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#but worse.. in these cases the information is being fed to them. they don't have an opportunity to explore other possibilities
coulsonlives · 8 months
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I just had to share this video because holy shit, it hits the nail right on the head! So well spoken. This stuff needs to be circulated more, esp with the growing number of people thinking they have this because of misinformation, or just outright faking it.
#it's painful because i knew someone who personally faked this stuff (or has convinced herself she has it i can't even tell)#she had spent all her time on tiktok and i know for 100% sure that's where she got the idea. it's TRAGIC how fast things went downhill#i'm legit horrified at how many people (esp young kids of 13-14) think they have this too. or are just pretending#i've been neck deep in hardcore research (and i'm talking pubmed sciencedirect etc only) for months#and those kids definitely don't have did.. if they have trauma and are dissociating it's going to be something else like dpdr etc#the number of stupid 'you have did' answers i see for totally basic questions like 'i got dizzy what's wrong w me' is insane too#it's like googling 'muscle twitch' and then thinking you have some rare 1/billion familial cancer thing despite other obvious explanations#but worse.. in these cases the information is being fed to them. they don't have an opportunity to explore other possibilities#and the worst part is they don't even know to CHECK THE VALIDITY OF WHAT THESE PEOPLE ARE SAYING. they don't have info literacy#like i'll say this once: did is so rare that it's STILL contentious about whether it even exists#and it only happens in the most unimaginably traumatic experiences. think of the worst possible things you could do to a child#where even just thinking about it makes you uncomfortable. THAT'S the kind of trauma that leads to did. the truly evil stuff.#i'm not even gonna start on the BITE model shenanigans that are happening in the 'did' communities either#or how the people who used to be in them (and got out) always equate them to self-harming cults that celebrated not finding real answers#they got told they were 'perfect the way they were' despite having OBVIOUS psychological issues they needed help for#(it just wasn't did)#they were assured their 'did was valid no matter what'. toxic positivity ig? it just delayed their real diagnosis and ability to get help#but now you have gluts of people like in the video 'talking to themselves' and people on tumblr posting one-liners of 'alters' talking#one after the other within seconds. and i want to fcking cry because it's the same exact shit my friend did before she cut ties#the did/tourettes/ftlb stuff has literally been called a 'mass sociogenic illness' in multiple academic studies#but like qanon believers they seem to immediately discredit anyone who mentions this with 'you're just ableist' so anything you say is poo#aka you're part of the problem you're an 'ableist' so your legit info even though legit isn't valid/acceptable/real/whatever. i'm tired fam#did#dissociative identity disorder#osdd#ddnos#munchausen syndrome#mass psychogenic illness#ableism
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generalpalacefishgoop · 4 months
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Bad reveals to Pomme about Ron
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Ghostie :"What happened to Ron?"
Bad :"Um...poor Ron. We need to visit him. He's been alone."
Pomme :"Who?"
Bad :"Oh um, yeah Pomme, did I tell you about the federation worker that I kidnapped?-"
Pomme :"?????"
Bad :"-while you guys were kidnapped? Oh yeah, so uh basically I kidnapped a federation worker. Locked him in the basement in our house in a little dungeon and um.. fed him nice meals of chicken."
Pomme :"WHY THO"
Bad :"Oh yeah I was trying to get information, like I thought the Federation had kidnapped you. This was before it turned out that they hadn't kidnapped you....but I didn't know that was the case. So, in my defense......anyway...um point is, kidnapped him, held him in our house for a little bit.."
Pomme :"Nah fair enough"
Bad :"Yeah, that's what I'm saying, that's what I'm saying...then um basically....yeah...eventually...he kinda became family...and I let him go...well...that's not true, I didn't let him go, I still couldn't risk him like telling the Fed about what was going on...so uh....-"
Pomme :"Okay wdym family now 0_0"
Bad :"Yeah no he's kinda family now, but he's in a house somewhere. I put him in a little farm. That's not like a saying, like "put him on the farm" and meaning like I killed them, that's not what I mean, I put him on an actual tiny farm that's very cute, I built it. Um...and then lo and behold, got you guys back, showed him to Dapper, and uh yeah, they became "friends"-ish, I think. Eh yeah fun, its a fun little romp, but he's kinda been alone there for a while."
Pomme :"Can we really trust him? D:"
Bad :"Well...Pomme...that's kinda why...he's still...anyway that's kinda why...he is still...-"
Pomme :"mhm?"
Bad :"-on the farm, cuz can I really trust him, I mean I'm pretty sure I can...I don't think he would betray us, but the problem is Pomme, he gets kidnapped...by the Fed again...reveals like info...-
Pomme :"yeaaaaaaah"
Bad :"-about the location...about the fact that I kidnapped him...anyway it just creates this giant pain in the butt. That's just not worth it. So-"
Pomme :"kinda got yourself in annn interesting situation it's the least we can say"
Bad :"Yeah, he's gotta stay kidnapped for a liiiiitle bit longer. But I think he likes it, on one hand, I think he kinda likes being kidnapped um...nah that's not true he doesn't like it at all, um yeah its the least we can say. Exactly, its like "Hey buddy, as soon as we take down the Federation or they agree not to punish and/or kill me...well...try to kill me..for any wrongdoing, then we're golden!
Pomme :"lmao can they kill you?"
Bad :"uh...I mean it hasn't happened yet, Pomme...knock on wood...um but theoretically, Pomme, they could lock me up, which would kiiind of suck. Yeah, getting locked up is kind of on my "no" list of things I'd rather not have happen."
Pomme :"Nahhh we would free you"
Bad :"Yeah no that would- I hope you would free me. I know you and Dapper like to watch a lot of TV and so it might seem fun to keep your father locked away but-"
Pomme :"I'll go to war against them if needed"
Bad :"Aww, thank you, Pomme. I appreciate that. Hopefully, that doesn't come to pass...but at least I know I can count on you and Dapper. Just make sure you guys are taking care of yourselves."
"You know the worse part is, Pomme, even if, today I had been there, or even if, I had the NINHO 2.0 the egg basket egg carton set up today er yesterday, it still wouldn't have saved Empanada. That's the horrible thing, cuz I would've had to get them all set up today. Urgh that's suuuucks. Urrrrrggh."
Pomme :"I mean. I meannnnn. U know me"
"It'll still prevent future accidents"
Bad :"Everything's gonna be ok."
Pomme :"I meannnnn I'll go to war to save any of the people I love you already know that"
Bad :"No I know Pomme, I know... (continues building and stops) Urrggghh I'm so done, all the death, all the pain, all the suffering."
Pomme :"I'm so upset :D They will pay :D"
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keshetchai · 8 months
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As someone who enjoys religion blogging/discussions, I've come to realize that it's a good practice to be aware of the general signs/symptoms of religious-OCD thinking (aka scrupulosity), because if the conversation is taking on all the hallmarks of scrupulosity, it's actually a definitive sign that we cannot meaningfully and compassionately engage in a conversation about religion in a healthy way. I've actually had this play out a significant number of times online, and when I realized what it was, I also began to realize that the intrusive thoughts/obsessive and compulsive thinking are only ever fed by continuing the discussion with that person.
[[ Important edit to clarify why I am saying it's not healthy — made after I went back to look for more concrete facts about OCD or anxiety (I have GAD, not OCD, but many resources overlap since they're both anxiety disorders):
When Reassurance is Harmful — this explains how/why reassurance-seeking specifically about an OCD fear is a compulsive behavior, and engaging with reassurance-seeking interferes with recovery/management/treatment.
This table from the Anxiety Disorders Center lists key differences between Information Seeking and Reassurance Seeking.
This IOCDF page on Scrupulosity info for Faith Leaders identifies "symptom accommodation" as enabling. Two of the examples of doing this by participating in the OCD behavior are: "Engage in excessive conversation focused on if-then scenarios (e.g., "If I did this, then would X or Y happen? And what if Z was involved? How about W?")" And, "Repeatedly answering questions about ‘correct’ religious or faith practices."
That page also goes on to outline more info about reassurance seeking. "Although providing answers to (often simple!) questions may seem harmless, providing reassurance serves to maintain the anxiety disorder cycle." (This BMC psychiatry article cites a lot of related studies establishing this.)
The IOCDF page on What is OCD and Scrupulosity? ]]
Imo, the responsible thing to do is to recognize that (even if the other person hasn't outright stated it/isn't diagnosed)* the conversation is not about religion, it is about needing mental health support from professionals and experts. Talking to me, the layperson who enjoys chatting theology and my religion — is not only not helping, but is actively harmful. I'm not just talking about the person who I replied to today, either. Like I've said, I've seen this happen dozens of times in various online forums.
*[while I am against diagnosing strangers on the internet, it's important to realize A) lots of people don't know what Scrupulosity is, so it's possible they've never considered this is a mental health concern that could be treated, and that B) for the purposes of my concern, it doesn't matter if they actually have diagnosed OCD. The only thing that matters is that their thought-process causes them genuine distress/fear, and every response given to them seems to only incite new/additional distressing questions/thoughts, or further entrenches the original distress.]
Ultimately, any discussion aside from "you might want to speak to a mental health professional about scrupulosity OCD" seemingly puts me in the position of feeling as if I am being used for their self-harm. I hate that feeling. I do not want to be leverage for fear and pain. I have GAD, I despise the idea that I am making things worse.
No matter how much I love religious discussion, the answer in these cases is always "please reach out to an OCD specialist/mental health professional. I am not qualified to discuss this." And then to stop there. I have never once seen anyone stuck in this compulsive thought spiral be reassured or feel any better by hearing from someone else's approach to theology handled with things like empathy, compassion, logic, or even atheism. It doesn't matter what we say, how we say it, or how we relate to our own religion. The urge to engage in this kind of conversation in order to chat about religion is a sign that we are not equipped to help.
You can't have a conversation here, because intentionally or not, ten times out of ten, you are adding fuel to the fire. Just like people can't simply tell me something that would erase/talk me out of my ADHD/depression/anxiety disorder, you also cannot simply argue/reassure/persuade people out of scrupulosity. We should not try. We have a responsibility to consider that it's outright harmful to do so, and to disengage.
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greatwyrmgold · 3 months
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So, apparently there's been a standoff between the Texas National Guard and US Border Patrol for the past couple of weeks, a physical manifestation of political conflicts between President Biden and Governor Abbot that has disrupted local life and caused multiple deaths.
Shelby Park is a park in Eagle Pass, the town in question. It's a pretty significant component of civic life, hosting events that the town's residents enjoy (and the town's government uses to fund its activities).
Unfortunately, it's next to the Rio Grande, so Texas had the park surrounded with concertina wire (razor wire coils that can be expanded to quickly set up a "fence"). Needless to say, that's going to disrupt local activities. The Eagle Pass residents are not exactly happy about this state of affairs.
Things got worse when migrants started drowning in the river. Border Patrol wanted to access a boat ramp in Shelby Park so they could rescue migrants before they drowned, but the Texas National Guard wouldn't let Border Patrol in under any circumstances. Four people were alive in the river when the Border Patrol showed up; two were rescued by Mexican authorities, but the others drowned. They didn't have to.
I'm not going to argue that someone who fails to save a kid from getting hit by a bus should be held responsible for that kid's death. But if they instead stop a third party from saving the kid? Yeah, that's their fault. Saying that Texas caused the (preventable) deaths of those migrants seems pretty straightforward to me.
(Complicating matters are three other people who drowned about an hour before US Border Patrol was informed that people were drowning in the river. These three deaths are often reported as being connected to this dispute, possibly because talking about a mom and two kids who drowned is more evocative than talking about...I don't know anything about the other two dead guys, because hardly anyone reported anything except their deaths.)
Anyways, the Biden administration sent a cease-and-desist letter demanding that federal agents should be given free access to the park. Texas claims it's still open to the public, even though they're only allowing access for media personnel, golfers at the golf course within, and "a memorial".
Texas plans to ignore that sternly-worded letter. The attorney general defends the state's decision by saying that the feds weren't properly enforcing US immigration law, which apparently gives them the authority to...further impede Border Patrol activities...? He also invoked the state's right to self-defense, which is already absurd when we're talking about the general "threat" of people crossing borders, but becomes even sillier in the specific case of blocking Border Patrol from saving four people from drowning.
