#cas is the love of deans life yall

[nayeliq1]

June 12th, prompt: Adventure

Grey has overtaken Dean's hair.

His skin has gone soft and wrinkly, his knees crack every time he crouches down, his steps have become slower, his arms weaker.

But that's okay, that's just what old age is like. He's just lucky he gets to experience it at all, and with Cas by his side - equally grey, equally wrinkly. Getting old really isn't all that bad when you get to watch the love of your life doing it alongside you.

Today, Jack has told them. Dean had known it was coming, it's alright.

"You ready?", Dean asks that night, a wrinkly hand searching for Cas' under the blanket.

"Yes." Cas squeezes his fingers, smiling calmly. And despite the lump in his throat, Dean isn't afraid, and he knows neither is Cas. "I've been ready for some time."

"I know, sweetheart."

"Are you scared?"

Dean's heart is beating a little too fast, but he shakes his head.

"Not really", he says truthfully. "Bit nervous, maybe. But hey, that's what imminent death will do to ya."

"It'll be fine, Dean." Cas pulls Dean's hand to his lips, presses a kiss to skin marked by age spots. "We'll be together in the Heaven our son built for us. If you know it's not the end, death is nothing but the next great adventure."

Cas is right, of course.

"And I can't wait to go on that adventure with you."

"See you soon", Cas smiles right before they close their eyes. "I love you."

"Love you, too."

Dean falls asleep with a feeling of peacefulness filling his whole body, and when he opens his eyes again, their bedroom is gone. He stands on a bridge surrounded by forest, body young and strong. Baby is there, but he doesn’t get in. He waits.

There's a shift in the breeze, a presence in his back.

"Hello, Dean."

And Dean smiles.

Let the adventure begin.  

For @starcrosseddeancas Dreamy Drabbles

[sunshine-on-marz]

Just a Little Jealous

Dean Winchester x reader

This is inspired by the amazingly talented @via-l0ve ‘s French Mistake headcanons that I definitely recommend you read and drop a follow while you’re at it! Via is so unbelievably sweet and I’m so honored to have permission to build off of her work!

Divider by @ cafekitsune

You and Castiel had been studying lore in the bunker while Dean and Sam were on a hunt. You were expecting the normal routine when the boys got home, so when you heard the door unlock, you weren’t expecting Dean to be hugging you before you could even get to the staircase. “Hi baby, what’s going on?” You ask softly as he peppers you with kisses, Sam just chuckles but he’s also clearly a little frazzled. “You’ll never believe that just happened” Dean mutters into your hair as he kisses the top of your head. “Try us” you smile as you gesture to yourself and Cas, Dean just glares at the angel.

“Y/N!” Dead said, exasperated

The actor looks up, “Jensen?” They say, clearly confused. Dean’s shoulders slump as he sighs “y-yea, right, sorry” he says, rubbing his temple as he looks back up to see Cas- Misha. To see Misha walking over, then kissing you. Or not you, but you. “Oh hell” Dean mutters

After explaining you just sigh and pull Dean into a hug. “Well, for one, I will not be kissing Castiel. And for two, my actor person must be really dumb to pass on the chance to do this” you say, and Dean looks a bit confused until you pull him into a deep, long kiss. One that makes Castiel look away and Sam fake gag. Dean has a big smile on his face as you pull away. “What do I gotta do to get kissed like that more?” He teases, you smirk “apparently get jealous more” Dean gasps “I was not jealous!” He says definitely, you and Sam both scoff “you literally threatened Cas’ life like eight times on the drive home” Sam says. “Okay maybe I was just a little jealous, but in my defense Y/N KISSED CAS.” He says, making everyone laugh a bit. You smile up at him “not as hard as I just kissed you I hope” Dean nods in acknowledgment “not as hard as you just kissed me” he says as he throws his arm around you. “Yea and if you ever do that infront of me again I’ll vomit” Sam chimes in, Dean flips him off. “Is no one worried about this other world?” Cas asks. “I’m less worried now that you aren’t locking lips with y/n” Dean comments, you and Cas both sigh. This was gonna be quite an experience.

