#cal euphoria

[euphoriashots]

Euphoria - Cal & Jules and Nate & Cassie

[midnight-sally]

Rue Bennett, Euphoria, Season 1 Episode 7 "The Trials and Tribulations of Trying to Pee While Depressed"

[zendayastan]

Favorite episode 🪽

[supfag]

DOMINANT DADDY EUPHORIA (1.01)

[heylolita00]

Euphoria cast

[operationandre]

and if i say these three are triplets…

[justapotato89]

Euphoria isn't real. It's not meant to be logical.

It's the intrusive thought you have on your first whiff of cigarette. The flashbacks on how you promised that you'd never touch one because everyone told you how bad they were. The cinematic breaking of the promise which you're convinced starts you on a journey of drugs and alcohol. Rue is the dream you have that same night, family broken apart due to one whiff. It's how you convince yourself your first love is your true love. After reading so many stories about highschool heartbreak, and so many people with their blogs and videos and "funny" stories about highschool breakups, you still try to convince yourself its worth it. You're still unforgiving, you're still yourself, you still have control. You could break it off. You're Maddy. But you don't need to because you love them, and they love you. And that's why you're Maddy.

It's when you find yourself seeking comfort with how someone looks at you. How they play with your hair. How you keep your hair so they can play with it. How you wear short sleeves so they rest their palm on your elbow. It's the way you dress yourself for them, after watching feminist videos and podcasts and articles, how you still put your eyeliner on so you look pretty. Cassie is what the world has convinced you you are. If you choose the flowery top instead of a comfy tshirt, you're pretty much just batting your eyelashes at them and taking 4 hours every morning to get ready no?

It's when you think you're so fucked up no one will ever get you. It's when you think you're defined by your intrusive thoughts, its as bad as doing them. Everyone loves you, but it's so complex in your head and back home. You don't like them. Frankly, you think they're not worthy to be liked by you. You think you're not worthy to be liked by yourself. Nate is when you wish you had blackmail over that one bitch, when you thought it'd just be easy to be a fucking asshole.

You're not those. But this show is about the fact that even if you were those, life wouldn't be over. You could make the worst fucking decisions, do the worst things in your life, and it'd still go on. Maybe you'd make more worse decisions, maybe you'll make one good one.

It's the stories that you make up in your head, how you'd be if no one taught you to control your life. How it'd be if everyone left your life to your own hands from a young age. How you'd push you and the world would push you until your back was to the wall.

But the wall is so much further. You're not even halfway there. The wall you have set up is much, much nearer. And you're gonna be absolutely fine.

It's about how the world feels when you're young. How debilitating and life ruining every small wrong decision feels. Every thought feels. How ecstatic, euphoric, every success feels. How it feels to have a body that's against you, a mind that wants to free itself of its body. It's about the extremes, it's about the stories.

Now you smoke 3 cigarettes a week. You talk about hating your coworkers. You buy pretty cocktail dresses for bars, for people you don't know and frankly don't like. How you convince yourself every love is real love to just feel like what it is to love. And maybe be loved. Possibly. Hopefully.

3 cigarettes is nothing compared to that first whiff. You don't feel it, till you look back inside your diary. That's nostalgia. That's stupidity. That's over-exaggeration. That's love. That's plot. That's the space between your thoughts and the real world. That's your story. That's the liminal world, fully furnished with imaginations. That's euphoria.

[blueribbonbaby]

Euphoria behind the scenes photos

[euphoriashots]

Euphoria - Fezco, Lexi, Ashtray & Cal

[midnight-sally]

Rue Bennett, Euphoria, Season 1 Episode 7 "The Trials and Tribulations of Trying to Pee While Depressed"

[marsingtonn]

HAIRCUTTT

[thisssees]

Nate Jacobs is not gay. He is not a closeted gay man, and the people who think that he is, has missed the point of his character.

His trauma of watching his dad has turned into disgust at the very thought of being gay. We see how extreme his needs for a woman’s appearance has to be for him to admit attraction.

Then, we have Jules, who in season 1 is the most feminine character on the show. She checks of every point of his list, and we know he feels some sort of attraction toward her.

Could he be bisexual? Definitely, and I find that to be very much possible, but he is not gay. He is attracted to Jules, who is a woman.

He is scared, to the point of hurting himself and others, to admit that he could be even the smallest bit like his dad.