Biden told Abbot to remove the razor wire. Abbot ordered more razor wire. The Supreme Court agrees with Biden (despite being primarily composed of Republicans). Twenty-five Republican state governors side with Abbot.
Several sources describe the physical standoff between the Texas and Federal forces unprecedented. I'm not sure that's true, or at least not true in the way that's implied; remember the Little Rock Nine? But it's definitely unusual, and if Republican figureheads keep rallying their bases by insisting that “The feds are staging a civil war," it could grow into something worse.
But hopefully it doesn't. It's an ongoing story, and Abbot has two more days to decide whether he wants to pick a fight with the federal government.
Sources below the cut.
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iindigoeyed · 2 months
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RE: Tumblr shilling out to AI scraping tools
also see @.staff's post.
the news has made its way to me. I've opted out but in true "nothing-on-tumblr-ever-functions" fashion, i just can't rely on that working. Considering the guy who owns tumblr now is also a massive transphobe this is not surprising at all and i expect this will be 2018 Porn Ban-levels of dropping userbase any day now.
So with the rise of AI scraping, I probably won't be posting my art here or, honestly, anywhere at all in the future. There is nowhere left for artists to exist, and nowhere left for fandom to flourish like it used to, and that upsets me. tumblr is not and has not been perfect but this was truly the only last place for the freaks to exist without having to be marketable.
I have dozens, and by dozens i mean hundreds, of inactive blogs lying around on tumblr from over the years. a lot of them have my old art on them. not only do i not have the information to log into them anymore, but a lot of them only exist in reblogs, and exactly how are reblogs of art going to exist under the "pwease dont scwape my awt" thing? Will you be able to check that EVERY blog has opted-out? What about deleted blogs? Inactive ones? The blogs that belong to dead people? You get it. I'm sure I'm not the only one in this boat. you want me to log into what is probably close to a hundred blogs to switch a button that should be OPT-IN to begin with? -- But let's be honest, who's opting in to have their art fucking stolen? No one, and on tumblr especially.
Personally speaking here, I know i don't have a huge following and that's kind of by choice. So you can take what i say with a grain of salt. but as someone who want(ed) to work in the art field and was hoping ai scraping would be a passing trend, this is the nail in my coffin. I give up. I'm not posting art anymore, period. I've dealt with all of this for long enough. Everyone and everywhere is hostile for artists, including other artists, every single website, and now companies and corporations. If this is the future it is fucking bleak. I've made a lot of friends and memories through art, and please don't get me wrong, i am so grateful. But even so, I make no money (not like i ever tried), i don't enjoy the process, and i'm just a drop in the ocean of artists on the internet. Instead i get to worry about: people harassing others over what art they make, art being suppressed in the algorithms, artists being expected to comply with bullshit regulations, companies scraping our hard work to feed back into their dumbfuck machine, and in my case honing my skills for almost a decade with nothing to show for it to my colleagues.
I love art. I love(d) making art, at one point. My philosophy is that art is made to be shared. but if i cannot do one, i cannot do the other. I myself cannot share art safely, ergo i myself have no reason to make it. I'll find a way to do what i love but this is not it.
as for everyone else. i hope you don't give up hope, i hope you keep fighting to fix this. But personally speaking i am done. Look around, look outside. everything is trying to kill us. and the last thing i need is having to worry about whether my art is getting fed into an ai or glazing everything before i post. I know it will get worse. I'm just tired.
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thewales · 11 months
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That said, with the little information you shared it's easy to deduce some reasons why Charles' fans are upset this time. William looked better yesterday than Charles will look next Saturday? People prefer him to Charles? According to them, William and Catherine want to overshadow Charles and Camilla? Their fans need to stop being so ridiculous.
I think it was BB's tweet about how William mentioning Diana for his homelessness project on the year of the coronation is like wishing Charles dead and is basically treasonous behavior
You probably don't want to see it but I'll look for the tweet and send you a link, because in this fandom we suffer together
Look, it's not my problem if you all have kinks but I will judge you strongly for the fact that masochism is the main one.
Why do you keep paying attention to that account? That account used to comment on my posts until one day I got fed up and blocked it, case closed. I never paid any attention to what they said, I won't start now. If she wants to have her face shoved up Charles' wrinkly arse, let them! This is ridiculous.
The same goes for the fashion account on Instagram and Elizabeth with many thoughts.
Charles is the King but his son is more popular, more accepted and better looking. That's it. I think at this point Charles accepts all those facts. He's the King, what more do they want? Catherine is more popular than them and ? they must accept that. I wonder if their fans thought that once he was King, Charles would have the acceptance and popularity of Lizzie Girl.
For better or worse, Charles and Camilla's actions in the past will have consequences all their lives, their precarious popularity being one of them. It's time to accept that.
What Charles must do is leverage William and his family's popularity for the benefit of the institution. And his fans need to stop being so ridiculous.
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With the vampire AU, I wonder how Jedi/Force Sensitives smell to the vampire clones.
Vampires are able to notice force sensitives by how they smell
This is dues to their midiclorians counts and if they are Jedi it is due to their use of them
Although even if it is a Jedi this smell difference is so faint a vampire needs to have either tasted Jedi blood or been in their presence long enough to pick up on the difference
Everyone's blood is different but to vampires Jedi's blood most of the time has a hint of a sort of freshness, the kind of freshness one smells when with freshly cut fruit
Or the kind of freshness in the early morning after it rained in the night
It's more of a feeling than a smell in this case
And when it comes to taste the difference is easily noticeable here
Force sensitive's blood is much more nutritional compared to their species and it can be very tasty, although this is mostly is with Jedi, who dues to their practice with the Force are even more tasty and nutritional since the force is proven to be a literal entity full of life force so it sticks.
But one needs to be careful since it can actually become addictive, due to the rush of energy a vampire gets from feeding off their blood
But this is the case with Jedi and in general force users like the Guardians of the Whills
The tastiness will also depend on the vampire and their preferred species and types of blood, age also affects the taste of blood
And usually when a vampire is born the first being they feed off is from their parents, this creates a bond, and also feeding off someone has huge significance, since this only done with either family or a future partner
So the fact that many and I mean MANY clones have fed off Jedi due to different reasons, they are at war it's literally unavoidable
This has led to many clones bonding with the Jedi in a deeper way than they themselves don't understand or even know about, since the Kaminoans didn't expect this so they didn't really inform them of it
The clones just get this feeling of wanting to be closer to their Jedi and protect them, which isn't unusual so they just shrug it off
The bond can be of any nature, parental, platonic, or romantic, although every one of these falls in the category of family, since to vampires family isn't only related by blood
This is actually a reason why many vampire cultures get along with the Jedi, due to their similarities and their views in family
This has led to many communities of vampires considering feeding off Jedi or force sensitive's blood without their express consent as a taboo and in general feeding of someone without their consent is seen as taboo, but with the Jedi, it is obvious it is done for power so it's like ten times worse
There are also vampire Jedi
But what about dark side users?
It is told and shown to us by the movies and even Lucas describes the dark side as a cancer, he literal refers to the forces as in The Force and The dark side
Like the dark side isn't a part of the force it is a literal cancer, or maybe a sort of residue or corruption caused by the sole use of negative emotions
But this makes the blood of dark users not very appetizing, like in the case of the night sisters, they use the dark side but do not succumb to its corruption.
Their blood has a sense of bitterness but it also gives a surge of energy to the vampire, although it is a much bigger amount of energy in power, but it lasts for much less than the energy a Jedi's blood would or maybe a Guardians of the Whills, it gives less energy but lasts longer
But due to how much power it gives for so little, it is incredibly addictive, if a Jedi's blood can be addictive a dark users is 100 times more and it, of course, destroys the vampire's body like poison.
If we're talking about the Sith, who have succumbed and been corrupted by the dark side, their blood is 100 times more potent than the night sister's.
And it is much more poisonous, being able to kill a full-grown vampire with just one drop
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rarepears · 2 years
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Svsss au where most of OG Binghe's mistreatment as a child was actually false memories planned by Meng Mo to help his disciple become EVIL. The novel treats it at reality because it's from Binghe's point of view.
This could lead to either SY being very confused by the state of the peak, cause wasn't poor LB supposed to be abused? Street being told the truth by the system, he had to figure out how to keep Meng Mo away from LB's memories by finding another way for LB to learn demonic cultivation, since he'll need it for the Abyss.
Alternatively OG Binghe time travels to the past, and is super confused why nothing is like he remembers. He would definitely murder Meng Mo the second he reappeared.
Fun fact: Meng Mo doesn't even need to plant false memories to get Binghe to misremember things. The brain actually remembers the last time you recalled that memory and can "edit". The brain is also very good at "filling in the blanks" so to speak. So Meng Mo just needs to say a few very leading sentences to get Luo Binghe to add some extra things into his memory of past events to "amplify" the mistreatment.
Don't believe me that memory is so easy to rewrite? Check this out:
Chan’s study is the latest to show how easy it is to disrupt our memories, and supplant what we think we know with misinformation. In this case, he and colleague Jessica LaPaglia from Iowa State University showed volunteers the pilot episode of 24 and then selectively rewrote some of their memories of the show’s events. For example, some of the volunteers came to believe that an assassin (Mandy!) knocked out a flight attendant with a stun gun, when she actually used a hypodermic syringe.
It wasn’t just a simple matter of saying Mandy used a stun gun. That wouldn’t have worked. Instead, Chan and LaPaglia fed their volunteers with false information immediately after they had actively remembered what they had seen. Then, and only then, did the new memories overwrite their old ones.
And yes, it's a series issue with the judicial system. There's a lot of concern that police interrogation/questioning lead to false witness testimonies from false memories. Check out this other article about it. I also recommend that if you are a college student or a soon to be college student that you take an intro to psychology course. It's absolutely fascinating to learn how unreliable memory is.
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Another thing that also added to Luo Binghe's misconception that he's being mistreated is that Luo Binghe is very... self centered(?) in what he notices. He notices what is happening to him. He's busy in his teenage angsty, all stuck up in his own head, to notice what is going on with other people when it's not directly related to himself.
He fails to notice the other disciples also getting disciplined by Shen Qingqiu. He fails to notice that the other peaks employ the same punishments that Shen Qingqiu uses (or even worse punishments).
Teenagers like to think they are special and always singled out. They are oh so terribly self conscious about that pimple on their nose and worry how everyone will see it, notice it, and laugh about it when in truth, most people are caught up in their own problems. Remember that tumblr post about someone who took their snake through public transport and no one realized the bag was actually a long noodle boi?
So basically this is a long winded post to say, with the way that human brains are wired, that Meng Mo wouldn't have to do much to get Binghe to think he's getting singled out and mistreated. He pushed Binghe to come to such a conclusion with very little effort and Binghe ends up filling in the blanks himself because teenagers have yet to understand that the world doesn't revolve around them and they are just another pawn on the board.
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starshipsofstarlord · 3 years
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Stuck in 1903
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Summary: Damon and Bonnie had come to your rescue, or so you thought, but it is Kai’s every intention to get close to you again
Pairing: Kai Parker x reader
Warnings: angst, smidge of fluff, mentions of smut, mentions of death, mentions of murder, bad friendships, mentions of poison, swearing
Word Count: 2052
Find Part One Here
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If the Other Side continued to exist, then you would be there rather than this subordinate prison world which had been designed for one bad witch. Kai's own kind feared him, you had experienced him mentally draining your energy, he was a chore to put up with, but he could do much more than that, you had learnt from Bonnie. He fed off magic, physically stealing it from bodies and items that harboured any of it, which had poisoned his mind to hunt for power. Your friends had informed you that he had murdered his siblings, well some of them anyway, and had attempted to do so to more of them. And now you knew, with supporting evidence, never to trust Malakai Parker.
Without Damon and Bonnie you had to resort to fending for yourself, which was not at all difficult since this version of Mystic Falls that you were trapped in was quite literally a ghost town. The forever enveloping silence was torture, though the method of ignorance had not been designed for you; it was all for Kai, and that unsettled you. There was one more thing that you had been dreading - the possibility that you could not escape from the remote isolation without the aid of the guest starring siphon himself. This hell was built to contain him for eternity, but now there was magic that he could use to his own advantage nearby.