Laying awake at night as Dean clings to your side, one hand playing with your hair and the other wrapped tightly around your waist wasn’t very uncommon, and it wasn’t shocking that it happened tonight. “You alright?” You kiss the top of his head where it rests on your shoulder. “All good” he mumbles, you both know it’s a lie, but you also know that pushing for information won’t help anyone right now. “We can talk tomorrow, yea?” You whisper, he smiles up at you and nods.

Maybe he’d been more than just a little jealous

I HOPE YALL LIKED THISSSS and I’m so so so honored to have Via’s permission to write this!!!

I think it turned out well but I’d love to hear your feedback! Remember to reblog and maybe even add a comment for me! I love yall

[ijustwantaspnnamepls]

I need to I need to rant about this friggen spn finale. And not because of the finale-- but because of the fandom. Ya’ll are killing me.

Why does everyone seem so surprised that this show ended with Sam and Dean? This show has always been about the two of them-- It started with them, it makes sense that it would end with them-- and the whole friggen middle was about them, too. Were Cas and Jack a huge part? Yes. Obviously. But everyone in the show acknowledged that if push came to shove the brothers would always choose each other over the world. The whole ordeal with Chuck only proved that-- they only sacrificed each other after the had sacrificed the world-- they had nothing left to give up but their relationship. Thats the only reason they offered it.

Also-- no offence, this show has always, always prioritized platonic love over romantic? If Destiel became canon, Castiel would have died within the next episode or so because that's what happens to all the love interests ever. And this is also my problem with wincest-- it would have never been romantic. The main emotions of this show have never been romantic. The only time they ever were was with Jess and she literally died in the first episode.

Also also, their endings were very fitting? Deans happy ending was to live his life with Sam, and he did. Sam’s happy ending was to live a normal life. He did. And in the end, they both were together in Heaven. (not as soul mates, because jack ripped down the walls and stuff buts thats a diff discussion) This is the only way they would have both managed to get their happy ending, and be together in the end.

Obviously, the finale had its problems. But yall are acting like this finale was the worst thing in the world. Like they completely uprooted the whole point of the show. Chill. Thats not the problem with it. Its like, the opposite-- Cass is with Jack, Dean is with Sam, everybody’s happy. I love vanilla but this is like, the classic metaphoric vanilla ending.

The whole relationship between the brothers is Sam learning to Prioritize Dean’s form of love-- his co-dependency and over protectiveness, while Dean learns to respect Sam’s form of love, a little more independent and based on trust. Instead they both get their form of love, instead of giving it up to show that they love each other more than they love their... love. I hope that made sense.

Thus, they both get what they want and don’t have to give up a part of themselves for each other. Its too much cake.

Regardless, it was still a fairy tale level of happy endings.

Edit: this whole last part I added like two seconds after I posted sorry

There was literally no other way to end the show, and adding a secondary relationship, like cas and/or jack would have taken away from the fact that the show has always been about them. The only time they came close to introducing a secondary relationship was when they showed Bobby, but even then he was just there to explain the perfectness of haven. He was a good character choice for that role because he was important to Dean, but that role wasn’t created because of his importance to Dean.

I keep reading posts about how the theme was found family-- also lies. This show was never about Found family or real family-- It’s A Terrible Life (Dean Smith and Sam Wesson ep) shows us that its not about how they’re related by blood-- it’s just because they’re Sam and Dean. Sam and Dean choose each other over their parents too. Blood has nothing to do with it. Cass and Jack show that it’s not about found Family. because they choose each other over that too. and Adam shows us it’s not about brotherly love.

So in the end, obviously it was going to end with Sam and Dean. Other than Bobby and like, child dean, no one else is in the episode. Because it’s not about romance, and its not about family, it’s about Sam and Dean. It’s always been about Sam and Dean. When did people lose sight of this?

