more than ive thought about - ive had this mf for 2 yrs and now i gotta employ Critical Thinking this is nice <3 im so happy he's being recieved well, im tired of seeing my own oc's as 'cringe' i deserve to be free

answers under the cut cause i typed a lot again

1) in season 2, i think he's a member of d.a.d.d.i.e.s up until the betrayal, but at the same time he's actively witnessing jodie's decline as glenn and morgan do their thing, so he spends like 65% of his time picking up jodie's slack as king of hell [which unfortunately, gives jodie more time to try to win morgan back. it doesnt work]. jodie being the world's most failed bisexual leaves a lot of work unfinished for john, who unfortunately is coping through his old man fashion sense of tropical shirts and big jeans. which i hastily drew

he was in hell when nicky was attacked; nicky portal'd to glenn mid-rave, who then brought nicky home and alerted john, morgan, and jodie about the situation. once stablized, nicky told them all what happened - this drives a bit of a wedge between him and john as john doesnt believe they should immediately cut off all contact ['maybe theyve been mind controlled'], especially considering nicky would be leaving behind taylor and cass. john returns to earth to talk to the kiddads himself, and while he does manage civil conversation for a solid minute, he's ambushed as well. he's able to escape fairly quickly [he didnt dismiss 100% of nicky's warnings, he knows the others pack a punch] and once home, he reconciles with nicky, agreeing to cut off contact

2) if not for the betrayal, john would be the kind of uncle that taylor sees like, once every 3 months but when he does he spoils the shit out of him - even more so than he already is. he'd get baby taylor the loudass toys that annoy the hell out of nicky and cass. he'd come back from hell with some kind of enchanted gift that may or may not cause a power outage.

after the betrayal, he cut off contact with earth, including taylor and cass. though he and nicky keep an eye on taylor, in case he ever needs them. every christmas, he drops off a gift in the middle of the night 'from santa'. its mostly just a figurine of whatever anime taylor's been most obsessed with that year. one year, taylor gets a customized enchanted funko pop of himself [because all uncles work at funko. or nintendo. whatever], only enchanted enough that it resembles taylor on a day to day basis, like it's outfit changes with him. cass has zero idea who 'santa' is

3)

post betrayal for all the kiddads, he holds an eternal grudge against them. even after they and nicky truce in order to help the kids with the doodler's anchors, he cant bring himself to agree. he's on par with lark for title of 'skeptical battle ready uncle', but in a hawaiian shirt.

s1 oaks - nervous wreck recognizes nervous wreck. respects henry for having to wrangle lark n sparrow daily [somethin he's had to do now with walter]. he does think hen's too judgemental though. as johnathan, he sees henry as a huge pushover with no control over his kids. he still respects henry for having to deal with them everyday though. that shit's tough

s2 oaks - pre betrayal, he was friends with sparrow more than lark, as the former was mostly trying to find the least violent route for anything. he saw hero and norm like, once in their youth, at a family/friends bbq. meeting norm during the events of s2 he's struggling so hard not to say anything about his hygiene [heightened demon senses are Not helping him] but he's nice enough.

s1 wilsons - he's a little familiar with darryl pre-faerun, as nick frequently hangs out at grant's house, so darryl's a comforting guy to have around. he mostly knows grant as nick's gamer friend. paeden's on the same rank as lark n sparrow's rowdy-ness, he's just glad that the daddies tend to take him on every mission. as johnathan, darryl's the main dad that he respects [aside from jodie] as hes the one that least opposes his dad for being a cop, and mostly just opposes him whenever he's being kinda annoying.

s2 wilsons - pre betrayal, had a lot of comradery with grant about video games and weapons. unfortunately supplied grant with a lot of magical/hell weapons. doesnt forgive himself for that. linc honestly doesnt leave a huge impression on him, but he admires his honesty and heart.

s1 stamplers - neither johnny nor johnathan know what to think of ron. johnny thinks he's strange but harmless, johnathan doesnt know if ron's either clueless or knows something he doesnt. both of them solidly respect terry jr though. thats a stand-up kid right there!

s2 stamplers - probably closest with terry out of all the kiddads. they generally just vibe on the same kind of wavelength, and shared a taste in music, going to concerts before d.a.d.d.i.e.s. to be fully honest, he's a little scared of scary. he's never seen so much wrath in a teen before.

4) in some talking dad episodes, will actually mentions henry originally having a baby daughter named 'henrietta', who wouldve been home with mercedes during the soccer tournament!! and i will never forgive them for scrapping that idea!!

i love the enigma of birdie/henry's multiple daughters though. god i wonder if theyre estranged from lark n sparrow, that's unfortunate :[

[jechristine]

Well you got me there, I guess it didn't really work. But imo I feel like those who are watching the show in earnest and are sympathising with Danny's illness would not have reacted the same way if he was a serial rapist. That's a crime I think everyone hopes should be fully punished and might even be considered that it's something that doesn't recieve enough punishment in the real world. Do you really think it would have been possible to get people to sympathise with DID for someone who committed multiple rapes?

I think the takeaway might have been that this person did unforgivable things but yet we must still find a way to have understanding and even compassion for his suffering with trauma and this mental disorder. That’s what I meant about holding two ideas in our heads at once. I don’t think audiences need to walk away with a final “he’s good” or “he’s bad” judgement, and I think judgments like that are unrealistic anyhow and unfair to people who are far from perfect but who are still deserving of help.

Idk real-life criminal justice reform depends on people being a bit more nuanced in their understanding of guilt vs innocence. Restorative justice practices, which are gaining acceptance, are based on the idea that we heal as a society if we can find that nuance.

And the fact is that Billy existed as someone who raped women and who was sentenced to care based on his MPD/DID diagnosis. Real life is sticky and hard, and I think art can meet the challenge to show us that for sure. I think the best art does.

[mammons-sugarbaby]

An unwelcome reconnection

Part 1

 MC was in a council meeting with the brothers and Diavolo when suddenly their old phone they had lying on the table began to ping repeatedly. MC stared at it in confusion, it hadn't worked in six months, ever since they had come to the Devildom. They still carried it out of habit and because there were games on it they liked to play. 

"Ah! I meant to tell you MC, your old phone should be able to connect to the human world now! I bet you're excited to be able to talk to all your friends and family again, I can tell you've been missed!" Diavolo laughed as the phone's notifications continued to go off.

But MC had gone cold and barely heard what he had said after saying their old phone would be working now. Hand shaking, they reached out, picked it up, and hit the unlock button. Their eyes widened in horror as they watched the already high number of missed calls, texts, and voicemails continue to skyrocket.

"Wow, your so popular MC!" Asmo cooed from beside them,leaning over in an attempt to see the phone screen. None of the brothers, nor the demon lord or his servant seemed to realize the dread that filled MC with each and every notification.

Numbly, MC turned off the sound and the harsh pings stopped, but MC continued to watch the notifications pour in.

Six months ago they had found themself suddenly in the devildom, not realizing what was going on. They hadn't even realized they had applied for an exchange program. As soon as things had somewhat settled, Lucifer gave them their D.D.D and explained their old phone wouldn't work there in the devildom. This caused MC to panic and began hysterically begging for Lucifer to send them back, they couldn't be here, they couldn't be cut off. But Lucifer waved them off and assured them there was nothing to be done and they would be able to return to the human world after their one year stay was over. Lucifer had also not-so-subtly threatend MC not to bother Diavolo with this matter.

MC hadn't told them, not even after six months, about their partner in the human world. How they would constantly check in on MC every minute of the day, asking what they were doing, who they were with. They would even blow them up at work, going as far as to call the store when MC wouldn't answer their phone for an extended period of time. This had caused MC problems multiple times and had been fired from numerous jobs. Their partner even had to be escorted off the premises by police when they had showed up and began yelling at MC who was helping a customer, accusing them of cheating.

The first few weeks in the devildom, MC was a nervous wreck, fearing the repercussions of their absence, of their perceived avoidance of their partner. However, the feelings waned as MC grew accustomed to life in the devildom. School was already a handful, but the brothers took up the rest, leaving very little time for MC's thoughts to linger on their fear. 

Eventually, MC considered being brought to the devildom a blessing, they no longer worried about their partner in the human world, whom they now considered an ex. The brothers had been shocked at MC's lack of reaction to their near deaths at the hands of various brothers, and MC merely laughed it off and said there were scarier things than an angry homicidal demon back in the human world. The brothers asked questions, but MC never elaborated and eventually the brothers stopped asking.

But now all the fear came crashing back to them, and despite their better judgement, they opened their messages. There were thousands of texts, the latest being from a mere two days prior. MC started at the beginning, their hands shaking as they skimmed the texts.

"Hey, what's up?"

"Hellooo?"

"What are you doing?"

"Don't ignore me >:( "

"HELLO????”

"You know I don't like not hearing from you, text me back."

"Are you okay?"

"Answer me, now."

"You better not be ignoring me, you know how much I hate that."

"Fucking answer your phone, I'm not gonna stop until you do."

"Answer your fucking phone!!!!"

The texts continued to get more and more hostile, began calling MC names, accusing them of things, saying they dropped by their house and knew they were home, their car was there. Telling them the punishments they were going to recieve. 

MC switched over to the phone calls, clenching their jaw as they saw all the missed calls, and cursed themself for getting an app that had an unlimited voicemail. Their regular voicemail was full, and the unlimited voicemail had hundreds, each varying from a few seconds, to multiple 4 minute voicemails, as 4 minutes was the limit per voicemail.