If I would go even further than that and armchair diagnose him, I would say he had HOCD. Which stands for Homosexual Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, where a person is essentially to afraid of being or becoming gay (even if that person never felt attracted to someone of the same sex before the intrusive thoughts developed) to the point that they could hurt themselves because of their thoughts, and have rigorous types of compulsions.

This type of OCD (it is not only about being gay, some are ex, deeply afraid that they are attracted to children, even though they are not) is not always consistent with compulsive behavior to the same degree as the more commonly known one.

It’s more consistent with isolation, hurting themselves and avoiding any type of contact with the object/s of the intrusive thoughts. As Nate does by absolutely refusing to look at another penis in the locker room, because he is simply so afraid that he will be attracted to the sight.

It is also worth nothing that he has very compulsive behavior, especially when it comes to his training, that is also rooted in his father.

Honestly, Nate Jacobs is an incredible character, and I’m tired of people being so blinded by their disgust at his actions to see how well developed he is, especially in season 1.

He is, in my opinion, one of the better representations of a character who went through sexual trauma and abuse as a child. This does not mean that he is a representation of every person that has been abused as a child, but he is a great example of how a person might become, especially if they are under control of the source of the abuse.

There are so many small things to notice as well. Like his apparent disgust at his mother, where a lot of people say it’s only misogyny. I do think that plays a part in him looking down on her, but not in his genuine resentment.

He think she is weak, and only goes along with what his father says.

Further on his mom, we see her explain how he was a sweet, and actually very empathetic as a child. Then, something changed, and even as a child that was seen clearly. A sudden change in behavior, in the way she tells us Nate did, is actually extremely common in abused children.

His reaction when he saw his dad on top of him in the mirror is also such a great scene, and telling of his mental state. He is so afraid of the thought of what his dad will do, or perhaps not even that, but so haunted by the memories that he is willing to put his well being at great risk through harm.

I also don’t think people understand the gravity of his reaction, and what it tells us about his relationship with his father.

What he did was so harmful he could have put his very life at risk. He is 6’5 and made of muscle, and used all his force to beat the back of his head to the floor, which could have become fatal. At the very least, a severe concussion.

What does Cal do? What does he do when his son puts his well-being, and even life at risk? He locks himself away and ignores it. A good parent would have called 911, and Nate, in my opinion, would have been admitted on a 72 hour hold due to putting his life at risk.

Cal cared more about his feelings, his shame, and his image to actually prioritize his son’s health and well being. He knows he is to blame, but he refuses to help him.

[kodaandalko]

Too rel

[sydneymykah]

*Euphoria spoilers-ish*

I seen somebody write as a joke they should’ve called it “Pain and Agony” cuz ain’t no euphoria in this show at all. Which is funny but I do think there’s a lot of people who don’t realize that the show is called euphoria because (majority of) the main cast have addictive personalities and have a certain trait that leans into self destructive tendencies. They usually go after things for immediate satisfaction that never lasts long or isn’t good for them. (Especially in the 1st season) Rue being the main character showing us this through her literal drug addiction and the other side/main characters showing us through other bad habits that give them immediate satisfaction. Giving them a state of Euphoria but at the expense of these characters mental health, well being, and safety.

Rue with her drug use and dependence on Jules

Jules with her hyper sexualizing her femininity to feel desired and feminine

Maddy with her toxic relationship with Nate and with her idea of love in general

Nate with his overcompensation to be perceived as a man

Cal having secret affairs to hide his sexuality from his family and community

Kat with her using sex/sex work as a way to feel confident and desirable

Cassie with changing herself, using sex, and how she’s sexualized to feel loved and wanted by men

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[manicpixiefelix]

okay so i've started watching Euphoria with my girlfriend (unfortunate for us since its trash) HOWEVER we have been coming up with an absolutely unhinged Saltburn crossover AU (we're only halfway through s1 so bare with me).

It's 2019. Saltburn's canon happened 12 years ago.

Guidance Councillor Farleigh, back in America, in his early 30s, having to deal with everything that's happening at that fucking high school

absolutely winded to meet this kid who's just like eighteen different problems in the shape of his dead cousin (Nate)

also hates this kid (for obvious reasons) but can't say that (because he's a guidance councillor)

Nate doesn't want to be seeing him but has to because he's being made to for various reasons

Farleigh makes a call to Oliver (again, twelve years since that summer at Saltburn)

In this version, Elspeth gives Oliver the estate and passes 10 years after that summer, so Oliver's been dancing naked and fucked up on coke and unprocessed grief and misplaced triumph for 2 years already.