Your cheek rested upon the side of your hand, mushing the flesh whilst your elbow was poised upon the countertop of the kitchen island in the Salvatore house. All of your concentration validated your deep thoughts, of which you were broken from as a plate was placed directly in front of you, a pancake decorated with chocolate chips and syrup to form a smiley face. Damon was the culprit as he threw a tea towel over his shoulder, expectedly looking at you.
"I'm not hungry." You informed the vampire, who simply frowned at your lack of an appetite. "I ate yesterday, which was technically today." Beneath the table, you crossed your ankles, as you earnt a sigh from your well aged friend; he clearly was not impressed by your behaviour. But you didn't know what he had expected from you, you had been trapped here for longer than you could remember, and alone until you had discovered the man that had been outcast by his own family. At the time you had not known of his murderous tendencies, and had wanted nothing more than to get away from him, and you wouldn't like to admit it but you even missed him a little.
He was annoying and cocky, and withheld crucial information from you, though there was something that contradicted that all. Whenever any one of your friends had suffered the fate of death, they were always attempted to be brought back to life against the natural order of things. It made you wonder and doubt a little if they had even tried to resurrect you. In this separated reality, there was no jurisdiction so that you could know, though each time that either Damon or Bonnie looked at you, you could swear that there was guilt written in their gazes.
"Look I knew being stuck here with Kai must have fucked you up-" he should have bit his lip, his assumptions were anything but correct. And that was proven as you defensively darted out of your seat and jabbed your finger in his face, making him pivot his jaw back. There were many things that were 'fucked up', and supposing that you were one of them because you had died after sacrificing yourself to ensure that they all continued to live just didn't settle right with you. The context of the morbid situation did not help with condoning any reassurance at all, in fact, it gave a spine to your lack of faith in him and the others in the first place. Out of everyone, it was inherently worse to be here with Damon, all he had cared about was his precious Elena as well as himself, and after existing for well over a century, that was insurance that he was never going to change.
"It wasn't him who did that to me, it was roaming this damned place by myself, I had no one. And as crazy as it sounds, I think spending time with the notorious Malakai Parker helped me keep what was to spare of my sanity. If I'm not wrong, I may even say that I've found more being here than dealing with the bullshit y'all cause back home." Perhaps your words were a tad harsh, if Bonnie were in the room you were sure that she'd have a somewhat understanding of what you were saying. Though she was not, and thus you had to deal with the harshness of her best friend all by your lonesome. And it seemed that you had rattled him, apparently he couldn't handle the truth.
"Then why don't you run back to the sociopath? When we discovered that you were here, we found the pair of you attached to the hip anyways. And with him inside of you, I'd never seen you so darn happy, better here with him than tempting me to drink bleach from the way that you constantly complained when you were alive; I swear you were worse than Donovan." It was on your mind's own command for you to take a step back, and away from the toxin that Damon had so cruelly spat at you. Ans the way that he compared you to Matt made you angry; it was though he were ignoring that there were valid reasons for the blond to be the way that he was - after all, the monster before you had practically killed his sister. A laugh renegaded out from your mouth as you realised that you had been right all along, none of them cared. You were just a burden that stopped them from having a perfect life together. If this were a book, then this would be the beginning to your villain arc, and ironically enough Damon saw himself as one of the good guys. Now that was utterly ridiculous after every reckless thing that he had ever done!
"Have it your way then bloodsucker." All along, you should have trusted your guy, and from now on you knew that you would listen to it. And strangely enough, it was calling you to Kai, maybe it was because he was your last resort to escaping this imprisonment that had been meant for him alone. Turning on your heel, you heard Damon flop the towel down on the side and sigh, though you continued to walk, appeasing your better judgement elsewhere. "Wait." He tried to convince you to stay, belatedly understanding the mistake that he had made, but it was no use, you were already on your journey of getting as far away as possible from him.
The Mystic Grill, it remained to be familiar in your eyes as you entered. It was empty and void of drunken assholes and narcissists that you had wasted too much time on. The only person that you missed in the modern alternative was Matt Donovan, he was the only person that didn't treat you as though you were invisible or a nuisance. You wondered how he was coping with your absence, knowing him, he was probably relieved that Damon was gone. But you weren't, because he was here with you instead. Trailing your fingertips over the counter of the bar, out of the corner of your eye you saw a lonely glass of bourbon that was sat there as though it were lamenting you with mockery. You tried to hold your sentimental sob inside, but it was practically impossible. It tore through your body, bellowing out from your mouth as you stifled and fought through your tears.
A hand caressed the landscape of your back causing you to jump and flinch from the unexpected contact. One thing that you had learnt from evading and eventually experiencing the qualms of death, was that you could never be too careful. For no more than a second you had predicted that the intruder to your pity party was Damon, that he had followed you as you tried to distance yourself from him, but alas it was not, instead of being greeted by a fretless vampire, you were condemned by the sight of a powerless witch, of whom had purposely interjected your moment of cracked emotion and wore a brave smile for you. Wiping your eyes with the back of your sleeves, you couldn't help but snap at him. "If you're here to finish what we started then tough luck Parker, you've been here long enough and you have two hands, figure something else out."
His tongue darted out to swipe at his own bottom lip, as he raised his hand, showcasing his offering to you. "I was only going to see if you wanted a pork rind, you look like you could use one." Sighing, you dug your hand into the pungent packet that was littered with dust and crumbs, retrieving a few treats for yourself as you placed them in your mouth. "And now should be when the poison kicks in..." With your hand, you gave him a little shove as you tolled your eyes at his homicidal comedy. "Come on, that was funny! I'm funny!"
"If you say so, there's not very many people around to give you an honest opinion." It was true, the only other human like lifeforms impartially close by were Damon and Bonnie, and well, you weren't going to scurry back to them anytime soon. "And if you had poisoned me, then you would know that I would be fine and dandy in not so long, It wouldn't make a difference if that wasn't the case either, I mean I'm already dead, what could be worse than that?" Kai looked at you with shock; he didn't know that about you, that you had actually suffered a final breath. Now he thought about it, the grand scheme of things he didn't know much about you in general, though he was prepared to learn. He had often found death to be fulfilling, satisfying even, but he'd never thought about its victims being so beautiful. Yet here you were before him, by chance the one force that could motivate and help him find a way out of this jarring hole of reaping misery.
"You're here, that's all that matters." As soon as those words fled from his lips he realised exactly what he had said, and a blush framed his features. "I um - that wasn't what I - you know, yeah..." He scratched the back of his neck as you shook your head at this new side that you were seeing of Malakai. His parents called him Malakai, of course he was going to become a killer, but right now you saw nothing more than an embarrassed boy whose skin had flushed as an affect of his own words. From your experience, everyone was either the killer or the killed - you two were one of each. Like ying and yang, you fit perfectly, it was a balanced divide that was settled on whichever rhythm played out in the air. And to correspond with that thought you walked over to the jukebox, a song beginning to play which made Kai want to cover his ears. "I hate this song." He told you; he really did, if he could murder it, he would without a doubt.
"Then don't listen, just dance with me." You extended your hands out to him, to which he begrudgingly reached for. And as he snapped his eyes open, he realised that was all a memory, and that goddamn song was still playing. All he could think about was you, he had seen how upset you had been to die, and yet you were gone again, and it was all down to your so called friends. One was standing before him as he sat in chains, imprisoned against a chair. "Are you here to punish me?" He asked Bonnie, wanting nothing more than shut his eyes and see your face again.
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yandere-romanticaa · 4 years
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Revenge, and a little more. 🔪💔
♥ YANDERE REACTIONS: How would Mikaela Hyakuya, Run and Izuku Midorya react to their darling cheating on them and then leaving them for that person? Darling became fed up with her yanderes obsessive behaviour and decided to take matters in to her own hands... But, that didn't turn out so well now, did it?
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Poor Mikaela, he'd be absolutely heartbroken... How could this happen, how could you do this to him?! He is beyond himself, he has no idea what to do. He blames both himself and the man that stole you away from him. It is his responsibility to take care of you, to nurture you, to protect you, to love you and he... he failed. He couldn't keep you by his side so you took your chance and ran off with that scum.
That disgusting human was going to pay for his sins. Mikaela would make sure of it. No one in this world could be trusted, for goodness sake humans could be even worse than vampires in certain cases. Mikaela's worry nearly consumed him whole as he searched for you, day and night, with little to no rest. You couldn't have gotten far away, there were just too many monsters crawling around... among other things. He hoped neither the vampires or the humans got to you as both sides would have caused your untimely doom. The vampires would just kill you on the spot, while the humans would lock you away and experiment on you for the rest of your days. Those horrid thoughts made Mikaela sick to his stomach...
...God however, seemed to be by his side today.
As he was out looking for you, he suddenly caught a whiff of a very familar scent in the air. Judging by its intensity, you were close. Without much to lose, Mikaela followed the scent until he finally reached the source of it. There you were, sitting on a large rock as your hand bled, a deep gash visible through the fabric of your clothing. Mikaela had to stop himself from pouncing on you right there and then - good grief, you smelled heavenly... It took all of Mikaela willpower to not take that delicate little neck of yours in his hands and to just feast on your divine blood. He suddenly smelled something, or rather someone else too. A man stepped out of a nearby building and that was when Mikaela just lost it. Who does this man think he is? You could have gotten killed at any moment, he left you to bleed right there on the streets and to top it all off the sun was going down. The stupidity of this man baffled Mikaela but his anger was what drove him over the edge.
With a shout, Mikaela raised his sword and charged at the man, giving him no time to prepare for the upcoming strike. Mikaela was brutal, showing no mercy to his enemy. He slashed and slashed, the mans blood spilling all over the young vampire. He didn't care that you were crying at that moment, he didn't care if anyone saw him... All he wanted was for this nuisance to just disappear already, so that Mikaela could finally take you back home and fix you up... And give you a reminder of just how dangerous the world really was.
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A strange tang of incredibly sharp pain pierced Run's heart unlike anything he had ever felt before. In his hands was a note but it was not your handwriting. The content of the letter shook Run to the core - it was a note from your new so called lover, claiming that the two of you had run off somewhere, far away from Run's grasp. The man in question was most likely one of the guards you saw daily, but there were so many of them, one might think that finding the culprit would be nearly impossible.
Not for Run though. No, if it came down to you nothing was too difficult for him.
Having a imperial arms already gave Run a significant advantage over his opponent but him being a Jaeger only made things even more easy for him. Run is determined to find you, no matter the cost. He knows for a fact that in your little escape attempt that you had slipped up somewhere and he was going to discover that slip up in just a few hours. Run is high on adrenaline but he manages to keep it together as he talks to several witnesses, all of which claimed to saw a young woman fitting your description, along with an unknown man running off somewhere. In a little less then a day, Run had gathered all the information that he needed and he went out looking for you. With his wings spread high, he flew in the night sky as he searched for you, his heart nearly suffocating him from the seemingly endless worry. You always left him feeling breathless, no matter if it was good or bad...
Not too long after he took off, he finally saw something beneath him - two people holding hands and running, both of their heads were hooded. Run was too far up in the sky in the sky to tell who it was but upon a closer look he sighed a breath of relief. There you were, all dirtied and nervous as you clutched the mans hand tightly. Your paranoia was adorably obvious as you continued to look around left and right, most likely trying to keep an eye out for any danger beast that might be crawling around.
That proved to be a fatal mistake because at that moment, wild danger beasts should be the least of your concerns.
In a flash, your new lover suddenly just dropped dead on to the ground, a pool of crimson blood forming on the ground. You shrieked loudly as you tried to wake him up, your fear increasing even more. You noticed that there was a small hole at the back of his head and without even thinking, you turned around and were already pinned to the ground. Run held your wrists tightly as you trembled beneath him, his sad facial expression contradicting his actions. Heaven's sake, you could have sworn that he was going to break both of your wrists until he brought you closer to himself, his arms wrapping themselves tightly around your waist. Run stared down at the corpse beneath him, knowing full well where he hit the man. He had not died yet surprisingly, but Run wanted it that way. This man was going to spend his final moments watching you being brought back home, all the while he was dying slowly and painfully.
A fitting punishemt for a thief like this, wouldn't you agree dear?
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Izuku was shaking at the sight before him - across the street was the love of his life, in the arms of another man as the two happily exchanged kisses as if it was the most normal thing in the world. His vision soon became blurry because in mere seconds, an endless stream of tears started to cascade down his cheeks, his eyes red and puffy, his throat dry as a desert. He felt so sick, so incredibly sick that he might just lose his lunch right there and then. His knees gave in and he was no longer able to stand on his own two feet. All he could do was watch from afar as this stranger took his darling away to who knows where. The sharp, inhumane wave of pain hit him out of nowhere as his vision soon became filled with black spots.