[stars-space-and-sleep]

Ok random spn rant:

Im rewatching spn s15 E18...ya know THE episode and i just had a thought....when Billie tries to kill Dean his heart acts up, it's failing. It reminds me of S1 E12 Faith in which Dean's heart is failing. The episode where they first meet a reaper, the episode Dean's faith, or rather his lack of faith in God is brought up, this is his first escaping death. He should have died there, and maybe Billie chose to stop his heart on purpose bc of this. And we see Dean again with no faith in God, with no faith in living that he begs Cas to try to save himself. Leave him, let him die. While Dean never had faith in God, he had faith in his family and we see him lose that in those few moments, but he holds on to his faith that he can save his family.

Maybe he was always going to die, maybe he cheated death to many times, but he was able to keep his family alive as long as he could. And that's his final dying wish, to keep Cas alive. Billie wants Dean dead, not Cas. Dean has lost faith in beating God, lost faith in beating Billie, in saving everyone he cares for, but he can save his loved one once more.

And then Cas takes Dean's broken and faith and restores it for about 0.2 seconds. Cas restored Dean's faith before, after meeting Cas, Dean prays. Sure he stumbles, but even in the middle of fights, Dean still puts his faith in Cas. And so instead of dying, Dean is saved, saved by an angel, HIS angel. Dean's faith in Cas is rewarded one last time and this time Dean holds onto it. We see in the next episode as they fight Chuck, Dean chooses kindness, chooses to rise above his anger, he chooses his faith in Cas, in Cas' sacrifice.

As he lays dying in a barn, he chooses his faith in Cas. His faith that Cas didn't waste his life on Dean, that Dean was able to do good. He restored the world, he saved their son, he saved his family. He could rest finally knowing that it would all be ok.

In the end Dean and Cas had faith in each other, for Dean in Cas' choices, his choice have faith in Dean. In Cas, his faith that Dean would do the right thing, that he was good and would fix everything.

Idk yall random tanget and half thoughts

[thecryptcatt]

Sewing is awful.

I've never sewed (I hope that's the correct term) in my life, and I decided to give it a shot. Sewing by hand is time consuming, but I've gotten the hang of it... Using a sewing machine is very different. I made the world's worst bow tie for my dog, Sookie...

The Doctor would be disappointed.

But, I did manage to make something.

His name is Dean, and he's a little cream-colored squirrel- complete with the freckles. I thought it was a fitting name, seeing as it's a squirrel (and because Sookie is often called a hellhound). She's been in love with the little guy since I started making him. I got to see the excitement in her eyes while she watched me make him :3

I'm really enjoying the whole stuffie making thing, and I'm debating whether to make the rest of the supernatural crew: Sammy, Cas, Jack, and maybe even Crowley and Gabe. It'll take me absolutely forever, but I think it's worth it for the gag, and for the dog.

Other than that, I don't have much else going on. It's nice to finally be home and in my own space, even if that space is shared with my sister. My parents are snappy, as expected. I don't think anythings changed in the time I've been gone.

I decided to FINALLY sit down and finish work on my art final, which took absolutely freaking forever. Don't ask for the meaning or symbolism though. My lizard brain just thought PEGIN and that's what I did!! It's A2 in size I think, and it took about a month?? I honestly can't remember.

Tomorrow I get to see my girlfriend, and I am so excited... But also nervous. She isn't out to her mom yet, and so I can't introduce myself as her girlfriend. I love her with all my heart, and I know she's the girl I'm gonna marry. It's just gonna be a challenge to make sure I stay "platonic" when her mom's around. Oh boy.

I'll most likely update tomorrow evening again, or whenever something big happens. Whatever mental or psychological illness I have is giving me all kinds of memory loss, and I think that maybe journalling here can help me better remember the important things.

Anywho, goodnight yall ♡

[ash-winchester]

First Attempt at a Fanfic. Please let me know what yall think.

“Don’t you think it’s time boys? The sweet release of death?” Billie hisses with a coy smile, running her scythe down the wall as she calmly chases Castiel and Dean through the Bunker. They were never out of her sight for too long, not since they left Death's Library.