MC swapped back to the texts, looking over the most recent, and nearly dropped their  phone when they saw picture after picture of their ex. Either by themself, or with someone else. There were videos too, but MC could barely stomach most of the pictures that were sent, let alone videos. Their ex showing them "just how it felt to be cheated on".

Suddenly a new message popped up: "I know your reading my texts, you forgot to turn off read you stupid cunt. Where the fuck are you?"

MC felt hot tears spill over and stream down their cheeks, a lump forming in their throat as the saw the 3 dots indicating their ex was typing more.

The demons stared at their human with confusion and worry. MC hadn't responded to any of their questions once they had started checking their phone, and the tension they radiated became more and more apparent, even to Mammon. As soon as their tears started flowing down their face, the demons knew there was something seriously wrong.

MC continued to stare at their phone, before suddenly letting out a choked sob and dropping the phone onto the table. They quickly stood up, overturning their chair in the process, and ran from the room. 

"MC!" Levi and Mammon called out, Beel was already halfway across the room in pursuit, and Levi and Mammon followed.

Asmo reached over and picked up the phone, notifications still coming in. He quickly scanned the most recent texts and his eyes narrowed, his mouth twisting into a scowl.

"What is it?" Satan and Belphie asked, approaching Asmo. Asmo shook his head in disgust and tossed the phone to Belphie before turning on his heel and leaving the room.

Belphie and Satan looked over the messages that had shaken their beloved human so much and immediately Belphie shifted into his demon form, his tail whipping angrily behind him and a threatening growl escaping from between his clenched fangs.

"I'll kill the fucking scum, I'll break their fingers and gouge out their eyes. They don't deserve a quick death." Belphegor growled and handed the phone off to Satan, stalking out of the room.

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And there’s part one! there are 3 more after that I’ve typed up so far. This got waaaaay longer than I anticipated. Though I’ve never been in a relationship quite that bad, it’s only a few notches worse and recent event made me want to actually type this out.

Anyway I hope y’all enjoyed my first angst fic for the OM fandom! If I messed up the pronouns anywhere let me know, I tried my best to keep MC gn.

Part 2 / Part 3 / Part 4

[loser-writings]

Hiii uhhh I was wondering if you're still taking requests because I would love if you could write something about omega!Shouji Mezo, he is such a sweetheart but so underrated, thanks in advance!

I am! Thank you so much for this because honestly Shouji is a severely underrated man who deserves more love. I dunno if you have seen the Heroes rising movie, but we got soooo much good Shouji content. I legit cried over it, ugh he deserves so much more love. I hope these are okay!

Omega! Shouji Mezo Headcanons

It’s been shown in both the Manga and The Anime that he isn’t one for material items, but I think an exception would be made for a nest. He wouldn’t be that big, but its made out of some of the fluffiest blankets an Omega has ever seen. 

He is pretty insecure about his face since he has been told that it’s scary, so make sure to give him extra kisses over his mask and reassure him that he is perfect in your eyes. He will wrap you in the biggest and one of the best hugs you could ever recieve.

Hands down, you can’t tell me doesn’t smell like lavender or vanilla. His scent is one of the sweetest and calming, and he adores having you shove your nose as close to his neck so you can smell more of it.

One of his favorite dates is going to a small abandoned park. It’s so calm outside and it’s so easy to relax. He also adores pushing you on the Merry go round (Good luck finding one of those now-a-days. My sister had no clue what it was) His other favorite thing to do is sit on the swings with you on his lap. It’s just so nice to sit and enjoy the fresh air, not having to worry about things like judgement.

Despite being the youngest in 1-A, he is so mature and sweet. Need some time alone? Sure, just come to him when you’re ready. Just want somebody to vent to without judgement? He’s got you. Want an opinion? He will only give you one if you ask. 

He isn’t that big into PDA, but will slip a hand into yours as you walk down the street. The most affectionate he has ever been in public is when you both were fighting a villain, and he thought you got hurt. Once the villain was arrested, you felt him hug you tight and press his mask against you. He just sat there for a moment before pulling away. You both knew that it was like a silent prayer, thanking whoever that you were safe. it was small, but it meant the world to you.

He REALLY struggles with buying gifts since he personally can’t understand why someone would want lots of materialistic things, but if he sees something that he knows you’re interested in, he might just buy it for you. He is honestly more of an “Experience over Materialism” Type of guy, so his gifts are usually his dates since they are shared memories between the two of you.

Is too bashful to have you help him through his heats, so he instead just asks for you to heavily scent his nest and asks that you are patient with him. Seriously, don’t push this man when it comes to his heat or I will attack you personally. He does send you texts in between waves to keep you updated. He will also bashfully ask you to get him food or something of yours thats scented. 

On one of your park dates, you both bring up the future as you sit on the Merry go round. He admits that he could see himself having a future with you, and would love to have a kid one day. Just one though since you both were trying to be Pro-heroes, and that would have to wait til the League of Villains disbanded. 

The day you both graduated UA, he surprised you with promise rings. Despite not being materialistic, he saved up and decided to make you a promise that he would always be there for you. He never actually wears the ring on his hand, but its always around his neck as he does hero work. It’s his constant reminder of who is waiting for him back home.

[warrioreowynofrohan]

On Forgiveness and Redemption

This is a pretty fundamental theme in a lot of Silmarillion fanfic and in the fandom generally, and one of major interest to me, so I wanted to try to pull together some of my thoughts on it. This is specifically in relation to Tolkien’s works - in the real world there can be all kinds of addititional sociopolitical dimensions that are too much to get into here.

In my view, there are two main elements around asking for forgiveness.

Yes, it is an apology; a statement of I recognize that I hurt you; I was wrong and I am sorry; I will change. This in itself can be beneficial and healing to the person who has been harmed, both in acknowledging that they did not deserve what was done to them, and in the implication of I repudiate my deeds; you do not need to fear me. (This is particularly important in a context like The Silmarillion, where you can end up with people living in the same land as the people who murdered them.)

But it is also more than that. It is a reversal of the power relationship that existed when the wrong was done, by the offender placing themself in the power of their victim. It’s an admission that they want forgiveness, and the right and the power to grant or to withhold it rests with person who has been wronged. This is why, for a request for forgiveness to mean anything, the person asking it can’t regard themself as entitled to recieve it; if someone responds to a refusal of forgiveness or a rejected apology by being angry or affronted, that’s an immediate sign that they were never sincerely repentant in the first place. To ask for forgiveness is to say I submit to your judgement, and I beg for your mercy. (This also reinforces the message of I am not a threat mentioned above: I am in your power.) The request for forgiveness acknowledges that forgiveness is not deserved, and that hatred/judgement/condemnation is. It’s an act of unconditional surrender.[1] The granting of forgiveness can’t be treated as something normal or pro forma; it’s an act of unmerited grace.

This is why I regard forgiveness as something that’s beneficial to both offender and victim, rather than as beneficial to the victim without reference to the offender (I forgive you because hatred makes me into someone I don’t like - though as Tolkien observes in his letters, this is in itself a valid reason for forgiveness/mercy) or as something the offender is selfishly seeking without regard for the victim.

Even if forgiveness is not granted, seeking it is beneficial to the offender in having taken responsibility and accepted judgement for their actions, and to the victim in being able to call the person that hurt them to account. If it is granted, it’s transformative and healing to both, changing guilt into gratitude and victim into benefactor.

I’ve also seen a fair amount of writing on the merits of redemption arcs (seeking forgiveness) relative to rehabilitation arcs (becoming a better person), and I think the emphases are going to vary from character to character.

To give examples: For Maedhros and Maglor (who are, unsurprisingly, the main inspirations for this essay), the main theme is going to redemption and seeking forgiveness because - despite their numerous crimes - by the time they’re willing/able to return to Aman (which would involve the renunciation of both Oath and Silmarils), the risk of reoffense is basically nil. There’s no desire to return to their previous behaviour; for goodness’ sakes, they didn’t even want to be doing those horrible things while they were doing them, and the impetus for their actions has now been removed. But that doesn’t change the fact that they’ve hurt a great many people, many of whom are going to find their presence in Valinor painful or frightening or both, and who have no reason to trust them. So their journey is going to be less about changing who they are, and more about how to address what they’ve already done.

An example on the flip side would be Saeros. His actual wrongdoing was comparatively minor in comparison to all the things that sprang from it; no reasonable person could hold him solely responsible for all the events of the Narn i Hîn Húrin, when so many other people’s bad decisions also played a role in it. He’s in the position of the one small stone that sets off an avalanche. But he still is the one who set it off. Mablung outright told him that he was doing Morgoth’s work (as was undoubtedly true; Morgoth needed Túrin out of Doriath, and had only the most indirect ways of achieving that; and what Glaurung does to Nienor is quite deliberately a takeoff on Saeros’ words, with her later death in a chasm also mirroring Saeros’) and Saeros ignored him, and Túrin and his mother and sister might all have lived long, peaceful and happy lives in Doriath, and Nargothrond might still have stood, if Saeros had, at one pivotal moment, just refrained from being a dick.

It’s not something that it would even make sense for him to go around apologizing to people for, when his own part in the events leading to the fall of Nagothrond and Doriath was so small. And the risk of any kind of reoccurrence of similar events is, again, basically nil. But the risk of Saeros continuing to be a prideful, bigoted asshole is pretty high - he’s had a lifetime’s experience at it! So his journey is going to be about recognizing the character and personality flaws that led to him being a tool of Morgoth[2] and endeavouring to correct them and become a different kind of person. And that’s something he could do without even needing to have any contact with the people he knew in his former life (and I think he’d be reluctant to seek them out anyway, out of embarrassment over his death as much as anything else).