How could this have happened?
Was he not good enough for you?!
Why didn't you love him anymore!?
Why, why, WHY?!? WHY WAS THIS HAPPENING?! You two had the perfect romance - he was your hero and you were his princess! But his delusion was shattered to pieces and it broke Izuku's heart. However, even throught this entire ordeal he still continues to push his belief that you do love him and that none of this is your fault! Oh no, no, it's all his fault! The bastard he just saw you with, he must be blackmailing you in some way! He forced you away from Izuku and now you have to fake everything you do, oh you poor thing!
But don't worry love, your brave hero will be there to save the day!
Izuku always prided himself on his stealth skills and they were proven to be very useful in this situation. He stayed hidden in the shadows and he watched your every move, waiting for the perfect time to pounce. He gatherd all the information he needed in just a few days and orchestrated the perfect plan - at night when your "lover" was heading out to the store, Izuku may or may not have pushed him in to a sketchy alleyway. The attack was so sudden and strong, the poor man didn't stand a chance. Izuku continued to beat him until he was covered with blood from head to toe, his clothes pretty much sticking on to his body. A sick but satisfied smile made its way on his face as he walked towards the apartment you were staying at. Izuku didn't even bother with the clean up, but he made sure to at least cover up his tracks to make sure that no one could trace back anything to him. This bastard deserved this, it was his own fault for taking away Izuku's darling! Tonight though, the two lovers would finally be reunited!
Isn't that just the perfect ending? ♡
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alchemistbee · 4 years
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Back in your Arms
「Five Hargreeves x reader」
Ask: Could you write a Five reader fic where y/n gets kidnapped by the Swedes and Five saves them. Thx
Words: 2556
Warnings: mentions of blood and torture. Kidnapping. Season two spoilers.
A/N: this is the first fic I’ve ever got requested. I hope I did it justice. I hope you enjoy! I know I took long to publish it, I apologize, school is kicking my ass. Sorry for grammatical errors. Enjoy!
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After having attended the horrific light brunch with the Hargreeves family, they were all feeling far more worse than when they had arrived. Five had explained to Sir Hargreaves each of their powers, Vanya had exploded a bowl of fruits, Allison rumored Diego, Diego got a very non-friendly slap of reality, Klaus seemed to have a seizure mid-dinner and Lurther confronted their father by ripping his shirt off in front of everyone.
In your opinion, it could have gone a lot better, but it could have also gone a lot worse.
Unlike the other siblings, Five had stayed behind and you had figured that it would be better to wait for him in the lobby. He was having a conversation with his father, whom he hadn't seen for over fifty years, he bet his ass you were going to wait for him. Especially after the horrible way he had spoken to the rest, you would be there for Five if he needed to. What you didn't know by then was that Five was trying to see if his father could tell him how to go back to 2019, one that didn't evolve making a deal with The Handler. Which, may I add, he hadn’t told anyone about, not even to you.
You waited patiently for Five, your back leaned against the wall while your arms intertwined in front of your chest. You counted the minutes that passed, not that you were in a hurry, but to hopefully make it seem like the time was passing faster. After almost twenty-seven minutes, the elevator emitted that one ‘bing’ it did whenever the doors were about to slide open. As you expected, it was Five, who now had his hands shoved inside his pockets and seemed quite puzzled. You asked him if he was okay, but Five only dismissed your question to tell you to go ahead of him to Elliott’s place. Apparently, there was something he needed to take care of, something he wasn't willing to explain to you just yet.
He knew that if he did tell you, you would either try to stop him or not let him do it on his own. Five didn’t want to drag you into Commission business. He found that not telling you of the plan all together was the easiest way to keep you from being in Commission's eyes, more than currently at least.
You nodded suspiciously towards Five, but did not push the subject any further. Maybe he just needed some time to let everything sink in, and it's not like you nor him considered the walk back to Morty’s dangerous. You could take care of yourself pretty well. You parted ways with Five, and walked back to Morty’s where you saw Elliott himself was just arriving too. He smiled kindly upon seeing you, to which you returned with a smile of your own. You had to be honest, you had grown to like Elliott more than expected. He was like that one cousin in the family, and you enjoyed hearing his rambles about any conspiracy he could think of. He truly was a sweetheart.
You followed Elliott up the stairs to his place, he carried a paper bag in hand, calmly telling you the things he brought back from the supermarket. You listened thoughtfully. Once inside. Elliott flickered the lights on and to both of your surprise, a cat sat in the middle in the kitchen. Elliott looked confused, but figured the cat must have somehow climbed in “Hey buddy, how did you get up here?”
He approached the kitchen casually, where he sat the bag down and looked at the cat as it meowed to him. You couldn’t help to feel your skin crawl. The nagging feeling of people watching you being present “Elliot?-” You turned your head to look behind you, swearing you had seen something lurking in the shadows. You averted your gaze back to him, now watching as he pulled out a tiny can of food for the cat and asked if it was hungry. You walked to the kitchen window, the one that let you view outside in case anyone was suspiciously close to the building. You saw nothing, but that was because you didn't know that they were already inside.
Your head snapped back to Elliot the moment a loud sound came from the living room, there you saw that one of the tall assassins had punched Elliott right on the side of his face. You felt your heart accelerate, and moved quickly to help him until you felt someone pull you up, stopping your tracks to help the man. The other assassin got a hold of you, if it hadn't been for your small body, you could have stopped the leader from hurting Elliott any further.
You saw the man try to scramble from his gun, but the other man was quicker to lift him up by the throat, asking the whereabouts of Diego. Upon receiving no answer, the man punched Elliott twice, this time letting his body fall harshly on the floor while blood dripped down his nose.
“Elliott!” You struggled under the second man’s hold. You couldn't move, you couldn't fight. The siblings were not even back and there was no way for you to contact them when the phone was this far “We don't know where Diego is! Leave him alone! He has nothing to do with this!” you pleaded loudly. The leader only shifted his gaze at you, studying the way your eyes flushed with fear. He was trying to figure out whether you were the one the woman had referred to not killing, you were merely a teen after all. Yet, not killing you didn't mean they could not use you for information.
After that little stare down happened, making you hope that maybe the men would not use Elliot as their little puppet..You were gravely mistaking. The man dragged Elliott through the living room, knocking over a lamp and breaking it before pinning him into the dentist chair violently. He kept asking for Diego, and Elliott is only able to answer with a “I d-dont know” while you keep battling for the second man to let go of you. At this point, you felt the tears welling in your eyes as you noticed him take the forceps, priding Elliott's mouth open and sticking them into his mouth.
“NO!” you cried out “ELLIOTT!”
Elliott’s screams filled the building alongside your pleas and cries, but as much as you told the men that none of you knew where Diego was, that didn't seem to make them stop. Not until Elliott’s body was drained from life entirely, the blood from his body splattered all across the floor and body. You couldn’t help the soft cries leaving your lips, calling his name out ever so softly in hopes of him still being alive but that’s when you felt a sharp pain come from the back of your head. The world turned black and your body fell not too far from Elliott’s chair after the second man got tired of holding you.
The brothers could use you. They could use you to lure Diego, the man they believed responsible for the murder of their younger brother.
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The next day, after Diego and Lurther find Elliott’s body, they try to figure out who did this to Elliott. Diego believes it's the feds, but Lurther claims that was no work of feds but of a psychopath. Believing the words written below are a name, they search through the phone book until discovering the phone number linked to whom they believe is responsible for Elliott’s death; They phone the number up.
Five jumped into the building, quickly noticing the blood painted words on the floor, making him hurry up the stairs to meet Elliot’s body. He can feel a lump forming in his throat as he approaches it. There were clear signs of torture, there was something stuck into his left eye. Five couldn’t help to feel guilty. He liked Elliot, he was a good man, he had helped them and welcomed his siblings in without the slightest complaint. He had become one of them, and for that, his life paid the price.
Five followed the voices of Lurther and Diego through the kitchen, taking off his blue and blood dripped jacked as he heard the brothers threaten someone over the phone for killing one of them “Hey! It's Öga för Öga, idiots. Swedish for ‘an for en eye’. It means The swedes killed Elliott '' He didn't want to think how the missions went after his run; It was clear Diego and Lurther shared one brain cell.
“Wrong number, have a lovely day” Diego hanged the call, looking at Five and easily spotting the blood on his clothes “Uh, you got some blood on your clothes”
“A lot actually”, Diego added as Five pushed by them, entered the bathroom and turned the sink handle to let the water flow down. He grabbed a white towel, carefully washing the blood off of him as best as he could “I found a way home”
“What? How?”
“All the details are irrelevant but i made a deal to get back to our timeline”
“What about doomsday? And the 2019 apocalypse”
“won't happen. Everything will be back to normal” Five remarked exasperated “All right? No more questions. We gotta go. We have to find the other and get back in 77 minutes. Luther, you get Allison, Diego go get Klaus, I'll get Vanya, Y/N-“ he stopped his pacing all suddenly, eyes roaming the room and back to his younger siblings “Wait—Where’s Y/N?”
Five’s eyes widened as realization suddenly hit him and his siblings. He saw you last night, you were supposed to be here, why weren’t you here?
“They stayed after the brunch, we thought they were with you…” Diego, Five and Lurther shared a look, all of them now realizing that you had been taken by the men who killed Elliott.
“Dammit!” Five exclaimed angrily. He had just gotten a way back home, and you...You had been taken. How was he supposed to find you in such little time? He didn’t even know where to start.
“Calm down. Okay—We’ll find them—“ Diego started while Five started to pace around, muttering words under his breath “This was so simple. So simple!” He turned his head to look at them “I am going to go find Y/N, and get Vanya. We meet here as planned, this is our only chance to go back” Five raised his finger at them both before started to walk to the stairs, but stopped abruptly when he Diego spoke up once more
“You expect us to not help you—“ before Diego could finish his sentence, Five jumped from the small distance to right in front of his brother, raising his fingers with a threatening look “If you don’t do this, I swear I’ll kill you myself” he said more sternly “there's not enough time for all of us to go in a search, I’ll tell Vanya to meet up here. If i don't make it in time just go back home, I’ll manage a way back”
“How are you planning on finding them?” Was what Diego last said before Five teleported out of the building.
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You woke up with a sharp breath. Your head was pounding and when you opened your eyes, you were welcomed with nothing but a blindfold on your eyes. You tried moving your arms. But soon found out they were tied down to your back while your ankles were tied against the legs of a chair “Shit” you muttered hoarsely, your throat was still dry from the crying. What the hell happened? Where were you?—
That’s when it hit you
“HELP! SOMEONE!” You tried to scream as loudly as you could, but considering the silence in wherever you were, you knew no one was coming to your aid. Strangely, the smell was like cat fur, and that was confirmed when you heard the several meows and the cat passing it’s tail over your leg.
How in the world were you going to get out of here now?
Five jumped all over town trying to find any clues, even the smallest, of your whereabouts. Even though he didn’t show it, he was extremely anxious and worried for your self being. He feared what the Swedes could be doing to you, or worst, what they had already done. The images of Elliott kept flashing back to him, and something in his stomach made him believe that if he didn’t hurry up, he would find you the same way.
He didn’t know whether it was luck or simple fate, but as he walked through the town he spotted the familiar milk truck that had followed them around for some instances. It was parked in front of an apartment, a quite small one, and Five knew that you should have been there. He kept looking down at his watch, counting the minutes they had left before having to go back to 2019.
They still had twenty minutes. He still had time, it was enough to save you and go back. At least he hoped so.
He watched The Swedes get in the truck, and without thinking it twice, teleported himself inside the cat filled apartment. His blue eyes roamed the place all over, scanning it for any trace of you until he heard a few knocks coming from a nearby closet. He didn’t waste time on pulling the door open.
Five’s eyes fell on you, and instinctively, you started to try and kick thinking that The Swedes were back again “Y/N!-Its me!-Y/N” he crouched down to your level, scanning your body for any signs of torture or harm. He sighed sharply, relieved to see that The Swedes hasn’t gotten their way with you. Gently, he reached out to pull your blindfold off. It broke him to see you like this.