Castiel pulls Dean into a storage room in the basement, helping Dean lean against one of the shelves before digging in Dean's pocket for his knife. Finding it, the angel cuts his palm and starts drawing warding on the door.

As Billie approaches the door, the warding glows a deep red, signifying that it was completed.

Castiel turns to Dean as he asks, “Did it work?”

Dean nods silently, standing straighter as the pain subsides. He turns and looks at Cas, a pained smile in his face.

Castiel lets out a sigh of relief, but it's short lived as Billie starts banging on the door.

“Will…. Will it hold?” Dean asks Castiel, turning to stare at the door. He had squared his shoulder, preparing for a fight.

Castiel nods. “It will hold for a short period of time.... but it will not hold for long.” He says, moving so Dean would turn to look at him. “And once it stops holding, we will fight."

“This is all my fault.” Dean says quietly, shaking his head. “I couldn’t hurt Chuck, so I led us into another trap. I n-needed something to kill because it is all I know how to do. And now everyone is going to die and....and I can’t stop it. She's going to break through that warding and kill you. A-and then she's gonna kill me.”

Dean looks up to Cas' eyes, his own eyes filling up with tears. “And no one can stop her.”

Castiel goes to speak when he blinks, a memory making itself known. A last resort of ideas. “There is…. There is one thing that can beat her. One thing that she is afraid of.” He takes a deep breath. “I made a deal with The Empty in order to bring Jack back.”

Dean stares at Castiel, his eyes wide in disbelief. “You... made a what?”

“The deal was my life for Jack's,” Cas explains. “When I finally experience true happiness, the empty will come and take me forever.”

Dean shakes his head “Why…. Cas, why are you telling me this now?”

“I always wondered, ever since I took that burden, that curse, I wondered what it could be? What my true happiness could even look like.” Castiel looks at Dean with a fondness that Dean has rarely seen. “I… never found an answer, because the one thing I want... It's something I know I can't have. But I think I know... I think I know now. Happiness isn't having, it's being. It's in just saying it.” Cas says, his own eyes start tearing up.

Dean looks at Cas. “What are you talking about, Cas?” he says, his voice filled with desperation as he tried to piece together Cas' words. But he knew exactly what Cas was saying.

“I know how you see yourself Dean.” Cas continues. “‘You are destructive, angry, broken. You are simply ‘Daddy’s blunt instrument’ and that you think it’s the anger and hate that drives you, that… that’s who you are.’” He swallows hard as he fights back his tears.

“But it’s not, and everyone who knows you sees it. Everything you have done- the good and the bad- you have done for love. You raised your brother for love. You fight for the entire world for the sake of love. That is who you truly are.”

Dean's face looks like it's struggling to hold back all emotion, not wanting to lose Cas.

“You are the most caring, selfless, loving human being that I will ever know. Ever since I met you, you have been changing me. Because of you, I cared about you. About Sam and Jack. I cared about the whole world because of you.”

Dean's despair crashes over him as a tear finally falls down Cas' face, crashing on the floor.

“You have changed me Dean.” The angel finishes.

“Why does this sound like a goodbye?” Dean asks quietly, his voice wrecked beyond repair. There was nothing to fix the pain he felt. The one person who said they would never leave… was finally leaving him. For good.

“Because, it is.” Castiel admits, tears falling freely now.

He takes in a shaky breath as he smiles widely. “I love you, Dean Winchester.” Cas says, watching the Empty start to ooze into the room as the door behind him breaks down.

“Cas-” Dean starts saying, opening his mouth to continue and keep Castiel here. However, he stops when Cas places his hand on his shoulder, over the brand he had made those many years ago when he pulled the righteous man from hell. Dean's words catch in his throat, choking softly as his eyes become watery with tears.

“Goodbye, Dean.” Cas says, pushing Dean to the wall as the Empty takes Billie. Dean tumbles to the floor, his mind heavy with Cas' words as he watches the angel. No. His angel. Castiel.