Farleigh, knowing fully that both Nate and Oliver are unhinged and that Nate is probably just as capable of murder as Oliver is if pushed to it, knows this will go badly.

Either Oliver will take care of his Nate problem, or Nate will take care of his Oliver problem. Either way it's a win for Farleigh.

Except Oliver chooses the Secret Third Option and seduces Cal Jacobs (Nate's Dad) which for Farleigh is the nightmare scenario.

The worst part is that he has to act like he didn't orchestrate this situation.

Nate, furious in one of his sessions: - and this GUY who keeps HANGING AROUND MY FUCKING HOUSE keeps calling me FELIX even though I've fucking TOLD HIM NOT TO!

Farleigh, who knows exactly why Oliver Quick is calling him Felix and can't tell Nate why, and is also In His Own Personal Hell: Yeah That Sucks I Wonder Why He Does That, That's So Weird.

Oliver, because he's a little freak of a man who's still obsessed with Felix Catton and the Catton family has even more misplaced triumph because he's twisted it around in his head so he now has this idea that he's symbolically conquered all of Felix's immediate family (Cal taking the place of James who managed to "escape" him)

not sure what happens in the middle, but I do believe Maddy could take Oliver in a fight, and I also think she should be the one to kill him.

I think she and Farleigh are bros (in the way that you can be buddies with certain teachers) and he reassures her and helps her cover it up and get away with it.

thanks i hate it here 👍(<- said by me, my girlfriend, and probably farleigh too)

[justapotato89]

There's something about euphoria that feels like you're fading in and out of a hallucination. There are parts where it feels so painfully real and grounded and other times it feels like it's a fever dream, it's out of your reach, it's so "stereotypical". I could never imagine dressed like half the characters in the show, having access to a gun in my house, or staying out more than half the night during high school. They fit into the, "dramatising the teenage life to show off the broad spectrum of emotions" thing that people usually talk about when talking about Levinson's way of writing and directing the show.

And yet the flashbacks of Maddy being forced to give up her dream for something not related to her, Nate being forced to assume an appearance of extreme masculinity to protect someone close to him, Kat forever being outcast when she was a kid, waiting on the sidelines purely for her appearance, Cassie seeking male validation for her body because of her father and the way she was sexualised all the time, it hits you with a dull thud when you first come to know of it. And then from then on, every single time you can justify some hallucinatory, seemingly impossible and extreme action of theirs it almost pierces through you because of the knife-like quality of the shock.

Nate gave his dad up to the police because he was tired of protecting him. He did it with a gun hand, and an USB of extremely compromising videos in other. And to the audience, (atleast for me) the air thickens putting some space between them and the "i could never??? A gun???" nature of the action.

Then, he looks back at his dad who stands with his hands behind his head, with an almost elegiac look for what never was, a scared little boy mourning for his father, for their relationship which never could be, and suddenly that the gap ceases to exist with an inward rush of vacuum, pushing the detached audience head first into the ocean of overwhelming empathy and connection. Every moment Elordi's character stays there, the intense fluid highlights on his eyes, hand unwilling to pull, the audience is pushed further and further, drowned into that feeling, almost bordering on suffocation.

There's a space between real and not, and that's where euphoria exists for me. The naming is quite apt, because euphoria, the feeling itself, is real and reachable, but when you reach it, its impossible to realise you're manic. And when you don't, it's impossible to think of something that can even close in on a feeling like that. Hence, it's so hard to anchor that feeling down, it passes by between breaths. I'm pretty sure Nate will go back to being an asshole for most of the time in S3, abusive, manipulative, and yet that brief window of vulnerability really drives you insane. Makes it seem so real. Gives the show almost a liminal quality for me. Which is again, quite apt, since they're at the liminal period between childhood and adulthood.

What I suppose I'm trying to say is, it's so real because it ceases to be so. It's paradoxical, illogical but filled with overthinking characters, characters who are observant yet fail to observe the most basic of signals, characters who are unempathetic but the most suffering. This juxtaposition at the heart of adolescence which is adapted into the driving force of the show is what makes it so fucking real.