Your eyes weren’t shining like they used to. They were completely flushed by pain, regret and fear “F-Five” you muttered softly, finding it hard to believe he had actually found you. You felt the ropes become loose on your legs and wrists, and the moment you had the chance, your body fell against Five’s. He held you firmly, worried that maybe you weren’t as okay as he thought you were. He was only relieved to have you back on his arms again, the place where he could make sure of your safety.
“F-Five—Elliott—I couldn’t s-save him” You started, tears stinging your eyes as you remembered what The Swedes did to the man “I c-couldn’t—“your shoulders shook alongside your small sobs.
“I know...It wasn’t your fault. I shouldn’t have left you” Five said softly, his arms slowly wrapping around you, hoping that would comfort you in the slightest “We have to go...I found a way back, but we need to go now or we’ll be stuck here forever” He pulled you up the ground, his thump caressing your tear stained cheeks while his free hand took a gentle hold of yours.
“You w-what? How?” You blinked twice, sniffing softly “Five, what did you do?”
“I’ll explain on the way...Let’s go home”
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zhansww · 3 years
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Hey, can I ask you something? Answer only if okay, but there's no umbrella term/room for ggdd's relationship in cfandom that can fit all those who believes in their love? I mean, from what I've seem (I don't have an weibo account), people seem to follow content from supertopics that are categorized by sexual dynamics... Which, as a queer person, makes me a little unconfortable, to be honest. I know eastern culture is very different from western, but sometimes it feels like their love is determined by a sexual nature, y'know? Not saying that everyone on weibo is there because of t/b preferences, but when something good happens and everyone is screaming about * szd, it sounds strange to me that we delimit ourselves by sexual dynamics, y'know? And in some extreme cases, even treat each other as enemies. Asking your thoughts because I'm not Chinese and this has been my experience whitin the fandom. Plus, I know you don't read fanfic and avoid assuming their sexuality/participating in t/b discourse.
I get what you mean. It makes me uncomfortable, too :/ I think it has to do with c fans, just not having rl queer people around. The only "knowledge" they have about queer relationships is from the BL novels they read - which I don't doubt, usually feature a couple with heteronormative roles in which the "girly" guy serves as the writers'/readers' self-insert. Explicit gay romance written by straight females for straight females... there's nothing inherently wrong there but when those who only consume such material apply the things they read on rl gay couples; that's when it becomes problematic. I don't think their ignorance justifies how they think of rl gay couples. If they have such strong opinions about queer couples, they should have informed opinions. What's worse is that a lot of c as well as international fans don't seem to be able to differentiate b/w the rpf and/or the made-up rumors they read vs reality. Which leads to them, being convinced that whichever dynamic they prefer reading about is actually real. I used to think that this stupid differentiation wouldn't affect me anyway precisely cuz I don't read rpf but truthfully, it isn't limited to t/b discourse but it's also about their dynamic as a couple in general. So basically, b.j.y.x fans constantly feel the need to emasculate gg cuz they think he is the ""wife"" in the relationship. And of course, they see no problem in doing that cuz they're all straight and have an obvious hetero dynamic in their own relationships so what's the big deal in assuming gay couples always have hetero dynamics, too (urgh). I have seen few zsww fans who referred to dd with female terms and I've never seen lsfy fans do anything like that. International fans who don't care about their dynamics, just use "yizhan" or "wangxiao" instead (both of those cp names were coined by ggdd themselves after all hehe). I've seen international fans who kind of passive-aggressively only use zsww cuz they're fed up with b.j.y.x stans which I find rather relatable. The seemingly vast majority of bxg consists of b.j.y.x stans and the way they view ggdd has everything to do with the characters they played in cql and little to do with ggdd themselves. They all seem to be in agreement that dd is an aggressive, possessive alpha and gg is his dependant waifu or some shit. Personally, I am so sick and tired of how b.j.y.x stans see or portray ggdd that I very much prefer zsww and lsfy fans. Like, it doesn't even have anything to do with the dynamics for me, I don't care about that; it's just the fans. Zsww and lsfy fans don't need to ignore or twist reality to fit their preference. Damn, this was a lot of rambling... this topic always gets me a little heated cuz it's so disrespectful. My men deserve better. To finally answer your question; as far as I know there is no umbrella term for c bxg who like all three dynamics or who don't care about that at all. From what I've seen, those who don't care about the different dynamics simply post in or share content from all three supertopics~
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The Devil In I - Bela x OC (Resident Evil Village AU) - Chapter 5
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“Step inside, see the Devil in I”
Summary: Aleena Novak is a 19 years old orphan who desired more than living in a village in the middle of nowhere. A talented artist with a big future ahead, she gets the scholarship of her dreams in United States. But everything changes when her twin brother, Auryk, steals an important artifact from Castle Dimitrescu.
In this adventure, Aleena will find way more than she expected.
“You’ll realize I’m not your Devil anymore”
Pairing: Bela Dimitrescu x f!OC
Genre: Between T and M (Trigger warning for violence, blood, abuse and eventual smut)
Tag List: @nydeiri
Notes: I hadn't seen the video with all the sisters' lines, even those cut from the game. From the Maid's Diary we found, I assumed they could never leave the castle, even in Summer, as it was set in July like this fanfiction. I'll fix the mistake in this chapter. My apologies!
Thank you for all the reviews, follows and likes! It means a lot to me.
Trigger Warning: Language, abuse, blood and violence.
Castle Dimitrescu, Lady Dimitrescu's Bedroom - 3 Days Earlier
When Bela woke up in the morning after the attack, she had been taken to her mother's bed. After her transformation, she felt fragile like a child again. Not knowing who or what she was anymore, she was scared and lost. Her mother's bed felt like the safest place in the entire world. And it was. She loved being there. Alcina would never let anything or anybody hurt her. Nobody knew this side of her, when she acted like a loving and protective mother.
"Mother," she muttered, noticing Lady Dimitrescu was watching her and stroking her hair. "I'm sorry. I failed."
"Shhhh," Alcina kissed her daughter's forehead, "you need to rest now, daughter."
She started singing a jazz song Bela liked. Singing was one of her hidden talents. Her mother's voice was like a lullaby to her ears. She was almost falling asleep again, when flashbacks from the night before returned to her mind. She remembered being in Aleena's bed before falling asleep. She was holding Bela's hand, assuring her she'd be alright.
"Aleena," she sat down in an impulse. Bela feared what her mother and sisters could have done to the girl while she was sleeping. She started feeling agitated. "Where is she? I failed to protect her."
"She's fine. There's no need to protect her anymore, I asked Cassandra to keep an eye on her while I'm here with you."
Cassandra? But her mother knew Cassandra's intentions. She'd use Aleena to satiate each one of her desires and then, she'd kill her. If only she hadn't failed. If only she hadn't been so weak.
"But, mother... she's going to kill her. Please, she saved my life! She doesn't deserve to..."
"Nobody is going kill her, Bela. Once I have my goblet back, I'll let her go." Lady Dimitrescu pushed her back to the bed, tucking her under the blankets again. Then, she grabbed a book from the bedside table. "Why don't I read something for you? One of the stories you like?"
Bela forced a smile, listening as her mother began to read. She loved being there. It felt like the safest place in the world... in the past. Not anymore. Now she just felt betrayed.
When she noticed she was still wearing Aleena's jacket and inhaled her perfume, she thought there was somewhere else she'd rather be at the moment. Somewhere where she was truly feeling safe and happy. She wished to be in Aleena's bed again.
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Castle Dimitrescu, Lady Dimitrescu's Bedroom - Present Days
Three days passed and Lady Dimitrescu still wouldn't let Bela leave her room, even if she already felt completely recovered. She wouldn't leave her side for more than a few minutes and not even her sisters were allowed to see her.
She had everything she always wanted. Her mother's exclusive attention, to be sure she cared about her as much as she cared about her sisters. Yet, it wasn't enough. Not anymore. There was something new inside her. A part of her that wasn't connected to the life she had lived so far, a life that only included Alcina, Cassandra and Daniela.
"Good morning, sunshine," Bela covered her eyes as the sunlight invaded the room, immediately pulling her out of her sleep.
She was having those dreams again. Dreams she assumed to be memories from her past life. The one before the transformation. She decided to record them all in a diary. She hadn't much to do while she was stuck in that bedroom, it felt like a good manner to spend her time.
"Oh my god, now besides spending the day in bed reading Lord Byron, you're also writing a diary?"
"Cassandra," she angered, immediately getting up and grabbing the diary from her sister's hand before she could read anything she wrote. She also kicked the small pile of books on the floor to under the bed. "What are you doing here?"
"Quick and sharp. It's about time you leave the nest, don't you think?"
"This is what I want the most, but mom isn't convinced I'm recovered yet."
"Liar," Cassandra shook her head and smiled sarcastically. "You're loving it and I know."
"Are you jealous she remembered she has another daughter?" Her eyes and ears analyzed the space around her. Alcina was nowhere to be seen or heard. If their mother wasn't around, it could be a good opportunity to sneak out of the bedroom. "Where's mom, by the way?"
"Doing some boring shit in her office. She asked me to keep an eye on you."
"Okay, I'm doing great. Now leave, I'm gonna take a bath."
"Oh, no," her younger sister sat down at the bed with a book. "It's my turn to read something to read for you."
Cassandra began to read some words Bela recognized very well. She added a dramatic tone to her voice.
"When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it's not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end. The hunter smiled in a friendly way as he sauntered forward to kill me."
That was an excerpt from the book Daniela once found among a servant's belongings. The one about a vampire who fell in love with a human.
"Why are you reading this to me?" Bela rolled her eyes. That story was beyond absurd, suggesting vampires glowed in the sunlight. Yet, she wished she had the opportunity of attending school like those vampires were able to. Being weak to the cold was definitely worse than glowing in the sunlight.
"You know why," Cassandra did that judgmental look again. "It didn't work well for mom, it won't work well for you."
"I don't know what you're talking about," enough was enough. Bela went to the bathroom to prepare her bath. She would leave that room and no one would stop her. "And we don't talk about it, remember? You know how upset mom gets everytime she's reminded of her."
"We're not talking about her, we're talking about Aleena."
She froze at the mention of that name. It was surprising how in only a few days, a simple name acquired so much meaning.
"What Aleena has to do with this?"
"She saved your life," her sister followed her into the bathroom. "She could've ran away, saved her own ass, but instead, she came back to rescue you. She fed you her own blood, even knowing you could lose control and kill her. There is something going on and you can't deny it."
"So what?" Bela closed her eyes inside the bathtub, attempting to relax. All those things were true, but in the end, she had failed to protect Aleena. So much the task had been given to her sister. "It wouldn't be the first time a woman becomes infatuated by me. Which is not her case anyways. She's only trying to show how brave and efficient she is."
"You can fool mom and even Daniela, but not me. I know you, sister. Something about you has changed from the moment Aleena entered this castle."
Cassandra was definitely doing that to annoy her. That was one of her favorite hobbies. Bela decided to ignore all that provocation.
"You're wrong. And besides, she'll be gone soon. It doesn't matter."
But it did matter. And that was exactly why Bela was so desperate to leave that bedroom. What if Aleena was already gone when she left the room? What if she couldn't see her at least one last time? What if she ended up being another one of Cassandra's maidens?
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Castle Dimitrescu, Office - Present Days
A few days had passed since the Lycans' attack to the castle. The heating system had been restored, as well as the windows. The members of the staff proved to be innocent, they were so scared and ambushed as any of us.
Cassandra and Daniela were finally warming up to me. But I hadn't seen Bela yet. Alcina was keeping her locked at her own chambers, not allowing me anywhere near it. Even her own sisters were only allowed to see her that morning.
I was caught by surprise when, after breakfast, Mrs. Volkov came to my room bringing the information Lady Dimitrescu wanted to see me. I hadn't seen her since her return. Her entire time and attention were dedicated to Bela and god-knows-what she did inside that office. Maybe that was the day she decided to end my life. Even if I knew she was immortal, I decided to go prepared. If she couldn't die, maybe my daggers could at least give me some time to run. I was glad to have my amulet with me.
"Sit," she ordered as soon as I entered her office. "We must have a talk."
I obeyed. She closed the door and served us both a cup of tea. I decided to accept it, even if I just had breakfast.
"How's Bela?" I asked.