Castiel smiles as the Empty wraps its tendrils around him and sucks him into the darkness.

Dean sits up, in shock as he runs his hands through his hair and the tears in his eyes finally fall. “I never got to say it back.” He finally whispers to the silent room.

Sam and Jack arrive back at the bunker a few hours later, the building silent and still. Dean hasn’t moved from the basement.

“DEAN!” Sam screams, hoping his brother is still here.

Dean stands slowly, heading upstairs to the Library where his brother and Jack were.

Jack looks at Dean as he enters the room, his head tilted slightly in a similar way Cas would have.“Where... is Castiel?” He asks, looking behind him. Jack was expecting Cas to be coming up right behind him.

Dean shakes his head. “I lost him. That damn son of a bitch sacrificed himself for me.” He says quietly, his voice sounding pained.

Sam pats Dean’s back. “I lost Eileen…” He says softly, “...and Gabriel.”

“This....This is different." Dean shakes his head. "You got to tell her that you loved her. I didn’t tell him ANYTHING!” He screams before storming off to his room, slamming the door behind him.

Jack tries to go after Dean, but Sam puts his arm out to stop his action.

“He needs some space, Jack. That is what we will give him.” Sam says softly, looking at the kid with a sad smile and a nod.

Jack frowns but nods back, following Sam into the library as they search for a way to bring everyone back.

Dean sits in his room, taking his phone out of his pocket. His head races as he stares at the screen, pressing a button and putting it to his ear.

“Hello Dean.” Cas’ voice says through the phone's speaker. “I noticed we were running low on food in the bunker, so I went on a supply run. I purchased beer and some pie for you. They were out at the store we normally go to… so I had to go a bit further than usual, but I didn’t forget the pie this time.”

“End of Current Message.” The automated voice says. Dean presses another button, his jaw clenched hard as tears fill his eyes.

“Hello, Dean. I think I found a case for you and Sam. There seems to be victims missing their hearts in Dodge City. I know you’re probably excited, after all, I know how much you love cowboys.” Dean smiles when Cas chuckles in the recording. “I will meet you there, and I will be sure to bring the hat you bought for me last time. Oh and, I still have my badge. After all, I’m your huckleberry.”

“End of Message.”

Dean brings his knees to his chest, trying his best to hold back his tears. “Dammit, Cas. Why do you have to be so damn selfless? Why did you- why did you have to go sacrificing yourself?” He says softly into the empty room. He takes off his jacket, running his fingers gently along Cas’ bloody handprint. He lays his hand over the dried print on the shoulder before placing it gently on the chair in his room. The same chair that Cas has sat in so many times before.

Dean continues to listen to Cas’ messages as he lies in bed, listening to him talk about more hunts as well as the supply runs he ran. Dean feels a smile on his face when he hears Cas tell him about a case he just did. Defeating a vampire nest.

Then, without a thought, Dean dials up Cas’ number.

“This is my voicemail. Make your voice…a mail.” Dean can’t help but chuckle softly, the sound broken as it leaves his throat.

His battery continues to dwindle as the night creeps on, but Dean finally reaches the voicemail he saved for last.

“Sorry for being gone for so long, I am sure you must have been worried. I am fine though. I’m coming home. See you soon Dean.” Castiel’s gravelly voice says through the phone, before the phone dies and goes dark.

Dean’s eyes slowly close, tears falling onto his bed as he curls up and falls asleep, dreaming of a man with electrifying blue eyes wrapping him up in an embrace he would never feel again.

The next night, Dean sits at the table in the library, his computer open as he drinks beer after whiskey. He watches Cas’ love confession, tears streaming silently down his face as he remembers it all.

With hesitation, the hunter takes out his pocket knife- the one Cas had used to protect him from Billie- and starts carving the word "Cas" into the table next to their initials. However, once he reaches the "s", he can’t stop because that means it’s really over. That Cas was… really gone.