[1] This is, I think, one of the reasons why the concept of forgiveness in political contexts (Canada and First Nations; the US and African-Americans; post-apartheid South Africa) has become so fraught in a lot of political discussion. In contexts where one group has been oppressed by another, and the group responsible for the oppression apologizes but continues to hold power over the oppressed, forgiveness can’t have this meaning. The offender retains power over the victim; all they’re really saying is we were wrong, but let’s put this behind us and move on, and the ‘moving on’ rarely involves any meaningful redress of the ongoing oppression. So the backlash against the idea of forgiveness in these contexts is understandable.

That’s in addition to the idea of forgiveness being something highly interpersonal, so that the concept of forgiving a government or institution is a bit fuzzy at the best of times.

On a completely separate note, I think this idea of forgiveness as involving an inversion of power relationships is why Saruman reacted so spitefully to being offered mercy. Judgement and vengeance are things that can be resisted, and that are at least an acknowledgement that you have successfully done spiritual damage to another person. But being granted mercy is the acceptance of a surrender that he never offered; he is now in Frodo’s power whether he wants to be or not.

[2] As well as just a tool, generally.

[imissthembutitwasntadisaster]

I’ve seen some criticism of Sierra Burgess, saying that Sierra doesn’t recieve her deserved comeuppance for what she’s done.  Now, the people saying that are right: in the end of the film, Sierra absolutely does not recieve the justice she deserves.  She’s been a bad friend, she’s purposefully attempted to ruin Veronica’s life, and she’s lied a lot to a lot of people.  She also attempts to blame it all on her looks to get out of taking responsibility.  In the end, getting her friends back and a boyfriend without even an apology to some of them doesn’t seem fair.  Realistically, Jamey, Dan, and Veronica should never speak to her again, and she should be left alone and friendless.

But to be honest, all high-school rom-coms are wish-fulfillment to an extent: the belief that the unpopular girl could get the boy, the belief that unkind people can be utterly defeated in a simple painless way, the belief that hierarchical societies can reject said hierarchies and be kind to all.  They’re dreams which quite often aren’t realistic.  And the wish to be fulfilled in Sierra Burgess is that of forgiveness. 

Because Sierra does feel guilty about what she does.  She straight up apologises to Dan, she admits to him that she “sucks so bad.”  She repents of what she has done, and in this wish-fulfillment version of the world, that is enough.  She doesn’t have to pay for what she’s done.  She is forgiven by the people who matter purely due to her repentance.  The way the conversation with Jamey at the end came across was that the incredible thing was not that he loved her for herself, but instead that he was willing to forgive her and start again.  Even that fact that the film doesn’t end with a huge kiss or a slow dance, but ends with the love interest off-screen, and the friends making up just serves to further this impression that the true rom-com miracle here isn’t getting the guy, but is forgiveness. 

Is Sierra Burgess a perfect movie? Not by any means.  But the ending isn’t unfulfilling because the ending isn’t meant to be about terrible people getting comeuppance.  The only terrible person, really, is Sierra (and Spencer but he’s gone by the end).  Even the popular kids, so often made the target of hatred in these films, are alright, if not great.  The ending is about the hope that you can do something really, really bad, and still be loved.  That’s a wish I think a great many people have, especially teenagers, who are constantly under the scrutiny and judgement of their peers, so I think having it as the ending to this film is just as reasonable as the endings of so many other teen rom-coms.  

[wetwellie]

Back to the Future AU (Ye be warned this is a pretty long one):

The Samwell Hockey team has become used to finding their eccentric alumnus, Dr. Justin Oluransi, hiding out in their attic quite often. He is an 84 year old man, you can’t really scold him for busting out of the nearby retirement home to tinker with experiments and inventions that never work. He never bothered anyone, and no one bothered him. Then Shitty moved in and was freakin stoked for their guest.

“Hey pops, what did they call you on the team?” “…Ransom” “Awesome. Hey. You’re super good at science right? Could you help me brew up something in the tub?”

Dr Ransom was then initiated as the grandpa of the team. He helped with the recipe for tub juice, and they dragged out a bed for him to sleep on when he’s running from the Home. 

Dr Ransom also helped with homework from time to time in exchange for said person becoming Ransom’s personal assistant for half an hour or so. 

(“Bro why do you have 17 hickeys all over your back?” “Doc put a lot of suction cup things on me last night in exchange for his graphing calculator.”)

Of course, there was a man who never indulged in speaking with the man who even thought about spending time with their Attic friend, and that was Jack Zimmermann. They were sort of pushed into each other’s acquaintance during an epikegster in Jack’s second year. Jack had locked himself upstairs for the night. He hadn’t had the best game performance and kept thinking about everything he could have done better--should have done better. It was overwhelming him and every noise, every movement, every thought had been pretty daunting. He had been curled up on his bed when he noticed that the tapping he’d heard wasn’t from the party. It was from an elderly old man in a labcoat knocking on his window. 

It was nearly 10 below (Celsius), so he couldn’t just let him out. Jack unlocked his window and helped Ransom in. 

“Sorry about that, pal.” Ransom had said as he plopped himself onto Jack’s bed “Two cats were already...pretty ocupado in the attic when I went to work for tonight. Remind me to wash those sheets thoroughly.” “Is there anything I can do to help you out?” 

“Unless you’re comfortable with kicking those people out of my attic. I’m afraid I can only ask for company.”

“I don’t think I would be very good company” Jack said, trying his best to politely refuse. 

“I’m sure you’ll do just fine, once you’re comfortable. What’s your name again?” “Jack” “Nice to meet you man! I’ve seen you around, but you always seemed to be focused on one thing or another. I haven’t made it out to any of your games, but I’ve heard from the others that you are very dedicated to hockey” “Well...isn’t everyone on the team?” “I suppose you’re right. But everyone on the team isn’t a hardass captain.” “They called me a hardass?” 

“Only during the preseason” Ransom chirped. Jack didn’t laugh. 

“I suppose I could’ve been more of a hardass when I was captain of the team.” “You were captain?” Jack asked, trying his hardest to sound like he was interested.

“Co-captain, actually.” Ransom said, with an expression that was unreadable. 

“Wait!” Jack threw up his hand and pulled open his laptop. In the google search bar he googled “Google” and THEN started typing a phrase he knew familiar, clicked on a purple link to a bare bones site with barely any bells and whistles. There were only links to years.  “What year did you graduate?” “Undergrad?” “Of course.” “1955″

Jack scrolled down to that number and hit click. The page that loaded was filled with scanned articles, and paragraphs of stats and commentary. Ransom only looked at him. 

“The coaches wanted someone to go through all of the old stuff and digitize it. The manager who had been working on it before graduated last year, and I volunteered in their place” He then made a noise and clicked at the screen a couple more times. He turned it to face Ransom and pointed at an old photograph from the newspaper. The clipping had removed all of the article below it. In the photo was two young men in their hockey uniforms on the ice. They were holding each other close and raising a large jug in the air that had the words “SIN BIN” written in big red letters. 

Jack pointed to one of them “Is this you?” 

Ransom didn’t answer. His attention was fully on the photograph being projected on that blue-white screen. If Jack had been paying more attention, he might have seen Ransom’s throat hitch as he gulped, or tears starting to form and just barely being held back. But sadly, his attention wasn’t so focused. He did, however, notice when the doctor let out a howling laugh and pointed at the jug. 

“The sin bin! God that takes me back. Do you still have one of those?” “No” “Get one! Every captain needs one.” Ransom explained. “We used that money to buy cheap booze and pricey butter.” “Butter?” “It’s a long story.” Ransom said “But that’s not the point. You put money in the sin bin, and the whole team benefits from it. Your hardassery will have some sort of benefit.”

The two then melt into a conversation about hockey, captaining,the past, and even science for a bit. Albeit, Jack only wanted to know how legit “Breaking Bad” was.  “I’ve never made any drugs, believe it or not. But I’m sure the science checks out”

Every once in a while, when talking about the past, Ransom would quickly change the subject. Jack would do the same. They danced around the things they didn’t want to speak of, and usually fell back on chirping each other about their technological ineptness. 

It was 4am when Jack heard the party start to die down. Jack was discussing the merits of having the Internet as a research tool as a student. Ransom shook his head.  “I know from this side that it is helpful, but it would have been awful during my studies. There would have been so many outlets and so many distractions. I had enough panic attacks as it is, that would have surely worsened it.” 

There was a rather pregnant pause before Jack tentatively said “Panic Attacks?” “Yeah. There was a lot of stuff to panic about back then.” he said. He looked at Jack, fiddlling with the loose strings on his shirt, and added “I guess there’s a lot to panic about right now, too. Life can be a bitch.” Jack let out a hollow laugh. The silence never really ended, however. Instead, Ransom took that as his cue. “I should check to see if the lovebirds are post-coital by now. But remembering college, I doubt it.” Jack stared at Ransom dubiously. “And I shouldn’t have said that. Don’t want to scar you with any mental images! Anyways. I should get going”

He ended up walking to the door before being compelled to add “And if you ever need to talk, you can always see me when I’m in the attic. I’ve got a lot of life experience and surprisingly good ears for my age.”

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Jack should have been more surprised at how often he found himself with Ransom for the rest of the semester. Whenever he wasn’t practicing or studying or keeping up with Shitty, he was in the attic. Mostly he helped lift heavy things that Ransom needed to tinker with, while the Doctor chattered on and on about “Important Shit!” that he’s learned in his life that will help Jack.

“Is there anything that has stayed more or less consistent over the past 60 years?” Jack asked one day.

“Hockey Butts are still as toned as ever.” He replied without missing a beat. “And they take years to erode. They are truly God’s gift”

Jack actually laughed at that and said “Amen”. 