"Oh Bela... my sweet daughter..." the woman sighed and shook her head as she took a sip of her tea. "She's the most tempestuous of my three daughters, even a small thing can affect her mood."
I had a feeling she was talking more to herself, than to me.
"She's recovering. Her wounds have healed but I still think she looks a bit weak. As you could see, the cold can cause a severe impact on their bodies. Had it been in Winter and my daughter could have..."
She interrupted her sentence. She couldn't pronounce that last word and neither could I. Even if I only knew Bela for a few days, I couldn't stand the idea of losing her. Seeing her looking so sick in my bed still haunted my memories.
"Anyways, this isn't why I called you here," Lady Dimitrescu changed the subject.
"Yes, m'am?" I asked, drinking my own tea. "Have I done anything that goes against our deal?"
She raised her eyebrows at my unexpected question. I could imagine she was used to people being less confident in her presence.
"You did everything against our deal. You've been bumbling around this castle like if you were at some kind of fairytale, you've been messing around with my daughters and you... you saved them."
"I did."
"You could've ran away or even killed them. That was your perfect chance but you chose to save them," I had never seen such a look in the eyes of Lady Dimitrescu before. Only in that moment she seemed like a loving mother, grateful that I made the stupid decision of giving up my freedom for her daughters' lives. "Why?"
"I don't know," I sighed. I really didn't have an answer for that. "Maybe I was just following what my mother taught me, to help anyone in need despite of who they are or what they did. Bela saved me in my first night here, I felt I owed her that."
"She saved you because I ordered her to protect you. I know how Cassandra and Daniela can be. You owed her nothing."
"I also owed you," I added. I had to work on earning her trust, if I wanted my freedom and my life back. "You could have killed me and my brother, but instead you're giving us a chance."
Alcina did everything to hide it, but I could tell my words had caused impact. She appreciated honor and loyalty, and that's what I was showing her.
"What do you want?" She finally asked. "I must give you something in trade for your courage."
I thought for a while. I could ask for my freedom. I could ask for money. I could ask for her to forgive Auryk. But instead, I asked something simple.
"I want to call my brother. I want to know he's well and inform him I'm doing fine. I also want to know about his search of your goblet."
"Okay," she indicated me the phone on her desk. "I'll give you some privacy."
I couldn't believe what just happened, but I dialed Auryk's number as fast as I could. Nothing brought me more relief than hearing his voice on the other side of the line.
"Auryk! That's me," I spoke.
"Leena? Oh my god, I was starting to think you were dead."
"No, actually I've been doing pretty well here. You wouldn't believe it."
"What? How is that even possible?"
"Nevermind," I smiled. "I'll tell you later, in person. So, how's the search for the goblet, speaking of which?"
"I've been following some leads but it seems impossible to trace the buyer. I've also received some information that seems confusing and misleading."
"Why?"
"Aleena, do you believe Miranda would be able to betray her own cult?"
We didn't spoke much after that, but the question remained inside my head. The leads Auryk obtained all lead him to people related to Miranda, her most loyal followers from the village. I also thought about the Super Lycans and how somebody planned to kill the Dimitrescu girls. Only someone with so much power would be able to plan such a thing.
"I need your help," Alcina spoke once she returned to her office. I lied to her, saying my brother was close to find her goblet. "Somebody has betrayed me and I need to know who."
"Okay..." I don't know how I could even help her with that.
"I bet that was him!" She smashed the teacup in her hand furiously, before starting to walk around the office like a maniac. "The pig, the bastard, the motherfucker..."
"Heisenberg?"
"Yes!" She looked at me proudly. As if it was any secret those two hated each other. "But I need proof to show Mother Miranda the rat he is. Otherwise, she would never believe me."
"You need to approach him cautiously," I suggested, "so he won't have any suspicions. Bring him into your territory, where you are in charge and not Miranda. It'll be enough to intimidate him a little. Enough for you to catch any hints of a strange behavior."
Lady Dimitrescu didn't say anything for almost a minute. At first, I thought she had found me extremely stupid for suggesting she should invite her nemesis to the castle, but then, she opened a sly grin.
"Smart girl! You just gave me an amazing idea... I'm throwing a dinner tonight, for Mother Miranda and the other Lords."
"Yes, give him some alcohol too. You know, men and alcohol... it's not a good match."
She laughed. Not sarcastically this time, but sincerely. Then she got up and caressed my chin. Her cold hands made me shiver from head to toes.
"If I knew you were such a good girl, I'd have kidnapped you earlier. Now go, I want you to be there too. I'll ask someone to get you an appropriate dress."
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Castle Dimitrescu, Ballroom - Present Days
After lunch, Cassandra asked me to show her some of my knife moves. She had been strangely glued to me in the last few days, like a dog guarding its bone. I knew I had promised her we could do a training session any day, but I never imagined she'd take it seriously. I started to wonder if that was a good idea at all.
She picked the ballroom for our training session. Where we'd have plenty of space to move and chase each other. Scary.
"I'm giving you an advantage," she said. "I lowered the room's temperature a bit. I can't transform into flies."
"Good," I grabbed my twin daggers, "not all of us can buzz around."
She rolled her eyes at the pun.
"Oh and I also fed before coming. So in case you get hurt, I won't have problems with my instincts."
"I'm glad to know."
I started by teaching her some basic moves, which bored her a little. Then, we proceeded to a close body combat. I had to admit she was good, even if she didn't have a specific style or technique. But when she fought purely by instinct and impulse, that was a disadvantage. I was able to deflect some of her moves easily.
"Damn," Cassandra panted, a little tired. "You're not so bad. Where did you learn to fight like that?"
"By myself, mostly," I swallowed an entire bottle of water. Training with a vampire had consumed all of my energies. "My father didn't believe women should hold weapons."
"Moron."
"And a bastard. That's what he was."
"How did he die?"
"I never found out for real. He was out for one of his travels and apparently he got in a bar fight or something. I can't say he didn't get what he deserved."
I sat down on the floor to get some rest before taking a shower, Cassandra joined me.
"Your mother is throwing a dinner tonight," I spoke. "She wants me to be there. I have to admit I'm kinda nervous."
"Don't worry, it's only an excuse so she and Heisenberg can yell insults at each other. It'll be like any other meeting."
We were in silence for a moment. Cassandra fell pensive but I noticed a smirk on the corner of her mouth.
"I saw her this morning," she commented. "Bela."
"And how is she doing?"
"Quiet, broody, boring... same as usual. I'd say she's completely recovered. Mother is exaggerating, being so overprotective. But it isn't like Bela doesn't like receiving attention and being spoiled."
"She seemed very weak that day."
"Not anymore," she was about to leave the ballroom when she remembered something else. "She asked about you, in case you wanna know."
"Oh," I tried to pretend I wasn't so worried and interested. But I could feel my cheeks burning. "She did?!"
"You're blushing, sweetheart," Cassandra was too smart to leave this unnoticed. "You like her, don't you?"
"It's not like that! I... I care about her, we... have this thing... we kinda saved each other, you know?"
"No, I'd call that 'having a crush'. And I must give one advice, it won't end well for you. You and Bela belong to two different worlds."
"I know that," I assured her. "Trust me, I don't have a crush on your sister. And I won't have. I have another priorities at the moment."
"Good for you."
She laughed sarcastically and leaving me alone in the ballroom with my own thoughts. I didn't have a crush on Bela. I couldn't. She was right, we belonged to different worlds. I was only fascinated by the sensation of danger, the adrenaline she brought to my life. A sensation I never felt before. She was a predator and I was her prey. A real feeling would never exist between us.
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Castle Dimitrescu, Dining Room - Present Days
Right after I took a bath, Mrs. Volkov knocked on my door bringing a stunning red dress, jewelry and shoes. That was what I was supposed to wear for the night. Never in my entire life, I could be able to afford something so fancy. If it wasn't for the fact Lady Dimitrescu was pondering if I should live or not, I could easily enjoy that life.
"You look amazing," was what Daniela spoke when I met her in the hall. "Come here, let's take a picture."
Taking advantage of the fact her mother had been busy with Bela, she was enjoying her free time to discover the joys of the modern world with me. She revealed me she also had a cell phone. One she stole from one of the maids and assumed to be broken. I explained there was no phone signal where she lived but that she could explore other functions of the device. Since then, she has been recording multiple videos of her daily life and taking pictures with me, Cassandra and even the staff.
Lady Dimitrescu was going to kill me. I raised a monster.
I also found out we shared the same passion for art. She was a very good artist.
"Red is Bela's favorite color, by the way," she told as she tapped her phone screen. Good thing the camera wasn't able to capture me blushing.
I finally saw Bela for the first time in days. She was coming down the stairs just as we took the picture. Dressed in white, she seemed like an angel.
"Aleena," she greeted me with a simple nod.
"Hey," I couldn't help opening a huge smile, "I was starting to get really worried about you."
"I'm fine."
She followed her way to the dining room. I could tell something had changed. I didn't know what though. Was she mad at me or at herself because of the Lycan incident? Was it something her mother said again? The thoughts were consuming me as we placed ourselves around the table.
It was a foolish idea to assume a civilized meeting could happen in that dinner. Lady Dimitrescu and Karl Heisenberg had already started to exchange insults. Daniela said inappropriate things about five times. Cassandra had just threatened a servant with her knife. In my turn, I observed Donna Beneviento and I could quite imagine why she wouldn't speak to those people.
"Mother Miranda," Alcina had finally reached the point where she revealed the true objective of that meeting. "About four days ago, I was called to an emergency at Donna's house. A prized possession of hers has also been stolen. When I returned home, my castle had been vandalized. Someone attempted to murder my daughters by exposing them to the cold air, besides sending Lycans to kill them. And they weren't normal Lycans, they..."
"Were Super Lycans," Daniela interrupted. "Their claws were exactly like my mother's."
There was an awkward silence before Lady Dimitrescu proceeded.
"As I was saying. The Lycans were modified to be stronger."
"Oh please," Heisenberg argued. "Who would bother wasting so much time with you?"
"Those Lycans could only have been created in that gruesome factory of yours."
"Gruesome? Let's talk about gruesome. How many virgins did you sacrifice for this bottle of wine?!"
Oh god. I suddenly didn't feel like drinking anything else for the night. But then, the conversation shifted to another point.
"You're inventing this attack to cover up the fact you let that little thief go and he has stolen from another Lord," Heisenberg accused. "It was more important to you to bring his sister to serve as entertainment for your daughters. Which she must be doing very well, considering she's still alive and sitting among us tonight."
"Hey," I opened my mouth for the first time that night. Suddenly everyone was looking at me. "My brother didn't do it. I called him this morning, he's not even around. He has been searching for Lady Dimitrescu's goblet. And dare you to disrespect me again and I will..."
Nevermind. What could I even do against him? He was immune to my bullets and my daggers.
Cassandra started laughing, while her mother looked at me in a mix of shock and disappointment. Heisenberg continued with his accusations.
"Prove it then. Prove your brother has no involvement in this whole situation. He could have planned the attack as well, to rescue you."
"My brother is human, he has no power to create modified Lycans!"
Mother Miranda cleared her throat, indicating all of us should shut the fuck up. I stared at her figure, remembering my brother's words. She could be the one behind all of that and everyone was blinded by her power.
"I've come to a decision," she spoke. "Heisenberg is right. So far, the only person who could be declared guilty is the Novak boy. Alcina, if I remember correctly, you made the decision of letting him go."
"What about the attack, Mother Miranda?" Lady Dimitrescu was furious, but not surprised at her decision. Miranda seemed to always favor the other Lords over her. "The girl has a point. Such a stupid manthing couldn't have created Lycans and given them more power."
"Do you have proof the attack even happened? I'm sorry, Alcina, but the castle is intact."
"I repaired the damage! It was a risk to my daughters! I have their word as proof, as well as the word of my servants."
Heisenberg started to laugh non-stop, before insulting her again:
"So now you remember you have servants? You always kill each one of them to satiate your thirst for blood."
Lady Dimitrescu couldn't find words to refute that argument. Whether because it was true or because she was being smashed by Miranda and Heisenberg.
"Your son of a bitch!" She punched the table, making everything shake.
"We're all doomed!" Beneviento's creepy doll, started to run across the room, repeating those same words. "Each one of us!"
In that moment, I could finally hear Bela's voice in all of the mess.
