I'm like so normal about the X Files. I'm so normal about it, I just watched Colony/End Game (s2 e16/e17) and like I am soooo normal about it. A bogey Samantha going straight for Mulder, aka the Saddest Boy Alive ("we knew you could be manipulated" he was Crying last scene and his dad seems like he sucks) and Scully and Mulder barely talking in Colony and then Mulder ditching Scully in End Game only for her to save him (in part thanks to Skinner flagrantly breaking FBI rules to back up Scully, I grow to love this man), and like I am sooooo normal about it and I do not keep rambling about it in the tags because I'm so normal about it
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Hi! I'm Decol!
TLDR: I can't work cuz I'm disabled meaning my trans gf is our family of 3's only income.
So to try and help bills, rent, and other needs get paid I set a daily goal of $25 to try raising through Tumblr.
Pls consider this mutual aid. I provide helpful, sourced posts for free on my own time. In return, all I ask is that you show appreciation by helping us meet our basic needs sometimes.
So whether you send something cuz you wanted to show appreciation or just because you want to help out by sending something our way thank you sfm. Reblogs are also acceptable and encouraged! Thank you!!
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Goal met tysm!!!
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Would you be willing to talk about the idea of 'psychopaths in real life'? I know you've written them but because there's so much messy pop culture around the idea of a psychopath I've never been sure of what about the idea of them is real. Are some people simply born wanting to hurt people? Or is it the result of early major trauma, or innate? I've met a lot of very cruel people but I think I'd say they probably weren't like that with select groups of people (their friends or family) rather than people they viewed as targets/unimportant/sinners/etc... Probably? I suppose I think of them more as emotionally sadistic than as fundamentally incapable of empathy. But maybe I just haven't met the right people, or known them well enough. Just an invitation to share your thoughts on the subject, if you're willing.
Are some people simply born wanting to hurt people? Or is it the result of early major trauma, or innate?
If you had an answer to this, anon, you'd have an answer to one of the greatest mysteries of psychology and sociology. The truth is, we just don't know for sure. There's a lot of good evidence on both sides, depending on who you're studying, which strongly suggests that sometimes it might be the first, sometimes it might be the second, and sometimes it's both.
But the reality is we don't know.
Scientists really, really want to find ways of detecting folks like this before some of them turn to extremely violent or cruel crimes, so obviously finding out the causative genetic and/or social factors is extremely important to them. It would save a lot of money re: governments for a start, so this is an area that's had bursts of funding over the years. But the reality is we're not really a great deal closer to figuring it out.
We do know that some folks genuinely seem to have had no social causative factors, and others folks genuinely seem to have been shaped by their upbringing. If you want to go into this there are hundreds of books and articles on the subject, and you'll very quickly see that no one is in agreement and we still have no solid early detection systems.
I've met a lot of very cruel people but I think I'd say they probably weren't like that with select groups of people (their friends or family) rather than people they viewed as targets/unimportant/sinners/etc… Probably?
The fact is, unless you were with them 24/7 you don't know how they were behaving with friends and family. In fact, this is how certain priests and cops get away with so much of what they do. There are priests who have been kind and compassionate to entire congregations and then gone on to rape 30/40 children in cruel ways that have led to many suicides, who feel zero shame or remorse and who very obviously just wanted access to children in a job that would give them community trust without having to earn it. That kindness and compassion is a performance to secure what you want.
Secondly, perhaps they were good with friends and family, so was Gacy. Many folks like this understand that they need to strategically set up networks of people who believe you to be kind etc. Being a psychopath doesn't mean you're stupid (although some are, varying intelligence levels exist), often these folks understand that to get away with doing what they truly want to do, there needs to be a cloak of 'I'm fine and normal and nice' around them. The ones who don't understand this tend to go to jail very quickly (or die very quickly due to the circumstances around their behaviours - being a psychopath is not a safe thing to be if you can't pair it with an ability to be selective).
But maybe I just haven't met the right people, or known them well enough.
I'm not going to talk about specific details of my past but I will say it's likely that you just haven't met someone on this level and/or have but are just not in their target zone because they might just be in the periphery of your experience.
Folks like Crielle exist in the world, for example, and sadly it's often more people than you'd expect. But some of those people are also incredibly intelligent and manipulative. They often operate on a level different to most of us.
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My muses' first reaction to falling in love:
This is the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I need to die: Lyney, Heizou, Subject Two, Sethos, Toma, Lewin, Langris, Rhya, Nikolai, Ango, Eric, Devit, A, Tobias, Aventurine, Yeong-gi, Soma, Naotora, Aijiro, Mikito, Gear, Lawless
I'm anxious but glad about it: ? Lmfaooo
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These last two weeks:
Found out *during* the conference I was traveling for that my application for university funding had been canceled bc our department finance guy failed to approve it in the system.
A pipe broke above my apartment while I was traveling, causing water to flood into my bedroom, opening a hellmouth in the ceiling and destroying my bed, among other things. My apartment is now uninhabitable, I'm stuck in a mire of insurance claims/ living in temporary housing. Won't be able to move back in until probably the end of July.
Don't wanna get into the specifics here, but the three-week trip I went on was, on a number of levels, a personal disaster.
The startup disk in my laptop has somehow become corrupted, and now the hard drive seems to have disappeared (???), so I am just crossing my fingers at this point that I haven't lost everything. Hopefully will find out better news tomorrow when I bring it to the Apple Store (since I cannot currently log in to set an appointment or get tech support, as my apple ID password is saved only on my currently-unusable laptop).
My cat has been throwing up non-stop for the last 24 hours.
I am not sure what lesson(s) the universe is trying to offer here, but at this point I feel a genuine sense of hostility from it.
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SW reading list timeeeeeeee
Currently reading-need to finish:
-The High Republic: Into the Dark (listening to the audiobook)
-Star Wars: Republic (6 issues left)
-Canon Star Wars post ANH comics (finished the Vader run, but only 25 issues in with the main one)
Want to read/on my list/reading once I finish the ones I'm currently reading:
-Shatterpoint
-Dark Times & Other post-ROTS Legends/EU comics (whatever the Purge oneshots are, some of the Vader series that exist, and anything I'll see that intrests me in the Legends media timeline)
-The High Republic: A Test of Courage
-Queen's Peril
-Jedi Trial (if it can be read outside of the other books' context)
-The High Republic Adventures vol 1 (there's books inbetween issues god help me)
-Canon Star Wars comics from ESB-ROTJ (they're still coming out)
-Rest of THR phase 1 books and such
-The Cestus Deception (note for Jedi Trial applies here too)
-Yoda: Dark Rendezvous (note for Jedi Trial applies here too)
-Queen's Hope
-Catalyst
-Rebel Rising
-Darth Vader (2017) & the parts from SW (2015) that are scattered across the timeline
And to watch somewhere somehow somewhen when I finish some of these:
-Rogue One (need to read Catalyst & Rebel Rising first)
-The Bad Batch (for Hera and for the knowledge mostly)
Meanwhile will be rewatching Rebels nad potentially some of TCW with my little sister (she's watching them for the first time) who doesn't know English so we're watching the dubbed version and I'm gonna be in hell when Thrawn shows up and it's not Lars's voice (probably gonna watch TBB with her, we're also watching Ahsoka as it comes out together it's fun)
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