So he keeps carving until Cas' name is finished, tracing it lightly with his fingers. He doesn't know he held his breath until after his fingers traced across the indented wood.

“Castiel…” He whispers. “Please... come back to me.”

A few days on the road later, Sam runs inside an abandoned diner to grab some food while Dean waits outside.

Dean wasn't looking for him, but it was as if a Miracle that Dean spotted a dog sitting nearby. He smiles for the first time since Cas sacrificed himself, but it's quick-lived. His smile was bright, only for it to fade when Chuck snaps his fingers again, standing in the fields nearby with a cruel smile.

Time passes once more, just Sam and Dean on the road. Nothing but open road ahead of them.

When they finally confront Chuck, Dean grabs him by the lapels, pushing him against the construction sign nearby saying, “We’ll do it!”

Sam stands a few steps away as Dean growls, “You want the whole Cain and Abel thing? You've got it, but first you have to bring everyone back. Bring Cas back.”

Chuck laughs, removing Dean's hands from him. “Why would I do that? 'Bring Cas back'. This is such a better punishment for you two. You Winchester's have given up everything to protect this world only for it to slip right...through...your fingers." Chuck says with a wicked smile. “So, why would I give you reprieve from this emptiness, from knowing that you failed and I won?”

Chuck then disappears, his laughter echoing in the wind.

Sam stares at the ground as Dean punches the steel pillar sticking up from the ground.

“Dammit!” Dean yells, storming off to his car. The drive back to the bunker is a long, quiet one, and once they arrive back, Dean shuts himself in his room for the rest of the night. He doesn't look to see if Sam is okay. To see if his brother even came down the stairs.

Sinking further into the bed, Dean holds his phone to his ear as he replays Cas’ voice mails with muffled sobs and tears.

“You promised, Cas.” He whispers into the darkness. “You promised that you would n-never leave me. Why would you think that you…. You could never have me? Why did you wait for so long to tell me? Cause of course…. Of course I loved you. I still do, with every fiber of my being. I have l-loved you for so long… but I’ve never been good at this romance thing. I keep… I keep waking up and hoping that this is all a bad nightmare. I keep hoping for a miracle. You are…. You were always so good at those.” Dean drags a hand down his face, wiping away the tears as more fall. “Please Cas, just one more miracle? One more miracle for us?” He asks into the darkness of his room. However it’s only the silence that answers back. Defeated with no answers, Dean closes his eyes, crying himself to sleep once more.

Sam comes home with Jack the next day, finding Michael in the bunker.

“Where is Castiel?” is the first thing Michael asks Dean once he comes into the room.

Dean says nothing, staring at the floor.

“I am sorry. He was a good soldier.” Michael says solemnly, his face showing the briefest glimpse of sadness.

Dean shakes his head. “No. No, he was more than that.” He says quietly.

After Michael and Lucifer had finished duking it out and Chuck had killed Michael, Sam and Dean had fought Chuck with everything they got. At the end they only ended up bloodied on the ground, until Jack absorbs Chuck’s powers and heals them.

Sam and Dean walk over to Chuck, with Sam explaining their whole plan to him.

“This is a fitting end to my story.” Chuck says after finishing looking through his “empty” book. “To be killed at the hands of Sam Winchester, of Dean Winchester. The ultimate killers.”

Dean frowns, thinking back on what Cas said. “That’s where you’re wrong. That is not who we are.”

Chuck looks up at them. “Wait, what? What kind of ending is this?” He asks, panic slipping through his normal cool facade.

Dean looks at him “The kind we wrote. The kind of ending where you are just like us, you grow old and eventually die, forgotten and unloved by your creations.”

Sam, Dean, and Jack all climb into the Impala, leaving Chuck lying on the ground, ignoring his pleas.

“Are you coming back to the bunker?” Sam asks Jack as Dean laughs.

“Of course he’s coming with us!” Dean says, but Jack looks at Dean and shakes his head.

“I’m not coming back to the bunker Dean. In a way… I am already there.” Jack lifts his hand. “Goodbye.” He says with a soft smile before walking off, fading as he leaves.