"At least one reasonable person in this room," she stood up and started to leave. "Angie is right. We're all doomed."
"Bela," Alcina called, "come back here. We're not finished yet."
But she had enough. And so did I. I didn't think before following her to the main hall.
"Bela," I called her. "Where are you going?"
She stopped, taking a deep breath.
"Somewhere," she said. "Are you coming?"
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Castle Dimitrescu, Bela's room - Present Days
I swallowed hard when I noticed we were standing in front of Bela's room. She opened the door and invited me inside. I felt my heart thundering inside my chest. It was the first time a woman invited me to her bedroom.
Bela's bedroom was a reflection of herself. Completely organized, perfectly decorated. Daniela was right about her favorite color, some things had shades of red. Such as the curtains and the sheets covering her bed. The walls were decorated with some paintings and a portrait of herself. She also had a small collection of vinyl discs and a telescope near the window.
It had a small study attached, where I could see she had her personal collection of books. That was where she entered and came back seconds later, bringing a bottle of wine and two glasses. Then, she sat down on a sofa, inviting me to join her.
"There's no blood in this one," she spoke. I stared at her, wondering how she even knew. "I can't hear you thoughts. I saw how you put your glass aside when Heisenberg made that comment."
Good. That was probably something good to know. Bela couldn't see the mess inside my head. She was merely an observant woman who could read people very easily. I smiled in response. I was too nervous to show any other reaction.
"I just can't stand all that arguing, all that yelling," Bela drank her entire glass in one sip. Then, she stood up and went to the window. I followed her.
"It's a beautiful night," I commented, pointing to her telescope. "Do you like to watch the stars?"
"Yes and it's the only way I can do it."
"So you can never leave the castle, at all?"
"Sometimes, during Spring and Summer," she sighed melancholic. "Days when the temperature is higher than usual. This year hasn't been kind to us so far. Or the last one."
Never being able to go outside should be a torture. Now I could understand why sometimes she seemed so moody and upset.
"Summer has just begun," I told. "Maybe you can get some luck in the next few weeks."
"I hope so."
She went back to the other side of the room, serving herself another glass of wine. I hadn't finished mine yet.
"What do you think?" She returned to my side and asked. "About the attack. Do you think your brother is fooling you?"
"No, no way. Auryk never lied to me before, I know he's telling the truth."
I knew Heisenberg accusations would cause me trouble. Especially with Miranda siding with him.
"Lying is different from having secrets," Bela said. "Don't you have anything you hide, even from your brother? Something no one knows, but yourself?"
I did. I never told Auryk about the night I spent with Gustav, where I wasn't able to lose my virginity to him. I also didn't feel like telling him about my days in the castle this morning. I knew he'd judge me, in both cases.
"I do, but..."
She let out a small laugh.
"Oh Aleena," she traced the border of her glass with her perfectly manicured finger, "you act so strong and tough but deep down you're so naive."
"What do you mean?" I wanted to know.
"You should've ran away during the attack."
"I wouldn't let you die."
"Why?" Bela was staring deeply inside my eyes. In a manner I was feeling completely exposed, uncomfortable. "Do you know how many people I've killed? Or how many women I seduced only to drink their blood? It's not like I deserved to be saved."
"It doesn't matter," I didn't have a right answer for her question. "It felt right. You saved me in my first night here."
"Only because my mother ordered me and I try so hard to be a good daughter for her. But I failed, right? Now Cassandra has been taking care of you."
"Is she? I mean, I noticed she has been kinda glued to me lately but... sorry, I don't believe she'd save me if she had to."
"No, she wouldn't. She'd take advantage of the opportunity to get you killed and feed from your blood. My sister is more reckless than I am."
"You're different."
"I'm not. I'm just more careful with my actions," she placed a hand on my chest, feeling my heart beating fast. She shook her head in denial. "How do you know I'm not playing with you? How do you know you won't have the same fate as those five teenagers from your village, three years ago?"
"I... I..." deep down, I always knew Bela had an involvement in that situation. But now hearing a confession was totally different. Yet, I didn't feel afraid.
"How can you trust me? We've only met for a few days and here you are, standing in my bedroom where I could kill you and no one would even hear you scream."
"You wouldn't do that," it was my turn to face her, to look deeply into her eyes. I placed my hand over hers. "I know."
"I'm a monster, Aleena. All the stories you've ever heard about me? They're all true."
I don't care. I don't care. I'd still save you if I had to. I wanted to scream those words, but they wouldn't come out.
"You need to stay away from me," she removed her hand from my touch.
"Why?" I asked. "Tell me. Be honest. Who are you trying to convince with all of this? Me or yourself?"
"Just go, Aleena," she turned her back on me. "Just go."
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Castle Dimitrescu, Library - Present Days
I couldn't get any sleep. I'd just keep rolling in bed, without being able to find a position. What did Bela mean with that conversation? Was she assuming I was in love with her or something? I wasn't stupid like the other women she was used to seduce. I knew better than that. She had absolutely no right to throw all her frustration and anger at me. I wasn't her mother. I wasn't Heisenberg or Miranda.
I grabbed my sketch book and walked to the library. That castle was even creepier when it was dark and silent. It was almost like you could hear the laments of the people who had been tortured and killed within those walls. I remembered the five teenagers from the village. My mind tried to picture how they were lured into the castle and who killed each one of them. I could see myself in the place of one of those girls and the only thing I could imagine was if they were in Bela's bed when they were killed. I imagined the things she did to them. I tried to feel scared but instead my heart would start racing all over again. I tried to ignore those thoughts, but I locked the door anyways.
I had to relax somehow. I sat down at the desk and attempted to find any inspiration. I started working on a piece that represented Mother Miranda, the Four Lords and all the mystery surrounding those people.
I heard the door opening, I quickly pulled a dagger from my ankle. I could sense a presence approaching me. I was ready to attack, when the low light of the lamp revealed who it was.
"Oh, I didn't know you were here," Bela spoke.
"I was about to leave," I grabbed my sketch book from the desk. When I turned around, she was standing very close to me. We were face to face now, even closer than we were earlier in her bedroom. Her eyes were different though. Before, she looked angry and upset. Now she just seemed sad. "Good night."
"You can stay, if you want. I shouldn't be here anyways."
"No, it's your castle and your library. I'm leaving. Also, I'm retuning your key."
I extended her my palm, handing her the key I was holding.
"Don't be ridiculous," she closed my hand again. "You're my mother's guest."
"Prisoner," I cleared my throat and corrected. Bela let out a small, ironic laugh in response.
"Well, you had the chance of running away. You wasted it, darling."
And we were back to 'darling'. The same 'darling' from the beginning, when she was still deciding if I should be her prey or not. From when she didn't even know my name.
"It wasn't a waste. Not when I was saving your life."
"You shouldn't have saved! I made a mistake, I should be the one to fix it or face the consequences."
"Oh my god, is it all because you were in danger? Because you lost control of the situation? You don't need to be perfect all the time, Bela. It's okay to fail."
"Not everyone is like you, Aleena. For you, it's just natural. You are perfect at everything you do. You can always fix everything that is wrong. You can always use the situation in your favor. You're always pleasing everyone, even my mom!"
My hands started to shake in anger. She knew nothing. I was far from perfect and my abusive father knew very well how to expose my flaws, my failure. For Adrian, being perfect was the only acceptable option. Otherwise, he'd beat us. He'd punish us. Yet, I didn't torture myself for that. Especially after his death. I was about to shout it at her face, when I dropped my sketch book.
I kneeled down, collecting all the spread papers on the floor and shoving them back into my sketch book. When I stood up, Bela was holding one of them.
"Why were you drawing me?" She asked, analyzing my work carefully. I froze.
"I... I..." I had no excuses this time, except for the truth. "I wanted something to remember when I'm gone."
"You shouldn't, Aleena. You should forget it as soon as you leave through the front door. Nothing in this place is worth being remembered."
"You are!" I finally said it. "What if I don't want it, huh?! What if I don't want to forget you?!"
She was in silence for a moment. Then, she closed her eyes as if she was trying to process what she heard and what she would do next.
"Then, I better give you something better than a portrait."
She grabbed my face, pulling me closer to her. There wasn't any more distance between us, I was pressed between her body and the desk. I couldn't move, not even if I wanted to.
Bela's kiss was like every other of her actions. Calculated, planned. She wanted to make sure she'd be in control of it. She wanted nothing but perfection.
She started it very slowly and shy, as if she was trying to figure out the territory first. Her lips softly brushed mine at first, like if she was asking for my permission to go forward. I retributed, pressing my lips harder against hers. I wrapped my arm around her neck, bringing her even closer. I wanted to show how much I desired her, I desired that kiss.
She gently parted my lips with her tongue, finding her way into my mouth. Her tongue gently stroke mine, raising shivers all over my body. I stroked hers back and I could feel her pulse accelerating too.
I don't know for how long we kissed. Minutes, probably. I didn't want to stop. Never.
"Now," I smiled against her mouth when we parted, "that was perfect."
"Shhhh," she whispered, opening a huge grin, "shut up, love. We're only getting started."
Our second kiss was different from the first. It was more desperate. More intense. More passionate. We were both confessing how much we had been longing for that. Then we kissed for a third time. And a fourth. Then I lost count.
All I know is that I spent the night in the library, making out with Bela Dimitrescu.
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randomsnakesimp · 2 years
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So, one more thing from the witchversary prompts I'd really been wanting to talk about but kinda didn't have time was mystery.
Now, right off the bat, I think both the show and the comics (Arc 3 and onward, I still don't think it's a coincidence only the first arcs were adapted, as they have a different overall feel than the rest) handled mystery worse than just about anything I've ever witnessed, and while I know that this is an opinion, I will be quite direct in my criticism of the writing. If you ever feel personally attacked, feel free to inform me about that, as that is certainly not the goal of this post.
Now, in the show, why mystery was never a thing can be summed up with two words: Caleb and Yan Lin.
Almost every time the crew encountered anything that could be mysterious or throw up questions, one of these two just spawned and started throwing exposition at people, and in the very few cases they did not, the audience was still fed the explanations via the things they saw from the villains' perspective.
In the comics, this was somewhat of an issue - a lot of times, people would just feed the girls such a ton of exposition - but I feel that here, the incredible discrepancy between the potential for and the actual existence of mystery had a more broad range of reasons.
One of these is the fact that, similar to the show, what mystery was left was often completely eradicated by just showing the villains and their plans, only this time, it was made EVEN WORSE because comics have thought bubbles.
Second, you can't exactly have mystery when the entire world feels progressively like a bunch of drunk teenage fanfiction writers fought over whose idea would be the next to be half assedly handled over a few issues before joining Orube and Tibor in the ever-growing abyss of forgotten plot elements. Mystery is nice if it fits into a world, and feels surprising yet consistent, and especially in the case of a mystery enemy, the reader should be able to guess along, which they only can do if the plot makes sense and the world has some sort of rules. Sadly, that was less and less the case, until finally, the grand finale had the girls merge into Robo-Cop and each be handed a sense to control with negative five payoff unless you count toxic relationship enablement via supernatural forces as a huge win. Which brings me right to the next point:
If anyone can deus ex machina whatever, and at the same time, no one questions jack shit, then why should I care about any mystery? It's not like whether or not the characters predict it change anything.
Next, a lot of the "mystery" is just so poorly handled, especially regarding questionable alignment. Honestly, for any plot with a character whose alignment or motivation is supposed to be a mystery (see Erin, Cedric, Dr. Folkner, Nash,...), it's on par with the traitor in a game being the one undateable NPC. I honestly found myself mispredicting peoples arcs because the writing felt so on the nose or cliché I thought they could not possibly be serious.
Then, the girls themselves are either dumb as a loaf of particularly nutritionless toast or just don't give two shits about anything, often making the real mystery when they will finally reboot their obviously crashed brain computer. Like, they literally put massively more effort into washing Blunk in the cartoon than they put into supervising Cedric in the comic, and then they're actually surprised he's not sitting still? And in the Ragorlang Arc, with the white mask people, they literally admit they have not clue how to look for evidence, call out TV shows for making the characters find them per accident and simultaneously stumble across hints accidentally - which would be a fun moment if they didn't accidentally half their entire successes. Heck, in the Ludmoore Arc, they just gave up after realizing they needed Dean and Mrs. Junior Poetry League to plot convenience them through the first riddle and then had the book point them along the map and just be surprised at what hints the riddle gave them about the guardian once they found out anyway - which is a magnitude of retroactive down dumbing that should only, if ever, happen in one medium of storytelling: a pen and paper campaign. If you want to make a reader care about a mystery, make the characters put in an effort, and make them solving or not solving it matter. Especially don't put up the riddle and then make them stumble across the solution instead of finding it through their own effort.