In the months that came to pass, Jack would grow to call Ransom a friend as well as mentor. However, he couldn’t help the feeling that he never truly knew him. Jack had confessed many things to him: about his pressure to always be better, about the overdose, about Parse. And while Ransom didn’t have the magical words to make those hurts all better, he listened without judgement. That was all he needed. 

Winter turned to Spring without much of a struggle that year. Ransom spent most of his time searching online for the best places to purchase rare ores that he simply has to have, while he mumbles something about a gigawatt. Jack usually spent his time talking about Hockey or the new thing he had seen on this documentary a couple nights before, or Shitty being Shitty. He found himself a lot more empty-handed in the attic in the months before. Jack heard a lot less  “fill this cylinder up with exactly 5.74 ml of hydrochloric acid” and a lot more “carry this new clock and hang it up in the attic. Mamrie Cartwright is having an estate sale and this was 2 dollars”. 

Soon he found himself packing up his room for the summer, and popping up to check on Ransom before seeing him off. A few days before, the graduating members of the team had given him a “World’s best Grandpa” T-Shirt, with a “dr” scribbled in between the lines in sloppy marker. Ransom had given them all a bottle of Tub Juice to remember the Haus by.

Jack was surprised to open the door to the attic to see Ransom packing a suitcase.

“Headed somewhere?” “You think I don’t deserve a vacation too?” “I never said you didn’t. Where are you headed?” “I’ve met an old friend up at Niagra falls every summer for 60 years, so I’m gonna do that. And then I have to visit a science convention or two” “Sounds like a busy summer. You take care of yourself.” “I should say the same! If I come back and any of you cats have flat asses, I swear I’ll die on you. So eat some protein for my sake.”

“Will do”

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It’s July 4th when Jack recieved a call from an unknown number. “Allo?” he answered.

“Jack! You brilliant bastard! It’s me.” “Ransom?” “The one and only. Listen. I don’t have a lot of time. Do you know where the mall called “Le Boulevard” is?”

“I don’t know, it sounds kind of familiar?”

“That’s good enough. Would you be kind enough to meet up with me on the 7th at precisely 3:15am?”

“What? Why?” “I can’t tell you right now, but it’s a matter of great importance. And I know that you will understand when I explain, but I can’t explain now.” “I don’t know how I’ll get there” “Please, Jack! I can’t lone this one.” Jack paused for a long while before saying “I’ll think about it” and hanging up the phone. 

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Jack’s mother came into the room the moment that the call ended. She asked who it was, and Jack answered. Explaining the whole deal about the man who had been hiding in their attic for the better part of two years. She seemed very worried until he mentioned how he was the captain back in the fifties.

“In the fifties? Do you think he knows about the fire?” “Fire?”

“Yeah. When I was going there, one of my English professors mentioned it. The old hockey house, before yours and that sorority. It burned to the ground. 2 people died.”

“Ransom never mentioned a fire”  “It might have been after his time then” said Alicia. “It still seems like such a shame”

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It’s 2:45am and Jack has gotten no sleep whatsoever. His group text is blowing up with pictures and videos of ongoing celebrations in the states. It’s times like these that he truly wished he knew how to turn off notifications. He scrolled through the chat and stopped at canadian teammates responses. It’s a picture of him wearing the flag as a cape and eating what seemed to be really old timbits. It’s captioned “Happy 3 days after Canada day”. Jack laughed, so he responded “haha”.  Immideately after the response, Jack’s phone starts vibrating like crazy. Ransom is calling him. 

“Jackie my man! Are you ready???” “Ready for what?”

[daturanerium]

finished season two of the magnus archives! here is my s2 livetweet thread and here are my reflections/predictions from season one. 

jon:

you are so fucking stupid. so incomprehensibly dumb. it is absolutely incredible how you lack any brain cells at all.

if jon was a dnd character he’d have a plus three to intelligence and a negative two to wisdom. i’m right.

[jon voice] people care about me? Must Be A Manipulation Tactic!

[jon voice, continued] literally everyone except for me is a) a murderer, b) using me, or c) hiding something. i, however, am totally fine and also sane and if you imply otherwise you are definitely Hiding Something and i need to stalk you.

seriously it’s a goddamn miracle he wasn’t fired or didn’t just like....explode on the spot

that awkward moment when you befriend a cop and get tapes that may lead to your successor’s cold murder case being solved but in the process you learn that you and your place of employment are actually owned by The Great, All-Powerful [REDACTED] 

it’s so interesting listening to a man’s mental health and sanity decline in real time!

martin: do u want some tea? jon: you’re going to kill me huh?

[jon voice] it is a good idea for me to enter these dangerous tunnels alone on multiple occasions. i am fine. 

his fatal flaw is still pursuit of knowledge. love that for him. 

baby please you work for an entity that probably literally thrives off knowledge.......please grow some brain cells in season three before you literally die doing something stupid

i literally can’t say anything more about s2 jon that isn’t me just repeating “stupid dumb paranoid baby” over and over again

martin:

martin [shaking hands emoji] me playing the mediator as our family loses their minds around us

martin blackwell recieves everything he has ever wanted and needed challenge!!!

baby i love you

HE CARES SO MUCH AND NOBODY CARES ABOUT HIM.......

martin’s job this season is literally the concerned husband but we’re not ready to talk about that yet

my dude really stepped up at the end! he was gonna fight michael in hand to hand combat for jon and sasha and i’m so proud of him!

martin went from baby to hold my flower

martin saw some shit in season one and now he’s a badass

his poetry.....i cried i literally love him so much

when he was talking to tim in the tunnels and he just breaks. and yells. and says he wants to get out of here and save jon and help sasha and be happy and you know what if everything DID turn out in the end that would be kind of nice actually!!!!

we didn’t see much of him this season but from what we did, especially at the end......the character development.......he’s so much braver now, so much more ready to confront the horrors of the world around him. martin is one of those special people that runs on love and uses love as a driving force to fight for the things he needs. 

i hope someday martin gets to sit down in a nice little cottage in the middle of nowhere with someone who loves him and just. relax. it’s what he deserves.

tim

you are the only bitch in this house i ever respected

literally just trying his best

so incredibly valid

GIVE HIM A BREAK

as someone who is the least confrontational person on the planet i really respect and admire tim calling jon out on his bullshit

that scene was so cathartic.....god.....

@ THE ELDRICH BEING RUNNING THE ARCHIVES CAN YOU PLEASE LET HIM GO HE JUST WANTS TO LEAVE

tim at the beginning of s2: hey jon you okay? you’re acting weird and it’s kind of freaking us out tim at the end of s2: fuck archivist lives and jon in particular,

and you know what? he’s right

i hope tim gets to go home. it won’t happen but i can dream.

are we just gonna brush over that part in the finale where michael just???? bamfed them to another dimension or something????? because neither tim nor martin seemed the least bit phased

honestly tim/jon has rights. i enjoy it.

he’s just so angry and hurt and done. he’s reached his limit. goodbye

get tim out of the archives s3!!! do it!!!

gertrude

wow i love you

every time i hear gertrude’s voice i just go [one thousand teary-eyes emojis]

there’s a lot we don’t know and there’s a lot that she knows. i wish we could like. raise her from the dead or something. altho honestly with a horror podcast who the hell knows

jon listening to/hyperfixating on gertrude is just a fancy way of him claiming her as his new mother figure

GOD I LOVE HER I WANT TO KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT HER CAN WE GET A SPINOFF PLEASE

basira and daisy

the only cops with rights

that part where tim thought basira was jon’s girlfriend and they both dissolved into gay panic.....priceless

daisy step on me challenge. i’ve met her twice and i love her.

honestly basira is such a badass. stealing from the cops while being a cop? that takes guts and i really respect her lack of respect toward cops while being one

not to mention that entire business with that sentient cult darkness shit. she killed it in there (no pun intended). give her like a purple heart or something idk how cops work

daisy.....please tell me your secrets. what have you seen. what do you know.

melanie

please work for the archives i am BEGGING you

my ghost hunter girlfriend

i love her and jon’s relationship. just pure loathing. tension between the hunter and the archivist. i live for that shit.

but under that it’s like Oh Shit I Actually Care A Lot???? like their loathing comes from their businesses being judgemental enemies, but personally they actually have a lot in common and care for each others’ wellbeing.

i really hope melanie sticks around so we can learn more about her and see her friendship with jon grow into....an actual friendship

shes also a total badass and both her research and deducing skills are so good. she’s just a great archive candidate overall.

michael

[REDACTED]

what the fuck are you

what the fuck do you want

why do i like you so much.

okay there’s a lot more going on here but i’m putting my predictions under the cut!

okay lets check out my predictions from last time.

okay this one was partially right! “entities” rule the world apparently, and the archive is run by one of them. sort of got that!

.....yeah that didn’t happen.

hell yeah! i’m proud of myself for this one, even though the time loop part wasn’t true. i thought “time loop” because her voice started echoing when she hit the table, but turns out that was just her crazy long copy taking over. oh well!

nope. gertrude was killed by elias, apparently. fucker.

WELL.........

okay. this one is complicated because i was sort of correct but there’s still a lot of information i don’t know. gonna give myself half credit for this one i think.

REMEMBER IN THE FINALE WHEN MARTIN THOUGHT HE SAW SASHA AND TIM HAD TO STOP HIM FROM RUNNING IN TO SAVE HER? YEAH.

okay, season three predictions. let's go.