By the time they arrive back at the bunker, it’s late at night and the hunters go back to their respective rooms.

Dean reaches his room, climbing into bed and listening to Cas’ messages again. He falls asleep to Cas’ voice, “...See you soon Dean” being the last thing Dean hears as he drifts off into unconsciousness.

When he wakes up in the morning, he presses the phone to his ear, waiting for the messages to start when all of the sudden his phone says, “One new message.”

Dean freezes, hearing a voice he never thought he’d hear again.

“Hello Dean. I am coming home. See you soon”

[ao3feed-destiel-02]

to find what we were chasing after (I believe I found it here in your love)

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/EgnLcAU by AthenasHuntress He loved, and loved, and loved. He loved until his fingers were stained red and purple and splotchy green with it, loved until his heart only beat in tandem with another. or A few times Castiel felt love and all that entails. Words: 1287, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Categories: Gen, M/M Characters: Castiel (Supernatural), Dean Winchester, It’s just them really Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester Additional Tags: Drabble, POV Castiel (Supernatural), on love and life, truly just a lil thing about Cas and his love for Dean and humanity, Canon Compliant, Light Angst, i think, i don’t actually know maybe it’s angstier than I think, Castiel Loves Dean Winchester, Castiel Loves Humanity (Supernatural), he loves humanity cuz he loves dean, god it’s so tragic, kind of a “through the years” sorta thing, Castiel and Dean Winchester in Love, implied - Freeform, The kind of earth shattering once in a lifetime love, Inspired by a Hozier Song, hozier album really, stream unreal unearth, Album: Unreal Unearth (Hozier), Song: Unknown / Nth (Hozier), title from a Tyler Childers song, the fact that that isn’t already a tag is a crime tbh, Song: In Your Love (Tyler Childers), im doing yall a favor making these tags, stream rustin’ in the rain out September 8th read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/EgnLcAU

[gayangelcrimes]

I love listening to music in portuguese and getting blasted by ideas I will never use and yall will never understand. Listen to Somos Quem Podemos Ser by Engenheiros do Hawaii and imagine early seasons Cas. "And everything became clear, a gap in the darkness; a star of rare light, a shot to a heart" <- Lazarus Rising barn scene "One day they told me who controls the situation. Unknowingly they gave me the keys that open this prison" <- the beautiful room "The one who occupies the throne is guilty, the one who hides the crime too; the one who doubts life is guilty, the one who avoids doubt has some too..." <- for the first time, I feel.... and his thing with free will and fighting Heaven in s5-6.... "Enjoying in a land of thirst a moment of drunkenness" <- when he's smiling with Dean in Free To Be You And Me,, "We are who we can be, we dream what we can dream" <- we're making it up as we go!!

[ambiguousdisorderken]

— and every minute without him i waited alone: for my death, for his ghost.

[t4tdeanwinchester]

Castiel - Make Me Feel

[samsrowena]

what kind of presents do you think dean is getting and from who

[im-a-medicinecat-martin]

sorry to go off about this again but it makes me feel like a traveller bringing news from distant lands, even the funky fun parts of the spn fandom are Exhausting and Soul-sucking bc of the constant use of gay slurs the shock value and irony of it makes it funny at first but seeing them constantly just peppered into the general fandom vocab is ,,,,

[thegeminisage]

sometimes y'all reblog things without ANY critical thot i have beef with two popular text posts i’m getting this off my chest here

the first text post is that dean in season 13 would like, reluctantly take care of a jack who was a baby because it's cas's child and like 

HELLOOOOO have you MET dean winchester? did we watch the same episodes? this is the same dean that wasted sam's kitsune girlfriend because she was dropping bodies! this is the same shoot first ask questions later dean who yelled at sam in season 11 for caring about saving possessed people instead of knifing them! come on!