Lastly, the comics just don't take the time to build up some form of mystery. Everytime a good, solid storyline starts putting up riddles, it's like the producers got over exited and couldn't wait for the end.
Now, just for fun, let's take a look at what is still, despite somewhat hating it, my favorite Arc, the Ludmoore one, and go through what I would have changed.
Firstly, I would have dumped Cedric off on earth an Arc early, and made him a suspect in that as well, maybe even leading to him being a reluctant ally, so the girls have already wrongfully accused him once. Let him off-handedly mention going to an old villa to salvage some books before it is torn down, but otherwise just partake in whatever story happens around him without showing any signs of a plan.
Now, when the actual element arc begins, keep the stuff about the eye watching them, but don't show if and how Cedric is involved in any of it. Maybe just let him mention some headaches or feeling unwell, but don't show his thoughts - leave it open whether it's an excuse or a genuine thing.
Then, when Matt is sucked in by the book, have Cedric tell them, like he did, that he warned him and Matt wouldn't listen. Have the girls be torn and maybe even fight over whether or not they should trust him.
Now the book starts spewing riddles, and only Cedric can understand them. Have him be cooperative, and let them all together find out Ludmoore was from Meridian and that he opened the portals. Maybe even let Cedric give out some of what he knows about the portals. Throw in some comments on how the elemental guardians work, and manipulate people, and have each riddle and guardian and stone be just a little more figured out by the girls themselves, and make the manipulation a bit more subtle. Definitely keep the switching patterns of who gets manipulated.
Finally, when they get to the book, let them put two and two together in there. The heart of Kandrakar is not the final stone from the legend - that final stone is the eye, and it has been controlling both Cedric and Ludmoore, maybe even one of them, the entire time, and has now moved on to Matt.
Now, I know this was less constructive, but I truly feel this is where w.i.t.c.h. massively falls short. I probably even missed half a dozen other reasons their mystery plot elements never worked for me. Feel free to add or disagree if you like!
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Can we please talk about the misfunction of the american brain? Sorry to be so rude here, but I simply don't get how they still back up Trump after everything he's messed up. I read some comments under a Nancy press conference the other day and man was I shocked at how mean and vile these comments were. You can basically click every YT Video with Nancy on the Thumbnail and have the same. The whole world is shaking their heads at Trump and they still follow his words and 'ideology'. For real wtf!
It's not just a misfunction of the American brain though - look at the UK, and how easily so many still back Boris Johnson, or at least his party and the whole concept of Brexit, despite now seeing the very real mess that it is, and that he has personally caused. The whole situation is complicated because there is no one answer as to why things are they way they are either side of the Atlantic, and in the American case there are certainly other factors at play that I don't think we can say are presently responsible for the UK's position.
Fundamentally you have two "leaders" who lied to advance an agenda that primarily benefited just them and their friends, and they packaged that lie by appealing to very base notions - nationalism, America First/Take Back Control- praying on fears and stoking ideas that "other" is dangerous, that "other" is taking jobs, and that "other" is the reason your life isn't good. It's no coincidence that both Trump and Johnson used immigrants as the bad guys, a target that appeals to the racism in two countries that have very dark histories featuring white surpremacy (slavery and empire), and who for some those histories still remain a source of pride rather than shame. The fact that the big lie has been revealed to be just that won't change followers opinions of them for two reasons. One, both Trump and Johnson have enabled racism and hateful language to come back out of the shadows, and it is going to take an extraordinary effort to push that back under its rock again. They empowered racism and hate rhetoric, and for some that alone is enough to remain as their supporters. And two, followers don't want to admit that they were wrong, or worse, that they were stupid enough to buy into the con - so they double down. It's a pride thing. Couple all this with the fact that government and civics are not taught, or at least aren't mandatory, in schools in either country, and you have a recipe for disaster. People who don't know how their actual government works, buying into the lies told to them by supposed leaders who know of that civics information gap and exploit it. As for Nancy Pelosi aspect, well that is a whole other thing - misogyny. We've seen it time and time again, with Nancy but one in a long list of women whose very existence triggers a section of society who a) don't think women should do anything but serve men, or b) who have been fed a bunch of lies about these women to the point that they have been demonised into some grotesque caricature (true of the far right and left) that is so far removed from the reality of what any human could be. You see it in the supposed art of Eli Valley on the far-left as well as pretty much every GOP ad. There seems to be a very specific thing in America whereby ambitious women aren't be to trusted, and it comes from the same sickening place that argues against a woman's right to choose. For this group, women should be controlled not be in control, so when someone like Nancy comes along (or Hillary, or Kamala), a women very much in control - of her life, her destiny, and with very real power to affect change across the country, naturally these puritanical assholes have an anuerism. I mean let's be honest, the same mentality that produced the Salem Witch Trials is still very much present in America today, particularly in evangelicalism. It's not about love of god, it's about love of an ideology that promotes the idea of women being chattels of men, and someone like Nancy is the very antithesis of that, and unapologetically so.
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nocherryblood · 3 years
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PLEASE REBLOG FOR AWARENESS- S*X BOTS:
So, only recently, in the past week I've been getting a lot (and a lot, for my blogs, is six) of random followers, and it was making me a little suspicious, so in the end I just decided to check everything out and see what was going on.
I mean, did a post of mine do really well or something? Did someone tag me a bunch of times? Did someone reblog something?
NO.
I checked who had followed me recently, and, low and behold, it was: bots! How great.
But what was even worse, was that these were s*x bots (I'm censoring some words to keep my blog somewhat safe). S*x bots.
So since I've seen a lot of these over the past few weeks, I've decided to put together a little of what I've found. It's nothing new- and it's pretty much common knowledge- but hopefully it might help a few people out (especially since I'm one of many people who try to keep their blog safe from harmful, or 18+ content) and maybe even help keep some people a little safer here on Tumblr
So, here we go:
PROFILE PICTURES AND USERNAMES:
First of all, check the pfps and usernames. Sometimes they'll be something like "d3rtyg1rl", but not always. Other times it'll be something like "sangdori" or "jpi011" (those are two real accounts that followed me, I've just changed one or two of the letters in them)- so something that sounds like a regular Tumblr account to tebe average user. So if the username checks out as 'normal', the next thing to look at, is the profile picture.
These, similar to the usernames, and all the other things I'm going to mention, may seem normal at first. Some of them may be fluffy kittens (a lot of them are "generic"), others may be a seemingly innocent selfie, a few of them are just blank Tumblr and some are just... straight-up 18+ photos. So be aware that not all of them are going to be easy to spot right away.
LIKES, FOLLOWS AND UPLOADS:
Right, so now we've come to the part where you've checked out the usernames and profile pics, and they both show no signs of anything sinister. Good- now, if you're still suspicious, it's time to check the actual account itself.
The first thing you might want to take a look at, is the content they've uploaded, or in some cases haven't uploaded, onto their blog. This is where things can get deceiving. Many of these accounts have just one "generic" post- such as slime, kittens, glitter, etc (usually these are eye-catching things, which means it can draw people, especially children, in)- immediately followed by some sort of sexual content underneath that, usually in the form of a nude photo or p*rn (some are obscured, though most aren't), which catches you off-guard, to say the least.
Now, as I said before, not all of these bot accounts are the same. Some don't have any uploaded content at all- this is where checking their Likes page comes in.
(And I'm aware that this may sound like we're stalking someone's account at this point, but trust me, we're not. We're just trying to keep ourselves safe- and these are not people, remember, they're bots. Bots don't care, bots don't have feelings. Bots don't care if we block them). So, back to the point, the next thing we check is the Likes pages.
Now, some of these pages will be purely 18+ content, as you would expect. Just straight-up p*rn links, or nude photos. But others, however, seem innocent at first... that is, until you scroll down the page. Usually, it's just liked photos of (again, the generic, and eye-catching stuff) some cute animals, a GIF of slime, or a popular meme, but if you scroll down a little further underneath that, you'll see that same innapropriate content all over again.
Though again, as with all the other things I've mentioned, some of these liked pages seem fine upon inspection, which is where we move onto the final thing to check if what you're seeing is a bot account: the following page.
To be quite simple... this is where you'll need to look at a bunch of accounts all over again... hooray! If you find that some of the accounts seem suspicious from just looking at the pfps and usernames, then great, that usually means you know that the account you were originally looking at is a bot account, and you can block them and be done with it (and even if you're not entirely sure, blocking them will keep you safe, and besides, it doesn't hurt anyone- believe me, your safety takes 100% priority over having that one extra follower).
But, if you can't tell just by looking at them, and you're still suspicious, and you don't want to just block the original account you were looking at... then this would be the time do all of the above again (checking likes, following pages, and content) just to make sure.
If you don't find anything else suspicious, then congratulations, it's probably not a bot account, and you don't have to worry about it. But again, if you ARE worried, then PLEASE do just block and/or report, the account. It's better to have one less follower, than be unsafe, or have to feel uncomfortable.
SO, I THINK IT'S A BOT ACCOUNT, NOW WHAT?
Now, if you've been through all of the above, and/or you're pretty sure that what you've seen is a bot account, then it's time to either block it, or report it.
To block an account, simply tap on the little 'human/person' icon in the top right of that specific account, and tap 'block' (note: this will only report them from one of your blogs. If you want to block them from another, or all of your blogs, you'll have to add them to the block list for taht specific blog). To report someone instead, just tap 'report'.
So, you might be wondering: what's the difference between reporting someone and blocking them?
Well, I'll tell you as best as I can. Blocking someone means:
They won’t be able to follow your blog, or send you fan mails or asks to your blog, and they won't be able to see your blog’s posts in their Dashboard. In addition to that, neither will they be able to like, reblog, or reply to your posts, and your blog won’t show up in their search results. It's a really good option.
They'll still be able to read your posts if they somehow come across them, but they can't interact/reblog them- at all. The only way people would even know you've blocked them is if they find that they get denied permission to interact with your blog- but remember, the chances of the finding out that youve blocked them is VERY slim, if it even happens at all (though remember we're talking about bots here though, not actual people, I just thought it would be useful information to include anyway).
Alright, so now onto reporting someone. Reporting someone means that:
The account will receive an email stating that they've posted banned content and must take it down. Tumblr will then still automatically take it down, and the account either gets suspended or deleted.
I would say that reporting the s*x bots would be the best thing you can do in this situation (you can still block them afterwards), seeing as the account will hopefully then be taken down (instead of just blocked on your blog) after being reviewed, which could help keep Tumblr at least a little safer once it does.
And just in case you were wondering: no-one will know if you've reported their account. The only way they'll know they've been reported (and they won't know who reported them) is if their content gets taken down or if their account is deleted- so don't worry about people accusing you of reporting them, as Tumblr keeps it anonymous anyway.
(Again, I've only added that part as useful information, seeing as s*x bots aren't real people and therefore won't care if they've been blocked or reported.)
There's more information about reporting and blocking people, along with Tumblr's policies and guidelines here, if you need it:
https://iheartmob.org/resources/safety_guides/tumblr_guide
Right... so I think that just about covers everything I wanted to say. If there's anything I've gotten wrong, or you think you could add on to, just drop a note or reblog this to help. After all, I don't know everything about these s*x bots, and just writing from my experience and what I've noticed about them. So help and/or additional information would be greatly appreciated.
I'm just fed up of seeing them everywhere and them making me think I've got a new follower who's actually interested in the blogs I make, when it's actually just a not trying to take me to some random p*rn website. It's wrong. So I just decided to write about my frustrations.
Now, Tumblr, if you could please sort your shit out, that'd be great, thank you very much, and we can all get on with our day.
If you've read this far, thank you very much for your time, and I hope I've managed to help you at least somewhat when it comes to dealing with these types of things in the future, or maybe just given you a little more awareness about how to stay safe on Tumblr, and other similar sites.
Anyway, I hope y'all have a wonderful day, and that you stay safe. Happy new year, too! 💛💙
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