(disclaimer: while i haven’t been actively looking up spoilers or engaging in the tma tag, i also haven’t muted the tag or anything associated with it. i have ideas of what’s to come but they’re vague and mostly come from fanart on my dash/timeline).

jon just gives up. he’s having to much of a crisis to do anything other than his job.

jonmartin endgame still

michael becomes a sort of??? constant presence??? at the archive. everyone just kind of accepts it.

the books and the entities make a lot more things make sense. that’s really vague i know but like. 

predictions for the entities:

fire/destruction 

knowledge (jon stans rise up)

empty/alone (these stories always get to me the most. the ones where you’re endlessly falling or trapped in a cave or can’t sleep or stuck in space. shit scares me more than anything else)

chaos (i think michael is with this one. the doors also fit into this category, and maybe that shipping company)

death/id (brings out the bareness of human instinct. the meat, the bloodlust, and the death. maybe even the bugs go here, but they’re confusing. i don’t know where they fit.)

each entity represents a deep-set human fear. they were created to either teach us lessons or keep us in line.

sometimes they have devoted followers. sometimes they have disciples or avatars. you can lose yourself to them if you aren’t careful. jane was probably an avatar, that girl with the heat powers on hilltop road was an avatar, that guy with the lightning powers was an avatar, etc.

the books can teach you how to connect with the entities, but you have to be actually insane to try it. (if you aren’t already, you certainly will by the time you finish the reading/ritual. if you even survive)

anyway back to actual plot.

jon learns more from gertrude’s tapes about elias and the archives. maybe even the entities. he doesn’t want to know, but as we’ve learned, he Just Can’t Not Know. 

jon finally grows a brain cell and lets people (martin) take care of him. a little.

tim is just there. he hates it but he can’t leave. (someone please get him out this is so sad)

melanie and basira join up with the archive, but for different reasons. melanie because jon asks her to, basira because despite her best interest she couldn’t stay away.

at the end of the season we’ll either meet a powerful avatar person of one of the entities themselves. that will be.....interesting. 

elias gets hit by a bus. won’t happen but i can dream.

what ever happened to that one man from season one who had the dreams about death? i loved his statement. is there anyone out there like him? will jon receive a message like gertrude did?

WHAT IS THE LIGHTER FOR. i completely forgot about it until i looked at my last predictions and saw it mentioned.

martin is more active in tapes (again unlikely but i can dream. i love him)

that’s about all i got! i’m going to post this and immediately start season three. wish me luck :)

[light-of-valentia]

matchup trade with edelgoth

 @edelgoth​ here are your matchups boo!! I have never done a written matchup before, though I have done them quite a lot in my head, so I hope these are good!!! -admin belle

I did two romantic matchups, one romantic/platonic, and I left a list of potential platonic matchups to follow!

matchup under the cut because I use a lot of words and I don’t wanna eat up dashboards

#1-  Mercedes

At first I was sort of questioning on if this would be ideal, but with the more I have thought about this, the more passionate I am about this pairing

You said you wanted someone who is open-minded and genuinely caring who wants to see the world become a better place, and I would struggle to think of anyone better to do this with than Mercie!

Though I did consider Claude for this as well, I ended up choosing Mercedes for #1 because I think that she would be better at consistently giving you the validation and affection that you desire

Not that Claude would not be affectionate as well, but I think that the stronger caring aura that she has would sit better with you

Both of you are open-minded and thoughtful, and you would be able to give e/o the same level of care and attention that you give out to other people

That's positive karma baby!!! you both deserve a lot for what you do for other people, and your philanthropic personalities would be a strong force together

I feel like in a relationship, both you and Mercedes would need someone who is willing and most importantly wants to give back the same level of appreciation and effort that you/she puts in, and you both would far surpass this standard for each other

I also really like here that you each take a different approach to what you do

Mercedes deals more in the emotional side of taking care of people, whereas you take the more insightful and analytical route

This sort of “similar yet different” style of partnership works really well since you have enough in common to form a partnership, but your differing skills would compensate for what the other lacks in

You each care in different ways, but it's clear that both you and Mercie share a common goal of making the world a better place and helping people out

You would be such a sweet, caring, and cheerful couple, and even without doing any sort of philanthropic work, just your presence would be enough to potentially change people’s lives for the better

Your wit and intellect would provide a healthy contrast to Mercedes' constant benevolence and optimism, and she would be able to help you ground yourself when you are catastrophizing and anxious

To compliment that, you would be able to help her set her fear of disappointing others aside and make hard choices when she needs to

Mercedes isn't necessarily as scholarly as Annette and Linhardt (though she did enjoy her time at the Royal Academy of Magic), but she still values her education, and she would enjoy listening to you talk about the things you are interested in and she would enjoy learning from you

Both of you are very patient, and it would provide a relaxing and calm atmosphere

Though, a problem could be presented if you are both too patient- neither of you alone likes to make difficult decisions and risk hurting or disappointing others, but i think that this would be easier to do if you worked together

Magic and fantastical stories!! i could really see you both taking evening dates and telling each other stories, and she would highly appreciate your creativity and encourage your passion for what you do

If you like writing paranormal and ghost stories, she’d love it even more!! She loves spooky stories and an air of fantastical mystery

Career-wise, your interests in anthropology and sociolinguistics combined with her desire to serve and help people would make a dynamic duo

Your understanding of human history and nature would provide a wealth of foundation for her to understand where people come to her from, emotionally and culturally, and the outcome of your combined careers would be stellar!

If you guys got together, I would struggle seeing an outcome where you kept your careers separate- the chemistry you have together concerning your desires for life and the word around you are too magnetic too keep apart

Mercedes would be very welcoming and accepting of your sensitivity and anxiety; she always knows what to say if you're down, and she wouldn't have to tread carefully to avoid offending or hurting you

Awareness of people's sensitivities and how to build healthy relationships without prying at them is second nature to her

Reading people and responding to them to meet them where they are is maybe one of her favorite things to do in life, and doing this with you would bring her a good sense of worth in life

Mercedes has a few opinions of her own, but she is generally soft-spoken and passive, and would be a great listener for when you talk about your opinions

She is very open-minded, and i’d argue that she doesn’t have a single judgemental bone in her body (well, except maybe against uptight nobles cough cough LORENZ)

I wouldn’t call her an agent of chaos, but I think that Mercedes really can appreciate the craziness of life the way that you do, and that she would be great at laughing the silly little things off with you

She has a wonderful knack for appreciating and accepting the world as it is, and I think that this would bring you a lot of peace when you start to over-complicate things mentally, as she would be able to ground you

She would ADORE your curiosity and interest in learning everything that you can, and she would aspire to be this way herself

She spent so much of her life simply trying to survive, especially after fleeing the empire and regretting leaving Emile behind, and having someone around her who is trying to thrive would be invigorating for her

MBTI-wise, this would be a “golden pair”, as IXFJ and XNTP are often listed as being such, especially IXFJ and ENTP, which if I had to type you by your description to me, I’d put you as ENTP over INTP, with an Fi/Fe subtype

The creativity that comes with your Ne would be very well recieved by Mercedes’ Fe, as she would be the perfect listener for everything you have to say, and she would be super interested in it as well!

Though she does use Ti as her tool function, she would be constantly amazed by how you use it so fluently

Her Ti tertiary tool would be able to appreciate your dominant/auxiliary Ti, without encouraging it to the point where you overwhelm yourself

In conclusion, I see you and Mercedes both as a sweet and soft couple but also with the subtleties of a power couple, and I think you would enjoy a long and happy relationship with each other!

2. Claude

As previously mentioned, I still view Mercedes as a more ideal match for you, but I think that you and Claude would have good chemistry as well

He has a lot of that humanistic personality that Mercedes has, but his is far more subtle and jaded from his history

Mainly, this jaded aspect comes from how he was treated in his childhood, although he doesn’t discuss it with just anyone, as one of those effects from being bullied as a kid is him having some serious trust issues

Pre-timeskip Claude would be a struggle in a romantic relationship, as his Fe isn’t very well developed and based on your profile, I think a partner with developed Fe is something you need

Post-timeskip, however, this problem would be eliminated, as by then, his Fe has very clearly developed a lot more (though it is still flawed), as demonstrated with his love-hate relationship for humanity in his A support; he hates the way that people choose to be discriminatory and mean towards each other, but he also sees the possibility for redemption and he has a genuine desire to work harmony back into the world

Some of his interactions with characters such as Cyril and occasionally Hilda show that his Fe even post-timeskip isn’t quite fully developed, but he does value the function, thus displaying a necessary element for compatibility

xNTP-ENTP couples do work out really well, but obviously, some compromises have to be made

Mainly in regards to extraversion/making sure everyone gets to talk enough, and taking care of real-world responsibilities like housework and chores

Both of you are incredibly passionate about what you do, and this would sit well with the other

I struggle to imagine Claude in the long-run with anyone who doesn’t hold a sort of fire in their heart

Your intense curiosity and desire to learn would match his own really well, and I could see you guys doing long dates where you take the full day to sit down in the library and dissect some idea that you had

Your interest in anthropology and sociolinguistics might be one of the best parts of this match! His life goal is to create a more united world, and your wealth of knowledge about history and culture would make having you around an invaluable asset for him

Just like he does with Byleth in the game, he’ll probably pick you up at first for your usefulness, but then he’ll slowly start to actually trust you and he’ll find himself desiring a relationship with you

Both of you would be the king and queen of meme, and it’d be a wonderful sight to anyone around you

Your interactions when you’re memeing would be absolutely off the shits, and your absurdist senses of humor setting off sparks with each other would be legendary to behold

He would adore these interactions with you, and the memories he has of them would be a treasure he keeps close