he doesn't think of jack as cas's child, he thinks of jack as satan's child, a force of evil who BRAINWASHED cas into being willing to die for him, which cas did do

dean would hold jack under until he drowned and when that didn't work he'd try everything else under the sun and he would ONLY begin to care for jack once the horror of inflicting all that on an infant came to the surface and jack had like saved them again or something. jesus christ. 

dean hated that kid. he shot him ON SIGHT. the ONLY reason he didn't kill him was because he didn't know how. that's what makes the relationship they do eventually develop SO SPECIAL come on come on come on

my SECOND beef is with that text post that's like "sam doesn't ever fully understand dean and can never fully understand dean because one can never fully understand a parent" LMAOOOO have y'all NEVER been in a dysfunctional relationship

firstly, let’s not pretend this is anything but people erasing sam from dean’s life for th sake of destiel because people LOVE doing that. like the unspoken part of this is that sam can’t understand dean the way cas does, because sam is dean’s child and cas is in the far more important position of being his lover. not only is this amatonormativity at work (aren’t y’all supposed to be queer??) but it’s complete bullshit

if you have sibling close in age that you grew up with, i can PROMISE you whether you like it or not y'all understand each other better than any motherfuckers on earth. ESPECIALLY IF you're sam and dean winchester and can't form meaningful relationships with the outside world. for 24 years it was literally them against the world

sam has seen dean grow up and become the way he is and then grow up a little more and work to unbecome and grow past that damage. he was there for all of it. he was there for dean’s weird phases and his yes-sir to dad phase and his post-dad grief and his “dad was an ass” phase and his many grievings of cas and his hell ptsd and when he had to torture people and when amara was stalking him and when mary came back and left and when dean lost cas in s13 he was there for EVERYTHING. hello??? he was there even for some parts that cas wasnt! come on!

and as for the assertion that one can never understand your parents...i am so glad y'all have a good and healthy parental relationship bc sam and dean certainly do NOT. if u don't think dean knows WAY more about john and john's damage and his psyche than he wants to, i'm so sorry, get well soon i guess. that’s literally part of the parentification and abuse was that john put too much on dean he SAYS SO in 2.01 did we fucking watch the same series??

and dean emulates john's parenting, in canon, MULTIPLE times. if you think he isn't doing the same overshare stuff to sam (bc of both that emulation and the fact that "officially" sam isn't his kid), ur wrong?? dean who wears his heart on his sleeve and insists he’s fine but acts out and carries it and carries it until it breaks him? you don’t think sam understands dean? you don’t think sam, who is about 1000x more emotionally intelligent, put together just how bad john REALLY WAS when they were kids, once he was old enough and far away enough from the situation? sam understands that shit better than dean does. he understands dean better than anyone on earth, and the only person who understands dean the same amount is cas, and that's LITERALLY only because he touched his soul. HELLO?? 

[spn masterpost]

[retroreplays]

having been a 1d stan in the early 2010s i have become so calloused to people shitting on my fandoms so yall can stay pressed about spn im gonna go on with my life and enjoy that wonderful but dumb shitshow

[firyfox]

“You know, the Empty said that it wouldn't come for me until I had finally given myself permission to be happy, but with everything we have going on, with -- with Michael still out there, I don't see that happening anytime soon.”

Basically Cas’s True Happiness would be gained from insuring that the world is safe from supernatural threats and its problems are solved , as well as Cas’s mistakes being fixed . Cas would probably also have to learn to love himself and move past his feelings of guilt - Deans ~confession~ wouldn’t do shit because that’s not what’s keeping Cas from happiness - and even if Cas’s happiness was completely tied to a relationship , out of anyone it would be Jack , his son . But again , Cas’s character and closure isn’t tied to just a single character - he has more depth than that .

[mypeopleskillsareasrustyasafork]

So I know spn should have finished aaaages ago but im still sad cause it’s just been the show that’s always there? Like that one show that you know wouldn’t die and you could always expect more content from and everything even though all the other shows and fandoms would die eventually,, anyway I really hope this fandom keeps going bc I don’t really think I’m ready for that to end even though the show is