He can’t stand super uptight people, and you’re fairly laid-back yourself, so this is perfect in this sense

You both have a good sense of when it’s the right time to be carefree and when it’s the right time to take note, though

Although this ratio may seem more skewed towards the laid-back aspect in the perception of people like Lorenz and Lysithea, for you two, it’d be perfect

Normally with an ExxP/ExxP couple, I worry a lot about communication, but I think you two would be better off than most in this aspect

The fact that you have an extraverted side but are also a good listener is the saving grace here

Claude is a listener as well, but more often than not, he has something running in the back of his mind, so while he would be a good listener, he may not be as attentive as you’d like

He would feel bad about this, but as hard as he tries to always listen to you, sometimes he can’t help but letting his mind float back to whatever scheme he’s been plotting

If you’re ok with this, though, the road will be less bumpy- he might even appreciate it if your own mind drifts when he’s talking to you, as he would feel less guilty that way

He would try his best to help you when you are catastrophizing, but it would be a mixed bag of skittles for him

On the positive, he overthinks a lot himself, so he fully understands how you got to where you are

On the negative, he isn’t a very emotional person himself, so he has seldom reached catastrophization himself, so he doesn’t really know the best ways to handle it

He eventually learns what works and what doesn’t, but at first, it’s gonna be the effort that counts

Both of you are giant nerds and this would work rather well

He would love roleplaying and playing games with you given the free time, and you’d always be recommending books to each other to read

As for your sensitivity, Claude may not be the best at handling that, but he certainly tries

He’s generally pretty good at reading people, but with what upsets you, you may have to tell him a bit more directly for him to really understand so that he can avoid it

Claude would, though, be a boo in that he’d make you feel like the queen of the whole damned world

Insecurity??? Nah, you’re too cute/smart/amazing for that

He just loves to shower you in teases and he’d tell you every day that he loves you

If you want a flirt and a himbo, congrats you’ve found one

One other thing that makes me less confident about this pairing than the former is that Claude is a bit more free-spirited than you

He would do his best to anchor himself to you, but it’d be difficult to satisfy his wanderlust if you dislike travel- he doesn’t want to leave you, and he hates making you feel bad

To conclude, I think this has a lot of powerful potential, but it also has a few potential holes that make it somewhat less ideal

He needs someone that can teach him to value his own emotions and not just look at what everyone else wants, and I don’t know if you’d be able to reach him on that

3. Dorothea

Both of you have a lot of opinions, but you’re both careful about sharing them

I could see her as your kickass partner in crime

I am less passionate about this pairing than I am with your matches with Mercie and Claude, but I still think this has a lot of potential as well

Yyou would be able to teach the other how to appreciate the other!!

Lots of "you're pretty/no you" style interactions

Idk how else to explain this but your vibes synergize well???? Like both of you are very humanistic, but you're a bit more open and direct in your approach with it than she is

Both of you are highly creative but in different ways and this would work well

I think she would be like a muse figure for you and vice versa!

Both of you are into classical arts, which is grounds for a lot of fun dates and fun times

I can envision a lot of museum and opera dates

 and painting dates

 Y'all would just have so much fun being creative together

You both have a preppy side, but you'd be the nerd of the two, and she would poke playful fun at you whilst harboring an interest in everything you have to say

Both of you are very thoughtful and you'd find satisfaction in having someone who reciprocates the amount of effort you put into the relationship

Both of you have an enjoyment of fashion, and i could see you both having a fun time picking each other's outfits out and doing the other's hair and makeup

She would really like to flirt with you to try and get a reaction out of you

She would HIGHLY appreciate that you try hard to be an open-minded and understanding person

She wishes she had more of those in her life before she met you

Y'all would be such meme queens like...everyone else would label you guys as goals in terms of keeping a healthy air of humor around you

She is just so doting and passionate with you and she would try so hard every day to melt away your insecurities and worries

As a couple you guys have SO much chemistry; like once you guys sit down for tea and start talking, you find yourselves talking for hours, and Dorothea would fall more in love with your intellect and wealth of knowledge each day

The reason I still put this as lower than Claude and Mercedes is because I feel like it might be more one-sided, with Dorothea more attracted to you than you might be to her

I feel like she would be able to help you with your anxiety in a different way than Mercedes

Like she has gone through a lot of similar stuff with her past in its relationship to her self-esteem, and you'd both have a lot to learn from e/o here

This would work either romantically or platonically

For friendships, I’d consider: Ashe, Annette, Hilda, Ignatz, Marianne, and Bernadetta!

Feel free ofc to respond to me with any thoughts/questions you have on this, and I hope you liked it!! Sorry to keep you waiting for so long- I wanted to ensure quality on this

[healer-of-worlds]

What I believe many kpop fans are misinterpreting about "BTS paving the way"

So a lot of people have been up in arms about this tag/comment a lot of fans have been posting about and I think there's some ridiculous stuff flying around about it. From what I understand people are mostly upset either because:

BTS did not "pave" the way first, but older groups like Big bang, 2ne1, wondergirls, and SNSD did first.

The hashtag on twitter that trended less than a week ago

"Fans" who were shaming NCT 127 for their new US achievements

"Fans" who were shaming EXO or GOT7 for being nominated for the BBMA's

So firstly, a lot people have this misconception that a majority of BTS fans either only stan BTS or happen to be younger fans who have no knowledge or respect for older idols.This isn't true at all and is ignorant to believe. Before I was a BTS fan, I was an EXO fan, and before EXO I loved SHINee/Infinite, and before them it was DBSK (who have become wildly underrated by the way, and who are essentially the dads to groups like SUJU and Big Bang) who began it all for me. A majority of BTS fans have a similar track record to mine and were listening to kpop from long before BTS was even concieved as a group. Thus, the majority of us spreading this message are not neglecting the fact that these older generation groups paved the way first for BTS and other artists. Most of us found kpop first because of these old groups and absolutely understand the achievements they accomplished for kpop as a whole. When we say "BTS" paved the way, it does not mean these older groups did not pave it before them, and we are not undermining their achievements.

As for NCT 127, EXO, and GOT7 their recent accomplishments and recognitions are amazing and they + their fans deserve their happiness in peace. Any fan trying to undermine them is an embarassment and is part of the unfortunately many bad apples that we have lurking in the bin. We have a lot of genuine respectful fans, but it also means we'll have that many more "fans"(aka those who are disrespectful to other groups, engage fans of other groups disrespectfully for no reason, or who are pretending to be BTS fans and bashing other groups to create more drama). Real fans wouldn't claim them as part of us as we could, but unfortunately that's not how things work. Take those people with a grain of salt and know that real armies have gone through a lot of unprovoked disrepect for many years and wouldn't wish it upon or dish it out to anyone else.

Now what we DO mean when we say BTS paved the way: Older kpop groups such as DBSK, Suju, SNSD, Shinee, etc. helped kpop roll outside Korea so it became popularized through out Asia. From there, Big Bang, the Wondergirls, Psy, and 2NE1, helped kpop make its first contact with Western media in places such as North America and Europe. At this point kpop was known from their efforts and was treated positively in many places within Asia, however for many other places in the world, especially in the west where many of the world's most popular musicians came from, kpop was still treated as an oddity. In many places all kpop would ever be was something like a freakshow on display at the circus. BTS CONTINUED the work of older gen artists to counter this, and continued to popularize kpop globally and in some of the most prejuidice and judgemental places. They continued to prove over and over again that kpop wasn't a fad, but a form of art and music in its own right that deserved to be treated as valid. Once they gained recognition in foreign media they continued to step outside their comfort zone not only to promote the kpop industry as a whole, but they also utilized their platform to educate the media on elements of korean culture, their socially concious music, and about their unicef campaign to end violence against children and teens. During the time when the media was most focused on BTS, they chose this time to write and produce 3 whole albums about the importance of self love and continued to spread this message in all their interviews through out North America and Europe. BTS' actions have greatly benefitted the normalization of kpop globally and in this moment they are continuing to promote the entire industry in a positive light. When we say BTS paved the way, we mean that they have and are still in this moment breaking down the largest barriers for kpop that no other idols have done before. They are responsible for picking up where old idols left off, and are now paving down the most crucial part of the road for all current kpop to go places the industry has never gone before. Older idols such as Rain, Sunmi, Seo Taiji, and Tablo have acknowledged BTS' work for furthering korean media as even more detrimental than their own.

The ugly side of this and why this hashtag trended at all: fans of many other groups, from the day BTS was nominated for their first billboard award, fans of other groups have been incredibly disrespectful about their achievements. At each and every turn of BTS' success they have been disrespected, downplayed, and ignored. However the second other groups began gaining western recognition, the same fans who were slandering BTS and claiming that foreign popularity was not everything(which it is not everything, but that's besides the point) were enjoying this new popularity their artists were recieveing and saying things like "your faves could never!" "legends only!" "BTS who now" and its so so disrespectful. This doesn't happen for any other artist, but the moment BTS accomplishes anything, their achievements are immediately undermined and ignored by a chunk of other kpop fans. We are tired of the hypocrisy, and we are tired of the mistreatment. You don't need to support, listen to, or even like BTS. They aren't everyone's cup of tea and yeah, we have a lot of shitheads in the fanbase because its become so huge. However, all we as fans ask is that fans of other groups at least respect BTS for their work, and treat them with the same treatment that other groups who previously paved the way are treated. Many of you are in arms about people not acknowledging old idols' accomplishments, but we as BTS fans acknowledge these and are merely upset that they have done SO much work since, yet don't even get a fraction of the respect. If old and new idols speak frequently about how BTS' actions the past few years have benefitted kpop, why can't their contributions be acknowledged by fans? Why can't they gain a piece of the respect older idols did for promoting kpop, when they're currently doing things for kpop that no other artists ever have?

[samtheflamingomain]

zeke the survivor

I'm always late to the game on things, so I just recently decided to see "if" Survivor has a subreddit. Of course it does. It has like 6.

Anyway, I sorted by most popular of all time, and what do my eyes have to read? A fucking novel of an excuse for Jeff fucking Varner. By a former player, no less. She’s "a friend of his", she said.

I know this happened like a year ago, but long story short, at Tribal Council, Varner was on the chopping block. Having not eaten in several days, having the toll of Survivor on his psyche, (these are his words, NOT mine,) he tried to paint Zeke as a liar by saying (basically), "How can people trust you? Zeke's not who you think he is..." and continued hinting at the reveal that would "save him" and "prove his point": "Why are you lying about being transgender?"

Fucking EXCUSE ME? Again, I know this was ages ago, but I'm still pissed. I hate bringing attention to Varner, so I will talk about Zeke in a minute, but first, let's review the facts.

Varner outed Zeke to every single person on the planet. NOW, I MUST POINT OUT, that the editors of the show CHOSE TO KEEP THIS IN. I think it's because they knew they'd get some virality from it. That aside, Varner literally endangered a man for life by outing him. He's recognizable. He's from the South. He wouldn't be the first trans person to be assaulted for being trans.  Maybe people don't get it: Outing. People. Can. Get. Them. Killed.

Every person on that tribe is starving to death in the blistering heat with intermittent extreme cardio workouts. Nobody has EVER used a personal attack of that volume to try and make a move. That's part one of why I don't believe his bullshit "apologies".

Part 2: He hints at it. I don't have a transcript in front of me, but for a good few minutes the two are bantering, both at risk of going home. Varner keeps saying things like "There's stuff you don't know about Zeke" etc. This was not a spur-of-the-moment "temporary insanity" as it is put in the reddit post trying to paint him as a victim.

But there are some other facts I must point out. He is, by the dictionary definition, a victim: of online harassment and death threats. Nobody deserves that. That is illegal. But as I mentioned earlier, Zeke, as a result of what Varner did, probably recieved a lot of the same shit he did. But if Zeke got death threats (I have no source, but I'd bet my last dime on it), that's because of his gender. Varner got hate because he did a terrible thing.

Now, another mitigating point I must concede: I do not think Varner is a transphobe. He says it was a lapse in judgement, I think it was a planned, specific move, and the plain fact is that it got him unanimously voted out. He was nearly in tears at the post-tribal confessional. You could see it in the man's eyes the moment the words left his mouth. Instantly, he knew he had completely, irreversibly fucked up. It cost him a million dollars. It cost him his job. It cost him a lot and he knew that in an instant. He truly is sorry. I believe that.

But the fact that he follows up that apology with the excuse he did kind of renders it moot.

But here's another thing, the one thing really, that makes me absolutely despise Varner and have absolutely 0% sympathy for him: he wrote a goddamn book. "Surviving Shame". Bitch, you shouldn't survive that shame. That should linger with you till the moment you die. And to make MONEY off the fact that he OUTED A TRANS PERSON ON TV is absolutely sickening. I don't care enough to look it up, but I do think he mentioned that "all royalties will go to some trans charity" but I don't care. You're still getting a fucking book. You are now a public figure of sorts.

You know who should have a fucking book? Zeke. The moment the camera moved from Varners stupid face to his, I was prepared for all-out war. It was almost like he knew this would happen. It's all of our worst nightmares.  But he sat there, his face calm. And he said something beautiful: “I didn’t want to be known as ‘the trans survivor’. I wanted to be ‘Zeke the survivor’.” I think we all want to be X the Y, not the trans Y. 

He took it like a goddamn champ. It helps that the entire tribe supported him and they immediately voted Varner out, and Zeke talked a bit about it at the finale, before Jeff interrupts him to PLUG. VARNER'S. BOOK. I shit you not, go back and see, it's the very last thing that's said before credits.

The post talks about how Varner was very depressed after the episode. And people were commenting saying they hope he gets better. And I hope he does too; nobody deserves capital-D Depression, but that's not what happened. He was depressed and ashamed about a horrible thing he did. He SHOULD be depressed and ashamed, at least for a while. You know who else might've been pretty depressed? Zeke.

Look. I don't think he's a bad person. I think he's like everyone else: desperate to save face when possible. I don't know what on Earth he was thinking when he decided on a book, but I'll charitably chalk that up to general stupidity and ignorance.

Before I close, I want to throw you back even further to Worlds Apart, just to point out that this shit isn’t new. Remember Shirin? Kinda annoying, but had a really awful story (abuse, neglect, no parental contact) and was absolutely HAMMERED by this ASSHOLE for NO FUCKING REASON, AT CAMP, IN FRONT OF EVERYONE. He said something very very close to "You have no reason to be here. Nobody loves you. Nobody's waiting for you back home." And everyone at camp just kinda sat there. She went into the jungle crying alone. There was a good bit of outrage, and she used that episode to raise awareness about bullying, but I think, to make one last point, we need to talk about the show itself.

There are already limits in place on how “survivor-y” Survivor can get. There’s medical help, menstrual products, meds. They’ll even fix your glasses! That department is obviously completely separate from the editing department that decided to keep these moments in, but if they’ll allow you to retain your physical health, I think (to a point, without ruining the point of the show) they should put more thought into mental health. Part of me wonders if anyone intervenes if someone has a panic attack. Probably not. That’s part of the problem.

But they also need to make more careful editing choices. I assume they would’ve consulted Zeke on whether that would air or not because I like to believe the world is a nice place sometimes. 

And I hope nobody buys Jeff Varner’s goddamn book. Fuck him.

Anyway, I post this because I've been up all night getting lost in rabbit holes, and this was one of them. Stay Greater.

[suchawonderfullife]

Rebuilding My Life After a Decade of Illness

It’s been over 1 year since my first round of treatment at Hansa. Honestly it feels like 3 years because my impatience gets the better of me and I just want a normal life again. I am feeling quite frustrated and “stuck” between two worlds at the moment. My health is certainly better than it was before treatment, I’d say I’m still sitting at around 70-80% health. 

My Grandfather became sick 2 months ago and was diagnosed as terminal. My health deteriorated significantly from the stress and grief of watching him slowly die over 6 weeks. I really thought my health was in a better place and was surprised by my deterioration. It just goes to show you how toxic stress is to the body. My health dipped to around 50% and now I have to work to build it back up. I’m struggling with fatigue, air hunger, mood swings, bone pain and more. I’m still able to work, but the pain I experience in my body working a physical job has increased dramatically as my muscles and organs don’t have the strength they had a few months ago. 

My frustration lies with my work life. I don’t see myself as a “sick” person anymore, I don’t really belong in that category of illness being my entire existence and needing the doctors visits, medications and constant rest to simply survive. I have a life now, I can care for myself completely, run errands, work a few shifts a week etc. But I’m not fully back into the working world because I can’t work full time, I don’t have a career or any qualifications and so I feel like I’m balancing on a tight rope, just teetering between the “sick world” and “working world” because I’m not quite in both. 

I’m currently working as a waitress and looking to study a cert 3 or 4 at T.A.F.E. to gain skills in becoming a receptionist. I know I should be grateful to be able to do any of this. Considering 5 years ago I was bedridden with carers, I couldn’t even sit up for 10 minutes, I couldn’t hold a conversation, I left my house once every 3 months in a wheelchair and my Dr thought I was going to die. I wanted to die because my suffering was so unbearable and unrelentless. To have fought as hard as I have to save my life, I should be in awe of my achievements and where I’m at. In one instance I am, but in another, I’m also embarressed. Because I’m not really part of that “sick” world anymore, I don’t see it as ‘well I’m sick so the fact I’m working 10 hours a week is amazing,’ I see it as ‘my health is pretty good (considering where it was) but I can only work 10 hours a week.’ 

I wish I didn’t care what people think, but I do think a lot about how my life appears to those on the outside. That’s what the quote above represents. I’m not quite there yet, of not caring about how my life looks to others. I’m almost 30 years old and I work in a job with people a decade younger than me.They’re doing what is expected at that age of studying at University, or working full time or raising children and using the waitressing as a way of earning extra money. I just feel like - I’m 30, working as a waitress and that’s all I do; it looks like I’m lazy and umambitious to those who know nothing of my story. Which is me putting words in everyone’s mouth of course and simply judging myself because I have no evidence of this. Don’t get me wrong either, I love my job and the people I work with. I’ve always loved hospitality work and I’m proud of where I work, but if I wasn’t sick, that would be my second job on top of a career or study, instead it being all I do. 

Then I think about getting a certificate to help me gain work as a receptionist. People will say to me “so what do you do for work?” and my reply will be “Oh I’m a receptionist at a GP’s office.” Now there’s nothing wrong with being a waitress or receptionist, I mean no disrespect to those who have those jobs. But I’m coming from where I was career wise before I got sick and the vision I had of my life. I don’t want to study to help me get a job as a Receptionist because I think ‘yeah i’d love to do that,’ it’s an option because I think ‘it’s a job my body could cope with.’ I’m angry because I feel my potential and my intelligence has been wasted. My memory and overall intelligence is not as high as it was because of the toxins in my brain and that frustrates me. But I’m still incredibly smart and driven. I’m just restricted greatly by my bodies limitations. 

I also feel like coming out of a decade of illness and rebuilding my work life, it’s similar to when you finish highschool and then get a job. Back when I finished Highschool, I went to University, got my Personal Training qualifications on top of that and worked 3 jobs. Now, I feel that I look like that lazy kid out of highschool, that doesn’t have the ambition for Uni and instead goes ‘meh I’ll go work this waitressing job on weekends and do some cert 3 at Tafe and work as a receptionist.’ You know the type of person, that they’re happy getting by on an easy life and doing the bare minimum? Which is FINE, I have no judgement to those who want that life because we need people in those kinds of jobs. But I never wanted that life. That’s not who I am. I’m a type A personality, according to the ‘personality experts’ I’d make a great Principle, Governer or CEO. Can you imagine the career or things in life you want the most? The goals you set for yourself and work hard to achieve? But not being able to work towards them or achieve them because of your health? Instead you have to settle for far less than you know you’re capable of. No wonder my Dr says I carry so much anger and resentment in my liver. I feel like my body is a prison I can never escape. 

Losing my entire 20′s to being seriously ill, I feel like at 30 I’m back at square one, rebuilding my work life, only this time it’s so much harder because I’m older and limited in my options due to my still restricted health. I have worked in the last 10 years, but it’s been sporadic (in periods of better health), or I’ve worked for myself so my hours were minimal. My biggest drive to recieving treatment overseas was so I could work for an employer consistently without being a burden or having to quit 6 months later due to relapse. I wanted to be able to work and have a life too, before my treatment it was either work a few days a week but do nothing else, or care for yourself and go out once every few weeks. So my frustration is not about the fact that I’ve done no work for the past 10 years, it’s about the fact that I wasn’t given a choice in the work I could do, the career I could build or the goals I could set for myself.  

Also, when it comes to looking for work, I have to be very skillful in how I present myself to potential employers because they can be more likely to pick someone much younger. I also have to have back stories ready as to why I’m only available certain hours or explaining previous employment hours or outcomes because I feel I could be judged for the illness I had. I’ve been fortunate to find work quite easily despite these obstacles and I feel my intelligence is a testament to that. 

I just got hired in a second job today, working in retail, which I’m really excited about. I really hope it’s another step forward in creating a work-life and career for myself that reflects my capabilities and ambition. Maybe in 10 years I’ll be a Manager of a multi-million dollar business, I know I have those skills as I’ve worked as a Manager, ran teams of people and really thrived at it. But right now I’m exhausted, I’m disappointed at my bodies failings from my current stress, I’m frustrated at my limited options for work due to my health and I want so much more because I know I’m capable and it’s what I deserve. 

I still have to focus greatly on my healing. I’m terrified of relapse, or getting cancer in 5, 10, 20 years because of my compromised immune system and the statistics of my life expectancy. I still take all my treatments from Hansa multiple times a day, I have to focus on my diet, I do detoxing multiple times a week and use things like essential oils. I started acupuncture 2 weeks ago under recommendation from my Hansa Dr to help rebuild my health. I plan to do that every week for 4-6 weeks and then look at moving onto a Homeopath or Kinisiologist to work out my next moves to keep repairing my body. This stuff costs a lot of money too. I’m always stressed about money and having to juggle whether I pay for treatment that can help, or pay that bill or contribute to my savings to grow the life my partner and I want. It’s such a hard balance to work out. Then I think what the hell do healthy people spend their money on? 

I think it’s OK that I’m frustrated right now. Because it means I will keep pushing myself to get better and growing my work-life as I want it. Patience has never been my strong suit. I hope my new retail job creates a stable job I can build up my hours with, to create more stamina for my body, I’ll study a cert 3 or 4 at Tafe and maybe go back to Uni for another Bachelor’s degree. The universe usually aligns things for me at the right time so that everything works out. I have to keep reminding myself of that. 

[thetucsonazpreacher]

Isaiah 29: “Jerusalem” The opening verse cites a woe for Ariel. Ariel means Jerusalem, or lion, or altar. All of these point to David, and eventually to Jesus, as the central figure of the Davidic Covenant of 2 Samuel 7. What this vision tells of is a time when Jerusalem will be overcome with distress. We see once again, that the Lord will cause a a proud nation to be humbled. One of the things that I have noticed so far in this book is even though the Lord will bring judgement upon a land, it is generally followed by grace. The Lord, here in verses 5-8, protects Jerusalem, despite their pride. Jerusalem is described as blind, not physically, but spiritually. They have seen the Lord, yet refuse to follow Him. The have heard the Lord, yet they refuse to listen. They recieved His Word, yet remain unwise. Can't we say the same today? There are many adults who grew up in the church, yet they fall away when they are older. Once again though, we can be comforted, like the people of Jerusalem from verses 17-21 that the Lord will restore. I cannot stress enough, the Lord is still in control. The Lord still reigns. The Lord still loves. This is why He provided a "way out," in Jesus Christ. This is completely unwarrented, as we all deserve the judgement that we've been reading about here. John 3:16 tells us the why, and the how. "For He so loved the world, that He gave His only Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish, but have eternal life." Isn't that comforting? #jesus #biblestudy https://www.instagram.com/p/B-VFyT6B9uC/?igshid=2obdrjrcn9b8

[parwatisingari]

Friday, morning heralds a kind of excitement not the “Thank God It’s A Friday” kind but a sense of curiosity, anticipation it’s almost like I keep on my launch pad,  old notes from Pop-Glossop and some handy ammunition to blast Sid up.

But lo behold! The prompt says a tribute to indiblogger. In my mind  (I hope my friends Merriam-Webster’s will not sue for this) tribute is synonymous with eulogy. Definitely we neither indiblogger or I am Pururava or Alexander to say, “from one king to the other,” so tributes submission or protection money gets ruled out.

Then I realize yes, I could pay a tribute for tribute is something given voluntarily, as due or deserved specially a gift or service showing, respect, gratitude affection. It indicates the worth, or effectiveness of the person in question.

So why would I be giving a tribute at all?  well for the herculean task of building a community… which is more or less a tribe. Because a tribe is a group of people connected to one another, there is a connect to a leader, a connect to an idea, major issues of present day is that we have dissociated ourselves from our old tribes and communities but we fail to create new ones. Any group becomes a tribe, when they have two things, one a shared interest and second a way to communicate.

a campaign I was part of

With a tribe comes  collective wisdom – for no one ever has all the answers and no matter how many Google learning, you need an collective insight for growth and creativity…. research of Nagananda.  The blogger meets were are great place to learn them.  I realize most of us early bloggers are socially challenged. But on the indiblogger platform we have push our limits. If it was not for the encouragement from Dr.Sweety Shinde and Dr.Kiran Acharya I would have never done the NDTV swach Bharat Abhinayan ..  With people working on similar goals and objectives with friendly competitions, support and motivation we move just that one step forward that sets the ball rolling. On the days that we have lost faith in ourselves, people who have similar goals prop us up with support and belief.  New ideas emerge with when we view the world through  divergent lenses. When see the inspired journey of the others  we tend to borrow their motivation. Without realizing it, indiblogger ensures that we stay accountable to what we put out there.

By building a blogger’s tribe indiblogger raised the bar for everyone.

The indibloggers meets the congregation of different personalities my score is pretty interesting. Finally the names had faces. The voices became real.

Word up at Gurgaon I met and connected with Rahul Prabhakar, and Arvind Passey

BNLF 1 so much that we learnt and did there, Indiblogger had set a gold standard, the cooking lessons, the outdoor activity and so much to come back and write about.

BNLF 2 at Dehradun, was disappointing in one sense but it was a huge learning experience. Meeting Arvi, Ramya , Sulekha, Keerthiga and so many others. Valley Of Wordsh

What we did not do at BNLF2

What I learnt at the Valley Of Words

The Tata Tiago launch.

The contests were fun. It was with contests I realized the power of indiblogger, when one day I got a call from a leading lingerie saying they read my post about their rival company and read my posts on swach bharat with NDTV would like to do a breast cancer awareness for them. /

Of course those small goody bags that came from Colgate, sunsilk, the flipchart vouchers, books for reviewing really made a difference. Particularly since I was at a phase where I was definitely damaged goods. PTSD was definitely there.  The indiblogger community accepted me as is where is no judgement.

I really hope they retain their quality of helping bloggers grow. They had wonderful tie ups with Weblog Academy/ and Himalayan Writers retreat.

BNLF-2 at the valley of words

image courtesy google

mini blue tooth– courtesy .me

Like all journey’s my own with indiblogger is currently stagnant. I also realize that Indiblogger have also become still. They seem to be at a point where there are multiple option, either to truncate or grow. Growth does mean flying out of the nest. I have faith in Karthik and Rene, yes Anup  too. They will evolve into another level. What I am hoping  that I will be part of the newer avataar. If not the tame pastures are still there.

image courtesy google

word up at Gurgaon

Goa blogs

campaign with sunsilk

Blogger social responsiblity iin partnership with TATA

The writers at the retreat with the hostess Pallavi. Image courtesy Kriti Dalal.

An interesting retreat.

Ps: I still owe Karthik Rs.400/-

Blogger social responsibility.

campaign with colgate

campaign with sunsilk

the NDTV team

BNLF 1 TICKET

flavours of India one of the best hampes I recieved.

An interesting retreat.

word up at Gurgaon

BNLF-2 at the valley of words

Blogger social responsiblity iin partnership with TATA

tHE TATAMotars campaign.

#indibloggerforever, #BNLF

To the Scribe Tribe Friday, morning heralds a kind of excitement not the “Thank God It’s A Friday” kind but a sense of curiosity, anticipation it’s almost like I keep on my launch pad,  old notes from Pop-Glossop and some handy ammunition to blast Sid up.